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Hello everyone and welcome to the Awaken Together podcast.

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I'm Jen and I'm Kat.

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And today is our end of season three.

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How are we here?

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And it is really wild.

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Jenny and Kat just listened to our episode from the very end of 2021 and how much has

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shifted and changed since then and whoa.

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It's crazy to look back on an entire year and be like, oh my God, that was just a year

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ago or like that was so long ago.

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It's funny having the same like different reactions to the same year in the way that

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we just remember different things.

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So that was fun to look back on.

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Yeah, we were discussing that some of the same lessons from the universe have definitely

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circled around from last year at the very end to now.

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And it's also really wild to think about that at the end of 2021 when we recorded the last

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episode that was just after the eclipse season and we were also doing the same reflection

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and me and Kat, we just exited eclipse season again.

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We were just reflecting and we definitely could see some of the commonalities.

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So we will share with you a little bit of what we've been recently unpacking.

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So Kat, if you want to give just a little life update and then we'll go into reflection

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mode too.

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Yeah, it's wild to think about how some of the same lessons reappear at the same time

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of year because we haven't fully embodied the lesson, the teaching from it.

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The same universe keeping us.

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So wise.

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So wise universe.

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Yeah, we wanted to share a little bit about our Spotify rap because we're still relishing

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in the celebration of how amazing you all are, our listeners and how fun it is to see

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our awaken together family grow.

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It was so cool to see how we've created 896 minutes of episodes here, which apparently

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is more than 91% of the category that we're in.

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Content queens.

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Content queens.

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You're welcome.

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You're welcome.

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And apparently your podcast personality as a listener, Spotify says you're the time traveler.

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How spiritual.

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I know, right?

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It says you seek out podcasts that are new to you regardless of whether you're new to

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the rest of the world.

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It's such original secrets.

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So another cool, fun thing that we learned is that our pod has been listened to in over

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53 countries with the top being the US.

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Naturally, if it wasn't, that would be weird.

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Number two is Canada, then the UK, Australia and Germany.

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So thank you so much family for listening from near and far.

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We love you so much.

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Yeah, that Spotify rap had me in like full tears.

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I so needed it because I was really already starting the process of unpacking what has

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been happening, what's been going on.

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And just to see that and sit with the gratitude that when we recorded our end of 2021 episode,

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that was the end of season one.

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And here we are.

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And just thank you for listening with us and growing with us and unpacking this because

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we're really sharing what we are living through and going through and just sharing it along

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the way.

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So thanks for growing with us and being a part of all of this.

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Yeah, we appreciate it so much and look forward to lots more exciting new adventures in the

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new year.

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So without further ado, I'm going to start to tee us up for our meditation.

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And if you listen to our meditation last year, it's going to be the same one.

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So hopefully this starts to build some familiarity.

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And we really love this way of looking at four different categories in our lives year

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over year to have that consistency and be able to track and measure like how you're

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growing and what is literally happening in these categories over time.

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So those categories are home, mind, body, and soul.

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Without further ado, we'll set up for meditation.

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So wherever you might be right now, if you have the space where you can sit or lay, if

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you're at home, I really encourage you to do that to find a comfortable position, one

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where you're both comfortable and alert.

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So go ahead, get any little wiggles out, gently close your eyes if you feel safe doing so.

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Begin to bring your awareness simply to your breath.

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Start to slow it down.

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Take five slow, deep breaths together.

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Take a breath in.

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Exhale, let it go.

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Again, breathe in.

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Breathe out.

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Seeing if you can slow your exhales to be a little longer than your inhales, breathe

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in.

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Exhale, soften.

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Again, inhale through your nose.

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And exhale through your nose, empty out.

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Hold at the bottom and take in one last deep breath all the way in.

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Feel your belly expand, ribs expand.

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And this time, open your mouth and sigh it all out.

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Begin to settle your mind down.

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Return to your normal breathing in and out through your nose.

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No need to control it.

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Just let it be natural.

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Start just by taking notice of where you are at the moment, scanning your body and mind

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for information.

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Notice how you feel physically and mentally.

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And then begin to observe your thoughts in a neutral, non-judgmental way as they come

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and go.

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This practice isn't about clearing your mind, but rather noticing your gut reaction of what

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comes up first, your instinct.

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Now begin to replay the year in your mind slowly, as if you were watching a movie reel

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of highlights, lowlights, big and small moments from your year.

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And as you do, keep in mind the following four categories of your life to help guide

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your thoughts and memories.

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Home, what happened with your family in your house.

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Mind, this is literally thoughts, themes that came to mind, your work, your hobbies.

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Body, how did your body feel?

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What changes did you make in how you take care of yourself?

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How you move?

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How you eat?

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And finally, the fourth category is spirit or soul, considering your spiritual practice,

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any internal talk, shifts that you've experienced.

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Let's start with January 1st, New Year's Day, and move through your year, month by

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month, recalling the people, moments, emotions, activities, details, mistakes, highlights,

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all of it.

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Just play through these memories from the year little by little in your mind as they

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come to you and watch them like a recap of all that happened.

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Try to stay with each moment for a little while, moving on to the next, handling it

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one month at a time.

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You can begin.

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As your mind wanders away from your reflection reel, gently bring it back.

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Which month are you in mentally?

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What's happening?

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Now I know we all move at our own pace and I don't want to rush you, so I invite you

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to pause this podcast to continue thinking about each month, the highs and the lows,

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and don't rush it.

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When you reach the end of December, finish the movie reel of the year and notice how

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you feel.

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Now begin to settle your attention on your biggest challenge from this year.

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In what ways did this experience, person, or situation challenge you?

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What did you learn from this experience?

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What was the lesson behind the teaching?

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Now begin to settle your attention on your favorite moment from this past year.

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Hold it at the center of your mind and take it in through all of your senses.

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Really replay this moment in your mind's eye.

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Try to take that feeling into all of yourselves with your entire mind and heart.

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Really feel that state you were in when you were living through this favorite moment.

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Don't rush this part.

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Recall how your body felt, what your mind state was, what your energy felt like.

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Recall any colors, images, and sensations.

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As you bring your attention to this positive memory, identify what you can do to experience

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more feelings like this in your life.

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What is in your control?

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Stay with it for another moment.

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And then slowly transition your mind back into the present moment by bringing your awareness

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back to your breath.

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Deep inhales and slow exhales.

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It's now the time to take all of the general feelings in this year and pick one word that

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encompasses what it taught you.

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Take a deep breath in through your nose.

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Exhale, let it go.

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When you're ready, you can begin to open your eyes, bring your awareness back, and we'll

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turn to some journaling.

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Writing down your thoughts and ideas helps to really reinforce any learnings that comes

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with reflection.

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I'm going to offer a few journal prompts, and we'll share the rest of them on our Facebook

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and Instagram pages for those who'd like to really go deeper.

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You're welcome to take five minutes or two hours to put all of your thoughts down on

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paper.

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You can write in an instruction, really unstructured way, or you can respond directly to these

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prompts, whatever works best for you.

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So prompt number one, what mattered most to me this year?

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What mattered most to me this year?

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Number two, list the things that you were proud of in the last year.

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List the things that you were proud of this last year.

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Number three, list the things you regret and why.

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List the things you regret and why.

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Once you've got those down, you're welcome to write away, and then you can pause this.

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You're welcome to return after you've done your journaling prompts, or you can do it

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after this podcast wraps up.

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I encourage you to take a look at what you've written, given all your responses, list out

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the things that you'd like to create, feel, achieve, and plan for the next year.

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So just to review one of the main reasons it's really nice to sit in reflection on the

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year that has just passed is I feel like it's so common just to write down what's coming

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focus on the future, and I think we can move through so many things without anchoring ourselves

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back and processing what we've already been through.

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And I think that's where you can really start growing a little bit more rapidly is when

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you take enough time to actually sit and reflect on maybe there's a pattern here, maybe there's

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lessons that I have just been skimming over.

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And yeah, as we said, like so much of what happened last year has kind of circled back.

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So to share a little bit of that for me, I definitely last year after eclipse season

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had just been sick.

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And I was really struggling with control problems, which is my endless thing to unpack with the

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universe.

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But when I had nothing I could do because I was just kind of quarantined and stuck,

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it was very triggering for me.

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And I start problem solving things that really don't even matter because I'm so scared of

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just sitting in discomfort and letting it be.

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And just in this last eclipse season, the same thing happened.

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I had a lot of seemingly like inconveniences all seemed to hit at the same time.

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I just stopped being able to get to work in the right way.

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Me and Danny share a car.

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We had a lot of conflict with that.

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I bought a bike and it broke and I had just like endless test of things where it was really

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out of my control and it brought up feelings of discomfort again.

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And instead of sitting with them, I often try to completely reestablish my life and

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resolve and just go right into problem fixing mode instead of being like, maybe this discomfort

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is a part of what I'm supposed to be with.

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And I think I recognized it quicker this year and I sat with it instead of, you know, changing

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up everything.

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I can see I'm getting a little bit better on my relationship with that.

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So that's kind of my lesson that circled back.

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But to give you the home mind body spirit reflection on this year and just a brief summary.

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So home for me this year, I finally landed back in Denver, which means I got to finally

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be with Kat in person.

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We had only met once.

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I got here at the beginning of this year.

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And yeah, so we got to record podcasts in person.

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I got to get an apartment and it was really fun making a home just a little bit different

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than what it had been before our year on the road and traveling and living out of my car

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that I did last year.

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I painted my walls like really fun and kind of made it way more of a neurodivergent friendly

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space.

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I wanted my I always get into this mindset of I'm not going to be here forever.

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So why put as much effort into it?

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And I kind of threw all that away and was like, I'm going to make my house like evoke

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the most joy for me because I you know, just because I'm not in a house that I own does

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not mean that I shouldn't live out this expression.

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And that's been really beautiful to like inspire me and just to look over and see this brightly

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colored wall and all these little drawings I've done.

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It helps me feel like I can cultivate more expression into my life.

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And it's been really nice for me and Danny to get to ground and sit together and be in

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one space, kind of get back into our routines.

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I've had friends come to visit, which has been nice because last year I was such a nomad.

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I was just like staying at different houses.

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So it's been nice to kind of host, have people over, get back into the swing of like hosting

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little parties.

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Kat came to my Halloween escape room.

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It was so fucking amazing.

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Like, I'm still blown away.

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Thank you.

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Which is like such a joy.

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And that's something you can't do without like a home space.

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So it was like so nice to have that.

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And then for the mind category, as I always am doing, I feel like I really got to delve

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into more learning, which is always so stimulating for my mind just to continue to just to learn

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big concepts.

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I delved a lot deeper into astrology as a bad one.

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I don't know if it's ever going to shake, shake away.

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But I also got into human design, which is really fun.

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I started really unpacking a lot of that.

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And I continue doing astrology readings, having this podcast, having TikTok is all these outlets

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just to channel my voice, actually like dump out my thoughts.

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And yeah, I was telling Kat, you know, it was really alarming when I used to have all

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of you guys see my content, maybe potentially through my senseful wellness page, all of

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the content I share, all that used to be floating around in my head.

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And it was a lot.

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So having all these tools for self expression has been so good.

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A few other things I reflected on in the mind category was I finally got back on ADHD medication,

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which I think was really huge because I spent two years without it, which was nice.

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But I also think, you know, with having the ADHD diagnosis, it's sometimes nice to be

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on that medication because I can ground a lot easier and put my attention to things

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better.

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And it's been nice to have that back because it's brought a lot of my routines into place

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a little bit more concretely.

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And I think I really needed that.

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And I also did a lot more processing on religious trauma.

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And that was a huge part of the mind category for me because I think Roe v. Wade kind of

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triggered for me a lot of deeper processing that I needed to do still around my religion

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trauma.

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I think I had unpacked some of it, but I think I hadn't really fully saw the picture.

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And I think Roe v. Wade kind of clicked a lot of dots for me at that time.

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And going out and protesting was big.

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And I think a lot of emotional release came out with that, which kind of spirals right

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into body because I got a lot of emotions out through that.

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I was looking at my Spotify rap as well.

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And I had listened to Maddie Zams songs so much.

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And she really talks about her experience with religious trauma.

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And I just had a lot of good journal sessions on that.

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And another thing with the body category, I feel like I got really nice and in the swing

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of my gym routine, which I had lost last year.

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I feel like I said that I didn't focus on my body as much.

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And that was kind of a huge win because I usually hyper focus on my body.

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But it was nice to just be able to go right back into my routine with body movement practices.

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And yeah, it's been really looking so fit.

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Thank you.

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Yeah, it came so naturally.

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And I just realized like those practices, I get scared sometimes I'll lose it because

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I had so much trouble in the past, like balancing diet and working out.

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And it was because of my relationship to my body and knowing that I could come right back

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into my practices effortlessly was so nice to see.

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And a lot of last year was just because I was driving in the car all day.

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I was a full time nomad.

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It was hard to kind of get that same, you know, gain and muscle strength that I could

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get with having, you know, weights around.

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But that's been nice.

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And it feels good to be back in clothes that were not fitting and just getting back without

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without a lot of pressure needing to be on top of it.

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I love that.

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And then to take it finally to the spiritual category, me and Kat led two retreats together

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and oh my gosh, like memories just flood when I think of them.

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I will remind in case you never heard, like our very first retreat was in Breckenridge

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together and the most spiritual thing of that entire retreat was we did a micro dose as

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a group and we literally had a mom and baby moose come and sit in our backyard for like

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an hour.

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And then they like left us and they just felt safe.

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You could feel it so magical.

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We were just in awe.

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They just trusted us like a mom and baby and sat with us, let us just like take them in.

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And then they just walked right past our front door.

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Not even like a slight fear.

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It was so freaking beautiful.

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I think of that all the time.

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And then we held our witch retreat, which was like so beautiful just to feel into that

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like more manifesting spell chanting energy and do it as a group.

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We had the most beautiful house.

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We were right along the beach.

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We had the most beautiful moon come up for us and so much magic in that too.

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So the both experiences so spiritual and I led a bachelorette party retreat in Sedona,

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which is also so, so magical to be in the Sedona space leading another group that felt

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like full circle and to get to lead like a bachelorette party was so surreal.

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It's really like fun to bring like a spiritual element into that.

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And then yeah, I did a lot more unpacking of my past life.

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That is going to be for another episode that I will have to rock you guys down that rabbit

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hole.

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But it was good to sit with a lot of experience for that.

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That also brought up a lot more emotional releases.

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But I delved into that for like a good period of time.

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And that was a very spiritual kind of full circle.

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And I went to my favorite yoga festival that I think I'm going to try to go to until the

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day I die Floyd yoga jam.

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I got to go with a bunch of girls from the, from our first retreat, we all reignited and

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it's just so beautiful in that space because you're camping in the middle of nowhere under

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the stars and you're with a bunch of hippies and it's just so intimate and vulnerable and

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magical and just getting to be in that space with people when I normally go by myself was

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really kind of full circle spiritual for me.

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And yeah, so many little synchronicities that kind of played out.

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So anyway, that's kind of my quick little review of the year.

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Go ahead, Kat and give us all your things.

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What a year, right?

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That's amazing.

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Oh my God.

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So dynamic in so many different ways.

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Did you coming into this year set a word as an attention?

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Yeah.

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So I looked back and I had put inspired action.

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What a, I feel like it so happened.

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It really did.

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You manifested it.

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Yes.

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I love it.

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Oh, that's so great.

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Thanks for sharing.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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My word for this year was rooted and that really applies to all of these different categories.

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So I'm excited to share more.

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But I had felt like last year I was kind of like, uh, I had been working my business for

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a year and a half full time and I loved everything, but I was also missing that feeling of like

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being a part of something with community and having shared goals and actions.

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So that's what ultimately led me this year to getting a job again.

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Um, and so I'm kind of skipping ahead to the mind category.

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I'll come back to home.

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But, um, that was like one goal that I had for myself this year.

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And it was late May when I accepted a job offer at nurture here in Denver.

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And it just felt like the stars aligned.

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It's just, I still think about it.

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And it's so wild that I found something that hits all my boxes in terms of like small business,

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entrepreneurial fields, startup vibes, amazing team, like-minded, super just cool and heart-centered.

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And I don't have to pretend to be somebody else.

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Like I had felt like I needed to in past jobs where I was like this corporate sales cat.

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Um, and I could just be me, like all layers of me.

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Like, it's such a spiritual vibey place.

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It is.

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If you're in Denver or are visiting anytime, come visit nurture in the Highlands.

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It's really special.

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Um, so yeah, I started that late May and it's been a whirlwind of amazingness and just like,

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you know, so much growth in so many different ways.

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So while I was doing that though, I haven't left all of the things that I'm doing in my

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business with health coaching, meditation club, retreats, um, all the things.

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And I just can't let go of it.

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I love it all so much.

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So I'm just constantly trying to find the harmony between all the things.

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So that plus also teaching yoga.

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And this fall I actually stepped up as a lead trainer in the 200 hour, um, yoga teacher

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training at Black Swan.

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And that was seriously a dream come true.

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Such an honor.

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Um, but also I accepted that before I started my full time job and quickly realized like,

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Oh wait, I just signed up to like work a lot of weekends and I'm working full time and

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I'm doing all these things.

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So that was a massive lesson for me this year was like saying yes to everything, how that

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kind of negatively affected my life.

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And it was no one else's fault but my own.

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Um, but you know, I did the best I could and it all ended up being pretty, pretty awesome.

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Um, but going forward, like I had to regrettably like put that down, the yoga teacher training

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part and hoping that I can continue in the guest capacity for future times.

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I really, uh, flourished in that way because it was just enough time.

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Um, but yeah, I'm loving teaching yoga once a week.

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So it's really, uh, allowing me to stimulate my creative juices in a way that brings me

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so much joy.

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So all the things, all the things make me so happy in my mind and my mind needs a lot

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of stimulation.

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I've learned we are air signs.

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You can't tell we are air signs.

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So yeah, we just need a lot of different stimuli, a lot of different avenues in order to check

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with boxes.

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So that's my mind category for a home.

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This was also really big for my intention of rootedness because I bought a home.

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Really started the year with that.

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We closed in February, three days before my birthday.

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And so I was like, Oh yeah, just got a home for my birthday and BD.

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Well, we moved in, we settled in and during that whole process, we had a lot of chaos

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with it being broken into and cockroach infestations and all of these different things that were

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like nightmarish, you know?

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But again, we learned so much and now we're like super happy with the house and we're

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recording in it now.

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Yeah.

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And we got to lead a little sleepover in your backyard.

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We sure did.

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So it's opened a lot of doors of opportunity in that regard.

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So that's felt really nice.

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Something else like Kyle and I are working on is that decision of whether or not to have

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a child.

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And so that in terms of home life and family, like that is very present in our day to day.

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And we're listening to this book called The Baby Decision by Merle Something.

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I so recommend it for you and your partner if you're in a similar boat or even just wanting

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to be prepared for parenthood and like have really productive, meaningful conversations

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before you make that huge decision of your life.

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Read it separately in your own time or listen to it.

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That's what we're doing at Audible.

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And then come together and have like a weekly book club and we're talking about a chapter

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at a time and making notes in our own spaces and just chatting about there's like all these

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different exercises that you should do together and separately.

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And it has brought us so much closer in terms of this big subject that in the past has felt

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very polarizing for us.

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So you know, I don't know where it's going to end up.

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I know I'm hoping for my way.

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And Kyle is just like wonderful in terms of like we were approaching this as a partnership

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and it's just coming back to that feels so nice.

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And yeah, this year was also just chiller at home without having to plan a wedding.

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It feels great having that done and having those memories and just has allowed for some

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space.

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So that's home.

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And then moving into body with the move out to Lakewood from Denver.

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I'm a little bit further from the yoga studio that I teach at at Black Swan and Capitol

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Hill.

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And so it's been like a little bit trickier for me to focus on my practice because I used

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to be, you know, 10, 15 minutes away, no highway in the middle, so I could just go any time.

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I used to practice three or four times a week.

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And now it feels like it's like one or two times a week.

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And so that's a really big difference for me when I used to practice five days a week,

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even before that.

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So just like moving my body has been something that I've had to try harder for.

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And it's been interesting.

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I'm still doing my walks every day, but I've had to really lean into like workout videos

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online and I'm really glad that I found some that really work for me with cardio kickboxing.

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Shout out to Kick It with Eliza.

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We went to college together and I still love her videos like 10 years later, which is cool.

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And yeah, some Pilates and just trying to mix it up.

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It's hard for me to do yoga videos because I don't know, I'm just really picky with yoga

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videos.

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So I still do go into the studio for that and just like squiggle and squirm around my

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own mat sometimes without doing an actual flow.

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That's been really nourishing for me.

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And then finally for Soul, Minnie is barking.

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This has kind of gone in waves for me of being really connected with myself and then also

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just kind of feeling like I'm a victim to my busyness.

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And so that's been a really big teaching for me this year.

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I think I shared a bit before, but some of the highlights for me in this category were

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our retreats, which Jen talked about.

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The Breckenridge one was my first one leading in person, which was so freaking magical.

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And then Florida, my God, the witchy retreat, just everything's been amazing.

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So with meditation, my morning routine, it all feels steady.

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There's been lots of awesome music.

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Electric Forest was so fucking beautiful to be back to and just amazing friend and community

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time.

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So super, super grateful.

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Yeah.

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Are they here?

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Okay.

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You want to sit there?

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Yeah.

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So yeah.

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Okay.

475
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Well, Kat, thank you for sharing all of that.

476
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I hope that as you do our meditation from this episode and you process your own categories,

477
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you could always reach out and share.

478
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I hope it helps you connect some dots so that you can walk and set intentions or maybe just

479
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a word for next year.

480
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We thank you for writing this season three with us and we look forward to seeing you

481
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in February for season four.

482
00:36:12,840 --> 00:36:13,840
Thank you.

483
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Love you all so much.

484
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Happy new year.

485
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Bye.