Good morning. I want to tell you a little story about myself and if I can help just one person out there, I am truly grateful – what more can I ask for? I'm going to tell you a story about a time in my life. For anybody out there that has either gone through a massive change in their life or is currently going through a massive change in your life – this is for YOU! I’m talking about your looks have changed, your taste has changed, YOU have completely changed. No longer a version of the person you once were.
I shock the shit out of myself sometimes going, okay, wait a minute, what do I want to do right now? Because I kind of went back and forth trying to figure out who am after going through such a drastic transition. Wow, I'm starting to shake right now. You change completely!
I've let my hair go grey. Coloring is a thing of the past. But yet, I receive compliments on my hair all the time. I'm so grateful to God - thank you spirit. In my late 50’s, I look 100% better than I ever did as a young lady. I look damn good!
We can only do so much as far as our looks go. I’m not one to spend thousands of dollars to try to look younger etc., BUT when you're on the right path, you're going to look younger, feel younger, feel stronger, and have blessing after blessing after blessing. Your boundaries are up because you’ve done the healing and now love yourself. You're not going to allow anything to harm you, to make you unhappy, and to feel unsafe. You want love, genuine love, and unconditional love. The man I have met and been with for quite some time now, is the most rewarding relationship I have EVER been in and can honestly say this.
I'm telling you; he went through a terrible relationship for many years. And Me? Well, I just allowed shit in my life because I didn't know my worth. I wasn't healed and I didn't love myself. When you put somebody else first before you, you clearly do not love yourself. Your blessings won’t come in, but you'll still go through lessons from the Universe. And that may suck depending on how much of a lesson you need to learn. My transformation was a very difficult. A long and challenging road. I feel very cold at the moment. 
For those who went through a transformation and kept healing, kept pushing forward, and dealt with your “dark night of the soul”, you will be blessed by the most-high. Heal that little boy inside of you for the men. Heal that little girl inside of you for the females. And when you heal it’ll be like a gigantic weight being lifted off your shoulder.
The feeling is indescribable. I want to cry because I look at my life now and am beyond grateful. A massive step up and feeling like a star. As if I've won the lottery.
The Universe sent me someone that loves me unconditionally. Faults and all. My heart and mind can rest knowing he will never raise his hand at me (feeling safe). He'll do anything for me - day or night. What more can I ask for? Now that I've stopped watching YouTube (tarot readers in particular), my life and blessings are beginning again. We are not meant to know what is about to happen in our lives. We’re meant to live our lives. We're meant to follow our intuition. To trust ourselves, to grow, to elevate, and to rise. Be the best you can be. You have one life. Right? Love yourself. Why wouldn't you? You're not going to trust anyone more than yourself, right? Think about it. After I finally let go of the past by not feeding into it, that was when the wheel “blessings” begin to move again.
Remember, this is my story, not speaking of anyone else. You should know what doesn’t serve you.
My only thought was, “what have I done differently to stop my blessings”? Well, watching a shit tonne of tarot readers certainly didn’t help. That's not how life works. You just keep elevating, keep growing, being your best self and love yourself more than you love anyone else. Ever since I ceased watching tarot readers my blessings started to move again. I wanted to share that because sometimes we don't realize things we do and things we think about that stops our movement. I didn't realize it. I didn't realize how I stopped my blessings from coming in. Be in the moment. It's quite difficult to do, but is doable. You will master it after some time, but first, just live in the moment.
Imagine everybody setting their alarms every 30 minutes. Those of you that go off the wall often, set your alarm for two minutes. You will be surprised how many times your mood changes between that span of time. My man, sets his alarm every 30 minutes. There have been times he would catch himself angry and immediately change his thought back to “happy”. We tend to get stuck in thoughts/feelings and have a hard time getting out of that feeling.
We need to be aware of our thoughts, things we say, and feelings. If you’re down, mad, or furious take note and change your feeling. Deal with it then release it. Get back to happy again. 
I will not allow anyone with bad energy in my circle…period. I don't care who you are or how much money you have. If you have bad energy, stay the fuck away from me because I have been blessed with peace, happiness, love, and finances and don’t have the time for child play.
And it just keeps getting better and better and better. Don't expect a blessing(s) to come tomorrow. That's not how it works. Put in the work and receive the reward. I remember kindergarten. When I did a good job, I got a gold star. A big hug from my teacher and everyone clapped. That was a big deal. It builds us up. Right? Gives us the, “I can do this” feeling. I've said so many times in my other podcasts how people are disliking each other to the point of killing others. Let's stop hating each other. Let's get along. It would be a beautiful world. It all begins with healing. A definite must! Put the work in. Learn from my mistakes. My stories and/or advice will save you years and a lot of pain and disappointment.
It's okay not to be on your path yet. You'll get there. You're just going to reap karma and more endure more lessons until you do. It’ll get to a point where you will ask yourself, “why hasn’t/isn’t my life getting better? Change will happen when you make change. You're in the driver's seat of your life. YOU have the control. YOU are the creator of your life. You're not a failure, you don't give up, and you’re not a quitter. 
You strive and aim for the top. To be the best you build yourself up. You may surprise yourself by quitting your job and go for something better. You might take a course to get better at something while you're working. You might whatever it may be. It'll come to you in different forms. But you must let go of the past. And that means don't allow it to consume any of your thoughts whatsoever. Do not allow it to consume your time when you could be doing something positive and uplifting. 
Don't allow it to consume you in any way, shape, or form. Because the moment you do, you're actually holding yourself and your life back without realizing it. So, what everybody needs to ask themselves is, how do you feel about your life right now? And be honest with yourself. Because that's the only way you're going to receive. It begins with being honest with yourself. It starts with you. YOU have the power. Let go of the past in any way, shape, or form and I promise you will receive all that you desire.
I'm sending you all so much love, light, strength, courage, happiness and peace.
I love you.