Hello everyone and welcome to the Awaken Together podcast.
I'm Jen and I'm Kat.
And today we're going to do a little like life catch up.
I feel like Kat and I have not been sitting in the same room in this space for a long
time.
Months.
Do a little check in with each other.
Let you guys know how life has been treating us over here because there's always fun parallels
and stories.
And then we're going to go into a little summer solstice review, talk about some of the rituals
that you can do closing out the spring and welcoming in the summer and just some ways
to tap into that inner fire to honor the solstice.
But before that Kat, you want to get some life updates.
This is like actually real time.
I feel like I don't know what's been going on.
I know.
Normally we have a catch up like at least half an hour before we sit down to record.
So we at least like know what's going on in each other's lives.
But we're doing it live right now.
It's fresh.
And Kat looks very summer solstice as like the full get up, sunflower tattoo on the forearm,
just so you have the visual.
Thank you.
And Jen is just sparkling from her head to her toes.
All the fairy hairs over here.
Always fairy.
I'm impermanent fairy.
Oh yeah.
Yeah.
Things have been up and down over here.
For me, they've been really up.
But I don't even know the last time I came on here if I shared this, but Kyle, my husband
has been on a leave of absence for a little over or almost, gosh, two months now almost.
Yeah.
A month and a half.
And so basically he took this leave because things were just a lot at his job.
He was kind of in a new low mental health wise.
And so he was at this crossroads of like, what the fuck do I do?
Do I quit my job?
Like what do I do?
And we actually had a couple of friends recently who took leaves of absences and...
It's so the thing our generation is doing because our system is so broken.
And the fact is like making space to just realize who you are separate of work is like
so huge and it's crazy that we have function the way we do.
So good for him.
Yes.
I'm really proud of him.
I've been encouraging him to do that for a while now.
Just knowing how he's been triggered by a couple of things at work and it's been doing
wonders for him, I will say.
He is currently...
He took the first month to really just decompress, let his nervous system do its thing, get back
to baseline a little bit more.
And now he is actually tomorrow starting to work with a friend on some sound design and
it's a project that they might get paid for.
So it is a good step, like tiptoeing back into the work world.
His job of course is saving his role there for him when he returns, but ideally he will
not go back to that job.
Yeah, good.
Yeah, because that's the role that kind of caused all the harm.
And it's just a really toxic company, awful work conditions.
And so taking some distance has shown him really how much of it was that job, but he's
still like, okay, I want to set myself up with really good routines for when that time
comes.
Amazing.
So dipping his toe in tomorrow with that, which is great.
And so with me, I've been kind of in this holding space mode of checking in, making
sure he's okay.
And at first that was a lot for me.
I was constantly kind of walking on eggshells and like, what do I say?
I don't know.
Cause he was in a really heightened place.
And also a lot of things were going on with just like family and some stressful situations
earlier this year.
I ended up going back to Massachusetts and surprising mom for Mother's Day, which is
really nice.
So yeah, it was a really kind of up and down spring, but now that summer is here, I feel
just really, really, really good.
Like whenever I take the time to separate myself from all the chaos and the noise, like
things are great.
And that gives me a lot of peace and rest assurance that I'm good.
Like my word for the year, I feel like it's perfect time to check back in halfway in the
year now, right?
Almost exactly halfway through the year.
And my word's trust.
And so just that deep trust that like everything I've done, all the work, trials and tribulations
have all just prepared me for this.
And I really trust in that and I can kind of feel that, you know?
So that's where I've been.
I feel like this season has been really about relationships for me.
Really deeply about relationships.
Not really about work as much, not really about like creative hobbies or ventures, but
really like my people.
And that's felt really, really nice and really, really hard.
So we had a really good couples therapy session two days ago yesterday, I don't know.
And our therapist kind of pointed out how, like we'll cancel a session.
We're only seeing her once a month right now.
We'll cancel a session because we're doing so well.
And then we won't see her for two months and then we'll come back and we'll be like, oh
my God, things are so bad.
Do we need to get a divorce?
And she's like, you guys.
Just not canceling them.
It's just not even, it's just like pointing out how like two days ago we were great.
And it's just like we catastrophize things in our minds so much.
And so that was a really beautiful pattern to just be illuminated for us in our faces
and point it out.
And after that session, we went in feeling pretty good and then in the middle of it feeling
really bad.
And then by the end feeling like, oh, silly us.
We're just doing that thing again.
We're good.
We're great.
And so that's kind of how it's been.
I think it has been a lot to do with just like the mental state Kyle's been in and yeah,
little things here and there that have gotten me like up and down with energy levels.
We went to two music festivals, which were freaking amazing.
Yeah.
I saw the photos, Kat's little dress up photos.
If you don't see on Instagram, so cute.
So fun.
It brings me so much joy.
Inner child.
Oh yeah.
Inner child and like Vixen.
I love it.
Dark cat just embodied in an outfit.
So yeah, it's been amazing.
It's been hard.
It's been beautiful.
It's been life.
Yeah.
It's hard to hold space for emotional intensity and just like stay in it and not, you know,
like shape shift everything around for just intensity.
I feel like I've had very similar parallels to that.
Thanks for sharing all your updates.
I would say let's think from the start of spring and like you had a birthday overall
thing.
Yeah.
I just had my birthday Jim and I season things.
I have so much Jim and I in my birth chart.
If you have not heard from previous episodes, so Jim and I seasons always really fun.
My life has been so busy.
I think it's definitely been hard to like hold space for as much like social stuff as
sometimes I, you know, I like to have my social worlds, but I feel like I've kind of been
in this grind mode, just like really, really focusing on setting myself up for future stuff.
Definitely just like trying to get money saved, figuring out if like a house can happen at
some point.
I am, I have the goal really to create this commune.
Like it really is like what I really want is like way more community living.
So really just trying to set the space up where there is potential within that getting
things like organized.
So my physical therapy aside, I have this whole spiritual world, all my entrepreneurship
in that direction.
I love all the stuff I do on social media and then physical therapy is just this like
steady paycheck and it's been a very fulfilling job.
But I'm at like year, like I'm almost at 12 years and like 15 years in healthcare and
I'm 32 and it's just been so much and our healthcare system so broken.
I end up like merging at this point, my spiritual side is so loud.
Like I talk to all the patients just really unhinged compared to like how I would have
really compartmentalized at one point.
Like everyone kind of just knows that I'm just quirky and into all this astrology and
into energy work.
And I just kind of talk about it all now, but our healthcare system doesn't really allow
me to be as expansive as I kind of view and like to help my clients with healing and how
I feel myself.
And then that just is sad to see people hurting and then have to like see them for only a
small period of time.
And I still love connecting people to their bodies, but yeah, our healthcare system in
the U S is just truly a nightmare.
So I'm excited to be able to just give like a final push in that direction.
I really do want to be able to eventually close out that chapter.
I just went to Sedona last week.
I actually connected with my healer.
She's like super psychic.
There was so many little moments in Sedona that were so many synchronicities and magic.
But one of the questions I asked the psychic is when is physical therapy done?
Like, please tell me.
And she's like March, 2025.
And I was like, okay, I can, I can, I can handle that.
So I feel like I'm just kind of in this phase of just moving forward.
And yeah, as far as more personal stuff goes, I am still, me and Danny are still in the
poly worlds integrating.
I have another partner and integrating relationship dynamics within that.
And it's been really beautiful.
I think it's been the most healing chapter.
I feel like when did all this madness start?
The podcast holds time, but it's been a while.
December, 2023.
Yeah.
I feel like 2022.
Yeah.
It's been a journey.
And I feel like for me, there was just so many patterns of not digging into some of
the deeper levels of intimacy and stuff that I just, I still had a lot of blockages.
I've realized the layers of religion trauma and how much that was playing into stuff.
I also realized my queer side just really never got a lot of space without being so
intoxicated and just using it as kind of this numbing sort of tool and going at it very
unconsciously.
And it's just been really beautiful.
I feel like I've healed so many previous layers of myself because of this that just never
got a chance and I've been able to like reverse a lot of shame patterns I had around just
my full sense of expression and that side being really important and just knowing what
my mind and body needs on a whole deeper level and knowing how to connect with people in
the way I want instead of taking it with just how it is, not always putting effort where
you need.
And I think that it's led to the most beautiful discoveries about myself and I feel like I've
been able to connect with Danny and other partners in really intentional ways.
And it's just been so healing.
I actually cried last night, just like, it's so beautiful that I have Kat and all these
friendships that I feel like really know all the sides of myself.
And I feel like for so long, especially with how I was raised, I just had so much compartmentalized
that it feels so good to be in this whole new truth.
I feel like so much of that has been able to happen.
So yeah, the emotional intensity of all of it has been turned up to like a thousand.
But when I also think about my day to day, I am so happy that there is just so little
walls up.
I feel like I can move through so much, so much more present.
And even though my routine right now is just absolutely crazy, like I wake up at five and
literally don't stop, I feel like until 10, but I've made enough space for self care,
enough space for body movement, enough space for just being able to like slightly nurture
my connections and like keep them going in an intentional way, but not like burn myself
out on any of the stuff.
It's just in this like very fragile flow, which is intense, but it's, it's happening.
And I feel really like I can see just once again, just the layers of work and how it's
been able to like shift things for me.
So I think the spring has had some beautiful new excitement.
Danny, he also has his own small business.
It's been doing really well.
And so we just have a little polycule.
That's what you call a whole group of your people in poly, a little polycule.
That's very entrepreneurial.
We're all trying to really dream big and like make things happen.
And I think the group energy behind that has been really nice.
So yeah, going into summer, um, talking about like spiritual journey updates and everything.
I know you were just in Sedona.
Um, it looked like just beautiful exploration.
Oh my gosh.
It was unreal.
Like one of the funniest little synchronicities I can say that was like hilarious.
So there was like very clearly I camped on the way down.
I drove, so I kind of made it nomadic and stayed at a bunch of like, um, free land along
the way, but there was a Raven at every single spot I went to like a Raven.
And I was there with my poly partner and we like just kept seeing this Raven.
And then we go into the psychic's office and it's all like Raven themed and there's a Raven
stuffed animal.
And I'm just like, Oh my gosh, it's significance behind Raven.
So much rebirth, like literally wild.
And I was like, had chills when I saw that.
And then, um, she just tunes in is like, Oh, there is so many Ravens and they are like
laughing and there's like a huge thing of like happening right now.
And it's like, it was just so surreal and there was just so many little moments like
that, like the magic of just tuning into nature.
I did a little trippy trip and it was so unreal, like the star gazing in the desert and just
remembering the significance of flow and merging with the universe and all the little things
that are just so nice to have time to feel into for a second.
And just remember like, I am a human and it's fucking weird and everything else is just
expansive and beautiful.
And I'm just trying to make as much room for expansion and not die in my little human body.
And that is what we're trying to do here.
Right?
You know?
Yes.
Absolutely.
Oh, well I have a song recommendation I'll have to hit you with after about Ravens.
Yeah.
It's called, if I were a Raven by immersive and it's, it was my song last year.
Hell yeah.
So let's go.
Yes.
Love it.
I recently learned too, that let me back up a little bit.
So at all the music festivals, so Kirsten, one of my best friend and I, we've been having
these crazy telepathic moments like all spring.
And I recently learned that there is something that happens when you spend so much time around
somebody and you're on similar wavelengths.
Like it doesn't just happen to anybody, but your brains actually synchronize on frequencies
and you are likely to have telepathic moments.
Absolutely.
And we have been, it's creepy.
It's crazy.
So a couple examples from last weekend or two weekends ago at this point, we, so there
was this, we went to the regional burn here in Colorado and it was a blast.
They had this creature adoption station where you fill out an adoption form and it's super
silly.
There's like, if you could be two animals combined, what would you be?
And so Kyle and I did it together and Kirsten did one for herself and we got these silly
little creatures.
Kyle and I was an elephant with a stuffed element, elephant head with a googly eye at
the end of its trunk.
And it's sitting on top.
Third eye, third eye.
Yeah, right.
Third eye trunk.
Or the elephant.
I love it.
And its head is sitting on top of a flower stem that's like bendy.
And so cute.
And then Kirsten's was this like bat with hairy armpits.
Amazing.
Freezing.
It was ridiculous.
So silly.
We were like, we need a name for it.
And so we were both thinking for a sec and she goes, what about Gerald?
And I go, oh my God, I was thinking Harold.
And she said, oh my God, I was thinking Harold first.
It has to be Harold.
So that was one crazy thing.
And then the next thing I was walking back from the portos one night, the porta potties,
the portal potties.
God always goes into portal potties.
Just so you know.
Yes.
It changes my whole world when I come out.
New person when I emerge.
And yeah, I was thinking how, man, I only have gum, but I really want to mint.
I need to ask Kirsten for a mint.
And I get back to the dance floor and she literally has mints in her hand saying, want
one?
Amazing.
Oh my God.
That's so funny.
I love that so much.
There were like five other times that happened at the other festival and it's just like we
are synced.
So beautiful.
To have your people.
And sometimes we'll just be next to each other.
And I'm like, you know, I know what you're thinking, right?
She's like, oh, sorry.
I think about something else.
It's just so silly.
I love it.
So funny.
So that's crazy.
Akashic record reading has been wild.
Just like sitting with it for myself and practicing that.
Same.
I love it.
You too?
Absolutely.
Yeah.
It's been so cool.
So we both did a little Akashic record training and it's just, yeah, and it is, it's a deeply
personal thing.
I feel like I'm going to have to sit with it by myself a long time to kind of learn
the language of all of that, but definitely love continuously growing tools just to hear
the universe.
And I love, also love that when you start connecting with your people more and like
you find your community.
That's what I was crying for last night.
Cause that is so it.
I have all these people that like really psychically just like mesh in with my world, my brain,
like what I am needing.
And it's just all been like so fluid and that's been so nice.
So I love that you've been in that like flow state too.
And we've always had that and I love that.
That's why this podcast is so beautiful.
So talking goals for your summer.
Do you want to say a little intention so we can tell you guys and then we'll go into a
few like actual talks about summer solstice, but you always want to close out the spring.
So for us, we just kind of did a little review and I think journaling all the things that
went down in the timeframe of spring is really important.
Close it out with intention so that when spring comes back around, you have something held
down that holds that time for you.
And then setting intentions going into a new season is also so important.
Something that you're really like wanting to call in for summer.
Yes.
So as I mentioned, the beginning of spring, the end of summer or the end of spring as
well is just all of spring has been super busy for me.
Yeah.
Work was kind of crazy for a while there and with the festivals, the traveling, it's been
pretty crazy.
And for me, naturally people in the summer like get really busy, do a ton of stuff, travel
more.
So I'm kind of feeling like, okay, I'm at this place where I've already done so much
this summer and it's like just beginning that I actually want to do less.
So my intention for the summer is creating more time to just be and do less.
So there are a couple of things in my life where I'm like, okay, I'm going to put this
down.
Okay.
I'm going to like revisit that in the fall or yeah, just like creating space with Kyle
for a whole free day with no plans with anyone but each other, little date nights here and
there.
Even if it's just like sitting outside having dinner in our backyard, like just more intentional
together time.
Yeah.
Creating space this summer.
That's my intention.
I love it.
How about you?
Yeah.
I think for me, I want to come out of summer feeling like I really have like good finance
stuff lined up.
I think I'm going to use that inner fire energy just to do a really big blast so that in the
fall and winter, I can kind of like wind down in more of a way and just utilize this quicker
like kind of energy and flow right now.
I really am hoping to do more in person.
Astrology is like the love of my life.
So I definitely have been trying to add in a little bit more astrology stuff and set
seats for my business.
I am now like doing a lot of in person retreat offerings and I'm just like setting the seeds
up for a lot of that because no matter where I end up, I know that that's definitely where
I like to put my energy for the long term.
So that's been nice.
So I think intention wise is just kind of go into this big fire hustle, let myself really
just own intensity.
I have noticed a pattern in myself of when things get really intense.
I also can get into that.
I have Aries in my chart.
I really blame my Aries for that and you have strong Aries too, but I do always want to
just like push things into the next and just like letting that intensity just kind of be
there is important for me.
And I think I just need to kind of ride that out through the summertime.
Sounds like you're channeling fire and I'm channeling water.
Yeah, I love that.
So good.
We'll hold each other accountable.
Perfect.
Yeah.
And then letting you guys know.
So a few things looking at summer solstice, I will just share just a quick blurb on the
astrology.
So in the summer cancer initiates and start us off.
It's our Cardinal sign that really is like the link of going into your memories, your
family and just like plugging in with the people that you love.
Cancer has a very nurturing element to it.
So summer is actually starting off with a level of nurturing.
So whatever that looks like for you and then as the sun transitions into Leo, we know Leo
is all about fire and creative expression.
It's about play in whatever way that looks like for you.
And Leo naturally is very connected to our inner child.
So finding just the stuff that brings you that sense of creative flow and expression
and outward like release and just showing it off and not holding yourself back.
Leo can do that in so many ways, but that is the energy when the sun is there.
And then we go into Virgo and Virgo helps mutate us from summer into fall.
But Virgo then takes all of that initiation, all of the fire of Leo.
And then Virgo is about kind of cleaning everything up, letting any loose ends kind of tie up and
getting organized.
And yeah, that's our summer season.
So you can ride where the sun is and you're in the sky.
You can monitor just what intentions you want to bring and stay checking in with those as
you go through the summer season.
And then yeah, Kat, you can tell us, we also like to look to nature with summer too.
Yeah.
Great time to just reconnect with nature.
Something I've been really thinking about lately after two music festivals where I've
been outside camping for five days each, I've camped probably two weeks now this year and
it's not even, it's officially summer now, is that the root of dysfunction, disease,
disharmony is disconnection.
And that disconnection is something that it's like we can have within ourselves, we can
have within other people.
It's our disconnection from nature around us.
So getting out for a hike, even in the morning, just getting outside, standing in the sun,
tilting your chin up to the sun and allowing a little smile to come across your lips and
just thank the sun for the lights and just being in this season of lights can do so much.
A little moment of gratitude to sip all that magic in and just start the day from that
beautiful place.
I all know that feeling where that sun hits.
Yeah.
So, summer, nature is always teaching us exactly what we need.
So looking at what foods are better in summer, like nature provides the stuff that our body
needs to kind of adjust to its environment.
And when you stay in sync with those nature cycles, you also very intuitively can realize
like what it's providing for you.
The earth has our back.
We just get so distracted.
We don't always notice.
So really just being intentional reflect.
We love that summer solstice is also international yoga day.
So as to people that are yoga teachers, I love getting onto the yoga mat.
There's usually a lot of yoga, international stuff going on that you can tune into.
And I always think dropping into the body is a great way to reflect as we enter into
new season as well.
I know you've been big on those 108 sun salutations.
I did that for like five years in a row with the 108, the sacred number.
And we would meet in the park and do that.
And the last time my body was like, we can not do 180.
So we'll see where I'm at.
I'm like, I can, I can play with it.
The triceps for those chaturangas 108 times like was a, was a thing.
Whether you're using these or not, like that is a lot.
My gosh.
But it was really fun.
We'd get a little jar of 108 marbles and each time you hop to the top of the mat, just move
in a marble.
And it was like such a beautiful ritual I used to do for summer solstice.
So yeah, there's so many cool things to plug into, but I think the yoga community usually
offers some really cool stuff.
So you can check around locally and see if that's something you want to lean into too.
That's right.
Check out a sound bath.
Check out pride events.
So many great ways to tap into community.
And we hope that you check out what's going on in your area and let us know you end up
doing.
We're so grateful to share that our fall witch retreat is now full.
Our coven is complete.
We're getting so stoked for that.
Um, and yeah, we have one more episode of this season in two weeks.
So that's going to round us out for this season and we can't wait to connect with you that
one more time.
Yeah.
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