A New Life

I’m coming out of a season where I just felt like the world was crashing down on me. There's been a lot of change in my life. 

All I truly wanted was stability, love, peace, and to feel safe. I didn't feel safe energetically and spiritually everywhere I went. There was a lot of destructive people and energies in my life that were always targeted towards me.

I've always dreamt of a different life. A life of peace, happiness, love, and of a world that is kind and accepting. But I definitely feel like I was always judged in a way that wanted to make me retreat within myself, to not be out there in the world. Isolation always felt better for me. No matter what I did, I always felt it wasn’t going to be good enough because I always had people around who were critical of me. Criticizing, judging, and watching me but the truth is they were intimidated by me. They’re intimidated by my light and by my passion because everything that I've ever did was fight for everything that was always for the greater good but there was always some type of battle. My soul knew it was going to win no matter what. It just knew.

The “people” (even friends) that came into my life turned. They changed. It's like they couldn't match my frequency. They couldn't match my light. And then all of a sudden, they would turn. So anytime I felt safe with somebody, I knew in the back of my mind it wouldn’t be long until they turned. I had so many people that were jealous and envious of me and all I wanted was peace, friendship and kindness. That was very difficult in my life. I had to disconnect from people and situations in order to even survive. Everything I tried to do, I always had to worry that somebody was going to come in to my romantic connection and try to harm it, to lie about it. This is even family as well, where I wanted so much. I gave so much love. I gave so much of myself but these people, they couldn't reciprocate that love. They couldn't even get on a level of receiving or giving that love that I gave. So, everything always felt like, hey, this is going to turn upside down. How long is this going to last? And then I would uncover truths about people in my life that were just devastating to my heart because they didn't need to lie about me. They don't need to make up stuff because I don't judge. I am so understanding and so patient. There was a lot of deception and a lot of heartbreak. Both unwanted and undeserving. Every time I got into something, different or new, I thought to myself, okay, this person I'm going to be able to trust. All I wanted was happiness, peace and love. 

I always focused on some type of goal…a mission. How do I make this better? It wasn't even about what I was receiving because I don't feel like I received a lot in life. I know it’s coming. But I received the bare minimum here and there, but not what I truly deserved. I feel when I give something my all, I give a thousand percent of me. When I focus on something, I’m laser focused on it. But I was always caught in the middle of all of these distractions, always trying to work against me, always trying to dim me.

I had to motivate yourself to keep going day by day. I knew that sometime in my life that it would all change and it would be all worth it. 

Right now, I am on a beautiful path after everything that I've ever gone through. It’s the ending of adversity. There was so much.  So many people that were trying to defeat me and all of that has finally ended. I’m standing and I’m not going to be defeated…again. So, what's on my current path is the end of people trying to defeat, drain and crush me. I’ve had to do so much shadow work and still am. But the path that I’m on right now, is revealing everything to me. Everybody's dark side and their intentions are becoming crystal clear to me now while on this beautiful path.

I’m walking in this light and am no longer standing in the shadows. No longer going or having to hide in this world. No longer going to feel isolated. Things are definitely changing and everything is turning now as I stand in this beautiful energy of light. 

It’s time to enjoy life. Go outdoors and shine. It feels safe to stay inside our own walls doesn’t it, but the divine wants me to go out and shine bright like a diamond. Go out and live! I deserve happiness! Right? 

I watch people from afar and always admire how lucky they are that they don't have all of this conflict or they're not bombarded by warfare. They're not bombarded with these tensions that I have been through. But the path that I’m on now, this clearing path has moved to a different destination. 
I’ve moved energetically, spiritually, emotionally and financially to another dimension. And within this dimension, this is where my happiness and peace are.  No more of these difficult choices. Everything has become very clear. I’m tapping into this divine clarity within my soul and it’s helping me to move forward and keep moving forward. I’m not going to walk through life being blinded about what's coming towards me because truly what's coming towards me is divine perfection, happiness, joy, true abundance, love, and the peace that I've always desired. And that's the main thing. I've only always wanted peace and happiness. It's been my whole entire life just wanting to fit in to friendships and/or connections where I’m valued, where there's trust. It’s not just me giving. 

This is my newfound clarity on this path and everything within me is being ignited right now. Standing in this divine truth, in this power, and just getting ready to conquer this happiness, to conquer the world of joy, to get out there and truly live because my soul really needed this change. It's like I was swimming in shark-infested waters and every pond that I went into. I knew that there was going to be a shark somewhere nearby and I am the prey. The divine knows I needed this change. Time to go out and enjoy life and swim freely in ponds, not always get bombarded about what's underneath me, what's going to attack me from the dark because I’ve always had to be in battle which means my soul is always on reserve. It’s like I’m hypervigilant to any type of danger that was coming towards me. The divine is changing all of that, changing that environment. Like I’m no longer alone swimming in the black sea in this darkness that I have no idea what's coming at me. My intuition and clarity is through the FUCKING roof. The people, the devils and demons in my life that were trying to attack me stops now as the divine is stepping in, pushing them all away. They're receiving their own karma. I’m not wishing karma on anybody, but this is the law cause and effect. Universal law.

We have to abide by them. And those that go against the chosen ones, they're creating their own world. It's not for us to ever get involved in. But just please know that they're not going to come towards me anymore. They will never be allowed to fuck with my energy ever again, because I’m not in that same old energy. I’m no longer in the third dimension and have let go of any self-doubt.

I see myself very clear now. Seeing my divine blessings, my light and the divine that lives within me. People are approaching me because this light that I carry is illuminating from me. It's a reminder to me that they see my light. I’m finally being seen for who and what I am. Not the deception and the lies that other people have said. This mission and path were never easy. There was so much anxiety, so much tension, so much betrayal and now we have a life that feels unstoppable. Unstoppable happiness, bliss, abundance and joy that has arrived and more coming.

My life felt empty, like there was no reward. And now finally, everything is changing. The wheels are turning and I’m coming out on top. The reward is coming for all of my sacrifices and all my heartaches. I’m still reliving these past traumas from time to time (not often) and it’s ok. I allow them to come through and come to the surface. Emotions need to come out. 

There were so many deceptive people in my life. And I don't think people understand that unless they've gone through it themselves, because most people do not attract that much deception in their life. They're never really under that much fire that I have been under. They will never understand it unless they're a chosen one themselves.

So, whatever may come up, this is coming up for me to heal and to let go. 

I was always in fight or flight energy for so long; now it's going to be released. As we're reliving the traumas, we're healing them because we're letting them go. And we're saying, okay, this no longer is my world. This no longer is going to happen to me. I won’t allow it.

I have been in this stagnant routine and wanting change for so long. Now, finally this peace, joy, and abundance is here and more are on the way. Standing in this truth the divine has everything already worked out for me. I can feel it. I’m already recognizing thoughts that are no longer helping me and I’m releasing those right now.

I feel like I’m about to experience joy that I've never felt in my life. This world is going to feel so good. This is me standing in the light, standing in the sun, feeling this energy because the sun feels good. The sun recharges me. I am the sun and recharge people. My light and energy help people grow and that’s a blessing.

I will now expand, live and just be happy. I’m no longer going to be worried about these hidden betrayals and deceits where everybody I’ve ever had to deal with was always living behind a mask. Trying to see if they could destroy and hurt me. This was the energy that I was in with this deep anguish, this pain because of all the deceitful people, all the lies. It was like there was a constant bombarding of lies. I feel like one person after the next wanted to take me down, dim my light, my happiness and see how far they could make me fall. How deep could they get me to the point where I was just in anguish. All I wanted was peace, somebody to be honest, the truth in life, just wanting to be happy. And that is all coming towards me right now. 

This is my earned reward. I’ve had to go through darkness and now I’m standing in light. You have to stand through the pits of fire. Walk through them unscathed. Right? And now is the time for my reward. 

I have and will feel more abundance, joy, peace, happiness, and smiles in my life. Where it’ll feel a little scary in a way because I’ve never received something like this. So, naturally my brain will think, “hmm is this bad”? There’s nothing bad. It’s my blessing. My true divine blessing. The world is feeling dependable. I will be celebrating life…finally! 

There are times when I feel like I’m dreaming. How is this happening? Because I’ve always been the one to carry all the burdens. I’ve always felt the pressure in life. Just trying to balance my world, my peace and my safety. I’m going to be celebrating every single day, celebrating abundance, celebrating the peace, celebrating the people in my life.

Life will feel new. And sometimes we feel like we don't deserve it. We've only felt what we deserve, what we've been receiving. And I'm telling you, I deserve more than that burden. I deserve more than what I experienced before in the past. I’m finally going to have rest. No more being in those battles anymore.

There's not going to be this comparison. There's not going to feel this regret. Like, how did this end up to be my life? Why am I the one always having to fight just for peace and happiness? Now, my motivation is going to come back. Life is going to feel so amazing. All of this new excitement, balanced energy and spiritual gifts. Thank you, God.

I honestly feel I am meant to help heal others, that helps others find their way on their path, because there's others that are right behind me experiencing the things that I've experienced and my wisdom, my light is going to help people get through it. I have divine gifts that other people don't have. Everybody has gifts, but my gifts are uniquely special and if I can help others that would make me the happiest person alive.

I’m ready for this new beginning and change. Everything and everybody that was around me that was negative, trying to hurt me is now collapsing and I’m transitioning into this life again, into this new beginning of blessings, abundance, happiness, joy. 

I’m not fearing heartbreak anymore because I recognize this is no longer on my frequency. I'm not attracting devastation. I'm attracting love. I'm attracting happiness, joy and peace.

Opportunities are coming and they will all lead to this road of happiness because I’m truly ready being in this overflow of energy and completely standing in these overflow of blessings, divine love, happiness, joy to my soul and environment. Life is going to feel more amazing. 

I know that people keep saying, when? When is the moment that we let go of false illusions? The moment that we let go of triggers from the past, and we accept where we are right now, and we're recognizing we're transitioning and we're transitioning into a better place. Hold on to your patience. Keep focusing on your energy and keeping it balanced. Don't let the negative emotions take over. I know that they keep coming up because it wants to keep you down. Meditate, get out in nature, whatever you can to make life feel better for you moment by moment. Just do that and you're going to see that it's coming faster than what you think.

I love you all.

God Bless.