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Hello and welcome to another episode of in my

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experience with yours truly Christine DiGinto

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This podcast is a space where I speak from lived

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experience The moments that shaped me challenged

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me and changed the way that I understand myself

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in the world The awakenings the breakdowns the

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moments that cracked me open asked me to stay

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present be embodied and be honest with myself.

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I share my stories not to persuade or define

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truth for anyone else, but to offer perspective,

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to explore the gray areas we don't often have

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language for, to slow things down and listen

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more closely to what's happening beneath the

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surface. You'll hear solo episodes where I reflect

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on my own initiations, spiritual gifts, and the

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systems that try to define me, and conversations

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with guests who have walked strange, beautiful,

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and sometimes painful paths of their own and

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come back with wisdom to share with us. I invite

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you to take what resonates, leave the rest, and

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trust your own experience as valid. Thank you

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for being here. This is In My Experience. Welcome

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to the very first episode of In My Experience.

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I want to start by sharing something a little

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different and very close to my heart. What you're

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about to hear in this episode is a recording

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of a sole purpose reading that was done by Amy

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Belair. Amy has been my mentor for over four

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years now and I recommend her work wholeheartedly.

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I've grown alongside her guidance. her precision

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and her ability to reflect truth without softening

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it or sensationalizing it. Working with her has

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helped me understand myself in ways I couldn't

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quite reach on my own. I chose to share this

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reading as the first episode because it offers

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a clearer picture of who I am and what I'm here

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for than I could ever try to explain. You'll

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hear my real candid reactions as Amy walks me

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through my human design, gene keys, and a bit

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of astrology. Nothing is polished or edited for

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performance. Just truth landing in real time.

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I also wanted to name something important as

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I open this space. I've recorded several different

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episodes already. I have countless hours of my

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own recorded readings. I've spent a lot of time

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wondering how to introduce myself properly. And

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then I realized something. I'm so multi -dimensional

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that if I tried to fully explain who I am in

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a 40 to 60 minute episode, your brains might

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actually explode. That's when it clicked. I don't

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need to define myself all at once. I don't need

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to explain myself neatly. I get to show you parts

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of me. one episode at a time. And wow, how freeing

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that realization was. So instead of starting

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with a summary, I'm starting with presence and

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being witnessed myself, with letting you hear

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how my purpose sounds when it's reflected clearly.

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If you feel called to explore Amy's work, you

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can find her at amybalair .com and on Instagram

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at cosmic .oracle. If you want to stay connected

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with me, you can find me on Instagram at Hyacinth

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Healing and at digintoconsulting .com. No pressure,

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just open doors. Thank you for being here at

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the beginning and embarking on this unknown journey

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with me. I'm not quite sure what the direction

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of this show will be or how things will go, whether

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I'll have videos every time or just audio, but

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you can find this on anywhere you listen. Please

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follow the show so you're notified when new episodes

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drop. This is just episode one and this is me

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in my experience. Do you want to tell me like,

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you know, while you're driving where you're at

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with your sole purpose and what part of it you

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would really love to get? Whatever clarity and

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focus on, like I saw in your blurbie that you

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wrote, you just like to hear it through. I think

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more specifically what I'm supposed to distill

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down because my what based on my human design

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and my gene keys and my incarnation cross and

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all that stuff. It's very clear that I have built

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in energy to keep repeating myself and that I

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have like. It's complex information making it

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making complex information more digestible and

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then being able to repeat that until people understand

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it so I'm wondering what specifically that could

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be about because it could be about Living and

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Like homesteading and connecting with nature.

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It could be about priestess stuff and sex magic.

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It could be about Anything like you know I feel

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like it's supposed to, I wanna get in the right

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direction of what I'm supposed to do. Cause I

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feel like I can apply my design to lots of different

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subjects. So I wanna like, I know what matters

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to me, but I'm wondering like what in the design,

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if anything comes through for like what I should

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specifically focus on to make that more clear,

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you know? Cause I feel like the - Gemini aspect.

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I'm like all over the place like my Gemini ascendant

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like I feel like I'm certified in that certified

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in that certified but none of that matters because

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I've always had that those abilities and I know

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that The only reason I did those classes is mostly

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like for other people to understand like it's

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like To make them feel better instead of like

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yeah, I actually don't know what I'm doing, but

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I know that I can like totally like change your

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energy field and connect with your your past

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lives and like bring up patterns and I know that

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I trigger a lot of people usually usually their

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deepest stuff comes out near me and I'm kind

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of used to getting like um blamed for that but

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I think that's also part of it that might be

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what I'm supposed to do too so I don't know yeah

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Well, what parts of your looked at like it was

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like 49 something Mm -hmm 20 if that's something

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or maybe I don't know but it's like the freak

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to genius like complex out Out of the normal

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Understanding like things that I can understand

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and I'm supposed to distill that down and make

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it easier to digest and understand to other people

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about specific things yeah what those specific

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things are i don't know yeah okay so what you're

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feeling is like is it are you thinking of this

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in terms of like how to show up on Social media

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or whatever platform and like how to talk to

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people so that they are like, oh I want to work

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with her or is it more just like for your own

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self like what What am I doing? So like I would

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like to learn what maybe comes through for you

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and your interpretation of this because like

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I've done my own Sitting with it, but like you

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just bring through things with so much clarity.

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I was like, I got to hear what she has to say.

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So whatever you like, I don't want to tilt it

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anyway. Like, however you want to do it, you

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do it. And then from that, I'm sure I'll get

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guidance that's helpful. Okay, well, I mean,

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I'm excited. Like I see, I see patterns already.

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As I've been studying your charts and looking

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Yeah, looking at all the pieces, so let me now

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the funny thing about these readings is that

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I have like five different note resources that

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I because like I'm looking through three different

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charts and then I've like made notes here and

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notes there so I can organize them all not have

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to scroll too much but it makes me feel really

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um self -conscious while I'm doing it because

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no don't worry just like clicking between windows

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like don't worry about it. Yeah, no, don't feel

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self -conscious around me. Don't worry about

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it at all Okay, so I understand what you're saying

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I Mean I'm used to just like looking at your

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face and talking right to you. Yeah. Yeah Okay,

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so so with your With your gene keys with the

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gene keys The one that I really like, the piece

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that I really like to look at even more so, the

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piece that I like to look at even more than,

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I mean, I like to look at the, it's called whatever,

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the activation sequence, right? Which is, it's

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like your incarnation cross, but through the

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Gene Keys lens. I do like to look at that, but

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I feel like that's kind of a, a general life

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purpose kind of thing. And life purpose can be

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whatever, it can just be like the purpose of

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your incarnation. And to be honest, I think that

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most of us just end up fulfilling our life purpose

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to some degree or another without having to intellectualize

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it. The part that I like to look at is the Pearl

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Sequence, which is more about your work and what

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you're sharing actively. And it can be interpreted

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through business or career, which is obviously

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what I tend to do. But it's more just the acknowledgement.

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I really love this little sequence, this Pearl

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Sequence, because it's like the acknowledgement

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that we all have. gifts and that we are dying

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to share those gifts and what are they and that

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prosperity comes for us like abundance, prosperity

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comes for us as we share those gifts more and

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more. So that's kind of what I start with and

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then I meander through the various parts of your

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human design in particular. astrology I'll put

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in in little bits here and there but I'm finding

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gene keys in human design to kind of like be

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the real bangers. So for your, in your Perl sequence

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there is a sphere of vocation and yours is gene

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key 25 in line five and ultimately like as I

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was reading you know his words about it and meditating

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on this gene key what I feel and especially knowing

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you but even if I didn't know you the thing that

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really stands out to me is that like your your

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core inner calling and deepest gift to the world

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is forgiveness You're here to dissolve fear -based

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self -preservation constructs and alchemize wounded

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power dynamics and elevate the collective timeline

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through forgiveness and your huge capacity for

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universal compassion and love. And the shadow

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of Gene Key 25 is constriction. And so it shows

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up as emotional armor so it's kind of like tightening

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your heart to avoid pain disappointment or vulnerability

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and it's like a self -protection that can create

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distance from others and from our own joy and

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then the gift of this gene key is acceptance

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which is like a soft steady willingness to meet

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life exactly as it is and acceptance in this

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sense isn't isn't resignation or like defeat.

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It's the fertile ground from which transformation

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naturally grows. So with this gift, like challenges

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become opportunities for deeper compassion and

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deeper connection. And then at the city level

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acceptance blooms into universal love, which

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is, you know, a boundless unconditional love

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that embraces all beings without exception. And

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in this state, there is no separation between

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giver and receiver or self and other. It's just

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like this constant, you know, like infinity figure

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eight of just like flowing energy of like witnessing

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other and being present with other and being

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It's almost like it dissolves hierarchy too,

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you know, like there's no even in let's say like

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a mentorship capacity. It's at this level. There's

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no The mentor is not above the mentee. It's like

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they are both being enhanced and amplified through

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their their presence and connection with each

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other and so Like let's say in business for example

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G &K 25 is like a heart healer. So you're here

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to create spaces where people feel safe to open

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their hearts again, which is in such alignment

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with the things that you already offer and even

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like space to speak. It's just, but you know,

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that beautiful offer that you have where you're

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just like, hey, if you just need somewhere to

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talk, it's like. The people that you're calling

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in are often maybe struggling with that shadow

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level of constriction, emotional armor, like

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tightening up to avoid pain or disappointment

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and vulnerability. And your presence allows them

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to open their hearts again because you just embody

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compassion in your... your presence. And so your

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business thrives when your work reflects your

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capacity to meet people where they are without

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judgment, which you already do. And it's so beautiful.

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And I saw that awesome review you got from somebody

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that you shared on social media. But I think

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just really speaks to this. It's funny. Somebody

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commented on that post. They said, scam. And

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it's like, not even someone that I know, like

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some random person just said, scam on that, like

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testimonial. So then I like made a clap back

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video and I was like, you can book a session

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with me if you want, send me a DM. I'll send

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you a free link. I like your jacket. Like I was

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like complimenting them. I just don't even know.

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Like it's so funny though. I don't know why it

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bothered me. Cause I, I like paid to have that

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boosted and then and then somebody just put something

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negative that like it's like wow no i know but

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it's like it that shit bothers me too because

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it's like people are so hateful and it's so easy

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to just like just be gross and leave a gross

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energy that is not needed or invited right it's

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so easy for people to just spread their their

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gross feelings that they they don't feel like

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they're not in a place of maturity where they

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can just deal with it and process it themselves.

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So they just spread it. Ooh, somebody who's trying

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to do something good, ugh, scam. And yeah, it's

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disheartening, but screw that person. It's funny

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to me. It's funny to me. I think I handled it

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well. Yeah, for sure. Totally. I love that you

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made a clap back. And I'm like, hey, I like your

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jacket. you can book a reading if you want, or

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a session if you want. I was like, maybe we can

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figure out why you feel the need to put negative

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comments with no basis on other people's things,

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like. Legit. It'll help you figure it out so

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you don't, you're not in this like shitty space

00:17:19.980 --> 00:17:25.660
within yourself anymore. I love that. So that's

00:17:25.660 --> 00:17:27.740
your vocation, which it just means it's like,

00:17:27.819 --> 00:17:30.799
it's your sacred work. It's sort of like, you

00:17:30.799 --> 00:17:36.109
know, according to his Richard Rudd and the way

00:17:36.109 --> 00:17:39.589
he speaks about this Pearl Sequence, it's like

00:17:39.589 --> 00:17:42.910
your vocation is your own core wound that you've

00:17:42.910 --> 00:17:45.230
healed at some point along the way, maybe in

00:17:45.230 --> 00:17:48.309
childhood, adolescence, at some point in adulthood,

00:17:48.609 --> 00:17:53.769
whatever. And so then it's like the thing, the

00:17:53.769 --> 00:17:55.769
pure thing that you have to offer. And like,

00:17:56.170 --> 00:17:59.410
even when I was... You know preparing just that

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one. I was like, oh, this is so true of you though

00:18:02.309 --> 00:18:05.470
and the way that you've navigated the whole,

00:18:05.549 --> 00:18:12.190
you know issue of divorce and Like you Your thing

00:18:12.190 --> 00:18:15.390
has always been to try and dissolve the like

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enmity and polarity and Be in a heart -open space

00:18:21.670 --> 00:18:26.509
Within all of it Yeah, so that well that makes

00:18:26.509 --> 00:18:29.509
sense That makes you feel good. Yeah. Because

00:18:29.509 --> 00:18:31.769
people treat me like I'm crazy. Like, how could

00:18:31.769 --> 00:18:33.609
you still talk to him? How could you be nice

00:18:33.609 --> 00:18:36.829
to him? Don't make food for him. And I'm like,

00:18:37.289 --> 00:18:40.170
I would do that for anyone. I would do that for

00:18:40.170 --> 00:18:42.329
anyone, because that's what we should do as humans.

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We should be kind. We should offer food. You

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know what I mean? So then it's like, I'm not

00:18:47.589 --> 00:18:50.109
going to stop offering that to him, because that

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would mean that I turn my back and I don't turn

00:18:53.890 --> 00:18:58.559
my back. But people don't understand. They're

00:18:58.559 --> 00:19:00.059
like, how could you still talk to him? I don't

00:19:00.059 --> 00:19:02.440
understand how you could ever be nice to him

00:19:02.440 --> 00:19:05.480
after what he did to you. And it's like, he did

00:19:05.480 --> 00:19:09.019
that to me because he was afraid of that. That

00:19:09.019 --> 00:19:12.539
just made me feel sorry for him. It didn't make

00:19:12.539 --> 00:19:17.019
me mad. It made me sad. People are so conditional,

00:19:17.180 --> 00:19:19.440
right? And that thing is like, you're embodying

00:19:19.440 --> 00:19:22.680
this unconditional, universal compassion and

00:19:22.680 --> 00:19:26.319
love where you're like, Well, just because he

00:19:26.319 --> 00:19:29.579
did the things he did and is the way he is, doesn't

00:19:29.579 --> 00:19:33.619
mean I have to change my core self and my core

00:19:33.619 --> 00:19:37.079
self would make food for anyone. So yeah, going

00:19:37.079 --> 00:19:42.200
to make food. Yeah, he's doing him. I'm doing

00:19:42.200 --> 00:19:46.900
me. Yeah, but it is like it is a it is a very

00:19:46.900 --> 00:19:50.039
novel concept. Still, I think it makes total

00:19:50.039 --> 00:19:57.269
sense. But yeah, I don't know. so then the next

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sphere in the pearl sequence it's kind of shaped

00:20:01.609 --> 00:20:05.109
like a little triangle and so there's like three

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spheres and one in the middle so the next one

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over is the sphere of culture and like the way

00:20:12.849 --> 00:20:16.789
he says it is the gene key of your culture shows

00:20:16.789 --> 00:20:20.029
you how you best fit in the social fabric of

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the world and in your pearl sequence the shadow

00:20:23.109 --> 00:20:26.829
of this gene key directly blocks you from manifesting

00:20:26.829 --> 00:20:29.910
prosperity. The way I think about the culture

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because I found it really hard to like that was

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the hardest one for me to understand it felt

00:20:35.269 --> 00:20:39.029
the most abstract. The way that I've come to

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think about it and understand it which has A,

00:20:41.900 --> 00:20:44.019
like really resonated for me, but also really

00:20:44.019 --> 00:20:46.099
resonated for everybody that I've been doing

00:20:46.099 --> 00:20:51.400
these readings for, is that it's like understanding

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what kind of environment you... Are best suited

00:21:00.440 --> 00:21:03.019
to like in which you thrive in it and to which

00:21:03.019 --> 00:21:05.799
you would like to contribute and so it would

00:21:05.799 --> 00:21:08.640
be like if it's a garden it's like knowing what

00:21:08.640 --> 00:21:11.359
kind of garden you're planting and growing and

00:21:11.359 --> 00:21:14.160
then that's going to affect the soil and the

00:21:14.160 --> 00:21:17.500
different plants you choose and it's knowing

00:21:17.500 --> 00:21:20.819
that like every person or every plant is not

00:21:20.819 --> 00:21:23.119
going to thrive in every single garden or every

00:21:23.119 --> 00:21:25.779
environment that we all do best in a specific,

00:21:25.779 --> 00:21:29.269
you know. culture, as it were, like collective

00:21:29.269 --> 00:21:33.690
human culture. So this, to me, it's like not

00:21:33.690 --> 00:21:35.769
only what you're meant to contribute to, but

00:21:35.769 --> 00:21:39.910
also what you are nourished by. And for you,

00:21:40.289 --> 00:21:47.339
it is Gene Key 20 line two. And so, It's like

00:21:47.339 --> 00:21:51.720
the the it's the journey from the shadow of superficiality

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to the gift of self -assurance and then the city

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of presence so Genki 20 At the shadow level is

00:22:05.079 --> 00:22:08.180
like superficiality where people are just skimming

00:22:08.180 --> 00:22:11.200
the surface of life just projecting an image

00:22:11.640 --> 00:22:15.819
um kind of like rushing ahead or reacting or

00:22:15.819 --> 00:22:18.859
speaking without any depth or thought behind

00:22:18.859 --> 00:22:23.180
it and or like chasing trends or being overly

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concerned with appearances rather than truth

00:22:26.039 --> 00:22:29.839
um so that's the shadow expression of this but

00:22:29.839 --> 00:22:33.940
the gift is like a grounded confidence that coming

00:22:33.940 --> 00:22:36.740
comes from living authentically in the moment

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So for you with your with this being Your your

00:22:43.130 --> 00:22:46.910
sphere of culture. It's like you want to contribute

00:22:46.910 --> 00:22:53.250
to and you are nurtured by Putting yourself in

00:22:53.250 --> 00:22:56.930
cultures slash environments where people don't

00:22:56.930 --> 00:23:00.549
need to prove themselves and their actions speak

00:23:00.549 --> 00:23:04.869
through their alignment and So yeah, like you're

00:23:04.869 --> 00:23:09.609
really here to be very um very authentically

00:23:09.609 --> 00:23:14.450
yourself and to contribute to that being like

00:23:14.450 --> 00:23:18.809
a healthy accessible option in the greater collective

00:23:18.809 --> 00:23:23.730
of humanity where you just uh like you're nurtured

00:23:23.730 --> 00:23:26.589
by seeing other people who show up in that way

00:23:26.589 --> 00:23:29.099
and then you're inspired to attribute back to

00:23:29.099 --> 00:23:32.119
it. Like, let's just drop off pretenses. Let's

00:23:32.119 --> 00:23:34.140
not pretend that we're something other than what

00:23:34.140 --> 00:23:36.720
we are. And like, appearances don't matter. What

00:23:36.720 --> 00:23:40.079
matters is truth. And just like being our real

00:23:40.079 --> 00:23:42.660
selves, whatever that may be in any given moment.

00:23:44.160 --> 00:23:48.180
And then this, yeah, and the city level of it

00:23:48.180 --> 00:23:53.859
is just presence, where like, you know, being

00:23:53.859 --> 00:23:57.180
comfortable sitting as myself, like, No matter

00:23:57.180 --> 00:23:59.339
what's going on. I've been totally feeling that

00:23:59.339 --> 00:24:03.940
way. Like it's like, I was talking with Aaron

00:24:03.940 --> 00:24:06.359
a couple months ago and he was like, you haven't

00:24:06.359 --> 00:24:08.259
been posting. And I was like, yeah, cause I don't

00:24:08.259 --> 00:24:10.660
really like have anything to say. Like I'm not

00:24:10.660 --> 00:24:12.599
focused on my business. Like I was doing all

00:24:12.599 --> 00:24:15.240
kinds of other stuff, you know, but now I would

00:24:15.240 --> 00:24:19.380
like to focus more on it. And like, I feel like

00:24:19.380 --> 00:24:22.019
I don't have the space to do what I wanted to

00:24:22.019 --> 00:24:23.420
do. Cause like, I should have done it when I

00:24:23.420 --> 00:24:26.079
was at my house, set up a tripod. and just taking

00:24:26.079 --> 00:24:28.980
videos of me working and doing stuff. I would

00:24:28.980 --> 00:24:32.539
have had endless hours of stuff to make reels

00:24:32.539 --> 00:24:34.920
from, but I didn't do that because I was so focused

00:24:34.920 --> 00:24:37.740
on working. I was the only one doing it. I could

00:24:37.740 --> 00:24:40.799
barely even make sure I drank water. So I definitely

00:24:40.799 --> 00:24:43.160
wasn't setting up a tripod and videotaping myself.

00:24:43.640 --> 00:24:47.579
I was just in it. But that's probably what I

00:24:47.579 --> 00:24:52.019
would do. If I could live on a property and have

00:24:52.019 --> 00:24:55.309
land, basically I would just... probably record

00:24:55.309 --> 00:24:57.789
myself constantly and just like do what I want

00:24:57.789 --> 00:25:01.089
to do what I want to like see to somehow like

00:25:01.089 --> 00:25:05.150
making Groups for women. I had a reading a channel

00:25:05.150 --> 00:25:09.150
reading Erica Mm -hmm. She was she was saying

00:25:09.150 --> 00:25:12.009
that like she sees me like coaching women on

00:25:12.009 --> 00:25:16.009
how to like gather up sexual energy and be like

00:25:16.009 --> 00:25:20.309
a sacred priestess and like to be Fully embodied

00:25:20.309 --> 00:25:25.160
in my sexual energy and to like overcome shame

00:25:25.160 --> 00:25:28.460
from other people that has been like made me

00:25:28.460 --> 00:25:30.980
feel small or like I need to hide it or like

00:25:30.980 --> 00:25:35.140
not let out my like feminine authority I guess

00:25:35.140 --> 00:25:37.519
but like she's like you need to like show that

00:25:37.519 --> 00:25:39.920
to people and then people will be drawn to you

00:25:39.920 --> 00:25:42.900
and then like you will be able to coach like

00:25:42.900 --> 00:25:45.640
life it's like basically life coaching and I'm

00:25:45.640 --> 00:25:49.079
like that would be cool that would be cool I

00:25:49.079 --> 00:25:53.470
could see that too and like Working through sexual

00:25:53.470 --> 00:25:55.910
trauma and different stuff like that even with

00:25:55.910 --> 00:25:58.950
men like it's not just I wouldn't say it's just

00:25:58.950 --> 00:26:01.970
for women thing on the separation between masculine

00:26:01.970 --> 00:26:06.170
feminine. Yeah, so like basically When you're

00:26:06.170 --> 00:26:09.470
like completely in this sphere of culture. Yeah

00:26:09.470 --> 00:26:14.289
in whatever way you're contributing to People

00:26:14.289 --> 00:26:19.210
being able to Just really be authentic. It's

00:26:19.210 --> 00:26:22.740
almost like it's the irony of it is like being

00:26:22.740 --> 00:26:27.400
an influencer that's an anti influencer, but

00:26:27.400 --> 00:26:30.440
not even like deliberately anti influencer. It's

00:26:30.440 --> 00:26:33.359
not like you're against it, but it's just like

00:26:33.359 --> 00:26:39.500
letting people see the authentic way that you

00:26:39.500 --> 00:26:43.940
are without any pretenses and knowing that that

00:26:43.940 --> 00:26:49.279
is influencing more people to feel that they're

00:26:49.279 --> 00:26:53.539
enough and fine. With wherever they are however,

00:26:53.599 --> 00:26:57.720
they are so that yeah It's like contributing

00:26:57.720 --> 00:27:00.500
to the dissolving of the spell the illusion that

00:27:00.500 --> 00:27:03.900
we like need to strive to become somebody else

00:27:03.900 --> 00:27:09.359
first before Yeah, whatever. Yeah. Yeah Yeah

00:27:09.359 --> 00:27:12.880
I've also been thinking about making a podcast

00:27:13.309 --> 00:27:16.109
because I feel like I just have so much to say

00:27:16.109 --> 00:27:18.930
like from even just my experiences in my life

00:27:18.930 --> 00:27:21.430
like how that can parallel and like what I've

00:27:21.430 --> 00:27:24.950
understood through those journeys like I just

00:27:24.950 --> 00:27:27.670
really feel like I do have things to share but

00:27:27.670 --> 00:27:31.390
I need to work on my speech like I say the f

00:27:31.390 --> 00:27:34.869
-word so much that like I feel like a teacher

00:27:34.869 --> 00:27:37.690
well no you don't say it as much and I do like

00:27:37.690 --> 00:27:39.970
when I'm talking and I'm not thinking and I'm

00:27:39.970 --> 00:27:43.440
just like rambling like I I say like a lot, I

00:27:43.440 --> 00:27:46.039
say, you know what I mean? And I say the F word

00:27:46.039 --> 00:27:48.680
and all of that is a waste of space, all of it.

00:27:48.839 --> 00:27:51.019
So it's like, I need, see I said like again.

00:27:51.460 --> 00:27:55.799
It is, I need to change how I talk and be more

00:27:55.799 --> 00:27:57.740
clear on stuff. But I just still feel like I'm

00:27:57.740 --> 00:28:00.259
not in the right, I don't have the right support

00:28:00.259 --> 00:28:02.920
system to like feel empowered enough to like

00:28:02.920 --> 00:28:06.259
speak. It's in my head. I get like great ideas

00:28:06.259 --> 00:28:08.460
in my head. Like if I could just sit right now

00:28:08.460 --> 00:28:10.859
and record what I'm thinking, it would be like,

00:28:12.230 --> 00:28:15.210
Preach but I can't I just can't you know, I can't

00:28:15.210 --> 00:28:18.269
get it out. But that's just my the season of

00:28:18.269 --> 00:28:21.930
the life right now I think I think that as I

00:28:21.930 --> 00:28:25.410
focus more on what I want to do I would That

00:28:25.410 --> 00:28:27.849
would come back to me that energy to do that.

00:28:27.849 --> 00:28:30.289
I don't know why that feels lacking right now,

00:28:30.289 --> 00:28:34.650
but Well, why don't you just record it as though

00:28:34.650 --> 00:28:37.589
you're recording a podcast and just bank them

00:28:37.589 --> 00:28:43.880
up And that then allows it to move through you.

00:28:44.539 --> 00:28:46.619
Yeah, you know, it's going to get like you're

00:28:46.619 --> 00:28:49.460
naturally going to without having to overthink

00:28:49.460 --> 00:28:53.359
the process of changing your speech, you'll just

00:28:53.359 --> 00:28:57.960
not like every episode you record. It'll just

00:28:57.960 --> 00:28:59.619
become built -ins, like kind of like learning

00:28:59.619 --> 00:29:02.019
how to ride a bike. It's not smooth at first.

00:29:02.279 --> 00:29:04.200
but you don't have to overthink the process you

00:29:04.200 --> 00:29:06.799
just kind of figure it out and then there's no

00:29:06.799 --> 00:29:08.960
pressure publish it like you could you could

00:29:08.960 --> 00:29:11.200
publish all those at some point or they could

00:29:11.200 --> 00:29:15.099
just be like a dry run but you're really recording

00:29:15.099 --> 00:29:17.539
them as podcast episodes rather than just like

00:29:17.539 --> 00:29:25.359
personal you know yeah yeah yeah for some reason

00:29:25.359 --> 00:29:28.279
i feel like it's more important to talk about

00:29:28.279 --> 00:29:32.160
what Like the perspectives that I've gained through

00:29:32.160 --> 00:29:40.099
my journey for other people to like I Don't know

00:29:40.099 --> 00:29:42.440
how to say this like I've I've saw this from

00:29:42.440 --> 00:29:44.680
the very beginning my initial awakening Is that

00:29:44.680 --> 00:29:47.299
like I was able to like speak on what was happening

00:29:47.299 --> 00:29:49.799
and people actually understood what I was saying

00:29:49.799 --> 00:29:52.849
I was able to explain it never happened that

00:29:52.849 --> 00:29:56.069
way real life. But when I was imagining, I was

00:29:56.069 --> 00:29:58.150
like, okay, this makes so much sense. And this

00:29:58.150 --> 00:30:00.490
is the way that I see how everything works and

00:30:00.490 --> 00:30:03.150
the potential that I see in people and how we

00:30:03.150 --> 00:30:06.390
can connect stuff and pull it all up. It's all

00:30:06.390 --> 00:30:11.609
happening. It was so clear to me. And I feel

00:30:11.609 --> 00:30:16.049
like people need to be, I don't know how to say

00:30:16.049 --> 00:30:19.210
it without being warned, but prepared. It's almost

00:30:19.210 --> 00:30:21.849
like they won't get it when they hear it. but

00:30:21.849 --> 00:30:24.490
the hearing it and then something will happen

00:30:24.490 --> 00:30:28.210
like massive like collective awakenings and people

00:30:28.210 --> 00:30:30.569
will be like that'll be like one little thing

00:30:30.569 --> 00:30:33.150
that helps somebody click into like I'm okay

00:30:33.150 --> 00:30:35.990
this is okay and I can choose to come into my

00:30:35.990 --> 00:30:38.569
heart and connect like instead you know instead

00:30:38.569 --> 00:30:42.910
of getting scared and like I don't know I just

00:30:42.910 --> 00:30:47.950
wish everyone was talking about stuff like this

00:30:47.950 --> 00:30:53.619
every day but Yeah, but I mean that's your Yeah,

00:30:53.720 --> 00:30:57.559
I Feel like it's it's not clear though. Like

00:30:57.559 --> 00:31:02.279
I still there's stuff missing Maybe I'm not supposed

00:31:02.279 --> 00:31:06.019
to speak about it just be about it Be about it

00:31:06.019 --> 00:31:08.640
and talk about it openly authentically and that's

00:31:08.640 --> 00:31:14.400
what will Well, I mean it's interesting you say

00:31:14.400 --> 00:31:18.369
that because then that can like I can put a pin

00:31:18.369 --> 00:31:20.529
in the gene keys and move over to your human

00:31:20.529 --> 00:31:23.630
design for a minute and just say like well you

00:31:23.630 --> 00:31:27.869
have two defined channels from your throat so

00:31:27.869 --> 00:31:31.589
you have that one the freak to genius one or

00:31:31.589 --> 00:31:33.490
like you know you could call it like the genius

00:31:33.490 --> 00:31:41.990
whisperer like it's like It creates a channel

00:31:41.990 --> 00:31:44.950
of intuitive genius that's seeking verbal form.

00:31:45.210 --> 00:31:48.049
It's nonlinear. It's like lightning fast, and

00:31:48.049 --> 00:31:50.890
it's often misunderstood until the timing is

00:31:50.890 --> 00:31:55.609
right. But this insight that emerges, it's an

00:31:55.609 --> 00:31:57.549
insight that emerges fully formed, like just

00:31:57.549 --> 00:32:01.079
like you were describing, like you're in. an

00:32:01.079 --> 00:32:03.259
awakening an intense awakening for the first

00:32:03.259 --> 00:32:05.819
time you're like I see it all like this is what's

00:32:05.819 --> 00:32:09.220
happening you know that's that channel that is

00:32:09.220 --> 00:32:13.500
coming yeah like it's not logical like piecing

00:32:13.500 --> 00:32:16.900
it together it's just like super fast insight

00:32:16.900 --> 00:32:22.299
um internal clarity that just drops in and I

00:32:22.299 --> 00:32:25.119
guess like yeah you could You could understand

00:32:25.119 --> 00:32:28.619
that part of your job with this channel is to

00:32:28.619 --> 00:32:31.099
wait for the correct moment and audience so that

00:32:31.099 --> 00:32:34.259
your words land as the truth bomb that they are,

00:32:34.380 --> 00:32:38.660
especially as a projector. But I also feel like

00:32:38.660 --> 00:32:42.619
projectors, I mean, not as a blanket statement

00:32:42.619 --> 00:32:46.299
or anything, in their own way, however they're

00:32:46.299 --> 00:32:48.079
meant to work and whatever they're here to do,

00:32:48.559 --> 00:32:53.599
they're part of what they... Part of how they

00:32:53.599 --> 00:32:58.380
operate is to just put it out there and then

00:32:58.380 --> 00:33:04.039
let people Let people choose Yeah, and so yeah,

00:33:04.160 --> 00:33:06.480
I think that that's probably that's what I need

00:33:06.480 --> 00:33:08.720
to do because I wait for invitations and I do

00:33:08.720 --> 00:33:13.460
I get offered jobs a lot I get offered Also in

00:33:13.460 --> 00:33:16.339
relationships like not that I have relationships,

00:33:16.480 --> 00:33:19.319
but this is why I don't have them is because

00:33:19.319 --> 00:33:23.329
they want me They want to possess me. They want

00:33:23.329 --> 00:33:29.089
me. They want my energy around. And that's typically

00:33:29.089 --> 00:33:33.829
why people invite me into things. So then I have

00:33:33.829 --> 00:33:37.470
to choose if I want to give my energy to those

00:33:37.470 --> 00:33:40.670
people. Where in the past, I was sort of just

00:33:40.670 --> 00:33:43.789
like, of course I'll give my energy wherever

00:33:43.789 --> 00:33:46.029
I am, whatever I'm doing. Of course I'm going

00:33:46.029 --> 00:33:48.329
to get in. I don't have the energy for that.

00:33:48.369 --> 00:33:52.279
So that has been illuminating. uh the past couple

00:33:52.279 --> 00:33:55.619
of years well that's the thing with projectors

00:33:55.619 --> 00:33:59.079
too right is like you yes wait for the invitation

00:33:59.079 --> 00:34:00.980
but also that doesn't mean you have to accept

00:34:00.980 --> 00:34:05.900
every invitation that it is extended to you but

00:34:05.900 --> 00:34:08.800
but like in terms of you know me i'm always thinking

00:34:08.800 --> 00:34:13.920
about you know like how to step into our sole

00:34:13.920 --> 00:34:17.679
purpose in a way that we can offer it into the

00:34:17.679 --> 00:34:22.780
world as a service and receive whatever resources

00:34:22.780 --> 00:34:25.820
we need in exchange to be able to thrive and

00:34:25.820 --> 00:34:28.940
continue doing our work. So in this paradigm,

00:34:28.960 --> 00:34:32.760
we call it business. So then I think about projectors

00:34:32.760 --> 00:34:39.059
and like, well, how does marketing work for projectors?

00:34:39.239 --> 00:34:43.619
But I think it is like, if you feel called to

00:34:43.619 --> 00:34:46.679
start a podcast, and it doesn't have to be right

00:34:46.679 --> 00:34:48.300
now. Like if your intuition is saying that you

00:34:48.300 --> 00:34:51.869
don't have the support or the things in place

00:34:51.869 --> 00:34:55.110
to be able to start, then that it is what it

00:34:55.110 --> 00:34:58.610
is. And I get that very much. Those practical

00:34:58.610 --> 00:35:01.969
considerations are real. But creating the podcast

00:35:01.969 --> 00:35:05.949
and just putting it out there is what gives people

00:35:05.949 --> 00:35:09.949
an opportunity to extend you an invitation. Exactly.

00:35:10.449 --> 00:35:13.190
Because I found that when I go places, I get

00:35:13.190 --> 00:35:16.179
offered all kinds of stuff. going to plant medicine

00:35:16.179 --> 00:35:18.179
retreats with Christopher in different states

00:35:18.179 --> 00:35:20.480
with other people from other states, those are

00:35:20.480 --> 00:35:22.380
lasting relationships. I still talk to those

00:35:22.380 --> 00:35:26.239
people on a daily basis a lot. So it's like and

00:35:26.239 --> 00:35:28.340
I'm going on another retreat at the end of October

00:35:28.340 --> 00:35:31.840
with him and I don't understand my channels.

00:35:32.039 --> 00:35:34.039
Could you tell me more about the channels and

00:35:34.039 --> 00:35:38.489
like like because I don't like I've gotten readings

00:35:38.489 --> 00:35:41.750
before, but like not a lot. And I just look at

00:35:41.750 --> 00:35:44.150
it myself and I try to understand like slowly

00:35:44.150 --> 00:35:46.250
I'll look things up, like the, all the numbers,

00:35:46.489 --> 00:35:48.769
the incarnation cross and the gates and all that

00:35:48.769 --> 00:35:53.150
stuff. I've looked them up, but I don't, I feel

00:35:53.150 --> 00:35:56.590
like I don't know much. It's a lot. And like

00:35:56.590 --> 00:35:59.409
one of the things I'm learning as I do these,

00:35:59.750 --> 00:36:06.130
like start incorporating this stuff is the, It

00:36:06.130 --> 00:36:08.349
can feel like information overload, which is

00:36:08.349 --> 00:36:11.829
not helpful. So it's like I'm learning how to

00:36:11.829 --> 00:36:14.469
figure out what pieces are really relevant to

00:36:14.469 --> 00:36:17.190
a person to hear, because we're definitely not

00:36:17.190 --> 00:36:20.909
going to uncover the entire shebang. It's so

00:36:20.909 --> 00:36:25.650
much. It's so much. It's crazy. Yeah. So yeah,

00:36:25.789 --> 00:36:27.750
the channels I think are a great place. So you

00:36:27.750 --> 00:36:30.230
have that one. You have the freak to genius where,

00:36:30.610 --> 00:36:33.360
you know, you just. And that's my throw. yeah

00:36:33.360 --> 00:36:37.280
so it's from your your ajna to your throat um

00:36:37.280 --> 00:36:43.880
and then you also have channel 10 to 20 from

00:36:43.880 --> 00:36:48.079
your g to your throat so your g center to your

00:36:48.079 --> 00:36:52.559
throat center and that one is basically like

00:36:52.559 --> 00:36:57.840
it's like and it the embodied speaker so You

00:36:57.840 --> 00:37:00.760
could say its tagline is like I express who I

00:37:00.760 --> 00:37:04.559
am I speak from the now my voice is presence

00:37:04.559 --> 00:37:10.940
not performance and so It's like forming a self

00:37:10.940 --> 00:37:13.820
-expressed voice of identity in the present moment.

00:37:13.880 --> 00:37:16.840
You're not here to speak for approval. You're

00:37:16.840 --> 00:37:20.239
here to speak from embodiment in service to what

00:37:20.239 --> 00:37:24.440
is alive right now. So your presence when fully

00:37:24.440 --> 00:37:28.239
aligned becomes a transmission that awakens others,

00:37:28.280 --> 00:37:30.840
which I think is so true of you. And those two

00:37:30.840 --> 00:37:33.980
channels work so beautifully together. So like

00:37:33.980 --> 00:37:40.130
in business, you're not here to you're not here

00:37:40.130 --> 00:37:46.010
to build a brand. You just, you just are your

00:37:46.010 --> 00:37:48.170
own brand. I mean, and I think that's true of

00:37:48.170 --> 00:37:51.469
everybody, but like your embodiment is kind of...

00:37:51.400 --> 00:37:56.219
the thing like you don't lead by teaching intellectually

00:37:56.219 --> 00:37:58.320
what you know and what you've intellectually

00:37:58.320 --> 00:38:02.260
learned you lead by being who you are when your

00:38:02.260 --> 00:38:05.380
self -love is expressed out loud it becomes a

00:38:05.380 --> 00:38:08.579
mirror that activates others and again like that's

00:38:08.579 --> 00:38:10.579
one of the reasons i've loved having you on the

00:38:10.579 --> 00:38:13.539
podcast because like you've moved through such

00:38:13.539 --> 00:38:17.340
intense shit like really really difficult conflicts

00:38:17.340 --> 00:38:23.760
that absolutely offered you many opportunities

00:38:23.760 --> 00:38:28.300
to choose victim consciousness and enmity consciousness.

00:38:28.460 --> 00:38:31.360
And I'm sure you had your moments, but the point

00:38:31.360 --> 00:38:35.599
is you didn't stay there. You continuously chose,

00:38:36.500 --> 00:38:38.840
like I said, your vocation, like forgiveness

00:38:38.840 --> 00:38:42.639
and universal love, and then also your culture

00:38:42.639 --> 00:38:46.019
of total acceptance and presence. And you just

00:38:46.019 --> 00:38:50.360
chose that over and over. that's what's really

00:38:50.360 --> 00:38:54.280
powerful for you to share from. And you can share

00:38:54.280 --> 00:38:57.460
it for your own stories, but you don't have to

00:38:57.460 --> 00:38:59.760
continuously tell your story over and over and

00:38:59.760 --> 00:39:03.300
over as though that's - Yeah. I don't want to,

00:39:03.440 --> 00:39:07.360
but I do think it's important. So I think as

00:39:07.360 --> 00:39:10.199
I listen to these things that you're sharing,

00:39:11.179 --> 00:39:14.469
as well as - like look even just looking at these

00:39:14.469 --> 00:39:17.010
two channels you have three other um channels

00:39:17.010 --> 00:39:19.710
as well that i can talk about too but i i feel

00:39:19.710 --> 00:39:22.610
like kind of with your initial question the part

00:39:22.610 --> 00:39:25.809
where you're like well i'm built to repeat you

00:39:25.809 --> 00:39:28.050
know the same thing over and over which is true

00:39:28.050 --> 00:39:31.190
even just from a projector standpoint like projectors

00:39:31.190 --> 00:39:36.869
are just i i genuinely envy projectors in that

00:39:36.869 --> 00:39:40.519
like you're designed to niche down And I wish

00:39:40.519 --> 00:39:42.699
I was. I feel like it would make my life easier.

00:39:42.780 --> 00:39:45.179
And you could say I niche because of the Akashic

00:39:45.179 --> 00:39:48.179
Records, but it's like I keep trying. It's like

00:39:48.179 --> 00:39:50.659
so much effort to niche it back down. I just

00:39:50.659 --> 00:39:52.460
don't explode. Like you said, with the Gemini

00:39:52.460 --> 00:39:57.099
stuff in all directions. But it also doesn't

00:39:57.099 --> 00:39:59.960
have to be boring, you know? And so the through

00:39:59.960 --> 00:40:02.820
line that I hear and that I see reflected in

00:40:02.820 --> 00:40:06.159
the pieces we've looked at so far is like...

00:40:06.119 --> 00:40:08.599
If I was going to give it a title, which you

00:40:08.599 --> 00:40:12.000
do not have to take on this title, but just for

00:40:12.000 --> 00:40:18.059
the sake of clarity, it would be like, like a

00:40:18.059 --> 00:40:21.820
radical authenticity coach, where you just demonstrate

00:40:21.820 --> 00:40:26.440
and support people in total acceptance of their

00:40:26.440 --> 00:40:28.539
authenticity, whatever that may be right now,

00:40:28.780 --> 00:40:32.099
even if they have like, like I was talking to

00:40:32.099 --> 00:40:35.719
somebody, I had another call before yours and

00:40:35.920 --> 00:40:39.400
she's having a lot of childhood sexual abuse

00:40:39.400 --> 00:40:44.639
trauma come up and has been like trying to suppress

00:40:44.639 --> 00:40:48.699
this like murderous rage she has but we were

00:40:48.699 --> 00:40:50.980
talking about it and I was like what if you can

00:40:50.980 --> 00:40:54.940
just accept that that is holy and it is a completely

00:40:54.940 --> 00:40:57.380
appropriate reaction and you're not murdering

00:40:57.380 --> 00:41:01.900
anyone but you're allowed to want to like with

00:41:01.900 --> 00:41:06.199
that level of rage and and it's it's like that

00:41:06.199 --> 00:41:12.519
like I think that you like it it takes everything

00:41:12.519 --> 00:41:15.079
that you were saying before that you could talk

00:41:15.079 --> 00:41:17.400
about and puts it under the greater umbrella

00:41:17.400 --> 00:41:21.460
of like radical authenticity like learning to

00:41:21.460 --> 00:41:24.420
navigate your sacred sexuality and also receiving

00:41:24.420 --> 00:41:29.119
a lot of intense sexual projections and learning

00:41:29.119 --> 00:41:33.800
how to like really elevate and hold a standard

00:41:33.800 --> 00:41:38.539
for yourself that isn't necessarily societally

00:41:38.539 --> 00:41:43.579
practiced or demonstrated. Like I would love

00:41:43.579 --> 00:41:49.579
to be able to have a very serious, but also comfortable

00:41:49.579 --> 00:41:53.500
conversation around that, around sex, around

00:41:53.500 --> 00:41:56.760
people's traumas, like from them. Like I want

00:41:56.760 --> 00:42:00.139
to hold that space and have the energy. for them

00:42:00.139 --> 00:42:05.179
to feel so comfortable and safe saying everything

00:42:05.179 --> 00:42:07.920
that they're thinking and feeling without feeling

00:42:07.920 --> 00:42:12.679
anything about me in their way you know what

00:42:12.679 --> 00:42:15.219
i mean like just feeling so safe to to say that

00:42:15.219 --> 00:42:22.550
and then also for me to be able to like I think

00:42:22.550 --> 00:42:24.610
it would happen a lot in the in the ways that

00:42:24.610 --> 00:42:26.630
like people would say inappropriate stuff to

00:42:26.630 --> 00:42:29.150
me that has happened a lot in my life like just

00:42:29.150 --> 00:42:31.610
absolutely inappropriate and people a lot of

00:42:31.610 --> 00:42:33.710
the time like want to have sex with me. I can't

00:42:33.710 --> 00:42:35.469
expect that. I don't understand. I don't think

00:42:35.469 --> 00:42:38.530
I'm that beautiful. I don't I think it's an energetic

00:42:38.530 --> 00:42:41.489
thing. I think it really truly it has to do with

00:42:41.489 --> 00:42:43.250
my energy. It has nothing to do with like what

00:42:43.250 --> 00:42:47.329
I will look like but it makes me self -conscious

00:42:47.329 --> 00:42:53.889
like Like I'm doing something wrong in my energy

00:42:53.889 --> 00:42:57.050
to elicit that from other people, you know, right?

00:42:57.469 --> 00:43:00.809
Yeah, but I yeah, I think it's just natural so

00:43:00.809 --> 00:43:04.210
like I need to like Overcome that and just be

00:43:04.210 --> 00:43:07.230
have those boundaries where I feel safe, too

00:43:07.230 --> 00:43:09.230
You know what I mean? Like it right just having

00:43:09.230 --> 00:43:11.369
a conversation about like sexual stuff doesn't

00:43:11.369 --> 00:43:13.250
mean that they're hitting on me You know what

00:43:13.250 --> 00:43:16.269
I mean, and I'm not saying that but sometimes

00:43:16.269 --> 00:43:19.670
people Worm their way in and then they like,

00:43:19.849 --> 00:43:22.030
you know, so I don't know. I don't want that

00:43:22.030 --> 00:43:26.349
I don't want to be like like a Projected on with

00:43:26.349 --> 00:43:28.710
stuff, but I also feel like I would be able to

00:43:28.710 --> 00:43:32.750
just mirror it back Yeah, I mean I think you

00:43:32.750 --> 00:43:35.869
would and I'm kind of thinking too like this

00:43:35.869 --> 00:43:39.590
this moves really beautifully into another Like

00:43:39.590 --> 00:43:42.989
the the fourth of your or the third of your fourth.

00:43:43.329 --> 00:43:46.820
Oh my god, the third of your four channels there

00:43:46.820 --> 00:43:53.980
i said it i got it out which is um it's really

00:43:53.980 --> 00:43:57.719
about negotiating negotiating contracts but not

00:43:57.719 --> 00:44:02.059
necessarily like you know legal contracts although

00:44:02.059 --> 00:44:04.440
it can include that but it's like negotiating

00:44:04.860 --> 00:44:07.619
Appropriate boundaries give and take so that

00:44:07.619 --> 00:44:09.980
it's like reciprocal. It's nourishing to both

00:44:09.980 --> 00:44:15.840
parties but it's the channel 37 to 40 and it's

00:44:15.840 --> 00:44:22.760
like a combination of I Guess like it connects

00:44:22.760 --> 00:44:27.070
gate 40 which is about aloneness versus willingness

00:44:27.070 --> 00:44:31.230
to work in your heart or will center with gate

00:44:31.230 --> 00:44:34.630
37, which is around friendship and family in

00:44:34.630 --> 00:44:37.690
the solar plexus, but it's like a, it's a tribal

00:44:37.690 --> 00:44:41.150
part of the tribal circuit and it's really about

00:44:41.150 --> 00:44:45.150
reciprocity. So it's like doing your part and

00:44:45.150 --> 00:44:49.500
ensuring that others do their, there's two. and

00:44:49.500 --> 00:44:52.480
it's about love with boundaries support and integrity

00:44:52.480 --> 00:44:55.239
and service that's emotionally rooted so you

00:44:55.239 --> 00:45:02.059
can also really speak into like how to mediate

00:45:02.059 --> 00:45:07.639
sexual energy and like the you know mediate projections

00:45:07.639 --> 00:45:11.940
mediate mutual attraction like mediate Mediate

00:45:11.940 --> 00:45:15.800
those boundaries so that they feel good for both

00:45:15.800 --> 00:45:18.940
parties and they are which I think is a skill

00:45:18.940 --> 00:45:25.539
that is sorely needed in this world like We have

00:45:25.539 --> 00:45:27.860
it's all well and good to talk about boundaries

00:45:27.860 --> 00:45:31.179
and permission and shit But like you and I both

00:45:31.179 --> 00:45:34.760
know that sometimes it's super hot to say no

00:45:34.760 --> 00:45:38.380
when you mean yes So there's a lot of it's not

00:45:38.380 --> 00:45:40.980
clearly delineated, but how do we figure out

00:45:40.980 --> 00:45:46.340
how to mediate it? appropriately, right and even

00:45:46.340 --> 00:45:49.900
if you don't necessarily like Decide to become

00:45:49.900 --> 00:45:56.519
like sacred sexuality mediation coach You can

00:45:56.519 --> 00:45:59.460
still speak into it you can still like loop that

00:45:59.460 --> 00:46:02.820
into what you do and Before I move on to the

00:46:02.820 --> 00:46:05.860
other channel, but I feel like for you and the

00:46:05.860 --> 00:46:10.519
way that you are and that um you know the culture

00:46:10.519 --> 00:46:15.940
of having no pretenses you don't have to lead

00:46:15.940 --> 00:46:18.380
with the priestess thing but you can also like

00:46:18.380 --> 00:46:22.139
say i'm a priestess but you can have a an energy

00:46:22.139 --> 00:46:27.199
that is like well just different from the way

00:46:27.199 --> 00:46:30.139
that she presents but you know how she has various

00:46:30.139 --> 00:46:35.340
offers around the different components of what

00:46:35.340 --> 00:46:38.260
she ultimately is here for and so if you're here

00:46:38.260 --> 00:46:42.159
really for like radical authenticity and and

00:46:42.159 --> 00:46:48.920
like helping people who are Repressed and compartmentalized

00:46:48.920 --> 00:46:52.599
and closed off to feel that safety to just be

00:46:52.599 --> 00:46:55.900
completely open and like you said speak into

00:46:56.380 --> 00:46:59.400
whatever whether it's a sexual thing or a spiritual

00:46:59.400 --> 00:47:01.699
awakening thing or whatever but like speak into

00:47:01.699 --> 00:47:04.260
the intense energies they may not have even let

00:47:04.260 --> 00:47:08.260
themselves say aloud to themselves so that you

00:47:08.260 --> 00:47:10.699
know they can move forward with like oh these

00:47:10.699 --> 00:47:13.059
are the pieces of me i can i can move forward

00:47:13.059 --> 00:47:15.400
with this and you can do you can have something

00:47:15.400 --> 00:47:18.320
that's like specifically around sexuality and

00:47:18.320 --> 00:47:20.460
you can have something that's around awakening

00:47:20.460 --> 00:47:23.460
or something that's just around like self honesty

00:47:23.460 --> 00:47:26.079
or whatever It reminds me of that practice session

00:47:26.079 --> 00:47:28.219
we had. I don't remember the guy's name, but

00:47:28.219 --> 00:47:31.079
it was one of the only men that we've had on

00:47:31.079 --> 00:47:34.880
during the Akasha calligraphic mastery. And I

00:47:34.880 --> 00:47:39.159
just had this crazy energy that was definitely

00:47:39.159 --> 00:47:42.739
related to like sexual trauma and repression

00:47:42.739 --> 00:47:45.579
from him. And I had to like run around the house.

00:47:45.679 --> 00:47:47.880
I remember that I like put my, I turned my camera

00:47:47.880 --> 00:47:50.639
off and I like had to run around the house. I

00:47:50.639 --> 00:47:53.949
was like, But I didn't bring it up, you know,

00:47:53.969 --> 00:47:57.369
so I felt like I don't know. I wish I bring it.

00:47:57.389 --> 00:48:00.269
I wished that I brought that up because I feel

00:48:00.269 --> 00:48:01.869
like that was something that needed to be said.

00:48:02.170 --> 00:48:04.309
But I don't know. Okay. So I'll tell you about

00:48:04.309 --> 00:48:10.650
your other your fourth channel and then we can

00:48:10.650 --> 00:48:12.469
move into any other part of it that you want

00:48:12.469 --> 00:48:19.110
to. But you have one, two, three, four. I'm wrong.

00:48:19.110 --> 00:48:23.610
You have five. Two more to go. Okay. So the next

00:48:23.610 --> 00:48:28.809
one that I'll go into is actually like your It's

00:48:28.809 --> 00:48:33.929
your my notes here Yes, it's your emotional wave

00:48:33.929 --> 00:48:37.610
so it's connecting your root center to your solar

00:48:37.610 --> 00:48:41.469
plexus and it's channel 19 to 49 it's known as

00:48:41.469 --> 00:48:46.530
the channel of synthesis and So you have an emotional

00:48:46.530 --> 00:48:50.460
authority which it just means that your decisions

00:48:50.460 --> 00:48:58.539
ultimately like your emotional wave is the how

00:48:58.539 --> 00:49:04.019
do i put it i make decisions based on how i feel

00:49:04.019 --> 00:49:07.300
yes you make decisions based on how you feel

00:49:07.300 --> 00:49:13.369
but like the the way to the way to leverage that

00:49:13.369 --> 00:49:17.130
emotional authority is to become more aware of

00:49:17.130 --> 00:49:20.570
the quality and nature of your emotional wave

00:49:20.570 --> 00:49:24.289
so that you can feel when you're at the neutral

00:49:24.289 --> 00:49:28.170
point. So your decisions are coming from the

00:49:28.170 --> 00:49:31.190
neutrality, which is where you'll have real clarity

00:49:31.190 --> 00:49:34.730
and you'll have the follow through to be able

00:49:34.730 --> 00:49:37.210
to carry out that decision. Whereas if it's weighted

00:49:37.210 --> 00:49:40.869
on like the higher side of your emotional wave,

00:49:40.909 --> 00:49:44.159
you may say, yes, because in the moment you feel

00:49:44.159 --> 00:49:46.679
really good but then later when that emotional

00:49:46.679 --> 00:49:48.739
energy isn't available you're like oh why did

00:49:48.739 --> 00:49:51.500
i say that but likewise when you're in a low

00:49:51.500 --> 00:49:54.460
you're you might say no to something that otherwise

00:49:54.460 --> 00:49:58.139
would be a yes but you're in like kind of a a

00:49:58.139 --> 00:50:07.050
funk so yeah but your emotional wave is a pressurized

00:50:07.050 --> 00:50:10.349
relational wave that builds from your root and

00:50:10.349 --> 00:50:13.130
then crescendos in your solar plexus. And so

00:50:13.130 --> 00:50:20.230
you're not as moody as other emotional authorities.

00:50:20.889 --> 00:50:23.610
It's not as moody of a channel. And it's also

00:50:23.610 --> 00:50:27.170
not necessarily like about creative melancholy

00:50:27.170 --> 00:50:31.650
like other emotional channels. It's more about

00:50:31.650 --> 00:50:37.760
tension around needs. and rules and relationships

00:50:37.760 --> 00:50:40.880
so again like a similar pattern again about how

00:50:40.880 --> 00:50:46.960
like interchange between dynamics and boundaries

00:50:46.960 --> 00:50:51.219
and like give and take um do affect you but the

00:50:51.219 --> 00:50:56.840
way it it feels is like it's just a subtle build

00:50:56.840 --> 00:51:03.360
up of pressure um and then something just like

00:51:03.550 --> 00:51:06.449
Sets you off and there has to be a release of

00:51:06.449 --> 00:51:15.150
the emotion and then it resets 100 % 100 % So

00:51:15.150 --> 00:51:21.369
it's just yeah like being aware of even looking

00:51:21.369 --> 00:51:25.610
at that and noticing the pattern and the way

00:51:25.610 --> 00:51:29.750
it plays out so that you can identify your neutral

00:51:29.750 --> 00:51:34.599
zone and know like that's the the emotional set

00:51:34.599 --> 00:51:39.039
point where decisions are clear. And then giving

00:51:39.039 --> 00:51:42.639
yourself permission to take your time with decisions

00:51:42.639 --> 00:51:46.840
until you get to that neutral place and like

00:51:46.840 --> 00:51:53.059
you're not here to make snap decisions. Yeah,

00:51:53.059 --> 00:51:58.099
but you're very sensitive to the needs of others

00:51:58.099 --> 00:52:01.800
and the moods of others and of the tribe as well.

00:52:02.800 --> 00:52:09.519
And so, yeah, that sensitivity is part of what

00:52:09.519 --> 00:52:17.199
builds up the pressure. It's like when you're

00:52:17.199 --> 00:52:20.039
hypersensitized to others' needs, and so you're

00:52:20.039 --> 00:52:23.599
providing for others and considering their needs,

00:52:23.639 --> 00:52:27.800
but that is not being reciprocated. And then

00:52:27.800 --> 00:52:30.039
it's like light bulb turns on, I'm like, what

00:52:30.039 --> 00:52:32.139
the fuck? And then I throw the plates down. I'm

00:52:32.139 --> 00:52:34.719
like, I'm going to get in the shower. Exactly.

00:52:36.659 --> 00:52:38.480
Doing stuff, doing stuff. And then all of a sudden

00:52:38.480 --> 00:52:40.880
I'm like, actually, no, I need you to leave me

00:52:40.880 --> 00:52:45.980
alone. And I'm going to go take a nap. Yeah,

00:52:46.800 --> 00:52:50.559
very true. And then the final channel that you

00:52:50.559 --> 00:52:54.760
have is the first channel. It is between gate

00:52:54.760 --> 00:52:56.739
one and gate eight. So it's like the channel

00:52:56.739 --> 00:52:59.820
of inspiration. And again, it goes to your throat.

00:52:59.940 --> 00:53:02.300
So you have a lot to say. And you should just

00:53:02.300 --> 00:53:04.539
let yourself say it. But it's like, I express

00:53:04.539 --> 00:53:08.199
my truth and through it, I inspire others. So

00:53:08.199 --> 00:53:11.199
this channel carries pure individual creative

00:53:11.199 --> 00:53:15.500
energy from gate one to gate eight. So gate one

00:53:15.500 --> 00:53:18.679
is like creativity, just pure creative self -expression.

00:53:18.820 --> 00:53:21.059
And gate eight is like the greater contribution,

00:53:21.059 --> 00:53:25.119
which is also your pearl in the Gene Keys. But

00:53:25.119 --> 00:53:29.380
it's the natural flow of authentic artistry and

00:53:29.380 --> 00:53:33.800
uniqueness moving outward. from identity to voice.

00:53:34.179 --> 00:53:36.860
So you're not here to copy or conform, which

00:53:36.860 --> 00:53:40.420
you don't do anyways. You're here to be yourself

00:53:40.420 --> 00:53:44.420
so fully, so boldly and so vibrantly that it

00:53:44.420 --> 00:53:47.500
awakens and activates something in others in

00:53:47.500 --> 00:53:51.980
your mirror. That is so nice. Isn't it? Oh, that's

00:53:51.980 --> 00:53:54.139
so nice of me to do for, no, I'm just kidding.

00:53:54.420 --> 00:53:57.760
I didn't do it for myself. A little bit. That's

00:53:57.760 --> 00:54:00.739
sweet. Isn't it? I feel like I have this one

00:54:00.739 --> 00:54:03.460
too. And I love I just love having this channel

00:54:03.460 --> 00:54:08.599
because it's like your literal existence is like

00:54:08.599 --> 00:54:12.079
without even necessarily doing it for others.

00:54:12.139 --> 00:54:15.059
You're doing it for yourself, but it's like an

00:54:15.059 --> 00:54:21.000
invitation and inspiration for others to feel

00:54:21.000 --> 00:54:23.760
the permission to do the same. And so for you,

00:54:23.800 --> 00:54:26.059
because it like I'll just speak into it from

00:54:26.059 --> 00:54:30.289
the Gene Keys perspective. it is your pearl and

00:54:30.289 --> 00:54:35.730
the pearl is sort of like I don't know you could

00:54:35.730 --> 00:54:40.190
say it's like the key to your it's the key to

00:54:40.190 --> 00:54:43.929
your prosperity I mean all of these four spheres

00:54:43.929 --> 00:54:48.050
create the full picture of your prosperity but

00:54:48.050 --> 00:54:51.949
the pearl is He says, your pearl represents a

00:54:51.949 --> 00:54:54.610
great harvest in your life. This jean key brings

00:54:54.610 --> 00:54:58.250
you rewards and grace once you have let go of

00:54:58.250 --> 00:55:01.250
its underlying shadow pattern. And the shadow

00:55:01.250 --> 00:55:05.130
pattern is mediocrity. So it's people who just

00:55:05.130 --> 00:55:10.650
choose to blend in and look, you know, whatever.

00:55:10.710 --> 00:55:12.730
Everybody who has the house that looks the same

00:55:12.730 --> 00:55:17.170
and... You know a capsule wardrobe based on what's

00:55:17.170 --> 00:55:21.110
in for fall winter 2025 and like they don't You

00:55:21.110 --> 00:55:23.409
know, like they're not they're not like wearing

00:55:23.409 --> 00:55:24.989
what they fucking want to wear. They don't even

00:55:24.989 --> 00:55:27.150
have a concept of that They're just like, oh,

00:55:27.369 --> 00:55:31.429
what's yeah. Um, so that's expression because

00:55:31.429 --> 00:55:36.969
it's like Just wanting to blend in because I

00:55:36.969 --> 00:55:40.030
guess people don't feel like they are enough

00:55:40.030 --> 00:55:44.139
and then the counter shadow projection like the

00:55:44.139 --> 00:55:47.280
other way it can play out is like becoming a

00:55:47.280 --> 00:55:50.000
rebel without a cause so it's like all the punks

00:55:50.000 --> 00:55:53.460
you know from the 90s who are just like fuck

00:55:53.460 --> 00:55:55.900
mediocrity but to the point where they're also

00:55:55.900 --> 00:55:59.039
not being themselves because they're self -defined

00:55:59.039 --> 00:56:02.679
by what they're rebelling against and the gift

00:56:02.679 --> 00:56:06.920
of this gene key and this gait is the gift of

00:56:06.920 --> 00:56:12.079
style so it's like I mean fashion style but also

00:56:12.079 --> 00:56:16.019
your whole being of just being like sort of like

00:56:16.019 --> 00:56:20.059
your own little icon that you're just exuding

00:56:20.059 --> 00:56:24.179
your your own style you know like for you because

00:56:24.179 --> 00:56:27.460
it's what you like this is how you feel good

00:56:27.460 --> 00:56:31.860
and the i do notice that people copy me a lot

00:56:31.860 --> 00:56:36.179
but they don't give me credit like that happens

00:56:36.179 --> 00:56:39.269
a lot i wonder why that would be I don't want

00:56:39.269 --> 00:56:41.969
credit, but also I need recognition. You know

00:56:41.969 --> 00:56:45.150
what I mean? Like it's like, I need recognition,

00:56:45.150 --> 00:56:48.190
but I don't get it. Like people copy or learn

00:56:48.190 --> 00:56:50.809
from me and then just like pretend it was theirs.

00:56:50.869 --> 00:56:54.010
And I'm like, oh, okay. Where'd you get that

00:56:54.010 --> 00:56:57.570
from? Where'd you get that from? Huh? It's just

00:56:57.570 --> 00:57:02.090
funny, but doesn't matter. Yeah. Well, I mean,

00:57:02.210 --> 00:57:04.130
they're in their mediocrity, right? And they're

00:57:04.130 --> 00:57:08.260
like, Yeah, trying to they can't figure out how

00:57:08.260 --> 00:57:11.139
to just like do their own thing and they're drawn

00:57:11.139 --> 00:57:15.280
to your embodiment of your authenticity, but

00:57:15.280 --> 00:57:20.440
the The most elevated expression of this this

00:57:20.440 --> 00:57:25.659
gene key is exquisiteness So the revelation of

00:57:25.659 --> 00:57:29.260
the wild and untamed beauty of life within self

00:57:29.260 --> 00:57:36.420
and other so Yeah, it's so You know, like overall,

00:57:36.699 --> 00:57:42.579
I just, my takeaway again is like, whether you

00:57:42.579 --> 00:57:45.780
lead with this or not, you don't necessarily

00:57:45.780 --> 00:57:49.440
have to make it part of your direct, whatever,

00:57:49.820 --> 00:57:56.940
messaging. But you are here to just like create

00:57:56.940 --> 00:58:03.700
like a wave and a revolution of people. claiming

00:58:03.700 --> 00:58:06.900
themselves, claiming their authenticity, claiming

00:58:06.900 --> 00:58:09.559
their truth, like not hiding who they are anymore,

00:58:09.679 --> 00:58:13.500
not blending in, not denying themselves, not

00:58:13.500 --> 00:58:17.739
shaming themselves or, you know, gaslighting

00:58:17.739 --> 00:58:21.159
themselves, making themselves wrong, but where

00:58:21.159 --> 00:58:25.900
there's just like space to have true dialogue,

00:58:26.059 --> 00:58:29.579
to drop pretenses, to learn how to, you know,

00:58:29.760 --> 00:58:34.880
manage manage their power and manage their energy.

00:58:35.099 --> 00:58:37.380
Like once people have dropped the pretenses,

00:58:37.539 --> 00:58:39.300
then I think that's probably where you can start

00:58:39.300 --> 00:58:43.239
to help them in terms of like sexuality and.

00:58:44.940 --> 00:58:47.880
I feel like that's it's so funny because I'm

00:58:47.880 --> 00:58:49.699
thinking about like interesting when I get around

00:58:49.699 --> 00:58:51.860
other people, like I travel anywhere and I'm

00:58:51.860 --> 00:58:54.820
just being people will talk to me and eventually

00:58:54.820 --> 00:58:57.380
like they want my number. They want me to work

00:58:57.380 --> 00:58:59.690
with them. They want whatever. But around here,

00:58:59.789 --> 00:59:02.429
like where I'm from and like in my normal routines

00:59:02.429 --> 00:59:04.730
and people that I talk to, like I feel like they

00:59:04.730 --> 00:59:07.969
don't even notice me. It's so weird. It's so

00:59:07.969 --> 00:59:10.789
I'm like, am I in the wrong spot? Like I feel

00:59:10.789 --> 00:59:13.949
like I might be in the wrong spot. I mean, maybe

00:59:13.949 --> 00:59:17.610
maybe you should like look up your astro cartography.

00:59:17.949 --> 00:59:20.469
I had that is something I did sense of those

00:59:20.469 --> 00:59:23.409
Canada, Canada. I'm supposed to be in Canada,

00:59:23.489 --> 00:59:27.840
Australia and like like. Southwestern Africa,

00:59:28.119 --> 00:59:39.659
I think. Oh. Oh, okay. I'll try. That's hilarious.

00:59:41.739 --> 00:59:48.179
I'd be down to go to Australia, though. Yeah,

00:59:48.360 --> 00:59:50.679
maybe you'll get there and then it'll be like,

00:59:50.679 --> 00:59:56.539
Oh, people get me. That would be cool or I would

00:59:56.539 --> 00:59:59.619
feel so weird. I would be like, oh, I'm not comfortable

00:59:59.619 --> 01:00:02.360
with this. I go back to where no, I don't think

01:00:02.360 --> 01:00:09.400
I would ever do that. Keep going back now. So

01:00:09.400 --> 01:00:11.340
what other piece of your sole purpose do you

01:00:11.340 --> 01:00:14.440
want to look into? Like there's like so many

01:00:14.440 --> 01:00:16.780
points in your charts that we could focus on,

01:00:16.840 --> 01:00:21.260
but like from just even a hashing it out standpoint,

01:00:21.340 --> 01:00:26.409
like what? Oh. I don't even know what to call

01:00:26.409 --> 01:00:29.130
them like conjunctions or something like what

01:00:29.130 --> 01:00:32.050
or like the things that line up or whatever's

01:00:32.050 --> 01:00:35.570
going on that you think that I should know of

01:00:35.570 --> 01:00:37.710
that have that are important because I know like

01:00:37.710 --> 01:00:41.250
my ascendant is conjunct chiron and apparently

01:00:41.250 --> 01:00:45.449
that Means something about being a healer and

01:00:45.449 --> 01:00:48.989
being like, you know taking the path of like,

01:00:48.989 --> 01:00:53.690
you know kind of like the dark empath path, but

01:00:53.690 --> 01:00:57.320
um Anything else like that you think is like

01:00:57.320 --> 01:01:00.460
major regarding human design that I might not

01:01:00.460 --> 01:01:05.099
be? I guess that I'm thinking of like natal charts.

01:01:05.420 --> 01:01:08.280
There's so much in each of these charts that

01:01:08.280 --> 01:01:11.579
I'm trying to figure out. What? How do I deliver

01:01:11.579 --> 01:01:15.239
this? So it's actually receivable and useful.

01:01:16.219 --> 01:01:18.159
I like that you keep it kind of open because

01:01:18.159 --> 01:01:20.860
then it's like you can focus on certain things

01:01:20.860 --> 01:01:23.659
like whatever deaf person wants to or whatever

01:01:23.659 --> 01:01:28.099
falls to you, you know? Yeah. Well, my like.

01:01:28.829 --> 01:01:31.670
I would just hate to have a session where I just

01:01:31.670 --> 01:01:34.309
talk at somebody and it's not even the stuff

01:01:34.309 --> 01:01:37.809
that they want to know anyways and I just like

01:01:37.809 --> 01:01:39.670
spent their whole entire session that they paid

01:01:39.670 --> 01:01:43.289
for and that whole like hour and change just

01:01:43.289 --> 01:01:46.710
talking without checking in like well what do

01:01:46.710 --> 01:01:52.170
you want that's like be the worst you're the

01:01:52.170 --> 01:02:04.639
best you're the best Oh my goodness. Do you want

01:02:04.639 --> 01:02:08.059
to talk about your profile in human design? Is

01:02:08.059 --> 01:02:10.480
that something that you understand or would like

01:02:10.480 --> 01:02:12.860
to understand better? Or do you want to talk

01:02:12.860 --> 01:02:16.000
more about the energetics of being a projector?

01:02:19.220 --> 01:02:22.960
The profile perspective as far as like the role

01:02:22.960 --> 01:02:26.599
model part like I feel like I understand the

01:02:26.599 --> 01:02:29.340
opportunist Well, maybe both of them because

01:02:29.340 --> 01:02:32.019
there's always something There's always something

01:02:32.019 --> 01:02:34.460
different perspective that you give so I think

01:02:34.460 --> 01:02:38.420
I've looked and thought into that and like seen

01:02:38.420 --> 01:02:41.840
different explanations on the four six and I

01:02:41.840 --> 01:02:45.659
I Love to get your perspective to though. That's

01:02:45.659 --> 01:02:48.809
you always have valuable information Thanks,

01:02:48.889 --> 01:02:54.829
Christine. Yeah. Yeah, so the four -six profile,

01:02:55.769 --> 01:03:01.130
like... Well, I guess, okay, if I were to look

01:03:01.130 --> 01:03:05.110
at the lines individually, you know, the... To

01:03:05.110 --> 01:03:07.590
me, the four line, the really cool thing about

01:03:07.590 --> 01:03:10.050
the four line is I feel like you guys are built

01:03:10.050 --> 01:03:16.389
to naturally... almost like grow a word of mouth

01:03:16.389 --> 01:03:19.150
business or a referral based business, which

01:03:19.150 --> 01:03:22.630
I like hardcore envy. Not that you necessarily

01:03:22.630 --> 01:03:25.269
have to, but it's just, it is all about networks

01:03:25.269 --> 01:03:27.510
and who you meet. And so even like when you said,

01:03:27.570 --> 01:03:31.070
when you go to retreats and like you still talk

01:03:31.070 --> 01:03:33.329
frequently with a bunch of the people that you

01:03:33.329 --> 01:03:36.809
met in retreats and you just, in a very natural

01:03:36.809 --> 01:03:42.280
way, collect relationships that aren't necessarily

01:03:42.280 --> 01:03:46.079
like super close and we're best friends but it's

01:03:46.079 --> 01:03:48.840
like a network but it's an it's a natural organic

01:03:48.840 --> 01:03:56.179
network and a lot of your um your opportunities

01:03:56.179 --> 01:03:59.179
or like doorways or whatever come from there

01:03:59.179 --> 01:04:01.659
so it's interesting because it's i think that's

01:04:01.659 --> 01:04:04.199
where like in the you know, beep beep boop boop

01:04:04.199 --> 01:04:07.860
like corporate business world. The idea of networking

01:04:07.860 --> 01:04:11.579
is just that but it's like ultimately self -serving

01:04:11.579 --> 01:04:14.320
and weirdly inorganic in a lot of ways to create

01:04:14.320 --> 01:04:17.000
networking events just so you meet people so

01:04:17.000 --> 01:04:20.219
that you know the right people is gross. But

01:04:20.219 --> 01:04:23.260
the the true pure energy of a four line is like

01:04:23.260 --> 01:04:26.340
I don't know I just meet people and like I just

01:04:26.840 --> 01:04:30.280
like keep growing this collection of connections

01:04:30.280 --> 01:04:35.300
that are authentic and doorways open for me from

01:04:35.300 --> 01:04:39.000
that without me trying to orchestrate the doors

01:04:39.000 --> 01:04:44.320
to open so for you like for example you could

01:04:44.320 --> 01:04:54.070
do really well um participating in the retreats

01:04:54.070 --> 01:04:56.349
that others are facilitating, but not necessarily

01:04:56.349 --> 01:04:59.630
from a retreat attendee perspective, although

01:04:59.630 --> 01:05:03.010
for sure that too, but more like, you know, doing

01:05:03.010 --> 01:05:06.730
like, let's just say QHHT sessions or something

01:05:06.730 --> 01:05:10.650
like that. You do QHHT, right? Am I making that

01:05:10.650 --> 01:05:13.889
up? I don't do that. No, I don't do that brand,

01:05:13.949 --> 01:05:16.130
but I would like to, because might as well. I

01:05:16.130 --> 01:05:18.510
feel like that's the most well -known one, so

01:05:18.510 --> 01:05:21.429
I would like to, but I did not do that initially.

01:05:22.809 --> 01:05:25.530
But other certifications, it's just not that

01:05:25.530 --> 01:05:30.050
brand. That's fine. Having received two QHHT

01:05:30.050 --> 01:05:32.230
sessions, I'll say I don't think they're vastly

01:05:32.230 --> 01:05:38.469
different from past life regressions. I don't.

01:05:39.130 --> 01:05:41.719
I think it depends on the person. and what the

01:05:41.719 --> 01:05:45.940
person is ready for at that point. But yeah,

01:05:46.420 --> 01:05:49.119
you could do past life regression sessions at

01:05:49.119 --> 01:05:53.539
a, like you could do a group past life regression

01:05:53.539 --> 01:05:57.380
at somebody's retreat and then offer like a limited

01:05:57.380 --> 01:06:00.760
number of private slots for people who want to

01:06:00.760 --> 01:06:03.760
like get in on that. you know, in their free

01:06:03.760 --> 01:06:06.179
time at the retreat or something like you would

01:06:06.179 --> 01:06:07.980
do really well with that. It would just open

01:06:07.980 --> 01:06:13.780
up so many natural avenues for you. Yeah, that

01:06:13.780 --> 01:06:19.420
would take a lot of the pressure off of the the

01:06:19.420 --> 01:06:23.860
concept of marketing. Mm hmm. That makes sense.

01:06:24.539 --> 01:06:28.059
Mm hmm. And you're I mean, it kind of includes

01:06:28.059 --> 01:06:31.760
your family. and friends too but in the sense

01:06:31.760 --> 01:06:35.300
that they may not be awake themselves and ready

01:06:35.300 --> 01:06:39.519
to like have the conversations that you're ready

01:06:39.519 --> 01:06:42.039
to have whether in a work capacity or just like

01:06:42.039 --> 01:06:45.840
in an honest capacity but they might know somebody

01:06:45.840 --> 01:06:49.280
who is ready and they just mention you to them

01:06:49.280 --> 01:06:50.980
or something like there's just this beautiful

01:06:50.980 --> 01:06:54.920
organic like it's like your people bring more

01:06:54.920 --> 01:06:59.519
of your people to you yeah yeah that's just the

01:06:59.519 --> 01:07:03.880
the way you're built like if you're too close

01:07:03.880 --> 01:07:07.559
to your family that could just put a damper on

01:07:07.559 --> 01:07:11.119
your own energy and enthusiasm and confidence

01:07:11.119 --> 01:07:14.719
but it's still you're still always working for

01:07:14.719 --> 01:07:21.880
you yeah naturally yeah for sure and then with

01:07:21.880 --> 01:07:25.309
the role model okay this is i mean you i'm sure

01:07:25.309 --> 01:07:27.090
you know because i'm sure you've looked it up

01:07:27.090 --> 01:07:29.690
but like supposedly it happens in three life

01:07:29.690 --> 01:07:34.369
segments and you know that first segment you're

01:07:34.369 --> 01:07:36.349
just kind of like a hot mess and just trying

01:07:36.349 --> 01:07:38.349
to figure it out or you feel like a hot mess

01:07:38.349 --> 01:07:42.690
anyways i don't know i'm not a six line so can

01:07:42.690 --> 01:07:47.250
only surmise um but then in the the second phase

01:07:47.250 --> 01:07:50.639
is like you kind of you're retreating and you're

01:07:50.639 --> 01:07:53.320
observing and then then the third phase that's

01:07:53.320 --> 01:07:55.239
where you come back out and you're more of a

01:07:55.239 --> 01:07:59.840
role model but I feel like that is such a I'm

01:07:59.840 --> 01:08:03.400
not saying it's not true and I'm in the process

01:08:03.400 --> 01:08:08.820
of reading Rahu's like first original writings

01:08:08.820 --> 01:08:12.059
when he first channeled and started writing down

01:08:12.059 --> 01:08:15.039
all this human design stuff to go back to the

01:08:15.039 --> 01:08:17.850
source to understand it better but I feel like

01:08:17.850 --> 01:08:20.470
that's a very, I don't know. I just don't jive

01:08:20.470 --> 01:08:23.090
with that. But I do at the same time. I just

01:08:23.090 --> 01:08:24.949
think there's something deeper and richer to

01:08:24.949 --> 01:08:29.390
it. So the six lines that I know, particularly

01:08:29.390 --> 01:08:31.710
the ones that are in my family that I know really

01:08:31.710 --> 01:08:36.989
well, this is what it feels like to me. In the

01:08:36.989 --> 01:08:40.390
first season of life, like a role model is always

01:08:40.390 --> 01:08:42.859
a role model. A six line is... always a role

01:08:42.859 --> 01:08:45.420
model their whole entire life that's how people

01:08:45.420 --> 01:08:48.359
receive them and respond to them but in the first

01:08:48.359 --> 01:08:51.260
phase of their life they don't feel particularly

01:08:51.260 --> 01:08:54.399
role model -y they feel like a work in progress

01:08:54.399 --> 01:08:58.800
so it's like an internal feeling of like i don't

01:08:58.800 --> 01:09:01.500
know what i'm doing or i don't feel confident

01:09:01.500 --> 01:09:04.840
in myself i'm still trying to figure it out but

01:09:04.840 --> 01:09:08.279
all along they're still exuding this role model

01:09:08.279 --> 01:09:12.060
energy where others are looking to them and Being

01:09:12.060 --> 01:09:15.260
like oh like this is an example of how I can

01:09:15.260 --> 01:09:19.479
do this or that or whatever But it's a little

01:09:19.479 --> 01:09:21.439
bit quieter at that point because they don't

01:09:21.439 --> 01:09:24.180
have the confidence to advertise themselves as

01:09:24.180 --> 01:09:27.460
a role model But they're still role modeling

01:09:27.460 --> 01:09:30.399
and then in the second phase It's like they're

01:09:30.399 --> 01:09:32.520
just in between like they're kind of figuring

01:09:32.520 --> 01:09:35.220
out like this is the phase you're in where you're

01:09:35.220 --> 01:09:38.199
like in some ways Yeah, I can see like how I

01:09:38.199 --> 01:09:41.390
can be a role model or like how I help people,

01:09:41.390 --> 01:09:43.529
how I have that particular kind of influence

01:09:43.529 --> 01:09:46.010
where it's not really about me like telling them

01:09:46.010 --> 01:09:50.510
what to do, but they as they watch me and observe

01:09:50.510 --> 01:09:56.310
me, it gives them like inspiration or an example,

01:09:56.409 --> 01:10:02.550
a template of like how to be or a way to be.

01:10:03.409 --> 01:10:05.949
So it's like you're half in half out like in

01:10:05.949 --> 01:10:08.989
some ways in that middle section You still feel

01:10:08.989 --> 01:10:11.449
like even as you were saying with the podcast

01:10:11.449 --> 01:10:13.569
like I don't I don't know why I can't necessarily

01:10:13.569 --> 01:10:15.729
put my finger exactly on it But I don't quite

01:10:15.729 --> 01:10:18.789
feel ready. I don't feel fully ready to like

01:10:18.789 --> 01:10:23.069
You know go go ham and just talk about it But

01:10:23.069 --> 01:10:26.109
I feel the room is building like I know I'm moving

01:10:26.109 --> 01:10:30.689
in that direction But again, you're still role

01:10:30.689 --> 01:10:34.569
modeling the whole time But it's not until you

01:10:34.569 --> 01:10:37.949
get to that third phase where you're you are

01:10:37.949 --> 01:10:40.149
especially as a projector where you're like,

01:10:40.170 --> 01:10:43.430
oh, yeah I know what I've got nailed down. Like

01:10:43.430 --> 01:10:45.569
I know the ways that I'm a role model and then

01:10:45.569 --> 01:10:49.670
you fully embody it which then allows people

01:10:49.670 --> 01:10:55.149
to It's like there's more of a I think it has

01:10:55.149 --> 01:10:58.869
to do with the awareness the self -awareness

01:10:58.869 --> 01:11:03.079
along the journey of the six line of their natural

01:11:03.079 --> 01:11:05.920
role model energy. So it's like, it almost becomes

01:11:05.920 --> 01:11:08.880
official at the end because now you're like,

01:11:09.140 --> 01:11:12.300
I recognize myself. I can just share myself with

01:11:12.300 --> 01:11:15.819
the world confidently as a role model. And then

01:11:15.819 --> 01:11:17.159
other people - Maybe I can get there sooner.

01:11:17.760 --> 01:11:20.640
Great. Well, that's it where I'm just like, that's

01:11:20.640 --> 01:11:23.500
such a weird way to break it up because as if

01:11:23.500 --> 01:11:27.250
it's truly between these ages. And again, maybe

01:11:27.250 --> 01:11:29.430
it is and I'll finish reading his books and I'll

01:11:29.430 --> 01:11:30.970
be like, oh yeah, I get what he's saying now,

01:11:30.970 --> 01:11:34.109
but I just feel like, okay, but what about a

01:11:34.109 --> 01:11:38.750
six line who like dies when they're 32? Yeah.

01:11:38.850 --> 01:11:41.050
There's still a role model at the time. Like

01:11:41.050 --> 01:11:42.729
what are you supposed to do? Just like guarantee

01:11:42.729 --> 01:11:45.210
live until you're 50 and then only when you're

01:11:45.210 --> 01:11:48.010
50 and beyond, you're really here having like

01:11:48.010 --> 01:11:50.010
the impact that you're here to have. I don't

01:11:50.010 --> 01:11:52.050
think it's like that. I think it's just that

01:11:52.050 --> 01:11:56.670
when... When you get to 50 as the delineation

01:11:56.670 --> 01:11:59.329
mark, it's it's just where you're like, oh, yeah,

01:11:59.329 --> 01:12:02.430
I know like I or like I feel like an elder I

01:12:02.430 --> 01:12:06.409
have this I've walked this long path Sometimes

01:12:06.409 --> 01:12:09.869
I can get there and I can see how when I have

01:12:09.869 --> 01:12:12.729
a few more years on me I will have that confidence

01:12:12.729 --> 01:12:16.189
because it's it grows each year like my self

01:12:16.189 --> 01:12:19.630
-assuredness my self -awareness all those things

01:12:19.630 --> 01:12:22.229
are growing more and more and like exponentially

01:12:22.229 --> 01:12:25.399
since my awakening four years ago, like I went

01:12:25.399 --> 01:12:29.260
from absolutely no knowledge to now. And I'm

01:12:29.260 --> 01:12:31.319
like, I look back and I'm like, damn, if I could

01:12:31.319 --> 01:12:33.880
do that in four years, I could definitely embody

01:12:33.880 --> 01:12:38.760
being a role model before 50. I think I can do

01:12:38.760 --> 01:12:43.439
it. Totally. Yeah. So I think that's like, that's

01:12:43.439 --> 01:12:46.100
the journey. And then the role model, like, so

01:12:46.100 --> 01:12:49.819
the, the four six kind of combination is this,

01:12:49.819 --> 01:12:57.800
um, really beautiful energy of like community

01:12:57.800 --> 01:12:59.979
is important, connections are important, like

01:12:59.979 --> 01:13:05.079
organic relationships are important, and you

01:13:05.079 --> 01:13:08.800
have an impact. Like, for example, Ben Carroll,

01:13:09.119 --> 01:13:12.420
you know, you remember Ben Carroll, right? So

01:13:12.420 --> 01:13:17.739
he's a 4 '6". So he like, I don't think he's

01:13:17.739 --> 01:13:23.800
50 yet. He's like already a role model, has been

01:13:23.800 --> 01:13:26.720
a role model all along. And he's a very like,

01:13:27.340 --> 01:13:30.800
even though he has an online presence, like,

01:13:31.300 --> 01:13:34.739
and does his business online, he does it in a

01:13:34.739 --> 01:13:38.100
very four line way, where it's like organic relationships,

01:13:38.300 --> 01:13:40.920
getting invited on podcasts, people that you've

01:13:40.920 --> 01:13:43.840
met, and you have developed a relationship with,

01:13:43.920 --> 01:13:47.800
it's not like cold pitching, God, I get so many

01:13:47.800 --> 01:13:51.079
pitches, I just despise it. Like, you have literally

01:13:51.079 --> 01:13:55.199
never listened to a single episode, but you are

01:13:55.199 --> 01:13:57.739
telling me that you think that you'd be a great

01:13:57.739 --> 01:14:01.300
fit for my show. It's so, it's crazy. Yeah. Oh,

01:14:01.380 --> 01:14:05.460
your headphones cut out again. But anyway, like,

01:14:05.899 --> 01:14:10.260
a four line, the four six is like, just gonna

01:14:10.260 --> 01:14:13.180
make friends, make connections, get invited onto

01:14:13.180 --> 01:14:17.539
things, be on whatever. and it's everything's

01:14:17.539 --> 01:14:20.500
gonna flow from there and the whole time they're

01:14:20.500 --> 01:14:23.279
just giving off this like really beautiful sage

01:14:23.279 --> 01:14:26.300
energy but it's sort of also like you could think

01:14:26.300 --> 01:14:30.720
of it in terms of a plant like the plant is always

01:14:30.720 --> 01:14:35.140
the plant even before like you know a hibiscus

01:14:35.140 --> 01:14:39.710
is always a hibiscus even before the first bloom

01:14:39.710 --> 01:14:42.569
or the full bloom. So I guess the later stage

01:14:42.569 --> 01:14:45.250
is like the full bloom and the middle stage is

01:14:45.250 --> 01:14:49.529
when the first blooms start to emerge. But it's

01:14:49.529 --> 01:14:53.289
still a hibiscus before, like when it's first

01:14:53.289 --> 01:14:57.510
sprouting. Yeah. And if people know what a hibiscus

01:14:57.510 --> 01:14:59.789
looks like, they would be like, damn, that's

01:14:59.789 --> 01:15:07.189
a hibiscus. Yeah. Yeah. I love that. I love that.

01:15:09.239 --> 01:15:14.579
terminology and I love hibiscus also and I know

01:15:14.579 --> 01:15:16.880
they're beautiful even if they're not blooming

01:15:16.880 --> 01:15:21.500
and they come back every year yeah and they just

01:15:21.500 --> 01:15:24.800
bloom and bloom and bloom I love them yeah they're

01:15:24.800 --> 01:15:33.859
beautiful so funny yeah I totally agree And I

01:15:33.859 --> 01:15:36.680
think it's like at certain times in certain circumstances,

01:15:36.680 --> 01:15:39.659
you could be showing up as fully embodied, but

01:15:39.659 --> 01:15:42.560
it's not necessarily all the time. Yeah. Yes.

01:15:42.560 --> 01:15:44.800
So I think that's what that middle stage is.

01:15:44.800 --> 01:15:47.260
It's just like sometimes you're fully in it.

01:15:47.260 --> 01:15:49.439
And sometimes you feel a little bit more like

01:15:49.439 --> 01:15:51.359
that unconscious, like you're unconscious of

01:15:51.359 --> 01:15:56.380
your role model ship. You're still a role model

01:15:56.380 --> 01:16:02.460
the whole way along. I definitely recognize that.

01:16:02.520 --> 01:16:08.840
from she would frequently ask me how I could

01:16:08.840 --> 01:16:12.060
like just go talk to people. Like how do you

01:16:12.060 --> 01:16:15.039
just go up and start talking to people? Like

01:16:15.039 --> 01:16:17.760
I wish I could do that. How do you just like

01:16:17.760 --> 01:16:21.260
start cleaning? Like you just start doing, you

01:16:21.260 --> 01:16:23.579
just get up and you're like, this is where I

01:16:23.579 --> 01:16:25.779
start. And then like you just do it. And I'm

01:16:25.779 --> 01:16:28.920
like, I don't know how to explain that. Like

01:16:28.920 --> 01:16:31.800
I just do it. Like I don't know how to explain.

01:16:32.470 --> 01:16:35.789
Uh, but like I, she would, she would, she brought

01:16:35.789 --> 01:16:38.289
an awareness to me that I didn't realize that

01:16:38.289 --> 01:16:40.090
she's like, how do you just know how to do these

01:16:40.090 --> 01:16:43.029
things? You know how to cook? You could like

01:16:43.029 --> 01:16:45.689
cook anything. You just make it from like the

01:16:45.689 --> 01:16:48.229
basic ingredients. And like, I don't know how

01:16:48.229 --> 01:16:49.989
to do that. And I'm like, that's okay. Cause

01:16:49.989 --> 01:16:53.590
you don't want to cook obviously. Cause if you

01:16:53.590 --> 01:16:55.069
wanted to, you would have learned to, you know

01:16:55.069 --> 01:16:56.869
what I mean? Like, and not everybody needs to

01:16:56.869 --> 01:16:59.890
know how to do things because like making mac

01:16:59.890 --> 01:17:02.890
and cheese, like I made a roux and she's like,

01:17:03.029 --> 01:17:04.770
how do you even know how to do that and how to

01:17:04.770 --> 01:17:09.489
pronounce it? I'm like, well, if you cook like

01:17:09.489 --> 01:17:11.729
mac and cheese or like stew or things like that,

01:17:11.750 --> 01:17:13.529
like you need to get the roux first. Like it's

01:17:13.529 --> 01:17:15.529
just part of the process. And like, she's like,

01:17:15.550 --> 01:17:18.109
well, how do you know that? I'm like, I don't

01:17:18.109 --> 01:17:21.489
know. Like I just, it's just, but like that,

01:17:21.489 --> 01:17:23.649
that would happen a lot. Like where people would

01:17:23.649 --> 01:17:27.560
like, but it kind of was. Sadly, it was like

01:17:27.560 --> 01:17:29.720
she was comparing herself. Like it wasn't really

01:17:29.720 --> 01:17:33.119
a compliment. Like it was like, it made her feel

01:17:33.119 --> 01:17:35.899
like she was behind and that's not what I would

01:17:35.899 --> 01:17:40.420
have intended. Like, but I can recognize that

01:17:40.420 --> 01:17:43.060
people see that in me even when I'm not aware

01:17:43.060 --> 01:17:46.880
that because of how many times she would say

01:17:46.880 --> 01:17:50.220
things like that. Yeah, it's like they're naturally

01:17:50.220 --> 01:17:54.000
looking at you as an example, whether you are

01:17:54.000 --> 01:17:59.000
aware and like embodied in that and like flexing

01:17:59.000 --> 01:18:01.920
it or not they're just looking at you as an example

01:18:01.920 --> 01:18:04.539
or like let's say in the earlier phase of your

01:18:04.539 --> 01:18:08.720
life it could have been like unbeknownst to you

01:18:08.720 --> 01:18:13.460
certain other kids at school would like decide

01:18:13.460 --> 01:18:15.920
that they want to wear this kind of shirt because

01:18:15.920 --> 01:18:18.199
you were wearing it and they might not a conversation

01:18:18.199 --> 01:18:20.680
might not have even happened but you just like

01:18:20.680 --> 01:18:24.260
them they you just naturally are an example.

01:18:24.829 --> 01:18:27.670
That's how people receive you and especially

01:18:27.670 --> 01:18:32.310
because your Sixth line is in on your design

01:18:32.310 --> 01:18:36.350
side. So Even in the later phase of your life

01:18:36.350 --> 01:18:39.229
You may still be like feel somewhat unconscious

01:18:39.229 --> 01:18:42.149
of it not as though you can't access it and embody

01:18:42.149 --> 01:18:46.109
it but it might just not be what you're Like

01:18:46.109 --> 01:18:49.149
fully the most aware of within yourself. Do you

01:18:49.149 --> 01:18:52.819
know what I mean? Whereas you just have an easier

01:18:52.819 --> 01:18:56.100
access to the awareness of the fourth line in

01:18:56.100 --> 01:19:00.960
you that collects connections without trying.

01:19:01.840 --> 01:19:03.859
You wouldn't even know who just tried to call

01:19:03.859 --> 01:19:06.420
me. Erin French just tried to call me. Oh, really?

01:19:07.420 --> 01:19:08.920
I'll have to call back and be like, sorry, I

01:19:08.920 --> 01:19:14.619
was on the phone with Amy. So funny. But he doesn't

01:19:14.619 --> 01:19:16.779
call all the time. So that's really funny that

01:19:16.779 --> 01:19:19.520
he just called. Sometimes he calls when he's

01:19:19.520 --> 01:19:21.949
driving. Cause he is like, you know, he has a

01:19:21.949 --> 01:19:23.989
long drive ahead. So he likes to just like catch

01:19:23.989 --> 01:19:28.270
up on the drive or something. What a great guy.

01:19:29.970 --> 01:19:34.369
He's great. He's great. Oh my gosh. This has

01:19:34.369 --> 01:19:38.289
been so enlightening. Thank you so much. I'm

01:19:38.289 --> 01:19:42.050
so glad. I'm so glad there are things I didn't

01:19:42.050 --> 01:19:44.689
know. Like the other channels, other gates, I

01:19:44.689 --> 01:19:48.029
guess the gates. I don't know much about the

01:19:48.029 --> 01:19:51.470
gene keys. I only have one report. And it's like,

01:19:52.109 --> 01:19:55.909
I didn't know anything about the pearls. I did

01:19:55.909 --> 01:19:58.289
know something about the culture, that thing.

01:20:00.189 --> 01:20:02.649
It's so interesting. There's so much information.

01:20:02.909 --> 01:20:05.090
You brought it together in a way that was easy

01:20:05.090 --> 01:20:07.810
to understand. Because like you said, I've been

01:20:07.810 --> 01:20:10.050
out here. I have my charts. I have one thing

01:20:10.050 --> 01:20:12.189
over here. I'm taking notes over there. It's

01:20:12.189 --> 01:20:14.149
like so much. I'm like, what the fuck? I don't

01:20:14.149 --> 01:20:16.800
even know what this is. Like you could pay you

01:20:16.800 --> 01:20:19.600
could pay for like a really extensive human design

01:20:19.600 --> 01:20:21.840
chart or you could just get your chart like the

01:20:21.840 --> 01:20:25.279
picture and then like you look up all those um

01:20:25.279 --> 01:20:28.600
you know gates and stuff which I've done but

01:20:28.600 --> 01:20:31.000
after you do that like where is it it's gone

01:20:31.000 --> 01:20:35.300
I know I know and also like it's hard to understand

01:20:35.300 --> 01:20:38.220
like I had to spend a lot of time learning more

01:20:38.220 --> 01:20:40.659
than I did with astrology I had to spend a lot

01:20:40.659 --> 01:20:43.899
of time learning like well what like what does

01:20:43.899 --> 01:20:48.260
it mean to have this gate in like you know your

01:20:48.260 --> 01:20:54.880
your design north node like yeah exactly i i

01:20:54.880 --> 01:20:57.760
have no idea about those things no idea about

01:20:57.760 --> 01:21:01.199
astrology so difficult to me human design i understand

01:21:01.199 --> 01:21:05.199
a little bit more gene keys seem very accurate

01:21:05.199 --> 01:21:08.140
connected with the numerology all of that astrology

01:21:08.140 --> 01:21:14.539
is another language to me Whole other feast So

01:21:14.539 --> 01:21:18.979
I really appreciate I appreciate like Bringing

01:21:18.979 --> 01:21:22.119
it all together. Thank you so much. Oh Well,

01:21:22.119 --> 01:21:24.920
thank you for giving me the opportunity to do

01:21:24.920 --> 01:21:27.939
it. I just loved looking more deeply into your

01:21:27.939 --> 01:21:32.560
yeah your blueprint. Oh Thank you so much Thanks,

01:21:32.680 --> 01:21:35.960
Christine. Hope you I should I okay. I'll tell

01:21:35.960 --> 01:21:38.539
my sister that she needs to book with you because

01:21:38.539 --> 01:21:43.680
she's getting interested in stuff and uh I think

01:21:43.680 --> 01:21:46.920
that would be beneficial to her but maybe maybe

01:21:46.920 --> 01:21:48.979
she will maybe she won't I'll send I'll send

01:21:48.979 --> 01:21:54.859
her a link yeah maybe I'll meet her yeah yes

01:21:54.859 --> 01:21:59.060
awesome thank you so much Amy yeah thank you

01:21:59.060 --> 01:22:00.579
Christine I hope you have a great day and say

01:22:00.579 --> 01:22:03.079
hi to Aaron for me if you talk to him yes yes

01:22:03.079 --> 01:22:10.579
I will thank you take care okay bye bye Before

01:22:10.579 --> 01:22:13.220
we close, I want to take a moment to thank Amy

01:22:13.220 --> 01:22:16.359
again for this reading and for her mentorship

01:22:16.359 --> 01:22:20.060
over the years, for the clarity she brings through

01:22:20.060 --> 01:22:24.000
her work. If you're curious to explore her offerings

01:22:24.000 --> 01:22:27.720
or learn more about her, you'll find all of Amy's

01:22:27.720 --> 01:22:30.500
contact information linked in the show notes.

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I highly recommend following the thread if you

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feel called. And in honor of you listening to

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my very first episode, I wanted to offer something

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back. If you feel curious about working with

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me and you would like a gentle introduction,

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I'm offering a free 30 minute space for you to

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speak session. You can book it through the link

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in the show notes if it feels right for you.

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In space for you to speak, you're invited to

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share your thoughts, feelings, and emotions while

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being held in an energetic container that's quantumly

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connected. Together we may identify other timelines

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or past lives, sometimes the same thing, sometimes

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different, if you can believe that. It's a space

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for truth to surface without force, performance,

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or fixing. I also offer Akashic Records readings

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and past life regression therapy, though if I'm

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being honest, my newest passion right now is

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homeschooling my daughter and learning how to

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live more sustainably. Life keeps expanding me

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in unexpected directions and I let that be part

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of my work too. One important note before we

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part, I don't have a conventional therapy certification.

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I'm not a doctor, I'm a shaman. So take what

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resonates, leave the rest, and trust your own

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knowing as you explore this path. Thank you for

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being here at the beginning. Thank you for listening,

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for witnessing, and for sharing this space with

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me. This is In My Experience, and I'll see you

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in the next episode.