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Hello! Hello!

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Welcome to another episode of Diagnosing a Killer.

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I am Koelle.

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And my name is Kenna.

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I'm pretty sure they already know our names by now.

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Well, if this is your first time, welcome.

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Should we change our voices to the sultry like other podcasts?

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The ASMR.

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Just grab a drink and relax.

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I ate creepy shit.

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Me too.

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I just think it sounds disingenuine. Disingenuine?

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Disingenuous?

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No, I think it sounds un-genuine is what I'm trying to say.

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Like not genuine.

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Yeah, disingenuous.

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Oh, that's what that means?

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Oh, shit.

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I learned a word today.

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Yeah, it doesn't sound real.

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Like it sounds like people are like,

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and now it sounds like AI.

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Sit back and enjoy the show.

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It's like going to get a massage from a stranger.

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Yeah.

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How is that? What?

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I don't know. I don't like getting massages from strangers.

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What if they're professionals?

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It doesn't matter. That's what the ASMR thing is.

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Oh, I see what you're saying.

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Yeah.

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No, not a fan of ASMR.

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I'd rather have a dude like actually whispering in my ear.

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Have you seen the ASMR videos on TikTok

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where they have like the soap on the microphone?

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Yeah.

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Using like a brush.

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I'm like, you're ruining that microphone.

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That microphone, right?

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I don't know how they do that.

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I don't know.

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If anyone likes ASMR or if anyone engages in ASMR for TikTok,

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that's fine.

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I would do you.

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I like those where it's like, put your phone,

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you're to the phone, and it's like a guy telling you good night.

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Have you ever seen those?

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He's like, hey babe, I know you had a really stressful day today,

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but I just want to let you know I'm super proud of you.

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Yeah, you do a little mommy, let me whisper in you.

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That's creepy.

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I love him.

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Thank you.

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They're so sweet though, because at first it's like,

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ew, who would ever do this?

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And then you're like halfway through the video,

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like the voicemail, and you're like, this guy is so nice.

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Just spread positive vibes.

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I would be so lucky, you know?

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I'm not crying, you're crying.

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No, I'm not.

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I like, have you seen those TikTok videos of, you know,

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someone's like something really cute,

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it's like maybe like a proposal video,

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or like something really cute with a couple,

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and all the comments are like,

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I'm gonna go take a shower with my toaster now,

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I'm like, I'm crying, I'm gonna go play hide and seek

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in the railroad tracks.

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So bad.

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No, I haven't seen that.

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I do like the one where it's a, guess the name of the,

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or show us your baby, and then what it's named,

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like what your kid's named after,

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and everybody's like wrong answers only.

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So it'll be like a mountainside,

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her name's like Everest or something,

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and they're like low oxygen levels.

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I love the word out, yeah, I love the name Avalanche.

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I love the name low oxygen levels.

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People are very clever,

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and we just want you guys to do you,

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and continue to talk to us,

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and be your damn selves,

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because that's what we try to be, our damn selves.

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Nothing less, nothing more.

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Sometimes.

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Also, you're listening to Diagnosing a Killer,

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I don't know if they think we've said that yet,

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but I'm sure you know,

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because you clicked on our name.

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I said it at the very,

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I always, hello, hello,

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welcome to another episode of Diagnosing a Killer M. Coel.

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You're right, it's been a long day, sorry.

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It's been a long six minutes.

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It's Diagnosing a Killer at night.

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At night.

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We usually don't record this late.

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That's true, yeah, it is pretty late for us.

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And I had ice cream at 9 o'clock.

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You did have ice cream, and I'm jealous.

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I went to this,

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okay, so if anyone doesn't know about this,

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I'm not sure if it's a local shop,

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or if it's like a nationwide thing,

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and I could probably just Google it,

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but it's called Chill Inn,

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like the letter N,

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and it's nitrogen,

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like when nitrogen made ice cream,

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and they make it right in front of you,

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and it's just like the same thing as like a marble slab,

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like you walk in, you order,

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they give it to you, and you leave,

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or you can eat it there,

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but it's so much better,

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because it's made with liquid nitrogen,

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which is, I found out,

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like negative 380 degrees Fahrenheit,

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instead of 32, like they usually make ice cream.

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So it makes the crystals like really, really small,

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and then it makes the ice cream really smooth.

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And man, it's good.

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We, when we used to deliver ice sculptures,

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I remember this one time we were dropping off

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to J.W. Marya, the big resort,

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and a chef was in the back,

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and had a liquid nitrogen tank

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that we were using for like other stuff

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they were using,

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and we were just freezing fruit,

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and then like smashing them on the ground,

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because they'll just like smash a million pieces.

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Yeah, I've seen that before,

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that's what mom asked,

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when I got strawberry,

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and I was like, was the real strawberry,

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like smashed strawberry,

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she was like, was it the one that like crushed up?

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And I was like, no, it was just real regular smashed strawberry.

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But that would be cool.

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But yeah, if anyone hasn't tried Chill-In,

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and you have one locally,

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go check them out.

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They're not even sponsoring us.

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This is not an ad, this is just me saying,

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I tried it for the first time, and it's great.

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They probably have other nitrogen ice cream places out there.

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I'm sure they do, yeah.

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Except East Coast,

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because why would you ever need that?

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Because it's too cold.

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Because it's too damn cold.

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Too damn cold.

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I think it said on their sign,

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it said like the different like temperatures,

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and it's like average winter in Florida.

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Oh, that's cool.

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65 degrees, and then it's like freezing temperature of ice cream,

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32 degrees, and it's like below freezing,

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like negative zero, and then it's like nitrogen,

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like it's like negative 5,000.

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So yeah, that's enough banter for me.

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Live, love, laugh, D-A-K.

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Also, one more thing,

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I do just want to shout out Hillary from Lady Griskeranus,

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because she texted me, and she's like,

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oh my god, the D-A-K Live episode,

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I was cracking up when you said that you were to throw up,

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and she's like, oh my gosh.

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She's like, hashtag relatable.

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It's so funny, and I was like, oh my god.

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Poor Tyler.

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I was like, that was not my finest moment,

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and I really, really considered cutting it out,

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but that's not the point of a D-A-K Live.

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So it's like I just kept it in there.

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Speaking of which, I've been invited to participate in a podcast,

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and I don't know, I'm sure they don't care.

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It's a moviecation.

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No, I'm just like, happy.

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So I'm going to watch a movie tomorrow,

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and then I think on Thursday we're going to record.

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That's exciting.

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Yeah, I'm excited.

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I'm excited to hang out and chit chat with the guys.

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Yeah, that'd be fun.

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I'm going to have to choose a background,

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because everybody usually chooses a background.

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I'm going to have to do that.

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Oh yeah.

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I don't know how loud it's going to be in the living room.

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You know, normally I would be upset that I wasn't invited to something,

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but I have zero movie knowledge.

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You guys have all probably recognized me right now,

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so it makes sense.

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I told Tyler that you weren't going to care about it either,

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because it's like a B kind of gore,

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not gore, but it's a B movie

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that you're not going to give a shit about.

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I'm telling you right now.

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What's it called?

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Can I spoil it?

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No, not on here.

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Oh, tell me off Mike, and then I'll react without saying the name,

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because I want to know if I've seen it.

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It's not.

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No, never seen it.

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Perfect.

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I definitely don't care about that,

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so I'm excited for you guys though.

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That'll be fun.

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I feel like that was like a Beatrix kiddo moment,

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speaking of movies from Kill Bill.

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You know, like how her name's like beeped throughout the first two movies.

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I haven't seen it.

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No?

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You haven't seen Kill Bill?

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I don't think so.

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Anyways, that was our Beatrix kiddo moment.

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I trust your reference.

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I don't think I've seen it.

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I just know it's the siren all throughout.

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Is that the one with the siren?

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That one.

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That one.

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Is that the one with Thurman?

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Oh, and her feet.

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Points for me.

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All right.

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Sounds good.

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Well, we will.

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I don't know why I said sounds good.

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Like I'm ending up voting.

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Sounds good.

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See you later.

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See you later.

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I think I'm like self-conscious because mom's like in the same room as us and she's not

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making noise but she can hear our sayings.

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Like no one's ever been here while we're recording.

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Hi mom.

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That's not true.

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Well, now we're recording by ourselves.

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She's very quiet.

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Very nice.

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So today we are going to be talking about a one Randy Stair.

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Like S-T-A-R-E?

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S-T-A-I-R.

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Oh, like a staircase.

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Like a staircase.

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Like one singular stair.

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Like one stair.

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Content warning.

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This episode depicts scenes of death or suicide.

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Someone struggling with gender dysphoria and identity.

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School shootings and mass shooting.

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Although these topics are discussed in a sensitive manner, some content may still be disturbing.

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If this episode isn't for you, please feel free to check out another one of our episodes.

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Remember your mental health comes first and we love you.

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Love you.

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Bye.

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Dang, that's a doozy of a content warning.

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Randy Robert Stair was born on September 17, 1992, to Robert and Laurie Ann Stair in Dallas,

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Pennsylvania.

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Not Texas.

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And another was in Dallas, Pennsylvania.

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I didn't either in 1992.

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That's like way later than most of the people we cover.

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They're usually more than like the 50s or 70s even.

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Yeah.

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But he would eventually have a little brother named Jeremy as well, Jeremy Stair.

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And usually enough, we don't have much to say about Randy's early years.

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He tended to spend a lot of time alone versus with other children.

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He was kind of private and kids didn't really take an effort to coax him out of his shell

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very much.

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All right.

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Randy did struggle with severe depression at a very young age, however.

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Randy would later admit that during his young elementary schools, he struggled with thoughts

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of self-harm and suicide.

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Oh my gosh, already.

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That's so young.

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Very young.

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That kind of makes me think that maybe that was like showcased to him or maybe something

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was done in front of him that made him, because elementary age children usually don't have

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an independent thought like that.

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Right.

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Right.

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Exactly.

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So it must have been something like you said that he was either exposed to.

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He might have a predisposition for maybe depression.

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That's true.

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He said that he would regularly fantasize about boarding a plane, hoping that it would

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crash or fantasize about being in car accidents so that his death would be instantaneous in

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elementary school.

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Okay.

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That's really sad.

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Everything seemed relatively normal, however, to anyone else that was around Randy.

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And Randy kept most of these thoughts to himself.

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He would never talk about them.

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So we're coming to 2004.

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So this would be 12 years old.

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This would be the year that Nickelodeon would launch the show called Danny Phantom.

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Oh, you remember this?

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I love Danny Phantom.

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For those of you that don't know what Danny Phantom is, essentially it's an animated

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show surrounding the character Danny Fenton who accidentally traveled between the human

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world and a ghost world.

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And now he is like a half human, half ghost hybrid.

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I know this story.

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Oh, you do?

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I do.

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I listened to an episode on it.

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I was going to wear the Ember shirt.

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I have an Ember shirt.

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Really?

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Oh, yeah.

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You did tell me about that.

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I was like, oh, because of that one guy.

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Because of that one guy.

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I know.

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No, Danny Phantom.

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I mean, that was in fourth grade in that year.

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So I was definitely watching Danny Phantom.

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I was all about it.

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I was all over it.

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And this would have been, I mean, you were three years younger than Randy, three or four

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years younger than Randy.

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So that puts him about late elementary, early middle school, right?

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So yeah, Danny Fenton is kind of like this Superman slash Clark Kent guy because he goes

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around and helps his community.

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But also like from the ghost world.

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He said about the show that he really identified with the characters and that they spoke to

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him in a way that just kind of clicked.

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Just kind of made sense.

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Just kind of made sense.

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More specifically, Randy was immediately recognizing his attraction to the character

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Ember Maclean.

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OK.

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Ember's character was a ghost who had tragically died in a fire after being stood up on a date

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in the show.

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Hmm.

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In her afterlife, she became a symbol of rebellion, picking up a guitar and writing tons of rock

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music.

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She gets her strength and power off of being idolized by other rebellious teenage ghost

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fans.

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Great.

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Which he lived.

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One of the things that, and we can never get around this, I don't like that people will

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use media to exasperate what they're feeling.

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And they're like, oh, all this makes it, I mean, clearly it's a mental illness.

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Yeah.

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But some people will see, just like Ed Gein, he inspired movies.

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However, other people have been inspired by the movies to do kind of similar things.

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And I don't like that.

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Because it's like, what can we make and can we not make?

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Because apparently everyone's going to use these things as an excuse to do whatever they

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want.

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To do whatever they want.

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Yeah.

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I just don't like when it connects to something innocent.

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It's just a kid's cartoon.

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Right.

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Randy said that it wasn't so much that he had realized that he was attracted to the female

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presenting gender, but that he felt a connection that was unlike anything else he had ever

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experienced before.

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And that Ember gave him a warm feeling that felt like they had known each other before,

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like in a previous life.

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She's cartoon.

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And he's like 13.

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Like, you know.

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So it's almost like an imaginary friend kind of situation.

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At that age though, that's very.

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And what does that sound like almost?

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It sounds like Mark Chapman.

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With the little people that he would like blow up.

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It's like kind of the spanty world because you don't, you feel so isolated out of certain,

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in a certain way that you just kind of have to create your world.

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You know?

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Yeah.

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It sounds like it could be maybe related to like schizophrenia, spectra disorder and other

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psychotic disorders.

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Simply because that's one of the delusions that's categorized in that is a feeling of

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like belongingness to someone.

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Maybe that doesn't exist or maybe like a celebrity that doesn't know who you are.

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Right.

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It's one of those symptoms.

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I want to watch that Tiffany documentary.

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Do you know that song?

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I think we're alone now.

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Yeah.

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There's a Tiffany documentary that's called I think we're alone now and it's about her

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stalker.

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I really want to watch it.

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Do you remember when I got free concert tickets to Tiffany and I didn't want to go so I gave

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them to you?

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Didn't I give them to you?

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No.

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It was like a few years back.

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Why wouldn't you give me free Tiffany tickets?

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Oh, you know what?

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Because I won them on the radio and it was under my name and I ended up not going.

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I was going to take you though.

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That's what it was.

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Remember we talked about it and I was like, I don't know who the hell this is.

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I love her and I was like, let's go and then something happened.

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I had to work or something.

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I didn't just decide not to go but I'm like that bitch that'll call in to win something

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on the radio even if I don't want it just to see if I can get it.

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And then I do.

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One time I got a loop, Ryan said he was like, I don't want this.

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I got those tickets.

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I was like, I don't want this either.

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Damn.

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Could have sold Tiffany.

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It was like here in town.

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Yeah, I remember.

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I got to see missing persons once.

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That was awesome.

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That's cool.

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It's amazing.

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Anyways, Randy during middle school had started to become passionate about film and began

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to document skits and YouTube videos.

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Death was always a reoccurring theme in Randy's videos.

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Talking about death and a wish to die were often wrapped up in funny skits or conversations

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with friends.

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Comedic relief.

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Classic comedy.

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Oh my God.

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I love Drogbram.

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Call the Rickleon's Mother's corpse.

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Drogleon's Mother's corpse.

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Ding.

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That's new.

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Drogbram.

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Drogbram.

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Drogbram.

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Drogbram.

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Drogbram.

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Drogbram.

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Drogbram.

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Drogbram.

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Hi, Bo Burnham.

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If you're listening, you're probably not, but high, if you're listening to us.

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Bo Burnham to be listening to me right now.

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I would, I would cry.

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You would cry.

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I would cry to use of joy.

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I'd probably have a few choice words.

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I like him.

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Me too.

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I was going to say about that before I, we started talking about Bo Burnham and that

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that's just like a... oh my gosh, I can't talk.

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That is a tall-tailed sign of if you see something say something.

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Yeah.

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People were clearly viewing these videos and...

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Oh, yeah.

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I'm sorry, as much as people want to be like, haha, and brush it off, like joke, that's

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not just something to joke about.

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Like joking about dying or killing someone or whatever, killing yourself is not a joke.

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So Randy would actually go on to create his own production company titled Pioneer Productions

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after the Pittsburgh Pittsburgh.

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To Pittsburgh.

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Pittsburgh.

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UFL Pittsburgh Pioneers, I think it is.

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So this was in 2007 and he created a YouTube channel with this name.

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Here he would upload vlogs and his skips and his plays where he often did voices like voice

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acting.

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And he would do different characters.

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He had like these stuffed animals he would talk to too.

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There was like a frog and then there was like a whale and then there was like a horse head

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of some kind.

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Just really kind of bizarre stuff.

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But I think one of his most liked or watched videos was like the horse head one.

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Yeah, you can still find it on like, I think, archive.org.

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Oh, cute.

500
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Love to see that.

501
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That amount of like imaginary play, again, goes into the delusions and to the psychotic

502
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or disorder and or, I think it's a funny aspect.

503
00:16:55,920 --> 00:16:56,920
For sure.

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Not liking his birth name, Randy decided to go by Andrew Blaze on this channel, which

505
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is sort of like his stage name.

506
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Oh my gosh.

507
00:17:04,920 --> 00:17:05,920
Andrew Blaze.

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Blaze.

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By the time that Randy hit high school, Randy had a small group of friends but he really

510
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longed to date someone.

511
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He had never been in a relationship up until this point and it's something that Randy really

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craved.

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He saw other friends and stuff, getting girlfriends, never had one.

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Randy was just essentially too shy or reserved to talk to anybody that could be a potential

515
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date.

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Okay.

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Instead, he began to push the limits of his surroundings by writing essays or stories about

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death as his homework assignments.

519
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Okay.

520
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And did he get a passing grade for that?

521
00:17:43,120 --> 00:17:45,360
Maybe a little red flag over there.

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He often wrote about a mentally tortured main character who would always end up dying by

523
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the end of the story, sometimes being killed and sometimes committing suicide.

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That is a massive red flag.

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None of these papers were ever reported to counselors or seemed to concern any teacher

526
00:18:01,560 --> 00:18:03,040
or administrator at the time.

527
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He's just so imaginative.

528
00:18:04,800 --> 00:18:06,200
It's just imaginative.

529
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He's just so creative.

530
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He can just come up with these on the spot.

531
00:18:09,680 --> 00:18:10,680
Yep.

532
00:18:10,680 --> 00:18:11,680
He's a great teacher at high school too.

533
00:18:11,680 --> 00:18:12,680
Are you kidding me?

534
00:18:12,680 --> 00:18:17,960
You're telling me any high school teacher wouldn't see that and be like, what the fuck?

535
00:18:17,960 --> 00:18:21,520
We should at least, at the very least, have a conversation with this guy.

536
00:18:21,520 --> 00:18:23,440
I should just be like, hey bud.

537
00:18:23,440 --> 00:18:24,440
You okay?

538
00:18:24,440 --> 00:18:25,440
You doing alright?

539
00:18:25,440 --> 00:18:26,440
Yeah.

540
00:18:26,440 --> 00:18:27,440
Kind of concerning what you wrote.

541
00:18:27,440 --> 00:18:28,440
You know, I got in fucking...

542
00:18:28,440 --> 00:18:31,760
That's bullshit because I got in trouble in fourth grade.

543
00:18:31,760 --> 00:18:36,600
I think I might have said this on the podcast before, but we were writing haikus and I didn't

544
00:18:36,600 --> 00:18:38,680
know how to make a drawing with our haiku.

545
00:18:38,680 --> 00:18:41,800
I didn't know how to draw anything else except for a tornado.

546
00:18:41,800 --> 00:18:44,800
The long lines at the top of it, you just do skinny, skinny, skinny.

547
00:18:44,800 --> 00:18:45,800
Like an upside down Christmas tree.

548
00:18:45,800 --> 00:18:51,560
My haiku, I remember to this day, is rolling blackouts run, they are coming after me, roaring

549
00:18:51,560 --> 00:18:52,760
over a town.

550
00:18:52,760 --> 00:18:56,960
That was my haiku and I got sent to the principal's office because they thought I was gonna murder

551
00:18:56,960 --> 00:18:57,960
someone.

552
00:18:57,960 --> 00:18:58,960
Oh, that's awful.

553
00:18:58,960 --> 00:19:04,840
I had a friend, well I wouldn't see a friend, but a friend of a friend who had to be assessed

554
00:19:04,840 --> 00:19:09,800
and everything because he had a list of names in his backpack when they searched for something.

555
00:19:09,800 --> 00:19:12,600
It was something, I don't even know if it was something totally innocent.

556
00:19:12,600 --> 00:19:17,560
I don't even know if it was a birthday list or something, but it was a list of names of

557
00:19:17,560 --> 00:19:20,840
kids at school and it was like, whoa, you know what I mean?

558
00:19:20,840 --> 00:19:25,120
That's a little extreme, but I mean, what's she gonna do?

559
00:19:25,120 --> 00:19:26,120
What do we find now?

560
00:19:26,120 --> 00:19:27,840
Stuff like Randy Stair happens.

561
00:19:27,840 --> 00:19:28,840
Yeah, I know.

562
00:19:28,840 --> 00:19:32,640
I'm just saying, I got in trouble for that and then he's not getting in trouble for that.

563
00:19:32,640 --> 00:19:34,440
I was literally saying death.

564
00:19:34,440 --> 00:19:35,440
Death of death.

565
00:19:35,440 --> 00:19:39,440
This has to be like 2006, 2000s.

566
00:19:39,440 --> 00:19:41,440
Whoa, what was that?

567
00:19:41,440 --> 00:19:43,440
Hold on.

568
00:19:43,440 --> 00:19:46,760
Okay, so everything's fine.

569
00:19:46,760 --> 00:19:49,920
Oh my God, scared me.

570
00:19:49,920 --> 00:19:50,920
That was so loud.

571
00:19:50,920 --> 00:19:51,920
It was loud.

572
00:19:51,920 --> 00:19:57,440
And we heard it back in our headphones and it sounds even scarier on the microphone.

573
00:19:57,440 --> 00:19:59,160
Yeah, it was just my Keto.

574
00:19:59,160 --> 00:20:01,000
He kicked the wall on accident.

575
00:20:01,000 --> 00:20:05,520
I think he was dozing off and I think he had one of those falling dreams.

576
00:20:05,520 --> 00:20:08,640
Because when I went in there, he was like, did I scare you?

577
00:20:08,640 --> 00:20:09,880
And I was like, a little bit.

578
00:20:09,880 --> 00:20:12,560
He goes, oh, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you.

579
00:20:12,560 --> 00:20:13,560
I'm fine.

580
00:20:13,560 --> 00:20:14,560
I'm fine.

581
00:20:14,560 --> 00:20:16,240
Okay, we're good.

582
00:20:16,240 --> 00:20:17,240
That sounded way scarier.

583
00:20:17,240 --> 00:20:18,240
It was creepy.

584
00:20:18,240 --> 00:20:19,560
All right, back to the story.

585
00:20:19,560 --> 00:20:20,560
What were we saying before?

586
00:20:20,560 --> 00:20:21,560
So this was like 2006-ish.

587
00:20:21,560 --> 00:20:25,000
Oh yeah, and I was mad that he didn't get in trouble and I didn't.

588
00:20:25,000 --> 00:20:30,920
And so what I'm saying is that plenty of other school shootings and stuff like that have

589
00:20:30,920 --> 00:20:31,920
already happened.

590
00:20:31,920 --> 00:20:32,920
Yeah, that's true.

591
00:20:32,920 --> 00:20:38,400
And so it's not like this would be a rare occurrence, not even a rare occurrence.

592
00:20:38,400 --> 00:20:41,160
I mean, it's way more prevalent now than it ever has been.

593
00:20:41,160 --> 00:20:42,920
And than it ever should be.

594
00:20:42,920 --> 00:20:43,920
Yeah.

595
00:20:43,920 --> 00:20:47,680
What I'm saying is just trying to give you the year so that you know that, again, that

596
00:20:47,680 --> 00:20:50,560
things like this have already happened.

597
00:20:50,560 --> 00:20:54,760
Randy felt each time that he would reference violence in his papers or essays, quote, this

598
00:20:54,760 --> 00:20:58,040
is going to be the one that's going to get me caught or in trouble, end quote.

599
00:20:58,040 --> 00:20:59,800
So it was literally a cry for help.

600
00:20:59,800 --> 00:21:00,800
Yes.

601
00:21:00,800 --> 00:21:05,160
And then, oh my God, and then imagine his mentality when no one fucking cares.

602
00:21:05,160 --> 00:21:07,880
In his mind, he's like, well, no one fucking gives a shit if I do this.

603
00:21:07,880 --> 00:21:08,880
Exactly.

604
00:21:08,880 --> 00:21:09,880
So I'm quite as well.

605
00:21:09,880 --> 00:21:11,800
Oh, so awful.

606
00:21:11,800 --> 00:21:13,840
If you see something, say something.

607
00:21:13,840 --> 00:21:15,200
Fucking A, dude.

608
00:21:15,200 --> 00:21:18,720
He even said about his teacher at this time, I don't know what she was thinking.

609
00:21:18,720 --> 00:21:22,160
Like, in retrospect, he's looking back at me like, I don't know why she wouldn't say

610
00:21:22,160 --> 00:21:27,360
anything because he was trying to make it painfully obvious, but like something was wrong.

611
00:21:27,360 --> 00:21:31,360
And like it shouldn't have to come to that and like, you know, it shouldn't have to be

612
00:21:31,360 --> 00:21:36,160
someone saying something because someone's being, you know, hint hint that I might do

613
00:21:36,160 --> 00:21:37,160
this.

614
00:21:37,160 --> 00:21:41,600
But who knows what would have happened had she said something and it's not her fault.

615
00:21:41,600 --> 00:21:43,360
It's not her fault, not blaming her at all.

616
00:21:43,360 --> 00:21:47,680
However, just saying if you see something say something like it's better to report it

617
00:21:47,680 --> 00:21:50,320
and it be nothing than to not report it and something happens.

618
00:21:50,320 --> 00:21:51,320
Of course.

619
00:21:51,320 --> 00:21:54,600
But do you think like there's also kind of this like reverse psychology thing happening

620
00:21:54,600 --> 00:21:58,360
where it's like, well, clearly Randy's open enough to say all these things.

621
00:21:58,360 --> 00:22:00,640
If you really felt that way, he would probably say something.

622
00:22:00,640 --> 00:22:01,640
No, I don't mean so.

623
00:22:01,640 --> 00:22:02,640
You know what I mean?

624
00:22:02,640 --> 00:22:03,640
I don't think so.

625
00:22:03,640 --> 00:22:08,440
I'm not saying, I'm just saying like how people, maybe people that you know joke about

626
00:22:08,440 --> 00:22:14,720
like, you know, like that you're just like, oh, well, you know what I'm saying?

627
00:22:14,720 --> 00:22:16,440
Like I guess we're desensitized to it.

628
00:22:16,440 --> 00:22:17,440
Yeah, I know.

629
00:22:17,440 --> 00:22:19,080
Especially when it comes to certain individuals, maybe.

630
00:22:19,080 --> 00:22:22,680
I kind of get what you're saying, but I still even have like this thing in the back of my

631
00:22:22,680 --> 00:22:27,000
head, like if someone jokes around and says that, I like make sure I like keep that in

632
00:22:27,000 --> 00:22:28,000
my mind.

633
00:22:28,000 --> 00:22:29,640
I'm like, okay, they said that once.

634
00:22:29,640 --> 00:22:33,080
I'm definitely one of those people that I bring up Cameron or like sometimes I don't

635
00:22:33,080 --> 00:22:36,800
even have to like, just for Stimaxful and be like, yeah, like that's not a cool joke.

636
00:22:36,800 --> 00:22:37,800
Like, yeah, I say that too.

637
00:22:37,800 --> 00:22:38,920
I say, please don't joke like that.

638
00:22:38,920 --> 00:22:39,920
That's not funny.

639
00:22:39,920 --> 00:22:40,920
Yeah.

640
00:22:40,920 --> 00:22:41,920
But no, I don't know.

641
00:22:41,920 --> 00:22:46,200
Like, I don't know what I would have done in the situation, especially granted the timeframe,

642
00:22:46,200 --> 00:22:47,200
you know, the year.

643
00:22:47,200 --> 00:22:48,200
Sure.

644
00:22:48,200 --> 00:22:51,480
However, again, just for the future, say something.

645
00:22:51,480 --> 00:22:56,560
By 2010, Randy would be 18 years old, barely graduate high school and through the pressure

646
00:22:56,560 --> 00:23:02,320
of his father began working at a wise grocery store in Eaton Township.

647
00:23:02,320 --> 00:23:06,280
This is about 15, 20 minutes away from Randy's hometown.

648
00:23:06,280 --> 00:23:10,120
Randy also decided to attend college and was majoring in mass communications.

649
00:23:10,120 --> 00:23:13,240
But again, this seemed to be just for the benefit of his parents rather than something

650
00:23:13,240 --> 00:23:14,720
that he actually wanted to do.

651
00:23:14,720 --> 00:23:19,280
Yeah, that's a very vague major.

652
00:23:19,280 --> 00:23:23,360
So Randy would essentially be attending college and working at the store in an effort to participate

653
00:23:23,360 --> 00:23:25,160
in a normal life.

654
00:23:25,160 --> 00:23:26,160
Okay.

655
00:23:26,160 --> 00:23:28,400
However, this was not his main focus.

656
00:23:28,400 --> 00:23:32,420
He poured himself into his online persona and began to isolate further and further from

657
00:23:32,420 --> 00:23:34,560
friends and family.

658
00:23:34,560 --> 00:23:38,320
He also said around this time that he started to begin to resent his parents for not paying

659
00:23:38,320 --> 00:23:40,000
enough attention to him.

660
00:23:40,000 --> 00:23:41,440
Oh no.

661
00:23:41,440 --> 00:23:44,600
Randy once again began to fantasize about dying.

662
00:23:44,600 --> 00:23:49,440
He even said at one point that he wished that he had the courage to set himself on fire.

663
00:23:49,440 --> 00:23:52,000
Oh my gosh.

664
00:23:52,000 --> 00:23:53,800
That is brutal.

665
00:23:53,800 --> 00:23:55,440
That's horrible, right?

666
00:23:55,440 --> 00:23:58,960
Just in his backyard.

667
00:23:58,960 --> 00:24:05,720
It's interesting to me that he has such unique ways that someone would do that to themselves.

668
00:24:05,720 --> 00:24:08,280
He wants to get a plane crash or he wants to get a car crash or he wants to set himself

669
00:24:08,280 --> 00:24:09,280
on fire.

670
00:24:09,280 --> 00:24:12,480
It's not like, okay, I want to go buy a gun and kill myself.

671
00:24:12,480 --> 00:24:14,520
It's very different than you would think.

672
00:24:14,520 --> 00:24:19,120
The online persona Andrew Blaze, that has to stick in his head like, what if I light

673
00:24:19,120 --> 00:24:20,120
myself on fire?

674
00:24:20,120 --> 00:24:21,720
Then I'm really going to be Andrew Blaze.

675
00:24:21,720 --> 00:24:22,720
That will get people's attention.

676
00:24:22,720 --> 00:24:25,000
That's scary.

677
00:24:25,000 --> 00:24:29,720
Randy would start to create his own animated TV show surrounding the lives of Ember Maclean

678
00:24:29,720 --> 00:24:32,560
and her friends Mackenzie West and Rachel Shadows.

679
00:24:32,560 --> 00:24:38,640
You can't just steal a character from another show to create yours.

680
00:24:38,640 --> 00:24:40,880
So the show was called Ember's Ghost Squad.

681
00:24:40,880 --> 00:24:42,560
Ember's Ghost Squad.

682
00:24:42,560 --> 00:24:44,760
So Danny Phantom 2.0.

683
00:24:44,760 --> 00:24:46,680
Yes, EGS.

684
00:24:46,680 --> 00:24:52,240
So EGS was a show that followed Ember and her Ghost Girl Squad and documented their recruiting

685
00:24:52,240 --> 00:24:55,960
angsty and lost teens for their squad.

686
00:24:55,960 --> 00:24:58,320
Their Ghost Squad, right?

687
00:24:58,320 --> 00:24:59,320
Yeah.

688
00:24:59,320 --> 00:25:01,880
That's it.

689
00:25:01,880 --> 00:25:06,240
Often these episodes were dark and talked of death were dying and let's say that it

690
00:25:06,240 --> 00:25:08,800
certainly wasn't for children.

691
00:25:08,800 --> 00:25:16,000
In 2013, Randy lost he and his brother's friend Tom in a car accident while Tom was

692
00:25:16,000 --> 00:25:17,920
driving on his way to school one morning.

693
00:25:17,920 --> 00:25:19,960
Oh my gosh.

694
00:25:19,960 --> 00:25:24,080
Although Tom was more Jeremy's friend, I think Tom was kind of in the age between Jeremy

695
00:25:24,080 --> 00:25:25,840
and Randy.

696
00:25:25,840 --> 00:25:29,360
Randy would say that this death profoundly affected him.

697
00:25:29,360 --> 00:25:35,520
Randy would often drive past Tom's accident scene, especially on Tom's death day every

698
00:25:35,520 --> 00:25:36,520
year.

699
00:25:36,520 --> 00:25:40,680
So he frequented where the car accident happens.

700
00:25:40,680 --> 00:25:41,680
Why do you think that was?

701
00:25:41,680 --> 00:25:42,680
I don't know.

702
00:25:42,680 --> 00:25:44,160
Do you think he was trying to like?

703
00:25:44,160 --> 00:25:45,800
I think he's reliving it.

704
00:25:45,800 --> 00:25:46,800
Yeah.

705
00:25:46,800 --> 00:25:53,680
Like maybe reliving the emotion attached to it or just the fact that someone had died

706
00:25:53,680 --> 00:25:55,880
and like kind of obsessing about like afterlife?

707
00:25:55,880 --> 00:25:59,560
He's going to say do you think he thinks like if he gets closer to the scene like maybe

708
00:25:59,560 --> 00:26:03,400
he can communicate with him or do you think he's like fascinated by the fact that someone

709
00:26:03,400 --> 00:26:04,400
died right there?

710
00:26:04,400 --> 00:26:05,400
Yes.

711
00:26:05,400 --> 00:26:06,400
I think that's more what it is.

712
00:26:06,400 --> 00:26:13,320
Like you know, kids when they learn that lesson with like burning ants with a magnifying glass.

713
00:26:13,320 --> 00:26:16,120
It's kind of like that but on a like a grander scale I think.

714
00:26:16,120 --> 00:26:17,120
Okay.

715
00:26:17,120 --> 00:26:21,600
But he's just trying to connect with like death if that makes sense.

716
00:26:21,600 --> 00:26:23,240
Because he's clearly obsessed with death or dying.

717
00:26:23,240 --> 00:26:24,680
Well he's all about ghosts too.

718
00:26:24,680 --> 00:26:26,760
Yeah, exactly.

719
00:26:26,760 --> 00:26:32,520
Shortly after Tom's death, he had actually lost another friend to another car accident.

720
00:26:32,520 --> 00:26:33,520
Oh my gosh.

721
00:26:33,520 --> 00:26:35,480
His name was Matt.

722
00:26:35,480 --> 00:26:39,040
And then I think he lost his grandfather after that who he is also very close to.

723
00:26:39,040 --> 00:26:42,520
So this is all within the span of like a year.

724
00:26:42,520 --> 00:26:46,440
Randy himself got into a car accident and shortly after this his little brother Jeremy

725
00:26:46,440 --> 00:26:48,600
would also be involved in a car accident.

726
00:26:48,600 --> 00:26:50,040
Okay, that's really weird.

727
00:26:50,040 --> 00:26:54,640
So the two brothers at this point were sharing a car because they, I think Randy's was like

728
00:26:54,640 --> 00:26:59,560
a fender bender type thing but Jeremy is like total to his car.

729
00:26:59,560 --> 00:27:02,320
So this likely didn't help Randy's frame of mind.

730
00:27:02,320 --> 00:27:05,920
Someone who was already identifying with an animated ghost girl and wishes for death.

731
00:27:05,920 --> 00:27:06,920
Right?

732
00:27:06,920 --> 00:27:07,920
Yeah.

733
00:27:07,920 --> 00:27:08,920
Can't be good.

734
00:27:08,920 --> 00:27:09,920
Do you think he caused his own car accident?

735
00:27:09,920 --> 00:27:10,920
I don't know.

736
00:27:10,920 --> 00:27:13,600
I mean if it was just a fender bender probably not.

737
00:27:13,600 --> 00:27:16,400
The reason that I say it's a fender bender is because there is a picture of him like

738
00:27:16,400 --> 00:27:22,400
with a thumbs up next to I'm assuming his car and it's just the back like trunk is like

739
00:27:22,400 --> 00:27:23,400
kind of smushed in.

740
00:27:23,400 --> 00:27:24,400
Oh well so then someone hit him.

741
00:27:24,400 --> 00:27:25,400
Yes.

742
00:27:25,400 --> 00:27:26,400
And that's what I'm thinking.

743
00:27:26,400 --> 00:27:27,400
Yeah.

744
00:27:27,400 --> 00:27:31,040
That I don't think it was something that was really like intentional.

745
00:27:31,040 --> 00:27:34,200
So Randy becomes more obsessed with death.

746
00:27:34,200 --> 00:27:37,520
It became essentially all he would ever talk about.

747
00:27:37,520 --> 00:27:42,120
So in his recordings online it seemed like manic almost when he would talk about like

748
00:27:42,120 --> 00:27:45,880
he would go through this kind of like spiral or loop and it's almost like you could see

749
00:27:45,880 --> 00:27:50,480
him dissociating in these videos where he's just like you know I don't know like and I

750
00:27:50,480 --> 00:27:53,240
you know then this happened and then that happened and then I just started becoming

751
00:27:53,240 --> 00:27:57,000
obsessed with death and it's like what happens in the afterlife and then it's just and it's

752
00:27:57,000 --> 00:27:59,360
very fast paced.

753
00:27:59,360 --> 00:28:06,320
It's not like kind of this somber depressed kind of look you know it's it's almost like

754
00:28:06,320 --> 00:28:13,440
matter of fact well and exciting almost when you watch it that he's excited to share his

755
00:28:13,440 --> 00:28:18,120
perspective about death or dying.

756
00:28:18,120 --> 00:28:22,680
He became terrified of growing older and he would often say that he had no intention of

757
00:28:22,680 --> 00:28:24,960
living past 30.

758
00:28:24,960 --> 00:28:30,120
Randy would even speak about how he hated older people and how they disgusted him.

759
00:28:30,120 --> 00:28:31,320
Oh great.

760
00:28:31,320 --> 00:28:32,320
Yes.

761
00:28:32,320 --> 00:28:37,400
Randy said around this time when around this time when he started becoming manic and depressed

762
00:28:37,400 --> 00:28:41,000
and obsessing about dying and knowing that he didn't want to live past 30 that Ember

763
00:28:41,000 --> 00:28:43,640
came back into my life is what he said.

764
00:28:43,640 --> 00:28:45,840
Because she couldn't do that.

765
00:28:45,840 --> 00:28:50,240
He would start developing his Ember's ghost squad characters even further and began to

766
00:28:50,240 --> 00:28:57,360
fall in love with Ember even beginning to call her his wife.

767
00:28:57,360 --> 00:29:03,760
He believed that after his death he too would reunite with Ember and her squad in the afterlife.

768
00:29:03,760 --> 00:29:05,920
This is a tall tale example.

769
00:29:05,920 --> 00:29:08,400
Remember we talked about Fahleadu recently.

770
00:29:08,400 --> 00:29:09,400
He is isolated.

771
00:29:09,400 --> 00:29:13,720
He is not sharing this with anybody so there is nobody there to tell him that these thoughts

772
00:29:13,720 --> 00:29:18,120
are bizarre and they are delusions because this is a cartoon character.

773
00:29:18,120 --> 00:29:21,640
But the fact that he has no one there to tell him that it's just going to continue to get

774
00:29:21,640 --> 00:29:22,640
worse.

775
00:29:22,640 --> 00:29:23,640
Sure.

776
00:29:23,640 --> 00:29:28,640
And then he's creating also the show and the content that is then essentially reaffirming

777
00:29:28,640 --> 00:29:29,640
what he's feeling.

778
00:29:29,640 --> 00:29:30,880
Making it more real.

779
00:29:30,880 --> 00:29:31,880
Yes.

780
00:29:31,880 --> 00:29:32,880
Yeah.

781
00:29:32,880 --> 00:29:39,000
Furthermore after Randy would pass he would be reincarnated as a female presenting ghost

782
00:29:39,000 --> 00:29:41,200
girl.

783
00:29:41,200 --> 00:29:46,560
Randy had up until this point kept his gender dysphoria a secret.

784
00:29:46,560 --> 00:29:50,840
He had started wearing feminine undergarments underneath his clothes when going to work

785
00:29:50,840 --> 00:29:52,960
or walking about town.

786
00:29:52,960 --> 00:29:57,280
On Wednesday nights when his parents went out for their weekly bowling league meetups

787
00:29:57,280 --> 00:30:01,240
Randy would then dress in feminine presenting clothing and walking around the house for

788
00:30:01,240 --> 00:30:03,480
a few hours while they were gone.

789
00:30:03,480 --> 00:30:04,600
Okay.

790
00:30:04,600 --> 00:30:11,040
He dreamt of becoming a female and identified as such but he did not want to transition.

791
00:30:11,040 --> 00:30:16,280
So he would consider himself although he was male presenting and participated in society

792
00:30:16,280 --> 00:30:21,360
as a male he did say that his spirit was feminine.

793
00:30:21,360 --> 00:30:26,320
So do you think that's why he was so obsessed with dying so he could come back as a woman?

794
00:30:26,320 --> 00:30:31,720
He believed that through all of this kind of delusion that he was doing.

795
00:30:31,720 --> 00:30:40,120
He thought that he could be reincarnated into a female presenting body as Ember's wife

796
00:30:40,120 --> 00:30:43,120
and ghost squad member.

797
00:30:43,120 --> 00:30:44,120
Okay.

798
00:30:44,120 --> 00:30:45,120
Okay.

799
00:30:45,120 --> 00:30:48,520
I know it's a lot y'all.

800
00:30:48,520 --> 00:30:53,880
Randy began to ease his dysphoria by doing things like shaving his legs and body regularly

801
00:30:53,880 --> 00:30:57,960
and he would often skip meals or diet in an attempt to lose weight and to appear more

802
00:30:57,960 --> 00:31:00,080
feminine to himself.

803
00:31:00,080 --> 00:31:03,480
He wore a lot of really baggy shirts however.

804
00:31:03,480 --> 00:31:07,360
He said he never told anyone or reached out about it because he thought that he wouldn't

805
00:31:07,360 --> 00:31:11,120
be understood and that people would just think that he was crazy.

806
00:31:11,120 --> 00:31:13,920
So again this is something else that he would keep to himself that he was struggling with

807
00:31:13,920 --> 00:31:16,120
his body image and his dysphoria.

808
00:31:16,120 --> 00:31:17,680
Further isolating himself.

809
00:31:17,680 --> 00:31:18,680
Yes.

810
00:31:18,680 --> 00:31:19,680
Yeah.

811
00:31:19,680 --> 00:31:24,440
Randy believed that this uncomfortability with society made sense because it meant that

812
00:31:24,440 --> 00:31:29,680
he was not to be on this earth and meant to be in the ghost realm with his wife Ember.

813
00:31:29,680 --> 00:31:33,360
So he was saying, oh no wonder of course I would feel this weird.

814
00:31:33,360 --> 00:31:37,440
Of course I would feel this strange in this body on this earth because this isn't where

815
00:31:37,440 --> 00:31:40,920
I'm supposed to be.

816
00:31:40,920 --> 00:31:47,000
It's just a mental disorder, not necessarily that specific part of it, but the whole thing

817
00:31:47,000 --> 00:31:53,480
is untreated mental diagnosis, and mental illness and no one there to tell him, especially

818
00:31:53,480 --> 00:31:59,120
about the ghost world thing that this is probably a delusion because clearly his parents are

819
00:31:59,120 --> 00:32:01,800
not focused on him enough.

820
00:32:01,800 --> 00:32:04,760
And he's now saying that he hates his parents and all this stuff.

821
00:32:04,760 --> 00:32:09,040
We don't really know much about them for probably for a reason because they probably

822
00:32:09,040 --> 00:32:10,840
weren't a big part of his life.

823
00:32:10,840 --> 00:32:13,280
And I know he's probably an adult at this point but still.

824
00:32:13,280 --> 00:32:14,280
Yeah.

825
00:32:14,280 --> 00:32:17,960
This is all within his 18s, 19s, 20s.

826
00:32:17,960 --> 00:32:25,600
This is years and years of untreated mental illness or mental disorders rather.

827
00:32:25,600 --> 00:32:29,560
Randy was surprised that no one even noticed that he started changing his behavior.

828
00:32:29,560 --> 00:32:35,800
He even left feminine directed brands like razors, and I say that as a female directed

829
00:32:35,800 --> 00:32:39,680
like skin to me and like Venus.

830
00:32:39,680 --> 00:32:45,360
So female directed brands like of razors, shaving creams, and even like a purpley pink

831
00:32:45,360 --> 00:32:53,760
hairbrush that he had just in his bathroom in an attempt to be like, hey, like I'm buying

832
00:32:53,760 --> 00:32:56,520
things that are perceived to be feminine.

833
00:32:56,520 --> 00:32:57,520
Look at me.

834
00:32:57,520 --> 00:32:59,640
I'm asking you about it.

835
00:32:59,640 --> 00:33:02,040
Nobody asked him about anything.

836
00:33:02,040 --> 00:33:07,680
Nobody asked like why you need like a female body razor, you know, things like that.

837
00:33:07,680 --> 00:33:08,680
No, I get it.

838
00:33:08,680 --> 00:33:13,400
I'm just, I just don't get why he wants the attention but he's not asking for it.

839
00:33:13,400 --> 00:33:17,080
He's just hoping that someone will pick up on these cues.

840
00:33:17,080 --> 00:33:18,080
Yeah.

841
00:33:18,080 --> 00:33:19,080
You know?

842
00:33:19,080 --> 00:33:20,080
And I want to be clear.

843
00:33:20,080 --> 00:33:23,160
I'm not trying to say that, I know you're not either that people that want to transition

844
00:33:23,160 --> 00:33:25,560
or people that identify as other gender is a mental disorder.

845
00:33:25,560 --> 00:33:26,560
No.

846
00:33:26,560 --> 00:33:27,560
I'm just trying to get something else.

847
00:33:27,560 --> 00:33:28,560
No, no.

848
00:33:28,560 --> 00:33:29,560
No, no, no, no, no, no, of course.

849
00:33:29,560 --> 00:33:30,560
It has nothing to do with that.

850
00:33:30,560 --> 00:33:36,060
I think it's for him, it would, and maybe the household he grew up with, it would be

851
00:33:36,060 --> 00:33:43,360
strange for him as a male to own feminine directed brand products, you know?

852
00:33:43,360 --> 00:33:48,640
And I think that that would be maybe his dad would say something like, whose razor is this?

853
00:33:48,640 --> 00:33:49,640
You know, or whatever.

854
00:33:49,640 --> 00:33:51,360
And it never happened.

855
00:33:51,360 --> 00:33:53,840
So it just made him feel just more unseen really.

856
00:33:53,840 --> 00:33:54,840
Of course.

857
00:33:54,840 --> 00:33:59,040
And he talked about the whole recognition, you know, the recognition, the acknowledgement

858
00:33:59,040 --> 00:34:01,960
and the endorsement.

859
00:34:01,960 --> 00:34:05,720
There's no, like we're not even past step one, the recognition.

860
00:34:05,720 --> 00:34:07,600
So how can acknowledgement even happen?

861
00:34:07,600 --> 00:34:14,000
And it kind of seems like he is getting to the point where he's probably thinking, okay,

862
00:34:14,000 --> 00:34:16,600
if you're not going to pay attention, then I'll give you something to pay attention to.

863
00:34:16,600 --> 00:34:17,600
Of course.

864
00:34:17,600 --> 00:34:21,400
And that could be, I mean, is very detrimental.

865
00:34:21,400 --> 00:34:25,000
Randy fell at this point that he would have to do something way more drastic to get the

866
00:34:25,000 --> 00:34:27,440
attention of those around him.

867
00:34:27,440 --> 00:34:33,480
This is so scary.

868
00:34:33,480 --> 00:34:38,040
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Randy would soon have another obsession grow within him.

877
00:35:12,760 --> 00:35:18,160
His obsession with school shootings, especially Columbine.

878
00:35:18,160 --> 00:35:22,120
He would often troll the internet and look at Columbine memes and go onto forums that

879
00:35:22,120 --> 00:35:29,600
were either in remembrance sites for the victims, or more often he would go on forums that idolized

880
00:35:29,600 --> 00:35:32,480
Eric Harris and Dylan Kleebold.

881
00:35:32,480 --> 00:35:38,520
Sometime in 2014, Randy began to talk about how he would soon be leaving YouTube and EGS

882
00:35:38,520 --> 00:35:42,000
fans were a little upset by this.

883
00:35:42,000 --> 00:35:47,760
He had a bit of a following at this point on his channels and it was really surprising

884
00:35:47,760 --> 00:35:52,480
that Andrew Blaze said that he would be leaving something that he seemed so passionate about.

885
00:35:52,480 --> 00:35:57,640
Well, yeah, because he's expecting to not survive this attack.

886
00:35:57,640 --> 00:36:00,960
Randy went on to explain that although he would be leaving eventually, he didn't have

887
00:36:00,960 --> 00:36:03,440
a set date or anything like that.

888
00:36:03,440 --> 00:36:07,400
He did claim it was for multiple reasons, which eased people when he said that like,

889
00:36:07,400 --> 00:36:09,240
oh, it's not like one thing or another.

890
00:36:09,240 --> 00:36:12,080
It has nothing to do with making fun content.

891
00:36:12,080 --> 00:36:17,040
He did say that it's not really a job and although he wanted to set his real job on

892
00:36:17,040 --> 00:36:23,720
fire, he did need to work there more often because it was his only financial income.

893
00:36:23,720 --> 00:36:28,360
Randy seemed optimistic around this year, this next like two or three years.

894
00:36:28,360 --> 00:36:33,160
He was still making music videos for a short time and he did kind of ride a high a little

895
00:36:33,160 --> 00:36:35,360
bit for the next like year.

896
00:36:35,360 --> 00:36:42,680
Mostly he decided to pour himself into a newfound project with EGS or Embers Go Squad.

897
00:36:42,680 --> 00:36:48,560
He created nine social media accounts for each character and would often have each one

898
00:36:48,560 --> 00:36:52,320
of them posting, commenting, or liking each other's accounts on Twitter.

899
00:36:52,320 --> 00:36:56,080
Oh my gosh, like he made up his own friends.

900
00:36:56,080 --> 00:37:03,400
So yeah, so they're the nine characters of Embers Go Squad, including Ember, Mackenzie,

901
00:37:03,400 --> 00:37:05,920
Rachel, and then a few others.

902
00:37:05,920 --> 00:37:10,640
And then he had two social media accounts for himself and they would just all constantly

903
00:37:10,640 --> 00:37:11,640
communicate with each other.

904
00:37:11,640 --> 00:37:12,640
It's like catfish.

905
00:37:12,640 --> 00:37:13,640
But it was him.

906
00:37:13,640 --> 00:37:18,120
So, okay, let me go back to school because now he's out of school.

907
00:37:18,120 --> 00:37:20,720
Didn't he have like good friends or something like in school?

908
00:37:20,720 --> 00:37:25,280
I mean, now he had two friends that passed away, but he didn't have any other like close

909
00:37:25,280 --> 00:37:26,280
friends?

910
00:37:26,280 --> 00:37:27,280
No, not really.

911
00:37:27,280 --> 00:37:31,520
He had a few from middle school into high school, but they all started getting girlfriends

912
00:37:31,520 --> 00:37:32,520
and stuff.

913
00:37:32,520 --> 00:37:33,520
Oh yeah, you're right.

914
00:37:33,520 --> 00:37:34,520
You can say that.

915
00:37:34,520 --> 00:37:36,920
You know, kind of moving on and he just decided to throw himself into this instead.

916
00:37:36,920 --> 00:37:41,200
Oh God, that makes me sad because it's like, like I don't feel bad for him.

917
00:37:41,200 --> 00:37:44,560
Like, but I do in this moment, you know, because he's just alone.

918
00:37:44,560 --> 00:37:49,040
No one really wants to be his friend and he's writing some weird death poems and people

919
00:37:49,040 --> 00:37:51,920
are like, that's fucking weird.

920
00:37:51,920 --> 00:37:56,440
He talked about this new project as being his greatest accomplishment and gave himself

921
00:37:56,440 --> 00:38:02,880
a deadline of completely finishing his project by May 7th, 2019, which coincided with the

922
00:38:02,880 --> 00:38:05,400
letters E, G, and S.

923
00:38:05,400 --> 00:38:11,720
So the fifth, the seventh and the 19th letter of the alphabet.

924
00:38:11,720 --> 00:38:13,600
That's okay.

925
00:38:13,600 --> 00:38:16,080
So that's like, it's methodical.

926
00:38:16,080 --> 00:38:17,920
Coincidentally, like nine.

927
00:38:17,920 --> 00:38:20,600
Oh, I guess he wasn't, it didn't have to be 2019.

928
00:38:20,600 --> 00:38:23,320
He was just used, it could have been the 20th letter if it was the next year.

929
00:38:23,320 --> 00:38:25,600
I get to give it now.

930
00:38:25,600 --> 00:38:26,600
What?

931
00:38:26,600 --> 00:38:28,280
No, wait, that's right.

932
00:38:28,280 --> 00:38:33,160
Yeah, E being the fifth letter, G being the seventh letter, and then 2019.

933
00:38:33,160 --> 00:38:34,520
Oh, I see what you're saying.

934
00:38:34,520 --> 00:38:35,520
No, it would be the 19th.

935
00:38:35,520 --> 00:38:40,320
No, wait, so yeah, it just happened to be, it just happened to line up that S is the

936
00:38:40,320 --> 00:38:42,640
19th and it was the year of 2019.

937
00:38:42,640 --> 00:38:46,280
No, this was not the year of 2019 that he's talking about this.

938
00:38:46,280 --> 00:38:47,920
Okay, I was so confused.

939
00:38:47,920 --> 00:38:50,960
Okay, this is like 2014, 15.

940
00:38:50,960 --> 00:38:53,040
Oh, so he's gonna wait like years?

941
00:38:53,040 --> 00:38:57,040
Okay, well he says he's gonna wait years.

942
00:38:57,040 --> 00:38:58,320
Let us see.

943
00:38:58,320 --> 00:39:02,640
Randy soon realized that he could not wait another few years to complete this project,

944
00:39:02,640 --> 00:39:09,880
so he decided to set a new deadline of June 9th, 2017, which was only four weeks away

945
00:39:09,880 --> 00:39:14,520
at this point, but June 9th would have been the anniversary that he started Embers Go

946
00:39:14,520 --> 00:39:15,520
Squad.

947
00:39:15,520 --> 00:39:17,560
Wow, he's really symbolic, isn't he?

948
00:39:17,560 --> 00:39:18,640
He is.

949
00:39:18,640 --> 00:39:19,640
Very much so.

950
00:39:19,640 --> 00:39:23,800
Also, I should just like keep my questions in my mind until you're done, because I feel

951
00:39:23,800 --> 00:39:26,640
like I always say something and you're like, well, if you just let me fucking talk, I

952
00:39:26,640 --> 00:39:27,640
will say.

953
00:39:27,640 --> 00:39:31,040
Well, I just said it was 2015, which is not true, it's 2017, my bad.

954
00:39:31,040 --> 00:39:32,240
Oh, that's all right.

955
00:39:32,240 --> 00:39:36,600
I think now that his project may not be finished in time given his new timeframe, because he

956
00:39:36,600 --> 00:39:43,520
was planning on doing this Embers Go Squad thing, Randy asked his mother to take him

957
00:39:43,520 --> 00:39:47,960
to a gun shop where he purchased a shotgun.

958
00:39:47,960 --> 00:39:51,560
Knowing how easy the process was at this point, Randy actually went back to the shop

959
00:39:51,560 --> 00:39:54,560
to purchase a second one a few days later.

960
00:39:54,560 --> 00:39:58,560
He named one Mackenzie and the other Rachel after Embers best friends.

961
00:39:58,560 --> 00:39:59,560
My God.

962
00:39:59,560 --> 00:40:02,640
Well, you don't pay attention to your son, but you're gonna go take him to buy a fucking

963
00:40:02,640 --> 00:40:03,640
gun.

964
00:40:03,640 --> 00:40:07,160
Second of all, I was listening to a podcast earlier today about a mass shooting and the

965
00:40:07,160 --> 00:40:15,080
person in question had gone to purchase a weapon four or five times within a month.

966
00:40:15,080 --> 00:40:18,880
It was very frequently and it's like, okay, I get the whole, and I'm not trying to be

967
00:40:18,880 --> 00:40:23,480
political at all, I get the whole maybe gun laws, maybe not, but also there should be

968
00:40:23,480 --> 00:40:27,600
a period of time between when you can buy one gun and when you can buy the other.

969
00:40:27,600 --> 00:40:31,520
If you're buying five guns in a period of a month, that's probably a red fucking flag.

970
00:40:31,520 --> 00:40:32,520
You know what I mean?

971
00:40:32,520 --> 00:40:35,000
I don't think so.

972
00:40:35,000 --> 00:40:39,040
Randy would later etch their names into the side of each gun since he had learned that

973
00:40:39,040 --> 00:40:44,200
Eric Harris had done the exact same thing to his guns that he used at Columbine.

974
00:40:44,200 --> 00:40:46,160
Never had an original thought.

975
00:40:46,160 --> 00:40:50,720
He wrote in his journal about this day, quote, you were a fool to trust me with a shotgun.

976
00:40:50,720 --> 00:40:54,680
Oh, mother, if you only realized you would just sign my death warrant by taking me to

977
00:40:54,680 --> 00:40:55,680
a gun shop.

978
00:40:55,680 --> 00:40:56,680
End quote.

979
00:40:56,680 --> 00:41:00,200
I'm not a fucking fucking nut that is transferring the blame to someone else.

980
00:41:00,200 --> 00:41:02,920
If you didn't buy me this, this wouldn't have happened.

981
00:41:02,920 --> 00:41:03,920
Fuck you.

982
00:41:03,920 --> 00:41:08,520
Oh, mother, if you would only realize, fucking so annoying.

983
00:41:08,520 --> 00:41:12,720
Randy started filming himself target practicing with each gun.

984
00:41:12,720 --> 00:41:18,760
He began to create a personal video blog documenting his thought process leading up to the project's

985
00:41:18,760 --> 00:41:25,520
launch so that his parents would have answers to what would transpire just 13 days later.

986
00:41:25,520 --> 00:41:27,840
That is so annoying.

987
00:41:27,840 --> 00:41:34,320
And also, like, how much time has passed since he's thought of at least four weeks, but years.

988
00:41:34,320 --> 00:41:37,000
Oh, at least four weeks since he's made this plan.

989
00:41:37,000 --> 00:41:40,080
You had so much time to change your mind.

990
00:41:40,080 --> 00:41:43,240
It goes back to the, oh, I'm going to do this.

991
00:41:43,240 --> 00:41:46,400
If no one notices, I'm just going to keep doing it because clearly I'm not getting anyone's

992
00:41:46,400 --> 00:41:47,400
attention.

993
00:41:47,400 --> 00:41:48,400
Yeah.

994
00:41:48,400 --> 00:41:50,680
That is so, I don't understand that mindset.

995
00:41:50,680 --> 00:41:52,440
He's probably thought of it since high school, honestly.

996
00:41:52,440 --> 00:41:53,960
Middle school, high school.

997
00:41:53,960 --> 00:41:57,280
Ever since he knew that shit like this happens, you know?

998
00:41:57,280 --> 00:42:01,880
Randy would often ramble in these videos about Columbine and how he hated himself and other

999
00:42:01,880 --> 00:42:04,400
members of the queer community.

1000
00:42:04,400 --> 00:42:06,920
So he's also self-hating as well.

1001
00:42:06,920 --> 00:42:11,280
Leading up to the date, Randy began sending out tweets and writing letters, and he would

1002
00:42:11,280 --> 00:42:17,440
actually leave these letters around the house, on the streets and at work in open journals

1003
00:42:17,440 --> 00:42:22,440
depicting how he was feeling and how he wanted to be seen in any possible way, including

1004
00:42:22,440 --> 00:42:26,600
the date June 7th.

1005
00:42:26,600 --> 00:42:28,520
Ask somebody for attention.

1006
00:42:28,520 --> 00:42:30,080
Ask somebody to talk to you.

1007
00:42:30,080 --> 00:42:33,440
It literally is like, I'm going to leave all these breadcrumbs, and if they don't find

1008
00:42:33,440 --> 00:42:37,000
it, then it's their fucking fault for not finding it and figuring it out my puzzle.

1009
00:42:37,000 --> 00:42:38,000
Yep.

1010
00:42:38,000 --> 00:42:39,640
Ask someone for fucking advice.

1011
00:42:39,640 --> 00:42:41,880
Like, oh my God, that's so annoying.

1012
00:42:41,880 --> 00:42:46,120
And apparently no one ever saw or said anything about this.

1013
00:42:46,120 --> 00:42:51,640
Randy would begin to wear his favorite shirt, which he bought three of, the same one, and

1014
00:42:51,640 --> 00:42:53,400
he wore them almost every day.

1015
00:42:53,400 --> 00:42:57,560
It was the same shirt that Eric Harris wore on the date of the Columbine shootings.

1016
00:42:57,560 --> 00:43:02,040
It's an all-white t-shirt and black lettering that says natural selection.

1017
00:43:02,040 --> 00:43:03,920
That's not what the fuck that means, but all right.

1018
00:43:03,920 --> 00:43:04,920
No, it's not.

1019
00:43:04,920 --> 00:43:06,600
But Eric Harris made it famous, apparently.

1020
00:43:06,600 --> 00:43:08,040
Well, Eric Harris is a dumbass.

1021
00:43:08,040 --> 00:43:09,200
Well, he's dead, so.

1022
00:43:09,200 --> 00:43:11,200
Well, he was a dumbass.

1023
00:43:11,200 --> 00:43:12,200
Rest in distress.

1024
00:43:12,200 --> 00:43:14,700
Rest in distress, bro.

1025
00:43:14,700 --> 00:43:19,000
He talked of his mother again saying, quote, how she never saw the warning signs is beyond

1026
00:43:19,000 --> 00:43:21,160
me.

1027
00:43:21,160 --> 00:43:26,800
On the 18th of May, he posted on the Embers Go Squad Twitter page, quote, if you think

1028
00:43:26,800 --> 00:43:31,200
that your body is ready for June 7th, you're gravely mistaken, end quote.

1029
00:43:31,200 --> 00:43:37,280
He is literally saying what he's going to do, but also that's like not telling anybody

1030
00:43:37,280 --> 00:43:40,240
when your fucking birthday is and still expecting a surprise party.

1031
00:43:40,240 --> 00:43:42,240
Damn, that's, yeah.

1032
00:43:42,240 --> 00:43:44,240
Like, oh shit.

1033
00:43:44,240 --> 00:43:45,240
And then getting mad.

1034
00:43:45,240 --> 00:43:46,240
My bad.

1035
00:43:46,240 --> 00:43:48,600
Pouting when someone doesn't throw you a party.

1036
00:43:48,600 --> 00:43:53,040
He had also tweeted out, quote, mark your calendars for June 7th, end quote.

1037
00:43:53,040 --> 00:43:55,160
Wait, I thought it was June 9th.

1038
00:43:55,160 --> 00:43:57,760
He originally was going to do June 9th, then he changed it to the 7th.

1039
00:43:57,760 --> 00:43:58,760
Oh, okay.

1040
00:43:58,760 --> 00:43:59,960
I was like, why is he saying the 7th?

1041
00:43:59,960 --> 00:44:00,960
My bad.

1042
00:44:00,960 --> 00:44:01,960
Yeah, I forgot to mention that.

1043
00:44:01,960 --> 00:44:04,960
Might be an important detail.

1044
00:44:04,960 --> 00:44:11,400
Rachel's Twitter would read things like, quote, who's ready to die, end quote.

1045
00:44:11,400 --> 00:44:17,640
And quote, if you're going to die, you got to die hardcore or not at all, end quote.

1046
00:44:17,640 --> 00:44:21,200
That doesn't fucking make any sense either or not at all.

1047
00:44:21,200 --> 00:44:26,480
Rachel was portrayed as this character who was the most highly volatile character that

1048
00:44:26,480 --> 00:44:28,120
he created.

1049
00:44:28,120 --> 00:44:32,600
So now it's not only him, but it's everybody he's associated with apparently.

1050
00:44:32,600 --> 00:44:34,760
Who's to say that these accounts aren't real people?

1051
00:44:34,760 --> 00:44:35,760
That's true.

1052
00:44:35,760 --> 00:44:40,160
And so his followers, because he has followers that are wondering where he's going, aren't

1053
00:44:40,160 --> 00:44:43,440
seeing this and being like, damn, there might potentially be eight fucking people that are

1054
00:44:43,440 --> 00:44:45,240
like planning something on the 7th.

1055
00:44:45,240 --> 00:44:49,280
So let me tell you a little story about a man named Honan Vasquez.

1056
00:44:49,280 --> 00:44:54,800
So Honan Vasquez was a comic book creator a long time ago who created a comic called

1057
00:44:54,800 --> 00:44:57,640
Johnny the Homicidal Maniac.

1058
00:44:57,640 --> 00:45:00,840
And everybody loved this comic when I was a kid.

1059
00:45:00,840 --> 00:45:02,440
Everybody loved it.

1060
00:45:02,440 --> 00:45:08,400
Knee was like, which it's Johnny, but his nickname was Knee, right?

1061
00:45:08,400 --> 00:45:18,520
Knee was just so fucking tortured and so fucking literally he's a homicidal maniac, right?

1062
00:45:18,520 --> 00:45:23,440
And who's to say like when we're reading these comics, because we know who's writing

1063
00:45:23,440 --> 00:45:26,080
them and illustrating them.

1064
00:45:26,080 --> 00:45:31,760
So were we like, oh man, Honan Vasquez, he's completely just a tortured individual.

1065
00:45:31,760 --> 00:45:33,040
Like clearly this man needs help.

1066
00:45:33,040 --> 00:45:35,400
No, we just thought it was fucking cool.

1067
00:45:35,400 --> 00:45:39,400
And so what I'm saying is like people looking at these Twitter pages and stuff are probably

1068
00:45:39,400 --> 00:45:44,800
like they know it's coming from Andrew Blaze, but they're like probably like, oh my God,

1069
00:45:44,800 --> 00:45:48,080
like he's you know, he's developing these characters, this is character development.

1070
00:45:48,080 --> 00:45:49,080
You know what I'm saying?

1071
00:45:49,080 --> 00:45:50,080
I guess.

1072
00:45:50,080 --> 00:45:53,680
But like, okay, I can be on board with that everywhere until he says June 7th.

1073
00:45:53,680 --> 00:45:54,680
Yeah.

1074
00:45:54,680 --> 00:45:56,280
Like that is what's getting me.

1075
00:45:56,280 --> 00:45:57,600
It's like there is a date.

1076
00:45:57,600 --> 00:46:01,960
It is rapidly approaching and you're like, oh June 7th, people are going to die.

1077
00:46:01,960 --> 00:46:02,960
Yeah.

1078
00:46:02,960 --> 00:46:03,960
No.

1079
00:46:03,960 --> 00:46:04,960
New merch launching.

1080
00:46:04,960 --> 00:46:05,960
That's probably what they think though.

1081
00:46:05,960 --> 00:46:06,960
That's what they think though.

1082
00:46:06,960 --> 00:46:09,360
But they probably think that's what it means or something.

1083
00:46:09,360 --> 00:46:11,160
Our listeners are smart enough to know.

1084
00:46:11,160 --> 00:46:12,160
We know.

1085
00:46:12,160 --> 00:46:13,600
When you hear a date, someone's going to fucking die.

1086
00:46:13,600 --> 00:46:15,600
But this is hindsight, it's 2020 kind of shit.

1087
00:46:15,600 --> 00:46:16,600
You know what I mean?

1088
00:46:16,600 --> 00:46:17,600
That's stupid.

1089
00:46:17,600 --> 00:46:18,600
Yeah.

1090
00:46:18,600 --> 00:46:19,600
I'm mad.

1091
00:46:19,600 --> 00:46:22,040
I'm just happy I got to talk about Honan Vasquez.

1092
00:46:22,040 --> 00:46:26,600
Didn't think that would ever come up in my head ever again.

1093
00:46:26,600 --> 00:46:34,040
So again, Rachel is this highly volatile character and Randy starts beginning to talk about his

1094
00:46:34,040 --> 00:46:41,080
frustration about finishing the EGS project before the time came to execute his plan.

1095
00:46:41,080 --> 00:46:43,680
Because what, you think the people are just going to carry this on and you're going to

1096
00:46:43,680 --> 00:46:45,720
become famous even when you're gone?

1097
00:46:45,720 --> 00:46:46,720
Absolutely.

1098
00:46:46,720 --> 00:46:47,720
Absolutely.

1099
00:46:47,720 --> 00:46:48,720
Well, that's what he wants from all of this.

1100
00:46:48,720 --> 00:46:51,360
He wants attention and he wants fame.

1101
00:46:51,360 --> 00:46:55,120
Animators and other voice actors that he had hired to complete the project would quit

1102
00:46:55,120 --> 00:47:00,160
once they learned of the theme that Randy was going to put in the Ember Ghost Squad

1103
00:47:00,160 --> 00:47:01,160
video.

1104
00:47:01,160 --> 00:47:02,160
Smart.

1105
00:47:02,160 --> 00:47:08,280
In one video, Randy went on a tangent about one of the voice actors saying, quote, still

1106
00:47:08,280 --> 00:47:11,760
don't have it, the script was sent out in March and it's June 2nd.

1107
00:47:11,760 --> 00:47:13,760
Where's my voice over Zalora?

1108
00:47:13,760 --> 00:47:16,000
The ones that I paid for, where are they?

1109
00:47:16,000 --> 00:47:18,240
Better have them by Monday or you're dead.

1110
00:47:18,240 --> 00:47:20,200
People are worthless sacks of shit.

1111
00:47:20,200 --> 00:47:23,040
No one cares, no one cares until you're dead.

1112
00:47:23,040 --> 00:47:26,240
Once this all happens, they're going to say, man, I wish I talked to him more.

1113
00:47:26,240 --> 00:47:28,960
Well, too late, end quote.

1114
00:47:28,960 --> 00:47:32,240
That is the biggest red flag of them all and it's June 2nd.

1115
00:47:32,240 --> 00:47:34,680
You have five days to make a decision, people.

1116
00:47:34,680 --> 00:47:36,720
So five days to phone the fucking police.

1117
00:47:36,720 --> 00:47:40,440
Well, these videos specifically are the videos that he left behind.

1118
00:47:40,440 --> 00:47:42,280
These aren't the ones that he's posting.

1119
00:47:42,280 --> 00:47:44,640
The Twitter is all, that's all fair game.

1120
00:47:44,640 --> 00:47:47,720
And he is still posting some videos but they're kind of like skits, although they still talk

1121
00:47:47,720 --> 00:47:49,520
about death and things like that.

1122
00:47:49,520 --> 00:47:55,920
This is more of like a personal vlog that he made to be a part of his afterlife videos.

1123
00:47:55,920 --> 00:47:57,680
Like 13 reasons why.

1124
00:47:57,680 --> 00:47:58,680
Yeah.

1125
00:47:58,680 --> 00:48:03,720
The project that was set to launch in just five days was titled quote, the Westboro High

1126
00:48:03,720 --> 00:48:10,160
Massacre, end quote, in which Ember and Randy depicted as a ghost girl would enact a school

1127
00:48:10,160 --> 00:48:11,160
shooting.

1128
00:48:11,160 --> 00:48:15,160
So most of these voice actors or animators would quit because they're like, we're not

1129
00:48:15,160 --> 00:48:18,280
going to work on a project called Westboro High Massacre.

1130
00:48:18,280 --> 00:48:19,600
We're not going to do that.

1131
00:48:19,600 --> 00:48:23,120
And he would like pay people and then they would get into it and they'd be like, I'm

1132
00:48:23,120 --> 00:48:24,120
not going to do that.

1133
00:48:24,120 --> 00:48:25,680
But he realized it's a real fucking school, right?

1134
00:48:25,680 --> 00:48:27,040
But he felt wronged.

1135
00:48:27,040 --> 00:48:30,040
Like he thought this was like his manifesto kind of a thing, you know?

1136
00:48:30,040 --> 00:48:31,040
Oh gosh.

1137
00:48:31,040 --> 00:48:33,040
And like nobody wanted to work on it.

1138
00:48:33,040 --> 00:48:36,920
He said that if it wasn't for Ember telling him to do this, that none of this would have

1139
00:48:36,920 --> 00:48:37,920
happened.

1140
00:48:37,920 --> 00:48:40,600
But she needed more souls for her squad.

1141
00:48:40,600 --> 00:48:44,600
Again, putting the blame on everyone else.

1142
00:48:44,600 --> 00:48:46,320
It's their fault because they quit my show.

1143
00:48:46,320 --> 00:48:47,960
It's my mom's fault for buying me a shotgun.

1144
00:48:47,960 --> 00:48:49,320
It's everyone else's fault for ignoring me.

1145
00:48:49,320 --> 00:48:52,680
It's this random ghost character chick that doesn't even fucking exist.

1146
00:48:52,680 --> 00:48:56,000
It's her fault because she's telling you what to do and she needs more fucking souls.

1147
00:48:56,000 --> 00:48:58,280
It's never, ever his fault.

1148
00:48:58,280 --> 00:48:59,280
Right.

1149
00:48:59,280 --> 00:49:03,720
A few days before June 7th, Randy filmed himself flipping a coin.

1150
00:49:03,720 --> 00:49:06,320
The coin was to determine one of two things.

1151
00:49:06,320 --> 00:49:09,520
Heads, Randy would stay home and commit suicide.

1152
00:49:09,520 --> 00:49:14,160
Tails, he was to perpetrate a mass shooting that he had been planning this whole time.

1153
00:49:14,160 --> 00:49:17,080
Let me guess it lands on heads and he flips it over.

1154
00:49:17,080 --> 00:49:21,000
Another reason to move up the date was that one of his intended targets was a manager that

1155
00:49:21,000 --> 00:49:24,800
he was attempting to switch to day shifts.

1156
00:49:24,800 --> 00:49:28,360
At this time, Randy was working overnight shifts.

1157
00:49:28,360 --> 00:49:35,200
Filming the event in his backyard, he decided that the winning flip will be two out of three.

1158
00:49:35,200 --> 00:49:37,000
When the first one didn't go his way.

1159
00:49:37,000 --> 00:49:39,120
He's like, he already said.

1160
00:49:39,120 --> 00:49:40,360
No, he already said.

1161
00:49:40,360 --> 00:49:41,600
He already said.

1162
00:49:41,600 --> 00:49:43,160
He flips.

1163
00:49:43,160 --> 00:49:44,160
Tails.

1164
00:49:44,160 --> 00:49:45,160
He flips.

1165
00:49:45,160 --> 00:49:46,160
He flips.

1166
00:49:46,160 --> 00:49:47,160
He flips.

1167
00:49:47,160 --> 00:49:48,160
He flips.

1168
00:49:48,160 --> 00:49:49,160
He flips.

1169
00:49:49,160 --> 00:49:50,160
Tails.

1170
00:49:50,160 --> 00:49:53,840
I feel like that's bullshit.

1171
00:49:53,840 --> 00:49:56,400
I feel like he didn't even fucking flip what he did in the video.

1172
00:49:56,400 --> 00:49:57,400
He did.

1173
00:49:57,400 --> 00:49:58,400
It's on video.

1174
00:49:58,400 --> 00:50:01,800
Yeah, and it's him in his backyard and he's just throwing it up in the air and then he

1175
00:50:01,800 --> 00:50:06,240
walks over the camera, picks up the camera, takes it over so that everyone can see that

1176
00:50:06,240 --> 00:50:08,960
he's up to the fakes.

1177
00:50:08,960 --> 00:50:12,920
I feel like if it lands it on heads, heads, he probably still would have found a way to

1178
00:50:12,920 --> 00:50:13,920
make it in his favor.

1179
00:50:13,920 --> 00:50:14,920
I don't know.

1180
00:50:14,920 --> 00:50:15,920
I don't.

1181
00:50:15,920 --> 00:50:16,920
You don't think so?

1182
00:50:16,920 --> 00:50:17,920
You think he would have killed himself?

1183
00:50:17,920 --> 00:50:18,920
I think he would have.

1184
00:50:18,920 --> 00:50:21,720
I'm not saying that he wouldn't maybe take out his family members, but.

1185
00:50:21,720 --> 00:50:23,720
I don't know.

1186
00:50:23,720 --> 00:50:24,720
Take out Salon's heart.

1187
00:50:24,720 --> 00:50:25,720
Sorry.

1188
00:50:25,720 --> 00:50:26,720
That's all right.

1189
00:50:26,720 --> 00:50:29,440
He vlogs in his car four days before the shooting.

1190
00:50:29,440 --> 00:50:35,120
Quote, just looking at everyone at the supermarket, the manager is coming in like la-da-da-da,

1191
00:50:35,120 --> 00:50:37,840
just messing around and talking about this.

1192
00:50:37,840 --> 00:50:41,000
In four more nights, your whole lives are going to be turned upside down because of

1193
00:50:41,000 --> 00:50:42,000
me.

1194
00:50:42,000 --> 00:50:44,440
I'm going to fuck up your life and I can't wait.

1195
00:50:44,440 --> 00:50:48,880
Quote, who would have thought a cartoon character would cause all of this to happen?

1196
00:50:48,880 --> 00:50:49,880
End quote.

1197
00:50:49,880 --> 00:50:50,880
Yeah, no one.

1198
00:50:50,880 --> 00:50:54,160
I mean, because that's bonkers.

1199
00:50:54,160 --> 00:50:59,240
After which, he turns to the passenger seat and offers a chip to Ember, presumably sitting

1200
00:50:59,240 --> 00:51:03,760
in the seat.

1201
00:51:03,760 --> 00:51:11,360
I just want to say nothing pisses me off more than someone being angry about people just

1202
00:51:11,360 --> 00:51:12,360
living their fucking lives.

1203
00:51:12,360 --> 00:51:14,360
Like, if it's like outside watching people.

1204
00:51:14,360 --> 00:51:15,360
He's like, ugh, look at that.

1205
00:51:15,360 --> 00:51:16,360
Look at them just head going to work.

1206
00:51:16,360 --> 00:51:17,360
They're just going to work.

1207
00:51:17,360 --> 00:51:18,360
They're just doing their daily shit.

1208
00:51:18,360 --> 00:51:19,360
It's like, heads.

1209
00:51:19,360 --> 00:51:20,360
I don't know if he was mad.

1210
00:51:20,360 --> 00:51:25,320
I think he thought that he was being like, yeah, no, like, look at these ants just going

1211
00:51:25,320 --> 00:51:26,320
about their life.

1212
00:51:26,320 --> 00:51:27,320
That's what I'm saying.

1213
00:51:27,320 --> 00:51:28,320
Sheepal, you know?

1214
00:51:28,320 --> 00:51:29,800
No idea what's going to happen.

1215
00:51:29,800 --> 00:51:33,760
Like, God, that makes me mad.

1216
00:51:33,760 --> 00:51:38,160
On the morning of June 7th, Randy takes a trip up to the Y's supermarket, bringing

1217
00:51:38,160 --> 00:51:39,960
along his camera.

1218
00:51:39,960 --> 00:51:44,120
He films the aisles as he talks about his plan under his breath.

1219
00:51:44,120 --> 00:51:47,960
It's almost as if he is staking out the exits.

1220
00:51:47,960 --> 00:51:52,400
He does film a few exit points and plots further about what is to transpire later that night

1221
00:51:52,400 --> 00:51:56,480
when he starts his 11 PM overnight shift.

1222
00:51:56,480 --> 00:52:01,960
Randy posts his final video before leaving for his work shift on YouTube.

1223
00:52:01,960 --> 00:52:06,600
Randy can be seen loading his shotguns, Mackenzie and Rachel, and then placing them into a duffel

1224
00:52:06,600 --> 00:52:08,080
bag.

1225
00:52:08,080 --> 00:52:12,080
Randy felt that he had given everyone a fair chance to stop him by posting this publicly

1226
00:52:12,080 --> 00:52:13,480
on YouTube.

1227
00:52:13,480 --> 00:52:17,000
Again, just a few hours before he were to head to work at 11 PM.

1228
00:52:17,000 --> 00:52:19,600
It's everyone else's fault again.

1229
00:52:19,600 --> 00:52:24,280
Once there, Randy began to barricade and block exits with pallets in the back of the store

1230
00:52:24,280 --> 00:52:26,280
in preparation for his project.

1231
00:52:26,280 --> 00:52:27,640
That's so scary.

1232
00:52:27,640 --> 00:52:31,320
He did this completely undetected as everyone else was busy straightening and stalking the

1233
00:52:31,320 --> 00:52:33,200
shelves.

1234
00:52:33,200 --> 00:52:39,640
At 12.10 AM, Randy gets on his phone in order to send out various links to his Twitter account

1235
00:52:39,640 --> 00:52:44,840
titled Journal, Digital Set, and Suicide Tapes.

1236
00:52:44,840 --> 00:52:50,560
At almost 1 AM, Rachel sends out her last tweet saying, quote, me and Andrew are gonna

1237
00:52:50,560 --> 00:52:54,800
give the world a little insight into what really lurks around the shadows of your everyday

1238
00:52:54,800 --> 00:52:56,600
lives, end quote.

1239
00:52:56,600 --> 00:52:59,360
Oh my God.

1240
00:52:59,360 --> 00:53:01,280
So many fucking red flags.

1241
00:53:01,280 --> 00:53:02,280
So many.

1242
00:53:02,280 --> 00:53:07,400
So many and I don't want to side with him, but so many fucking chances for people to

1243
00:53:07,400 --> 00:53:08,920
have spoken up and said something.

1244
00:53:08,920 --> 00:53:10,280
And I'm not giving him that.

1245
00:53:10,280 --> 00:53:14,800
I'm just saying like there's so many things that are concerning with what he's been doing.

1246
00:53:14,800 --> 00:53:20,480
Quickly, Randy sketches out a layout of the store and where each employee was to be assigned

1247
00:53:20,480 --> 00:53:22,200
that night.

1248
00:53:22,200 --> 00:53:26,200
Randy was one of five that were working in the building.

1249
00:53:26,200 --> 00:53:29,960
He took his duffel bag from the back, walked to the front of the store, where he locked

1250
00:53:29,960 --> 00:53:33,840
the front doors and barred them with various store racks.

1251
00:53:33,840 --> 00:53:40,600
26 year old mother of one, Victoria Brong, and her co-worker 25 year old, Kristen Nowell,

1252
00:53:40,600 --> 00:53:44,000
were working on the same aisle stalking and straightening things.

1253
00:53:44,000 --> 00:53:48,280
The two were known to listen to music while working and goofing off occasionally.

1254
00:53:48,280 --> 00:53:51,880
After laughing for some time, the two went back to work and at separate ends of the aisle

1255
00:53:51,880 --> 00:53:53,400
began to restock.

1256
00:53:53,400 --> 00:53:57,880
Suddenly, Kristen thought she heard something, a bang of sorts.

1257
00:53:57,880 --> 00:54:01,720
By the second bang, Kristen took out her earbud and turned to ask Victoria what she thought

1258
00:54:01,720 --> 00:54:03,560
the noise could be.

1259
00:54:03,560 --> 00:54:06,800
Kristen was horrified when she looked down the aisle to see Victoria's lifeless body

1260
00:54:06,800 --> 00:54:09,280
at Randy Sears' heat.

1261
00:54:09,280 --> 00:54:12,440
Oh my God.

1262
00:54:12,440 --> 00:54:16,240
She turned to her friend and she was like, hey, hey, what was that?

1263
00:54:16,240 --> 00:54:18,600
Oh my God.

1264
00:54:18,600 --> 00:54:23,440
The two made eye contact as Randy stared into Kristen's eyes and he began firing two more

1265
00:54:23,440 --> 00:54:27,440
shots into Victoria's body, then continued to look at Kristen.

1266
00:54:27,440 --> 00:54:28,880
Oh my God.

1267
00:54:28,880 --> 00:54:33,040
Completely frozen, Kristen could do nothing, say nothing, and just stare back at Randy as

1268
00:54:33,040 --> 00:54:36,160
she tried to process what happened.

1269
00:54:36,160 --> 00:54:41,440
Randy after about five to six seconds, lowered his gun and moved down to the next aisle.

1270
00:54:41,440 --> 00:54:42,920
What?

1271
00:54:42,920 --> 00:54:45,840
Only Randy knows why he didn't shoot Kristen that day.

1272
00:54:45,840 --> 00:54:48,160
Oh my gosh.

1273
00:54:48,160 --> 00:54:51,160
She just like, what do you think would have happened if she started running?

1274
00:54:51,160 --> 00:54:52,760
Do you think he would have shot her?

1275
00:54:52,760 --> 00:54:53,760
Maybe.

1276
00:54:53,760 --> 00:54:54,760
Wild.

1277
00:54:54,760 --> 00:54:57,080
The fact that she was just like standing there staring at him.

1278
00:54:57,080 --> 00:54:59,720
There's another theory later, we'll get to him.

1279
00:54:59,720 --> 00:55:00,720
Okay.

1280
00:55:00,720 --> 00:55:05,360
Randy moved to the next aisle where he found 47-year-old Navy veteran Brian Hayes.

1281
00:55:05,360 --> 00:55:07,920
Brian was originally from East Orange, New Jersey.

1282
00:55:07,920 --> 00:55:08,920
Orange.

1283
00:55:08,920 --> 00:55:09,920
I don't know if you're better there.

1284
00:55:09,920 --> 00:55:10,920
Orange.

1285
00:55:10,920 --> 00:55:11,920
Orange.

1286
00:55:11,920 --> 00:55:14,920
He was a married father of two girls.

1287
00:55:14,920 --> 00:55:17,000
Oh no.

1288
00:55:17,000 --> 00:55:20,920
Randy shot Brian five times, three of which were considered to be fatal wounds.

1289
00:55:20,920 --> 00:55:23,000
Oh my gosh.

1290
00:55:23,000 --> 00:55:27,600
Randy moved on to locate his last co-worker, 63-year-old Terry Lee Sterling, who at this

1291
00:55:27,600 --> 00:55:32,320
point was attempting to flee Randy's rampage.

1292
00:55:32,320 --> 00:55:35,600
Terry was a father and grandfather who had lost his wife just five years prior.

1293
00:55:35,600 --> 00:55:37,400
Oh my God, no.

1294
00:55:37,400 --> 00:55:41,760
Victoria was shot twice in the back in an attempt to escape Randy.

1295
00:55:41,760 --> 00:55:47,040
During this time, however, Kristen, who was in a complete state of shock, in her mind

1296
00:55:47,040 --> 00:55:52,040
she said that she probably stood there for 10 to 15 minutes, but it probably wasn't.

1297
00:55:52,040 --> 00:55:55,640
It's just, that's how long it felt.

1298
00:55:55,640 --> 00:55:59,720
She managed to try to run to Victoria's aid, not fully comprehending that Victoria was

1299
00:55:59,720 --> 00:56:02,080
beyond help at this point.

1300
00:56:02,080 --> 00:56:06,640
She does make her way to the front of the store in order to locate a phone to call 911.

1301
00:56:06,640 --> 00:56:10,080
Kristen did not know the condition of her other co-workers, but continued to hear multiple

1302
00:56:10,080 --> 00:56:12,760
gunshots echoing throughout the store for some time.

1303
00:56:12,760 --> 00:56:13,760
Like every 30 seconds.

1304
00:56:13,760 --> 00:56:16,520
Oh my God, that's so scary.

1305
00:56:16,520 --> 00:56:20,360
Kristen managed to hide under a register and wait for help, but eventually escaped through

1306
00:56:20,360 --> 00:56:22,160
the front door.

1307
00:56:22,160 --> 00:56:26,240
First responders arrived to find Randy's stare had died from a self-inflicted gunshot

1308
00:56:26,240 --> 00:56:28,120
wound.

1309
00:56:28,120 --> 00:56:31,600
Investigators found that Randy had also attempted to shoot some propane tanks in an effort to

1310
00:56:31,600 --> 00:56:33,320
blow up the store.

1311
00:56:33,320 --> 00:56:36,120
A total of 59 shots had been fired throughout the store.

1312
00:56:36,120 --> 00:56:37,120
Oh my God.

1313
00:56:37,120 --> 00:56:39,120
Take a breath.

1314
00:56:39,120 --> 00:56:41,760
Jesus.

1315
00:56:41,760 --> 00:56:45,920
When Randy was autopsied, it was noted that he was wearing a full face of makeup designed

1316
00:56:45,920 --> 00:56:48,520
similarly to Ember McClain's makeup.

1317
00:56:48,520 --> 00:56:53,560
Like she had these like curly cute thingies on her eyes and stuff.

1318
00:56:53,560 --> 00:56:55,440
Where did he shoot himself?

1319
00:56:55,440 --> 00:56:56,440
I don't know.

1320
00:56:56,440 --> 00:57:00,800
I was gonna say like clearly it had to be done during his autopsy and not when they

1321
00:57:00,800 --> 00:57:02,200
just stumbled upon him.

1322
00:57:02,200 --> 00:57:03,200
I don't know.

1323
00:57:03,200 --> 00:57:06,760
Not like they walked up and he's just dolled up like before.

1324
00:57:06,760 --> 00:57:09,320
No, I don't know where he shot himself.

1325
00:57:09,320 --> 00:57:11,440
I'll just say that.

1326
00:57:11,440 --> 00:57:12,440
Okay.

1327
00:57:12,440 --> 00:57:14,520
I know.

1328
00:57:14,520 --> 00:57:18,040
He was also wearing feminine undergarments underneath his clothing.

1329
00:57:18,040 --> 00:57:19,280
Oh wow.

1330
00:57:19,280 --> 00:57:23,760
There was also a mass amount of benadryl in his system to which investigators thought

1331
00:57:23,760 --> 00:57:28,120
that he maybe tried to overdose first before deciding to shoot himself.

1332
00:57:28,120 --> 00:57:29,120
Well, no, because-

1333
00:57:29,120 --> 00:57:30,560
Like maybe it wasn't working.

1334
00:57:30,560 --> 00:57:33,080
The coin was tailed, so why would he have done that?

1335
00:57:33,080 --> 00:57:35,240
Well, he was planning on killing himself.

1336
00:57:35,240 --> 00:57:37,440
He just didn't know if he was gonna kill other people.

1337
00:57:37,440 --> 00:57:39,960
That was the whole point of the coin.

1338
00:57:39,960 --> 00:57:42,040
I was just being a dick, I know.

1339
00:57:42,040 --> 00:57:45,680
But this is one of the theories as to why Kristen was able to escape because if he was

1340
00:57:45,680 --> 00:57:51,880
hallucinating or was in a sense of like days and was literally overdosing, he might not

1341
00:57:51,880 --> 00:57:57,320
have seen her or thought maybe that she was also a delusion of some kind.

1342
00:57:57,320 --> 00:57:58,320
Oh, okay.

1343
00:57:58,320 --> 00:58:00,080
But she didn't move.

1344
00:58:00,080 --> 00:58:01,080
Yes.

1345
00:58:01,080 --> 00:58:02,080
Oh.

1346
00:58:02,080 --> 00:58:03,080
And he rexed.

1347
00:58:03,080 --> 00:58:05,080
Yeah, if you don't move, they can't see you.

1348
00:58:05,080 --> 00:58:06,080
Yeah.

1349
00:58:06,080 --> 00:58:09,880
Police searched Randy's home and found a mountain of evidence, of course.

1350
00:58:09,880 --> 00:58:13,520
Again, it's not like Randy tried to cover any of this up.

1351
00:58:13,520 --> 00:58:19,600
More weapons were found, more boxes of ammunition, journals, videos, flash drives, you name it.

1352
00:58:19,600 --> 00:58:23,160
It was just- he did not try to hide anything.

1353
00:58:23,160 --> 00:58:27,360
So at this point, it wasn't shocking to police that Randy had perpetrated such a crime.

1354
00:58:27,360 --> 00:58:28,360
Yeah.

1355
00:58:28,360 --> 00:58:30,120
Because to them, it was just like, uh, like, look at all this evidence.

1356
00:58:30,120 --> 00:58:33,240
He said that he was going to do it.

1357
00:58:33,240 --> 00:58:34,640
There weren't just warning signs.

1358
00:58:34,640 --> 00:58:36,760
There were massive red flags.

1359
00:58:36,760 --> 00:58:39,520
Like ding ding ding, like lights and everything like arrows.

1360
00:58:39,520 --> 00:58:42,160
Yeah, arrows, yeah.

1361
00:58:42,160 --> 00:58:47,680
A true indication of just how narcissistic and itching for Randy's fame was, on one

1362
00:58:47,680 --> 00:58:52,200
of the last videos to his parents, he had wished for them to give away his property

1363
00:58:52,200 --> 00:58:55,120
and his room to his fans.

1364
00:58:55,120 --> 00:58:56,120
His fans.

1365
00:58:56,120 --> 00:58:57,920
He said, my fans are going to want all this stuff.

1366
00:58:57,920 --> 00:59:00,400
Like this is good stuff, like you should give it away to fans.

1367
00:59:00,400 --> 00:59:03,400
No, your fans are going to be like, what the holy fuck.

1368
00:59:03,400 --> 00:59:04,400
Burn it.

1369
00:59:04,400 --> 00:59:05,400
Burn it.

1370
00:59:05,400 --> 00:59:06,400
Burn it.

1371
00:59:06,400 --> 00:59:12,240
Yeah, like his posters, his writings, he had asked that they all be posted, like, for

1372
00:59:12,240 --> 00:59:15,000
sale or for want or whatever.

1373
00:59:15,000 --> 00:59:16,000
No.

1374
00:59:16,000 --> 00:59:17,000
Using his phone.

1375
00:59:17,000 --> 00:59:20,880
Like he had told, I guess, like his parents that they could access his phone after his

1376
00:59:20,880 --> 00:59:25,120
passing so that they could post, like, from his accounts.

1377
00:59:25,120 --> 00:59:26,120
Oh yeah.

1378
00:59:26,120 --> 00:59:28,160
Yeah, and they were just going to be like, sure honey, we'll do that for you.

1379
00:59:28,160 --> 00:59:30,640
Yeah, we'll just keep it alive, like Norman Bates or whatever.

1380
00:59:30,640 --> 00:59:31,640
Yeah.

1381
00:59:31,640 --> 00:59:32,640
God.

1382
00:59:32,640 --> 00:59:33,640
Isn't that strange?

1383
00:59:33,640 --> 00:59:34,640
That is very strange.

1384
00:59:34,640 --> 00:59:35,840
But that just shows, like, that he wanted the fame.

1385
00:59:35,840 --> 00:59:39,360
He wanted, he was like, certainly somebody's going to want this stuff because I wanted

1386
00:59:39,360 --> 00:59:40,360
all the Columbine stuff.

1387
00:59:40,360 --> 00:59:41,360
Yeah.

1388
00:59:41,360 --> 00:59:42,360
Surely somebody's going to want this.

1389
00:59:42,360 --> 00:59:44,000
Put it aside for them.

1390
00:59:44,000 --> 00:59:47,480
It's like, it's weird because it doesn't seem like a narcissistic thing, but it also

1391
00:59:47,480 --> 00:59:48,480
does.

1392
00:59:48,480 --> 00:59:49,480
Yeah.

1393
00:59:49,480 --> 00:59:52,320
Yeah, he seriously thinks that people are going to like idolize him.

1394
00:59:52,320 --> 00:59:57,480
But it kind of makes sense, it's like, kind of this weird juxtaposition with Ember because

1395
00:59:57,480 --> 01:00:04,200
it's like she gains her power from being idolized by tormented souls.

1396
01:00:04,200 --> 01:00:05,200
Yeah.

1397
01:00:05,200 --> 01:00:06,200
You know what I mean?

1398
01:00:06,200 --> 01:00:08,440
So like, that's what he wants because that's what he was.

1399
01:00:08,440 --> 01:00:10,320
He idolized Eric Harris specifically.

1400
01:00:10,320 --> 01:00:11,320
Yeah.

1401
01:00:11,320 --> 01:00:16,800
And was like, you know, you live on through me idolizing you.

1402
01:00:16,800 --> 01:00:17,800
I never understood that.

1403
01:00:17,800 --> 01:00:18,800
And that's what he wants.

1404
01:00:18,800 --> 01:00:21,480
That's creepy.

1405
01:00:21,480 --> 01:00:26,120
He says to his parents in the video, quote, the warning signs were always there.

1406
01:00:26,120 --> 01:00:27,800
They were there from the beginning.

1407
01:00:27,800 --> 01:00:33,280
You can always say, what if, what if, what if, but what could have been done?

1408
01:00:33,280 --> 01:00:35,080
How did we not know?

1409
01:00:35,080 --> 01:00:36,840
It was all there in front of your face.

1410
01:00:36,840 --> 01:00:38,320
So welcome to reality.

1411
01:00:38,320 --> 01:00:39,800
End quote.

1412
01:00:39,800 --> 01:00:40,800
To his parents.

1413
01:00:40,800 --> 01:00:43,280
Ooh, that's fucking heavy.

1414
01:00:43,280 --> 01:00:44,760
This is the reality.

1415
01:00:44,760 --> 01:00:45,760
Yikes.

1416
01:00:45,760 --> 01:00:47,600
Of who I am, your son.

1417
01:00:47,600 --> 01:00:51,440
Like, welcome to reality.

1418
01:00:51,440 --> 01:00:56,000
He did believe that Ember was a goddess and he worshiped her and then through worshiping

1419
01:00:56,000 --> 01:01:00,360
her he would gain this ghost squad everlasting life.

1420
01:01:00,360 --> 01:01:01,360
Yeah.

1421
01:01:01,360 --> 01:01:05,960
Before the shootings, Randy actually emailed the voice actor that voiced Ember McLean's

1422
01:01:05,960 --> 01:01:07,360
voice on the show.

1423
01:01:07,360 --> 01:01:08,360
Oh, no.

1424
01:01:08,360 --> 01:01:10,080
Danny Phantom, yeah.

1425
01:01:10,080 --> 01:01:14,880
He thanked her for influencing him and that by the time she would be reading this email,

1426
01:01:14,880 --> 01:01:15,880
he would be dead.

1427
01:01:15,880 --> 01:01:16,880
Could you imagine?

1428
01:01:16,880 --> 01:01:19,240
Can you imagine being her, right?

1429
01:01:19,240 --> 01:01:20,240
Getting that email and probably.

1430
01:01:20,240 --> 01:01:21,760
She really didn't even read it.

1431
01:01:21,760 --> 01:01:23,360
It was probably one of her assistants that read it.

1432
01:01:23,360 --> 01:01:25,360
It was like, I'm not fucking sure.

1433
01:01:25,360 --> 01:01:26,360
Yeah.

1434
01:01:26,360 --> 01:01:27,360
Delete.

1435
01:01:27,360 --> 01:01:28,360
What is it?

1436
01:01:28,360 --> 01:01:29,360
Delete.

1437
01:01:29,360 --> 01:01:37,360
This is, this is, this is boring.

1438
01:01:37,360 --> 01:01:38,360
Delete.

1439
01:01:38,360 --> 01:01:41,640
It's my Scott Pilgrim.

1440
01:01:41,640 --> 01:01:44,920
Oh, I was talking about the Michael Jackson.

1441
01:01:44,920 --> 01:01:45,920
Delete.

1442
01:01:45,920 --> 01:01:50,560
I was like, he, he, he, like, Jimi Changa, Banana Bong Na.

1443
01:01:50,560 --> 01:01:54,200
Our references are showing our age gap.

1444
01:01:54,200 --> 01:01:56,200
Of course it's an age gap relationship.

1445
01:01:56,200 --> 01:01:57,200
Sorry.

1446
01:01:57,200 --> 01:01:58,200
I'm sorry.

1447
01:01:58,200 --> 01:01:59,200
Go ahead.

1448
01:01:59,200 --> 01:02:05,560
So Randy Sear does have a manifesto online.

1449
01:02:05,560 --> 01:02:07,160
It is about five pages long.

1450
01:02:07,160 --> 01:02:10,280
I thought about reading it, but at the same time, it was like, that's all he wants is

1451
01:02:10,280 --> 01:02:11,960
to like, for me to read his shit.

1452
01:02:11,960 --> 01:02:12,960
Pass.

1453
01:02:12,960 --> 01:02:15,720
And all, I mean, and I read, I mean, I read most of it.

1454
01:02:15,720 --> 01:02:17,840
And then skimmed some of it, which he would probably hate.

1455
01:02:17,840 --> 01:02:18,840
Just skimmed over it.

1456
01:02:18,840 --> 01:02:19,840
You're not important.

1457
01:02:19,840 --> 01:02:22,520
Just skimmed over it.

1458
01:02:22,520 --> 01:02:27,160
It essentially is just everything that I've told you now, for the most part.

1459
01:02:27,160 --> 01:02:30,960
We can sit here and say that certain things that he did or certain things that he said

1460
01:02:30,960 --> 01:02:33,960
sounded narcissistic, narcissistic.

1461
01:02:33,960 --> 01:02:40,120
Through his writings, you can really hear how arrogant he sounds and like how full of

1462
01:02:40,120 --> 01:02:42,080
himself he sounds.

1463
01:02:42,080 --> 01:02:46,720
Like he really thinks he's like fucking Apple white.

1464
01:02:46,720 --> 01:02:49,440
Like he thinks that this is, this is, this just makes sense.

1465
01:02:49,440 --> 01:02:50,440
This makes sense to me.

1466
01:02:50,440 --> 01:02:51,600
It should make sense to you.

1467
01:02:51,600 --> 01:02:53,080
These are the reasons I'm doing this.

1468
01:02:53,080 --> 01:02:55,120
Now you all understand me more.

1469
01:02:55,120 --> 01:02:56,120
Yeah.

1470
01:02:56,120 --> 01:03:01,200
And it's just, it's very much, it's, it's kind of rambling a little bit, a little manic.

1471
01:03:01,200 --> 01:03:06,640
But again, you do get this overall sense that this dude, he like, he really, like he's the

1472
01:03:06,640 --> 01:03:07,640
shit.

1473
01:03:07,640 --> 01:03:08,640
Like he has the answers.

1474
01:03:08,640 --> 01:03:12,360
And maybe you need to listen to me because these are the answers and you're going to

1475
01:03:12,360 --> 01:03:14,280
find out like kind of shit.

1476
01:03:14,280 --> 01:03:18,440
But also the, but also the like leaving breadcrumbs and saying, well, you should have figured

1477
01:03:18,440 --> 01:03:21,880
it out or wow, I gave them all of the evidence that they didn't even say anything to me.

1478
01:03:21,880 --> 01:03:24,200
That shouts anti-social personality disorder.

1479
01:03:24,200 --> 01:03:25,200
Yeah.

1480
01:03:25,200 --> 01:03:28,160
And it does also like, again, with the, with the narcissism, it's almost like, wow, you're

1481
01:03:28,160 --> 01:03:29,520
too dumb to figure this out.

1482
01:03:29,520 --> 01:03:31,400
Like I'm clearly smarter than you.

1483
01:03:31,400 --> 01:03:32,400
Like kind of shit.

1484
01:03:32,400 --> 01:03:34,800
You shouldn't have brought me to buy a fucking gun because that's why I did it.

1485
01:03:34,800 --> 01:03:35,800
You're bad.

1486
01:03:35,800 --> 01:03:38,040
I can't believe I convinced you to take me to get a gun.

1487
01:03:38,040 --> 01:03:39,040
Yeah.

1488
01:03:39,040 --> 01:03:40,040
I don't know why I just sounded like that.

1489
01:03:40,040 --> 01:03:41,040
I don't like the way I sounded.

1490
01:03:41,040 --> 01:03:44,480
Or like even when he was like boarding up the back exit doors, like they're like, oh,

1491
01:03:44,480 --> 01:03:45,480
there's no one.

1492
01:03:45,480 --> 01:03:47,080
They're just like, no one saw me do this.

1493
01:03:47,080 --> 01:03:48,840
Like they're all in their own little world.

1494
01:03:48,840 --> 01:03:52,960
Like if there's ever a situation where someone can get help before something like this happens,

1495
01:03:52,960 --> 01:03:57,840
of course I advocate for that, but it, I just can't feel sorry for him.

1496
01:03:57,840 --> 01:03:58,840
Yeah.

1497
01:03:58,840 --> 01:03:59,840
Especially now.

1498
01:03:59,840 --> 01:04:00,840
Yeah.

1499
01:04:00,840 --> 01:04:04,880
The Stare family offered their condolences to the families, of course, of the victims,

1500
01:04:04,880 --> 01:04:07,080
saying that they'd never saw this coming.

1501
01:04:07,080 --> 01:04:12,040
There's no way that you live and raise, live with and raise someone for 20, how old is

1502
01:04:12,040 --> 01:04:13,040
he, 22?

1503
01:04:13,040 --> 01:04:14,040
He was 24.

1504
01:04:14,040 --> 01:04:16,040
24 years.

1505
01:04:16,040 --> 01:04:19,960
And you don't recognize any of those red flags that he's giving.

1506
01:04:19,960 --> 01:04:24,440
You know, he probably has like a little like underground like basement area where he has

1507
01:04:24,440 --> 01:04:30,520
all this shit and you walk in and there's like an entire shrine to the Columbine killers.

1508
01:04:30,520 --> 01:04:32,760
And his parents are like, never saw it coming.

1509
01:04:32,760 --> 01:04:33,760
I mean, I'm speculating.

1510
01:04:33,760 --> 01:04:34,760
I don't know what he has.

1511
01:04:34,760 --> 01:04:41,320
But so, funnily enough that you say that because Kristen herself, the only remaining

1512
01:04:41,320 --> 01:04:46,200
victim of the attack, said that Randy was always pleasant to be around.

1513
01:04:46,200 --> 01:04:48,640
She was really surprised that he would do something like this.

1514
01:04:48,640 --> 01:04:51,920
She even went so far to say that the person that she saw that day was not the person that

1515
01:04:51,920 --> 01:04:55,080
her and her coworkers knew and loved.

1516
01:04:55,080 --> 01:04:56,080
Loved.

1517
01:04:56,080 --> 01:04:59,480
Like, they were close.

1518
01:04:59,480 --> 01:05:01,280
That still sounds like a personality disorder to me.

1519
01:05:01,280 --> 01:05:02,680
Being able to turn it on and turn it off.

1520
01:05:02,680 --> 01:05:03,680
Yeah, turn it on, turn it off.

1521
01:05:03,680 --> 01:05:05,640
And be anti-social for sure.

1522
01:05:05,640 --> 01:05:09,800
Because you can fake all of those emotions and not have them at all.

1523
01:05:09,800 --> 01:05:11,440
I agree.

1524
01:05:11,440 --> 01:05:16,360
The wise market would reopen about a month later after a remodel.

1525
01:05:16,360 --> 01:05:21,920
Some community members condemned the company's decision while others actually applauded them

1526
01:05:21,920 --> 01:05:26,520
saying that to shut the store down would just be feeding into what Randy really wanted.

1527
01:05:26,520 --> 01:05:30,560
He wanted to cause a ripple effect that would disrupt the lives of everyone around him.

1528
01:05:30,560 --> 01:05:32,200
Well, yeah, he wanted to burn the store down.

1529
01:05:32,200 --> 01:05:35,240
So yeah, just giving him what he wants.

1530
01:05:35,240 --> 01:05:36,240
Being idolized.

1531
01:05:36,240 --> 01:05:37,240
Yeah, idolizing him.

1532
01:05:37,240 --> 01:05:39,960
I mean, shit, we're talking about him.

1533
01:05:39,960 --> 01:05:41,640
Damn, you right, you right.

1534
01:05:41,640 --> 01:05:42,640
Alright, gotta go.

1535
01:05:42,640 --> 01:05:43,640
Bye.

1536
01:05:43,640 --> 01:05:44,640
It's a comfortable circle.

1537
01:05:44,640 --> 01:05:45,640
Shit, you right, you right.

1538
01:05:45,640 --> 01:05:46,720
That is, was that it?

1539
01:05:46,720 --> 01:05:47,720
That's it.

1540
01:05:47,720 --> 01:05:48,720
That is wild.

1541
01:05:48,720 --> 01:05:54,440
And again, we talk about being consistent on the show about whether or not we have people

1542
01:05:54,440 --> 01:06:01,560
that have been diagnosed with something, but there's a very real issue happening here.

1543
01:06:01,560 --> 01:06:07,680
I don't know if it's necessarily untreated schizophrenia, untreated personality disorder,

1544
01:06:07,680 --> 01:06:08,680
untreated narcissism.

1545
01:06:08,680 --> 01:06:09,680
Yeah.

1546
01:06:09,680 --> 01:06:10,680
Just a lot.

1547
01:06:10,680 --> 01:06:11,680
There's a lot going on.

1548
01:06:11,680 --> 01:06:12,680
There's a lot going on there.

1549
01:06:12,680 --> 01:06:18,280
I honestly wish we knew more about his family life and his childhood and stuff growing up.

1550
01:06:18,280 --> 01:06:23,640
I guarantee you, especially now, his parents, if anything sinister happened in that house,

1551
01:06:23,640 --> 01:06:28,240
they would never admit it now considering what happened because then they would have

1552
01:06:28,240 --> 01:06:30,280
to take that blame or that guilt.

1553
01:06:30,280 --> 01:06:33,160
And there's a brother there, I mean, we haven't heard anything from Jeremy.

1554
01:06:33,160 --> 01:06:37,920
And this happened six or years ago, you know, six years ago.

1555
01:06:37,920 --> 01:06:38,920
That's so awful.

1556
01:06:38,920 --> 01:06:43,080
And that's actually, I don't even think that's the story that I was thinking of.

1557
01:06:43,080 --> 01:06:47,400
It's kept sounding familiar and sounding familiar and then it wasn't like the actual crime,

1558
01:06:47,400 --> 01:06:48,900
I don't remember.

1559
01:06:48,900 --> 01:06:52,840
So that just goes to show that there is way too many of these fucking events happening.

1560
01:06:52,840 --> 01:06:57,360
Makes me second guess having an Ember McLean t-shirt.

1561
01:06:57,360 --> 01:07:02,080
Because if he's like wearing a natural selection t-shirt, should I just not be wearing an Ember

1562
01:07:02,080 --> 01:07:03,080
McLean t-shirt?

1563
01:07:03,080 --> 01:07:07,840
It's just dumb because natural selection has nothing to do with you killing people.

1564
01:07:07,840 --> 01:07:09,640
It's not what that fucking means.

1565
01:07:09,640 --> 01:07:11,560
But that's why Eric Harris wore it ironically.

1566
01:07:11,560 --> 01:07:13,280
I think that's why he did too.

1567
01:07:13,280 --> 01:07:15,120
Do you remember what we were talking about recently?

1568
01:07:15,120 --> 01:07:18,080
It was, I don't remember who it was.

1569
01:07:18,080 --> 01:07:22,160
It was a case that we did recently and the perpetrator said like, if it's their time,

1570
01:07:22,160 --> 01:07:23,160
then it's their time.

1571
01:07:23,160 --> 01:07:25,160
Like not if you fucking make it happen.

1572
01:07:25,160 --> 01:07:26,160
Yeah, like what?

1573
01:07:26,160 --> 01:07:28,520
God, yeah, I don't remember.

1574
01:07:28,520 --> 01:07:30,800
It was Jack Gilbert-Gram.

1575
01:07:30,800 --> 01:07:32,800
Oh, you dumbass.

1576
01:07:32,800 --> 01:07:34,600
You dummy.

1577
01:07:34,600 --> 01:07:39,040
Definitely another one of those cases where if you see something, say something, clearly

1578
01:07:39,040 --> 01:07:44,880
Randy Stair was going through some things, especially like the body dysmorphial one is

1579
01:07:44,880 --> 01:07:46,800
the part that hurts me the most.

1580
01:07:46,800 --> 01:07:50,680
The fact that they felt like they couldn't express themselves the way that they needed

1581
01:07:50,680 --> 01:07:51,680
to.

1582
01:07:51,680 --> 01:07:56,840
And again, I use Randy Stair because that's just what's in the research.

1583
01:07:56,840 --> 01:07:59,040
Randy Stair did not ask to go by any other name.

1584
01:07:59,040 --> 01:08:03,920
So, you know, unfortunately, that's what they're known as.

1585
01:08:03,920 --> 01:08:07,720
So if you or someone you know is struggling with any of these disorders or you need to

1586
01:08:07,720 --> 01:08:09,960
reach out to somebody, check out diagnosiskiller.com.

1587
01:08:09,960 --> 01:08:14,760
There are an entire list of resources on there as well, including the Trevor Project,

1588
01:08:14,760 --> 01:08:17,280
National Suicide Lifeline, which is now 988.

1589
01:08:17,280 --> 01:08:18,280
Yeah.

1590
01:08:18,280 --> 01:08:20,400
A couple of different things on there as well.

1591
01:08:20,400 --> 01:08:21,840
Yeah, definitely check that out.

1592
01:08:21,840 --> 01:08:22,840
Follow us on social media.

1593
01:08:22,840 --> 01:08:24,360
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1594
01:08:24,360 --> 01:08:26,200
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1595
01:08:26,200 --> 01:08:29,080
I feel like we have a lot more on Spotify than Apple.

1596
01:08:29,080 --> 01:08:31,360
And Apple is the one that I look at.

1597
01:08:31,360 --> 01:08:33,080
But you can't read them on Spotify.

1598
01:08:33,080 --> 01:08:34,880
You can just see the rating.

1599
01:08:34,880 --> 01:08:36,680
But yeah, keep shouting out to us.

1600
01:08:36,680 --> 01:08:37,680
Keep messaging us.

1601
01:08:37,680 --> 01:08:39,040
Keep emailing us.

1602
01:08:39,040 --> 01:08:42,560
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01:08:42,560 --> 01:08:45,400
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01:08:45,400 --> 01:08:46,400
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1605
01:08:46,400 --> 01:08:47,400
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1606
01:08:47,400 --> 01:08:48,400
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1607
01:08:48,400 --> 01:08:50,760
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1608
01:08:50,760 --> 01:08:52,280
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1609
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It is late.

1610
01:08:53,280 --> 01:08:58,720
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1611
01:08:58,720 --> 01:09:01,960
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1612
01:09:01,960 --> 01:09:04,080
So we will see you guys later.

1613
01:09:04,080 --> 01:09:05,080
Yeah.

1614
01:09:05,080 --> 01:09:06,080
Okay.

1615
01:09:06,080 --> 01:09:07,080
Love you.

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01:09:07,080 --> 01:09:08,080
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1617
01:09:08,080 --> 01:09:09,080
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