Hey guys, it's me.
You know, I was out the other day just roaming around the city,
walking around, trying to get some fresh air and what have you,
and noticed quite a few people from my past,
you know, just bumping into them, not saying a thing, just bumping into them, seeing them around town.
Wow, I just can't believe how they look.
Like, one in particular, the last one that I had dated that I talk about often,
the one that did me in for the moment,
you know, you have to understand that when your heart is open and you're just good to people,
all the time, yes, we take the shit and they just dump on us all the time and whatever,
but once you grow out of that and you know your worth and you love yourself and you've got your boundaries up,
it's lovely. That's exactly what we should all be aiming for and do, right?
That's very, very important, as I've said numerous times.
But in the past, you know, still having my heart up and getting shit on repeatedly,
there's just, how do I say this?
Don't waste your energy. Don't turn negative. Don't turn bitter.
Life's too short. It's so easy to go, oh, you know, fuck him, fuck her.
I hope the universe fucks them up the ass. Well, guess what?
Then the universe is going to turn on you because as a person of love and light, right,
you can't wish negativity and bad things upon people.
You can, but be prepared for what comes after you.
Anyone that's love and light, we're going to want, we will endure so much.
And that's what basically just sparks up a transformation, hopefully, and what have you.
Anyway, back to bumping into all these people, I can see that karma is just kicking their ass.
And I'm not sitting here saying, thank you, universe. Thank you for taking them down.
Take them down. Take them down good and hard.
No, you cannot think that. You can't wish that upon people.
You can't say that about people. You cannot.
If you are truly about love and light, you still send them love.
You still send them light. You still send them healing.
Whatever, whatever you deem fit, right?
Whatever you think fits to that specific individual who has done you dirty.
I'm still sending my love and light, and I can still feel that he's trying to get into my energy,
and he's trying to drain me, and he's trying to make me negative.
And, you know, he knows, they know nothing.
All these people that I used to hang out with, they don't know a damn thing about my life.
That's another very important point.
Keep your life secret.
No one has to know anything.
Anything. Even your besties.
Nobody has to know a fucking thing about your life.
And when people know about your life, and you're going to bump into people who get jealous,
and that's where the black magic bullshit starts coming into play, right?
I have been there. I have done that.
I haven't performed the black magic, nor would I.
I don't need to do that.
I just sit back and let God, right, just let God do his thing, and let the universe.
They see everything, and sooner or later, justice will be served.
And justice is always served.
Never when we want it, of course. Never.
Because I want it, like, right now.
Go ahead, universe, do your thing.
Serve your karma right now. Not right now, but right now.
No, because I don't see everything out there.
They see everything out there.
Your angels, your spirits, your guides, your ancestors, your archangels, all these guys.
They see everything.
And everything in all due timing. Right?
Everything in timing.
So, if you're in a relationship, and you're contemplating if you should be in there or not.
First of all, if you're contemplating, you shouldn't be in there.
Get out. Just leave. End it.
Sit, talk to the person if you feel as though you can sit and have an adult conversation with that individual.
If you're scared or feel threatened in any way, do it when the person's not there.
Just leave. Change your phone number. Change your address.
Nobody knows where you live.
I had to do that. So, I sold my house. Was I going to get another house?
No, I decided to go live in a condo on the fourth floor, and then the eighth floor where there's security.
And then I don't have to worry about it.
To each their own, however.
But if you're in a relationship where you've ended a relationship or someone's ended a relationship with you, whatever, and it's not going well, it hasn't gone well, and it's gone right left.
Don't sit there and wish ill will on anybody. It doesn't get them anywhere. It doesn't get you anywhere.
In fact, it's going to rebound back to you because the universe is all about love and light and healing and sharing love and spreading love, all about heart, opening your heart.
I had a brief moment when mine ended abruptly. Thank you, universe. Now I'm grateful for that. I'm truly grateful for that.
At first it was like, what the fuck is going on? What the hell is wrong with this fucking nut job? Right?
On and on and on. It was negative, negative, negative for a good couple hours at least.
And then I thought, you know what? Snap out of this shit because I'm feeling worse and worse as I keep opening my mouth and all these negative things keep coming out of my mouth.
So I took a break and went and I sat in a hot tub at the time, poured myself a glass of vino, sat back relaxed, kind of inhaled and exhaled a few times just to get it out of my system.
By the time I got out of my, out of the hot tub and finished my vino, I was feeling pretty darn relaxed and good.
And that's when I changed my train of thought from you fucking asshole to, wow, you know what, universe?
I send him so much love and light and healing. Help him, guide him, heal him so he can enjoy the rest of his days, right?
The rest of his life instead of living the way he's living, which is pretty sad to be honest. It's just terrible.
He's down in such a dark hole and surrounded himself with covens and bitches and whores and I mean all of that.
I'm not saying things like that to be negative. He literally surrounded himself with fucking whores.
Okay, we're talking STDs and bullshit. That's his karma.
You don't want to learn to control it? You can't keep it in your pants?
Well, the universe is going to teach you how to keep it in your pants now.
Do you know what I mean? Am I making myself clear?
If you've gotten, you know, if you've ended, if you've ended up single out of a toxic relationship, it doesn't necessarily have to be toxic.
If you're just out of any relationship and you're hurting, feel the pain. It's okay.
It's okay to cry. It's okay to feel your heart being broken. It's okay to be sad.
It's okay to just revert to yourself, become a hermit, stay at home. I did that for three fucking years. Didn't even go out.
I still talked to a couple of my friends over the phone, but didn't want to go see anybody in public.
Just wanted to be around my own energy. I grew so much. I transformed so much. I don't even know who the hell I am.
I'm honestly getting to know myself again. I have changed that much.
And I'm so grateful for it. I'm grateful for the woman I've become, 100% here for it.
So if you're out of a relationship and you're sad and hurt, don't, don't throw sticks and stones and throw negative energy and shit like that at the person.
Feel bad for them if they don't know how. Right? If they don't know how, they don't know how.
The universe will help them if they want to be helped, if they want growth.
All you do at that point is focus on your own energy.
All you do at that point is focus on yourself.
Remain positive. And if you're not in a positive state, get in a positive state.
Love yourself. Do things that make you feel good to keep you positive.
If you love music, turn it on. Dance around the house. Oh my God.
I can't tell you how many times I did that on a daily basis for the last three years.
Cranked my music and I just danced around the house, sang at the top of my lungs.
Oh, I was feeling energized. If you enjoy painting, then paint.
Whatever you enjoy doing that makes you feel good, do lots of it.
It will keep your energy high, your vibes positive.
You'll feel good. You'll go to bed with a smile on your face and wake up with a smile on your face.
What more can you ask for?
You just got to stay positive. Have a goal in mind or goals, plural, and go for it. Get busy.
It's okay to go there, you know, just to wallow for a couple of days or whatever, right?
Depends on what you have to deal with. Mine was a three-year thing cycle.
It was horrific. It took forever, it seemed. But it was well worth it now.
Now I see. Now I understand why it took so long.
But to bump into those people and see them out in public and see how their life is going, I can't even begin to express what I saw.
Some of them, their faces aged like 20, 30 years.
Some of them had gained excessive weight and it's not like them to do that.
Whatever they wished upon me, return to sender, return to sender, return to sender.
There were a couple of very beautiful women. I know they tried to go after my looks because when I saw them in public, honest to God, no word of a lie, they looked like they're 80 years old.
One was losing her hair or has lost her hair so much.
God forbid, forgive me Lord. She looks like a cancer patient.
I'm not wishing that upon her. That's why I said forgive me God, forgive me Lord for saying that.
You can just see, you can see it, how karma is knocking them down.
Shred by shred, level by level. I don't wish that upon anybody.
But my point is, is if you've gone through a relationship, it's ended, you're on your own, you're sad, it's way too easy to just, you fucking asshole, you fucking bitch, call up all your friends, oh he's crazy, you know what he did?
Oh she's a bitch, you know what she did? No, no, no, we're not in grade nine anymore, remember that people?
We're not in grade nine, we're adults now. So we act like adults.
Nobody's got to yell, nobody has to do anything, disrespect other people, nobody's got to take down, no one has to try to take anyone down.
God and the universe will take care of that. All they want us to do is stay positive and live life to the fullest.
And the happier you are every day, the more blessings you're going to get all the time.
Trust me, trust me, the universe and God just wants us to be happy, live in peace, keep your shit quiet to yourself, nobody's got to know your biz.
And you'll see exactly what I'm talking about, how your life will change.
So don't wish ill will on anybody, God and the universe will take care of people.
As I've seen with my own two eyes recently, I couldn't believe it.
I was in shock. I was just in shock. There's confirmation right there, ambulance driving by.
So no need to wish ill will upon anyone, no need to waste that, you know, just delve into negativity and bring yourself down with all that shit.
Just deal with your pain, heal yourself, stay positive, keep doing what makes you feel good and you'll see your life turn around.
I love you.