WEBVTT 00:00:00.650 --> 00:00:07.049 It's not about you, Paris. Bonjour. Today is 00:00:07.049 --> 00:00:11.609 not about you. In fact, it's never really been 00:00:11.609 --> 00:00:17.170 about you. Your physical existence. It's about 00:00:17.170 --> 00:00:19.670 leftover Indonesian beef rendang and strong coffee. 00:00:20.269 --> 00:00:24.510 No. It's about what gives the meaning to my seconds, 00:00:24.609 --> 00:00:28.530 hours, and days beyond those irresistible luxuries. 00:00:30.350 --> 00:00:33.369 I realised resisting you was futile when I knew 00:00:33.369 --> 00:00:35.789 there was so much you could offer to get me closer 00:00:35.789 --> 00:00:40.049 to truth and freedom. But I have also come to 00:00:40.049 --> 00:00:43.469 realise that there's no use in forcing you or 00:00:43.469 --> 00:00:48.710 anyone into my life either. That truth, that 00:00:48.710 --> 00:00:51.590 freedom, that freedom that comes from everything 00:00:51.590 --> 00:00:54.549 that's true and that truth that is achieved in 00:00:54.549 --> 00:01:00.149 freedom, that is the pursuit. What's the point 00:01:00.149 --> 00:01:03.649 of leaving London, or Wimbledon, for that matter, 00:01:03.950 --> 00:01:06.409 because I don't feel like I'm doing anything 00:01:06.409 --> 00:01:09.609 meaningful here if I immediately seek to settle 00:01:09.609 --> 00:01:13.810 down in Chelsea, par exemple. Sorry. Let's try 00:01:13.810 --> 00:01:18.510 again. What's the point of leaving London, or 00:01:18.510 --> 00:01:22.189 Wimbledon, for that matter, because I don't feel 00:01:22.189 --> 00:01:25.250 like I'm doing anything meaningful here if I 00:01:25.250 --> 00:01:26.060 immediately seek to settle down; immediately 00:01:26.060 --> 00:01:29.019 seek to settle down and to have something steady; 00:01:30.140 --> 00:01:32.920 immediately run into another prison that you, 00:01:33.000 --> 00:01:38.719 Paris, may as well be? Today is the time to walk 00:01:38.719 --> 00:01:43.000 the talk. Today is the time to distinguish strength 00:01:43.000 --> 00:01:46.640 from qualified stubbornness, whatever that means. 00:01:47.540 --> 00:01:50.260 To draw the line between freedom and merely an 00:01:50.260 --> 00:01:53.540 escape. To know the difference between being 00:01:53.540 --> 00:01:58.879 awake and just not asleep (when in doubt, Sumatran 00:01:58.879 --> 00:02:03.439 espresso might just help). What's the point of 00:02:03.439 --> 00:02:06.219 rebelling against something you deem so far away 00:02:06.219 --> 00:02:09.800 from the truth if you are just chasing the comfort 00:02:09.800 --> 00:02:14.240 at the end of the day? I've been faffing about. 00:02:15.580 --> 00:02:18.199 I've been clinging to the soothing effect of 00:02:18.199 --> 00:02:20.860 having something at the end of this seemingly 00:02:20.860 --> 00:02:24.680 dark journey. or at least the idea of that something, 00:02:25.020 --> 00:02:29.060 and getting anxious about letting it or causing 00:02:29.060 --> 00:02:36.060 it slip away. I'm now ready to leave what I know 00:02:36.060 --> 00:02:40.919 doesn't fulfil me behind, as uncomfortable as 00:02:40.919 --> 00:02:43.199 it makes me feel not knowing what I will find 00:02:43.199 --> 00:02:46.819 or have to deal with when I get to the other 00:02:46.819 --> 00:02:50.560 side. And I don't mean just the other side 00:02:50.560 --> 00:02:53.400 of the Eurostar tunnel with my Etoile membership. 00:02:55.599 --> 00:03:00.400 I'm ready to let go. I'm letting go of control 00:03:00.400 --> 00:03:07.900 over what the outcome may be. It takes uncertainties 00:03:07.900 --> 00:03:12.080 to reach a conviction. At least that has been 00:03:12.080 --> 00:03:16.199 the case with mine. I am doing a massive clear 00:03:16.199 --> 00:03:20.849 out. First and foremost, of my wardrobe (soon 00:03:20.849 --> 00:03:23.590 to be an ex irresponsible fashion lover here), 00:03:23.710 --> 00:03:28.270 my expectation desk, and of my restriction trunk. 00:03:28.930 --> 00:03:31.990 In fact, why don't I leave the trunk behind while 00:03:31.990 --> 00:03:34.990 I'm at it? I'm not going on a cruise anyway, 00:03:35.229 --> 00:03:38.669 though I might just live on a boat, in which 00:03:38.669 --> 00:03:42.490 case the steamer trunk comes with me, along with 00:03:42.490 --> 00:03:45.110 a stunning curated collection of clothes I haven't 00:03:45.110 --> 00:03:49.409 got rid of. Here's to not underestimate the power 00:03:49.409 --> 00:03:53.849 of the space, the creative void between no longer 00:03:53.849 --> 00:04:00.229 and not yet. By the way, what should I dress 00:04:00.229 --> 00:04:03.409 up as for my stubborn boyfriend's French theatre 00:04:03.409 --> 00:04:06.669 -themed birthday and project launch party next 00:04:06.669 --> 00:04:09.370 Saturday? And what's the weather going to be 00:04:09.370 --> 00:04:11.349 like for the next protest against the Indonesian 00:04:11.349 --> 00:04:15.310 government the day after, Paris? Because when 00:04:15.310 --> 00:04:18.550 I say letting go, I don't mean passively waiting 00:04:18.550 --> 00:04:21.850 for my bank account to fill up and for my moving 00:04:21.850 --> 00:04:25.769 boxes to find a new address. And when I say the 00:04:25.769 --> 00:04:30.329 space or the creative void, I don't mean paralysis. 00:04:31.790 --> 00:04:38.209 I simply mean I choose to be free now and I choose 00:04:38.209 --> 00:04:44.970 to be true in everything I do. Always. Vivre, 00:04:44.970 --> 00:04:50.839 Triple Espresso! Londres, le 14 Septembre 2025. 00:04:51.420 --> 00:04:52.660 Je t'embrasse.