Two weeks, baby. Two weeks, baby. I will be officially
out of the corporate world. Yes, two weeks. God
darn it. I'm excited. I'm excited to be a civilian.
I'm excited to be broke. No, seriously, I'm just
excited to go out into the world every day, wake
up and have a new routine that doesn't involve
going into someone's building for eight hours,
sitting on my behind, trying to talk to people
on the phone. Okay? Trying to educate folks through
the phone. No more. All right? I've had my share
fair of being a service worker. So when you see
me... which you probably won't. But when you
do, you thank me for my service. My two to going
on three years service. All right. So this year
would have been two years. Next year would have
been three. But you thank me for my service.
All right. I'm blessed to have learned everything
I've learned. I am just ready to blossom. I'm
ready to continue to be loose, lost, sometimes
lonely. This is episode 63 with your favorite
life coach here, Cecile. Because shit, that's
just like you guys. We're going to figure it
out every day. We learning. We're not giving
up. Episode 63, let's get started. Let's get
started. Hey, let's get started. Ah. Okay, we're
here episode 63 all -star first of course life
update Life update what's going on with you girl
me? I'm slowly stressing you all Yes, I'm excited
about leaving, but I am slowly stressing when
I tell you there was so much for me to pack I'm
not kidding. I have so much clothes and partially
all these clothes that I have It's from my prior
journey as a fashion designer. I have so many
clothes. You get what I'm saying? I'm trying
to figure out what do I put up in my containers?
What do I take with me? Do I start to give things
away? I don't know. A part of me just want to
keep a lot of things as a hoarder. I've never
been one, but now I'm like, you know, this is
why people are hoarders. I'm trying to keep little
projects for myself. So I'm trying to discipline
myself, like, okay, girl, you can't keep everything.
Because this is only your 20s era that you're
putting in this box, babe. We got more eras to
go. So I'm going to slowly start giving things
away to different charity. Because I would love
to see just a homeless person with something
I had on, I made, you know, one of my Cecile
shirts on a homeless, I would love it. So I'm
gonna give a lot of stuff away to charity. Trying
to really downsize it all into a suitcase. But
for now, I'm going to put some things in charity.
A lot of things I'm gonna keep because like I
stated, I work hard. That sewing machine did
not make itself. Those clothes did not put themselves
under that sewing machine. The sewing machine
didn't buy itself is really what I meant to say.
Yeah. The sewing machine did not purchase itself.
It cost a little too much money for me to take
it back. I'm not doing that, okay? We're keeping
the sewing machine. Every year I make my own
birthday dress, or birthday outfit, whatever
my look is, is made by me. So I'm like, I have
to take the sewing machine. I have to. I have
to take my sewing machine because I definitely
will be creating my look for January. I don't
want to sit around waiting on nobody's company
to try to send me a dress that's too big or too
small. You guys just keep it. I have so much
to freaking pack. Besides that, I'm ready to
dip my foot over there in England again. Love
the weather. I'm ready to go to the parks. Oh,
it's lovely just going to the park, acting like
a Karen all my life. Over there, I'm definitely
a Karen. So it's very nice to just navigate.
Now I'm ready to see how the heck am I going
to pod over there? What are the people I'm going
to, who are the people I'm going to run into?
Where are the higher ups? I don't know. I'm just
nervous though. I'm so excited, but yet I'm so
nervous because I'm like, I'm literally coming
from the US to the UK. Oh my God. Oh my God.
So yes, you guys, your girl is nervous, but yet
ready. Okay. Outside of that, I've been catching
up with my family, having some family time. My
brother. and my boyfriend have been really kicking
it off, you know? That was the last on my list
to ever expect. But my boyfriend is such a sweetheart
with such a vibrant, vibrant vibe, a vibrant
aura that he brings. So I was not really surprised
that he was able to kick it off with my brother,
but I was surprised that the Leo got back in
touch as quickly. So besides my family just connecting
slowly but surely, I'm just trying to figure
out how I'm gonna wrap up down here, okay? I'm
trying to figure out also besides just packing,
who's gonna do my hair in the UK? I need to know.
Anyone, if you're listening, please comment.
Let me know. Send a girl a DM. If you know any
person in the UK that can do a nappy -headed
girl's hair. No, I'm not nappy -headed. I'm sorry.
But there are my days. I do have days where things
are not always meshing perfectly. But there are
other days where I'm just nice and curly -headed.
So I'm just trying to figure out who's going
to do my hair. Are we talking braids? Sew in.
There's just a lot to do. It's not just packing
for a girl. You get what I'm saying? It's not
just, oh, throwing up a few bras, throwing some.
No, I got heels, boots, shoes. I don't even know
if my boyfriend is ready for all this. Like,
sir, did you literally prepare for me to come
take over your apartment, basically? Because
it's not just me, it's me and my things, and
my things have to go where I go, okay? Slowly
but surely, I'm trying to figure it out. Outside
of that, you guys, there's so much going on in
the world besides me drama, all right? And this
episode 63, we're gonna get back to it. We're
gonna get right into the worldly, culturally
news out there that's going on in society. You
know, the social networks out there are just
putting out all the news. I don't know if you
guys heard about the BET Awards and the Sone
Train Awards being suspended indefinitely. by
BET, by the BET CEO Scott Mills. They stated
the network is re -imaging these awards to show,
to show and better fit the involving media landscape.
Now, I'm nervous. And they also even say this
includes potentially moving them to streaming
and other platforms. Yeah, I'm definitely nervous.
Okay. I definitely have always loved the Soul
Train Awards and the BET Awards. I literally
run home just to watch the BET Awards. Literally,
you know, cook dinner, steal. Now, the dinner
changes. It was Rotel, but now we're just making
pizza for the hip -hop awards. But we're still
running to the screen. We're still rushing to
see who's gonna perform. We still want to see
who's nominated and who's won best album of the
year, you name it. So I'm a little saddened the
fact that it just feels like we're losing everything.
This is the folks, the culture, we are losing
out on a lot. So I'm like, okay, I'm eager to
see how fast you guys get it up there, because
I'm going to miss the BET Awards. I think you
should move fast if you're going to be re -imaging.
Okay, don't forget about the black folks. Okay,
because I'm going to miss the hip hop awards.
I love hip hop. All right. All right. Now the
Soul Train Awards. That was more of a as a kid,
I would just run to the screen. But I've learned
a lot of artists through watching the Soul Train
Awards as a child. So I'm just like, dang, that's
that's a part of history. That's a part of my
growing up upbringing the shows and watching
everybody on the solo train and they would be
in their in their roller skates and all that
just like it was a part of being why do they
need to be re -imaging things i don't know i
guess it's just not working now that things are
moving towards streaming platforms so hopefully
however they re -image they just bring it back
okay just bring it back Don't take it away forever.
Reimage it, do what you gotta do. Come back and
come back stronger. Some of us are still waiting.
That's all I'm saying. I'm 27. And I would not
not go to a Soul Train award. If someone sent
me a ticket or if I got an invitation to go to
the Soul Train awards, I definitely would accept.
So you all, please, anyone that's listening.
We need the Soul Train Awards. It's just as important
as the hip -hop awards, just as important as
our upbringing coming up. It was in a lot of
our Gen Z upbringings. Anyone that's Gen Z, like
me. So a lot of Gen Zs, hey, it was in your upbringing
just like it was in mine, okay? I feel like everything
is changing nowadays. It's just changing right
in front of us, every day, every night, by the
hour. it's crazy we can hardly keep up sometimes
okay that's just one thing but i'll move forward
people okay next thing i don't know if you all
been watching but trump to federal he was trying
to federalize the dc police and deploy the national
guards to fight criminal fight crime i'm sorry
So he was trying to deploy the National Guard
to fight crime, you know, in D .C. And I'm seeing
that he's trying to, like, recommend this in
different states. Make sure you vote. Make sure
you vote. If you are hearing someone say words
you don't understand, Google the words. Okay?
Never be afraid to be like, okay, you said what?
Okay, let's Google everything someone says if
you don't know. Just look it up, you know? Ask
them what they mean on that word. Ask for clarity.
But I definitely, as someone that's leaving the
government, that's learned the government jargon,
all I can say is the more questions you ask,
the better you can learn that sometimes in this
world we get direct answers, sometimes in this
world we get beat around the bush answers, okay?
So I say anyone that's listening, hearing about
these National Guard just trying to be deployed
to fight crime. Continue to vote in your state,
okay? So I think that's definitely important.
I pray it doesn't come to Texas while I'm here.
What they do when I leave, I don't know. But
while I'm here, I just pray you guys chill because
it's already going crazy. He's also already talking
about jail time for homeless. Folks in Washington
DC, jail time for anyone who refuses shelter.
Baby, first off, why do you think they're going
to refuse shelter? Secondly, what's the repercussions
with the shelter? Because one thing about Trump
is just nothing is ever as good as it sounds.
So I'm sure there's more to it when it comes
to this shelter situation. That's probably why
everybody's a little skeptical. All right? So
I'm gonna have to look more into it, but I will
have to need more meat on the bone about this
shelter for him to wanna put folks in jail if
they refuse shelter. I'm telling you, there's
gotta be something behind that one, but I'll
do my due diligence and learn more. But for now,
we're gonna move on to the next topic here, people.
Okay. Next topic here. I'm not sure if you guys
have been watching The Shade Room, getting your
news. My girl, Mariah the Sciences, she has a
topic, you guys, about dating a man and or a
woman with children, okay? I'ma let you guys
hear Mariah's comment from a pod that she did
before you hear mine, okay? All right, let's
go here. Other ladies out there that are thinking,
well, I don't want to date a man with kids. And
you're like judging the idea of someone who has
had that happen. I feel like dating somebody
with kids has taught me more about a family unit
than anything I could have ever imagined because
you're seeing it in real time. You know, you're
seeing like. The ins and outs of parenting, regardless
if somebody is together or not together, you're
seeing just, it's really, parenting is very interesting.
It's hard. It is. Even kids. Yeah. And I agree.
I agree that parenting may be a difficult situation.
I'm not a mother. I'm not a father. Nor am I
a stepmother. But I have dealt with people in
the past. before I was solidified and taken.
I've dealt with people in the past that have
had children with multiple mothers. You know,
there was multiple baby mothers. And just like
in her predicament, I've learned a lot. Yeah,
you see a family dynamic in front of you. You
also see a full package of journeys. Let's just
say that, okay? I see a full package of a journey
in front of me. And I think that has a lot within
itself to unpack. So I've always stated to people,
know a package is a package when you see one.
I definitely at times felt like I was settling.
But then again, there was times where I was like,
well, I eventually want a kid anyway. So what
the heck is the problem? Well. It's different
when you're the mother and then someone else
is the mother of another child and you're playing
stepmother, okay? So it's different when two
people have to communicate nonstop whatsoever,
partially because they have a child in the world.
That's a different type of feeling. That, you
know, you're just connected to a person all the
time. Sometimes there's no boundaries. That's
why I couldn't do the dating the person with
a kid it was Trying to nip boundaries. You know
like okay. I know this is happening, but why
do y 'all got to do this? That didn't work for
me like I needed Really structured value boundaries
when it comes to Someone else having a child
that is in my you know I'm saying so I don't
see how she did it, but she doing it, okay? I
would advise anybody out there, keep in mind,
there's multiple people on this world. There's
multiple people in the U .S. There's multiple
people outside of the U .S., okay? My man wasn't
in the U .S. You know, I'm not married or anything,
but my man wasn't in the U .S., so kudos to Mariah
for... Thugging it out, literally, okay? Because
I'm pretty sure that's not an easy journey and
she's learning a lot on the way, but I got off
that train. Yeah, yeah, I can say that for sure.
Head, heel high. I got off that train. That train
was gone for me. Like I said, boundaries is major
for me, especially if you guys are no longer
together because with... Having a nice human
being a lot of times, which is a child, having
a child in this world makes somebody either bitter,
somebody's either over doing something, meaning
they just overstaying their welcome when it comes
to certain things. Always trying to be involved
when it's just clearly this is for the child.
That's it, clearly for the child. So I don't
know how she did it, but she did it. Okay, Mariah.
I hear you, girl. What a journey that you decided
to pick up and learn from. Kudos to you. All
right. I'm going to move on to the next topic
because, baby, I'm getting triggered. And I don't
even want to think about the man that I was talking
to, the Aggies. I don't got time for that. Mm
-mm. No. I'm past it. I'm sitting with the Karens
now. Leave me alone. Mm -mm. Let's move on. But
let's get into shit that's just life. Show of
the week, of course. Vanderpump Rules is the
show of the week. I'm not sure if you guys ever
seen Vanderpump Rules on Bravo, on Peacock. Vanderpump
Rules is the show of the week, you guys. I had
to watch it because I see the new one, it's coming
out soon. So I had to go back and watch the old
one. I specifically wanted to know where the
heck did Ariana come from? You know, Ariana from
Love Island, the host. So she came from Vanderpump
Rules and I was able to watch her journey from
there and now I'm ready to report on it. Ariana
in the smallest form. She basically had a great
boyfriend for nine years up until a certain time.
He decided to sleep with her best friend. Yes,
her boyfriend of nine years decided to sleep
with her best friend of how many years she's
been knowing that best friend forever. And to
put the icing on the cake, he was sleeping with
the best friend. for seven months and that's
just that's not even the whole show but that's
ariana's story from there at the end over here
because she had a whole journey with him i would
like to say that if my boyfriend of nine years
decided to do anything and his brain told him
to do it with my friend, I probably wouldn't
be on the podcast. I can say that. I won't say
anything else because I don't really incriminate
myself. But I'm just saying I wouldn't be on
the pod. I would, I would barely be on a TV show,
okay? I would not need my face plastered around
because the damage I may do to those two. individuals
um yeah nine years and then the best friend that
she was always there for um yeah i really really
need to know what raquel slash rachel sign was
what's her zodiac sign what is it not even was
what is it i need to figure out what her zodiac
sign is that made her go after her own best friend's
boyfriend I need to know. I really need to know
because when I was watching the show I was feeling
sad for her for being the lost lonely and the
loose. I really did feel sorry for Rachel being
the lost lonely and the loose at the time on
the show. It was obvious the girl was lost after
her breakup with her partner. She was once a
fiance. She had to let him go. Baby girl was
lost after that because fiancee ended up getting
another girl the next week Or even the next month
wasn't even the next week. It was the next month
He ended up getting another girl the next month.
So of course it left her Destroyed, of course,
it left her just lonely and lost out there Now
where did the loose come from? Hmm. I have no
idea but her high self Went to go talk to her
own best friend's man. Too loose for me. Mm -mm.
That's when I was like, okay, let's put a muzzle
top on this now, people. We're doing too much.
Let's back up. Reassess. Self -reflect. Why are
we doing this? Okay. I need to figure out what
that girl's zodiac sign is because why would
she do that on God's green earth? and then think
she can sleep at night. I don't know. I have
to figure out what her zodiac sign is because
I really want to know. I mean, besides her being
lonely because of her prior person leaving her
and then flaunting his new person in front of
her, I would have reacted differently. I may
have put a drink up to his face. Yeah, because
you're trying to get a rise out of me and I'm
gonna give you what you're looking for. Yes.
i'm just being honest i would have probably right
with a nice little glass of something chardonnay
tequila something good okay i don't see how she's
doing it but she's navigating but i think she's
getting lost and just trying to figure out who
do i talk to next do i talk to somebody in the
circle somebody outside the circle bookie talking
to somebody outside the circle i wanted to tell
her that but nobody can hear me through the screen
so if she's listening Anyone that's listening
that watches Vanderpump Rules tell Rachel says,
Raquel, any time in life you're thinking about
something, think outside the box. Think outside
the box. Think outside the circle, okay? Don't
stay within the circle, okay? Because the circle
is even crumbling within itself. Think outside
the box. These people were crazy. But I'm probably
no better. because this is episode 63. Oh shit.
That's just life. And we are just growing. We
are all growing out here, baby. Okay? Nothing's
perfect. I left you guys with something beautiful
at the end of this episode here. Got a lovely
uber story. Okay? People out in the world are
actually still loose, lost, and lonely as well.
It's not just Vanderpump Rules cast. Okay? It's
just, it's not just them. It's a little bit of
everybody This uber story will help Conclude
my statement. It's not just the vanderpump rules.
It's everyone lost lonely and loose just out
here doing anything Me too. Look at me just about
to run off to England like girl. Who do you think
you are? You're just a loose little No, I'm not.
I'm kidding. But it's been a pleasure doing this
episode with you guys, releasing, because I'm
about to be out there into the world again. I'm
about to be a civilian full time. Two motherfucking
weeks. All right? Two weeks. I'll be a civilian
full time. No corporate life. You heard me. I
may be homeless some weeks. I may be rich some
weeks. I'm ready. Either way. Let's go. Episode
63. It was a blast. It was a success. Uber driver
story coming up next. Stay tuned. Stay here.
Episode 63. It has been a blast. It has been
a blast. Now it's time for us to hear the Uber
story. To hear the Uber story. What? I said hear
the Uber story. What? Hear the Uber story. He
goes back out of retaliation and he goes, well,
you know, Nathan's super late all the time. He's
super lazy. He doesn't know how to do anything.
He doesn't do anything. And you know, this, the
Stephen guy, he had been there for four years.
He thought he had diplomat community because
he was really good at his job. He was a full
-time employee. I was a contractor. So instead
of hashing it out with him, they thought it'd
be easier just to cut the contractor, which was
me. And you know, it's... You know, if anyone,
I mean, I've already talked to two different
legal firms about it. And I think the biggest
reason why they both have sort of shied away
from my case is because I was a contractor. And,
you know, I mean, contractors are super expendable.
And, you know, if you break wind the wrong way,
they can let you go. They don't need like a good
reason, whereas they kind of need to feel justified.
If you you don't have the same protection as
you do as like a full -time employee And you
know Texas well, Texas might do a few things,
right? One of the glaring weaknesses in the Texas
system is they don't give a shit about workers
rights They just support big business all the
way I would pay Union that would gladly pay union
dues any day of the week because at least like
I would probably sell my job and I probably be
converted by now, you know, so Yeah, I can definitely
I know the benefits behind having the union Because
they really fight for your right well they do
they do especially if you do nothing wrong If
you do nothing wrong like if you're true if you're
truly blameless They will back you up 100 % And
you know like people in my situation or you anything
similar you have no like real recourse You know
I mean you're a contractor. They can just let
you go for like Like I said, you could fart the
wrong way. And like, they're just like, oh, well,
that's it, sorry. Yeah. Whoa. I like the whole
part of a union because, like I said, not only
do they fight for your rights, but they also
make sure that everything is working in your
ability at work. You get what I'm saying? Yeah.
Nobody's crossing the line. Exactly. Nobody's
willing to try to... Overdo their power because
overstep their balance, right? Not across the
boundaries of Whatever their job description
is this is and that's just what I stand for,
you know, don't overdo it Don't make things personal
at work. I mean I would I would like I said I
would glad I was brought up with the idea that
you know Yeah, I was raised with the idea that
unions have over like live their purpose But
with my like with my experience in the world
and like, you know in the workforce and everything
I'm like no no unions still have their place
today. They they certainly do III I'm a huge
advocate something like there's something a lot
of times when you know your listeners or other
people out there You just might become like a
victim of misfortune. You do nothing wrong You
say nothing wrong and you just you know, you're
you're good at your job. You do what you do you're
never late to work even and Like you said, you
can do everything right, and you can still fail.
Or not fail. Because I feel like when you say
fail, it kind of implies that you did something
wrong. But you could still lose. Like I said,
you can go a long way and still go the wrong
way. Exactly. Yeah, you can get still screwed
for doing nothing wrong. Failure isn't always
a bad thing. Failure just kind of helps you.
It strengthens you in a way. It's stressing you
to learn how to, I say, CYA, which is cover your
own ass. Well, I've already known to, like, document
myself and document situations. I mean, I was
a turd that won't flush. I mean, I considered
myself the turd that won't flush before. And,
like, I've tried to stay strong. It's just really,
really difficult sometimes. I mean, it's really...
It's hard to do when you're doing it by your
damn self. It's not easy, man. It's really...
So that's it, that's just what it is. You've
been doing it, but doing it by yourself is doing
it differently. I mean, I've had, I've had, like,
I told you, I told you, I told you, like, what
happened with those interviews I've had. Yeah.
I mean, I've interviewed with so many good big
companies out there that I think that I'm, I
think I've run out of companies to talk to, you
know? I mean, I don't know. You just don't know
what else to do. I mean, I'm like an Elf in South
Sarah way from like maybe You know doing gay
porn even or making a deal with the devil I mean
like if I were to make a deal with the devil
I'd make sure I got my money's worth out of it,
and you know I would even try to like finagle
like like a deal like exchange for my soul. I'll
give you five other ones I'm sorry bad joke.
No, but I get it. You're just in a predicament.
What the hell do I do? You know, you're also
panicking Right over here on the left. Yeah,
you can do a u -turn. Oh, okay Yeah, you know,
here's a car coming off. Yeah, you're panicking.
That's what you're doing. I know I without actually
panicking i'm pretty level -headed but to a certain
extent you don't even know oh man that's just
it's just frustrating because it's it's it's
like you know a situation of like despair and
what is you know it's like well i mean every
time i get hopeful about something and i think
like okay this is finally going to take me out
of the situation well don't think like that you
think you need to think more mindful like well
if it does it does if it don't it don't yeah
yeah try that one no no I have it's just I mean
what yeah yeah try it try it sucks rhinoceros
penis of course of course you have a good rest
of your night okay okay shit that's just life
okay sometimes yeah it does we're gonna make
the best out of it okay You got this. Do I have
a choice? You have no choice. You're gonna persevere.
You got it Well, like I said, I'm the turd that
won't flush. You the turd that won't flush. Exactly.
That's it Makes no sense guys, but you know this.
There's box office And there's Oscars Jerry Been
a while, huh? Ain't been to the show. You wouldn't
know Wouldn't been to the show. You wouldn't
know. Uh -oh Haven't been to the show so you
wouldn't know what it is to win.