WEBVTT 00:00:02.220 --> 00:00:15.039 Thank you. Hi, everyone. Welcome back to No Manual 00:00:15.039 --> 00:00:17.399 and MomCast, where this is a place for moms to 00:00:17.399 --> 00:00:20.539 connect and hear all about the reality of motherhood, 00:00:20.640 --> 00:00:24.519 the highs, the lows, everything in between. And 00:00:24.519 --> 00:00:26.760 actually, what we're going to be talking about 00:00:26.760 --> 00:00:31.920 today is our two -year highs and lows. So Erica's 00:00:31.920 --> 00:00:35.060 little guy, Lloyd, just turned two. Yesterday. 00:00:35.380 --> 00:00:38.840 Yesterday. And then Colt is about to turn two 00:00:38.840 --> 00:00:42.859 this next month. So we're two years into it. 00:00:42.759 --> 00:00:45.740 to motherhood, and we've definitely got some 00:00:45.740 --> 00:00:48.439 highs and lows to chat about. So we're going 00:00:48.439 --> 00:00:51.640 to talk about that today. Yeah. Well, do you 00:00:51.640 --> 00:00:55.380 want to hop into your mom moment of the week 00:00:55.380 --> 00:00:59.780 first? So last night we went to a concert as 00:00:59.780 --> 00:01:03.320 a family. Fun. And it was super fun. The ride 00:01:03.320 --> 00:01:06.099 there was... the most stressful experience was 00:01:06.099 --> 00:01:08.799 like i legitimately thought i was not gonna have 00:01:08.799 --> 00:01:10.359 fun at the concert because that's where the drive 00:01:10.359 --> 00:01:13.840 was so for starters the venue is an outdoor venue 00:01:13.840 --> 00:01:17.540 it's about an hour away from us i think when 00:01:17.540 --> 00:01:19.099 we mapped it out it said it was gonna take like 00:01:19.099 --> 00:01:21.959 50 minutes which we're like okay kind of a long 00:01:21.959 --> 00:01:24.219 time in the car for the kids but you know it's 00:01:24.219 --> 00:01:27.000 fine and then it took over an hour and a half 00:01:27.000 --> 00:01:31.620 to get there and then it also started like storming 00:01:31.620 --> 00:01:34.219 hailing terrible to drive down so we're like 00:01:34.219 --> 00:01:36.900 so your anxiety is just all over the place so 00:01:36.900 --> 00:01:40.180 i'm like i don't even know if like in the venue 00:01:40.180 --> 00:01:42.379 says that you're gonna do their concerts rain 00:01:42.379 --> 00:01:44.980 or shine so i'm like okay so but i don't this 00:01:44.980 --> 00:01:47.060 is an outdoor venue it's an outdoor venue so 00:01:47.060 --> 00:01:48.739 i'm like but i don't want to be there with my 00:01:48.739 --> 00:01:51.459 two little kids if it's like storming also for 00:01:51.459 --> 00:01:53.799 driving over an hour i don't want to just turn 00:01:53.799 --> 00:01:58.000 around and go home no and then so lloyd is mostly 00:01:58.000 --> 00:02:01.500 potty trained at this point And we're about halfway. 00:02:01.500 --> 00:02:03.620 Cruz has a lot to say about your concert too. 00:02:04.079 --> 00:02:06.819 For anyone listening, both babies are awake, 00:02:06.879 --> 00:02:08.500 so they'll be making comments the whole time, 00:02:08.560 --> 00:02:10.960 I'm sure. Yeah, so Lloyd's mostly potty trained. 00:02:11.300 --> 00:02:14.180 And so we're about halfway there. The GPS is 00:02:14.180 --> 00:02:16.759 like, you're still 40 minutes away. And Lloyd 00:02:16.759 --> 00:02:20.840 just starts going, potty, potty, potty. You're 00:02:20.840 --> 00:02:22.599 like, thank you for telling us. Yeah, we're like, 00:02:22.740 --> 00:02:25.039 thanks for telling us, but can you hold it? Like, 00:02:25.039 --> 00:02:27.020 can you wait till we get to where we're going? 00:02:27.680 --> 00:02:31.219 And he also likes to practice his words. So that's 00:02:31.219 --> 00:02:33.939 an unfortunate one because we're like, we can 00:02:33.939 --> 00:02:35.879 never really tell if he's just like practicing 00:02:35.879 --> 00:02:37.960 his words or if he's saying that he has to go. 00:02:38.099 --> 00:02:40.080 But we try to take him seriously when he says 00:02:40.080 --> 00:02:42.479 it so that he like has that association. And 00:02:42.479 --> 00:02:44.699 then he started getting like frustrated, like 00:02:44.699 --> 00:02:48.740 potty, potty, potty, and like upset. Yeah. So 00:02:48.740 --> 00:02:51.800 you're like, oh, dang it. So the whole time, 00:02:51.840 --> 00:02:55.719 like 40 minutes we're in the car. just like anticipating 00:02:55.719 --> 00:02:57.819 we're gonna get there he's gonna have had an 00:02:57.819 --> 00:03:00.180 accident yeah like we always have backup clothes 00:03:00.180 --> 00:03:02.379 for him because we expect it at this point but 00:03:02.379 --> 00:03:06.000 it and it's like pouring rain we're like what 00:03:06.000 --> 00:03:08.280 is this night can we just turn around and go 00:03:08.280 --> 00:03:11.460 home yeah i'm so done with this traffic is terrible 00:03:11.460 --> 00:03:13.219 partially because apparently it's a thing to 00:03:13.219 --> 00:03:15.439 just like park your car under an underpass oh 00:03:15.439 --> 00:03:18.560 yes while it's raining and hailing yeah so people 00:03:18.560 --> 00:03:21.699 were just like parked in the road oh gosh which 00:03:21.699 --> 00:03:24.199 was making it worse Yeah, and I mean, we got 00:03:24.199 --> 00:03:26.620 there. He made it. He didn't have an accident. 00:03:26.860 --> 00:03:29.439 That's really impressive for 40 minutes. Yeah, 00:03:29.460 --> 00:03:33.060 we were both like, I don't know. I don't know 00:03:33.060 --> 00:03:35.840 how that happened. That's a miracle. It hadn't 00:03:35.840 --> 00:03:37.740 rained at the venue and didn't rain while we 00:03:37.740 --> 00:03:39.840 were there. So it turned out really well. But 00:03:39.840 --> 00:03:43.979 just like the whole drive. And even this morning, 00:03:44.020 --> 00:03:47.900 Stuart was like, I bet if we knew that Lloyd 00:03:47.900 --> 00:03:51.300 hadn't wet himself in the car seat. We probably 00:03:51.300 --> 00:03:52.780 wouldn't have been as anxious, but the whole 00:03:52.780 --> 00:03:56.000 drive we were just like, oh, no. Like, if this 00:03:56.000 --> 00:03:57.819 is the start of the night, how is the rest of 00:03:57.819 --> 00:03:59.219 the night going to go? Yeah. The rest of the 00:03:59.219 --> 00:04:01.159 night did go well. It was just a very stressful 00:04:01.159 --> 00:04:06.120 drive down. Oh, gosh. I feel like the anxiety 00:04:06.120 --> 00:04:09.919 I feel in the car when, like, both kids are not 00:04:09.919 --> 00:04:14.139 happy. Yes. Is a whole new level of anxiety. 00:04:14.719 --> 00:04:17.870 Yeah. And then add rain or hail and all the things 00:04:17.870 --> 00:04:20.670 into it. Yeah. It's like, I'd rather just be 00:04:20.670 --> 00:04:23.269 home. Yeah, like, why did we decide that we were 00:04:23.269 --> 00:04:25.810 going to go to this? But it worked out great. 00:04:26.009 --> 00:04:29.329 Okay, my mom moment. My mom moment's kind of 00:04:29.329 --> 00:04:33.329 sad. Kind of, like, sweet in a sense, too. So 00:04:33.329 --> 00:04:38.589 our dog died a couple weeks ago. Super unexpected. 00:04:39.910 --> 00:04:42.709 He was really young. It just, yeah, it was really 00:04:42.709 --> 00:04:46.230 devastating for our family. and along with that 00:04:46.230 --> 00:04:50.670 so colt and him were like best buddies and i 00:04:50.670 --> 00:04:53.629 think that's the most like sad part of it for 00:04:53.629 --> 00:04:56.769 me is like the way that we envisioned our family 00:04:56.769 --> 00:05:01.029 is like with our dog brisket and obviously that's 00:05:01.029 --> 00:05:03.930 not like the way our kids are gonna grow up now 00:05:03.930 --> 00:05:06.509 is with him because i mean brisket was only three 00:05:06.509 --> 00:05:11.250 years old when he died and a specific story that 00:05:11.639 --> 00:05:16.399 It's really sweet and really, like, makes my 00:05:16.399 --> 00:05:20.379 heart just feel really soft towards all of this. 00:05:20.939 --> 00:05:24.660 So we were on vacation this last week with my 00:05:24.660 --> 00:05:28.480 family, and Colt was taking a nap, and then he 00:05:28.480 --> 00:05:30.000 woke up from his nap. He was, like, sleeping 00:05:30.000 --> 00:05:33.980 on the couch. And he woke up, and I was, like, 00:05:33.980 --> 00:05:35.500 sitting on the ground, I think, like, playing 00:05:35.500 --> 00:05:38.740 with Cruz or something. And he goes, Mama, and, 00:05:38.839 --> 00:05:41.579 like. For him to wake up from a nap, like, not 00:05:41.579 --> 00:05:45.639 crying, too, is, like, pretty rare. And he, like, 00:05:45.660 --> 00:05:47.060 didn't know where, he, like, couldn't see me. 00:05:47.079 --> 00:05:48.959 He didn't know where I was. And he just went, 00:05:49.040 --> 00:05:53.079 mama. And I was like, yeah, buddy. And then I, 00:05:53.139 --> 00:05:55.759 like, went up towards him and he went, Bicky. 00:05:56.319 --> 00:05:58.180 And I was like, blankie? Because when he says 00:05:58.180 --> 00:06:00.500 blankie, it kind of sounds the same as brisky. 00:06:01.040 --> 00:06:03.399 And he was like, no. And I was like, oh, brisky? 00:06:03.560 --> 00:06:06.459 And he was like, yes, brisky. And I was like, 00:06:06.720 --> 00:06:08.699 oh, buddy, did you have a dream about brisky? 00:06:08.959 --> 00:06:13.160 And he said, yes. And I said, oh, buddy, that's 00:06:13.160 --> 00:06:15.000 so sweet. I was like, what were you guys doing? 00:06:15.240 --> 00:06:18.560 And he said, playing. And I went, really, buddy? 00:06:18.720 --> 00:06:21.920 I was like, that melts mommy's heart. That makes 00:06:21.920 --> 00:06:24.959 me so happy. And I'm like, was it fun? And he 00:06:24.959 --> 00:06:27.459 went, yes. And I was like, do you miss Briski? 00:06:27.519 --> 00:06:30.660 And he's, yes. I was like, oh, buddy, that is 00:06:30.660 --> 00:06:34.759 just so sweet. I'm like, you know, Briski's happy. 00:06:35.019 --> 00:06:37.819 Briski's in heaven. And he just was like, yes. 00:06:38.339 --> 00:06:41.100 And so, yeah, we've been having a lot of moments 00:06:41.100 --> 00:06:44.019 like that, a lot of sad moments where he's like. 00:06:44.350 --> 00:06:46.730 he's been looking for him or calling for him 00:06:46.730 --> 00:06:49.550 in the house. And I don't think he, like, he 00:06:49.550 --> 00:06:52.949 doesn't quite understand yet that he's not there. 00:06:53.370 --> 00:06:56.050 And we like, I don't know. We try to explain 00:06:56.050 --> 00:06:59.430 to him, but I'm also like, he's only two. So, 00:06:59.430 --> 00:07:03.149 or almost two. So he doesn't like, I don't know. 00:07:03.170 --> 00:07:05.269 I don't feel like we need to fully explain to 00:07:05.269 --> 00:07:08.290 him yet. Right. What's happening. But I also 00:07:08.290 --> 00:07:10.569 like the side of it is like, I want him to remember 00:07:10.569 --> 00:07:14.560 who brisky was. I don't know, it's just a weird 00:07:14.560 --> 00:07:18.759 situation as a whole. It's really sad, and he, 00:07:18.839 --> 00:07:23.560 like, I know he, like, recalls, sadly, because 00:07:23.560 --> 00:07:27.720 Colt saw the whole situation happen, and so he's, 00:07:27.800 --> 00:07:30.579 like, been retelling that story, too, in, like, 00:07:30.579 --> 00:07:33.779 his own vocabulary. Which I know is really normal 00:07:33.779 --> 00:07:37.540 for, like, toddlers to process. Yeah, process 00:07:37.540 --> 00:07:40.439 that way. But he, like, yeah, he'll, like, kind 00:07:40.439 --> 00:07:42.839 of reenact, like, what happened, and then, like, 00:07:43.399 --> 00:07:49.019 Daddy calling me. And it's so sad. And also there's 00:07:49.019 --> 00:07:51.959 little, like, sweet, I don't know, moments of 00:07:51.959 --> 00:07:54.879 it all. I think it just shows, like, his character 00:07:54.879 --> 00:07:57.459 that's coming out. Yeah. He's such a sweet kid 00:07:57.459 --> 00:08:00.699 and loved his dog. Mm -hmm. Yeah. Yeah. He's 00:08:00.699 --> 00:08:03.000 having fun with his dog. I know. That's so cute. 00:08:03.060 --> 00:08:04.699 I know. It is so cute. I'm so glad. I always 00:08:04.699 --> 00:08:06.699 want to know what Lloyd dreams about at night. 00:08:06.699 --> 00:08:09.399 Yes. Yeah. I wish he could tell me. Me too. I 00:08:09.399 --> 00:08:12.569 mean, obviously, like. I don't know 100 % if 00:08:12.569 --> 00:08:16.269 that he actually dreamed about Brisky. But, like, 00:08:16.350 --> 00:08:19.389 I think that the fact that he, like, said that 00:08:19.389 --> 00:08:21.709 right when he woke up, I was like, oh, something 00:08:21.709 --> 00:08:25.189 triggered that in his mind when he was sleeping. 00:08:25.310 --> 00:08:27.470 So I'm like, maybe he, like, he must have had 00:08:27.470 --> 00:08:30.050 a dream about him. Like, it was so out of the 00:08:30.050 --> 00:08:34.149 blue that I'm like, okay, yes, he did. That's 00:08:34.149 --> 00:08:38.309 so cute. Yeah. Yeah. All right. Well, we. I want 00:08:38.309 --> 00:08:41.049 to just chat today about two -year highs and 00:08:41.049 --> 00:08:44.029 lows. Obviously, motherhood's full of ups and 00:08:44.029 --> 00:08:47.769 downs, as all of you listeners know. Good days 00:08:47.769 --> 00:08:51.789 and bad days, but we're two years. I mean, you're 00:08:51.789 --> 00:08:54.470 just over two years in. I'm just about two years 00:08:54.470 --> 00:08:56.690 in. I think there's a lot of highs and lows. 00:08:56.769 --> 00:08:58.909 We're going to chat about a few of them today. 00:08:59.230 --> 00:09:02.289 I can start. I'll start with my first low, which 00:09:02.289 --> 00:09:05.809 is when Lloyd got RSV. Oh. And, I mean, he didn't 00:09:05.809 --> 00:09:08.190 get it super seriously. Like, he was never hospitalized 00:09:08.190 --> 00:09:10.289 or anything like that. But it was one of those 00:09:10.289 --> 00:09:13.470 things where, like, he got sick and we, like, 00:09:13.470 --> 00:09:16.149 knew he was sick. And I'm, I feel like I'm a 00:09:16.149 --> 00:09:18.309 fairly chill mom. Like, there's a level of, like, 00:09:18.389 --> 00:09:20.870 I know my kid is going to get sick. And so I 00:09:20.870 --> 00:09:23.370 wasn't super panicked until we, like, woke up 00:09:23.370 --> 00:09:26.610 and he was, like. not able to breathe pretty 00:09:26.610 --> 00:09:28.669 much and so we're like okay we need to go to 00:09:28.669 --> 00:09:31.870 urgent care yeah and while we were like waiting 00:09:31.870 --> 00:09:34.110 for the test stewart made a joke he's like lloyd 00:09:34.110 --> 00:09:36.289 you can have anything you just can't have rsv 00:09:36.289 --> 00:09:39.409 and then like nurse or doctor whoever comes in 00:09:39.409 --> 00:09:45.129 and like so he has rsv cool um yeah the one thing 00:09:45.129 --> 00:09:48.090 we told you not to do buddy but and i think one 00:09:48.090 --> 00:09:50.129 of the things that was so hard about it is you 00:09:50.129 --> 00:09:52.490 just hear the horror stories right which is like 00:09:53.039 --> 00:09:55.840 RSV is fairly common for little kids and like 00:09:55.840 --> 00:09:58.659 Lloyd had it. He was fine. You know, it was a 00:09:58.659 --> 00:10:01.159 rough week, but the whole time you're just like 00:10:01.159 --> 00:10:04.120 picturing the pictures you see online. Like on 00:10:04.120 --> 00:10:06.799 a ventilator. Yeah. And like not to dismiss any 00:10:06.799 --> 00:10:09.899 of those stories, but like that's all you think 00:10:09.899 --> 00:10:13.139 about. So the whole time you're just like. you're 00:10:13.139 --> 00:10:14.779 like we're gonna end up in the hospital right 00:10:14.779 --> 00:10:16.860 you're panicked yeah but then also your kid is 00:10:16.860 --> 00:10:19.200 sick and anytime your kid is sick and especially 00:10:19.200 --> 00:10:21.240 with something like that where it's like he was 00:10:21.240 --> 00:10:24.080 having a hard time breathing yeah it's just so 00:10:24.080 --> 00:10:27.220 sad it is and it was so sad to watch so I had 00:10:27.220 --> 00:10:30.639 RSV too I think similar time yeah Lloyd I think 00:10:30.639 --> 00:10:33.179 Lloyd had it like the month before I think so 00:10:33.179 --> 00:10:36.379 yeah and we did end up taking Colt to the ER 00:10:36.379 --> 00:10:42.309 twice to get suctioned okay and I never in my 00:10:42.309 --> 00:10:45.250 life have wanted to take someone's like pain 00:10:45.250 --> 00:10:48.269 away from them. Yeah. And I know as a mother, 00:10:48.330 --> 00:10:51.769 that's so like, that's so common with your kids, 00:10:51.830 --> 00:10:55.929 but like, oh my gosh, that was, that was terrible. 00:10:55.990 --> 00:10:58.250 It was terrible. It was so horrible. It's so 00:10:58.250 --> 00:11:01.629 sad to watch. Yeah. I think one of my biggest 00:11:01.629 --> 00:11:05.610 highs for Cole is when he started walking and 00:11:05.610 --> 00:11:08.529 like took those first steps. Obviously all the 00:11:08.529 --> 00:11:12.299 milestones are like, really awesome and fun but 00:11:12.299 --> 00:11:16.179 when he took those first few steps in actually 00:11:16.179 --> 00:11:19.580 the house we currently live in it was like I 00:11:19.580 --> 00:11:23.639 felt so much joy and also like flashed before 00:11:23.639 --> 00:11:26.200 my eyes of like oh my gosh we gotta put a baby 00:11:26.200 --> 00:11:29.120 gate here we gotta put a yeah we gotta do all 00:11:29.120 --> 00:11:31.480 these things to like baby proof the house and 00:11:31.480 --> 00:11:35.419 yeah it just was I don't know it was just such 00:11:35.419 --> 00:11:39.549 a happy a happy moment That's so fun. Yeah. Okay, 00:11:39.710 --> 00:11:43.250 so then my next low is from a couple weeks ago. 00:11:43.509 --> 00:11:47.210 Lloyd got his first concussion. Oh, yeah. It 00:11:47.210 --> 00:11:50.090 was fairly minor. I mean, it was a minor concussion. 00:11:51.279 --> 00:11:53.519 happened with my parents and they felt so so 00:11:53.519 --> 00:11:56.259 bad not that it was their fault he like tripped 00:11:56.259 --> 00:11:58.159 and didn't put his arms out to catch himself 00:11:58.159 --> 00:12:02.139 which is weird like what happened yeah i'm like 00:12:02.139 --> 00:12:04.379 you know how to catch yourself and so he smacked 00:12:04.379 --> 00:12:08.480 his head on some concrete and then like the next 00:12:08.480 --> 00:12:10.960 day the next couple of days he was just like 00:12:10.960 --> 00:12:15.799 super grumpy and he wasn't eating and it wasn't 00:12:15.799 --> 00:12:18.389 just that he wasn't eating like I mean, he's 00:12:18.389 --> 00:12:20.049 a toddler, so sometimes he just, like, doesn't 00:12:20.049 --> 00:12:22.049 want to eat. But usually if that's the case, 00:12:22.049 --> 00:12:24.470 he's, like, throwing food because he thinks it's 00:12:24.470 --> 00:12:27.389 a game or just, like, ignoring his food or whatever. 00:12:27.769 --> 00:12:30.710 And this time it was, like, he was throwing a 00:12:30.710 --> 00:12:32.389 fit when we were trying to get him to eat, and 00:12:32.389 --> 00:12:34.509 we're like, this is not you. So finally we took 00:12:34.509 --> 00:12:37.669 him in, and the doctor's like, yeah, it sounds 00:12:37.669 --> 00:12:39.850 like he probably has a minor concussion. And 00:12:39.850 --> 00:12:42.529 it was just so sad. We are glad we took him in, 00:12:42.570 --> 00:12:44.370 though, because she was like, the only thing 00:12:44.370 --> 00:12:46.750 you should do is avoid screen time. We're like. 00:12:46.919 --> 00:12:48.899 Cool, cool, cool, because our plan for this afternoon 00:12:48.899 --> 00:12:50.919 was to go home and watch Cars, so now we know 00:12:50.919 --> 00:12:53.700 that's not the vibe. So he got some monster trucks 00:12:53.700 --> 00:12:56.279 to play with. He got a concussion toy. We went 00:12:56.279 --> 00:12:58.299 to Walmart. Concussion toy. And he got to pick 00:12:58.299 --> 00:13:00.120 something out. He's like, ooh, a concussion toy? 00:13:00.240 --> 00:13:03.340 Let me do this again. Yeah, probably. But it's 00:13:03.340 --> 00:13:07.600 so sad. Again, kind of like my last one, where 00:13:07.600 --> 00:13:11.039 it's just sad to see your kid go through pain 00:13:11.039 --> 00:13:15.960 and just not be themself. Yeah. It's always rough. 00:13:16.590 --> 00:13:20.429 Yeah. My next high is this is just kind of a 00:13:20.429 --> 00:13:23.450 general high, I guess, not a specific moment. 00:13:23.590 --> 00:13:27.669 But I know this to be true that I'm living in 00:13:27.669 --> 00:13:31.129 the good old days. And I think that's like just 00:13:31.129 --> 00:13:36.769 a good reminder for me in every single moment 00:13:36.769 --> 00:13:40.350 of just like these are the like these are the 00:13:40.350 --> 00:13:45.090 best days of my life right now. I do think I 00:13:45.090 --> 00:13:47.190 take advantage of that. And I do think like, 00:13:47.210 --> 00:13:49.710 I, I truly, truly know that. And it just brings 00:13:49.710 --> 00:13:52.669 me so much joy to know that, like, I don't know, 00:13:52.669 --> 00:13:55.549 this is something like having kids was not something 00:13:55.549 --> 00:14:00.350 I thought I could have. And I now have two kids 00:14:00.350 --> 00:14:04.629 and I just have never been happier, I guess. 00:14:04.789 --> 00:14:07.210 Yeah. I don't know. That's kind of, there's not 00:14:07.210 --> 00:14:09.750 a moment to that, but it's just a general, a 00:14:09.750 --> 00:14:13.110 general high of being a mother. It's like. it's 00:14:13.110 --> 00:14:16.210 so joyful it's so hard it is so hard there are 00:14:16.210 --> 00:14:18.889 days when it's really hard to remember that yeah 00:14:18.889 --> 00:14:22.370 yeah but like these really are the good old days 00:14:22.370 --> 00:14:26.309 and I know like 30 years from now I'm gonna look 00:14:26.309 --> 00:14:28.570 back and be like those were the best days of 00:14:28.570 --> 00:14:32.549 my life and that just it brings me so much joy 00:14:32.549 --> 00:14:36.250 to know that yeah yeah all right my next low 00:14:36.250 --> 00:14:42.409 was or is going back to work both times both 00:14:42.409 --> 00:14:45.029 when I went back to work after maternity leave 00:14:45.029 --> 00:14:46.850 with Lloyd and then I went back to work about 00:14:46.850 --> 00:14:49.889 two weeks ago after Zeta's maternity leave and 00:14:49.889 --> 00:14:52.429 both times were just so hard yeah the first time 00:14:52.429 --> 00:14:54.710 actually was harder I think partially just because 00:14:54.710 --> 00:14:56.250 I like didn't know what to expect whereas this 00:14:56.250 --> 00:14:58.629 time there was I mean This time was harder in 00:14:58.629 --> 00:15:00.750 different ways, but I know the first time my 00:15:00.750 --> 00:15:02.889 parents took Lloyd for my first day back, my 00:15:02.889 --> 00:15:04.610 dad, like, came to pick him up so I didn't have 00:15:04.610 --> 00:15:06.549 to worry about dropping him off. And I just, 00:15:06.570 --> 00:15:09.149 like, cried for half an hour after he left. But, 00:15:09.230 --> 00:15:10.990 yeah, where it's like, I want to be able to, 00:15:11.009 --> 00:15:13.049 like, give my kids as much of my energy as I 00:15:13.049 --> 00:15:16.129 can. Kind of like give them my all and it's really 00:15:16.129 --> 00:15:18.750 hard to go back to work and not have that option 00:15:18.750 --> 00:15:21.730 as much. Yep. And just the adjustment for everyone, 00:15:21.929 --> 00:15:23.529 right? Where it's like Lloyd's been a little 00:15:23.529 --> 00:15:26.190 bit grumpier the past few weeks and Zeta too. 00:15:26.370 --> 00:15:28.210 And I mean, both of them are teething, which 00:15:28.210 --> 00:15:30.889 is super fun. So fun to have two kids teething. 00:15:30.889 --> 00:15:32.850 So, I mean, I know that's part of it, but then 00:15:32.850 --> 00:15:34.950 I also know like part of it is just we're in 00:15:34.950 --> 00:15:37.730 this adjustment period of mom wasn't working 00:15:37.730 --> 00:15:40.850 for five months and now I'm back to working and 00:15:40.850 --> 00:15:43.080 we have to figure that out and what. this new 00:15:43.080 --> 00:15:46.220 routine looks like and yeah well and that's like 00:15:46.220 --> 00:15:50.700 an extra added level for you that's like it's 00:15:50.700 --> 00:15:53.259 just I mean parenthood already is exhausting 00:15:53.259 --> 00:15:57.940 yeah adding a full -time job onto that yep wow 00:15:57.940 --> 00:16:01.720 yeah I feel like there's a whole nother level 00:16:01.720 --> 00:16:05.179 of it too whenever it's you're also working remotely 00:16:05.919 --> 00:16:07.899 So it's like you're caring for your, you're like, 00:16:07.940 --> 00:16:10.659 you're already doing a full -time job as a mother. 00:16:10.879 --> 00:16:13.159 Yep. And then you're adding a full -time job 00:16:13.159 --> 00:16:17.480 job. Mm -hmm. So are you working two jobs? Right. 00:16:17.480 --> 00:16:19.039 And you want to be a good and present mother. 00:16:19.240 --> 00:16:21.139 You also want to be a good and present employee. 00:16:21.559 --> 00:16:24.960 Yes. And trying to juggle it both. And it's like, 00:16:24.980 --> 00:16:27.320 and also like, we can't afford full -time daycare, 00:16:27.379 --> 00:16:29.360 but also I don't want my kids, I want to be around 00:16:29.360 --> 00:16:32.259 my kids. Yeah. So I don't want them in full -time 00:16:32.259 --> 00:16:34.960 daycare. And I mean, we have. my parents, my 00:16:34.960 --> 00:16:36.539 in -laws close. So they're helping with childcare, 00:16:36.779 --> 00:16:38.720 which makes a huge difference for me. Cause I'm 00:16:38.720 --> 00:16:41.940 like, okay, they're with like, just like having 00:16:41.940 --> 00:16:43.399 your kids with someone who, you know, and who, 00:16:43.519 --> 00:16:46.639 you know, like actually loves them versus daycare 00:16:46.639 --> 00:16:48.480 where it's just like, it is their job. And you 00:16:48.480 --> 00:16:50.980 know, it's just a different, get your kid fed 00:16:50.980 --> 00:16:53.460 and changed. Right. It's just a different experience. 00:16:53.539 --> 00:16:56.000 And I know that some people's only options, but 00:16:56.000 --> 00:16:57.860 like, yeah, there's just a piece for me that 00:16:57.860 --> 00:16:59.820 comes with like, okay, when they're gone, at 00:16:59.820 --> 00:17:02.529 least they're with grandparents who. who love 00:17:02.529 --> 00:17:06.150 them but yeah going back to work rough not fun 00:17:06.150 --> 00:17:09.789 it is not fun I feel you on that okay another 00:17:09.789 --> 00:17:12.910 one of my highs with Colt so like the past couple 00:17:12.910 --> 00:17:15.369 of weeks I swear it's almost been a shift of 00:17:15.369 --> 00:17:17.589 like now he's almost talking in full sentences 00:17:17.589 --> 00:17:21.289 it's not just one word it's like multiple words 00:17:21.289 --> 00:17:25.609 like strung together yeah Lloyd started doing 00:17:25.609 --> 00:17:29.049 that pretty much in the same last few weeks yeah 00:17:29.049 --> 00:17:32.819 and it's so like It's so fun to me because I 00:17:32.819 --> 00:17:35.299 feel like now it's shifted from like, oh, I have 00:17:35.299 --> 00:17:38.779 like a little toddler to like, oh, he's like 00:17:38.779 --> 00:17:41.420 a boy. He's turning into a kid. Yeah, he's a 00:17:41.420 --> 00:17:45.299 kid. And he like, he is understanding pretty 00:17:45.299 --> 00:17:48.259 much everything I'm saying. And I feel like it 00:17:48.259 --> 00:17:51.099 just happened so quickly, that shift. And I know 00:17:51.099 --> 00:17:54.920 maybe it didn't happen, but in my head it happened 00:17:54.920 --> 00:17:57.599 really fast. No, I feel like. It was like overnight. 00:17:57.819 --> 00:18:00.369 Yeah, I feel like Lloyd. It's kind of the same 00:18:00.369 --> 00:18:02.569 where it's like he started picking up words and 00:18:02.569 --> 00:18:04.589 he was like picking up words regularly. And then 00:18:04.589 --> 00:18:06.410 all of a sudden it's like he can say multiple 00:18:06.410 --> 00:18:08.769 words. And like this week, I swear he's been 00:18:08.769 --> 00:18:11.009 saying a new word every single day. Yeah. Or 00:18:11.009 --> 00:18:13.049 like repeating. Yeah. Like you just saw, Stuart 00:18:13.049 --> 00:18:15.430 just sent us a video. He said airplane for the 00:18:15.430 --> 00:18:19.029 first time, you know. It's the best. Or yeah, 00:18:19.089 --> 00:18:20.630 he's been stringing words together too. Like 00:18:20.630 --> 00:18:22.509 since he's been potty training, he says no more 00:18:22.509 --> 00:18:26.009 potty. No more potty. All done with potty. Yeah. 00:18:26.309 --> 00:18:29.200 That's so great. We are going to start potty 00:18:29.200 --> 00:18:33.359 training soon. And it, yeah, scares the living 00:18:33.359 --> 00:18:36.420 bejesus out of me. But, yeah. Less diapers. Yeah, 00:18:36.460 --> 00:18:40.700 less diapers for sure. Okay. What is another 00:18:40.700 --> 00:18:44.140 one of your lows? Let's see. Okay. My next one, 00:18:44.240 --> 00:18:46.759 speaking of potty training, is the process of 00:18:46.759 --> 00:18:49.160 potty training. Just to, you know, give you some 00:18:49.160 --> 00:18:50.160 encouragement. Just to give me an encouragement, 00:18:50.259 --> 00:18:54.150 yeah. The first. A few weeks are just, like, 00:18:54.150 --> 00:18:56.809 kind of rough. Yeah. Because there are lots of 00:18:56.809 --> 00:19:01.049 accidents. And we did the, oh, crap, body training 00:19:01.049 --> 00:19:04.490 book method. And one of the things that was encouraging 00:19:04.490 --> 00:19:07.690 for me was there was a point where I was like, 00:19:07.730 --> 00:19:09.569 this isn't working. We should just, like, give 00:19:09.569 --> 00:19:11.589 up and come back to this later. And then I, like. 00:19:12.079 --> 00:19:15.359 Went back to the like chapter of like where we 00:19:15.359 --> 00:19:18.259 were at to see like, are we doing something wrong? 00:19:18.440 --> 00:19:20.099 Something like that. And one of the things she 00:19:20.099 --> 00:19:22.039 said was like, this is the time when most parents 00:19:22.039 --> 00:19:24.880 give up. And that was super encouraging, weirdly, 00:19:24.960 --> 00:19:27.160 just because I was like, OK, it's not just me 00:19:27.160 --> 00:19:29.200 that feels this way. This also means it's a hump 00:19:29.200 --> 00:19:31.180 we have to get over. Not that something's going 00:19:31.180 --> 00:19:33.579 wrong. And just like being able to know that 00:19:33.579 --> 00:19:36.940 is really nice. But just like the process of 00:19:36.940 --> 00:19:40.119 you have like two weeks at least where you're 00:19:40.119 --> 00:19:43.630 just like. constantly watching your kid and like 00:19:43.630 --> 00:19:46.170 you have cleaning supplies ready to go to like 00:19:46.170 --> 00:19:50.789 clean pee or poop off the floor and you know 00:19:50.789 --> 00:19:52.230 now we're at the point where he's really good 00:19:52.230 --> 00:19:55.369 at communicating and more often than not if he 00:19:55.369 --> 00:19:57.490 has an accident it's our fault because we like 00:19:57.490 --> 00:20:01.150 didn't we're on top of it yeah so yeah the process 00:20:01.150 --> 00:20:05.269 was very very hard fun but can't wait you got 00:20:05.269 --> 00:20:08.450 it You know, I'm like, do we have to do this? 00:20:08.529 --> 00:20:11.089 Yes, we have to potty train our child. Yes, and 00:20:11.089 --> 00:20:14.509 I've heard it's easier at this age than later. 00:20:14.509 --> 00:20:16.829 I would bet especially for Colt because he's 00:20:16.829 --> 00:20:19.930 just so... He's like showing all the signs that 00:20:19.930 --> 00:20:22.170 he's ready. Well, and so I've heard that older, 00:20:22.369 --> 00:20:24.750 like once they start to realize they're independent, 00:20:24.970 --> 00:20:27.029 then it makes it harder because they want to 00:20:27.029 --> 00:20:28.609 assert their independence, which is a normal 00:20:28.609 --> 00:20:30.630 thing for, you know, three, four -year -olds 00:20:30.630 --> 00:20:34.559 to do. Yeah. So, but that can make potty training 00:20:34.559 --> 00:20:37.759 harder. And I feel like Colt is already very 00:20:37.759 --> 00:20:40.599 independent for you. In that window. Yeah. I 00:20:40.599 --> 00:20:42.680 know we just need to do it. I think I'm terrified 00:20:42.680 --> 00:20:45.920 of like, it is going to be a lot of work. And 00:20:45.920 --> 00:20:48.640 I'm like, it's going to just be a lot of energy. 00:20:48.720 --> 00:20:50.700 There's also everything in parenting is that 00:20:50.700 --> 00:20:53.259 way, right? Yeah. You know, it's just a lot of 00:20:53.259 --> 00:20:57.000 things are just not as messy, literally. But, 00:20:57.000 --> 00:20:59.519 you know, it's like labor was a lot of work, 00:20:59.579 --> 00:21:03.079 but it was worth it. I'll be so happy we did 00:21:03.079 --> 00:21:06.519 it once we do, but it feels exhausting right 00:21:06.519 --> 00:21:10.180 now. Yeah, I will say the first four days was 00:21:10.180 --> 00:21:13.019 way more exhausting than we thought. Every time 00:21:13.019 --> 00:21:15.240 we went to bed, it was like we ran a marathon 00:21:15.240 --> 00:21:18.400 that day. We were so tired. But now I'm super 00:21:18.400 --> 00:21:21.019 grateful that we did it. That's so good to know. 00:21:21.779 --> 00:21:25.779 Okay, my next high is watching Colt become a 00:21:25.779 --> 00:21:31.349 big brother. And I knew... In the beginning, 00:21:31.410 --> 00:21:36.029 it was honestly really hard. He just had a really 00:21:36.029 --> 00:21:38.849 hard time adjusting. And he still has his moments 00:21:38.849 --> 00:21:43.190 for sure, but he has had some of the sweetest 00:21:43.190 --> 00:21:46.450 moments with Cruz where he'll just walk up to 00:21:46.450 --> 00:21:48.630 him and just kiss him on the head and just be 00:21:48.630 --> 00:21:52.289 like, hi, Cruz, or hi, brother. And I'm like, 00:21:52.430 --> 00:21:55.450 this is, it just is like little glimpses of their 00:21:55.450 --> 00:22:01.000 childhood. I think like I was so afraid going 00:22:01.000 --> 00:22:04.119 into like becoming a mom of two because I knew 00:22:04.119 --> 00:22:06.299 that my attention would have to shift slightly. 00:22:06.500 --> 00:22:09.859 For sure. Or really it just like had to split. 00:22:10.059 --> 00:22:13.980 And I think I was like grieving the fact that 00:22:13.980 --> 00:22:16.460 Colt wasn't going to get my full attention anymore. 00:22:16.839 --> 00:22:20.119 Yep. And now I feel like I'm finally starting 00:22:20.119 --> 00:22:23.339 to see like, oh, no, this is like this is a really, 00:22:23.380 --> 00:22:26.920 really good thing for him. And like. I've actually 00:22:26.920 --> 00:22:30.180 like we've given him a really good gift of his 00:22:30.180 --> 00:22:34.539 brother. And I don't know. It just has been it's 00:22:34.539 --> 00:22:37.039 been extremely challenging. I feel like with 00:22:37.039 --> 00:22:41.660 every high comes its challenges. But I think 00:22:41.660 --> 00:22:46.319 that it is just like I'm seeing little glimpses 00:22:46.319 --> 00:22:50.539 of just the benefit of it now. And it is, like, 00:22:50.619 --> 00:22:53.380 I get to sit back and I'm getting to sit back 00:22:53.380 --> 00:22:57.480 and watch a little bit more. And, like, rather 00:22:57.480 --> 00:22:59.039 than being on guard of, like, oh, he's going 00:22:59.039 --> 00:23:01.559 to hit him in the face. Right. Which he still 00:23:01.559 --> 00:23:05.019 does, but. I'm sure he still will until later. 00:23:05.339 --> 00:23:08.740 Oh, yeah. For sure. Yeah, Cruz is like, my brother 00:23:08.740 --> 00:23:11.519 hits me in the face. Yeah, sorry, dude. Sorry, 00:23:11.579 --> 00:23:13.740 buddy. It's a younger sibling reality. Yeah. 00:23:13.900 --> 00:23:18.160 Yep. Okay, what's your next low? My final low 00:23:18.160 --> 00:23:22.019 is, so Lloyd is really, really sweet. That's 00:23:22.019 --> 00:23:24.119 not my low. He's really sweet, and he's really 00:23:24.119 --> 00:23:27.440 good at sharing, but other kids aren't, which 00:23:27.440 --> 00:23:30.440 is fine. Like, all kids are learning. My child 00:23:30.440 --> 00:23:32.660 is not good at sharing. And I understand that, 00:23:32.740 --> 00:23:34.640 but there have been a couple times we've been, 00:23:34.640 --> 00:23:38.480 like, with other kids, and another kid will just, 00:23:38.519 --> 00:23:40.759 like, rip something out of his hands, which, 00:23:40.839 --> 00:23:43.079 again, like. I get that as a little kid you're 00:23:43.079 --> 00:23:45.359 still learning how to, you know, they're learning 00:23:45.359 --> 00:23:48.140 too. But Lloyd doesn't, like, throw a tantrum 00:23:48.140 --> 00:23:50.420 or get mad or anything. He just, like, asks for 00:23:50.420 --> 00:23:53.680 his toy back. And it's the cutest, sweetest thing. 00:23:53.839 --> 00:23:55.960 But then it makes me so sad because I'm like, 00:23:56.059 --> 00:23:57.980 do we need to, like, toughen him up and, like. 00:23:58.140 --> 00:24:00.579 Oh, he just, like, lets them kind of, like. Yeah. 00:24:00.660 --> 00:24:02.839 And so we're like, we need to, like, teach him. 00:24:03.059 --> 00:24:04.940 But then I also don't want to ruin this, like, 00:24:04.960 --> 00:24:07.839 sweet mentality that just, like, naturally exists 00:24:07.839 --> 00:24:10.079 in him. Because then also if you ask him to share. 00:24:11.279 --> 00:24:14.180 no hesitation and it's so cute so I'm like I 00:24:14.180 --> 00:24:17.059 feel terrible that he like these other kids just 00:24:17.059 --> 00:24:19.019 like take things from him and he like doesn't 00:24:19.019 --> 00:24:22.539 really understand yeah like it's happened a couple 00:24:22.539 --> 00:24:24.519 times and every time it just like breaks my heart 00:24:24.519 --> 00:24:27.000 yeah like I don't really know what to do especially 00:24:27.000 --> 00:24:28.720 like I'm not gonna parent someone else's kid 00:24:28.720 --> 00:24:32.519 that's not my job but like but also look at my 00:24:32.519 --> 00:24:37.119 kid yeah he's awesome yeah that's that's a great 00:24:37.119 --> 00:24:42.369 um great one Okay, my last high is watching my 00:24:42.369 --> 00:24:45.829 husband become a dad. And I know that's not like 00:24:45.829 --> 00:24:48.910 about motherhood necessarily, but I feel like 00:24:48.910 --> 00:24:51.809 I always dreamed of watching him become a dad. 00:24:51.890 --> 00:24:55.130 And when he did become a dad, it's like, I mean, 00:24:55.190 --> 00:24:58.089 I'm sure you know, like you fall in love all 00:24:58.089 --> 00:25:01.970 over again. And it's like so much, he's such 00:25:01.970 --> 00:25:05.700 a good dad. and everything I dreamed of for my 00:25:05.700 --> 00:25:09.359 kids and so I think that that is just like such 00:25:09.359 --> 00:25:12.319 a big high because I know like I know I can trust 00:25:12.319 --> 00:25:14.799 him he's like he's parenting the way that I would 00:25:14.799 --> 00:25:17.799 want him to parent and that we've like we've 00:25:17.799 --> 00:25:20.660 decided upon and he's just like he's such a good 00:25:20.660 --> 00:25:24.559 role model for my kids to grow up with so I feel 00:25:24.559 --> 00:25:26.299 like that's just like one of my biggest highs 00:25:26.299 --> 00:25:29.400 of the last two years is like everything that 00:25:29.400 --> 00:25:33.859 that I've wanted for my kids in a dad is is there 00:25:33.859 --> 00:25:37.279 so yeah uh well that's my first tie oh really 00:25:37.279 --> 00:25:40.279 is watching stewart become a dad yeah it's been 00:25:40.279 --> 00:25:43.160 super fun to see like him step into that role 00:25:43.160 --> 00:25:45.900 and then also like as lloyd specifically gets 00:25:45.900 --> 00:25:48.319 older zeta isn't quite there yet just seeing 00:25:48.319 --> 00:25:53.200 how their relationship develops like i said we 00:25:53.200 --> 00:25:55.900 were at a concert last night and stewart was 00:25:55.900 --> 00:25:59.200 just like running around with lloyd and like 00:25:59.200 --> 00:26:01.539 had lloyd on his shoulders to like watch the 00:26:01.539 --> 00:26:04.180 show and it was like so sweet and they were both 00:26:04.180 --> 00:26:07.720 having so much fun that's so sweet and someone 00:26:07.720 --> 00:26:09.500 one of the people we were with she like leaned 00:26:09.500 --> 00:26:11.359 over to me and she's like that's this is just 00:26:11.359 --> 00:26:13.319 the first of like years of them being able to 00:26:13.319 --> 00:26:15.779 do that together and i was like yeah it is and 00:26:15.779 --> 00:26:18.400 yeah so i think watching him become a dad and 00:26:18.400 --> 00:26:20.990 then also Yeah, watching this, like, really sweet 00:26:20.990 --> 00:26:23.849 relationship between Lloyd and Stuart. Like, 00:26:23.910 --> 00:26:26.750 Lloyd goes to the window every day when he knows 00:26:26.750 --> 00:26:28.730 Stuart's about to come home and just, like, waits 00:26:28.730 --> 00:26:31.730 to watch him get home. He knows the garage door 00:26:31.730 --> 00:26:34.349 means Stuart's home, so he, like, runs over to 00:26:34.349 --> 00:26:36.849 the stairs to wait for him to walk up. And it's, 00:26:36.849 --> 00:26:39.609 yeah, it's been super fun. That's so fun. Yeah, 00:26:39.710 --> 00:26:41.950 it really is, like, bittersweet because you're 00:26:41.950 --> 00:26:46.150 like, this is, like. my dream and then you're 00:26:46.150 --> 00:26:48.670 like this isn't gonna last forever yeah yeah 00:26:48.670 --> 00:26:52.009 so that's so sweet okay i'll hop into my lows 00:26:52.009 --> 00:26:57.289 one of my biggest lows is head butting and so 00:26:57.289 --> 00:27:01.430 colt is he's a big head butter which i've talked 00:27:01.430 --> 00:27:04.390 about before on the podcast but um it's actually 00:27:04.390 --> 00:27:06.549 getting less and less now i think because he's 00:27:06.549 --> 00:27:09.670 able to communicate more and like tell us what's 00:27:09.670 --> 00:27:12.839 going on but he still has his times of like headbutting. 00:27:12.960 --> 00:27:15.799 It's mostly when he's frustrated, but he used 00:27:15.799 --> 00:27:19.259 to probably right around a year -ish old it kind 00:27:19.259 --> 00:27:22.920 of started where he would headbutt out of anger, 00:27:23.259 --> 00:27:26.019 headbutt the ground, headbutt the wall, headbutt 00:27:26.019 --> 00:27:31.740 us, really anything. And he like, I mean, he 00:27:31.740 --> 00:27:34.480 would get like bruises on his head. He would, 00:27:34.640 --> 00:27:39.210 yeah, he would like not hit his head. lightly 00:27:39.210 --> 00:27:42.150 it was like pretty hard and he still has like 00:27:42.150 --> 00:27:45.529 little moments of headbutting um when he's really 00:27:45.529 --> 00:27:48.670 frustrated but that is a big low for me like 00:27:48.670 --> 00:27:51.210 I mean I've heard about kids who've like headbutted 00:27:51.210 --> 00:27:53.789 before and I kind of always associated it with 00:27:53.789 --> 00:27:58.069 like oh well I don't know something's off and 00:27:58.069 --> 00:28:00.470 right or like kids with special needs yeah kids 00:28:00.470 --> 00:28:02.410 with special needs or kids with a lot of trauma 00:28:03.450 --> 00:28:05.609 Things like that. And, like, I don't think my 00:28:05.609 --> 00:28:07.950 child has a lot of trauma or anything. Like, 00:28:07.950 --> 00:28:10.589 my kid will never. Yeah. Yeah. And so, like, 00:28:10.710 --> 00:28:13.210 I kind of have associated that with, like, well, 00:28:13.230 --> 00:28:17.049 I'm doing something wrong. And I don't think 00:28:17.049 --> 00:28:20.130 I am. I think that is just kind of who he is. 00:28:20.529 --> 00:28:24.029 Yeah, that one was a big low for me as far as 00:28:24.029 --> 00:28:27.440 motherhood in general. yeah yeah that's super 00:28:27.440 --> 00:28:30.559 rough yeah all right my next high is one of the 00:28:30.559 --> 00:28:32.319 same as yours is watching lloyd become a big 00:28:32.319 --> 00:28:35.019 brother like it's so special to like see your 00:28:35.019 --> 00:28:37.960 kid like Just, again, step into this role and 00:28:37.960 --> 00:28:41.220 see how they're going to interact. And, yeah, 00:28:41.380 --> 00:28:43.180 Lloyd likes to try to take care of her. You were 00:28:43.180 --> 00:28:44.779 just saying that Colt likes to try to pick up 00:28:44.779 --> 00:28:46.339 Cruz. I don't know if you said that when we were 00:28:46.339 --> 00:28:49.259 recording. No, I don't think so. But Lloyd has 00:28:49.259 --> 00:28:51.960 been, like, trying to pick up Zeta, which, I 00:28:51.960 --> 00:28:53.940 mean, she weighs, like, half as much as he does. 00:28:54.019 --> 00:28:57.160 So that's not going to work out. But he, like, 00:28:57.160 --> 00:29:00.140 wants to sit with her and, you know, comfort 00:29:00.140 --> 00:29:04.539 her when she's crying. Every night we... put 00:29:04.539 --> 00:29:06.640 both of them down for bed even though she doesn't 00:29:06.640 --> 00:29:08.759 sleep in her bassinet until we're in the room 00:29:08.759 --> 00:29:11.319 um but he like helps us put her down and half 00:29:11.319 --> 00:29:13.039 the time she's crying when she's in her bassinet 00:29:13.039 --> 00:29:16.420 yeah and then we take him to his crib and he 00:29:16.420 --> 00:29:18.859 always points he's like baby baby when she's 00:29:18.859 --> 00:29:21.859 crying we'll take care of her but he's like clearly 00:29:21.859 --> 00:29:24.900 so worried and then like On, I guess, the flip 00:29:24.900 --> 00:29:28.099 side of that, as Zeta's been becoming more, like, 00:29:28.119 --> 00:29:30.660 sentient and aware, she's just obsessed with 00:29:30.660 --> 00:29:34.140 him. So, like, she wants to see where he is all 00:29:34.140 --> 00:29:37.039 the time. When they're with, like, my parents 00:29:37.039 --> 00:29:40.480 or my in -laws for, you know, babysitting, all 00:29:40.480 --> 00:29:42.440 of them are like, yeah, she has to know where 00:29:42.440 --> 00:29:44.960 he is. Yeah. Just, like, constantly looking around, 00:29:45.000 --> 00:29:46.680 like, where's big brother? So just, like, seeing 00:29:46.680 --> 00:29:50.200 their dynamic and seeing. that relationship develop 00:29:50.200 --> 00:29:53.619 has been so sweet and so fun. I love that. I 00:29:53.619 --> 00:29:56.039 think that just shows like more into Lloyd's 00:29:56.039 --> 00:29:58.480 character of like, he's just like, he's just 00:29:58.480 --> 00:30:02.359 a sweet guy and sweet. And yeah, that's so great. 00:30:02.420 --> 00:30:04.319 I think that'll be really sweet to watch as he 00:30:04.319 --> 00:30:07.880 grows up. Yeah. Yeah. Um, okay. One of my lows, 00:30:08.019 --> 00:30:11.660 this is just, I mean, common low sleep deprivation. 00:30:12.380 --> 00:30:16.059 I think I'm just used to it now. the sleep deprivation, 00:30:16.119 --> 00:30:20.359 but for sure at the beginning, it was like a 00:30:20.359 --> 00:30:23.720 shock to my body. Yeah. Yeah. Mostly because, 00:30:23.819 --> 00:30:26.819 I mean, at the end of pregnancy, I feel like 00:30:26.819 --> 00:30:29.000 I was up like multiple times a night to pee, 00:30:29.140 --> 00:30:31.799 which I actually think is a gift from God. I 00:30:31.799 --> 00:30:33.920 do think it prepares you a little bit. I really 00:30:33.920 --> 00:30:37.740 do. But sleep deprivation and then having to 00:30:37.740 --> 00:30:41.059 like, especially working alongside of that, like. 00:30:41.630 --> 00:30:44.349 It is just not a great combination. Yeah. And 00:30:44.349 --> 00:30:48.029 I am not, I'm not necessarily like the kindest 00:30:48.029 --> 00:30:51.710 person when I'm extra tired. And so thankfully 00:30:51.710 --> 00:30:53.490 I'm like more used to it now. And I've like. 00:30:53.589 --> 00:30:55.029 Stuart and I were talking about this the other 00:30:55.029 --> 00:30:57.710 day. in just like the being super tired thing. 00:30:58.009 --> 00:31:00.029 And I was like, yeah, most of the time when I'm 00:31:00.029 --> 00:31:02.109 up at night feeding Zeta and you're sleeping 00:31:02.109 --> 00:31:03.849 soundly next to me, I have to like consciously 00:31:03.849 --> 00:31:06.150 remind myself that you're not the worst person 00:31:06.150 --> 00:31:09.109 in the world. Yes. Yeah. Like I'm not angry at 00:31:09.109 --> 00:31:10.750 you. Yeah. You're just sleeping and you deserve 00:31:10.750 --> 00:31:13.529 to sleep. And I chose to breastfeed and that's 00:31:13.529 --> 00:31:16.190 where we're at. Like I have to consciously tell 00:31:16.190 --> 00:31:18.710 myself that I love you. Yeah. And then when I'm 00:31:18.710 --> 00:31:21.109 like, after I get some sleep, then I'm like, 00:31:21.150 --> 00:31:23.630 oh yeah, no, like that is true. Yeah. I don't, 00:31:23.630 --> 00:31:25.230 you know, I don't have to remind myself, but. 00:31:25.329 --> 00:31:27.769 That's so true. I found myself in moments, hopefully, 00:31:27.890 --> 00:31:30.130 hopefully Michael doesn't listen to this episode, 00:31:30.130 --> 00:31:33.049 but I found myself like, oh, I'm going to like 00:31:33.049 --> 00:31:36.109 wrestle the, the wipes a little bit louder to 00:31:36.109 --> 00:31:38.329 like. To wake him up. To wake him up. So he can 00:31:38.329 --> 00:31:40.950 just be like awake with me while I'm breastfeeding. 00:31:41.049 --> 00:31:44.049 But yeah, it's super real. And trying that to 00:31:44.049 --> 00:31:46.170 be resentful when they get more sleep. Yes. Over 00:31:46.170 --> 00:31:49.539 like. something natural. Like you can't, I mean, 00:31:49.539 --> 00:31:51.819 Zeta doesn't take a bottle right now. So literally 00:31:51.819 --> 00:31:56.859 Stuart couldn't help, but yeah. Yeah. I am grateful. 00:31:57.059 --> 00:32:00.220 Like, I feel like I'm less resentful this time 00:32:00.220 --> 00:32:02.319 around now that we have two kids. Cause I'm like, 00:32:02.380 --> 00:32:05.710 I get up with Cruz. a couple times a night, and 00:32:05.710 --> 00:32:08.269 then Michael will get up with Colt when he wakes 00:32:08.269 --> 00:32:11.170 up at, like, 6 a .m. ready for the day and let 00:32:11.170 --> 00:32:14.269 me sleep until Cruz wakes up at, like, 7 .30. 00:32:14.430 --> 00:32:17.230 So, like, I feel less resentful this time, but 00:32:17.230 --> 00:32:19.609 I still have times where I'm, like, so jealous 00:32:19.609 --> 00:32:21.089 of you right now. Again, especially when it's 00:32:21.089 --> 00:32:24.849 3 a .m. and you're just, like, sitting there 00:32:24.849 --> 00:32:26.950 feeding your baby, trying not to fall asleep, 00:32:27.029 --> 00:32:31.029 and you're snoring. Yeah, yeah. Okay, my next 00:32:31.029 --> 00:32:34.660 high. is learning about the things that Lloyd 00:32:34.660 --> 00:32:36.779 gets excited about. Just, like, watching him, 00:32:36.839 --> 00:32:39.359 like, learn about life and get excited. Like, 00:32:39.460 --> 00:32:41.079 you know he loves lights. I know I've mentioned 00:32:41.079 --> 00:32:43.619 this on here before. He's obsessed with lights. 00:32:43.799 --> 00:32:47.720 But then now, like, he loves cars and airplanes. 00:32:47.920 --> 00:32:50.259 And so it's, like, anytime an airplane flies 00:32:50.259 --> 00:32:52.700 over for outside, he, like, stops what he's doing 00:32:52.700 --> 00:32:55.519 and points and, like, lets us know. Or, you know, 00:32:55.519 --> 00:32:57.500 if we're walking in a parking lot, he points 00:32:57.500 --> 00:33:01.420 out every single car. Yeah, just seeing him get 00:33:01.420 --> 00:33:03.359 excited about life. Find his interests. Find 00:33:03.359 --> 00:33:06.880 his interests and be able to encourage those 00:33:06.880 --> 00:33:09.640 interests too I think has been super fun. Yeah, 00:33:09.740 --> 00:33:12.759 and I guess just seeing the person he's becoming 00:33:12.759 --> 00:33:15.559 and letting him be that person and trying to 00:33:15.559 --> 00:33:18.579 figure out how to encourage that. Yeah, that's 00:33:18.579 --> 00:33:23.119 so fun. Okay, one of my lows is less date nights. 00:33:23.559 --> 00:33:26.980 Yes. I feel like it's extra hard for us since 00:33:26.980 --> 00:33:29.779 we don't have family around to help us. So we 00:33:29.779 --> 00:33:32.799 do like if we want to have a date night, it's 00:33:32.799 --> 00:33:36.019 like, no, we have to really plan, get a babysitter, 00:33:36.200 --> 00:33:40.019 pay the babysitter, all the things. So I feel 00:33:40.019 --> 00:33:43.940 like we found more than not that we're just not 00:33:43.940 --> 00:33:46.180 doing the date night. Well, that's hard because 00:33:46.180 --> 00:33:48.019 like when you're first married and when you're 00:33:48.019 --> 00:33:51.640 married without kids, it'll be like. So spontaneous. 00:33:51.779 --> 00:33:53.160 Yeah, but like, I don't want to cook tonight. 00:33:53.259 --> 00:33:54.579 Do you want to go on a date? Yeah. Yeah, let's 00:33:54.579 --> 00:33:57.579 do that. Yeah. Oh, there's a baseball game and 00:33:57.579 --> 00:34:00.059 we can get $20 tickets. We should go. Yeah. Okay, 00:34:00.140 --> 00:34:04.119 let's go. Yeah. Where now that's just. not really 00:34:04.119 --> 00:34:07.299 an option you know like maybe you can make it 00:34:07.299 --> 00:34:09.300 work or maybe you could decide to like take the 00:34:09.300 --> 00:34:11.059 kids with or whatever but then that's not a date 00:34:11.059 --> 00:34:14.559 night i know uh yeah where you do have to plan 00:34:14.559 --> 00:34:16.980 and then you're like are we even moved to go 00:34:16.980 --> 00:34:20.500 on a date tonight like i had a bad day yeah it's 00:34:20.500 --> 00:34:22.739 like i actually just want to veg out on the couch 00:34:22.739 --> 00:34:27.099 yeah so yeah i think Like we definitely need 00:34:27.099 --> 00:34:29.699 to be better about the date nights, but it just 00:34:29.699 --> 00:34:33.000 takes so much planning that like it's definitely 00:34:33.000 --> 00:34:36.460 less than it was before. And then even just like 00:34:36.460 --> 00:34:39.500 planning what to do where you're like. How are 00:34:39.500 --> 00:34:41.280 we not going to spend a bajillion dollars? How 00:34:41.280 --> 00:34:42.780 are we not going to spend a million dollars? 00:34:42.820 --> 00:34:44.840 Leaving the house costs you a thousand dollars 00:34:44.840 --> 00:34:49.079 anyways. And then like I don't want to just like. 00:34:49.449 --> 00:34:51.630 Let's get dinner and drinks. You know, it's like, 00:34:51.650 --> 00:34:53.429 I want to do something different sometimes, but 00:34:53.429 --> 00:34:54.710 then you have to think about that. You're like, 00:34:54.769 --> 00:34:56.809 I don't have the mental capacity to think about 00:34:56.809 --> 00:34:58.389 that. It's the whole thing. And then by that 00:34:58.389 --> 00:35:01.590 time you're like, oh, let's not. Yeah. Yeah. 00:35:02.000 --> 00:35:06.360 I feel it for sure. Okay. My next high is on 00:35:06.360 --> 00:35:08.920 the flip side of one of my lows, having Lloyd 00:35:08.920 --> 00:35:11.239 potty trained. Like the potty training process 00:35:11.239 --> 00:35:13.800 was really rough, but having him potty trained 00:35:13.800 --> 00:35:16.800 is... Such a high, I'm sure. Super helpful. I 00:35:16.800 --> 00:35:18.760 mean, there are some days when I'm like, it would 00:35:18.760 --> 00:35:21.119 be easier if I just like, if you could just go 00:35:21.119 --> 00:35:23.000 and then I change your diaper later because you 00:35:23.000 --> 00:35:27.000 were asking to go every 30 seconds. But... You're 00:35:27.000 --> 00:35:29.260 like, I want to honor that. Yeah. But overall, 00:35:29.480 --> 00:35:32.849 like... Having him potty trained is super nice 00:35:32.849 --> 00:35:37.929 and it makes him feel like such a big kid. But 00:35:37.929 --> 00:35:40.170 yeah, it's just like a super nice accomplishment 00:35:40.170 --> 00:35:42.449 to have and to only have one kid in diapers. 00:35:42.889 --> 00:35:46.630 Yeah. Yeah, I bet. It's saving you money. So 00:35:46.630 --> 00:35:48.849 much money. Yeah. I mean, he's still in diapers 00:35:48.849 --> 00:35:52.110 at night. You're not going through nearly as 00:35:52.110 --> 00:35:54.750 much. Yeah, but so he goes through, he has two 00:35:54.750 --> 00:35:56.769 a day because one for his nap and one at night 00:35:56.769 --> 00:35:59.639 instead of like. Yeah. However many we were going 00:35:59.639 --> 00:36:03.360 through before. Yeah. Oh, gosh. Yeah. Okay. My 00:36:03.360 --> 00:36:09.380 next low is ending breastfeeding with Colt. I'm 00:36:09.380 --> 00:36:12.239 currently breastfeeding Cruz. But with Colt, 00:36:12.239 --> 00:36:17.800 it was like I wanted to go a year. And we did 00:36:17.800 --> 00:36:20.480 make it a year. But when I got pregnant with 00:36:20.480 --> 00:36:23.260 Cruz, Colt was like 10 and a half months old. 00:36:24.239 --> 00:36:27.139 My supply just like dipped like crazy. I had 00:36:27.139 --> 00:36:30.480 the same experience. At the same time, I feel 00:36:30.480 --> 00:36:33.219 like he, like, the taste of it must have changed 00:36:33.219 --> 00:36:35.659 or something like that. Because he, like, was 00:36:35.659 --> 00:36:38.059 biting me a ton. He was, like, kind of repulsed 00:36:38.059 --> 00:36:40.480 by it. He, like, wasn't really liking it. So 00:36:40.480 --> 00:36:43.780 we, like, brought in a bunch more formula to, 00:36:43.840 --> 00:36:47.039 like, supplement. But it just, like, was such 00:36:47.039 --> 00:36:49.619 an emotional. I knew it was going to be an emotional 00:36:49.619 --> 00:36:52.940 end. But it wasn't, like, my decision to end 00:36:52.940 --> 00:36:55.360 it. And I think that was, like, the hardest part 00:36:55.360 --> 00:36:59.829 of it was, like. I just knew like, like it was 00:36:59.829 --> 00:37:03.909 ending. Yeah. Yeah. And I, I wanted, we made 00:37:03.909 --> 00:37:07.789 it like just to a year with some breastfeeding, 00:37:07.869 --> 00:37:10.969 mostly formula at that point. But like that last 00:37:10.969 --> 00:37:15.409 breastfeeding session was like, I was like bawling 00:37:15.409 --> 00:37:18.110 and he was like, what's going on mom? It's weirdly 00:37:18.110 --> 00:37:20.750 emotional for sure. Yeah. Yeah. With Lloyd, my 00:37:20.750 --> 00:37:24.980 supply also dropped and. We got to the point 00:37:24.980 --> 00:37:27.199 where, and it, cause he was out like 11 months 00:37:27.199 --> 00:37:29.460 and he wouldn't take formula. So we just started 00:37:29.460 --> 00:37:31.119 giving him whole milk, which the doctor was like, 00:37:31.159 --> 00:37:33.400 yeah, that's fine. And then I would nurse him 00:37:33.400 --> 00:37:35.440 first thing in the morning and then at bed at 00:37:35.440 --> 00:37:38.139 night. And then he wasn't sleeping through the 00:37:38.139 --> 00:37:39.800 night. So we're like, he's probably not getting 00:37:39.800 --> 00:37:41.840 enough. Let's start whole milk at night. And 00:37:41.840 --> 00:37:43.880 then he started sleeping through the night. And 00:37:43.880 --> 00:37:47.019 then. there was just like a weekend we were busy 00:37:47.019 --> 00:37:49.340 and I didn't, or somebody woke up and he was 00:37:49.340 --> 00:37:51.260 fine. And so it was one of those things where 00:37:51.260 --> 00:37:53.179 I didn't even have like a, this is the last day. 00:37:53.239 --> 00:37:55.199 It was just like, it was just over. It was just 00:37:55.199 --> 00:37:58.219 over and he was fine. But it is like weirdly 00:37:58.219 --> 00:38:00.599 emotional where on one hand you're super grateful. 00:38:00.659 --> 00:38:02.940 Cause you're like breastfeeding is a lot of work. 00:38:03.119 --> 00:38:05.260 Yes. And at the same time you're like, but I 00:38:05.260 --> 00:38:08.260 don't want it to be. I do, but I don't. It was 00:38:08.260 --> 00:38:12.500 such a like up and down experience for me and 00:38:12.500 --> 00:38:16.710 Colt. And. It was mostly up. It was mostly good. 00:38:17.130 --> 00:38:19.909 And I'm so, so grateful for that. But when, yeah, 00:38:19.989 --> 00:38:23.809 when it ended, it was like, I was grateful. It 00:38:23.809 --> 00:38:27.070 was like a bittersweet thing. I was like, I knew 00:38:27.070 --> 00:38:30.050 it was good. We needed to move on. He wasn't 00:38:30.050 --> 00:38:32.909 really enjoying it anyways. It was more for me. 00:38:34.110 --> 00:38:37.110 But also I was like, I will never get to breastfeed 00:38:37.110 --> 00:38:40.070 this child again. And that, and I was. I just 00:38:40.070 --> 00:38:42.010 couldn't, it was hard to come to terms with that. 00:38:42.150 --> 00:38:46.289 Yeah. Yeah. So that was a big low. But now I 00:38:46.289 --> 00:38:48.849 get to breastfeed Cruz and it's like, we're back 00:38:48.849 --> 00:38:52.130 in this like blissful breastfeeding journey in 00:38:52.130 --> 00:38:54.849 a sense. Yeah. Yeah. All right. My next one is 00:38:54.849 --> 00:38:57.690 Lloyd is currently learning to ride a bike. Nice. 00:38:57.889 --> 00:39:00.230 We have one of those striders that doesn't have 00:39:00.230 --> 00:39:02.630 pedals. So it's like one of those balance bikes. 00:39:02.909 --> 00:39:04.989 And the first few times he didn't like it at 00:39:04.989 --> 00:39:08.039 all, but. And then we took a break, and now we're 00:39:08.039 --> 00:39:10.380 back at it, and he just, like, all day asks, 00:39:10.460 --> 00:39:13.880 like, bike, bike, bike, bike. So cute. And he 00:39:13.880 --> 00:39:17.280 loves it, and it's so fun. And, again, it's just 00:39:17.280 --> 00:39:18.599 one of those things where you're like, oh, you're 00:39:18.599 --> 00:39:20.519 growing up. Like, you're not my baby anymore. 00:39:20.880 --> 00:39:23.679 You're turning into, like, a real kid, which 00:39:23.679 --> 00:39:26.039 is so bittersweet. So on one hand, you're like, 00:39:26.139 --> 00:39:28.000 I want you to be my baby forever. But then you 00:39:28.000 --> 00:39:29.920 do, like, you get the full sentences and get 00:39:29.920 --> 00:39:31.900 to start hearing what they're thinking, and they're 00:39:31.900 --> 00:39:34.340 doing these things that are so fun, like riding 00:39:34.340 --> 00:39:39.460 a bike. That's so true. Okay. My last low, you 00:39:39.460 --> 00:39:41.519 talked about like going back to work and yes, 00:39:41.579 --> 00:39:44.579 that's a huge low for me. I like my job. So it's 00:39:44.579 --> 00:39:47.199 not like it's all terrible, but actually the 00:39:47.199 --> 00:39:49.780 biggest low for me was when my husband went back 00:39:49.780 --> 00:39:53.219 to work during paternity leave. And especially 00:39:53.219 --> 00:39:56.219 the first time he had two weeks of paternity 00:39:56.219 --> 00:39:58.840 leave. And since I had a C -section with Cole, 00:39:58.980 --> 00:40:01.320 I didn't even feel like, like my body was even 00:40:01.320 --> 00:40:03.940 nearly close to being healed at that point. And 00:40:03.940 --> 00:40:06.260 then I'm just expected to like, I'm going to 00:40:06.260 --> 00:40:08.199 care for this child all day. I don't even know 00:40:08.199 --> 00:40:10.300 how to care for this child all day. I don't know 00:40:10.300 --> 00:40:12.539 what I'm doing. My body's not healed yet. Yeah. 00:40:12.860 --> 00:40:16.460 And so that was like, especially that first week 00:40:16.460 --> 00:40:18.679 of him going back to work, I was like an emotional 00:40:18.679 --> 00:40:22.900 wreck. And then this time around, Michael got, 00:40:23.039 --> 00:40:25.659 he could have taken 12 weeks, but he took eight 00:40:25.659 --> 00:40:28.539 weeks off of work just due to like the busyness 00:40:28.539 --> 00:40:31.739 of. what's happening at church he decided to 00:40:31.739 --> 00:40:34.980 or we decided that he would only take eight eight 00:40:34.980 --> 00:40:38.480 weeks of his time and I had an additional four 00:40:38.480 --> 00:40:41.679 weeks and that transition was really hard too 00:40:41.679 --> 00:40:43.760 because I'm like what the heck do I do with two 00:40:43.760 --> 00:40:50.420 kids yeah I yeah I was like I hardly know how 00:40:50.420 --> 00:40:53.860 to I don't know I was like we don't have a schedule 00:40:53.860 --> 00:40:58.570 right now we don't have yeah a big routine and 00:40:58.570 --> 00:41:01.170 I'm like how do I get Colt down for a nap when 00:41:01.170 --> 00:41:03.949 when I have also have crews like how do I do 00:41:03.949 --> 00:41:06.369 this whole routine and we're getting the hang 00:41:06.369 --> 00:41:09.230 of it for sure and but when Michael went back 00:41:09.230 --> 00:41:12.710 to work it was like it almost was like a harder 00:41:12.710 --> 00:41:15.329 shift for me than when I went back to work yeah 00:41:15.329 --> 00:41:18.630 I could I could feel that yeah yeah so that's 00:41:18.630 --> 00:41:21.480 my last low I do have one more high so we can 00:41:21.480 --> 00:41:25.179 end on a high note. Which was just this last 00:41:25.179 --> 00:41:27.500 Christmas watching Lloyd. Like, his first Christmas, 00:41:27.559 --> 00:41:29.539 he was, like, four or five months old, so he 00:41:29.539 --> 00:41:31.280 didn't really, like, know or care what was going 00:41:31.280 --> 00:41:34.840 on. But this last Christmas, he just got so excited, 00:41:34.840 --> 00:41:37.940 like, being around family. And he got to have, 00:41:38.019 --> 00:41:40.219 like, our sugary breakfast that we have for Christmas. 00:41:42.110 --> 00:41:45.030 get excited about opening gifts and all of that, 00:41:45.110 --> 00:41:48.190 which, so just like seeing his excitement for 00:41:48.190 --> 00:41:50.570 something like, both Stuart and I love Christmas. 00:41:50.610 --> 00:41:52.550 We love holidays in general, but Christmas in 00:41:52.550 --> 00:41:54.449 particular where like all of our family gets 00:41:54.449 --> 00:41:57.849 together and Stuart loves giving gifts. So, you 00:41:57.849 --> 00:41:59.670 know, we get really excited to like get stuff 00:41:59.670 --> 00:42:03.429 for people and see Lloyd get to like be, actually 00:42:03.429 --> 00:42:05.369 be a part of that this year instead of kind of 00:42:05.369 --> 00:42:07.889 just like existing in it like he did last year. 00:42:08.349 --> 00:42:12.150 It was just super fun. That's so cute. super 00:42:12.150 --> 00:42:13.969 exciting for again the future of like oh this 00:42:13.969 --> 00:42:16.469 year he's gonna be even more excited i know uh 00:42:16.469 --> 00:42:19.570 knows what's going on and like he understands 00:42:19.570 --> 00:42:23.309 what it means to get new toys yes yeah this as 00:42:23.309 --> 00:42:27.050 like a side tangent uh this week so lloyd's birthday 00:42:27.050 --> 00:42:31.860 was yesterday and A couple days ago, we were 00:42:31.860 --> 00:42:33.460 like having a rough morning. So I was like, maybe 00:42:33.460 --> 00:42:35.500 I'll just give him like one of his birthday toys 00:42:35.500 --> 00:42:38.239 so that he has like something to occupy him with. 00:42:38.800 --> 00:42:40.639 And so I was like, Lloyd, do you want a new toy? 00:42:40.780 --> 00:42:44.340 And he just like lit up. He's like, which is 00:42:44.340 --> 00:42:48.039 his word for yes right now. And we just got him 00:42:48.039 --> 00:42:49.699 some like letter magnets. So that's what I gave 00:42:49.699 --> 00:42:52.739 him. And he was so excited and he still loves 00:42:52.739 --> 00:42:55.659 them. And yeah, so I'm like seeing that then 00:42:55.659 --> 00:42:58.570 makes me excited for like. Yes. Just what he 00:42:58.570 --> 00:43:02.050 gets, he's getting excited for Christmas. Like 00:43:02.050 --> 00:43:05.610 you get to see all these new things through like 00:43:05.610 --> 00:43:08.889 their lens of like, you get to watch them experience 00:43:08.889 --> 00:43:12.010 the world. Yes. For the first time. Yeah. And 00:43:12.010 --> 00:43:15.440 that's so fun. It is so fun. It is. Well, there's 00:43:15.440 --> 00:43:18.860 our highs and lows of the last two years. I feel 00:43:18.860 --> 00:43:20.619 like we have so many more that we could share, 00:43:20.719 --> 00:43:24.440 but we won't take up more of your day. Well, 00:43:24.480 --> 00:43:26.300 honestly, when we were prepping for this, I just 00:43:26.300 --> 00:43:28.440 like, my mind went completely blank. I was like, 00:43:28.480 --> 00:43:30.000 what has happened in the last few years? I have 00:43:30.000 --> 00:43:32.639 no idea. That's so true. Not a single good or 00:43:32.639 --> 00:43:35.619 bad thing. I don't know. Yeah. Yep. And then 00:43:35.619 --> 00:43:37.860 I know as soon as we like stop recording, I'll 00:43:37.860 --> 00:43:39.340 think of every single thing. A bajillion more. 00:43:39.440 --> 00:43:43.349 Yep. Yep. Okay, well, should we hop into our 00:43:43.349 --> 00:43:45.550 wins? I guess these could be, like, some of our 00:43:45.550 --> 00:43:49.469 highs, too. Yeah. Well, I can share mine. Okay, 00:43:49.469 --> 00:43:53.030 perfect. So Zeta is rolling over, which is just, 00:43:53.030 --> 00:43:55.949 like, really fun. But Lloyd has picked up that 00:43:55.949 --> 00:43:59.110 when she rolls over, we're like, yay, Zeta. And 00:43:59.110 --> 00:44:02.630 so he'll stop what he's doing if she rolls over 00:44:02.630 --> 00:44:05.710 and say, yay, baby, and he starts clapping. It's 00:44:05.710 --> 00:44:08.849 so cute. And he calls her baby right now, which 00:44:08.849 --> 00:44:12.099 is also just. Very cute. Baby sister. I love 00:44:12.099 --> 00:44:14.019 it. Yeah. He claps and cheers for her, which 00:44:14.019 --> 00:44:19.659 is so fun. That's so cute. Um, my win is so not 00:44:19.659 --> 00:44:22.260 a win. I was like having a mental breakdown at 00:44:22.260 --> 00:44:25.739 one point. Yes. And, um, I don't know. I don't 00:44:25.739 --> 00:44:28.920 think I've shared this before, but so Cole now, 00:44:29.000 --> 00:44:31.539 like if I'm like having a hard time or anything, 00:44:31.719 --> 00:44:35.960 he'll go, mommy, you okay? Okay. And I'm like, 00:44:36.039 --> 00:44:38.760 yeah, buddy, I'm okay. And it, it was the other 00:44:38.760 --> 00:44:41.380 day I was like, I don't know what I was like 00:44:41.380 --> 00:44:44.099 having a moment about, but he like took his passy 00:44:44.099 --> 00:44:47.059 out of his mouth and like tried to shove it into 00:44:47.059 --> 00:44:49.739 my mouth. And then he like patted my back and 00:44:49.739 --> 00:44:52.679 went, shh, shh, shh, shh. And I was like, thanks, 00:44:52.760 --> 00:44:56.219 buddy. That's so nice. Like, mommy's okay. He's 00:44:56.219 --> 00:44:59.030 like, okay. I'm like. Yeah, I'm okay, buddy. 00:44:59.110 --> 00:45:01.590 Thank you. That's so sweet, though. Yeah, I know. 00:45:01.730 --> 00:45:04.349 I was like, you're so empathetic, buddy. And 00:45:04.349 --> 00:45:07.369 also, he just, like, picks up on, like, so much. 00:45:07.409 --> 00:45:09.230 And I'm like, okay, we have to be careful with 00:45:09.230 --> 00:45:12.150 what we say and what we do because he just picks 00:45:12.150 --> 00:45:15.150 up on, like, on everything. Yeah, we started 00:45:15.150 --> 00:45:17.550 to do that, too. We're like, we're both pretty 00:45:17.550 --> 00:45:19.869 sarcastic. Yeah. So we're like, oh, there's some 00:45:19.869 --> 00:45:21.690 things we probably should stop being sarcastic 00:45:21.690 --> 00:45:23.590 about. Yeah, right. Because his brain doesn't 00:45:23.590 --> 00:45:26.110 comprehend the joke part yet, and he just, like. 00:45:28.829 --> 00:45:30.849 He doesn't hear the sarcasm. He hears the words, 00:45:30.849 --> 00:45:35.989 not the joke. 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