Hello, everyone. I hope you're all doing well. I just got back from Mother's Day, and it's something like the twenty third or something like that of May. So we've passed Mother's Day. But my sister lives in The United States Of America.

So she's down here in Canada now, and all the girls got together, which we've never done before since our mother passed away, which was many, many years ago. God rest your soul, mama. Thank you for being my angel. I am truly grateful, man. I I got a strong woman on my side.

Gotta be grateful for that. Right? Always remember shit like that. Anyway, I get home. We had dinner.

We laughed a lot and stuff. Just got home, and I turned on disco because I love fucking disco. It's happy, feel good. It's not about drugs and hoes and and and killings and murder and you know, just fuck. Enough of that shit.

It's feel good music, man. It makes me up. It makes me get up, and it makes me dance. So makes me move, which is good for the body when you're over 50. Keep moving.

There's a song that just started playing, and it says, I'm happy. I'm healthy. Baby, you're mine. And I I can't sing, but it's like, yeah. You know what?

You're happy and you're healthy. What more? When you're happy and you're healthy, what else is there? Right. You could chase the materialistic bullshit.

Fuck. Go ahead. Try and see where it come where it gets you. I guarantee you it's not gonna get you far, and you're only gonna attract the wrong people. Well, if that's the kind of lesson you need, you're gonna get it.

And I got it. That was my lesson. Right? Dated very wealthy men. I'm talking stupidly wealthy.

Like I've said before, short arms, deep pockets, and I paid for everything. Why did I do that? Right? Anything to be loved. Wow.

That's who I was. I did everything and anything just to be loved. That's it. That didn't get me anywhere good. I just got used for absolutely every fucking thing I had, and I still gave and gave and gave.

Unfucking real. I'm telling you guys, man, that was a hell of a lesson because I didn't get it, and I repeated it and did it again and again and again. And it's happened. It's been like this since I was young. I look back now and go, what the fuck was I thinking?

Well, I wasn't. Apparently, I wasn't thinking. Didn't put myself first. Was pouring the cup of love into someone else, not myself. And I tell you, that was the biggest lesson at the end there.

And I'm telling you, now it's me, me first, period. I love my man. I love my man. I love my man. I respect him.

I'm safe around him. Okay? Compared to what I've lived with in the past, I am safe and he completely understands who I am. He gets me because I always say this, you guys. I talk to spirit guides often.

When I'm by myself, I love being by myself. Oh my god. I love my man, but fuck I love when he's not home because everybody needs that time alone. Everybody needs to recharge their batteries. Everybody needs to reconnect with themselves or you should be.

Right? I've said in my other podcast, you guys, I'm telling you, the moment you put yourself first with no ego, I'm telling you, I'm telling you, I'm telling you, your life is going to change, and it's going to change for the better. If that's what you want, if that's what you're seeking, is to be happy, healthy, and safe. Feel safe. What more can you ask for?

God's gonna provide everything you need, want, everything you want. Sorry. Need. Need first. Need first.

And then when you prove yourself and you're on the right path and you put yourself first and always love yourself in a relationship, out of a relationship, put yourself first and watch your life grow. Fuck. What a feeling. I want everybody to feel like I feel. It's so wonderful.

You guys, I have come from such a long road, and I'm telling you, like, you you just gotta if you're not happy in your life in any way, shape, or form, if you're not happy, change it. Whatever it is, just change it. I trust. I just trust me and believe it's going to happen. Is it gonna happen overnight?

No. My experience, it did not happen overnight. It took a long time. It took, like, a year, a year and a half for me. Everybody's different.

But you gotta keep persevering. You gotta keep pushing forward. You gotta keep moving away from the shit that makes you unhappy or made you unhappy. Keep pushing forward. Don't go back.

Don't go back. Don't go back. It's so easy to do. It's so easy to do. But when you do that, you're gonna repeat the same fucking shit.

And if you want better, you're gonna love yourself first. Make sure you have a healthy ego, and you're gonna kick ass. Watch. Watch it all unfold before you. I look back very often.

I do. I think about the shit that I've endured in the past very, very often. And I think, wow. I'm exhausted. That's what I think to myself.

You know? I'm like, fuck. That was a long ass road. It took all my might, all my strength. Every morning, I'd get up.

I'd say, god, universe, angels, spirits, guides, archangels, ancestors, all of them. Call them all in, man. Call them all in because they're all on your side. They're they're gonna be there for you anyway, whether you realize it or not, but call them all in. Every morning, I say thank you for waking me up today, And then I say thank you for my courage, my wisdom, my strength, my peace, my happiness, but first and foremost, my health.

And if you're grateful every single day for those things, because really, that's all a person really needs for you. For you. Trust me when I say, whatever is making you unhappy in your life right now, either just get rid of it, Do something different. Because obviously, this isn't working for you. Whatever it is, it's not working for you if you're unhappy.

Okay? Relationships, jobs, friendships. I fuck family members. Seriously, family fucking members. It's insane.

Be grateful every morning. Wake up. Look at the positives. If you guys get down, which hey. I'm the fucking queen of that because I feel energies.

I pick up on that shit. So, yeah, I could feel someone's energy and get down, but then I I bounce really I have to bounce back from that. My throat chakra. Excuse me. We all get stuck, man.

We all get stuck. I'm guilty for that a lot more lately. I was never like this before. I get down and then I go down that fucking rabbit hole so fucking fast. It's ridiculous.

Spirit has woke me woke me up the last three days between the wee hours of the morning. Okay? Anywhere between 3AM, five AM. I'd go by one to five because that's when the universe the world is quiet where we are. Right?

Unless you're in a super bad area, then I I send you strength and safety. Anyway, I could go on forever as we know. I go from one subject to another story. I just things come to me and and and just happens to mold from one thing to another. Maybe it's just the way my brain is wired.

I don't know. But I'm telling you, I look back at my life and I I cannot believe how I made it through. I had black magic whipped on my ass. I knew it. I knew it, but I stayed pray it prayed up.

You you have to pray. You see? Did you hear that horn? You have to have faith. You have to lead by sight.

That's not right. Lead by faith, not by sight. Sorry. Whew. I had a glitch there.

Thank you, spirit. Right? You have to keep believing. Keep believing. Just stay positive.

Stay positive. Stay happy. Keep doing things that you love. That's going to make you feel good and watch what happens. Watch how one, you'll transform.

You'll elevate like a motherfucker. Okay? You you I don't care if you're a queen, you know, but when you are the empress. Fuck. Bitch, that's like four queens in one.

Think about that. My dudes, that would be four kings in an emperor. You feel me? When you get to that level, fuck. You're not gonna tolerate nothing.

And you're not gonna be rude about it because you'll know how to communicate without blowing a gasket. You don't have to lose your shit to, you know, try to get your point across in a negative, harsh, attacking way. Who the fuck wants that? That shit's just gonna bounce right back at you. Anyway, I love you all.

I love you all. I really do. And I'm sending you all so much love. Okay? Love yourself.

If you're not happy, change it. That's all you have to do. Change it. Try something different. If you don't like that, then you know you don't like that.

Try something different yet again. Sometimes if you talk in relationships, sometimes opposites do fucking attract. I never believed it. And I am with someone who is completely opposite of me, okay, in many, many ways. Sometimes I look at him and I think he's a fucking freak, but he's not a freak.

He's just different. Love yourself. Know your worth. Tolerate nothing and have your boundaries up. Okay?

And your life is going to change for the better, and then you will be happy, and you'll live in peace, and you'll feel safe. Think about that. The rest, God will provide. Don't worry about that. God will provide.

You just keep praying what you want. But if the universe wakes you up at the wee hours of the morning, don't get mad. Do not get mad. There's a reason for that. I go outside and sit on my balcony and look at all the fucking trees at nighttime and I see the moon and that's insane.

What a beautiful I feel like I'm in the forest. And three hours in the morning, there's nobody on the roads. Very rare. The world is calm. It's quiet.

It's asleep. Good time to connect with spirit. Okay? With the universe. You know?

Just pray and say, okay. Well, there's a reason that this is happening. I'm not happy about it. That's what I would say to my guides. They know how I talk.

Fuck. They hear me swear all the time, and they still love me. Thank you. They have unconditional love, you know, if you're on the right track, for sure. If you're not, they're gonna teach you some lessons.

It's like a parent. When you're young, think about it. 

Anyway, I love you all. Okay? I love you all.

Take care.