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Hello, and welcome to another episode of In My

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Experience with yours truly, Christine DiGinto.

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This podcast is a space where I speak from lived

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experience. The moments that shaped me, challenged

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me, and changed the way that I understand myself

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in the world. The awakenings, the breakdowns,

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the moments that cracked me open, asked me to

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stay present, be embodied, and be honest with

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myself. I share my stories not to persuade or

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define truth for anyone else, but to offer perspective,

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to explore the gray areas we don't often have

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language for, to slow things down and listen

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more closely to what's happening beneath the

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surface. You'll hear solo episodes where I reflect

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on my own initiations, spiritual gifts, and the

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systems that try to define me. and conversations

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with guests who have walked strange, beautiful,

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and sometimes painful paths of their own and

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come back with wisdom to share with us. I invite

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you to take what resonates, leave the rest, and

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trust your own experience as valid. Thank you

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for being here. This is In My Experience. Today

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I have a special episode. I want to share a recorded

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reading that I had done by Eagle Skyfire in January

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of 2022. I wanted to share this because it was

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the first time about eight months after I had

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the timeline jumping experience where I sought

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guidance for the first time. Um, in words, I'd

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had some Reiki done, reflexology, other readings,

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but none as detailed and direct as this. Uh,

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so I really, really appreciated her guidance

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and talking about that event that occurred for

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me four years ago, or maybe even five at this

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point, 2021. Yep. Five. it is, it still blows

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my mind to think about. And the farther away

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I go in time from that event, what sticks with

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me is the feeling of fear I had. That same level

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of shock is still present in my body. Like when

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I think about what I felt like when I came back

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into my body and I looked up and saw that screen

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and person I was with was like laughing. I was

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like, Oh my God, I'm done for. Um, turns out

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that is not the case. So, uh, I'm just rambling

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at this point, but I did ask permission from

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Eagle Skyfire to share this. Uh, I talked with

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her and she said it brought a smile to her face.

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She was very happy to hear that. I was, uh, first

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of all, listening again to the recording second

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wanting to share it because the guidance that

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she provided me i think would be helpful for

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for many different situations and especially

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if you were ever under psychic attack or have

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the um you know uh empath narcissist type of

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relationship or any any type of patterns where

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you have been harmed by people that you love

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and it's confusing um Excuse this audio. I just

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listened back to see what I had so far and I

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can hear myself like rubbing on my leg. I'm trying

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to calm myself down, you guys. This is actually

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really vulnerable to share. And the experience

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that I had was very personal and very difficult

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to describe within the framework of the language

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that I use, which is English. Most of the time,

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sometimes it's cursive. I'm just kidding. But

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as I heard this again today, I listened to this

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recording again all the way through. And I was

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so, I just want to say it. I was so proud of

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myself. I was, I am proud of myself. Not was,

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I am. I am proud of myself for how I handled

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that in the moment. And for how I have handled

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it every moment since then. With love and compassion

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to this day for that person. Because I understand.

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I understand the complexities. And I'm not trying

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to put him on a pedestal. As you'll hear, she

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really recommends against that. But again, since

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this, because again, this is 2022. We're now

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in 2026. His soul has had time. Because I did

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this soul retrieval that she suggested after

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we got off the recording. I did the soul retrieval.

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I have done many specific intentional journeys

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to connect or disconnect with him and rather.

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But there is something in my heart that won't

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let him go. And that he's not the only one. I

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hold many people. in my heart that have caused

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me harm. And it's a difficult thing to do, to

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choose yourself. When you have that level of

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love, unconditional love and understanding, compassion,

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forgiveness, as I am templated to have, it's

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not easy. It's a hard knock life, let me tell

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you. The hardest thing has been letting people

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go and allowing the understanding that it's not

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the first time and it won't be the last time

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that people have tried to manipulate me for my

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energy and power because there is an abundance

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and it is so fucking bright. Of course they want

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to snatch it up. So it's just been... It's been

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a journey to come to that realization without

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shame, without second guessing myself. And also

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without ego. It really truly is from a place

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in my soul of deep love for myself. And I really

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am very proud of myself for trusting myself,

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even when I didn't. And you'll hear in this.

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upcoming recording, how difficult it was for

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me to even give language. I mean, it took me

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eight months to even be able to describe what

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I was describing. And that took a lot of research

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to even be able to piece together what I thought

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happened to put it into words that someone else

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might be able to understand. So keep that in

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mind as you listen and know that I've come a

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long way. But even from the very beginning, I

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fucking knew. So I love it. I love it. And I

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hope that this inspires you to trust yourself

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as well. It's very important for us at this time

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to trust our intuition and use our discernment,

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even when it's not logical. We also started recording,

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or my session with her was, I believe, on the

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end of the week day. end of the day and it was

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supposed to be a one hour session and it was

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obviously more than that so God bless Eagle Skyfire.

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And you can hear at some point she's really,

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really very good. And I would love to learn from

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her about how to even maintain time when you're

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working at a level like that. Her ability to

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go through what I'm saying, what my guides are

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saying, what her guides are saying. I mean, like

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there's a million people talking in the room

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and I have other. recordings with her as well

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that I'll share in the future, uh, where if,

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if that's okay with her, I mean, well, I have,

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like I said, in the first episode, I have so

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many, so many hours of recordings that are, I

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feel like it's just should be shared. So I hope

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you agree. Let me know. Let me know. Send me

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an email, send me a DM, rate, review, subscribe,

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whatever. Let me know. Do you like this? I'm

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going to do it anyway, even if you don't. But,

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you know, that's me. I talked with Eagle Skyfire.

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As I mentioned, I got her permission. And we

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also talked about having her on as a guest. So

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I'm really looking forward to that. And I'm sure

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you all are as well. I haven't done it yet. I'll

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let you know. But for now, enjoy. What would

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you like me to look into for you today? I feel

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like I need clarity. I had some sort of an awakening

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within the past eight months. But I'm not sure

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if it was actually spiritual or if it was interfered

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with by some darkness. I don't know what I agreed

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to. I think that I might have, like, I saw some

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things. I know that I saw something on a level

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I was shown by someone else. But I believe they

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were channeled. And I didn't know about any of

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these, even terms, when it happened. Right. You

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were just in the middle of it happening. Yes.

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So I was just responding to that. I've always

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had an open mind. But I... Have shut things down

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in the past because I was afraid of it. Sure.

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Now I'm not afraid. Good. Because that's a big

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plus. It's been so much that can't be. Right.

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I can't dismiss it. Yeah. I need to address it.

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Especially once you see it. Yeah. You can't unsee

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it. That's the thing. But the thing is, I don't

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remember what I actually saw. I remember my reaction

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to it. I see. And I would like to, at some point

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in the near future, go on a journey and re -see

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that to have a better understanding or to understand

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my karma, my past lives, why this was shown to

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me, what I did wrong, what I did right, what

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I need to do. Okay. It's just kind of... Lots

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of things intersected, and I'm trying to figure

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it out logically, and it's not all logical. No,

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it's not. You're right. You're right in the square.

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Well, let's do this. So the reading of spirit

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is definitely the correct one for this. And in

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the Native American tradition, we always start

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and end with a blessing. And I think you can

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tell I'm rather easygoing, so if you have questions,

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you just jump in at any time. So what I'm going

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to ask for you to do is, if you could put your

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hands like this in a cloth, we'll begin. In a

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kitchen, you open up your hands, you open up

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your heart. At this time, I'd like to ask your

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guardian spirit to gently guide me around your

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spirit, that I may tell you the things that are

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important for you to know, and kindly to remain

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this way. You can sit back and relax, hang in

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between what you like, and then we'll try to

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disentangle as much as possible in the time that

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we have. But let me start first with what's called

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the flow of the river. It's your personal karmic

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undercurrent that is influencing the different

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things you're experiencing. So let me get to

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where it's trying to get you to, and then we'll

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backslide to the present to have a frame of reference.

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Where it's trying to get you to is to a place

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of, I'm going to say, integration. So it's not

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just the spiritual. extending of your senses

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if you notice there's different areas of your

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life and we'll talk about how it looks like earth

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girl so i'm going here from your garden spirits

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perspective so it's the idea is to be able to

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integrate everything all different aspects working

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kind of like you you we're grateful that the

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parts of our cars work in harmony so that we

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can get places when we're backsliding to the

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present you're being shown different elements

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but classic you You don't like wasting time.

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So it's like, can you just, can we just please

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get this at worth? Can you just please show me

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all at once? Okay. Boom. Yeah. More than one.

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It was like, oh, great. So now we're going to

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begin to disentangle it. So I'm going to go,

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your guardian wants me to stay. Okay. So we're

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going to stay here from karmic soul agreement

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to give again, another level of perspective.

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And then we're going to start coming down here

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in the native tradition. it's always a circle

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of giving and receiving. I'm borrowing the word

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karma, but we don't really use that. The rough

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translation would be soul lessons. So the way

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that we believe is that Great Spirit gives us

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lessons to learn, but we have free will on how

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we want to experience them, hence the soul agreements

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and different things that go on. So when you

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came here, part of what you gave to the planet

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was basically... You challenge people to why

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are they thinking the way they're thinking. It

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doesn't have to be confrontational necessarily.

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But, you know, you're the one who, I'm going

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to say, lights set fire, plants the seeds. All

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right. So that's what you brought. And so it

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makes sense. I mean, let's look at the times

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that are around us. Like, duh, makes perfect

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sense. But your soul also came here to study

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something. So what you are receiving that's back

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on this end. is how, I'm going to say, how harmony

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works. I know it sounds rather broad, but when

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you're here, that's why, if I look at your incarnation

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right now, that's why you always come into things

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where they're either ready to blow apart or they're

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messy and you just don't even know how to put

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them back together again. That has always been

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your life, but that's your destiny. That's what

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you're here to help with. But with that, your

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soul is trying to understand why would, people

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choose things to be fragmented. Like, why would

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they not choose harmony? You know, it's a big

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curiosity. It's kind of like Spock from Star

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Trek trying to understand why humans who choose

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emotions and logic could solve everything, right?

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So the way that it, so now we're going to get

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more into current time, but you can see as to

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why in this lifetime you love solving problems

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you like for helping things to, I'm going to

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say, move along. But you can also see why in

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this lifetime, and you're getting better, things

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would always be, I'm going to say dramatic, like

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one extreme, like this, like, oh my God, you

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know, get seasick watching the pendulum go. So

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now you are at a stage not only of chronological

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maturity, you're now at a stage of soul maturity.

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Up now beginning to understand how things really

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work. It's taking you this long to see all the

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different elements of everything. And then we're

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going to go about divine law and all this other

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stuff, right? So here, because in order to be

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able to live your life more fully, in order to

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be able to help people and also like helping

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animals more fully, this is a work of heart as

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much as it is of mind, right? So with that, part

00:16:43.289 --> 00:16:46.690
of what is happening now is a, I'm going to say,

00:16:46.769 --> 00:16:51.450
a reestablishing. Right now, the way things have

00:16:51.450 --> 00:16:53.129
been done, I don't quite agree with, but we'll

00:16:53.129 --> 00:17:00.309
get to that in a moment. So because, and of course,

00:17:00.309 --> 00:17:01.649
you know, you have your personal goals, this

00:17:01.649 --> 00:17:03.509
goes to say, so not everything is going to be,

00:17:03.590 --> 00:17:06.089
again, that's why I'm a nerd, like Star Trek,

00:17:06.130 --> 00:17:10.069
logical, like Vulcan, Spock world. It's a work

00:17:10.069 --> 00:17:13.349
of heart. It's a work of feeling and instinct

00:17:13.349 --> 00:17:17.829
as much as it is anything else. I'm going to

00:17:17.829 --> 00:17:21.309
go how part of a past life broke through into

00:17:21.309 --> 00:17:25.609
this one and then how to smooth things over.

00:17:26.890 --> 00:17:30.549
The way that you had, you're calling it an awakening,

00:17:30.670 --> 00:17:34.289
I guess it was. I don't agree with the way that

00:17:34.289 --> 00:17:38.009
it happened. I'm going to take a little sidestep.

00:17:38.029 --> 00:17:40.349
What it reminds me of is when you have a child

00:17:40.349 --> 00:17:43.789
and you introduce them to sex in the wrong way

00:17:43.789 --> 00:17:46.630
and too early. I'll just be blunt about it. It's

00:17:46.630 --> 00:17:51.589
my opinion. So it's knowledge that needs to come

00:17:51.589 --> 00:17:54.609
if you're going to be human. But there's a way

00:17:54.609 --> 00:17:56.549
of introducing things and the timing to all things.

00:17:57.250 --> 00:18:00.750
This was violated with you. Right? So we're going

00:18:00.750 --> 00:18:05.759
to work with it. Part of a past life. that ran

00:18:05.759 --> 00:18:08.920
into this one is that I'm going to say the person

00:18:08.920 --> 00:18:12.019
or the agent that introduced this, pardon me.

00:18:12.019 --> 00:18:15.779
So all my eyes, um, I'm feeling as if this was

00:18:15.779 --> 00:18:20.099
a piece of spider revenge, just like here, like

00:18:20.099 --> 00:18:24.240
this versus what it was supposed to be a gentle

00:18:24.240 --> 00:18:29.900
introduction. Right. So that's why, and pardon

00:18:29.900 --> 00:18:31.680
me when I, when I'm using the sexual thing as

00:18:31.680 --> 00:18:36.009
a parallel, because, you know, The act of intimacy

00:18:36.009 --> 00:18:38.670
itself is not a curse, but if introduced the

00:18:38.670 --> 00:18:41.630
wrong way, it can feel like it and leave permanent

00:18:41.630 --> 00:18:47.089
mark. What I'm feeling here energetically is

00:18:47.089 --> 00:18:50.829
that from this past life, this person and the

00:18:50.829 --> 00:18:55.529
spirit attached, in essence, you said, no, you

00:18:55.529 --> 00:18:57.089
chose a different path. You didn't like the way

00:18:57.089 --> 00:19:02.230
they were going. Rightfully so. And in this lifetime,

00:19:03.470 --> 00:19:05.130
Because I feel there's a person attached to it,

00:19:05.170 --> 00:19:09.170
such as a spirit. It's like the feeling of one

00:19:09.170 --> 00:19:12.289
-upmanship or getting even, like this. Or the

00:19:12.289 --> 00:19:17.549
rude gesture. But you know what I mean? So, this

00:19:17.549 --> 00:19:21.150
was the method that was chosen. Right? Good news.

00:19:21.529 --> 00:19:26.190
You're not cursed. You're not hexed. Right? Is

00:19:26.190 --> 00:19:29.940
it screwing things up? Yes. That's why when you

00:19:29.940 --> 00:19:32.099
introduce intimacy in the wrong way, it can totally

00:19:32.099 --> 00:19:36.119
screw somebody up. So we're going to take a step

00:19:36.119 --> 00:19:38.359
backwards. So I'm going to disentangle a little

00:19:38.359 --> 00:19:44.220
bit more. Fortunately for you, I'm going to see

00:19:44.220 --> 00:19:48.980
your destiny, your karma has not been, you know,

00:19:49.019 --> 00:19:52.579
completely derailed. Okay. You're still on track.

00:19:52.819 --> 00:19:55.160
Okay. All right. So let's just establish. Let's

00:19:55.160 --> 00:19:57.740
get rid of that boogeyman right now. All right.

00:20:00.059 --> 00:20:02.480
What you want to grow in your career and for

00:20:02.480 --> 00:20:08.579
yourself is still on track, right? This is meant

00:20:08.579 --> 00:20:10.660
to be a gift. That's what it's meant to be. It

00:20:10.660 --> 00:20:13.720
was introduced this way so that it can enhance

00:20:13.720 --> 00:20:17.000
what you're wanting to grow in your life. And

00:20:17.000 --> 00:20:21.960
ultimately, it's going to get there, right? I'm

00:20:21.960 --> 00:20:24.380
just dealing with the, I'm going to call it a

00:20:24.380 --> 00:20:28.859
wound that was created right now. So any questions

00:20:28.859 --> 00:20:35.500
so far? Before we go any further. I totally agree

00:20:35.500 --> 00:20:38.740
with everything you said. And it's clear that

00:20:38.740 --> 00:20:46.519
you have direct knowledge. I don't know if this

00:20:46.519 --> 00:20:51.339
was my husband or a situation that I went outside

00:20:51.339 --> 00:20:56.960
of. Like, I don't know who did it. I don't know.

00:20:57.240 --> 00:21:01.500
Like I did it. I allowed it ultimately. Yes,

00:21:01.500 --> 00:21:03.480
I know. But that's like saying, pardon me. That's

00:21:03.480 --> 00:21:06.400
like saying a sex victim. You allowed it. You

00:21:06.400 --> 00:21:08.759
know what I'm saying? Kind of. I don't buy that.

00:21:08.859 --> 00:21:11.619
I'm sorry. I mean, I humbly agree to disagree

00:21:11.619 --> 00:21:16.079
with you. Yes. I went outside of my marriage

00:21:16.079 --> 00:21:20.619
and this happened, but I don't know if it was

00:21:20.619 --> 00:21:24.819
actually this person or if. Something came into

00:21:24.819 --> 00:21:27.279
them. Like I literally was like, I think you're

00:21:27.279 --> 00:21:31.539
the devil, but I. Yeah. I'm not sensing it's

00:21:31.539 --> 00:21:33.339
your husband, to be honest with you. I saw that

00:21:33.339 --> 00:21:36.859
it actually was a gift though, to even have this

00:21:36.859 --> 00:21:39.420
information and be able to reflect and be open

00:21:39.420 --> 00:21:43.380
to. Right. All of it. Right. It's very painful.

00:21:43.519 --> 00:21:46.880
Sure. But from pain comes growth. Like it's was,

00:21:47.019 --> 00:21:51.339
but it just was so much. So it's, it hurts me.

00:21:51.440 --> 00:21:57.400
Yeah. And I. I still care about that person.

00:21:57.440 --> 00:21:59.519
Right. Even though I'm pretty sure he hurt me.

00:21:59.720 --> 00:22:01.500
Yeah, I'm not getting this from your husband.

00:22:03.140 --> 00:22:07.940
No, no. With your husband, it's not his style.

00:22:08.319 --> 00:22:15.700
And if you pardon me saying so, he just, I'll

00:22:15.700 --> 00:22:17.180
just keep it as not his style. Like, it's not

00:22:17.180 --> 00:22:20.220
his style. I'm not going to move beyond that.

00:22:20.279 --> 00:22:22.259
I can't go beyond that. The other individual.

00:22:22.910 --> 00:22:26.869
Yeah, it is. Yeah, it is. And emotional manipulation

00:22:26.869 --> 00:22:30.630
is not an unusual thing. So it's not just you.

00:22:33.710 --> 00:22:41.450
So I feel compassion for someone that doesn't

00:22:41.450 --> 00:22:47.410
know love or show and not show true love. Like

00:22:47.410 --> 00:22:52.990
it hurts me. So I want to show compassion. If

00:22:52.990 --> 00:22:55.730
that makes sense. It does. It does. And that

00:22:55.730 --> 00:22:59.730
speaks to you. But let's separate things. Right?

00:22:59.829 --> 00:23:05.930
Let's separate things. And I'm going to talk

00:23:05.930 --> 00:23:10.150
about what this person did and also honor you

00:23:10.150 --> 00:23:13.589
as well. For me, this is part, again, of that

00:23:13.589 --> 00:23:18.210
past life and wanting that revenge. Because you

00:23:18.210 --> 00:23:20.670
walked away in the past life. And now it's like

00:23:20.670 --> 00:23:25.119
this. I'm going to take you completely out of

00:23:25.119 --> 00:23:27.460
the picture for the moment and look at this individual,

00:23:27.680 --> 00:23:36.119
right? They're not evil, but they can be vindictive.

00:23:37.359 --> 00:23:43.079
And messing with emotions is not an unusual thing.

00:23:44.960 --> 00:23:49.460
Bringing you back into the picture, getting you

00:23:49.460 --> 00:23:53.799
hooked emotionally. And trying to create a codependent

00:23:53.799 --> 00:23:56.759
relationship. I'll put it into 21st century terms.

00:23:57.720 --> 00:24:02.539
Right? And I'm sorry, but I also see as if gaslighting

00:24:02.539 --> 00:24:08.400
took place as well. Right? So, you know, your

00:24:08.400 --> 00:24:10.680
gut is telling you one thing and this person

00:24:10.680 --> 00:24:14.799
is telling you something else. Regardless of

00:24:14.799 --> 00:24:18.799
which. So the reason why I'm looking at the mechanics

00:24:18.799 --> 00:24:20.259
of it and then we're going to look at the spiritual

00:24:20.259 --> 00:24:28.200
overlay. is with that, your karma with this individual

00:24:28.200 --> 00:24:33.539
is done. Right? So, how can I say? There was

00:24:33.539 --> 00:24:36.500
the opportunity, if we were to go, I'm going

00:24:36.500 --> 00:24:39.039
to say the opportunity was for there to be a

00:24:39.039 --> 00:24:42.480
reintroduction of the two of you at a better

00:24:42.480 --> 00:24:47.799
time. And allowing, instead of forcing things

00:24:47.799 --> 00:24:49.480
like we tried to force things back then too,

00:24:50.799 --> 00:24:53.079
for things to evolve i'm going to see with more

00:24:53.079 --> 00:24:56.900
respect and more naturally we didn't do it this

00:24:56.900 --> 00:25:00.480
time yet so that's why it's not your destiny

00:25:00.480 --> 00:25:02.799
to be attached to this individual and what they

00:25:02.799 --> 00:25:06.259
have to work through and for you to go on track

00:25:06.259 --> 00:25:10.480
with your life i understand that you have compassion

00:25:10.480 --> 00:25:13.440
for this individual and i think that's great

00:25:13.440 --> 00:25:18.519
but let's talk about the type of compassion One

00:25:18.519 --> 00:25:20.740
form of compassion is not enabling behavior.

00:25:23.819 --> 00:25:29.640
And with that, I know you'd like to do more and

00:25:29.640 --> 00:25:31.880
so forth, but understand that now this person,

00:25:32.119 --> 00:25:37.299
they're using this as a survival strategy, not

00:25:37.299 --> 00:25:40.299
wanting to change. So that's why I had to pull

00:25:40.299 --> 00:25:41.779
you out of the picture. I like looking at them

00:25:41.779 --> 00:25:45.160
individually. This is a strategy we use over

00:25:45.160 --> 00:25:49.519
and over again, not just with you. So the strategy

00:25:49.519 --> 00:25:53.019
of getting somebody's, I'm going to say having

00:25:53.019 --> 00:25:56.839
their vulnerabilities, knowing which emotional

00:25:56.839 --> 00:26:00.359
buttons to push, and then confusing somebody

00:26:00.359 --> 00:26:02.980
through their emotions to be able to go to the

00:26:02.980 --> 00:26:06.160
direction that they want them to go. And you're

00:26:06.160 --> 00:26:10.500
positive this isn't my husband? Because that

00:26:10.500 --> 00:26:14.640
literally sounds like him in this life that I

00:26:14.640 --> 00:26:17.710
just could never understand. Say one thing and

00:26:17.710 --> 00:26:20.150
do another. But he doesn't have the spiritual

00:26:20.150 --> 00:26:25.369
overlay. Okay. So even though with your husband

00:26:25.369 --> 00:26:27.230
there can be similarities to what I'm talking

00:26:27.230 --> 00:26:29.349
to you about, he doesn't have that spiritual

00:26:29.349 --> 00:26:33.789
overlay. Because this individual also is using

00:26:33.789 --> 00:26:37.430
what we call spiritual or psychic ability. Because

00:26:37.430 --> 00:26:40.890
it happened naturally fast, like it's in a natural...

00:26:40.890 --> 00:26:44.029
Yeah, I felt like I got broken into, basically.

00:26:44.289 --> 00:26:48.519
Yeah. Yeah, it was like pressure here. And I

00:26:48.519 --> 00:26:52.900
was, yeah, it was, yeah, that was, and he could

00:26:52.900 --> 00:26:55.259
read my mind. Correct. And that's not your husband.

00:26:55.380 --> 00:26:58.539
I was like, I mean, to be honest, I was impressed.

00:26:58.880 --> 00:27:01.259
I was like, that's pretty cool because I've never

00:27:01.259 --> 00:27:04.200
experienced anything like that. But I also felt

00:27:04.200 --> 00:27:06.500
like it was not. It is. So let me describe what

00:27:06.500 --> 00:27:09.039
that aspect is. Right. And if you notice, your

00:27:09.039 --> 00:27:11.359
husband doesn't do that. No. Right. That's just

00:27:11.359 --> 00:27:13.819
that I know it's on him. Okay. Not that I know

00:27:13.819 --> 00:27:16.650
of. Unless he's better at hiding. Who knows?

00:27:16.670 --> 00:27:18.490
Okay, don't be blunt about it. The guy is mostly

00:27:18.490 --> 00:27:23.210
a muggle. Okay, okay, okay. All right. He's also

00:27:23.210 --> 00:27:28.390
mostly a muggle. In the Native teaching, what

00:27:28.390 --> 00:27:31.490
we call the throne of the soul, or heart with

00:27:31.490 --> 00:27:37.269
a capital H, the voice is roughly from the chakra

00:27:37.269 --> 00:27:40.349
that includes the third chakra to the solar plexus.

00:27:41.109 --> 00:27:42.990
The throne of the soul is where you connect with

00:27:42.990 --> 00:27:46.769
the creator. the creation into your higher sacred

00:27:46.769 --> 00:27:50.529
self when someone tampers with that you begin

00:27:50.529 --> 00:27:53.410
they can actually begin to you get as if you're

00:27:53.410 --> 00:27:56.410
in a fog you get confused as to your thoughts

00:27:56.410 --> 00:27:58.410
are they your thoughts it's like you get disconnected

00:27:58.410 --> 00:28:01.430
from yourself and then your life starts going

00:28:01.430 --> 00:28:05.630
sideways right and the reason being is that the

00:28:05.630 --> 00:28:10.089
the throne of the soul the heart also is a mechanism

00:28:10.089 --> 00:28:13.039
by which you know we each have a rhythm in our

00:28:13.039 --> 00:28:16.319
lives that we consider to be normal. So considered

00:28:16.319 --> 00:28:19.460
to be like the regulator. So when that gets interfered

00:28:19.460 --> 00:28:25.119
with everyday life, things get to go crazy and

00:28:25.119 --> 00:28:27.000
they make no logical sense. They just start flying

00:28:27.000 --> 00:28:29.920
off the rails because the mechanism that helps

00:28:29.920 --> 00:28:33.539
for things to synchronize spirit experience with

00:28:33.539 --> 00:28:39.339
physical earth gets disabled. So if you found

00:28:39.339 --> 00:28:43.150
that. bad luck or things started happening. That's

00:28:43.150 --> 00:28:48.170
why it was more an awareness that it's, it can

00:28:48.170 --> 00:28:51.230
be manipulated. Correct. And that I was not,

00:28:51.309 --> 00:28:53.349
if you, if you control the heart of a person,

00:28:53.390 --> 00:28:59.049
you control, you control it all. I felt like

00:28:59.049 --> 00:29:05.490
I was getting, um, messages like I suddenly could.

00:29:06.829 --> 00:29:10.250
I felt like I knew when people were around me,

00:29:10.349 --> 00:29:17.849
like seeing outlines and hearing voices. And

00:29:17.849 --> 00:29:22.049
it was not psychotic. It was not in my brain.

00:29:22.170 --> 00:29:27.069
I'm a shaman, so you totally get it. I know how

00:29:27.069 --> 00:29:29.809
to handle that. And I'm not sure if that happened

00:29:29.809 --> 00:29:33.150
trying to warn me or if that happened just because

00:29:33.150 --> 00:29:36.740
I was then open to stuff. But I don't think I

00:29:36.740 --> 00:29:39.579
interpreted things correctly. Well, we're going

00:29:39.579 --> 00:29:42.720
to get down piece by piece. So what happened

00:29:42.720 --> 00:29:47.200
is when you were broken open, again, ahead of

00:29:47.200 --> 00:29:52.720
time, then, as I said to you, to be able to have

00:29:52.720 --> 00:29:56.640
extended senses, that was part of your soul agreement

00:29:56.640 --> 00:29:58.859
with the Great Spirit. That was part of the original

00:29:58.859 --> 00:30:01.380
thing that's supposed to play out. The matter

00:30:01.380 --> 00:30:05.400
that it was done was not. So when that happened,

00:30:05.559 --> 00:30:10.140
that became activated. Consider it to be, and

00:30:10.140 --> 00:30:11.400
we're going to talk about the vision thing that

00:30:11.400 --> 00:30:13.119
you saw. I'm just talking this overall ability

00:30:13.119 --> 00:30:16.339
that became activated was a safety because it

00:30:16.339 --> 00:30:18.279
allowed for you that even though your mind and

00:30:18.279 --> 00:30:20.660
your emotions were confused, it's that what allowed

00:30:20.660 --> 00:30:22.359
for you to have that awareness that something

00:30:22.359 --> 00:30:25.619
was not right and the need to break away. And

00:30:25.619 --> 00:30:30.339
then that ability remained open. It remained

00:30:30.339 --> 00:30:33.569
open. What is this ability? Being able to see

00:30:33.569 --> 00:30:37.269
spirits. Being able to communicate and receive

00:30:37.269 --> 00:30:41.750
messages. And right now it is sensing and ultimately

00:30:41.750 --> 00:30:46.529
it will be to channel energy. That's in its fully

00:30:46.529 --> 00:30:50.890
fledged form. Right? But for now, that's why

00:30:50.890 --> 00:30:52.269
we're going to talk about the experience that

00:30:52.269 --> 00:30:57.730
you had. It was awakened early, but also used

00:30:57.730 --> 00:31:01.089
to help to save you from the situation. Okay.

00:31:01.599 --> 00:31:03.480
Because as far as I'm concerned, forgive me,

00:31:03.519 --> 00:31:05.319
and you can see my eyes usually don't get hard,

00:31:05.480 --> 00:31:09.700
that individual's a vampire. Okay. You know,

00:31:09.740 --> 00:31:12.140
and that's why I know you can have the feelings

00:31:12.140 --> 00:31:15.519
when I honor that. But it's like, you know, like

00:31:15.519 --> 00:31:17.380
the vampires, they can make somebody desire them.

00:31:17.720 --> 00:31:24.460
Mm -hmm. And do this. Yeah, I'm like, in my past,

00:31:24.460 --> 00:31:28.380
I've been like, not like obsessive but it's like

00:31:28.380 --> 00:31:30.599
strong feeling strongly yeah but not like this

00:31:30.599 --> 00:31:34.160
yeah this is like not not not natural natural

00:31:34.160 --> 00:31:38.619
yeah it's almost like my memories were like replaced

00:31:38.619 --> 00:31:41.940
and it's like was he always there was he you

00:31:41.940 --> 00:31:43.640
know that's part of the gaslighting i'm talking

00:31:43.640 --> 00:31:46.720
about okay that's the gaslighting okay and confusing

00:31:46.720 --> 00:31:49.599
yeah and then the part that was connected that

00:31:49.599 --> 00:31:51.720
ability and also that that sense was your guardian

00:31:51.720 --> 00:31:55.329
spirit and part of your higher self saying Even

00:31:55.329 --> 00:31:57.630
though you can't hear me clearly, you know, there's

00:31:57.630 --> 00:32:01.569
something wrong. Get away. Yeah. Yeah. I did

00:32:01.569 --> 00:32:03.609
sense there was something wrong. Correct. And

00:32:03.609 --> 00:32:07.130
I don't know how it went from that to being like,

00:32:07.250 --> 00:32:11.230
okay, I don't, I, it's like, I saw something

00:32:11.230 --> 00:32:14.049
and then I forgot what I saw like right away.

00:32:14.150 --> 00:32:16.130
Correct. Because that's part of the control.

00:32:16.309 --> 00:32:19.069
Okay. That's part of the control. Okay. That's

00:32:19.069 --> 00:32:22.440
why I, when you listen to this recording, That's

00:32:22.440 --> 00:32:24.380
the first thing that I tracked was, okay, how

00:32:24.380 --> 00:32:28.440
far did she get pushed off of her, of her path?

00:32:29.420 --> 00:32:34.720
And it's like, no, say here's your path and you're

00:32:34.720 --> 00:32:38.480
like parallel like this. Okay. So it won't take

00:32:38.480 --> 00:32:41.640
much to put you back. Okay. Like this. Cause

00:32:41.640 --> 00:32:44.700
again, fortunately for you, you, you, these abilities

00:32:44.700 --> 00:32:46.420
were supposed to be part of this incarnation.

00:32:46.859 --> 00:32:50.799
Okay. I suppose that they've been not. then that's

00:32:50.799 --> 00:32:53.440
something else entirely. There's still, the difference

00:32:53.440 --> 00:32:57.779
being is now we help to remove the taint of this

00:32:57.779 --> 00:33:01.220
individual. You embrace, you know, this is the

00:33:01.220 --> 00:33:02.539
world of the X -Men. You discovered you're a

00:33:02.539 --> 00:33:06.660
mutant. All right. Yeah. And then, and then you

00:33:06.660 --> 00:33:09.759
train them out. That's it. And they begin to

00:33:09.759 --> 00:33:11.519
enhance your life was, was, was the original

00:33:11.519 --> 00:33:14.380
design and agreement with creator spirit. Okay.

00:33:14.900 --> 00:33:20.759
So that's why with this individual, Let me just

00:33:20.759 --> 00:33:23.000
ask the Thunder Brothers. They're the ones who

00:33:23.000 --> 00:33:25.299
walk with me. And you can feel free. I know you

00:33:25.299 --> 00:33:27.160
can see and sense them, so go ahead. Feel free.

00:33:28.740 --> 00:33:31.359
See, I don't know what I sense. I feel like sometimes

00:33:31.359 --> 00:33:36.299
I see little black spots moving around. It's

00:33:36.299 --> 00:33:38.839
just kind of like a... We'll work with that together

00:33:38.839 --> 00:33:40.559
before you leave so we can feel more comfortable.

00:33:40.859 --> 00:33:43.460
Yeah. I mean, I'm not uncomfortable. I just don't

00:33:43.460 --> 00:33:45.720
know what it is. We're going to work with them.

00:33:45.759 --> 00:33:47.500
We're going to give you, we're going to, I'm

00:33:47.500 --> 00:33:49.380
not going to leave you. I almost feel like I

00:33:49.380 --> 00:33:52.240
could just, I wish I could just see them and

00:33:52.240 --> 00:33:54.599
hear them. And it's like, I won't be scared.

00:33:54.759 --> 00:33:57.039
No, but you can sense that at least I would know

00:33:57.039 --> 00:33:59.539
what I'm dealing with. Right. But when I sense

00:33:59.539 --> 00:34:01.420
it and I don't know what I'm dealing with, it

00:34:01.420 --> 00:34:05.079
was a major trust breach of trust. And so then

00:34:05.079 --> 00:34:07.339
I have fear and I feel like that's holding me

00:34:07.339 --> 00:34:08.920
back. Correct. And that's why part of what I

00:34:08.920 --> 00:34:13.099
want to do is to give you some basic tools so

00:34:13.099 --> 00:34:16.170
you can go. Okay. Yeah. Let the shoulders drop

00:34:16.170 --> 00:34:20.030
a little bit. You know what I'm saying? So with

00:34:20.030 --> 00:34:23.769
that, what I'm being told is I'm going to give

00:34:23.769 --> 00:34:27.309
you something very basic to do because this individual

00:34:27.309 --> 00:34:31.429
still has some attachments on you. And that's

00:34:31.429 --> 00:34:32.889
why if you notice it's, it's just irrational

00:34:32.889 --> 00:34:35.269
that you keep on thinking in this, this draw.

00:34:35.510 --> 00:34:37.909
Yeah. And it's very much like the legend of the

00:34:37.909 --> 00:34:40.389
vampire when they begin to bite somebody, then

00:34:40.389 --> 00:34:45.230
doing one of these. So. The reason being is that

00:34:45.230 --> 00:34:49.070
when you gave yourself, it really was in a pure

00:34:49.070 --> 00:34:52.969
way. It really was very, very pure. Because something

00:34:52.969 --> 00:34:56.289
this malicious is out of your scope. Yeah. You

00:34:56.289 --> 00:34:58.690
can't even imagine somebody operating at this

00:34:58.690 --> 00:35:02.269
level. Yeah. It was basically an understanding

00:35:02.269 --> 00:35:06.210
that people and things can be manipulated. But

00:35:06.210 --> 00:35:08.769
I wasn't feeling that. It was more like I observed

00:35:08.769 --> 00:35:11.409
things in my surroundings. Correct. And I felt

00:35:11.409 --> 00:35:14.909
like I could. control things and then it's like

00:35:14.909 --> 00:35:17.710
but i don't want to because if you want to then

00:35:17.710 --> 00:35:22.590
you're dark like anyone who loves would never

00:35:22.590 --> 00:35:25.510
try to control another person yeah like you can't

00:35:25.510 --> 00:35:27.949
do that that's you cannot do that yeah so then

00:35:27.949 --> 00:35:31.369
i um basically i guess the confusion was i thought

00:35:31.369 --> 00:35:35.090
he was trying to help me right part of the gaslighting

00:35:35.090 --> 00:35:37.429
yeah it's part of the gaslighting that i'm detecting

00:35:37.429 --> 00:35:39.989
that's why i'll be blunt this person's new good

00:35:39.989 --> 00:35:45.340
okay right um I would say borderline evil. I'm

00:35:45.340 --> 00:35:49.320
sorry. I've been around for a long time. Good

00:35:49.320 --> 00:35:51.579
news is I'm going to give you something basic

00:35:51.579 --> 00:35:56.340
to do, right? Is what he did was, even though

00:35:56.340 --> 00:35:58.599
you've done a good enough job of kind of shutting

00:35:58.599 --> 00:36:01.159
the door, there's still a couple hooks here.

00:36:02.480 --> 00:36:06.820
And in the shamanic way, he has a shard of you.

00:36:07.380 --> 00:36:08.920
That's what he does. It's like a piece missing,

00:36:08.980 --> 00:36:12.320
like there's a piece missing, right? And that's

00:36:12.320 --> 00:36:14.300
what I want to describe to you. It's not, um,

00:36:14.500 --> 00:36:17.739
you know, you don't feel whole or solid. Like

00:36:17.739 --> 00:36:20.699
there's still like some piece of feels off. Okay.

00:36:22.860 --> 00:36:25.139
And I hope you don't mind. I'm kind of cramming

00:36:25.139 --> 00:36:27.059
everything together and then I'm going to give

00:36:27.059 --> 00:36:29.960
you steps to do. Okay. You're not in danger.

00:36:30.559 --> 00:36:35.679
Right. Breathe. It's okay. If you can imagine

00:36:35.679 --> 00:36:38.940
the soul again, where the heart is being like

00:36:38.940 --> 00:36:43.389
a beautiful gem. A living gem. When it has a

00:36:43.389 --> 00:36:45.730
little bit of pressure, like a gem, it can have

00:36:45.730 --> 00:36:48.730
stress lines. Push a little bit more and some

00:36:48.730 --> 00:36:52.690
shards fall out. So he pushed enough so a couple

00:36:52.690 --> 00:36:55.389
shards fell out. But because, again, you know

00:36:55.389 --> 00:36:57.349
love, you don't know this type of manipulation,

00:36:57.730 --> 00:37:01.829
you willingly say, here's a part of me. And he

00:37:01.829 --> 00:37:05.190
said, sure. If you notice, he never gave himself

00:37:05.190 --> 00:37:08.989
equally back. Never equal. Because the idea is

00:37:08.989 --> 00:37:13.280
to take power, to take energy. So here, what's

00:37:13.280 --> 00:37:15.500
happening is that you're beginning to heal, but

00:37:15.500 --> 00:37:18.199
that piece is missing. Which is why if you're

00:37:18.199 --> 00:37:19.940
going to say, this is stupid, why do I keep on

00:37:19.940 --> 00:37:23.099
thinking of this guy? Why this? Why this? Because

00:37:23.099 --> 00:37:28.699
the soul will always long for itself. The good

00:37:28.699 --> 00:37:32.159
news is that he's not so strong that it's not

00:37:32.159 --> 00:37:34.699
going to be like, you know, the epic battle of

00:37:34.699 --> 00:37:38.539
Godzilla versus King Kong here. So I'll give

00:37:38.539 --> 00:37:42.039
you a very basic native way. It's basically what

00:37:42.039 --> 00:37:44.119
it is. It's a soul retrieval. That's what it

00:37:44.119 --> 00:37:48.699
is. So you can, again, in the native way, we

00:37:48.699 --> 00:37:52.460
give everything back to creator spirit. And then

00:37:52.460 --> 00:37:55.139
asking the name of creator spirit and everything,

00:37:55.239 --> 00:37:57.440
again, that everything be restored in harmony

00:37:57.440 --> 00:38:02.619
as it's meant to be. And you can get a candle

00:38:02.619 --> 00:38:05.340
in your favorite color, whatever you want it

00:38:05.340 --> 00:38:09.440
to be. And then we would say in native style.

00:38:10.380 --> 00:38:15.780
You sit so that you're facing the north. So here,

00:38:15.980 --> 00:38:18.659
like say, you know, here, this is actually south,

00:38:18.719 --> 00:38:21.639
so the north facing north. The reason why we

00:38:21.639 --> 00:38:25.480
say that is for us, we say that's where the sacred

00:38:25.480 --> 00:38:28.079
beings are, the path, you call the path to heaven,

00:38:28.179 --> 00:38:32.880
the path to the sacred. So say you're here, the

00:38:32.880 --> 00:38:35.559
candle's here, giving back to creator that flame

00:38:35.559 --> 00:38:39.460
represents the breath of the one God. Okay. And

00:38:39.460 --> 00:38:42.880
then from here, you're going to ask your guardian

00:38:42.880 --> 00:38:45.920
spirit, your guardian angel, if you will, to

00:38:45.920 --> 00:38:49.780
please, if there's anything that you have of

00:38:49.780 --> 00:38:54.239
his, which I don't feel that you do, but that

00:38:54.239 --> 00:38:58.460
you want for it to be returned. And then your

00:38:58.460 --> 00:39:00.659
guardian will do that. It gets purified through

00:39:00.659 --> 00:39:03.900
that sacred fire. But if there's anything he's

00:39:03.900 --> 00:39:08.349
holding on of you, that it gets retrieved. purified

00:39:08.349 --> 00:39:12.070
through that sacred fire and then restored back

00:39:12.070 --> 00:39:15.730
to you does that make sense yes and then what's

00:39:15.730 --> 00:39:19.110
going to happen is here it's very interesting

00:39:19.110 --> 00:39:22.409
oh here we go okay one of those like the music

00:39:22.409 --> 00:39:23.929
of the ancestors to be playing in the background

00:39:23.929 --> 00:39:27.789
okay and one of those one of those people so

00:39:27.789 --> 00:39:31.349
what's going to happen is that don't be surprised

00:39:31.349 --> 00:39:33.690
that after you dedicate everything back to the

00:39:33.690 --> 00:39:36.000
creator spirit you know, the space, everything

00:39:36.000 --> 00:39:38.539
for us, we'd say you bless up with smoke. That

00:39:38.539 --> 00:39:43.840
you suddenly feel the need to say everything

00:39:43.840 --> 00:39:46.179
that you've wanted to say. Don't leave anything

00:39:46.179 --> 00:39:48.000
out. If that happens, you don't have to be nice.

00:39:49.280 --> 00:39:52.800
Okay. Okay. You can get colorful if you like.

00:39:53.579 --> 00:39:55.940
Okay. But the idea is that you're releasing,

00:39:56.039 --> 00:39:59.780
you're not holding anything back. but then asking

00:39:59.780 --> 00:40:01.539
your guardian don't be surprised if you feel

00:40:01.539 --> 00:40:03.699
a beautiful warmth if you feel a beautiful warmth

00:40:03.699 --> 00:40:06.719
what have you it won't be dark it won't be scary

00:40:06.719 --> 00:40:09.179
it'll be very familiar because it'll be your

00:40:09.179 --> 00:40:14.079
guardian spirit and the ones who love you i it's

00:40:14.079 --> 00:40:16.780
so hard for me to understand i guess i was just

00:40:16.780 --> 00:40:19.340
tricked but like those feelings were real but

00:40:19.340 --> 00:40:21.300
they were the feelings were real but the way

00:40:21.300 --> 00:40:25.860
that they were invoked were fake okay i i thought

00:40:25.860 --> 00:40:29.380
that he gave me back a piece of my soul like

00:40:29.380 --> 00:40:32.079
i felt i had all this energy like i don't know

00:40:32.079 --> 00:40:36.019
what that was he it was like he implanted something

00:40:36.019 --> 00:40:41.219
what apart that's what i'm saying that's why

00:40:41.219 --> 00:40:45.500
this exchange needs to happen okay so even though

00:40:45.500 --> 00:40:48.780
he did give part of i'm going to say his energy

00:40:48.780 --> 00:40:50.679
he's smart enough to be a part of his own spirit

00:40:50.679 --> 00:40:55.579
it acted like a catalyst that blew the rest of

00:40:55.579 --> 00:40:58.789
this over okay that's like a jump start like

00:40:58.789 --> 00:41:03.889
lightning yeah you know so that's what i said

00:41:03.889 --> 00:41:05.869
to you so it acted as a jump start i'm trying

00:41:05.869 --> 00:41:09.750
to explain the mechanism of it and not to be

00:41:09.750 --> 00:41:11.949
weird but i don't know how i could ever be in

00:41:11.949 --> 00:41:14.530
a relationship without like with anyone other

00:41:14.530 --> 00:41:19.090
than someone that's like spiritual enough to

00:41:19.090 --> 00:41:23.699
be like that but not dark I don't know. Like

00:41:23.699 --> 00:41:25.820
there are people out there, right? Because I

00:41:25.820 --> 00:41:29.159
can't, there are, I can't not. Yeah. I like need

00:41:29.159 --> 00:41:32.139
that now. Cause it's like, I don't know how you

00:41:32.139 --> 00:41:35.219
would just go back to being like, I can't, you

00:41:35.219 --> 00:41:36.719
just go, you're a mutant. You can't go back to

00:41:36.719 --> 00:41:39.460
being an army. That's correct. I can't. So that's

00:41:39.460 --> 00:41:40.900
why I'm trying to share with you. So what happened

00:41:40.900 --> 00:41:43.880
is that there was that implant of energy. So,

00:41:43.960 --> 00:41:45.579
so how you can keep tabs and do what you want

00:41:45.579 --> 00:41:48.019
it to do. And he willingly gave part of yourself.

00:41:48.079 --> 00:41:52.110
So an even stronger time control. you're strong

00:41:52.110 --> 00:41:54.809
-willed enough to begin shutting things down.

00:41:56.110 --> 00:41:59.190
And this is now the last little bit. So don't

00:41:59.190 --> 00:42:01.309
be too surprised that after you do this, number

00:42:01.309 --> 00:42:03.050
one, you're going to feel solid and whole again.

00:42:03.409 --> 00:42:07.489
That's just what I feel like. And you'll suddenly

00:42:07.489 --> 00:42:09.750
this, because it's not obsession. We talked about

00:42:09.750 --> 00:42:12.329
this weirdness. Yeah. That's going to go. It

00:42:12.329 --> 00:42:15.070
is like a man. It's like it's images in my mind.

00:42:15.070 --> 00:42:17.050
And I'm like, and it's also a weird feeling.

00:42:17.349 --> 00:42:19.909
Yeah. And it's like, yeah, because they're connected.

00:42:20.250 --> 00:42:24.659
Okay. That's going to go. And then what's going

00:42:24.659 --> 00:42:27.199
to happen is part of your expanded senses are

00:42:27.199 --> 00:42:30.400
going to dull. But that's okay. They were artificially

00:42:30.400 --> 00:42:34.900
blown too far open. They're going to dull, not

00:42:34.900 --> 00:42:39.599
shut completely, so that they can grow the way

00:42:39.599 --> 00:42:43.920
that they're meant to. Okay. Gently. All right.

00:42:43.980 --> 00:42:46.420
So because your eyes are now open, they're not

00:42:46.420 --> 00:42:47.619
going to be shut again. They're not supposed

00:42:47.619 --> 00:42:49.219
to be in this lifetime. We talked about that.

00:42:49.659 --> 00:42:53.480
But instead of it being like this, and it's confusing

00:42:53.480 --> 00:42:56.380
things, it'll go down to a level that it's meant

00:42:56.380 --> 00:43:01.099
to be. Okay. And then with patience, teaching,

00:43:01.179 --> 00:43:06.099
practice, then you choose how they're going to

00:43:06.099 --> 00:43:09.900
grow and develop and to move versus this artificial

00:43:09.900 --> 00:43:12.219
thing that's going on right now. Okay. Yeah.

00:43:12.380 --> 00:43:15.579
Pardon me. I can't stand vampires. It's one of

00:43:15.579 --> 00:43:20.570
my things. So any questions so far? Please, let's

00:43:20.570 --> 00:43:26.690
do it. Was my, what I said after whatever I saw,

00:43:26.869 --> 00:43:30.250
I saw. Let's talk about that. What exactly did

00:43:30.250 --> 00:43:31.869
you see? Let's talk about it. I don't know what

00:43:31.869 --> 00:43:35.849
I saw. Or if you can describe it. There were

00:43:35.849 --> 00:43:38.429
two different things. Like, I was not asleep,

00:43:38.650 --> 00:43:43.809
but I, it's like I could see things above me.

00:43:43.909 --> 00:43:46.610
Sure. Kind of like a movie. I don't know how

00:43:46.610 --> 00:43:50.219
to explain it. Yeah, no, I get it. But I saw

00:43:50.219 --> 00:43:55.099
myself swinging a punch at my father. And then

00:43:55.099 --> 00:44:01.920
when I saw that, then it stopped. And he laughed.

00:44:02.179 --> 00:44:04.980
He was laughing. And I didn't know what that

00:44:04.980 --> 00:44:08.099
was. And I felt like I was being made to do things.

00:44:08.599 --> 00:44:12.980
Like I was being made to do that. Like in a dream

00:44:12.980 --> 00:44:15.820
state. But somehow I caught it. And I'll never

00:44:15.820 --> 00:44:19.010
forget it. And I know what happened. So then

00:44:19.010 --> 00:44:22.670
whatever else I saw at another time, I don't

00:44:22.670 --> 00:44:27.670
know how long this took. You know, when I jumped

00:44:27.670 --> 00:44:31.489
up and said, oh, my God, is it like the Truman

00:44:31.489 --> 00:44:35.090
Show? And then I had a really strong sense of

00:44:35.090 --> 00:44:39.110
something happening to children. And that this

00:44:39.110 --> 00:44:42.030
was like a regularly occurring thing that happens

00:44:42.030 --> 00:44:44.750
to kids and people break into their dreams and

00:44:44.750 --> 00:44:48.329
like hurt them somehow. I said, nothing weird

00:44:48.329 --> 00:44:51.550
with kids. And then I thought about it for a

00:44:51.550 --> 00:44:53.809
little bit and was like, maybe this is the way

00:44:53.809 --> 00:44:56.130
it works. And I'm like, if that's how it works,

00:44:56.170 --> 00:44:58.389
but you can't hurt kids. Like you can't hurt

00:44:58.389 --> 00:45:05.639
kids. And my daughter is very. open and strong

00:45:05.639 --> 00:45:10.599
and that's mostly what even made me be open -minded

00:45:10.599 --> 00:45:14.519
besides when i was little sure and our own ancestral

00:45:14.519 --> 00:45:17.400
whatever sure yeah it runs in bloodline so yeah

00:45:17.400 --> 00:45:24.739
she is i fear that she gets like i don't know

00:45:24.739 --> 00:45:27.719
if the word is channeled or whatever is happening

00:45:27.719 --> 00:45:30.800
but things that she was saying to me were not

00:45:30.800 --> 00:45:38.070
normal and i would try to just be normal. This

00:45:38.070 --> 00:45:41.070
is all strange. Everyone is strange around me,

00:45:41.150 --> 00:45:43.869
but I just am going to be me because that's who

00:45:43.869 --> 00:45:48.630
I am. I don't know what else to do, but I'm going

00:45:48.630 --> 00:45:52.530
to just try my best to put peace out there. And

00:45:52.530 --> 00:45:55.989
I am concerned for my daughter and I, does anyone

00:45:55.989 --> 00:45:59.750
have access to my daughter's mind or is she safe

00:45:59.750 --> 00:46:03.789
enough? Well, she's safe enough. I'm talking

00:46:03.789 --> 00:46:06.090
as a mom. And I know how critical that is. It

00:46:06.090 --> 00:46:08.670
doesn't matter how old they are. Yeah. So the

00:46:08.670 --> 00:46:13.630
ones who are with her are strong enough to, I'm

00:46:13.630 --> 00:46:16.949
going to say, to protect her. But because of

00:46:16.949 --> 00:46:21.769
this vampire, again, is able to have feelers.

00:46:23.050 --> 00:46:25.510
So I'm going to give one mom to another. She's

00:46:25.510 --> 00:46:27.570
safe. She's not going to be thrown off her track.

00:46:28.449 --> 00:46:31.329
There's not going to be permanent scars. Because

00:46:31.329 --> 00:46:35.809
I'd be very honest. All right. But that's why

00:46:35.809 --> 00:46:39.130
even right now, let's put it this way. Since

00:46:39.130 --> 00:46:42.070
you walked into this room that has certain sacred

00:46:42.070 --> 00:46:46.389
seals in it, do you feel the difference in energy,

00:46:46.489 --> 00:46:50.250
the quiet of mind? What do you sense? I feel

00:46:50.250 --> 00:46:58.230
very warm. Yeah. I feel a lot of trust. And do

00:46:58.230 --> 00:47:00.010
you feel more like yourself with a clear mind

00:47:00.010 --> 00:47:03.920
than you have? Yeah. That's the tell. That's

00:47:03.920 --> 00:47:11.260
the tell. So if you notice you feel more solid

00:47:11.260 --> 00:47:13.780
than entirely, but you're now more together,

00:47:14.019 --> 00:47:19.519
that's the tell. Good. Yeah, I feel like I'm

00:47:19.519 --> 00:47:23.280
somewhere else. Like half of my, half of me is.

00:47:24.730 --> 00:47:27.230
swirling down a drain like at all times and i'm

00:47:27.230 --> 00:47:29.190
just like i don't know what i'm living for but

00:47:29.190 --> 00:47:31.650
like i know that i don't need to die no like

00:47:31.650 --> 00:47:33.949
i'm not i don't want to be negative i don't want

00:47:33.949 --> 00:47:37.829
to be sad no but i feel very sad right so let's

00:47:37.829 --> 00:47:40.030
let's sort it a little bit further so that's

00:47:40.030 --> 00:47:44.530
why here um and in native way it's giving and

00:47:44.530 --> 00:47:48.809
receiving equally so say if you choose again

00:47:48.809 --> 00:47:51.469
this is a very simple with the candle you can

00:47:51.469 --> 00:47:55.400
even write a same and burn it, and then release

00:47:55.400 --> 00:47:58.579
the ashes. I release you after the exchange does.

00:47:58.840 --> 00:48:03.059
But giving and receiving equally. So even you

00:48:03.059 --> 00:48:05.960
say in the name of creator and in gratitude for

00:48:05.960 --> 00:48:08.179
my healing that is coming, it could be an act

00:48:08.179 --> 00:48:11.179
of kindness. It could be feeding the animals

00:48:11.179 --> 00:48:12.579
who are going to be dealing with the frosty cold.

00:48:13.679 --> 00:48:16.920
So we always give, we're a gifting culture, giving

00:48:16.920 --> 00:48:20.800
and receiving equally. And then what's going

00:48:20.800 --> 00:48:25.139
to happen? So again, If you noticed, I guess

00:48:25.139 --> 00:48:27.320
for me, the most important is that we shut the

00:48:27.320 --> 00:48:31.940
door on this one. So, and that's to say, if you

00:48:31.940 --> 00:48:36.199
want the acid test, and I firmly believe a skeptical

00:48:36.199 --> 00:48:39.719
mind is important. You can be completely spiritual

00:48:39.719 --> 00:48:41.940
and have a skeptical mind. That's why I'm a shaman.

00:48:42.019 --> 00:48:46.039
I like science. Okay. It's like, what? It's like,

00:48:46.119 --> 00:48:47.679
yeah, I'm a spiritual teacher and I like science.

00:48:47.739 --> 00:48:50.360
Get over it. Yeah. All right. That makes sense

00:48:50.360 --> 00:48:52.079
to me. The heart and the mind are meant to work

00:48:52.079 --> 00:48:55.420
together. That's the point of it, you know? Yeah.

00:48:55.800 --> 00:48:58.980
But if you want to do the asset test and I would

00:48:58.980 --> 00:49:03.239
invite you and try to say, this is all in my

00:49:03.239 --> 00:49:06.099
head, really try it. Cause it's kind of like

00:49:06.099 --> 00:49:07.760
if you stand up and you scream in this chair,

00:49:07.820 --> 00:49:09.239
that it's an elephant, it's still going to be

00:49:09.239 --> 00:49:10.719
a chair, right? No matter what you do to it.

00:49:10.800 --> 00:49:14.719
Yeah. So what I would like for you to do is walk

00:49:14.719 --> 00:49:17.619
outside of this room, check in and see how you

00:49:17.619 --> 00:49:20.530
feel and say, you know what? Feeling different

00:49:20.530 --> 00:49:22.789
in Skyfire's room is all in my head. Try and

00:49:22.789 --> 00:49:25.130
bust it. Go ahead. Give it a shot. And then come

00:49:25.130 --> 00:49:27.530
back in here and you tell me. I want you to try

00:49:27.530 --> 00:49:29.369
it. And this is part of it. This is the difference

00:49:29.369 --> 00:49:31.409
between good and evil. Good will say test it.

00:49:32.369 --> 00:49:36.389
Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Go ahead and try it. But see

00:49:36.389 --> 00:50:03.920
what happens. Be open. Now come in here without

00:50:03.920 --> 00:50:08.019
saying anything and still try to test it, refute

00:50:08.019 --> 00:50:16.820
it, try to debunk it. No, I feel lighter in my

00:50:16.820 --> 00:50:19.699
heart. I just, I feel like it's easier to breathe

00:50:19.699 --> 00:50:21.300
when you're in here. Correct. And if you notice

00:50:21.300 --> 00:50:22.900
the clarity, find it. And how did it feel when

00:50:22.900 --> 00:50:31.920
you went out there? It's like physical and emotional.

00:50:32.159 --> 00:50:34.300
Let me try to like, but did you notice how you

00:50:34.300 --> 00:50:35.639
started going out of alignment when you're out

00:50:35.639 --> 00:50:38.800
there? And when you came in here? Yeah. I started

00:50:38.800 --> 00:50:43.119
to think about, um, the person like kind of entered

00:50:43.119 --> 00:50:47.460
my mind again, like right away. Yeah. And I said,

00:50:47.539 --> 00:50:49.619
I want you to try it, debunk it, push it because

00:50:49.619 --> 00:50:52.320
truth will stand. That's the thing. Truth stands.

00:50:53.659 --> 00:50:55.079
So that's why I said, yeah, I don't want you

00:50:55.079 --> 00:50:56.519
to say, oh, yeah. No, I said, you know, it was

00:50:56.519 --> 00:50:58.179
just on my head that I felt good in Skyfire's

00:50:58.179 --> 00:50:59.579
room. It's just, you know, whatever. It's because

00:50:59.579 --> 00:51:03.179
I wanted to. But if you noticed, boom, there

00:51:03.179 --> 00:51:06.780
it was. Yeah. Right? So that's proof. So the

00:51:06.780 --> 00:51:11.280
good news is that the fact that this attachment

00:51:11.280 --> 00:51:16.260
is so easily dispelled is that you can do this.

00:51:16.579 --> 00:51:20.300
Okay. You can do this. But notice the difference

00:51:20.300 --> 00:51:29.900
of how you feel. Yeah. Now I'm scared to let

00:51:29.900 --> 00:51:33.000
go. Don't be scared. I feel like there's a lot

00:51:33.000 --> 00:51:38.360
where I am. There's a lot. Yeah. It's not mine.

00:51:38.599 --> 00:51:41.460
We're going to go step by step. Okay. But this

00:51:41.460 --> 00:51:43.739
is important. So the reason why I needed for

00:51:43.739 --> 00:51:46.400
you to test and to push, because that is the

00:51:46.400 --> 00:51:50.320
difference between good and evil. Anybody's worth

00:51:50.320 --> 00:51:53.559
a damn. If you test respectfully, he's not going

00:51:53.559 --> 00:51:57.289
to mind it at all. It should be. So. That's why

00:51:57.289 --> 00:52:01.969
I would say to you, in Native way, for us to

00:52:01.969 --> 00:52:03.750
be the smudging and the gifting to the seven

00:52:03.750 --> 00:52:07.070
directions. But even if you go in a sacred space

00:52:07.070 --> 00:52:10.250
that's clean and clear and say, you know, you

00:52:10.250 --> 00:52:11.909
could do it without smoke, you could even do

00:52:11.909 --> 00:52:15.610
it with music. And say, and I'm dedicating this

00:52:15.610 --> 00:52:20.670
back to a creator. And asking, and in gratitude

00:52:20.670 --> 00:52:23.409
to the creator and those who are with me, to

00:52:23.409 --> 00:52:26.219
help me to reclaim and to... release what is

00:52:26.219 --> 00:52:31.579
not mine and then just open your heart and you

00:52:31.579 --> 00:52:33.420
could even have a whispering from your own guardian

00:52:33.420 --> 00:52:36.820
spirit saying maybe an act of kindness to the

00:52:36.820 --> 00:52:38.940
animals that are dealing with the cold you know

00:52:38.940 --> 00:52:42.820
doing this it comes and then again that light

00:52:42.820 --> 00:52:46.159
representing the fire of the creator spirit and

00:52:46.159 --> 00:52:48.739
that candle becomes a secret candle as much as

00:52:48.739 --> 00:52:52.630
it be in any synagogue church ashram So that

00:52:52.630 --> 00:52:54.670
when you begin to pray and meditate and center,

00:52:54.730 --> 00:52:58.530
it carries the blessing. And if you want, I don't

00:52:58.530 --> 00:53:00.489
have to do it because you have the power to do

00:53:00.489 --> 00:53:04.550
it. But I'll be happy to bless it. But think

00:53:04.550 --> 00:53:07.070
about it as a mom. Don't you always bless everything

00:53:07.070 --> 00:53:11.010
for your child so she can be safe? Yeah. And

00:53:11.010 --> 00:53:13.929
the love and energy you put in it? I used to.

00:53:14.369 --> 00:53:17.150
Now I'm not myself, to be honest. Yeah, because

00:53:17.150 --> 00:53:21.090
of this interference. Yeah. Because this energy,

00:53:21.630 --> 00:53:26.429
is poison to a vampire. It's poisonous. Good.

00:53:26.769 --> 00:53:31.730
Yeah. Good. So when you reconnect with that...

00:53:31.730 --> 00:53:34.269
Then why would he want that? Why would he, like,

00:53:34.389 --> 00:53:37.889
I guess... Think about it. Because it's valuable?

00:53:38.309 --> 00:53:43.130
Because it was pure? Valuable, it was pure, it

00:53:43.130 --> 00:53:48.409
was power. Yeah. You know, it's kind of like,

00:53:48.469 --> 00:53:49.949
I'm going to be a total nerd, but it's kind of

00:53:49.949 --> 00:53:52.940
like... Have you ever seen Harry Potter? When

00:53:52.940 --> 00:53:57.519
Voldemort kills the unicorn? And he becomes a

00:53:57.519 --> 00:53:59.980
cursed being. He gets to live, but he lives as

00:53:59.980 --> 00:54:01.579
a cursed being because he killed something so

00:54:01.579 --> 00:54:03.780
innocent and pure. Oh, well, that makes sense.

00:54:04.559 --> 00:54:07.980
So here is not physical death, nor is it your

00:54:07.980 --> 00:54:11.619
destiny. Okay. But to hold something like this,

00:54:11.659 --> 00:54:15.179
and that's what I'm looking at. Sorry, you can

00:54:15.179 --> 00:54:16.599
just see the look in my eyes. It's like, oh,

00:54:16.659 --> 00:54:21.070
I know your number, honey. I see you many times.

00:54:21.070 --> 00:54:24.170
Your time. All right. But the good news is this

00:54:24.170 --> 00:54:26.610
one has basically no power over you. That's why

00:54:26.610 --> 00:54:29.809
it's as simple as this. And he passed away in

00:54:29.809 --> 00:54:33.730
this life. Mm -hmm. Yeah, but holding on to this,

00:54:33.929 --> 00:54:39.489
he, by doing this... That was me because I was

00:54:39.489 --> 00:54:43.349
confused. And by holding on to this piece of

00:54:43.349 --> 00:54:47.789
you, he hopes to not have to go to complete.

00:54:48.250 --> 00:54:54.610
what he has earned. If I hold on to this part

00:54:54.610 --> 00:54:59.150
of you to try to hold himself closer to the earth

00:54:59.150 --> 00:55:08.070
plane, I'd have to answer to his conduct. Yeah,

00:55:08.070 --> 00:55:09.929
we don't have a view of heaven and hell in the

00:55:09.929 --> 00:55:12.750
native way, but we believe it is a secret wheel

00:55:12.750 --> 00:55:15.510
of giving and receiving. As you do, it comes

00:55:15.510 --> 00:55:19.420
back to you. Yeah. So by doing this, it's wanting

00:55:19.420 --> 00:55:24.780
to cheat that. Yeah, you can't. It's funny because

00:55:24.780 --> 00:55:29.199
I thought that that was like the feelings and

00:55:29.199 --> 00:55:32.460
thoughts that I had trying to rationalize. And

00:55:32.460 --> 00:55:37.000
also it's like visions and feeling. It's like

00:55:37.000 --> 00:55:42.619
all the pain in the world hurt me. And then it's

00:55:42.619 --> 00:55:47.349
like, but we choose this. And some things we

00:55:47.349 --> 00:55:51.110
don't choose, but the pain creates growth, creates

00:55:51.110 --> 00:55:54.429
strength, creates value, creates wisdom. I'm

00:55:54.429 --> 00:55:57.429
like, it all just is, even though I wish it didn't

00:55:57.429 --> 00:56:00.210
happen. Right. But there's a place where you

00:56:00.210 --> 00:56:02.809
could go beyond that. And people who do things

00:56:02.809 --> 00:56:04.929
like that are allowed. And I know that for sure.

00:56:05.130 --> 00:56:08.050
But I was like, it's not like a place like everything

00:56:08.050 --> 00:56:13.389
is here. It's just levels of energy. Yeah. And

00:56:13.389 --> 00:56:16.929
I'm like. And then, yeah, you're correct. You're

00:56:16.929 --> 00:56:19.889
not crazy. You are correct. But you have people

00:56:19.889 --> 00:56:24.190
who choose to behave in an evil way. I'm sorry,

00:56:24.250 --> 00:56:26.610
I'm going to call it. You know, he's not evil

00:56:26.610 --> 00:56:33.030
yet. Souls can't evolve. And by doing this, hope

00:56:33.030 --> 00:56:37.250
to cheat versus the way that you're doing it

00:56:37.250 --> 00:56:41.949
is the right way. You are aware. In the old way,

00:56:42.010 --> 00:56:45.329
we say, and I'm going to 21st century it. Pain

00:56:45.329 --> 00:56:47.050
in life is inevitable. Suffering is optional.

00:56:47.730 --> 00:56:50.909
Yeah. Right. But you're doing it the right way.

00:56:50.949 --> 00:56:53.409
It's like, you know what? I will own what is

00:56:53.409 --> 00:56:57.409
mine. And with that, I will gain wisdom, whether

00:56:57.409 --> 00:57:04.409
it be greater joy or greater depth. But you don't

00:57:04.409 --> 00:57:06.429
hold anyone captive. You're not, you see what

00:57:06.429 --> 00:57:09.050
I'm saying? This person, all they want is what

00:57:09.050 --> 00:57:14.699
they can hold in this way. so that's why you

00:57:14.699 --> 00:57:19.679
want to and what i would ask is when you do this

00:57:19.679 --> 00:57:22.480
bit with the releasing ceremony we'd call releasing

00:57:22.480 --> 00:57:25.179
you have the person same and even because it's

00:57:25.179 --> 00:57:27.639
like releasing somebody's physical ashes okay

00:57:27.639 --> 00:57:34.039
is ask for and i'm gonna i want to work with

00:57:34.039 --> 00:57:37.480
your traditions and i'll translate is there a

00:57:37.480 --> 00:57:41.940
particular um set of spiritual traditions or

00:57:42.480 --> 00:57:46.559
Okay. Not at all. Okay. It's just love. Just

00:57:46.559 --> 00:57:48.500
everything. Yeah, that's what it is. I don't

00:57:48.500 --> 00:57:51.239
have a religion. It just is. Neither do we. For

00:57:51.239 --> 00:57:53.119
ours, it's a spiritual walk. That's all it is.

00:57:53.719 --> 00:57:55.900
So when you do this, giving everything back to

00:57:55.900 --> 00:57:58.400
Creator, in addition to your guardian spirit,

00:57:58.719 --> 00:58:04.860
ask that we, well, it would be, say, the Lord

00:58:04.860 --> 00:58:07.219
of Transformation. There's a particular spirit

00:58:07.219 --> 00:58:11.559
or an angel in this culture that makes sure,

00:58:12.139 --> 00:58:13.940
that everyone and everything is where they need

00:58:13.940 --> 00:58:18.719
to be. You know, if I go for the angelic, I believe

00:58:18.719 --> 00:58:22.099
it's Asriel, I believe. But in the native, we

00:58:22.099 --> 00:58:25.139
would just say, again, because there's only one

00:58:25.139 --> 00:58:30.480
king. So we would ask this, again, that a sacred

00:58:30.480 --> 00:58:36.920
spirit be sent to help with this soul healing.

00:58:37.260 --> 00:58:40.679
Everybody gets back what is theirs. And that

00:58:40.679 --> 00:58:42.460
for everyone to go to where they are supposed

00:58:42.460 --> 00:58:48.500
to be. And that's what you're doing. So you are

00:58:48.500 --> 00:58:50.099
restored and you're back here with your daughter,

00:58:50.159 --> 00:58:54.119
your household and the stuff that you know. And

00:58:54.119 --> 00:58:56.679
that this individual goes to where they need

00:58:56.679 --> 00:58:59.380
to be and is escorted so they harm no one else

00:58:59.380 --> 00:59:06.239
in the meantime. And with that, a natively very

00:59:06.239 --> 00:59:08.219
firm believer said everyone receives what they've

00:59:08.219 --> 00:59:14.829
earned. That's what it is. You know? Yeah. That's

00:59:14.829 --> 00:59:18.769
it. And even though when you begin to do this,

00:59:18.849 --> 00:59:21.710
expect for the phone to ring, interruptions,

00:59:21.710 --> 00:59:24.130
expect all of these, some of these shadows to

00:59:24.130 --> 00:59:27.369
appear because everything will be done to stop.

00:59:27.429 --> 00:59:32.050
The minute that you do this, he's forced to go

00:59:32.050 --> 00:59:35.750
to answer and to go forward on the journey that

00:59:35.750 --> 00:59:37.929
he's been trying to avoid. I don't know why that

00:59:37.929 --> 00:59:40.289
still scares me. It's funny when I'm by myself,

00:59:40.429 --> 00:59:47.130
I know that like my mind is, I don't know, like

00:59:47.130 --> 00:59:51.769
accounted for. Sure. Like, and someone has access

00:59:51.769 --> 00:59:54.429
to it more than one person. And it kind of scared

00:59:54.429 --> 00:59:57.230
me. Like I really felt like someone was in my

00:59:57.230 --> 00:59:59.150
soul. Like I didn't want to look in the mirror.

00:59:59.230 --> 01:00:01.789
I felt funny in the shower. I felt like people

01:00:01.789 --> 01:00:05.239
were like above me. More than one person, even.

01:00:05.320 --> 01:00:08.360
Like, I feel like he let other people in. Of

01:00:08.360 --> 01:00:11.340
those who were attached to him. Yeah. Yeah. But

01:00:11.340 --> 01:00:15.280
that's why when you do this, all of that, everyone

01:00:15.280 --> 01:00:18.179
and everything and everybody, it's restored to

01:00:18.179 --> 01:00:20.980
where they're supposed to be. Okay. That's the

01:00:20.980 --> 01:00:27.460
point. Okay. It's funny. It felt like, it did

01:00:27.460 --> 01:00:29.079
feel like he was making fun of me and like it

01:00:29.079 --> 01:00:31.619
was a joke. Yeah. But I was like, but even if

01:00:31.619 --> 01:00:34.949
it is, this is how I feel. And even if he's hurting

01:00:34.949 --> 01:00:38.170
me, that's how I felt. And I'm not stupid and

01:00:38.170 --> 01:00:41.110
I'm not silly. And love is love and love is powerful.

01:00:41.730 --> 01:00:47.650
I am okay. I'm a good person. I'm not a bad person.

01:00:47.769 --> 01:00:49.989
And anyone who would make fun of you for being

01:00:49.989 --> 01:00:52.769
like that or thinking like that is not good.

01:00:53.170 --> 01:00:55.670
And it's funny that I did think that way, but

01:00:55.670 --> 01:01:00.090
I still thought of him as giving me a gift to

01:01:00.090 --> 01:01:03.670
even be able to realize that. And I still like

01:01:03.670 --> 01:01:09.170
idolize because it's like, well, I would never

01:01:09.170 --> 01:01:12.710
take it back because now I have such a deep understanding

01:01:12.710 --> 01:01:16.269
of that is real. And thank goodness you've turned

01:01:16.269 --> 01:01:18.590
it. It is a gift and you've turned and you recognize

01:01:18.590 --> 01:01:20.809
and you turn it into the way that it was given

01:01:20.809 --> 01:01:24.610
was still incorrect. Yeah. That sense when you

01:01:24.610 --> 01:01:27.429
listen to the beginning of this recording. Right.

01:01:27.550 --> 01:01:29.889
Yeah. Learning about this is a very intimate

01:01:29.889 --> 01:01:33.760
thing. Yeah. And there's a way of having it unfold.

01:01:34.940 --> 01:01:38.179
That wasn't it. Yeah. And wanting to hold on

01:01:38.179 --> 01:01:41.880
to it and misuse it. That's not it. Yeah. I would

01:01:41.880 --> 01:01:44.440
never. Yeah. And that's beyond your scope of

01:01:44.440 --> 01:01:47.880
imagining. Yeah. An average good person doesn't

01:01:47.880 --> 01:01:50.980
operate that way. But someone who is like that,

01:01:51.059 --> 01:01:55.780
they do. Say, well, somebody wouldn't do this

01:01:55.780 --> 01:01:58.199
unless they love me in some way. Because that's

01:01:58.199 --> 01:02:00.119
the way you operate. That's not the way someone

01:02:00.119 --> 01:02:04.119
like that operates. Yeah. Yeah. So that's where

01:02:04.119 --> 01:02:08.579
the mind is trying to reconcile. Yeah. You know,

01:02:08.579 --> 01:02:10.619
and say, well, you know what? Let me reconcile

01:02:10.619 --> 01:02:14.079
it with it that I am a good person and there

01:02:14.079 --> 01:02:15.719
was a part of me that this was out of my scope

01:02:15.719 --> 01:02:17.800
of awareness and he took advantage of that nativity.

01:02:18.860 --> 01:02:22.019
Yeah. He took wrongful advantage of it. But I

01:02:22.019 --> 01:02:27.920
think, like, it's feeling that way and then it's

01:02:27.920 --> 01:02:32.590
like, but I definitely was. Your feelings were

01:02:32.590 --> 01:02:35.530
genuine. Yeah. Your feelings were genuine, but

01:02:35.530 --> 01:02:39.969
the way he, he made them happen was artificial.

01:02:40.090 --> 01:02:45.550
Yeah. It definitely seemed manipulated. Correct.

01:02:45.710 --> 01:02:49.510
Energy, like literal electricity and things.

01:02:49.630 --> 01:02:51.670
I'm like, well, if anyone, if you can do that,

01:02:51.769 --> 01:02:54.329
then like nothing's real and nothing matters,

01:02:54.369 --> 01:02:56.489
but we're here in this life and everything does

01:02:56.489 --> 01:02:59.150
matter. And I would never be dangerous or hurt

01:02:59.150 --> 01:03:02.289
anymore because everything does matter. But on

01:03:02.289 --> 01:03:06.309
a level, nothing matters because it's over and

01:03:06.309 --> 01:03:08.010
over and over. And if you can do things like

01:03:08.010 --> 01:03:11.349
that, then this is real. And it does matter because

01:03:11.349 --> 01:03:14.269
it's like trying to understand to. And this is

01:03:14.269 --> 01:03:18.710
what we would call the balance. So because you

01:03:18.710 --> 01:03:20.889
are good and it's not your destiny, so you're

01:03:20.889 --> 01:03:26.289
sitting here. Because of his way and what he

01:03:26.289 --> 01:03:31.059
has earned is why he's not. So yeah, it does

01:03:31.059 --> 01:03:34.400
matter. It does matter. And if you want to talk

01:03:34.400 --> 01:03:35.900
about manipulation, let me give you something

01:03:35.900 --> 01:03:39.500
that we actually enjoy and do every day. Think

01:03:39.500 --> 01:03:42.519
about when you watch a favorite program. You

01:03:42.519 --> 01:03:45.139
let yourself be open and the soundtrack and the

01:03:45.139 --> 01:03:47.559
actors and you can cry because you allow yourself

01:03:47.559 --> 01:03:50.460
to be manipulated in that moment. That attachment

01:03:50.460 --> 01:03:57.239
to his emotions. He did something similar. But

01:03:57.239 --> 01:03:59.199
this is a movie that he didn't sign up to see

01:03:59.199 --> 01:04:03.320
it by the ticket. Yeah. Yeah. It's interesting.

01:04:03.980 --> 01:04:07.500
I thought it was simple. I thought maybe everyone

01:04:07.500 --> 01:04:09.119
went through this. I'm like, is it because I

01:04:09.119 --> 01:04:11.639
sinned? Is it because I went against my husband?

01:04:12.000 --> 01:04:15.400
Is it like... No. Like it was like the literal...

01:04:15.400 --> 01:04:16.980
Sure. Yeah, well, you're trying to figure out

01:04:16.980 --> 01:04:19.460
the cause and effect. Like, what happened? Yeah.

01:04:19.599 --> 01:04:22.320
No. Again, that's where I want to go from a past

01:04:22.320 --> 01:04:29.579
life. And what was the potential, which was...

01:04:29.639 --> 01:04:32.840
for this individual in their lifetime was female

01:04:32.840 --> 01:04:38.159
to behave differently in this lifetime? Or we

01:04:38.159 --> 01:04:43.059
just did the same thing again? Was I male in

01:04:43.059 --> 01:04:44.719
this past life? In that past life, you were the

01:04:44.719 --> 01:04:49.340
male. That's funny because I did also think that

01:04:49.340 --> 01:04:52.280
there was a question like bodies don't matter

01:04:52.280 --> 01:04:55.219
because righteousness can be anywhere. Anything

01:04:55.219 --> 01:04:59.800
can be manipulated. on a crazy level like i was

01:04:59.800 --> 01:05:02.380
like philosophically and like you know i was

01:05:02.380 --> 01:05:06.360
like wow that makes sense and then the more i

01:05:06.360 --> 01:05:11.179
was like huh maybe the crazier shit got and i

01:05:11.179 --> 01:05:15.300
was like well that's i mean that is that is happening

01:05:15.300 --> 01:05:17.619
and this person just said that or i just saw

01:05:17.619 --> 01:05:20.599
that or this is what i felt and that's okay because

01:05:20.599 --> 01:05:26.800
i'm here and i'm me and I'm safe. And you are.

01:05:26.900 --> 01:05:28.519
And let's share. So I'm going to share with you

01:05:28.519 --> 01:05:32.679
the teachings from my people. For us, we say,

01:05:32.719 --> 01:05:35.239
again, what the Great Spirit, it's the Great

01:05:35.239 --> 01:05:38.360
Spirit who brings our souls into being, that

01:05:38.360 --> 01:05:42.059
designs us, if you will. And it is the Great

01:05:42.059 --> 01:05:46.920
Spirit that chooses what we need to do and what

01:05:46.920 --> 01:05:50.179
we're meant to learn. However, we have the gift

01:05:50.179 --> 01:05:53.550
of free will to choose and have experience. Hence,

01:05:53.550 --> 01:05:57.670
soul agreements like this. So for us, it's a

01:05:57.670 --> 01:06:02.369
co -creation always of mutual respect that comes.

01:06:02.409 --> 01:06:06.909
It's not a dictation like this. So yes, we are

01:06:06.909 --> 01:06:08.989
beings of light. We're part of the breath of

01:06:08.989 --> 01:06:11.989
the creator spirit. In Native, this lifetime,

01:06:12.190 --> 01:06:14.969
we're human. Maybe next lifetime, if we need

01:06:14.969 --> 01:06:16.710
to learn cooperation, we might come back as a

01:06:16.710 --> 01:06:21.150
honeybee. Who knows? But it's still that safe

01:06:21.150 --> 01:06:23.519
creator says, I need you to learn to work in

01:06:23.519 --> 01:06:28.460
greater coordination. So, but you don't need

01:06:28.460 --> 01:06:30.420
a long lesson. A honeybee worker bee only lives

01:06:30.420 --> 01:06:34.019
six weeks. And you say, well, you know what?

01:06:34.179 --> 01:06:36.360
Maybe I would like to learn that, but maybe where

01:06:36.360 --> 01:06:38.239
I could really feel surrounded by a lot of love

01:06:38.239 --> 01:06:43.559
and sisterhood. Do you see what I mean? So it's

01:06:43.559 --> 01:06:48.960
always a co -creation. And not just, so this

01:06:48.960 --> 01:06:51.389
is when you're saying, and this is like, Yeah,

01:06:51.570 --> 01:06:54.730
we're beings of light and so forth, but it's

01:06:54.730 --> 01:06:59.050
not a random anybody gets free range. We call

01:06:59.050 --> 01:07:01.949
it the dream weave of which, aka the dream catchers,

01:07:02.010 --> 01:07:06.530
are symbolic of that. It's not just capturing

01:07:06.530 --> 01:07:09.070
bad dreams. One of the deeper teachings is that

01:07:09.070 --> 01:07:15.389
we weave with the creator. We weave. So in this

01:07:15.389 --> 01:07:18.530
lifetime, because there's a part of you that

01:07:18.530 --> 01:07:23.309
wondered, is not only to experience the feminine

01:07:23.309 --> 01:07:26.730
and divine feminine but wondered what that experience

01:07:26.730 --> 01:07:32.929
would be like you know and at this point if we

01:07:32.929 --> 01:07:34.550
go with the greater you're not the only wheel

01:07:34.550 --> 01:07:38.230
that's turning right now we need the divine feminine

01:07:38.230 --> 01:07:43.190
to get this planet back in balance yeah i was

01:07:43.190 --> 01:07:48.590
seeing basically that the i thought that since

01:07:48.590 --> 01:07:52.889
we're all magic can't we all put our intention

01:07:52.889 --> 01:07:56.690
to heal and we don't need to be here because

01:07:56.690 --> 01:08:00.170
here is any but not getting crazy because it's

01:08:00.170 --> 01:08:04.250
like i would never run out in the street and

01:08:04.250 --> 01:08:06.530
like yell at someone i would never hurt myself

01:08:06.530 --> 01:08:09.949
or anyone else because i know that i'm just here

01:08:10.440 --> 01:08:13.119
but also thinking and feeling. And it's like

01:08:13.119 --> 01:08:15.940
getting confused sometimes by other people's

01:08:15.940 --> 01:08:18.239
thoughts and feelings. Like I take that in and

01:08:18.239 --> 01:08:23.220
I'm like, yeah, that's probably not mine. But

01:08:23.220 --> 01:08:25.859
yeah, I basically thought that I was like getting

01:08:25.859 --> 01:08:29.520
a chance to be reset and that I can literally

01:08:29.520 --> 01:08:34.279
make anything in my life be. And it's like, well,

01:08:34.340 --> 01:08:36.159
what, what body do you want to be? Like, are

01:08:36.159 --> 01:08:40.010
you a girl or a boy? Obviously I'm a girl. And

01:08:40.010 --> 01:08:43.850
I'm not gay. And I look like me. I'm me. I'm

01:08:43.850 --> 01:08:46.569
me. I don't need to be somebody else. But I really

01:08:46.569 --> 01:08:49.630
thought that it was like, you can just take over

01:08:49.630 --> 01:08:52.909
other people's bodies. That's what I was getting.

01:08:53.189 --> 01:08:55.369
That's what I was getting. And I'm like, you

01:08:55.369 --> 01:08:58.050
can't do that, though. You cannot do that. That's

01:08:58.050 --> 01:09:02.949
evil. In Native, we call them skinwalkers. Okay.

01:09:03.770 --> 01:09:07.810
I felt like he wasn't really actually the person

01:09:07.810 --> 01:09:10.489
that I knew. Correct, because he started being

01:09:10.489 --> 01:09:14.090
taken over by the things that he was, I'm going

01:09:14.090 --> 01:09:18.949
to say, working with. So he consciously did that,

01:09:19.090 --> 01:09:22.989
and something jumped into him that was connected

01:09:22.989 --> 01:09:29.489
to me in a past life? That was probably trying

01:09:29.489 --> 01:09:31.670
to get me, maybe. That's what I'm saying. So

01:09:31.670 --> 01:09:34.529
this comes to here. Good news is that we can

01:09:34.529 --> 01:09:40.630
get off this whirly gig. Okay, good. And that

01:09:40.630 --> 01:09:44.329
he and the beings that are attached to him can

01:09:44.329 --> 01:09:47.909
go where they need to go. And you and the ones

01:09:47.909 --> 01:09:50.810
who walk with you are here and you grow healthy

01:09:50.810 --> 01:09:53.810
and strong on your path. That's all that needs

01:09:53.810 --> 01:09:57.729
to be focused on right now. Okay. Thank you for

01:09:57.729 --> 01:10:00.909
saying that and verifying that because I really

01:10:00.909 --> 01:10:05.270
did feel like he was not even like actually him.

01:10:05.760 --> 01:10:08.020
Like, I really did feel like it was other people

01:10:08.020 --> 01:10:11.500
in his body, and I was aware of that, and I let

01:10:11.500 --> 01:10:16.699
that happen. Like, I can say I sensed that he

01:10:16.699 --> 01:10:20.539
was not him, and I still was like, okay. But

01:10:20.539 --> 01:10:21.779
you couldn't have stopped it anyway because he

01:10:21.779 --> 01:10:25.779
was choosing that. And the beings of evil, they

01:10:25.779 --> 01:10:29.239
have no boundaries. Now you understand how evil

01:10:29.239 --> 01:10:35.689
operates. Yeah, it was a lot. That's how evil

01:10:35.689 --> 01:10:39.329
operates, my dear. I was concerned that that

01:10:39.329 --> 01:10:43.010
was happening to my daughter. She is protected

01:10:43.010 --> 01:10:46.930
enough, but the love of a mother is a very strong

01:10:46.930 --> 01:10:52.770
thing. So with that, you can ask and empower

01:10:52.770 --> 01:10:55.369
the ones who walk with her to give stronger strength

01:10:55.369 --> 01:11:01.409
and protection. And it runs in bloodlines. So,

01:11:01.409 --> 01:11:05.890
okay, you're here now. So the one would be learning

01:11:05.890 --> 01:11:09.470
about how to handle your gift of empathy, which

01:11:09.470 --> 01:11:12.770
is why if you walk, it's hard to discern the

01:11:12.770 --> 01:11:14.550
boundaries between people's emotions and your

01:11:14.550 --> 01:11:18.750
own. There is a part of you that's also telepathic.

01:11:19.850 --> 01:11:24.529
So it's not just his. Once you remove him, part

01:11:24.529 --> 01:11:27.449
of it's going to dull down again because this

01:11:27.449 --> 01:11:31.609
is artificial, but not shut completely so it

01:11:31.609 --> 01:11:33.739
can grow naturally. good because it's hard for

01:11:33.739 --> 01:11:36.460
me to live a normal life like normal from like

01:11:36.460 --> 01:11:40.180
what before what i thought like yep yep and then

01:11:40.180 --> 01:11:43.039
i am like well i know what i used to do but for

01:11:43.039 --> 01:11:46.659
whatever reason i like it's like really hard

01:11:46.659 --> 01:11:49.520
for me to function right because of that awareness

01:11:49.520 --> 01:11:53.840
right like well it is i still need to function

01:11:53.840 --> 01:11:58.100
right but i feel so sad and i don't want to like

01:11:58.100 --> 01:12:00.520
it's it's yeah yeah there's a lot that's going

01:12:00.520 --> 01:12:03.399
on so What's going to happen? That's why I'm

01:12:03.399 --> 01:12:04.680
letting you know that when you begin to do this

01:12:04.680 --> 01:12:06.680
releasing and you ask these higher divine forces

01:12:06.680 --> 01:12:14.100
to intercede, be prepared. That's so funny. This

01:12:14.100 --> 01:12:17.260
is on random. That's part of the bear chant.

01:12:18.039 --> 01:12:25.859
The bear is power, justice, protection. The bear

01:12:25.859 --> 01:12:29.720
says what the lion is to European. so since you

01:12:29.720 --> 01:12:31.939
have a child you know like aslan from narnia

01:12:31.939 --> 01:12:34.939
uh -huh the bear would be like our like our aslan

01:12:34.939 --> 01:12:39.859
oh okay that's just like okay that's okay got

01:12:39.859 --> 01:12:42.619
it anyway it's on random as you know i'm not

01:12:42.619 --> 01:12:45.560
touching the thing yeah that's yeah it was a

01:12:45.560 --> 01:12:48.920
lots of interference that i'm i didn't know correct

01:12:48.920 --> 01:12:51.659
seems manipulated though like it didn't seem

01:12:51.659 --> 01:12:56.829
like god or spirit i was like this can't be Just

01:12:56.829 --> 01:13:00.390
that. This is him and the ones attached to him

01:13:00.390 --> 01:13:05.109
that are trying to cheat. So once you begin,

01:13:05.229 --> 01:13:07.210
that's why I think it's very interesting. It's

01:13:07.210 --> 01:13:13.630
like, okay. Persevere. Ask for these higher forces.

01:13:14.750 --> 01:13:16.869
They're going to intercede for you and then also

01:13:16.869 --> 01:13:21.090
for your daughter. And then from here, now that

01:13:21.090 --> 01:13:24.199
you know that you're a mutant. it's funny because

01:13:24.199 --> 01:13:27.500
i kind of always knew i just my husband would

01:13:27.500 --> 01:13:30.600
dismiss me that when i was was so busy yeah doing

01:13:30.600 --> 01:13:33.399
everyday things well sure sure this is it's all

01:13:33.399 --> 01:13:37.260
right now it's like wandavision but anyway so

01:13:37.260 --> 01:13:40.140
then you're going to learn a couple things the

01:13:40.140 --> 01:13:43.840
first one is going to be um again just your gift

01:13:43.840 --> 01:13:49.199
of empathy right then I'm going to recommend

01:13:49.199 --> 01:13:51.439
a book now that you have to buy one. I'm a firm

01:13:51.439 --> 01:13:53.500
believer, as you can tell, of testing, pushing,

01:13:53.619 --> 01:13:57.739
looking first. And it's called Psychic Development

01:13:57.739 --> 01:14:01.100
for Beginners. Okay. I use it as a textbook when

01:14:01.100 --> 01:14:04.180
I teach people. What I like about Hewitt, he's

01:14:04.180 --> 01:14:06.640
safe, he's ethical. You can roll up your sleeves

01:14:06.640 --> 01:14:09.739
and they're good exercises. And what it does

01:14:09.739 --> 01:14:11.680
is that it runs the whole gamut of different

01:14:11.680 --> 01:14:16.640
abilities. So you see which ones go click and

01:14:16.640 --> 01:14:18.880
others are going to go clunk. So you begin to

01:14:18.880 --> 01:14:22.000
naturally go, oh, so even though, you know, it's

01:14:22.000 --> 01:14:24.640
some spirit ability and so forth, but it gives

01:14:24.640 --> 01:14:26.819
you exercises. What's really nice is that with

01:14:26.819 --> 01:14:28.619
your daughter, how old's your daughter now? Four.

01:14:29.060 --> 01:14:31.460
Okay. What's really nice is that you can even

01:14:31.460 --> 01:14:35.340
work with her, like, you know, with colors, you

01:14:35.340 --> 01:14:37.399
know, like the colors of the angels, like the

01:14:37.399 --> 01:14:41.359
colors and connecting with the animals. And in

01:14:41.359 --> 01:14:44.180
this way, she can even tell you, you know, like

01:14:44.180 --> 01:14:45.539
connecting with your guardian spirit, there's

01:14:45.539 --> 01:14:49.279
things that you can do as mom. So with that,

01:14:49.319 --> 01:14:52.239
it's really nice so that you can begin to, the

01:14:52.239 --> 01:14:57.359
heart, once it's restored, and the head are meant

01:14:57.359 --> 01:14:59.840
to work together. And that's what you're doing

01:14:59.840 --> 01:15:03.279
is heal and integration, as we did in the beginning

01:15:03.279 --> 01:15:05.979
of this reading. Things integrating together.

01:15:07.020 --> 01:15:10.859
And then as you become stronger, you don't have

01:15:10.859 --> 01:15:14.340
to be sucking in everybody's everything. You

01:15:14.340 --> 01:15:17.149
can create. just like in your home you know you

01:15:17.149 --> 01:15:19.569
try to create a place of sanctuary like here

01:15:19.569 --> 01:15:23.390
and the difference between good and evil is that

01:15:23.390 --> 01:15:27.310
here it's ambient but it's still your choice

01:15:27.310 --> 01:15:30.250
whether to embrace this energy or not i don't

01:15:30.250 --> 01:15:34.390
ever force it you know we're evil you know you're

01:15:34.390 --> 01:15:36.810
seeing how it operates yeah it's like the drug

01:15:36.810 --> 01:15:39.630
pusher yeah you know here have a hidden before

01:15:39.630 --> 01:15:44.039
you know it yeah the good news is that unlike

01:15:44.039 --> 01:15:45.819
a drug that can really alter your chemistry and

01:15:45.819 --> 01:15:48.640
you can be screwed forever, you're not anywhere

01:15:48.640 --> 01:15:52.159
near that. Yeah. Thank you. You're not anywhere

01:15:52.159 --> 01:15:55.619
near that. Good. Right. So that's what I want

01:15:55.619 --> 01:15:58.640
to say to you. And you know you're getting close

01:15:58.640 --> 01:16:01.140
because suddenly you're going to feel the interference

01:16:01.140 --> 01:16:03.399
from the emotions and guilt and visions and da

01:16:03.399 --> 01:16:05.680
-da -da. It's like, okay, I'm going to consider

01:16:05.680 --> 01:16:07.500
it to be backhand compliment. The fact that all

01:16:07.500 --> 01:16:09.180
this interference is coming up means I'm right

01:16:09.180 --> 01:16:12.449
on the mark. how i felt yep that's how i felt

01:16:12.449 --> 01:16:15.789
the whole time yep i'm like i know who i am i

01:16:15.789 --> 01:16:18.229
know where i come from i know my family is strong

01:16:18.229 --> 01:16:21.770
i know we are good yes i know that there's credits

01:16:21.770 --> 01:16:24.550
and debts and i'm probably worth a lot because

01:16:24.550 --> 01:16:29.270
why would that happen i'm like that's okay i'm

01:16:29.270 --> 01:16:33.350
strong being be feeling is not weakness that

01:16:33.350 --> 01:16:36.210
takes strength 100 and doing the right thing

01:16:36.210 --> 01:16:40.300
and protecting and showing love takes strength

01:16:40.300 --> 01:16:43.159
that's not weakness correct and it's i'm like

01:16:43.159 --> 01:16:45.840
this painful but that's okay because i'm strong

01:16:45.840 --> 01:16:48.939
like it's like but going beyond that in native

01:16:48.939 --> 01:16:54.880
way again joy of life the joy of living so i

01:16:54.880 --> 01:16:58.020
know a lot in western they have this a lot i

01:16:58.020 --> 01:17:01.000
know i guess this is a remarking there's a lot

01:17:01.000 --> 01:17:05.380
of idea of punishment and pain a lot but again

01:17:05.380 --> 01:17:10.369
pain It is only a passing aspect. There's a greater

01:17:10.369 --> 01:17:14.510
joy. You know, a greater light, a greater warmth.

01:17:15.909 --> 01:17:21.250
See what I'm saying to you? So growth is not

01:17:21.250 --> 01:17:23.670
always pain. Think of what you're doing for your

01:17:23.670 --> 01:17:28.250
child, right? You know, you try to make it warm

01:17:28.250 --> 01:17:33.050
and happy. So there's that cultivation, that

01:17:33.050 --> 01:17:35.970
nourishment. Begin seeking that for yourself.

01:17:36.660 --> 01:17:38.720
Okay. Cultivating nourishment. And if you're

01:17:38.720 --> 01:17:41.520
saying it because his mom's in his busy 21st

01:17:41.520 --> 01:17:45.479
century, say, you know what? Would I treat someone

01:17:45.479 --> 01:17:49.819
I love the way that I'm treating me? And the

01:17:49.819 --> 01:17:54.279
answer is no. Okay. See where I'm driving to?

01:17:55.739 --> 01:17:59.439
Then say, well, what would I change or what would

01:17:59.439 --> 01:18:02.300
I say? Then begin to take your own good medicine.

01:18:04.600 --> 01:18:10.289
See what I mean? And then there's love and support.

01:18:11.529 --> 01:18:15.890
Yeah. It's funny. I don't know why I hold that.

01:18:17.670 --> 01:18:20.529
It's like I tell myself I don't deserve that,

01:18:20.630 --> 01:18:22.949
but I would give it to somebody that I don't

01:18:22.949 --> 01:18:27.029
even know before I get it, you know? And that's

01:18:27.029 --> 01:18:30.449
all. There's the heart of your personal healing

01:18:30.449 --> 01:18:33.069
journey. But that's what this vampire latched

01:18:33.069 --> 01:18:35.689
onto. They're very good at seeing somebody's

01:18:35.689 --> 01:18:42.050
weak spot. So you just need to distill two things.

01:18:42.149 --> 01:18:47.090
This is part of your journey uninterrupted. Your

01:18:47.090 --> 01:18:54.510
nature is to be giving. Part of your soul is

01:18:54.510 --> 01:19:00.130
learning to receive. And there's also discernment,

01:19:00.130 --> 01:19:02.930
right? Now, as her mom's going to talk to this

01:19:02.930 --> 01:19:05.090
one mom to another, because when we were kids

01:19:05.090 --> 01:19:07.640
too, we thought that... We were grown up enough

01:19:07.640 --> 01:19:10.220
to be able to earn the right to eat all of the

01:19:10.220 --> 01:19:13.300
ice cream. Because, yeah, we'll eat dinner, right?

01:19:17.060 --> 01:19:21.520
I just think, so here, when you're thinking you're

01:19:21.520 --> 01:19:24.640
not worthy, that's an old wound. That's an old

01:19:24.640 --> 01:19:30.140
wound. Examine where it comes from. But if you

01:19:30.140 --> 01:19:32.600
weren't worthy, I want you to look at some heart

01:19:32.600 --> 01:19:36.199
evidence. Would you have the good people who

01:19:36.199 --> 01:19:41.260
are around you? Would you have doors opening

01:19:41.260 --> 01:19:43.600
to you like they are? Do you see what I'm saying?

01:19:43.640 --> 01:19:45.220
Look at the hard evidence. Life is a reflection.

01:19:45.800 --> 01:19:49.560
Yeah. You see what I mean? Yeah. Say, well, where

01:19:49.560 --> 01:19:51.119
did this guy come from? Well, part of it was

01:19:51.119 --> 01:19:57.359
a past life, and he blew it. But because you

01:19:57.359 --> 01:20:00.260
want to make sure that you and others whom you

01:20:00.260 --> 01:20:04.539
love don't get hurt. This is the equivalent of

01:20:04.539 --> 01:20:08.279
the rope wave getting street smarts. Yeah. That's

01:20:08.279 --> 01:20:10.500
what happens. Spiritual street smarts. Spiritual

01:20:10.500 --> 01:20:14.300
street smarts. That's what you got. Yeah. I thought

01:20:14.300 --> 01:20:19.680
I made a mistake by not asking questions. When

01:20:19.680 --> 01:20:22.060
I'm by myself, I don't say things out loud. I

01:20:22.060 --> 01:20:26.260
used to. And then I was getting more. Things

01:20:26.260 --> 01:20:29.619
would literally appear or songs would come on.

01:20:29.939 --> 01:20:33.979
Those are messages. So then it was a little bit

01:20:33.979 --> 01:20:35.779
much for me. So then I was like, I'm not going

01:20:35.779 --> 01:20:38.960
to say anything out loud. I'm just going to sleep.

01:20:39.239 --> 01:20:41.579
Like I'm just going to, I can't handle it. Messages

01:20:41.579 --> 01:20:49.739
come anyway. Yeah. I felt like I didn't want

01:20:49.739 --> 01:20:53.899
to manipulate anything. I felt like I was making

01:20:53.899 --> 01:20:56.239
things happen and I was like, but I don't want

01:20:56.239 --> 01:20:58.420
to. There's a difference. And then we're going

01:20:58.420 --> 01:20:59.720
to close to the blessing because I want to make

01:20:59.720 --> 01:21:01.600
sure that you go home and that I know Bev wants

01:21:01.600 --> 01:21:05.920
to go home too. Okay. Let's put it this way.

01:21:08.060 --> 01:21:13.060
The difference between interaction versus manipulation

01:21:13.060 --> 01:21:19.609
is manipulation is against the will. Or against

01:21:19.609 --> 01:21:21.449
always something where someone was meant to be

01:21:21.449 --> 01:21:26.970
interacted with. Right? But there needs to be

01:21:26.970 --> 01:21:32.130
interaction. So, but if that interaction is one

01:21:32.130 --> 01:21:37.029
where everybody knows the boundaries, setting

01:21:37.029 --> 01:21:43.670
of expectations, then so be it. You know? So

01:21:43.670 --> 01:21:46.449
that's the difference. That's the difference.

01:21:47.399 --> 01:21:50.899
You know, so if anything, another thing with

01:21:50.899 --> 01:21:54.180
street smarts that you learned is, you know,

01:21:54.180 --> 01:21:58.680
if you're not open, if you're, you know, to the

01:21:58.680 --> 01:22:02.720
idea that you can be manipulated and having a

01:22:02.720 --> 01:22:06.199
stronger interaction with your protectors, when

01:22:06.199 --> 01:22:13.939
the language happens. So in Native style, Saipanaman

01:22:13.939 --> 01:22:17.180
is a sharing, it's a culture that I know. is

01:22:17.180 --> 01:22:21.619
say if, with the spirit of the animals, I say,

01:22:21.659 --> 01:22:25.819
you know, I would like to ask for a prayer fan

01:22:25.819 --> 01:22:29.819
to be able to help others. Is there any bird

01:22:29.819 --> 01:22:32.579
out there who would like to offer to help me?

01:22:34.239 --> 01:22:40.319
And so suddenly, this macaw, and the owner said,

01:22:40.479 --> 01:22:44.000
or I'm saying the human companion said, by the

01:22:44.000 --> 01:22:47.779
way, these are for you. Oh, my gosh. I don't

01:22:47.779 --> 01:22:52.359
know why. I said, thank you. So I said, what

01:22:52.359 --> 01:22:58.100
is your feather baby allowed to have? So I spoiled

01:22:58.100 --> 01:23:00.960
that bird rotten. Oh. I said, thank you. Yeah.

01:23:01.699 --> 01:23:04.439
So see what I'm saying? So there was an asking.

01:23:04.560 --> 01:23:06.579
It's not taking. Correct. It's asking and then

01:23:06.579 --> 01:23:08.760
receiving. That's the thing I have trouble with

01:23:08.760 --> 01:23:12.430
is receiving. And you'll hear that. Is me asking?

01:23:12.470 --> 01:23:15.510
I feel like I shouldn't be asking. Of course

01:23:15.510 --> 01:23:18.470
you should. Of course you should. Let me tell

01:23:18.470 --> 01:23:19.909
you what happens. I hope the world for everybody

01:23:19.909 --> 01:23:22.210
else, but I don't want to ask. I don't know why

01:23:22.210 --> 01:23:25.670
that is. Because of lessons you've had in this

01:23:25.670 --> 01:23:28.289
lifetime and past lifetimes. But let me tell

01:23:28.289 --> 01:23:29.890
you what happens when you don't. First of all,

01:23:29.909 --> 01:23:32.989
you get weird crap like this, right? Not you're

01:23:32.989 --> 01:23:34.189
going to have anything as bad as this again.

01:23:34.489 --> 01:23:38.210
That much I do know. You're protected. But let's

01:23:38.210 --> 01:23:42.210
do it in a microcosm. Imagine going into a restaurant

01:23:42.210 --> 01:23:46.010
and your server goes, what would you like to

01:23:46.010 --> 01:23:48.470
eat today? Welcome. And you go, I don't want

01:23:48.470 --> 01:23:49.670
to ask for anything. You'll know the right thing

01:23:49.670 --> 01:23:52.909
I want to eat. I have not. And the server goes,

01:23:53.189 --> 01:23:56.850
uh, which is different than saying, you know

01:23:56.850 --> 01:24:00.350
what? I'm in the mood for, um, you know, something

01:24:00.350 --> 01:24:03.289
that's vegetarian. And what would you recommend?

01:24:03.550 --> 01:24:06.250
Yeah. That's different than going and saying,

01:24:06.329 --> 01:24:10.810
um, right. Yeah. yeah and then you get something

01:24:10.810 --> 01:24:15.369
and you may or may not like it versus saying

01:24:15.369 --> 01:24:19.529
this is what i'm asking for these are the parameters

01:24:19.529 --> 01:24:23.710
of it yeah what you got yeah that's different

01:24:23.710 --> 01:24:27.149
giving and receiving giving and receiving i need

01:24:27.149 --> 01:24:29.329
to work on that giving and receiving so that's

01:24:29.329 --> 01:24:31.689
why when you do this and if you have difficulty

01:24:31.689 --> 01:24:35.109
i can help you but i firmly believe that you

01:24:35.109 --> 01:24:39.890
are more than capable and I'm going to release

01:24:39.890 --> 01:24:41.670
you from the Western mind because it's a pass

01:24:41.670 --> 01:24:45.409
-fail mindset. Please stop. Yeah. You've been

01:24:45.409 --> 01:24:48.930
through a lot. You're tired. So if you do this

01:24:48.930 --> 01:24:51.750
and you feel like, I feel that I got it mostly,

01:24:51.949 --> 01:24:54.130
but now you know the difference from walking

01:24:54.130 --> 01:24:57.710
in and out of here. Yeah. Right. Then there's

01:24:57.710 --> 01:25:00.350
nothing wrong with it. It's equated that, imagine

01:25:00.350 --> 01:25:03.329
if somebody is sick and they make themselves

01:25:03.329 --> 01:25:05.970
better, but they need that last antibiotic to

01:25:05.970 --> 01:25:09.000
bump them into being. into being completely well.

01:25:09.100 --> 01:25:12.100
Would you beat that person because they couldn't

01:25:12.100 --> 01:25:13.699
magically create the antibiotics themselves?

01:25:14.100 --> 01:25:18.159
No. Hello. So don't do that to yourself. Release

01:25:18.159 --> 01:25:23.340
the judgment. Right? Say, you know what? I learned

01:25:23.340 --> 01:25:26.899
a valuable lesson. I feel I can do this. And

01:25:26.899 --> 01:25:30.359
if you do it most of the way, you know, but not

01:25:30.359 --> 01:25:32.060
all of the way, say, you know what? I'm very

01:25:32.060 --> 01:25:35.460
proud I was able to do this. But, you know, just

01:25:35.460 --> 01:25:37.840
kind of like having an infection. I can strengthen

01:25:37.840 --> 01:25:39.760
the body, but I might need like that spiritual

01:25:39.760 --> 01:25:44.800
antibiotic to just kick it. Yeah. That's it.

01:25:45.500 --> 01:25:49.720
Okay. That's it. That's all you have to do. Right.

01:25:50.220 --> 01:25:52.659
And then like, so with your daughter, you know,

01:25:52.659 --> 01:25:54.739
she's protected and this might be really nice

01:25:54.739 --> 01:25:58.939
where she can learn from the very beginning that,

01:25:59.020 --> 01:26:02.060
you know, these abilities is when I teach little

01:26:02.060 --> 01:26:04.779
ones, it's like, I said, this is not like, you

01:26:04.779 --> 01:26:08.770
know, like freak street. It's supernatural, which

01:26:08.770 --> 01:26:11.930
means it's extremely natural. Yeah. All of our

01:26:11.930 --> 01:26:13.630
ancestors around the world had this to some degree

01:26:13.630 --> 01:26:16.310
so that we could survive and interact. It's only

01:26:16.310 --> 01:26:20.310
in recent times with the wanting to control the

01:26:20.310 --> 01:26:23.189
population that they cut the head from the heart.

01:26:23.829 --> 01:26:26.810
Yeah. And try to have you be in the mind. Well,

01:26:26.829 --> 01:26:29.050
what does the mind do? It operates on fear and

01:26:29.050 --> 01:26:30.630
makes sure that you don't get eaten by a bear.

01:26:31.329 --> 01:26:33.710
Defense the bear. But you get the idea. Yeah.

01:26:34.229 --> 01:26:38.579
So now you're just reconnecting. That's it. love

01:26:38.579 --> 01:26:41.380
it right thank you you're welcome notice that

01:26:41.380 --> 01:26:43.380
you feel more like yourself you have nothing

01:26:43.380 --> 01:26:45.579
to be afraid of so you know when you step outside

01:26:45.579 --> 01:26:48.619
of there that that monkey will will creep on

01:26:48.619 --> 01:26:50.720
your back but you know that this is a monkey

01:26:50.720 --> 01:26:55.439
this is not king kong good yeah that's another

01:26:55.439 --> 01:26:59.079
thing i was very afraid that it was like if i

01:26:59.079 --> 01:27:02.699
did something wrong or whatever i was doing was

01:27:02.699 --> 01:27:06.819
affecting the world because from just my perspective

01:27:07.520 --> 01:27:10.920
Not saying like I control, not saying that, but

01:27:10.920 --> 01:27:14.640
it's like, I'm perceiving this world. If I can

01:27:14.640 --> 01:27:17.279
control what I perceive because I can control

01:27:17.279 --> 01:27:21.460
my surroundings, I can make it a lovely place.

01:27:21.479 --> 01:27:23.979
Like I was so happy. I was like, Oh, you can

01:27:23.979 --> 01:27:27.579
just trust everyone and everyone is love. But

01:27:27.579 --> 01:27:30.779
now you got, now you got spiritual street sports.

01:27:30.819 --> 01:27:32.979
I, for whatever reason, really believe that.

01:27:33.079 --> 01:27:36.039
Like, that's what I like felt. You know, if we

01:27:36.039 --> 01:27:37.859
were truly in a state of balance and harmony,

01:27:38.159 --> 01:27:43.060
that is correct. But we're here and that everybody

01:27:43.060 --> 01:27:46.500
chooses to operate that way. Yeah. That's what

01:27:46.500 --> 01:27:50.460
I knew before when I was normal head thinking,

01:27:50.579 --> 01:27:55.680
just from like my growing up. But then I was

01:27:55.680 --> 01:27:59.039
like, whoa, it's, I just felt like people could

01:27:59.039 --> 01:28:02.300
see me like in a way that I didn't, I wasn't

01:28:02.300 --> 01:28:06.119
aware. I wasn't aware that. of anything spiritual,

01:28:06.279 --> 01:28:09.659
really. And then it was kind of just, and then

01:28:09.659 --> 01:28:12.640
I didn't know what anything was. And I'm like,

01:28:12.659 --> 01:28:16.760
well, who knows? It's all anything. It knows.

01:28:17.180 --> 01:28:19.739
And just consider, you know, your senses have

01:28:19.739 --> 01:28:23.239
become enhanced and that's when, so they're enhanced.

01:28:23.399 --> 01:28:24.859
And then really that's when you said in your

01:28:24.859 --> 01:28:29.539
head, you know, is this TMI? Yeah. Okay. Yeah.

01:28:30.109 --> 01:28:33.270
But I do enjoy it. I just was very confused,

01:28:33.510 --> 01:28:37.310
and I did feel at my core that that was wrong.

01:28:38.050 --> 01:28:44.250
Right. But I still said yes to it. But that's

01:28:44.250 --> 01:28:47.149
okay, because now... You've learned. Yeah. You've

01:28:47.149 --> 01:28:53.029
learned, because, again, a predator knows that

01:28:53.029 --> 01:28:54.470
you don't know exactly what you're saying yes

01:28:54.470 --> 01:29:00.340
to. Yeah. Yeah. Consider that. Yeah. You thought

01:29:00.340 --> 01:29:01.619
you knew what you were saying yesterday. And

01:29:01.619 --> 01:29:03.539
that's the opposite of what I would ever want

01:29:03.539 --> 01:29:05.979
for anyone. Correct. The opposite between good

01:29:05.979 --> 01:29:07.380
and evil. You've got to have full disclosure.

01:29:08.000 --> 01:29:10.119
Yeah. That's why, if you noticed here, that's

01:29:10.119 --> 01:29:11.819
how good operates. I give you full disclosure,

01:29:11.899 --> 01:29:13.439
and not only did I say full disclosure, I said

01:29:13.439 --> 01:29:17.279
test it. Try to debunk it. Yeah. Rattle it around

01:29:17.279 --> 01:29:21.220
respectfully. Rattle it around. Yeah. And come

01:29:21.220 --> 01:29:23.439
to your own conclusions. Yeah. That's how it

01:29:23.439 --> 01:29:26.760
operates. That's how it should be. Yeah. Okay.

01:29:26.819 --> 01:29:28.340
So we're going to finish with a blessing as well,

01:29:28.380 --> 01:29:31.000
if you can put your hands this way. Ahud is said,

01:29:31.119 --> 01:29:33.920
and until we speak again, may the blessings of

01:29:33.920 --> 01:29:37.020
clarity of mind, freedom of spirit, and strength

01:29:37.020 --> 01:29:38.859
of the body be with you and those whom you love.

01:29:39.500 --> 01:29:43.880
Thank you so much for coming to see me today.

01:29:44.340 --> 01:29:49.100
Thank you. You're very, very welcome. And so

01:29:49.100 --> 01:29:56.659
it is. What a beautiful way to articulate A complex,

01:29:57.079 --> 01:30:07.659
multidimensional, multi -lifetime contract with

01:30:07.659 --> 01:30:16.100
a flare of spite. That's the word. Spitefulness.

01:30:18.100 --> 01:30:22.520
I can take it. That's why I'm here. It's what

01:30:22.520 --> 01:30:27.119
I'm made for, baby. So I just really enjoyed

01:30:27.119 --> 01:30:30.380
listening to this and it was very empowering

01:30:30.380 --> 01:30:34.460
for me. I hope you're not thinking that I'm like

01:30:34.460 --> 01:30:40.000
some cocky lady over here saying how much I love

01:30:40.000 --> 01:30:43.279
myself and I'm proud of myself. But I really,

01:30:43.579 --> 01:30:48.039
it's becoming more and more clear to me. This

01:30:48.039 --> 01:30:50.979
is what I'm made for. This is why I'm here. I'm

01:30:50.979 --> 01:30:55.100
built for this and more. So I'm excited to be

01:30:55.100 --> 01:30:59.880
alive, actually. And I appreciate all of the

01:30:59.880 --> 01:31:03.119
lessons that I've had throughout my lifetimes

01:31:03.119 --> 01:31:06.359
to come to this conclusion and have the opportunity

01:31:06.359 --> 01:31:10.140
to be here now to make a change for the positive.

01:31:11.039 --> 01:31:15.380
And I hope you all feel the same every day. In

01:31:15.380 --> 01:31:18.180
so many ways, you can make positive changes.

01:31:20.569 --> 01:31:24.470
I have to cost money. It can be as simple as

01:31:24.470 --> 01:31:30.770
your time or acknowledging someone in real time

01:31:30.770 --> 01:31:33.329
instead of ignoring them, making those connections

01:31:33.329 --> 01:31:39.869
and keeping an open mind. Thank you so much for

01:31:39.869 --> 01:31:42.750
listening. And again, I hope you enjoyed this.

01:31:42.850 --> 01:31:46.550
I would love to hear from you. I hope you enjoy.

01:31:47.239 --> 01:31:50.140
whatever time of day it is, wherever you are,

01:31:50.239 --> 01:31:54.159
all around the world. I see some listeners around

01:31:54.159 --> 01:31:58.340
the world, unless it's VPNs. In any event, I

01:31:58.340 --> 01:32:02.039
wanted to give a huge shout out to Jeremy Silva,

01:32:02.340 --> 01:32:05.020
a .k .a. Steelo Free, who was our guest last

01:32:05.020 --> 01:32:08.380
week. He offered his track, Lights and Shadows,

01:32:08.560 --> 01:32:11.720
for the show. I asked if he had any music he'd

01:32:11.720 --> 01:32:14.819
be willing to share. Because I'm kind of, you

01:32:14.819 --> 01:32:16.880
know, I'm just starting. I don't know what I'm

01:32:16.880 --> 01:32:19.920
doing. I'm finding different songs here and there.

01:32:20.020 --> 01:32:22.180
I always like to include music. It's a huge part

01:32:22.180 --> 01:32:25.119
of my life. And I really dig his music. You should

01:32:25.119 --> 01:32:28.479
check him out. There are links in his show notes

01:32:28.479 --> 01:32:31.659
to get to his Spotify. But from now on, you'll

01:32:31.659 --> 01:32:34.039
be able to enjoy his track Lights and Shadows

01:32:34.039 --> 01:32:37.819
in the intro and outro of the show. All right.

01:32:37.979 --> 01:33:13.840
Take care. I'll see you next time. Bye. We'll

01:33:13.840 --> 01:33:54.569
be right back. I had to find a way to be grateful

01:33:54.569 --> 01:33:58.010
for them locked doors that you may close. When

01:33:58.010 --> 01:34:01.289
doves cry, it's so painful, but the purple rain

01:34:01.289 --> 01:34:24.529
is so graceful. Cause pressure may die. I'm fighting

01:34:24.529 --> 01:34:27.430
battles, lost between the lights and the shadows.

01:34:27.649 --> 01:34:29.649
Trying to shoot me down, I'm dodging all the

01:34:29.649 --> 01:34:32.569
ammo. Left me hanging, I escape from the gallows.

01:34:32.729 --> 01:34:35.090
Swim through the ether, blowing on a reefer.

01:34:35.189 --> 01:34:37.630
Running like Rev when he rapped about Adidas.

01:34:38.590 --> 01:34:41.229
It's like my flow is heaven sent. My energy can

01:34:41.229 --> 01:34:43.569
shift the cards in your tarot deck. Life ain't

01:34:43.569 --> 01:34:46.050
always what it seem. An alternate reality, I'm

01:34:46.050 --> 01:34:48.689
living in a dream. I got the Stussy on the T

01:34:48.689 --> 01:35:02.039
with the 501 gene. Peace. You know the rest.