Hi everyone. It's Saturday, March 1st 4.30pm. What a beautiful day it is!
So the last few days I haven't really posted anything because I was really
going through a lot of emotions that are not mine and started thinking about this exit
line. I'm so sorry. I know you're probably going, Oh my gosh, so much time on our exes
and stuff. But that's how people learn. I want everybody to know that there's ways of
getting out of things and I just want to give advice. Right? Up to you if you want to listen
or not. I'd like to save you years though. And heartache. So anyway, I've last few days,
I've been feeling like he's coming back and I don't even know why I'm feeling that. I
just follow spirit. I, you know, I do things that spirit wants me to do and spirit wants
you happy. So if you do things that are happy, you're going to have a happy life. Anyway,
he's popped into my head and I just have a feeling that he's fucking losing his mind
right now. He realized he got played, manipulated, lied to. And I'm sure he's just hearing about
the numerous cheating. The one he chose over me gets around excessively. I can fucking
feel this shit. I can feel like he's realizing he chose, like who he chose over me. He went
for a fucking karmic instead of love. What the fuck? I can guarantee he's probably drinking
himself into an oblivion and doing probably excessive drugs to numb his fucking pain.
Like I can feel that. I can feel what he's going through. We had a very good connection.
For him to find out that he's like was completely fucking played, you know, and didn't listen
to me, you know, like I was on his side. Do you see what karma is like when you're on
the wrong path? You know what I mean? Like for him to find that shit out right now when
he thinks that he chose the best person between this person and I, but he didn't follow love,
he probably followed money and shit like that. Right? Only if you find out how you've done
wrong and what you did to a good person, how it comes back, comes back, karma bites you
in the ass. It's common sense. I'm sure he's feeling like a fucking fool right now. I'm
sure of it. I'm sure of it. Again, I don't wish any ill will on anyone ever. Now I bet
you any money he's going to come back, want to focus on me, put all his efforts in when
he didn't when he had the chance, not at all. It's too late. I no longer want that person.
He's going to be fucking shocked as hell. When he learns like when he finds out that
I want him, I warned him when we were in the relationship. I'm telling you, I warned him
about certain people and shit like that and he didn't listen and I had his back. He was
never there for me. I'm talking like abandonment, like the whole fucking kit and caboodle man.
I'm not saying I had it worse than anybody else. Everybody's situation is fucking different.
It's all bad. There's no such thing as, well, I had it worse than you and look at this and
look at that. No, it's just all bad. Even when you have something bad, it's not even,
you know what I mean? Yeah. So anyway, I put in all my fucking efforts. I didn't receive
a thing from him. I no longer want that person back. When he finds that out, he's going to
be shocked to shit. When he finds out that I was trying to look out for him, because
we all fucking find out shit in time. Spirit, listen to spirit. Yep. And I knew all along
that it was only a matter of time. He didn't listen. He didn't follow his heart and look
what fucking happened in his life. I'm sure he's fucking in shock if he hasn't found out
yet. He's going to find out everything I fucking said to him that was going to happen is happening.
Oh, I said happening. Hmm. I bet you any money, you know, when he finds this shit out, which
we all find shit out at certain time, you can never what is done in the dark is always
going to come to light. Everybody, whatever is done behind your back, you know, whatever
things like that. Don't worry about focusing on it and fucking trying to find out just
I had no closure in this relationship. I had no fucking closure. He just fucking gave me
six hours to move out. I had no idea. I just emptied everything out of my house that I
sold had the movers move it to his garage. As soon as the movers drove away. He gave
me six hours to move out back to calling movers and finding a place to stay. Pretty bad.
Hey, well, I'm sure everybody does. Everybody's got their story, man. But I'm sure when he
finds this shit out, and he's going to find out, and it must be close because I'm feeling
it. He's going to be in such shock thinking about everything I said and whatever I told
him that's happening is happening in his life and how he didn't listen. And he knew it along
or because I knew it a long time ago. I'm very intuitive, right? Very intuitive. And
I'm an empath. I told him a long time ago, I warned him about his friends. I warned about
I warned everything, everything, because I was on his side. I had his fucking back. He's
going to feel like, Oh, fuck, what did I do? Regret, regret, regret. Who wants to live
in that? He just probably found out or is going to find out that he was manipulated,
played, cheated on everything he did to me, man, exactly how he made me feel. He's going
to feel that again. I don't wish or will on anyone. Remember what goes wrong comes around.
Karma, treat others with respect and you will have a wonderful life period. Remember, life
is easy. We make it difficult. He's going to fucking I'm serious. He's going to he's
probably wondering like, if I'm happy or if I got married or if I moved on, you know,
whatever, like, I'm sure he's probably wondering where the fuck is she? You know, I haven't
been wanting to go out for a while. So I just listened to the universe. If I'm told not
to go out, I don't go out, right? Yeah, it's only a matter of time. I can feel it. It's
coming. Now, I got to sit back and go away. Like, when it happens, I'm gonna go now he
wants to fight for this connection. Right? It's too late. It's game over. I want absolutely
nothing to do with him. I'm not bitter. Just fair to myself. I'm living fucking a happy
life right now. This is the happiest I've ever been in my life. He's he's just owed
me a lot. Now you want me back in you had your chance. You should have followed your
fucking heart. Fuck the money. Fuck everything. Always follow your heart. Because your heart
is your heart. It's going to guide you the right way. Now it's been four years, you guys
for fucking years. Do you know how many changes I've had in my life? Now you need me. Now
you want me. No, thank you. I gave and gave and got nothing. I over gave and I over gave
and got nothing. I had his fucking back. He threw me away. Now he's going to be feeling
sorry for himself. He's probably hit rock bottom. I don't know. And when that happens,
the feeling sorry for themselves because he's not he can't come back in. He knows he can't.
We see each other. We all hang out at the same fucking place. He sees how happy I am.
I'm fucking happy. When you sabotage a connection, well, what do you expect has been a happening?
You should have fought for us when there wasn't us. Right? The one you loved. He knows he
can't. And that's why now he's going to feel heartbroken. And I'm in fucking the time of
my life. I'm getting celebration after fucking celebration. I have blessings after blessing
after blessing in my life. I fucking live in peace. I mean, peace, you guys. I've never
felt this my whole life. Fuck what a feeling. He can no longer come with me. He cut me out
cold. No closure. All the gossip around me. I saw that shit talking trash about me. Call
me names. Whatever. I don't fucking care. And he allowed it. He fucking allowed that
shit. Now he knows exactly what my replacement was. A fucking karmic. He went after a karmic
instead of an angel. Does that make fucking sense? When he finds out, when he finds out,
holy fuck, can you imagine what that would feel like? Don't take it on, but just feel
for like I couldn't fucking imagine. He's going to think that and feel like he didn't,
you know, like defend us, defend, defend our connection, right? When we have the connection,
he's going to be crying. He's going to be majorly fucking betrayed. Exactly what he
did to me. Now is being done to him. Right? Treat others as others. You want to be treated.
Treat others as you want to be treated. Life is simple. Now it's too late. I'm so happy.
I've been blessed with a beautiful home. I'm so fucking blessed. I'm so happy. I live
in peace. I live like I just, I feel safe. Like I just, I have no fucking worries in
the world. I'm getting blessing after blessing and now you want to come back? Too late. There's
been too much fucking damage done. Right? It's been four years. You couldn't have said
something in four fucking years. What are you, an idiot? Think about it everybody. I'm
not trying to be mean. Like come on, think about this fucking logically. When you follow
your heart, you'll be fucking happy. When you don't and you chase something, well, sooner
or later the universe is going to show you. It's too late. Too much damage. It's been
too long. He's going to be sent home like a fucking dog between its leg, the tail between
its leg. And I'm telling you, I really firmly believe with all of my fucking soul. I'm telling
you, I am being protected by the divine for somebody to be this fucking happy and live
in such peace and feel secure and safe and like, wow, you just can't ask for any more.
I know I'm being fucking protected by the divine. I know it. Yeah. I'm telling you,
I know it and I'm grateful to be as happy as I am. My God, I know my spirit guides have
been saying this for a second. I know they're telling me, he looked back for a second and
you know how much you've changed and I have, I've changed substantially. I am not the same
person I used to be. I say that to my, I say that to my husband all the time. Like I'm
in shock or something. I just go, baby, you know, like sometimes I don't recognize myself
because I've changed so much, so drastically, so fast. Now you've got to kind of relearn
yourself, right? It's bizarre evolution. We all change. We hope to change. Change is good.
I kind of digressed, but he didn't appreciate me when he had me and did nothing to this
day. I can guarantee spirit is showing me to forget about my past and think about now
and how happy I am and all my feelings and how beautiful my life is now, right? Fuck the
past. It's so good right now. How can you just sit there and look at the past? The past
is in the past for a reason. Leave it there. Do what it takes. Join sports. Do things that
make you feel happy and good. Why? Because you'll be happy all the time. And when you're
happy all the time and you're good all the time, you get happier and you get better.
That's change. I'm not the same fucking person. I'm so not interested in the past at all.
Not one iota of me. The life I have right now, I'd be a fucking fool to turn back to that
and have to start from scratch and relearn him and learn me and relearn me and blah, blah,
blah. Fuck that. I am in peace. I have a man that totally accepts me for who I am and feels
safe with me. And I, right, I have a man that he's just fucking unbelievable. So then we decide to
be unbelievable together. What a great feeling and it makes it so much easier. I know my guides are
fucking telling me he's no longer for me. Leave the past in the past. He's no longer for me.
He didn't appreciate me when he had me and he did nothing and said nothing to me to this day.
I can guarantee spirit is telling me forget the past. Think now. Everything he put me through,
all the pain, the separation, there's no closure. It was a fucking fast move out change. Two,
I moved twice in one fucking day. Who does that? I'm not the same person anymore.
I am so fucking connected to the divine. It's unbelievable and I am grateful.
When my life is in so much peace and happiness, honestly, how can I focus on the past? I just
said that. How can I focus on the past when the now is so fucking good? He knows it. He knows
there's been too much damage done. He knows it's been too fucking long. He's gonna be like,
he knows it's been too fucking long. He's gonna know it.
If he feels like he's gonna just come back into my life as much as I've changed, everything has
changed and I'm 100% grateful for it. I'm not going to let him in. We are done. Done. I don't
care what happened in the past. I don't give a fuck who said what, what, who did what. I do not care.
We're not in grade fucking nine, man. We're in our late 50s.
I don't care. I am so fucking blessed right now. You weren't for me. Thank you God for showing me
that. Right? Thank you, guys. Thank you, guys. I am truly, truly grateful. Let's just separate our
ways and call it a day. Right? Thank you. No action for four years. No this, no that. Not having my
back. Let me go through all that shit and have to heal a lot, but that worked out better. I'm so
grateful for my past. I'm grateful for meeting him. I'm grateful for the relationship that I had
and because it woke me up to spirit. That's when I started becoming quite right into into the divine.
I have grown in so many ways. I'm not the same person and I love my life.
I don't know if he's going through this right at this moment. I'm, I don't know. I don't care.
I'm not being mean. I don't wish ill will on him. I don't care. I've healed.
It took me almost four fucking years to heal. Well, I would say three for sure. Four.
I'd say four years completely healed. Completely in out all of it.
And now you want me to go back to that? I'm not the same person.
I let my hair go, you guys. This sounds ridiculous, but I don't know why I'm saying it, but
I'm not the same person. I'm not the same person. I'm not the same person.
I'm not the same person. This sounds ridiculous, but I don't know why I'm saying it, but
I used to color my hair all the time. My God, what a pain in the fucking ass that is.
It takes up so much time. It makes a fucking mess. Right? And the ink and dye or the dye gets into
your bloodstream. Like what are we doing to ourselves? Hello. We're killing ourselves basically
and someone's getting rich off of us. This is ridiculous. Stop coloring your fucking hair
if you're my age. Let it go. Be beautiful. You know what I mean? Love yourself. Everybody
fucking loves themselves. Can you imagine the world if everybody loved themselves? Thoroughly. I mean,
you know who you truly are inside. And to find somebody that knows those quirks and everything
about you. Yeah. And to live in peace and happiness and safety and fuck know somebody
has always got your back. Fuck. What a feeling you guys. And if you're not there yet,
keep looking forward. Keep looking forward. Keep moving forward. I'm telling you,
if something didn't work out for the past, there was a reason. Let it really go. Do what you got
to do. If you got to heal, I said this in other episodes, if you got to fucking heal, take the
time. Take it. Bars aren't going anywhere. Friends aren't going anywhere. True friends aren't going
anywhere. You know what? Work will understand. I need some time off. Just chill out by yourself.
By yourself. You know, I said in other episodes, I've done this the first year was forgiving.
Right? You have to listen to that episode. It's quite the process. But you don't just forgive the
person. You have to forgive yourself. If you don't forgive yourself, you can't move on.
And if you forgive yourself and you don't forgive the other person, you can't move on.
You have to forgive everybody. What happened is playing nice. Why are we so against each other?
Where's the love? Right? Where's the fucking love in the world, man?
We got to bring that back. Let's bring that fucking shit back, everybody. Right?
Right. Let's just bring it. It would be such a beautiful world.
Isn't that what we want? A beautiful world.
We can have that. We just got to open our hearts. Everybody that's been hurt, I've been hurt numerous
times. You got to learn to trust again. You got to learn yourself as you grow. It's a lot. It's a
lot of work. You got to learn to reopen your heart. I was done. I was so done. That was it.
That relationship was fucking it. That was the kid I'm telling you.
That did me. And I said, that's it. Fuck. I'm done. I'm done with men. Get the fuck away from me.
Don't look at me. Don't talk to me. Don't speak to me. Don't even walk by me. Just stay away from
me. I was done. To have to move twice in one day as a single parent, no help. Yeah. The universe was
like, okay, let's get you away from this kind of situation because what? You want to choose a karmic
over me and put me in danger? The universe was like, let's just fucking end this relationship now.
Abruptly and abruptly it was in order for her to learn and heal and put love into herself because
I never did put love into myself in any relationships. That is a very big mistake.
Anyway, I've chattered too long. I love you all so very much. I wish everybody is happy and healthy.
I really do. Take care. Feel free to subscribe and listen to my YouTube channel under wards of wisdom.
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