Hi, everyone. I hope you're all doing well. I really do. You know, this is for the people who have gone through transformations. Like, I'm talking major transformations.

Okay? Like, major lifetime jumps here. I never believed in that shit, to be honest with you. I never did. Never ever.

But it's real. It's real. So this is for anybody that has jump timelines, who has elevated so much, you know, keeping your energy high, good high vibration, stay positive, do things that make you happy, you'll stay positive. This is for the people that have gone through so much change like myself and feel lost. I know.

It sounds weird. Right? It sounds really weird to even say that. How can you live in such peace? I'm talking about myself.

If you've heard my other podcasts, I live in peace, and I'm truly grateful. I'm happy, and I am very, again, truly grateful. I have a man that loves me, who's always gonna be there for me, and completely accepts me for who I am, and I feel safe. Wow. I am beyond grateful.

We live in a condo. It feels like a house that is separated, like, on its own. This building is ridiculously quiet, and I love quiet. I love my peace. That's when I get to connect with my spirit guides.

I can't do it when it's busy. There's, you know, distractions, too much noise. I I cannot do that. So I'm healthy. I live in peace.

I'm happy, and I have a man that genuinely loves me for who I am, like, just genuinely loves me. Now it just fucking hit me that I feel lost. How? How can I feel lost when everything I've prayed for, I've gotten? I'm happy, but I feel lost.

I know. It sounds like such a fucking conundrum. I don't understand. This is how and why I feel lost. Okay?

Because I like to sit by myself to figure my shit out instead of wallowing it. Change things. You want change? You have to change. I change so much.

I don't know who I am. I mean, I was just bawling my eyes out earlier. It's insane because it it just doesn't make sense. It's driving me crazy because how can you have it all and be happy and healthy and feel lost? Like, how?

How does that even make fucking sense? So my son I I just got back from vacation, and my son called and, like, asked if I'd be interested in joining him for dinner. He takes me out a lot, which is great. I have a great son. He's always thanks thanking me for raising him the way I had.

It's so good to hear from your child, isn't it? Fuck. Because excuse me. My throat chakra because I was a single mother, and I was harsh. Okay?

I was like fucking Hitler in a female version. Not that bad. But, you know, there were a lot of bad kids out there, and I did not want him to get messed up with that. And being an only parent, I can only be there so much. For him, I'm always there for him.

Like, we're best friends. We talk about everything, anything beneath the sun. And I'm so grateful. Like, I'm just so see what I mean? I have so much to be grateful for.

How can I feel lost? It's because I've transitioned so much that I am 100% a different person, a different woman. I don't even know who I am. I don't know what my interests are. My throat chakra is going nuts.

Like, I have no hobbies. I do things that make me happy. The main thing for me if I get down, I turn on disco. It gets my ass off the couch, the chair, the floor, the bed, the whatever, and I'm up dancing, which is great. That makes me happy, and my body gets some exercise.

I am, you know, closer to 60. So dancing is, like, a big deal for our bodies even at this you know? Not saying I'm old, but you know what I mean. It makes me feel fucking fantastic. It's happy music.

It's easy music. It's just fucking truly awesome music. Right? It's happy music. So it works for me.

My throat chakra. So but what else? What else do I like to do? Right? What are my hobbies?

I don't know. What do I like to do other than listen to disco and dance? I don't know. And it fucking just hit me. It's been hitting me for a bit.

Like, I'll have the thoughts of okay. I'm bored. I'm bored. I'm my throat chakra. Sorry.

I had my water by, so you'll be hearing me drink often. But, I mean, you can only have one hobby. It's absolutely okay. Oh my god. It's always good to have more hobbies because I don't meet people sitting at home dancing to disco all the time.

And where I live, there is no disco. I can't go out and go dancing. There's no disco. And that's okay. So I get my fill from home, but that means I don't go out.

I don't meet people. Right? I just came back from The US. My god. And I was, like, I was shaking my moneymaker, man.

I was fucking just shaking what my mama gave me. Not moneymaker. Fuck. I didn't mean that. I don't know where that came from.

But I meant it in a fun way. Like, I'm dancing a lot. I went there, and I fucking could not stop moving. I loved it. It was all live music.

We don't get that anymore over here. We get DJs. What the? No. We want expression.

We want feeling. We want passion. We wanna watch. Right? What the f?

Anyway, so it's just really hit me that I'm feeling a little lost. Like, k. I know I'm bored. Why am I bored? I'm not going out.

Not going out because I'm tired. I'm tired because I've been transitioning and growing and expanding so fast. For so long, I've jumped fucking time lines. That's a lot of work. It's a it hurts.

It hurts. Hang in there. Keep going forward. But for anybody that's losing, that feels a little bit lost, but yet, how can you? Because you've got so much to be great for.

Get another hobby or get a hobby. I'm gonna start working on that. My god. If you've listened to any of my other podcasts, I would clear my throat once if that this is ridiculous. So I've transitioned so much where I've changed so much.

I'm really, honest to God, not the same person. I'm not the same person at all. At all. So now I have to get to know the new me. Right?

We all have thoughts. We're human. It's good to think. It's good to feel. It's good to heal.

It's good to let go. I'm not saying it's easy. It's not. It's not. I've already been there.

I've done it. Thank you, God. Thank you for my strength and my courage. What? I mean it every day.

Thank you, God. Thank you, universe. Right? Thank your angels, your spirits, your guides, your archangels, your ancestors, all of them. Thank them for everything that you're grateful for every day.

And sometimes we forget. We got caught up in moments, and that's okay. Feel it and let that shit go. After you've gone through a whole transition, you now know that what you need to do. Right?

And you're gonna not waste time anymore because we all have. Right? I've done it by not learning my lesson. I can guarantee you there's many out there learning lessons. Everybody are learn every everybody is learning a lesson every day.

So if anyone out there is going through what I'm going through where you have absolutely everything to be grateful for, but yet you're feeling like something is missing, get another hobby. I am going to get a hobby. I'm going to start with one thing, and if it makes me feel good and I like it, right, then I'm gonna stick with it. And then if I try something and it doesn't make me feel good and it's not my knack, you know, it's just not for me, then don't do it. That's I'm not gonna do it.

And I've said that in all of my podcasts at some point in time. Right? Do what makes you feel good. Do what makes you feel good. That's all you gotta do.

The universe will take care of the rest. I guarantee it. Because if you're always feeling good, you keep your energy up, you keep your vibes up. You're vibrating high. You're staying positive.

Leave it to the universe after that. That's all you gotta do is just be happy and live your life. So that's all every single human on God's green earth has to do is just live your life and be happy. Be happy. Why are we making it so fucking hard?

Okay. We got the government, right, that comes in. I've been on a little bit of a rant with this lately, so forgive me. Apparently, it's gotta keep coming out until I'm done with it. But we all most of us are living in places where the government doesn't give a fuck about you.

I know where I live. The government doesn't give a fuck about us, all of us in this entire city. They don't give a fuck. They've shown it with their actions. Actions speak louder than words.

Right? Why would you wanna live there? I'm getting so close to making a move, it's ridiculous. So close I can taste it. And on my vacation, I met this very interesting man.

I'm going to keep his name confidential because I didn't ask him if I could reveal his name. This was the day before actually departing from the state to come back home. Very interesting character. I said to him, yep. I'm going to be, I'm buying a beach house, like, a huge beautiful fucking condo, house thing, whatever.

And it's going to be right on the cliff of an ocean face or ocean. The it's going to be on the edge of a cliff facing the ocean. And he said, which ocean? And I told him, and he highly recommended that I don't do that. You meet some very interesting people.

Thank you, spirit. There was a very loud vehicle that just went by. You meet some very interesting people when you travel. It it doesn't have to be only about going out, getting load, getting laid, getting party you know, partying, whatever, getting high, whatever people fucking do. Okay?

I went to some guy so fucking drunk, he just kissed the ground very quickly, and my heart broke for him because I know he's gonna be hurting the next day. Right? That's not building memories, you guys. That shit's gotta stop. So when you're at my age and you do different things, I like to smoke sticks.

And so there's nothing wrong with that. Stick is a cigar, and I'm starting to really enjoy it. Like, I've been smoking cigars for about twenty years. Getting into different ones now. Whatever.

Holy. Okay. I think I'm gonna stop right here. If anybody's going through feeling a little lost, but yet you have so much to be grateful for, stay prayed up. Constantly be grateful for at least five things a day, every day, every day, every day.

Find out what your life path number is, and do it that many times a day. Okay? 

I love you all. 

God bless.