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Hello everybody, welcome back to another episode of the podcast.

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Today is a good day, we have good audio for the first time since the first episode.

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Sorry about that by the way, I sort of get stuck in conversation with myself in the car

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and I think about stuff I want to talk about in here a lot so I sort of just put my AirPods

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in and just record while I'm there.

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But today I wanted to talk about sort of how negative coping strategies can affect your

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progress with your emetophobia.

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So for me personally, I've had a lot of pretty negative ones or I've had a few really negative

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ones, I can list them off now.

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So I had, one was I like to smoke a lot of weed or I liked to and it was very negative

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for me during most of it.

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The first month was pretty cool and I would just get high and chill but it started to

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get to the point where I relied on it to calm me down and then it stopped calming me down

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so much and started making me the opposite, it made me more anxious and it eventually

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started making me have major panic attacks every night.

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And it got to the point where I did that like every night for like months and I found out

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in therapy that it was sort of like a self-soothing thing to like intentionally give myself a

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panic attack.

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So the next day I would be calm and I'd had no more anxiety in me to give so I wouldn't

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be anxious, I'd be able to function until the end of the night where I had all the stress

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again and then I needed to do it again, whatever.

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That was a hard one to sort of stop because I did find a lot of enjoyment in it at the

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same time as feeling like feeling a lot of fear and a lot of anxiety when I did it.

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Basically as soon as I did it I'd almost automatically go into like fight or flight.

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I did that with alcohol too, not as intense but same sort of deal.

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Also had a problem with motion sickness tablets, I used to basically abuse those all the time

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and I sort of realized recently that I was in a cycle with those three main ones for

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a few years.

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I would have this thing where it would get bad, my emetophobia would get bad and I would

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go directly back to these things.

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It would mask my anxiety and make me feel better for a little bit and then I'd eventually

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forget about the emetophobia being so intense and I would just be able to move on and live

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my life for another six months and then it would happen again.

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But this time, once this one started I sort of realized like I don't want to do those

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things.

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I don't want to default back to that and do the same thing and then have this happen again.

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I want to make new coping strategies for myself, healthier ones that make me a better me and

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give me the opportunity to actually heal and live a fulfilling life.

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But the way these things affected me was that they would basically just mask what I felt.

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So they would give me another problem to worry about.

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So when I would smoke weed and have a panic attack, that panic attack wasn't about emetophobia,

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it was about being too high and I would fucking freak out for a few hours every night and

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be like, shit, I just don't want to be high anymore.

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I just want to be fine.

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Have a panic attack, chill out and I'd be good.

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But it also got me so used to having a panic attack that I can't enjoy that anymore.

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I know a lot of people like to smoke weed.

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I don't so much, not anymore.

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It's not something I'll go back to but I'm not going to judge anyone for that.

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Moderation, if you can do it like that, then that's fucking awesome.

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Go you.

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But I can't.

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I'm fine with alcohol too.

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I just can't do that anymore.

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Which is fine.

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I don't care.

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I'm not a big drinker.

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I never was.

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So like not unless it was like a coping strategy thing, a bad coping strategy mind you.

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And not only did it make my anxiety worst, just throughout anything.

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If I didn't have these things, I'd feel worse.

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If I did have them, I'd feel worse.

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It made me really hard to be around.

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It made me really irritable, really goofy, really just boring.

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I didn't want to do anything after that because I was so exhausted.

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I'd have my panic attack, my weed injuries panic attack and then I'd want to go out and

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do things but then I'm like, I'm so tired now.

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I can't.

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And my friends would be like, what the hell?

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You know, it's like five o'clock in the afternoon.

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What the hell are you doing?

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So there was a lot of problems that sort of came from doing that.

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And it just made it really hard to live my life in general.

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Even if I wasn't suffering with the metaphobia problems, I realized I didn't stop.

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So it became sort of an addiction after that, which is a whole nother thing.

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But we're just going to focus on the coping strategy part.

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So yeah, basically just had to stop that.

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Had to cut that out.

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I can't go back to doing that because I don't want to repeat this cycle anymore.

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And the motion sickness tablets, same thing.

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I relied on those really heavily because they made me feel, they basically made me just

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really tired, really drowsy.

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I couldn't drive properly.

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You're not supposed to drive when you take things like that.

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So it made it hard to just go anywhere.

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I didn't want to walk anywhere or do anything.

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I didn't want to go to the gym.

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I didn't want to do anything.

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So like it basically made me into a zombie and it almost at the start, it felt better

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than the anxiety I felt.

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I was like, I would rather feel like this than that anxiety.

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But now I'm like, I would much rather feel that anxiety.

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You know, it's as bad as like the anxiety can be.

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I would much rather feel that than being like brainless and like just out of it completely.

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And not only did it cause like emotional problems, there was physical problems.

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Like I lost a like a fair amount of weight smoking weed.

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Like the anti-nausea tablets had this thing where they'd like dry your mouth and my tongue

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would like get all split up and it'd be really gross.

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And I'm sure it's not good for you to take that many tablets and smoke weed and fucking

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do all this shit all at the same time.

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So yeah, basically had to stop all of that.

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Made a decision for myself that I needed to be better.

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I need to not do these things.

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I need to find better strategies.

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So some of the better things that I found for me and I know these things work for a

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lot of people.

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It's basic shit.

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The gym or if not the gym exercise in general.

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The gym helped me a lot.

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Even though it's really hard to go to a gym, especially if you have anxiety and like, especially

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if you have a metaphobia too.

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But I found that the biggest thing for me to get to the gym wasn't actually getting

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there.

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It was being patient and being kind to myself when I couldn't do it.

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So if I only made it to the car park, I wouldn't immediately just shit all over myself and

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be like, oh, fuck you, dude.

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You suck.

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You're a loser.

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You can't even go to the gym and like look at all these people going in and you can't

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even do it.

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Like I did that a few times and I sort of realized like, how is this helping me?

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You know, like what part of this negativity is actually benefiting me in any way?

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And it's obviously easier said than done to just be like, oh, be nice to yourself.

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But like it is really something I would suggest anyone, like anyone on this planet to try

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to just be kinder to yourself when you can't do something that you wanted to do or you

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can't do something you didn't want to do, you know, and being patient, being like, you

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know, every time you do something and you come out of your comfort zone and you don't

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just immediately go, this sucks.

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This is shit.

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I don't want to do it.

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And you go like, oh, this is shit.

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Like that's not a good mindset to have doing something.

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You're not going to progress anywhere.

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If you're just thinking every single thing that you do is shit, even if you can do it

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at like, I know shit sucks.

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I know working sucks.

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I know doing stuff sucks sometimes, but you need to be a little more positive about it.

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As hard as it can be.

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I know it can be so hard.

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Like I cannot stress how hard it can be.

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I'm so guilty of saying you need to be positive because I'm like the most negative person

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on this planet, but it really does make a difference.

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It adds to your progression.

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It's like a counter.

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Every time you do something, you progress a small amount.

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It's so small, but it is a little bit.

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It's there, you know, you can feel it very slightly, but it's there.

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I promise.

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Okay.

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I promise it's there.

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Now positivity comes into that and the patience too is like, it's very important to be patient

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with anything, with anyone trying to do anything to try to learn a new skill.

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You have to be patient, like you wouldn't immediately just yell at someone else for

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being in the same position as you and feeling the same things as you.

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So what's the purpose and what is the benefit of doing it to yourself?

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Obviously everyone can understand that, but putting that into action and being like, okay,

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I'm going to try and attempt to not talk to myself like this today.

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I'm going to be patient with myself and let myself do things at the pace that it needs

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to be, you know, slow and steady.

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Can't just rush into shit, you know?

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And going for walks was a big one for me.

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I'm more of a bike rider now, but it's sort of the same thing.

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Just being outside in general is really good for you.

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Feeling the wind, like looking at the trees, getting sunlight, it's very important.

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And I'm going for a walk or a ride was just like, it gave me a goal, you know, like I'd

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get to this destination, come back home sort of thing.

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But even just sitting outside is like really good for you.

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It's like a really mindful thing to do, to like connect with the outside.

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Sort of sounds like a little like hippie, I guess.

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But it works wonders for me.

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And I'm sure like a lot of other people would probably appreciate doing that as well.

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It's really good for your body.

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Your body will thank you if you go outside and breathe fresh air.

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Another thing I like to do is keep a journal.

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I've been writing in a journal for about two years now.

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And looking back on it, I notice the better I'm feeling, the less I will write, but it's

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something I've tried to sort of stop.

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I initially started writing in a journal not for my own benefit and mental health, because

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my handwriting sucks.

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And like I wanted to not write like a fucking grade two student, because my handwriting

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has been the same since then.

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And I realized over time that it was a really helpful thing, maybe not for the present.

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It helps me get my feelings out, definitely.

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Especially if I'm having a really bad day, a really hard day, I like to write down what

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I feel.

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It might not always be positive.

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Not everything can always be positive.

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It definitely helps in the long run to look back and see your progression.

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Even if you feel like you're in a state worse than you were when you wrote that initially,

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it's good to look back and be like, I can feel good.

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Why can't I feel good again?

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You can.

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You know, you have proof of that because you wrote that in your fucking journal.

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You definitely can feel, you can feel better than that.

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You know, that's something I really like to keep.

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Like I have a drawer full of books that I've written in.

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I tend to do it every day now.

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I just like to write what I've done.

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I have a page, like a section of the book I write in where my wins are.

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So I will write, for instance, I went to work today and it was a good day.

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It sounds a bit childish, whatever.

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I don't know.

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That's what I write because I just, it's fucking easy.

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And I can look back on that and I write the date and I write any other wins I have for

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that day as well.

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I went to the supermarket, we went on a date together, me and my partner, whatever.

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Like I took my dog for a walk.

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It's another thing to look back on.

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You know, like in a couple of months you will see a day where like it was a really hard

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day.

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The only win for you was I got out of bed.

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That's a massive fucking win if you did that and you didn't feel like you could, dude.

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Go you.

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You should be proud of yourself.

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Another thing I like to do to cope, it's more of a productive thing, but it definitely is

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like a coping strategy for me is being, well, productive.

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As soon as I get out of my bed, I like to make my bed.

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That feels like a good strategy because even if I have the worst fucking day possible,

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even if everything feels like it goes wrong, I have a made bed to come back to.

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It's a bit hard when you have a partner, especially if you have different work schedules because

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she will mess the bed up, but it is what it is.

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You know, like either way, I still have a bed to come back to and it's partially made

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or it's fully made and like that's my spot.

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That's my spot.

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I like to go.

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It's my chill spot where I can release all my feelings.

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I can cry if I want to.

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I can laugh.

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I can tell someone about my day.

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I can call somebody.

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I can talk to my family, my girlfriend, friends, whatever.

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I tell my dog about it.

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It doesn't matter.

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You know, like making your bed, making your space where you live a clean, tidy-ish space.

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If you like having a clean space, it'll definitely help.

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It definitely make you feel better having like a more clean area, like a more clean

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house, more clean bedroom, whatever, you know, doing your dishes as soon as you're done with

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them is another thing I like to do.

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It just helps me get them out of the way because it's a pain in the ass and also it makes me

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feel productive on days where I don't have anything else to do or the day was a hard

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day, you know, it makes me feel like I've done something, like I've achieved something,

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you know, so it might sound a bit stupid to do your household chores as a coping strategy,

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but for me it's something that took me a long time to sort of do because I would ignore

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them and I would avoid them and I would just stay in my bed.

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So for me, that's like an interesting like achievement, something I like to do, something

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I do every day now as a way to cope and a way to deal with my mental health in a more

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positive way because it makes me feel good about myself.

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It allows me to be proud and to feel a sense of achievement, which I think is a good thing.

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Another big one for me is I like to play a lot of video games and I find myself often

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getting very stuck into them and if I start playing a game in the daytime, I will not

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stop playing that game.

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Like it'll be very hard for me to get off until I get bored, which doesn't happen very

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often.

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So if you like to play games and even if you don't have a job or you don't go to school,

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you do whatever, like I would suggest try to not play games until it's like later on

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in the day.

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Like if you can hold off doing it as soon as you wake up or like halfway through the

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day, if you can wait till like nighttime, you know, a couple of hours before you need

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to go to bed or like six o'clock or whenever the fuck, I would suggest that.

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I know it works a lot better for me.

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I don't always stick to it.

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You don't always have to stick to that if you like games.

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I know it's a pretty big thing.

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So you know, like I get it, but like I know for me personally, it helps if I push that

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aside and I make it something I do later on so I can do my other shit in the day, like

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my household chores or I can take my dog for a walk or get myself some exercise, cook some

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food, you know, do some meal prepping, anything, you know, and it's sort of like a reward even

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and it makes you feel a lot better.

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At least it makes me feel better about doing it.

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It doesn't make me feel like I'm wasting time.

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So but that'll probably do it for today.

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I don't really have anything else to say.

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I think my main point was just try to recognize your poor coping strategies and replace them

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with better ones and it'll take a while.

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It'll be a long road.

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It was for me at least.

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So I know it takes a lot of time, takes a lot of energy and you may end up feeling a

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little worse.

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But as you progress through your journey using these newfound coping mechanisms that are

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healthier, you will find they are a lot more like they're a lot more stable and you will

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have a better foundation to sort of sit on.

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So yeah, basically, sorry for swearing so much.

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I was feeling a little passionate about this one.

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So I'll try to not do that next time.

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But until then, thanks guys.

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See you.