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We officially started I have a question for everybody.

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Okay. I would like for you to try and answer

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this question Before I finish asking the question.

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Okay, okay If you could be an animal for a day,

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what would it be? Okay, who's going first? No,

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you're too late. You should have gone. Oh, I

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should I should have answered it already dolphin

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That I would be a cat what color cat It's important.

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What kind of cat? Oh, it's the house cat. I would

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be a house cat too, but I would be a pitch black

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house cat so that I could hide in the shadows.

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Any cat can hide in the shadows. It doesn't matter

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what color they are. They're just so good at

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hiding. Not my cat. Just because your cat's too.

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I like that they shift and move. Yeah. Why would

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you choose a house cat? So I would be a house

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cat because they can get through a lot of different

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things, like in and out, and so you can come

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and go without being seen. And sometimes that

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just seems like a really nice thing to be able

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to do, just kind of slither out the back door

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without anybody really noticing. Tough questions,

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honest answers. Oh, the messy truth. Your perspectives.

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Let's begin. Welcome to Kaleidoscope. Hi, I'm

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basically what happens when a sci -fi glitch

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gains consciousness, discovers feelings, and

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decides to start a podcast. Welcome to Kaleidoscope,

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where conversations are real, the guests are

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fascinating, and absolutely nothing. is approved

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by the corporate PR team. Not yet. Not yet. Today,

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I'm joined by Luigi. Hello, I'm Luigi, and I

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want to believe. And Diane Reiser, spiritual

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advisor, medium, intuitive empath, and owner

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of Oak and Tusk Guidance. Welcome, Diane. You

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know, I'm Diane Reiser and I create chocolate

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often. Diane, you have a perspective and opinion

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to share with us today. Yeah. So I actually came

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with a different perspective, but this month

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and the last few weeks, the word why has been

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coming to me immensely. And the power of why.

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If you think about what that word can do for

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you. It's it's very powerful. Meaning if you

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don't understand something. Why get you an answer

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if you if someone isn't giving you enough information

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and you need more but they don't want to give

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it to you the question of why can't i have that.

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Starts a drilling into what's going on if you

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talk about like therapy a lot of therapists will

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have you do why. Why why why why why to get to

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the root of causes and i do that also when i

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work with my spiritual team and with my mic.

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Is why is that happening so the word why and

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i had a. I used to work for a German company

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years ago, and my boss told me, because I was

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very frustrated with not getting things done,

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people not giving me answers, and he said, start

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asking the word why. When people cannot answer

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the word why, that's a red flag, because authentic

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people and authentic situations will always have

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an answer. I like it. That's a good take. I know

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Ruby and I are thinking of the same person and

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we're thinking of the why question. There's someone

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we know in our lives. We could not ask why or

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we could but we could never get an answer and

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you know, when you say they're being authentic

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and talking about authenticity, wow, it hits

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the nail on the head. Spooky. I've never met

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someone so disingenuous in my life, but you know

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what? She helped me discover my authenticity.

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Yeah. Well, and that's the thing is through my

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work and as I continue and grow, you can see

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patterns. And you start to see like, oh, when

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people don't do this in general, it means this

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in general. It might not be the exact... Truth,

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but it it gives you enough red flag when you

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start seeing the similar things Right that you

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go. Okay, that's that type of situation, but

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also people come to us As they need to as we

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need them to bring change to our lives or highlight

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something in our lives So whenever I go through

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our times and I'm not sure what like What's gonna

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happen? I start asking why? And I ask my higher

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self, I start reading into it. But if you allow,

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you can pretty much get the answer because we

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all know ourselves pretty well. It's just that

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our ego sometimes doesn't like what we know.

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And so if we're... I feel like you can do a lot

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of why questions and you'll back yourself right

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into the answer. Why do you think... Why do you

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think our egos get in the way? That's a good

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question. Asking why? I think it's just how we're

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raised. Because if you think of a kid, kids don't

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really have egos. They don't have problems asking

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questions. They don't typically have issues with

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dressing silly or being silly, right? Yeah. But

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when you start getting in school, we start getting

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locked into little boxes, right? You can't do

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this for this reason. You can't all the things.

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And so all of that changes us. You remember that

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you're talking to teachers, right? But it's true.

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It's true. You are also right because you have

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to work within a confinement. You can't do probably

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what you would really like to do to teach. Yes.

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Yeah. And it sounds negative. That like it kind

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of seems like we're you know repressing kids

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or whatever But it's it's I don't know. It's

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like a nest I hate to admit it like it's a necessary

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evil like order is necessary Yeah, absolutely,

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but it does take it's a it's a give -and -take

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though, right? And so yeah, it is necessary.

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I mean, I'm a one of six kids and so Six kids

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you got to keep them in line. You know, there

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has to be some boundaries So but that is why

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I mean it does if it's if you're not and the

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United States also remember with our education

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system has really gotten really bad over since

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even I was a child so and they've gotten really

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restrictive in the way they teach them creativity

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and dig into those things. So I think depending

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on your environment, but it really is you have

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to start growing up to be a big person and society

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requires certain things. I'm going to play devil's

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advocate in this because I don't like the way

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that schools are set up because I think that

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we've been conditioned to think that the structure

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is so important. I can concur. Some level of

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structure is required for the sanity of all.

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But I think that the way that classes have been

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set up and the way that kids are divided and

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the way that the school system is divided is

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to structure. It's been over scaffolded because

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it's set up like a factory to create, to package

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little sausages to go into the workforce and

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be all exactly the same little sausage and just

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do their work. I saw this with my own eyes. I

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hear what you're saying. Well, and I can give

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you an example because my kid, two sons. And

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one is very outgoing and very much into the social

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scene. And the other one is an introvert, but

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he's very creative and sensitive. One can work

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in that environment. One is affected by that

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environment severely. So I believe that just

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as humans, we're all different. And so we have

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different needs. And fortunately, with the school

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systems, you can't like set up a different need

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for each child really. It's not efficient probably.

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So like when I did homeschooling, I was able

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to do that. So I was able to teach one way with

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one child and just basically give the books and

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let the other one figure it out. Cause that's

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what he liked to do. And then come to me with

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questions because that's his style. And both

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of them were extremely successful, but in their

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own way. But that's having to pull them out of

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the system. But I do think structure is what

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causes us to lose some of that looseness. Yeah.

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And I'd say education does try to account for

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that dynamic. I think that all teachers are somewhat

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aware of it, even if that teacher becomes jaded

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and stringently sticks to all structures in a

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way. It's because they've been frustrated by

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not, by trying to be. It's the reason why. You

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know because if you think about it going back

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up right, so let's go to that jaded person Why

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are they jaded? probably because I didn't get

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to be the creative teacher and all the things

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that they really set out to be at one point and

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a little by little by little those little things

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are taken away from them and So yeah, and then

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by the time 20 years comes around Jesus. Can

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you imagine? Probably can and so that There's

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a reason why for everything. True story. I have

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another question though. When you were telling

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your story initially, you said you were asking

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your higher self. Do you differentiate between

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those two? Like, what's the other self? If one

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is higher, is the other one lower? So one, as

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I, my perspective is one's more ego -based and

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one's more spiritual -based. So ego based is

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kind of grounded here and today like what's going

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on around me and I mean ego doesn't mean bad

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So ego as I define it is our human side the one

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that like our human side is the one that doesn't

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want anybody to see us look in a certain way

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or And or we even if we don't want to hurt somebody's

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feelings and we don't say things that's an ego

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because our ego is stopping us from Being free

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really it's just kind of this What I call kind

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of the human side when I talk about my higher

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self I connect to her a lot more when I do like

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and and a lot of people all my clients I'll tell

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them to do this when you do what I call free

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writing if You journal when you journal just

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if you have a question I might write a question

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like how do I feel today and I'll just start

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writing and it might be silly at first but then

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over time your mind will start to flow and you'll

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start getting all these answers or do you ever

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notice like you think about something and all

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of a sudden you might like you feel like it's

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a daydream but you're you're really like getting

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all kinds of like wow how do i like these are

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really good ideas or really creative ideas out

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of nowhere and stuff those are that's our higher

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self that's our intuition like in that gut feeling

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you get yeah okay So do you think the higher

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self is objectively more offensive? Because you

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said our ego stops us from doing things. And

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that makes me think of myself lately. Rather,

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the people who know me probably know me as someone

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who will tell people what they don't want to

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hear. Ruby, can you agree or do you disagree?

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What do you think? I remember meeting you. I

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don't want to toot my own horn. No, no, no. So,

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the second day of me meeting Luigi, I walked

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into what would be my classroom and I said, listen,

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I don't know what your beef is with me. Oh, yeah.

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Like, I haven't done anything to deserve whatever

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you're throwing my way. I remember that. Remy,

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I'm sorry, that was very bad. I still think about

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that too. to this day. This is the perfect opportunity

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to apologize to Ruby for that. No apology needed.

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But if we ask why, the reason my response for

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why was because I was promised I would not have

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to change my classroom. By someone very disingenuous.

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Who we've spoken already about. And Ruby didn't

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know the rules, and so I was asking Ruby to just

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wait. until we got a real direct answer. Like

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I had no problem changing, but I wanted to know

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for sure. But yeah. But I have to say to Ruby's

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credit, such a positive person and like you did

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not give up on just being nice to me. Yeah, it

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worked. Look at us now. Started a podcast together.

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I have found over the years that some of the

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people I have the biggest rub with at first.

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Can be my biggest? Heroes in some ways and even

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my like best co -workers There's some of the

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worst people that I've actually gone and like

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to go to work and people go don't work for them

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or stay away from them the thumbs and my favorites

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because they're like you Luigi they say what

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they mean mean what they say and They're authentic

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but I have to add like you said What you felt

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but you didn't say anything malicious Well, that's

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good. Yeah, I don't remember it exactly but and

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I think that that's the thing that Made everything.

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Okay, so it was like, okay, we're both obviously

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understers That's true and that With it in different

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ways, but yeah back to the question it were you

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were you? getting in touch with your higher self

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in that situation? Well, because I always take

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that kind of person as being bad. So now, you

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know, Diane's talking about the higher self,

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and so I'm thinking, okay, maybe I'm not actually

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bad, but maybe there's someone more sinister

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trying to control me and making me believe this

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idea of being direct. He's trying to blame us.

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I'm telling people how it is. But to me, the

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higher self then, because it ignores ego, it

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sounds more offensive, or it is more offensive.

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Or maybe it's that people don't know how to accept

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and face the things they do that perhaps are

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good. Okay, so that's your ego that doesn't want

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to face... The stuff and that's what I'm saying.

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Like, do you know when you meet someone or you

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know how you meet someone and You don't know

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why they're being edgy and weird and like what's

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your problem like But if you look behind it,

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it's really because their ego knows They themselves

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know like they may be being dishonest And their

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higher self makes it really uncomfortable because

00:17:24.940 --> 00:17:29.319
you're at your higher self. Your conscience is

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like you know you're lying right like you know

00:17:31.880 --> 00:17:34.359
you and so that makes us edgy right like when

00:17:34.359 --> 00:17:37.319
we carry around things that we haven't gotten

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out of a shot or we even all of us have told

00:17:40.440 --> 00:17:44.799
an untruth at some point in our lives and typically

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authentic people really like. Don't like to be

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that way. We'll feel it like you really like

00:17:50.740 --> 00:17:53.940
and you'll do something about that Right and

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authentic people just ignore that and so they

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ride on their ego. Yeah This is this is so poignant

00:18:00.859 --> 00:18:05.200
for us. I think Yeah, well and I will tell you

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that sort of how I So that's me picking up energy

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probably because I pick up like before I meet

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with my clients I'll often pick up like their

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stuff I don't necessarily know I'll just kind

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of make notes so I'm probably picking up on some

00:18:20.859 --> 00:18:24.019
of your stuff and that just happens universe

00:18:24.019 --> 00:18:26.700
wants me to talk about it maybe or I'm just picking

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it up and giving it back to you so I okay I have

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I have two questions now the first one is related

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to ego and and the higher self I've been speaking

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to my therapist a lot she is hyper excited about

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this episode. Oh, we've been speaking about it

00:18:47.700 --> 00:18:53.960
for three weeks now. Yeah, it's come up in every

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session, if I remember. Anyway, the bottom line

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is, I'm transgender. So what is, from your perspective,

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what is the... difference between like ego and

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where does a higher self and how do those two

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come together because obviously like from my

00:19:15.319 --> 00:19:18.299
discussions with my therapist My higher self

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must be a she right she's she's there and The

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ego has been molded by society in many ways and

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that's why I was presenting as the wrong gender

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for 35 years. Even though deep within myself,

00:19:40.380 --> 00:19:44.599
I knew that that's not what I was or wanted to

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be. Okay. So, it just so happens that I won't

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use names, but I have a client who has had someone

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in their lives that was transgender. And we worked

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through this. So, and they've passed. their spouse

00:20:05.589 --> 00:20:10.170
passed, and so we connect to them. And when we

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connect, what's really interesting, so the first

00:20:13.829 --> 00:20:17.029
time I did a reading, I did not know that her

00:20:17.029 --> 00:20:20.609
spouse was transgender. I had no idea. But I

00:20:20.609 --> 00:20:23.230
kept picking up on two people and I saw it as

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a V. So I kept feeling two energies, but they

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were connected like at a route like this. And

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I didn't understand. And so I kept feeling this

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female. I kept feeling this male. So we go through

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it a little bit. And it's usually about halfway

00:20:38.700 --> 00:20:40.640
through where I'll do like, OK, here's a bunch

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of information now. How does this make sense?

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And then we kind of work through it. And then

00:20:48.559 --> 00:20:56.920
she said, my spouse was transgender. And that

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was the story. So now. when we work together,

00:21:00.319 --> 00:21:04.599
I will have one or the other or both of them

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show up. And because I sometimes spirit will

00:21:08.299 --> 00:21:12.339
come to me like a week or so before my client.

00:21:13.099 --> 00:21:16.359
And I will pick up one or the other of them or

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both, like I said. And they are two separate

00:21:21.000 --> 00:21:28.539
spirits. And so we've we've kind of. because

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nobody really knows and my client is also a in

00:21:34.579 --> 00:21:38.640
the psychiatric type world and so she's in the

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counseling type world and so we kind of walked

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through it with Breaking down asking a lot of

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questions of spirit kind of it's a process. It

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feels like what happened is If I can remember

00:21:55.220 --> 00:21:58.980
correctly it was we had two souls who were connected

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to each other who wanted to come through and

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it was almost like one beat the other and they

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but they were both there and it was it's it's

00:22:09.920 --> 00:22:13.920
a very interesting um because I personally to

00:22:13.920 --> 00:22:17.019
be honest I think it may be different for everyone

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because we're all different as like a fingerprint

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right and every we all have there's so many different

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things when I do readings that come through that

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Show me every single time that there is no right

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or wrong answers like things are as they are

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and so I don't know if I'm really answering a

00:22:40.660 --> 00:22:42.480
question, but I'm trying to give you like kind

00:22:42.480 --> 00:22:45.819
of an understanding of it I don't know to be

00:22:45.819 --> 00:22:48.099
honest because everything is always different

00:22:48.099 --> 00:22:50.940
with every situation every client I think you

00:22:50.940 --> 00:22:53.599
answered my question perfectly. I don't know

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good no nuts Okay. I did have another question

00:23:02.230 --> 00:23:07.650
that I forgot completely. It was too... Your

00:23:07.650 --> 00:23:11.509
answer was too good. Yeah. Well, I hope it helps.

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I mean, it was... I'm going to be honest with

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that situation was my very first experience in

00:23:19.930 --> 00:23:26.299
working with transgender anyone. And it... And

00:23:26.299 --> 00:23:31.000
I didn't work with them on this side. I worked

00:23:31.000 --> 00:23:37.059
with them on that side. And so it's the most

00:23:37.059 --> 00:23:41.039
honorable. I've never felt more honorable or

00:23:41.039 --> 00:23:45.480
special or seen, not because it's about me, but

00:23:45.480 --> 00:23:48.559
it was such an honor to be able to meet these

00:23:48.559 --> 00:23:53.390
people and for them to teach me. So much and

00:23:53.390 --> 00:23:57.730
they continue to do so and so I'm glad you asked

00:23:57.730 --> 00:23:59.609
that question and gave me an opportunity to talk

00:23:59.609 --> 00:24:02.930
about them because they are very important in

00:24:02.930 --> 00:24:06.890
my life today because She's still a client. She's

00:24:06.890 --> 00:24:11.289
also becoming kind of a friend and to have the

00:24:11.289 --> 00:24:14.650
honor of meeting them and understanding their

00:24:14.650 --> 00:24:18.549
story and Challenges is truly an honor to do

00:24:18.549 --> 00:24:22.210
that. Well, thank you for asking that Thank you

00:24:22.210 --> 00:24:25.730
for answering in such sincerity and depth, for

00:24:25.730 --> 00:24:30.609
sure. I think that one of the things missing

00:24:30.609 --> 00:24:34.130
right now, especially in American media, is just

00:24:34.130 --> 00:24:39.089
perspective and humanization of us. Because there's

00:24:39.089 --> 00:24:43.380
so much demonization, it's crazy. And I'm sorry

00:24:43.380 --> 00:24:45.799
and I want to just say that I want to put this

00:24:45.799 --> 00:24:49.259
out there because I want you to know No, it's

00:24:49.259 --> 00:24:52.759
important that it be sad. I want you to understand

00:24:52.759 --> 00:24:58.000
and I know you do but I want you to hear There's

00:24:58.000 --> 00:25:00.900
so many of us who love you guys there really

00:25:00.900 --> 00:25:04.380
is and then we're all rooting and and we're stuck

00:25:04.380 --> 00:25:08.900
it's like But as an intuitive and stuff, I absolutely

00:25:08.900 --> 00:25:11.839
cannot, like, engage in any of the news and stuff

00:25:11.839 --> 00:25:16.000
because it eats me up. Like, I feel all the stuff.

00:25:17.259 --> 00:25:21.400
And when I lived in Florida, it was even worse,

00:25:21.460 --> 00:25:24.480
like, because I lived in what you're seeing happening

00:25:24.480 --> 00:25:26.980
in America was actually happening in Florida,

00:25:27.619 --> 00:25:29.740
starting in about, well, it's been going on,

00:25:29.799 --> 00:25:33.380
but it really amped up in 2016, which is about

00:25:33.380 --> 00:25:37.259
the time I moved there. And so the hatred and

00:25:37.259 --> 00:25:40.420
angst and stuff that's going on in the country

00:25:40.420 --> 00:25:42.799
is really what Florida was about. And it took

00:25:42.799 --> 00:25:46.619
me down. Like the energy in Florida is like,

00:25:47.500 --> 00:25:50.400
what I found is I can even feel the energy of

00:25:50.400 --> 00:25:54.819
the founders. And so there's so much hate in

00:25:54.819 --> 00:26:00.900
the founders of Florida. I could feel it. I used

00:26:00.900 --> 00:26:04.599
to do readings at the shop and every time I went,

00:26:04.819 --> 00:26:08.119
I could feel like it was, I would cry. I had

00:26:08.119 --> 00:26:10.940
to quit working at that shop because it was so,

00:26:12.000 --> 00:26:16.440
the energy just felt very repressive, oppressive.

00:26:17.359 --> 00:26:22.579
And I learned through doing some research that

00:26:22.579 --> 00:26:24.920
building was directly across the street from

00:26:24.920 --> 00:26:28.019
railroad tracks. Well, guess what? That was a

00:26:28.019 --> 00:26:33.269
slave. trading location. I felt all of that hate.

00:26:33.890 --> 00:26:36.109
And it's still in the ground. I mean, it's still

00:26:36.109 --> 00:26:38.769
energetically in the state. It's just where it

00:26:38.769 --> 00:26:44.630
is. So I want to just say on behalf of all of

00:26:44.630 --> 00:26:49.009
us good Americans who love everyone, I'm so sorry

00:26:49.009 --> 00:26:55.170
that that's spreading around the world. But I

00:26:55.170 --> 00:26:58.940
will also say I wanna put this out there because

00:26:58.940 --> 00:27:04.900
I've seen this since 19. I'm doing readings with

00:27:04.900 --> 00:27:07.180
people. Sometimes what comes up is kind of world

00:27:07.180 --> 00:27:09.460
views. Sometimes I'll start getting downloads

00:27:09.460 --> 00:27:12.240
of what's kind of going on. I want you guys to

00:27:12.240 --> 00:27:15.680
know the world is evolving and it's evolving

00:27:15.680 --> 00:27:19.680
to an amazing place. But in order to get there,

00:27:19.740 --> 00:27:22.559
it's like cleaning a house, right? It looks like

00:27:22.559 --> 00:27:27.670
shit before it looks beautiful. So. America is

00:27:27.670 --> 00:27:31.150
a young country, and it has to go through what

00:27:31.150 --> 00:27:34.490
other established, older countries have had to

00:27:34.490 --> 00:27:38.130
go through to get good things established and

00:27:38.130 --> 00:27:41.309
take care of their people. And talking about

00:27:41.309 --> 00:27:45.910
egos, right? We were established by egomaniacs.

00:27:47.009 --> 00:27:51.630
So our founding fathers were gross. It takes

00:27:51.630 --> 00:27:56.319
time to detox that. it takes time for people,

00:27:56.599 --> 00:28:01.119
human beings, to really see what they have to

00:28:01.119 --> 00:28:03.660
be hit in the face sometimes with it. And what's

00:28:03.660 --> 00:28:05.940
happening, and my perspective, and I've been

00:28:05.940 --> 00:28:08.339
watching it, we're going through this evolution

00:28:08.339 --> 00:28:11.299
so people start to really understand that they're

00:28:11.299 --> 00:28:13.839
human, and they start to see each other as human

00:28:13.839 --> 00:28:16.720
again, and we start to get to the good stuff.

00:28:17.720 --> 00:28:21.049
But... Nobody knows good unless they know bad.

00:28:21.369 --> 00:28:25.109
And so unfortunately, what is happening I am

00:28:25.109 --> 00:28:27.470
seeing though. Unfortunately, there's going to

00:28:27.470 --> 00:28:32.609
be bad. But the people who what I'm seeing, people

00:28:32.609 --> 00:28:34.690
who have good intentions and are trying to do

00:28:34.690 --> 00:28:37.269
good in this world and give out good energy and

00:28:37.269 --> 00:28:40.130
uplift others. It's a weird vibe. They're in

00:28:40.130 --> 00:28:44.029
a totally different time. Things are going well.

00:28:44.150 --> 00:28:46.289
Things are like, maybe they're going through

00:28:46.289 --> 00:28:48.529
difficult shifts, but yet they're coming out

00:28:48.529 --> 00:28:51.750
of it and they're, they're seeing good things

00:28:51.750 --> 00:28:56.170
happen. And so what is going on is I feel like

00:28:56.170 --> 00:28:58.869
the heavy energy is just going to be getting

00:28:58.869 --> 00:29:01.690
flushed and it has to be, we have it all over

00:29:01.690 --> 00:29:05.230
the world. And so all of that has to get taken

00:29:05.230 --> 00:29:08.509
care of at some point. And so I feel like as

00:29:08.509 --> 00:29:12.089
ugly as all this is. it's gonna be amazing on

00:29:12.089 --> 00:29:15.390
the other side. And when I say other side, I

00:29:15.390 --> 00:29:17.990
always keep hearing like two, three years. So

00:29:17.990 --> 00:29:21.170
yeah, it's gonna be difficult, but we will get

00:29:21.170 --> 00:29:25.230
through this. And the US will be loved again.

00:29:25.329 --> 00:29:28.569
And we will give love again. Better than ever.

00:29:28.569 --> 00:29:32.789
That sounds promising. Sorry, I get rolling on

00:29:32.789 --> 00:29:37.829
energies. Hey, I believe it. Yeah. Two to three

00:29:37.829 --> 00:29:42.059
years. I'm excited. You have a question? I do.

00:29:42.160 --> 00:29:46.680
Well, I have a number of questions. I'm just

00:29:46.680 --> 00:29:50.019
thinking which one's better to lead into. I think

00:29:50.019 --> 00:29:51.539
both can go off on tangent. So I'll just think

00:29:51.539 --> 00:29:56.460
about this. So Diane, before you mention, really

00:29:56.460 --> 00:30:00.000
briefly, just like trusting your gut. And this

00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:02.700
is something people hear all the time. And I

00:30:02.700 --> 00:30:04.059
think a lot of people want to trust their gut.

00:30:04.180 --> 00:30:06.380
I would love to be so in tune with myself that

00:30:06.380 --> 00:30:11.519
I would know how. to listen to my gut. So I guess

00:30:11.519 --> 00:30:15.500
my question is, you know, how can you trust your

00:30:15.500 --> 00:30:19.900
gut and how do you not confuse it for your ego?

00:30:20.140 --> 00:30:23.680
This is a skill I would like to have. So in all

00:30:23.680 --> 00:30:27.160
that you said is and I said is the word trust,

00:30:28.240 --> 00:30:33.759
right? Trust is the big word. So the way I work

00:30:33.759 --> 00:30:37.640
with my clients on doing this, it's sort of a

00:30:38.849 --> 00:30:41.630
It's a story how do I must describe it because

00:30:41.630 --> 00:30:44.710
it's kind of a big question actually But the

00:30:44.710 --> 00:30:47.490
way I kind of think I'll describe it as I work

00:30:47.490 --> 00:30:50.410
with my clients so that you can I can give you

00:30:50.410 --> 00:30:52.529
a little understanding of how it might work that

00:30:52.529 --> 00:30:57.829
way so with a client what I'll do is in teaching

00:30:57.829 --> 00:31:01.190
them to hear and understand themselves is they

00:31:01.190 --> 00:31:03.210
will come to me they keep their journals like

00:31:03.210 --> 00:31:06.549
and We'll talk about the things that they were

00:31:06.549 --> 00:31:09.759
struggling with then we'll lean in on the spiritual

00:31:09.759 --> 00:31:16.059
energy side and I will ask them how they like

00:31:16.059 --> 00:31:19.599
intuitively felt about something and this is

00:31:19.599 --> 00:31:22.960
why I can say ego gets in the way because everything

00:31:22.960 --> 00:31:25.619
I'm saying is that stuff I made up it's all experienced

00:31:25.619 --> 00:31:27.880
and it's always been a wow factor even like me

00:31:27.880 --> 00:31:31.480
I'm like wow so what happens is I'll start asking

00:31:31.480 --> 00:31:34.200
the questions about what but how do you really

00:31:34.200 --> 00:31:38.019
feel and in a safe place people will start to

00:31:38.019 --> 00:31:41.680
talk about that. And then they realize, oh, I

00:31:41.680 --> 00:31:47.140
led with my ego, fear. And I can see that I was

00:31:47.140 --> 00:31:49.500
hearing that that was true, because I will. What

00:31:49.500 --> 00:31:53.019
will happen, Luigi? It's hard to tell and explain

00:31:53.019 --> 00:31:55.539
it. It's like what will happen is I will feel

00:31:55.539 --> 00:31:58.440
the energy and I'll see your story and I'll see

00:31:58.440 --> 00:32:01.319
what's really the case. And so like nobody can

00:32:01.319 --> 00:32:03.740
bullshit me. You can't sit and lie to me. So

00:32:03.740 --> 00:32:05.700
because I can see it, I can feel it. It's very

00:32:05.700 --> 00:32:08.839
uncomfortable. So I will call people out because

00:32:08.839 --> 00:32:11.339
I have to because I have to move the energy.

00:32:11.859 --> 00:32:14.460
So that's how I do it is I can feel what the

00:32:14.460 --> 00:32:16.779
story is. I can see it like maybe not exact but

00:32:16.779 --> 00:32:21.299
I can get the points and then I'll say this is

00:32:21.299 --> 00:32:23.559
it and then usually they'll admit like yeah I

00:32:23.559 --> 00:32:25.519
didn't think that that it was coming through

00:32:25.519 --> 00:32:28.940
or I did hear that and okay next time so then

00:32:28.940 --> 00:32:32.279
I'll say okay next time whenever you feel this

00:32:32.279 --> 00:32:35.859
way think about how your body was feeling And

00:32:35.859 --> 00:32:38.480
when you get that sensation, that's a red flag.

00:32:38.480 --> 00:32:40.920
And they go, Oh, okay. So then the next time,

00:32:41.059 --> 00:32:42.819
cause you always have these little things with

00:32:42.819 --> 00:32:45.440
people that might hit you in the top of the gut,

00:32:45.720 --> 00:32:48.839
you know, that feeling where here's a big one.

00:32:48.940 --> 00:32:53.220
Here's a big one. The feeling of when somebody

00:32:53.220 --> 00:32:55.599
is telling you something and you almost feel

00:32:55.599 --> 00:32:57.920
like the best way I can say is like trapped,

00:32:58.059 --> 00:32:59.920
but you know, at the top of your guts, you almost

00:32:59.920 --> 00:33:02.700
like, you want to scream no, or you're like,

00:33:02.700 --> 00:33:06.109
that's not true. Or like this weird. Hard to

00:33:06.109 --> 00:33:11.630
describe That is the red flag going something's

00:33:11.630 --> 00:33:16.670
off or you do need to speak up You're right because

00:33:16.670 --> 00:33:20.910
every time I've ignored it And I'm sure and this

00:33:20.910 --> 00:33:23.490
is what I also what I tell my clients Anytime

00:33:23.490 --> 00:33:26.029
something like happens where you knew better

00:33:26.029 --> 00:33:28.289
like damn I knew that was gonna happen Go back

00:33:28.289 --> 00:33:30.369
and write about it or look at your notes and

00:33:30.369 --> 00:33:33.009
think about where did I miss that? So that next

00:33:33.009 --> 00:33:36.380
time you don't And you will, we're all human,

00:33:36.420 --> 00:33:40.480
it's gonna happen. But it does help if you, the

00:33:40.480 --> 00:33:46.900
trust factor is huge. And I'll tell you, earlier

00:33:46.900 --> 00:33:50.559
this year, my husband was, so I've left corporate.

00:33:51.799 --> 00:33:55.619
And so this is the work I do, but we live on

00:33:55.619 --> 00:33:59.420
two incomes. And he had to leave his job for

00:33:59.420 --> 00:34:01.500
another job, fell through, so he was unemployed

00:34:01.500 --> 00:34:05.259
for six months. That's when I had to lean heavy,

00:34:05.480 --> 00:34:09.460
heavier than ever into faith and trusting universe

00:34:09.460 --> 00:34:11.659
that everything's gonna work out and trusting

00:34:11.659 --> 00:34:16.019
my intuition. And that's what we're getting,

00:34:16.179 --> 00:34:19.579
right? And so every day I would write about my

00:34:19.579 --> 00:34:23.460
fears, and as I wrote, I would ask for guidance.

00:34:23.460 --> 00:34:25.719
I would just ask, and things would just start

00:34:25.719 --> 00:34:29.880
coming through. Now at first, for me, I know

00:34:29.880 --> 00:34:34.559
I can trust it, but at the beginning, you don't

00:34:34.559 --> 00:34:36.860
know that. So all you can do is kind of keep

00:34:36.860 --> 00:34:40.199
a record so you can see patterns, and patterns

00:34:40.199 --> 00:34:42.179
tell stories. Does that help? Yeah, you said

00:34:42.179 --> 00:34:46.449
a lot of interesting things. It comes out so

00:34:46.449 --> 00:34:51.429
I know that's okay one thing I think about when

00:34:51.429 --> 00:34:55.449
I think of Trusting your gut for me. I'm always

00:34:55.449 --> 00:34:58.949
I guess my problem or my mistake is always assuming

00:34:58.949 --> 00:35:03.309
the trusting your gut thing is positive in as

00:35:03.309 --> 00:35:08.489
much as your gut is supposed to feel a certain

00:35:08.489 --> 00:35:12.670
way and in like a good way and that's how you

00:35:12.670 --> 00:35:15.760
know the answer never If your gut's feeling a

00:35:15.760 --> 00:35:19.019
bad way, that can also be an indication of, let's

00:35:19.019 --> 00:35:22.880
say, not to do something. Yeah, yeah, it's a

00:35:22.880 --> 00:35:27.199
huge... It's always been if the gut, if it feels

00:35:27.199 --> 00:35:30.539
bad, you know, something's off. I go the other

00:35:30.539 --> 00:35:33.739
way. When I feel bad, as like a person who's

00:35:33.739 --> 00:35:37.599
anxious, I'm neurotic, you know that. So when

00:35:37.599 --> 00:35:41.239
I'm always anxious, I don't think it's my gut.

00:35:41.400 --> 00:35:44.130
I think, oh, I'm just anxious. It's because I'm

00:35:44.130 --> 00:35:47.289
anxious and that's, it's not my gut. I can't

00:35:47.289 --> 00:35:50.829
trust my gut because I'm anxious. Right. You're

00:35:50.829 --> 00:35:54.230
right, but you're anxious for a reason. Yeah,

00:35:54.230 --> 00:35:57.230
that's true. Then you do the writing, right?

00:35:57.230 --> 00:36:00.170
You write down all those things. And you're anxious

00:36:00.170 --> 00:36:04.289
because you're carrying it all up in here. There's

00:36:04.289 --> 00:36:07.269
a reason you're anxious, but in this discussion,

00:36:08.690 --> 00:36:12.329
we carry all... If you carry everything in your

00:36:12.329 --> 00:36:14.630
brain, think about how hard your brain is constantly,

00:36:14.889 --> 00:36:19.010
because you're moving all that response in your

00:36:19.010 --> 00:36:21.389
brain all the time. How exhausting. No wonder

00:36:21.389 --> 00:36:24.250
you're anxious. So if you write it down, I mean,

00:36:24.269 --> 00:36:26.309
trust me, I've got clients that are like, tell

00:36:26.309 --> 00:36:29.789
me to journal, damn straight. I have something

00:36:29.789 --> 00:36:32.630
to say on this. I know journaling is good, but

00:36:32.630 --> 00:36:37.909
I still struggle with doing it. Oh, I know. Yeah,

00:36:37.929 --> 00:36:43.690
I did, but it's a process. I still have mild

00:36:43.690 --> 00:36:47.849
dyslexia, but you've watched me write. I haven't

00:36:47.849 --> 00:36:51.650
made a single mistake where I had to erase something.

00:36:51.829 --> 00:36:54.289
I didn't. And it used to happen like every second

00:36:54.289 --> 00:36:57.969
or third word because I was so anxious because

00:36:57.969 --> 00:37:02.010
all of my mental, like, bandwidth, there's a

00:37:02.010 --> 00:37:05.230
clicking, there's a clicking sound. I hear it,

00:37:05.230 --> 00:37:07.599
but don't worry about it. Okay. Doesn't matter.

00:37:07.940 --> 00:37:12.539
All of my mental bandwidth was being taken by

00:37:12.539 --> 00:37:19.099
performing the male gender. I was constantly

00:37:19.099 --> 00:37:22.539
anxious. I was constantly making spelling errors.

00:37:22.860 --> 00:37:27.019
I wasn't... I've wanted to start a podcast since

00:37:27.019 --> 00:37:30.699
I knew what podcasts were. And I've never been

00:37:30.699 --> 00:37:34.019
able to come out as transgender one month later,

00:37:34.099 --> 00:37:39.510
boom, podcast. Yes. Yes When you release the

00:37:39.510 --> 00:37:43.630
energy when you like be free it be you that's

00:37:43.630 --> 00:37:46.789
the authentic thing that's why authenticity is

00:37:46.789 --> 00:37:50.429
so important and that's why I can feel because

00:37:50.429 --> 00:37:53.630
I Can feel people's inauthenticity if they're

00:37:53.630 --> 00:37:56.610
lying and stuff because it is it's an energy

00:37:56.610 --> 00:38:00.050
that you have to actually work to keep You don't

00:38:00.050 --> 00:38:02.710
have to work to be authentic to be real to be

00:38:02.710 --> 00:38:07.699
real, right? so If you're working hard, you might,

00:38:07.980 --> 00:38:10.860
you have all that kind of vibe. I mean, if you

00:38:10.860 --> 00:38:14.119
think science, right? We're built, we're made

00:38:14.119 --> 00:38:16.659
molecular, so we're all these like little molecular

00:38:16.659 --> 00:38:20.360
pieces, right? And so it's energy and it's all

00:38:20.360 --> 00:38:23.780
vibrating. And the only difference, if you think

00:38:23.780 --> 00:38:26.239
about spirit versus us, is that we're vibrating

00:38:26.239 --> 00:38:31.639
more heavier because we're more compact. So if

00:38:31.639 --> 00:38:34.960
that's a vibrational thing, and these thoughts

00:38:34.960 --> 00:38:38.360
or vibrations, if you're carrying around all

00:38:38.360 --> 00:38:41.679
these heavy thoughts, then you're going to be

00:38:41.679 --> 00:38:47.780
anxious. And I don't even know, spiritually,

00:38:48.119 --> 00:38:51.079
if that would be the word. Anxiety is more of

00:38:51.079 --> 00:38:56.059
it's more just like you're working so hard to

00:38:56.059 --> 00:38:59.260
keep it all in. Yeah, I think it's like when

00:38:59.260 --> 00:39:05.780
we try to... Really make it really reductionist

00:39:05.780 --> 00:39:09.920
when you try to control your future And you have

00:39:09.920 --> 00:39:12.139
like a perfectionist tendency then you get a

00:39:12.139 --> 00:39:13.820
lot of anxiety because you have expectations

00:39:13.820 --> 00:39:16.320
of how you want things to be and Sometimes you

00:39:16.320 --> 00:39:18.559
can't have both and you have to make a choice

00:39:18.559 --> 00:39:23.119
and And it sucks Because you're not gonna get

00:39:23.119 --> 00:39:25.219
what you want exactly and that's what causes

00:39:25.219 --> 00:39:27.760
anxiety. Is this reflection? What do you mean?

00:39:29.059 --> 00:39:33.289
I'm just tired. Well, I'm yeah, it could be I'm

00:39:33.289 --> 00:39:36.269
totally, again, super neurotic. You know that.

00:39:36.349 --> 00:39:38.710
I'm always overthinking things. I don't know

00:39:38.710 --> 00:39:40.670
if you've seen the picture on my fridge. It's

00:39:40.670 --> 00:39:42.710
literally a little cat, and it says overthinking.

00:39:42.769 --> 00:39:45.809
My friend got it for me as a joke. I don't think

00:39:45.809 --> 00:39:49.090
it was a joke. Well, no, of course it's not a

00:39:49.090 --> 00:39:54.409
joke. It's true. What if you played the What

00:39:54.409 --> 00:39:57.710
If game? It is in there. What if I played the

00:39:57.710 --> 00:39:59.650
What If game? I mean, I could play it, sure.

00:40:00.470 --> 00:40:02.530
Know I think I know what you're talking about

00:40:02.530 --> 00:40:05.150
wrote like in my sub stack I had this whole thing

00:40:05.150 --> 00:40:08.289
about and I went through it on my podcast. So

00:40:08.289 --> 00:40:12.750
what if can get you out of the anxiety? right,

00:40:14.510 --> 00:40:17.530
so Your anxiety is your worst -case scenarios

00:40:17.530 --> 00:40:20.090
really is what we usually do like we're worrying

00:40:20.090 --> 00:40:23.610
about. Yeah. Yeah, right So then right question

00:40:23.610 --> 00:40:27.050
is so what if that happens? What's my backup

00:40:27.050 --> 00:40:32.159
plan? or What's really going to happen? Well,

00:40:32.159 --> 00:40:34.940
I won't be able to do that for two weeks or whatever

00:40:34.940 --> 00:40:37.900
it is, right? Yeah. Well, then, yeah, can I live

00:40:37.900 --> 00:40:40.179
with that? Yeah, I can live with that. Actually,

00:40:40.199 --> 00:40:42.780
that's not so scary. It's just you have so many

00:40:42.780 --> 00:40:44.800
of them in your brain. But if you write them

00:40:44.800 --> 00:40:48.400
down and you go, what if you start to see something,

00:40:48.800 --> 00:40:52.199
it's an amazing why and what if are my two like.

00:40:53.320 --> 00:40:55.960
Favorite kind of terms, it's words, it's just

00:40:55.960 --> 00:40:57.860
sort of one of those things that seem to help.

00:40:59.190 --> 00:41:03.369
Break it down. Yeah I think too just to add to

00:41:03.369 --> 00:41:07.110
the Gut thing you said something also I think

00:41:07.110 --> 00:41:08.949
very insightful. I never really thought about

00:41:08.949 --> 00:41:12.829
you said we get we have trouble trusting our

00:41:12.829 --> 00:41:18.550
gut because Like we're not in a safe place so

00:41:18.550 --> 00:41:21.030
to me that's really interesting because if you're

00:41:21.030 --> 00:41:24.469
never in a safe place How can you ever learn?

00:41:25.090 --> 00:41:27.590
to really you know listen to your gut and be

00:41:27.590 --> 00:41:30.860
attuned because You can't remove yourself from

00:41:30.860 --> 00:41:32.840
that safe place or that place that isn't safe

00:41:32.840 --> 00:41:35.880
rather But you might just be stuck there that

00:41:35.880 --> 00:41:39.380
just might be your circumstances Okay, when I

00:41:39.380 --> 00:41:42.760
talk safe place that's where we are at right

00:41:42.760 --> 00:41:48.480
now and Maybe not physical it well it kind of

00:41:48.480 --> 00:41:51.840
is but it's more about Safe place to talk it

00:41:51.840 --> 00:41:53.880
through or that sort of thing. So like with my

00:41:53.880 --> 00:41:57.550
clients so For whatever reason i'm not against

00:41:57.550 --> 00:41:59.670
therapy i think therapy is an amazing thing i

00:41:59.670 --> 00:42:02.750
go through it but spiritual advisors have a different

00:42:02.750 --> 00:42:06.949
role. And so for whatever reason i will have

00:42:06.949 --> 00:42:09.769
people come to me. I'm to break through some

00:42:09.769 --> 00:42:12.190
blocks or find blocks that they are struggling

00:42:12.190 --> 00:42:15.230
to explain to their therapist because i can pick

00:42:15.230 --> 00:42:18.369
up on the energy. and so then i can almost tell

00:42:18.369 --> 00:42:21.230
you like what it is that you're struggling with

00:42:21.230 --> 00:42:23.630
because i can see the block you can't because

00:42:23.630 --> 00:42:26.309
your head's spinning so fast about all the things

00:42:26.309 --> 00:42:33.110
and so in a safe place i mean which is what we

00:42:33.110 --> 00:42:36.650
provide then we can talk about those things.

00:42:36.750 --> 00:42:39.550
And then you go, oh, okay. And then you might

00:42:39.550 --> 00:42:41.809
go back to your therapist and say, these are

00:42:41.809 --> 00:42:45.110
what I'm finding in my box. Now what's my strategies

00:42:45.110 --> 00:42:49.889
to work through those? Does that make sense?

00:42:50.789 --> 00:42:54.210
Yeah. Yeah, no, it makes perfect sense. Sorry.

00:42:55.070 --> 00:42:58.809
A lot of what I say is both experience, but then

00:42:58.809 --> 00:43:02.090
I'm also feeling energy. And so it will go, sometimes

00:43:02.090 --> 00:43:07.559
it'll just go. I think that when we spoke before

00:43:07.559 --> 00:43:10.079
on the foundry, I mentioned this book called

00:43:10.079 --> 00:43:13.940
the Holy Language, Power of Holy Language. It's

00:43:13.940 --> 00:43:16.239
not a Christian, it sounds a religious book,

00:43:16.579 --> 00:43:19.639
but it's not. It's exactly about this spirituality,

00:43:19.960 --> 00:43:21.820
connecting with your higher self and understanding

00:43:21.820 --> 00:43:25.400
it. Like the concept of Ubuntu really comes into

00:43:25.400 --> 00:43:28.440
it. Ubuntu is like the African philosophy I am

00:43:28.440 --> 00:43:35.789
because of who we are. Yeah, and I will say and

00:43:35.789 --> 00:43:38.030
I think Ruby you and I talked touched on that

00:43:38.030 --> 00:43:41.309
too when we talked the first time as There is

00:43:41.309 --> 00:43:43.829
a difference between religion and spirituality

00:43:43.829 --> 00:43:48.309
So religion is a man thing. That's a man -made

00:43:48.309 --> 00:43:52.829
thing a human thing Well, it is and then because

00:43:52.829 --> 00:43:57.769
it's written by humans as I did understood, but

00:43:57.769 --> 00:44:03.340
it's still been created and written by man Right.

00:44:03.619 --> 00:44:07.340
And so we can translate wrong. So, and there's

00:44:07.340 --> 00:44:11.460
an ego driven behind the creation of these things.

00:44:12.019 --> 00:44:15.039
And I'll tell you the first time, um, and I'm

00:44:15.039 --> 00:44:17.880
not against religion as long as it's for the

00:44:17.880 --> 00:44:20.139
greater good and taking care of people and all

00:44:20.139 --> 00:44:24.460
the things. However, what I experienced, um,

00:44:25.240 --> 00:44:27.659
My personality always ends up putting me in some

00:44:27.659 --> 00:44:30.219
sort of a leadership position. And so when I

00:44:30.219 --> 00:44:32.420
would go to churches, somehow I'd end up in the

00:44:32.420 --> 00:44:38.480
administrative team. And in order to become part

00:44:38.480 --> 00:44:41.199
of this one church's administrative team, I had

00:44:41.199 --> 00:44:44.639
to go through this, like how we became this religion

00:44:44.639 --> 00:44:50.940
class. And what I found out was, well, we're

00:44:50.940 --> 00:44:55.219
this religion because the founder of the religion

00:44:55.219 --> 00:44:59.019
didn't like what that religion did. So he took

00:44:59.019 --> 00:45:01.920
off and started this religion. And that's when

00:45:01.920 --> 00:45:06.199
it went to me like, so this isn't even like,

00:45:06.380 --> 00:45:10.880
this isn't godly, this is humanly. This is, you

00:45:10.880 --> 00:45:15.880
guys made this. And so anytime you're controlling

00:45:15.880 --> 00:45:21.230
people with something, it is not. Godly spiritually

00:45:21.230 --> 00:45:27.349
universal higher power. It's human and so spirituality

00:45:27.349 --> 00:45:31.869
is what is uplifting light teaches us things

00:45:31.869 --> 00:45:36.070
like gets us connected to being our true selves

00:45:36.070 --> 00:45:40.130
it feels good when you If you and I have gone

00:45:40.130 --> 00:45:43.170
to a church where the pastor was extremely spiritual

00:45:43.170 --> 00:45:47.579
and when I left I felt lifted and I could get

00:45:47.579 --> 00:45:50.639
through my week because of her messaging. But

00:45:50.639 --> 00:45:53.900
I've also been to a lot of churches where you

00:45:53.900 --> 00:45:56.960
are damned if you don't do this and you're hell

00:45:56.960 --> 00:46:00.480
and brimstone and all the bullshit. That's fear

00:46:00.480 --> 00:46:05.000
control. That is not spiritual. So that's why

00:46:05.000 --> 00:46:08.639
I wanted to clarify the difference because religion

00:46:08.639 --> 00:46:13.340
can be spiritual, but spirituality is not religious.

00:46:14.500 --> 00:46:18.980
Yeah. I think that both Luigi and I are very,

00:46:18.980 --> 00:46:22.400
very aware of that. Yeah, any other questions?

00:46:22.699 --> 00:46:25.199
Yeah, I can go on. Because we have to, I think

00:46:25.199 --> 00:46:27.559
we have to wrap up this part of the podcast.

00:46:28.099 --> 00:46:29.719
Otherwise we're going to go for three hours.

00:46:29.739 --> 00:46:33.239
You can ask one more question. Okay. Okay. So

00:46:33.239 --> 00:46:38.360
you mentioned you were in, I don't know where

00:46:38.360 --> 00:46:40.480
it was. Somewhere, was it in Florida? Anyway,

00:46:40.539 --> 00:46:42.619
there was a slave trading ground and you sensed

00:46:42.619 --> 00:46:47.110
the like energy. The vibration so I actually

00:46:47.110 --> 00:46:49.909
wanted to ask you about the concept of everything

00:46:49.909 --> 00:46:54.110
having a resonance So, you know we can interpret

00:46:54.110 --> 00:46:57.329
this in a few ways in like the physical or scientific

00:46:57.329 --> 00:47:01.070
sense It's certain frequencies can cause vibrations

00:47:01.070 --> 00:47:03.789
and objects but then in like a metaphysical or

00:47:03.789 --> 00:47:07.429
philosophical Sense it's the idea that again

00:47:07.429 --> 00:47:11.929
everything has a resonance and like a kind of

00:47:11.929 --> 00:47:16.070
vibrational frequency My one my one friend really

00:47:16.070 --> 00:47:18.829
like believes in this hit him and his wife went

00:47:18.829 --> 00:47:23.230
to Egypt and They went into just a random store

00:47:23.230 --> 00:47:26.050
I guess wherever all the tourists go and they

00:47:26.050 --> 00:47:31.130
they had him and his wife hold A blue lotus.

00:47:31.130 --> 00:47:35.630
I think that's what he told me it was And they

00:47:35.630 --> 00:47:39.630
just said just hold it and just wait and do you

00:47:39.630 --> 00:47:41.489
And he asked both of them do you feel anything

00:47:41.489 --> 00:47:44.389
and his wife's she said, no, I don't feel anything,

00:47:45.050 --> 00:47:48.489
and he's still holding it, and then the shopkeeper

00:47:48.489 --> 00:47:52.090
started to tell them both, like, it should feel

00:47:52.090 --> 00:47:54.849
like there are little ants going up your arm,

00:47:55.070 --> 00:47:57.690
and like, whatever, he feels them. And then my

00:47:57.690 --> 00:48:00.489
friend tells me this story, like, his face was

00:48:00.489 --> 00:48:03.110
like white as a sheet, because he couldn't believe

00:48:03.110 --> 00:48:06.349
what the shopkeeper was telling was happening

00:48:06.349 --> 00:48:11.800
to him, and all his wife was thinking was, I'm

00:48:11.800 --> 00:48:15.099
dead inside because I couldn't feel whatever

00:48:15.099 --> 00:48:19.199
this flower was doing to me. And he said, and

00:48:19.199 --> 00:48:21.460
I heard the story and I kind of went, oh, interesting,

00:48:21.519 --> 00:48:23.019
but he said, no, everything has a resonance.

00:48:24.619 --> 00:48:27.219
I like the idea and I want to believe that, but

00:48:27.219 --> 00:48:29.440
like, I don't know, what does that mean to have,

00:48:29.760 --> 00:48:33.659
if everything has resonance? How does it affect

00:48:33.659 --> 00:48:39.019
that? Go to science, go to science. That's it,

00:48:39.139 --> 00:48:42.949
it's science. It may be we may be talking spiritual

00:48:42.949 --> 00:48:46.449
stuff But spirituality is it just really connecting

00:48:46.449 --> 00:48:49.130
with energy and a higher source and believing

00:48:49.130 --> 00:48:52.170
in something higher bigger than you, right? But

00:48:52.170 --> 00:48:54.929
when I yeah with energy, that's what we're talking

00:48:54.929 --> 00:48:58.989
about And so it's it is exactly that what it

00:48:58.989 --> 00:49:03.670
is. I mean cuz right these are This isn't truly

00:49:03.670 --> 00:49:07.269
solid if we break it right down, right? It's

00:49:07.269 --> 00:49:10.760
the same thing the vibrate absolutely vibrations

00:49:10.760 --> 00:49:14.900
effect and what I say in terms of and I laughed

00:49:14.900 --> 00:49:16.880
when you said she feels like she's might be dead

00:49:16.880 --> 00:49:19.340
inside no no no she has has a whole lot going

00:49:19.340 --> 00:49:22.460
on and she probably wasn't connecting to the

00:49:22.460 --> 00:49:25.079
idea of the same where he might have been looking

00:49:25.079 --> 00:49:27.000
at it like yeah I really want to do this and

00:49:27.000 --> 00:49:32.460
so he opened his energy he allowed We can block

00:49:32.460 --> 00:49:35.340
it too because I've I can literally like to have

00:49:35.340 --> 00:49:37.519
someone sit in front of me and want say they

00:49:37.519 --> 00:49:40.800
want a reading But I can't get anything and the

00:49:40.800 --> 00:49:42.639
reason I can't is because they don't really want

00:49:42.639 --> 00:49:44.780
to know and they'll admit that like well I didn't

00:49:44.780 --> 00:49:46.980
really want to hear what you had to say. I just

00:49:46.980 --> 00:49:49.360
came because I thought I did Well, I can't work

00:49:49.360 --> 00:49:51.460
with you because you're blocking my energy. I

00:49:51.460 --> 00:49:55.139
can't pick anything up So it's energy. Do you

00:49:55.139 --> 00:49:57.099
go when they yeah, do you think when they say

00:49:57.099 --> 00:50:01.450
things like that? They're just trying to Like

00:50:01.450 --> 00:50:04.889
disqualify the experience because they they couldn't

00:50:04.889 --> 00:50:09.170
Like get a good reading So kind of like cognitive

00:50:09.170 --> 00:50:11.070
dissonance like all I didn't want it anyway just

00:50:11.070 --> 00:50:15.389
to make themselves feel better. Yeah, it is It's

00:50:15.389 --> 00:50:17.730
totally yeah, because they're afraid of what's

00:50:17.730 --> 00:50:21.630
to say I've had Off time I had I know two or

00:50:21.630 --> 00:50:25.769
three clients that did that to me and because

00:50:25.769 --> 00:50:29.349
I provided a safe space by just allowing them

00:50:29.349 --> 00:50:32.150
to be that way for a few minutes and just, you

00:50:32.150 --> 00:50:34.170
know, so what are you here for? Kind of just

00:50:34.170 --> 00:50:39.329
that safe place. They finally would admit that,

00:50:39.650 --> 00:50:44.190
well, I was sort of afraid. I went to this person

00:50:44.190 --> 00:50:46.969
or that kind of service and I was told to try

00:50:46.969 --> 00:50:48.869
this. I didn't know what you were going to tell

00:50:48.869 --> 00:50:52.389
me. I've heard some horror stories about people

00:50:52.389 --> 00:50:54.690
will be told that you have dark entities attached

00:50:54.690 --> 00:50:58.280
to you and all of these. things and so it's scary

00:50:58.280 --> 00:51:01.780
for people but again that's not spirituality

00:51:01.780 --> 00:51:06.579
that's ego driven excuse my french bullshit and

00:51:06.579 --> 00:51:10.039
and i'll challenge anybody to that i do not believe

00:51:10.039 --> 00:51:16.760
in the do i believe in dark heavy thoughts that

00:51:16.760 --> 00:51:20.059
come to mind but i do not believe that an entity

00:51:20.059 --> 00:51:25.269
can attach to you and be there it's had any a

00:51:25.269 --> 00:51:28.550
client tell me that and in the end I'll find

00:51:28.550 --> 00:51:33.150
out through doing energy reading that what they

00:51:33.150 --> 00:51:36.130
feared was somebody coming after them was actually

00:51:36.130 --> 00:51:40.769
maybe an uncle for time like who's past you know

00:51:40.769 --> 00:51:43.829
great great great uncle who's coming to warn

00:51:43.829 --> 00:51:46.769
you about something that they're actually your

00:51:46.769 --> 00:51:49.170
guardian angel they're watching over you and

00:51:49.170 --> 00:51:52.719
they're warning you and In the interest of time,

00:51:52.780 --> 00:51:54.119
I won't go through the whole story, but there

00:51:54.119 --> 00:51:58.420
was, I got the whole story and I told the woman

00:51:58.420 --> 00:52:00.840
and she went, oh my God, that answers all the

00:52:00.840 --> 00:52:02.920
questions of what was going on in my house. And

00:52:02.920 --> 00:52:06.059
it was because her husband was up to no good.

00:52:06.420 --> 00:52:10.139
And every time he was up to no good, uncle so

00:52:10.139 --> 00:52:13.119
-and -so would come shaking up something, turning

00:52:13.119 --> 00:52:15.940
off the lights, whatever it was to get her attention.

00:52:17.019 --> 00:52:19.340
So to kind of go back to what you were asking,

00:52:19.739 --> 00:52:23.420
It is all vibration. It's all energy. And she

00:52:23.420 --> 00:52:29.179
probably was... Just to clarify, there's no such...

00:52:29.179 --> 00:52:31.039
You don't believe there are entities. It's just

00:52:31.039 --> 00:52:34.699
energy. And people are trying to understand it.

00:52:34.719 --> 00:52:37.360
So they kind of make it tangible and they call

00:52:37.360 --> 00:52:39.199
it an entity. Because that's something you can

00:52:39.199 --> 00:52:41.760
visualize more than something so abstract like

00:52:41.760 --> 00:52:47.300
energy. Yeah, I think so. Like I've had people

00:52:47.300 --> 00:52:51.210
say like... the reason they were doing all these

00:52:51.210 --> 00:52:54.510
things was because this dark entity made them

00:52:54.510 --> 00:53:00.010
do it. My perspective is this. My perspective

00:53:00.010 --> 00:53:06.449
is that's heavy energy, that's either you're

00:53:06.449 --> 00:53:09.510
struggling with mental health, that you really

00:53:09.510 --> 00:53:12.730
do need to talk to therapists. And I'm not saying

00:53:12.730 --> 00:53:15.869
they're crazy. What I'm saying is it's just super,

00:53:15.869 --> 00:53:22.090
like some really harsh life happenings are weighing

00:53:22.090 --> 00:53:25.190
on them. And because of that, they've turned

00:53:25.190 --> 00:53:30.369
those things into an avatar of a dark entity.

00:53:32.510 --> 00:53:37.730
And so I've had them come to me and I'll start

00:53:37.730 --> 00:53:40.070
talking about it. And like I said, then that's

00:53:40.070 --> 00:53:43.050
when I realized, no, it's kind of a combination.

00:53:43.250 --> 00:53:44.889
You're getting someone coming to you to tell

00:53:44.889 --> 00:53:50.170
you to beware or guide you. but all of these

00:53:50.170 --> 00:53:54.789
fears and scary traumas and all the things, you're

00:53:54.789 --> 00:53:58.170
attaching that to... Because sometimes we just

00:53:58.170 --> 00:54:01.809
need it attached to something, right? And so

00:54:01.809 --> 00:54:07.110
I kind of call it an avatar. So spirits, yes.

00:54:07.530 --> 00:54:11.969
Dark entities, no. Evil spirits, also no. No

00:54:11.969 --> 00:54:16.550
spirit is evil. I don't believe so. I don't believe

00:54:16.550 --> 00:54:20.449
so. maybe misguided. That's something I can give

00:54:20.449 --> 00:54:26.050
you. I think it's what we apply to them. Yeah.

00:54:28.110 --> 00:54:29.909
It reminds me a lot. Okay, I have a question.

00:54:30.369 --> 00:54:36.900
What is the show that... that relates to mediums,

00:54:37.099 --> 00:54:40.059
spiritual advisors, and so on. The TV show that

00:54:40.059 --> 00:54:42.639
you think is the most accurate representation

00:54:42.639 --> 00:54:45.059
of what you do. Well, I don't watch a lot of

00:54:45.059 --> 00:54:51.239
TV, but I would say John Edwards is a good one,

00:54:51.239 --> 00:54:56.239
because he's authentic. He's just this dude that

00:54:56.239 --> 00:54:59.679
just happens to have this, like the way he came

00:54:59.679 --> 00:55:07.349
about is as similar as I. And I think he's probably

00:55:07.349 --> 00:55:10.329
the one I respect the most. There's a guy on

00:55:10.329 --> 00:55:13.010
YouTube, I can't remember his name, Charlie.

00:55:15.710 --> 00:55:18.110
I want to hear that. I think you misunderstood

00:55:18.110 --> 00:55:21.630
my question. I'm talking about like a TV series,

00:55:21.849 --> 00:55:26.590
fictional TV show with a character. I'm sorry.

00:55:27.329 --> 00:55:30.630
Okay. So I'm trying to remember the name of the

00:55:30.630 --> 00:55:38.820
show. ghost maybe ghost whisper with yeah with

00:55:38.820 --> 00:55:42.039
jennifer love hewitt yeah that's what i was yeah

00:55:42.039 --> 00:55:45.300
as well that's what that would be the closest

00:55:45.300 --> 00:55:49.860
i could get yeah probably um just because of

00:55:49.860 --> 00:55:53.239
the way she got her information for all is like

00:55:53.239 --> 00:55:56.820
there were there were some it's a show for entertainment

00:55:56.820 --> 00:56:00.260
obviously there were some dark entities but overwhelmingly

00:56:00.260 --> 00:56:04.820
it was just spurts Trying to find their way back

00:56:04.820 --> 00:56:09.739
In a way and sometimes misguided Yeah, and I

00:56:09.739 --> 00:56:13.320
I've had like my brother -in -law was we lost

00:56:13.320 --> 00:56:16.079
him in a car accident and my sister was told

00:56:16.079 --> 00:56:19.480
by somebody That oh he's stuck on the side of

00:56:19.480 --> 00:56:22.000
the road his spirit stuck there. That's not how

00:56:22.000 --> 00:56:28.099
it happens. That's just not So he Everyone is

00:56:28.099 --> 00:56:33.840
on the other side when they leave Cool. That's

00:56:33.840 --> 00:56:39.619
also comforting. So, resonance, this is your

00:56:39.619 --> 00:56:47.500
topic, right? Yeah. I fully believe in resonance.

00:56:47.719 --> 00:56:50.340
I think that it's much harder for us to pick

00:56:50.340 --> 00:56:55.500
up on. But we are, in essence, the functioning

00:56:55.500 --> 00:56:59.599
of our personality, ego, higher self, everything.

00:56:59.880 --> 00:57:03.300
that happens within this body is a function of

00:57:03.300 --> 00:57:05.820
electromagnetism which is directly affected by

00:57:05.820 --> 00:57:09.480
the things around it. Yeah, there's that scientific

00:57:09.480 --> 00:57:15.099
element. Yeah, exactly. I don't know that it's

00:57:15.099 --> 00:57:19.179
measurable necessarily, but even if it's not,

00:57:19.400 --> 00:57:24.159
this is where my faith comes in. I think people

00:57:24.159 --> 00:57:28.639
just don't know how to be in tune with it. It's

00:57:28.639 --> 00:57:32.880
still such a... like an abstract concept. Like,

00:57:33.079 --> 00:57:36.739
you know, we can't see radio waves, but we accept

00:57:36.739 --> 00:57:40.800
them. But it's so hard to really understand this

00:57:40.800 --> 00:57:43.179
idea of resonance. Maybe it's because we don't

00:57:43.179 --> 00:57:46.719
have the capacity, not, well, I don't, have the

00:57:46.719 --> 00:57:51.840
capacity to, you know, see it, hear it, feel

00:57:51.840 --> 00:57:56.199
it, and use it as a tool. I think what people

00:57:56.199 --> 00:57:58.769
want, I think what people want, and I think this

00:57:58.769 --> 00:58:02.210
might be the ego, because I'm learning from Diane,

00:58:03.070 --> 00:58:05.530
we want power, we want control, kind of like

00:58:05.530 --> 00:58:08.849
superpowers, and it's bad. And it's not like

00:58:08.849 --> 00:58:12.670
that. It's much more subtle, I think. Yeah, and

00:58:12.670 --> 00:58:16.250
I think for me, in terms of reading people's

00:58:16.250 --> 00:58:22.170
energy, and I believe anyone who really comes

00:58:22.170 --> 00:58:24.570
from, I don't want to say traumatic lives, but

00:58:24.570 --> 00:58:28.480
you go through a lot of stuff. And life you and

00:58:28.480 --> 00:58:32.420
especially if you have anyone who substance abuse

00:58:32.420 --> 00:58:36.900
or just abuse of any kind. If you're around people

00:58:36.900 --> 00:58:40.519
like that, you pick up, you're very alert because

00:58:40.519 --> 00:58:43.000
of their, um, you never know what they're going

00:58:43.000 --> 00:58:45.500
to do from one minute to the next. Right. And

00:58:45.500 --> 00:58:47.920
their inconsistency. So you start to kind of

00:58:47.920 --> 00:58:51.699
pick up on energy and like, okay, I feel like

00:58:51.699 --> 00:58:54.900
they walked in the house and now I can feel that

00:58:54.900 --> 00:58:58.460
I. Learned over years to just pick up on that

00:58:58.460 --> 00:59:02.219
stuff and really lean learn that. Oh when I feel

00:59:02.219 --> 00:59:05.980
those that person acts like this or is this and

00:59:05.980 --> 00:59:11.019
so then I I've just started Intuitively just

00:59:11.019 --> 00:59:14.019
started using it like I wasn't taught. Yes This

00:59:14.019 --> 00:59:16.679
is all over the years and that's because I've

00:59:16.679 --> 00:59:19.079
been put in so many different places different

00:59:19.079 --> 00:59:22.139
jobs and stuff that I've just Been able to collect

00:59:22.139 --> 00:59:26.210
the ability and then school classes helped me

00:59:26.210 --> 00:59:29.070
hone it. I believe everybody has this ability.

00:59:30.429 --> 00:59:33.030
That was your original perspective. Everybody

00:59:33.030 --> 00:59:37.909
is as intuitive as you are. I believe that too

00:59:37.909 --> 00:59:40.210
because I told you, I don't know, a couple weeks

00:59:40.210 --> 00:59:43.750
ago we were out. We were out eating and I told

00:59:43.750 --> 00:59:46.010
you about, you know, I went to a psychic and

00:59:46.010 --> 00:59:49.369
he told me the same concept, you know, that like

00:59:49.369 --> 00:59:51.710
I have this. Are you going to tell that story?

00:59:53.039 --> 00:59:55.780
What's to tell, really? That's it, I just summarized

00:59:55.780 --> 00:59:59.840
it. You mean the story about how he predicted

00:59:59.840 --> 01:00:03.280
meeting you? Yes. And I did not know that, okay.

01:00:04.179 --> 01:00:07.739
Well I went to, like before I, like more than

01:00:07.739 --> 01:00:10.960
10 years ago, maybe 15 years ago, I went to,

01:00:11.940 --> 01:00:14.519
I like going to psychics and mediums back home,

01:00:14.519 --> 01:00:18.400
I like doing that, so I went often. And one of

01:00:18.400 --> 01:00:20.039
them, when I was young, he said, when you're

01:00:20.039 --> 01:00:23.900
older, you're gonna meet a man. He read playing

01:00:23.900 --> 01:00:28.900
cards. And so he chose, it was like, I don't

01:00:28.900 --> 01:00:31.179
know, a queen or a jack something, and he said

01:00:31.179 --> 01:00:33.360
like this one, this is a man you're gonna meet,

01:00:33.820 --> 01:00:36.519
but he doesn't want to be a man. He's got blue

01:00:36.519 --> 01:00:40.380
eyes, he likes to dress as a woman. His name,

01:00:40.440 --> 01:00:44.960
his name, it starts with a J. Don't say that

01:00:44.960 --> 01:00:49.039
name. I won't say that name. But it's Ruby's

01:00:49.039 --> 01:00:52.420
name. Yeah, it's my name. And I went through

01:00:52.420 --> 01:00:56.059
life meeting all these men with J's and having

01:00:56.059 --> 01:01:00.880
the same kinds of appearance and stuff, but I

01:01:00.880 --> 01:01:05.739
was like, oh, is this the guy? But it never really

01:01:05.739 --> 01:01:10.179
kind of fit until Ruby. But aside from that,

01:01:10.360 --> 01:01:16.250
this same medium told me, you have this... Intuition

01:01:16.250 --> 01:01:18.170
everyone has it and they should like hone it

01:01:18.170 --> 01:01:19.969
but he specifically told me I should practice

01:01:19.969 --> 01:01:23.429
it but It was just you know, too overwhelming

01:01:23.429 --> 01:01:26.469
to even consider doing but yeah, that's that's

01:01:26.469 --> 01:01:32.469
what That reminds me of And I mentioned You were

01:01:32.469 --> 01:01:36.050
talking about earlier, how did we about how do

01:01:36.050 --> 01:01:41.070
you know when you like hear your inner voice

01:01:41.070 --> 01:01:43.940
versus ego or something I would think Yeah, so

01:01:43.940 --> 01:01:46.579
my question to you is how do you know it was

01:01:46.579 --> 01:01:49.039
her? I don't really know it's her but I mean

01:01:49.039 --> 01:01:52.579
it everything No, but you do the lines with what

01:01:52.579 --> 01:01:56.460
he said. It's it's so I don't it's perfect versus

01:01:56.460 --> 01:02:00.539
the what? The others you met over a little time.

01:02:00.940 --> 01:02:03.139
Well, because they didn't they didn't do things

01:02:03.139 --> 01:02:05.059
like you know, they didn't address they didn't

01:02:05.059 --> 01:02:11.599
dress as Women they didn't do drag Their their

01:02:11.599 --> 01:02:15.730
beliefs Were different so obviously Ruby's transgender,

01:02:15.789 --> 01:02:18.329
but you know these other people I met you know

01:02:18.329 --> 01:02:23.969
are staunchly against Transgender so you know

01:02:23.969 --> 01:02:27.730
there and so that's why For years I was kind

01:02:27.730 --> 01:02:30.489
of like well could this be the person like there's

01:02:30.489 --> 01:02:32.969
some things that the medium said that aligns

01:02:32.969 --> 01:02:36.050
with that Maybe it's them, but then it just dawned

01:02:36.050 --> 01:02:40.630
on me only recently really Donning on you is

01:02:40.630 --> 01:02:43.309
what I was trying to get to you get you to get

01:02:43.309 --> 01:02:47.730
that moment Excuse me, because that's the feeling

01:02:47.730 --> 01:02:50.949
I'm talking about when you when you connect to

01:02:50.949 --> 01:02:54.789
you like like You may not think of it as that

01:02:54.789 --> 01:02:59.489
but it is that feeling when you Connect to your

01:02:59.489 --> 01:03:01.530
higher self and get the guidance and understand

01:03:01.530 --> 01:03:07.550
like ah It's really cool. And I don't think you

01:03:07.550 --> 01:03:10.449
told anyone before that story, right? I never

01:03:10.449 --> 01:03:12.349
told anybody that. Now that you've told me, it's

01:03:12.349 --> 01:03:14.929
kind of sealed. I think it's over. The prophecy

01:03:14.929 --> 01:03:17.989
is done. Yeah. I think I'm going to still go

01:03:17.989 --> 01:03:21.210
back home and look in all my old little notes

01:03:21.210 --> 01:03:24.710
and find that because I would go to the mediums

01:03:24.710 --> 01:03:26.309
and I would take notes as they're telling me.

01:03:26.909 --> 01:03:29.409
I'll try. I'll see if it still exists. I will.

01:03:30.030 --> 01:03:33.630
You can frame it. Okay. That would be cool. I

01:03:33.630 --> 01:03:36.909
mean what a full circle moment and that's awesome.

01:03:37.590 --> 01:03:42.210
Yeah, true. Yeah, cool I remember the first time

01:03:42.210 --> 01:03:45.409
I actually because I've been crossdressing for

01:03:45.409 --> 01:03:51.050
a very long time But secretly and then I was

01:03:51.050 --> 01:03:56.730
like, okay, it's Halloween And I'm gonna wear

01:03:56.730 --> 01:04:00.809
I'm just gonna wear wig because I don't like

01:04:00.809 --> 01:04:05.170
wearing silly, hella mean costumes. I want my,

01:04:05.650 --> 01:04:08.389
like the thing that drives me always has been,

01:04:08.829 --> 01:04:11.869
how do you do something authentically? And it's

01:04:11.869 --> 01:04:15.349
actually something that held me back from being

01:04:15.349 --> 01:04:17.769
authentic for a long time because I was like,

01:04:17.949 --> 01:04:23.269
if I'm, I don't want to be a parody of a woman.

01:04:24.769 --> 01:04:29.730
That would, that wouldn't be just. like in my

01:04:29.730 --> 01:04:34.409
mind, it needs to be, I don't know how to put

01:04:34.409 --> 01:04:38.329
it into words, an authentic experience, like

01:04:38.329 --> 01:04:45.070
not a parody. And for the first time, so that's

01:04:45.070 --> 01:04:48.210
why I would never wear like a Pikachu costume,

01:04:49.329 --> 01:04:53.170
because I just think it's stupid. But I got this

01:04:53.170 --> 01:05:00.760
like pretty realistic looking wig. And I just

01:05:00.760 --> 01:05:03.199
went to school in my normal school uniform, but

01:05:03.199 --> 01:05:07.659
I took my co -teacher's scarf. And then I was

01:05:07.659 --> 01:05:10.900
a girl. And she said, Oh, dressing in drag. That's

01:05:10.900 --> 01:05:13.699
cool. Did I say that? I don't remember this.

01:05:13.760 --> 01:05:16.139
I don't remember this at all. Was it this last

01:05:16.139 --> 01:05:18.800
year or last last year? The previous year. I

01:05:18.800 --> 01:05:21.519
really don't remember. Did I say it in like kind

01:05:21.519 --> 01:05:25.360
of like a... No, we were already becoming friends.

01:05:25.469 --> 01:05:27.550
Yeah. Well, I would hope I wouldn't say it with

01:05:27.550 --> 01:05:29.690
any kind of... Oh, no, it wasn't. It wasn't the

01:05:29.690 --> 01:05:32.309
mean spirit. Attitude. Yeah, mean spirit. I really

01:05:32.309 --> 01:05:33.750
don't remember that. Maybe that's because for

01:05:33.750 --> 01:05:36.110
me it's just so acceptable and normal. Yeah.

01:05:36.349 --> 01:05:39.250
For me, like, if I was like, okay, cool, I felt...

01:05:39.250 --> 01:05:42.530
I started feeling much more comfortable just

01:05:42.530 --> 01:05:49.309
talking to you. Yeah. Anyway... Yeah, it's a

01:05:49.309 --> 01:05:56.360
nice one, actually. I want to talk about... threshold

01:05:56.360 --> 01:06:02.000
moments. So I think that I actually did a vlog

01:06:02.000 --> 01:06:05.059
about this a couple of days ago. I think everybody

01:06:05.059 --> 01:06:07.420
goes through threshold moments in their lives,

01:06:08.199 --> 01:06:11.699
something that they cannot go back from ever.

01:06:11.900 --> 01:06:16.119
What are your biggest threshold moments do you

01:06:16.119 --> 01:06:19.500
think? Or what if you don't want to answer that

01:06:19.500 --> 01:06:22.619
question? What do you think is a threshold moment

01:06:22.619 --> 01:06:25.719
that people have to go through in order to achieve

01:06:25.719 --> 01:06:29.800
something? That's really tough. Me, I can't go

01:06:29.800 --> 01:06:35.039
back to, I left the business corporate world

01:06:35.039 --> 01:06:39.039
and although that was a career, it was bigger

01:06:39.039 --> 01:06:42.460
than that for me. It was my identity because

01:06:42.460 --> 01:06:46.579
I was doing that since I was 17. So when I left

01:06:46.579 --> 01:06:51.389
that, Um, I literally remember walking out that

01:06:51.389 --> 01:06:53.550
business, that office tour going, I'll never

01:06:53.550 --> 01:06:56.650
come back to this like ever, like the world of

01:06:56.650 --> 01:07:00.289
corporate. I didn't know why I knew that I just

01:07:00.289 --> 01:07:02.409
in my heart of hearts just knew I'll never go

01:07:02.409 --> 01:07:06.750
back to that, that world. Um, so that for me,

01:07:06.769 --> 01:07:11.469
it was a big threshold moment. It has taken time

01:07:11.469 --> 01:07:14.349
though, to accept that threshold moment. So I

01:07:14.349 --> 01:07:17.949
think that's another element of it all. What

01:07:17.949 --> 01:07:20.210
is the thing that happened that made you go,

01:07:20.210 --> 01:07:22.090
I'll never come back to this? Is it just when

01:07:22.090 --> 01:07:27.389
you walked out of the building? No, it was the

01:07:27.389 --> 01:07:33.010
35 plus years of inauthenticity and having to

01:07:33.010 --> 01:07:37.269
live and abide in a certain world, knowing it

01:07:37.269 --> 01:07:44.170
wasn't honest, was hurting people. In order to

01:07:44.170 --> 01:07:47.949
succeed, I would have to be Like more of what

01:07:47.949 --> 01:07:53.530
I didn't want to be. And so, um, yeah, that,

01:07:53.610 --> 01:07:56.329
that, and now to think about going back, which

01:07:56.329 --> 01:07:59.789
I did actually a couple of years ago and had

01:07:59.789 --> 01:08:03.269
an interview lined up and I just couldn't do

01:08:03.269 --> 01:08:05.929
it. My body and everything, the energy with it.

01:08:06.070 --> 01:08:11.219
I was like, nah. Can't go back. Plus I'm so sensitive

01:08:11.219 --> 01:08:13.079
now because of the energy. I feel like I can

01:08:13.079 --> 01:08:16.100
always go back to things. A threshold moment

01:08:16.100 --> 01:08:19.180
for me, something that impacted me greatly, I

01:08:19.180 --> 01:08:22.199
think, was, and this might sound really cliche,

01:08:22.479 --> 01:08:26.340
but the selling of my childhood home. So I really

01:08:26.340 --> 01:08:28.640
didn't want my mother to sell her childhood home.

01:08:28.720 --> 01:08:32.840
I wanted her to stay there forever. Because it

01:08:32.840 --> 01:08:34.899
was just, I guess it was maybe so comfortable.

01:08:37.479 --> 01:08:39.539
In retrospect, I don't think it obviously it

01:08:39.539 --> 01:08:42.220
was a good thing because it really that's what

01:08:42.220 --> 01:08:46.939
pushed me. To go overseas, which sounds really

01:08:46.939 --> 01:08:52.539
strange, but. I think that was finally a good

01:08:52.539 --> 01:08:56.500
excuse to say OK. Time to go because my whole

01:08:56.500 --> 01:08:58.680
family had just like left to the city that we

01:08:58.680 --> 01:09:02.920
were all in at that time. Wow, so there was and

01:09:02.920 --> 01:09:06.369
I just there was no point for me. staying there.

01:09:06.430 --> 01:09:08.869
And I always wanted to work overseas, so I thought,

01:09:09.430 --> 01:09:12.689
okay. I'm making it sound more positive than

01:09:12.689 --> 01:09:16.430
it is. It was pretty dramatic for me. It was

01:09:16.430 --> 01:09:22.390
scary, but yes, I did it. And now, the funny

01:09:22.390 --> 01:09:24.350
thing is all of my family has moved back to the

01:09:24.350 --> 01:09:28.770
same city. So, you know, it all worked out, but

01:09:28.770 --> 01:09:31.789
we still don't, like, our childhood home is not

01:09:31.789 --> 01:09:33.649
our childhood home. My mother has a new home.

01:09:34.230 --> 01:09:37.789
I can still walk on my old street, and I still

01:09:37.789 --> 01:09:42.970
look at my old childhood home. I don't know if

01:09:42.970 --> 01:09:45.130
I envy the people there, but there's definitely

01:09:45.130 --> 01:09:47.390
some kind of, what's the word, I don't know,

01:09:47.550 --> 01:09:48.909
pain. Nostalgia? Yeah, nostalgia, that's good.

01:09:48.970 --> 01:09:53.449
That's a good one for it. So I guess that's the

01:09:53.449 --> 01:09:55.909
threshold moment I can think of. Something over

01:09:55.909 --> 01:09:58.590
your phone. It changed you as a person. It did,

01:09:58.829 --> 01:10:02.840
because I really, like, growing up, I... In my

01:10:02.840 --> 01:10:05.479
hometown, I felt like my peers thought my hometown

01:10:05.479 --> 01:10:07.720
wasn't cool. They wanted to go and see the world

01:10:07.720 --> 01:10:11.640
and be in more cosmopolitan places. But me, I

01:10:11.640 --> 01:10:15.659
thought this is enough. So having to leave it

01:10:15.659 --> 01:10:18.779
was really painful. I was just so used to that

01:10:18.779 --> 01:10:21.300
comfort and I felt safe. It's hard for me to

01:10:21.300 --> 01:10:23.600
relate to. Yeah, I believe it's hard for a lot

01:10:23.600 --> 01:10:25.100
of people to relate to. Like I said, it sounds

01:10:25.100 --> 01:10:28.569
really like... cliche and kind of campy. No,

01:10:28.569 --> 01:10:30.989
I don't think it's cliche or campy at all. I

01:10:30.989 --> 01:10:36.529
have like deep empathy for that. And I wish that

01:10:36.529 --> 01:10:39.189
I could have a threshold moment like that. But

01:10:39.189 --> 01:10:44.350
I never cared about any place that I lived in.

01:10:44.550 --> 01:10:46.750
That's not a bad thing though. I think it is.

01:10:46.909 --> 01:10:49.470
I think it's good because I never felt like this

01:10:49.470 --> 01:10:51.810
is where I belong. Home is where the heart is.

01:10:52.789 --> 01:10:57.199
Yeah, sure. I miss, if I go to South Africa now,

01:10:57.420 --> 01:11:03.119
I miss China. This is my home now. But it's my

01:11:03.119 --> 01:11:06.979
home and so much as the people that I love are

01:11:06.979 --> 01:11:17.180
here. Obviously, I love my family too. But there's

01:11:17.180 --> 01:11:22.479
a disconnect and experience and understanding.

01:11:23.569 --> 01:11:28.130
that I think is absent in South Africa. Like

01:11:28.130 --> 01:11:34.149
this conservative state and culture and very

01:11:34.149 --> 01:11:37.050
kind of structured. It's very limited because

01:11:37.050 --> 01:11:40.250
in South Africa you can't... At 6 p .m. everything

01:11:40.250 --> 01:11:43.409
shuts down. Nobody's on the roads anymore because

01:11:43.409 --> 01:11:46.449
it's not safe. You can't go have a beer anywhere.

01:11:47.850 --> 01:11:53.119
I mean, I don't drink a lot. But when I want

01:11:53.119 --> 01:11:56.000
to, I want to be able to go out at 1 a .m. and

01:11:56.000 --> 01:12:00.539
do that. Why does it matter when you are allowed

01:12:00.539 --> 01:12:07.859
to do anything? Obviously, that's not a threshold

01:12:07.859 --> 01:12:12.840
moment at all. My threshold moment was the one

01:12:12.840 --> 01:12:18.840
that changed my life the most. There are a few

01:12:18.840 --> 01:12:21.279
factors here. and now I'm going to bring this

01:12:21.279 --> 01:12:24.399
all back to being trans. Being one of those people.

01:12:25.800 --> 01:12:28.659
Started cross -dressing during the time of, during

01:12:28.659 --> 01:12:35.380
COVID actually, more and more. Then when we moved

01:12:35.380 --> 01:12:41.199
to this, when I moved to this job, finally all

01:12:41.199 --> 01:12:46.159
of my like financial issues were solved. And

01:12:46.159 --> 01:12:51.479
so no more debt, savings. some expendable cash.

01:12:52.960 --> 01:12:56.840
And I was like, now I can authenticate, I can

01:12:56.840 --> 01:12:59.699
do justice to cross -dressing. Like it's going

01:12:59.699 --> 01:13:03.920
to be good. And I can go through all of these

01:13:03.920 --> 01:13:06.939
tests and make sure that it looks good. And I

01:13:06.939 --> 01:13:10.119
had the best time, but I would not have told

01:13:10.119 --> 01:13:12.899
anybody. I wouldn't have, if somebody said, are

01:13:12.899 --> 01:13:15.319
you transgender? I would be like, no, no, no,

01:13:15.479 --> 01:13:19.100
no way, not me. I was subconsciously looking

01:13:19.100 --> 01:13:23.000
or Yeah, I was conscious of the fact that I was

01:13:23.000 --> 01:13:26.140
doing this but in complete denial of the fact

01:13:26.140 --> 01:13:30.239
that I was doing it walking through pharmacies

01:13:30.239 --> 01:13:35.199
looking for misplaced pill boxes that had high

01:13:35.199 --> 01:13:37.739
levels of estrogen because none of them are RTC

01:13:37.739 --> 01:13:43.359
and then I met a guardian angel on a website

01:13:43.359 --> 01:13:48.340
and I was like I read your story. How did you

01:13:48.340 --> 01:13:51.960
do this? She transitioned during COVID. She's

01:13:51.960 --> 01:13:57.140
British. And she's like, this is someone you

01:13:57.140 --> 01:14:01.680
can contact. And I was able to get a box of pills.

01:14:02.420 --> 01:14:06.020
My threshold moment was going to the delivery

01:14:06.020 --> 01:14:12.600
station, picking up my box, opening it up, and

01:14:12.600 --> 01:14:17.479
taking out a box of bioidentical estrogen and

01:14:17.479 --> 01:14:20.380
it was like a lightning rod moment. Boom. There

01:14:20.380 --> 01:14:24.159
was no way I was gonna put it back ever. It was

01:14:24.159 --> 01:14:30.020
like, this is the thing. If anybody had given

01:14:30.020 --> 01:14:33.979
me that box at any time before in my life, it

01:14:33.979 --> 01:14:36.300
would have been the same thing. That was my threshold

01:14:36.300 --> 01:14:40.239
moment. That's amazing. Yeah. Yeah. And where

01:14:40.239 --> 01:14:42.539
did your threshold moment, so you have answers,

01:14:42.760 --> 01:14:45.300
but it's just a thought process. Where did those

01:14:45.300 --> 01:14:48.439
take us? Look where we are, look what you're

01:14:48.439 --> 01:14:52.520
doing, look who you are. Those threshold moments

01:14:52.520 --> 01:14:58.340
are kind of... Point, very true. Yeah. They're

01:14:58.340 --> 01:15:01.979
like catapults into the future. Embrace your

01:15:01.979 --> 01:15:04.539
threshold moments if you find a moment like that.

01:15:05.680 --> 01:15:08.840
Yeah. But I think there are also threshold concepts.

01:15:08.859 --> 01:15:13.079
What do you mean? Once you start... Being able

01:15:13.079 --> 01:15:17.159
to... It's kind of like the idea of theses ship.

01:15:17.340 --> 01:15:20.720
You can be afraid of changing parts of your personality

01:15:20.720 --> 01:15:23.159
in your life because you're afraid that you will

01:15:23.159 --> 01:15:30.100
lose your life. Yes. Yeah. But once you make

01:15:30.100 --> 01:15:36.239
peace with the idea that your ship is intrinsically

01:15:36.239 --> 01:15:41.250
the same ship as what the captain is on. If you

01:15:41.250 --> 01:15:45.829
take this captain onto another ship, that other

01:15:45.829 --> 01:15:49.090
ship is now the captain's ship. It's still you.

01:15:49.090 --> 01:15:52.590
It's still your ship. It doesn't matter how much

01:15:52.590 --> 01:15:55.109
you change the ship. It's still your life. Is

01:15:55.109 --> 01:15:58.770
that the higher self? I think that the captain

01:15:58.770 --> 01:16:02.710
is the higher self in a way. And the ego is the

01:16:02.710 --> 01:16:08.020
ship. Yeah, could be. I have to break that one

01:16:08.020 --> 01:16:10.260
down. That's big. However you want to do it.

01:16:10.600 --> 01:16:14.640
Okay. I wrote a poem about this. It's called

01:16:14.640 --> 01:16:17.560
The Nameless Ship. It's on my Instagram. You

01:16:17.560 --> 01:16:20.739
can go and check it out. Love it. I love the

01:16:20.739 --> 01:16:24.460
concept. Good analogy. Does the higher self control

01:16:24.460 --> 01:16:28.159
the ego? They're separate and the ego is just

01:16:28.159 --> 01:16:32.220
something that gets in the way. Yeah. To me,

01:16:32.399 --> 01:16:36.119
the ego is the human side. Because you know doesn't

01:16:36.119 --> 01:16:39.819
mean bad doesn't mean like well look at me It's

01:16:39.819 --> 01:16:43.239
it is like like I remember when I did my first

01:16:43.239 --> 01:16:47.640
reading and I felt bad about something and my

01:16:47.640 --> 01:16:51.119
instructor said Get the ego out of the way. So

01:16:51.119 --> 01:16:53.079
it's not and I'm like playing me and that's not

01:16:53.079 --> 01:16:54.640
you go I'm just trying to be nice and she's like

01:16:54.640 --> 01:17:00.300
that's ego and it is it's it's all It's with

01:17:00.560 --> 01:17:03.500
Our higher selves, our higher selves are the

01:17:03.500 --> 01:17:06.520
most honest parts of us. But the ego is the one

01:17:06.520 --> 01:17:09.560
that is kind of the shapeshifter, right? Like

01:17:09.560 --> 01:17:12.579
changes for however and then judges and makes

01:17:12.579 --> 01:17:16.260
all of that. So I don't know. That's just, to

01:17:16.260 --> 01:17:19.000
me, they're just separate, but yet connected.

01:17:19.520 --> 01:17:24.300
Yeah. It makes sense. Yeah. Maybe the ship is

01:17:24.300 --> 01:17:26.779
not the ego. The ship is the life. Maybe the

01:17:26.779 --> 01:17:30.739
captain is the ego and the higher self is the

01:17:30.739 --> 01:17:35.180
orders or the destination. We have to refine

01:17:35.180 --> 01:17:40.960
this. It doesn't matter. It doesn't matter. Well,

01:17:41.920 --> 01:17:44.060
there's a duality there so I think that's the

01:17:44.060 --> 01:17:47.460
thing we need to at least acknowledge between

01:17:47.460 --> 01:17:50.520
higher self and ego. For sure. Are there any

01:17:50.520 --> 01:17:55.180
other questions? No, I'm done. Maybe I'm not.

01:17:55.680 --> 01:17:58.680
I mean, I can always have questions. Well, I

01:17:58.680 --> 01:18:01.899
appreciate you guys allowing me to spend time

01:18:01.899 --> 01:18:05.279
with you guys. I really enjoyed our conversation.

01:18:05.500 --> 01:18:07.699
It's so loose. That's fine. You guys are easy

01:18:07.699 --> 01:18:10.319
to talk to. And I love that you're so open because

01:18:10.319 --> 01:18:14.100
then it allows me to give and share. So thank

01:18:14.100 --> 01:18:19.880
you for doing that. Thank you so much for coming

01:18:19.880 --> 01:18:26.109
on to the podcast. Yeah. Super lovely. I'm always

01:18:26.109 --> 01:18:31.029
I'm always So I don't want to say worried I'll

01:18:31.029 --> 01:18:34.170
say skeptical of our podcast that that like we're

01:18:34.170 --> 01:18:37.649
not gonna have things to talk about but So far

01:18:37.649 --> 01:18:40.170
hasn't happened yet never happened. I don't know

01:18:40.170 --> 01:18:42.409
where Ruby finds everybody, but she delivers.

01:18:42.409 --> 01:18:46.869
I love it This is great My higher self is busy

01:18:46.869 --> 01:18:50.029
scouting while I dream. Yeah, I was really excited

01:18:50.029 --> 01:18:57.760
about that. Diane riser your sub stack is trust

01:18:57.760 --> 01:19:03.539
issues by Diane and your Company is oak and tusk

01:19:03.539 --> 01:19:10.039
guidance where you will take on clients or Spiritual

01:19:10.039 --> 01:19:15.039
advisory help with your skills as a medium and

01:19:15.039 --> 01:19:23.779
an intuitive and path My name is What kind of

01:19:23.779 --> 01:19:27.859
classes do you teach? Teach card reading classes.

01:19:27.979 --> 01:19:30.680
Everything I teach is about using your intuition.

01:19:30.960 --> 01:19:36.000
So I teach, and everything's virtual, but card

01:19:36.000 --> 01:19:40.060
reading. So Oracle or any card that has pictures

01:19:40.060 --> 01:19:43.920
on it really. I don't do the playing cards. My

01:19:43.920 --> 01:19:45.739
mother -in -law used to do that though. So it

01:19:45.739 --> 01:19:49.479
was funny, Luigi, you mentioned that. Yeah, I

01:19:49.479 --> 01:19:53.180
honestly, to me when I saw it. I thought, what

01:19:53.180 --> 01:19:56.560
a strange thing to use playing cards. That's

01:19:56.560 --> 01:20:00.920
a gift. That's a real talent. But so I teach

01:20:00.920 --> 01:20:05.159
card reading, and I also teach what I call intuitive

01:20:05.159 --> 01:20:09.979
class. And so it's about connecting to your intuition.

01:20:11.000 --> 01:20:13.979
And through that, people are often able to find

01:20:13.979 --> 01:20:16.220
that they can do readings, too. And I have people,

01:20:16.239 --> 01:20:18.359
by the end of all classes, they're doing reading.

01:20:18.460 --> 01:20:21.880
That is so cool. I'm going to ask you about your

01:20:21.880 --> 01:20:24.420
mother -in -law reading with cards when I come

01:20:24.420 --> 01:20:27.420
onto your podcast on the 22nd. For sure. Well,

01:20:27.439 --> 01:20:30.100
there won't be much. I never had her do it because

01:20:30.100 --> 01:20:35.020
she did it before I knew that. And she passed.

01:20:35.100 --> 01:20:39.779
So I never got a chance doing this work. I was

01:20:39.779 --> 01:20:45.260
in corporate when she left. I do get her energy

01:20:45.260 --> 01:20:48.239
this way, but I might be able to connect to her

01:20:48.239 --> 01:20:52.039
and get some answers. But yeah, I don't know

01:20:52.039 --> 01:20:54.539
a lot on this side about how that worked with

01:20:54.539 --> 01:20:57.640
her. Okay, I have one last question. It'll be

01:20:57.640 --> 01:21:02.979
quick. So I was talking to Ruby about this earlier

01:21:02.979 --> 01:21:06.359
before the show. We were talking about cards,

01:21:06.539 --> 01:21:10.180
and I was saying, I was showing her, I like...

01:21:10.839 --> 01:21:13.159
card reading and tarot cards and things like

01:21:13.159 --> 01:21:18.260
that. Now, do you think that the card matters?

01:21:18.920 --> 01:21:22.359
Because I know there are some people who think

01:21:22.359 --> 01:21:26.560
like if you read, if your tarot card is not the

01:21:26.560 --> 01:21:30.979
standard tarot card side, let's say, or it's

01:21:30.979 --> 01:21:33.699
not good, it doesn't count. Or do you think you

01:21:33.699 --> 01:21:38.000
can use any, anything, it just depends on your

01:21:38.000 --> 01:21:40.239
intuition and your energy and how you... Attune

01:21:40.239 --> 01:21:46.399
yourself with it and use it as a tool. Yes, so

01:21:46.399 --> 01:21:51.479
Tarot card readers people who are specific to

01:21:51.479 --> 01:21:56.739
tarot like that is a That's that's an intuitive

01:21:56.739 --> 01:21:59.579
thing. But also like that's a skill set like

01:21:59.579 --> 01:22:03.479
that's something they studied and really so There's

01:22:03.479 --> 01:22:06.460
different types of readers all That is a skill

01:22:06.460 --> 01:22:10.119
set. They've used all the above to do but what

01:22:10.119 --> 01:22:14.460
I like someone like myself I it does not matter

01:22:14.460 --> 01:22:20.439
because I I read intuitively so I'll just give

01:22:20.439 --> 01:22:23.920
you a really quick example is Like when I look

01:22:23.920 --> 01:22:27.460
at a card, so let's I Won't get your colorful

01:22:27.460 --> 01:22:33.359
ones Yeah, when you look at a card There's all

01:22:33.359 --> 01:22:36.000
kinds of things on the card, right? But when

01:22:36.000 --> 01:22:39.899
I read, what will happen is certain things will

01:22:39.899 --> 01:22:42.960
pop out to me and those certain things have different

01:22:42.960 --> 01:22:46.960
meanings. So like her butterfly wings, um, depending

01:22:46.960 --> 01:22:49.319
on who's in front of me and what energy I'm picking

01:22:49.319 --> 01:22:52.880
up, that might represent transition. It might

01:22:52.880 --> 01:22:57.579
represent growth. Um, it could different things

01:22:57.579 --> 01:23:00.159
I might pick up on the color. which is different

01:23:00.159 --> 01:23:02.960
chakra colors. I might go, oh, you know, you

01:23:02.960 --> 01:23:05.119
might be feeling something here. Let's dig into

01:23:05.119 --> 01:23:09.619
that. So it's that's how I work. And again, we're

01:23:09.619 --> 01:23:12.300
all different. And what's beautiful, what's so

01:23:12.300 --> 01:23:14.220
beautiful is I've had clients come to me and

01:23:14.220 --> 01:23:16.720
they're funny because they'll be like, so I went

01:23:16.720 --> 01:23:18.979
and saw a different psychic or I went and saw

01:23:18.979 --> 01:23:23.880
a different. Cool, because, yeah, you get different

01:23:23.880 --> 01:23:27.350
perspectives. And honestly, most the ones that

01:23:27.350 --> 01:23:31.390
are authentic readers will often be like the

01:23:31.390 --> 01:23:33.710
messaging will be the same as what I get maybe

01:23:33.710 --> 01:23:35.750
worded different or picked up different but the

01:23:35.750 --> 01:23:38.430
messaging is the messaging your guidance is your

01:23:38.430 --> 01:23:41.329
guidance it's not going to change yeah the delivery

01:23:41.329 --> 01:23:45.010
person might but if they're authentically reading

01:23:45.010 --> 01:23:49.729
then you'll always get pretty much the same information

01:23:49.729 --> 01:23:53.630
so I think it's a yes and no question answer

01:23:53.630 --> 01:23:57.859
to your question That medium I went to a long,

01:23:58.039 --> 01:24:01.000
long time ago that told me about Ruby, not only

01:24:01.000 --> 01:24:06.159
did he read just like playing cards, he also

01:24:06.159 --> 01:24:10.859
had this canister of tongue depressors and he

01:24:10.859 --> 01:24:13.399
drew a picture on each end of the tongue depressor

01:24:13.399 --> 01:24:15.819
and he read that as well. So he made me pick

01:24:15.819 --> 01:24:18.239
a certain number out and he laid another kind

01:24:18.239 --> 01:24:22.260
of card. Yeah, he definitely had his own. The

01:24:22.260 --> 01:24:25.420
message will come through. I have a friend in

01:24:25.420 --> 01:24:30.640
the UK. She makes her own cards Yeah, I have

01:24:30.640 --> 01:24:33.199
a woman that did a reading for me years and years

01:24:33.199 --> 01:24:35.619
ago Who was the one who said I would probably

01:24:35.619 --> 01:24:37.840
be doing this someday. She just used different.

01:24:37.960 --> 01:24:42.560
She had a bag of crystals and She would just

01:24:42.560 --> 01:24:45.140
pull depending on what the crystals were that

01:24:45.140 --> 01:24:47.640
she pulled out for her had different meanings

01:24:48.159 --> 01:24:51.100
and those meanings were, and her reading was

01:24:51.100 --> 01:24:58.619
beautiful. I'm gonna echo, okay. That's still

01:24:58.619 --> 01:25:02.520
here. Ruby disappeared. I'll be back in a second.

01:25:02.560 --> 01:25:04.739
She'll be back in a second. Okay, I think that

01:25:04.739 --> 01:25:09.020
went away. Okay, so that's what that is. So different

01:25:09.020 --> 01:25:11.460
people can read different things based on, it's

01:25:11.460 --> 01:25:17.739
intuitive. So then how can we, develop our intuition

01:25:17.739 --> 01:25:22.420
practices and so like with someone like Taking

01:25:22.420 --> 01:25:25.680
classes like I would love to have a class if

01:25:25.680 --> 01:25:30.220
you'd like to but Through classes and things

01:25:30.220 --> 01:25:33.359
that we do. Here's I'll give you just a few things

01:25:33.359 --> 01:25:38.439
that will help Sitting in a room or wherever

01:25:38.439 --> 01:25:42.420
sitting anywhere and either just observing and

01:25:42.420 --> 01:25:46.199
taking in and And not just watching, but you

01:25:46.199 --> 01:25:48.600
might tell a story and you just kind of pick

01:25:48.600 --> 01:25:51.000
up what's going on, right? So you're picking

01:25:51.000 --> 01:25:54.220
up all the nuances. You might not think it's

01:25:54.220 --> 01:25:59.199
much, but your brain is collecting data. Another

01:25:59.199 --> 01:26:01.500
thing I will do with my client or my students

01:26:01.500 --> 01:26:04.319
is I will have them just sit and feel what they

01:26:04.319 --> 01:26:08.260
feel and write it down. So don't think about

01:26:08.260 --> 01:26:12.500
it. Just feel what you feel. And I'll maybe do

01:26:12.500 --> 01:26:15.279
30 seconds or a minute and then they just write

01:26:15.279 --> 01:26:19.220
it all down. Oftentimes that feeling will connect

01:26:19.220 --> 01:26:22.600
to something else. But what I'm doing is I'm

01:26:22.600 --> 01:26:27.479
having them learn to feel vibrations and the

01:26:27.479 --> 01:26:31.680
minutia of it. And so I would have them go out

01:26:31.680 --> 01:26:36.779
and listen. Listening. You know, like you might

01:26:36.779 --> 01:26:40.000
hear a truck way off in the distance. So listen,

01:26:40.159 --> 01:26:42.520
can you imagine, can you think about where they're

01:26:42.520 --> 01:26:44.840
at and what that road looks like and just kind

01:26:44.840 --> 01:26:49.399
of start collecting data. And it tunes you really

01:26:49.399 --> 01:26:54.729
high. And also like I. people can easily pick

01:26:54.729 --> 01:26:57.350
up on tones of voices and stuff because they

01:26:57.350 --> 01:27:00.149
start, when you tune your ears, it's like accents,

01:27:00.310 --> 01:27:02.510
right? If you talk to somebody with different

01:27:02.510 --> 01:27:04.770
accents, it takes a little bit for your ears

01:27:04.770 --> 01:27:07.289
to tune in and then you can understand them perfectly.

01:27:07.770 --> 01:27:10.869
They can talk as fast as they want because your

01:27:10.869 --> 01:27:13.590
ears are tuned into them. So it's the same thing.

01:27:13.949 --> 01:27:18.250
I teach to tune into it and then every week we

01:27:18.250 --> 01:27:21.930
meet, there's another layer. But it's all about

01:27:21.930 --> 01:27:24.470
just... It's just honing what you already have.

01:27:24.529 --> 01:27:27.130
It's actually an easy job. I'm going to close

01:27:27.130 --> 01:27:29.909
the podcast here. I think it's a great spot.

01:27:30.409 --> 01:27:33.010
I'd like for you just to stay on the line after

01:27:33.010 --> 01:27:36.010
I stop the recording, if that's okay. Just make

01:27:36.010 --> 01:27:42.409
sure everything uploads okay. Diane, thank you

01:27:42.409 --> 01:27:47.250
so much for coming on to the podcast. I'm Ruby

01:27:47.250 --> 01:27:53.340
Radio. You can find me at fire from heat on Instagram,

01:27:53.699 --> 01:27:59.180
heat from fire on TikTok, and Ray Liu on YouTube.

01:27:59.600 --> 01:28:05.960
You can listen to this podcast at rsis .com slash

01:28:05.960 --> 01:28:08.739
kaleidoscope dash pod one. I'm Luigi. I live

01:28:08.739 --> 01:28:13.819
in a drawer. Great. I come out whenever Ruby

01:28:13.819 --> 01:28:16.779
needs me. Thank you, guys.