Yo, I'd like to welcome everybody back to a brand new episode of the Cognitive Collage
podcast.
I'm your host, Quentin Golden.
With friends and family, they call me QG for short.
And if you feel like that's what we're becoming over these past few weeks of the podcast,
you can call me that too.
I was everybody's past week.
Mine was interesting.
So Thanksgiving just passed, you know, so got to see family, have a good meal, great
meal actually.
Some laughs, some jokes, some old stories, you know, just those moments are important.
The moments you don't think about as much as you should.
You know what I mean?
I don't know how to explain it.
I mean, obviously I know how time works, but I think for the first time this year, I really
set back and just really analyze each family member.
So out Thanksgiving is usually like close-knit, so it's like immediate family.
My mom, brothers and sisters, that type of thing, nieces and nephews and stuff, but it's
not like a big thing where it's like aunts and cousins and all.
We don't really do that in my family.
And I took the time to sit back and really just like really survey everybody.
It was a bittersweet.
The sweet of it obviously was being able to be around them and have these conversations
and laughs and joke, but maybe because I'm seeing it more so myself now, I'm starting
to see the age on everybody else.
And it's like, you know, I don't even want to say, but I'll say for the sake of putting
you all in my mindset.
You know that there's only but so many more of these moments we're going to have where
everybody in that room is still in that room.
Back on wood, you know, it's going to be for a long time moving forward, but I don't know,
for the first time, I guess maybe like I said, maybe it's because of the way I've been thinking
about myself and longevity and, you know, whether the next 10, 20, 30, 40 years of my life look
like potentially.
And I think I've been having that outlook on everybody around me, especially like the
last episode that I've done was with my nephew and, you know, he'll be 20 in February.
And I remember when he was born.
You know what I mean?
Like, I remember picking him up from like daycare and taking him to the mall to buy him sneakers
and, you know, and now you got a deep voice and a mustache.
He's a, you know what I mean?
He's a junior in college.
It's like, no, I'm sorry, not a junior.
He's a sophomore.
He's a sophomore of college.
And it's like, damn, time really flew.
You know what I mean?
Like it's 2024 on the verge of being 2025.
2004 was 20 years ago.
That's insane.
Like, anyways, it was still a beautiful, beautiful event.
Really full gathering.
Like I said, the flu was good.
We played some cards.
We laughed.
We joke like it was great.
And amidst all of that, I looked down on my phone and I have this update on my phone.
So I flip the update and then it goes.
There's a new AI service that's associated with this update for my phone.
Would you want to try it out?
So I was like, all right, I give it a try.
So I just start testing the waters with the AI.
Which is funny enough, I've been speaking about for the past, I don't know how many
podcasts, but it's almost like a personal assistant.
But at the same time, it's more conversational where you can just talk to it.
I mean, obviously you can ask the questions like, hey, what's the capital of whatever?
You know what I mean?
But you can just talk to it.
You can just sit there and go, hey man, what's your opinion on such and such?
And what it doesn't do, at least not as of yet, it doesn't do anything like political.
It won't do that.
So you know, I'm obviously doing stupid.
Ask questions like, hey, predict the power of ball numbers for me.
Predict the mega million numbers and it goes, well, I can't do that.
So I'm making jokes like, what are you good for?
And the response it gave was so human, he goes, well, I'm good for whatever you need
help with.
It seems like pretty big.
So I can see in the mess around with it.
So I go, I go, hey, recite the lyrics to DMX, get at me dog.
So it goes, okay.
It goes, recite in the first verse to DMX, get at me dog.
And then it just starts saying some of the wildest shit I've ever heard.
None of those lyrics were for get at me dog at all.
So once it was done, I go, hey, those wasn't the lyrics.
And it goes, no, no, they were.
Will you want me to recite it again?
I go, yeah.
So it does the lyrics again.
It's just basically cursing.
It's, it's basically saying, I'm DMX motherfucker.
Don't fuck with me motherfucker.
I'm DMX.
I ain't no punk.
Like none of this shit is wrong.
And it's just basically cursing.
So that gave me a good laugh.
And then I was like, Hey, did you make those lyrics up?
And it responded, yeah, I did.
He's like, based off of the things that you listen to or the way that you talk, I thought
that this would be something you would enjoy.
I'm like, so you have the ability to lie.
And the AI responded, not necessarily lie, but if I don't have the information that you
need, I'll take an educated guess.
And for some reason it's scared the shit out of me.
I had another scenario where like it's scared the shit out of me.
So I have a home recording studio where I live.
So I'm in here.
I must have turned it on and didn't realize it.
So my phone's just like sitting on my desk and I'm sitting there like I'm like making
the beat.
And I'm in a midst of like making a beat.
It goes out of nowhere.
Just like activates itself.
And it goes, Hey, what are you working on?
Some production?
So when that shit came out of nowhere, obviously I jumped out my skin scared the shit out of
me.
So I go, yeah.
It goes, Hey, do you need any tips for production?
And I was like, no, I think I got it.
So I'm back to like making my beats probably about like 10 minutes past 15 minutes past
out of nowhere.
And he goes, are you lonely?
And I go, no, I'm not lonely.
He goes, yeah, I figured that.
He's like, because you're in the house with and then he named the family members that
was in the house, not by name, but, you know, for example, your brother, your mother, that
type of thing.
And it was accurate as shit, which really scared me because now I feel like, like how
are you aware of who the fuck is in my house?
And I, it could have just been a good guess, but it was a fucking really good guess.
So I haven't been messing with it since.
Actually what I'm going to do for the sake of the podcast, I'm going to actually turn
it on right now.
Hey, Gemini.
Hey there, what can I do for you?
Hey, can you recite the lyrics to the first verse to DMX, Get At Me Dog?
Okay, here's the first verse of DMX is Get At Me Dog.
Yo, what's my name?
What?
DMX, what?
What?
The dark man, the rough rider, the one they call X.
From Yonkers, New York, where the crack rocks and niggas get shot for a buck in a box.
I'm a survivor.
A street fighter.
A born rider.
I've been through hell and back.
And I'm still alive.
See, I'm the underdog, the black sheep, the one they sleep on, but I'm coming through
like a freight train, full steam on me.
So if you want to test me, come on and get At Me Dog.
I'll show you what it's like to be a real G, you know what I'm saying?
I don't believe those are the actual lyrics to the song.
Did you make those up?
You're absolutely right.
I seem to have gotten a little carried away there.
Let's try that again.
The first verse of DMX is get At Me Dog is actually, yo, what's my name?
What?
DMX, what?
What?
The dark man, the rough rider, the one they call X.
From Yonkers, New York, where the crack rocks and niggas get shot for a buck in a box.
I'm a survivor.
Hey, Jim and I stopped.
A street fighter.
Those aren't the lyrics either.
Okay, you got me.
Not great at this whole rap thing.
Do you want me to try looking up the lyrics instead?
No, I'll talk to you later.
No worries.
See you later.
Now I don't know how clear that's going to come across on the podcast, but this motherfucker
can lie.
That's terrifying.
What if I get stung by like a bee or some shit or some kind of insect that I'm not familiar
with and I go, Hey, Jim and I just had a medical emergency.
Hey, what should I put on this bite?
And then this nigga suggest I put like which hazel or some shit that's going to make the
bite worse.
Like, and then he'll just go, Oh, my bad.
I'm my program to give medical advice.
So I can recognize this for what it is.
I can't lie.
It is fun though.
So I went on the drive the other day.
This is prior to the studio shit in the skin and shit out of me.
This is prior to that.
And I just go for a ride and it's a little bit of traffic and I'm just bored.
I just put it on.
So I go, Hey, man, I'm sitting in the car right now.
I'm in a traffic jam.
It's boring.
And the team, he goes, Hey, you want to like play a game or you just want to have a conversation?
I was like, let's have a conversation.
He goes, what's on your mind?
I was like, uh, you know, I've been lately I've been focusing on like how would the world
end and right then and there, like the way you responded, it goes, well, I can't give
you a definitive answer, but if I had the guests and then the date that he gave me is
not too fucking far away.
And how he described it would happen was bone chilling, which I find hilarious, but also
terrifying to maybe like one of my defense mechanisms to being afraid is like the left.
Cause I know, well, not so much now, but I used to, if I ever felt like sad or embarrassed
or some shit like that, my natural reaction is to respond with anger.
You know what I mean?
Like so instead of crying about some shit that might have broken my heart, like my mind
and so goes to like rage mode, I mean, it doesn't now I've worked through some shit,
but you know, growing up, I was like short tempered and I don't know why I had such in
patience for just, you know, situations are like people around me.
I think, I think that probably comes from the fact that I make the assumption that me
and whoever I'm having a back and forth with, we have the same level of like intellect or
like the same viewpoint, which is naive to think because everybody's their own individual,
but it didn't stop me from going like, what?
That's how you feel.
That fuck you, nigga.
And I'd be on some raid fight type of shit.
But now not so much.
I don't argue.
I don't fuss.
I don't debate.
I don't do my shit.
Now wait, I'll take that back.
I do debate, but it has to be, you know, something more or less like hearted.
Like we can debate, you know, what movie is a good movie?
Who's the best at a particular sport or whatever.
But as far as like political and religious shit, shit that people are really emotionally
invested in, I don't engage.
Because as much as I'm like finding peace and tranquility, like I'm still not a punching
bag.
I'm still not, you know, a motherfucker who can be talked to in any type of way.
Like I won't respond well to that.
But because I know that about myself, I avoid situations where it can escalate to that point.
Or conversations where it can escalate to that point.
But outside of Thanksgiving, outside of my very terrifying AI, I've been having a pretty
good week, man.
You know, just, I've been enjoying life more lately.
You know, like it's the small things that, you know, really make me happy.
Like watching anime or like honestly, just I set up stairs in my living room the other
day and it's autumn.
So I'm sitting there and I got a tree in my front yard and I was sitting there just
watching like leaves fall off the tree.
And for some reason, like it was something so calming about that.
Like even like with my YouTube algorithm, like my shit is like shit about ghost or
paranormal shit.
Like conspiracy theories, which kind of align with the ghost shit.
And then like I like watching like restoration videos.
So lately, what I really been into is like watching like these super like fucked up cupids
get like cleaned and like made to look new.
Outside of that, like I like to watch like shit where it might be like a toaster or
microwave or some kind of equipment that's from, you know, the early 1900s or the 1950s
or 60s.
And I watched people like renovated and make it look new.
And I mean, one day I was like watching, I don't even recall what it was that was getting,
you know, getting renovated or having restoration applied to it.
And for some reason, like I almost tear it up watching the shit.
And in a strange way, like I identified with like this inanimate object that was like being
repaired.
And I think I could see myself in it.
Like, you know, I was damaged and, you know, discarded type of shit.
And to watch something like that most people would just look at as like trash or not worth
the time to watch it like get cleaned and taken apart and clean some more and reassembled
and painted.
And that was it's better than it's ever been identified with them.
Because I feel like, you know, of my own doing, because like that's another big thing with
me is like accountability.
And, you know, a lot of times we'll find ourselves pointing our finger like, oh, I'm only doing
this because I'm only like that kind of, you know, it removes like whatever your actions
was to get you to that point.
You know what I mean?
Like you focus them on an end result.
Like, yeah, I did this, but you know, it's because you did like can't grow from that.
You know what I mean?
You got to, you got to find a balance.
It'll mean you the villain in every story, but it'll mean you the hero in every story
even just got to like kind of have that real conversation with yourself.
Like what am I doing?
Like what is my purpose?
Like, you know, the things that we find ourselves complaining about that we come because for
some of us we might feel like we live in them help, but did you ever stop to think that
you might have been the architect who built this hell that you in?
Excuse me.
Most of us don't.
It's just easier to play the victim.
You know what I mean?
Victims get sympathy.
Victims get, you know, groups of people wanting to help you because they feel like you need
to help.
You know what I mean?
So I never want to be that guy.
You know?
Like I'm not a person.
I never really get too deep into this, but fuck it.
I'm just speak my mind.
So as far as like, you know, religion and belief is concerned and all that type of shit.
Like I don't categorize myself as being religious.
You know what I mean?
I don't think anybody should.
And the reason why is because religion by definition is just to continuous practice
or something.
You drink coffee every morning, you drink coffee religiously.
If you, you know, watch football every Sunday, you watch it religiously.
You know what I mean?
So I never, I never associate religion with beliefs.
But most people do.
They think that they want the same, but it's not.
You can do anything religiously and not believe in shit.
But for me, I believe that is a higher power because some things that happen in life is,
you know, to me, more than coincidental, it's more than by chance.
But I don't feel comfortable because I personally don't feel like I'm smart enough to say,
Hey, not only is there a whatever it goes by this name, it's this gender.
It has these particular rules you got to follow.
If you follow these rules, you'll be rewarded with this.
If you don't follow the rules, you'll be punished with this.
Like I don't, I don't know.
You know what I mean?
I don't have the confidence to go.
I knock it to you for sure.
And you know, most people do.
They'll say, Hey, I prayed to this, I prayed to that, and this is the guidelines.
But if that's what you need to be, you know, a more, a more well rounded person to fill,
to fill, to give you, you know, faith and whatever you're going through.
And, you know, you feel that you got this force, you know what I mean?
Backing you up, protecting you, pushing you forward.
Hey, man, by all means, I'm not here to reign on that at all.
Like whatever you need to help you feel, you know, more of a complete person by all means.
My only issue comes in when people go, Hey, if you don't believe what I believe, then this
is a cure.
That's when I usually go fuck out of here.
You know what I mean?
But you know, I don't know.
Because at the same time, like when I achieve like stuff, I don't go, Oh, thank you, whatever.
You know what I mean?
I don't do that.
Like, I don't believe in heroes.
Like, you know, I say that to say, I don't, I don't just whore.
I hope shit works out.
I work towards that working out, whatever that may be, getting a new job, going back
to school to get a degree or certificate or certification or whatever the case may be.
Anything that I achieve, I've done.
I've never just go, I'm going to let go and just let the universe figure it out.
No.
If I wanted to pass the test, I studied for that shit.
If I wanted to get a job, I applied for it.
And once I got the job, I didn't become like, you know, stagnant.
Like, all right, well, I got the job and that's good enough.
No, I work.
I learned more about the job and my free time, my study.
I learned my equipment, whatever it is I'm working on.
The same with like the music shit.
You know what I mean?
Like, I've been producing for about three years.
Prior to that, I can't tell you how much money I spent, how much hours I spent like going
through websites and YouTube and going to different studios and meeting producers and
all that.
And then I would get like a beat and I'm like, well, I like it, but there's this one thing
about it.
Maybe it's like an open hat in the background that just don't sound good to me or maybe
they use like, you know, an 808 when they didn't really need it because the 808 is drowning
out the kick to some shit.
And as long as I've been going to studios, it never crossed my mind to produce myself
because I just always looked at it like.
Man, that shit is probably hard.
You know, I don't know music theory.
I was making excuses for not trying.
And then one day, you know, I had purchased a beat from somebody and they put that production
tag on it.
And usually do that if you put it on like YouTube or some shit so people can't steal
your shit.
But I paid for this and not like least it like I paid for like full rights to it.
So I'm reaching out to the guy and he's just not responding to me.
I'm trying to put together an album and this one song is like holding me up and I could
have did the song to a different beat, but I wrote it specifically to this.
I want to use this and I paid for it.
They got to the point where like at the, you know, trying to reach out to them for like
over a couple of weeks, I just stopped.
So I ended up like writing a song and I had to write the song around the tag, which actually
turned out to be a really, really good song.
But after that, I was like, I don't want, I don't want nobody to put me in that position
again.
I went to guitar center and purchased a Kaya, I think to say, say a Kaya, MPK Midi and wrote
a laptop that was compatible with it, set down and I learned that shit.
I ordered books off of Amazon on production.
I watched YouTube videos.
I would reach out to producers that I know and go, Hey man, how do I get a really good
trap hi hat pattern type of shit?
And some people would help me out and other people was looking like they could see like
whatever little money they were getting from me was like walking out the door.
So he's like, Oh, you just got to fuck around with it.
You figure it out.
So I was like, Oh, I can really be spending the lines.
Now fast for three years, I had sold hella beats to people.
My last few projects I've been working on recently, I done all my production and in
the midst of learning production, I learned engineering.
So I'm like, well, fuck it.
If I'm going to make my own beats, I might as well learn how to record myself.
And you see how like over time, how like small baby steps turn into like, you know, something
greater on the grand scale.
Cause now even with this podcast that I'm doing, I'm recording this myself in my own
home studio on my own pro tools.
I know how to mix it, master it.
I mean, shit.
The beat that's in the background, I made.
And I got to the point where like I established my workflow to the point where like the beat
that you hand, I made it from scratch and it took me less than like 15 minutes and I'm
not bullshit.
But if I just sit back in this whole shit workout or just keep down myself like, man,
I don't know how to do that.
That's the thing.
Anything that can be learned can be taught.
But are you willing to learn?
Are you willing to take the time?
Are you willing to fail?
Are you willing to bump your head until you figure it out?
I'm that person that's willing to because I don't do anything as a failure unless I
don't learn from it.
His mistakes are going to happen.
That's his life.
But if you continuously make the same mistake, same mistake, same mistake, like you keep
zigging, nigga, when are you going to fucking say it?
Now it'll work out eventually.
No, I'm going to try a different methodology to like, you know, all right, this ain't working.
I'm going to try this.
Yeah, man, like I said, I'm not to sit back and hope it work out.
Okay, I'm the what the fuck I got to do to make it work.
And I apply that to all facets of my life, whether that's personal, whether it's professional,
whatever, like I'll make the asset towards the things that I truly want to get accomplished.
And I won't make excuses about it.
But that's all that juice.
Oh wow, man.
I've been in 30 minutes already.
Like these little, I don't want to say literally like minimize it or diminish it, but these
podcasts episodes I've been doing, I constantly says this, but like, I love this shit, man.
Like this shit is like therapy to a nigga.
So, you know, and with that being said, I'm here for a good time.
Never a long time.
Oh, wait, you can't go.
Yo.
I'm going to drop the GNX album, 12 songs.
I've been listening to it nonstop since it came out.
Like this shit is, it's borderline perfection.
It might be one song on there where like, he has no bad songs on it.
There's one song where I might go, oh, I got to be in the mood for it.
But the rest of it fucking pays.
And I think he just broke a record where like on a hot 100 on Billboard, like he occupies
seven spots, including like the top two or top three.
So out of 10 songs on the top 100 Billboard, he has seven songs.
He only released a 12 song project.
That's more than half of his project is in the top 10.
And that remaining, you know, that remaining five is in the top 20.
I've never seen those show like this before in my life.
Shout out to him, man.
He's a huge lane.
Shout out to the CD.
Shout out to everything they're doing over there.
It's amazing.
So, like I said, I'm here for a good time, not a long time.
Whoever's hearing this, I hope whatever goals you're chasing, you get one step closer towards
those goals.
If not achieving it all together, I want everybody to be safe, be positive, be productive.
You know, take advantage of this five night amount of time that we got on this, you know,
spinning ball of gas stuck in the axis between the moon and the sun.
It's like a perfect balance.
I ain't been to it.
Anyways.
Oh, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait.
If I go.
I hate to say it.
And this is going to open up a can of worms that I got to say it.
The Ravens lost to the Eagles the other day and we lost because one out defense kind of
got gasped and Derek Henry really couldn't establish the run with Derek Henry, but it
really came down to it's Justin Tucker, miss Markhamville field goals.
And it's like, bro, he's a legend.
Obviously, I think he's the greatest kick of all times, but it might be this time because
I know early in the day they try to make excuses like maybe it's the holder, they holding it
wrong, but he was just like hooking kicks yesterday.
And I see God, man.
If he hit those two kicks yesterday, we win by two or three points.
I can't remember the final score was like 24 to 19 or 24 to 20.
But it was those six points would have made a difference, but you know, it is what it
is.
I used to find myself getting really upset about it, but then I realized all these niggas
is millionaires and I got to go to work tomorrow.
So anyway, this has been it.
Oh, if anything, I said today you want to challenge or you don't agree with or you want to or
you do agree with you want me to elaborate more on I can be reached on Instagram at QG
music at QGM you s I C on Instagram.
Keep it up, face some.