Perhaps the question that is asked me most is,
when did you realize that God had given you this
ministry of healing? May I make something very
clear in the very beginning, and that is the
fact that Catherine Kuhlman is not a faith healer.
If you forget everything else that you've ever
heard about me, always remember Catherine Kuhlman
has never healed a human being. I have no healing
power. I have no healing virtue. I would not
even go so far as to say that God has... given
me the gift of faith or the gift of healing i
would not even go so far as to claim any gift
of the spirit for you see i am so convinced that
if one has been so richly blessed and if that
one has been given a gift it will be something
so sacred something so precious that one will
guard it very carefully and the holy spirit is
never boastful i am frank to tell you that when
there are those who come to me and boastfully
speak of some gift that the holy spirit has given
to them i shy away a little because knowing the
person of the holy spirit i have learned that
he always glorifies jesus he always magnifies
jesus he is never boastful never and when one
has been given some gift to the spirit that one
will always acknowledge that it is still the
supernatural power of god it is still the power
of the holy spirit and the holy spirit through
that gift and through that yielded channel that
yielded vessel will continue to glorify and magnify
jesus no my friend i have no healing power i
have no healing virtue i want that clearly understood
for a few minutes you and i are going to have
one of those good heart -to -heart talks and
i shall try as simply as possible to reach your
understanding regarding the key to these great
miracles that take place a little knowledge and
an overabundance of zeal always tends to be harmful
and in the area involving religious truths it
can be disastrous very disastrous not long ago
a well -meaning person painted my portrait in
oils to the artist to the one who painted my
portrait it was a masterpiece but our radio engineer
who happened to be in the office when i was unwrapping
the picture took one look at it and in his quiet
way commented an overabundance of good intentions
but no talent often i am prone to react in exactly
the very same way to those who have so much to
say about faith those who claim to know all about
divine healing those who profess to be authorities
on the subject who claim to have all the answers
regarding the manifestation of god's power even
to the point of judging those who fail to receive
healing from the giving hand of god in the early
part of my ministry i was greatly disturbed over
much that i saw occurring in the field of divine
healing i was confused by the many methods that
i saw employed i was disgusted with the unwise
performances that i witnessed none of which i
could associate in any way whatsoever with either
the action of the holy spirit or indeed the very
nature of god and to this very day there is nothing
that's more impulsive to me then the lack of
wisdom and i'm putting it very mildly when i
say the lack of wisdom there's one thing i cannot
stand and that is fanaticism the manifestations
of the flesh that bring a reproach on something
that is so marvelous something that is so sacred
too often i had seen pathetically sick people
dragging their tired weakened bodies home from
a healing service having been told that they
were not healed simply because of their own lack
of faith my heart ached for these people i knew
how they had struggled day after day trying desperately
to obtain more faith and then when they were
not healed they were rebuked by the fact that
they had not had enough faith to be healed having
been told that if they had had sufficient faith
they would have been healed i could see the defeat
in their faces and i saw that because of their
lack of teaching their lack of knowledge that
they were looking to themselves almost to the
point where they were trying to heal themselves
through their own strivings rather than looking
to the great physician rather than looking to
the one who is the author and the finisher of
our faith jesus christ the son of god it was
almost as though faith to them was something
that they could manufacture they could work up
something they could take out of their pockets
look at and then say do i have sufficient faith
is it enough is the quality the quantity enough
to heal my poor sick body forgetting the great
physician forgetting the power of the holy spirit
looking at themselves rather than to god but
what was the answer again and again i was to
ask myself the question why were some healed
and others not was there no balm in gilead was
faith something that one could manufacture or
work up in oneself was it something that could
be obtained through one's own goodness or moral
status was it something that could be procured
in exchange for serving the lord or through benevolence
i knew that god could not lie i knew he had promised
for i believed every word in the bible i knew
the promise was there i knew he was all -powerful
i knew in my own heart that there was healing
for i had seen the evidence from those who had
been healed it was real it was genuine it was
a part of god himself it was his promise but
what was the key i could not see the hand of
god in man's zeal and i saw the harm that was
being done in attributing everything to the lack
of faith on the part of the individual who had
not received his healing inside myself i was
crushed my heart told me that god could do anything
my mind told me that through ignorance and a
lack of spiritual knowledge there were those
who were bringing a approach on something that
was sacred, something that was wonderful, something
that God had promised to all. No preacher had
to tell me, no theologian had to tell me that
the power of God was real and that God knew no
such thing as a miracle as such, for I was assured
of these facts as I read the word of God. The
word was there. The promise had been given. there
was surely no changing of god's mind and certainly
no cancelling of the promise i think that no
one has ever wanted truth more than i have sought
truth it seems that i have sought truth all my
life even to this very hour i do not believe
that there is a person that is so hungry for
the things of the spirit there is no one who
is a greater seeker after his truth i remember
well the evening when i walked from under a big
tent where a divine healing service was being
conducted the looks of despair and disappointment
on the faces that i had seen when told that only
their lack of faith was keeping them from god
it haunted me for weeks was this then the god
of all mercy the god of great compassion i remember
that night with tears streaming down my face
i looked up and cried they have taken away my
lord and i know not where they have laid him
and i remember going to my room and sobbing out
my heart to god praying for light on the truth
i can take you to the very spot i can take your
hand and walk with you down the streets where
i walked that night i can take you to the very
room this hour where i prayed as i had never
prayed before and sought him as i had never sought
him before fortunately i had learned a very valuable
spiritual lesson early in my ministry one which
was to come to my aid now i had learned that
the only way to get the truth is to come in sincerity
absolute honesty of heart and mind and let the
lord himself give one the blessed revelations
of his word and through the word make his presence
real and his truths known if you want real truth
go to him he is the source of all truth if you
want knowledge if you want to know the way he
is perfect knowledge he is absolute authority
there is no greater authority than the spirit
of the living god sometimes i think that we perhaps
with great sincerity and in our search for truth
go to other sources than the real source the
mighty god himself and he reveals the truth through
his word at no time in my search did i profess
to wear the robe of infallibility i did not seek
as a dogmatist nor as one with a closed mind
but only as one who was daily learning willing
to be guided by the holy spirit longing to be
taught of the father as one who was hungry for
deeper spiritual knowledge not from man but from
god and i went to the highest authority and sought
from him the great revelation i waited expectantly
for the answer and it came it will always come
one night during a series of services that i
was conducting a very fine christian lady arose
from where she was sitting in the audience and
said miss coolman please before you begin your
sermon to -night may i give a word of testimony
regarding something that happened last evening
while you were preaching i nodded and quickly
recalled that i had spoken the night before on
the person of the holy spirit at that time i
knew very little regarding that wonderful fellowship
that constant communion with the holy spirit
but i had been giving a very simple message regarding
the person of the holy spirit i clearly recalled
the sum and the substance of that message god
the father is seated upon his throne and is the
giver of every good and perfect gift at his right
hand is his only begotten son through whom we
receive salvation and the healing for our bodies
and in whom every need of our lives is met the
holy spirit is the only member of the trinity
who is here on earth and working in conjunction
with the father and with the son he is here to
do anything and everything for us that jesus
would do were he here in person that was a part
of the message that i had given i listened it
now as the little woman spoke as you were preaching
on the holy spirit she said telling us that in
him lay the resurrection power i felt the power
of god flow through my body although not a word
had been spoken regarding the healing of the
sick i knew instantly and definitely that my
body had been healed and so sure was i of this
that i went to my doctor to -day and had my healing
verified the holy spirit then was the answer
an answer so profound that no human being can
fathom the full extent of its power and yet so
simple that most folk miss it even to -day i
had my answer i understood that night why there
was no need for a healing line no healing virtue
in a card or a personality no necessity for wild
exhortations to have faith that was the beginning
of this healing ministry which god has given
to me strange to some because the fact that hundreds
have been healed just sitting quietly in the
audience without any demonstration whatsoever
none very often not even a sermon is preached
there have been times when not even a song has
been sung no loud demonstration no loud calling
on god as though he were deaf no screaming no
shouting but in the very quietness of his presence
and there have been times literally hundreds
of times when in a great miracle service there
has been so much of the presence of the holy
spirit that literally one could almost hear the
beating the rhythm of the heartbeats of thousands
of people as their heart did beat as one in the
stillness of that moment i have more than once
slipped my feet out of my shoes for the ground
whereon i stood was holy ground no screaming
no manifestations of the flesh, no exhorting,
no admonishing, just the very presence of the
Holy Spirit. Yes, that was the beginning of this
healing ministry which God has given me. Many
have been the times when I have actually stood
awed at the great moving of the Holy Spirit.
Many have been the times when the power of the
Holy Ghost was so present in my own body that
I've had to struggle to remain on my feet. feet.
Many have been the times when His very presence
healed sick bodies before my eyes, and I stood
speechless, knowing better than anyone else that
I had nothing to do with those healings, nothing
whatsoever. My own mind so surrendered to the
Spirit that I knew the exact person being healed.
the sickness the affliction and in some instances
the very sin in their lives and yet to this very
hour i do not pretend to tell you why or how
i do not know from the beginning as now i was
sure of two things first that i had nothing to
do with what was happening second i knew that
it was the supernatural power of almighty god
i had been satisfied to leave the why and the
how to him for if i knew the answers to those
two questions then i would be gone in the light
of god's great love in the light of his tenderness
and compassion the holy spirit revealed to me
my worthlessness and helplessness of self his
greatness was overwhelming i was only a sinner
saved by the grace of god the power was his and
the glory was his and there's something i found
out a long long time ago and that is the fact
that he'll not share the glory he'll not share
the praise with any human being the glory the
praise shall be his for ever and ever and ever
you know sometimes i think that our chief difficulty
is that we seek healing instead of the healer
of what use to look for light and disdain the
sun the woman that had the issue of blood was
not struggling to grasp a lifeline of deliverance
by the power of mental apprehension all that
she wanted to do was to get to jesus all that
the poor miserable wretch on the jericho road
did was to just crowd into that heart -rending
cry the story of his own helplessness and his
belief in the love and the power and the compassion
of jesus of nazareth even though our blessed
lord did tell him it it was his faith that had
made him whole yet i am sure that what faith
he had was given him by the lord himself the
presence of the nazarene was the source of faith
in the days of old and it is the presence of
jesus the power the holy ghost that is the source
of our faith in these days of doubt and unbelief
for the word says without me ye can do nothing
may i exhort you get your eyes off of yourself
get your eyes off of your own faith stop struggling
and into this moment look to him who is the author
and the finisher of our faith the lord jesus
christ for any faith that i may have he is the
one who's given it to me any faith that you have
or will ever have is the faith that he has given
to you