WEBVTT 00:00:00.639 --> 00:00:04.519 Hello and welcome to another episode of In My 00:00:04.519 --> 00:00:07.799 Experience with yours truly, Christine DiGinto. 00:00:09.240 --> 00:00:12.080 This podcast is a space where I speak from lived 00:00:12.080 --> 00:00:16.079 experience. The moments that shaped me, challenged 00:00:16.079 --> 00:00:19.280 me, and changed the way that I understand myself 00:00:19.280 --> 00:00:23.179 in the world. The awakenings, the breakdowns, 00:00:23.179 --> 00:00:25.839 the moments that cracked me open, asked me to 00:00:25.839 --> 00:00:29.539 stay present, be embodied. and be honest with 00:00:29.539 --> 00:00:34.240 myself. I share my stories not to persuade or 00:00:34.240 --> 00:00:38.679 define truth for anyone else, but to offer perspective, 00:00:39.380 --> 00:00:41.979 to explore the gray areas we don't often have 00:00:41.979 --> 00:00:45.619 language for, to slow things down and listen 00:00:45.619 --> 00:00:48.299 more closely to what's happening beneath the 00:00:48.299 --> 00:00:52.840 surface. You'll hear solo episodes where I reflect 00:00:52.840 --> 00:00:56.369 on my own initiations, spiritual gifts, and the 00:00:56.369 --> 00:01:00.289 systems that try to define me. And conversations 00:01:00.289 --> 00:01:03.289 with guests who have walked strange, beautiful, 00:01:03.850 --> 00:01:06.790 and sometimes painful paths of their own and 00:01:06.790 --> 00:01:10.790 come back with wisdom to share with us. I invite 00:01:10.790 --> 00:01:14.209 you to take what resonates, leave the rest, and 00:01:14.209 --> 00:01:18.290 trust your own experience as valid. Thank you 00:01:18.290 --> 00:01:30.909 for being here. This is In My Experience. In 00:01:30.909 --> 00:01:33.870 this episode, I'm sharing part one of conversation 00:01:33.870 --> 00:01:37.870 with Erica Cordero, a psychic medium mom who 00:01:37.870 --> 00:01:40.689 I've personally worked with and I so appreciate 00:01:40.689 --> 00:01:43.709 her bubbly attitude while she tackles my demons. 00:01:43.930 --> 00:01:46.750 We jump straight into discernment, intuition, 00:01:46.969 --> 00:01:49.390 and what it's like to move through the world 00:01:49.390 --> 00:01:54.750 as deeply perceptive, sensitive women. This conversation 00:01:54.750 --> 00:01:57.829 is shared from lived experience, not theory. 00:01:58.189 --> 00:02:01.390 As always, take what resonates, leave the rest, 00:02:01.930 --> 00:02:04.510 and listen with your own discernment. If you 00:02:04.510 --> 00:02:07.010 feel called to stay with this work, you can follow 00:02:07.010 --> 00:02:09.229 the podcast wherever you listen so you don't 00:02:09.229 --> 00:02:12.669 miss what's next. You can also find Erica and 00:02:12.669 --> 00:02:18.580 her work at Align with Erica on Instagram. Okay, 00:02:18.599 --> 00:02:21.219 here we go. Everyone, please welcome my guest 00:02:21.219 --> 00:02:24.120 today, Erica Cordero. Thank you so much for being 00:02:24.120 --> 00:02:26.960 here with us, Erica. Oh, absolutely. Anything 00:02:26.960 --> 00:02:31.180 for you, Christine. You're always so fun to talk 00:02:31.180 --> 00:02:35.340 to. We've been chatting a little bit before we 00:02:35.340 --> 00:02:39.439 started, and we have a whole, like, wealth of 00:02:39.439 --> 00:02:41.500 topics to discuss, but we don't have anything 00:02:41.500 --> 00:02:44.699 in really particular that we want to talk about. 00:02:44.960 --> 00:02:47.199 But first, I want to get started. a little bit 00:02:47.199 --> 00:02:50.439 about you, can you please introduce yourself 00:02:50.439 --> 00:02:53.159 and describe a little bit about what you offer 00:02:53.159 --> 00:02:58.520 and what you do? Yeah, so I do a whole lot of 00:02:58.520 --> 00:03:02.219 things and then a whole lot of nothing. So predominantly, 00:03:02.219 --> 00:03:08.280 I am a psychic medium. And that is my favorite 00:03:08.280 --> 00:03:11.159 title I've ever owned. Actually, I lied. I think 00:03:11.159 --> 00:03:16.259 mom is number one. I have four kids, so mom is 00:03:16.259 --> 00:03:21.139 number one, but being a psychic is so fun. It 00:03:21.139 --> 00:03:25.659 is so, so fun. It is something that I feel like 00:03:25.659 --> 00:03:28.419 as a human, especially as a woman, is so natural 00:03:28.419 --> 00:03:32.340 to us. So you feel like you are living in alignment 00:03:32.340 --> 00:03:36.280 and living your purpose without it feeling hard. 00:03:37.740 --> 00:03:41.620 It's so effortless. It feels so good. It feels 00:03:41.620 --> 00:03:46.379 so good. to be getting paid to be doing what 00:03:46.379 --> 00:03:48.919 I've already done my whole life. Like, hello. 00:03:50.500 --> 00:03:53.060 Perfect. I love it so much. And I'm so happy 00:03:53.060 --> 00:03:58.060 for you. And for everyone, this is a possible, 00:03:58.259 --> 00:04:00.819 like, it's also something that all humans can 00:04:00.819 --> 00:04:03.800 do. If we tune ourselves, if we practice, if 00:04:03.800 --> 00:04:07.259 we allow ourselves to slow down and quiet down 00:04:07.259 --> 00:04:10.340 and get in touch with ourselves, we can you know 00:04:10.340 --> 00:04:13.219 everyone has that capability isn't it like so 00:04:13.219 --> 00:04:15.960 beautiful but some people have it just naturally 00:04:15.960 --> 00:04:19.439 spontaneously from childhood and never goes away 00:04:19.439 --> 00:04:22.319 or it's always fostered and that everyone has 00:04:22.319 --> 00:04:25.379 you know i have a theory with that what what 00:04:25.379 --> 00:04:30.660 my theory is those who have had it since childhood 00:04:30.660 --> 00:04:37.720 were probably They probably didn't, they had 00:04:37.720 --> 00:04:39.899 a belief system that already allowed for it, 00:04:40.279 --> 00:04:43.040 right? For example, maybe your mother was one 00:04:43.040 --> 00:04:47.839 or your grandmother was one or your caregivers 00:04:47.839 --> 00:04:50.680 were into spirituality like tarot cards. So you 00:04:50.680 --> 00:04:55.279 already had this awareness of the spirit realm, 00:04:55.540 --> 00:04:58.779 right? I didn't have that. I was born and raised 00:04:58.779 --> 00:05:02.649 Catholic. In fact, my mom did sometimes say like, 00:05:02.810 --> 00:05:04.589 Oh, your grandfather standing over there. And 00:05:04.589 --> 00:05:06.990 I was like, you're a lying bitch. Okay. You're 00:05:06.990 --> 00:05:08.990 lying. I don't believe I never believed in them, 00:05:08.990 --> 00:05:11.970 but she never took it so far as to say like, 00:05:12.110 --> 00:05:14.790 Oh yeah, I'm a medium or I'm a psychic. Right. 00:05:15.470 --> 00:05:19.589 But my other theory is, I don't even think this 00:05:19.589 --> 00:05:24.790 is theory. My other belief is that I don't think 00:05:24.790 --> 00:05:30.100 we have to do anything to hone it. I think it's 00:05:30.100 --> 00:05:34.500 readily available, but what we do have to do 00:05:34.500 --> 00:05:37.920 is to clear the interference. And by interference, 00:05:37.920 --> 00:05:40.939 I mean the trapped emotions, the beliefs that 00:05:40.939 --> 00:05:46.040 you hold around it, the knowing that what you 00:05:46.040 --> 00:05:48.420 are feeling and what you're maybe hearing or 00:05:48.420 --> 00:05:53.800 seeing, however you get your insights, it just 00:05:53.800 --> 00:05:57.220 is. Like, that's the thing. You have to be able 00:05:57.220 --> 00:06:01.060 to discern. between your own thoughts and what 00:06:01.060 --> 00:06:04.939 is being channeled. And for me, it doesn't feel 00:06:04.939 --> 00:06:08.000 any different. Like it's all the same. Mm -hmm. 00:06:08.079 --> 00:06:11.879 Mm -hmm. No, what you said is so on point. Absolutely. 00:06:12.480 --> 00:06:16.879 Totally agree. And I have had the opportunity, 00:06:17.019 --> 00:06:21.040 very luckily, to work with you before, previously, 00:06:21.680 --> 00:06:26.310 several times. with your psychic medium abilities 00:06:26.310 --> 00:06:30.189 and I will say your channel is absolutely accurate 00:06:30.189 --> 00:06:35.250 and I so enjoy talking with you and I think it's 00:06:35.250 --> 00:06:38.290 important to recognize like every every healer 00:06:38.290 --> 00:06:40.970 needs a healer because not every person not every 00:06:40.970 --> 00:06:45.269 healer is perfect no one actually I don't actually 00:06:45.269 --> 00:06:49.500 know a single person who is um and I don't think 00:06:49.500 --> 00:06:51.620 we're supposed to be so that's one thing to be 00:06:51.620 --> 00:06:55.860 said but it's very important like for me I can 00:06:55.860 --> 00:06:59.180 channel for other people no problem it comes 00:06:59.180 --> 00:07:06.199 to my own things my emotions my um limited egos 00:07:06.199 --> 00:07:10.779 um perspective capacity sometimes limits my ability 00:07:10.779 --> 00:07:14.370 to Receive the higher information like you just 00:07:14.370 --> 00:07:16.509 have to be able to admit that you know Everybody 00:07:16.509 --> 00:07:18.509 has a blind spot when it comes to themselves. 00:07:18.509 --> 00:07:24.490 So it's important to like get verification or 00:07:24.490 --> 00:07:28.810 Check with other people who are trusted that 00:07:28.810 --> 00:07:33.250 you've worked. Yes, so to Rationalize what is 00:07:33.250 --> 00:07:36.350 actually happening in your reality. So I can't 00:07:36.350 --> 00:07:39.660 read for myself. Yeah I can't, I have to ask 00:07:39.660 --> 00:07:42.019 for signs all the time. I'm like, show me two, 00:07:42.259 --> 00:07:47.439 two, two. Show me a blue bird or show me like, 00:07:47.620 --> 00:07:50.259 I have all of these things where I get a yes 00:07:50.259 --> 00:07:52.959 or a no. Like that's, that's how I ask questions. 00:07:53.899 --> 00:07:57.079 But more often than not lately, it has been coming 00:07:57.079 --> 00:08:01.180 through other people, like through other people. 00:08:01.379 --> 00:08:03.240 Believe it or not, I still have days where I'm 00:08:03.240 --> 00:08:05.839 like, actually like, This feels too good to be 00:08:05.839 --> 00:08:08.480 true. What's my real soul's purpose? What really 00:08:08.480 --> 00:08:12.379 am I here to do? Show me a clear sign. And I 00:08:12.379 --> 00:08:18.220 actually, funny enough, I just was going through 00:08:18.220 --> 00:08:23.279 my cycle and I just started my period. But always, 00:08:23.620 --> 00:08:26.740 a few days before I start, I get into this really 00:08:26.740 --> 00:08:29.939 emotional identity crisis. I don't know who I 00:08:29.939 --> 00:08:32.809 am. What am I here for? Sort of thing. And so 00:08:32.809 --> 00:08:35.889 I asked that specific question about three days 00:08:35.889 --> 00:08:41.409 ago. And then the next day in my inbox, I had 00:08:41.409 --> 00:08:44.429 several people reach out to me and they're like, 00:08:44.529 --> 00:08:46.230 Hey, I just want to let you know you predicted 00:08:46.230 --> 00:08:48.570 this. And it was right. All in the same day. 00:08:48.710 --> 00:08:51.470 I'm like, okay. Yeah. All right. I'm looking 00:08:51.470 --> 00:08:56.909 at questions. So interesting. You know what I 00:08:56.909 --> 00:09:01.269 got? You know what I got when you were saying 00:09:01.269 --> 00:09:06.649 that that it's actually like the The energy of 00:09:06.649 --> 00:09:11.889 like the eggs that you're releasing Because they 00:09:11.889 --> 00:09:15.070 were like Interesting. Yeah, that's like what 00:09:15.070 --> 00:09:18.210 I saw when you were like like when existential 00:09:18.210 --> 00:09:20.129 crisis and saying like what am I here for? What 00:09:20.129 --> 00:09:23.509 am I doing? It's like, you know That's interesting. 00:09:23.509 --> 00:09:26.649 It's all it always happens every month fractal 00:09:26.649 --> 00:09:29.610 of potential that is like, I mean, like an egg 00:09:29.610 --> 00:09:32.309 is like the, I mean, I don't know what, how do 00:09:32.309 --> 00:09:36.889 you even describe the limitless potential of 00:09:36.889 --> 00:09:40.309 an egg? Right. It's so interesting. What came 00:09:40.309 --> 00:09:48.629 first? Yeah. We have no idea. I love it. This 00:09:48.629 --> 00:09:52.009 is really, really wild, but yeah, I love reading 00:09:52.009 --> 00:09:55.750 you. You're just an open book. There are, individuals 00:09:55.750 --> 00:10:00.370 who I feel like I would never classify anyone 00:10:00.370 --> 00:10:06.289 as hard to read. What I am tapping into is I'm 00:10:06.289 --> 00:10:10.509 feeling their belief system, right? Their energy. 00:10:10.590 --> 00:10:14.889 And if they have any inkling of this bitch is 00:10:14.889 --> 00:10:19.850 a fraud, I pick up on that and it kind of distorts 00:10:19.850 --> 00:10:23.269 what I'm getting, right? But with you, you're 00:10:23.269 --> 00:10:27.580 like, Like your legs might as well be open, right? 00:10:27.700 --> 00:10:30.700 You're like, okay, take me daddy. Like I'm here 00:10:30.700 --> 00:10:34.820 and I'm ready. The way you say it too, it's hilarious. 00:10:36.559 --> 00:10:43.740 For me specifically, oh my God. Erica has done 00:10:43.740 --> 00:10:46.519 several readings for me trying I have been working 00:10:46.519 --> 00:10:49.100 on trying to understand like because I really 00:10:49.100 --> 00:10:52.100 felt and carried a lot of guilt and shame feeling 00:10:52.100 --> 00:10:56.240 like I was responsible for stresses and strains 00:10:56.240 --> 00:10:59.919 and triggers that I cause and other people specifically 00:10:59.919 --> 00:11:04.740 women and You really just helped me cut right 00:11:04.740 --> 00:11:08.960 through all that fuckery so thanks for that because 00:11:09.340 --> 00:11:13.980 I was really, that was getting me for a loop, 00:11:14.139 --> 00:11:17.019 throwing me for a loop, like literally in space 00:11:17.019 --> 00:11:20.200 time. Yeah, it shouldn't, it shouldn't. And I'm 00:11:20.200 --> 00:11:23.259 so glad that it was helpful because, you know, 00:11:23.440 --> 00:11:27.720 I can see people's soul's purposes, but I can't, 00:11:27.840 --> 00:11:30.679 I never want to be someone who's like, oh, this 00:11:30.679 --> 00:11:33.259 is your soul's purpose because I believe we have 00:11:33.259 --> 00:11:36.590 hundreds of them. So if anyone is charging you 00:11:36.590 --> 00:11:38.509 to tell you what your soul's purpose is, and 00:11:38.509 --> 00:11:42.409 this is just my not so humble opinion, that's 00:11:42.409 --> 00:11:45.549 just one little portion. Yes, people can see 00:11:45.549 --> 00:11:47.970 it, but it's not the whole picture and you might 00:11:47.970 --> 00:11:50.629 feel let down. But one of yours is to trigger 00:11:50.629 --> 00:11:53.649 other women. It's to trigger other women so that 00:11:53.649 --> 00:11:56.470 they can feel more in their power. But if they're 00:11:56.470 --> 00:12:01.429 not in a state of awareness where they can't 00:12:01.429 --> 00:12:05.009 sit and reflect on their own actions, they are 00:12:05.009 --> 00:12:07.309 going to project and blame and blame and blame, 00:12:07.509 --> 00:12:10.409 right? So you're that person that they love to 00:12:10.409 --> 00:12:14.950 blame to no fault of yours, just for existing, 00:12:15.149 --> 00:12:19.690 like simply fucking existing. You will love to 00:12:19.690 --> 00:12:23.149 blame you. It's not your fault that you were 00:12:23.149 --> 00:12:26.029 born with this enormous amount of sexual energy. 00:12:26.929 --> 00:12:30.639 It's not your fault that you know God gave you 00:12:30.639 --> 00:12:33.980 huge tits like it's not your fault bought those 00:12:33.980 --> 00:12:36.620 it doesn't matter you he gave them to you he 00:12:36.620 --> 00:12:41.399 gave you the money yes not your fault like not 00:12:41.399 --> 00:12:47.700 at all and like if anything yeah it's not your 00:12:47.700 --> 00:12:50.240 fault I'm just gonna leave it there yeah not 00:12:50.240 --> 00:12:56.860 safe for work Yeah, I shared some of the one 00:12:56.860 --> 00:13:01.659 of the episodes that you did it was uh You were 00:13:01.659 --> 00:13:04.299 practicing you weren't even the word is not practicing 00:13:04.299 --> 00:13:06.600 because you didn't need to practice but you wanted 00:13:06.600 --> 00:13:11.379 to have someone on For your podcast, which you 00:13:11.379 --> 00:13:15.080 have a podcast. Please. Yeah, I like haven't 00:13:15.080 --> 00:13:19.700 I Haven't feel called to record any episodes 00:13:19.700 --> 00:13:24.419 to me. It's so weird to sit and just talk by 00:13:24.419 --> 00:13:27.779 myself. And I love solo episodes, but I don't 00:13:27.779 --> 00:13:30.559 love doing them. I don't understand. You know 00:13:30.559 --> 00:13:35.240 what is so funny? I totally agree. Okay. So yes, 00:13:35.240 --> 00:13:38.480 I've been starting this. Obviously having interviews 00:13:38.480 --> 00:13:41.019 is much easier because it's just a conversation, 00:13:41.259 --> 00:13:43.379 which is amazing. And it's just like you share 00:13:43.379 --> 00:13:47.360 it and that should be shared. So I love it. I 00:13:47.360 --> 00:13:50.379 have been assembling things. And then I came 00:13:50.379 --> 00:13:52.659 to the realization like, Because I felt like 00:13:52.659 --> 00:13:54.980 I needed to introduce myself kind of like a background 00:13:54.980 --> 00:13:57.259 like this. Yeah, I know. Like, what the fuck? 00:13:57.460 --> 00:14:02.139 This is just like an endless pit. Like, I can't 00:14:02.139 --> 00:14:04.460 describe myself and I don't have to like you 00:14:04.460 --> 00:14:07.019 don't have to. So like, I got that very clearly. 00:14:07.059 --> 00:14:09.220 It's like, you don't even have to start with 00:14:09.220 --> 00:14:11.700 us. Like, don't start with us. Start with just 00:14:11.700 --> 00:14:14.480 jump in, just send it and I'm like, okay, I got 00:14:14.480 --> 00:14:20.389 that. So my phone storage was full. And one of 00:14:20.389 --> 00:14:23.429 the recommendations was to go through large attachments. 00:14:24.149 --> 00:14:29.090 Okay, so I happened upon a treasure trove of 00:14:29.090 --> 00:14:32.110 audio messages that I have sent back and forth 00:14:32.110 --> 00:14:35.889 about myself to other people, describing things 00:14:35.889 --> 00:14:39.490 to other people about their situations with my 00:14:39.490 --> 00:14:42.690 recommendation, whatever, whatever I think about, 00:14:42.690 --> 00:14:46.169 whatever. And I'm like, yo, this shit is gold. 00:14:46.850 --> 00:14:51.289 So I started sieving them. I was like, I'm going 00:14:51.289 --> 00:14:54.789 to just like, cue up some of these audio messages 00:14:54.789 --> 00:14:57.610 and like talk about like, you know, the dynamics 00:14:57.610 --> 00:15:02.149 and then play it and then be like, that's it. 00:15:02.629 --> 00:15:05.190 And then also have interviews and like just start 00:15:05.190 --> 00:15:08.370 talking like about other things. Like, who knows? 00:15:08.690 --> 00:15:13.149 Yeah, I feel like my best because as a projector, 00:15:13.330 --> 00:15:17.659 we're meant to You know see another person see 00:15:17.659 --> 00:15:22.080 them so deeply and I feel like my best Messages 00:15:22.080 --> 00:15:24.980 and sometimes I surprise myself or through boxer 00:15:24.980 --> 00:15:28.240 or when I'm like voice messaging one of my friends 00:15:28.240 --> 00:15:31.259 about a situation there and like put me in a 00:15:31.259 --> 00:15:35.320 situation where you are having the Worst time 00:15:35.320 --> 00:15:37.440 of your life and I will guide you through it. 00:15:37.440 --> 00:15:39.700 I think that's where I shine That's my favorite 00:15:39.700 --> 00:15:44.669 thing ever in times of crisis Yeah do that. Share 00:15:44.669 --> 00:15:48.450 those. Yeah. I feel like it's not fair to them 00:15:48.450 --> 00:15:51.769 though. I have this integrity piece. Well, but 00:15:51.769 --> 00:15:55.429 so here's the thing. No one knows what the situation 00:15:55.429 --> 00:15:57.269 is. No one knows who you're talking to and you 00:15:57.269 --> 00:16:00.789 can edit out any names, but there are many that 00:16:00.789 --> 00:16:03.690 I have found that I'm actually not even saying 00:16:03.690 --> 00:16:06.850 any names. I'm describing the situation to an 00:16:06.850 --> 00:16:09.370 outside person and not even using names. I'm 00:16:09.370 --> 00:16:13.899 just like, using titles so it's like much easier 00:16:13.899 --> 00:16:16.480 you know and you can also bleep out whatever 00:16:16.480 --> 00:16:19.340 you want cut out whatever you want and just share 00:16:19.340 --> 00:16:22.600 them the portions of the messages that like you 00:16:22.600 --> 00:16:24.840 feel like other people need to hear because like 00:16:24.840 --> 00:16:28.259 you know they're there it's it's all the time 00:16:28.259 --> 00:16:31.899 thing it is i have a question for you and i don't 00:16:31.899 --> 00:16:35.600 i this is gonna leave somewhere but this question 00:16:35.600 --> 00:16:39.940 might be rash initially i don't think for you 00:16:39.940 --> 00:16:42.950 though Let me get to it. Have you been called 00:16:42.950 --> 00:16:47.690 crazy in your relationships? Oh, yes. Okay. Not 00:16:47.690 --> 00:16:53.769 before, but in my, my, my was bend. I like to 00:16:53.769 --> 00:16:58.860 say was bend. That is perfect. And that phrase 00:16:58.860 --> 00:17:04.680 is coined by Marie Zancanaro. She lives in Baja, 00:17:04.720 --> 00:17:09.259 Mexico, I believe, and she does email chakra 00:17:09.259 --> 00:17:15.380 mapping and description, you know, very detailed, 00:17:15.420 --> 00:17:17.980 and I highly recommend her. I'm going to actually 00:17:17.980 --> 00:17:20.619 put her information in the show notes, but that's 00:17:20.619 --> 00:17:24.259 from her. I love that. Yeah, so do I. Well, this 00:17:24.259 --> 00:17:28.460 is what I feel called to tell you right at this 00:17:28.460 --> 00:17:31.920 very moment is if you're okay with that. Actually, 00:17:31.920 --> 00:17:35.079 I know you are. Your legs are always open for 00:17:35.079 --> 00:17:43.660 this information. It's because you come off as 00:17:43.660 --> 00:17:49.339 so whimsical and probably ungrounded to men who 00:17:49.339 --> 00:17:53.700 are not strong enough. You need a grounded ass 00:17:53.700 --> 00:17:59.940 individual to hold you because you like leave 00:17:59.940 --> 00:18:02.980 this dimension often, like all the time. Like 00:18:02.980 --> 00:18:06.299 when you start thinking about something, you 00:18:06.299 --> 00:18:11.059 see things from like how we see the moon, right? 00:18:11.519 --> 00:18:14.420 Like we see just one side of the moon. We don't 00:18:14.420 --> 00:18:16.660 see the other side. You actually go and you're 00:18:16.660 --> 00:18:18.500 like, oh, I wonder what the other side looks 00:18:18.500 --> 00:18:21.000 like. And you like travel to that. I'm there 00:18:21.000 --> 00:18:25.599 too uh I'm actually so funny that you're saying 00:18:25.599 --> 00:18:28.079 this I actually wasn't gonna talk about this 00:18:28.079 --> 00:18:30.960 yet because I'm I'm unraveling it I'm actively 00:18:30.960 --> 00:18:38.180 working um to oh boy this is big I have been 00:18:38.180 --> 00:18:41.559 in this the secret space program the 20 and back 00:18:41.559 --> 00:18:46.240 program and I have a super soldier on a moon 00:18:46.870 --> 00:18:49.970 What the fuck start from the beginning I know 00:18:49.970 --> 00:18:53.369 what is this like, okay briefly, I don't know 00:18:53.369 --> 00:18:58.630 what this is Okay All right TLDR version like 00:18:58.630 --> 00:19:04.569 the just cliff notes. Oh, so Olders I don't you 00:19:04.569 --> 00:19:06.910 know, there's a lot of information out there 00:19:06.910 --> 00:19:12.470 Look it up I need to look it up I'm brash in 00:19:12.470 --> 00:19:15.130 saying this, but I really believe it's true because 00:19:15.130 --> 00:19:20.069 here's why I believe it's true. In my uh pre 00:19:20.069 --> 00:19:24.890 -teens and teenage years I recall many many nights 00:19:24.890 --> 00:19:28.710 that I would dream and I would always lucid dream. 00:19:29.470 --> 00:19:33.809 I would often be hunting people down like I mean, 00:19:33.869 --> 00:19:37.509 like full force, like a fucking dog, like chasing 00:19:37.509 --> 00:19:40.069 people and I would like kill them. Like I'm a 00:19:40.069 --> 00:19:44.910 killer. I used to be super proud of it. I thought 00:19:44.910 --> 00:19:48.150 that I wanted to be in the military. I was actually 00:19:48.150 --> 00:19:50.589 like, yeah, I'm tough as fuck. Like I do this 00:19:50.589 --> 00:19:52.609 shit in my dreams. Like I want to do this. Like 00:19:52.609 --> 00:19:54.470 there's a reason I'm dreaming about it. Like, 00:19:54.609 --> 00:19:57.950 but that is tied to the training that I was receiving. 00:19:58.250 --> 00:20:03.680 So what happens is, hmm, this is complex. government 00:20:03.680 --> 00:20:13.839 has copied interdimensional beings technology 00:20:13.839 --> 00:20:21.420 to take your consciousness and suspend it and 00:20:21.420 --> 00:20:24.220 they say it's like one night you know so like 00:20:24.220 --> 00:20:26.000 they'll take your consciousness out of your body 00:20:26.000 --> 00:20:28.400 and then they'll get they'll put you in a program 00:20:28.400 --> 00:20:31.500 where you do 20 years of service So you're there 00:20:31.500 --> 00:20:36.279 for 20 years, but time doesn't apply. And then 00:20:36.279 --> 00:20:38.480 they'll put you back in your body. And it's just 00:20:38.480 --> 00:20:39.960 like, you wake up the next morning, you're like, 00:20:40.099 --> 00:20:45.079 I'm tired. So your body is receiving and connected 00:20:45.079 --> 00:20:48.099 to the consciousness that is up there, operating. 00:20:48.200 --> 00:20:55.319 It's a stranger thing. Yeah, yeah. Yeah, that 00:20:55.319 --> 00:20:57.500 is true. It is like associated with like the 00:20:57.500 --> 00:21:00.539 Montauk project and that is what that's based 00:21:00.539 --> 00:21:05.700 on and Yeah people interfering with people's 00:21:05.700 --> 00:21:08.599 Telepathic or like natural abilities. There's 00:21:08.599 --> 00:21:12.200 their spiritual psychic abilities. It's also 00:21:12.200 --> 00:21:15.900 targeted People are targeted to be in this program. 00:21:15.900 --> 00:21:20.400 It has to do also with bloodlines and with government 00:21:20.400 --> 00:21:25.140 ties and Who the fuck knows? I'm still unraveling 00:21:25.140 --> 00:21:28.660 it, but I have thought this for a while. It's 00:21:28.660 --> 00:21:31.839 very interesting because I've worked with Amy 00:21:31.839 --> 00:21:36.400 Belair for about four years now, and she did 00:21:36.400 --> 00:21:39.619 an Akashic reading for me three years ago, because 00:21:39.619 --> 00:21:43.059 the first year that I got associated with her, 00:21:43.059 --> 00:21:47.279 she had just had her baby. Well, he's not a baby 00:21:47.279 --> 00:21:53.970 anymore. He's, I think, four. William. Sorry, 00:21:53.990 --> 00:21:56.529 this is a lot for me to talk about. No, it's 00:21:56.529 --> 00:21:58.789 okay You're also clearing shit out as you're 00:21:58.789 --> 00:22:01.849 talking pull it out the things that like are 00:22:01.849 --> 00:22:04.410 like the fucking juice You pull out the juice. 00:22:04.410 --> 00:22:13.970 This is what value so So Hey, if you don't feel 00:22:13.970 --> 00:22:16.490 comfortable if you're losing your words no problem 00:22:16.490 --> 00:22:19.609 talking about it at all because so funny before 00:22:19.609 --> 00:22:22.170 I before this started I hopped in the shower 00:22:22.170 --> 00:22:25.059 and I thought to myself like I'm gonna have to 00:22:25.059 --> 00:22:28.099 talk about this but I'm three sessions into like 00:22:28.099 --> 00:22:31.680 a two month committed container to unravel this 00:22:31.680 --> 00:22:36.539 and yesterday we had a session and we identified 00:22:36.539 --> 00:22:41.200 my altar a version of my consciousness that is 00:22:41.200 --> 00:22:49.420 on a moon um Titan I think and um she was not 00:22:49.420 --> 00:22:51.579 on a mission You know, like she wasn't actively 00:22:51.579 --> 00:22:54.039 like doing something. Who's leading this container? 00:22:54.759 --> 00:22:59.420 Um. You don't have to say, yeah, I might not 00:22:59.420 --> 00:23:02.779 say right now, but would also have him on as 00:23:02.779 --> 00:23:05.039 a guest. But right now I'm unraveling it and 00:23:05.039 --> 00:23:07.680 I just don't want anything to get targeted or 00:23:07.680 --> 00:23:12.119 ramped up because. That's how it works to like 00:23:12.119 --> 00:23:14.759 if you talk about whatever shit's happening, 00:23:14.759 --> 00:23:16.940 doesn't matter. We're here to break it. And it 00:23:16.940 --> 00:23:19.279 is, you know what? It's so crazy that I like. 00:23:20.490 --> 00:23:22.789 This is what happens sometimes when you just 00:23:22.789 --> 00:23:25.609 like say anything that comes to your mind like 00:23:25.609 --> 00:23:29.190 I literally see you Being the other side of the 00:23:29.190 --> 00:23:32.730 moon. Yeah Yeah, where other people don't see 00:23:32.730 --> 00:23:37.890 it like you have this this ability to view things 00:23:37.890 --> 00:23:41.809 from a six hundreds 360 degree angle and you 00:23:41.809 --> 00:23:44.430 speak from those places and for those of us who 00:23:44.430 --> 00:23:47.789 are so earthbound and dense to be able to receive 00:23:47.789 --> 00:23:52.339 that information Like we don't receive that information. 00:23:52.339 --> 00:23:56.420 We don't we cannot comprehend what you're saying 00:23:56.420 --> 00:24:00.259 and so that's why I asked if sometimes you get 00:24:00.259 --> 00:24:05.460 called crazy because You bring that into your 00:24:05.460 --> 00:24:08.420 relationships not just like your like physical 00:24:08.420 --> 00:24:11.740 like sexual relationships even with your children 00:24:13.279 --> 00:24:17.460 yeah it's like the intensity in my body so so 00:24:17.460 --> 00:24:19.339 similarly to like when you have a nightmare and 00:24:19.339 --> 00:24:21.700 you wake up like you feel that like you're afraid 00:24:21.700 --> 00:24:24.539 like you're drowning you're sweating like you're 00:24:24.539 --> 00:24:28.279 breathing heavily your body receives that i have 00:24:28.279 --> 00:24:32.440 been sharing the load of the trauma from that 00:24:32.440 --> 00:24:35.619 version of me unknowingly and i just discovered 00:24:35.619 --> 00:24:40.460 this yesterday like you know what I mean? Like 00:24:40.460 --> 00:24:43.140 I like felt it and like can identify because 00:24:43.140 --> 00:24:48.519 like my body hurts like a like a lot. I go to 00:24:48.519 --> 00:24:51.299 a chiropractor every week speaking of body code 00:24:51.299 --> 00:24:55.059 which you do Nina helped me one time she did 00:24:55.059 --> 00:24:58.720 a session for me and along the lines of like 00:24:58.720 --> 00:25:00.960 you describing how I trigger other women and 00:25:00.960 --> 00:25:03.440 how they have a problem with me and it's my fault 00:25:03.440 --> 00:25:07.240 even though I didn't do anything um I had like 00:25:07.240 --> 00:25:10.420 seven or eight curses on my shoulder like no 00:25:10.420 --> 00:25:12.160 wonder my shoulder hurt so much like i couldn't 00:25:12.160 --> 00:25:14.200 even turn my head like i'm like i can't live 00:25:14.200 --> 00:25:16.440 like this like something is wrong so i asked 00:25:16.440 --> 00:25:18.980 nina like please help me she's like you it was 00:25:18.980 --> 00:25:21.759 more than that though there was an entity seven 00:25:21.759 --> 00:25:27.180 eight curses a saboteur and like a hex or two 00:25:27.180 --> 00:25:29.980 and like most of them were from like women like 00:25:29.980 --> 00:25:33.059 in this lifetime and I'm like what the fuck like 00:25:33.059 --> 00:25:36.339 what the fuck and it's funny that you it's always 00:25:36.339 --> 00:25:38.940 so sexual when we talk because like I can't tell 00:25:38.940 --> 00:25:41.440 you like first of all last person that I had 00:25:41.440 --> 00:25:45.000 sex with was my ex -husband um and I can't tell 00:25:45.000 --> 00:25:48.119 you the last time I did it's like I like don't 00:25:48.119 --> 00:25:52.160 I don't get it yeah no it's just a frequency 00:25:52.160 --> 00:25:55.619 that you're giving off I'm just I'm home I make 00:25:55.619 --> 00:25:59.480 soup I hang out with my kids I I should be a 00:25:59.480 --> 00:26:02.480 shirt. I'm home. I make soup. I'm hanging out 00:26:02.480 --> 00:26:06.200 with my kids. I'm not getting fucked to the level 00:26:06.200 --> 00:26:10.619 that I should be. Oh my God. But amen. It'll 00:26:10.619 --> 00:26:15.019 happen. I trust. It's not being wasted. You are 00:26:15.019 --> 00:26:19.279 using that energy wisely instead of funneling 00:26:19.279 --> 00:26:21.400 it outwards and allowing other people to use 00:26:21.400 --> 00:26:24.599 it. You're finally using it for yourself. Yeah. 00:26:24.619 --> 00:26:27.160 So you're going to be single for a while it feels. 00:26:27.319 --> 00:26:31.279 until you can use up your own. It's like putting 00:26:31.279 --> 00:26:33.420 a battery within yourself instead of plugging 00:26:33.420 --> 00:26:35.859 yourself into someone else, right? Another outlet. 00:26:36.619 --> 00:26:40.839 Totally. Totally. Definitely. And it's interesting 00:26:40.839 --> 00:26:42.960 sort of like along the lines of when we started 00:26:42.960 --> 00:26:50.240 talking and you were saying how you have to quiet 00:26:50.240 --> 00:26:53.910 yourself down to be able to... embody yourself 00:26:53.910 --> 00:26:56.809 and identify yourself initially. That's like 00:26:56.809 --> 00:27:01.950 exactly what I'm doing. Now I've had periods 00:27:01.950 --> 00:27:04.630 of time where I was by myself, but before when 00:27:04.630 --> 00:27:07.609 it happened, I also was having a Kundalini activation 00:27:07.609 --> 00:27:12.569 and not an activation, an awakening, Kundalini 00:27:12.569 --> 00:27:18.970 awakening. And that was very intense and a lot 00:27:18.970 --> 00:27:23.779 of the... my spiritual gifts came online and 00:27:23.779 --> 00:27:26.400 I did not recognize them. I mean, like I didn't 00:27:26.400 --> 00:27:28.440 even know what chakras were. I didn't know anything 00:27:28.440 --> 00:27:30.440 about anything. And then all of a sudden I'm 00:27:30.440 --> 00:27:33.660 like, I think that I can see all kinds of things 00:27:33.660 --> 00:27:35.720 around me all the time. And I see them walking 00:27:35.720 --> 00:27:37.480 around and sometimes I hear them and sometimes 00:27:37.480 --> 00:27:40.420 I smell them. And this is a lot. And I don't 00:27:40.420 --> 00:27:42.720 think that I'm ever actually alone. And now I 00:27:42.720 --> 00:27:44.900 hear them in my head all the time. Like it was, 00:27:45.200 --> 00:27:48.589 I thought it was crazy, but I'm not. No, you're 00:27:48.589 --> 00:27:50.910 not. You're a galactic ass bitch, is what you 00:27:50.910 --> 00:27:56.450 are. Thank you. So this other part of me that 00:27:56.450 --> 00:28:00.230 we talked about yesterday is a big part of the 00:28:00.230 --> 00:28:06.509 reason why I feel like I have so much anger and 00:28:06.509 --> 00:28:13.430 rage. But I counterbalance it. So here I'm super 00:28:13.430 --> 00:28:19.140 peaceful and chill. way more forgiving than 99 00:28:19.140 --> 00:28:24.640 % of people would be. And I feel like I do that 00:28:24.640 --> 00:28:28.359 probably subconsciously because it's like, if 00:28:28.359 --> 00:28:30.380 I was a beast down here, like I would just be 00:28:30.380 --> 00:28:32.480 a full beast. Like I have to carry the light 00:28:32.480 --> 00:28:37.920 somewhere, but. I have a theory with a forgiveness 00:28:37.920 --> 00:28:41.660 and projectors that's happening. Nothing bad. 00:28:41.819 --> 00:28:44.519 Sorry. My daughter just ran up because she lost 00:28:44.519 --> 00:28:50.660 her tooth. So congratulations. That is so cute. 00:28:50.940 --> 00:28:54.180 That's a good sign. Yeah. I gave her a thumbs 00:28:54.180 --> 00:28:59.579 up. She's very happy. We went to the orthodontist 00:28:59.579 --> 00:29:01.619 today and she's going to get an expander and 00:29:01.619 --> 00:29:04.680 braces and she's very happy about it. Is it a 00:29:04.680 --> 00:29:09.700 palette expander? Yes. The upper one. Yeah, my 00:29:09.700 --> 00:29:13.240 son needs that to go. Yeah. How old is your daughter? 00:29:13.700 --> 00:29:17.799 She's eight Okay, he's ten. They told him he 00:29:17.799 --> 00:29:20.339 couldn't get anything until all of us he fell 00:29:20.339 --> 00:29:25.039 out and I was like for some Okay. Yeah, sometimes 00:29:25.039 --> 00:29:27.180 it's like that we were told to wait too because 00:29:27.180 --> 00:29:29.480 I thought that she would probably need some kind 00:29:29.480 --> 00:29:33.119 of intervention when she was younger and they're 00:29:33.119 --> 00:29:36.680 like no just you have to wait until like it naturally 00:29:36.680 --> 00:29:40.119 like comes to a certain and we'll see and I was 00:29:40.119 --> 00:29:43.319 like okay so but so she's been like talking about 00:29:43.319 --> 00:29:45.779 it for a while but she officially is getting 00:29:45.779 --> 00:29:53.180 an expander so she is so much like you so much 00:29:53.180 --> 00:30:00.579 like you like on an energetic level you're the 00:30:00.579 --> 00:30:05.950 best person to teach her like how to relate to 00:30:05.950 --> 00:30:10.569 other women. You are, she's watching your relationships 00:30:10.569 --> 00:30:12.670 that you have, especially with like your friends 00:30:12.670 --> 00:30:16.809 and stuff. I don't know if that scares you to 00:30:16.809 --> 00:30:23.230 hear that or if it's like exciting, but. Yeah, 00:30:23.230 --> 00:30:26.829 I mean. If someone told me my daughter was exactly 00:30:26.829 --> 00:30:28.710 like me, I would be scared shitless, I'm not 00:30:28.710 --> 00:30:32.789 gonna lie. I'm like. Nah, I think, I mean, you 00:30:32.789 --> 00:30:34.869 know, I'm pretty proud of myself. Lately, I've 00:30:34.869 --> 00:30:37.470 been reflecting on a lot of things from my childhood. 00:30:37.470 --> 00:30:40.609 And I'm just like, consistently reinforced because 00:30:40.609 --> 00:30:42.990 like, I'm right back at where I already was. 00:30:43.009 --> 00:30:46.230 And I'm like, Damn, I already know. And like 00:30:46.230 --> 00:30:48.950 other things and people like pushed me out of 00:30:48.950 --> 00:30:52.730 like what I already thought I knew. Like I rejected 00:30:52.730 --> 00:30:55.750 religion and like second grade. I used to have 00:30:55.750 --> 00:30:58.329 to go to like an after school like it was like 00:30:58.430 --> 00:31:00.230 I don't even know, it was like in the evening, 00:31:00.390 --> 00:31:03.430 class, and like pretty much all the kids in town 00:31:03.430 --> 00:31:06.130 went to it, right? And then like through that, 00:31:06.170 --> 00:31:08.230 that's how you get your confirmation or whatever, 00:31:08.410 --> 00:31:09.750 things like that. Oh, you were raised Catholic 00:31:09.750 --> 00:31:13.230 too. Catholic, but we didn't go to church. We 00:31:13.230 --> 00:31:16.529 went to church for like, you know, funerals and 00:31:16.529 --> 00:31:19.930 wedding, like not church. But my grandma did, 00:31:19.930 --> 00:31:21.910 and she always wanted to take me to church. I 00:31:21.910 --> 00:31:24.950 just wanted to go to breakfast. Why was she? 00:31:25.369 --> 00:31:27.829 I would go for breakfast and basically the whole 00:31:27.829 --> 00:31:29.650 time in church, I'd be like, cool. Well, if one's 00:31:29.650 --> 00:31:33.670 breakfast and she'd be like, I agree. That was 00:31:33.670 --> 00:31:37.410 the best part about I went to Catholic mass like 00:31:37.410 --> 00:31:40.130 almost every week growing up. I never got confirmed 00:31:40.130 --> 00:31:43.109 or anything because like you, I was like, there 00:31:43.109 --> 00:31:45.910 was a part of me that I didn't I didn't necessarily 00:31:45.910 --> 00:31:49.150 reject religion, but I rejected the people who 00:31:49.150 --> 00:31:54.009 went to because I as I can see so deeply into 00:31:54.009 --> 00:31:57.569 others. Even as a child, I'm like, you're not 00:31:57.569 --> 00:32:00.670 Godlike. You're not Godlike. If this is what 00:32:00.670 --> 00:32:03.769 church creates, I don't want it. I don't want 00:32:03.769 --> 00:32:06.549 to have anything to fucking do with church. Because 00:32:06.549 --> 00:32:09.990 you are a hypocrite. Like, no. Yeah. For me, 00:32:10.109 --> 00:32:12.430 it was like something in me was not clicking. 00:32:12.589 --> 00:32:15.670 And it was almost like they were like, I think 00:32:15.670 --> 00:32:17.289 that I was getting really frustrated. I didn't 00:32:17.289 --> 00:32:19.789 want to go. I wasn't participating. And they 00:32:19.789 --> 00:32:22.009 were starting to say things to my parents, like, 00:32:22.130 --> 00:32:26.079 you know, that I was not. participating and I'm 00:32:26.079 --> 00:32:29.680 like because it's nonsense like this is not like 00:32:29.680 --> 00:32:33.000 I just I don't want it like it doesn't make sense 00:32:33.000 --> 00:32:38.539 like you know but I stand by that it's so funny 00:32:38.539 --> 00:32:42.720 you needed to have that you needed to see that 00:32:42.720 --> 00:32:45.400 and experience that for you to come to your form 00:32:45.400 --> 00:32:50.619 your own conclusion yeah And in the library as 00:32:50.619 --> 00:32:53.140 a child in elementary school, I would check out 00:32:53.140 --> 00:32:56.059 books about witches and ghosts and all kinds 00:32:56.059 --> 00:32:59.359 of stuff all the time. I used to like try to 00:32:59.359 --> 00:33:02.079 smoke things all the time, like grasses and like 00:33:02.079 --> 00:33:04.039 I would pick up herbs and like light them on 00:33:04.039 --> 00:33:07.039 fire and like, what a weirdo. Who does this? 00:33:07.680 --> 00:33:10.640 Like, I'm a shaman, I guess. Like, why don't 00:33:10.640 --> 00:33:13.680 you just let me be, you know, let me get just 00:33:13.680 --> 00:33:18.269 in saying and like. That is too funny. I was 00:33:18.269 --> 00:33:21.630 the complete opposite. The complete opposite. 00:33:21.769 --> 00:33:24.910 I was afraid of everything, Christine. Like every, 00:33:25.109 --> 00:33:28.970 actually up until the age of seven, I was fearless. 00:33:29.009 --> 00:33:32.190 Like I would climb trees and I acted like a boy. 00:33:32.250 --> 00:33:36.390 My mom was so scared. But then life just conditions 00:33:36.390 --> 00:33:39.789 you to fear things. I became afraid of everything. 00:33:41.109 --> 00:33:44.519 Everything. I'm still afraid of I'm no longer 00:33:44.519 --> 00:33:46.619 afraid of the dark and I'm no longer afraid of 00:33:46.619 --> 00:33:48.859 ghosts because I talk to them all the time. So 00:33:48.859 --> 00:33:52.460 that's cool. But I'm afraid of like loud noises 00:33:52.460 --> 00:33:56.759 and heights. Like I get so startled really, really 00:33:56.759 --> 00:34:02.400 easily. I definitely feel that. Loud noises used 00:34:02.400 --> 00:34:06.140 to affect me. I feel like when I was extremely 00:34:06.140 --> 00:34:09.179 stressed out. And I'm not saying you're stressed 00:34:09.179 --> 00:34:11.199 out, but everybody carries stress differently. 00:34:11.320 --> 00:34:14.159 You know what I mean? My body's always in a baseline 00:34:14.159 --> 00:34:21.199 level of like zero to 100 real quick. Yeah. At 00:34:21.199 --> 00:34:26.320 one point, I was blowing up a tire and for whatever 00:34:26.320 --> 00:34:29.219 reason, I was distracted, obviously, because 00:34:29.219 --> 00:34:31.260 I'm ungrounded and I'm thinking about all kinds 00:34:31.260 --> 00:34:32.920 of stuff in my head and blowing up this tire 00:34:32.920 --> 00:34:35.300 and not paying attention to the PSI using a full 00:34:35.300 --> 00:34:38.159 size compressor, like a dingus. I was just like, 00:34:38.219 --> 00:34:42.679 doo -doo -doo. And then, excuse me, the tire 00:34:42.679 --> 00:34:46.239 exploded. And I was sitting there, you know, 00:34:46.280 --> 00:34:48.159 I'm holding the thing to it. Fucking exploded. 00:34:48.420 --> 00:34:50.800 And that's very dangerous. And I know better. 00:34:51.159 --> 00:34:53.699 So please don't say anything about me being dumb. 00:34:54.320 --> 00:34:58.119 But I also had no reaction whatsoever. I was 00:34:58.119 --> 00:35:01.699 like, that's when I was like, I think I'm traumatized. 00:35:01.900 --> 00:35:04.599 Like what the fuck is happening? Like for me 00:35:04.599 --> 00:35:07.539 to just be like. Like, first of all, I was blowing 00:35:07.539 --> 00:35:09.960 up the tire of a dolly because I was on a mission. 00:35:10.079 --> 00:35:12.340 I was trying to move something. I needed that. 00:35:12.659 --> 00:35:16.800 So it wasn't a car tire? No. Why did I imagine 00:35:16.800 --> 00:35:20.280 a car tire? I was like... Yeah, so that was why. 00:35:20.360 --> 00:35:22.619 Because the dolly tire was like this big. So 00:35:22.619 --> 00:35:25.820 I pumped it up with air and it took... I mean, 00:35:25.820 --> 00:35:28.079 I should have done it for like two seconds, but 00:35:28.079 --> 00:35:30.920 I was just like, because I'm thinking about something. 00:35:32.940 --> 00:35:35.079 Because I'm used to letting it sit for a minute. 00:35:36.019 --> 00:35:38.780 thinking, but whatever. That's okay. That's how 00:35:38.780 --> 00:35:45.260 you learn. Um, practice. Yeah. So then when it 00:35:45.260 --> 00:35:47.440 exploded in my face, I'm like, well, now I'm 00:35:47.440 --> 00:35:52.300 going to have to fucking carry it. I don't know. 00:35:52.300 --> 00:35:57.039 It's crazy, but that's, I think not, not good 00:35:57.039 --> 00:36:00.000 either to be like, I think that's like shutting 00:36:00.000 --> 00:36:01.659 down. And I was, I think I was talking about 00:36:01.659 --> 00:36:06.420 this yesterday with someone about how um I realized 00:36:06.420 --> 00:36:09.019 the other day I was walking in public and I sort 00:36:09.019 --> 00:36:12.039 of went into my autopilot which includes so what 00:36:12.039 --> 00:36:14.780 I did was notice what my autopilot does when 00:36:14.780 --> 00:36:17.739 I'm trying to like just not talk to anybody and 00:36:17.739 --> 00:36:21.139 like not mingle and it's like peripheral shuts 00:36:21.139 --> 00:36:25.340 down I get blinders and I just go like this but 00:36:25.340 --> 00:36:30.550 the only time I have ever seen spirit is in my 00:36:30.550 --> 00:36:33.690 peripheral. So it's very important for me to 00:36:33.690 --> 00:36:37.489 like keep that open. Yes. Can I say something 00:36:37.489 --> 00:36:42.150 to you? I get this way too. I used to think that 00:36:42.150 --> 00:36:45.969 I was broken. I remember saying to my group of 00:36:45.969 --> 00:36:47.849 friends at the time, I was like, I can't even 00:36:47.849 --> 00:36:51.949 go out in public. And this was when I didn't 00:36:51.949 --> 00:36:55.289 have to sermon over what was psychically coming 00:36:55.289 --> 00:37:01.030 in and what was like, Whatever right, but it's 00:37:01.030 --> 00:37:08.610 just How do I say this Remember when I asked 00:37:08.610 --> 00:37:12.530 if you're crazy earlier Because you come off 00:37:12.530 --> 00:37:15.710 so whimsical right like you you're always in 00:37:15.710 --> 00:37:19.469 and out of This world and this dimension and 00:37:19.469 --> 00:37:22.150 their dimension another you're someone who frequently 00:37:22.150 --> 00:37:25.469 frequently frequently And I can't say that enough 00:37:25.469 --> 00:37:30.809 frequently pops timelines Yes. You are a timeline 00:37:30.809 --> 00:37:34.769 hopper. And this, these aren't like normal things 00:37:34.769 --> 00:37:36.909 that I would say, but this is what I'm seeing 00:37:36.909 --> 00:37:40.449 for you. So there shouldn't be any shame around 00:37:40.449 --> 00:37:44.630 how you're programmed and wired. You're not, 00:37:44.630 --> 00:37:47.050 there's, you're not broken. You're not like, 00:37:47.289 --> 00:37:49.969 this is not dorsal vagal shutdown. This is more 00:37:49.969 --> 00:37:54.570 than neuroscience can even explain. It is, it's 00:37:54.570 --> 00:37:58.460 at it's like for a frequency thing. It's like, 00:37:59.000 --> 00:38:02.019 you know how when trains hop, they're like change 00:38:02.019 --> 00:38:04.400 tracks to go in a different direction. Like that's 00:38:04.400 --> 00:38:06.480 what you're doing. And you do that all the time, 00:38:06.679 --> 00:38:08.480 all day long. Your daughter does it too. That's 00:38:08.480 --> 00:38:10.260 what I mean when I say you and her are very, 00:38:10.260 --> 00:38:14.260 very similar. Yes. And I can see that. And she 00:38:14.260 --> 00:38:17.639 like has to because she's in school for a thing. 00:38:19.239 --> 00:38:21.440 Yeah, that's okay. My kids are in school too. 00:38:21.579 --> 00:38:24.800 They begged. We homeschooled for so long and 00:38:25.119 --> 00:38:27.619 up until my son was in sixth grade and he was 00:38:27.619 --> 00:38:29.579 like, I want friends. And I'm like, okay, cool. 00:38:29.579 --> 00:38:32.300 You guys are all going to school then. Yeah. 00:38:32.360 --> 00:38:35.159 Well, how do they, how, how was that then? So 00:38:35.159 --> 00:38:37.139 tell me, I didn't know that about you, that you 00:38:37.139 --> 00:38:40.480 homeschooled for a long time. Yeah. About what 00:38:40.480 --> 00:38:42.380 that's like, because that is something that I've 00:38:42.380 --> 00:38:46.500 wanted to do for a long time with her. I totally 00:38:46.500 --> 00:38:49.519 disagree with the school system generally just 00:38:49.519 --> 00:38:53.920 based on the fact that it was built by the Rockefellers. 00:38:55.750 --> 00:38:58.590 He wanted a nation of workers, not a nation of 00:38:58.590 --> 00:39:02.489 thinkers. And that was my whole mantra. When 00:39:02.489 --> 00:39:04.670 I said that I was homeschooling, I said, I want 00:39:04.670 --> 00:39:08.570 my kids to learn how to think, not what to think. 00:39:09.769 --> 00:39:15.550 And I kind of bit myself in the ass there, shot 00:39:15.550 --> 00:39:17.489 myself in the ass, whatever the term is here, 00:39:17.570 --> 00:39:21.070 because they question me all the time. And I'm 00:39:21.070 --> 00:39:23.670 like, No, bitch, I want you to just do what I 00:39:23.670 --> 00:39:26.369 say instead of questioning me. Right. But it 00:39:26.369 --> 00:39:29.230 was an amazing experience. I asked them all the 00:39:29.230 --> 00:39:30.889 time. I'm like, Hey, do you want to come back 00:39:30.889 --> 00:39:32.769 to homeschooling? It's always an option for you. 00:39:32.789 --> 00:39:34.510 It's always an option. And they're like, no, 00:39:34.769 --> 00:39:37.949 I like my friends and I like school. Um, we're 00:39:37.949 --> 00:39:41.630 also those parents who, if my kids don't want 00:39:41.630 --> 00:39:45.889 to go to school, I will not make them go to school. 00:39:46.010 --> 00:39:49.989 Yeah. They've missed like 45 days of school last 00:39:49.989 --> 00:39:55.570 year. Wow. Yeah, I had someone I don't care at 00:39:55.570 --> 00:39:58.409 my daughter's school. I think the limit is like 00:39:58.409 --> 00:40:00.409 12 days and it was like damn near the end of 00:40:00.409 --> 00:40:03.710 the year. And I had there was this is complex 00:40:03.710 --> 00:40:07.269 because I didn't always pick her up. It was or 00:40:07.269 --> 00:40:09.090 you know, take her into school or pick her up 00:40:09.090 --> 00:40:10.889 because she was with her dad more frequently 00:40:10.889 --> 00:40:16.590 at that time during that year. And she missed 00:40:17.039 --> 00:40:19.139 more than 12 days and the woman in the office 00:40:19.139 --> 00:40:21.579 was like oh you're gonna have to get a doctor's 00:40:21.579 --> 00:40:25.000 note like anytime like what like what and then 00:40:25.000 --> 00:40:27.099 i was like uh and she's like you don't have a 00:40:27.099 --> 00:40:31.179 choice and like in that moment i was like what 00:40:31.179 --> 00:40:34.039 the actual fuck did you just say to me i don't 00:40:34.039 --> 00:40:37.900 have a choice bitch i have every choice in this 00:40:37.900 --> 00:40:41.559 universe like i don't have to do fucking Anything 00:40:41.559 --> 00:40:44.639 that you tell me to do none of this matters like 00:40:44.639 --> 00:40:47.820 I care more that she feels good Like if she needed 00:40:47.820 --> 00:40:51.500 13 days to feel good enough to fucking come here 00:40:51.500 --> 00:40:54.400 and take all this Trauma looping and fucking 00:40:54.400 --> 00:40:56.780 frequency shit from everybody else and all their 00:40:56.780 --> 00:41:00.340 germs and all that shit No, you know get out 00:41:00.340 --> 00:41:03.820 of here. Yes break that cycle. It's the cycle 00:41:03.820 --> 00:41:11.190 of thinking I have to But she you know Get out 00:41:11.190 --> 00:41:14.230 of here. Don't you dare. Yeah. You know, I am 00:41:14.230 --> 00:41:16.570 not religious at all, but when I homeschooled, 00:41:16.570 --> 00:41:20.789 I used a very religious curriculum. Everything 00:41:20.789 --> 00:41:23.710 had Jesus wrapped up in it. Now, don't get me 00:41:23.710 --> 00:41:27.369 wrong. I love Jesus. I love Jesus in a way that 00:41:27.369 --> 00:41:31.730 makes Christians feel uncomfortable because it's 00:41:31.730 --> 00:41:34.150 a very different type of love, right? It's not 00:41:34.150 --> 00:41:39.710 the Bible sort of love. It's like... And I'm 00:41:39.710 --> 00:41:41.329 probably going to sound crazy saying this, but 00:41:41.329 --> 00:41:45.929 I feel like Jesus and I are like really good 00:41:45.929 --> 00:41:49.989 friends. Yeah. No, I love that motherfucker. 00:41:50.570 --> 00:41:54.019 People like us, souls like us. I've seen Jesus 00:41:54.019 --> 00:41:56.340 in the streets. We've seen him in the streets. 00:41:56.440 --> 00:41:58.460 That's how we know him because we worked with 00:41:58.460 --> 00:42:03.619 him. He helped us. That's how you recognize that 00:42:03.619 --> 00:42:06.699 in yourself is what he feels like. And I really 00:42:06.699 --> 00:42:09.139 do. I also feel like he's a friend, like he's 00:42:09.139 --> 00:42:16.500 my own boy. I have this astrologer because as 00:42:16.500 --> 00:42:19.239 a psychic, I love getting readings, like you 00:42:19.239 --> 00:42:23.219 said. Healers need healers and healers are always 00:42:23.219 --> 00:42:25.559 healing. Like we're still healing all the time. 00:42:26.000 --> 00:42:31.179 So I still get readings all the time. Like it's 00:42:31.179 --> 00:42:33.079 one of my favorite things to do. It's like a 00:42:33.079 --> 00:42:36.460 gift to myself, right? To be able to be seen 00:42:36.460 --> 00:42:39.559 by another human. And again, as a projector, 00:42:39.559 --> 00:42:42.019 like we want to be seen. So it's like stroking 00:42:42.019 --> 00:42:44.320 my own fucking ego and filling my cup at the 00:42:44.320 --> 00:42:49.340 same time. But this astrologer said to me, She 00:42:49.340 --> 00:42:51.780 does a different kind of reading. I highly recommend 00:42:51.780 --> 00:42:55.440 her. I'll send you her info Her name is Tara 00:42:55.440 --> 00:42:58.880 and she works with a lot of like priestesses 00:42:58.880 --> 00:43:04.900 and her whole thing is She does like a Magdalene 00:43:04.900 --> 00:43:07.340 reading or like a rose reading or something like 00:43:07.340 --> 00:43:09.639 that. I don't know what it's called. Oh Venus 00:43:09.639 --> 00:43:15.099 Venus Yes, so she's all about Venus and I got 00:43:15.099 --> 00:43:18.480 my Venus reading done and she was like She said 00:43:18.480 --> 00:43:20.719 to me, she was like, Whoa, you're a Christian 00:43:20.719 --> 00:43:23.900 before Christians were Christians. She's like, 00:43:23.900 --> 00:43:28.480 you're such an old school, like initial disciple. 00:43:28.480 --> 00:43:32.760 Yeah. It's like a mystic. She's like, you were 00:43:32.760 --> 00:43:37.239 a mystic before and during the time of Jesus. 00:43:37.480 --> 00:43:40.699 She's like, so you had this like relationship 00:43:40.699 --> 00:43:43.139 with him. You worked with him. She's like, that's 00:43:43.139 --> 00:43:45.159 probably why you feel so called to him. Cause 00:43:45.159 --> 00:43:50.579 I told her. And then she, I just have to share 00:43:50.579 --> 00:43:52.360 it with you. It was one of the most fascinating 00:43:52.360 --> 00:43:54.860 astrology readings I've ever gotten in my life. 00:43:54.860 --> 00:43:56.960 And I like sobbed through the whole thing. And 00:43:56.960 --> 00:44:01.780 I was like, this is, this is so crazy. Matter 00:44:01.780 --> 00:44:03.480 of fact, I have another one with her in like 00:44:03.480 --> 00:44:06.679 two days. I gifted it to myself for my birthday. 00:44:07.340 --> 00:44:09.300 And it's interesting that you're bringing up. 00:44:09.880 --> 00:44:13.500 Mary Magdalene, I have felt called to learn more 00:44:13.500 --> 00:44:16.719 about her because I do also resonate very deeply 00:44:16.719 --> 00:44:19.860 with the priestess archetype and mission and 00:44:19.860 --> 00:44:23.019 energy and have all these different codes and 00:44:23.019 --> 00:44:25.800 lots of different stuff that I was able to identify, 00:44:25.880 --> 00:44:30.340 but I still don't consciously know. Like I know, 00:44:30.639 --> 00:44:34.260 I feel it and I get it. But it's always interesting. 00:44:34.340 --> 00:44:39.219 It's always helpful to Give language for me. 00:44:39.219 --> 00:44:42.000 I feel like because my spiritual awareness and 00:44:42.000 --> 00:44:45.280 awakening came Naturally and suddenly I didn't 00:44:45.280 --> 00:44:49.059 have a knowing like I didn't learn about stuff. 00:44:49.239 --> 00:44:52.199 I had a lame later to be a little guy Oh, it's 00:44:52.199 --> 00:44:54.500 a chakra like oh that wasn't my stomach. It was 00:44:54.500 --> 00:44:58.699 my solar plexus, you know, yeah it's just you 00:44:58.699 --> 00:45:02.920 know, whatever but Some people that happens and 00:45:02.920 --> 00:45:04.780 I think that's actually like most people most 00:45:04.780 --> 00:45:09.099 people in America wouldn't you say I actually, 00:45:09.099 --> 00:45:12.800 I'm gonna recommend a friend to you because she 00:45:12.800 --> 00:45:17.739 has this like wealth of knowledge around Mary 00:45:17.739 --> 00:45:21.539 Magdalene. And it cleared up a lot of confusion 00:45:21.539 --> 00:45:24.719 for me, like having her as a friend because of 00:45:24.719 --> 00:45:28.539 that. And she's not yet, and I say yet because 00:45:28.539 --> 00:45:30.920 I see for her that this is gonna be a part of 00:45:30.920 --> 00:45:34.420 her offering in the world. not yet like offering 00:45:34.420 --> 00:45:37.980 it as a thing, but if you need someone to talk 00:45:37.980 --> 00:45:41.840 to you and ask questions, she knows because what's 00:45:41.840 --> 00:45:44.159 happening right now as it was explained to me 00:45:44.159 --> 00:45:50.300 is she represented the feminine. She was the 00:45:50.300 --> 00:45:55.239 embodiment of the feminine as the divine partner 00:45:55.239 --> 00:45:59.920 of Jesus. And we are just waking up to that right 00:45:59.920 --> 00:46:04.369 now. And you feel it in your fucking bone. I 00:46:04.369 --> 00:46:08.250 have a book. It's upstairs. It's meant to be 00:46:08.250 --> 00:46:11.210 read. I haven't gotten... Is that what books 00:46:11.210 --> 00:46:15.469 are? Yeah. Are they meant to be read? Meant to 00:46:15.469 --> 00:46:18.889 be read. The Gospel of Mary Magdalene. Yes. I've 00:46:18.889 --> 00:46:20.190 been reading it for a couple of weeks now, but 00:46:20.190 --> 00:46:21.889 I have not been able to read it just because 00:46:21.889 --> 00:46:24.369 like the season, like the time of year and all 00:46:24.369 --> 00:46:26.630 this stuff. It's also like, what are those things 00:46:26.630 --> 00:46:29.699 that... you pick up and you read and you contemplate 00:46:29.699 --> 00:46:32.099 and you put it down and you read it again over 00:46:32.099 --> 00:46:34.099 and over and over again. And every time you read 00:46:34.099 --> 00:46:37.619 it, it's going to unlock more and more in you 00:46:37.619 --> 00:46:42.300 in the form of remembering rather than like absorbing 00:46:42.300 --> 00:46:46.380 information. It must be the time because like 00:46:46.380 --> 00:46:49.960 a month ago and I immediately when I got it, 00:46:49.980 --> 00:46:51.840 I put it on my bedside table because I was like, 00:46:51.840 --> 00:46:54.989 I'm going to read this. I'll go to bed and I'm 00:46:54.989 --> 00:46:57.849 going to go and I'm going to learn and do things 00:46:57.849 --> 00:46:59.849 when I'm dreaming too. Cause you know, that's 00:46:59.849 --> 00:47:03.750 what you do. But no, it's what you do because 00:47:03.750 --> 00:47:06.789 well, yeah, apparently I didn't realize that 00:47:06.789 --> 00:47:09.010 I've been blocking out a lot of it because I 00:47:09.010 --> 00:47:10.730 think it because it's associated with the 20 00:47:10.730 --> 00:47:13.949 and back stuff. My dream, um, hopping, my dimension 00:47:13.949 --> 00:47:18.590 hopping, my, um, uh, conscious awareness of the, 00:47:19.269 --> 00:47:22.610 I guess it's because My clairsentience is one 00:47:22.610 --> 00:47:27.949 of my strongest senses and so I feel the physical 00:47:27.949 --> 00:47:32.630 density reflected from that version of me but 00:47:32.630 --> 00:47:35.670 it's not mine and I'm like trying to process 00:47:35.670 --> 00:47:37.949 it like it's mine like I always do because I'm 00:47:37.949 --> 00:47:41.610 a little bitch and I always blame myself I'm 00:47:41.610 --> 00:47:43.929 like this must be my fault whatever I don't do 00:47:43.929 --> 00:47:48.849 that anymore but nevertheless no you're meant 00:47:48.849 --> 00:47:52.429 to do that You are meant to do that too. I think 00:47:52.429 --> 00:47:55.250 so too. And I think if you didn't, if you didn't 00:47:55.250 --> 00:47:58.650 for a moment think where is, where is this coming 00:47:58.650 --> 00:48:01.929 from me? You know, then I, and if you're always 00:48:01.929 --> 00:48:04.869 like, it's for me outside of me, then I don't, 00:48:04.969 --> 00:48:08.429 you might be bypassing. Yeah, but you're also 00:48:08.429 --> 00:48:15.429 a healer. So suck it up, bitch. I'm just joking. 00:48:16.349 --> 00:48:18.230 No, I was thinking about that, but like it's 00:48:18.230 --> 00:48:24.059 a That must be part of the reason why, and I 00:48:24.059 --> 00:48:26.420 don't know enough about this. Like I said, and 00:48:26.420 --> 00:48:28.280 I should probably learn more before I speak on 00:48:28.280 --> 00:48:30.699 it, but the super soldier program, it seems like 00:48:30.699 --> 00:48:33.960 they target people specifically who have the 00:48:33.960 --> 00:48:37.280 heightened capability of doing that. And I think 00:48:37.280 --> 00:48:42.539 that that does have ties to your soul. And somehow 00:48:42.539 --> 00:48:45.059 they're able to identify that. And for whatever 00:48:45.059 --> 00:48:47.400 reason, I guess right now it's coming to me. 00:48:47.519 --> 00:48:49.739 It's really clicking in and I'm feeling it. So 00:48:49.739 --> 00:48:54.019 I guess I'll express it, but. Oh, I'm gonna pause 00:48:54.019 --> 00:48:57.880 right here. In part two, our conversation opens 00:48:57.880 --> 00:49:01.719 up into spirituality, fear conditioning, faith, 00:49:02.739 --> 00:49:05.719 expanded experiences, and what it takes to stay 00:49:05.719 --> 00:49:09.340 embodied while living between worlds. Part two 00:49:09.340 --> 00:49:11.760 will be coming next week, so if this conversation 00:49:11.760 --> 00:49:14.960 resonated, make sure you're subscribed or follow 00:49:14.960 --> 00:49:18.860 the show so it finds you when it drops. Thank 00:49:18.860 --> 00:49:21.880 you for sharing in our experience. Again, check 00:49:21.880 --> 00:49:25.500 out Erica on Instagram, at Align with Erica. 00:49:26.780 --> 00:49:30.280 You can find me on Instagram at Hyacinth Healing. 00:49:31.320 --> 00:49:33.099 Until next time, take care.