WEBVTT 00:00:06.889 --> 00:00:10.730 Bonjour Paris. I'm doing everything I can to 00:00:10.730 --> 00:00:14.630 be with you. I'm doing everything I can to be 00:00:14.630 --> 00:00:19.750 with you without losing myself. In fact, I'm 00:00:19.750 --> 00:00:23.089 doing everything I can to be with myself, which 00:00:23.089 --> 00:00:27.850 I found in you, through you. You of all people 00:00:27.850 --> 00:00:30.910 know how important myself, I mean this journey, 00:00:31.109 --> 00:00:36.579 is. Strange dreams, twisted plots and unusual 00:00:36.579 --> 00:00:39.520 plans I've been actively going through with main 00:00:39.520 --> 00:00:43.899 character energy. And in the process, I've been 00:00:43.899 --> 00:00:45.820 drinking all sorts of different coffees from 00:00:45.820 --> 00:00:48.679 different households and cafes, like someone 00:00:48.679 --> 00:00:52.679 who's too flexible to know what they want. But 00:00:52.679 --> 00:00:56.359 I know what I want. And I know the type of coffee 00:00:56.359 --> 00:00:58.399 I'm getting isn't usually the most important 00:00:58.399 --> 00:01:02.219 thing in each occasion. It's the connection with 00:01:02.219 --> 00:01:06.700 the people, the place, the moments that I want, 00:01:06.859 --> 00:01:12.000 and thus the connection with myself. So, thank 00:01:12.000 --> 00:01:14.599 you for the strong double espressos, as well 00:01:14.599 --> 00:01:17.659 as excessively elongated coffees I ended up very 00:01:17.659 --> 00:01:21.900 happily drinking. You know who you are, as I 00:01:21.900 --> 00:01:27.180 know who I am. I'm writing this in the same room 00:01:27.180 --> 00:01:29.620 as the first time I wrote to you for Imagined 00:01:29.620 --> 00:01:34.010 Paris about a decade ago. My teenage daughter 00:01:34.010 --> 00:01:38.609 is having a heavy cold and lying awake happily 00:01:38.609 --> 00:01:44.109 next to me. This room now belongs to her. And 00:01:44.109 --> 00:01:46.349 she had asked me recently to change it to look 00:01:46.349 --> 00:01:50.510 as much as it did when I occupied it, more heavily 00:01:50.510 --> 00:01:53.450 leading up to the divorce, after previously going 00:01:53.450 --> 00:01:55.489 through a couple of different changes in wall 00:01:55.489 --> 00:01:59.109 colours and furniture over the years. This room 00:01:59.109 --> 00:02:02.900 doesn't belong to me anymore. And I am a happy 00:02:02.900 --> 00:02:10.139 visitor to this room and to those years. My heart 00:02:10.139 --> 00:02:14.780 feels heavy sometimes, these days, only because 00:02:14.780 --> 00:02:17.379 the thought of freedom has been seemingly fast 00:02:17.379 --> 00:02:22.300 approaching yet is still not there. Freedom from 00:02:22.300 --> 00:02:25.159 things and places that do not align with the 00:02:25.159 --> 00:02:29.439 life I wish to create. The only way I know to 00:02:29.439 --> 00:02:32.310 lighten my heart these days is to let go of my 00:02:32.310 --> 00:02:35.030 attachment to the outcome of the work I've been 00:02:35.030 --> 00:02:38.650 doing and ask myself, what's the worst that could 00:02:38.650 --> 00:02:41.509 happen? And I'll come up with the worst that 00:02:41.509 --> 00:02:46.050 could happen and accept it. That and the mere 00:02:46.050 --> 00:02:49.689 existence of my son, my daughter, and as a bonus, 00:02:49.870 --> 00:02:53.009 my elongated and excessively supportive boyfriend. 00:02:53.750 --> 00:02:59.870 And any god knows they don't merely exist. I 00:02:59.870 --> 00:03:02.449 would say to everyone that I could see that life 00:03:02.449 --> 00:03:06.870 already. I have walked it in the streets of Paris 00:03:06.870 --> 00:03:11.490 where my heart felt so light, so open and so 00:03:11.490 --> 00:03:15.990 touched for seemingly no obvious reasons. And 00:03:15.990 --> 00:03:17.830 you've seen what I'm capable of with a heavy 00:03:17.830 --> 00:03:22.969 heart. I'm doing everything I can to be with 00:03:22.969 --> 00:03:28.349 that light, open and touched heart, Paris, at all 00:03:28.349 --> 00:03:36.150 times. Where it all began. Le 28 septembre 2025. 00:03:37.210 --> 00:03:38.490 je t 'embrasse.