No Faith = No Trust

Hey, guys. It's me again. It's Thursday, August 7 at 05:17PM. You're not gonna believe what the fuck just happened. Okay?

So, if you've heard my other podcast about how perfect my man is, right, my perfect man isn't so perfect anymore, and I'll tell you why. I found this condo that we currently reside in. I found it because I was living separate from him, and I had to move. And he wouldn't leave me the fuck alone. So, you know, we got along great, whatever.

Until I said, so we need to talk about this place and deal with it now. Right? He goes, well, what do you mean? I said, well, technically, I found this place. If anything happened between you and I, for some reason, whatever the hell, it's not working out, then I wanna get a legal document stating that this place is mine.

I mean, I don't know if I'm out of line. I don't think so. I think that makes sense to me. And he said, no fucking way will I sign that document. Why would I put myself in that predicament?

I said, I completely understand your side and how you're seeing it. I do. I get it. That makes sense 100%. But there's the other side.

Okay? That's 50%, I should say. I'm not very good at math, obviously. But the other 50 is, yeah, but look at my side. You make triple of what I make.

Okay? I make a quarter of what he makes. I can afford the place that I wanted to get. But to go out and rent right now, believe it or not, where I live in Calgary, Alberta, Canada, yes, it's very expensive. It's very expensive.

Everything. We're getting taxed up the ass, left, right, and center, up and down and around. I'm telling you. Okay? We're it's very expensive to live here.

So if you're making three times of what I'm making, doesn't it make sense that you move out because then you can afford a place out there? Because you're making three times of what I'm making. But if I'm making a quarter of what you're making, doesn't it make sense that I stay in the place that I found and that I can afford? That's one point. Another point is he's showing me that not only does he not have faith in us, but he doesn't have faith and trust in me.

And that's fucking huge. Okay? That's huge. That tells me everything. Everything I need to know.

No fucking way in hell do I want be with someone that doesn't trust in us and especially me. Okay. Well, I'm go just end this right now. I know it was a quick one. I'm sorry.

But those out there that are disagreeing with this, you need to think about things. There's a lot at play here, but if they're all logical, wouldn't it make sense that he would move out since he could afford it, firstly? Secondly, he doesn't have faith in us and especially me. There's no trust. There's no faith.

So that tells me everything. Effective immediately, I'm on the market. But I'm not looking because I love being by myself. I love, love, love being alone. I have to be alone.

I have to hear my spirit guides. I need silence. I don't want music playing. I don't want TV fucking going. All that shit, all that distraction as there's construction outside.

Right? Drives me crazy, but there's nothing I can do about it, so I just let it go. So if anybody's in a relationship where, you know, if you're going through something like this, as soon as the other party says no, there's no faith. There's no trust. That means there's no relationship.

I love you all so very much. 

God bless.