Hello and welcome to another episode of In My
Experience with yours truly, Christine DiGinto.
This podcast is a space where I speak from lived
experience. The moments that shaped me, challenged
me, and changed the way that I understand myself
in the world. The awakenings, the breakdowns,
the moments that cracked me open, asked me to
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to explore the gray areas we don't often have
language for, to slow things down and listen
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surface. You'll hear solo episodes where I reflect
on my own initiations, spiritual gifts, and the
systems that try to define me. and conversations
with guests who have walked strange, beautiful,
and sometimes painful paths of their own and
come back with wisdom to share with us. I invite
you to take what resonates, leave the rest, and
trust your own experience as valid. Thank you
for being here. This is In My Experience. Welcome
back to In My Experience, I'm Christine DiGinto.
Today, I'm talking with someone who has had a
huge impact on my spiritual path, Amy Belair.
Amy is a spiritual mentor and Akashic teacher,
and she's played a huge role in helping me trust
my intuition and developing the gifts that I
already had. Through her courses, programs, and
spaces that she creates for people to practice,
and explore, she has really helped me in honing
my own abilities, understanding my experiences
in a way that felt grounded and empowering. Her
work is a big part of why I started exploring
the Akashic Records and taking my own psychic
experiences seriously. In this episode, we talk
a lot about what's been moving lately. from the
intense energies surrounding the recent total
lunar eclipse and the deeper process of reorganizing
life from the inside out. We get into healing,
grief, consciousness, psychic gifts, homeschooling,
and the bigger collective challenges that many
people are feeling right now with many levels
of disclosure coming through. We also talk about
clairvoyance, telepathy, inner knowing, and the
reality that so many of us are having experiences
that we have never really given language for.
Amy has been someone who helps people make sense
of those experiences and trusts themselves more
deeply, and I am really grateful for the role
that she has played in my own journey. In honor
of Amy's guest appearance in this episode and
a recent download that I received, I decided
to block schedule Akashic Records readings at
a 40 % discount with a code that can be found
in the show notes for listeners only. I was cleaning
my bathroom, scrubbing away, and all of a sudden
I saw it very clearly that I should... pick some
certain times of day, days of the week, and dedicate
certain hours like a block for myself to get
into that mode and just optimize my time. So
if you're interested, if you've been considering
an Akashic Records reading, if you've been considering
working with me, now's your chance. So check
out the show notes for the link on how to book
that. This is such a rich and meaningful conversation,
and I'm excited to share it with you. Hi, how
are you? I'm good. How are you doing? Good. Oh,
I like your setup. All your plants look so bright
in there. Yeah. It used to be covered with my
husband's junk, and then one day I was like,
no. Yeah. Well, that's okay. It's not acceptable.
Yeah. This past weekend, I started organizing
a lot. I've had this office area, which you can't
see because I'm in the corner here, but my desk
is over there and then I have a little hutch
and it has shelves. I have this bookshelf and
so much clutter, mail, bills, things that I don't
give a fuck about, paper. And I'm like, what?
Why? I just threw it all away. I just threw it
all away. I was like, I filed some things, I
got organized, but this weekend I was really
feeling the energy to just like get shit together
finally. And I really feel it like it's still
ramping up. Are you feeling that similarly? Yeah.
I feel like this is totally like the energy of
this eclipse is like, get your shit in order
and get rid of everything that is sort of like
all the Virgo in details that are dragging you
down. Just get it organized, get it in. Yes.
I totally agree. I thank you so much for taking
your time to be here with me today. And I also
want to introduce you, but let's chat for a minute
too. Or we could include this. It's up to you.
We could just start or chat a little bit and
then start. What do you want to do? Do you want
to talk about what we want to talk about or just
let it flow? I mean, we can, we can let it flow.
Do you have, yeah. Do you have any, is there
anything that you've come that you want to talk
about? Yeah, just really intense energies lately.
A lot of stuff getting like, oh, and I also wanted
to talk with you about the 20 and back program
stuff, which you're one of the only people to
have ever described, described the by location
of my consciousness that way. Um, and when you
were telling me, four years ago about that. First
of all, I didn't know what you were talking about
at all. Second of all, I didn't even really realize
that I was bilocated. And then in the past, I
went on a retreat in the beginning of November
with Chris King, and he recommended that I work
with someone who has a lot of personal experience
in the business. Sorry, I started choking in
the secret space program. So I've been working
in a container with him and I paid for like,
I don't know, nine sessions and I schedule them
when I need to. And he helps me access these
memories that, yeah, it's been wild. But anyway,
I just wanted to say, thank you so much for articulating
it the way you did, putting me in the right direction.
And it took me, I didn't start looking into that
stuff right away. Because I had so many other
things in my 3D life that I couldn't even...
I had to just focus on my everyday, what was
coming at me, let alone another version of me.
I just couldn't even get to that. But now I've
started to unravel it and it's been very interesting.
Yeah. Is relevant now. It's like saying things
like that to somebody in a reading is so strange
because it's it's like very ungrounded very unusual
and it's always a feeling of like Is this gonna
is this helpful to the person for me to say this?
But I could I kind of just like trust when something
feels like it just wants to like out of my mouth
Like I just say it anyway, but I'm glad it's
thank you It seems a little bit of myself down
to be like, okay, now this is a supportive thing
to help understand the way that your consciousness
works. Yeah. Yeah. And I know that that's not
something that you normally say to people because
you did reiterate that to me. You're like, I
want to be very careful with this, but I think
that you're in the 20 back program and you were
right. And I'm still unraveling that. I don't
even know what my complete involvement is. And
to be completely honest, I don't... What I'm
working more toward is disconnecting from that
version because apparently, it was like my consciousness
was abducted and copied and now functioning with
my resources, essentially. It's a copy. And it's
so funny, I started watching this movie and I
have not finished it yet, but Mickey17, have
you heard of that at all? No. What's his name?
Who is the vampire in the... in the movies with
the vampire movies, Edward. I know what you mean.
Yeah. His name was Edwin. Okay. What's his real
name? The actor. I don't know. I can't. I know
who you mean. You know who I'm talking about.
Is it Jonathan Edwards? No. What's his name?
Because he was also Cedric Diggory in the Harry
Potter movies. Yeah. Yeah. I can't think of it.
Anyway, you all know who we're talking about.
He's in it. essentially like Earth is mid and
people are starting to leave to go on this colony
with a failed political person who's obviously
like a cult leader. And they travel into space
and he signs up to be an expendable, which means
that they make copies of him every 24 hours and
his consciousness gets re -uploaded. And he has
to sit every week and get it downloaded again
so he doesn't have any big gaps. It's like And
then I'm watching this and they send him on the
worst missions. They send him out first to breathe
the air and see if he got sick. And he did. He
got very sick. And then they repeatedly exposed
him to it so they could work out a vaccine for
everyone else on the ship to then be able to...
It's crazy. And it's just illuminating so many
different things. And I'm like, wow. There's
a reason I didn't finish it. I was like, I'm
good on this for now because this is hitting
too hard. But yeah, it's crazy. And just so many
other ways of reorganizing life, not just physically,
not just mail and bills or rooms and things,
but taking action on things that have been dormant
and waiting. And it's almost like, they come
up in your face to be seen. And it's like, obviously
I have to follow this thread. And it's just,
it's been so exciting, but so many changes over
here. I started homeschooling my daughter, which
I wanted to do for a long time. And then finally
I just like pulled the trigger. So that's good.
She's actually still sleeping. And what I was
thinking about earlier this morning is like,
first of all, she's growing. She's a manifestor.
There was just an eclipse full moon. Like she
needs to be sleeping. you know, and I would,
I would feel sad on the days where I would have
to like force her to get up and go, you know,
she, she in the morning, sometimes not every
morning, but sometimes she'll tell me about dreams
she's had and they are fascinating to hear about.
And I encourage her to like write them down and,
you know, kind of keep track of them myself.
Uh, and I would like to focus on that more. Like,
kind of make that part of the first thing we
do every day. It's like, how was your dreamscape?
And actively work to set her up before bed so
that she can have safe travels. That's amazing.
That's so amazing. Yeah, totally. What are we
doing here? I mean, to an extent, having an understanding
of geography matters and geology and the climate
and weather patterns. Yes, to an extent, all
of that matters. And I'm not saying to the exclusion
of all these things, but let's just curate for
ourselves what we feel intuitively is important
as beings who exist in this realm, in this environment,
as opposed to following the prescribed protocol
of education and what we're supposed to pay attention
to. And you got to wonder why we're supposed
to be paying attention to that and focused on
that. And I also came to a realization recently,
still healing from separation, divorce, kind
of like an abusive relationship, which is interesting
because He called me the other day and was like,
are you talking online about abuse? And I was
like, what? I guess things just kind of come
out as I'm talking about them. But like, I mean.
If it quacks like a duck and it wants like a
duck, like I mean, I'm not saying you abused
me I'm just saying I experienced abuse and this
is my journey. I'm processing abuse. Yeah, like
yeah, like I'm entitled to do so. Yeah, like
I'm not talking about you I'm talking about me,
but I understand he wants his privacy and all
that which is all good and I understand why that
would be but Just like accepting and seeing things
from a different lens like realizing that things
were done intentionally to hurt me and Getting
to the point where in the past I would think
about these examples and I would get very very
sad and confused and I would be like but why
like and it's a sort of like the naive state
of like us like a Soul that is just like cannot
understand why someone would do things like that
like because that part of processing, naivety,
but it's also purity. The fact that I couldn't
even conceptualize doing that and I didn't even
realize that that could be something... It's
because I'm not a bad person, you know what I
mean? But you're not a bad person if you can
understand it either. The difference between
psychology and the spiritual understanding is
another thing I'm grasping differently. I'm no
longer sad or confused. I'm just like, oh, okay,
that's what it was. And I'm really actually able
to detach from things now that come up in retrospect.
And they're coming up, I'm sure, for a reason.
But it's like, oh, it's much easier to let go,
is what I mean. Because it no longer has the
charge of sadness, confusion. There's not grief
or regret or anything tied to it. So it's just
like... letting it go, actually. So it feels
good. That's amazing. Yeah. How about you? What's
new in your world? What's going on lately? Well,
I mean, okay, so on one hand, in all the ways
that really matter, I just feel so grateful for
this season of life. I have such a deep gratitude
for the version of me who Like said yes every
point along the way to this business because
now like i'm i'm doing this and this is this
is such a weird season for me because you know
my father died unexpectedly in july and i also
had a miscarriage at the exact same time and
it was just so much. to deal with. And then I
got, you know, hit with a really huge tax bill
and the business, I had bought a second business,
a boutique was sort of like my, in hindsight,
I'm like, you were hoping to escape your destiny
as a highly impactful person. Like you, the part
of you that was scared of your soul mission wanted
to just find a way to be a muggle. And your higher
self is like, no, you shall henceforth and forever
nevermore make money. doing anything other than
your soul mission. So I just was carrying a lot,
a lot of stress and a lot of weight and similar
to the situation that you went through for years.
It's like long standing, ongoing sort of circumstances
that don't resolve overnight. And it's just the
requirement of deep patience and surrender and
like recalibrating and like this is the plan
and this is what I'm doing and to find gratitude
and the tiny incremental successes along the
way. But it's been so, so as I say that I'm like
really grateful to the version of me that said
yes at every point leading up to this past year,
especially the version of me that said yes to
leaving the job and the career that I previously
had that was no longer aligned for me. and having
no idea if this was going to work or not. And
I just did it and went for it anyway, and then
stayed with it every time I wanted to quit and
felt discouraged. I'm so grateful because now,
even though I'm in a really challenging season,
and it's not the most financially fruitful season,
and I owe so much in taxes that I don't keep
anything. Anything that comes in, all of it is
allocated to life expenses and then debt repayment.
But I'm like, But I get to do this work and I
would be doing it for free anyway Like this is
how much I love it and I'm so glad that I chose
it when I could Yeah, so that now that I'm going
through this difficult season at least I don't
hate my job I'm so grateful for that. So yeah,
so it's still a really hard season really hard
And the I'm in Canada so the the the CRA which
is like the You know the analog the Canadian
analog to the IRS Okay, yes, you don't need the
tax. Yes. Yeah, they're not playing nice. They're
not being nice to me at all so there's a lot
of stress on my shoulders, but It's almost like
you know sometimes when you get backed into a
corner. There's nothing left to lean into but
love Yeah. And it just rearranges all of your
priorities. And so I'm actually really grateful
for this season. It's not comfortable and it's
not fun and it does not relent. It's very difficult
to be in this right now, but I'm also able to
see that. All I want is God. And all I want is,
it makes the 5D so clear to me and it makes it
so clear to me my point of power in every moment.
And the point of power is like, Am I turning
towards despair and stress and anxiety and the
programs of the false matrix that have us feeling
trapped, or do I turn towards God, whatever that
means? To me, it's just a term that I'm comfortable
using to describe the totality and benevolence.
My freedom is also here. I can choose it in any
moment, regardless of my circumstances. have
that be so heavily tested and to be like, oh
yeah, I fucking learned some shit. The results.
Yeah. And then every time in the future it happens,
it's like a mountain. You look down at everything
that you've scaled and you're just like, yeah,
fuck, I got that shit. And you just keep climbing.
It's so great. And I'm so happy to hear that.
And you're reminding me now of everything everywhere
all at once. When she's dealing with the tax,
situation and she has to show love to her or
something. She's coming at her about to beat
the shit out of her. The next jump pad is you
have to profess your love to her. That's literally
where you are at right now. And I love it so
much. Actually, Christine, we just had the lunar
eclipse, the blood moon lunar eclipse in Virgo
yesterday. The eclipse showed up for me as the
CRA seizing my business bank accounts and stealing
all the money from them. And so that was like,
that's all I could deal with yesterday was just
like, oh my God, and they won't give it back.
Like they're just, you know, and I'm like, guys,
how am I supposed to pay you if I can't receiving
like, if I can't actually conduct a business,
but they don't care. So that that's was what
was happening. And I was like, I know that the
solution is not any external action right now.
The solution, the next jump pad is to find the
thing inside of myself that needs to be healed
and like unlocked and the power that needs to
be reclaimed. Not from an oppositional like,
like it would be so easy to just like hate my
my my collections agent and blame the government,
which I am not a fan of the government, but that's
not the place to hang out. Do you know what I
mean? Like that's not the point of power. There
are, it's almost like, whoa, the labyrinth is
all inside of me. And it's, you know, it's this
process of like winding through the difficult
things that still have to get resolved in order
for me to completely shift into the 5D, which
sounds, I mean, you know, all I do is talk about
the 5D. And so I'm becoming aware of like how
spiritually bypassy and ridiculous it can sound
to people sometimes. But I'm like, I can feel
it. I see it. I feel it. I know how we function.
I can feel like these are the things that are
holding me back. And I could blame the false
matrix right now. Or I could understand that
I have to figure this puzzle out. in order to
resolve it so I can move beyond it, not just
like, oh, so I can have money again or whatever.
Like, yes, whatever. But that doesn't really
matter. That's not what matters. What matters
is the freedom of my own consciousness and what
I can create as I am willing to pay the price
to reclaim that freedom. Mm -hmm. Yes. And there
are strategies like regarding taxes. There are...
very creative ways. There are loopholes. All
you have to do is know the law. Well, that's
not your job and that's annoying. But do you
have a really good tax person to help you not
just resolve what's existing, but to prepare
going forward? Just saying, this is years and
years ago. I feel like it's almost 10 years ago
at this point. Yeah, over 10 years. Because I'm
looking at my boss's picture. I have a picture
of him. keep it on my desk. That's how I venerate
people that really matter to me. I connect with
him often and he taught me so much. He was a
CPA, which is a certified public accountant.
So interesting. When I first started working
with him, I was an administrative assistant and
a representative from the IRS came in and he
was no longer doing the tax portion of the business.
He'd given that to his son. He also had a payroll
company. He gave that to his other son. And then
he started an investment business, a registered
investment advisor where he was a fiduciary and
he made like tax advice and business. uh, insurance
and investments. And I assisted him, but I just
started working there and IRS person comes in
and he says, I need these files, blah, blah,
blah, blah, blah. So I go to Ron. I say this
IRS agent is here and he says, we have to do
this. He's like, Oh no, tell him that I don't
have time today. He can come back another time,
a scheduled appointment. And I was just like,
Okay. I guess because from my, I was also very
young. I was, I think 19 when I started there.
And so for me, I was like, Oh my God, you're
a badass. You're just being like, I don't have
time for that today. Like, and I'm like, but
that's really actually how it is. It's really
just an attitude. And that's true of any interaction
with anyone. No one is above you. People will
come in and try to bully you, try to put you
down, try to make them be over you and give you
orders. And it's when you realize how weak they
actually are because they're doing that, that's
when you can, we've talked about this before,
shift your light to just reflect a different
perspective from them. It's like when you figure
that out in your mind, instead of being like
this motherfucker and being negative, shift down
in your heart. And I'm not telling you what to
do. I'm saying this to other people listening,
because you obviously already know how to do
this. But for me, it's automatic. I shift down
into my heart. I'm just like, oh, poor thing.
They must really have had a difficult time at
some point where somebody either did this to
them or they didn't have any control in their
life. And this is how they... Get their jollies
and you know, there's more to them than this,
you know, and it's just it's funny It's just
funny. It's interesting to do. I always uh, I
don't know I don't I actually don't know how
I have the time to like do all that happens like
really fast, you know, like all the thinking
about all the different things and dynamics that
like aren't actually Present in the current moment
like it's not pertinent to what's happening.
You know, someone could be giving you like verbal
instructions and you're just over here thinking
about like, I wonder what happened to them when
they were like 12. Like you're like getting all
this information and it's like, oh, but without
like prying, you know, I don't mean it that way.
No, but it's like, I think that's part of what
Is part of this consciousness expansion process
that you know where we're all experiencing we're
just receiving it and playing with it to different
degrees according to our own journey but i think
like where is. for a long time we related to
each other at that surface -immediate level of
the verbal instructions they're giving, where
we are now accessing deeper and deeper, you could
say multi -dimensional layers, but just meaning
there are different layers of the person that
you're interacting with and the situation and
the scenario. It kind of reminds me of those
in whatever, sci -fi movies or Shows where they
have those glasses those smart glasses that have
like a little invisible screen that they can
only see their eye that's like Analyzing the
whole situation and giving them additional feedback
It's kind of like that but it's through your
own heart and through your own consciousness
and I really think that's what this stage of
the game is about is Basically, it's like being
a lucid dreamer within the dream and calling
the bluff of Calling the bluff of the situation,
but I don't mean that like for example I have
every intention of paying the money that I owe
in my taxes so I'm not saying that like oh, you
know the consequences be damned and and It but
the paying of it is part of my own healing I
can feel that you know, and and so it's like
calling the bluff of the surface level perception
of the urgency and the emergency and the scarcity
or whatever wounds are happening so for me obviously
those are the particular wounds that are being
activated but like. Let's say if it's in a relationship
dynamic it's like calling the bluff of that program.
fear response of like the fear of rejection,
the fear of abandonment, the fear of not being
good enough, the fear of being judged, the fear
of being betrayed or like whatever things are
coming up for any of us in any given scenario.
We're just being given this opportunity to Call
the bluff and had like live out our own personal
version of that final scene in the original Matrix
movie when he just Understands that it's all
code like it's code the agents are code. He's
code. It's all the same It's all the same field
of information and then it no longer likes Has
the same power over us that once did yes, I've
been finding more Lately than ever before because
it has happened before but it's sort of more
like when I'm getting downloads, but now it's
like constant It's an additional awareness like
it's like I'm experiencing my own thoughts But
I'm also observing them from above and then I
guess even from above that because if I can see
this higher I guess I'm even you know what I
mean Yeah, and then so then I like sort of like
break myself down like a Russian doll. You know
what I mean? Like it's like And then I just like
clear it all away. It seems, sounds easy. Sounds
easy. But the more you do it, the easier it is.
You know, it's not, it's not hard to do to stop
yourself. Like you're saying, like you can stop
yourself and see in the moment, like the higher
perspective, like, oh, this isn't actually something
I need to worry about. This isn't actually the
end of the world. Like I can, I'm definitely
going to get through this. And I also wanted
to say, I'm so happy and I so I'm so proud of
the version of you and you that has always said
yes to your business because you have been such
a wonderful resource and a very encouraging mentor.
Amy is the reason that I started in the Akashic
Records in the first place. Her courses, I've
taken like, I don't know. A good handful. Like
12 maybe. and been part of different programs
that were like long -term because I just love
being in your energy that the things that we
talk about, like the way that you express and
articulate the energies that are coming through.
It's just such valuable information. I really
appreciate it. Not only do I appreciate you,
but I also appreciate everyone that I have been
able to connect with because of you and your
programs. So yeah, like you said, the universe
is forcing you because it's like, this is really
important. Because if that's me, think about
all of the other long -term people that participate
in programs with you compounded, right? So it's
like the groups that they meet and connect with.
And there are people in common that will probably
in the future connect those people that... weren't
connected before. And it's still all part of
your, it comes from your message and encouragement
for us to be sovereign in ourselves and trust
our intuition and to slow down and hone in our
clairs. And I just appreciate you so much and
I'm so thankful. Oh my gosh, Christine. That
makes me so happy. You have no idea, especially
that little piece of like the people that you've
met. Through joining the group programs why always
i'm so obsessed with doing live group programs
because it. I can't it's that is. Beyond me,
that's outside of me. I just know that I, I just
attract cool people and that's all I need to
do is just attract cool people and create spaces
for them to connect with each other and magic
will occur. And it has nothing to do with me
beyond that, but the power, the ripple effect,
like you said, like the people who meet that
and talk about this to the people. And it doesn't
even matter if it ever comes back to me or if
I ever know it doesn't fucking matter. What,
what matters is that. this beautiful ripple of
freedom and possibility and just like permission
and encouragement to pursue what our soul is
calling us towards in a world that actively discourages
that. Yes. Yes. It is so needed. I could be a
little bit biased and it could just be like my
algorithm, what I'm looking at. But it seems
like many of the people that I associate with
are really ready to unplug from the system and
be like, yeah, you know what? It's getting to
the point where I think I might have to be out.
I don't know. It would be awesome if I could
move to another country. I'm not saying that
I don't like America. I like the world. I like
earth and I like humans and animals and plants.
It's not about countries. It's about all of it.
But yeah, it's getting wild. Yeah. What are you
seeing? I would love to hear. I just had a conversation
with Chris King the other day about some of the
things he's seeing and hearing. And on that day,
it was like just one day. of his life, but he's
been seeing and hearing a lot. There's a lot
of turmoil in his immediate sphere. It sounds
like similar situations to what I'm going through,
just different versions. you know, obviously,
they're really grinding us in the economy right
now. I'll set up the flip over into the digital
currency. But so like, there's a lot of that
that's activated. And then like a lot of emotional
distress at the release of you know, I don't
know. Did these things get censored anymore?
I don't think so. Everybody's talking about the
Epstein. Oh, I don't give a shit. I talk about
whatever. You know me. The release of the Epstein
files and then like the geopolitical, you know,
like stuff that's going on. So from what he shared
in his corner, it's people are, you know, in
a really activated state of just being like,
oh my God, this is so stressful. This is so overwhelming.
Yeah. What are you observing? I feel like a lot
of the disclosure regarding things of this nature
were revealed to me four years ago in that timeline
jump and also personally because of the karmic
ties that I have with specific people that I
believe are associated with groups that do those
types of things as well. So I've had to conceptualize
this for a little bit longer. I know there are
people who are like conspiracy theorists, like
we've been talking about this for years and now
you always called us crazy. Now I didn't like,
I didn't try to talk about this with people like
we're strangers, but it was very clear to me
that like that is one of the main ways that the
false matrix is powered, besides the general
public, which is actually the biggest portion.
But then they do this to direct those types of
energies and to manipulate the fields and just
wreak havoc as chaos does. But I'm feeling...
I'm feeling glad that I conceptualized it earlier
and I can understand how destabilizing it is.
I feel like there could be soul loss level of
upset in people. When people get very, very stressed
out or traumatized, it's traumatizing. So that's
another reason that they're disclosing it. and
they haven't disclosed all of it, and they never
will. But that is the reason that they are dumping
all this stuff on us is for us to fracture. So
it's really, really important to shift how we're
visualizing those things. I mean, somebody's
got to read through them and report on them so
the general public can hear the atrocities. We
need to hear the atrocities so that we can...
accept that that is in our reality. And then,
you know, because that's the only way to change
it. First, we have to like see it, accept it,
then be like, no, that's not happening. What
are we going to do to change it? I don't know.
I would love for people to die, but that's me.
I don't know. That's not really... I can't say.
It's not up to me. I'm just saying. But personally,
I would kill people anyway. Maybe I'll edit that.
Maybe someone will use it against me. I don't
actually care. It's so funny. Earlier before
we started recording, I actually Googled myself
because I was on Instagram and I saw an ad for,
I don't know, delete me or something. And it's
like, control your information. Don't let people
be able to search all your contact information
and blah, blah. And it's like, when's the last
time you Googled yourself? And I was like, that's
a good question. So I did it to see what came
up. And the first thing that came up was the
GoFundMe that I made, which I no longer need.
So I was like, okay. So I deactivated that. And
then I was going down and there was something
and it was like, get all of her information and
social reputation. I was like, the fuck? And
I clicked into it and it was like, low. And I
started laughing because it's like... They might
have reports like credit and criminal records
and stuff. And then it's like social media and
like sexual stuff. And I'm like, wait, what?
And then, so I didn't pay for the report or anything.
And yeah, they probably make everyone seem a
little bit bad because then it's like, ooh, I
want to know what's on their record and I wouldn't
buy it. Sorry. But it's just funny to me because
what, in what framework is this being measured?
And by whom? Yeah, right. And to what level do
I actually give a fuck? Because I have a criminal
record for going against legal, I don't even
know what to call them, actions, legal, coercive
control. I was fighting against coercive control
that was used by the legal system from someone
specifically. So I don't care. if I have a record
for that, because in hindsight and when I consider
myself as a soul and I look back and it's like,
what would I want to do? Would I conform and
be a good girl and follow the law? Or would I
be like, no, this is wrong. I don't agree. And
I don't care what the consequences are. Probably
the latter. So it's like... Am I credit score
gone? Does it even matter? No. These are the
things like, it's just so freeing to get to this
place where... It's like Terrence McKenna was
saying, it's going to get so weird. So weird
that people are going to have to actually talk
about how weird it is. And things are going to
break down and it's going to be like something
that we have never experienced. And that's what
happens when we... depart for the stars. I feel
like it's very important for us to be in our
hearts and to, instead of envisioning all of
the horrible things that are happening, envision
saving the kids. I was talking about this with
someone that I just recently recorded with. Instead
of visualizing the bad things, visualize putting
a field of energy protection around any kid that
is still in a system like that, right? Where
if somebody comes into the radius of 10 feet,
they're going to fucking spontaneously combust.
You can do that with your energy. That's the
things that I like to do too. When I hear about
horrible things, I also like to shift it. It's
actually one of my favorite things to do because
it's like, no, we can't let this be. Because
it's a double -loose harvest otherwise. They're
harvesting off of, it's the same with the geopolitical
turmoil and the war and the suffering of civilians.
Like any of these things, it's a double sort
of like feed for the false matrix if we don't
understand it. And so they feed off of obviously
the suffering created by those who are directly
affected. And then they feed off of the absolute
like mayhem, like freaking out levels of turmoil
that are felt by all of us who are... witnessing
it through usually social media and feeling helpless
to do anything about it. And it's like, I'm not
interested in giving the false matrix any of
my energy anymore. Does that mean I'm perfect
and I, um, you know, I'm clued into it all the
time? No, but I'm becoming increasingly aware
of the feeling that comes with it's sometimes
hidden under a little gross feeling, self -indulgent
dopamine hit. So it has a little moment of feeling
kind of good, but, but underneath it, it's like
It just takes you farther away from that which
is beautiful and pure. And so I do the same thing,
Christine. There's this like Dr. Phil episode
that I saw probably like 20 years ago, so long
ago, that still haunts me. And it was a mom who
for whatever reason she was like, she would rage
at her children. and in particular, it just makes
me want to cry just talking about it. She would
take it out on her oldest son and they had video
footage of the way that she would treat him.
They put cameras in, I don't know, unbeknownst
to her. I don't even know. Was it real? I don't
have any idea, but it got in my psyche. The way
that she would treat him rips my heart out of
my chest. I just can't fathom treating your child
that way and I also know that To be a human is
very complicated But when I feel this level of
turmoil and I'm like, I don't even remember his
name. He's probably like 30 something years old
now like there's no I can't do anything about
it But what I can do is imagine him as a little
boy and just bring him for a snuggle and I do
that Yeah, like when it sometimes it'll just
come into my brain and reactivate that like which
is connected to a past life trauma for me Reactivate
that center of like oh my god somebody Somebody
was treating their child like that. And then
it's connected to the knowing that many children
are treated like that. Never mind all the, you
know, terrible ritual abuse of children. Yeah,
but like it's connected to all of that. And then
I just imagine him and I just like hold him and
tell him. how perfect he is and how much I love
him and I can feel them that that shifts my energy
back into the organic grid that we want to feed.
Staying in this super activated state of either
despair, hopelessness, demoralization. I mean,
rage is really sacred. I think rage is sacred
and it's appropriate to feel rage as we learn
in great detail about all of these things. But
just making sure that the rage, the fire of rage
is not consuming us. And if we are going to burn,
then it's going to be a fucking phoenix situation
where we rise from the ashes of that rage that
we feel in the moment and that the false matrix
just doesn't get our energy. And that's sometimes
all we can do, but it's also not That is not
a negligible choice. It is very, very, it has
a huge ripple effect into the field when we choose
to be in our hearts and we choose to be in a
state of love. And I also, 2020 was my big year
for learning. Like I didn't, you know, all the,
all the conspiracy theorists who are in 2020
were like, we've been talking about this for
years. 2020 was my year to learn what they had
been talking about and all the Pizza Gate stuff
and Epstein and all that. So I went through my
period of shock and horror and all the things
and I don't think there's any way to speed through
that. But for all of us who have encountered
it by whatever exposure we have before, I don't
think it's really helpful to be like, we've been
talking about this for years and we're right.
It's just like, it's not helpful. That's not
it. Okay. It's just like, love the people who
are learning about it now. It's a good lot to
learn about. It's a lot to hold. Because how
did you feel when you learned it? It's horrible.
It's that, that heavy energy in your gut. It's
the, I would like sweat and my heart would pass.
You know what I mean? Like that's. That's stress.
That's trauma. And so like, think about that.
Like when you learn horrible things and then
you're, why would you laugh about it and be like,
Oh, you just found that out. I knew about that.
Like in a cocky way, instead of being like, I'm
so sorry. Like, I'm glad that you are here with
us. Like it's a contest. Like you get a prize
for having learned earlier on the time. Totally.
And there was a point where, unless we directly
experienced it, Unless we were exposed in a direct
way, there's a point where we all didn't know
about it. There's nothing to judge in each other.
All the people who are newly awakening right
now, I just feel like, welcome. May the field
that I've spent the last six and a half years
creating feel like a soft place to land and you're
not alone. It did four years ago. Yeah. I mean,
I found your stuff. I don't even know. I think
it was the podcast first. And I felt like after
finding out, I wanted to talk about it. I was
finding out this information about... I'm like,
what the heck is anything? I really wanted to
talk about it. Nobody could understand really
what I was saying. I didn't have safe spaces
to talk about it. And it made me really feel
crazy. And then connecting with your information,
even just listening to you, not even talking
to you, just listening. And then it's like, okay,
I know I'm not alone. And then just expanding
more and more. It's just so helpful. So yes,
that will happen. Yeah, and well and with all
of us hopefully right that we would all just
be like, you know welcome whether it's just you
know, everybody doesn't have to create a podcast
just have Kind interactions on the internet with
people, you know, that's enough. That's enough
these days Yeah, yeah It's so funny. Now I take
it back. I wouldn't kill people because I've
actually like, like I said earlier, I've been
in a situation where I had to reflect on it in
a personal way, where I had to consider potentially
harm to that level coming to a child. And I did
not, I was not violent. I know you wouldn't kill
anyone. And it took quite a bit of energy to
be Calm but yeah, yeah, I wouldn't kill anyone
because I know that would just hurt my karma
and I know that They'll be taken care of I have
no fear and you've totally and you've always
been so like something I've always admired so
much about you like from the very first reading
we ever had was just that no matter how Stressful
and difficult your situation was and it was and
it was for a long time you kept coming back to
this desire to lift everybody involved up to
a higher like Echelon of consciousness through
the heart and So I know I know when you say like
I would kill it's what you're saying is like
that is such a firm boundary within me of it's
that sacred rage of like Children shall not be
harmed in these ways in particular, but at all,
and it's not tolerable. So all you're saying
is, I don't tolerate this. Yes. Yes. Absolutely.
Thank you for verbalizing it that way. But I
did want to clarify, I wouldn't do that because
I don't wish harm and it doesn't bring me joy
to like hurt people enough. I don't even like
to think that way actually, because again, it's
really important to be aware of our thoughts.
Like, shouldn't even think that way. And it's
funny, last night when I was falling asleep,
I started thinking about how when I first had
my spiritual awakening, I became very quiet.
So I was saying I wanted to speak, but I felt
like I didn't have the words. So much was in
my mind. I almost couldn't even talk a lot of
the time. And then I realized how peaceful it
was to just be quiet. And then I started to notice...
my environment around me so much more. But along
the same lines, when I would speak, there are
times like I was kind of reminiscing about an
experience with my twin flame that I call in
my twin flame. But there were several times where
I was not able to express myself with words,
clearly. I sort of had some sadness around that.
And then I was also trying to shift it at the
same time. You couldn't help it. You were overwhelmed.
You just didn't have the language. You didn't
have the knowledge that you have now that you
can be thinking about it. So don't do that to
yourself. But it still happened for a brief moment.
And just thinking about how we speak and the
barrier of language. if we consider like, oh,
I don't speak that language. And we automatically
are just like, oh, I can't even talk to that
person. But that's not true because we're all
telepathic. We all have the ability to sense
other people's energy and you can just read someone's
face. You can just know, like you don't have
to know their name to offer them water. It's
so interesting. It's funny the ways that language
is a barrier in my mind that I was thinking about
that last night. Well, yeah, that's random. No,
I love that because actually we're in a Mercury
retrograde in Pisces right now. And I feel like
that's the gift of this Mercury retrograde in
particular is especially because it's opposite
the moon in Virgo. But it's like, an opportunity
to shift away from communicating through language
and trying to understand things in a more logical
manner and shift into the communication that
happens in the silences and the spaces between
the words and you know the things that are unsaid
either because maybe we have too much fear to
say them, or maybe they just don't fit into words.
There are no words for them, but there's so much
beyond what can be encapsulated in language.
There's so much here, and I feel like this is
such a beautiful Mercury retrograde to soften
into those telepathic corridors that exist between
us. Just like you said, Totally, you don't need
to speak the same language as somebody to see
like if they are thirsty to offer them water.
Like there are depths of understanding that we
have that even go, I mean, they obviously include
body language, but they go, it's more than that.
It's like energetic, it's vibrational. It's like
we're able to read and understand each other.
of far deeper levels than language typically
allows. When we're hyper focused on language,
like we don't have to get rid of language completely
either, but when we're hyper focused on it, we
miss a lot. Yes. Yes. It's interesting. That's
definitely true. For example, I don't speak Spanish,
but I was in commercial landscaping for a number
of years. And when I worked at another company,
there were a lot of Spanish speaking employees
and they would talk. I could always understand
what they were saying for whatever reason. In
context, it made sense, but I could never speak
Spanish. I didn't even know the words for it,
but because I knew... like they'd be pointing
or this or that. And so it just made sense. But
when I would try to understand the words for
the words, I would be like, wait, what? What?
And then they would make fun of me. But if I
just paid attention to what was happening in
the surroundings, it's like, what piece of equipment
is here? you know, how are they moving? Who's
getting out to do what? Like what's happening?
You know, what do I need to do? Like that's sort
of the way I was thinking instead of like, what
did they say? What did they say? Like it's just
to do it. But something else, I think something
else that I was thinking about regarding the
miscommunication and thank you for validating
that. astrological transit reasoning about why
that might be happening. I love astrology, but
I do not understand it. It's for whatever reason,
not clicking in for me, maybe in the future.
But it's like a science. You really would have
to study it. And I just don't have the capacity.
I appreciate people who know things. And then
I have an app that I look at, it gives me notifications.
It says when things are going on and I'm like,
oh, okay, that's helpful. But yeah, it's so true.
I think I would actually like to study that maybe
next year. Maybe toward the end of this year,
I could start enrolling in things and actually
focusing to study on it. Because I do want to,
but I just feel like I can't. So I probably won't
be able to as long as I feel that way. Yeah,
I didn't I mean I was the same way for a long
time I I loved astrology when I was I think I
got into it when I was 16 but it was sort of
that like a 16 year old girl level of astrology
like I I I was able to get it to a certain depth
so like I've memorized the symbols for all the
signs and the planets and I would draw the wheel
and like understand the triplicities and the
elements and things like that but I never And
I understood the archetypes of the signs, but
I just never felt called to go any deeper until
literally the end of 2024. And I really did have
a moment where I was teaching about soul purpose
in the Akashic Soul Code activation. And as I
was preparing for that module, I just was like,
I just felt called to look at the birth chart.
And then all of a sudden I was like, wow, I can
see it. I see like I see soul purpose. Wow. It
was like this huge download of information. I
still had to anchor that understanding in through
a lot of practice. I did a whole bunch of either
free or really low cost looks at people's charts
just to reinforce it and anchor it in. But it
was wild. I've never really had that experience
before where it just dropped in. That's amazing.
You definitely have past life. knowledge of it
that probably just like dropped in once you were
able to reach a certain frequency. Like that's
amazing. I don't know. I don't know where it,
I guess I never necessarily even like felt and
I still won't call myself an astrologer because
I don't really, I don't ever feel called to overanalyze
the transits. Like I'd rather just live my life
and then be like, Oh, you know, like, Ooh, or,
you know, like I I don't record energy reports
about even eclipses leading up to them because
I'm really not going to know until it hands me
my butt. Then I can explain how... like what
is coming through. But I also don't really want
to live my life up through my head. Like I would
just want to through life and feel it and then
make the connections where they support me. But
yeah. And then six months later, the human design
stuff just dropped in and I was like, what is
happening? That's amazing. And I so appreciate
the soul purpose reading that you did for me.
I shared that as my first episode because for
a couple weeks, I was like, I recorded a few
things and I was mostly talking about myself.
And then I just felt like a dingus. And I was
like, I cannot fit myself in an episode or two
or three or four. And then I heard this voice
like real clearly, like, you don't have to. And
I was like, oh, okay. I'm just going to start
with guests and I'll just drop in information.
People can find out as we go. I don't have to
explain myself. So that was really helpful. And
you also said - that too. So thank you for that
suggestion. But yeah, I think when you were talking
earlier, I started thinking about something and
then it like drifted away, but oh yeah. Okay.
So when you're talking about being not calling
yourself an astrologist, it reminded me of like,
Just like someone who appreciates the weather,
but wouldn't call themselves a meteorologist
because then they're expected to give that forecast.
Yeah, exactly. 100%. Yeah, yeah. Last night I
was laying down in bed and I was thinking about,
oh, sorry. I was thinking about how we would
be talking today. And something came to me about
around the time of my initial awakening four
years ago. When I became very aware of how connected
I was to nature and like calling in the wind
or like I'd look up in the sky and see a bird
flying. And as soon as I looked at it, it would
change direction and like same with bugs. Like
I could like influence bugs. Like, and I, there
was, it was summertime in 2021. And I was outside.
I would sleep on my porch. I had a day bed out
on the porch and I would read books. and talk
to people and walk outside. And I was just always
outside. And I think I got maybe one bug bite
that entire summer. And I would even sleep outside,
like I said. But I think it had to do with my
frequency. It was wild. It was really, really
wild. And I would sit out, even in the winter
time, and I would look at the sky when it was
kind of white in the winter. the sky when it's
not super sunny, just kind of white. And I would
see all these speckles. And I was like, what
the hell is that? And then I realized that I
see it everywhere. And I remember one episode
years ago where you were talking about, you can
just look at a wall, you can see all the things
moving around, all the energy interacting. And
I was like, She can see it too. And I was like,
I get like, I thought it was just normal. And
I had been seeing this my entire life and just
really disregarded it like as like an eye problem.
And then I hear people talking about like, oh,
you're able to see through different dimensions,
the energy. And I think I was talking with Mandy
Hayes. And she said something along the lines
that you described her ability to do that because
she is also bilocated and the filter is thinner
because of the energy that's connected. And that
makes a lot of sense. And then I saw something
the other day about birds have a certain protein
in their eye that allows them to see the energetic
grid lines. And I was like, I bet you we have
that too. And it's just like been like turned
off, you know, or maybe some of us have more
than, you know what I mean? It's crazy. I was
just thinking about that and I was like, I wonder
if that's what it actually is, if it comes down
to that kind of protein. And then I saw something
The reason I'm talking about this is because
so many things came up to bring me to this. But
I think last night I was on Instagram and I saw
something that Bashar was saying about when people
engage with psychedelics, the reason that they're
able to see or hallucinate or see things in their
environment is because their gamma goes down.
The gamma is the... Basically like the filter
of why we we don't see all of the things that
are actually in the space with us and that some
people just naturally have the ability to like
Get into that state and drop the filter and that's
basically people who have clairvoyance So there's
like different levels of clairvoyance. I would
say like what I used to always think When people
would say they're a medium and they could see
spirits I'm assuming that they're seeing people
walk around just like me like to do I'm the spirit
and I'm in your room with you But it's not like
that for many many people very few people see
like full -body apparitions like see them like
that It's like inner vision, but I used to think
oh, no, I can't see them because I've never seen
a ghost But then totally discounting everything
that's in my inner vision You know? Yeah. That
was my journey, too. It was exactly that. Because
describing the way... So the English language
is not... We don't have an agreed upon sort of
like lexicon for psychic experiences. So we're
having to use words that have... Different meaning
so like for example, I always catch myself saying
like oh when you see something in the Akashic
records and I'm like That creates a misunderstanding
because you don't always see it like some people
do some people it's it's like a See here feel
sense. No understand, you know, yeah, it's so
hard. There aren't words to adequately communicate
what like how the information is being received
and so So in listening to people talk about being
a medium or whatever growing up I likewise thought
that it meant you had to see shadow figures or
ghost or angels or you know demons or whatever
whatever anybody is seeing in order to actually
be psychic and. It took me a long time to realize
that there are so many, that's not, some people
do see that, but that's not, that's not what
clairvoyance is limited to. So kind of what you
were describing, like how we can look at the
wall and see the energy moving, or I don't know
if you have this, but I see the rainbow crystalline.
Essence of all matter it's I literally see it
with my physical eyes all the time and I always
have my whole life So if I look like if I look
at my skin my fingernails, but it's not only
organic things. It's like the the Whatever material
they use to create the like the dashboard and
the glove compartment in my van, you know, it's
like There's these like rainbow flecks all over
everything and my eyes literally see it physically
and I'm like well that is clairvoyance yeah like
there's so many ways that clairvoyance can come
through it's just clairvoyance means clear seeing
and for me the majority of it does happen in
my third eye in my inner vision, but I've had
so many confirmations, validations that what
I'm seeing is specifically accurate. Like I remember
I did a reading long time ago in 2021 for a guy.
And that day, a dog, he was kind of testing me
a little bit in a really nice way. But that day,
a random stray dog had shown up on his property
and he I don't know if he met, like I knew that
he was with his dogs, but I described one of
them like in great detail and he was like, that's
the one that just showed up. Like that's, he
was so mind blown and it reinforced to me like,
well, okay, the things that I'm seeing are accurate.
They just happen inside in my pineal gland and
my third eye. But that's clairvoyance too. Yes.
And as we've been talking, like I have this wall
behind me and there's a picture of my grandmother
on there and there's a holiday cactus underneath.
And I'm looking at you, but usually what happens
for me is peripheral. It's never really like
straight on. Straight on I see like black specks
or like colorful flashes. So when I was talking
with you for the past, I don't know, hour or
so. Probably four times I saw like a royal blue
flash on the wall. And then I've seen like a
bunch of stuff moving over here. At one point
I even like looked over like, what is that? But
yeah, it just happened sort of like all of the
time and I used to ignore it. But now I'm getting
better at like, seeing it as it happens and kind
of acknowledging it quickly, like just energetically,
but I'm still obviously talking to you, but I
get a little bit distracted. So sometimes when
I'm talking with people, especially when I'm
doing readings, I like look all around like,
and I feel like I'm searching the corners of
my mind sometimes, like I don't even know what
I'm looking at, you know, but yeah. You have
really helped me to understand the levels of,
and that's just clairvoyance. We're not even
talking about all the other ones. Cause I think
clairsentience is one of the, or claircognizance
and clairsentience are like my strongest. But
you know, what's funny about that, I was so used
to ignoring my body and feelings that I was so
disconnected. There's no, like I, I, it took
such a long time for me to Set like a body map.
It's sort of like you can ask your guides like
when this type of information comes in This is
how I want it to feel and then I'll know that
that's what you're trying to express or you know
Like it's kind of like a code But things just
sort of started happening on their own like I
didn't really even set a map at this point, but
I'm still working on like Getting fully in my
body like after being traumatized for such a
long time and going through so much stressful
stuff and also being bilocated like all the things
like I'm getting into my body now and I'm like
starting to feel safer and safer and Receiving
information in those ways. So but it has been
You you and the support in the groups and the
group calls that we would have with other people
Having practice sessions really helped to solidify
that in myself to just trust my gut because most
of the information that I receive it's like that
whatever the Gene keys or the human design. I
forget what I guess it's human design, but it's
that thing that just goes from my Crown to my
throat and just like just comes out and I don't
even know what I said half the time, but like
yeah I'm usually not wrong. So I just, it's,
it's fun. Yeah. Yeah. I mean, I love the practice
sessions for that reason too. It's just like
until you, until you practice and then especially
when you're willing to like, move past that little
edge of vulnerability to practice with other
people, which means in front of other people,
then it's, it's hard to actually get the feedback
that really reinforces and validates like, Oh,
this is real. This is here. And again, like,
I mean, I, I obviously think that this is deliberately
done by the false matrix, but even if, you know,
if that's a little far fetched for anybody, um,
We can at least acknowledge that the English
language and our general Western society in which
we've all been immersively raised, or many of
us anyway, I'm making an assumption obviously,
but in Western society, in this culture, in this
language, psychic experiences, intuitive experiences,
spiritual experiences are not prioritized and
they are not They're not considered valid so
even though there's like obviously religion it's
sort of like. It's almost like here you get this
thing. It falls under religion and spirituality
and like we don't get it. So like here it is,
but otherwise, you know, we just don't have any
language to agreed upon language to talk about
it, to describe it. And we don't have any opportunity
to practice it in our practical day -to -day
lives. We're changing that ourselves, but like
we weren't given that. It does never prioritize
in our education, going back to what you said
about your daughter and prioritizing her. just
her dream experience and setting up her nighttime
to enter the dreamscape safely and with intention
and to explore what that might be and then to
process it the next morning. What a gift you're
giving her, Christine, because we didn't get
that. That's treated like it's not even a thing,
but actually you have to go to work and do these
stupid tasks as a part of a cog in the wheel.
That's what's emphasized. practicing with each
other sort of how we regain like these these
abilities are already within us like that's my
big thing I want everybody to know nobody's a
muggle Yeah. Nobody's muggle. Everybody has psychic
abilities. We're born with it. That's our primary
language. That's how newborns communicate. I
used to be a midwife. Like that is how newborns
communicate. They're super psychically sensitive.
They do not have language. Everything is a psychic
communication. We never lose that. It doesn't
just disappear. It just gets deprioritized and
shifted to the back and we're just practicing
bringing it forward and doing it with other people
is so I just feel like it's necessary. I do,
I feel like it's necessary. Because otherwise
you just wonder forever if it's just your imagination,
you're just making it up. Just like me. And it's
so funny, I was saying this the other day, and
I'm sure this is true for many people, not just
myself, because this is pretty much the way humans
operate. But along the lines of what we do for
our business, it's the most important thing that
I want for myself. You know, like it's like,
that's what I need the most is past life regression
and Akashic readings, like for therapy wise.
So that's why I'm like doing it, you know? So
it's, it's just, obviously you're attracted to
what you need the most. Um, and I just, I just
like totally got blanked out, but I'm so glad
that you were, uh, talking about the language
portion of it. That's exactly what I was thinking
last night as I was falling asleep. It's like,
I just couldn't even express myself. And I didn't
have the knowledge that... I still don't have
knowledge. I assume that I know nothing. The
other day I had a recording with a woman who
has been doing energy healing since she was 13
and she's in her seventies now. She has over
50 years of experience in doing this. type of
work. So she's telling me things and I'm listening
to her and I'm like, yes, yes, that's a good
idea. It's a good idea. Some of the things I
knew, but I was in a mode, like a mental mode
that I put myself in when I know that someone
has like a huge amount of experience. I automatically
know nothing. Even if I think I know, I know
nothing because I want to hear what they have
to say from their perspective. So like she's
telling me things like, oh, you can set hours
and say, I don't want these psychic downloads
here, there, and everywhere. I want them at this
specific time, which I know, but I was like,
oh yeah, that's a good idea. It's funny because
I never know what she's going to say next. It
could be something I don't know. So I just, I
appreciate it. The ability to, it's very freeing
to realize that we actually don't know anything.
and to be open to alternative possibilities because
I think there's endless opportunities for potential.
And the way that I see quote God is like gas
in the universe and it's like purple cloud and
it's love. It's just love energy. endless potential.
It never ceases. It will always exist. And that
is what creation comes from. That's how I see
God personally. But yeah, I feel very good about
it. Before we were talking about things going
on and how we're feeling, I feel hopeful. I feel
hopeful for Changes that have been coming for
a long time that have been needed for a long
time And I feel like it's going to initiate action
and a lot of people to like step up and actually
be like, okay I'm gonna do this now. I'm excited
for this year Yeah, me too. I feel very hopeful
and you know I feel like I got a little bit criticized
for that the other day, but then I walked away
from it being like no I'm like I I'm here to
bring through the message that there is a different
reality. There is something and it's right here
for us. We just have to choose it and it comes
into manifestation through us and just like what
I'm experiencing right now. Sure, I can get totally
taken down by it. It's really hard. It's not
fun. This is not a fun season in my life, but
there's so much beauty here. And also this is
for my freedom. Like I can feel that this is
somewhere that my consciousness has been wrapped
up in a really big knot and it's taking a lot
of patience to unravel that knot. But it's all
that's the price to pay to have. to regain all
that access to my power and my creatorship which
with which i am unable to create the five d.
You know from that realization of our power and
i just feel like on a collective level and on
all the individual levels that's what's being
made available to us and i i believe that enough
people are able to recognize that right now and
take the opportunity that. the balance is already
tipped in our favor. If everybody's not able
to do it, that's okay. There's enough of us.
Something that's been clearing for me patterns
and different things that are playing out, it's
like having stayed small on purpose because the
people around me are triggered. I just trigger
people a lot. I think that's part of what I'm
supposed to do. I always have and I'm getting
more and more comfortable with it because people's
reactions are really not my problem. Like people's
reactions to me just existing, it's not my problem.
And I used to take it really personally, but
like lately things have been coming up where
there was someone in my life that I was really
close with and that I put quite a bit of energy
into supporting them and encouraging them. And
they did not do the same. And not only that,
but multiple people that I've worked with for
energy healing purposes have been telling me
that like to this moment, they send me daggers.
Like they want to take me down. They wish they
could be me, but not. me in the picture with
them. You know what I mean? And it's sad to hear
that because it's like, again, not being able
to conceptualize having those, like being that
way, but then having to like deal with that being
done to me. It's been hard. And I mean, I kind
of feel like an asshole wording it that way.
Like I'm some kind of angel. I'm definitely not,
but it's just, I wouldn't, I wouldn't do that.
Like I wouldn't be fake to someone and then like,
Like kind of prey on their downfall and like
pretend to be their friend like that's fucking
weird And I'm sad that that like would be in
my life But again, it's coming up to be seen
to be released to be ended to be shifted and
I think similarly to that I think when that type
of thing can be released what my hope would be
is that person and many other people who have
this kind of envious comparative energy, then
become fully embodied in themselves and stop
wasting energy that way. Because it's just an
ultimate fucking waste to do that instead of
putting it back into yourself and becoming the
best version of you. It doesn't make any sense
to me, but I know that by unfurling, disconnecting,
recalibrating, things get aligned in a different
way. And I see that that is going to be the next
step. So that will be beneficial for everyone
when we can all let go of those pretenses and
comparisons and guilt and judgment and shame
and all the things. I know that's like a big
ask. That's a big ask. But I think it's happening.
Yeah, I do too. It's like one person at a time,
one relationship at a time, one scenario at a
time. It's happening where we're shifting out
of basically like a finite resource perception
of competition. Like where we're competing with
each other for finite resources, including like
love. Which is so wild, right? And we're shifting.
person by person into collaboration and co -creation
where we understand like, oh, none of it's finite.
It's actually infinite. And the more they're
like, the more, the more, do you know what I
mean? Yes. Exactly. The more, the more, the more,
the more. And so the more we come together and
give our attention to the infinite nature of
these resources with the understanding that Like
we, each other's existence is not a threat to
like the other. And so then we can like co -create
together. It just amplifies. It becomes exponentially
more. And it's so exciting. Absolutely. You have
always had that mindset. attitude and behavior
of like just wanting to grow and have more of
the more of the more instead of, you know, gatekeeping
or things like that. Like it's always been about
sharing and expanding and growing, connecting.
So that's, I just love you for that. Thank you
for, thank you for that reflection. That really,
you know, it's those little, that's the projector
gift. It's like those little things that projectors
see about you that you're like, Oh, somebody
sees me. Oh yes. Oh yes. You're like a beacon.
You're like a lighthouse. Yes. Yes. I'm not the
only one. Many people see you. And that's such
a gift for you to embody as the speaker, like
you've described, having the ability to put into
words. And though you might feel like it's a
struggle, it's received. it makes sense. It always
does. Sometimes you'll be like, oh, I'm not sure
if this makes sense. And I know I'm not supposed
to apologize for it anymore, but yeah. You guys
keep messaging me and being like, don't you dare
apologize anymore. We love your rambles. Okay.
I'm still self -conscious about it. No, there's
gold in there for us to hear. And I love that
it's It's just like an open door and your soul
space on Facebook. That's free, right? Yeah,
totally. Yes. Yeah, and that's what you know
back to what you said about the Connections being
made in the groups. I know not everybody a like
I don't want people to Sign up for groups that
they don't like paid groups that Isn't a total
yes to them Like it's important that we sign
up for the things that really truly resonate
and our soul is like, yes This is the next step
But also not everybody always has the funds to
put towards it. Like myself right now, for example,
I just don't have the funds to sign up for the
things that I would love to. And so having a
free, like just a permanently free space where
people can nonetheless come and connect, I think
is because the more, the more, the more, the
more. Like the more we connect with each other,
the better it gets. Yes, I totally agree. Thank
you so much for your time today, Amy. I really
appreciate it. We'll definitely have to get together
again. If you have listened to each episode of
this podcast, you probably heard me mention her
name at least one time. It's so funny because
I'll either have a guest on that we're connected
or just talking about what I've learned. Things
that I think and different examples and I always
bring you up. So I appreciate being able to name
drop. Oh Well, I am so honored that you invited
me on your podcast and I'm so glad that you're
doing this and yeah, thank you Thank you for
the inspiration to get it started You, you really
helped me to, to say that's something if you
feel called to do, you just start slowly, you'll
get it done. It'll just kind of take care of
itself. And it's wild. I feel like I have like
15 episodes already recorded. And I just feel
like I need to start releasing more than one
per week because like, I can't sit on this big
of an egg. Like I just can't like, and that's
not even solo episodes. Like I need to like do
current. Maybe that's what I'll do. Extra episodes
will be whenever I feel like doing a solo conversation.
Maybe that's what I'll do. We'll see. Things
might change. The beauty of a podcast is you
can do it however you want. There's no rules.
Yeah. Just put it out. Yep. Same with life. You
can do whatever you want. There's no rules. That's
so true. You're like, same with everything, Amy.
Well, to a certain extent, yeah. It's fun. I
always love talking with you. Thank you so much.
And I'm sure we'll be in touch again soon. And
I know that any stresses and strains will shift
very quickly. I feel like in the next three weeks,
you'll have totally different circumstances to
be landing into. It's going to get resolved very
quickly, I think. I know it'll get resolved and
it'll take the time it takes. And I'm just like,
I'm surrendered to it. I'm here for the alchemy.
Yeah. You'll see the beginnings of it soon though.
That's what I'm going to start praying for. Thank
you so much. Have a wonderful day. You too. Bye.
Thank you for taking the time to be in our experience.
I love this conversation with Amy because it
speaks to so many things I know many of us are
feeling right now. Intensity, change, uncertainty,
spiritual expansion, grief, pressure, and also
a deep invitation to trust ourselves more fully.
One of the biggest takeaways for me is even when
life feels chaotic, overwhelming, or like everything
is being stripped down, There is still a point
of power available in every moment. We may not
always control the outer circumstances, but we
do have a choice in how we meet them, what we
choose to feed, and what we create within ourselves.
I also really appreciate Amy's reminder that
psychic ability, intuition, and awareness are
not reserved for a special few. These are natural
parts of being a human, and many of us are simply
remembering what was de -prioritized, dismissed,
or never given language for in the first place.
Thank you so much for listening. I hope this
conversation reminded you that even in intense
seasons, there is still power in choosing love,
choosing compassion, discernment, and trust.
Those are our options. There's so much happening
in the collective right now, but we do not have
to feed fear in order to be aware. We're both
in it to win it and ready to commit as our business
as you heard in this episode. So Whenever you
guys are ready to commit we're here for you ready
and available to dig into your Akashic records
and start expanding our consciousness together
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