1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:05,500 Hey guys, it's me again. 2 00:00:05,500 --> 00:00:11,300 So I told you that I was going to do another episode telling you about the second guy I 3 00:00:11,300 --> 00:00:19,860 dated to show you how I learned lessons from the first guy but I really didn't. 4 00:00:19,860 --> 00:00:24,900 You'll see what I mean. 5 00:00:24,900 --> 00:00:31,280 Listen to episode 5 before listening to this as you will then understand. 7 00:00:35,800 --> 00:00:38,160 You'll need to hear it prior to. 8 00:00:38,160 --> 00:00:45,600 So the second guy I've dated. 9 00:00:45,600 --> 00:00:47,380 Same thing. 10 00:00:47,380 --> 00:00:55,360 Quite attractive, has the money, owns a successful company, the cars, the houses, the clothes, everything 11 00:00:55,360 --> 00:00:56,640 Right? 12 00:00:56,640 --> 00:00:58,420 The same shit. 13 00:00:58,420 --> 00:01:01,060 Has it all. 14 00:01:01,060 --> 00:01:03,960 I don't know what I was doing to attract the same type of men. 15 00:01:03,960 --> 00:01:06,760 They were all the same! 16 00:01:06,760 --> 00:01:09,560 I had a brief moment where a little voice in my head said to 17 00:01:09,560 --> 00:01:14,840 Maybe, just maybe try the opposite next go round lol. I ignored that too. 18 00:01:14,840 --> 00:01:18,300 So we started dating. 19 00:01:18,300 --> 00:01:26,360 Three years later, he asks me to move in. 20 00:01:26,360 --> 00:01:31,760 At the time, I was living in my house. I had to find a renter if I was going to take him up on his offer and move in together. Selling the house was not an option so I found a renter. 21 00:01:31,760 --> 00:01:37,020 The renter loved the placed, signed a lease but couldn't move in until a month down the road. 22 00:01:37,020 --> 00:01:38,500 And I was ok with that. 23 00:01:38,500 --> 00:01:43,080 That gave me time to pack at my own accord. Just 24 00:01:43,080 --> 00:01:45,800 like that. 25 00:01:45,800 --> 00:01:49,120 So I moved in with guy number two. 26 00:01:49,120 --> 00:01:55,520 After our first night together, I woke the next morning and noticed he has a beer in hand and it's 730 in the morning. 27 00:01:55,520 --> 00:01:58,160 I thought, oh, maybe he's just excited, right? 28 00:01:58,160 --> 00:02:03,500 Because he may still be celebrating that this is a big milestone, right? 29 00:02:03,500 --> 00:02:06,200 Moving in with one another is a big move. 30 00:02:06,200 --> 00:02:07,920 So I thought, okay, he's still celebrating whatever. 31 00:02:07,920 --> 00:02:09,880 I didn't say anything. 32 00:02:09,880 --> 00:02:16,640 The second morning I rise and noticed a beer in hand and it's 8 o'clock in the morning. 33 00:02:16,640 --> 00:02:20,720 So, now I'm thinking, okay, seriously there's something fucking wrong here. 34 00:02:20,720 --> 00:02:21,840 I don't like this. 35 00:02:21,840 --> 00:02:25,400 Like I'm not feeling really happy about this 36 00:02:25,400 --> 00:02:26,400 Didn't say anything. 37 00:02:26,400 --> 00:02:30,240 The third morning, same fucking thing happened and that's when I spoke up and said, listen, we need 38 00:02:30,240 --> 00:02:31,240 to sit down. 39 00:02:31,240 --> 00:02:33,720 And talk about something. 40 00:02:33,720 --> 00:02:35,000 He sat, and I said very calmly, that 41 00:02:35,000 --> 00:02:36,000 I think it was premature to move in and think 42 00:02:36,000 --> 00:02:38,320 He has things to work through. 43 00:02:38,320 --> 00:02:40,200 With a blank look on his face he 44 00:02:40,200 --> 00:02:43,980 Asks, "what's going on"? Why would you say that? 45 00:02:43,980 --> 00:02:47,840 He seemed clueless! I simply said I don't care for seeing booze in hand for breakfast. 46 00:02:47,840 --> 00:02:51,560 For the last 3 days at 7 or 8am all I've seen you do for breakfast is drink beer. 47 00:02:51,560 --> 00:02:53,660 Is there something I need to know? 48 00:02:53,660 --> 00:02:56,620 Don't tell me you're still celebrating. 49 00:02:56,620 --> 00:02:57,620 What's going on? 50 00:02:57,620 --> 00:02:58,620 Is this you? 51 00:02:58,620 --> 00:03:01,800 Is this something I never noticed, I never paid attention to? 52 00:03:01,800 --> 00:03:03 Why didn't you tell me about having a drinking problem? 53 00:03:03,760 --> 00:03:04,760 Or whatever you happen to be battling? 54 00:03:04,760 --> 00:03:06,280 His response, "it's nothing, man". 55 00:03:06,280 --> 00:03:07,280 I'm fine. 56 00:03:07,280 --> 00:03:11,160 I said, no, this is not fine. 57 00:03:11,160 --> 00:03:16,840 I'm not living with someone who has to drink at fucking 7.30 in the morning, 58 00:03:16,840 --> 00:03:22,040 Now he owned his own company, we both were working from home and maybe I didn't see it 59 00:03:22,040 --> 00:03:27,440 because I wasn't around when I had to go to the office and this was way pre-COVID. 60 00:03:27,440 --> 00:03:31,560 If anybody's thinking that, it's way, way pre-COVID. 61 00:03:31,560 --> 00:03:34,620 And I'm thinking, oh my God, am I with an alcoholic? 62 00:03:34,620 --> 00:03:38,160 What the fuck is going on here? 63 00:03:38,160 --> 00:03:45,040 First, I get a guy that tells me he's fucking married for 20 years. 64 00:03:45,040 --> 00:03:49,720 And now this guy that can't fucking put a drink down. 65 00:03:49,720 --> 00:03:53,340 What the fuck is going on? 66 00:03:53,340 --> 00:03:56,440 So I looked at him and I said, 67 00:03:56,440 --> 00:03:58,400 I think it's best if I move back to my place. 68 00:03:58,400 --> 00:04:00,320 I don't think I want to live in this. 69 00:04:00,320 --> 00:04:04,380 If you have something to deal with, deal with it. 70 00:04:04,380 --> 00:04:05,380 You'll feel good. 71 00:04:05,380 --> 00:04:06,560 Just deal with it. 72 00:04:06,560 --> 00:04:11,280 Don't drag me into it because I have nothing to do with that. 73 00:04:11,280 --> 00:04:16,360 I shouldn't have to go through your ups and downs with you because you're not or haven't dealt 74 00:04:16,360 --> 00:04:18,520 with whatever is ailing you. 75 00:04:18,520 --> 00:04:19,520 I"m out. 76 00:04:19,520 --> 00:04:21,000 You must put yourself first! 77 00:04:21,000 --> 00:04:24,880 First! 78 00:04:24,880 --> 00:04:25,880 Single moms. 79 00:04:25,880 --> 00:04:26,880 Single dads. 80 00:04:26,880 --> 00:04:30,320 It's crucial to put yourself first. 81 00:04:30,320 --> 00:04:31,940 First. 82 00:04:31,940 --> 00:04:36,140 I repeat...first! 83 00:04:36,140 --> 00:04:38,840 Put yourself still first. 84 00:04:38,840 --> 00:04:39,840 No ego. 85 00:04:39,840 --> 00:04:40,840 Just be your authentic self. 86 00:04:40,840 --> 00:04:45,040 I'm tired of saying that, but we all need reminders. 87 00:04:45,040 --> 00:04:46,720 If you don't take care of yourself, who will? 88 00:04:46,720 --> 00:04:49,660 Be leaders, not followers. 89 00:04:49,660 --> 00:04:54,040 If you don't take care of your bodies and your minds and you have children, how are 90 00:04:54,040 --> 00:05:01,000 you going to be strong for your children? Let's raise leaders, not followers. 91 00:05:01,000 --> 00:05:03,920 You know what I mean? 92 00:05:03,920 --> 00:05:05,720 So anyway, now this one's got a fucking drinking problem. 93 00:05:05,720 --> 00:05:06,800 So, I'm outta here. Grateful I have somewhere to go. 94 00:05:06,800 --> 00:05:07,800 In my mind it was already over. 95 00:05:07,800 --> 00:05:11,040 Thank God I haven't unpacked everything I had. 96 00:05:11,040 --> 00:05:13,600 So, the packing begins and I'm moving back to my place. 97 00:05:13,600 --> 00:05:14,600 Right? 98 00:05:14,600 --> 00:05:16,680 He fucking lost it. 99 00:05:16,680 --> 00:05:17,680 Holy shit. 100 00:05:17,680 --> 00:05:19,160 I thought he was going to beat the crap out of me. 101 00:05:19,160 --> 00:05:20,160 I really did. 102 00:05:20,160 --> 00:05:23,400 I finally had to calm his ass down and say, whoa. 103 00:05:23,400 --> 00:05:28,800 I held his hands and calmly caressed his face to keep him calm 104 00:05:28,800 --> 00:05:29,800 It worked. 105 00:05:29,800 --> 00:05:32,520 He finally calmed down and when he did I told him I was going for a walk 106 00:05:32,520 --> 00:05:33,660 to clear my head. While out, I call 3 friends who have trucks 107 00:05:33,660 --> 00:05:35,800 And told them to be over in 2 hours 108 00:05:35,800 --> 00:05:37,520 I rose off the couch, put my boots on and walked out locking the door behind me. While out, I called 3 buddies who have trucks and told them to be over in 2 hours as I'm moving back home and need their help. 109 00:05:37,520 --> 00:05:39,160 I returned 2 hours later and couldn't get in to the unit. 110 00:05:39,160 --> 00:05:40,160 Thought maybe I used the wrong key. 111 00:05:40,160 --> 00:05:43,840 Tried the other key and it didn't work. 112 00:05:43,840 --> 00:05:45,400 I only had 2 keys 113 00:05:45,400 --> 00:05:48,020 He changed the fucking locks! 114 00:05:48,020 --> 00:05:52,960 He changed the locks and he had all my clothes and furniture in there 115 00:05:52,960 --> 00:05:54,320 Like what the fuck? 116 00:05:54,320 --> 00:05:55,480 Is this guy for real? 117 00:05:55,480 --> 00:05:57,960 Stunned! Was not expecting this...at all! 118 00:05:57,960 --> 00:06:01,680 Long story short, I ended up having to call the police. 119 00:06:01,680 --> 00:06:02,680 They arrived and he wouldn't . 120 00:06:02,680 --> 00:06:03,680 Let them in. 121 00:06:03,680 --> 00:06:05,240 He knew his rights. 122 00:06:05,240 --> 00:06:07,200 What the hell? 123 00:06:07,200 --> 00:06:10,440 Has this guy's pulled this trick before or what? 124 00:06:10,440 --> 00:06:17,520 The police had to get a warrant to let them and me in 125 00:06:17,520 --> 00:06:25,840 Finally, after a couple of hours we finally get access and I begin packing quickly lol 126 00:06:25,840 --> 00:06:28,280 All I hear while packing are threats from him. I'm fucking going to come after you. 127 00:06:28,280 --> 00:06:29,280 I'm going to dot, dot, dot 128 00:06:29,280 --> 00:06:31,760 The police are trying to calm him down. 129 00:06:31,760 --> 00:06:32,760 Nothing's working. 130 00:06:32,760 --> 00:06:36,120 He had no problems letting it all go. 131 00:06:36,120 --> 00:06:41,760 I had just realized, I had no idea who 132 00:06:41,760 --> 00:06:43,560 this person is 133 00:06:43,560 --> 00:06:45,440 So, I continue to pack in shock 134 00:06:45,440 --> 00:06:50,280 My buddies show up, thankfully 135 00:06:50,280 --> 00:06:52,760 And they begin moving my belongings out listening to my ex throw threat after threat 136 00:06:52,760 --> 00:06:58,080 I just let it go in one ear and out the other 137 00:06:58,080 --> 00:06:59,080 The more he opened his mouth, the more I knew I was making the right decision to get out of there 138 00:06:59,080 --> 00:07:00,080 I couldn't stop thinking, "this guy is an alcoholic"! I didn't see it! 139 00:07:00,080 --> 00:07:02,920 For the past three years! 140 00:07:02,920 --> 00:07:04,640 What the hell? 141 00:07:04,640 --> 00:07:06,720 He's a fucking full blown alcoholic. 142 00:07:06,720 --> 00:07:07,720 I need to get out of here. 143 00:07:07,720 --> 00:07:10,840 This is HIS shit to deal with and he's not taking me down with him. 144 00:07:10,840 --> 00:07:13,080 And remember, I'm a single parent. 145 00:07:13,080 --> 00:07:17,720 If I haven't said that in my other episodes, I am a single parent. 146 00:07:17,720 --> 00:07:24,800 So I'm not interested in bringing shit like that into my fucking house for my child to 147 00:07:24,800 --> 00:07:26,160 take on. 148 00:07:26,160 --> 00:07:29,000 What's he or she got to do with it? 149 00:07:29,000 --> 00:07:31,280 Right? 150 00:07:31,280 --> 00:07:33,240 They don't know that person and ask to have them in their life 151 00:07:33,240 --> 00:07:35,580 They didn't ask to be put in that situation. 152 00:07:35,580 --> 00:07:37,160 You see what I'm saying? 153 00:07:37,160 --> 00:07:38,160 So no. 154 00:07:38,160 --> 00:07:39,600 Anyway, they're all on standby. 155 00:07:39,600 --> 00:07:42,080 My 3 buddies were working hard and fast. 156 00:07:42,080 --> 00:07:43,080 We loaded everything! 157 00:07:43,080 --> 00:07:44,080 I threw things together and they 158 00:07:44,080 --> 00:07:45,240 Moved the boxes and bags out and loaded it all up 159 00:07:45,240 --> 00:07:47,060 Next thing I know 160 00:07:47,060 --> 00:07:49,000 I'm on my way home and in shock 161 00:07:49,000 --> 00:07:53,480 Took a couple of days off work, explained to my boss, I had something to deal with 162 00:07:53,480 --> 00:07:55,480 I feel like I've just walked through the twilight zone. 163 00:07:55,480 --> 00:07:59,240 I don't know what happened and how did I not see this? 164 00:07:59,240 --> 00:08:00,680 Why would I allow this? 165 00:08:00,680 --> 00:08:01,880 Why did I ignore my intuition? Why did I ignore other signs? 166 00:08:01,880 --> 00:08:02,880 Right? 167 00:08:02,880 --> 00:08:05,400 Back to questioning me again. 168 00:08:05,400 --> 00:08:08,200 Finally, I was ready to go to work. 169 00:08:08,200 --> 00:08:09,720 Thinking it was all over. I opened my front door as transit was on its way 170 00:08:09,720 --> 00:08:11,320 And saw him crunched over on my front step highly inebriated. 171 00:08:11,320 --> 00:08:12,840 It's around 6 AM. 172 00:08:12,840 --> 00:08:14,000 Slurring how much he loves and misses me 173 00:08:14,000 --> 00:08:15,000 Utter shock! 174 00:08:15,000 --> 00:08:16,000 Who is this guy? 175 00:08:16,000 --> 00:08:21,320 What the fuck is going on? 176 00:08:21,320 --> 00:08:22,600 Why is this happening? 177 00:08:22,600 --> 00:08:24,080 I told him to leave 178 00:08:24,080 --> 00:08:25,920 He started with the I miss you bullshit 179 00:08:25,920 --> 00:08:29,440 I went into the house. 180 00:08:29,440 --> 00:08:33,920 Locked the door 181 00:08:33,920 --> 00:08:36,560 And called the police 182 00:08:36,560 --> 00:08:38,600 I now knew this guy is not all there 183 00:08:38,600 --> 00:08:41,280 If it hadn't clicked in yet 184 00:08:41,280 --> 00:08:43,560 I was now scared for me 185 00:08:43,560 --> 00:08:46,960 And for my child 186 00:08:46,960 --> 00:08:49,280 The police show up, handcuff him, 187 00:08:49,280 --> 00:08:50,760 He had a nice sleep in 188 00:08:50,760 --> 00:08:52,520 The drunk tank 189 00:08:52,520 --> 00:08:54,240 For the night 190 00:08:54,240 --> 00:08:55,240 A couple of days later 191 00:08:55,240 --> 00:08:56,240 I open the front door to head to work 192 00:08:56,240 --> 00:08:57,440 And low and behold, 193 00:08:57,440 --> 00:08:58,440 Back on my front step in the 194 00:08:58,440 --> 00:09:03,200 Exactly same state he was in a couple of days earlier 195 00:09:03,200 --> 00:09:08,880 The only difference, he 196 00:09:08,880 --> 00:09:10,560 Was passed out cold. I slipped by and ran to the bus stop lol 197 00:09:10,560 --> 00:09:14,400 He stayed on that front step for a fucking week. 198 00:09:14,400 --> 00:09:16,360 I couldn't believe it. 199 00:09:16,360 --> 00:09:21,520 As time went by, I ended having to leave out the side door of my house 200 00:09:21,520 --> 00:09:26,000 Because he wouldn't leave me alone 201 00:09:26,000 --> 00:09:27,600 It's clear he was depended on me 202 00:09:27,600 --> 00:09:34,240 And he wasn't comfortable being alone. 203 00:09:34,240 --> 00:09:37,160 Long story short, 204 00:09:37,160 --> 00:09:42,640 I ended up getting a restraining order on the guy. 205 00:09:42,640 --> 00:09:44,820 And that was that. 206 00:09:44,820 --> 00:09:52,060 After many years later, 207 00:09:52,060 --> 00:09:56,600 I find out, from my sister, they have been fucking emailing. 208 00:09:56,600 --> 00:09:57,600 Back and forth for a while 209 00:09:57,600 --> 00:10:02,040 How the hell did they get each other's email addresses? When? How did I miss this? 210 00:10:02,040 --> 00:10:04,960 What the fuck is going on? 211 00:10:04,960 --> 00:10:12,120 Yeah, after I found that out from my sister, trust was destroyed for good! 212 00:10:12,120 --> 00:10:15,760 I don't trust her! Not one fucking iota. 213 00:10:15,760 --> 00:10:18,080 And don't give a shit about removing her from my life. 214 00:10:18,080 --> 00:10:23,440 Over my 50s now and know my worth, and I have boundaries! 215 00:10:23,440 --> 00:10:25,000 Period! 216 00:10:25,000 --> 00:10:26,000 Fuck you, motherfucker. 217 00:10:26,000 --> 00:10:29,200 I don't give a shit who the fuck you are in my life. 218 00:10:29,200 --> 00:10:30,960 I don't care if you're my parent. 219 00:10:30,960 --> 00:10:35,440 If you mistreat me, I'm done. It's so freeing as you get older and learn your worth! 220 00:10:35,440 --> 00:10:38,600 I understand if I steal my parents car 221 00:10:38,600 --> 00:10:41,520 Crash it, I have no license, something like that. 222 00:10:41,520 --> 00:10:44,480 You know what I mean? 223 00:10:44,480 --> 00:10:47,000 Ground me, whatever. There's consequences - should be anyway. 224 00:10:47,000 --> 00:10:54,600 I would write off my fucking parents in an instant if disrespected 225 00:10:54,600 --> 00:11:00,520 So to find out my sister swapped emails with my ex and has been communicating 226 00:11:00,520 --> 00:11:02,320 back and forth? 227 00:11:02,320 --> 00:11:04,840 What the fuck? 228 00:11:04,840 --> 00:11:08,600 Oh, she's reaping her karma now. 229 00:11:08,600 --> 00:11:12,840 Mm-hmm, mm-hmm. 230 00:11:12,840 --> 00:11:17,360 She's now getting what she put out. 231 00:11:17,360 --> 00:11:23,800 You get what you give! 232 00:11:23,800 --> 00:11:29,400 So many questions running through my mind. I thought I was going crazy! 233 00:11:29,400 --> 00:11:37,200 A fucking alcoholic dealing with my sister, having move out 234 00:11:37,200 --> 00:11:41,080 Only after 3 days of moving in 235 00:11:41,080 --> 00:11:45,400 Good Lord! 236 00:11:45,400 --> 00:11:51,360 I feel bad for the person who was going to rent my place that he no longer could 237 00:11:51,360 --> 00:11:55,000 And explained why. 238 00:11:55,000 --> 00:12:04,960 I had signs from the universe during the past 3 years, and ignored them. 239 00:12:04,960 --> 00:12:08,840 I saw them, but ignored them all 240 00:12:08,840 --> 00:12:12,720 Oh my God! 241 00:12:12,720 --> 00:12:19,480 Even when we were just dating and not living with each other, we would go out for dinner 242 00:12:19,480 --> 00:12:23,760 and he'd rip through a bottle of wine and I thought, nothing of it. 243 00:12:23,760 --> 00:12:24,760 I noticed it. 244 00:12:24,760 --> 00:12:32,960 I saw it with my own two eyes, but I ignored it. 245 00:12:32,960 --> 00:12:40,080 So number two is down. 246 00:12:40,080 --> 00:12:44,880 I ended up having to get a restraining order on him. 247 00:12:44,880 --> 00:12:47,080 That was that. 248 00:12:47,080 --> 00:12:56,160 Never saw him until probably about 6 years later lol. He resurfaces and 249 00:12:56,160 --> 00:12:57,160 Found out he got married. 250 00:12:57,160 --> 00:13:00,800 He had a couple of kids. One boy, one girl. 251 00:13:00,800 --> 00:13:02,720 His family was judgmental. The sisters were not worst! 252 00:13:02,720 --> 00:13:04,640 Ugh!. 253 00:13:04,640 --> 00:13:08,080 I couldn't stand his fucking sisters. 254 00:13:08,080 --> 00:13:13,000 Oh my God! 255 00:13:13,000 --> 00:13:17,520 I hated their energy. 256 00:13:17,520 --> 00:13:18,520 Very judgmental. 257 00:13:18,520 --> 00:13:23,320 Very, ugh, yuck. 258 00:13:23,320 --> 00:13:24,320 Parents were really nice. 259 00:13:24,320 --> 00:13:27,320 They lived on a very beautiful, cared for farm 260 00:13:27,320 --> 00:13:28,760 They've done very well for themselves. 261 00:13:28,760 --> 00:13:36,120 Their house was really beautiful, and the surrounding land was very well manicured. 262 00:13:36,120 --> 00:13:37,840 So, he calls me one day to get together. Hmm, my guard was up and now paying attention to all of his actions.Now his parents have disowned him. 263 00:13:37,840 --> 00:13:40,920 We get together to only find out his parents have disowned him. His mother alone instructed her husband (his father) to not let him on their property. 264 00:13:40,920 --> 00:13:41,920 So, he's gone from having a successful company...everything to losing it all along with his dignity. Why? 265 00:13:41,920 --> 00:13:45,120 Because he refuses 266 00:13:45,120 --> 00:13:47,120 To learn lessons 267 00:13:47,120 --> 00:13:48,120 Right? 268 00:13:48,120 --> 00:13:53,040 Apparently he's divorced now. 269 00:13:53,040 --> 00:13:55,440 His daughter doesn't want to have anything to do with him 270 00:13:55,440 --> 00:13:58,640 He reached out to me for money. LOL 271 00:13:58,640 --> 00:14:03,720 For money! 272 00:14:03,720 --> 00:14:08,560 This guy owned his own company and had money coming out of the wazoo. 273 00:14:08,560 --> 00:14:10,680 Where did it all go? 274 00:14:10,680 --> 00:14:12,880 What happened to it? 275 00:14:12,880 --> 00:14:13,880 When did you lose it? 276 00:14:13,880 --> 00:14:19,080 How did you lose it? 277 00:14:19,080 --> 00:14:20,680 Later to find out it's gambling. 278 00:14:20,680 --> 00:14:23,840 So we got another habit going on here. 279 00:14:23,840 --> 00:14:26,240 Isn't that fucked up? 280 00:14:26,240 --> 00:14:33,360 You think you know somebody after three years. 281 00:14:33,360 --> 00:14:42,560 So I get home, unpack, start questioning myself. 282 00:14:42,560 --> 00:14:47,160 Have to go through the whole fucking shit all over again of forgiving myself. 283 00:14:47,160 --> 00:14:51,480 Why did you let this happen again? 284 00:14:51,480 --> 00:14:56,720 Not for the first time, but again! 285 00:14:56,720 --> 00:15:00,640 What the fuck is the matter with me? 286 00:15:00,640 --> 00:15:07,080 All sex based again? 287 00:15:07,080 --> 00:15:10,160 All illusions again? 288 00:15:10,160 --> 00:15:12,160 All lies again? 289 00:15:12,160 --> 00:15:19,360 What the fuck? 290 00:15:19,360 --> 00:15:23,040 When am I going to fucking get it? 291 00:15:23,040 --> 00:15:25,200 So, it's time...again 292 00:15:25,200 --> 00:15:33,760 Time to go through the healing process again 293 00:15:33,760 --> 00:15:35,400 Right? 294 00:15:35,400 --> 00:15:41,320 It's not easy. 295 00:15:41,320 --> 00:15:45,480 Because when you go through things like that, the first thing that comes out of my mouth 296 00:15:45,480 --> 00:15:47,480 is what the fuck? 297 00:15:47,480 --> 00:15:49,240 Am I stupid, or what? 298 00:15:49,240 --> 00:15:51,040 By the way, don't speak to yourself in a negative tone. NEVER! 299 00:15:51,040 --> 00:15:53,400 The universe is listening. 300 00:15:53,400 --> 00:15:55,680 Be kind to yourself. 301 00:15:55,680 --> 00:15:58,160 Back to knowing your worth and loving yourself. 302 00:15:58,160 --> 00:16:01,920 Back then, I was talking to myself in a negative tone as I was not learning my lessons and becoming quite frustrated with the dating process 303 00:16:01,920 --> 00:16:04,040 I can't believe I just fucking did that again. 304 00:16:04,040 --> 00:16:06,160 What the hell is the matter with me? 305 00:16:06,160 --> 00:16:12,640 Seriously, what is fucking wrong with me? 306 00:16:12,640 --> 00:16:28,680 I did it to myself again. 307 00:16:28,680 --> 00:16:34,240 The next episode of guy #3 gets the trophy. 308 00:16:34,240 --> 00:16:41,560 This is the one that finished me right off. I was forced by the Universe and felt it to move on 309 00:16:41,560 --> 00:16:49,880 The Universe spoke and I had no option but to listen. 310 00:16:49,880 --> 00:16:51,880 Look forward to sharing this one with you. 311 00:16:51,880 --> 00:17:00,600 The well needed and 312 00:17:00,600 --> 00:17:04,840 Deserved change. 313 00:17:04,840 --> 00:17:08,520 Anyway, 314 00:17:08,520 --> 00:17:10,880 Until then 315 00:17:10,880 --> 00:17:16,760 I love you.