WEBVTT 00:00:01.159 --> 00:00:05.839 Like your river. Where are you taking me, Paris? 00:00:07.639 --> 00:00:11.060 Where is your overflowing river carrying my overflowing 00:00:11.060 --> 00:00:15.800 heart to? To the ones who have been staying in 00:00:15.800 --> 00:00:21.100 one place, how do I explain my journey? How do 00:00:21.100 --> 00:00:23.660 I comfort those who have been unlucky enough 00:00:23.660 --> 00:00:29.829 to settle down? Or are they the lucky ones? How 00:00:29.829 --> 00:00:33.469 am I content with all the discontentment of others 00:00:33.469 --> 00:00:35.770 projected onto my life through conversations 00:00:35.770 --> 00:00:40.750 and through their so -called love for me? As 00:00:40.750 --> 00:00:45.329 your Sein isn't tidal, Paris, so steady is my love 00:00:45.329 --> 00:00:49.750 for you, and so navigable for different vessels 00:00:49.750 --> 00:00:55.250 to travel through. She keeps changing, yet she 00:00:55.250 --> 00:00:59.859 stays the same -- except, perhaps, in continuous 00:00:59.859 --> 00:01:03.179 heavy rain, where she overflows and covers her 00:01:03.179 --> 00:01:05.959 surroundings more than people are used to see. 00:01:06.840 --> 00:01:10.939 My heart is learning from her, like Siddhartha 00:01:10.939 --> 00:01:15.400 learning from the old ferryman's river. How could 00:01:15.400 --> 00:01:21.000 I be discontent with this steady stream? Your river, 00:01:21.099 --> 00:01:25.200 Paris, she is deep and wide enough for vessels 00:01:25.200 --> 00:01:31.060 to travel. My heart is deep, and more so in continuous 00:01:31.060 --> 00:01:34.599 heavy rain, but has it been wide enough for vessels 00:01:34.599 --> 00:01:38.739 to travel? And is it safe enough for one to stay, 00:01:38.859 --> 00:01:44.620 especially when it is overflowing? My heart is 00:01:44.620 --> 00:01:48.299 learning from your Seine, Paris, and it must keep 00:01:48.299 --> 00:01:52.900 changing yet stay the same -- except perhaps in 00:01:52.900 --> 00:01:56.769 continuous heavy rain, which makes it seem destructive, 00:01:56.769 --> 00:02:03.530 to those unprepared, just by being itself. Like 00:02:03.530 --> 00:02:07.670 your river, my heart must keep changing yet stay 00:02:07.670 --> 00:02:11.789 the same whether vessels travel through or whether 00:02:11.789 --> 00:02:16.789 they stay. In the last month I have managed to 00:02:16.789 --> 00:02:18.969 stay with you longer than I stayed with London 00:02:18.969 --> 00:02:23.389 and its tidal Thames. In any case, the pier master 00:02:23.389 --> 00:02:26.110 at Cadogan Pier anticipates my short stay by 00:02:26.110 --> 00:02:28.650 greeting me with, "How long are you staying for? 00:02:28.849 --> 00:02:32.069 Two hours?" whenever he's lucky enough to bump 00:02:32.069 --> 00:02:35.449 into my smiley face outside the weekends. He 00:02:35.449 --> 00:02:37.830 may have started to think that I'm either a spy 00:02:37.830 --> 00:02:43.949 or a super rich, one of which must be true. Unlike 00:02:43.949 --> 00:02:49.810 the pier master, I anticipate my long stay. Within 00:02:49.810 --> 00:02:55.139 me. I've lost her before; she was sold and offered 00:02:55.139 --> 00:02:58.879 at auctions by those I trusted, for gains I didn't 00:02:58.879 --> 00:03:04.539 enjoy. Never again, Paris! I got her back and 00:03:04.539 --> 00:03:07.099 that's why I feel super rich even if it looks 00:03:07.099 --> 00:03:10.479 like I've been losing, probably a lot more than 00:03:10.479 --> 00:03:13.840 any responsible person could fathom or handle. 00:03:15.240 --> 00:03:20.099 She is fully mine and it is up to me to extend 00:03:20.099 --> 00:03:25.080 her to anyone as I please. For love and for the 00:03:25.080 --> 00:03:31.680 joy of love. This very season, my self keeps 00:03:31.680 --> 00:03:35.520 pouring back into me and that is why my heart 00:03:35.520 --> 00:03:41.479 is overflowing. My heart's surroundings, including 00:03:41.479 --> 00:03:45.060 my entire body and nervous system. not used to 00:03:45.060 --> 00:03:49.680 this yet, are unprepared. But things will settle, 00:03:49.800 --> 00:03:53.800 Paris, as my heart finds channels to flow through, 00:03:53.900 --> 00:03:59.939 a vast ocean to flow into, continuously, not 00:03:59.939 --> 00:04:07.500 to settle down. And, inevitably, everyone, including 00:04:07.500 --> 00:04:10.840 my body and my nervous system, will get used 00:04:10.840 --> 00:04:16.889 to this steady stream. About a decade ago, my 00:04:16.889 --> 00:04:19.709 fellow poet Rahung introduced me to our film 00:04:19.709 --> 00:04:23.470 crew in Paris by saying, Dina is the kind of 00:04:23.470 --> 00:04:26.310 person who would live even if you threw her into 00:04:26.310 --> 00:04:32.009 the river Seine. It was said on the verge of me 00:04:32.009 --> 00:04:35.490 getting so close to grabbing myself back from 00:04:35.490 --> 00:04:39.750 the hands of everyone but me, to walking out 00:04:39.750 --> 00:04:45.660 of my imprisonments. And I failed, Paris, and I 00:04:45.660 --> 00:04:49.959 thought it was because I couldn't swim. I didn't 00:04:49.959 --> 00:04:54.079 understand what my friend meant. I didn't see 00:04:54.079 --> 00:04:58.660 that I wasn't supposed to swim. I was supposed 00:04:58.660 --> 00:05:03.959 to flow, Paris. And I have been flowing, though 00:05:03.959 --> 00:05:08.420 perhaps unbeknownst to me. And now that I know, 00:05:08.420 --> 00:05:17.639 Paris -- and now that I accept, I am openly flowing. Ever changing, 00:05:18.040 --> 00:05:22.600 Ever the same, Like your river. ni paris ni londres, le 1er mars 2026. je t'embrasse sans cesse !