WEBVTT 00:00:01.440 --> 00:00:08.320 Hello everyone and happy Sunday Y 'all I'm tired 00:00:08.320 --> 00:00:12.300 And I don't think I'm the only one I am tired 00:00:12.300 --> 00:00:16.420 so instead of planning an elaborate episode I 00:00:16.420 --> 00:00:19.760 decided this week we would do just bringing it 00:00:19.760 --> 00:00:24.160 back a moment with me which is for those of you 00:00:24.160 --> 00:00:26.339 who don't know a moment with me are typically 00:00:26.339 --> 00:00:29.519 the segments where it's more so my train of thought 00:00:29.519 --> 00:00:32.140 than anything else. There are episodes that we 00:00:32.140 --> 00:00:35.259 have where I do deep dives and have scholarly 00:00:35.259 --> 00:00:39.960 um scholarly sources and guests and then there 00:00:39.960 --> 00:00:42.399 are more stripped down episodes like this one 00:00:42.399 --> 00:00:44.960 um that I like to call a moment with me because 00:00:44.960 --> 00:00:47.119 it really is just a moment with me and my thoughts 00:00:47.119 --> 00:00:52.340 um and my thoughts this week uh these past two 00:00:52.340 --> 00:00:55.679 weeks is that I'm tired um I'm hitting burnout 00:00:55.679 --> 00:01:01.710 um which we talked about But the world is just 00:01:01.710 --> 00:01:04.849 a really, really rough place right now. I mean, 00:01:04.950 --> 00:01:09.569 it usually is. That's... Unfortunately, I feel 00:01:09.569 --> 00:01:12.629 like that is a circumstance of human race is 00:01:12.629 --> 00:01:17.769 suffering. However, there's just a lot going 00:01:17.769 --> 00:01:20.870 on in our immediate sphere, in most people's 00:01:20.870 --> 00:01:24.829 immediate sphere right now. That's just really 00:01:24.829 --> 00:01:30.159 heavy and... very, for a lot of people in my 00:01:30.159 --> 00:01:32.480 age group, we're coming into like our Saturn 00:01:32.480 --> 00:01:35.859 return, which means like the 27th, 28th year. 00:01:37.799 --> 00:01:40.280 And it's when a lot of things, a lot of life 00:01:40.280 --> 00:01:42.819 goals, a lot of destinies are solidified, a lot 00:01:42.819 --> 00:01:46.079 of life paths are truly locked in, which I don't 00:01:46.079 --> 00:01:48.180 think is really ever really locked in. I think 00:01:48.180 --> 00:01:50.959 the life path can shift and circle back around 00:01:50.959 --> 00:01:53.040 at any moment in time based on the decisions 00:01:53.040 --> 00:01:57.599 we make. However, Yeah, this is a really poignant 00:01:57.599 --> 00:02:00.480 time for a lot of people reaching their late 00:02:00.480 --> 00:02:05.180 20s, early 30s. And I think, obviously, all things 00:02:05.180 --> 00:02:09.479 are cyclical. Everything repeats itself in patterns 00:02:09.479 --> 00:02:14.439 in many ways, in art, in science, in life. So 00:02:14.439 --> 00:02:16.520 I think that, you know, this does not just hold 00:02:16.520 --> 00:02:18.740 true to people in their late 20s, early 30s. 00:02:18.740 --> 00:02:20.259 If you feel like this resonates with you and 00:02:20.259 --> 00:02:22.379 you're not in that age group, then that's okay. 00:02:22.400 --> 00:02:26.840 You can take it and own it. But yeah, specifically 00:02:26.840 --> 00:02:29.159 for how I am experiencing this world. I am a 00:02:29.159 --> 00:02:32.620 person in my late 20s Coming into my 30s coming 00:02:32.620 --> 00:02:35.939 into my own Realizing so many things about life 00:02:35.939 --> 00:02:38.719 that I was told as a child Actually seeing them 00:02:38.719 --> 00:02:42.639 being born before my eyes. It's very much It 00:02:42.639 --> 00:02:46.280 puts one into a state of existential. What the 00:02:46.280 --> 00:02:50.719 fuck, you know Like what's going on? It feels 00:02:50.719 --> 00:02:53.500 like you're being shaken up in a bottle Truly. 00:02:54.120 --> 00:02:56.319 So for anyone who is going through that, I am 00:02:56.319 --> 00:03:00.180 holding space for you. And specifically, I really 00:03:00.180 --> 00:03:03.199 want to take a moment and hold space for everyone 00:03:03.199 --> 00:03:05.479 and anyone under the thumb of oppression, but 00:03:05.479 --> 00:03:09.219 specifically those who are being violently, actively 00:03:09.219 --> 00:03:13.960 oppressed right now. Our Sibs in Palatstein, 00:03:14.840 --> 00:03:18.629 the folks in the camps in El Salvador. I don't 00:03:18.629 --> 00:03:21.069 care, if this isn't for you, you're welcome to 00:03:21.069 --> 00:03:25.270 find a new podcast to listen to, but those are 00:03:25.270 --> 00:03:28.990 just two of the very few that I'm gonna speak 00:03:28.990 --> 00:03:32.669 on just today, but you know, holding space for 00:03:32.669 --> 00:03:36.210 any and everyone right now, being oppressed especially 00:03:36.210 --> 00:03:40.650 under the American regime. So let's take a moment. 00:03:57.680 --> 00:03:59.419 i don't think that was long enough so if you 00:03:59.419 --> 00:04:01.460 want to pause and just take an even longer moment 00:04:01.460 --> 00:04:05.740 and pray or just voice things because even your 00:04:05.740 --> 00:04:08.539 thoughts they don't have to be prayers but if 00:04:08.539 --> 00:04:10.460 you just want to send some positive thoughts 00:04:10.460 --> 00:04:13.659 and manifest some good things for anyone and 00:04:13.659 --> 00:04:16.279 everyone who's being harmed right now then you're 00:04:16.279 --> 00:04:18.279 welcome to do that but i just wanted to do that 00:04:18.279 --> 00:04:21.399 myself and i encourage any and everyone to do 00:04:21.399 --> 00:04:23.500 that every morning reflect a little bit before 00:04:23.500 --> 00:04:26.220 you start scrolling take a second hold space 00:04:26.220 --> 00:04:29.470 thank thank yourself, thank the world, whatever, 00:04:29.790 --> 00:04:32.149 thank your lungs for waking you up today, you 00:04:32.149 --> 00:04:34.750 know, whatever you gotta do. But showing gratitude 00:04:34.750 --> 00:04:37.029 really puts things into perspective. This life 00:04:37.029 --> 00:04:42.230 is not... it's not to be taken for granted. Being 00:04:42.230 --> 00:04:45.889 a human being is a gift. It's a gift and a curse. 00:04:47.029 --> 00:04:49.689 But if we choose to live a life of gratitude, 00:04:49.790 --> 00:04:52.629 then it tends to reveal itself in more beautiful 00:04:52.629 --> 00:05:01.060 ways than ugly ways. So yes. A way I like to 00:05:01.060 --> 00:05:04.879 think about how to avoid that feeling of, oh, 00:05:04.879 --> 00:05:08.660 I am a lump. I am falling victim to the capitalist 00:05:08.660 --> 00:05:12.019 machine. I'm not doing enough for the world. 00:05:12.779 --> 00:05:17.300 A way to stop yourself from... Sorry, I'm getting 00:05:17.300 --> 00:05:19.600 used to this mic. Making sure it's not flying 00:05:19.600 --> 00:05:21.360 all over the place. But a way to get used to 00:05:21.360 --> 00:05:25.680 that. I saw someone... or I've heard through 00:05:25.680 --> 00:05:28.199 the grapevine and I don't even really know who 00:05:28.199 --> 00:05:30.600 to give credit to because at this point everything 00:05:30.600 --> 00:05:33.339 is shared and passed through hands so I don't 00:05:33.339 --> 00:05:36.220 have a really source but this is just a helpful 00:05:36.220 --> 00:05:39.180 tip for anyone and everyone if the source does 00:05:39.180 --> 00:05:41.480 come to mind I will post and I think I've mentioned 00:05:41.480 --> 00:05:44.639 this source before but neurodivergence burnout 00:05:44.639 --> 00:05:47.360 I'm too tired it's not the most important thing 00:05:47.360 --> 00:05:51.399 what is important is that this source said that 00:05:51.399 --> 00:05:54.230 a way to avoid Feeling like you're not doing 00:05:54.230 --> 00:05:58.810 enough is do something for you Do something for 00:05:58.810 --> 00:06:03.629 your sphere, you know, that could be The houseless 00:06:03.629 --> 00:06:05.410 community in your neighborhood that could be 00:06:05.410 --> 00:06:07.750 your neighbor who just had a baby that could 00:06:07.750 --> 00:06:12.529 be Your friend who just got over food poisoning 00:06:12.529 --> 00:06:15.449 like whatever it is think about some mutual aid 00:06:15.449 --> 00:06:18.350 things that you can do For those closest to you 00:06:18.350 --> 00:06:20.149 or those that you lock eyes with on a day -to 00:06:20.149 --> 00:06:25.540 -day basis or weekly basis and then do something 00:06:25.540 --> 00:06:28.399 for the larger whole like think of a day once 00:06:28.399 --> 00:06:30.800 a month where you and maybe some buddies or even 00:06:30.800 --> 00:06:34.199 just you can go plant some trees or maybe volunteer 00:06:34.199 --> 00:06:37.519 go pick up trash around your neighborhood um 00:06:37.519 --> 00:06:40.480 go pick up trash at the river or the local you 00:06:40.480 --> 00:06:42.759 know whatever body of water you live near if 00:06:42.759 --> 00:06:48.000 you do um volunteer to like deliver meals to 00:06:48.000 --> 00:06:51.040 people that you know live in low income situations 00:06:51.040 --> 00:06:53.300 and can't afford meals like if you know your 00:06:53.300 --> 00:06:55.740 community has trouble feeding itself volunteer 00:06:55.740 --> 00:06:59.759 to find resources and feed the community yourself 00:06:59.759 --> 00:07:02.939 um things like that keep us feeling like okay 00:07:02.939 --> 00:07:06.019 you know change actually does start with one 00:07:06.019 --> 00:07:09.519 decision It really does. And I promise you, once 00:07:09.519 --> 00:07:11.259 you start to do those little things, it makes 00:07:11.259 --> 00:07:13.240 you want to do bigger things. And then once you 00:07:13.240 --> 00:07:15.480 start to do the bigger things, the people that 00:07:15.480 --> 00:07:17.980 are doing the little things find you, and they 00:07:17.980 --> 00:07:20.699 start to do bigger things with you, and thus 00:07:20.699 --> 00:07:23.699 the river flows towards abundance for everyone. 00:07:27.160 --> 00:07:31.279 It's just the main thing that's been sitting 00:07:31.279 --> 00:07:35.339 in my spirit deeply is it's just harder to participate 00:07:35.339 --> 00:07:39.279 in the in the American machine these days it's 00:07:39.279 --> 00:07:41.639 harder to pretend like I want to go to work because 00:07:41.639 --> 00:07:44.160 I don't I would rather be living in a nice mansion 00:07:44.160 --> 00:07:48.379 and you know kicked back relaxing like and maybe 00:07:48.379 --> 00:07:52.180 a house that I built um you know I got my animals 00:07:52.180 --> 00:07:56.399 I'm making my my life on the land like you know 00:07:56.399 --> 00:08:01.259 the dream like we all deserve that there's enough 00:08:01.259 --> 00:08:05.430 for everyone we can share but people don't want 00:08:05.430 --> 00:08:11.230 to share. And that makes me sad. I've always, 00:08:11.350 --> 00:08:14.089 since I can remember, had this like insatiable 00:08:14.089 --> 00:08:20.569 need for justice. And for me justice means when 00:08:20.569 --> 00:08:23.810 the little one is wronged and everyone turns 00:08:23.810 --> 00:08:30.230 away, that makes me so angry. You know? When 00:08:30.230 --> 00:08:34.580 there's let's say the one person in the room 00:08:34.580 --> 00:08:36.899 that has the one different thought and then everybody 00:08:36.899 --> 00:08:38.980 else has the same thought and then it's like 00:08:38.980 --> 00:08:40.899 just because you have the different thought, 00:08:41.100 --> 00:08:45.580 you're wrong. Not actually analyzing the content 00:08:45.580 --> 00:08:48.840 of said thought, but merely pointing fingers 00:08:48.840 --> 00:08:51.120 and assumption because there is a lack of majority 00:08:51.120 --> 00:08:54.600 or there is a communal bias. Things like that. 00:08:55.299 --> 00:08:58.799 The status quo has never sat right with me. I'm 00:08:58.799 --> 00:09:03.379 an Aquarius, can you tell? I'm a neuro spicy 00:09:03.379 --> 00:09:06.480 on the HD newly found out which it just makes 00:09:06.480 --> 00:09:11.440 so much more sense now that I know but like that 00:09:11.440 --> 00:09:13.980 kind of Aquarius yeah justice is really important 00:09:13.980 --> 00:09:16.820 to me like I might not be able to stand up for 00:09:16.820 --> 00:09:19.960 myself all the time but as somebody else oh don't 00:09:19.960 --> 00:09:22.480 play don't you dare try to harm another in front 00:09:22.480 --> 00:09:26.919 of me So yeah, that's part of the reason why 00:09:26.919 --> 00:09:29.879 I flocked so closely to art, because not only 00:09:29.879 --> 00:09:32.960 did it give me a way to figure out how to feel 00:09:32.960 --> 00:09:38.279 my emotions, it also gave me a way to find, it 00:09:38.279 --> 00:09:41.779 helped me find a space where being so raw and 00:09:41.779 --> 00:09:47.600 human was okay. because for so long the way that 00:09:47.600 --> 00:09:50.559 I was was deemed wrong the way that I was just 00:09:50.559 --> 00:09:56.159 so raw and angry and sad and happy and like you 00:09:56.159 --> 00:09:58.960 know I take everything in so deeply like and 00:09:58.960 --> 00:10:01.460 that was so wrong for such a long time that art 00:10:01.460 --> 00:10:04.100 taught me that that's actually okay and that's 00:10:04.100 --> 00:10:06.440 actually what makes you better at being a person 00:10:06.440 --> 00:10:09.860 when it's when it's honed in correctly when it's, 00:10:09.860 --> 00:10:12.279 when it's used for good, when you've healed, 00:10:12.440 --> 00:10:15.259 when you aren't bleeding on others unintentionally, 00:10:15.299 --> 00:10:21.539 like art gave me the tools to be in control of 00:10:21.539 --> 00:10:25.519 how this world causes me to react. Because if 00:10:25.519 --> 00:10:27.600 you're not in control of how you react, because 00:10:27.600 --> 00:10:29.379 there's always going to be things happening around 00:10:29.379 --> 00:10:31.019 you, but if you're not in control of how you 00:10:31.019 --> 00:10:34.960 respond or how you harness how your body is responding, 00:10:35.440 --> 00:10:38.470 because think of an emotion as an energy. if 00:10:38.470 --> 00:10:41.350 you feel an impulse of energy and it comes out 00:10:41.350 --> 00:10:43.610 like a fire burst like let's think Dragon Ball 00:10:43.610 --> 00:10:46.830 Z y 'all yeah that's right let's think Dragon 00:10:46.830 --> 00:10:51.509 Ball Z Kamehameha if being sad felt like Kamehameha 00:10:51.509 --> 00:10:54.129 building up inside your chest inside your core 00:10:54.129 --> 00:10:58.350 if you shot it out and it went everywhere like 00:10:58.350 --> 00:11:02.509 a like a shotgun spray let's say that looks very 00:11:02.509 --> 00:11:04.850 different from you being able to direct that 00:11:04.850 --> 00:11:08.409 right at a certain point in space. You know what 00:11:08.409 --> 00:11:12.549 I mean? So specificity with the emotions is important. 00:11:13.289 --> 00:11:15.289 That was, that's just the metaphor I liked. I 00:11:15.289 --> 00:11:17.370 don't know, made sense. We like Dragon Ball Z. 00:11:19.029 --> 00:11:20.610 But yeah, that's part of the reason why I became 00:11:20.610 --> 00:11:25.330 an artist, because it gave me an avenue to look 00:11:25.330 --> 00:11:29.029 at the human race, be a part of the human race. 00:11:30.190 --> 00:11:32.970 Be open and vulnerable as a part of the human 00:11:32.970 --> 00:11:35.710 race not closed off not scared not angry and 00:11:35.710 --> 00:11:39.289 fearful be open to exploring and reacting and 00:11:39.289 --> 00:11:44.110 listening to another and You know also creating 00:11:44.110 --> 00:11:47.710 worlds that I want to see not living always in 00:11:47.710 --> 00:11:51.809 this shitty reality Because reality is ass. Okay, 00:11:51.929 --> 00:11:55.230 sometimes reality really is is not great And 00:11:55.230 --> 00:11:58.759 that's okay, especially when There are certain 00:11:58.759 --> 00:12:02.639 things at play that aren't aren't in the spirit 00:12:02.639 --> 00:12:05.840 of the greater good of kindness and compassion 00:12:05.840 --> 00:12:10.460 And basic human rights like food water shelter 00:12:10.460 --> 00:12:14.259 When things aren't that way it's kind of hard 00:12:14.259 --> 00:12:18.399 to want to be open but You know, I refuse to 00:12:18.399 --> 00:12:21.059 let the ugly ugliness pardon me of the world 00:12:21.059 --> 00:12:24.519 or the ugliness of any person place thing time 00:12:25.639 --> 00:12:28.899 block me from feeling everything deeply because, 00:12:29.639 --> 00:12:32.580 let's say this again, I refuse to let the ugliness 00:12:32.580 --> 00:12:35.600 of the world, of people, of places, of things 00:12:35.600 --> 00:12:40.419 to rob me from my vulnerability because it's 00:12:40.419 --> 00:12:46.080 a superpower. With vulnerability comes intuition. 00:12:46.820 --> 00:12:50.299 With intuition comes foresight, clairvoyance. 00:12:50.600 --> 00:12:52.779 With clairvoyance comes the literal ability to 00:12:52.779 --> 00:12:54.500 be like, hey, I don't think you should go there. 00:12:54.679 --> 00:12:58.259 and then oh what do you see on the news oh something 00:12:58.259 --> 00:12:59.860 happened at that place that you might have gone 00:12:59.860 --> 00:13:01.639 but your friend was like i don't know if you 00:13:01.639 --> 00:13:05.200 should go i know that's like crazy this is why 00:13:05.200 --> 00:13:06.679 this is called a moment with me y 'all because 00:13:06.679 --> 00:13:09.340 it's literally i have notes but i leave room 00:13:09.340 --> 00:13:11.679 for myself to ramble because i'm a human being 00:13:11.679 --> 00:13:17.960 and this is my this is my space too so yeah but 00:13:17.960 --> 00:13:24.159 imagine that like I lost my train of thought, 00:13:24.320 --> 00:13:26.759 but that's part of the point. Back to what I 00:13:26.759 --> 00:13:30.940 was trying to say was that the ability to look 00:13:30.940 --> 00:13:33.519 at a person and know what they're feeling because 00:13:33.519 --> 00:13:36.460 you're so aware, because you're so hyper -vigilant, 00:13:36.639 --> 00:13:40.159 because you're so in tune with that internal 00:13:40.159 --> 00:13:42.720 vibration that all of us humans have, our aura, 00:13:42.960 --> 00:13:47.139 our vibe, if you will, that ability to look at 00:13:47.139 --> 00:13:50.039 that, engage that, is a power. And the fact that 00:13:50.039 --> 00:13:52.059 people clown it really doesn't make much sense 00:13:52.059 --> 00:13:58.500 to me. Like, come on, bro. Are you jealous? Because 00:13:58.500 --> 00:14:01.399 it's like, anyone can do that. If we all just, 00:14:01.700 --> 00:14:04.799 if we all just hone in and listen to our inner 00:14:04.799 --> 00:14:07.779 voice, if we stop listening to what society tells 00:14:07.779 --> 00:14:10.340 us to listen to, if we listen to that inner child, 00:14:10.740 --> 00:14:14.120 if we listen to our inner cringe, yeah, that, 00:14:14.899 --> 00:14:17.200 that thing, that cringe, that's your personality. 00:14:17.600 --> 00:14:21.679 mm -hmm that's right it's you and it's beautiful 00:14:21.679 --> 00:14:27.600 and being weird is good if you're normal like 00:14:27.600 --> 00:14:30.919 when you were a child who did you like at the 00:14:30.919 --> 00:14:33.879 school which teacher was your favorite the buttoned 00:14:33.879 --> 00:14:37.600 -up boring like monotone no disrespect y 'all 00:14:37.600 --> 00:14:39.820 no disrespect monotone teachers I'm so sorry 00:14:39.820 --> 00:14:42.100 in advance but I'm just trying to make a point 00:14:42.100 --> 00:14:49.159 here did you tend to favor the people that were 00:14:49.159 --> 00:14:53.460 bright and colorful and wonderful like Miss Frizzle 00:14:53.460 --> 00:14:58.500 or like my friend Chloe. Did you favor those 00:14:58.500 --> 00:15:02.500 people or did you favor the quiet? No, don't. 00:15:02.559 --> 00:15:05.519 You can't do that. Don't laugh. You wanted to 00:15:05.519 --> 00:15:08.440 be free, right? Because that's how everybody 00:15:08.440 --> 00:15:11.220 should be. And any adult who made an impact on 00:15:11.220 --> 00:15:14.460 you, I promise if you look back, probably at 00:15:14.460 --> 00:15:16.740 some point in their life they chose to say F 00:15:16.740 --> 00:15:19.720 the status quo I'm gonna be myself unabashedly 00:15:19.720 --> 00:15:21.559 and that's what drew you to them is like they 00:15:21.559 --> 00:15:23.559 are themselves they're not they're not putting 00:15:23.559 --> 00:15:25.740 on this monkey suit like every other adult I 00:15:25.740 --> 00:15:28.860 see they are wholeheartedly themselves even as 00:15:28.860 --> 00:15:31.620 an adult true to their child's self in adult 00:15:31.620 --> 00:15:33.820 form which is really hard to do and I'm learning 00:15:33.820 --> 00:15:36.720 to do how to be an adult who is still true to 00:15:36.720 --> 00:15:41.129 their inner child a conundrum But nonetheless, 00:15:41.190 --> 00:15:43.309 I feel like we are all naturally drawn to those 00:15:43.309 --> 00:15:48.070 who are free. And why not just be that? You know, 00:15:48.149 --> 00:15:50.409 like why not just make the decision every day 00:15:50.409 --> 00:15:55.029 to be a little bit more free? You know, if it 00:15:55.029 --> 00:15:57.809 feels wrong, don't do it. Don't do it just because 00:15:57.809 --> 00:15:59.929 somebody told you to do it. If it feels like 00:15:59.929 --> 00:16:02.889 a little icky, it probably is. Listen to your 00:16:02.889 --> 00:16:07.289 gut. Yeah, and I promise you, you're not the 00:16:07.289 --> 00:16:10.000 first. No matter what you're going through, no 00:16:10.000 --> 00:16:12.379 matter what you think you're doing alone, you're 00:16:12.379 --> 00:16:14.419 not the first and you're not the only one going 00:16:14.419 --> 00:16:18.000 through it right now. So the only way you can 00:16:18.000 --> 00:16:21.240 really get through that is to know, again, you're 00:16:21.240 --> 00:16:25.059 not alone, to pick yourself up. How can you support 00:16:25.059 --> 00:16:28.759 your village and yourself in such a way that 00:16:28.759 --> 00:16:31.179 it fills your cup as you're filling the cup of 00:16:31.179 --> 00:16:36.299 others? How can you support your village in such 00:16:36.299 --> 00:16:38.940 a way that it fills your cup while you fill the 00:16:38.940 --> 00:16:43.840 cup of others? Things like, I don't know, because 00:16:43.840 --> 00:16:46.240 I feel like these days you can't really support 00:16:46.240 --> 00:16:48.879 folks without using money, like words aren't 00:16:48.879 --> 00:16:54.440 enough these days, but I'm, I'm a big on, there 00:16:54.440 --> 00:16:55.840 are so many ways that you can support someone 00:16:55.840 --> 00:16:59.500 for free. like a like, a share, a sharing the 00:16:59.500 --> 00:17:01.700 link, texting those distant relatives you haven't 00:17:01.700 --> 00:17:03.700 texted in a few months, get some second -hand 00:17:03.700 --> 00:17:06.079 embarrassment for your buddy, and text them that 00:17:06.079 --> 00:17:09.579 link and say, hey please support my friend. Because, 00:17:09.900 --> 00:17:12.960 hmm, what are you embarrassed for? Didn't they 00:17:12.960 --> 00:17:15.619 send you that Teemu link like 20 times? Right. 00:17:16.440 --> 00:17:23.440 So, so go ahead, send them the link. You know, 00:17:23.440 --> 00:17:26.329 like I know that sounds so petty. But it's, it's 00:17:26.329 --> 00:17:28.430 literally, it's so much bigger than that. It's 00:17:28.430 --> 00:17:30.750 supporting the people right next to you. Why 00:17:30.750 --> 00:17:33.049 do we support legends that we don't know when 00:17:33.049 --> 00:17:38.250 we have legends right next to us? Hmm? I'm gonna 00:17:38.250 --> 00:17:40.809 ask that one more time. Why are we supporting 00:17:40.809 --> 00:17:42.990 legends we don't know? Why are we buying the 00:17:42.990 --> 00:17:47.569 newest EP from XYZ, so and so, young, young whomever, 00:17:47.869 --> 00:17:50.589 when your buddy has been working on that EP for, 00:17:50.650 --> 00:17:52.930 I don't know, 10 years now, and no, they might 00:17:52.930 --> 00:17:55.410 not have many - followers but you better share 00:17:55.410 --> 00:17:57.930 their link because they've been working a long 00:17:57.930 --> 00:18:00.569 time and oh if you ever meet somebody who's also 00:18:00.569 --> 00:18:02.730 an artist you better give them their link to 00:18:02.730 --> 00:18:06.250 their instagram i don't always talk about people 00:18:06.250 --> 00:18:09.910 that i plug but i try my very very best i'm not 00:18:09.910 --> 00:18:12.269 perfect at it but i'm just saying i'm not asking 00:18:12.269 --> 00:18:15.470 y 'all to do anything that i haven't done i try 00:18:15.470 --> 00:18:17.670 not i don't like being a hypocrite at all at 00:18:17.670 --> 00:18:20.329 all at all i have a virgo moon don't catch me 00:18:20.329 --> 00:18:24.440 slipping I'd rather die than be called a hypocrite. 00:18:27.099 --> 00:18:29.839 But no, like, the amount of times where I've, 00:18:29.839 --> 00:18:32.240 like, shamelessly plugged my friends to other 00:18:32.240 --> 00:18:34.480 friends that are doing similar things, don't 00:18:34.480 --> 00:18:36.720 play with me. Because you need to be friends 00:18:36.720 --> 00:18:38.660 with them. Y 'all are both wonderful. Let's be 00:18:38.660 --> 00:18:41.079 wonderful together and elevate one another. Like, 00:18:41.180 --> 00:18:44.980 why don't we... It baffles me why that's not 00:18:44.980 --> 00:18:48.579 just the common thing to do. Like... Mm -hmm. 00:18:48.759 --> 00:18:51.220 I just if that's you if you do that, please send 00:18:51.220 --> 00:18:54.680 me a DM because I'm trying to find my my my like 00:18:54.680 --> 00:18:57.359 community that that walks like it talks, you 00:18:57.359 --> 00:19:02.039 know because for me The way the reason why it's 00:19:02.039 --> 00:19:04.119 so hard for me to participate in the day -to 00:19:04.119 --> 00:19:06.000 -day is because I don't know what I'm gonna get 00:19:06.000 --> 00:19:10.299 I don't know if I'm gonna get like Like actual 00:19:10.299 --> 00:19:14.569 unbridled support like ride or die support because 00:19:14.569 --> 00:19:17.569 i'm willing to provide ride or die support but 00:19:17.569 --> 00:19:20.170 i don't really often like find people who are 00:19:20.170 --> 00:19:22.410 willing to do that and that's okay everybody 00:19:22.410 --> 00:19:24.549 is willing to give what they can but i'm just 00:19:24.549 --> 00:19:27.269 willing to give my all like i'm sorry that's 00:19:27.269 --> 00:19:32.930 intense like it's giving i will like i will fall 00:19:32.930 --> 00:19:37.450 on my sword for the ones i love like I'm so serious 00:19:37.450 --> 00:19:40.750 and I think a lot of specifically like brown 00:19:40.750 --> 00:19:43.470 and black but I think a lot of ADHD women can 00:19:43.470 --> 00:19:46.190 identify with wanting like willing to go to war 00:19:46.190 --> 00:19:49.809 for the people they love like it's that serious 00:19:49.809 --> 00:19:54.349 it's serious very much um might not go to war 00:19:54.349 --> 00:19:58.750 for myself but for you honey anything truly wait 00:19:58.750 --> 00:20:04.309 let's move on oh okay so I wanted to talk about 00:20:04.480 --> 00:20:06.480 a little bit more about being of service like 00:20:06.480 --> 00:20:09.900 we talked about um you know one thing for yourself 00:20:09.900 --> 00:20:11.920 one thing for your village and then one thing 00:20:11.920 --> 00:20:16.400 for the greater whole um don't forget to find 00:20:16.400 --> 00:20:21.640 space you know under under the table of supporting 00:20:21.640 --> 00:20:24.359 your friends and shamelessly plugging them don't 00:20:24.359 --> 00:20:28.759 forget in your depressive episodes in your busy 00:20:28.759 --> 00:20:32.539 streaks don't forget don't forget about your 00:20:32.539 --> 00:20:36.130 people y 'all Don't forget about your people 00:20:36.130 --> 00:20:39.130 because at the end of the day Your people might 00:20:39.130 --> 00:20:41.950 not be there if you don't show them the love 00:20:41.950 --> 00:20:45.769 while they're there Life gets busy for everybody 00:20:45.769 --> 00:20:52.789 It's busy for everybody But Whether it's me whether 00:20:52.789 --> 00:20:55.990 it's somebody else whether it's someone you know, 00:20:56.130 --> 00:21:00.029 like I know that I see relationships in my life 00:21:00.029 --> 00:21:04.279 transforming based on What what is? you know 00:21:04.279 --> 00:21:06.720 what's exchanged and it's not about the relationships 00:21:06.720 --> 00:21:10.220 being transactional it's about is this exchange 00:21:10.220 --> 00:21:15.400 really something that I align with at this point 00:21:15.400 --> 00:21:20.380 in time in my life and um you know it used to 00:21:20.380 --> 00:21:22.599 very much not be a question like everybody that 00:21:22.599 --> 00:21:24.819 I was interacting with aligned with me to some 00:21:24.819 --> 00:21:26.920 degree at least anybody that I was interacting 00:21:26.920 --> 00:21:29.660 with extensively and maybe that's an issue like 00:21:29.660 --> 00:21:32.599 maybe you know yeah you should be bumping elbows 00:21:32.599 --> 00:21:34.740 with people that don't agree with you and I do 00:21:34.740 --> 00:21:36.680 to some degree but it's also like I'm not trying 00:21:36.680 --> 00:21:41.160 to chill with um any bigots I don't really want 00:21:41.160 --> 00:21:43.400 to bump elbows with bigots for fun that's just 00:21:43.400 --> 00:21:46.700 not anything I'm interested in personally I'm 00:21:46.700 --> 00:21:49.000 okay with like getting to know people who think 00:21:49.000 --> 00:21:52.359 differently but when it comes to my safety and 00:21:52.359 --> 00:21:54.519 my identity and the safety and the identity of 00:21:54.519 --> 00:21:56.339 the people that I love I'm not really trying 00:21:56.339 --> 00:22:00.539 to play around with that and gamble that so it's 00:22:00.539 --> 00:22:06.759 like it's important to know for certain that 00:22:06.759 --> 00:22:08.839 you can trust the people you're near so why not 00:22:08.839 --> 00:22:11.019 just keep strong those relationships that you're 00:22:11.019 --> 00:22:14.599 certain on instead of fishing through oh my god 00:22:14.599 --> 00:22:17.940 the cesspool that is adulthood for quality friendships 00:22:17.940 --> 00:22:20.079 keep the ones you have and nurture them like 00:22:20.079 --> 00:22:22.519 plants like all those plants you have that are 00:22:22.519 --> 00:22:25.559 slowly crumbling on top of that mantle yeah give 00:22:25.559 --> 00:22:28.359 them a nice soak right now and call your friends 00:22:28.359 --> 00:22:32.259 or text your friends like it doesn't have to 00:22:32.259 --> 00:22:35.039 be a huge it can be a text it can be a meme but 00:22:35.039 --> 00:22:37.740 like make it a point to check on the people that 00:22:37.740 --> 00:22:40.299 you love like you do the appointments in your 00:22:40.299 --> 00:22:44.200 week like you do the clients that you have and 00:22:44.200 --> 00:22:46.819 becoming busy has taught me that the clients 00:22:46.819 --> 00:22:49.259 that i have the way i check on them i better 00:22:49.259 --> 00:22:52.210 be checking on my friends in the same way Even 00:22:52.210 --> 00:22:54.809 if I'm like in a depressive episode I better 00:22:54.809 --> 00:22:57.789 be reaching out Because it's like we're all going 00:22:57.789 --> 00:23:04.109 through it in this economy, honey But seriously 00:23:04.109 --> 00:23:07.410 we're all going through it so it's like If you 00:23:07.410 --> 00:23:09.269 want somebody to reach out you better reach out 00:23:09.269 --> 00:23:12.269 to you better find time because everything is 00:23:12.269 --> 00:23:16.250 energy Give it give it for a time when you're 00:23:16.250 --> 00:23:18.670 gonna need it, you know, and like don't do it 00:23:18.670 --> 00:23:21.609 with that in mind but know in the back of your 00:23:21.609 --> 00:23:23.430 mind that that's when you think to yourself, 00:23:23.470 --> 00:23:26.769 oh my god, my cup is so empty. It's like it'll 00:23:26.769 --> 00:23:30.369 come back to you. It will come back to you. Because 00:23:30.369 --> 00:23:34.630 as a mother who was isolated in Florida, like 00:23:34.630 --> 00:23:36.930 while her husband worked on the road, and I'm 00:23:36.930 --> 00:23:38.809 not talking about I wasn't like isolated, isolated, 00:23:38.869 --> 00:23:40.930 but I was isolated from things that I was familiar 00:23:40.930 --> 00:23:44.809 with. And yeah, I survived. I did brave things 00:23:44.809 --> 00:23:47.309 and I tried new things and I learned and that 00:23:47.309 --> 00:23:51.589 was lovely. But looking back, that was not a 00:23:51.589 --> 00:23:55.130 place that I would like to be again without you 00:23:55.130 --> 00:23:58.130 know an excessive trusted village and so it's 00:23:58.130 --> 00:24:01.789 like even in the thick of that I'm still making 00:24:01.789 --> 00:24:05.490 sure that the people that you know are home even 00:24:05.490 --> 00:24:08.150 though Florida wasn't my home because I think 00:24:08.150 --> 00:24:10.170 home is an idea I didn't really view Florida 00:24:10.170 --> 00:24:15.450 as my home but I think the people back home you 00:24:15.450 --> 00:24:19.170 know up north I made sure to do my best because 00:24:19.170 --> 00:24:21.430 that's all you can do in the thick of raising 00:24:21.430 --> 00:24:23.950 a child, in the thick of learning new land, in 00:24:23.950 --> 00:24:26.769 the thick of doing life. Check on your friends, 00:24:27.009 --> 00:24:30.470 no matter what. Don't wait. Like when that instant 00:24:30.470 --> 00:24:33.390 of inspiration hits, even if it's at one o 'clock 00:24:33.390 --> 00:24:38.609 in the morning, you guys. Yeah. Yeah. You folks. 00:24:38.849 --> 00:24:42.509 Sorry. But even if it's at one o 'clock in the 00:24:42.509 --> 00:24:46.700 morning, like, send the text. they'll wake up 00:24:46.700 --> 00:24:48.559 and see it and know that you were thinking about 00:24:48.559 --> 00:24:51.440 them because sometimes adult life works like 00:24:51.440 --> 00:24:54.059 that. Like the only peace, the only quiet you 00:24:54.059 --> 00:24:56.900 can get is when it's just not working hours, 00:24:56.960 --> 00:25:00.180 when it's not people hours, when it's after hours 00:25:00.180 --> 00:25:02.819 and the world is quiet and things are paused. 00:25:03.500 --> 00:25:05.400 And that's sad. I remember a time when we could 00:25:05.400 --> 00:25:07.099 do that during the day, but I feel like we can 00:25:07.099 --> 00:25:11.289 only do that at night now. is check in with our 00:25:11.289 --> 00:25:13.710 true selves and see if we're okay and when you're 00:25:13.710 --> 00:25:16.710 doing that if you feel like dang I need to check 00:25:16.710 --> 00:25:18.789 on my friends and you look at the clock and it's 00:25:18.789 --> 00:25:20.829 one o 'clock and you say oh I can't text them 00:25:20.829 --> 00:25:24.990 now just do it just do it because I can't tell 00:25:24.990 --> 00:25:27.170 you how many times I've said no I'll text them 00:25:27.170 --> 00:25:31.529 later and then I forgot and granted I'm more 00:25:31.529 --> 00:25:33.849 communicative than most but still like I hold 00:25:33.849 --> 00:25:37.009 myself to a high standard And I'm like, damn 00:25:37.009 --> 00:25:39.470 it, I forgot. Like, shit, they mean too much 00:25:39.470 --> 00:25:42.210 to me. And that's the key, is they mean too much 00:25:42.210 --> 00:25:44.650 to me for me to be forgetting anything. Nothing 00:25:44.650 --> 00:25:52.430 is that important. Nothing. So yeah. I think 00:25:52.430 --> 00:25:54.769 the more we do better, the better we will be 00:25:54.769 --> 00:25:56.990 all together. Like, it won't be so hard to do 00:25:56.990 --> 00:26:00.390 those things the more we do it. Moving on, I 00:26:00.390 --> 00:26:02.609 want to talk a little bit about art and life 00:26:02.609 --> 00:26:05.829 and how it imitates life. Hi, kitty. That's my 00:26:05.829 --> 00:26:10.269 baby, Jade, my sweet needy son. Hi, doo -doo. 00:26:10.769 --> 00:26:15.109 Mwah. That's a sweet baby. Okay. But, sorry. 00:26:17.009 --> 00:26:19.930 Okay, so I want to talk a little bit about Black 00:26:19.930 --> 00:26:24.119 Mirror. Spoiler alert. So if you don't want spoilers, 00:26:24.319 --> 00:26:27.160 please conk out now. It'll probably be about 00:26:27.160 --> 00:26:33.420 a five minute. Yeah. Okay. So if you don't want 00:26:33.420 --> 00:26:35.500 to hear about this, maybe fast forward about 00:26:35.500 --> 00:26:38.500 three minutes from here. All right. But I'm going 00:26:38.500 --> 00:26:40.579 to talk a little bit about Bandersnatch and the 00:26:40.579 --> 00:26:44.799 new season, the new season of Black Mirror in 00:26:44.799 --> 00:26:50.150 the episode Plaything. So if you've seen Black 00:26:50.150 --> 00:26:52.730 Mirror, you know that it's very much a dystopian 00:26:52.730 --> 00:26:57.869 show that examines the socioeconomic doings of 00:26:57.869 --> 00:27:00.609 America and society in general, really. It's 00:27:00.609 --> 00:27:02.269 not just American, but it's very much centered 00:27:02.269 --> 00:27:05.650 around a Western world. It's a world in which 00:27:05.650 --> 00:27:10.640 it's... future? but again this topian it examines 00:27:10.640 --> 00:27:13.079 all of the things that we fixate on as human 00:27:13.079 --> 00:27:15.559 beings in our society and the ways in which they 00:27:15.559 --> 00:27:18.380 may or may not be the end of us and quite honestly 00:27:18.380 --> 00:27:22.660 this show is too real too real so real it hurts 00:27:22.660 --> 00:27:26.339 sometimes and one of like this season has uh 00:27:26.339 --> 00:27:30.579 rachida jones chris o'dowd um old dude from big 00:27:30.579 --> 00:27:36.819 mama's house i'm so sorry Please forgive me, 00:27:36.980 --> 00:27:39.240 y 'all. Honey, I hope you forgive me. A name 00:27:39.240 --> 00:27:42.880 is really important. But for the sake of time, 00:27:43.359 --> 00:27:45.220 we're gonna fast forward through that. But nonetheless, 00:27:45.519 --> 00:27:47.779 Bandersnatch is one of the episodes of the prior 00:27:47.779 --> 00:27:52.960 season. That episode is... a choose your reality 00:27:52.960 --> 00:27:56.559 which was one of the first on Netflix and just 00:27:56.559 --> 00:27:58.480 in TV in general where you got to choose the 00:27:58.480 --> 00:28:00.420 next thing that happened in the show you were 00:28:00.420 --> 00:28:03.619 watching like very meta, very wow I'm a part 00:28:03.619 --> 00:28:07.220 of this, very oh am I creating his reality, very 00:28:07.220 --> 00:28:10.799 much a oh am I, is he aware of what I'm doing 00:28:10.799 --> 00:28:15.119 you know because is he? And so Plaything dives 00:28:15.119 --> 00:28:18.470 a little deeper. and we see Colin come back, 00:28:18.650 --> 00:28:20.970 the game creator, the one that ends up dying 00:28:20.970 --> 00:28:25.109 during his acid trip before he jumps off the 00:28:25.109 --> 00:28:27.549 roof in Bandersnatch. This gentleman, he comes 00:28:27.549 --> 00:28:29.730 back and they talk about how he's been going 00:28:29.730 --> 00:28:32.269 through a breakdown, fast forward. The end of 00:28:32.269 --> 00:28:35.690 this show is essentially, you know, I think I 00:28:35.690 --> 00:28:37.970 want to do an episode separate where I just talk 00:28:37.970 --> 00:28:41.480 about Black Mirror because it's one of my I think 00:28:41.480 --> 00:28:44.180 it's one of my fixations, but also it's just 00:28:44.180 --> 00:28:46.579 something it's really important to me when art 00:28:46.579 --> 00:28:48.720 does what art's meant to do, which is make the 00:28:48.720 --> 00:28:53.559 people think and talk and act. And so that show 00:28:53.559 --> 00:28:56.319 has a very special place in my heart and I have 00:28:56.319 --> 00:28:58.420 said many times that I will work with them one 00:28:58.420 --> 00:29:01.759 day as a writer, actor, director, probably all 00:29:01.759 --> 00:29:05.450 three. or I'll be collabing with them from my 00:29:05.450 --> 00:29:07.829 own show. We'll see, like how amazing. But I 00:29:07.829 --> 00:29:10.390 do very much, from the moment I laid eyes on 00:29:10.390 --> 00:29:12.390 Black Mirror, I was like, that project and I 00:29:12.390 --> 00:29:16.009 will know each other very well. So I look forward 00:29:16.009 --> 00:29:19.990 to your call, Black Mirror. But nonetheless, 00:29:20.430 --> 00:29:23.309 I appreciate the artistry of that show because 00:29:23.309 --> 00:29:26.809 what it does is pull you into the reality of 00:29:26.809 --> 00:29:30.539 how messed up our reality is. uh -huh, it pulls 00:29:30.539 --> 00:29:32.859 you into the rabbit hole a bit, and sometimes 00:29:32.859 --> 00:29:35.299 it'll leave you thinking. And, but one thing 00:29:35.299 --> 00:29:37.359 it does that I really like is it makes you angry 00:29:37.359 --> 00:29:40.339 enough to want to do something. It makes you 00:29:40.339 --> 00:29:43.220 angry enough to want to do something, and I think 00:29:43.220 --> 00:29:45.500 that's what a lot of shows these days don't do. 00:29:45.759 --> 00:29:47.700 You'll sit there and you'll cry, you're like, 00:29:47.839 --> 00:29:50.420 oh my god, like, wow, that's tragic, how could 00:29:50.420 --> 00:29:52.700 we? But then you just go and you eat dinner, 00:29:53.240 --> 00:29:57.319 you know? Like a sociopath. Like, they've raised 00:29:57.319 --> 00:30:00.680 us to be so okay with it. And Black Mirror has 00:30:00.680 --> 00:30:03.140 episodes like that, where you really sit and 00:30:03.140 --> 00:30:05.779 you have to think about the fact that we're so 00:30:05.779 --> 00:30:08.299 okay with violence, we almost consume it like 00:30:08.299 --> 00:30:13.619 a meal. Mm -hmm. Anyway. Yeah, sorry folks. It's 00:30:13.619 --> 00:30:16.519 probably been three minutes, so you should keep 00:30:16.519 --> 00:30:18.400 on not listening if you don't want to hear more 00:30:18.400 --> 00:30:20.740 about Bandersnatch. But I will say that you can 00:30:20.740 --> 00:30:23.319 probably rewind. a minute and a half and listen 00:30:23.319 --> 00:30:25.900 to what I said and not hear any spoilers. Okay 00:30:25.900 --> 00:30:32.059 so this new episode play thing um I'm definitely 00:30:32.059 --> 00:30:33.619 going to do a live stream about that to talk 00:30:33.619 --> 00:30:37.279 some more but I really think that the moral of 00:30:37.279 --> 00:30:43.160 that episode is insane. Technology as a means 00:30:43.160 --> 00:30:48.039 to raise our vibrations into peaceful, thoughtful, 00:30:48.619 --> 00:30:52.690 compassionate granted computer -like, but still 00:30:52.690 --> 00:30:56.829 able to feel, hmm, you can be objective and still 00:30:56.829 --> 00:31:00.089 emote and still have compassion. That, I think 00:31:00.089 --> 00:31:03.329 that that's, that's the thing about the human 00:31:03.329 --> 00:31:05.769 race that we kind of struggle with is like we 00:31:05.769 --> 00:31:08.470 can have compassion, but we can also have jealousy, 00:31:08.890 --> 00:31:11.849 you know, but in this episode, they don't really 00:31:11.849 --> 00:31:14.829 have jealousy. The, the ego is much more quiet. 00:31:15.240 --> 00:31:23.180 Um, and I think that the concept of a mass infection, 00:31:23.660 --> 00:31:26.920 but because we've seen the zombie movies, we've 00:31:26.920 --> 00:31:29.740 seen Resident Evil, we've seen, we've had the 00:31:29.740 --> 00:31:32.599 coronavirus, like we've seen it become real. 00:31:32.920 --> 00:31:35.819 It might not be zombies, but it's like mass, 00:31:35.880 --> 00:31:40.019 mass disability of the American population. You 00:31:40.019 --> 00:31:46.000 know, mass, mass death. It's a borderline, we 00:31:46.000 --> 00:31:48.200 won't even go into that, but we've seen it before. 00:31:49.799 --> 00:31:53.240 And this kind of does that in such a way that 00:31:53.240 --> 00:31:59.420 it infects the mind before a greater good. Like 00:31:59.420 --> 00:32:03.130 that blew my mind. I have yet... to see an episode 00:32:03.130 --> 00:32:06.650 that creates fear -mongering around oh oh no 00:32:06.650 --> 00:32:09.809 this infectious thing this this thing that's 00:32:09.809 --> 00:32:11.930 gotten out of control that humans have created 00:32:11.930 --> 00:32:14.049 is going to come and attack us for the greater 00:32:14.049 --> 00:32:20.150 good to make us better to make us kind like wow 00:32:20.150 --> 00:32:23.349 it kind of became a little appetizing and that 00:32:23.349 --> 00:32:27.240 makes me intrigued i'm intrigued Because at one 00:32:27.240 --> 00:32:29.359 point in that show there's a signal that the 00:32:29.359 --> 00:32:32.140 gentleman the Messiah of the episode really truly 00:32:32.140 --> 00:32:34.839 He's the New Age Messiah ushering in a new race 00:32:34.839 --> 00:32:40.240 of kind humans humans that don't know ego So 00:32:40.240 --> 00:32:43.380 when this Messiah lets off the signal and since 00:32:43.380 --> 00:32:46.819 he says I'm the messenger when he sends the message 00:32:46.819 --> 00:32:51.220 I Wanted to look away wanted to close my eyes 00:32:51.220 --> 00:32:53.400 and cover my ears and I thought oh my god something's 00:32:53.400 --> 00:32:54.779 gonna happen to me like this is one of those 00:32:54.779 --> 00:32:57.220 things like on the show evil where you watch 00:32:57.220 --> 00:33:00.740 the show and it like brainwashes you secretly 00:33:00.740 --> 00:33:07.180 like right crazy but I I stopped and I asked 00:33:07.180 --> 00:33:10.440 myself wait if he said that this is gonna make 00:33:10.440 --> 00:33:13.400 the human race better and I'm looking at this 00:33:13.400 --> 00:33:15.740 man and there's nothing wrong with this man he 00:33:15.740 --> 00:33:18.920 actually is very smart very clear -headed very 00:33:19.480 --> 00:33:22.539 um, thoughtful, not offended at all by this cop 00:33:22.539 --> 00:33:25.859 who's jumping down his throat. Um, but as I'm 00:33:25.859 --> 00:33:27.460 looking at him, like, what is there to fear? 00:33:28.579 --> 00:33:30.720 So I like, I actually looked and listened and 00:33:30.720 --> 00:33:32.299 I was like, it's nothing but a, it's nothing 00:33:32.299 --> 00:33:35.960 but a sound. But what if, what if one day that 00:33:35.960 --> 00:33:39.220 did happen? Like, hmm, because there's so much 00:33:39.220 --> 00:33:41.440 of Black Mirror that's low -key already happening. 00:33:41.440 --> 00:33:45.160 And so, I don't know, I love when Hollywood predicts 00:33:45.230 --> 00:33:48.549 the future because it did and does and will continue 00:33:48.549 --> 00:33:52.230 to do so because they're just... I'm a spiritual 00:33:52.230 --> 00:33:55.490 being, folks. Nothing is linear, everything is 00:33:55.490 --> 00:34:00.769 cyclical. Yeah, that's been a moment with me. 00:34:01.109 --> 00:34:05.009 I think we'll end it on that. Thank you so much 00:34:05.009 --> 00:34:07.750 for coming with me, taking a little deep dive 00:34:07.750 --> 00:34:12.309 in my brain. I know that was a lot, but I really 00:34:12.309 --> 00:34:15.110 thank you for joining me. Sometimes, you know, 00:34:15.210 --> 00:34:17.389 we just have, we have those moments where we 00:34:17.389 --> 00:34:18.969 just want to be ourselves. We don't want to put 00:34:18.969 --> 00:34:21.250 on, we don't want to do a show, we don't even 00:34:21.250 --> 00:34:24.230 want to have to smile or talk, even if we love 00:34:24.230 --> 00:34:29.269 smiling and talking like I do. Part of my unmasking 00:34:29.269 --> 00:34:31.650 journey is reminding myself that it's okay to 00:34:31.650 --> 00:34:35.289 not want to people. Like, I like being alone. 00:34:35.550 --> 00:34:37.789 I like not having to talk, even though I have 00:34:37.789 --> 00:34:41.030 a lot of things to say, like right now in my 00:34:41.030 --> 00:34:43.829 brain sometimes works much faster than my mouth. 00:34:44.849 --> 00:34:47.110 I have a lot to say, but sometimes I just want 00:34:47.110 --> 00:34:50.469 to experience, you know, I just want to, I just 00:34:50.469 --> 00:34:53.269 want to be, and I just want to exist. And art 00:34:53.269 --> 00:34:56.349 allows me to do that. And I can't do art in the 00:34:56.349 --> 00:34:58.750 gym. Like sometimes I want to go up to the studio 00:34:58.750 --> 00:35:00.570 and just dance, but you know how many people 00:35:00.570 --> 00:35:02.349 would like come up and like stare at me, and 00:35:02.349 --> 00:35:04.369 it's like, I don't want to have to. I don't have 00:35:04.369 --> 00:35:07.130 to feel judged. I'll get to a point where I can 00:35:07.130 --> 00:35:08.969 just go up to the studio and do whatever I want 00:35:08.969 --> 00:35:11.829 and still go down to my clients and feel like 00:35:11.829 --> 00:35:16.869 they respect me as a professional. Because imagine 00:35:16.869 --> 00:35:20.789 if you like were mid -workout and you saw one 00:35:20.789 --> 00:35:23.550 of the trainers doing like a flash dance montage 00:35:23.550 --> 00:35:26.030 just because she could with the music blasted 00:35:26.030 --> 00:35:28.230 so she could get out all of her anxiety. Imagine 00:35:28.230 --> 00:35:30.789 if you saw that. and like you're just expected 00:35:30.789 --> 00:35:33.070 to see her on the floor and like act like you 00:35:33.070 --> 00:35:35.949 didn't just see her performing her heart out 00:35:35.949 --> 00:35:39.349 two hours ago, there's no way. I would have to 00:35:39.349 --> 00:35:43.269 ask you, where did you train? I would have to 00:35:43.269 --> 00:35:47.389 say, do you allow guests? Can I join in? But 00:35:47.389 --> 00:35:50.349 no, like in all seriousness like that's just 00:35:50.349 --> 00:35:52.429 something I would prefer to keep between me myself 00:35:52.429 --> 00:35:55.409 and my future dance studio or my future mirror 00:35:55.409 --> 00:35:59.210 that I get to dance in front of. So I love you 00:35:59.210 --> 00:36:01.710 guys. I hope you're doing all right though. It's 00:36:01.710 --> 00:36:03.489 there's a lot going on in the world, but please 00:36:03.489 --> 00:36:07.530 keep your head up and remind yourself that Your 00:36:07.530 --> 00:36:10.690 thoughts have a lot of power so think positive 00:36:10.690 --> 00:36:13.750 ones Think powerful ones think ones that can 00:36:13.750 --> 00:36:16.429 get you what you need and what you want think 00:36:16.429 --> 00:36:23.329 ones that can expand the world I Hope you all 00:36:23.329 --> 00:36:26.559 have a great week Thank you for sitting in the 00:36:26.559 --> 00:36:28.699 chrysalis with me. Bye bye.