Hello and welcome to another episode of In My
Experience with yours truly, Christine DiGinto.
This podcast is a space where I speak from lived
experience. The moments that shaped me, challenged
me, and changed the way that I understand myself
in the world. The awakenings, the breakdowns,
the moments that cracked me open, asked me to
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to explore the gray areas we don't often have
language for, to slow things down and listen
more closely to what's happening beneath the
surface. You'll hear solo episodes where I reflect
on my own initiations, spiritual gifts, and the
systems that try to define me. And conversations
with guests who have walked strange, beautiful,
and sometimes painful paths of their own and
come back with wisdom to share with us. I invite
you to take what resonates, leave the rest, and
trust your own experience as valid. Thank you
for being here. This is In My Experience. In
this episode, I'm sharing part one of conversation
with Erica Cordero, a psychic medium mom who
I've personally worked with and I so appreciate
her bubbly attitude while she tackles my demons.
We jump straight into discernment, intuition,
and what it's like to move through the world
as deeply perceptive, sensitive women. This conversation
is shared from lived experience, not theory.
As always, take what resonates, leave the rest,
and listen with your own discernment. If you
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miss what's next. You can also find Erica and
her work at Align with Erica on Instagram. Okay,
here we go. Everyone, please welcome my guest
today, Erica Cordero. Thank you so much for being
here with us, Erica. Oh, absolutely. Anything
for you, Christine. You're always so fun to talk
to. We've been chatting a little bit before we
started, and we have a whole, like, wealth of
topics to discuss, but we don't have anything
in really particular that we want to talk about.
But first, I want to get started. a little bit
about you, can you please introduce yourself
and describe a little bit about what you offer
and what you do? Yeah, so I do a whole lot of
things and then a whole lot of nothing. So predominantly,
I am a psychic medium. And that is my favorite
title I've ever owned. Actually, I lied. I think
mom is number one. I have four kids, so mom is
number one, but being a psychic is so fun. It
is so, so fun. It is something that I feel like
as a human, especially as a woman, is so natural
to us. So you feel like you are living in alignment
and living your purpose without it feeling hard.
It's so effortless. It feels so good. It feels
so good. to be getting paid to be doing what
I've already done my whole life. Like, hello.
Perfect. I love it so much. And I'm so happy
for you. And for everyone, this is a possible,
like, it's also something that all humans can
do. If we tune ourselves, if we practice, if
we allow ourselves to slow down and quiet down
and get in touch with ourselves, we can you know
everyone has that capability isn't it like so
beautiful but some people have it just naturally
spontaneously from childhood and never goes away
or it's always fostered and that everyone has
you know i have a theory with that what what
my theory is those who have had it since childhood
were probably They probably didn't, they had
a belief system that already allowed for it,
right? For example, maybe your mother was one
or your grandmother was one or your caregivers
were into spirituality like tarot cards. So you
already had this awareness of the spirit realm,
right? I didn't have that. I was born and raised
Catholic. In fact, my mom did sometimes say like,
Oh, your grandfather standing over there. And
I was like, you're a lying bitch. Okay. You're
lying. I don't believe I never believed in them,
but she never took it so far as to say like,
Oh yeah, I'm a medium or I'm a psychic. Right.
But my other theory is, I don't even think this
is theory. My other belief is that I don't think
we have to do anything to hone it. I think it's
readily available, but what we do have to do
is to clear the interference. And by interference,
I mean the trapped emotions, the beliefs that
you hold around it, the knowing that what you
are feeling and what you're maybe hearing or
seeing, however you get your insights, it just
is. Like, that's the thing. You have to be able
to discern. between your own thoughts and what
is being channeled. And for me, it doesn't feel
any different. Like it's all the same. Mm -hmm.
Mm -hmm. No, what you said is so on point. Absolutely.
Totally agree. And I have had the opportunity,
very luckily, to work with you before, previously,
several times. with your psychic medium abilities
and I will say your channel is absolutely accurate
and I so enjoy talking with you and I think it's
important to recognize like every every healer
needs a healer because not every person not every
healer is perfect no one actually I don't actually
know a single person who is um and I don't think
we're supposed to be so that's one thing to be
said but it's very important like for me I can
channel for other people no problem it comes
to my own things my emotions my um limited egos
um perspective capacity sometimes limits my ability
to Receive the higher information like you just
have to be able to admit that you know Everybody
has a blind spot when it comes to themselves.
So it's important to like get verification or
Check with other people who are trusted that
you've worked. Yes, so to Rationalize what is
actually happening in your reality. So I can't
read for myself. Yeah I can't, I have to ask
for signs all the time. I'm like, show me two,
two, two. Show me a blue bird or show me like,
I have all of these things where I get a yes
or a no. Like that's, that's how I ask questions.
But more often than not lately, it has been coming
through other people, like through other people.
Believe it or not, I still have days where I'm
like, actually like, This feels too good to be
true. What's my real soul's purpose? What really
am I here to do? Show me a clear sign. And I
actually, funny enough, I just was going through
my cycle and I just started my period. But always,
a few days before I start, I get into this really
emotional identity crisis. I don't know who I
am. What am I here for? Sort of thing. And so
I asked that specific question about three days
ago. And then the next day in my inbox, I had
several people reach out to me and they're like,
Hey, I just want to let you know you predicted
this. And it was right. All in the same day.
I'm like, okay. Yeah. All right. I'm looking
at questions. So interesting. You know what I
got? You know what I got when you were saying
that that it's actually like the The energy of
like the eggs that you're releasing Because they
were like Interesting. Yeah, that's like what
I saw when you were like like when existential
crisis and saying like what am I here for? What
am I doing? It's like, you know That's interesting.
It's all it always happens every month fractal
of potential that is like, I mean, like an egg
is like the, I mean, I don't know what, how do
you even describe the limitless potential of
an egg? Right. It's so interesting. What came
first? Yeah. We have no idea. I love it. This
is really, really wild, but yeah, I love reading
you. You're just an open book. There are, individuals
who I feel like I would never classify anyone
as hard to read. What I am tapping into is I'm
feeling their belief system, right? Their energy.
And if they have any inkling of this bitch is
a fraud, I pick up on that and it kind of distorts
what I'm getting, right? But with you, you're
like, Like your legs might as well be open, right?
You're like, okay, take me daddy. Like I'm here
and I'm ready. The way you say it too, it's hilarious.
For me specifically, oh my God. Erica has done
several readings for me trying I have been working
on trying to understand like because I really
felt and carried a lot of guilt and shame feeling
like I was responsible for stresses and strains
and triggers that I cause and other people specifically
women and You really just helped me cut right
through all that fuckery so thanks for that because
I was really, that was getting me for a loop,
throwing me for a loop, like literally in space
time. Yeah, it shouldn't, it shouldn't. And I'm
so glad that it was helpful because, you know,
I can see people's soul's purposes, but I can't,
I never want to be someone who's like, oh, this
is your soul's purpose because I believe we have
hundreds of them. So if anyone is charging you
to tell you what your soul's purpose is, and
this is just my not so humble opinion, that's
just one little portion. Yes, people can see
it, but it's not the whole picture and you might
feel let down. But one of yours is to trigger
other women. It's to trigger other women so that
they can feel more in their power. But if they're
not in a state of awareness where they can't
sit and reflect on their own actions, they are
going to project and blame and blame and blame,
right? So you're that person that they love to
blame to no fault of yours, just for existing,
like simply fucking existing. You will love to
blame you. It's not your fault that you were
born with this enormous amount of sexual energy.
It's not your fault that you know God gave you
huge tits like it's not your fault bought those
it doesn't matter you he gave them to you he
gave you the money yes not your fault like not
at all and like if anything yeah it's not your
fault I'm just gonna leave it there yeah not
safe for work Yeah, I shared some of the one
of the episodes that you did it was uh You were
practicing you weren't even the word is not practicing
because you didn't need to practice but you wanted
to have someone on For your podcast, which you
have a podcast. Please. Yeah, I like haven't
I Haven't feel called to record any episodes
to me. It's so weird to sit and just talk by
myself. And I love solo episodes, but I don't
love doing them. I don't understand. You know
what is so funny? I totally agree. Okay. So yes,
I've been starting this. Obviously having interviews
is much easier because it's just a conversation,
which is amazing. And it's just like you share
it and that should be shared. So I love it. I
have been assembling things. And then I came
to the realization like, Because I felt like
I needed to introduce myself kind of like a background
like this. Yeah, I know. Like, what the fuck?
This is just like an endless pit. Like, I can't
describe myself and I don't have to like you
don't have to. So like, I got that very clearly.
It's like, you don't even have to start with
us. Like, don't start with us. Start with just
jump in, just send it and I'm like, okay, I got
that. So my phone storage was full. And one of
the recommendations was to go through large attachments.
Okay, so I happened upon a treasure trove of
audio messages that I have sent back and forth
about myself to other people, describing things
to other people about their situations with my
recommendation, whatever, whatever I think about,
whatever. And I'm like, yo, this shit is gold.
So I started sieving them. I was like, I'm going
to just like, cue up some of these audio messages
and like talk about like, you know, the dynamics
and then play it and then be like, that's it.
And then also have interviews and like just start
talking like about other things. Like, who knows?
Yeah, I feel like my best because as a projector,
we're meant to You know see another person see
them so deeply and I feel like my best Messages
and sometimes I surprise myself or through boxer
or when I'm like voice messaging one of my friends
about a situation there and like put me in a
situation where you are having the Worst time
of your life and I will guide you through it.
I think that's where I shine That's my favorite
thing ever in times of crisis Yeah do that. Share
those. Yeah. I feel like it's not fair to them
though. I have this integrity piece. Well, but
so here's the thing. No one knows what the situation
is. No one knows who you're talking to and you
can edit out any names, but there are many that
I have found that I'm actually not even saying
any names. I'm describing the situation to an
outside person and not even using names. I'm
just like, using titles so it's like much easier
you know and you can also bleep out whatever
you want cut out whatever you want and just share
them the portions of the messages that like you
feel like other people need to hear because like
you know they're there it's it's all the time
thing it is i have a question for you and i don't
i this is gonna leave somewhere but this question
might be rash initially i don't think for you
though Let me get to it. Have you been called
crazy in your relationships? Oh, yes. Okay. Not
before, but in my, my, my was bend. I like to
say was bend. That is perfect. And that phrase
is coined by Marie Zancanaro. She lives in Baja,
Mexico, I believe, and she does email chakra
mapping and description, you know, very detailed,
and I highly recommend her. I'm going to actually
put her information in the show notes, but that's
from her. I love that. Yeah, so do I. Well, this
is what I feel called to tell you right at this
very moment is if you're okay with that. Actually,
I know you are. Your legs are always open for
this information. It's because you come off as
so whimsical and probably ungrounded to men who
are not strong enough. You need a grounded ass
individual to hold you because you like leave
this dimension often, like all the time. Like
when you start thinking about something, you
see things from like how we see the moon, right?
Like we see just one side of the moon. We don't
see the other side. You actually go and you're
like, oh, I wonder what the other side looks
like. And you like travel to that. I'm there
too uh I'm actually so funny that you're saying
this I actually wasn't gonna talk about this
yet because I'm I'm unraveling it I'm actively
working um to oh boy this is big I have been
in this the secret space program the 20 and back
program and I have a super soldier on a moon
What the fuck start from the beginning I know
what is this like, okay briefly, I don't know
what this is Okay All right TLDR version like
the just cliff notes. Oh, so Olders I don't you
know, there's a lot of information out there
Look it up I need to look it up I'm brash in
saying this, but I really believe it's true because
here's why I believe it's true. In my uh pre
-teens and teenage years I recall many many nights
that I would dream and I would always lucid dream.
I would often be hunting people down like I mean,
like full force, like a fucking dog, like chasing
people and I would like kill them. Like I'm a
killer. I used to be super proud of it. I thought
that I wanted to be in the military. I was actually
like, yeah, I'm tough as fuck. Like I do this
shit in my dreams. Like I want to do this. Like
there's a reason I'm dreaming about it. Like,
but that is tied to the training that I was receiving.
So what happens is, hmm, this is complex. government
has copied interdimensional beings technology
to take your consciousness and suspend it and
they say it's like one night you know so like
they'll take your consciousness out of your body
and then they'll get they'll put you in a program
where you do 20 years of service So you're there
for 20 years, but time doesn't apply. And then
they'll put you back in your body. And it's just
like, you wake up the next morning, you're like,
I'm tired. So your body is receiving and connected
to the consciousness that is up there, operating.
It's a stranger thing. Yeah, yeah. Yeah, that
is true. It is like associated with like the
Montauk project and that is what that's based
on and Yeah people interfering with people's
Telepathic or like natural abilities. There's
their spiritual psychic abilities. It's also
targeted People are targeted to be in this program.
It has to do also with bloodlines and with government
ties and Who the fuck knows? I'm still unraveling
it, but I have thought this for a while. It's
very interesting because I've worked with Amy
Belair for about four years now, and she did
an Akashic reading for me three years ago, because
the first year that I got associated with her,
she had just had her baby. Well, he's not a baby
anymore. He's, I think, four. William. Sorry,
this is a lot for me to talk about. No, it's
okay You're also clearing shit out as you're
talking pull it out the things that like are
like the fucking juice You pull out the juice.
This is what value so So Hey, if you don't feel
comfortable if you're losing your words no problem
talking about it at all because so funny before
I before this started I hopped in the shower
and I thought to myself like I'm gonna have to
talk about this but I'm three sessions into like
a two month committed container to unravel this
and yesterday we had a session and we identified
my altar a version of my consciousness that is
on a moon um Titan I think and um she was not
on a mission You know, like she wasn't actively
like doing something. Who's leading this container?
Um. You don't have to say, yeah, I might not
say right now, but would also have him on as
a guest. But right now I'm unraveling it and
I just don't want anything to get targeted or
ramped up because. That's how it works to like
if you talk about whatever shit's happening,
doesn't matter. We're here to break it. And it
is, you know what? It's so crazy that I like.
This is what happens sometimes when you just
like say anything that comes to your mind like
I literally see you Being the other side of the
moon. Yeah Yeah, where other people don't see
it like you have this this ability to view things
from a six hundreds 360 degree angle and you
speak from those places and for those of us who
are so earthbound and dense to be able to receive
that information Like we don't receive that information.
We don't we cannot comprehend what you're saying
and so that's why I asked if sometimes you get
called crazy because You bring that into your
relationships not just like your like physical
like sexual relationships even with your children
yeah it's like the intensity in my body so so
similarly to like when you have a nightmare and
you wake up like you feel that like you're afraid
like you're drowning you're sweating like you're
breathing heavily your body receives that i have
been sharing the load of the trauma from that
version of me unknowingly and i just discovered
this yesterday like you know what I mean? Like
I like felt it and like can identify because
like my body hurts like a like a lot. I go to
a chiropractor every week speaking of body code
which you do Nina helped me one time she did
a session for me and along the lines of like
you describing how I trigger other women and
how they have a problem with me and it's my fault
even though I didn't do anything um I had like
seven or eight curses on my shoulder like no
wonder my shoulder hurt so much like i couldn't
even turn my head like i'm like i can't live
like this like something is wrong so i asked
nina like please help me she's like you it was
more than that though there was an entity seven
eight curses a saboteur and like a hex or two
and like most of them were from like women like
in this lifetime and I'm like what the fuck like
what the fuck and it's funny that you it's always
so sexual when we talk because like I can't tell
you like first of all last person that I had
sex with was my ex -husband um and I can't tell
you the last time I did it's like I like don't
I don't get it yeah no it's just a frequency
that you're giving off I'm just I'm home I make
soup I hang out with my kids I I should be a
shirt. I'm home. I make soup. I'm hanging out
with my kids. I'm not getting fucked to the level
that I should be. Oh my God. But amen. It'll
happen. I trust. It's not being wasted. You are
using that energy wisely instead of funneling
it outwards and allowing other people to use
it. You're finally using it for yourself. Yeah.
So you're going to be single for a while it feels.
until you can use up your own. It's like putting
a battery within yourself instead of plugging
yourself into someone else, right? Another outlet.
Totally. Totally. Definitely. And it's interesting
sort of like along the lines of when we started
talking and you were saying how you have to quiet
yourself down to be able to... embody yourself
and identify yourself initially. That's like
exactly what I'm doing. Now I've had periods
of time where I was by myself, but before when
it happened, I also was having a Kundalini activation
and not an activation, an awakening, Kundalini
awakening. And that was very intense and a lot
of the... my spiritual gifts came online and
I did not recognize them. I mean, like I didn't
even know what chakras were. I didn't know anything
about anything. And then all of a sudden I'm
like, I think that I can see all kinds of things
around me all the time. And I see them walking
around and sometimes I hear them and sometimes
I smell them. And this is a lot. And I don't
think that I'm ever actually alone. And now I
hear them in my head all the time. Like it was,
I thought it was crazy, but I'm not. No, you're
not. You're a galactic ass bitch, is what you
are. Thank you. So this other part of me that
we talked about yesterday is a big part of the
reason why I feel like I have so much anger and
rage. But I counterbalance it. So here I'm super
peaceful and chill. way more forgiving than 99
% of people would be. And I feel like I do that
probably subconsciously because it's like, if
I was a beast down here, like I would just be
a full beast. Like I have to carry the light
somewhere, but. I have a theory with a forgiveness
and projectors that's happening. Nothing bad.
Sorry. My daughter just ran up because she lost
her tooth. So congratulations. That is so cute.
That's a good sign. Yeah. I gave her a thumbs
up. She's very happy. We went to the orthodontist
today and she's going to get an expander and
braces and she's very happy about it. Is it a
palette expander? Yes. The upper one. Yeah, my
son needs that to go. Yeah. How old is your daughter?
She's eight Okay, he's ten. They told him he
couldn't get anything until all of us he fell
out and I was like for some Okay. Yeah, sometimes
it's like that we were told to wait too because
I thought that she would probably need some kind
of intervention when she was younger and they're
like no just you have to wait until like it naturally
like comes to a certain and we'll see and I was
like okay so but so she's been like talking about
it for a while but she officially is getting
an expander so she is so much like you so much
like you like on an energetic level you're the
best person to teach her like how to relate to
other women. You are, she's watching your relationships
that you have, especially with like your friends
and stuff. I don't know if that scares you to
hear that or if it's like exciting, but. Yeah,
I mean. If someone told me my daughter was exactly
like me, I would be scared shitless, I'm not
gonna lie. I'm like. Nah, I think, I mean, you
know, I'm pretty proud of myself. Lately, I've
been reflecting on a lot of things from my childhood.
And I'm just like, consistently reinforced because
like, I'm right back at where I already was.
And I'm like, Damn, I already know. And like
other things and people like pushed me out of
like what I already thought I knew. Like I rejected
religion and like second grade. I used to have
to go to like an after school like it was like
I don't even know, it was like in the evening,
class, and like pretty much all the kids in town
went to it, right? And then like through that,
that's how you get your confirmation or whatever,
things like that. Oh, you were raised Catholic
too. Catholic, but we didn't go to church. We
went to church for like, you know, funerals and
wedding, like not church. But my grandma did,
and she always wanted to take me to church. I
just wanted to go to breakfast. Why was she?
I would go for breakfast and basically the whole
time in church, I'd be like, cool. Well, if one's
breakfast and she'd be like, I agree. That was
the best part about I went to Catholic mass like
almost every week growing up. I never got confirmed
or anything because like you, I was like, there
was a part of me that I didn't I didn't necessarily
reject religion, but I rejected the people who
went to because I as I can see so deeply into
others. Even as a child, I'm like, you're not
Godlike. You're not Godlike. If this is what
church creates, I don't want it. I don't want
to have anything to fucking do with church. Because
you are a hypocrite. Like, no. Yeah. For me,
it was like something in me was not clicking.
And it was almost like they were like, I think
that I was getting really frustrated. I didn't
want to go. I wasn't participating. And they
were starting to say things to my parents, like,
you know, that I was not. participating and I'm
like because it's nonsense like this is not like
I just I don't want it like it doesn't make sense
like you know but I stand by that it's so funny
you needed to have that you needed to see that
and experience that for you to come to your form
your own conclusion yeah And in the library as
a child in elementary school, I would check out
books about witches and ghosts and all kinds
of stuff all the time. I used to like try to
smoke things all the time, like grasses and like
I would pick up herbs and like light them on
fire and like, what a weirdo. Who does this?
Like, I'm a shaman, I guess. Like, why don't
you just let me be, you know, let me get just
in saying and like. That is too funny. I was
the complete opposite. The complete opposite.
I was afraid of everything, Christine. Like every,
actually up until the age of seven, I was fearless.
Like I would climb trees and I acted like a boy.
My mom was so scared. But then life just conditions
you to fear things. I became afraid of everything.
Everything. I'm still afraid of I'm no longer
afraid of the dark and I'm no longer afraid of
ghosts because I talk to them all the time. So
that's cool. But I'm afraid of like loud noises
and heights. Like I get so startled really, really
easily. I definitely feel that. Loud noises used
to affect me. I feel like when I was extremely
stressed out. And I'm not saying you're stressed
out, but everybody carries stress differently.
You know what I mean? My body's always in a baseline
level of like zero to 100 real quick. Yeah. At
one point, I was blowing up a tire and for whatever
reason, I was distracted, obviously, because
I'm ungrounded and I'm thinking about all kinds
of stuff in my head and blowing up this tire
and not paying attention to the PSI using a full
size compressor, like a dingus. I was just like,
doo -doo -doo. And then, excuse me, the tire
exploded. And I was sitting there, you know,
I'm holding the thing to it. Fucking exploded.
And that's very dangerous. And I know better.
So please don't say anything about me being dumb.
But I also had no reaction whatsoever. I was
like, that's when I was like, I think I'm traumatized.
Like what the fuck is happening? Like for me
to just be like. Like, first of all, I was blowing
up the tire of a dolly because I was on a mission.
I was trying to move something. I needed that.
So it wasn't a car tire? No. Why did I imagine
a car tire? I was like... Yeah, so that was why.
Because the dolly tire was like this big. So
I pumped it up with air and it took... I mean,
I should have done it for like two seconds, but
I was just like, because I'm thinking about something.
Because I'm used to letting it sit for a minute.
thinking, but whatever. That's okay. That's how
you learn. Um, practice. Yeah. So then when it
exploded in my face, I'm like, well, now I'm
going to have to fucking carry it. I don't know.
It's crazy, but that's, I think not, not good
either to be like, I think that's like shutting
down. And I was, I think I was talking about
this yesterday with someone about how um I realized
the other day I was walking in public and I sort
of went into my autopilot which includes so what
I did was notice what my autopilot does when
I'm trying to like just not talk to anybody and
like not mingle and it's like peripheral shuts
down I get blinders and I just go like this but
the only time I have ever seen spirit is in my
peripheral. So it's very important for me to
like keep that open. Yes. Can I say something
to you? I get this way too. I used to think that
I was broken. I remember saying to my group of
friends at the time, I was like, I can't even
go out in public. And this was when I didn't
have to sermon over what was psychically coming
in and what was like, Whatever right, but it's
just How do I say this Remember when I asked
if you're crazy earlier Because you come off
so whimsical right like you you're always in
and out of This world and this dimension and
their dimension another you're someone who frequently
frequently frequently And I can't say that enough
frequently pops timelines Yes. You are a timeline
hopper. And this, these aren't like normal things
that I would say, but this is what I'm seeing
for you. So there shouldn't be any shame around
how you're programmed and wired. You're not,
there's, you're not broken. You're not like,
this is not dorsal vagal shutdown. This is more
than neuroscience can even explain. It is, it's
at it's like for a frequency thing. It's like,
you know how when trains hop, they're like change
tracks to go in a different direction. Like that's
what you're doing. And you do that all the time,
all day long. Your daughter does it too. That's
what I mean when I say you and her are very,
very similar. Yes. And I can see that. And she
like has to because she's in school for a thing.
Yeah, that's okay. My kids are in school too.
They begged. We homeschooled for so long and
up until my son was in sixth grade and he was
like, I want friends. And I'm like, okay, cool.
You guys are all going to school then. Yeah.
Well, how do they, how, how was that then? So
tell me, I didn't know that about you, that you
homeschooled for a long time. Yeah. About what
that's like, because that is something that I've
wanted to do for a long time with her. I totally
disagree with the school system generally just
based on the fact that it was built by the Rockefellers.
He wanted a nation of workers, not a nation of
thinkers. And that was my whole mantra. When
I said that I was homeschooling, I said, I want
my kids to learn how to think, not what to think.
And I kind of bit myself in the ass there, shot
myself in the ass, whatever the term is here,
because they question me all the time. And I'm
like, No, bitch, I want you to just do what I
say instead of questioning me. Right. But it
was an amazing experience. I asked them all the
time. I'm like, Hey, do you want to come back
to homeschooling? It's always an option for you.
It's always an option. And they're like, no,
I like my friends and I like school. Um, we're
also those parents who, if my kids don't want
to go to school, I will not make them go to school.
Yeah. They've missed like 45 days of school last
year. Wow. Yeah, I had someone I don't care at
my daughter's school. I think the limit is like
12 days and it was like damn near the end of
the year. And I had there was this is complex
because I didn't always pick her up. It was or
you know, take her into school or pick her up
because she was with her dad more frequently
at that time during that year. And she missed
more than 12 days and the woman in the office
was like oh you're gonna have to get a doctor's
note like anytime like what like what and then
i was like uh and she's like you don't have a
choice and like in that moment i was like what
the actual fuck did you just say to me i don't
have a choice bitch i have every choice in this
universe like i don't have to do fucking Anything
that you tell me to do none of this matters like
I care more that she feels good Like if she needed
13 days to feel good enough to fucking come here
and take all this Trauma looping and fucking
frequency shit from everybody else and all their
germs and all that shit No, you know get out
of here. Yes break that cycle. It's the cycle
of thinking I have to But she you know Get out
of here. Don't you dare. Yeah. You know, I am
not religious at all, but when I homeschooled,
I used a very religious curriculum. Everything
had Jesus wrapped up in it. Now, don't get me
wrong. I love Jesus. I love Jesus in a way that
makes Christians feel uncomfortable because it's
a very different type of love, right? It's not
the Bible sort of love. It's like... And I'm
probably going to sound crazy saying this, but
I feel like Jesus and I are like really good
friends. Yeah. No, I love that motherfucker.
People like us, souls like us. I've seen Jesus
in the streets. We've seen him in the streets.
That's how we know him because we worked with
him. He helped us. That's how you recognize that
in yourself is what he feels like. And I really
do. I also feel like he's a friend, like he's
my own boy. I have this astrologer because as
a psychic, I love getting readings, like you
said. Healers need healers and healers are always
healing. Like we're still healing all the time.
So I still get readings all the time. Like it's
one of my favorite things to do. It's like a
gift to myself, right? To be able to be seen
by another human. And again, as a projector,
like we want to be seen. So it's like stroking
my own fucking ego and filling my cup at the
same time. But this astrologer said to me, She
does a different kind of reading. I highly recommend
her. I'll send you her info Her name is Tara
and she works with a lot of like priestesses
and her whole thing is She does like a Magdalene
reading or like a rose reading or something like
that. I don't know what it's called. Oh Venus
Venus Yes, so she's all about Venus and I got
my Venus reading done and she was like She said
to me, she was like, Whoa, you're a Christian
before Christians were Christians. She's like,
you're such an old school, like initial disciple.
Yeah. It's like a mystic. She's like, you were
a mystic before and during the time of Jesus.
She's like, so you had this like relationship
with him. You worked with him. She's like, that's
probably why you feel so called to him. Cause
I told her. And then she, I just have to share
it with you. It was one of the most fascinating
astrology readings I've ever gotten in my life.
And I like sobbed through the whole thing. And
I was like, this is, this is so crazy. Matter
of fact, I have another one with her in like
two days. I gifted it to myself for my birthday.
And it's interesting that you're bringing up.
Mary Magdalene, I have felt called to learn more
about her because I do also resonate very deeply
with the priestess archetype and mission and
energy and have all these different codes and
lots of different stuff that I was able to identify,
but I still don't consciously know. Like I know,
I feel it and I get it. But it's always interesting.
It's always helpful to Give language for me.
I feel like because my spiritual awareness and
awakening came Naturally and suddenly I didn't
have a knowing like I didn't learn about stuff.
I had a lame later to be a little guy Oh, it's
a chakra like oh that wasn't my stomach. It was
my solar plexus, you know, yeah it's just you
know, whatever but Some people that happens and
I think that's actually like most people most
people in America wouldn't you say I actually,
I'm gonna recommend a friend to you because she
has this like wealth of knowledge around Mary
Magdalene. And it cleared up a lot of confusion
for me, like having her as a friend because of
that. And she's not yet, and I say yet because
I see for her that this is gonna be a part of
her offering in the world. not yet like offering
it as a thing, but if you need someone to talk
to you and ask questions, she knows because what's
happening right now as it was explained to me
is she represented the feminine. She was the
embodiment of the feminine as the divine partner
of Jesus. And we are just waking up to that right
now. And you feel it in your fucking bone. I
have a book. It's upstairs. It's meant to be
read. I haven't gotten... Is that what books
are? Yeah. Are they meant to be read? Meant to
be read. The Gospel of Mary Magdalene. Yes. I've
been reading it for a couple of weeks now, but
I have not been able to read it just because
like the season, like the time of year and all
this stuff. It's also like, what are those things
that... you pick up and you read and you contemplate
and you put it down and you read it again over
and over and over again. And every time you read
it, it's going to unlock more and more in you
in the form of remembering rather than like absorbing
information. It must be the time because like
a month ago and I immediately when I got it,
I put it on my bedside table because I was like,
I'm going to read this. I'll go to bed and I'm
going to go and I'm going to learn and do things
when I'm dreaming too. Cause you know, that's
what you do. But no, it's what you do because
well, yeah, apparently I didn't realize that
I've been blocking out a lot of it because I
think it because it's associated with the 20
and back stuff. My dream, um, hopping, my dimension
hopping, my, um, uh, conscious awareness of the,
I guess it's because My clairsentience is one
of my strongest senses and so I feel the physical
density reflected from that version of me but
it's not mine and I'm like trying to process
it like it's mine like I always do because I'm
a little bitch and I always blame myself I'm
like this must be my fault whatever I don't do
that anymore but nevertheless no you're meant
to do that You are meant to do that too. I think
so too. And I think if you didn't, if you didn't
for a moment think where is, where is this coming
from me? You know, then I, and if you're always
like, it's for me outside of me, then I don't,
you might be bypassing. Yeah, but you're also
a healer. So suck it up, bitch. I'm just joking.
No, I was thinking about that, but like it's
a That must be part of the reason why, and I
don't know enough about this. Like I said, and
I should probably learn more before I speak on
it, but the super soldier program, it seems like
they target people specifically who have the
heightened capability of doing that. And I think
that that does have ties to your soul. And somehow
they're able to identify that. And for whatever
reason, I guess right now it's coming to me.
It's really clicking in and I'm feeling it. So
I guess I'll express it, but. Oh, I'm gonna pause
right here. In part two, our conversation opens
up into spirituality, fear conditioning, faith,
expanded experiences, and what it takes to stay
embodied while living between worlds. Part two
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