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Hello! Hello! I'm Kenna. I'm Koelle. Why do I say it like that? I don't know!

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Welcome back to diagnosing a killer mental breakdown. Mental breakdown! Yeah, yeah, yeah.

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Mental breakdown. Break the breakdown. Break the breakdown. Oh, I like that. Yeah, she keeps that.

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Da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da. Mental breakdown. Da-da-da-da-da-da. Mental breakdown.

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Da-da-da-da-da-da-da.

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Oh, man. I am very, very excited to say that I have not had anxiety in two days. Oh, great. Which

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feels like a lifetime for me. Yeah. Um, I went to my therapy appointment that we talked about in the

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last mental breakdown and it went really well. Good. And I'm very optimistic for this new chapter and

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this new outlook on mental health. So, I'm excited about that for myself. That's really cool. So,

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we are going to be talking about depressive disorder. Oh. Specifically, melancholic depressive

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disorder. Okay. But just kind of depressive disorder in general. Just all around depression?

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Yeah. Yes. Like me every day. Right. The prevalence of depression disorder is very common. There's

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more than 3 million United States cases per year. So, toddlers from three to five years is a very

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rare. Children think so. Right. So, they have meltdowns all the time. Well, they do, but for other

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reasons. Well, you know, depressive disorder is very, very complex. So, from children,

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six to 13 years, it's common. Teenagers 14 to 18 is very common and literally from there up,

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very common between young adults, adults and seniors. I feel like it should be most common

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for seniors because it is very, very... Right. Especially when you start going out as much and

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you don't have as many friends as you used to and yeah. Now, I'm going to be talking about major

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depressive disorder first. So, just a quick overview. If you're not aware of how depressive

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disorder works, depression is a mood disorder that causes a persistent feeling of sadness and loss

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of interest. Also called major depressive disorder or clinical depression, it affects how you feel,

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think and behave and can lead to a variety of emotional and physical problems. You may have

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trouble doing normal day-to-day activities and sometimes you may feel as if life isn't worth

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living. Which is a really shitty feeling. Yeah. So, it's more than just a bout of the blues.

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Depression isn't a weakness and you simply can't, quote, snap out of it. Depression may require

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long-term treatment, but most people with depression feel better with medication, psychotherapy are

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both. Now, here are some symptoms of depression. Although depression may only occur once during

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your life, people typically have multiple episodes and during these episodes, symptoms occur most of

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the day, nearly every day and may include feeling of sadness, tearfulness, emptiness or hopelessness,

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angry outburst, irritability or frustration, even over small things. Loss of interest or pleasure

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and most are all normal activities such as sex, hobbies or sports, sleep disturbances including

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insomnia or sleeping too much, tiredness and lack of energy so even small tasks take extra effort,

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reduced appetite and weight loss or increased cravings for food and weight gain, anxiety,

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agitation or restlessness, slow thinking, speaking or body movements, feeling of worthlessness or

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guilt or fixating on past failures or self-blame, trouble thinking, concentrating, making decisions

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and remembering things, frequent or recurrent thoughts of death, suicidal thoughts, suicide

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attempts and unexplained physical problems such as back pain or headaches which I did not know was

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part of depression. That's a lot of things and I feel like everybody has experienced one or more

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of those things. I was like, bro, why are you calling me out like that? Now, for many people

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with depression, symptoms usually are severe enough to cause noticeable problems in day-to-day

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activities such as work, school, social activities or relationships. Some people may feel generally

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miserable or unhappy without really knowing why. So, you know, depression is one of those things

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where I feel like it's another term that's really loosely thrown around. Oh, I'm just depressed

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or whatever. But clinical depression and depressive disorder is extreme. I mean, we've seen

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the first-hand case of it. Extreme to the point where you can't even get out of bed to do things

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and it's the helplessness or the hopelessness as the kicker. Right. Because then this doesn't make

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you even want to get up. It doesn't make you want to do anything about it either. Exactly.

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And you feel like shit for not doing anything about it. Right. That's a cycle, vicious one.

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Now, depression symptoms actually differ in teens than they do in adults. So, I'm going to kind of

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explain the differences in the symptoms for children and teens and then adults. So, common

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signs and symptoms of depression in children and teenagers are similar, but there can be some

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differences. So, in younger children, symptoms of depression may include sadness, irritability,

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clinginess, worry, aches and pains, refusing to go to school or being underweight. Cleanest. That's

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interesting to me. Right. And in teens, symptoms may include sadness, irritability, feeling negative

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and worthless, anger, poor performance or poor attendance at school, feeling misunderstood and

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extremely sensitive, using recreational drugs or alcohol, eating or sleeping too much, self-harm,

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loss of interest in normal activities and avoidance of social interaction.

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Again, I just feel like that was just high school. For me, I mean, I never went to school.

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And I think that's the difference in the children. They don't have the

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cognitive thought about morbidity. And so, they don't think too-

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Manifests in different ways. Exactly. In adults, the depression symptoms are a little bit different.

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Depression is not a normal part of growing older and it should never be taken lightly.

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Unfortunately, depression often goes undiagnosed and untreated in older adults and they may feel

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reluctant to seek help. So, symptoms of depression in older adults that may be different or less

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obvious, such as memory difficulties or personality changes, physical aches or pain, fatigue,

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loss of appetite, sleep problems or loss of interest in sex not caused by a medical condition

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or medication, often wanting to stay at home rather than going out and socializing or doing

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new things and suicidal thinking or feelings, especially in older men. Older white males are

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actually the most common person that will commit suicide in America.

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And that's because of social status and social pressure, right?

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So, and it says, when to see a doctor, if you feel depressed, make an appointment to

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see your doctor or mental health professional as soon as you can. If you're reluctant to seek

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treatment, talk to a friend or loved one, any healthcare professional, a faith leader or someone

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you trust. Now, there are a bunch of different things that can or are thought to cause depression,

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but it's not known exactly what causes it actually. As with many mental disorders, a variety of

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factors may be involved, such as biological differences. So, people with depression appear

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to have physical changes in their brains, like we were talking about that frontal lobe. The

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significance of these changes is still uncertain, but may eventually help pinpoint causes. Brain

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chemistry, so neurotransmitters are naturally occurring brain chemicals. Of course, they play a

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role. Recent research indicates that changes in the function and effect of these neurotransmitters

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and how they interact with neuro circuits involved in maintaining mood stability may play a

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significant role in depression and even the treatment of depression. Now, hormones is another

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thing. So, changes in the body's balance of hormones may be involved in causing or triggering

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depression. Hormone changes can result with pregnancy and during the weeks or months after

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delivery, commonly known as postpartum depression, and from thyroid problems, menopause, or a number

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of other conditions. And lastly, inherited traits, like we said in the last couple of mental breakdowns,

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you can be predisposed to develop a mental disorder that includes depression. Depression

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is more common in people whose blood relatives also have this condition. Researchers are trying

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to find genes that may be involved in causing depression. These are some risk factors that

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could trigger developing depression. So, depression often begins in the teens, 20s, or 30s, but it

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can happen at any age. More women than men are diagnosed with depression, but this may be due

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in part because women are more likely to seek treatment than men for depression.

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Oh, I see. So, they're more likely to be recorded as far as the statistic.

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Yes. So, it's saying that it's probably equal for the possibility of developing it,

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but men won't, you won't know as much because they won't seek treatment.

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Yeah. Factors that seem to increase the risk of developing or triggering depression include

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certain personality traits such as loss of esteem and being too dependent, self-critical,

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or pessimistic. Traumatic or stressful events such as physical or sexual abuse, the death or

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loss of a loved one, a difficult relationship, or financial problems, blood relatives with a

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history of depression, bipolar disorder, alcoholism, or suicide. So, we're both going to get depression.

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I mean, so literally every American. Literally.

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I'm sorry. I feel like everyone gets depression. I mean, it's one of those things

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that's not far-fetched. Like when we talked about OCD, I think the reason that people use it or

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maybe throw it around, you know, in either a joking manner or whatever is because it is so

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prevalent that everyone goes through bouts of depression. Everyone can relate to that.

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Everyone can relate to that feeling. It's easy to say. Yeah. So, moving on with the risk factors,

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being lesbian, gay, bisexual, or transgender, or having variations in the development of genital

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organs that aren't clearly male or female, which is commonly referred to as intersex,

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in an unsupportive situation. So, people in the LGBTQ plus community are very, very vulnerable

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to developing depression, especially if people in their life don't understand or they don't want

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to be supportive. History of other mental health disorders such as anxiety disorder,

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eating disorders, or post-traumatic stress disorder, abuse of alcohol or recreational drugs,

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serious or chronic illness, including cancer, stroke, chronic pain, or heart disease,

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and certain medications actually. Some high blood pressure medications or sleeping pills can

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put you at risk for developing depression. Now, there are some complications that come with

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depression, of course. I would say comorbidity probably is a good word to use. So, depression,

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of course, is a very serious disorder that can take a terrible toll on you and your family.

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It often gets worse if it isn't treated, resulting in emotional, behavioral, and health problems that

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affect every area of your life. So, just some examples of complications associated with depression,

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excessive weight or obesity, which can lead to heart disease and diabetes, pain or physical

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illness, alcohol or drug misuse, anxiety, panic disorder, or social phobia, family conflicts,

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relationship difficulties, and worker school problems, social isolation, suicidal feelings,

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suicide attempts, or suicide, self-mutilation, such as cutting and premature death from medical

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conditions. So, that is the overview of depression. I know it's kind of hard to talk about, but it

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is very important to note because if somebody, you know, reaches out to you and they're dealing with

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symptoms of depression or anything like that, it's very beneficial to have this information in order

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to kind of understand where they're coming from and realize what's happening. And so,

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I would like to now kind of segue into talking about melancholic depression, the form of a

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major depressive disorder, which presents with melancholic features. So, although melancholic

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depression used to be seen as a distinct disorder, the APA no longer recognizes it as a separate

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mental illness. Instead, melancholia is now seen as a specifier for MDD, which is major

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depressive disorder. That is, it's a subtype of major depressive disorder. Now, MDD is a significant

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mental health condition characterized by persistent and intense feelings of sadness and hopelessness.

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The disorder can affect many areas of life, like I said earlier, work-school relationships.

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It also may impact mood and behavior as well as various physical functions, sleep and eating.

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People with this disorder often lose interest in activities they've enjoyed, they once enjoyed,

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and have trouble getting through the day. Occasionally, they may also feel as if life isn't worth living.

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Now, the severity of these symptoms vary greatly from person to person.

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Some people experience traditional symptoms, while others develop additional syndrome such as

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melancholia and catatonia. Most symptoms can be managed with treatment, which may consist of

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medication and or talk therapy. Now, people with melancholic depression may experience symptoms of

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major depressive disorder. Those are the ones I said earlier. Persistent feelings of extreme

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sadness, loss of interest, lack of energy, feeling anxious, eating too much or too little, sleeping

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too much or too little, experiencing changes in body movement. For example, jiggling your leg when

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you didn't before, like I'm doing right this second. That's terrible. Difficulty concentrating,

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making decisions that are remembering things, etc. They may also experience melancholic features

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of MDD, which include loss of pleasure in all or most daily activities, lack of reactivity to

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positive news and events, deep feelings of despair and worthlessness, sleep disruptions,

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significant weight loss, persistent feeling of excessive or inappropriate guilt,

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and symptoms of MDD that are worse in the morning, which I thought was interesting.

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Maybe because they always say take a pregnancy test early in the morning because that's when

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your hormones are at the highest. I'm wondering if that's just like your chemical levels or like

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your balance at that point. Well, because your body is at most at rest.

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Now, melancholic features are more likely to occur in people who frequently experience severe

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symptoms of MDD. They are also seen more often in those who have MDD with psychotic features.

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So, when someone does show signs of depression and melancholia, the diagnosis is major depressive

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disorder with melancholic features. In order to make this diagnosis, a doctor will usually ask

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some of the following questions. Do you have difficulty getting out of bed and getting

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started in the morning? You can answer. Yeah, but it's usually because I stay up really late.

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Are your symptoms generally worse in the morning or in the evening?

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In the morning. How do you sleep? If I sleep? Yeah, I don't. I usually like, I don't know,

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it depends. It depends on my day. I wouldn't say that's consistent enough to be able to give you

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a direct answer. Has there been a change in your sleep patterns? Yes. What does a typical day

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look like for you? You don't have to answer that. Has your daily routine- It's a long walk on a beach.

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Has your daily routine changed recently? Yeah, but life. Yeah. And do you enjoy the same things

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you once did is another question that they would ask? I mean, I feel like it's constantly evolving.

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So I have very vague answers for any doctor that would ask me those questions.

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Can you use it in a sentence? So MDD is often treated with newer antidepressants such as

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selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors or SSRIs. These include well-known medications such as,

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I'm going to butcher these names, fluxitine, which is prozac, cetylopram, cilexia, or peroxitine,

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which is pexil. However, many people who have MDD with melancholic features may respond better to

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older antidepressants such as the trichlylic antidepressants or monoamine oxidized inhibitors.

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Ooh, I killed that. Nice. As well as serotonin non-reuf friend reuptake inhibitors such as

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vellinfectine or afexor is the brand. So these medications help and inhibit the breakdown of

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serotonin in the brain, resulting in higher amount of those quote feel-good chemicals.

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I'm pretty sure that's what acid does. Sometimes certain atypical antipsychotics such as

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abilify may be used to augment the effects of antidepressants. So there's a lot of different

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ways to treat this. So this is one of those disorders where if you're feeling signs and

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symptoms of this, the best option is to speak with somebody about it in order to take steps,

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because this is not something that goes away on its own. And I think a lot of people also,

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you know, like I just gave you a bunch of really vague answers, right? Now, if I don't discuss

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my sleep patterns or I don't discuss my daily activities with someone, how am I supposed

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to know that they're abnormal? Exactly. And I feel like I really do do that. Like I feel like,

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oh, it's just my depression or whatever, you know, and which I know it probably is,

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but because sometimes tears just seep out of my eyeballs. But I feel like I justify it to myself

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sometimes that I think that it's normal until I realized it's not normal. But how many others,

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like warning signs that I miss before it became abnormal to me? Exactly. So yeah.

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Now, in addition to medication, talk therapy is commonly used to treat people who have MDD with

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melancholic features. A combination of these two treatment methods is usually more effective than

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either approach on its own. And of course, talk therapy involves meeting with a therapist on a

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regular basis to discuss, you know, certain things. I looked up some celebrities that have depression.

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All of them. Yeah. So with major depressive disorder and things like that, it's not very

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prevalent among killers, especially as before presenting diagnosis or, you know, disorder.

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It's kind of overshadowed by other disorders, you know, the psychotest personality disorders,

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things like that. But I do have some celebrities like I had last time. I have a lot. So this is

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probably my favorite part about doing this mental breakdown is talking about celebs.

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people are struggling with these things and you just never know. Now, my first on my list,

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Dewayne The Rock Johnson. Oh, Maui. Yes. He was opened up about depression recently and said,

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quote, struggle and pain is real. He actually saved his mother from a suicide attempt when he was 15.

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Oh my gosh. So that's, you can talk about hereditary stuff right there, right?

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And so he's also noted as saying, quote, depression never discriminates, took me a long time to

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realize it. But the key is to not be afraid to open up, especially us dudes have a tendency to

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keep it in. You're not alone. Okay. That's nice. I know. I love that. So my second one is Katy Perry.

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She shared her struggles with depression in an emotional session on The Therapist. She said

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that she opened up because she wants her fans to see her true self. And she's quoted as saying,

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if people can see that I'm just like them, they can dream just as big. Right? Isn't that cool?

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I want her onkshoes. Have you seen those? No. Sandals? Oh my gosh. I need a pair. They're so

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cute. John Hamm. He said he's been open about his bouts with depression and says it was particularly

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rough after his father died when he was in college. He was quoted as saying, we live in a world where

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to admit anything negative about yourself is seen as a weakness when it's actually a strength. It's

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not a weak move to say I need help. Yeah. Lady Gaga. She said she's dealt with both anxiety and

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depression. I know that I mentioned her on the other mental breakdown. And she said that, quote,

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if we share our stories and stick together, we're stronger. Michael Phelps is on here. Okay. Yeah.

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So he said that he sat alone in his bedroom for three to five days, quote, not wanting to be alive.

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And he knew that he needed help after he sought treatment and started talking about his feelings.

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He said, quote, life became easy. And now he understands that, quote, it's okay not to be okay.

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I have goosebumps. I've had them this whole time. Kristen Bell is also on here. I mentioned her in

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the last mental breakdown. She says, quote, there's nothing weak about struggling with mental illness.

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She went public to try to shed more light on the disorder and ease the stigma around it. Bruce

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Springsteen is on here as well. I know. Jersey boy. He said he had bouts of depression in his 60s

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that lasted for a long time. And he was quoted as saying, it's like this thing that engulfs you.

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I got to where I didn't want to get out of bed. He said it didn't affect his work and his wife's

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strength and love were key. She'd say, quote, you're going to be okay, maybe not today or tomorrow,

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but it's going to be all right. And he also got help for his condition from therapy and medication.

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Yeah. Gwyneth Paltrow, she shined a light on postpartum depression when she opened up about

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her five month battle after the birth of her second child, Moses. She said, quote, I felt like a

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zombie. I couldn't access my heart. I couldn't access my emotions. I couldn't connect. She said

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that she also dealt with clinical depression too after her father died in 2002. Oh, wow.

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That's my Margot Tannenbaum. JK Rowling. So of course, the woman behind Harry Potter,

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she said her dark moods even inspired her a series, soul sucking creatures known as dementors.

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Quote, it's so difficult to describe depression to someone who's never been there because it's

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not sadness, but it's that cold absence of feeling, the really hollowed out feeling.

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Yeah. Cheryl Crow. She battled depression even before she faced down breast cancer and a benign

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brain tumor. Wow. I didn't know that she had that. She said, quote, I have a strong sense of melancholy.

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I played piano at an early age out of a need to feel something is what she said. Wow. That's

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incredible. Right. Terry Bradshaw, the NFL Hall of Famer. He said that he believes he had depression

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for years, but he wasn't diagnosed and treated until the late 90s. He now shares his story hoping

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to reduce the stigma surrounding mental illness and is quoted as saying, I thought maybe I could

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help people with awareness, help men get the strength and courage. Yeah. I think that's really big.

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Like you said, more women seek help, I think, because I guess it's more vulnerable about their

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emotions. Yeah. I feel like maybe it's because women are allowed socially express their emotions.

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So for a man, it's like, no, like they think that they can fix it. Yeah. Of course.

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Buzz Aldrin. It says even walking on the moon couldn't stop Buzz Aldrin from feeling low.

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His sudden fame after the 1969 moon landing led to his divorce plus problems with alcohol and

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depression. He said that unhappiness runs in his family. His mother and maternal grandfather

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suffered from the disease to the point of both sadly having committed suicide.

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He sought treatment and became chairman of the National Mental Health Association.

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Wow. Good for him. That's amazing. He's old. He is alive and kicking at 91 years old. Wow.

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His birthday is actually in January. He's January 28th. He's an Aquarius. I know he's so

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close to me though on the 10th. Yeah. Now, Wayne Brady, who I love. I love Wayne Brady.

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Oh my God. He described his experience in 2014 and quote, you don't want to move.

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You can't move in the darkness. He opened up in an effort to stop the double standard in

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Hollywood. He said, or it seems more acceptable to admit to a drug problem than clinical depression.

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Oh man. That is so intuitive. That is so true. Right. Jim Carrey. I love Jim Carrey. I love him too.

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He opens up about taking antidepressants and leads a very clean spiritual life. He has quoted

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us saying, I rarely drink coffee. I'm very serious about no alcohol, no drugs. Life is too beautiful.

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I want to cry. Beautiful. And Robin Williams, of course, we all know it was a very big shock

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in 2014 when he ultimately committed suicide. He had actually been diagnosed with Parkinson's and

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had a history with depression, substance and alcohol abuse. And he may have actually had

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a form of dementia, it says. Really? So in 2006, he described his highs and lows,

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and as quoted as saying, do I perform sometimes in a manic style? Yes. Am I manic all the time?

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No. Do I get sad? Oh yeah. Does it hit me hard? Oh yeah. And that really hurts my heart. Oh,

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I know. I love you, Robin. I know. Such a joy taken from the world. Yeah. And last but not least,

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Abraham Lincoln. Mrs. Lincoln. Yes. The Schizophrenia. Oh, she was diagnosed with Schizophrenia.

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So, and he had a hell of a time as a clinical depression. Wow. So he was quoted as saying,

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if what I feel were equally distributed to the whole human family, there would not be one

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cheerful face on the earth. Oh my God, chills. He wrote a law partner in 1841 and said, quote,

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whether I shall ever be better, I cannot tell. He relied heavily on friends, family and trusted,

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an entrusted doctor to see him through his darkest times. Other historical figures who reportedly

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wrestle with depression include Ernest Hemingway, Winston Churchill, psychoanalyst Sigmund Freud,

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and General William T. Sherman. Freud. But that quote, if what I feel were equally distributed

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to the whole human family, there would not be one cheerful face on earth. Isn't that heavy?

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That's haunting. That is so haunting. The thought. What a horrible feeling. That has to be such a

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dark feeling, like just a helpless feeling. I cannot even, like I can't even put myself there.

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I would not wish that on my worst enemy. Seriously, that is a horrible feeling. And the thing is,

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is that that's where depression becomes scary. Because you can be depressed, you can have clinical

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depression, have suicidal thoughts and tendencies. When you get that, when you reach that feeling

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of hopelessness, that's, that's scary. Yeah. That being said, I would like to mention suicide

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prevention to a little note. If you find yourself in a position where you think somebody is at

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immediate risk of self-harm or hurting other people, you should immediately call 911 or your

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local emergency number. You should stay with that person until help arrives. Remove any guns,

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knives, medication, or any other things that may cause harm. Listen, but don't judge, argue,

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threaten, or yell. And if you think someone is considering suicide, get help from a crisis

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or suicide prevention hotline. So the national suicide prevention lifeline is 800-273-8255.

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And you can call that number at any time of the day, 247. So of course to our LGBTQIA2S plus

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community, we also have the Trevor Project. It is 247 that you can call this number.

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The number is 866-488-7386. It's very unfortunate the number of people that

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are experiencing this. I mean, currently, like daily, you know, and, and, you know,

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nothing is ever worth taking your life over. It's just not. Yeah. And it might feel like that is the

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only option, but it's not. It's a bad day. It's not a bad life. I always like to say that. Yeah.

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I think even with these, these phone numbers, they'll actually place you with a counselor as well.

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Okay. Cool. And, and if you're like me and you have anxiety about being on the phone with someone

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that wears me out, I know Trevor Project and if I'm not entirely mistaken, I think National

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Suicide Hotline also has chat options so you can text or, yeah, or just message online. So, yeah.

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If you find yourself in a position where you can't afford healthcare or, you know, mental

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healthcare, if you are enrolled in college, I'm pretty sure most colleges, at least in Texas,

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I'm not sure about the U.S., they offer free student counseling. Yeah. I actually looked that up for

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Alamo Colleges this week for myself. Yeah. They offer free services. Yeah. And they're,

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they generally have a male and a female counselor, whoever you feel comfortable with. Of course.

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Yeah. And they also have little bios of them as well. So you can see where they've worked,

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what they do, what they enjoy, things like that. Yeah. Kind of get to know them before you ever

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reach out. Yeah. And then if you wanted to, and then of course email them. There's a whole team

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of people for just San Antonio College. So I'm sure there's a huge team of people for every

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college campus. Yeah. Absolutely. There's like these sub, there's a list of like six or seven

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people after the two main counselors that they can also, just with, if you need help with just

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talking to someone or fellowship of some kind, they also have groups available. Yeah.

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Absolutely. Even in high school, high school counselors, they're licensed for that stuff,

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you know. Right. They use your resources. Even at work, a lot of places, if you go to HR and you

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express something to them, they might be able to help you with something. Yeah. The biggest thing

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for me is that do not ever, ever feel like you are going to be burdening somebody by talking about

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that. Right. The first step is to talk about it and to confront it head on, you know. So especially

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me, if any of my close friends are listening, you never ever going to bother me with that stuff.

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You can't. I also came across a really awesome YouTube channel and it was a little silly,

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but it's called The School of Life. Okay. And there are, I mean, two or three episodes or shows and

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it's all different types of topics about relationships and intimate ones and friendships

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and family relationships and just introspective stuff. I watched two and I cried watching both,

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but because it hit so hard and like it really gave me like a lot of insight into the way that I might

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be feeling and how I'm feeling and it was really cool. It's called The School of Life. Okay. And

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we'll put that on your show notes too. Yeah. It's really cool stuff and there's all different types

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of topics on there. If you just want to listen to someone else talk for a second, it was actually

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really, really rewarding. Well, I know that this was kind of a harder mental breakdown to talk about

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and to listen to. So I appreciate everybody kind of sticking through and again, you are never alone.

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You have so many reasons to live and use so many resources that you can reach out to. So

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just please remember that we love all of you. We love you guys. All right. Anything else you got?

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