Entry 10, The Power of Powerlessness. Hello.
It has been three months since the last entry.
Since the experience in Peru at the Temple of
Souls, time holds less of a place in my reality.
After the mountains spoke to me in Peru, I have
been changed and continue to receive the meaning
of the mountain time versus human time. So, I
apologize for how long it has been since my last
entry. For me, it has seemed like a moment, as
time no longer commands me, motivates me, or
defines me. Time is just a tool to communicate
and coordinate events with other people. I want
to be clear about this going forward so that
you never feel I'm being dismissive about your
experience with how often I share with you. I
will always share when and how I am guided. I
can promise you that. There is no choice in that
process, and I'm not interested in denying or
avoiding anything, especially as it relates to
this purpose in my life. I must say, I thought,
keywords, I thought, that at 16 ,700 feet up
in the Andes of Peru, at that sacred location
that I had reached a summit, so to speak, when
in reality, I had reached a base camp, and the
real summit I would climb would not take seven
days, but three months following that moment.
And after three months, I would continue to see
an endless field of ranges of mountains, all
with higher summits still. All that being said,
onward we go. The effects of this awareness around
mountain -timer, nothing I could have ever imagined.
You see, with this new perspective of time has
come an ability, a permission so to speak, to
experience unnecessary powerlessness over events.
Not only in my life and the lives of those I
love the most, but in humanity in general. I
had been aware of the journey of the sovereign
soul taking me into powerlessness prior to the
trip, but the trip catalyzed this process to
a great degree. with the shift into mountain
time. Experiencing powerlessness has had many
exquisite effects on the essence of my soul,
my being, and how I experience reality. I must
say none of that could have been predicted or
maybe more accurately would have been allowed
by myself to predict. For fear it would disarm
remaining armor and illusions of separation that
allow personal belief systems to have authority
instead of universal order and a more pure unfiltered
experience with reality on reality's terms. You
see, the path powerless leads you into is real.
raw, and honest. It's an interface with reality
that results and reveals an undeniable awareness
to the mechanisms of creation and interaction
that break your personal bond with reality, as
well as reveal your dysfunctional and limiting
belief systems that are shaping your relationship
with reality. It replaces them with a universal
bond and awareness to reality that truly underpins
creation. And it does it in a way that exposes
all of the belief systems that resist this process
and distort your awareness to order and truth
regarding creative existence. Powerlessness has
the innate potential to be an incredibly unifying
force as it puts you face to face with the greatest
fears and questions that we all share and have
in common. And it brings you to a place of acceptance
and peace with them. Instead of relying on the
personal or communal belief systems that we've
adopted to cope with powerlessness and the fear
of the unknown, the latter systems bring about
the chemistry of denial temporarily to deal with
this experience, many times classifying them
as survival states that must be escaped in the
moment. This approach to experiencing reality
only propagates the need for the belief systems
that create the chemistry of coping. in all its
forms and further validates coping or excessive
survival state -based reactions as necessary
and beyond reach of change. Change that is necessary
for the long -term well -being of the person,
not just survival of the person. But instead
of that change being seen as possible, necessary,
and dare I say, inevitable, stagnancy and codependency
on these old coping mechanisms results, and it
is justified by a false allegiance to a process
of belief and reaction that may have once given
survival, structure, support or relief, but has
become more and more rigid and in need of accommodation
from all that wishes to evolve and change around
it. But let me clarify this relationship with
powerlessness. It does not yield the passive
relationship with reality that one might expect.
Instead, it replaces a personal power that defaults
into choice based on self -survival with a more
intuitive choice based in more pattern recognition,
larger data sets, and a greater good. drawing
from a universal power based on a sovereign universal
order, instead of belief systems based in the
brains of individuals. And the evidence of that
universal power, that higher power, is undeniable
in the objective reality that can be observed
through our senses, connected to with our deepest
instincts and intuition, and embraced at our
deepest level as source. A natural result of
this journey into powerlessness, with the willingness
to observe reality more and more through this
lens, it no longer needs faith or trust mechanisms
of belief, which can be destabilizing and breed
uncertainty long term. Instead, you are delivered
to a truly better, more orderly, stable, long
-term, honest place of connection and existence
within reality. And I know this because I'm going
through this process, and I am in this space
of connection with reality right now. In terms
of our physical biology, this space of existence
is analogous to the state of greater physical
homeostasis, as defined by the body's automatic
process of maintaining a stable, balanced internal
environment, such as temperature, pH, and nutrient
levels. Despite changing external conditions,
its purpose is to keep systems functioning optimally.
In this space of connection and awareness, I
am aware of reality in many ways that drive the
process of what I am now in life instead of who
I am and how I am with others as well as how
I interact and respond to reality in general.
I am much calmer, far less triggered. It is an
interactive process that actively engages the
senses, instincts, intuition, and the essence
of my being or soul in a way that I can only
do my best to describe, but in many ways is far
outside the ability or need of any language.
But as paradoxical as it sounds, powerlessness
results in the opposite of what is considered
the classic notion of passivity. It takes you
to a place of complete integration and activation
by the reality that creates and surrounds you
at all times. And it refuses, based on its innate
function and purpose, to be lied to, deceived,
or denied by any belief system humanity has ever
created to deal with it. It instead infuses you
with an awareness and an order that is relentless
in its quest for deeper and deeper awareness,
balance, and knowing that is not derived from
the search for it, but instead is a direct result
of the space that you arrive in as a result of
engaging in powerlessness itself. As a result,
it leaves you powerless to resist its process
of change and transformation. Through an osmotic
-like effect, the space creates a gradient or
movement where greater universal awareness is
moved into your being across the membranes that
used to defend you from it. These notions of
higher order and change used to be perceived
as a foreign substance, a foreign invader, or
a threat to all you once believed was true and
was beyond reproach. It instead, upon entering
you, it inoculates you with immunity to these
old beliefs and ability to identify true foreign
invaders within yourself that have been, up until
this point, hiding in plain sight behind the
veil of untouchable belief system, necessary
coping mechanisms, and self -preservation, as
well as preservation of the old notions of self.
The unveiling of this true source of internal
conflict could only be brought about by the power
of powerlessness and its innate ability to transform
and remove the denial that allows these belief
systems to go unnoticed. Because any attachment
to personal power feeds the power of these systems,
creates a shield around them, and aids in their
defense and ongoing purpose to provide coping
and the chemistry of denial. Some may be tempted
to categorize this process as more of a metaphysical
or a spiritual experience, but I must object
to any attempt to categorize this experience
based on the grounds of what I know I have observed
empirically in my own experience within it. This
is not a process or an experience to be pigeonholed
or classified into any specific type. This powerlessness
process of evolving, awakening, changing, It's
a universal, all -inclusive process at work within
all segments and dimensions of our reality. It
is a common denominator, it is a constant result
and originator of transformation, and it fuels
the process of change and evolution within the
creative process. And when willingly accepted
and integrated, has great power to bring about
radical levels of change within a life form,
thus eliminating huge amounts of bottlenecks
in the being. Powerlessness is a part of the
path to greater realization and awareness. Powerless
is a part of the path to true freedom. And finally,
accepting the need and the experience of powerlessness
is not an act of surrender. It is a necessary
step in the act of transformation that allows
you to realize and participate in the true power
of sovereignty. We will go down this path together
and all I ask is that you be willing to observe
your reality through your senses, intuition and
instincts and be open to the radical change in
awareness that will happen as a result. Until
next time, I am Sovereign Soul.