I'm gonna let her handle my life.
She was like, I'm gonna let her handle my life.
I'm gonna let her handle my life.
But you really know you're worthy.
Yeah, you really know you're worthy.
Yeah, you're worthy, Lord, you're worthy.
Can you hold me Lord, you're holy?
So I sing, so I sing your praise
Oh my days
Can you hold me Lord, you're holy?
So I sing, so I sing your praise
Oh my days
So I sing, so I sing 정도
So I sing your praise.
For my day, you are worthy.
You are worthy.
So I sing your praise.
For my day.
You are worthy.
So I sing your praise.
For my day.
There's no one like you.
My beautiful King.
There's no one like you.
My beautiful King.
Let your holy love, your holy. Let your holy love, your holy.
Let your holy love, your holy.
So I sing your praise.
For my day.
All my days, all my days
Cause I'm a lover, I can not remember what I was doing before I met you
I've been captivated by the love you gave me
I'm in love, I can not remember what I was doing before I met you
I've been captivated by the love you gave me
I'm in love, I can not remember what I was doing before I met you
I've been captivated by the love you gave me
I'm in love, I can not remember what I was doing before I met you
I've been captivated by the love you gave me
I'm in love, I can not remember what I was doing before I met you
I've been captivated by the love you gave me
I'm in love, I can not remember what I was doing before I met you
I've been captivated by the love you gave me
You say, you say me, I won't ever leave your love
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
You say, you say me, I won't ever leave your love
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
I never thought I would ever feel it
Your love gave me all that I needed
I never thought I would ever feel it
But your love gave me all that I needed
Now I'm in love, I'm in love
I can not remember what I was doing before I met you
I've been captivated by the love you gave me
I'm in love, I can not remember what I was doing before I met you
I've been captivated by the love you gave me
By the love you gave me
You say me, you say me
I won't ever leave your love
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
You say me, you say me
You say me with your love
You save me, you 무대ell me
You save me with your love
You save me, you save me
I will never leave your love
You don't let go
Your love is faithful
You don't let go
Your love is faithful
You don't let go
Your love is faithful
You don't let go
Your love is faithful
I'll be faithful
You don't let go
Even when I let go
Even when I don't want to hold your hand
You're still holding, still holding
And you bring me closer
There's no shame, no fear
I've never felt unworthy around anybody, you know what I'm saying?
Well, I've compared myself, but I've never felt like, dang I'm not worthy to be around this honey right now
or like, when I was at a church last Sunday, for the first time in a long time
and one of my good friends came up to me and he had such a good spirit, he was such a, a Jesus heart, you know
and I just felt so unworthy for a second, it was my compulsion, you know what I'm saying?
and he was like, hugging me, looking me in my eyes
and I know he loves me, and I love him too, he's a brother to me for years, but for some reason
it clicked in my head, when it feels like, when it would be like to feel unworthy in front of Jesus
you know, there's stuff that I do or things that I do throughout the week I'm proud of, you know what I'm saying?
and then you meet an homie, and then you're like, oh my gosh, if this dude knew what I was doing this week, or you know, like, my heart
or the things that I thought probably wouldn't be hugging me like this, or you know
but then I was just remembering that most of it at the piano
and I was thinking about that song worthy that we were just singing
I was thinking about how Jesus died for us to feel worthy
and then I heard him singing
You are worthy
You sing it to me
You are worthy
Jesus was singing that to you
You are worthy
He said to the woman of the well
You are worthy
So I sing your praise
All my days
So I sing your praise
All my days
That's what it would sound like if a woman spoke to us now
I love this song
Speak to us Jesus
What did I do again?
I just feel like I want to break off any unworthiness
Because you can't fully operate in sonship, daughtership
You can't operate in the calling that you were born for
You feel like you're actually worthy enough to walk in it
Because love is confidence
There's no fear
Perfect love casts that off you
If there ever be somebody who isn't secure and fearful
You know
You can tell where the Holy Spirit is resting
And who is resting
It's our job to be a master for Jesus
It doesn't have to be perfect
But we have to have the fundamentals down at least
So we can remind ourselves when it gets hard
That you're worthy and you're worthy
Come before the Lord
Worthy is your worthy
Need it after you've gone
Now don't leave it at the door, bring it in
Right here, you know what I'm saying?
So I just want you to think about whatever it is that you feel like you're just going to struggle with
You're going to struggle in the way of the battle, you're going to back and forth
The thing that you know
If you say it out loud in the summer, the silly, what you're scared of
What you're anxious for
I just want you guys to imagine Jesus looking at you with the eyes
Music
And he's saying
Music
The Lord is right by my side
Everything's alright
No need to worry
For the Lord is right by my side
Everything's alright
No need to worry
The Lord is right by my side
Everything's alright
No need to worry
The Lord is right by my side
Music
The Lord is right by my side
Everything's alright
The Lord is right by my side
Everything's alright
There is no one like you, Lord.
You, Lord.
There is no one like you, Lord.
You, Lord.
There is no one like you, Lord.
You, Lord.
There is no one like you, Lord.
You, Lord.
There is no one like you, Lord.
You, Lord.
All the angels sing out, There is no one like you, Lord.
You, Lord.
There is no one like you, Lord.
You, Lord.
There is no one like you, Lord.
You, Lord.
There is no one like you, Lord.
You, Lord.
You keep me in perfect peace.
I find in your Holy Heart.
You keep me in perfect peace.
I find in your Holy Heart.
You keep me in perfect peace.
I find in your Holy Heart.
You keep me in perfect peace.
Your love is living in my hope.
Your love is healing my soul.
Everything grows in reset.
In your presence.
Because you keep me in perfect peace.
You keep me in perfect peace.
I find in your Holy Heart.
You keep me in perfect peace.
Your love is living in my hope.
Thank you, Lord.
So tonight we're going to hear someone teach that's taught the Bible four times
and is already moving to another country to start a church.
One of the lies that we believe is that we need more tree.
So I can tell you that no matter what age you are,
the devil will always tell you that you need a little more tree.
I'll fix that for a second.
So what we learn is that to ignore that voice and to just do what we know.
I have a lot of tree, but that doesn't qualify someone.
What qualifies someone is your heart and the Holy Spirit.
And the last time I checked, if you give your heart to God,
then God will fill you with your spirit, his spirit, and then that is what qualifies you.
So what I want to do tonight is to pray that we'll catch that.
We'll quit telling ourselves we need more tree.
There's a difference between training and being committed to learning.
So be committed to learning.
What are we going to learn? Lots.
More than I know right now.
Sometimes by mistake.
That's training, more learning.
And also I want you to understand this and learn this and let that get out of your heart
This needs to be in more spaces and more places.
So sometimes what happens is God will be here.
God will allow all of this to give a little bit of courage to people who need courage.
So what I pray is that the little bit of courage that's in this room would go out.
Into more spaces with Nico up in LA. I was texting Nico earlier today.
Nico, put your hand up.
God's going to go with Nico and Nico's going to go bang on the door in Verve and Earth Cafe.
We need to allow that courage to go with us.
Let's allow this to give people courage.
So Mitch is going to share tonight, Jonah 4.
If you want to support Mitch, like you want to send him some money, you can believe in him.
On Venmo, OCN, WTR, whatever comes in tonight, we'll get it to Mitch.
I'm going to tell you something. We had no money when we had one church.
We had no money when we had two churches.
We had no money when we had three churches.
We had no money when we had four churches.
We had no money when we had five churches.
Tonight's the sixth church. We had no money.
And that's good. And I've made a commitment to God.
We're going to give away all the people and all the money that's in the field.
Okay, Mitch.
If you guys have your Bible, you can open it to Jonah 4.
And as you're opening up to Jonah 4, I was thinking about, because I like themes,
I was thinking about what would be a good theme for this chapter.
And the first thing that came to my mind was what happens when things don't go our way.
But after hearing worship tonight, the three words that stuck out to me was God's marvelous love.
And that's where we're going to focus on reading this chapter.
So let me go find this real quick.
I work at a boxing gym, and we do kids class.
And there's about 20 little 4 to 12 year old kids running around with boxing gloves.
And you know, things kind of get dicey every once in a while.
You know, you throw those random, like, Fanchon hooks every once in a while.
And they're all this tall, so you're like, I've definitely gotten some Fanchon hooks to the Nazarene for.
Careful.
But there's this one kid that me and Coach Lexi over there, we coach, his name's Adam.
And he's developmentally disabled.
And he, the one thing he always says is, he says, can you smile?
Can you smile?
And then you smile, and he's like, bigger!
Bigger!
And you're like, as big as you can.
And he's always saying, bigger, bigger, bigger.
And what I want to focus on today is that God's love is bigger than you could ever imagine.
And that's what we're going to read today.
And now before we read, I want to pray a blessing over you guys.
And we're going to read out of Ephesians 3, 16 through 21.
And I want you to put yourself in a position of receiving right now, a posture of receiving.
And so however that looks for you, I'm going to read this and pray for us right now.
Lord, I pray that from your glorious and unlimited resources that you would give your mighty inner strength to your Holy Spirit.
I pray that through Christ we will be more and more at home in your heart.
And that you will be more and more at home in our hearts as we trust in you.
May your roots grow deep into the soil.
May our roots grow deep into the soil of your marvelous, marvelous love.
And may you have, may we all have the power to understand as all God's people should, how wide, how long, how high, how deep His love really is.
And may we experience the love of Christ, though we will never, ever, ever fully understand it.
Then we will be filled with the fullness of life and the power that comes from God.
Now glory be to God, by His mighty power at work within us, He is able to accomplish infinitely more than we could ever dare to ask or hope for.
May He be given glory in the church and in Christ Jesus forever and ever through endless ages. Amen.
Amen.
Alright, we're going to jump right into verse one.
And verse one says, in Jonah chapter four, I'm reading out of the NLT.
This change of plan upset Jonah and he became very angry.
So we have to ask, what was the change of plans?
If we look at chapter three, verse ten, it says that God, when he saw that the Ninevites had put a stop to their evil ways,
he had mercy on them and he didn't carry out the destruction that he had planned.
And so we see that Jonah had given a lackluster sermon to these guys.
He said, forty days you'll be destroyed. And that's all he said throughout the whole time of traveling through the city.
And we see that there's repentance from least to greatest.
And so we can take confidence that if God puts a word on your heart, no matter what kind of word he's put on your heart,
no matter who he's told you to say it to, we know that he is going to work powerfully through that.
Yeah.
I like to use the example of giving God five loaves of bread and two fish to him.
You use your words, though they may not be eloquent, you feel obedient and you say it to whoever God tells you to and he's going to do a great work.
But why is Jonah so upset? We have to ask this now. Why is he so upset at this change of plan that thousands of people have repented?
And we have to remember that this is 700 years before Christ. This is a time when the Syrians had taken over the public.
So we see we have to ask ourselves, who might have Jonah known that had been taken captive, that had been enslaved, that had been killed?
Could he have had family that's been taken? Could he have had friends that he'd known?
And so in verse two we see something, we read, so he complains to the Lord about it.
If you're going to complain, mind as well complain to the Lord.
Can I get an amen? Amen.
But isn't this funny? We read here, he complains to the Lord,
Didn't I say before I left home that you would do this Lord? That is why I ran to Tarshish. I knew you were gracious and compassionate to God, slow to get angry and filled with unfailing love.
I knew how easily you could change your plans for destroying these people.
Isn't it funny how the same grace and compassion that Jonah received as he was running away and disobeying God,
this is the same grace that he received and he doesn't want the nanobytes to get it.
Isn't it funny that the same patience and unfailing love Jonah receives all story long is the same love and patience that God gives him the whole time?
The same cancellation of destruction that Jonah receives when God spares his life from being thrown into the ocean and God provides a big fish to save his life.
That's the same salvation that he received that he doesn't want the nanobytes to have.
And so this reminds me of a story in Matthew 18, it's the story of the unforgiving debtor.
And what happens in the story is that the king is calling his servants to him and he's calling out people that have owed him money.
And this servant owes him millions of dollars.
And what happens is the servant gets on his knees and begs, he says, be patient with me, I'll pay it all.
And the king showed him pity and forgave him of everything.
Then in his freedom he walks away and another servant, one of his fellow coworkers, he owes the servant a thousand dollars or so in some change.
And this servant grabbed the other servant by the throat and he demanded that this servant pay him every single penny instantly.
And then the other saw it, they reported it to the king and the king heard about this and brought that evil servant before him and said,
should you have shown the same mercy that I showed you?
And we see that in that Jesus says in the Sermon on Mount, be merciful and you will be shown mercy.
Matthew 16 says, or Matthew 14-15 says that if you forgive others of their trespasses your Father in heaven will forgive you.
And if you don't forgive others of their trespasses you won't be forgiven either.
And we see that this is, I want all of us to think about how much we have been forgiven of in your own life.
You like search deep in your heart, how much have we been forgiven of?
And then I want you to think about other people in your life that you need to forgive at this moment.
For me the word that was put on my heart and a word that brings a lot of bitterness is your ex.
Your ex brings a lot of bitterness and that's just been a struggle of mine, just forgiving my exes.
And I mean it, you guys, that is as real as it gets and I feel like God's been playing on my heart.
I need to forgive them and forgive myself for what happened and move on.
And so we can often find ourselves thinking about that stuff a lot.
And if you've never asked God for forgiveness I just want to let you know that you're missing out on a lot of freedom.
There's so much freedom in asking God for anything that you've done.
Look at the Ninevites, look at all they've done.
And God is big enough, His love is big enough to forgive anything in your life.
But He does look at people that are sincere and genuine.
He does look at people that are willing to make a 180 turn, turn from sin and turn to Him.
And so in verse 3 we continue and Jonah continues complaining, he says, Lord kill me now.
And actually whenever I read this I feel like Jonah has like, does anybody know Winnie the Pooh in New York?
Yeah.
Lord kill me now.
I'd rather be dead than alive.
Because nothing I predicted is going to happen.
That's how I read Jonah every time I read it.
But have you guys ever thought in your life, like this is not how I wanted my life to happen?
It's like this is not how I predicted it to be?
Every day.
Do you guys mind if I tell you my testimony right now?
That's good, because I was going to tell it anyway.
In Psalm 107, 2 it says, let the redeemer of the Lord tell their story.
It says, as the Lord redeem you, then speak out and share it.
And we know that in Revelation 12, 11 it says that we have overcome the accuser by the blood of the Lamb in the word of our testimony.
If you have a testimony you better make sure you share it, because the Lord is going to share it for you.
So my testimony, this passage reminds me of my testimony because I see the words, I predicted it's not going to happen.
So Jonah's a prophet, his gifting is prophetic words.
And he prophesied that the Israelites were going to perish in 40 days.
And we see that's not going to happen.
And what happens is his pride gets hurt, and we can see that his gift, he's finding his identity in his gift over his identity in God.
And so, you know, I've noticed the same thing in my life.
One of the gifts God has given me is to play basketball.
And he's given me the spiritual gift to get buckets.
Anytime, anywhere, anybody.
He's also given me the spiritual gift of humility too.
In college, I had this dream, this vision that I was going to play professional basketball somewhere internationally.
And I didn't know how I was going to do that, I was playing D3 basketball.
And I gave that dream to the Lord.
Well, it wasn't just professional basketball.
I wanted to be a professional international basketball missionary.
I was going to go to every single country in the world, I was going to poop and play basketball and share the gospel.
That's how I was going to do it.
So that was my dream.
And so what I did was I decided to grow out my hair until the Lord accomplishes in my life.
And so I was growing this thing out for a long time.
From 2015 to 2018, I was growing this thing out.
And then I was playing semi-professional basketball in San Diego.
And there's nobody in the stands, but there's one person in the stands.
And that dude was an agent.
And he would play basketball in Mendoza, Argentina for nine years.
And he just gave me his card and talked about divine appointments, answered prayers, and a much needed haircut.
So I go down to Argentina, 2018, February.
I played basketball there for about a year and a half.
And it was the best experience of my life.
I loved every minute of it.
We won a championship.
Everything was going sweet.
And then in 2019, all of a sudden, my left knee just starts killing me.
Like every game, every practice, it took me 30 minutes to warm up every single day before I played.
And I remember going home, getting an MRI on the lateral compartment.
So I was in a super low valley.
I was like, this is not the dream.
This is not what I predicted was going to happen.
And then in my lowest moment, I remember I opened up the Bible to Genesis.
I was reading about Jacob.
And he was fleeing from Esau.
And God gave him a word in Genesis 28, 15.
And that said, God gave him a promise.
He said this, I am with you, and I will watch over you wherever you go.
And I will bring you back to this land.
And I will not leave you until I have done what I promised you.
Now, September 21, 2019, I'll never forget that because I burn within me.
And sometimes you open up your Bible and you read and there's nothing.
And then you keep going.
And sometimes when you need it most, you open up your Bible and God will speak a word to you, specifically to you.
And he'll speak specifically to your dream.
And so I got that word, that promise, that I'm going to go back one day.
I don't know how it's possible, but it's going to happen.
In the meantime, I've had this calling on my life.
And it started with one of my uncles, a pastor, and he's asked me, he started the thought process.
Have you ever thought about being a pastor?
I was like, no, I'm just Hooper.
I just play basketball all my life.
That's it. That's all I care about.
Another pastor asked me, have you ever thought about being a pastor?
No, I haven't thought about being a pastor.
And then finally I met Pastor Ryan, wherever he's at.
And he didn't even ask me.
He just called me Pastor Mitch.
So, I just called him, you know.
But I just want to let you guys know that just because a dream seems dead, it's not.
If God has put it in your heart, he's a God of redemption.
He's a God of revival.
And God has been reviving in my heart.
He's been flipping my dream on its head.
Where I thought I was just going to be playing basketball.
Now he wants me to go and start a church.
He wants me to do discipleship.
He wants me to make this environment right here.
There. They need it there.
And that's what God wants to do.
And I'm going to be leaving on May 30th.
And I'm going to get out of here.
God is so good.
His love is so big.
And he's so patient with me.
And he's so patient with us.
Amen.
Verse four.
We're going to read verse four through...
Let's see.
Verse four through verse eight.
Really quick.
The Lord replied, after Jonah complained, he said,
Is this right for you to be angry about this?
Then Jonah went out to the east side of the city
and made a shelter to sit under as he waited to see
if anything might happen to the city.
And the Lord, God, arranged for a leafy plant to grow there.
As soon as it spread its broad leaves over Jonah's head,
shading him from the sun, this eased him of some discomfort.
And Jonah was very, very grateful for the plant.
But God also prepared a worm.
And the next morning at dawn, the worm ate through the stem of the plant
so that it soon died and withered away.
And as the sun grew hot and God sent a scorching east wind
to blow on Jonah, the sun beat down on his head
until he grew faint and wished to die.
Death is certainly better than this, he explained.
And somebody, one of our good friends Bobby,
he does a, we do a Bible study with him,
he said something pretty profound about this.
He said that everyone goes through moments of shade in your life,
everyone goes through scorching heat moments of your life.
So everyone goes through some moments of comfort and shade,
and everyone goes through moments of suffering and hardship.
And that goes for non-Christians and Christians,
that goes for rich people and poor people,
people in this country and outside.
Everybody goes through seasons of shade and some seasons of suffering.
And what I want to bring up is this verse that's been on my heart
for months on Romans 5, 3 through 5,
it says, be glory in our sufferings.
For suffering produces perseverance,
perseverance produces character, and character hope.
And hope never puts us to shame
because God has poured his love into our hearts and the Holy Spirit,
who means given to us.
And how I make sense of this is the only reason why we can glory in our suffering
is because God is with us.
The analogy that comes to me is working out.
You're lifting weights, right?
Let's say, for example, for the next month,
you're going to work out twice a week, twice a day,
really hard training, lifting, running, whatever you want to do,
but you have to fast the whole time.
What's going to happen to your body?
It's going to wither away, it's going to atrophy,
your muscles are actually going to get smaller.
The only thing that grows your muscle is putting amino acids and nutrients
back into your body, like through food, through protein shakes,
and build protein shakes,
and your muscles will grow back stronger.
And in no way am I going to compare God to a protein shake.
But what I am going to say is that with God in our life,
without God in our life, suffering doesn't make sense.
Suffering beats us down, suffering atrophies us.
With God in our life, he builds us up.
He puts nutrients into our life.
It's the first read, it's the first thing.
He makes us more like him.
Part of God's will is to be conformed into the image of his son.
So as I read the last nine verses,
do you think you get the right amount back here?
If you were on the Southern Country, it's not going to be me.
It's not going to be me.
I may not write.
I'm not going to whisper you there for you.
Okay, verses nine.
We're going to close up with verses nine through 11.
Then God said to Jonah,
Is it right for you to be angry because a plant died?
You bet it is, Jonah said, even angry enough to die.
Then the Lord said, you feel sorry about a plant,
but you did nothing to put it there.
And a plant is only at best short lived.
But Nineveh has more than a hundred thousand people
living in spiritual darkness, not to mention all the animals.
Shouldn't I feel sorry for such a great city?
And if we look at this plant analogy, we see that
Jonah didn't do anything to make the plant,
and he didn't do anything to kill the plant.
He enjoyed the shade, but he didn't do anything.
God created it, and then he killed it.
But what we don't see is that God created Nineveh.
He created that city.
He created those people.
And we don't know what the work he's doing in people's lives.
We don't know.
We cannot look at somebody and say that person's too far away.
That's just putting a box on God's love.
And so God's saying, you pity a plant.
You pity a fool.
But you don't pity the 120,000, by the way, the Bible says,
120,000 people living in spiritual darkness
who don't know their right hand is from their left hand.
Like I said again, I worked in a boxing gym,
and I always ask kids to punch with their left hand.
They don't know.
They don't know what the right hand and left hand is.
So God is seeing things that we don't see.
He sees the kids in that city that are innocent.
He sees even the animals.
His love goes beyond our boundaries.
And so I want to conclude with this.
First Corinthians 3, it says, we can plant, we can water,
but we cannot grow.
It's the Holy Spirit that grows within each person.
Like I said, we can never say that, oh, that person's too far from the Lord.
We have to remember what the Lord has brought us through
and offer that same salvation to everyone else.
Do we have the same compassion that God has for us, for other people?
I just want you guys to see that God's love is bigger.
It's way bigger than we could ever imagine.
And I was talking to my friend ahead over here earlier before this,
and I asked him, how long have you been a believer?
And he said, well, I've been a believer my whole life,
but I think the question you're asking is,
how long have I been intimate with the Lord?
How long have I been intimate?
Well, about seven years.
And I have to look at my life and say,
I want to know God's big, big love in an intimate way.
I want to share that big, big love with other people.
And so I want to just pray for us really quick
that we can just be wrapped up in His infinite, intimate love.
Lord, we just lift up our hearts to you right now.
We're so thankful that we can all meet here in your name, give you glory.
Read your word.
Let it sink down deep into our hearts, Lord.
More importantly, the love that you show us, Lord.
Each one of us can search our own heart,
and we can just see everything you've forgiven us of.
We can see everything you saved us from.
Lord, help us all, commission us all to go out and offer that same opportunity
to the people that we have influence over around us, Lord.
Lord, I just haven't had this person on my mind this whole week.
And the word that comes to my mind is naked demons.
And this person knows about God, knows a lot about God,
and wants to know more.
You want to know this love in an intimate way?
And I just want to prophesy over you that you're going to be the one
that's standing up for Jesus in front of other people that aren't.
And that you're going to be the one that's handling the burial, the death,
and the resurrection of Jesus Christ.
And you're going to be sharing that with all of them,
and if you don't understand it right now,
then that is your future, that you're going to experience the fullness of God,
the fullness of His love.
And just like naked demons, approach Jesus in secret.
So I'm going to ask you to approach Jesus in secret.
And just allow Jesus, just allow Him to develop a relationship with you.
Allow Him to be intimate with you. Open your heart to Him.
Let's pray a blessing over you guys.
As we continue to worship, just continue to think about God's marvelous love.
In your almighty name, Jesus. Amen.
I don't want to leave this place yet.
I want to piggyback.
You know, when he was talking about suffering,
I think we've all learned a lot about suffering like last year.
But I just keep, I remember the phrase that I heard was, suffer joyfully.
That's the game.
There's the people that you know that are suffering, you know,
and then there's the people who are suffering joyfully.
And suffering with people.
And I feel like all of this is just to teach you how to be able to sit with somebody and just quiet.
And know what to say when it's time to say something.
When you want to encourage somebody, it's time to encourage somebody.
Sometimes we'll be talking too much.
Maybe like right now, like I'm doing that.
I've been a missionary for almost five years, and I'm learning the thing that I feel is the most loved by is when I just listen.
That's a revelation from the Holy Spirit.
I was thinking about, you know, when I first became a believer, I don't know what I thought.
I was thinking about what like the life of following Jesus is supposed to look like.
I think it's supposed to look like just how life is supposed to look.
There's highs and there's lows.
You're supposed to ride the roller coaster and allow yourself to feel the things that you need to feel.
Because it's scary.
You know, it's going to be scary for Mitch to go over and not to just totally abandon those feelings,
but to say, OK, God, I'm feeling this thing.
Because confession is where it gets you healing.
Sometimes you want to cover it up with, you know, I'm good.
I'm strong in the Lord.
And I know like David strengthened himself in the Lord, but I think it all started with confession.
Lord, I need you.
This is what I'm dealing with.
I'm scared right now.
You know, it's even better when you've got your brother like Charlie's.
You know, I feel like I get a lot of healing to break through when I confess to him what I'm dealing with.
And then he says the same to me.
You know, we just start worshiping, you know, worshiping in spirit and truth and how we're talking to each other.
I think sometimes we just need a friend, you know, someone that we can confess our sins to.
And it's a practice that needs to be like you got to practice it just like fasting, just like praying.
Confessing is harder.
Yeah.
I wrote a song about being broken.
I wrote it in a season where it was just real evident that you can't like you can't stop bad things from happening.
You can only change how you respond to them.
And sometimes when I'm fully broken, it's the best place for me because it's where Jesus finally reads me.
It's like a bittersweet place to be because you're fully broken and you're weeping, you're crying, but you feel that breakthrough, that presence with the Lord.
And then you know, because he says I can't work with prideful, I work with a surrendered heart.
What good's a heart if it don't break? What good's a soul if it don't age? What good are eyes if they can't see, if they can't see me?
Love can't crash and get no bombs away
But blowing up my mind
From the fallout I'm in city
I'm better off broken
I did all I could to run away
But now I'm giving up
It's the only way I can do
I'm better off broken
What good is race
If it's not free
What good's a cure
If it's not feeling
What good is pain
Without a need
It's you I need
And love can't crash and get no bombs away
But blowing up my mind
From the fallout I'm in city
I'm better off broken
I did all I could to run away
But now I'm giving up
It's the only way I can do
I'm better off broken
What good's a heart
If it don't break
What good's a soul
If it don't end
Love can't crash and get no bombs away
But blowing up my mind
From the fallout I'm in city
I'm better off broken
I did all I could to run away
But now I'm giving up
It's the only way I can do
I'm better off broken
Yeah, yeah
Oh, music
Music
You know, we have an interesting job on this earth
Music
It used to be like in heavenly places
That's an interesting time
Music
You know, I have a baby in heaven right now
And his name was Asa
And he passed away December 2019
And I hope it broke out
I think it was a good time for us to be locked indoors
And it was really hard
For a year and a half that he was alive
It was just none
And I stopped caring
He was home on a hospice
And he actually passed away in our arms
Michael was there, Charlie was there
My mom came, my dad, and God really gave us like a going away party for these songs
But has anyone lost somebody here?
Who has somebody in heaven?
You guys ever think about them?
And I feel like that's the gift
You can find the gift in the suffering
And you win
The enemy loses
Music
And I think, you know, my son's looking down at me right now
I had this revelation of, and my son passed away, he was one and a half
And it says that there's a cloud of witnesses that are in heaven
Watching us, and the angels are watching all of us
Wondering how we can believe in faith as God, you know, that we've never seen
Because they're in heaven, they get to see the glory
And I had this revelation one night and I showed my wife, you know, that our baby boy's in heaven
But we're still his mom and dad here on earth
And we get to pair him and teach him about faith
Because he doesn't get to know about faith
And when I think about when I get to have him one day, and we're walking into each other
And I have that moment of just like, heck, that was a crazy life
But it helps me stay down here too because I feel like when I think about him in heaven looking down
I just remember I'm doing this for a purpose
And death is a funny thing, it's like you can't really experience Jesus without him
I think that's what Jesus had about him
You make a path for me to walk
Favored blood and mercy
I will have faith and heart
No matter what you journey
I know you're with me as I go
I never left your side
Though I'm not dead at home
I'll lead you to the other side
I'm hearing the tension now
I feel it's all around
And I don't mind confessing
My head is in heaven
I'm hearing the in-between
I'm reaching for what's unseen
And I don't mind confessing
My head is in heaven
The best blessing that I have
Is a blessing from above
I know I often forget it
But you don't have to love
So I'm thankful for the moments
I've got to feel you so close
That even when I am hurting
I know I'm never alone
I'm hearing the tension now
I feel it's all around
And I don't mind confessing
My head is in heaven
I'm hearing the in-between
I'm reaching for what's unseen
And I don't mind confessing
My head is in heaven
I'm in...
I'm in
Two places at once time
at once time
I'm in
Two places at once time
at once time
I'm in
Two places at once time
at once time
I'm in
Two places at once time
I'm hearing the tension out, I feel the solid ground
And I don't like confessing, my head is in heaven
I'm hearing the in-between, I'm reaching the ones unseen
And I don't like confessing, my head is in heaven
My head is in heaven
I'm in two places at once, I'm one-sided
My head is in heaven
Every blessing that I have is a blessing from above
I know I often forget it, but you don't hold back your love
And I'm thankful for the moments I've bested you so close
Even when I am sad, I know I'll never let you go
You're in the tension now, my feet are on solid ground
I don't like confessing, my head is in heaven
I'm hearing the in-between, I'm reaching the ones unseen
And I don't mind confessing, my head is in heaven
My head is in heaven
Right here, right now
My head is in heaven
And in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
And in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
And in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
And in the way of what I'm feeling
Is it feel for you or feeling?
People keep talking
They can say what they like
I don't worry just
Everything's gonna be alright
You and me together
In the days and nights
I don't worry cause
Everything's gonna be alright
No one, no one, no one
And in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
And in the way of what I'm feeling
In the way of what I'm feeling
Is it feel for you or feeling?
People keep talking
I don't worry just
Everything's gonna be alright
You and me together
In the days and nights
I don't worry cause
Everything's gonna be alright
You and me together
In the days and nights
I don't worry cause
Everything's gonna be alright
I don't believe in all the things that I want to do
I don't feel well with no trauma
I know I can't say anything
I don't believe in the mind that we're trying
But the way that you're trying
The way that I'm getting strange
Is the way you hold me
Hold me, hold me, hold me, hold me
The way that you hold me, hold me, hold me, hold me
I feel so holy
I don't believe in the promise
No, I can't say anything
I don't believe in the mind that we're trying
But the way that you're trying
The way that I'm getting strange
Is the way you hold me
I feel so holy
I'm a walker
I'm running to the office like a track star
I'm busy counting seconds
But when you hold me, hold me, hold me, hold me
I feel so holy
Say we're too young
And we're built in the face
Say it's gonna go rushing
Why it's been saying who's rushing
Well I don't know
Say we're too young
And we're built in the face
Say it's gonna go rushing
Why it's been saying who's rushing
Well I don't know
You hold me, hold me, hold me, hold me, hold me
I feel so holy
Oh God, why'd you take me out there like a track star
You waited me out for seconds
Oh God, why'd you take me out there like a track star
You waited me out for seconds
Oh God, why'd you take me out there like a track star
You waited me out for seconds
Oh God, why'd you take me out there like a track star
What's that other one?
You guys
Let me see the one that sounds like that
Let me sing it
Let you guys follow up
Let's see it
I don't know
Listen to it
Hold on
I've got the things that things got too far
So I should be the one to say
We all make mistakes
So take my hand and hold on
Tell me everything that you need to say
Cause I know how it feels to be someone
Feels to be someone who loses the way
Loses the way
I know what it feels to lose the way
I know what it feels like to lose my way
And if you're losing your way right now
I need you to take me through
Reach out ahead
Cause I need you to hold on
Heaven is a place not too far away
We all know I should be the one to say
We all make mistakes
So take my hand and hold on
Tell me everything that you need to say
Cause I know how it feels to be someone
Feels to be someone who loses the way
Pick up your pieces if you come undone
Bring in the stars up on your set
Or just that you could buy some food
I know you could call me if you need someone
So I need you to hold on
Heaven is a place not too far away
Cause I know I should be the one to say
We all make mistakes
So take my hand and hold on
Tell me everything that you need to say
Cause I know how it feels to be someone
Feels to be someone who loses the way
Midnight till morning, call it, give me somebody
I will be there for you
Midnight till morning, call it, give me somebody
I will be there for you
Midnight till morning, call it, give me somebody
I will be there for you
Midnight till morning, call it, give me somebody
I will be there for you
Heaven is a place not too far away
We all know I should be the one to say
We all make mistakes
So take my hand and hold on
Tell me everything that you need to say
Cause I know how it feels to be someone
Feels to be someone who loses the way
Midnight till morning, call it, give me somebody
Come on JB
Come on, he's got it
I love that song
I feel it's one of the best songs ever written
You know, because I feel like that's what our message is here
We're supposed to be that person saying, hold on
Just a little bit longer
And I think what I've been learning in this season
Of loss is
That's the only thing you can say
That's the only thing a good friend can say
You can come up with strategies, you can come up with things
But there are some people
Just will keep repeating the cycle that they're in
Or maybe it's the cycle you find yourself in
Or people will continue to keep hurting over different things like that
And I feel like the only thing you can really give of encouragement
Is being there, being that person and saying, hold on
Confessing where you had a hard time
Confessing your struggles and being with them in the moment
So
Jesus, I just pray for the present
I pray for us to be for the present
I pray for us to see the people who need to be sad with
The people who need to just be grieved with
And mourn with those who mourn
If the church could learn how to grieve with people
Instead of trying to think something
You would see revival like you've never seen before
You don't need to grow legs out, you just gotta listen to songs on it
You don't need to go up to them and try to do all these crazy things
Maybe it's finding out what makes them feel good
What makes them feel loved
And sitting with them and not saying anything
Until you feel the Holy Spirit, you know what I'm saying?
Until you feel like it's time
So many people, you know, I got friends
I got real close ones
And it doesn't matter what you say
It doesn't matter how many times you preach in the gospel
They're gonna stay in that image
Because they gotta come to a revelation on their own
You know, Jesus never made me feel like I was an idiot
You know, he never made me feel like
Yo, you should be faced by now
Why aren't you faced by now?
He looks at us like we're old
But he sees us in the day, he sees us where we're at
He doesn't remember the past
No holds, no records, we're wrong
So I'm praying for that for us
Because I feel like that's the next way that Jesus people
Is being able to actually watch the feet of people
It's cool to leave a legacy
It's doper to watch feet
It's cool to be the homie on stage
But it's doper to be the person that's given water
That's what we're called if you do
That's what I keep in mind with myself
So Father, I just
Do one more song?
Two more, two more
And I sing in the ten more
I'm singing these new ones
I feel like I'm just
You don't want guinea pigs right now
And I've been in this crazy season of
Learning how to worship God
Through the loss of my son
And the hardships of what that brings
Everything, you know
And the songs look different
They don't look like
Some of them do rah rah rah
But then most of it is like
Me confessing my heart to the Lord it beats
To the rhythm
Being like this is what I'm about right now
And while I'm writing I feel like
Suddenly it starts
Time for me to break a deal
You know, we've been in a crazy
World for like a year and a half
COVID, whatever you believe about COVID
You know
Whatever your stance is, it's been crazy
You know, I feel like it's crazy
The division in the church
All the time behind
And uh
Man, you know, in the season of
Crying and hurt and seeing the news
And all this stuff and like trying to figure out
How we're gonna keep moving on from here
What the Bible looks like
What does church look like
And me like getting angry at the church
I'm like y'all close down, what are you talking about
Y'all wanna open up now? Like, you know
Trust issues, you know
I'm trying to figure out what are we supposed to be doing guys
You know
You know, it was tight, it was Bethel
You know, like Shabbat, Holy Spirit
You know, we saw that
We all saw that and then it was kind of like
Conferences
Then we started doing G-Houses
We started singing house churches
We started singing a revival, break out
And then it shut down
I was like, what can we do?
But
I feel like things about to change
You can feel like everything we're seeing
Especially with this only Justin Bieber
We're seeing with Jan Rolfe and Fancy
And all these revival movements that are coming forward
And preaching the gospel
And the revelation of the heart of the Father
You know, that's the real key right there
Is the heart of the Father
You know, for people to understand my identity
So I think we're coming into a way with that
But I think it's time
It's time
I'm very timing for what I just said
My friend Joe, he's starting a church Saturday
Yeah
In his backyard
He's lived in Whittier his whole life
Up in LA
For those of you guys who know Whittier in LA
His wife's awesome
And he just
He just happened to message me
And I messaged him earlier today
Hey, you want to come to church tonight?
We were talking about that
And I'm like, we need to pray for Joey
So let's just pray for Joey and his church
He's having people in his backyard
And playing music
And having a fire and it's going to be heaven
So let's just thank you Lord for Joey
And thank you for his faith
And thank you for his church
Brother, we thank you that
Lord, you're going before him
And that whole neighborhood
You're going to use him and his wife
And all of their lives and all of their kids
We love people Lord, we thank you
We thank you that his home is another place
Where people can go and find love
Another place where they can go
And not be judged
Another place where they can go and their day can be a little bit better
Another place where they can go
Father, where they can make a friend
Another place where they can go God
Where they can see the anxiety
That they carry around and their feelings
And they can find love and hope
And acceptance and real friends
And forgiveness and life
And we thank you Jesus
We thank you Lord that you would fill his heart
And his home with your love
And your goodness
Just as Ryan shared Lord, you're doing a new thing
You're doing a new thing
Send us Lord
Full send
Send us
Full send
Send us
Send it and send us
In Jesus name
Amen
I'm
Having all these right away
I'm
Having this time
Oh
Yeah
It's always behind
I'm gonna feel the fresh
wind blow
Oh
It's gonna take
me in one go
I can't do it anymore.
All of this crying, I can't do it anymore.
All of this crying, baby, never was this fun.
All of this sleeping, all of this sleeping.
How do you surround us?
And every day's a battle with you.
And how do you get better?
When you have what's in your hand, you do.
I live in my way.
Let's do it your way.
I think it's time.
Oh, a little too wide.
Because my thirst is so, because my thirst is so great.
So let it rain down on here.
I think it's time.
Oh, baby, I am.
I wanna feel the fresh wind blow.
See the never-new-wild-flow.
Never-new-wild-flow.
Yeah.
I wanna feel, I wanna feel the fresh wind blow.
See the never-new-wild-flow.
Yeah.
Never-new-wild-flow.
I wanna feel the fresh wind blow.
See the never-new-wild-flow.
I think, I think it's time.
Yeah, to pour a little new wine.
Because my thirst is so, because my thirst is so great.
So let it rain down forever.
I think, I think it's time.
To pour a little new wine.
I wanna feel the fresh wind, I wanna feel the fresh wind blow.
See the never-new-wild-flow.
No matter what the things say.
Yeah.
No matter what is broken.
We can start over.
Yeah, we can start over.
No matter what we're facing.
No matter what is broken.
Let your heart take hold.
See the never-new-wild-flow.
I wanna feel the fresh wind blow.
See the never-new-wild-flow.
I just wanna break you guys, before we get out of here.
Just wanna encourage everybody, say you're doing a great job.
You did good tonight, bro.
Did you do a good job?
I tell you, standing up here, you're preaching the word, and you're just speaking the truth out of the Bible, bro.
This is so refreshing, hearing the words that you're driving.
And I saw an anointing oil being poured on your head as you were speaking.
As you were standing there in faith, bro.
That's what it is that moves the heart, God is safe.
God is on you, bro.
You're gonna change things.
Everybody in this room is gonna change something.
So we pray to that God.
We pray to that heart posture, washing people's feet.
Help us to wash the feet of the person in front of us.
It doesn't have to be washing the feet.
What does that look like in their life?
Show us.
Show us how to be servants.
The son of man did not come to be served, but he came to.
So Jesus, we thank you.
We thank you for all that you do.
We love you so much.
And we just pray that people who are here and didn't know you, now they know you.
We pray that our hearts will be filled up with joy.
And we will learn how to suffer joyfully.
We pray that we will be blessed with a new life.
Right?
Because grave's gotta get crushed.
I think we all feel like we're gonna get a little crushed.
Oh, when you crush some grapes, that's what you get.
Sing it.
I think it's time for some holy new wine.
For some holy new wine.
Because my thirst is so great.
So let it rain down from heaven.
I'll be a great Lord.
And I think it's time.
To leave it always behind.
I wanna feel a fresh wind blow.
Let the new wine flow.
Amen.
Oh!
It's not from the vodka house next time.
Turn to your neighbor and say, you blessed.
It's time for that, let us know how your day went home.
Vielen Dank.
Peace and blessings of God.
Stop saying it out loud.
No one sucks.