WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:02.160 I'm pretty sure I started like rubbing on his 00:00:02.160 --> 00:00:05.500 dick in the cab on the way there. And then we 00:00:05.500 --> 00:00:07.519 were like making out a little bit and stuff and 00:00:07.519 --> 00:00:10.699 just feeling around. So anyways, it was like 00:00:10.699 --> 00:00:15.660 a ways. It was a ways away. But it was late at 00:00:15.660 --> 00:00:18.420 night, thankfully. So we get there. It's this 00:00:18.420 --> 00:00:21.739 super nice apartment building, you know, has 00:00:21.739 --> 00:00:24.280 the doorman and everything and locked and got 00:00:24.280 --> 00:00:27.120 to have a key card and a code and all this stuff 00:00:27.120 --> 00:00:31.679 and fancy flowers in there. The following podcast 00:00:31.679 --> 00:00:34.619 is for informational purposes only and does not 00:00:34.619 --> 00:00:37.799 constitute legal, medical, or any type of professional 00:00:37.799 --> 00:00:41.079 advice. 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Our aim is to give 00:01:19.599 --> 00:01:21.900 others a place to share their stories and release 00:01:21.900 --> 00:01:24.519 themselves from the weight of shame and guilt. 00:01:50.980 --> 00:01:54.359 Welcome to another night with the Siren of Freedom. 00:01:54.599 --> 00:01:58.019 And tonight we're doing one of our favorite segments, 00:01:58.459 --> 00:02:02.840 Slut Diaries. And we were just sitting out in 00:02:02.840 --> 00:02:05.659 the hot tub, me and my hubby and producer, Socrates. 00:02:05.900 --> 00:02:11.740 Say hello, babe. Hey, y 'all. Hey. So we're just 00:02:11.740 --> 00:02:13.639 sitting in the hot tub and I was like, man, we're 00:02:13.639 --> 00:02:15.979 doing Slut Diaries tonight. And I was like, what 00:02:15.979 --> 00:02:22.460 story should I tell? And what did I say, babe? 00:02:25.159 --> 00:02:34.979 New York, New York, big city of dreams. So, man, 00:02:35.199 --> 00:02:43.699 this must have been 2016. Hold up, hold up. Before 00:02:43.699 --> 00:02:47.400 we get into that, what's going on with life? 00:02:47.479 --> 00:02:49.849 You know, I want to start like. We don't need 00:02:49.849 --> 00:02:52.650 to get down to business every time. I do like 00:02:52.650 --> 00:02:55.289 to get down to business. What's been exciting 00:02:55.289 --> 00:02:57.650 recently? You don't have to get into too many 00:02:57.650 --> 00:03:01.349 details because it can be a slut diary story 00:03:01.349 --> 00:03:06.110 later, but what's been going on with you in your 00:03:06.110 --> 00:03:09.129 sexual journey recently that you can share with 00:03:09.129 --> 00:03:13.009 people that's helped you enjoy sex better or 00:03:13.009 --> 00:03:15.330 helped you mentally or emotionally or anything 00:03:15.330 --> 00:03:19.210 like that? Well, it's sexual, but it's like not 00:03:19.210 --> 00:03:22.150 sexual. It can be taken many different directions. 00:03:22.509 --> 00:03:27.810 But I've realized recently that I really enjoy 00:03:27.810 --> 00:03:31.569 being blindfolded in a variety of situations. 00:03:31.689 --> 00:03:37.490 And so much so, like I wear an eye mask every 00:03:37.490 --> 00:03:41.330 single night when I sleep, if I take a nap. And 00:03:41.330 --> 00:03:49.159 during sex sometimes. So I enjoy it when Socrates 00:03:49.159 --> 00:03:52.900 will blindfold me. Sometimes he'll take me little 00:03:52.900 --> 00:03:56.180 places around the house and do things. But I 00:03:56.180 --> 00:04:00.960 think it just ultimately helps my brain relax 00:04:00.960 --> 00:04:04.360 and really enjoy the experience. Whereas I think 00:04:04.360 --> 00:04:06.620 some people, that freaks them out. I totally 00:04:06.620 --> 00:04:10.419 get it. But for me, just like taking away one 00:04:10.419 --> 00:04:15.319 of the senses just helps me chill out. You know, 00:04:15.319 --> 00:04:18.680 where we've also done some things where I've 00:04:18.680 --> 00:04:21.259 had noise -canceling headphones on or headphones 00:04:21.259 --> 00:04:25.579 and play soft music and be blindfolded while 00:04:25.579 --> 00:04:30.759 doing some sexual things with softies. So I just 00:04:30.759 --> 00:04:34.500 really like that the sensory deprivation helps 00:04:34.500 --> 00:04:37.420 me to relax and to enjoy the experience more. 00:04:38.699 --> 00:04:46.889 Nice, nice, nice, nice. Tell me, then we'll get 00:04:46.889 --> 00:04:50.310 on to your story, New York, New York. Tell me 00:04:50.310 --> 00:04:55.610 how that's helped you in just regular day, everyday 00:04:55.610 --> 00:05:00.629 life. Well, so much so I decided I'm probably 00:05:00.629 --> 00:05:04.029 going to carry a blindfold with me. And, you 00:05:04.029 --> 00:05:06.689 know, if I'm sitting somewhere, say I get to 00:05:06.689 --> 00:05:09.430 an appointment early, like 10 minutes early, 00:05:09.509 --> 00:05:12.319 I'm going to set a timer. And I'm going to put 00:05:12.319 --> 00:05:14.980 a blindfold on and the soft music or maybe some 00:05:14.980 --> 00:05:18.480 affirmations and just give myself a brain break 00:05:18.480 --> 00:05:22.160 instead of sitting in the car scrolling TikTok 00:05:22.160 --> 00:05:25.720 for 10 minutes or going in and talking to people. 00:05:25.759 --> 00:05:29.240 Sometimes I just can take it as a midday decompression. 00:05:29.720 --> 00:05:33.639 And so that will help with my anxiety that I 00:05:33.639 --> 00:05:37.980 have. So that's how I think it'll it'll translate 00:05:37.980 --> 00:05:44.230 into everyday life as well. All right, New York. 00:05:45.490 --> 00:05:48.709 So I think we talked, we definitely talked about 00:05:48.709 --> 00:05:52.310 2017 in another episode, but we're dialing it 00:05:52.310 --> 00:05:59.009 back a year before that. I had just started traveling 00:05:59.009 --> 00:06:04.629 on my own. I basically was like, fuck it. Nobody's 00:06:04.629 --> 00:06:08.029 ready to go anywhere. Too much coordination with 00:06:08.029 --> 00:06:11.250 my friends. You know, of course I went. places 00:06:11.250 --> 00:06:13.930 with my children. But as a single mom, I was 00:06:13.930 --> 00:06:19.490 like, I just need to get out of here. And one 00:06:19.490 --> 00:06:23.689 of my clients had told me a story about how they 00:06:23.689 --> 00:06:27.449 were preparing to retire. They had everything 00:06:27.449 --> 00:06:32.250 lined up, this beautiful home, and they were 00:06:32.250 --> 00:06:34.870 going to go travel. They had all these travel 00:06:34.870 --> 00:06:39.389 plans. And then they got hit by a drunk driver. 00:06:40.750 --> 00:06:43.029 And the husband was now wheelchair bound and 00:06:43.029 --> 00:06:47.129 she had a whole bunch of physical issues from 00:06:47.129 --> 00:06:51.110 it. And I was telling her like how I was planning 00:06:51.110 --> 00:06:54.629 to go and travel, you know, someday when, you 00:06:54.629 --> 00:06:56.689 know, save up the money, all these things. And 00:06:56.689 --> 00:06:59.810 then she just took me by the hands and she looked 00:06:59.810 --> 00:07:01.850 at me with tears in her eyes and she said, sweetheart, 00:07:01.970 --> 00:07:05.829 don't wait. And so I had always wanted to go 00:07:05.829 --> 00:07:11.410 to New York City. So. I booked a plane ticket, 00:07:11.490 --> 00:07:16.750 like, the next day. And I just booked it, you 00:07:16.750 --> 00:07:21.790 know, back then I was pre -broke. So I had enough 00:07:21.790 --> 00:07:24.430 money, I booked the ticket. And then I booked 00:07:24.430 --> 00:07:26.709 it for a few months out, and then I, you know, 00:07:26.709 --> 00:07:30.810 hustled and did extra stuff and got an Airbnb 00:07:30.810 --> 00:07:35.819 in downtown Manhattan. Beautiful place. Uh, I'll 00:07:35.819 --> 00:07:38.199 never do a three story up on the third floor. 00:07:38.319 --> 00:07:41.600 There was no elevator hauling my bag up there. 00:07:42.259 --> 00:07:47.959 So I, I fly into JFK is atrocious. Like the traffic, 00:07:48.079 --> 00:07:51.160 everything I'd never, I'd never been there. It 00:07:51.160 --> 00:07:54.459 never does the biggest city I've ever been to, 00:07:54.600 --> 00:07:57.680 you know, and I really hadn't been to anything 00:07:57.680 --> 00:08:00.759 too crazy before that LA a little bit, but not 00:08:00.759 --> 00:08:06.629 too much. So it's It is forever to get an Uber. 00:08:06.769 --> 00:08:08.910 I don't know what it said, like 45 minutes or 00:08:08.910 --> 00:08:14.170 something. And I just didn't, I had no idea it 00:08:14.170 --> 00:08:17.970 would be that bad. So then I'm looking and it 00:08:17.970 --> 00:08:20.930 says like Uber Black, you know, so it's like 00:08:20.930 --> 00:08:23.149 a Cadillac Escalade will come get you and this 00:08:23.149 --> 00:08:25.990 whole thing. Well, it was like double the price, 00:08:26.009 --> 00:08:28.829 but it was like 10 minutes. So I was like, heck 00:08:28.829 --> 00:08:32.610 yeah, like time is money, right? And I wanted 00:08:32.610 --> 00:08:35.690 to get to my Airbnb. And it was probably some 00:08:35.690 --> 00:08:39.870 stupid time like rush hour on a Friday or something 00:08:39.870 --> 00:08:45.570 crazy because it took like two hours at least, 00:08:45.570 --> 00:08:49.529 I think, to get from JFK to downtown Manhattan. 00:08:50.710 --> 00:08:53.929 And then I get there and it was a nice guy that 00:08:53.929 --> 00:08:56.990 had the Airbnb. We each had our own bedroom and 00:08:56.990 --> 00:08:59.389 our own bathroom and it was beautiful. It was 00:08:59.389 --> 00:09:04.340 a beautiful apartment. Super nice guy. I can't 00:09:04.340 --> 00:09:07.580 remember where he said he was from, but African 00:09:07.580 --> 00:09:12.559 guy. And he had lots of great tips. And no, I'll 00:09:12.559 --> 00:09:14.980 just spoiler alert, I did not hook up with him. 00:09:15.539 --> 00:09:18.820 So that's not where the story is going. No, just 00:09:18.820 --> 00:09:22.340 a super nice guy. I think he likes thinner women 00:09:22.340 --> 00:09:25.019 because I was showing him some pictures of my 00:09:25.019 --> 00:09:26.799 friends. And he's like, oh, next time bring your 00:09:26.799 --> 00:09:30.320 friends. And I was like, I see where you're going. 00:09:30.820 --> 00:09:34.850 To each his own, right? So for fun, I was like, 00:09:34.870 --> 00:09:39.370 let me get on the dating apps. So I'm pretty 00:09:39.370 --> 00:09:42.769 sure I just got on Tinder while I was there. 00:09:42.889 --> 00:09:44.870 And I was like, let's see what the big city has 00:09:44.870 --> 00:09:48.149 to offer. Like, you know, from where I'm from, 00:09:48.210 --> 00:09:51.070 it's not very diverse. So I'm like, okay, this 00:09:51.070 --> 00:09:54.809 will be awesome because there's just every shade 00:09:54.809 --> 00:09:59.450 of the rainbow out there. So I was really excited. 00:10:00.649 --> 00:10:03.350 I swipe and I am just like overwhelmed. There 00:10:03.350 --> 00:10:08.230 is like every guy on there is hot. And I'm just 00:10:08.230 --> 00:10:10.629 like, are these all just like models or like 00:10:10.629 --> 00:10:15.409 what's going on? And as you know, I prefer black 00:10:15.409 --> 00:10:20.149 men and was no different at that time. And so, 00:10:20.169 --> 00:10:22.429 man, I'm just swiping. I'm matching with like 00:10:22.429 --> 00:10:26.009 every guy. And I'm just like, what is going on? 00:10:28.240 --> 00:10:30.139 You know, as most ladies know that have been 00:10:30.139 --> 00:10:32.700 on those apps, you kind of just got to weed through 00:10:32.700 --> 00:10:34.779 people. Some people in media are like, what the 00:10:34.779 --> 00:10:38.000 fuck, you know, and all that. And I wasn't, I 00:10:38.000 --> 00:10:40.740 wasn't quite ready to go for that, but I was 00:10:40.740 --> 00:10:43.740 just wanting to have an adventure. So I talked 00:10:43.740 --> 00:10:46.320 to like a few guys, some of them, the logistics 00:10:46.320 --> 00:10:48.620 just didn't work out. Well, there was a guy, 00:10:48.740 --> 00:10:50.799 um, I'm just say his name because it's like, 00:10:50.799 --> 00:10:52.639 who cares? It's like, there's probably a thousand 00:10:52.639 --> 00:10:55.860 Vincents in New York city, but his name was Vincent. 00:10:58.139 --> 00:11:00.740 He's like, OK, so we talked for like a couple 00:11:00.740 --> 00:11:02.539 of days and he's like, what day are you free? 00:11:02.940 --> 00:11:05.460 I can't remember which day I was there for like 00:11:05.460 --> 00:11:08.700 four or five days in New York City. And so we 00:11:08.700 --> 00:11:10.600 picked a day. I think it was on the weekend. 00:11:11.100 --> 00:11:15.440 And he's like, meet me at this one bar. And it 00:11:15.440 --> 00:11:17.799 was like a rooftop bar. So it was super cool. 00:11:17.960 --> 00:11:19.679 I was like looking at the city like this guy 00:11:19.679 --> 00:11:24.740 knew what he was doing. But I didn't I didn't 00:11:24.740 --> 00:11:28.960 ask him how tall he was. So, and height doesn't 00:11:28.960 --> 00:11:31.779 matter. I just like to know ahead of time. So 00:11:31.779 --> 00:11:33.720 if I'm looking for a short king or a tall king. 00:11:34.840 --> 00:11:40.519 But he was probably about 5 '6". And I am 5 '8 00:11:40.519 --> 00:11:43.580 without heels. And I wore heels that night. So 00:11:43.580 --> 00:11:45.879 it was whatever. Didn't bother him. I just took 00:11:45.879 --> 00:11:47.980 me a second and then I just, you know, rolled 00:11:47.980 --> 00:11:51.360 on through. Nice conversation. Nice place. Paid 00:11:51.360 --> 00:11:55.039 for everything. You know, our drinks. And... 00:11:55.649 --> 00:11:59.830 He just told me to, you know, do you trust me 00:11:59.830 --> 00:12:01.330 to plan the date for the evening? I said, yeah, 00:12:01.330 --> 00:12:04.490 don't live here. Like, sure, go for it. So we 00:12:04.490 --> 00:12:07.350 met at the rooftop bar, had a couple drinks, 00:12:07.509 --> 00:12:09.809 look over the city. And then he's like, okay, 00:12:09.929 --> 00:12:12.009 are you ready? And there was people eating there. 00:12:12.110 --> 00:12:13.850 So I thought, oh, we're going to eat here, you 00:12:13.850 --> 00:12:15.909 know. He's like, nope, nope, we're going somewhere 00:12:15.909 --> 00:12:19.750 else to eat. And I was like, all right. So we 00:12:19.750 --> 00:12:22.549 got a cab and then we go to this place called 00:12:22.549 --> 00:12:26.570 Eataly. Have you heard of it, babe? Okay, so 00:12:26.570 --> 00:12:30.710 it's a market, like an Italian market, and right 00:12:30.710 --> 00:12:33.169 in the middle of the market is a restaurant. 00:12:34.350 --> 00:12:36.590 Oh, yeah. Yeah, it's like you're just sitting 00:12:36.590 --> 00:12:39.769 in the middle of everything. It's super cool. 00:12:39.970 --> 00:12:44.850 Yeah. And so we got a bunch of weird food that 00:12:44.850 --> 00:12:48.870 now I know is just glorified charcuterie. At 00:12:48.870 --> 00:12:50.409 the time, I was like, what is all this weird 00:12:50.409 --> 00:12:52.809 food? But it was charcuterie. It was prosciutto, 00:12:52.909 --> 00:12:56.940 right? So I can't even say it. All these cheeses 00:12:56.940 --> 00:12:58.460 and things. And I was like, that's kind of weird. 00:12:58.519 --> 00:13:00.980 Like I would rather just had a steak, but I wasn't 00:13:00.980 --> 00:13:02.600 going to complain, right? I'm going on a free 00:13:02.600 --> 00:13:08.100 date. So it was like, I feel like we just ate 00:13:08.100 --> 00:13:11.159 appetizers or something, but apparently it was 00:13:11.159 --> 00:13:12.820 supposed to be a whole meal. And it was like 00:13:12.820 --> 00:13:16.860 $275. And the drinks were like a hundred and 00:13:16.860 --> 00:13:19.320 something. And this guy is just like peeling 00:13:19.320 --> 00:13:22.059 out the cash, like no big deal. I'm like, all 00:13:22.059 --> 00:13:25.610 right, whatever, you know. And then he's like, 00:13:25.649 --> 00:13:27.789 do you want to go do the next thing? And I was 00:13:27.789 --> 00:13:30.309 like, there's a next thing? This is awesome. 00:13:30.830 --> 00:13:34.370 So we go to the meatpacking district. And we 00:13:34.370 --> 00:13:38.610 go to this little underground salsa club. And 00:13:38.610 --> 00:13:42.330 it was just packed with people. And it was super 00:13:42.330 --> 00:13:46.509 dark and super hot and sweaty. But, like, it 00:13:46.509 --> 00:13:50.179 was so fun. it didn't even matter that I wasn't 00:13:50.179 --> 00:13:53.299 a good dancer like guys would just grab you spin 00:13:53.299 --> 00:13:56.379 you around like just do the whole thing it was 00:13:56.379 --> 00:14:00.600 so fun so we had a ton of fun there and by the 00:14:00.600 --> 00:14:03.460 end of it I'm like oh this is awesome like we 00:14:03.460 --> 00:14:07.659 are three for three on good things and then um 00:14:07.659 --> 00:14:10.120 he's like okay he's like are you I'm getting 00:14:10.120 --> 00:14:12.539 kind of tired you ready to go and it was like 00:14:12.539 --> 00:14:14.659 two or three in the morning by that point and 00:14:14.659 --> 00:14:18.259 I'm like sure yeah so we go to leave and Then 00:14:18.259 --> 00:14:21.980 he's like, well, where do you want to go? And 00:14:21.980 --> 00:14:24.000 I was like, oh, I thought you were planning the 00:14:24.000 --> 00:14:25.919 date. So like, what are we doing now? And he's 00:14:25.919 --> 00:14:29.100 like, well, I'd like to take you back. And, you 00:14:29.100 --> 00:14:31.779 know, they always say, show me the apartment. 00:14:33.059 --> 00:14:35.399 Like, we don't care what your apartment looks 00:14:35.399 --> 00:14:39.679 like. And then I'm pretty sure I started like 00:14:39.679 --> 00:14:42.539 rubbing on his dick in the cab on the way there. 00:14:43.200 --> 00:14:45.100 And then we were like making out a little bit 00:14:45.100 --> 00:14:48.450 and stuff and just feeling around. So anyways, 00:14:48.570 --> 00:14:53.250 it was like a ways. It was a ways away. But it 00:14:53.250 --> 00:14:56.350 was late at night, thankfully. So we get there. 00:14:56.350 --> 00:14:59.549 It's this super nice apartment building, you 00:14:59.549 --> 00:15:02.129 know, has the doorman and everything and locked 00:15:02.129 --> 00:15:05.029 and got to have a key card and a code and all 00:15:05.029 --> 00:15:09.730 this stuff and fancy flowers in the foyer. I 00:15:09.730 --> 00:15:13.110 had brought a little spending night purse just 00:15:13.110 --> 00:15:15.210 in case because, you know, I was like, I don't 00:15:15.210 --> 00:15:17.110 know how this is going to go. So I was ready 00:15:17.110 --> 00:15:21.710 for whatever. And we go upstairs and it's a super 00:15:21.710 --> 00:15:23.809 nice apartment. Like all these glass windows, 00:15:23.990 --> 00:15:26.409 like some you see out of the movies, but not 00:15:26.409 --> 00:15:29.470 quite so big. It wasn't huge. It was like a one 00:15:29.470 --> 00:15:32.789 bedroom, one bathroom, living room, kitchen, 00:15:32.889 --> 00:15:38.350 but lots. But his bed wasn't put together. It 00:15:38.350 --> 00:15:40.429 was like a mattress and box spring. And then 00:15:40.429 --> 00:15:42.929 the pieces were like, he's like, I just got my 00:15:42.929 --> 00:15:45.669 bed. He's like, I just moved in here. And I was 00:15:45.669 --> 00:15:48.769 like, oh, OK, well, that makes sense. No big 00:15:48.769 --> 00:15:53.009 deal. You know, I met I've met lots of guys just 00:15:53.009 --> 00:15:56.750 moved in places. It's not a big deal. So I go 00:15:56.750 --> 00:15:58.830 and I use the restroom. I'm like, oh, this place 00:15:58.830 --> 00:16:00.830 pretty clean. It should be. You just moved in. 00:16:00.909 --> 00:16:05.419 Right. And go back in the bedroom and. We start 00:16:05.419 --> 00:16:07.740 messing around, take our clothes off and all 00:16:07.740 --> 00:16:13.460 the things. And I, well, he, I'm pretty sure 00:16:13.460 --> 00:16:16.519 he went down on me at that point. And then, you 00:16:16.519 --> 00:16:18.299 know, then I was like sucking his dick and just 00:16:18.299 --> 00:16:20.019 doing all things, but he just like, wasn't getting 00:16:20.019 --> 00:16:23.399 hard. And I was like, okay, well maybe like, 00:16:23.480 --> 00:16:26.440 it's because he did drink, but I was like, not 00:16:26.440 --> 00:16:29.720 that much, like two. I was like, and this is 00:16:29.720 --> 00:16:31.299 when I was pretty new to the whole life. So I 00:16:31.299 --> 00:16:34.600 wasn't used to. especially just like one night 00:16:34.600 --> 00:16:37.360 stand things like guys not getting hard because 00:16:37.360 --> 00:16:40.799 usually by that point they're like ready to go 00:16:40.799 --> 00:16:43.899 because it's been a while or you know if you're 00:16:43.899 --> 00:16:49.500 just prowling the bars um so I keep trying to 00:16:49.500 --> 00:16:52.179 work on it you know help him out whatever and 00:16:52.179 --> 00:16:58.039 then he just starts crying and I was like okay 00:16:59.129 --> 00:17:02.210 Well, slow down now. What kind of crying are 00:17:02.210 --> 00:17:04.710 we talking about? Are we talking about boo -hoo? 00:17:04.950 --> 00:17:08.450 Like, are we talking about a little teardrop 00:17:08.450 --> 00:17:11.789 fell on the edge of his eye? Like, what are we 00:17:11.789 --> 00:17:15.750 talking? No, like boo -hoo. Like sobbing. He 00:17:15.750 --> 00:17:18.190 just starts sniffing. And first I was like, oh, 00:17:18.190 --> 00:17:20.049 just kind of like sneeze or something. And then 00:17:20.049 --> 00:17:22.470 he starts, no, like crying, like boo -hooing. 00:17:23.130 --> 00:17:30.680 And I said, um, are you okay? I was like did 00:17:30.680 --> 00:17:33.700 I hurt you or something and he's like no and 00:17:33.700 --> 00:17:37.119 so I kind of just leave it alone and I crawl 00:17:37.119 --> 00:17:39.859 up next to him and he like buries his face in 00:17:39.859 --> 00:17:43.079 my chest and is just sobbing and he's like I'm 00:17:43.079 --> 00:17:45.400 really sorry I think I'm just having trouble 00:17:45.400 --> 00:17:49.259 and I was like that's fine you know I've heard 00:17:49.259 --> 00:17:51.220 these things can happen because I think that 00:17:51.220 --> 00:17:53.480 was like my first time having an experience like 00:17:53.480 --> 00:17:59.289 that and he's like I said, well, you know, sometimes 00:17:59.289 --> 00:18:00.990 we all have trouble. He's like, I just can't 00:18:00.990 --> 00:18:02.890 get my mind right. We had such a good night. 00:18:03.470 --> 00:18:05.210 You know, I said, yeah, we did. We had a great 00:18:05.210 --> 00:18:08.630 night. And he's like, I think the problem is, 00:18:08.650 --> 00:18:13.490 is that it's my ex -wife's birthday. And I miss 00:18:13.490 --> 00:18:20.230 her so much. Okay. What do you think of that? 00:18:24.140 --> 00:18:27.079 Was he crying and saying this at the same time? 00:18:27.460 --> 00:18:33.220 Yeah. Sobbing into my chest. And I don't even 00:18:33.220 --> 00:18:35.619 know if they were divorced yet because it's like 00:18:35.619 --> 00:18:38.539 he just moved in that apartment, right? So I 00:18:38.539 --> 00:18:46.740 think, you know, it was fresh. And I was like, 00:18:46.839 --> 00:18:49.519 and you know what? I'll tell another story another 00:18:49.519 --> 00:18:52.859 day, but that is not the first time that a guy. 00:18:55.090 --> 00:19:01.029 cried during sex and I'm not shaming it at all 00:19:01.029 --> 00:19:04.109 but I'm just like sometimes you just don't know 00:19:04.109 --> 00:19:08.109 like what people are going through you know and 00:19:08.109 --> 00:19:10.730 although it's very awkward I just tried really 00:19:10.730 --> 00:19:15.609 hard not to like make it any worse right so then 00:19:15.609 --> 00:19:20.609 he kind of you know gets it out and calms himself 00:19:20.609 --> 00:19:24.549 down And he's like, okay, well, I just want to 00:19:24.549 --> 00:19:27.069 try again. And I'm like, I'm not in the mood 00:19:27.069 --> 00:19:30.769 at this point. But I'm kind of like, well, whatever. 00:19:31.150 --> 00:19:33.569 And I think to myself, this is going to be a 00:19:33.569 --> 00:19:37.529 good story for the girls. So I just keep doing 00:19:37.529 --> 00:19:41.869 whatever. So I end up, and you know, babe, before 00:19:41.869 --> 00:19:43.549 I got my boob job, I didn't really have a lot 00:19:43.549 --> 00:19:46.450 of boobs. But somehow I titty fucked this man. 00:19:47.450 --> 00:19:50.130 And he just came on my boobs. And then that was 00:19:50.130 --> 00:19:53.490 like it. And then he leaves the room and I'm 00:19:53.490 --> 00:19:56.529 just laying there with his jizz all over my chest. 00:19:56.609 --> 00:20:00.809 Like, what the fuck am I doing? Like, what the 00:20:00.809 --> 00:20:03.950 fuck am I doing? And he goes out to the living 00:20:03.950 --> 00:20:06.170 room and then I immediately pick up my phone 00:20:06.170 --> 00:20:08.930 and I text my two best girls at the time. Mallory, 00:20:09.049 --> 00:20:10.950 which you guys have heard about in another episode. 00:20:12.049 --> 00:20:15.250 And then this other girl will call her Jennifer. 00:20:16.430 --> 00:20:19.150 And I'm just like telling them what's going on. 00:20:19.250 --> 00:20:21.759 And they're like. And I'm like, I don't know 00:20:21.759 --> 00:20:25.740 what to do. Like, I feel awkward as fuck. I have 00:20:25.740 --> 00:20:28.859 jizz on my chest. Like, what should I? He went 00:20:28.859 --> 00:20:31.359 in the other room. I don't know, like, what he's 00:20:31.359 --> 00:20:33.279 doing. I don't know what to say. This is just 00:20:33.279 --> 00:20:36.039 so, I've never been in this situation. And they're 00:20:36.039 --> 00:20:38.619 like, just get up and leave, bitch. And I'm like, 00:20:38.740 --> 00:20:42.259 oh, okay, yeah. But I just didn't know what was 00:20:42.259 --> 00:20:43.980 going to happen, right? I didn't think he was 00:20:43.980 --> 00:20:45.519 going to get mad or anything. I was just like, 00:20:45.740 --> 00:20:48.220 I don't want to have that. Oh, that was great 00:20:48.220 --> 00:20:51.839 conversation. But thankfully when I got up and 00:20:51.839 --> 00:20:54.940 like went to the bathroom to clean up, he was 00:20:54.940 --> 00:20:57.920 on the couch, which is a buck ass naked, like 00:20:57.920 --> 00:21:01.140 passed out, just passed out. And so I was like, 00:21:01.160 --> 00:21:03.599 Oh sweet. So I like hurried, went in the bathroom, 00:21:03.720 --> 00:21:06.539 like cleaned up. And then I just put on my little 00:21:06.539 --> 00:21:10.839 pajamas that I had brought like these little 00:21:10.839 --> 00:21:13.599 short shorts and a little tank top. Right. And 00:21:13.599 --> 00:21:15.759 then shoved it, my shoes and everything. No, 00:21:15.799 --> 00:21:17.380 I think I had my shoes in my hand, you know, 00:21:17.400 --> 00:21:20.180 typical. run of shame is what I would call this 00:21:20.180 --> 00:21:23.380 and I was like I just gotta get out of here because 00:21:23.380 --> 00:21:26.900 I don't want him to wake up and I called an Uber 00:21:26.900 --> 00:21:31.059 on my phone and then I go downstairs and the 00:21:31.059 --> 00:21:37.380 door guy was like oh and I said don't ask don't 00:21:37.380 --> 00:21:39.740 ask and he's like have a good night and he's 00:21:39.740 --> 00:21:41.480 like do you have a safe ride home he was like 00:21:41.480 --> 00:21:43.680 really nice I said yeah the Uber's coming to 00:21:43.680 --> 00:21:47.940 get me so the best part was that When I left 00:21:47.940 --> 00:21:51.059 and got in the Uber, it was that Uber driver's 00:21:51.059 --> 00:21:54.619 first night ever driving Uber. And I told him 00:21:54.619 --> 00:21:57.460 the entire story. And then he just was like, 00:21:57.599 --> 00:22:00.440 this is wow. Is this what every night driving 00:22:00.440 --> 00:22:06.519 Uber is going to be like? Oh, I don't know. So 00:22:06.519 --> 00:22:10.660 it was pretty funny. But then I think right when 00:22:10.660 --> 00:22:12.599 I got in the Uber, like he woke up and he started 00:22:12.599 --> 00:22:14.680 texting me. Where'd you go? Why'd you leave? 00:22:16.250 --> 00:22:20.809 And I was just like, I'm just really tired. I'm 00:22:20.809 --> 00:22:24.970 going to go back to my Airbnb. He's like, okay, 00:22:25.029 --> 00:22:27.289 well maybe we can have a picnic tomorrow and 00:22:27.289 --> 00:22:30.349 I'll make it up to you. He's like, I'd like to 00:22:30.349 --> 00:22:32.769 do that since it's my ex -wife's birthday. I 00:22:32.769 --> 00:22:34.950 want to do something fun and not think about 00:22:34.950 --> 00:22:38.730 her. And I was like. I am not going on a picnic 00:22:38.730 --> 00:22:40.829 with you. But I probably just told him some bullshit, 00:22:40.910 --> 00:22:43.569 like, oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. And then the next 00:22:43.569 --> 00:22:47.009 day, tomorrow, whatever, I got too busy, magically, 00:22:47.509 --> 00:22:51.369 mysteriously, and just blew him off because I 00:22:51.369 --> 00:22:53.890 was like, this is too weird. I'm sorry you're 00:22:53.890 --> 00:22:55.690 going through this with your ex -wife, but, like, 00:22:55.710 --> 00:23:00.269 it was too weird for me. I couldn't do it. Have 00:23:00.269 --> 00:23:02.769 you ever had anything super weird like that happen? 00:23:03.509 --> 00:23:06.089 I feel like you have some sort of slut story. 00:23:08.539 --> 00:23:13.680 along those lines no nothing weird ever happened 00:23:13.680 --> 00:23:22.700 to you like I don't know just married women hitting 00:23:22.700 --> 00:23:24.500 on me or something like that besides that no 00:23:24.500 --> 00:23:30.920 oh that's boring yeah I don't have a lot of weird 00:23:30.920 --> 00:23:34.160 stories I really don't I guess I'm fortunate 00:23:34.160 --> 00:23:37.799 I don't have a lot of weird or like Horror stories 00:23:37.799 --> 00:23:43.259 when it comes to sex. Yeah, I'm glad. Maybe men 00:23:43.259 --> 00:23:46.079 are just a little bit. I don't know how many 00:23:46.079 --> 00:23:49.259 guys I've heard tell me anything bad because 00:23:49.259 --> 00:23:51.119 guys don't want to seem like they complain about 00:23:51.119 --> 00:23:53.079 it because then they're really not getting it 00:23:53.079 --> 00:23:57.839 from the female community. I don't know. But 00:23:57.839 --> 00:24:00.579 women, we tell each other all the stories. If 00:24:00.579 --> 00:24:03.099 it's good, if it's really good, a lot of times 00:24:03.099 --> 00:24:07.559 in those days, I would not. tell people, I would 00:24:07.559 --> 00:24:10.140 just be like, oh, it's really good. But if it 00:24:10.140 --> 00:24:12.579 was bad, oh, you're getting all the details. 00:24:13.559 --> 00:24:15.940 Especially if it was your man. You weren't, like, 00:24:15.960 --> 00:24:21.819 telling everything about it. Why not? Because 00:24:21.819 --> 00:24:24.539 that was, like, your man, and then you weren't 00:24:24.539 --> 00:24:28.480 gonna, like, tell other bitches about him. Why 00:24:28.480 --> 00:24:32.380 not? Because that's mine. What's gonna happen? 00:24:32.539 --> 00:24:35.420 I wanna dig deep into this mystery that women... 00:24:36.649 --> 00:24:38.549 Like, I've heard this over and over and over. 00:24:38.650 --> 00:24:40.589 If he's bad, oh, we're going to tell you everything. 00:24:41.089 --> 00:24:44.809 But the better he is, the least information. 00:24:45.190 --> 00:24:49.369 Because their women aren't really that excited 00:24:49.369 --> 00:24:51.369 because they're like, oh, that's your man and, 00:24:51.430 --> 00:24:53.829 like, that's cool for you. They almost get jealous. 00:24:55.349 --> 00:24:57.329 But you tell a bad story, they're like, yeah, 00:24:57.349 --> 00:25:00.730 bitch, I've been there. Like, fuck men. You know? 00:25:01.130 --> 00:25:05.170 Whatever. Like, there's some camaraderie in that. 00:25:05.269 --> 00:25:09.589 And then in the good stories, they're like, fuck 00:25:09.589 --> 00:25:14.329 you, bitch. You got a good guy. He takes care 00:25:14.329 --> 00:25:19.630 of you. Or the classic, does he have a brother 00:25:19.630 --> 00:25:25.309 comment? Stuff like that. So that was New York 00:25:25.309 --> 00:25:28.569 City. I also went to the Museum of Sex while 00:25:28.569 --> 00:25:31.369 I was there. And that was very eye -opening. 00:25:32.170 --> 00:25:36.809 I went with a woman that I met online at, it 00:25:36.809 --> 00:25:40.670 was a group called The Woman Hole on Facebook 00:25:40.670 --> 00:25:45.410 and they tell lots of crazy sexual stories. And 00:25:45.410 --> 00:25:47.529 so she was on there and she's like, I live in 00:25:47.529 --> 00:25:48.990 New York City. I said, I'd love to meet up for 00:25:48.990 --> 00:25:51.089 lunch. And she's like, yeah, let's go to the 00:25:51.089 --> 00:25:54.190 Museum of Sex. So that's really interesting because 00:25:54.190 --> 00:25:56.710 it has like all the birth control contraptions, 00:25:56.750 --> 00:25:59.869 all different kinds of sex toys through the ages. 00:26:01.289 --> 00:26:06.869 um like drawn pornography I guess and then books 00:26:06.869 --> 00:26:10.750 from like old novels and stuff and then just 00:26:10.750 --> 00:26:13.609 talks about you know animals versus humans and 00:26:13.609 --> 00:26:16.190 their sex lives and all kinds of interesting 00:26:16.190 --> 00:26:19.329 things and then there's even a bounce house that 00:26:19.329 --> 00:26:23.009 has a bunch of inflatable boobs in it and you 00:26:23.009 --> 00:26:26.630 can bounce around in inflatable booby world which 00:26:26.630 --> 00:26:30.079 we did not do because it was extra And I was 00:26:30.079 --> 00:26:33.279 like, eh, that's fine. We peeked in there at 00:26:33.279 --> 00:26:36.799 people bouncing around on the boobs. New York 00:26:36.799 --> 00:26:38.660 City was really fun. But that was the only guy. 00:26:39.380 --> 00:26:41.720 After that, I was like, that's a good enough 00:26:41.720 --> 00:26:45.740 story. Now, if I went, like, nowadays and was 00:26:45.740 --> 00:26:48.779 single, I would be a lot more crazy than that, 00:26:48.839 --> 00:26:51.599 I think. I'd try to have a new guy every night 00:26:51.599 --> 00:26:54.220 or something. But I was tired. I was tired from 00:26:54.220 --> 00:26:58.160 walking around and... Doing all the things and 00:26:58.160 --> 00:27:03.539 riding a bike all around the city. So by the 00:27:03.539 --> 00:27:05.680 time every day was over, I was just ready to 00:27:05.680 --> 00:27:11.519 go to bed. But it was fun. I always would try 00:27:11.519 --> 00:27:17.019 to mix in some slut time whenever I would travel. 00:27:17.900 --> 00:27:21.599 Just always be open to something happening. Either 00:27:21.599 --> 00:27:24.880 meeting a random stranger at a bar or a restaurant. 00:27:26.869 --> 00:27:30.690 And I don't think there was any trips. I don't 00:27:30.690 --> 00:27:32.990 think there was any trips I took where I didn't 00:27:32.990 --> 00:27:36.289 hook up with someone, though. I think every single 00:27:36.289 --> 00:27:39.809 time, no matter where I went, either someone 00:27:39.809 --> 00:27:44.250 off of an app or just meeting someone somewhere 00:27:44.250 --> 00:27:48.190 randomly. It was fun. It was a good time. I recommend 00:27:48.190 --> 00:27:52.970 it. I recommend it. All right. You ready for 00:27:52.970 --> 00:28:02.490 our hitter? Sure. What did you do to not let 00:28:02.490 --> 00:28:06.569 all of that sexual activity, like, be harmful 00:28:06.569 --> 00:28:11.630 to your mental health? Harmful? Mm -hmm. It was 00:28:11.630 --> 00:28:16.230 helpful. Okay. Why was it helpful? Because a 00:28:16.230 --> 00:28:23.089 lot of my friends that were single, well, Jennifer 00:28:23.089 --> 00:28:25.809 and Mallory were on the ho train with me, so 00:28:25.809 --> 00:28:29.509 it was fine. Mallory, probably the least. But 00:28:29.509 --> 00:28:31.990 me and Jennifer, every year we would like sit 00:28:31.990 --> 00:28:34.829 down and like be like, let's write down the names 00:28:34.829 --> 00:28:38.190 of all the guys. And then we would jokingly give 00:28:38.190 --> 00:28:40.509 out a little ho crown. We did this for like two 00:28:40.509 --> 00:28:43.349 or three years. So her and I were always battling. 00:28:43.410 --> 00:28:47.450 But anybody else that we knew that was like trying 00:28:47.450 --> 00:28:51.470 to like wait and have a relationship and only 00:28:51.470 --> 00:28:55.009 sleep with people when it was meaningful. Like 00:28:55.009 --> 00:28:58.210 they all just seemed like really. cranky and 00:28:58.210 --> 00:29:00.670 depressed and frustrated all the time and that's 00:29:00.670 --> 00:29:02.609 all they ever talked about is how they were frustrated 00:29:02.609 --> 00:29:08.009 with men and me Mallory and Jennifer we would 00:29:08.009 --> 00:29:09.890 tell the guy stories but we would just laugh 00:29:09.890 --> 00:29:12.029 and move on because we were just out to have 00:29:12.029 --> 00:29:16.190 fun and just interact with men in whatever capacity 00:29:16.190 --> 00:29:19.170 if some of them we ended up going on a few dates 00:29:19.170 --> 00:29:21.529 some of them we never went on a date some people 00:29:21.529 --> 00:29:24.670 it was a one -night stand you know some people 00:29:24.670 --> 00:29:27.950 we hooked up with a few times But we always got 00:29:27.950 --> 00:29:31.109 really good stories out of it. Either funny or, 00:29:31.210 --> 00:29:36.589 like, awkward or mostly funny. Or some really 00:29:36.589 --> 00:29:41.910 good ones. Like, this one guy was like, his body 00:29:41.910 --> 00:29:44.950 felt like melted butter. And so they still say 00:29:44.950 --> 00:29:47.089 stuff like that to me. Like, what about that 00:29:47.089 --> 00:29:51.329 one guy? It was like butter. So, you know, just 00:29:51.329 --> 00:29:53.329 little things like that. Or we'd go to a music 00:29:53.329 --> 00:29:56.410 festival. We were always just like living our 00:29:56.410 --> 00:29:59.430 life. So to me, like being a hoe was like better 00:29:59.430 --> 00:30:03.630 for my mental health because it was, I think 00:30:03.630 --> 00:30:06.390 that I was doing it with the girls too. Like 00:30:06.390 --> 00:30:08.970 not at the same time, like even though we were 00:30:08.970 --> 00:30:11.049 in the same hotel room a few different times. 00:30:11.930 --> 00:30:16.710 Um, but because we were all out there being hoes 00:30:16.710 --> 00:30:22.089 and we were all older, uh, divorced women. I 00:30:22.089 --> 00:30:23.829 think that was a big thing. Like we were in our 00:30:23.829 --> 00:30:27.829 mid thirties, divorced, kind of same place in 00:30:27.829 --> 00:30:30.250 life. And then we were all just like encouraging 00:30:30.250 --> 00:30:33.089 each other to just go be the biggest toes we 00:30:33.089 --> 00:30:36.269 wanted to be. And then we would meet up on like 00:30:36.269 --> 00:30:38.069 a weekday or whatever. We were always together 00:30:38.069 --> 00:30:40.869 and we would always get together and like talk 00:30:40.869 --> 00:30:43.069 about what we did or, oh, did you end up going 00:30:43.069 --> 00:30:46.289 home with that guy? Or like, you know, so -and 00:30:46.289 --> 00:30:48.369 -so. Jennifer was kind of working her way through 00:30:48.369 --> 00:30:52.710 some of the football. guys in our community um 00:30:52.710 --> 00:30:57.170 which ironically I never muddied in those waters 00:30:57.170 --> 00:31:01.069 except for one dude so which is kind of weird 00:31:01.069 --> 00:31:02.730 for me I thought that would be a good place to 00:31:02.730 --> 00:31:05.450 you know get some dudes but anyways I'll let 00:31:05.450 --> 00:31:10.130 Jennifer have that genre um yeah so I think it 00:31:10.130 --> 00:31:12.009 was good for our mental health because we were 00:31:12.009 --> 00:31:14.750 just having the time of our lives and sharing 00:31:14.750 --> 00:31:19.900 those experiences with each other so I never, 00:31:20.000 --> 00:31:23.519 ever, ever thought of it as something I had to 00:31:23.519 --> 00:31:42.559 protect myself from. It just felt good. I can't 00:31:42.559 --> 00:31:45.119 wait. I love the slut diaries and I can't wait 00:31:45.119 --> 00:31:47.140 for the next one. I need to start writing down. 00:31:47.710 --> 00:31:51.309 some of the ideas for the stories. If you ladies 00:31:51.309 --> 00:31:54.529 listening have any good slut stories that you 00:31:54.529 --> 00:31:58.470 want to come on here and do the diaries of an 00:31:58.470 --> 00:32:03.009 ethical slut, send us an email at the siren of 00:32:03.009 --> 00:32:07.009 freedom at gmail .com. And we would love to have 00:32:07.009 --> 00:32:09.029 you on. You can be anonymous. You know, if you've 00:32:09.029 --> 00:32:11.990 been listening, you know, we use fake names, 00:32:12.130 --> 00:32:16.210 but we'd love to hear your stories and like. 00:32:17.200 --> 00:32:19.359 whatever has happened to you at whatever phase 00:32:19.359 --> 00:32:22.640 of life that you were a hoe. We'd love to hear 00:32:22.640 --> 00:32:27.339 the hoe stories. So I've got a question. You're 00:32:27.339 --> 00:32:29.680 a good reader. What if they don't really want 00:32:29.680 --> 00:32:34.160 to even be on the show, but you read some stories 00:32:34.160 --> 00:32:36.559 that they might send in? Would you be willing 00:32:36.559 --> 00:32:38.519 to do that? Oh, yeah. I think that's a great 00:32:38.519 --> 00:32:40.559 idea. I think that would be dope. Yeah, or if 00:32:40.559 --> 00:32:43.220 they have... questions or maybe they want to 00:32:43.220 --> 00:32:46.500 hear a story on a certain topic i probably have 00:32:46.500 --> 00:32:48.839 something but yeah if they want to write their 00:32:48.839 --> 00:32:56.000 story down um that would be dope let's do it 00:32:56.000 --> 00:35:18.000 send in your host stories have a good night Your 00:35:18.000 --> 00:35:21.019 support is what helps us continue to sound the 00:35:21.019 --> 00:35:21.820 alarm of freedom.