Hello! Hello!
Welcome to another episode of Diagnosing a Killer.
I am Koelle.
And my name is Kenna.
I'm pretty sure they already know our names by now.
Well, if this is your first time, welcome.
Should we change our voices to the sultry like other podcasts?
The ASMR.
Just grab a drink and relax.
I ate creepy shit.
Me too.
I just think it sounds disingenuine. Disingenuine?
Disingenuous?
No, I think it sounds un-genuine is what I'm trying to say.
Like not genuine.
Yeah, disingenuous.
Oh, that's what that means?
Oh, shit.
I learned a word today.
Yeah, it doesn't sound real.
Like it sounds like people are like,
and now it sounds like AI.
Sit back and enjoy the show.
It's like going to get a massage from a stranger.
Yeah.
How is that? What?
I don't know. I don't like getting massages from strangers.
What if they're professionals?
It doesn't matter. That's what the ASMR thing is.
Oh, I see what you're saying.
Yeah.
No, not a fan of ASMR.
I'd rather have a dude like actually whispering in my ear.
Have you seen the ASMR videos on TikTok
where they have like the soap on the microphone?
Yeah.
Using like a brush.
I'm like, you're ruining that microphone.
That microphone, right?
I don't know how they do that.
I don't know.
If anyone likes ASMR or if anyone engages in ASMR for TikTok,
that's fine.
I would do you.
I like those where it's like, put your phone,
you're to the phone, and it's like a guy telling you good night.
Have you ever seen those?
He's like, hey babe, I know you had a really stressful day today,
but I just want to let you know I'm super proud of you.
Yeah, you do a little mommy, let me whisper in you.
That's creepy.
I love him.
Thank you.
They're so sweet though, because at first it's like,
ew, who would ever do this?
And then you're like halfway through the video,
like the voicemail, and you're like, this guy is so nice.
Just spread positive vibes.
I would be so lucky, you know?
I'm not crying, you're crying.
No, I'm not.
I like, have you seen those TikTok videos of, you know,
someone's like something really cute,
it's like maybe like a proposal video,
or like something really cute with a couple,
and all the comments are like,
I'm gonna go take a shower with my toaster now,
I'm like, I'm crying, I'm gonna go play hide and seek
in the railroad tracks.
So bad.
No, I haven't seen that.
I do like the one where it's a, guess the name of the,
or show us your baby, and then what it's named,
like what your kid's named after,
and everybody's like wrong answers only.
So it'll be like a mountainside,
her name's like Everest or something,
and they're like low oxygen levels.
I love the word out, yeah, I love the name Avalanche.
I love the name low oxygen levels.
People are very clever,
and we just want you guys to do you,
and continue to talk to us,
and be your damn selves,
because that's what we try to be, our damn selves.
Nothing less, nothing more.
Sometimes.
Also, you're listening to Diagnosing a Killer,
I don't know if they think we've said that yet,
but I'm sure you know,
because you clicked on our name.
I said it at the very,
I always, hello, hello,
welcome to another episode of Diagnosing a Killer M. Coel.
You're right, it's been a long day, sorry.
It's been a long six minutes.
It's Diagnosing a Killer at night.
At night.
We usually don't record this late.
That's true, yeah, it is pretty late for us.
And I had ice cream at 9 o'clock.
You did have ice cream, and I'm jealous.
I went to this,
okay, so if anyone doesn't know about this,
I'm not sure if it's a local shop,
or if it's like a nationwide thing,
and I could probably just Google it,
but it's called Chill Inn,
like the letter N,
and it's nitrogen,
like when nitrogen made ice cream,
and they make it right in front of you,
and it's just like the same thing as like a marble slab,
like you walk in, you order,
they give it to you, and you leave,
or you can eat it there,
but it's so much better,
because it's made with liquid nitrogen,
which is, I found out,
like negative 380 degrees Fahrenheit,
instead of 32, like they usually make ice cream.
So it makes the crystals like really, really small,
and then it makes the ice cream really smooth.
And man, it's good.
We, when we used to deliver ice sculptures,
I remember this one time we were dropping off
to J.W. Marya, the big resort,
and a chef was in the back,
and had a liquid nitrogen tank
that we were using for like other stuff
they were using,
and we were just freezing fruit,
and then like smashing them on the ground,
because they'll just like smash a million pieces.
Yeah, I've seen that before,
that's what mom asked,
when I got strawberry,
and I was like, was the real strawberry,
like smashed strawberry,
she was like, was it the one that like crushed up?
And I was like, no, it was just real regular smashed strawberry.
Yeah.
But that would be cool.
But yeah, if anyone hasn't tried Chill-In,
and you have one locally,
go check them out.
They're not even sponsoring us.
This is not an ad, this is just me saying,
I tried it for the first time, and it's great.
They probably have other nitrogen ice cream places out there.
I'm sure they do, yeah.
Except East Coast,
because why would you ever need that?
Because it's too cold.
Because it's too damn cold.
Too damn cold.
I think it said on their sign,
it said like the different like temperatures,
and it's like average winter in Florida.
Oh, that's cool.
65 degrees, and then it's like freezing temperature of ice cream,
32 degrees, and it's like below freezing,
like negative zero, and then it's like nitrogen,
like it's like negative 5,000.
So yeah, that's enough banter for me.
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Also, one more thing,
I do just want to shout out Hillary from Lady Griskeranus,
because she texted me, and she's like,
oh my god, the D-A-K Live episode,
I was cracking up when you said that you were to throw up,
and she's like, oh my gosh.
She's like, hashtag relatable.
It's so funny, and I was like, oh my god.
Poor Tyler.
I was like, that was not my finest moment,
and I really, really considered cutting it out,
but that's not the point of a D-A-K Live.
So it's like I just kept it in there.
Speaking of which, I've been invited to participate in a podcast,
and I don't know, I'm sure they don't care.
It's a moviecation.
No, I'm just like, happy.
So I'm going to watch a movie tomorrow,
and then I think on Thursday we're going to record.
That's exciting.
Yeah, I'm excited.
I'm excited to hang out and chit chat with the guys.
Yeah, that'd be fun.
Yeah.
I'm going to have to choose a background,
because everybody usually chooses a background.
I'm going to have to do that.
Oh yeah.
I don't know how loud it's going to be in the living room.
You know, normally I would be upset that I wasn't invited to something,
but I have zero movie knowledge.
You guys have all probably recognized me right now,
so it makes sense.
I told Tyler that you weren't going to care about it either,
because it's like a B kind of gore,
not gore, but it's a B movie
that you're not going to give a shit about.
I'm telling you right now.
What's it called?
Can I spoil it?
No, not on here.
Oh, tell me off Mike, and then I'll react without saying the name,
because I want to know if I've seen it.
It's not.
No, never seen it.
Okay.
Perfect.
I definitely don't care about that,
so I'm excited for you guys though.
That'll be fun.
I feel like that was like a Beatrix kiddo moment,
speaking of movies from Kill Bill.
You know, like how her name's like beeped throughout the first two movies.
I haven't seen it.
No?
You haven't seen Kill Bill?
I don't think so.
Anyways, that was our Beatrix kiddo moment.
Yeah.
I trust your reference.
I don't think I've seen it.
I just know it's the siren all throughout.
Is that the one with the siren?
Yeah.
That one.
Yeah.
Is that the one with Thurman?
Yeah.
Oh, and her feet.
Points for me.
Okay.
All right.
Sounds good.
Well, we will.
I don't know why I said sounds good.
Like I'm ending up voting.
Sounds good.
See you later.
I think I'm like self-conscious because mom's like in the same room as us and she's not
making noise but she can hear our sayings.
Like no one's ever been here while we're recording.
Hi mom.
That's not true.
Well, now we're recording by ourselves.
Yeah.
She's very quiet.
Very nice.
Okay.
So today we are going to be talking about a one Randy Stair.
Like S-T-A-R-E?
S-T-A-I-R.
Oh, like a staircase.
Like a staircase.
Like one singular stair.
Like one stair.
Yeah.
Content warning.
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Someone struggling with gender dysphoria and identity.
School shootings and mass shooting.
Although these topics are discussed in a sensitive manner, some content may still be disturbing.
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Dang, that's a doozy of a content warning.
All right.
Randy Robert Stair was born on September 17, 1992, to Robert and Laurie Ann Stair in Dallas,
Pennsylvania.
Not Texas.
And another was in Dallas, Pennsylvania.
I didn't either in 1992.
That's like way later than most of the people we cover.
They're usually more than like the 50s or 70s even.
Yeah.
But he would eventually have a little brother named Jeremy as well, Jeremy Stair.
And usually enough, we don't have much to say about Randy's early years.
He tended to spend a lot of time alone versus with other children.
He was kind of private and kids didn't really take an effort to coax him out of his shell
very much.
All right.
Randy did struggle with severe depression at a very young age, however.
Randy would later admit that during his young elementary schools, he struggled with thoughts
of self-harm and suicide.
Oh my gosh, already.
That's so young.
Very young.
That kind of makes me think that maybe that was like showcased to him or maybe something
was done in front of him that made him, because elementary age children usually don't have
an independent thought like that.
Right.
Exactly.
So it must have been something like you said that he was either exposed to.
He might have a predisposition for maybe depression.
That's true.
He said that he would regularly fantasize about boarding a plane, hoping that it would
crash or fantasize about being in car accidents so that his death would be instantaneous in
elementary school.
Okay.
That's really sad.
Everything seemed relatively normal, however, to anyone else that was around Randy.
And Randy kept most of these thoughts to himself.
He would never talk about them.
So we're coming to 2004.
So this would be 12 years old.
This would be the year that Nickelodeon would launch the show called Danny Phantom.
Oh, you remember this?
I love Danny Phantom.
For those of you that don't know what Danny Phantom is, essentially it's an animated
show surrounding the character Danny Fenton who accidentally traveled between the human
world and a ghost world.
And now he is like a half human, half ghost hybrid.
I know this story.
Oh, you do?
I do.
I listened to an episode on it.
I was going to wear the Ember shirt.
I have an Ember shirt.
Really?
Oh, yeah.
You did tell me about that.
I was like, oh, because of that one guy.
Because of that one guy.
I know.
No, Danny Phantom.
I mean, that was in fourth grade in that year.
So I was definitely watching Danny Phantom.
I was all about it.
I was all over it.
And this would have been, I mean, you were three years younger than Randy, three or four
years younger than Randy.
So that puts him about late elementary, early middle school, right?
So yeah, Danny Fenton is kind of like this Superman slash Clark Kent guy because he goes
around and helps his community.
But also like from the ghost world.
He said about the show that he really identified with the characters and that they spoke to
him in a way that just kind of clicked.
Just kind of made sense.
More specifically, Randy was immediately recognizing his attraction to the character
Ember Maclean.
OK.
Ember's character was a ghost who had tragically died in a fire after being stood up on a date
in the show.
Hmm.
In her afterlife, she became a symbol of rebellion, picking up a guitar and writing tons of rock
music.
She gets her strength and power off of being idolized by other rebellious teenage ghost
fans.
Great.
Which he lived.
One of the things that, and we can never get around this, I don't like that people will
use media to exasperate what they're feeling.
And they're like, oh, all this makes it, I mean, clearly it's a mental illness.
Yeah.
But some people will see, just like Ed Gein, he inspired movies.
However, other people have been inspired by the movies to do kind of similar things.
And I don't like that.
Because it's like, what can we make and can we not make?
Because apparently everyone's going to use these things as an excuse to do whatever they
want.
To do whatever they want.
Yeah.
I just don't like when it connects to something innocent.
It's just a kid's cartoon.
Right.
Randy said that it wasn't so much that he had realized that he was attracted to the female
presenting gender, but that he felt a connection that was unlike anything else he had ever
experienced before.
And that Ember gave him a warm feeling that felt like they had known each other before,
like in a previous life.
She's cartoon.
And he's like 13.
Like, you know.
So it's almost like an imaginary friend kind of situation.
At that age though, that's very.
And what does that sound like almost?
It sounds like Mark Chapman.
With the little people that he would like blow up.
It's like kind of the spanty world because you don't, you feel so isolated out of certain,
in a certain way that you just kind of have to create your world.
You know?
Yeah.
It sounds like it could be maybe related to like schizophrenia, spectra disorder and other
psychotic disorders.
Simply because that's one of the delusions that's categorized in that is a feeling of
like belongingness to someone.
Maybe that doesn't exist or maybe like a celebrity that doesn't know who you are.
Right.
It's one of those symptoms.
I want to watch that Tiffany documentary.
Do you know that song?
I think we're alone now.
Yeah.
There's a Tiffany documentary that's called I think we're alone now and it's about her
stalker.
I really want to watch it.
Do you remember when I got free concert tickets to Tiffany and I didn't want to go so I gave
them to you?
Didn't I give them to you?
No.
It was like a few years back.
Why wouldn't you give me free Tiffany tickets?
Oh, you know what?
Because I won them on the radio and it was under my name and I ended up not going.
I was going to take you though.
That's what it was.
Remember we talked about it and I was like, I don't know who the hell this is.
I love her and I was like, let's go and then something happened.
I had to work or something.
I didn't just decide not to go but I'm like that bitch that'll call in to win something
on the radio even if I don't want it just to see if I can get it.
And then I do.
One time I got a loop, Ryan said he was like, I don't want this.
I got those tickets.
I was like, I don't want this either.
Damn.
Could have sold Tiffany.
It was like here in town.
Yeah, I remember.
I got to see missing persons once.
That was awesome.
That's cool.
It's amazing.
Anyways, Randy during middle school had started to become passionate about film and began
to document skits and YouTube videos.
Death was always a reoccurring theme in Randy's videos.
Talking about death and a wish to die were often wrapped up in funny skits or conversations
with friends.
Comedic relief.
Classic comedy.
Oh my God.
I love Drogbram.
Call the Rickleon's Mother's corpse.
Drogleon's Mother's corpse.
Ding.
That's new.
Drogbram.
Hi, Bo Burnham.
If you're listening, you're probably not, but high, if you're listening to us.
Bo Burnham to be listening to me right now.
I would, I would cry.
You would cry.
I would cry to use of joy.
I'd probably have a few choice words.
I like him.
Me too.
I was going to say about that before I, we started talking about Bo Burnham and that
that's just like a... oh my gosh, I can't talk.
That is a tall-tailed sign of if you see something say something.
Yeah.
People were clearly viewing these videos and...
Oh, yeah.
I'm sorry, as much as people want to be like, haha, and brush it off, like joke, that's
not just something to joke about.
Like joking about dying or killing someone or whatever, killing yourself is not a joke.
So Randy would actually go on to create his own production company titled Pioneer Productions
after the Pittsburgh Pittsburgh.
To Pittsburgh.
Pittsburgh.
UFL Pittsburgh Pioneers, I think it is.
So this was in 2007 and he created a YouTube channel with this name.
Here he would upload vlogs and his skips and his plays where he often did voices like voice
acting.
And he would do different characters.
He had like these stuffed animals he would talk to too.
There was like a frog and then there was like a whale and then there was like a horse head
of some kind.
Just really kind of bizarre stuff.
But I think one of his most liked or watched videos was like the horse head one.
Yeah, you can still find it on like, I think, archive.org.
Oh, cute.
Love to see that.
That amount of like imaginary play, again, goes into the delusions and to the psychotic
or disorder and or, I think it's a funny aspect.
For sure.
Not liking his birth name, Randy decided to go by Andrew Blaze on this channel, which
is sort of like his stage name.
Oh my gosh.
Andrew Blaze.
Blaze.
By the time that Randy hit high school, Randy had a small group of friends but he really
longed to date someone.
He had never been in a relationship up until this point and it's something that Randy really
craved.
He saw other friends and stuff, getting girlfriends, never had one.
Randy was just essentially too shy or reserved to talk to anybody that could be a potential
date.
Okay.
Instead, he began to push the limits of his surroundings by writing essays or stories about
death as his homework assignments.
Okay.
And did he get a passing grade for that?
Maybe a little red flag over there.
He often wrote about a mentally tortured main character who would always end up dying by
the end of the story, sometimes being killed and sometimes committing suicide.
That is a massive red flag.
None of these papers were ever reported to counselors or seemed to concern any teacher
or administrator at the time.
He's just so imaginative.
It's just imaginative.
He's just so creative.
He can just come up with these on the spot.
Yep.
He's a great teacher at high school too.
Are you kidding me?
You're telling me any high school teacher wouldn't see that and be like, what the fuck?
We should at least, at the very least, have a conversation with this guy.
I should just be like, hey bud.
You okay?
You doing alright?
Yeah.
Kind of concerning what you wrote.
You know, I got in fucking...
That's bullshit because I got in trouble in fourth grade.
I think I might have said this on the podcast before, but we were writing haikus and I didn't
know how to make a drawing with our haiku.
I didn't know how to draw anything else except for a tornado.
The long lines at the top of it, you just do skinny, skinny, skinny.
Like an upside down Christmas tree.
My haiku, I remember to this day, is rolling blackouts run, they are coming after me, roaring
over a town.
That was my haiku and I got sent to the principal's office because they thought I was gonna murder
someone.
Oh, that's awful.
I had a friend, well I wouldn't see a friend, but a friend of a friend who had to be assessed
and everything because he had a list of names in his backpack when they searched for something.
It was something, I don't even know if it was something totally innocent.
I don't even know if it was a birthday list or something, but it was a list of names of
kids at school and it was like, whoa, you know what I mean?
That's a little extreme, but I mean, what's she gonna do?
What do we find now?
Stuff like Randy Stair happens.
Yeah, I know.
I'm just saying, I got in trouble for that and then he's not getting in trouble for that.
I was literally saying death.
Death of death.
This has to be like 2006, 2000s.
Whoa, what was that?
Hold on.
Okay, so everything's fine.
Oh my God, scared me.
That was so loud.
It was loud.
And we heard it back in our headphones and it sounds even scarier on the microphone.
Yeah, it was just my Keto.
He kicked the wall on accident.
I think he was dozing off and I think he had one of those falling dreams.
Because when I went in there, he was like, did I scare you?
And I was like, a little bit.
He goes, oh, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you.
I'm fine.
Okay, we're good.
That sounded way scarier.
It was creepy.
All right, back to the story.
What were we saying before?
So this was like 2006-ish.
Oh yeah, and I was mad that he didn't get in trouble and I didn't.
And so what I'm saying is that plenty of other school shootings and stuff like that have
already happened.
Yeah, that's true.
And so it's not like this would be a rare occurrence, not even a rare occurrence.
I mean, it's way more prevalent now than it ever has been.
And than it ever should be.
Yeah.
What I'm saying is just trying to give you the year so that you know that, again, that
things like this have already happened.
Randy felt each time that he would reference violence in his papers or essays, quote, this
is going to be the one that's going to get me caught or in trouble, end quote.
So it was literally a cry for help.
Yes.
And then, oh my God, and then imagine his mentality when no one fucking cares.
In his mind, he's like, well, no one fucking gives a shit if I do this.
Exactly.
So I'm quite as well.
Oh, so awful.
If you see something, say something.
Fucking A, dude.
He even said about his teacher at this time, I don't know what she was thinking.
Like, in retrospect, he's looking back at me like, I don't know why she wouldn't say
anything because he was trying to make it painfully obvious, but like something was wrong.
And like it shouldn't have to come to that and like, you know, it shouldn't have to be
someone saying something because someone's being, you know, hint hint that I might do
this.
But who knows what would have happened had she said something and it's not her fault.
It's not her fault, not blaming her at all.
However, just saying if you see something say something like it's better to report it
and it be nothing than to not report it and something happens.
Of course.
But do you think like there's also kind of this like reverse psychology thing happening
where it's like, well, clearly Randy's open enough to say all these things.
If you really felt that way, he would probably say something.
No, I don't mean so.
You know what I mean?
I don't think so.
I'm not saying, I'm just saying like how people, maybe people that you know joke about
like, you know, like that you're just like, oh, well, you know what I'm saying?
Like I guess we're desensitized to it.
Yeah, I know.
Especially when it comes to certain individuals, maybe.
I kind of get what you're saying, but I still even have like this thing in the back of my
head, like if someone jokes around and says that, I like make sure I like keep that in
my mind.
I'm like, okay, they said that once.
I'm definitely one of those people that I bring up Cameron or like sometimes I don't
even have to like, just for Stimaxful and be like, yeah, like that's not a cool joke.
Like, yeah, I say that too.
I say, please don't joke like that.
That's not funny.
Yeah.
But no, I don't know.
Like, I don't know what I would have done in the situation, especially granted the timeframe,
you know, the year.
Sure.
However, again, just for the future, say something.
By 2010, Randy would be 18 years old, barely graduate high school and through the pressure
of his father began working at a wise grocery store in Eaton Township.
This is about 15, 20 minutes away from Randy's hometown.
Randy also decided to attend college and was majoring in mass communications.
But again, this seemed to be just for the benefit of his parents rather than something
that he actually wanted to do.
Yeah, that's a very vague major.
So Randy would essentially be attending college and working at the store in an effort to participate
in a normal life.
Okay.
However, this was not his main focus.
He poured himself into his online persona and began to isolate further and further from
friends and family.
He also said around this time that he started to begin to resent his parents for not paying
enough attention to him.
Oh no.
Randy once again began to fantasize about dying.
He even said at one point that he wished that he had the courage to set himself on fire.
Oh my gosh.
That is brutal.
That's horrible, right?
Just in his backyard.
It's interesting to me that he has such unique ways that someone would do that to themselves.
He wants to get a plane crash or he wants to get a car crash or he wants to set himself
on fire.
It's not like, okay, I want to go buy a gun and kill myself.
It's very different than you would think.
The online persona Andrew Blaze, that has to stick in his head like, what if I light
myself on fire?
Then I'm really going to be Andrew Blaze.
That will get people's attention.
That's scary.
Randy would start to create his own animated TV show surrounding the lives of Ember Maclean
and her friends Mackenzie West and Rachel Shadows.
You can't just steal a character from another show to create yours.
So the show was called Ember's Ghost Squad.
Ember's Ghost Squad.
So Danny Phantom 2.0.
Yes, EGS.
So EGS was a show that followed Ember and her Ghost Girl Squad and documented their recruiting
angsty and lost teens for their squad.
Their Ghost Squad, right?
Yeah.
That's it.
Often these episodes were dark and talked of death were dying and let's say that it
certainly wasn't for children.
In 2013, Randy lost he and his brother's friend Tom in a car accident while Tom was
driving on his way to school one morning.
Oh my gosh.
Although Tom was more Jeremy's friend, I think Tom was kind of in the age between Jeremy
and Randy.
Randy would say that this death profoundly affected him.
Randy would often drive past Tom's accident scene, especially on Tom's death day every
year.
So he frequented where the car accident happens.
Why do you think that was?
I don't know.
Do you think he was trying to like?
I think he's reliving it.
Yeah.
Like maybe reliving the emotion attached to it or just the fact that someone had died
and like kind of obsessing about like afterlife?
He's going to say do you think he thinks like if he gets closer to the scene like maybe
he can communicate with him or do you think he's like fascinated by the fact that someone
died right there?
Yes.
I think that's more what it is.
Like you know, kids when they learn that lesson with like burning ants with a magnifying glass.
It's kind of like that but on a like a grander scale I think.
Okay.
But he's just trying to connect with like death if that makes sense.
Because he's clearly obsessed with death or dying.
Well he's all about ghosts too.
Yeah, exactly.
Shortly after Tom's death, he had actually lost another friend to another car accident.
Oh my gosh.
His name was Matt.
And then I think he lost his grandfather after that who he is also very close to.
So this is all within the span of like a year.
Randy himself got into a car accident and shortly after this his little brother Jeremy
would also be involved in a car accident.
Okay, that's really weird.
So the two brothers at this point were sharing a car because they, I think Randy's was like
a fender bender type thing but Jeremy is like total to his car.
So this likely didn't help Randy's frame of mind.
Someone who was already identifying with an animated ghost girl and wishes for death.
Right?
Yeah.
Can't be good.
Do you think he caused his own car accident?
I don't know.
I mean if it was just a fender bender probably not.
The reason that I say it's a fender bender is because there is a picture of him like
with a thumbs up next to I'm assuming his car and it's just the back like trunk is like
kind of smushed in.
Oh well so then someone hit him.
Yes.
And that's what I'm thinking.
Yeah.
That I don't think it was something that was really like intentional.
So Randy becomes more obsessed with death.
It became essentially all he would ever talk about.
So in his recordings online it seemed like manic almost when he would talk about like
he would go through this kind of like spiral or loop and it's almost like you could see
him dissociating in these videos where he's just like you know I don't know like and I
you know then this happened and then that happened and then I just started becoming
obsessed with death and it's like what happens in the afterlife and then it's just and it's
very fast paced.
It's not like kind of this somber depressed kind of look you know it's it's almost like
matter of fact well and exciting almost when you watch it that he's excited to share his
perspective about death or dying.
He became terrified of growing older and he would often say that he had no intention of
living past 30.
Randy would even speak about how he hated older people and how they disgusted him.
Oh great.
Yes.
Randy said around this time when around this time when he started becoming manic and depressed
and obsessing about dying and knowing that he didn't want to live past 30 that Ember
came back into my life is what he said.
Because she couldn't do that.
He would start developing his Ember's ghost squad characters even further and began to
fall in love with Ember even beginning to call her his wife.
He believed that after his death he too would reunite with Ember and her squad in the afterlife.
This is a tall tale example.
Remember we talked about Fahleadu recently.
He is isolated.
He is not sharing this with anybody so there is nobody there to tell him that these thoughts
are bizarre and they are delusions because this is a cartoon character.
But the fact that he has no one there to tell him that it's just going to continue to get
worse.
Sure.
And then he's creating also the show and the content that is then essentially reaffirming
what he's feeling.
Making it more real.
Yes.
Yeah.
Furthermore after Randy would pass he would be reincarnated as a female presenting ghost
girl.
Randy had up until this point kept his gender dysphoria a secret.
He had started wearing feminine undergarments underneath his clothes when going to work
or walking about town.
On Wednesday nights when his parents went out for their weekly bowling league meetups
Randy would then dress in feminine presenting clothing and walking around the house for
a few hours while they were gone.
Okay.
He dreamt of becoming a female and identified as such but he did not want to transition.
So he would consider himself although he was male presenting and participated in society
as a male he did say that his spirit was feminine.
So do you think that's why he was so obsessed with dying so he could come back as a woman?
He believed that through all of this kind of delusion that he was doing.
He thought that he could be reincarnated into a female presenting body as Ember's wife
and ghost squad member.
Okay.
I know it's a lot y'all.
Randy began to ease his dysphoria by doing things like shaving his legs and body regularly
and he would often skip meals or diet in an attempt to lose weight and to appear more
feminine to himself.
He wore a lot of really baggy shirts however.
He said he never told anyone or reached out about it because he thought that he wouldn't
be understood and that people would just think that he was crazy.
So again this is something else that he would keep to himself that he was struggling with
his body image and his dysphoria.
Further isolating himself.
Yes.
Yeah.
Randy believed that this uncomfortability with society made sense because it meant that
he was not to be on this earth and meant to be in the ghost realm with his wife Ember.
So he was saying, oh no wonder of course I would feel this weird.
Of course I would feel this strange in this body on this earth because this isn't where
I'm supposed to be.
It's just a mental disorder, not necessarily that specific part of it, but the whole thing
is untreated mental diagnosis, and mental illness and no one there to tell him, especially
about the ghost world thing that this is probably a delusion because clearly his parents are
not focused on him enough.
And he's now saying that he hates his parents and all this stuff.
We don't really know much about them for probably for a reason because they probably
weren't a big part of his life.
And I know he's probably an adult at this point but still.
Yeah.
This is all within his 18s, 19s, 20s.
This is years and years of untreated mental illness or mental disorders rather.
Randy was surprised that no one even noticed that he started changing his behavior.
He even left feminine directed brands like razors, and I say that as a female directed
like skin to me and like Venus.
So female directed brands like of razors, shaving creams, and even like a purpley pink
hairbrush that he had just in his bathroom in an attempt to be like, hey, like I'm buying
things that are perceived to be feminine.
Look at me.
I'm asking you about it.
Nobody asked him about anything.
Nobody asked like why you need like a female body razor, you know, things like that.
No, I get it.
I'm just, I just don't get why he wants the attention but he's not asking for it.
He's just hoping that someone will pick up on these cues.
Yeah.
You know?
And I want to be clear.
I'm not trying to say that, I know you're not either that people that want to transition
or people that identify as other gender is a mental disorder.
No.
I'm just trying to get something else.
No, no.
No, no, no, no, no, no, of course.
It has nothing to do with that.
I think it's for him, it would, and maybe the household he grew up with, it would be
strange for him as a male to own feminine directed brand products, you know?
And I think that that would be maybe his dad would say something like, whose razor is this?
You know, or whatever.
And it never happened.
So it just made him feel just more unseen really.
Of course.
And he talked about the whole recognition, you know, the recognition, the acknowledgement
and the endorsement.
There's no, like we're not even past step one, the recognition.
So how can acknowledgement even happen?
And it kind of seems like he is getting to the point where he's probably thinking, okay,
if you're not going to pay attention, then I'll give you something to pay attention to.
Of course.
And that could be, I mean, is very detrimental.
Randy fell at this point that he would have to do something way more drastic to get the
attention of those around him.
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Randy would soon have another obsession grow within him.
His obsession with school shootings, especially Columbine.
He would often troll the internet and look at Columbine memes and go onto forums that
were either in remembrance sites for the victims, or more often he would go on forums that idolized
Eric Harris and Dylan Kleebold.
Sometime in 2014, Randy began to talk about how he would soon be leaving YouTube and EGS
fans were a little upset by this.
He had a bit of a following at this point on his channels and it was really surprising
that Andrew Blaze said that he would be leaving something that he seemed so passionate about.
Well, yeah, because he's expecting to not survive this attack.
Randy went on to explain that although he would be leaving eventually, he didn't have
a set date or anything like that.
He did claim it was for multiple reasons, which eased people when he said that like,
oh, it's not like one thing or another.
It has nothing to do with making fun content.
He did say that it's not really a job and although he wanted to set his real job on
fire, he did need to work there more often because it was his only financial income.
Randy seemed optimistic around this year, this next like two or three years.
He was still making music videos for a short time and he did kind of ride a high a little
bit for the next like year.
Mostly he decided to pour himself into a newfound project with EGS or Embers Go Squad.
He created nine social media accounts for each character and would often have each one
of them posting, commenting, or liking each other's accounts on Twitter.
Oh my gosh, like he made up his own friends.
So yeah, so they're the nine characters of Embers Go Squad, including Ember, Mackenzie,
Rachel, and then a few others.
And then he had two social media accounts for himself and they would just all constantly
communicate with each other.
It's like catfish.
But it was him.
So, okay, let me go back to school because now he's out of school.
Didn't he have like good friends or something like in school?
I mean, now he had two friends that passed away, but he didn't have any other like close
friends?
No, not really.
He had a few from middle school into high school, but they all started getting girlfriends
and stuff.
Oh yeah, you're right.
You can say that.
You know, kind of moving on and he just decided to throw himself into this instead.
Oh God, that makes me sad because it's like, like I don't feel bad for him.
Like, but I do in this moment, you know, because he's just alone.
No one really wants to be his friend and he's writing some weird death poems and people
are like, that's fucking weird.
He talked about this new project as being his greatest accomplishment and gave himself
a deadline of completely finishing his project by May 7th, 2019, which coincided with the
letters E, G, and S.
So the fifth, the seventh and the 19th letter of the alphabet.
That's okay.
So that's like, it's methodical.
Coincidentally, like nine.
Oh, I guess he wasn't, it didn't have to be 2019.
He was just used, it could have been the 20th letter if it was the next year.
I get to give it now.
What?
No, wait, that's right.
Yeah, E being the fifth letter, G being the seventh letter, and then 2019.
Oh, I see what you're saying.
No, it would be the 19th.
No, wait, so yeah, it just happened to be, it just happened to line up that S is the
19th and it was the year of 2019.
No, this was not the year of 2019 that he's talking about this.
Okay, I was so confused.
Okay, this is like 2014, 15.
Oh, so he's gonna wait like years?
Okay, well he says he's gonna wait years.
Let us see.
Randy soon realized that he could not wait another few years to complete this project,
so he decided to set a new deadline of June 9th, 2017, which was only four weeks away
at this point, but June 9th would have been the anniversary that he started Embers Go
Squad.
Wow, he's really symbolic, isn't he?
He is.
Very much so.
Also, I should just like keep my questions in my mind until you're done, because I feel
like I always say something and you're like, well, if you just let me fucking talk, I
will say.
Well, I just said it was 2015, which is not true, it's 2017, my bad.
Oh, that's all right.
I think now that his project may not be finished in time given his new timeframe, because he
was planning on doing this Embers Go Squad thing, Randy asked his mother to take him
to a gun shop where he purchased a shotgun.
Knowing how easy the process was at this point, Randy actually went back to the shop
to purchase a second one a few days later.
He named one Mackenzie and the other Rachel after Embers best friends.
My God.
Well, you don't pay attention to your son, but you're gonna go take him to buy a fucking
gun.
Second of all, I was listening to a podcast earlier today about a mass shooting and the
person in question had gone to purchase a weapon four or five times within a month.
It was very frequently and it's like, okay, I get the whole, and I'm not trying to be
political at all, I get the whole maybe gun laws, maybe not, but also there should be
a period of time between when you can buy one gun and when you can buy the other.
If you're buying five guns in a period of a month, that's probably a red fucking flag.
You know what I mean?
I don't think so.
Randy would later etch their names into the side of each gun since he had learned that
Eric Harris had done the exact same thing to his guns that he used at Columbine.
Never had an original thought.
He wrote in his journal about this day, quote, you were a fool to trust me with a shotgun.
Oh, mother, if you only realized you would just sign my death warrant by taking me to
a gun shop.
End quote.
I'm not a fucking fucking nut that is transferring the blame to someone else.
If you didn't buy me this, this wouldn't have happened.
Fuck you.
Oh, mother, if you would only realize, fucking so annoying.
Randy started filming himself target practicing with each gun.
He began to create a personal video blog documenting his thought process leading up to the project's
launch so that his parents would have answers to what would transpire just 13 days later.
That is so annoying.
And also, like, how much time has passed since he's thought of at least four weeks, but years.
Oh, at least four weeks since he's made this plan.
You had so much time to change your mind.
It goes back to the, oh, I'm going to do this.
If no one notices, I'm just going to keep doing it because clearly I'm not getting anyone's
attention.
Yeah.
That is so, I don't understand that mindset.
He's probably thought of it since high school, honestly.
Middle school, high school.
Ever since he knew that shit like this happens, you know?
Randy would often ramble in these videos about Columbine and how he hated himself and other
members of the queer community.
So he's also self-hating as well.
Leading up to the date, Randy began sending out tweets and writing letters, and he would
actually leave these letters around the house, on the streets and at work in open journals
depicting how he was feeling and how he wanted to be seen in any possible way, including
the date June 7th.
Ask somebody for attention.
Ask somebody to talk to you.
It literally is like, I'm going to leave all these breadcrumbs, and if they don't find
it, then it's their fucking fault for not finding it and figuring it out my puzzle.
Yep.
Ask someone for fucking advice.
Like, oh my God, that's so annoying.
And apparently no one ever saw or said anything about this.
Randy would begin to wear his favorite shirt, which he bought three of, the same one, and
he wore them almost every day.
It was the same shirt that Eric Harris wore on the date of the Columbine shootings.
It's an all-white t-shirt and black lettering that says natural selection.
That's not what the fuck that means, but all right.
No, it's not.
But Eric Harris made it famous, apparently.
Well, Eric Harris is a dumbass.
Well, he's dead, so.
Well, he was a dumbass.
Rest in distress.
Rest in distress, bro.
He talked of his mother again saying, quote, how she never saw the warning signs is beyond
me.
On the 18th of May, he posted on the Embers Go Squad Twitter page, quote, if you think
that your body is ready for June 7th, you're gravely mistaken, end quote.
He is literally saying what he's going to do, but also that's like not telling anybody
when your fucking birthday is and still expecting a surprise party.
Damn, that's, yeah.
Like, oh shit.
And then getting mad.
My bad.
Pouting when someone doesn't throw you a party.
He had also tweeted out, quote, mark your calendars for June 7th, end quote.
Wait, I thought it was June 9th.
He originally was going to do June 9th, then he changed it to the 7th.
Oh, okay.
I was like, why is he saying the 7th?
My bad.
Yeah, I forgot to mention that.
Might be an important detail.
Rachel's Twitter would read things like, quote, who's ready to die, end quote.
And quote, if you're going to die, you got to die hardcore or not at all, end quote.
That doesn't fucking make any sense either or not at all.
Rachel was portrayed as this character who was the most highly volatile character that
he created.
So now it's not only him, but it's everybody he's associated with apparently.
Who's to say that these accounts aren't real people?
That's true.
And so his followers, because he has followers that are wondering where he's going, aren't
seeing this and being like, damn, there might potentially be eight fucking people that are
like planning something on the 7th.
So let me tell you a little story about a man named Honan Vasquez.
So Honan Vasquez was a comic book creator a long time ago who created a comic called
Johnny the Homicidal Maniac.
And everybody loved this comic when I was a kid.
Everybody loved it.
Knee was like, which it's Johnny, but his nickname was Knee, right?
Knee was just so fucking tortured and so fucking literally he's a homicidal maniac, right?
And who's to say like when we're reading these comics, because we know who's writing
them and illustrating them.
So were we like, oh man, Honan Vasquez, he's completely just a tortured individual.
Like clearly this man needs help.
No, we just thought it was fucking cool.
And so what I'm saying is like people looking at these Twitter pages and stuff are probably
like they know it's coming from Andrew Blaze, but they're like probably like, oh my God,
like he's you know, he's developing these characters, this is character development.
You know what I'm saying?
I guess.
But like, okay, I can be on board with that everywhere until he says June 7th.
Yeah.
Like that is what's getting me.
It's like there is a date.
It is rapidly approaching and you're like, oh June 7th, people are going to die.
Yeah.
No.
New merch launching.
That's probably what they think though.
That's what they think though.
But they probably think that's what it means or something.
Our listeners are smart enough to know.
We know.
When you hear a date, someone's going to fucking die.
But this is hindsight, it's 2020 kind of shit.
You know what I mean?
That's stupid.
Yeah.
I'm mad.
I'm just happy I got to talk about Honan Vasquez.
Didn't think that would ever come up in my head ever again.
So again, Rachel is this highly volatile character and Randy starts beginning to talk about his
frustration about finishing the EGS project before the time came to execute his plan.
Because what, you think the people are just going to carry this on and you're going to
become famous even when you're gone?
Absolutely.
Well, that's what he wants from all of this.
He wants attention and he wants fame.
Animators and other voice actors that he had hired to complete the project would quit
once they learned of the theme that Randy was going to put in the Ember Ghost Squad
video.
Smart.
In one video, Randy went on a tangent about one of the voice actors saying, quote, still
don't have it, the script was sent out in March and it's June 2nd.
Where's my voice over Zalora?
The ones that I paid for, where are they?
Better have them by Monday or you're dead.
People are worthless sacks of shit.
No one cares, no one cares until you're dead.
Once this all happens, they're going to say, man, I wish I talked to him more.
Well, too late, end quote.
That is the biggest red flag of them all and it's June 2nd.
You have five days to make a decision, people.
So five days to phone the fucking police.
Well, these videos specifically are the videos that he left behind.
These aren't the ones that he's posting.
The Twitter is all, that's all fair game.
And he is still posting some videos but they're kind of like skits, although they still talk
about death and things like that.
This is more of like a personal vlog that he made to be a part of his afterlife videos.
Like 13 reasons why.
Yeah.
The project that was set to launch in just five days was titled quote, the Westboro High
Massacre, end quote, in which Ember and Randy depicted as a ghost girl would enact a school
shooting.
So most of these voice actors or animators would quit because they're like, we're not
going to work on a project called Westboro High Massacre.
We're not going to do that.
And he would like pay people and then they would get into it and they'd be like, I'm
not going to do that.
But he realized it's a real fucking school, right?
But he felt wronged.
Like he thought this was like his manifesto kind of a thing, you know?
Oh gosh.
And like nobody wanted to work on it.
He said that if it wasn't for Ember telling him to do this, that none of this would have
happened.
But she needed more souls for her squad.
Again, putting the blame on everyone else.
It's their fault because they quit my show.
It's my mom's fault for buying me a shotgun.
It's everyone else's fault for ignoring me.
It's this random ghost character chick that doesn't even fucking exist.
It's her fault because she's telling you what to do and she needs more fucking souls.
It's never, ever his fault.
Right.
A few days before June 7th, Randy filmed himself flipping a coin.
The coin was to determine one of two things.
Heads, Randy would stay home and commit suicide.
Tails, he was to perpetrate a mass shooting that he had been planning this whole time.
Let me guess it lands on heads and he flips it over.
Another reason to move up the date was that one of his intended targets was a manager that
he was attempting to switch to day shifts.
At this time, Randy was working overnight shifts.
Filming the event in his backyard, he decided that the winning flip will be two out of three.
When the first one didn't go his way.
He's like, he already said.
No, he already said.
He already said.
He flips.
Tails.
He flips.
Tails.
I feel like that's bullshit.
I feel like he didn't even fucking flip what he did in the video.
He did.
It's on video.
Yeah, and it's him in his backyard and he's just throwing it up in the air and then he
walks over the camera, picks up the camera, takes it over so that everyone can see that
he's up to the fakes.
I feel like if it lands it on heads, heads, he probably still would have found a way to
make it in his favor.
I don't know.
I don't.
You don't think so?
You think he would have killed himself?
I think he would have.
I'm not saying that he wouldn't maybe take out his family members, but.
I don't know.
Take out Salon's heart.
Sorry.
That's all right.
He vlogs in his car four days before the shooting.
Quote, just looking at everyone at the supermarket, the manager is coming in like la-da-da-da,
just messing around and talking about this.
In four more nights, your whole lives are going to be turned upside down because of
me.
I'm going to fuck up your life and I can't wait.
Quote, who would have thought a cartoon character would cause all of this to happen?
End quote.
Yeah, no one.
I mean, because that's bonkers.
After which, he turns to the passenger seat and offers a chip to Ember, presumably sitting
in the seat.
I just want to say nothing pisses me off more than someone being angry about people just
living their fucking lives.
Like, if it's like outside watching people.
He's like, ugh, look at that.
Look at them just head going to work.
They're just going to work.
They're just doing their daily shit.
It's like, heads.
I don't know if he was mad.
I think he thought that he was being like, yeah, no, like, look at these ants just going
about their life.
That's what I'm saying.
Sheepal, you know?
No idea what's going to happen.
Like, God, that makes me mad.
On the morning of June 7th, Randy takes a trip up to the Y's supermarket, bringing
along his camera.
He films the aisles as he talks about his plan under his breath.
It's almost as if he is staking out the exits.
He does film a few exit points and plots further about what is to transpire later that night
when he starts his 11 PM overnight shift.
Randy posts his final video before leaving for his work shift on YouTube.
Randy can be seen loading his shotguns, Mackenzie and Rachel, and then placing them into a duffel
bag.
Randy felt that he had given everyone a fair chance to stop him by posting this publicly
on YouTube.
Again, just a few hours before he were to head to work at 11 PM.
It's everyone else's fault again.
Once there, Randy began to barricade and block exits with pallets in the back of the store
in preparation for his project.
That's so scary.
He did this completely undetected as everyone else was busy straightening and stalking the
shelves.
At 12.10 AM, Randy gets on his phone in order to send out various links to his Twitter account
titled Journal, Digital Set, and Suicide Tapes.
At almost 1 AM, Rachel sends out her last tweet saying, quote, me and Andrew are gonna
give the world a little insight into what really lurks around the shadows of your everyday
lives, end quote.
Oh my God.
So many fucking red flags.
So many.
So many and I don't want to side with him, but so many fucking chances for people to
have spoken up and said something.
And I'm not giving him that.
I'm just saying like there's so many things that are concerning with what he's been doing.
Quickly, Randy sketches out a layout of the store and where each employee was to be assigned
that night.
Randy was one of five that were working in the building.
He took his duffel bag from the back, walked to the front of the store, where he locked
the front doors and barred them with various store racks.
26 year old mother of one, Victoria Brong, and her co-worker 25 year old, Kristen Nowell,
were working on the same aisle stalking and straightening things.
The two were known to listen to music while working and goofing off occasionally.
After laughing for some time, the two went back to work and at separate ends of the aisle
began to restock.
Suddenly, Kristen thought she heard something, a bang of sorts.
By the second bang, Kristen took out her earbud and turned to ask Victoria what she thought
the noise could be.
Kristen was horrified when she looked down the aisle to see Victoria's lifeless body
at Randy Sears' heat.
Oh my God.
She turned to her friend and she was like, hey, hey, what was that?
Oh my God.
The two made eye contact as Randy stared into Kristen's eyes and he began firing two more
shots into Victoria's body, then continued to look at Kristen.
Oh my God.
Completely frozen, Kristen could do nothing, say nothing, and just stare back at Randy as
she tried to process what happened.
Randy after about five to six seconds, lowered his gun and moved down to the next aisle.
What?
Only Randy knows why he didn't shoot Kristen that day.
Oh my gosh.
She just like, what do you think would have happened if she started running?
Do you think he would have shot her?
Maybe.
Wild.
The fact that she was just like standing there staring at him.
There's another theory later, we'll get to him.
Okay.
Randy moved to the next aisle where he found 47-year-old Navy veteran Brian Hayes.
Brian was originally from East Orange, New Jersey.
Orange.
I don't know if you're better there.
Orange.
He was a married father of two girls.
Oh no.
Randy shot Brian five times, three of which were considered to be fatal wounds.
Oh my gosh.
Randy moved on to locate his last co-worker, 63-year-old Terry Lee Sterling, who at this
point was attempting to flee Randy's rampage.
Terry was a father and grandfather who had lost his wife just five years prior.
Oh my God, no.
Victoria was shot twice in the back in an attempt to escape Randy.
During this time, however, Kristen, who was in a complete state of shock, in her mind
she said that she probably stood there for 10 to 15 minutes, but it probably wasn't.
It's just, that's how long it felt.
She managed to try to run to Victoria's aid, not fully comprehending that Victoria was
beyond help at this point.
She does make her way to the front of the store in order to locate a phone to call 911.
Kristen did not know the condition of her other co-workers, but continued to hear multiple
gunshots echoing throughout the store for some time.
Like every 30 seconds.
Oh my God, that's so scary.
Kristen managed to hide under a register and wait for help, but eventually escaped through
the front door.
First responders arrived to find Randy's stare had died from a self-inflicted gunshot
wound.
Investigators found that Randy had also attempted to shoot some propane tanks in an effort to
blow up the store.
A total of 59 shots had been fired throughout the store.
Oh my God.
Take a breath.
Jesus.
When Randy was autopsied, it was noted that he was wearing a full face of makeup designed
similarly to Ember McClain's makeup.
Like she had these like curly cute thingies on her eyes and stuff.
Where did he shoot himself?
I don't know.
I was gonna say like clearly it had to be done during his autopsy and not when they
just stumbled upon him.
I don't know.
Not like they walked up and he's just dolled up like before.
No, I don't know where he shot himself.
I'll just say that.
Okay.
I know.
He was also wearing feminine undergarments underneath his clothing.
Oh wow.
There was also a mass amount of benadryl in his system to which investigators thought
that he maybe tried to overdose first before deciding to shoot himself.
Well, no, because-
Like maybe it wasn't working.
The coin was tailed, so why would he have done that?
Well, he was planning on killing himself.
He just didn't know if he was gonna kill other people.
That was the whole point of the coin.
I was just being a dick, I know.
But this is one of the theories as to why Kristen was able to escape because if he was
hallucinating or was in a sense of like days and was literally overdosing, he might not
have seen her or thought maybe that she was also a delusion of some kind.
Oh, okay.
But she didn't move.
Yes.
Oh.
And he rexed.
Yeah, if you don't move, they can't see you.
Yeah.
Police searched Randy's home and found a mountain of evidence, of course.
Again, it's not like Randy tried to cover any of this up.
More weapons were found, more boxes of ammunition, journals, videos, flash drives, you name it.
It was just- he did not try to hide anything.
So at this point, it wasn't shocking to police that Randy had perpetrated such a crime.
Yeah.
Because to them, it was just like, uh, like, look at all this evidence.
He said that he was going to do it.
There weren't just warning signs.
There were massive red flags.
Like ding ding ding, like lights and everything like arrows.
Yeah, arrows, yeah.
A true indication of just how narcissistic and itching for Randy's fame was, on one
of the last videos to his parents, he had wished for them to give away his property
and his room to his fans.
His fans.
He said, my fans are going to want all this stuff.
Like this is good stuff, like you should give it away to fans.
No, your fans are going to be like, what the holy fuck.
Burn it.
Yeah, like his posters, his writings, he had asked that they all be posted, like, for
sale or for want or whatever.
No.
Using his phone.
Like he had told, I guess, like his parents that they could access his phone after his
passing so that they could post, like, from his accounts.
Oh yeah.
Yeah, and they were just going to be like, sure honey, we'll do that for you.
Yeah, we'll just keep it alive, like Norman Bates or whatever.
Yeah.
God.
Isn't that strange?
That is very strange.
But that just shows, like, that he wanted the fame.
He wanted, he was like, certainly somebody's going to want this stuff because I wanted
all the Columbine stuff.
Yeah.
Surely somebody's going to want this.
Put it aside for them.
It's like, it's weird because it doesn't seem like a narcissistic thing, but it also
does.
Yeah.
Yeah, he seriously thinks that people are going to like idolize him.
But it kind of makes sense, it's like, kind of this weird juxtaposition with Ember because
it's like she gains her power from being idolized by tormented souls.
Yeah.
You know what I mean?
So like, that's what he wants because that's what he was.
He idolized Eric Harris specifically.
Yeah.
And was like, you know, you live on through me idolizing you.
I never understood that.
And that's what he wants.
That's creepy.
He says to his parents in the video, quote, the warning signs were always there.
They were there from the beginning.
You can always say, what if, what if, what if, but what could have been done?
How did we not know?
It was all there in front of your face.
So welcome to reality.
End quote.
To his parents.
Ooh, that's fucking heavy.
This is the reality.
Yikes.
Of who I am, your son.
Like, welcome to reality.
He did believe that Ember was a goddess and he worshiped her and then through worshiping
her he would gain this ghost squad everlasting life.
Yeah.
Before the shootings, Randy actually emailed the voice actor that voiced Ember McLean's
voice on the show.
Oh, no.
Danny Phantom, yeah.
He thanked her for influencing him and that by the time she would be reading this email,
he would be dead.
Could you imagine?
Can you imagine being her, right?
Getting that email and probably.
She really didn't even read it.
It was probably one of her assistants that read it.
It was like, I'm not fucking sure.
Yeah.
Delete.
What is it?
Delete.
This is, this is, this is boring.
Delete.
It's my Scott Pilgrim.
Oh, I was talking about the Michael Jackson.
Delete.
I was like, he, he, he, like, Jimi Changa, Banana Bong Na.
Our references are showing our age gap.
Of course it's an age gap relationship.
Sorry.
I'm sorry.
Go ahead.
So Randy Sear does have a manifesto online.
It is about five pages long.
I thought about reading it, but at the same time, it was like, that's all he wants is
to like, for me to read his shit.
Pass.
And all, I mean, and I read, I mean, I read most of it.
And then skimmed some of it, which he would probably hate.
Just skimmed over it.
You're not important.
Just skimmed over it.
It essentially is just everything that I've told you now, for the most part.
We can sit here and say that certain things that he did or certain things that he said
sounded narcissistic, narcissistic.
Through his writings, you can really hear how arrogant he sounds and like how full of
himself he sounds.
Like he really thinks he's like fucking Apple white.
Like he thinks that this is, this is, this just makes sense.
This makes sense to me.
It should make sense to you.
These are the reasons I'm doing this.
Now you all understand me more.
Yeah.
And it's just, it's very much, it's, it's kind of rambling a little bit, a little manic.
But again, you do get this overall sense that this dude, he like, he really, like he's the
shit.
Like he has the answers.
And maybe you need to listen to me because these are the answers and you're going to
find out like kind of shit.
But also the, but also the like leaving breadcrumbs and saying, well, you should have figured
it out or wow, I gave them all of the evidence that they didn't even say anything to me.
That shouts anti-social personality disorder.
Yeah.
And it does also like, again, with the, with the narcissism, it's almost like, wow, you're
too dumb to figure this out.
Like I'm clearly smarter than you.
Like kind of shit.
You shouldn't have brought me to buy a fucking gun because that's why I did it.
You're bad.
I can't believe I convinced you to take me to get a gun.
Yeah.
I don't know why I just sounded like that.
I don't like the way I sounded.
Or like even when he was like boarding up the back exit doors, like they're like, oh,
there's no one.
They're just like, no one saw me do this.
Like they're all in their own little world.
Like if there's ever a situation where someone can get help before something like this happens,
of course I advocate for that, but it, I just can't feel sorry for him.
Yeah.
Especially now.
Yeah.
The Stare family offered their condolences to the families, of course, of the victims,
saying that they'd never saw this coming.
There's no way that you live and raise, live with and raise someone for 20, how old is
he, 22?
He was 24.
24 years.
And you don't recognize any of those red flags that he's giving.
You know, he probably has like a little like underground like basement area where he has
all this shit and you walk in and there's like an entire shrine to the Columbine killers.
And his parents are like, never saw it coming.
I mean, I'm speculating.
I don't know what he has.
But so, funnily enough that you say that because Kristen herself, the only remaining
victim of the attack, said that Randy was always pleasant to be around.
She was really surprised that he would do something like this.
She even went so far to say that the person that she saw that day was not the person that
her and her coworkers knew and loved.
Loved.
Like, they were close.
That still sounds like a personality disorder to me.
Being able to turn it on and turn it off.
Yeah, turn it on, turn it off.
And be anti-social for sure.
Because you can fake all of those emotions and not have them at all.
I agree.
The wise market would reopen about a month later after a remodel.
Some community members condemned the company's decision while others actually applauded them
saying that to shut the store down would just be feeding into what Randy really wanted.
He wanted to cause a ripple effect that would disrupt the lives of everyone around him.
Well, yeah, he wanted to burn the store down.
So yeah, just giving him what he wants.
Being idolized.
Yeah, idolizing him.
I mean, shit, we're talking about him.
Damn, you right, you right.
Alright, gotta go.
Bye.
It's a comfortable circle.
Shit, you right, you right.
That is, was that it?
That's it.
That is wild.
And again, we talk about being consistent on the show about whether or not we have people
that have been diagnosed with something, but there's a very real issue happening here.
I don't know if it's necessarily untreated schizophrenia, untreated personality disorder,
untreated narcissism.
Yeah.
Just a lot.
There's a lot going on.
There's a lot going on there.
I honestly wish we knew more about his family life and his childhood and stuff growing up.
I guarantee you, especially now, his parents, if anything sinister happened in that house,
they would never admit it now considering what happened because then they would have
to take that blame or that guilt.
And there's a brother there, I mean, we haven't heard anything from Jeremy.
And this happened six or years ago, you know, six years ago.
That's so awful.
And that's actually, I don't even think that's the story that I was thinking of.
It's kept sounding familiar and sounding familiar and then it wasn't like the actual crime,
I don't remember.
So that just goes to show that there is way too many of these fucking events happening.
Makes me second guess having an Ember McLean t-shirt.
Because if he's like wearing a natural selection t-shirt, should I just not be wearing an Ember
McLean t-shirt?
It's just dumb because natural selection has nothing to do with you killing people.
It's not what that fucking means.
But that's why Eric Harris wore it ironically.
I think that's why he did too.
Do you remember what we were talking about recently?
It was, I don't remember who it was.
It was a case that we did recently and the perpetrator said like, if it's their time,
then it's their time.
Like not if you fucking make it happen.
Yeah, like what?
God, yeah, I don't remember.
It was Jack Gilbert-Gram.
Oh, you dumbass.
You dummy.
Definitely another one of those cases where if you see something, say something, clearly
Randy Stair was going through some things, especially like the body dysmorphial one is
the part that hurts me the most.
The fact that they felt like they couldn't express themselves the way that they needed
to.
And again, I use Randy Stair because that's just what's in the research.
Randy Stair did not ask to go by any other name.
So, you know, unfortunately, that's what they're known as.
So if you or someone you know is struggling with any of these disorders or you need to
reach out to somebody, check out diagnosiskiller.com.
There are an entire list of resources on there as well, including the Trevor Project,
National Suicide Lifeline, which is now 988.
Yeah.
A couple of different things on there as well.
Yeah, definitely check that out.
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