1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:03,000 Yo. 2 00:00:03,000 --> 00:00:10,560 I'd like to welcome everybody back to the brand new episode of the Cognitive Collage 3 00:00:10,560 --> 00:00:11,560 podcast. 4 00:00:11,560 --> 00:00:15,240 I'm your host, Quentin Gold, with friends and family. 5 00:00:15,240 --> 00:00:17,080 They call me QG for short. 6 00:00:17,080 --> 00:00:23,120 And if you feel like that's what we're becoming, you can tell me that too. 7 00:00:23,120 --> 00:00:27,520 I hope everybody enjoyed their holidays. 8 00:00:27,520 --> 00:00:30,240 I hope Santa gave you everything you put on your list. 9 00:00:30,240 --> 00:00:36,960 I hope all your new year's resolutions come true or that shit. 10 00:00:36,960 --> 00:00:40,160 But let's get into it. 11 00:00:40,160 --> 00:00:50,320 So speaking of new years, damn, I hate to start so grim, but fuck it, we are here. 12 00:00:50,320 --> 00:00:57,240 There was a domestic terrorist attack in New Orleans. 13 00:00:57,240 --> 00:01:06,560 Initially, I guess it was believed that this was like a attack from ISIS, but it was a 14 00:01:06,560 --> 00:01:11,960 guy who was born and raised in Texas. 15 00:01:11,960 --> 00:01:15,400 And he's actually like an army veteran. 16 00:01:15,400 --> 00:01:23,720 He decided on new years to drive from Texas to New Orleans and drive through a curl for 17 00:01:23,720 --> 00:01:24,720 the people. 18 00:01:24,720 --> 00:01:30,960 Not only did he did that, once he finished driving through everybody, he hopped out and 19 00:01:30,960 --> 00:01:33,200 he started shooting people. 20 00:01:33,200 --> 00:01:41,600 So I think the last time I checked, I think it was 10 people deceased and believe like 21 00:01:41,600 --> 00:01:51,320 over 30 people injured, I'll never, I'll never understand that type of shit. 22 00:01:51,320 --> 00:01:57,000 Like just, and I'm not advocating for self-deletion, but why take all these people? 23 00:01:57,000 --> 00:01:58,000 You know what I mean? 24 00:01:58,000 --> 00:02:06,320 Like why not just, if you tired of the world, you know, unplug your cord, your cord, not 25 00:02:06,320 --> 00:02:07,320 everybody else's. 26 00:02:07,320 --> 00:02:17,080 Like that shit is wicked and then a day later in Las Vegas, somebody drew one of those Tesla 27 00:02:17,080 --> 00:02:25,320 cyber trucks to like the lobby of, or the driveway, I should say, of the Trump old tow 28 00:02:25,320 --> 00:02:30,920 in Vegas and then proceeded to set off a bomb in the truck. 29 00:02:30,920 --> 00:02:36,360 Thankfully, I don't think anybody was injured during that attack, but they're trying to 30 00:02:36,360 --> 00:02:41,960 say that these two attacks were like coordinated. 31 00:02:41,960 --> 00:02:49,280 Like they were, you know, implemented by the same group of people type of thing. 32 00:02:49,280 --> 00:02:50,280 This shit is wicked. 33 00:02:50,280 --> 00:02:54,200 This shit is just, it's wicked. 34 00:02:54,200 --> 00:02:59,040 I can't even think of a different word outside of like wicked. 35 00:02:59,040 --> 00:03:02,040 Terrible, disgusting. 36 00:03:02,040 --> 00:03:04,480 I don't know. 37 00:03:04,480 --> 00:03:15,040 Besides that, I'm sorry to just get off of that so fast, but I didn't want to linger 38 00:03:15,040 --> 00:03:20,880 on that story because it's so, you know, it's just make my fucking skin crawl. 39 00:03:20,880 --> 00:03:27,520 Like it's just, I would never be able to rationalize why people make those type of decisions. 40 00:03:27,520 --> 00:03:32,320 But moving on from that shit. 41 00:03:32,320 --> 00:03:41,440 For the first time in, I don't know how long the East Coast is preparing to embrace 42 00:03:41,440 --> 00:03:44,520 that self for an actual real winter storm. 43 00:03:44,520 --> 00:03:51,040 Like I've been here in conflicting reports, but I'm here like up to 14 inches, 16 inches 44 00:03:51,040 --> 00:03:56,640 of snow, which fucking sucks. 45 00:03:56,640 --> 00:04:00,000 And don't get me wrong, like I love the snow, especially like as a kid. 46 00:04:00,000 --> 00:04:03,040 Like that shit is fun. 47 00:04:03,040 --> 00:04:05,040 Not as no fucking adult who got to work. 48 00:04:05,040 --> 00:04:08,040 You know what I mean? 49 00:04:08,040 --> 00:04:11,200 I work in like the mechanical side of things. 50 00:04:11,200 --> 00:04:14,880 Like you can say maintenance, but it's not. 51 00:04:14,880 --> 00:04:20,600 I love you guys, at least not my position, but I still got to go to work because the 52 00:04:20,600 --> 00:04:24,840 buildings that I'm in, they have boilers, they have chillers, they have all kinds of 53 00:04:24,840 --> 00:04:28,920 like circulation pumps and all that type of shit. 54 00:04:28,920 --> 00:04:34,160 They have to be attended to on a daily regardless of whatever the temperature is outside. 55 00:04:34,160 --> 00:04:37,440 So I don't get to work from home. 56 00:04:37,440 --> 00:04:38,800 I don't get to. 57 00:04:38,800 --> 00:04:45,280 So no matter how bad this snow is out there or going to be, my black ass guy will be out 58 00:04:45,280 --> 00:04:46,280 there with it. 59 00:04:46,280 --> 00:04:50,840 So I'm not excited for that. 60 00:04:50,840 --> 00:04:53,480 But I don't know, man. 61 00:04:53,480 --> 00:04:58,360 I guess for global warming and shit, like actually getting a legitimate snowstorm is 62 00:04:58,360 --> 00:04:59,360 kind of cool. 63 00:04:59,360 --> 00:05:05,520 At least it feels, it's crazy to say, but anticipating a snowstorm, at least for my 64 00:05:05,520 --> 00:05:07,520 region, actually feels nostalgic. 65 00:05:07,520 --> 00:05:14,080 I mean, like we didn't have multiple winners where like you might get a dusting of like 66 00:05:14,080 --> 00:05:17,880 some slurries or some shit, but nothing where they actually laid. 67 00:05:17,880 --> 00:05:23,640 You can make a snowball and that type of shit. 68 00:05:23,640 --> 00:05:26,600 I don't know what that says about the environment. 69 00:05:26,600 --> 00:05:31,920 I'm not that smart, but I guess it'll be cool to see it's gonna fucking suck to get 70 00:05:31,920 --> 00:05:35,480 the work, but it'll be cool to see. 71 00:05:35,480 --> 00:05:40,360 Uh, what else is going on in my life? 72 00:05:40,360 --> 00:05:45,240 Yo, for the past few nights, I've been having some of the worst fucking nightmares of my 73 00:05:45,240 --> 00:05:46,240 life. 74 00:05:46,240 --> 00:05:48,760 Like, I mean, just. 75 00:05:48,760 --> 00:05:49,760 All right. 76 00:05:49,760 --> 00:05:54,840 I won't speak in all of them, but I had this one dream, right? 77 00:05:54,840 --> 00:05:55,840 This shit fucked me up. 78 00:05:55,840 --> 00:06:01,520 Like it was almost like some inception type of shit where like it was a dream, a side 79 00:06:01,520 --> 00:06:06,680 of a dream, a side of a dream, a side of a dream inside of a dream. 80 00:06:06,680 --> 00:06:11,160 And like the thing that creeped me out about it, because the shit that was happening in 81 00:06:11,160 --> 00:06:12,960 the dream wasn't even necessarily scary. 82 00:06:12,960 --> 00:06:18,960 It was the fact that like it was trying to trick me to stay asleep. 83 00:06:18,960 --> 00:06:20,480 All right. 84 00:06:20,480 --> 00:06:21,480 I give you an example. 85 00:06:21,480 --> 00:06:26,920 One of my dreams, it was me and like one of my like homeboys from the past. 86 00:06:26,920 --> 00:06:28,440 Like we're not really cool like that no more. 87 00:06:28,440 --> 00:06:32,160 But I mean, there ain't no issues even, but we just, we haven't spoken in years. 88 00:06:32,160 --> 00:06:37,680 So I mean, him, we had like a little handshake that we would do type of shit. 89 00:06:37,680 --> 00:06:47,440 So in a dream, he was with a son, you know, and I see him, I go, damn, bro, you had a 90 00:06:47,440 --> 00:06:49,400 kid, like congratulations. 91 00:06:49,400 --> 00:06:53,440 So like we dap up and we make a small talk and then he go, all right, man, I got to 92 00:06:53,440 --> 00:06:54,440 get a body here. 93 00:06:54,440 --> 00:06:55,440 I'm going, all right, bro. 94 00:06:55,440 --> 00:07:01,080 So we look at each other and we want to go do the fucking like our handshake and we 95 00:07:01,080 --> 00:07:02,840 fucked it up the first time. 96 00:07:02,840 --> 00:07:04,360 I laughed, he laughed. 97 00:07:04,360 --> 00:07:09,200 Then we went to go shake, do the handshake again and we fucked it up even worse than 98 00:07:09,200 --> 00:07:11,720 the first time. 99 00:07:11,720 --> 00:07:16,560 And then for some reason, he gave me like this fucking smile, but his smile was like 100 00:07:16,560 --> 00:07:18,720 unusually wide. 101 00:07:18,720 --> 00:07:22,360 And I was like, oh, shit, I'm dreaming. 102 00:07:22,360 --> 00:07:30,760 And then I wake up, I sit up in my bed, I get up, walk to the bathroom and I use the 103 00:07:30,760 --> 00:07:36,760 bathroom, I'm washing my hands, I look up in the mirror and like, so all the lights are 104 00:07:36,760 --> 00:07:38,600 off, except for like the bathroom light. 105 00:07:38,600 --> 00:07:41,080 So I got the bathroom door open. 106 00:07:41,080 --> 00:07:46,240 So as I'm like washing my hands, I'm looking into the mirror and I can see like this glowing 107 00:07:46,240 --> 00:07:51,880 type of face, like, like walking up, like approaching me from like behind. 108 00:07:51,880 --> 00:07:53,360 And I turn around like, what the fuck? 109 00:07:53,360 --> 00:07:57,320 And then wake up. 110 00:07:57,320 --> 00:08:01,960 Then when I wake up, my phone rings, pick it up, it's my mother. 111 00:08:01,960 --> 00:08:05,040 She's going, hey, you still coming by today? 112 00:08:05,040 --> 00:08:06,800 I go, yeah, man, what you doing up this early? 113 00:08:06,800 --> 00:08:09,480 I'm looking at my phone and saying, it's like three in the morning. 114 00:08:09,480 --> 00:08:14,760 And mind you, a normal day because of how early I get to work, I wake up usually around 115 00:08:14,760 --> 00:08:17,080 three, three, 30 type of shit. 116 00:08:17,080 --> 00:08:20,160 So I'm like, man, why are you up so late slash early? 117 00:08:20,160 --> 00:08:21,160 Like, what are you doing? 118 00:08:21,160 --> 00:08:24,120 And as I'm talking to her, her voice starts to distort. 119 00:08:24,120 --> 00:08:26,520 So I think my phone's fucking up. 120 00:08:26,520 --> 00:08:29,920 So I was like, hey, hang up and call me back. 121 00:08:29,920 --> 00:08:34,360 So then when I, she hangs up and then I'm sitting there, I'm waiting for her to call 122 00:08:34,360 --> 00:08:35,360 me back. 123 00:08:35,360 --> 00:08:39,280 And while I'm sitting there waiting for her to call me back, my bedroom door creaks open 124 00:08:39,280 --> 00:08:42,640 and my mom come walking in, but she's like unusually tall. 125 00:08:42,640 --> 00:08:44,920 Like her head is almost touching the ceiling. 126 00:08:44,920 --> 00:08:47,520 And then when I get a real good look at it, there's no eyes on the socket. 127 00:08:47,520 --> 00:08:48,520 Then I wake up again. 128 00:08:48,520 --> 00:08:52,240 And I go, God damn, these dreams are fucking nuts. 129 00:08:52,240 --> 00:08:54,320 Like what is going on in these dreams? 130 00:08:54,320 --> 00:08:58,560 And then like my TV turns on by itself. 131 00:08:58,560 --> 00:09:02,600 And I'm like, am I dreaming still? 132 00:09:02,600 --> 00:09:05,640 I'm like, did I never wake up? 133 00:09:05,640 --> 00:09:10,040 And I hear this fucking voice that I don't know, but it sounds familiar, but I don't 134 00:09:10,040 --> 00:09:11,040 know this voice. 135 00:09:11,040 --> 00:09:16,040 I can't, I can't connect it to a person that I know, but the voice seems familiar. 136 00:09:16,040 --> 00:09:20,480 And it was just like, just lay down, just lay down. 137 00:09:20,480 --> 00:09:23,120 I'm like, am I asleep? 138 00:09:23,120 --> 00:09:24,120 And it wouldn't answer. 139 00:09:24,120 --> 00:09:25,600 It just kept saying, just lay down. 140 00:09:25,600 --> 00:09:29,440 And then I finally actually wake up. 141 00:09:29,440 --> 00:09:33,760 And when I woke up, like I just had, you know, like your head stand up on your arms, the 142 00:09:33,760 --> 00:09:36,960 hair on my arms, the back of my neck, all my hair was just standing up. 143 00:09:36,960 --> 00:09:40,160 And I just, it took me a second. 144 00:09:40,160 --> 00:09:42,360 And I'm sitting there going, am I still awake? 145 00:09:42,360 --> 00:09:43,360 Am I dreaming? 146 00:09:43,360 --> 00:09:46,720 Am I, I was so fucking like bathroom. 147 00:09:46,720 --> 00:09:51,440 Like I got my phone and started like checking shit, like checking work, not that shit. 148 00:09:51,440 --> 00:09:53,800 I'm like, all right, I'm actually awake. 149 00:09:53,800 --> 00:09:55,320 Get up, use the bathroom and shit. 150 00:09:55,320 --> 00:10:00,040 Whole time I'm like, wash my hands, I'm staring in the mirror, waiting for something to approach 151 00:10:00,040 --> 00:10:01,040 that never does. 152 00:10:01,040 --> 00:10:05,240 Cause this time I'm actually awake, but I've never had that experience before. 153 00:10:05,240 --> 00:10:09,120 I never had a dream, a side of a dream, a side of a dream, a side of a dream. 154 00:10:09,120 --> 00:10:11,280 Like that shit was insane. 155 00:10:11,280 --> 00:10:17,240 Like it felt weird, like it felt like, oh, this is gonna make me sound nuts, but it almost 156 00:10:17,240 --> 00:10:25,840 felt like it was like a, like, like somebody else was controlling my dreams. 157 00:10:25,840 --> 00:10:28,600 I know, I know, I know how it sounds. 158 00:10:28,600 --> 00:10:34,640 Cause I'm hearing it myself as I'm saying it, and it sounds fucking nuts, but I've never 159 00:10:34,640 --> 00:10:36,200 had an experience like that before. 160 00:10:36,200 --> 00:10:38,840 Like it really fucked me up. 161 00:10:38,840 --> 00:10:42,160 And then the next night I had a nightmare too, but honestly, I don't remember what it 162 00:10:42,160 --> 00:10:43,160 was. 163 00:10:43,160 --> 00:10:46,960 I just remember like waking about my dream like abruptly, but I don't recall what it 164 00:10:46,960 --> 00:10:50,440 was that made me jump up like that. 165 00:10:50,440 --> 00:10:58,800 But that first multiple dream night or whatever, that shit was crazy. 166 00:10:58,800 --> 00:10:59,800 I don't know. 167 00:10:59,800 --> 00:11:05,840 I wanted to do like some research on it, but I mean, I still might actually, you know what 168 00:11:05,840 --> 00:11:06,840 I mean? 169 00:11:06,840 --> 00:11:10,520 I wouldn't even know what the fuck to look for. 170 00:11:10,520 --> 00:11:12,520 Like, I don't know. 171 00:11:12,520 --> 00:11:17,800 I don't figure that part out, but I've been that. 172 00:11:17,800 --> 00:11:25,480 Like I've been, I said this in my last broadcast, but I've been trying to like get more into 173 00:11:25,480 --> 00:11:31,400 creative space as far as like, you know, writing or drawing or whatever, just like embracing 174 00:11:31,400 --> 00:11:37,520 more the creative side of, you know, whatever creative skill set I got. 175 00:11:37,520 --> 00:11:40,200 And lately I just been like writing. 176 00:11:40,200 --> 00:11:47,400 And I'm really, really happy with the, with the shit I've been coming up with lately. 177 00:11:47,400 --> 00:11:55,120 You know, the weird thing about the whole writing shit is like, I write with intention, 178 00:11:55,120 --> 00:11:57,960 but it's free form. 179 00:11:57,960 --> 00:12:03,600 So like, I don't sit down with the goal of like, all right, I got to make a party. 180 00:12:03,600 --> 00:12:09,160 I got to make, yo, I know when this particular person here, they're going to go crazy. 181 00:12:09,160 --> 00:12:15,440 I used to do that, but now I just, I write what I write, what I feel and if whoever hears 182 00:12:15,440 --> 00:12:16,960 it, if they like it, they like it. 183 00:12:16,960 --> 00:12:20,720 And if they don't, you know, it makes no difference either way. 184 00:12:20,720 --> 00:12:29,120 But you know, lately, like my motivation has been solely just trying to be creative, I guess. 185 00:12:29,120 --> 00:12:34,440 So, and the shit I've been writing for like the past week, I'm really excited about. 186 00:12:34,440 --> 00:12:38,080 Oh, I started a new job. 187 00:12:38,080 --> 00:12:46,360 I kind of hinted to that in the last podcast too, but I won't go deep into it, but like 188 00:12:46,360 --> 00:12:55,960 it's, I'll say this like it's involved with commercial real estate and like, it's such 189 00:12:55,960 --> 00:12:57,120 a small world. 190 00:12:57,120 --> 00:13:03,320 So like, when I get there, my first day was, it's cool, you know, it's normal shit, paperwork, 191 00:13:03,320 --> 00:13:07,240 getting shown around, getting introduced to, oh, hey, these are the architects. 192 00:13:07,240 --> 00:13:09,520 Hey, these are our marketing people. 193 00:13:09,520 --> 00:13:12,200 This is our development department, all that shit. 194 00:13:12,200 --> 00:13:14,240 So meeting everybody I need to meet. 195 00:13:14,240 --> 00:13:18,960 Some people that already like previously knew because I was subcontracting a few years, like 196 00:13:18,960 --> 00:13:23,400 well shit, like five years ago, and I had a small stint at that building that I'm at. 197 00:13:23,400 --> 00:13:26,360 So like maybe like four or five months. 198 00:13:26,360 --> 00:13:33,200 So the big dogs for us, like director of engineering and, you know, the property manager, like 199 00:13:33,200 --> 00:13:34,560 I was familiar with them. 200 00:13:34,560 --> 00:13:38,720 So when they reached out to me like, hey, man, we would love to bring you in. 201 00:13:38,720 --> 00:13:42,400 So what my number was, it was like, it's a little high. 202 00:13:42,400 --> 00:13:47,680 I was like, all right, well, I mean, hey, if you don't sit your budget, I'm gonna just 203 00:13:47,680 --> 00:13:49,880 stay where I'm at because I'm comfortable where I'm at. 204 00:13:49,880 --> 00:13:53,680 And he was like, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, we we want to bring you in. 205 00:13:53,680 --> 00:13:55,880 So we worked out that side of it. 206 00:13:55,880 --> 00:14:00,240 So I got what I asked for, which honestly, I was surprised that the motherfucker's dead. 207 00:14:00,240 --> 00:14:01,240 But I got it. 208 00:14:01,240 --> 00:14:04,400 And like, so this is like day two. 209 00:14:04,400 --> 00:14:06,200 I'm there and shit. 210 00:14:06,200 --> 00:14:11,800 And I'm actually getting to like run into like some of the people like on like the mechanical 211 00:14:11,800 --> 00:14:15,680 side and it's like, oh, shit, bro, I used to work with you out Columbia. 212 00:14:15,680 --> 00:14:19,880 Oh, shit, bro, I used to work with you at the pussy. 213 00:14:19,880 --> 00:14:25,440 So like, I met probably like five or six texts and like four of them, like I've previously 214 00:14:25,440 --> 00:14:26,760 worked with at like different places. 215 00:14:26,760 --> 00:14:28,760 So that was cool. 216 00:14:28,760 --> 00:14:33,680 And it was like, man, it just made me think about like how small those little communities 217 00:14:33,680 --> 00:14:34,680 is. 218 00:14:34,680 --> 00:14:35,680 Yeah. 219 00:14:35,680 --> 00:14:37,120 Because I remember like, you know, prior to going to trade school and all that shit, 220 00:14:37,120 --> 00:14:41,520 I might have worked like, I never worked like fast food, but I might have worked like 221 00:14:41,520 --> 00:14:42,520 retail. 222 00:14:42,520 --> 00:14:47,120 Like I worked at like Modell Sport Goods. 223 00:14:47,120 --> 00:14:49,200 I don't even know if there's a Modell Sport Goods anymore. 224 00:14:49,200 --> 00:14:50,640 I think they would bankrupt some shit. 225 00:14:50,640 --> 00:14:55,200 But like they are like, I worked overnight like stocking at Walmart and type of shit. 226 00:14:55,200 --> 00:15:01,840 And like, I remember, you know, being in my early 20s and seeing dudes come in because 227 00:15:01,840 --> 00:15:05,480 we might have like something like break like the AC broke or the heat broke or whatever 228 00:15:05,480 --> 00:15:06,480 the case may have been. 229 00:15:06,480 --> 00:15:11,360 And they would have a technician come in, he'll walk in, work foam, you know, you're 230 00:15:11,360 --> 00:15:12,880 gonna form this shit. 231 00:15:12,880 --> 00:15:16,760 And he'll be in there for about like 20 minutes, fix the shit and dip. 232 00:15:16,760 --> 00:15:20,800 And like, you could just tell, well, I could tell these and like, this nigga's probably 233 00:15:20,800 --> 00:15:27,200 making quadruple the amount of what I'm making at the time. 234 00:15:27,200 --> 00:15:31,160 And like, I remember thinking like, damn, you're how the fuck do you even get involved 235 00:15:31,160 --> 00:15:34,920 in that type of shit? 236 00:15:34,920 --> 00:15:38,600 And it would be like maybe four or five years later, before like I actually went to trade 237 00:15:38,600 --> 00:15:44,080 school and graduated and got certified and then I would go back to different certifications 238 00:15:44,080 --> 00:15:49,120 and, you know, different type of licenses, all that type of shit. 239 00:15:49,120 --> 00:15:55,080 And like, now I'm in that position and I had one of those moments the other day where 240 00:15:55,080 --> 00:15:59,000 like I'm going on my lunch break and I grabbed some of the e-mails. 241 00:15:59,000 --> 00:16:01,600 I'm coming out, it's like three dudes standing there and shit. 242 00:16:01,600 --> 00:16:04,920 One of them smoking a cigarette or he's trying to smoke a cigarette, but he needed a light. 243 00:16:04,920 --> 00:16:13,080 So I give him a light and he sold my title, like on my jacket. 244 00:16:13,080 --> 00:16:16,760 So like, he goes, damn bro, how are you even getting to this? 245 00:16:16,760 --> 00:16:20,480 So I was more or less some of my, a summed up version of my dream. 246 00:16:20,480 --> 00:16:24,400 Like I went to trade school and then from trade school, I got to hospitality. 247 00:16:24,400 --> 00:16:27,480 I worked with the forces of the hotel for a bunch of time. 248 00:16:27,480 --> 00:16:31,040 Then I went to this commercial real estate spot, then I got this mechanical engineering 249 00:16:31,040 --> 00:16:32,520 contract and all that shit. 250 00:16:32,520 --> 00:16:36,120 I'm talking to my body and I could tell them why I spoke about it. 251 00:16:36,120 --> 00:16:39,040 Like he looked almost like overwhelmed. 252 00:16:39,040 --> 00:16:45,040 So I reached my wallet, gave him a business card and I was like, look, yeah, because this 253 00:16:45,040 --> 00:16:46,040 is like on the Friday. 254 00:16:46,040 --> 00:16:49,280 So I was like, yo, give me a call on Monday, which, what should we eat tomorrow? 255 00:16:49,280 --> 00:16:51,440 So I was like, give me a call on Monday. 256 00:16:51,440 --> 00:16:55,840 If you have a resume, shoot it over to me and we can talk about like apprenticeship potential. 257 00:16:55,840 --> 00:16:59,280 He was like, all right, man, cool, man. 258 00:16:59,280 --> 00:17:03,480 And as him and his friends walked off, I could see like his homeboys dapped them up type 259 00:17:03,480 --> 00:17:04,480 of shit. 260 00:17:04,480 --> 00:17:06,760 And I don't know if he's going to call or not, but I really hope he does. 261 00:17:06,760 --> 00:17:07,760 Yeah. 262 00:17:07,760 --> 00:17:14,200 I mean, so I would love to give like somebody young an opportunity to, you know, to start 263 00:17:14,200 --> 00:17:15,200 their journey. 264 00:17:15,200 --> 00:17:20,920 So I remember being the kid, you know, working in Moldova's, I'm working in the shoe department 265 00:17:20,920 --> 00:17:24,640 and shit, smelling feet all day and just seeing these niggas come in and out. 266 00:17:24,640 --> 00:17:29,240 And I'm like, I know they're getting, I know they're getting like, and like, you know, 267 00:17:29,240 --> 00:17:34,440 a lot of people won't admit it, but when you're in a room full of like brand new people that 268 00:17:34,440 --> 00:17:37,480 you don't know and shit and, you know, everybody's getting to know each other. 269 00:17:37,480 --> 00:17:40,120 So hey, what do you do for a living? 270 00:17:40,120 --> 00:17:43,360 Like in that moment, you want to have pride in your response. 271 00:17:43,360 --> 00:17:46,040 You know what I mean? 272 00:17:46,040 --> 00:17:50,320 I guess it don't matter because like, if you're making money supporting yourself, supporting 273 00:17:50,320 --> 00:17:52,480 the ones that you love, fuck what your title is. 274 00:17:52,480 --> 00:17:53,680 Like, you know what I mean? 275 00:17:53,680 --> 00:17:55,480 You're doing your job. 276 00:17:55,480 --> 00:18:01,480 Like, at least speaking to me, like, you know, when I have those conversations, I tell people 277 00:18:01,480 --> 00:18:07,840 like, oh, yeah, I'm a, I'm a master atch-back mechanic by trade, but I'm currently like 278 00:18:07,840 --> 00:18:11,120 a mechanical engineer because it's weird. 279 00:18:11,120 --> 00:18:12,120 All right. 280 00:18:12,120 --> 00:18:17,240 And especially like in a social stand status type of shit, people judge you off of what 281 00:18:17,240 --> 00:18:18,920 your job title is. 282 00:18:18,920 --> 00:18:21,280 They might say they don't, but they do. 283 00:18:21,280 --> 00:18:25,720 Because if you're sitting there and the reason, or I'll say this, like the scale they use to 284 00:18:25,720 --> 00:18:31,600 judge the person that they're interacting with is based on if they believe their job 285 00:18:31,600 --> 00:18:34,520 title is more important than the one that they hold. 286 00:18:34,520 --> 00:18:45,840 So let's say somebody's like, I don't fucking know, a registered nurse, they make good money. 287 00:18:45,840 --> 00:18:47,520 And they meet somebody and go, hey, what do you do for a living? 288 00:18:47,520 --> 00:18:49,360 Well, I work in a call center. 289 00:18:49,360 --> 00:18:51,360 Oh, that's nice. 290 00:18:51,360 --> 00:18:53,160 They don't feel threatened by it. 291 00:18:53,160 --> 00:18:56,600 So they almost look at it like, oh, you're a little nigga, you're a little homing type 292 00:18:56,600 --> 00:18:57,600 of shit. 293 00:18:57,600 --> 00:19:02,120 And then they, you know, talk to them, hey, what do you do? 294 00:19:02,120 --> 00:19:09,160 Oh, bro, I'm an assistant director for a Fortune 500 commercial real estate company. 295 00:19:09,160 --> 00:19:11,200 Oh, wow. 296 00:19:11,200 --> 00:19:15,080 The, the energy at you that is different. 297 00:19:15,080 --> 00:19:18,680 Like they, they put an extra layer of respect on your shit. 298 00:19:18,680 --> 00:19:22,840 I don't think people should do that. 299 00:19:22,840 --> 00:19:23,840 But we, we do it. 300 00:19:23,840 --> 00:19:24,840 We all do it. 301 00:19:24,840 --> 00:19:26,840 Even Rev is intentional, unintentional. 302 00:19:26,840 --> 00:19:29,160 I try not to be, I try not to do that shit. 303 00:19:29,160 --> 00:19:34,560 Like I try to be, you know, cognizant of like my responses and that type of shit because 304 00:19:34,560 --> 00:19:36,800 you never want to like shit on nobody's situation. 305 00:19:36,800 --> 00:19:38,960 You know what I mean? 306 00:19:38,960 --> 00:19:42,680 Like shit, one wrong turn, one wrong decision. 307 00:19:42,680 --> 00:19:43,680 Shit. 308 00:19:43,680 --> 00:19:48,280 One missed phone call, two or three known responses to emails. 309 00:19:48,280 --> 00:19:50,280 You could be in that same boat, all words. 310 00:19:50,280 --> 00:19:52,280 You know what I mean? 311 00:19:52,280 --> 00:19:54,800 So, I don't know. 312 00:19:54,800 --> 00:19:56,480 I was thinking about this the other day too. 313 00:19:56,480 --> 00:20:07,200 Like I was listening to this TED talk and I was listening to how like the guy was saying 314 00:20:07,200 --> 00:20:15,480 anybody who's has ancestral trauma where like it's verified is documented that, you know, 315 00:20:15,480 --> 00:20:22,520 your lineage or your heritage was like disrespected by, you know, whatever you consider to be 316 00:20:22,520 --> 00:20:27,560 a governmental power type of shit that, that should be reparations. 317 00:20:27,560 --> 00:20:30,880 I'm African American, black, whatever you want to call it. 318 00:20:30,880 --> 00:20:34,120 Yeah, I agree with that for sure. 319 00:20:34,120 --> 00:20:36,120 You know, people with Jewish descent got reparations. 320 00:20:36,120 --> 00:20:39,080 People with Japanese descent got reparations. 321 00:20:39,080 --> 00:20:40,080 People with Asian descent. 322 00:20:40,080 --> 00:20:41,080 You know what I mean? 323 00:20:41,080 --> 00:20:44,000 So, I agree with that. 324 00:20:44,000 --> 00:20:51,240 And I think as the black, not speaking for the whole community because who the fuck am 325 00:20:51,240 --> 00:20:52,240 I to do that? 326 00:20:52,240 --> 00:20:57,960 But at least from statistics that I've read and seen or whatever, they say that, you know, 327 00:20:57,960 --> 00:21:01,280 African Americans are like the number one consumers. 328 00:21:01,280 --> 00:21:06,240 And there's some trauma behind why we are because it's that feeling of being inadequate. 329 00:21:06,240 --> 00:21:11,640 So like we'll buy high priced shit because we think that that separates us from the pack 330 00:21:11,640 --> 00:21:12,640 somehow. 331 00:21:12,640 --> 00:21:17,520 I mean, yeah, I'm from the hood, but shit, I got a Benz and Balenciaga's on. 332 00:21:17,520 --> 00:21:19,480 All right. 333 00:21:19,480 --> 00:21:21,480 No mean shit. 334 00:21:21,480 --> 00:21:29,520 I mean, it's, you know, white dude ran down Chuck Tellis and this nigga drives a fucking 335 00:21:29,520 --> 00:21:32,840 hatchback Subaru, but this nigga owns where he lives. 336 00:21:32,840 --> 00:21:34,840 You know what I mean? 337 00:21:34,840 --> 00:21:40,920 So not to deviate from what I'm talking about, but like he was saying the reparations, I 338 00:21:40,920 --> 00:21:47,080 thought about it and I was like, well, that's being the number one consumers. 339 00:21:47,080 --> 00:21:50,360 Honestly as fucked up as the economy is, and this is fucked up for me to say, and I mean, 340 00:21:50,360 --> 00:21:55,480 no disrespect when I say this, but if you gave black people reparations, honestly, it 341 00:21:55,480 --> 00:21:58,280 would save the country. 342 00:21:58,280 --> 00:22:03,560 It would save the country because we are, we are really. 343 00:22:03,560 --> 00:22:05,920 We're heavy and trenched into consumerism. 344 00:22:05,920 --> 00:22:11,200 So yeah, we would go out and buy luxury shit, all this type of shit. 345 00:22:11,200 --> 00:22:12,200 We would. 346 00:22:12,200 --> 00:22:15,920 The other educator once would. 347 00:22:15,920 --> 00:22:21,240 They would give it back as quick as it was given to me, but they, you know, and when 348 00:22:21,240 --> 00:22:23,360 I say they, I don't mean a specific race. 349 00:22:23,360 --> 00:22:25,360 I mean, because it's not even about race. 350 00:22:25,360 --> 00:22:26,840 It's more about like social status. 351 00:22:26,840 --> 00:22:30,640 It's the haves and the have nots and motherfuckers are somewhere in the middle. 352 00:22:30,640 --> 00:22:31,640 Sometimes they have it. 353 00:22:31,640 --> 00:22:32,640 Sometimes they don't. 354 00:22:32,640 --> 00:22:43,880 I'm kind of in the middle range, but like, you know, they, whoever they may be, they 355 00:22:43,880 --> 00:22:50,160 can't run the risk of like, all right, what if there is a sector of, you know, the American 356 00:22:50,160 --> 00:22:55,960 based African American who, bro, I didn't learn from my forefather struggles and mistakes 357 00:22:55,960 --> 00:22:57,760 and missteps and fuck this shit. 358 00:22:57,760 --> 00:22:58,760 We're going to legitimize. 359 00:22:58,760 --> 00:22:59,760 We're going to get businesses. 360 00:22:59,760 --> 00:23:03,680 We're going to build, you know, in a community wealth type of shit. 361 00:23:03,680 --> 00:23:05,200 Wait, what do you get at? 362 00:23:05,200 --> 00:23:06,480 Oh, your grandma's a tailor. 363 00:23:06,480 --> 00:23:07,480 All right, back. 364 00:23:07,480 --> 00:23:09,480 I'm going to get a cleanest, last tailor thing. 365 00:23:09,480 --> 00:23:10,480 Oh shit, bro. 366 00:23:10,480 --> 00:23:12,440 You used to, you used to be in the military. 367 00:23:12,440 --> 00:23:13,440 All right. 368 00:23:13,440 --> 00:23:15,840 Well, you opened up a firearm store with instructional classes. 369 00:23:15,840 --> 00:23:16,840 Back. 370 00:23:16,840 --> 00:23:18,680 Yo, let's open a grocery store. 371 00:23:18,680 --> 00:23:22,240 My granddad was a farmer, but I'm not a plant and grow a bunch of shit. 372 00:23:22,240 --> 00:23:23,240 All right, back. 373 00:23:23,240 --> 00:23:25,800 They're the only community. 374 00:23:25,800 --> 00:23:31,080 They've done this before Black Wall Street, if you unfamiliar with it, like, look it up. 375 00:23:31,080 --> 00:23:33,840 It's fucking, it's beautiful. 376 00:23:33,840 --> 00:23:36,440 And then it turns fucking tragic. 377 00:23:36,440 --> 00:23:40,440 Like, tragic isn't even a strong enough word for it. 378 00:23:40,440 --> 00:23:45,320 Like, you know, the powers that be at the time decided, all right, you know what, y'all 379 00:23:45,320 --> 00:23:48,000 want to be see yourselves back here. 380 00:23:48,000 --> 00:23:49,520 We're going to leave y'all to your own devices. 381 00:23:49,520 --> 00:23:51,600 We ain't going to fuck with y'all. 382 00:23:51,600 --> 00:23:53,720 And that community slourished. 383 00:23:53,720 --> 00:23:58,080 I'm talking banks, schools, bakeries, fucking you name it. 384 00:23:58,080 --> 00:24:02,800 That community had all black things, all black doubt. 385 00:24:02,800 --> 00:24:07,920 And, you know, the segment or the sections that one of us not to be dead, they start 386 00:24:07,920 --> 00:24:08,920 to suffer. 387 00:24:08,920 --> 00:24:12,880 They so dependent on the black doubt, hate our fucking guts. 388 00:24:12,880 --> 00:24:21,480 But, you know, I could, but anyways, like I said, we're deserving of that shit, but 389 00:24:21,480 --> 00:24:29,720 they will never get it because if it's a hundred of us that get it, maybe 85% gives it right 390 00:24:29,720 --> 00:24:30,720 back. 391 00:24:30,720 --> 00:24:32,720 And that's a high number. 392 00:24:32,720 --> 00:24:35,040 They boost the economy, all that shit. 393 00:24:35,040 --> 00:24:40,440 But they, whoever they are, are so afraid of that remaining 15% actually utilizing that 394 00:24:40,440 --> 00:24:41,440 shit. 395 00:24:41,440 --> 00:24:46,600 Because then maybe some of that 85% go, oh shit, wait, how did you do that? 396 00:24:46,600 --> 00:24:47,600 Show me. 397 00:24:47,600 --> 00:24:48,600 And then they do it. 398 00:24:48,600 --> 00:24:50,600 And they teach their kids. 399 00:24:50,600 --> 00:24:53,040 Then their kids, the homeboys come over to chill. 400 00:24:53,040 --> 00:24:56,400 Hey, bro, let me show you niggas how I'm really getting to this money or some legal shit. 401 00:24:56,400 --> 00:24:57,400 They can put me on. 402 00:24:57,400 --> 00:25:02,840 And he learns, and he teaches, and he learns, and he teaches, and she learns, and she teaches. 403 00:25:02,840 --> 00:25:07,240 And it becomes that each one teach one thing. 404 00:25:07,240 --> 00:25:10,720 And that's something that they would be terrified of, whoever they are. 405 00:25:10,720 --> 00:25:12,880 Again, I'm not on those soapbox. 406 00:25:12,880 --> 00:25:18,000 I don't even know if anybody's even going to hear this episode or suck it. 407 00:25:18,000 --> 00:25:23,520 On an off chance of somebody important, air quotes, care this shit, I'm not starting 408 00:25:23,520 --> 00:25:27,560 a fucking, I'm not starting a movement. 409 00:25:27,560 --> 00:25:35,680 I'm not fucking advocating for, I want everybody, regardless of ethnicity, I want everybody 410 00:25:35,680 --> 00:25:37,680 to be healthy, happy, successful. 411 00:25:37,680 --> 00:25:40,280 Plus, all to be in a good space. 412 00:25:40,280 --> 00:25:42,480 But that's not how the system is built. 413 00:25:42,480 --> 00:25:43,480 The system is built on. 414 00:25:43,480 --> 00:25:44,480 The haves and have nots. 415 00:25:44,480 --> 00:25:49,520 Because look, imagine if everybody, let's say I snap my fingers and everybody's rich 416 00:25:49,520 --> 00:25:50,520 tomorrow. 417 00:25:50,520 --> 00:25:52,880 Who's going to be the trash man? 418 00:25:52,880 --> 00:25:53,880 Or work sanitation? 419 00:25:53,880 --> 00:25:55,480 Who's going to do the plumbing jobs? 420 00:25:55,480 --> 00:25:56,480 Who's going to be the electricians? 421 00:25:56,480 --> 00:25:59,400 Who's going, I got money, I ain't doing that shit. 422 00:25:59,400 --> 00:26:00,880 I get a next thing, I get a new job. 423 00:26:00,880 --> 00:26:01,880 And next thing, I got money too. 424 00:26:01,880 --> 00:26:02,880 I ain't doing that shit. 425 00:26:02,880 --> 00:26:03,880 I ain't doing that shit. 426 00:26:03,880 --> 00:26:05,600 And so on and so forth. 427 00:26:05,600 --> 00:26:11,160 So, I don't know. 428 00:26:11,160 --> 00:26:14,320 What do I do? 429 00:26:14,320 --> 00:26:17,600 What do I do? 430 00:26:17,600 --> 00:26:18,600 I don't know man. 431 00:26:18,600 --> 00:26:22,320 This shit is, I can get into some much deeper shit. 432 00:26:22,320 --> 00:26:27,240 I'm actually going, I'm a hold up. 433 00:26:27,240 --> 00:26:29,440 But I want to try something new. 434 00:26:29,440 --> 00:26:35,800 Like, I think the next podcast, I think I'm going to start doing briefs, like five minute 435 00:26:35,800 --> 00:26:41,920 like paranormal stories of like my personal experiences or the people around me. 436 00:26:41,920 --> 00:26:46,000 You know, as I knock out a few of them, y'all can let me know if y'all feeling it, not feeling 437 00:26:46,000 --> 00:26:47,000 it. 438 00:26:47,000 --> 00:26:51,800 But I've experienced some like super unexplainable shit throughout my life. 439 00:26:51,800 --> 00:26:57,400 Which made me question like after life and you know, higher powers and all that shit because 440 00:26:57,400 --> 00:27:02,600 of you know, some of the shit that I've seen that I can't explain. 441 00:27:02,600 --> 00:27:05,560 So, I don't know. 442 00:27:05,560 --> 00:27:10,040 But with that being said, I'm here for a good time. 443 00:27:10,040 --> 00:27:12,080 For a long time. 444 00:27:12,080 --> 00:27:17,600 So I hope everybody who hears this, I hope you stay safe, healthy, productive, whatever 445 00:27:17,600 --> 00:27:19,000 goals you're working towards. 446 00:27:19,000 --> 00:27:20,640 I hope you get one step closer. 447 00:27:20,640 --> 00:27:26,800 If not achieving it all together and once you achieve that goal, be cognizant of enough, 448 00:27:26,800 --> 00:27:30,240 I'm not intended, to reset your goals and get a new goal. 449 00:27:30,240 --> 00:27:31,240 Don't rest on your laurels. 450 00:27:31,240 --> 00:27:34,240 Like keep going, keep pushing, keep striving. 451 00:27:34,240 --> 00:27:38,240 You know what I mean? 452 00:27:38,240 --> 00:27:45,240 And so the next time, oh wait, let me see this one. 453 00:27:45,240 --> 00:27:55,240 I know, it's too personal, I won't say it. 454 00:27:55,240 --> 00:28:00,920 But love the ones that you love while you have the ability to love them. 455 00:28:00,920 --> 00:28:03,120 None of this shit is promiscuous. 456 00:28:03,120 --> 00:28:05,120 None of it. 457 00:28:05,120 --> 00:28:07,120 This could be my last podcast. 458 00:28:07,120 --> 00:28:09,720 But I know, how would you know? 459 00:28:09,720 --> 00:28:16,120 But in the meantime, in between time, love everybody the way you can as much as you can. 460 00:28:16,120 --> 00:28:18,960 And the ones that you don't love, don't hate them even. 461 00:28:18,960 --> 00:28:19,960 Just stay away from them. 462 00:28:19,960 --> 00:28:20,960 You know what I mean? 463 00:28:20,960 --> 00:28:24,640 So I wish everybody the best man. 464 00:28:24,640 --> 00:28:48,640 So with that being said, peace. 465 00:28:48,640 --> 00:28:58,560 Love everyone. 466 00:28:58,560 --> 00:29:11,780 Love everyone quickly. 467 00:29:11,780 --> 00:29:14,120 Love everybody.