Hey guys, it's me again. I'm always talking about know your worth, self-love, self-respect,
and how critical it is, how important it is. That's step number one to becoming who you
want to be. Without it, you're just going to keep being who you are now, and if you're
not happy, then you don't want to do that. You want to do something different. So to
give you an example about, because I keep talking about self-love and self-everything,
I'm going to give you an example of when I did not have self-love. Okay? I was an over-giver.
I would give, give, give, give, oh my God, I would do everything and have no energy left
for me. Okay? So I meet this guy who's extremely successful. Okay? Good looking dude, very
smart, has it all, properties all over the world, in the city where we both lived in.
Those are rental properties, right? The cars, traveling, his own company, very successful,
et cetera, et cetera, had it all. Okay? His company was in the U.S. and he used to fly
back and forth to see me, and it would be like every week and then every weekend and
then whatever, whatever, whatever, right? After 14 years, I dated this person. I was
probably in my late 20s. I dated this person for 14 years, 14 long years. Some marriages
don't even last that long anymore. So 14 years. Why I didn't ask this question, you know,
even 13 and a half years earlier, like it's just boggles my mind now that I think about
it. I had said to him when he arrived, I was making a chakutery board, et cetera. I said,
you know what, it would be nice to go to your place. I had never been to your fucking place,
and it would be nice for me to get out of here for a different scenery. He agreed. I
went over to one of his places only to later find out that that was one of his rental properties
that he fixed up and took some of his furniture and put it in there. It was a condo close
to the house that he really lived in. And where I'm going with that is we went, we ended
up going to his place, made something to eat, was a great night, had a couple glasses of
wine, went to bed, and whatever happened, happened there. So apparently I'm sleeping
over I guess. He didn't seem very comfortable with it, and nor did I for some reason. He
falls asleep. I try to sneak out of the house. I don't know the lay of the land. I hit something
or whatever, and it made noise. He woke up, asked what I was doing. I said I was going
to go home because I just want to be in my own bed, right, having a hard time sleeping.
He said, okay, well, let me take you home. I said, no, that's okay. I'll just hike it,
or Uber it, or cab it, or whatever. So we end up sitting there on the edge of his bed.
He tells me to come and sit down, go and sit down, right, beside him. So I sat beside him.
And he proceeds to tell me that he's been married for 20 years and he has two kids that
they're currently battling over court about. Like is this fucked up or what? After 14 years,
the first time I've been over to his place, he proceeds to tell me he's been married for
20 years, he's in the midst of a divorce, and they're battling for custody right now
over two children. What the fuck? So I didn't get upset. I said, okay, this is exactly what
I said. I said, okay, you know what? Do what you have to do. Take care of your shit, okay?
And please don't call me anymore. Just don't call me anymore. Don't, if you see me on the
street, don't look at me. Don't approach me. You don't even know who I am. Just leave me
alone, okay? So there I go off, wee early, wee hours of the morning. It's fucking cold.
I'm in a summer dress and flip flops because it was nicer during the day and it gets chilly
at night here sometimes. So off I go. I had sign after sign after sign that I ignored
from the universe. One was never being invited over. There's no point in arguing about it.
If you ask your man or you ask your woman if you could go over if you've never been
over to their place, and you get a no or not today or whatever, get the hell out of there.
Just leave. Don't even go, what? What the fuck? Why can I never go over to your place?
It's not gonna get you anywhere. It does not get you anywhere. Trust me. It just pisses
you off. It raises your blood pressure, makes you unhappy. It doesn't get you anywhere.
So just go, oh, okay, well, okay, I'll call you later and block him and don't call him.
Or just say, okay, I'm okay with this, but please just don't call me anymore. Please.
If you ever loved me or respected me or cared for me or liked me or whatever, just don't
call me anymore, okay? Sorry. This is where I draw the line. No need to yell and just
get out. Go forward, look forward, keep pushing forward. Did I do that after that relationship?
I did. But when it came into a relationship? No, I didn't. Again. Anyway, I just felt like
I wanted to tell you the story because I don't want to be here and just talk to you and tell
you how I fucking... Oh, she thinks she knows everything or whatever. No, I know a lot.
I know so much, you guys, because I've endured so much in my life. The stories get better.
They're kind of the same, but not. But I want you to know that I'm human too, and I did
not know my worth, and I did not have boundaries up, and I obviously didn't love myself because
if I did, I wouldn't have allowed somebody to treat me like that. Period. We all know
this. Anyway, I love you all. I'll be on shortly to talk about my second relationship that
helped me grow, and I'm so grateful for it. Bye.