1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:12,200 Hi everyone. It's Saturday, March 1st 4.30pm. What a beautiful day it is! 2 00:00:12,200 --> 00:00:20,400 So the last few days I haven't really posted anything because I was really 3 00:00:20,400 --> 00:00:28,800 going through a lot of emotions that are not mine and started thinking about this exit 4 00:00:28,800 --> 00:00:34,000 line. I'm so sorry. I know you're probably going, Oh my gosh, so much time on our exes 5 00:00:34,000 --> 00:00:38,400 and stuff. But that's how people learn. I want everybody to know that there's ways of 6 00:00:38,400 --> 00:00:42,800 getting out of things and I just want to give advice. Right? Up to you if you want to listen 7 00:00:42,800 --> 00:00:54,600 or not. I'd like to save you years though. And heartache. So anyway, I've last few days, 8 00:00:54,600 --> 00:01:02,200 I've been feeling like he's coming back and I don't even know why I'm feeling that. I 9 00:01:02,200 --> 00:01:09,000 just follow spirit. I, you know, I do things that spirit wants me to do and spirit wants 10 00:01:09,000 --> 00:01:15,600 you happy. So if you do things that are happy, you're going to have a happy life. Anyway, 11 00:01:15,600 --> 00:01:20,800 he's popped into my head and I just have a feeling that he's fucking losing his mind 12 00:01:20,800 --> 00:01:31,000 right now. He realized he got played, manipulated, lied to. And I'm sure he's just hearing about 13 00:01:31,000 --> 00:01:44,800 the numerous cheating. The one he chose over me gets around excessively. I can fucking 14 00:01:44,800 --> 00:01:52,400 feel this shit. I can feel like he's realizing he chose, like who he chose over me. He went 15 00:01:52,400 --> 00:02:02,800 for a fucking karmic instead of love. What the fuck? I can guarantee he's probably drinking 16 00:02:02,800 --> 00:02:09,200 himself into an oblivion and doing probably excessive drugs to numb his fucking pain. 17 00:02:09,200 --> 00:02:19,100 Like I can feel that. I can feel what he's going through. We had a very good connection. 18 00:02:19,100 --> 00:02:28,200 For him to find out that he's like was completely fucking played, you know, and didn't listen 19 00:02:28,200 --> 00:02:35,200 to me, you know, like I was on his side. Do you see what karma is like when you're on 20 00:02:35,200 --> 00:02:41,600 the wrong path? You know what I mean? Like for him to find that shit out right now when 21 00:02:41,600 --> 00:02:47,800 he thinks that he chose the best person between this person and I, but he didn't follow love, 22 00:02:47,800 --> 00:02:55,800 he probably followed money and shit like that. Right? Only if you find out how you've done 23 00:02:55,800 --> 00:03:02,400 wrong and what you did to a good person, how it comes back, comes back, karma bites you 24 00:03:02,400 --> 00:03:11,400 in the ass. It's common sense. I'm sure he's feeling like a fucking fool right now. I'm 25 00:03:11,400 --> 00:03:23,000 sure of it. I'm sure of it. Again, I don't wish any ill will on anyone ever. Now I bet 26 00:03:23,000 --> 00:03:27,600 you any money he's going to come back, want to focus on me, put all his efforts in when 27 00:03:27,600 --> 00:03:36,400 he didn't when he had the chance, not at all. It's too late. I no longer want that person. 28 00:03:36,400 --> 00:03:45,800 He's going to be fucking shocked as hell. When he learns like when he finds out that 29 00:03:45,800 --> 00:03:53,800 I want him, I warned him when we were in the relationship. I'm telling you, I warned him 30 00:03:53,800 --> 00:04:01,200 about certain people and shit like that and he didn't listen and I had his back. He was 31 00:04:01,200 --> 00:04:12,200 never there for me. I'm talking like abandonment, like the whole fucking kit and caboodle man. 32 00:04:12,200 --> 00:04:17,600 I'm not saying I had it worse than anybody else. Everybody's situation is fucking different. 33 00:04:17,600 --> 00:04:23,600 It's all bad. There's no such thing as, well, I had it worse than you and look at this and 34 00:04:23,600 --> 00:04:32,000 look at that. No, it's just all bad. Even when you have something bad, it's not even, 35 00:04:32,000 --> 00:04:41,400 you know what I mean? Yeah. So anyway, I put in all my fucking efforts. I didn't receive 36 00:04:41,400 --> 00:04:53,200 a thing from him. I no longer want that person back. When he finds that out, he's going to 37 00:04:53,200 --> 00:04:59,000 be shocked to shit. When he finds out that I was trying to look out for him, because 38 00:04:59,000 --> 00:05:08,800 we all fucking find out shit in time. Spirit, listen to spirit. Yep. And I knew all along 39 00:05:08,800 --> 00:05:14,800 that it was only a matter of time. He didn't listen. He didn't follow his heart and look 40 00:05:14,800 --> 00:05:20,600 what fucking happened in his life. I'm sure he's fucking in shock if he hasn't found out 41 00:05:20,600 --> 00:05:27,400 yet. He's going to find out everything I fucking said to him that was going to happen is happening. 42 00:05:27,400 --> 00:05:36,200 Oh, I said happening. Hmm. I bet you any money, you know, when he finds this shit out, which 43 00:05:36,200 --> 00:05:42,000 we all find shit out at certain time, you can never what is done in the dark is always 44 00:05:42,000 --> 00:05:48,000 going to come to light. Everybody, whatever is done behind your back, you know, whatever 45 00:05:48,000 --> 00:05:53,800 things like that. Don't worry about focusing on it and fucking trying to find out just 46 00:05:53,800 --> 00:06:00,200 I had no closure in this relationship. I had no fucking closure. He just fucking gave me 47 00:06:00,200 --> 00:06:09,400 six hours to move out. I had no idea. I just emptied everything out of my house that I 48 00:06:09,400 --> 00:06:15,600 sold had the movers move it to his garage. As soon as the movers drove away. He gave 49 00:06:15,600 --> 00:06:25,400 me six hours to move out back to calling movers and finding a place to stay. Pretty bad. 50 00:06:25,400 --> 00:06:31,200 Hey, well, I'm sure everybody does. Everybody's got their story, man. But I'm sure when he 51 00:06:31,200 --> 00:06:36,200 finds this shit out, and he's going to find out, and it must be close because I'm feeling 52 00:06:36,200 --> 00:06:42,400 it. He's going to be in such shock thinking about everything I said and whatever I told 53 00:06:42,400 --> 00:06:47,800 him that's happening is happening in his life and how he didn't listen. And he knew it along 54 00:06:47,800 --> 00:06:55,000 or because I knew it a long time ago. I'm very intuitive, right? Very intuitive. And 55 00:06:55,000 --> 00:07:02,800 I'm an empath. I told him a long time ago, I warned him about his friends. I warned about 56 00:07:02,800 --> 00:07:10,800 I warned everything, everything, because I was on his side. I had his fucking back. He's 57 00:07:10,800 --> 00:07:22,200 going to feel like, Oh, fuck, what did I do? Regret, regret, regret. Who wants to live 58 00:07:22,200 --> 00:07:29,000 in that? He just probably found out or is going to find out that he was manipulated, 59 00:07:29,000 --> 00:07:37,800 played, cheated on everything he did to me, man, exactly how he made me feel. He's going 60 00:07:37,800 --> 00:07:46,800 to feel that again. I don't wish or will on anyone. Remember what goes wrong comes around. 61 00:07:46,800 --> 00:07:53,800 Karma, treat others with respect and you will have a wonderful life period. Remember, life 62 00:07:53,800 --> 00:08:02,400 is easy. We make it difficult. He's going to fucking I'm serious. He's going to he's 63 00:08:02,400 --> 00:08:08,600 probably wondering like, if I'm happy or if I got married or if I moved on, you know, 64 00:08:08,600 --> 00:08:13,600 whatever, like, I'm sure he's probably wondering where the fuck is she? You know, I haven't 65 00:08:13,600 --> 00:08:18,200 been wanting to go out for a while. So I just listened to the universe. If I'm told not 66 00:08:18,200 --> 00:08:27,400 to go out, I don't go out, right? Yeah, it's only a matter of time. I can feel it. It's 67 00:08:27,400 --> 00:08:44,400 coming. Now, I got to sit back and go away. Like, when it happens, I'm gonna go now he 68 00:08:44,400 --> 00:08:51,800 wants to fight for this connection. Right? It's too late. It's game over. I want absolutely 69 00:08:51,800 --> 00:09:00,200 nothing to do with him. I'm not bitter. Just fair to myself. I'm living fucking a happy 70 00:09:00,200 --> 00:09:10,200 life right now. This is the happiest I've ever been in my life. He's he's just owed 71 00:09:10,200 --> 00:09:15,200 me a lot. Now you want me back in you had your chance. You should have followed your 72 00:09:15,200 --> 00:09:23,800 fucking heart. Fuck the money. Fuck everything. Always follow your heart. Because your heart 73 00:09:23,800 --> 00:09:29,800 is your heart. It's going to guide you the right way. Now it's been four years, you guys 74 00:09:29,800 --> 00:09:36,800 for fucking years. Do you know how many changes I've had in my life? Now you need me. Now 75 00:09:36,800 --> 00:09:45,100 you want me. No, thank you. I gave and gave and got nothing. I over gave and I over gave 76 00:09:45,100 --> 00:09:57,600 and got nothing. I had his fucking back. He threw me away. Now he's going to be feeling 77 00:09:57,600 --> 00:10:05,000 sorry for himself. He's probably hit rock bottom. I don't know. And when that happens, 78 00:10:05,000 --> 00:10:13,400 the feeling sorry for themselves because he's not he can't come back in. He knows he can't. 79 00:10:13,400 --> 00:10:21,400 We see each other. We all hang out at the same fucking place. He sees how happy I am. 80 00:10:21,400 --> 00:10:28,200 I'm fucking happy. When you sabotage a connection, well, what do you expect has been a happening? 81 00:10:28,200 --> 00:10:38,200 You should have fought for us when there wasn't us. Right? The one you loved. He knows he 82 00:10:38,200 --> 00:10:44,000 can't. And that's why now he's going to feel heartbroken. And I'm in fucking the time of 83 00:10:44,000 --> 00:10:50,200 my life. I'm getting celebration after fucking celebration. I have blessings after blessing 84 00:10:50,200 --> 00:11:00,200 after blessing in my life. I fucking live in peace. I mean, peace, you guys. I've never 85 00:11:00,200 --> 00:11:09,600 felt this my whole life. Fuck what a feeling. He can no longer come with me. He cut me out 86 00:11:09,600 --> 00:11:17,000 cold. No closure. All the gossip around me. I saw that shit talking trash about me. Call 87 00:11:17,000 --> 00:11:23,400 me names. Whatever. I don't fucking care. And he allowed it. He fucking allowed that 88 00:11:23,400 --> 00:11:32,400 shit. Now he knows exactly what my replacement was. A fucking karmic. He went after a karmic 89 00:11:32,400 --> 00:11:42,000 instead of an angel. Does that make fucking sense? When he finds out, when he finds out, 90 00:11:42,000 --> 00:11:48,000 holy fuck, can you imagine what that would feel like? Don't take it on, but just feel 91 00:11:48,000 --> 00:11:54,800 for like I couldn't fucking imagine. He's going to think that and feel like he didn't, 92 00:11:54,800 --> 00:12:01,000 you know, like defend us, defend, defend our connection, right? When we have the connection, 93 00:12:01,000 --> 00:12:07,000 he's going to be crying. He's going to be majorly fucking betrayed. Exactly what he 94 00:12:07,000 --> 00:12:17,200 did to me. Now is being done to him. Right? Treat others as others. You want to be treated. 95 00:12:17,200 --> 00:12:27,200 Treat others as you want to be treated. Life is simple. Now it's too late. I'm so happy. 96 00:12:27,200 --> 00:12:35,200 I've been blessed with a beautiful home. I'm so fucking blessed. I'm so happy. I live 97 00:12:35,200 --> 00:12:42,800 in peace. I live like I just, I feel safe. Like I just, I have no fucking worries in 98 00:12:42,800 --> 00:12:52,000 the world. I'm getting blessing after blessing and now you want to come back? Too late. There's 99 00:12:52,000 --> 00:12:59,200 been too much fucking damage done. Right? It's been four years. You couldn't have said 100 00:12:59,200 --> 00:13:04,000 something in four fucking years. What are you, an idiot? Think about it everybody. I'm 101 00:13:04,000 --> 00:13:12,800 not trying to be mean. Like come on, think about this fucking logically. When you follow 102 00:13:12,800 --> 00:13:19,200 your heart, you'll be fucking happy. When you don't and you chase something, well, sooner 103 00:13:19,200 --> 00:13:26,400 or later the universe is going to show you. It's too late. Too much damage. It's been 104 00:13:26,400 --> 00:13:30,800 too long. He's going to be sent home like a fucking dog between its leg, the tail between 105 00:13:30,800 --> 00:13:40,400 its leg. And I'm telling you, I really firmly believe with all of my fucking soul. I'm telling 106 00:13:40,400 --> 00:13:48,800 you, I am being protected by the divine for somebody to be this fucking happy and live 107 00:13:48,800 --> 00:14:02,000 in such peace and feel secure and safe and like, wow, you just can't ask for any more. 108 00:14:02,000 --> 00:14:10,800 I know I'm being fucking protected by the divine. I know it. Yeah. I'm telling you, 109 00:14:10,800 --> 00:14:18,000 I know it and I'm grateful to be as happy as I am. My God, I know my spirit guides have 110 00:14:18,000 --> 00:14:24,800 been saying this for a second. I know they're telling me, he looked back for a second and 111 00:14:24,800 --> 00:14:30,800 you know how much you've changed and I have, I've changed substantially. I am not the same 112 00:14:30,800 --> 00:14:39,200 person I used to be. I say that to my, I say that to my husband all the time. Like I'm 113 00:14:39,200 --> 00:14:45,600 in shock or something. I just go, baby, you know, like sometimes I don't recognize myself 114 00:14:45,600 --> 00:14:55,600 because I've changed so much, so drastically, so fast. Now you've got to kind of relearn 115 00:14:55,600 --> 00:15:02,400 yourself, right? It's bizarre evolution. We all change. We hope to change. Change is good. 116 00:15:02,400 --> 00:15:14,880 I kind of digressed, but he didn't appreciate me when he had me and did nothing to this 117 00:15:14,880 --> 00:15:21,680 day. I can guarantee spirit is showing me to forget about my past and think about now 118 00:15:21,680 --> 00:15:27,680 and how happy I am and all my feelings and how beautiful my life is now, right? Fuck the 119 00:15:27,680 --> 00:15:33,680 past. It's so good right now. How can you just sit there and look at the past? The past 120 00:15:33,680 --> 00:15:41,280 is in the past for a reason. Leave it there. Do what it takes. Join sports. Do things that 121 00:15:41,280 --> 00:15:46,640 make you feel happy and good. Why? Because you'll be happy all the time. And when you're 122 00:15:46,640 --> 00:15:50,560 happy all the time and you're good all the time, you get happier and you get better. 123 00:15:50,560 --> 00:15:57,360 That's change. I'm not the same fucking person. I'm so not interested in the past at all. 124 00:15:59,040 --> 00:16:12,320 Not one iota of me. The life I have right now, I'd be a fucking fool to turn back to that 125 00:16:13,040 --> 00:16:18,160 and have to start from scratch and relearn him and learn me and relearn me and blah, blah, 126 00:16:18,160 --> 00:16:25,840 blah. Fuck that. I am in peace. I have a man that totally accepts me for who I am and feels 127 00:16:25,840 --> 00:16:36,800 safe with me. And I, right, I have a man that he's just fucking unbelievable. So then we decide to 128 00:16:36,800 --> 00:16:42,480 be unbelievable together. What a great feeling and it makes it so much easier. I know my guides are 129 00:16:42,480 --> 00:16:49,040 fucking telling me he's no longer for me. Leave the past in the past. He's no longer for me. 130 00:16:49,600 --> 00:16:55,600 He didn't appreciate me when he had me and he did nothing and said nothing to me to this day. 131 00:16:56,960 --> 00:17:05,600 I can guarantee spirit is telling me forget the past. Think now. Everything he put me through, 132 00:17:05,600 --> 00:17:14,080 all the pain, the separation, there's no closure. It was a fucking fast move out change. Two, 133 00:17:14,080 --> 00:17:22,320 I moved twice in one fucking day. Who does that? I'm not the same person anymore. 134 00:17:25,520 --> 00:17:31,120 I am so fucking connected to the divine. It's unbelievable and I am grateful. 135 00:17:31,120 --> 00:17:40,480 When my life is in so much peace and happiness, honestly, how can I focus on the past? I just 136 00:17:40,480 --> 00:17:53,680 said that. How can I focus on the past when the now is so fucking good? He knows it. He knows 137 00:17:53,680 --> 00:17:58,960 there's been too much damage done. He knows it's been too fucking long. He's gonna be like, 138 00:17:58,960 --> 00:18:01,600 he knows it's been too fucking long. He's gonna know it. 139 00:18:04,560 --> 00:18:10,320 If he feels like he's gonna just come back into my life as much as I've changed, everything has 140 00:18:10,320 --> 00:18:21,680 changed and I'm 100% grateful for it. I'm not going to let him in. We are done. Done. I don't 141 00:18:21,680 --> 00:18:29,280 care what happened in the past. I don't give a fuck who said what, what, who did what. I do not care. 142 00:18:29,280 --> 00:18:33,680 We're not in grade fucking nine, man. We're in our late 50s. 143 00:18:36,320 --> 00:18:45,120 I don't care. I am so fucking blessed right now. You weren't for me. Thank you God for showing me 144 00:18:45,120 --> 00:18:57,360 that. Right? Thank you, guys. Thank you, guys. I am truly, truly grateful. Let's just separate our 145 00:18:57,360 --> 00:19:05,520 ways and call it a day. Right? Thank you. No action for four years. No this, no that. Not having my 146 00:19:05,520 --> 00:19:10,880 back. Let me go through all that shit and have to heal a lot, but that worked out better. I'm so 147 00:19:10,880 --> 00:19:16,960 grateful for my past. I'm grateful for meeting him. I'm grateful for the relationship that I had 148 00:19:17,920 --> 00:19:26,960 and because it woke me up to spirit. That's when I started becoming quite right into into the divine. 149 00:19:29,760 --> 00:19:34,080 I have grown in so many ways. I'm not the same person and I love my life. 150 00:19:34,080 --> 00:19:39,840 I don't know if he's going through this right at this moment. I'm, I don't know. I don't care. 151 00:19:41,440 --> 00:19:46,880 I'm not being mean. I don't wish ill will on him. I don't care. I've healed. 152 00:19:48,960 --> 00:19:56,560 It took me almost four fucking years to heal. Well, I would say three for sure. Four. 153 00:19:56,560 --> 00:20:02,720 I'd say four years completely healed. Completely in out all of it. 154 00:20:04,880 --> 00:20:08,800 And now you want me to go back to that? I'm not the same person. 155 00:20:12,000 --> 00:20:17,120 I let my hair go, you guys. This sounds ridiculous, but I don't know why I'm saying it, but 156 00:20:18,240 --> 00:20:24,000 I'm not the same person. I'm not the same person. I'm not the same person. 157 00:20:24,000 --> 00:20:26,400 I'm not the same person. This sounds ridiculous, but I don't know why I'm saying it, but 158 00:20:27,920 --> 00:20:32,480 I used to color my hair all the time. My God, what a pain in the fucking ass that is. 159 00:20:33,760 --> 00:20:42,320 It takes up so much time. It makes a fucking mess. Right? And the ink and dye or the dye gets into 160 00:20:42,320 --> 00:20:49,520 your bloodstream. Like what are we doing to ourselves? Hello. We're killing ourselves basically 161 00:20:49,520 --> 00:20:55,040 and someone's getting rich off of us. This is ridiculous. Stop coloring your fucking hair 162 00:20:55,040 --> 00:21:01,120 if you're my age. Let it go. Be beautiful. You know what I mean? Love yourself. Everybody 163 00:21:01,120 --> 00:21:08,240 fucking loves themselves. Can you imagine the world if everybody loved themselves? Thoroughly. I mean, 164 00:21:08,240 --> 00:21:17,040 you know who you truly are inside. And to find somebody that knows those quirks and everything 165 00:21:17,040 --> 00:21:28,080 about you. Yeah. And to live in peace and happiness and safety and fuck know somebody 166 00:21:28,080 --> 00:21:35,360 has always got your back. Fuck. What a feeling you guys. And if you're not there yet, 167 00:21:36,480 --> 00:21:40,560 keep looking forward. Keep looking forward. Keep moving forward. I'm telling you, 168 00:21:40,560 --> 00:21:46,560 if something didn't work out for the past, there was a reason. Let it really go. Do what you got 169 00:21:46,560 --> 00:21:52,560 to do. If you got to heal, I said this in other episodes, if you got to fucking heal, take the 170 00:21:52,560 --> 00:21:59,200 time. Take it. Bars aren't going anywhere. Friends aren't going anywhere. True friends aren't going 171 00:21:59,200 --> 00:22:06,960 anywhere. You know what? Work will understand. I need some time off. Just chill out by yourself. 172 00:22:06,960 --> 00:22:16,400 By yourself. You know, I said in other episodes, I've done this the first year was forgiving. 173 00:22:17,920 --> 00:22:24,640 Right? You have to listen to that episode. It's quite the process. But you don't just forgive the 174 00:22:24,640 --> 00:22:28,400 person. You have to forgive yourself. If you don't forgive yourself, you can't move on. 175 00:22:29,600 --> 00:22:33,040 And if you forgive yourself and you don't forgive the other person, you can't move on. 176 00:22:33,040 --> 00:22:38,160 You have to forgive everybody. What happened is playing nice. Why are we so against each other? 177 00:22:39,200 --> 00:22:45,200 Where's the love? Right? Where's the fucking love in the world, man? 178 00:22:47,440 --> 00:22:53,680 We got to bring that back. Let's bring that fucking shit back, everybody. Right? 179 00:22:56,000 --> 00:22:59,520 Right. Let's just bring it. It would be such a beautiful world. 180 00:22:59,520 --> 00:23:04,640 Isn't that what we want? A beautiful world. 181 00:23:07,840 --> 00:23:14,160 We can have that. We just got to open our hearts. Everybody that's been hurt, I've been hurt numerous 182 00:23:14,160 --> 00:23:20,960 times. You got to learn to trust again. You got to learn yourself as you grow. It's a lot. It's a 183 00:23:20,960 --> 00:23:30,160 lot of work. You got to learn to reopen your heart. I was done. I was so done. That was it. 184 00:23:30,720 --> 00:23:35,040 That relationship was fucking it. That was the kid I'm telling you. 185 00:23:38,240 --> 00:23:44,400 That did me. And I said, that's it. Fuck. I'm done. I'm done with men. Get the fuck away from me. 186 00:23:44,400 --> 00:23:49,040 Don't look at me. Don't talk to me. Don't speak to me. Don't even walk by me. Just stay away from 187 00:23:49,040 --> 00:24:01,280 me. I was done. To have to move twice in one day as a single parent, no help. Yeah. The universe was 188 00:24:01,280 --> 00:24:06,960 like, okay, let's get you away from this kind of situation because what? You want to choose a karmic 189 00:24:06,960 --> 00:24:13,120 over me and put me in danger? The universe was like, let's just fucking end this relationship now. 190 00:24:13,120 --> 00:24:22,960 Abruptly and abruptly it was in order for her to learn and heal and put love into herself because 191 00:24:22,960 --> 00:24:29,040 I never did put love into myself in any relationships. That is a very big mistake. 192 00:24:29,040 --> 00:24:40,880 Anyway, I've chattered too long. I love you all so very much. I wish everybody is happy and healthy. 193 00:24:42,880 --> 00:24:52,480 I really do. Take care. Feel free to subscribe and listen to my YouTube channel under wards of wisdom. 194 00:24:52,480 --> 00:25:01,280 I look forward to hearing it. If you have any questions, feel free to drop it over there. Take care.