WEBVTT 00:00:17.849 --> 00:00:21.070 I'm just encouraging you to give 100 % of your 00:00:21.070 --> 00:00:23.690 attention. I told her she could preach for one 00:00:23.690 --> 00:00:26.609 hour. Now preaching, ministering, singing, she 00:00:26.609 --> 00:00:29.329 kind of does it all. And so I'm just asking you, 00:00:29.370 --> 00:00:32.990 she will keep you, she'll keep your attention. 00:00:33.170 --> 00:00:35.570 But open up your hearts. Let's just receive from 00:00:35.570 --> 00:00:39.409 her. Let's stand and welcome Portia from Shiloh, 00:00:39.409 --> 00:00:50.600 my friend, my sister. So good to be here. Caleb, 00:00:50.679 --> 00:00:52.640 you got to come back. Caleb, where's that Caleb? 00:00:53.420 --> 00:00:56.359 That brother's so anointed on them drums. I was 00:00:56.359 --> 00:00:58.780 about to take everything. I told the prayer team 00:00:58.780 --> 00:01:00.719 earlier, I said, I want to take y 'all with me. 00:01:00.899 --> 00:01:03.259 I was like, man, if I didn't value the relationship 00:01:03.259 --> 00:01:05.900 that I have with this church, I would just take 00:01:05.900 --> 00:01:10.900 y 'all with me. That Caleb, man. I want you to 00:01:10.900 --> 00:01:13.680 get back on the drums for a minute. That's anointed, 00:01:13.680 --> 00:01:26.680 brother. Isn't he anointed? Just let the Lord 00:01:26.680 --> 00:01:31.159 use you. Go ahead and just play. Can you hear 00:01:31.159 --> 00:01:34.599 that piano back there? Yeah. You're getting your 00:01:34.599 --> 00:01:36.579 ears. I know it was a last minute thing. You 00:01:36.579 --> 00:01:38.099 know, that's how the Holy Spirit do. You think 00:01:38.099 --> 00:01:39.859 you're going to do one thing and the Holy Spirit 00:01:39.859 --> 00:01:41.359 say do something else. You know what I'm saying? 00:01:41.700 --> 00:08:37.539 So just go ahead and play for a minute. There's 00:08:37.539 --> 00:08:39.000 one more person that should have got out of your 00:08:39.000 --> 00:08:43.100 seat. Don't worry about what people think. Come 00:08:43.100 --> 00:08:47.000 on. Don't worry about what people think. Don't 00:08:47.000 --> 00:08:50.480 worry about it. Let this mind be in you that 00:08:50.480 --> 00:09:01.220 was also in Christ Jesus. I see the flowers blooming 00:09:01.220 --> 00:09:09.159 where there was a flood. And the waters are drying 00:09:09.159 --> 00:10:57.320 up from your God. thank you Jesus. Say Lord I 00:10:57.320 --> 00:12:26.879 receive the joy These are your daughters. The 00:12:26.879 --> 00:12:31.519 one that you love. And there's been an assignment 00:12:31.519 --> 00:12:35.440 on them, Lord God. There was something that happened. 00:12:36.919 --> 00:12:41.100 It was a disappointment. It was a big, big disappointment. 00:12:44.120 --> 00:12:47.220 And God said to tell you that your life is in 00:12:47.220 --> 00:12:52.580 his hands. That he loves you. He loves you. And 00:12:52.580 --> 00:12:55.090 he will never leave you. And though you felt 00:12:55.090 --> 00:12:58.669 like, God, this situation, some kind of abandonment 00:12:58.669 --> 00:13:00.950 thing, but God says, you know what, God? God 00:13:00.950 --> 00:13:41.580 said, tell my daughter I will never leave. Jesus. 00:13:42.220 --> 00:13:46.279 I break the power of the accuser in Jesus name. 00:13:46.759 --> 00:13:52.720 Let her feel your presence now. Go say it. You 00:13:52.720 --> 00:13:55.539 about to make the devil real mad. See you got 00:13:55.539 --> 00:14:36.570 this. name of Jesus never the same again never 00:14:36.570 --> 00:14:39.730 the same again from this day on this is your 00:14:39.730 --> 00:14:45.429 daughter she is a worshiper she does you rip 00:14:45.429 --> 00:14:48.289 down strongholds sometimes people look at you 00:14:48.289 --> 00:14:49.950 and say you know what I don't know that I don't 00:14:49.950 --> 00:14:51.289 know if that lady got it all but I'm gonna tell 00:14:51.289 --> 00:14:55.710 you what you got it all you got it all I'm gonna 00:14:55.710 --> 00:14:57.669 tell you what the way you worship God is pleased 00:14:57.669 --> 00:15:00.789 with you Sometimes I just see him joining in 00:15:00.789 --> 00:15:03.509 and dancing when you dance and worshiping when 00:15:03.509 --> 00:15:05.889 you worship. The Lord wants you to know that 00:15:05.889 --> 00:15:08.789 he loves you. Come on, that your labor is not 00:15:08.789 --> 00:15:12.009 in vain. That he sees you. The Lord wants to 00:15:12.009 --> 00:15:14.289 just say thank you. I love you, daughter. Come 00:15:14.289 --> 00:17:16.279 on, lift your vision. in the name of Jesus I 00:17:16.279 --> 00:17:21.900 thank you for your daughter God see I'm gonna 00:17:21.900 --> 00:17:23.740 have to stop I don't care if I use all my time 00:17:23.740 --> 00:17:27.180 up on you because you're so precious to God's 00:17:27.180 --> 00:17:31.880 sight he loves you he loves you desperately loves 00:17:31.880 --> 00:19:08.180 you here you go ready the point Father, I thank 00:19:08.180 --> 00:19:17.019 you. You're marked for greatness. That's why 00:19:17.019 --> 00:19:20.480 the enemy comes against you. You're marked for 00:19:20.480 --> 00:19:23.579 greatness. Remember I told you that. Amen. You 00:19:23.579 --> 00:19:28.380 are. You're special in the eyes of God. You have 00:19:28.380 --> 00:19:30.299 so much greatness in your future. Let me just 00:19:30.299 --> 00:19:32.680 tell you. Your future looks way better than you 00:19:32.680 --> 00:19:35.680 can imagine. With the blessing of God. In the 00:19:35.680 --> 00:19:44.660 name of Jesus. Every power. Every lie. Silence. 00:19:45.119 --> 00:19:49.480 The voice. Of the enemy. Be perpetually bound 00:19:49.480 --> 00:19:53.099 in hell for all eternity. You cannot have this. 00:19:53.660 --> 00:19:57.079 The daughter of the Lord. Her destiny is too 00:19:57.079 --> 00:20:03.440 great. In Jesus name. In Jesus name. In Jesus 00:20:03.440 --> 00:21:12.859 name. In Jesus name. In Jesus name. His hand 00:21:12.859 --> 00:21:24.579 is on you. You know that leaders don't fit in? 00:21:31.599 --> 00:22:43.069 Wow. have heard let him see you clearer let him 00:22:43.069 --> 00:23:53.819 hear your voice louder speak louder brother on 00:23:53.819 --> 00:23:58.259 the guitar or the bass listen this is one of 00:23:58.259 --> 00:24:01.440 my spiritual mentors pastor marion did you just 00:24:01.440 --> 00:24:06.180 love her at the conference yes she's a mighty 00:24:06.180 --> 00:24:09.240 woman of god i am who i am today because of this 00:24:09.240 --> 00:24:12.599 lady right here who took me under her wing and 00:24:12.599 --> 00:24:15.779 mentored me i was really rough around the edges 00:24:15.779 --> 00:24:19.839 my mother my grandmother was married i was sharing 00:24:19.839 --> 00:24:22.579 at the conference at 12 years old and my mother 00:24:23.369 --> 00:24:26.950 was married I think at 17 years old but my grandmother 00:24:26.950 --> 00:24:30.509 she had her first kid at 14 so how much do you 00:24:30.509 --> 00:24:33.809 really know at 14 you know she ended up having 00:24:33.809 --> 00:24:38.589 nine kids one of them my mother and so I didn't 00:24:38.589 --> 00:24:40.710 learn all the things about grace and about being 00:24:40.710 --> 00:24:44.130 a woman all this stuff uh to later on in my life 00:24:44.130 --> 00:24:46.069 and thank God there was a woman in the church 00:24:46.069 --> 00:24:48.029 that did not give up on me and she happened to 00:24:48.029 --> 00:24:50.710 be the worship pastor and she pushed me forward 00:24:50.710 --> 00:24:53.769 in my ministry and that's My mother Marion right 00:24:53.769 --> 00:24:59.829 here. So thank you so much. I used to really 00:24:59.829 --> 00:25:03.130 struggle with depression. I used to struggle 00:25:03.130 --> 00:25:06.150 so much. Who never heard my testimony before? 00:25:06.930 --> 00:25:13.730 A lot of people. I struggle because my parents, 00:25:13.890 --> 00:25:15.650 they loved God, but they didn't have a lot of 00:25:15.650 --> 00:25:18.529 wisdom. And they invited people to live with 00:25:18.529 --> 00:25:20.869 us. They invited people from off the street to 00:25:20.869 --> 00:25:22.329 live with us. They just wanted to help people. 00:25:22.650 --> 00:25:25.890 They had good hearts, but not wisdom. And so 00:25:25.890 --> 00:25:28.089 one of them molested me, raped my sister at three 00:25:28.089 --> 00:25:35.890 years old. And it seemed like my life would never, 00:25:35.930 --> 00:25:38.250 I would never be happy. So I understand when 00:25:38.250 --> 00:25:41.049 you have something tragic, emotional happen to 00:25:41.049 --> 00:25:45.589 you and you cannot get over that thing. I understand 00:25:45.589 --> 00:25:48.230 what it's like to walk every day wanting to die. 00:25:48.750 --> 00:25:52.579 When I was a teenager, In the eighth grade, there 00:25:52.579 --> 00:25:55.220 was one man who came to our church and his name 00:25:55.220 --> 00:25:58.059 was Milton Laxington. He became my godfather. 00:25:58.660 --> 00:26:02.339 And I love this man because this man went through 00:26:02.339 --> 00:26:05.200 more than I did. His stepfather was so mean, 00:26:05.240 --> 00:26:07.000 he made his brother eat a rat for peeing in the 00:26:07.000 --> 00:26:12.619 bed. He made his brother eat a rat. So he would 00:26:12.619 --> 00:26:14.980 tell me stories about his childhood. I was like, 00:26:15.039 --> 00:26:17.759 wow, I guess I don't have that bad. But Milton 00:26:17.759 --> 00:26:21.450 was actually a very depressed person. He was 00:26:21.450 --> 00:26:26.329 at a young age, teenager. He ran away from home 00:26:26.329 --> 00:26:29.650 because his stepfather would be with other women 00:26:29.650 --> 00:26:35.190 and make him watch. And he ended up later on 00:26:35.190 --> 00:26:37.309 getting saved, but he had a struggle with depression. 00:26:38.049 --> 00:26:41.910 And so this was the one person that I could relate 00:26:41.910 --> 00:26:45.029 to that I really loved, Milton Laxington. I said, 00:26:45.069 --> 00:26:48.940 this man, he understands me. But when I... At 00:26:48.940 --> 00:26:50.619 times he would get so depressed, I would always 00:26:50.619 --> 00:26:52.640 talk him out of committing suicide. But this 00:26:52.640 --> 00:26:54.900 particular day in the eighth grade, I couldn't 00:26:54.900 --> 00:26:57.900 talk him out of it. I tried my best, but I couldn't. 00:26:58.839 --> 00:27:01.339 And one thing I knew that there was a hell. Because 00:27:01.339 --> 00:27:03.160 I had a friend who went to hell, died for 45 00:27:03.160 --> 00:27:06.740 minutes, came back, had the pictures of her being 00:27:06.740 --> 00:27:08.720 dead, the autopsy, you know, the whole thing. 00:27:08.980 --> 00:27:13.339 But the doctor's report had the, you know, 20 00:27:13.339 --> 00:27:16.000 -pound cast on her head to hold her brain together 00:27:16.000 --> 00:27:17.980 because she was in a car accident. And she told 00:27:17.980 --> 00:27:21.240 us the story. And literally, it made the hair 00:27:21.240 --> 00:27:23.259 stand up on my arms. And I was just, like, scared. 00:27:23.319 --> 00:27:25.240 So I knew that was a hill because she didn't 00:27:25.240 --> 00:27:28.400 have no reason to lie. For 45 minutes, she died. 00:27:28.829 --> 00:27:30.329 So I would tell Milton, I would say, Milton, 00:27:30.470 --> 00:27:34.910 listen to me. Listen to me. I said, there's a 00:27:34.910 --> 00:27:36.609 hell and there's a hell that's worse than the 00:27:36.609 --> 00:27:38.710 hell that you're going through. He said, no, 00:27:38.750 --> 00:27:41.130 this is my hell on earth. My daughters became 00:27:41.130 --> 00:27:44.509 prostitutes. He says, this is my hell on earth. 00:27:44.690 --> 00:27:47.029 I don't care what you say. This is my hell. And 00:27:47.029 --> 00:27:48.869 he says, as a matter of fact, when I die, I'm 00:27:48.869 --> 00:27:51.150 just not even going to say nothing. I'm just 00:27:51.150 --> 00:27:52.869 going to go ahead and just lay down and die. 00:27:52.950 --> 00:27:54.190 I said, you're going to get a glimpse of hell 00:27:54.190 --> 00:27:56.650 and you're going to cry out to God. He said, 00:27:56.670 --> 00:28:00.500 no, I'm not. I'm not going to cry out. He said, 00:28:00.519 --> 00:28:02.740 because this is my hell on earth. His wife had 00:28:02.740 --> 00:28:05.400 left him. When I was in the eighth grade, he 00:28:05.400 --> 00:28:07.059 took a gun. I'm on me on the phone trying to 00:28:07.059 --> 00:28:08.880 talk him out of it. And he shot himself twice 00:28:08.880 --> 00:28:11.900 in the stomach. But the doctor said that that 00:28:11.900 --> 00:28:14.279 was the crying is praying his man. The ambulance 00:28:14.279 --> 00:28:18.940 said that they ever heard. I'm like, ah, so much 00:28:18.940 --> 00:28:20.500 for not getting a glimpse of hell because there's 00:28:20.500 --> 00:28:24.400 a hell worse than this one. There's a fire worse 00:28:24.400 --> 00:28:28.000 than this fire that you're going through. And 00:28:28.000 --> 00:28:31.099 so. I said that to say that I understand what 00:28:31.099 --> 00:28:33.500 it's like to be depressed. And I actually, the 00:28:33.500 --> 00:28:36.299 enemy will come against my mind so much that 00:28:36.299 --> 00:28:39.559 tell me to kill yourself. Anybody know what I'm 00:28:39.559 --> 00:28:45.039 talking about? Yeah, thank you. Kill yourself. 00:28:46.099 --> 00:28:49.460 Go ahead. Go ahead. Your life is not worth living. 00:28:50.099 --> 00:28:52.640 Father's not home. My father was traveling all 00:28:52.640 --> 00:28:55.019 around the world being a superstar. Here we were 00:28:55.019 --> 00:28:57.859 living in a rat's den, open drawers. Mice would 00:28:57.859 --> 00:29:00.880 jump in my face. And my father would jump just 00:29:00.880 --> 00:29:02.960 traveling all around being a superstar, eating 00:29:02.960 --> 00:29:05.759 $100 plate dinners while his family was at home. 00:29:05.940 --> 00:29:08.119 So here I was stuck. My mother was always sick. 00:29:08.339 --> 00:29:12.700 Here I was. I had a victim's mentality. To go 00:29:12.700 --> 00:29:16.839 to school, I had to fight. Because the bullies 00:29:16.839 --> 00:29:18.880 in my neighborhood. To come home, I had to fight. 00:29:21.280 --> 00:29:23.799 So I understand what it's like to be under pressure. 00:29:24.279 --> 00:29:26.039 I understand what it's like to not have your 00:29:26.039 --> 00:29:31.200 life go right. And to wonder why. Why is my life 00:29:31.200 --> 00:29:34.660 this way? But what happened was something happened 00:29:34.660 --> 00:29:37.720 to me. My sister comes up to me and she says, 00:29:37.759 --> 00:29:41.839 Portia, she says, because I tell him after my 00:29:41.839 --> 00:29:43.400 godfather shoots and stuff, I'm going to kill 00:29:43.400 --> 00:29:45.480 myself. I tell him, Jackie, I said, I'm going 00:29:45.480 --> 00:29:47.420 to kill myself today. I want to say goodbye to 00:29:47.420 --> 00:29:50.359 you. Peace out. Peace. I'm out. You know, I'm 00:29:50.359 --> 00:29:55.119 out. And my sister says to me, did Romeo and 00:29:55.119 --> 00:29:58.660 Juliet love each other? And I said, everybody 00:29:58.660 --> 00:30:00.460 know that Romeo and Juliet loved each other? 00:30:00.579 --> 00:30:02.839 What the heck? I'm about to kill myself if you're 00:30:02.839 --> 00:30:04.819 telling me something stupid like that. Everybody 00:30:04.819 --> 00:30:07.079 know that Romeo and Juliet loved each other. 00:30:07.819 --> 00:30:11.000 And she said, no, they had a selfish love for 00:30:11.000 --> 00:30:13.619 each other. They didn't love each other. Then 00:30:13.619 --> 00:30:16.299 I learned about agape, storge, phileo, eros, 00:30:16.319 --> 00:30:19.200 all those different kind of loves. And agape 00:30:19.200 --> 00:30:21.339 being the really unconditional love of Jesus 00:30:21.339 --> 00:30:26.579 Christ. And I remember sitting in the service 00:30:26.579 --> 00:30:32.579 and hearing a word and said, God show up today 00:30:32.579 --> 00:30:35.160 or I'm going to be dead tomorrow. And all I can 00:30:35.160 --> 00:30:38.339 tell you is that God showed up. And I'm going 00:30:38.339 --> 00:30:41.480 to tell you something. I used to live for revenge. 00:30:42.099 --> 00:30:45.460 I wanted to live to kill the man that molested 00:30:45.460 --> 00:30:49.700 me and raped my sister at three years old. I 00:30:49.700 --> 00:30:54.920 wanted to live to kill him. Even at 19 years 00:30:54.920 --> 00:30:59.400 old, I had planned his entire murder. And I was 00:30:59.400 --> 00:31:01.940 in a service that talked about, the man was talking 00:31:01.940 --> 00:31:04.059 about forgiveness. And he said, if you don't 00:31:04.059 --> 00:31:06.160 forgive, God can't forgive you. I'm like, are 00:31:06.160 --> 00:31:11.079 you kidding me? Are you kidding me? I could go 00:31:11.079 --> 00:31:13.000 to hell because what this man did to me and my 00:31:13.000 --> 00:31:16.200 family. And God is saying I won't make it because 00:31:16.200 --> 00:31:19.599 I won't forgive. And that's exactly what he was 00:31:19.599 --> 00:31:25.509 saying. It bothered me so bad, but I knew that 00:31:25.509 --> 00:31:29.549 it wasn't hell. So I started, I said, okay, God, 00:31:29.670 --> 00:31:32.470 I heard if you call on the name of Jesus with 00:31:32.470 --> 00:31:34.829 all your heart, soul, mind, and strength, what 00:31:34.829 --> 00:31:36.630 do I have to lose? What do I have to lose if 00:31:36.630 --> 00:31:39.069 I gave God a chance, right? What do I have to 00:31:39.069 --> 00:31:41.849 lose? And so I did that that day, but the depression 00:31:41.849 --> 00:31:45.589 didn't stop. God touched me. Yes. His hand was 00:31:45.589 --> 00:31:47.970 upon me. Yes. I probably was dancing all over 00:31:47.970 --> 00:31:49.869 the church and people couldn't believe I got 00:31:49.869 --> 00:31:51.809 saved. It was a revival at my church because 00:31:51.809 --> 00:31:55.450 I got saved. They actually had, we having a revival. 00:31:55.450 --> 00:31:57.930 It must be revival. Portia got saved. So everybody, 00:31:57.950 --> 00:32:04.089 we having a revival all this week. And so what 00:32:04.089 --> 00:32:06.509 happened was here I am struggling with depression. 00:32:06.930 --> 00:32:08.289 I'm going to tell you how to beat it. Y 'all 00:32:08.289 --> 00:32:15.339 ready? I'm so excited to tell on the devil. I'm 00:32:15.339 --> 00:32:20.180 excited about it. This is how you beat it. You 00:32:20.180 --> 00:32:22.460 beat the enemy by doing the opposite of what 00:32:22.460 --> 00:32:27.980 you feel. You confuse the forces of darkness. 00:32:31.240 --> 00:32:33.220 So what happened was, let me tell you how real 00:32:33.220 --> 00:32:35.980 this is. Let me tell you how real it is. I started 00:32:35.980 --> 00:32:38.500 to realize that it wasn't myself being depressed, 00:32:38.640 --> 00:32:43.480 that it was the enemy talking to me. I started 00:32:43.480 --> 00:32:45.980 to realize that, wait a minute, this doesn't 00:32:45.980 --> 00:32:48.940 sound like my voice really. I could be like real 00:32:48.940 --> 00:32:50.779 happy and all of a sudden I hear, you don't have 00:32:50.779 --> 00:32:56.019 no money. I don't got no money. You don't have 00:32:56.019 --> 00:33:00.960 a job. I don't got a job. You don't have a boyfriend. 00:33:01.200 --> 00:33:06.000 I don't got a boyfriend. And all of a sudden 00:33:06.000 --> 00:33:07.819 I found myself, I was agreeing with the enemy. 00:33:08.430 --> 00:33:10.910 I was agreeing. That wasn't what God says. God 00:33:10.910 --> 00:33:14.250 says, Jeremiah 29, 11, I have a plan for your 00:33:14.250 --> 00:33:17.009 life. I have a plan to prosper you. I have a 00:33:17.009 --> 00:33:18.950 plan to give you a hope. I have a plan to give 00:33:18.950 --> 00:33:21.609 you a good future. I have a plan for you. Anytime 00:33:21.609 --> 00:33:23.509 you have a plan, just like God has a plan for 00:33:23.509 --> 00:33:26.450 this church. You think the devil is just going 00:33:26.450 --> 00:33:31.130 to sit back? Yeah, let them go on casting out 00:33:31.130 --> 00:33:33.710 devils and let them go on getting people free. 00:33:34.170 --> 00:33:36.750 Oh no, he gonna just come. You know how he gonna 00:33:36.750 --> 00:33:38.670 come? He gonna come with people in the church. 00:33:39.369 --> 00:33:41.890 He gonna come whispering. You gotta understand. 00:33:41.970 --> 00:33:43.890 Listen, listen. You gotta understand who was 00:33:43.890 --> 00:33:47.170 whispering to you. Who was whispering to you? 00:33:47.670 --> 00:33:52.109 Oh, I wish I had time. Wish I had time. But let 00:33:52.109 --> 00:33:56.569 me just tell you. I started to do the opposite 00:33:56.569 --> 00:33:59.519 of what I felt. So when the enemy comes in and 00:33:59.519 --> 00:34:01.140 tells you, because the Bible says in Ephesians 00:34:01.140 --> 00:34:03.819 chapter 6, put on the helmet of salvation. Put 00:34:03.819 --> 00:34:05.779 on a breastplate. Y 'all know this. Y 'all know 00:34:05.779 --> 00:34:08.699 this. This is a very, very well -taught church. 00:34:08.920 --> 00:34:10.900 And I started putting on the whole armor of God 00:34:10.900 --> 00:34:13.099 every day. And all of a sudden, when the enemy 00:34:13.099 --> 00:34:15.440 comes in, I used to have horrible nightmares. 00:34:15.639 --> 00:34:18.539 Who had nightmares? All you got to do is realize 00:34:18.539 --> 00:34:22.019 that you're dreaming. Secret. Right there. You 00:34:22.019 --> 00:34:23.820 put on the whole armor of God before you go to 00:34:23.820 --> 00:34:26.420 sleep. And then when the enemy comes in, say, 00:34:26.519 --> 00:34:30.150 how dare you? come in my dream I have on the 00:34:30.150 --> 00:34:31.949 armor of God I guarantee you you will see it 00:34:31.949 --> 00:34:34.969 I used to be haunted with nightmares now if the 00:34:34.969 --> 00:34:37.210 enemy comes in my dream I'll be like where the 00:34:37.210 --> 00:34:38.809 rest of y 'all at I just pull out the sword just 00:34:38.809 --> 00:34:41.210 start cutting off all ahead and I say God take 00:34:41.210 --> 00:34:43.449 me take me fly that where they at let me just 00:34:43.449 --> 00:34:50.789 go in and just so anyway I would hear the enemy 00:34:50.789 --> 00:34:54.409 talking and he would say don't lift up your hands 00:35:01.769 --> 00:35:05.130 Don't shout. It don't take all that. Hallelujah. 00:35:08.650 --> 00:35:23.969 Don't dance. I'm going to tell you, you have 00:35:23.969 --> 00:35:26.909 a weapon. You don't even know it. It's worship. 00:35:27.750 --> 00:35:30.230 Worship your way. When you hear it, do the opposite. 00:35:31.260 --> 00:35:33.219 I would tell on the devil. Devil whispered in 00:35:33.219 --> 00:35:35.119 my ear, you're depressed. Father, I thank you, 00:35:35.139 --> 00:35:36.440 God, that the joy of the Lord is my strength. 00:35:37.400 --> 00:35:39.260 Last service, I talked about the joy of the Lord. 00:35:40.340 --> 00:35:47.420 I talked about a hope, a blessedness. See, I 00:35:47.420 --> 00:35:50.539 don't got time to tell y 'all that. Listen, I'm 00:35:50.539 --> 00:35:53.719 going to tell you something. If you realize who 00:35:53.719 --> 00:36:01.659 you are and who your daddy is, If you realize 00:36:01.659 --> 00:36:04.159 who you are, you're going to get mad. I started 00:36:04.159 --> 00:36:06.199 to get mad and I started realizing that it was 00:36:06.199 --> 00:36:08.599 the devil that used that man to molest me and 00:36:08.599 --> 00:36:11.019 rape my sister at three years old. I start to 00:36:11.019 --> 00:36:13.739 get upset and I start living for revenge for 00:36:13.739 --> 00:36:17.880 real. To be a spoiler of the kingdom of darkness. 00:36:18.659 --> 00:36:22.239 He should have never done it. You thought I was 00:36:22.239 --> 00:36:26.739 just going to lay down? You thought I was just 00:36:26.739 --> 00:36:29.380 going to lay down and die? You should have never 00:36:29.380 --> 00:36:31.039 done it. Oh, you coming to me with depression? 00:36:31.699 --> 00:36:34.300 I'm going to tell you, so for years after I learned 00:36:34.300 --> 00:36:39.000 this, prayer and the word, two wings that will 00:36:39.000 --> 00:36:41.559 take you above it. The Bible says, they that 00:36:41.559 --> 00:36:43.139 wait on the Lord shall renew their strength. 00:36:43.239 --> 00:36:45.360 They shall mount up with wings as eagles. They 00:36:45.360 --> 00:36:47.460 will run and not be weary. They will walk and 00:36:47.460 --> 00:36:49.539 not faint. So here it is, one wing is worship. 00:36:50.199 --> 00:36:52.579 I'm going to praise no matter what. I'm going 00:36:52.579 --> 00:36:54.320 to praise because you're still worthy even when 00:36:54.320 --> 00:36:56.760 everything is going wrong. So this is for somebody 00:36:56.760 --> 00:36:59.239 in here. I have totally other notes, but this 00:36:59.239 --> 00:37:06.099 is for you. So here it is. One wing. My mama 00:37:06.099 --> 00:37:08.760 taught me that. But if you just use one wing, 00:37:08.940 --> 00:37:10.860 you ain't going nowhere. You're going to look 00:37:10.860 --> 00:37:18.699 like this. The next thing you got to use is the 00:37:18.699 --> 00:37:21.920 word. You got the word, the sword of the spirit. 00:37:23.079 --> 00:37:25.420 The Lord told me a long time ago. He said, Portia, 00:37:25.440 --> 00:37:27.940 stop calling Pastor Violet Kitely to pray for 00:37:27.940 --> 00:37:31.199 you. Pastor Violet was my next door neighbor. 00:37:32.079 --> 00:37:34.159 And she did these powerful prayers. I'm like, 00:37:34.179 --> 00:37:35.639 I don't have to pray. I got Pastor Violet next 00:37:35.639 --> 00:37:40.440 door. I got to pray. Yes, you do. You better 00:37:40.440 --> 00:37:43.659 have your own relationship with God. You got 00:37:43.659 --> 00:37:46.840 to have it. My mother taught me that too. My 00:37:46.840 --> 00:37:49.559 natural mother. My mother. Earthquake would happen. 00:37:50.619 --> 00:37:54.340 And I'd dive under the table. And she would be 00:37:54.340 --> 00:37:59.159 praying. She'd look at her table. Sweetheart, 00:37:59.239 --> 00:38:07.460 the table ain't going to save you. I was like, 00:38:07.500 --> 00:38:09.739 oh, it's not? You know, you learn that in school. 00:38:09.900 --> 00:38:14.360 Dive on the table, you learn that. And then one 00:38:14.360 --> 00:38:17.380 time, it was another earthquake, and I got real 00:38:17.380 --> 00:38:23.300 close to mama. Mama, mama, mama. She said, sweetheart, 00:38:23.539 --> 00:38:27.619 mama ain't going to save you. I was like, dang, 00:38:27.659 --> 00:38:32.320 what do I got to do then? What's going on? She 00:38:32.320 --> 00:38:34.099 said, you know what I'm going to tell you? Who's 00:38:34.099 --> 00:38:35.880 going to save you is a relationship with Jesus 00:38:35.880 --> 00:38:39.340 Christ. And so the Lord, long story short, the 00:38:39.340 --> 00:38:41.219 Lord took me in a dream. And he said, Porsche, 00:38:41.340 --> 00:38:43.519 it's time for you to know my word, the sword 00:38:43.519 --> 00:38:47.420 of the spirit. This is for everybody that was 00:38:47.420 --> 00:38:51.059 depressed. Here it is, sword of the spirit. I 00:38:51.059 --> 00:38:54.679 want time. So when the enemy comes in, you got 00:38:54.679 --> 00:38:56.400 to learn how to will it. You know what I'm saying? 00:38:56.960 --> 00:39:00.340 Y 'all seen the 500, whatever, that movie, them 00:39:00.340 --> 00:39:02.780 violent bloody movies? They knew how to use that 00:39:02.780 --> 00:39:08.340 sword. This is your sword. This is your, see 00:39:08.340 --> 00:39:13.340 you, intruder come in your house, and you got 00:39:13.340 --> 00:39:17.980 like a .44 Magnum gun, and they got a toothpick. 00:39:19.539 --> 00:39:25.949 Who going to win? Say, I'm going to win. That's 00:39:25.949 --> 00:39:27.309 not rocket science. I'm not trying to trick you. 00:39:27.449 --> 00:39:29.150 You're going to win if you have that gun in your 00:39:29.150 --> 00:39:32.469 hand and you know how to use it. And you know 00:39:32.469 --> 00:39:34.449 how to use it. So here we go. Check this out. 00:39:34.889 --> 00:39:37.809 Check this out. So God told me, he said, Portia, 00:39:37.869 --> 00:39:42.329 you're going to have to know my word. He said, 00:39:42.369 --> 00:39:45.650 I have to know my own word. And I am the word 00:39:45.650 --> 00:39:49.579 made flesh. When the enemy came in. And he said, 00:39:49.639 --> 00:39:52.380 command that these stones be made bread. He said, 00:39:52.420 --> 00:39:55.639 it is written that man shall not live by bread 00:39:55.639 --> 00:40:00.039 alone, but by every word that preceded. When 00:40:00.039 --> 00:40:14.000 the spirit of fear comes in. God has not given 00:40:14.000 --> 00:40:17.260 me the spirit of fear, but of love, power, and 00:40:17.260 --> 00:40:24.900 acceptance. You got to use the sword of the spirit 00:40:24.900 --> 00:40:34.500 against the enemy. Two wings. We have prayer 00:40:34.500 --> 00:40:38.219 and praise. We have prayer and praise. Come on, 00:40:38.239 --> 00:40:46.139 hold them up. Judah shall plow. Jacob shall break 00:40:46.139 --> 00:40:50.829 up the clods. Hold them up for a minute. Let 00:40:50.829 --> 00:40:57.329 them see their weapon. Let them see their weapons. 00:40:58.409 --> 00:41:01.730 They have prayer and praise in the word. The 00:41:01.730 --> 00:41:04.570 sword of the spirit. You don't have to live in 00:41:04.570 --> 00:41:07.610 defeat for one split second. You don't have to 00:41:07.610 --> 00:41:10.429 live in defeat and be depressed for one split 00:41:10.429 --> 00:41:13.469 second. I'm going to tell you something. This 00:41:13.469 --> 00:41:15.650 is the truth. Y 'all put your hands down. A few 00:41:15.650 --> 00:41:19.840 years ago. About two years ago, my sister from 00:41:19.840 --> 00:41:24.159 Texas called me. She used to be mad because we 00:41:24.159 --> 00:41:25.820 would hear from God all the time and she couldn't. 00:41:26.000 --> 00:41:32.500 God loves you more than me. No, he doesn't. No, 00:41:32.519 --> 00:41:36.280 he doesn't. Do you think if you have the gift 00:41:36.280 --> 00:41:38.099 of hospitality and you were faithful in that 00:41:38.099 --> 00:41:42.260 gift, and I have the gift of prophecy, and basically 00:41:42.260 --> 00:41:45.480 you think one gift is better than another? You 00:41:45.480 --> 00:41:46.639 think when I get to heaven, you're going to have 00:41:46.639 --> 00:41:52.780 a smaller crown than me? Absolutely not. Absolutely 00:41:52.780 --> 00:41:56.159 not. So here it is. She calls me up on the phone. 00:41:56.480 --> 00:42:03.579 And I haven't heard voices 27 years of my life 00:42:03.579 --> 00:42:11.099 or more. And I'm up one day at the grocery store 00:42:11.099 --> 00:42:15.219 out of the blue, Pastor Jan, all my life. Out 00:42:15.219 --> 00:42:22.380 of the blue, I hear, kill yourself. I literally 00:42:22.380 --> 00:42:27.780 did like this. For real. That's what I was thinking. 00:42:28.579 --> 00:42:35.019 You're depressed. I didn't tell nobody. I didn't 00:42:35.019 --> 00:42:36.699 tell my husband. I thought it was the weirdest 00:42:36.699 --> 00:42:39.320 thing. After over 27 years, you're going to come 00:42:39.320 --> 00:42:42.920 back and speak to me? You lying devil. I just 00:42:42.920 --> 00:42:47.159 ignored him. But this is what got me. This is 00:42:47.159 --> 00:42:50.920 what got me. I'm so excited. What got me was 00:42:50.920 --> 00:42:54.800 my sister from Texas called me. And she's crying 00:42:54.800 --> 00:42:58.539 on the phone. She said, God spoke to me. I heard 00:42:58.539 --> 00:43:02.420 the voice of God. He spoke to me. And I saw you. 00:43:03.119 --> 00:43:07.199 I saw you leading worship. I saw you carrying 00:43:07.199 --> 00:43:10.900 other people's crosses. She said it. Oh, and 00:43:10.900 --> 00:43:12.980 by the way, the voices that you heard recently. 00:43:13.519 --> 00:43:15.579 The voices that you didn't tell nobody about. 00:43:15.659 --> 00:43:18.360 Not even your husband. The voices. You remember. 00:43:18.539 --> 00:43:20.380 The voices that you heard when you were younger. 00:43:20.860 --> 00:43:23.199 That told you to kill yourself. Now I'm lost 00:43:23.199 --> 00:43:27.820 right now. I'm like. Because you know when you 00:43:27.820 --> 00:43:35.219 know it's God speaking to you. Because I didn't 00:43:35.219 --> 00:43:38.519 tell nobody about it. So it had to be God. God 00:43:38.519 --> 00:43:44.239 knows you. So here it is. She says. The voices 00:43:44.239 --> 00:43:46.380 that you haven't heard since you were a little 00:43:46.380 --> 00:43:52.360 girl. She said, and you just ignored them. She 00:43:52.360 --> 00:43:54.840 said, God said to tell you that the reason why 00:43:54.840 --> 00:43:57.460 he allowed the voices to come back is because 00:43:57.460 --> 00:44:01.300 he knew what you would do. And she said, and 00:44:01.300 --> 00:44:05.659 when you ignored them, that God stood up from 00:44:05.659 --> 00:44:13.289 his throne and laughed in their faces. You should 00:44:13.289 --> 00:44:15.329 have seen me at that school. I was like, hey, 00:44:17.309 --> 00:44:26.349 ha, ha, ha, ha. Now, I'm going to tell you, how 00:44:26.349 --> 00:44:29.849 do you maintain the peace of God? Would you like 00:44:29.849 --> 00:44:31.809 to know that? Because of time, I'm going to be 00:44:31.809 --> 00:44:35.230 real quick. Because of time, skipping all these 00:44:35.230 --> 00:44:40.710 notes. How do you maintain the peace of God? 00:44:42.030 --> 00:44:44.230 How do you keep it? Because the Apostle Paul 00:44:44.230 --> 00:44:47.210 in Philippians chapter 4 talked about a peace 00:44:47.210 --> 00:44:51.050 that passes all understanding, even when things 00:44:51.050 --> 00:44:55.110 go wrong, even when your kids are acting up. 00:44:55.409 --> 00:44:59.510 It's not a happenstance. It is a joy. That word 00:44:59.510 --> 00:45:04.210 comes from Matthew. Matthew, the Beatitudes. 00:45:04.329 --> 00:45:07.750 Oh, gosh. I feel like I'm rushing, but I got 00:45:07.750 --> 00:45:12.519 to give you this. In Matthew chapter 5. Says 00:45:12.519 --> 00:45:16.139 blessed. Jesus is sitting down and he's sitting 00:45:16.139 --> 00:45:20.360 down at a place of authority. That place, it 00:45:20.360 --> 00:45:24.500 has a legal term to it. And he starts to talk 00:45:24.500 --> 00:45:26.920 about the beatitude. And that word, blessed, 00:45:27.139 --> 00:45:32.920 that word is the word makarios. It means the 00:45:32.920 --> 00:45:36.880 one in whom joy and grace continually overflows. 00:45:38.119 --> 00:45:42.329 And I said, Lord, how do I be that person? The 00:45:42.329 --> 00:45:44.909 person that's content that the apostle Paul was 00:45:44.909 --> 00:45:48.869 talking about. A person that's not moved by my 00:45:48.869 --> 00:45:52.530 circumstances. A person that doesn't freak out 00:45:52.530 --> 00:45:56.449 when somebody gives me bad news. How can I be 00:45:56.449 --> 00:45:59.610 that person? The person in whom joy and grace 00:45:59.610 --> 00:46:04.489 continually overflows. God, I want that. And 00:46:04.489 --> 00:46:08.329 then I looked at the apostle Paul. He said in 00:46:08.329 --> 00:46:14.070 John 16, 33. He said, trouble is going to come. 00:46:14.409 --> 00:46:18.150 But in the same breath, the apostle Paul said 00:46:18.150 --> 00:46:19.829 something else. That's what I'm telling you. 00:46:21.190 --> 00:46:25.829 So that you will have peace. Your peace cannot 00:46:25.829 --> 00:46:32.110 be based upon a happenstance. Christians are 00:46:32.110 --> 00:46:36.469 not happy people. They are joyful people. So 00:46:36.469 --> 00:46:39.769 the word. Our happiness, that means, Lord, if 00:46:39.769 --> 00:46:42.110 my family does good, then I'll be happy. Lord, 00:46:42.230 --> 00:46:46.130 if I get this raise, then I'll be happy. Lord, 00:46:46.190 --> 00:46:48.550 if my husband acts this way, then I'll be happy. 00:46:48.809 --> 00:46:52.889 No. Because whatever gives you happiness can 00:46:52.889 --> 00:46:56.510 take it away. Our happiness is not like that. 00:46:56.590 --> 00:47:01.670 Our joy is unspeakable joy. Our joy is content 00:47:01.670 --> 00:47:07.190 at all times. Because we are in relationship 00:47:07.190 --> 00:47:12.329 with Jesus Christ. It is our relationship with 00:47:12.329 --> 00:47:15.409 him who is joy that gives us our contentment. 00:47:16.090 --> 00:47:19.449 And see, when you look at that word peace, it's 00:47:19.449 --> 00:47:23.650 the word shalom. The word shalom literally means 00:47:23.650 --> 00:47:26.809 just breaking it down. May things be with you 00:47:26.809 --> 00:47:31.139 as they ought to be. That's what it means. May 00:47:31.139 --> 00:47:33.199 things be with you. As it ought to be from the 00:47:33.199 --> 00:47:36.079 beginning. In Genesis chapter 1. When God made 00:47:36.079 --> 00:47:39.920 man and woman. And he told them. And they walked 00:47:39.920 --> 00:47:43.340 with God. They had a relationship with God. So 00:47:43.340 --> 00:47:45.420 when you say to somebody shalom, that you're 00:47:45.420 --> 00:47:48.420 saying to them, may things be with you as they 00:47:48.420 --> 00:47:50.780 ought to be. That's according to God's original 00:47:50.780 --> 00:47:53.500 design. Well, what was God's original design? 00:47:53.739 --> 00:47:57.900 God's original design was for us to be in relationship 00:47:57.900 --> 00:48:01.219 and fellowship with him. That was his original 00:48:01.219 --> 00:48:05.019 design. Adam and Eve walk with God. Adam and 00:48:05.019 --> 00:48:08.820 Eve had a relationship with God. They had a relationship 00:48:08.820 --> 00:48:12.340 with each other that was off the hook. Right? 00:48:12.960 --> 00:48:14.860 They had a relationship with each other and then 00:48:14.860 --> 00:48:17.039 they had a peace within themselves. But when 00:48:17.039 --> 00:48:19.980 sin entered into the world, that peace, that 00:48:19.980 --> 00:48:23.219 shalom was broken. And it was broken on those 00:48:23.219 --> 00:48:26.480 three levels. It was broken because they no longer 00:48:26.480 --> 00:48:29.579 had that same relationship with God. It was broken 00:48:29.579 --> 00:48:32.079 because they no longer had that same relationship 00:48:32.079 --> 00:48:34.539 with each other. It was broken because they no 00:48:34.539 --> 00:48:37.300 longer had that shalom, that peace, the way it 00:48:37.300 --> 00:48:42.150 ought to be within themselves. That's why. It 00:48:42.150 --> 00:48:46.050 was broken. But God, so the whole essence of 00:48:46.050 --> 00:48:50.150 the gospel. The whole essence of the gospel is 00:48:50.150 --> 00:48:54.010 God is trying to call his people out of hiding. 00:48:54.110 --> 00:48:56.409 Because at that moment, they went and they hid. 00:48:57.610 --> 00:49:01.670 And God said, come on, Adam. Put your name in 00:49:01.670 --> 00:49:06.750 there. Adam, where are you? God knew where Adam 00:49:06.750 --> 00:49:14.659 was. He wanted Adam to see where he was. Do you 00:49:14.659 --> 00:49:17.699 know that we serve the only God that prepares 00:49:17.699 --> 00:49:22.639 a table before us? I mean, I talk to people from 00:49:22.639 --> 00:49:24.559 India and they have like all these thousands 00:49:24.559 --> 00:49:27.480 of God. And if one of their gods don't do what 00:49:27.480 --> 00:49:29.500 they say, they take the God and punish it by 00:49:29.500 --> 00:49:36.940 putting the closet. My God is too big to be put 00:49:36.940 --> 00:49:41.980 in the closet. Amen. You got to see who your 00:49:41.980 --> 00:49:47.289 God is. So here it is. What God is trying to 00:49:47.289 --> 00:49:49.650 do, he's trying to ask you today, where are you? 00:49:49.989 --> 00:49:53.210 He wants you to be right back in that peace. 00:49:53.329 --> 00:49:57.449 Have that peace that's not moved by circumstances 00:49:57.449 --> 00:50:00.510 like the world is. That peace that's content 00:50:00.510 --> 00:50:02.929 because you know who your God is. And he's calling 00:50:02.929 --> 00:50:05.590 you into fellowship with him. He's saying, come 00:50:05.590 --> 00:50:07.949 on, sweetie. I want you to be in fellowship with 00:50:07.949 --> 00:50:13.920 me. I want to invite you to the table. Now, I'm 00:50:13.920 --> 00:50:15.940 going to tell you something. I didn't say this 00:50:15.940 --> 00:50:17.179 the last service because I didn't have time. 00:50:18.400 --> 00:50:20.639 But you guys are in fellowship with each other. 00:50:21.500 --> 00:50:26.639 Did you know that? God has called you to this 00:50:26.639 --> 00:50:31.380 house. You can't decide, I'm just going to leave 00:50:31.380 --> 00:50:35.599 and go over here to this fellowship. A lady told 00:50:35.599 --> 00:50:37.800 me before, she said, Pastor Portia, I had a dream. 00:50:37.840 --> 00:50:39.559 She was one of my youth leaders. She said, I 00:50:39.559 --> 00:50:41.849 had a dream that I was in. I was at the table 00:50:41.849 --> 00:50:45.730 with you guys. And my dream was that I got up 00:50:45.730 --> 00:50:48.989 from the table with you guys and I left and I 00:50:48.989 --> 00:50:51.210 went over here to this table where my ex -boyfriend 00:50:51.210 --> 00:50:56.309 was. This lady's married. So I said to her, say 00:50:56.309 --> 00:51:00.590 her name is Amber or something. I said to her, 00:51:00.650 --> 00:51:07.440 Amber, that's not a good dream. I said, The enemy 00:51:07.440 --> 00:51:10.019 wants you to leave a relationship with the church, 00:51:10.159 --> 00:51:13.380 leave relationship with us, and go over here 00:51:13.380 --> 00:51:17.219 to be in a relationship with these guys over 00:51:17.219 --> 00:51:21.820 here, this guy, to leave your husband, to leave 00:51:21.820 --> 00:51:24.340 fellowship with us, and go over here. Somebody 00:51:24.340 --> 00:51:28.059 say, that's a trick of the enemy. And she said, 00:51:28.199 --> 00:51:31.820 that'll never happen. Somebody say, two months 00:51:31.820 --> 00:51:36.940 later. Hear her ex -boyfriend come. And the whole 00:51:36.940 --> 00:51:41.760 time I'm saying, Amber, Amber, remember? Remember 00:51:41.760 --> 00:51:43.860 the dream? She says, I know God showed me I'm 00:51:43.860 --> 00:51:50.460 like Jonah. She broke relationship. She ended 00:51:50.460 --> 00:51:52.219 up with another man. Even though God warned her. 00:51:52.639 --> 00:51:56.619 You can say, oh my God. God warned her. She didn't 00:51:56.619 --> 00:52:02.460 listen. How many times we don't listen? How many 00:52:02.460 --> 00:52:04.719 times when God tells us to do something and we 00:52:04.719 --> 00:52:10.590 don't do it? But here we are at the table. We're 00:52:10.590 --> 00:52:15.110 in fellowship with this church. And the only 00:52:15.110 --> 00:52:17.630 way that we can be, we always going to be in 00:52:17.630 --> 00:52:19.269 fellowship with this church if we do things right, 00:52:19.349 --> 00:52:21.909 right? We always going to be in fellowship with 00:52:21.909 --> 00:52:26.989 this church if we hear the voice of God. Because 00:52:26.989 --> 00:52:29.449 you were born here. You were birthed into this 00:52:29.449 --> 00:52:33.210 place. Right? And so in order for you to be in 00:52:33.210 --> 00:52:35.130 right relationship with God, you're going to 00:52:35.130 --> 00:52:39.070 be in fellowship with his people. Do I have like 00:52:39.070 --> 00:52:44.670 five minutes? Okay. Take my five minutes. In 00:52:44.670 --> 00:52:46.250 order to be in relationship with God, you're 00:52:46.250 --> 00:52:47.429 going to be in relationship with his people. 00:52:47.989 --> 00:52:51.570 So in order to have peace, first thing, number 00:52:51.570 --> 00:52:53.650 one, you're going to have right relationship 00:52:53.650 --> 00:52:55.949 with God. You're going to come out of hiding 00:52:55.949 --> 00:53:01.860 and be transparent. That's the first thing. You're 00:53:01.860 --> 00:53:03.380 going to say, Lord, I want that relationship 00:53:03.380 --> 00:53:06.460 back with you that Adam lost. God, I want the 00:53:06.460 --> 00:53:09.280 peace that passes all understanding. Second thing 00:53:09.280 --> 00:53:11.239 you're going to do is you are going to be in 00:53:11.239 --> 00:53:13.760 right relationship with the people that you are 00:53:13.760 --> 00:53:18.360 in fellowship with. But the problem is at this 00:53:18.360 --> 00:53:21.440 table, there's some issues going on. But at every 00:53:21.440 --> 00:53:24.480 church, there's issues. Y 'all exempt out here? 00:53:25.219 --> 00:53:28.239 Okay, I just want to make sure. I was going to 00:53:28.239 --> 00:53:30.849 say sign my autograph. Okay, check this out. 00:53:31.210 --> 00:53:33.409 Here it is. In every church, there's a laundry 00:53:33.409 --> 00:53:36.389 room. In every church, there's an eye chair. 00:53:38.750 --> 00:53:41.869 Gimme, gimme, gimme. I need, I need, I need. 00:53:42.750 --> 00:53:46.289 You seen that? What about Bob movie? That's one 00:53:46.289 --> 00:53:52.170 of my favorite movies. Gimme, gimme, gimme. I 00:53:52.170 --> 00:53:55.510 need, I need. That part drives me crazy. That 00:53:55.510 --> 00:54:00.119 part drives me so funny. But there's an eye chair 00:54:00.119 --> 00:54:02.460 right here. A lot of people, it's all about me. 00:54:03.320 --> 00:54:05.179 One thing my mentor right here that taught me, 00:54:05.199 --> 00:54:08.739 she said, Portia, it's not about you. It's about 00:54:08.739 --> 00:54:12.139 us. We have a responsibility. The reason why 00:54:12.139 --> 00:54:14.260 God has brought us together as a church, the 00:54:14.260 --> 00:54:16.079 reason why God has brought you together as a 00:54:16.079 --> 00:54:18.860 church is to do his will, to snatch people from 00:54:18.860 --> 00:54:20.699 the kingdom of darkness into the kingdom of light. 00:54:21.260 --> 00:54:23.719 God has brought you together as a church to accomplish 00:54:23.719 --> 00:54:26.780 a goal. I say this to say, when you go by a restaurant, 00:54:27.239 --> 00:54:29.360 I don't care how nice, how five -star that restaurant 00:54:29.360 --> 00:54:33.159 is. I don't care how off the hook it is. And 00:54:33.159 --> 00:54:35.099 there's a kitchen. If you go by the kitchen, 00:54:35.239 --> 00:54:39.460 sometimes it looks like chaos. Don't it? Some 00:54:39.460 --> 00:54:41.019 of y 'all shaking your head. I know what you 00:54:41.019 --> 00:54:43.659 mean. And a lot of times that's how the church 00:54:43.659 --> 00:54:49.400 is. But it's not really chaos. It's order. And 00:54:49.400 --> 00:54:50.659 I'm going to tell you something. Here it is. 00:54:51.059 --> 00:54:52.820 You're going to have the people here. That's 00:54:52.820 --> 00:54:55.210 the babies that always need your attention. The 00:54:55.210 --> 00:54:56.730 pastors can't do it all. Pastor Jenny, Pastor 00:54:56.730 --> 00:54:59.510 Brad, how off the hook awesome they is. They 00:54:59.510 --> 00:55:01.349 can't do it. They can't tend to all the babies. 00:55:01.389 --> 00:55:03.949 That's why they need you. Then over here in this 00:55:03.949 --> 00:55:06.789 chair is the newborn, the people that's going 00:55:06.789 --> 00:55:10.269 to hell. You should bring somebody to church 00:55:10.269 --> 00:55:13.170 that's not saved. That's what this chair is for 00:55:13.170 --> 00:55:16.469 right here. Somebody should always be here that's 00:55:16.469 --> 00:55:22.980 not saved, brought by you. That's your responsibility. 00:55:23.300 --> 00:55:30.099 Lord, I don't have a ministry. Yes, you do. See 00:55:30.099 --> 00:55:35.900 the lost people. Then over here, you have the 00:55:35.900 --> 00:55:40.219 people that have the vision for evangelism. You 00:55:40.219 --> 00:55:42.440 have the people that's the Acts chapter 2, the 00:55:42.440 --> 00:55:45.420 Matthew chapter 28 people. You have the core 00:55:45.420 --> 00:55:48.630 people in the church. Right? That's doing the 00:55:48.630 --> 00:55:51.449 work of the ministry. You have the prophet, evangelist, 00:55:51.489 --> 00:55:54.210 the pastor, the teacher here. You have that chair. 00:55:55.929 --> 00:55:58.489 You have the watchman on the wall. Your pastors 00:55:58.489 --> 00:56:01.150 are the watchman. And they are to watch out for 00:56:01.150 --> 00:56:07.329 your soul. This is what this means. I am in fellowship 00:56:07.329 --> 00:56:11.530 with you. I am committed to you. Iron sharpens 00:56:11.530 --> 00:56:18.619 iron. But I got offended. I got offended. I was 00:56:18.619 --> 00:56:24.719 hurt by the church. Good. You know why that's 00:56:24.719 --> 00:56:27.599 good? Because you can't be a part of the net 00:56:27.599 --> 00:56:36.460 unless you get crossed. I'm out of time. I really 00:56:36.460 --> 00:56:39.019 appreciate the opportunity to speak to you today. 00:56:41.000 --> 00:56:45.400 You have a responsibility. You are important. 00:56:45.719 --> 00:56:51.699 Say, I'm important. Say, I have a destiny. You 00:56:51.699 --> 00:56:53.480 know, God, I'm going to tell you something. When 00:56:53.480 --> 00:56:58.400 you use your wing of prayer, things start happening. 00:56:58.500 --> 00:57:00.760 Things was going totally wrong. I called Pastor 00:57:00.760 --> 00:57:06.400 Jan crying. At my church. Did God tell me to 00:57:06.400 --> 00:57:09.440 leave fellowship? Did God tell me? No. You know 00:57:09.440 --> 00:57:13.519 why? Because I need to die to myself. And people 00:57:13.519 --> 00:57:15.380 are anointed by God to aggravate the hell out 00:57:15.380 --> 00:57:21.260 of me until all the hell was out of me. But if 00:57:21.260 --> 00:57:24.460 I leave God's fire, then the devil going to create 00:57:24.460 --> 00:57:26.860 a fire for me. You feel me what I'm saying? He 00:57:26.860 --> 00:57:28.719 going to create a fire for me and ain't going 00:57:28.719 --> 00:57:32.699 to be able to take it. So I stayed in God's fire 00:57:32.699 --> 00:57:36.300 and I started to pray. And I said, God, why is 00:57:36.300 --> 00:57:38.460 this affecting me so much? He said, because you're 00:57:38.460 --> 00:57:40.360 too much alive for sure. You still need to die. 00:57:41.059 --> 00:57:43.780 Otherwise, it wouldn't even bother you. So I 00:57:43.780 --> 00:57:46.059 started to cry out to God. And I said, God, you 00:57:46.059 --> 00:57:49.059 see that this wrong. Because prophetically, it's 00:57:49.059 --> 00:57:52.159 not always easy, huh? I said, God, I see this 00:57:52.159 --> 00:57:55.800 is wrong, God. And God says, well, you pray for 00:57:55.800 --> 00:57:58.300 them that are in leadership. And you cry out 00:57:58.300 --> 00:58:01.699 to God. And I will show them. Not you. I will. 00:58:02.360 --> 00:58:05.519 And so I started to cry out to God. Because that 00:58:05.519 --> 00:58:07.860 was the place that God called me to. He didn't 00:58:07.860 --> 00:58:09.760 call me down the road. People were saying to 00:58:09.760 --> 00:58:13.269 me. Pastor Portia, you should go down here. Revival 00:58:13.269 --> 00:58:17.530 is over here. I said, but God didn't tell me 00:58:17.530 --> 00:58:20.210 to go there. I'm going to pray till revival comes 00:58:20.210 --> 00:58:22.590 to my church. I'm going to pray till I see these 00:58:22.590 --> 00:58:24.550 people through in my church. I'm going to cry 00:58:24.550 --> 00:58:26.909 out to God. I'm going to worship. I'm going to 00:58:26.909 --> 00:58:29.510 do my part. I'm not going to be in the eye chair. 00:58:31.590 --> 00:58:33.550 Don't be the one that just, oh, pastor going 00:58:33.550 --> 00:58:36.329 to be like, oh, God, I hate I ever came to the 00:58:36.329 --> 00:58:38.989 ministry. Don't be that one that drive them away 00:58:38.989 --> 00:58:46.309 from the ministry. Say, not I. In this room. 00:58:48.030 --> 00:58:52.969 In this room. There may be somebody in this room 00:58:52.969 --> 00:58:58.010 that says, Pastor Portia, you're talking to me. 00:58:59.769 --> 00:59:01.150 There may be somebody in this room that says, 00:59:01.210 --> 00:59:03.500 you know what? I want to give God a chance like 00:59:03.500 --> 00:59:06.659 you did on that day. He stopped you from committing 00:59:06.659 --> 00:59:09.719 suicide. I want to walk in my destiny and my 00:59:09.719 --> 00:59:13.360 purpose. Come on. If God can do it for me, he's 00:59:13.360 --> 00:59:16.019 no respecter of person. Come on, he can do it 00:59:16.019 --> 00:59:18.179 for you. If you are here right now and you said, 00:59:18.219 --> 00:59:20.159 Pastor Portia, you're talking to me right now. 00:59:20.380 --> 00:59:22.940 I want to give my life to Jesus. Come on, 100. 00:59:23.099 --> 00:59:30.420 Somebody say 100%. If that's you, I want you 00:59:30.420 --> 00:59:33.570 to wave your hand at me. I see your hand and 00:59:33.570 --> 00:59:37.670 I see your hand and I see your hand. Everybody 00:59:37.670 --> 00:59:42.329 say this prayer. Lord Jesus, I thank you for 00:59:42.329 --> 00:59:46.269 dying on the cross for me. I ask you, Jesus, 00:59:46.349 --> 00:59:50.710 to come into my heart. Help me to live for you. 00:59:51.690 --> 00:59:56.309 I can't do it by myself. Oh boy, the Lord just 00:59:56.309 --> 00:59:58.429 told me something real quick. There's somebody 00:59:58.429 --> 01:00:01.769 in here that needs to forgive. And that's why 01:00:01.769 --> 01:00:04.309 you're depressed. Because the only thing that 01:00:04.309 --> 01:00:06.650 the devil can hold on to you with is something 01:00:06.650 --> 01:00:10.210 that belongs to him. I'm going to take one more 01:00:10.210 --> 01:00:13.510 minute. If that's you, say, that's me. Wave your 01:00:13.510 --> 01:00:16.849 hand. You can't let it go. Wave your hand over 01:00:16.849 --> 01:00:19.170 here. Right now, you're going to be able to let 01:00:19.170 --> 01:00:20.929 it go, sister. Right now, you're going to be 01:00:20.929 --> 01:00:26.030 able to let it go. Say, I choose to forgive. 01:00:27.929 --> 01:00:34.469 I choose to forgive. I let it go right now in 01:00:34.469 --> 01:00:40.809 the name of Jesus, the Christ of Nazareth, who 01:00:40.809 --> 01:00:44.269 died and rose again. Father, in the name of Jesus, 01:00:44.489 --> 01:00:47.590 I thank you, God, for this sister's confession. 01:00:48.650 --> 01:00:50.210 When she leaves this room, the enemy is going 01:00:50.210 --> 01:00:51.909 to lie to you and say that you really let it 01:00:51.909 --> 01:00:53.949 go. And you're going to look at him. You're going 01:00:53.949 --> 01:00:55.150 to say, you know what? You're going to look at 01:00:55.150 --> 01:00:56.769 him. You're going to say, I let it go, you lying 01:00:56.769 --> 01:00:59.130 devil. I'm going to tell you a big secret. You 01:00:59.130 --> 01:01:01.389 got to say it out loud. You can't just praise 01:01:01.389 --> 01:01:03.710 in your heart. You can't just worship in your 01:01:03.710 --> 01:01:06.030 heart. We overcome by the blood of the lamb and 01:01:06.030 --> 01:01:09.050 the word of our testimony. We overcome by the 01:01:09.050 --> 01:01:10.610 blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony. 01:01:11.010 --> 01:01:12.510 That means you're going to have to say it out 01:01:12.510 --> 01:01:15.190 loud. When the enemy comes in, you can't think 01:01:15.190 --> 01:01:19.829 it. I don't got time. You got to say it. Somebody 01:01:19.829 --> 01:01:27.130 say, say it. Say, I am a victor. I got to go 01:01:27.130 --> 01:01:29.619 back to the sinner's prayer just in case. Lord 01:01:29.619 --> 01:01:35.519 Jesus, I believe that you are the Christ, the 01:01:35.519 --> 01:01:39.739 son of the living God. I believe that you died 01:01:39.739 --> 01:01:44.579 for my sins and you rose again on the third day. 01:01:45.159 --> 01:01:49.659 I confess that you are Lord and you are savior 01:01:49.659 --> 01:01:55.659 of my life. I ask you, Jesus, to bring me back 01:01:55.659 --> 01:02:00.510 in right relationship with you. to put you first 01:02:00.510 --> 01:02:05.309 in every area of my life. I want to stand and 01:02:05.309 --> 01:02:09.630 fight for my church. I want to be in right relationship 01:02:09.630 --> 01:02:16.690 with other people here. In Jesus name. So remember, 01:02:16.809 --> 01:02:20.130 number one, right relationship with God will 01:02:20.130 --> 01:02:24.170 give you peace. Number two, you got to be in 01:02:24.170 --> 01:02:26.670 right relationship with other people and let 01:02:26.670 --> 01:02:30.920 your gentleness be made known. You're not the 01:02:30.920 --> 01:02:32.500 one that's going to be adding the fuel to the 01:02:32.500 --> 01:02:34.780 fire. That's going to be putting in your two 01:02:34.780 --> 01:02:37.920 cents. You're going to have to be the one that's 01:02:37.920 --> 01:02:39.940 in right relationship with other people around 01:02:39.940 --> 01:02:45.079 you. And then you will find peace. Thank you 01:02:45.079 --> 01:02:58.849 so much. or contacting Life Bible Church, go 01:02:58.849 --> 01:03:03.449 to www .lifebiblechurch .org or call us at 541 01:03:03.449 --> 01:03:05.929 -995 -8282.