1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:02,000 Yo. 2 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:04,000 I'd like to welcome everybody back. 3 00:00:04,000 --> 00:00:06,000 It's a brand new episode of the Cognitive to Large 4 00:00:06,000 --> 00:00:08,000 Podcast. I'm your host, 5 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:10,000 Wayne Golden. We're friends and family. 6 00:00:10,000 --> 00:00:12,000 They call me QG for short. 7 00:00:12,000 --> 00:00:14,000 I hope everybody had a good 8 00:00:14,000 --> 00:00:16,000 past week. 9 00:00:16,000 --> 00:00:18,000 I know I did. 10 00:00:18,000 --> 00:00:20,000 I got to see some cool 11 00:00:20,000 --> 00:00:22,000 shit. I got to do some cool shit. 12 00:00:22,000 --> 00:00:24,000 I hope everybody had a good 13 00:00:24,000 --> 00:00:26,000 past week. 14 00:00:26,000 --> 00:00:28,000 I know I did. 15 00:00:28,000 --> 00:00:30,000 I got to do some cool shit. 16 00:00:30,000 --> 00:00:32,000 I was 17 00:00:32,000 --> 00:00:34,000 presenting with some new opportunities that I think 18 00:00:34,000 --> 00:00:36,000 is going to be beneficial 19 00:00:36,000 --> 00:00:38,000 to me and my family. 20 00:00:38,000 --> 00:00:40,000 So 21 00:00:42,000 --> 00:00:44,000 I'm in a really, really good 22 00:00:44,000 --> 00:00:46,000 mood, you know. 23 00:00:50,000 --> 00:00:52,000 But 24 00:00:54,000 --> 00:00:56,000 I think the topic I want to talk about today 25 00:00:56,000 --> 00:00:58,000 is 26 00:00:58,000 --> 00:01:00,000 the concept of 27 00:01:00,000 --> 00:01:02,000 being alone. 28 00:01:04,000 --> 00:01:06,000 So a lot of people 29 00:01:06,000 --> 00:01:08,000 that's a scary 30 00:01:08,000 --> 00:01:10,000 thought to even think that, 31 00:01:10,000 --> 00:01:12,000 you know, 32 00:01:12,000 --> 00:01:14,000 they're thought of isolation. 33 00:01:14,000 --> 00:01:16,000 You know what I mean? 34 00:01:18,000 --> 00:01:20,000 By nature, 35 00:01:20,000 --> 00:01:22,000 with social, with social 36 00:01:22,000 --> 00:01:24,000 creatures. You know what I mean? 37 00:01:24,000 --> 00:01:26,000 That's why even when 38 00:01:26,000 --> 00:01:28,000 you know, if you go to prison 39 00:01:28,000 --> 00:01:30,000 and I guess you do some bad shit 40 00:01:30,000 --> 00:01:32,000 in prison, the punishment inside 41 00:01:32,000 --> 00:01:34,000 of prison is 42 00:01:34,000 --> 00:01:36,000 solitary confinement. 43 00:01:36,000 --> 00:01:38,000 Even though all the other bad shit can 44 00:01:38,000 --> 00:01:40,000 happen when you're around a group of 45 00:01:40,000 --> 00:01:42,000 people, the worst thing they 46 00:01:42,000 --> 00:01:44,000 can do is put you by yourself. 47 00:01:44,000 --> 00:01:46,000 And I never 48 00:01:46,000 --> 00:01:48,000 understood that. 49 00:01:48,000 --> 00:01:50,000 I'm a person who thrives in 50 00:01:50,000 --> 00:01:52,000 isolation. 51 00:01:52,000 --> 00:01:54,000 Because you know, it's that saying that 52 00:01:54,000 --> 00:01:56,000 you know, you can be your own worst enemy. 53 00:01:56,000 --> 00:01:58,000 But there's a flip side to that. 54 00:01:58,000 --> 00:02:00,000 You can be your own best friend as well. 55 00:02:00,000 --> 00:02:02,000 So 56 00:02:02,000 --> 00:02:04,000 the same way 57 00:02:04,000 --> 00:02:06,000 you would push for a friend to achieve 58 00:02:06,000 --> 00:02:08,000 something, you give them words of encouragement 59 00:02:08,000 --> 00:02:10,000 or 60 00:02:10,000 --> 00:02:12,000 you'll step up and make sacrifices 61 00:02:12,000 --> 00:02:14,000 to make sure that they achieve whatever they 62 00:02:14,000 --> 00:02:16,000 are chasing. 63 00:02:16,000 --> 00:02:18,000 You can do the same for yourself. 64 00:02:18,000 --> 00:02:20,000 But most of it's how we don't. 65 00:02:20,000 --> 00:02:22,000 You know what I mean? 66 00:02:22,000 --> 00:02:24,000 And I wasn't always that person where I 67 00:02:24,000 --> 00:02:26,000 felt like 68 00:02:26,000 --> 00:02:28,000 I had this shit all figured out and 69 00:02:28,000 --> 00:02:30,000 I don't need no body type of shit. 70 00:02:30,000 --> 00:02:32,000 But through the years 71 00:02:32,000 --> 00:02:34,000 and just like 72 00:02:34,000 --> 00:02:36,000 growing and going through 73 00:02:36,000 --> 00:02:38,000 um 74 00:02:38,000 --> 00:02:40,000 not even bad situations 75 00:02:40,000 --> 00:02:42,000 but situations in general. 76 00:02:42,000 --> 00:02:44,000 I think one of the keys 77 00:02:44,000 --> 00:02:46,000 to me having a mindset 78 00:02:46,000 --> 00:02:48,000 that I have now is acceptance. 79 00:02:48,000 --> 00:02:50,000 You know what I mean? 80 00:02:50,000 --> 00:02:52,000 Like 81 00:02:52,000 --> 00:02:54,000 if a person show me who they are 82 00:02:54,000 --> 00:02:56,000 I believe 83 00:02:56,000 --> 00:02:58,000 them. 84 00:02:58,000 --> 00:03:00,000 In the past I would go, ah, nah man 85 00:03:00,000 --> 00:03:02,000 they only did that because 86 00:03:02,000 --> 00:03:04,000 oh they only feel this way because 87 00:03:04,000 --> 00:03:06,000 nah. 88 00:03:08,000 --> 00:03:10,000 Like my homeboy 89 00:03:10,000 --> 00:03:12,000 Ty put me up on the sand 90 00:03:12,000 --> 00:03:14,000 and it's one of the best sands I've ever heard. 91 00:03:14,000 --> 00:03:16,000 Cause it's so much depth to it even though 92 00:03:16,000 --> 00:03:18,000 like it's such a simple phrase. 93 00:03:18,000 --> 00:03:20,000 But it's true. 94 00:03:20,000 --> 00:03:22,000 The next person's 95 00:03:22,000 --> 00:03:24,000 expectations 96 00:03:24,000 --> 00:03:26,000 aren't your responsibility. 97 00:03:28,000 --> 00:03:30,000 But if he will perceive you to be 98 00:03:30,000 --> 00:03:32,000 or what they want you to be I should say 99 00:03:32,000 --> 00:03:34,000 you don't have to live up to that shit. 100 00:03:36,000 --> 00:03:38,000 You don't. 101 00:03:40,000 --> 00:03:42,000 So a person like me somebody might go, yo 102 00:03:42,000 --> 00:03:44,000 because you have access 103 00:03:44,000 --> 00:03:46,000 to this, that and the third 104 00:03:46,000 --> 00:03:48,000 yo this is what you should be doing 105 00:03:48,000 --> 00:03:50,000 according to hope. 106 00:03:50,000 --> 00:03:52,000 Well yo you know what I see for you? 107 00:03:52,000 --> 00:03:54,000 See it for yourself. 108 00:03:58,000 --> 00:04:00,000 I think I finally reached that point in life where like 109 00:04:02,000 --> 00:04:04,000 I have a firm understanding 110 00:04:04,000 --> 00:04:06,000 of who I am as an individual 111 00:04:08,000 --> 00:04:10,000 and who I am to 112 00:04:10,000 --> 00:04:12,000 the people that matter to me 113 00:04:12,000 --> 00:04:14,000 you know what I mean? 114 00:04:18,000 --> 00:04:20,000 So if I ever go above 115 00:04:20,000 --> 00:04:22,000 and beyond 116 00:04:22,000 --> 00:04:24,000 I'm not doing it because 117 00:04:24,000 --> 00:04:26,000 I feel that you feel 118 00:04:26,000 --> 00:04:28,000 I should be doing it. 119 00:04:28,000 --> 00:04:30,000 I'll go above and beyond 120 00:04:30,000 --> 00:04:32,000 if that's what my heart 121 00:04:32,000 --> 00:04:34,000 or instincts or whatever 122 00:04:34,000 --> 00:04:36,000 tell me to do. 123 00:04:36,000 --> 00:04:38,000 Go back to the isolation thing. 124 00:04:38,000 --> 00:04:42,000 It's beauty in it. 125 00:04:42,000 --> 00:04:44,000 Because 126 00:04:44,000 --> 00:04:46,000 when it's just you 127 00:04:46,000 --> 00:04:48,000 you know you'll begin to self reflect 128 00:04:48,000 --> 00:04:50,000 and then at that point you gotta have like 129 00:04:50,000 --> 00:04:52,000 honest conversations with yourself like damn 130 00:04:54,000 --> 00:04:56,000 am I a good person? 131 00:04:56,000 --> 00:04:58,000 Am I trying as hard as I could? 132 00:04:58,000 --> 00:05:00,000 Did I do as much as I could? 133 00:05:00,000 --> 00:05:02,000 And most people don't want to have those conversations 134 00:05:02,000 --> 00:05:04,000 so instead you just jump on like 135 00:05:04,000 --> 00:05:06,000 social media and some shit 136 00:05:06,000 --> 00:05:08,000 watch a funny video or 137 00:05:08,000 --> 00:05:10,000 whatever. 138 00:05:10,000 --> 00:05:12,000 You'll do any and everything 139 00:05:12,000 --> 00:05:14,000 to not have to 140 00:05:14,000 --> 00:05:16,000 you know 141 00:05:16,000 --> 00:05:18,000 face that one-on-one conversation with yourself. 142 00:05:18,000 --> 00:05:20,000 The shit I've been having these conversations 143 00:05:20,000 --> 00:05:22,000 my whole fucking life. 144 00:05:22,000 --> 00:05:24,000 And because I'm willing 145 00:05:24,000 --> 00:05:26,000 to have those conversations 146 00:05:26,000 --> 00:05:28,000 I think it gave me a certain level like 147 00:05:28,000 --> 00:05:30,000 foresight 148 00:05:30,000 --> 00:05:32,000 that I don't see most people display. 149 00:05:32,000 --> 00:05:34,000 You know what I mean? 150 00:05:34,000 --> 00:05:36,000 The type to cut my nose 151 00:05:36,000 --> 00:05:38,000 to spite my face. 152 00:05:38,000 --> 00:05:40,000 You know what I mean? 153 00:05:44,000 --> 00:05:46,000 I know you're probably thinking like 154 00:05:46,000 --> 00:05:48,000 damn why are you starting off like this? 155 00:05:48,000 --> 00:05:50,000 But 156 00:05:50,000 --> 00:05:52,000 you know recently I've been 157 00:05:52,000 --> 00:05:54,000 made aware of like certain situations 158 00:05:54,000 --> 00:05:56,000 or 159 00:05:56,000 --> 00:05:58,000 I mean obviously stuff I would never speak 160 00:05:58,000 --> 00:06:00,000 about publicly because those conversations 161 00:06:00,000 --> 00:06:02,000 were had in private. 162 00:06:02,000 --> 00:06:04,000 You gotta have 163 00:06:04,000 --> 00:06:06,000 that realization that you're enough. 164 00:06:06,000 --> 00:06:08,000 Not enough 165 00:06:08,000 --> 00:06:10,000 for the people around you but enough for you. 166 00:06:12,000 --> 00:06:14,000 And once you get a firm 167 00:06:14,000 --> 00:06:16,000 understanding of 168 00:06:16,000 --> 00:06:18,000 I'm good enough for me 169 00:06:18,000 --> 00:06:20,000 yo Skies the Leonard. 170 00:06:22,000 --> 00:06:24,000 Like I used to have a shit ton of 171 00:06:24,000 --> 00:06:26,000 self-doubt 172 00:06:26,000 --> 00:06:28,000 and 173 00:06:28,000 --> 00:06:30,000 you know 174 00:06:30,000 --> 00:06:32,000 my mama used to say 175 00:06:32,000 --> 00:06:34,000 the only thing that beats a failure 176 00:06:34,000 --> 00:06:36,000 is a try. 177 00:06:36,000 --> 00:06:38,000 Because that's one of my biggest pet peeves too. 178 00:06:38,000 --> 00:06:40,000 It's like 179 00:06:40,000 --> 00:06:42,000 when I hear a person say I can't 180 00:06:42,000 --> 00:06:44,000 before they even attempt. 181 00:06:44,000 --> 00:06:46,000 Man I can't do that. 182 00:06:46,000 --> 00:06:48,000 How do you know? 183 00:06:48,000 --> 00:06:50,000 This is another thing 184 00:06:50,000 --> 00:06:52,000 I came to this understanding that 185 00:06:52,000 --> 00:06:54,000 everybody can do 186 00:06:54,000 --> 00:06:56,000 everything. 187 00:06:56,000 --> 00:06:58,000 And I know you're thinking 188 00:06:58,000 --> 00:07:00,000 everybody can do everything 189 00:07:00,000 --> 00:07:02,000 but the caveat is 190 00:07:02,000 --> 00:07:04,000 to the degree that you can do it. 191 00:07:06,000 --> 00:07:08,000 Can I do a flip? Yeah. 192 00:07:08,000 --> 00:07:10,000 Do I flip as well as 193 00:07:10,000 --> 00:07:12,000 Olympians? 194 00:07:12,000 --> 00:07:14,000 No. 195 00:07:14,000 --> 00:07:16,000 Can I sing? Yeah. 196 00:07:16,000 --> 00:07:18,000 Do I sing as good as Miguel 197 00:07:18,000 --> 00:07:20,000 or Marvin Gaye or somebody? No. 198 00:07:22,000 --> 00:07:24,000 But I still can do it. 199 00:07:24,000 --> 00:07:26,000 Can I draw? 200 00:07:26,000 --> 00:07:28,000 Yeah. Actually I can. 201 00:07:28,000 --> 00:07:30,000 I draw very well. 202 00:07:30,000 --> 00:07:32,000 Paint, all that shit. 203 00:07:32,000 --> 00:07:34,000 But 204 00:07:34,000 --> 00:07:36,000 when my artwork be revered as 205 00:07:36,000 --> 00:07:38,000 like 206 00:07:38,000 --> 00:07:40,000 a Basquiat or 207 00:07:40,000 --> 00:07:42,000 Van Gogh, probably not. 208 00:07:42,000 --> 00:07:44,000 But I'm okay with that because that's not my goal. 209 00:07:46,000 --> 00:07:48,000 Anything that I'll find myself doing 210 00:07:48,000 --> 00:07:50,000 especially as a late 211 00:07:50,000 --> 00:07:52,000 it's not the 212 00:07:52,000 --> 00:07:54,000 it's not the go 213 00:07:54,000 --> 00:07:56,000 I can't wait for motherfuckers to hear 214 00:07:56,000 --> 00:07:58,000 they're going to be crazy with it. I'll do that shit. 215 00:07:58,000 --> 00:08:00,000 I do it for me. 216 00:08:00,000 --> 00:08:02,000 I make music as well. 217 00:08:02,000 --> 00:08:04,000 I believe I stated this before 218 00:08:04,000 --> 00:08:06,000 but even to beat this plant in the background 219 00:08:06,000 --> 00:08:08,000 I made it specifically for this park 220 00:08:08,000 --> 00:08:10,000 cause I just didn't want to have 221 00:08:10,000 --> 00:08:12,000 like just that 222 00:08:12,000 --> 00:08:14,000 dead ass silence in the background. 223 00:08:14,000 --> 00:08:16,000 So even if like I find myself trying to 224 00:08:16,000 --> 00:08:18,000 collect my thoughts on here 225 00:08:18,000 --> 00:08:20,000 it's not just this emptiness 226 00:08:20,000 --> 00:08:22,000 just 227 00:08:22,000 --> 00:08:24,000 fucking nothingness 228 00:08:24,000 --> 00:08:26,000 why I'm trying to 229 00:08:26,000 --> 00:08:28,000 gather my thought process. 230 00:08:28,000 --> 00:08:30,000 It's a little nice little boom back in the background. 231 00:08:30,000 --> 00:08:32,000 But even that 232 00:08:32,000 --> 00:08:34,000 that wasn't 233 00:08:34,000 --> 00:08:36,000 to anybody else's benefit. That was to my 234 00:08:36,000 --> 00:08:38,000 to my benefit because I wanted 235 00:08:38,000 --> 00:08:40,000 this to sound as processional as possible. 236 00:08:40,000 --> 00:08:42,000 I'm a one man operation. 237 00:08:44,000 --> 00:08:46,000 I mix, record, edit 238 00:08:46,000 --> 00:08:48,000 all that shit. I do it in house. 239 00:08:48,000 --> 00:08:50,000 But even on the music shit I write all my own music 240 00:08:50,000 --> 00:08:52,000 I make all my own beats 241 00:08:52,000 --> 00:08:54,000 I mix, I record, I 242 00:08:54,000 --> 00:08:56,000 master them. I make the artwork 243 00:08:56,000 --> 00:08:58,000 I put it out 244 00:08:58,000 --> 00:09:00,000 and when the residuals 245 00:09:00,000 --> 00:09:02,000 come back 246 00:09:02,000 --> 00:09:04,000 I split it with myself 247 00:09:04,000 --> 00:09:06,000 which is a beautiful thing. 248 00:09:08,000 --> 00:09:10,000 But long story short and I feel like I took 249 00:09:10,000 --> 00:09:12,000 up one third of this podcast 250 00:09:12,000 --> 00:09:14,000 and probably felt like I wasn't talking about 251 00:09:14,000 --> 00:09:16,000 much but if you go back there's some jewels in there 252 00:09:16,000 --> 00:09:18,000 if you willing to decipher. 253 00:09:18,000 --> 00:09:20,000 But to anybody with us 254 00:09:20,000 --> 00:09:22,000 everybody 255 00:09:22,000 --> 00:09:24,000 claim they love themselves. 256 00:09:24,000 --> 00:09:26,000 So instead of being your own worst enemy 257 00:09:26,000 --> 00:09:28,000 learn how to be your best friend 258 00:09:28,000 --> 00:09:30,000 your own best friend I should say. 259 00:09:34,000 --> 00:09:36,000 But oh and this is some cool shit I did. 260 00:09:36,000 --> 00:09:38,000 So 261 00:09:38,000 --> 00:09:40,000 this past Saturday 262 00:09:40,000 --> 00:09:42,000 I went to this like 263 00:09:42,000 --> 00:09:44,000 candlelight concert 264 00:09:44,000 --> 00:09:46,000 and 265 00:09:46,000 --> 00:09:48,000 I 266 00:09:48,000 --> 00:09:50,000 don't recall 267 00:09:50,000 --> 00:09:52,000 the place that I went to. 268 00:09:52,000 --> 00:09:54,000 I can't remember the name of the place. 269 00:09:54,000 --> 00:09:56,000 But it was nice. It's like the 270 00:09:56,000 --> 00:09:58,000 theedral type of 271 00:09:58,000 --> 00:10:00,000 setting. You could tell that 272 00:10:00,000 --> 00:10:02,000 the structure was built in like 273 00:10:02,000 --> 00:10:04,000 the late 1800s maybe. 274 00:10:04,000 --> 00:10:06,000 Like from the stone 275 00:10:06,000 --> 00:10:08,000 and the handcuffs 276 00:10:08,000 --> 00:10:10,000 but anyway. So the stage 277 00:10:10,000 --> 00:10:12,000 was probably about 278 00:10:12,000 --> 00:10:14,000 I don't know maybe a thousand candles 279 00:10:14,000 --> 00:10:16,000 but it was a big exaggeration. 280 00:10:16,000 --> 00:10:18,000 And they had this 281 00:10:18,000 --> 00:10:20,000 like a string 282 00:10:20,000 --> 00:10:22,000 like 283 00:10:22,000 --> 00:10:24,000 quartet 284 00:10:24,000 --> 00:10:26,000 it was a violin 285 00:10:26,000 --> 00:10:28,000 cello 286 00:10:28,000 --> 00:10:30,000 I can't remember the other 287 00:10:30,000 --> 00:10:32,000 string instruments they used. 288 00:10:32,000 --> 00:10:34,000 But they were doing 289 00:10:34,000 --> 00:10:36,000 like a dedication to like Neo Soul music. 290 00:10:38,000 --> 00:10:40,000 When I tell you 291 00:10:40,000 --> 00:10:42,000 it was absolutely amazing. 292 00:10:42,000 --> 00:10:44,000 The artistry 293 00:10:44,000 --> 00:10:46,000 like just 294 00:10:46,000 --> 00:10:48,000 that level was skilled 295 00:10:48,000 --> 00:10:50,000 to me as like genius. Where you have like 296 00:10:52,000 --> 00:10:54,000 two of the members might play 297 00:10:54,000 --> 00:10:56,000 the melody 298 00:10:56,000 --> 00:10:58,000 for whatever Neo Soul song 299 00:10:58,000 --> 00:11:00,000 they're doing a cover of 300 00:11:00,000 --> 00:11:02,000 and then the other two 301 00:11:02,000 --> 00:11:04,000 would like use the strings to almost 302 00:11:04,000 --> 00:11:06,000 like 303 00:11:06,000 --> 00:11:08,000 make the lyrics. 304 00:11:08,000 --> 00:11:12,000 It probably sounds confusing how I'm explaining it but 305 00:11:12,000 --> 00:11:14,000 it was one of the most motivating 306 00:11:14,000 --> 00:11:16,000 slash mind-blowing things 307 00:11:16,000 --> 00:11:18,000 I've seen. 308 00:11:18,000 --> 00:11:20,000 Because 309 00:11:20,000 --> 00:11:22,000 it wasn't a whole band, it wasn't a whole symphony 310 00:11:22,000 --> 00:11:24,000 it was just these four people 311 00:11:24,000 --> 00:11:26,000 and they made every single song 312 00:11:26,000 --> 00:11:28,000 come to life. 313 00:11:28,000 --> 00:11:30,000 Like where you know 314 00:11:30,000 --> 00:11:32,000 it's a setting where you're supposed to just 315 00:11:32,000 --> 00:11:34,000 you know be quiet and enjoy the music 316 00:11:34,000 --> 00:11:36,000 but they were playing so well 317 00:11:36,000 --> 00:11:38,000 that mom fuckers just started like singing along with it. 318 00:11:38,000 --> 00:11:40,000 Cause it was 319 00:11:40,000 --> 00:11:42,000 you know it couldn't help it. 320 00:11:42,000 --> 00:11:44,000 Music was speaking to everybody in there 321 00:11:44,000 --> 00:11:46,000 and it was a 322 00:11:46,000 --> 00:11:48,000 it was a nice event man 323 00:11:48,000 --> 00:11:50,000 I can't lie. 324 00:11:50,000 --> 00:11:52,000 Everybody there looked nice 325 00:11:52,000 --> 00:11:54,000 you know what I mean everybody kind of got like dressed up 326 00:11:54,000 --> 00:11:56,000 and shit it was cool. Your boy 327 00:11:56,000 --> 00:11:58,000 stepped out you know what I mean a little sweet 328 00:11:58,000 --> 00:12:00,000 jacky little black turd not kind of neat 329 00:12:00,000 --> 00:12:02,000 but black shiny shit 330 00:12:02,000 --> 00:12:04,000 but that's no here there I get that 331 00:12:04,000 --> 00:12:06,000 but FYI 332 00:12:06,000 --> 00:12:08,000 but that was a cool thing 333 00:12:08,000 --> 00:12:10,000 and it made me feel motivated and 334 00:12:10,000 --> 00:12:12,000 leaving from there 335 00:12:12,000 --> 00:12:14,000 it really like made me start to think like 336 00:12:14,000 --> 00:12:16,000 you know Baltimore has 337 00:12:16,000 --> 00:12:18,000 its reputation for 338 00:12:18,000 --> 00:12:20,000 you know obvious shit 339 00:12:20,000 --> 00:12:22,000 but it's so much more 340 00:12:22,000 --> 00:12:24,000 to the city 341 00:12:24,000 --> 00:12:26,000 and that was just like a small 342 00:12:26,000 --> 00:12:28,000 a minute 343 00:12:28,000 --> 00:12:30,000 just both secular 344 00:12:30,000 --> 00:12:32,000 part of like the city where 345 00:12:32,000 --> 00:12:34,000 you know 346 00:12:34,000 --> 00:12:36,000 you wouldn't even think we would have that type of shit 347 00:12:36,000 --> 00:12:38,000 but we do 348 00:12:38,000 --> 00:12:40,000 so that's kind of my goal for like 2025 349 00:12:40,000 --> 00:12:42,000 is 350 00:12:42,000 --> 00:12:44,000 I don't want to say every weekend 351 00:12:44,000 --> 00:12:46,000 because that's a hard schedule 352 00:12:46,000 --> 00:12:48,000 to keep up with but I'm going to try 353 00:12:48,000 --> 00:12:50,000 at the very least once a month to just 354 00:12:50,000 --> 00:12:52,000 try to experience just some 355 00:12:52,000 --> 00:12:54,000 cool shit 356 00:12:54,000 --> 00:12:56,000 you know what I mean 357 00:12:56,000 --> 00:12:58,000 and cool is subjective because I'm a fucking nerd 358 00:12:58,000 --> 00:13:00,000 so cool for 359 00:13:00,000 --> 00:13:02,000 me might be 360 00:13:02,000 --> 00:13:04,000 going to a magic shop and watching the motherfuckers 361 00:13:04,000 --> 00:13:06,000 do slight a hand for like 30 minutes 362 00:13:06,000 --> 00:13:08,000 that's cool to me 363 00:13:08,000 --> 00:13:10,000 like I enjoy like 364 00:13:10,000 --> 00:13:12,000 escape rooms and shit like 365 00:13:12,000 --> 00:13:14,000 that shit is fun 366 00:13:14,000 --> 00:13:16,000 I think I like that type of shit in general 367 00:13:16,000 --> 00:13:18,000 like you know I might play 368 00:13:18,000 --> 00:13:20,000 the video game here and there but outside of playing like sports games and shit 369 00:13:20,000 --> 00:13:22,000 like I'm not really 370 00:13:24,000 --> 00:13:26,000 I mean Call of Duty and shit is cool 371 00:13:26,000 --> 00:13:28,000 but I'm more of a resident 372 00:13:28,000 --> 00:13:30,000 Zeevu, Silent Hill type of guy 373 00:13:30,000 --> 00:13:32,000 one because I enjoy like the horror type of genre 374 00:13:32,000 --> 00:13:34,000 but two 375 00:13:34,000 --> 00:13:36,000 I like solving puzzles 376 00:13:36,000 --> 00:13:38,000 you know what I mean like 377 00:13:38,000 --> 00:13:40,000 for example I'm flying back 378 00:13:40,000 --> 00:13:42,000 from 379 00:13:42,000 --> 00:13:44,000 California no I was flying back 380 00:13:44,000 --> 00:13:46,000 from Texas to Baltimore 381 00:13:46,000 --> 00:13:48,000 and you know 382 00:13:48,000 --> 00:13:50,000 before my flight you know you go into 383 00:13:50,000 --> 00:13:52,000 like the little gift shop type of shit 384 00:13:52,000 --> 00:13:54,000 at the airport 385 00:13:54,000 --> 00:13:56,000 so I get something to drink for the flight 386 00:13:56,000 --> 00:13:58,000 I get you know 387 00:13:58,000 --> 00:14:00,000 chips and snacks whatever I got 388 00:14:00,000 --> 00:14:02,000 but then I noticed they had a Rubik's Cube 389 00:14:02,000 --> 00:14:04,000 you know and obviously I know what a Rubik's Cube is 390 00:14:04,000 --> 00:14:06,000 I've been seeing them all my life but I've never tried 391 00:14:06,000 --> 00:14:08,000 so I just buy one 392 00:14:08,000 --> 00:14:10,000 I sit on the plane 393 00:14:10,000 --> 00:14:12,000 put my earbuds in and listen to music 394 00:14:12,000 --> 00:14:14,000 I'm just looking at this Rubik's Cube 395 00:14:14,000 --> 00:14:16,000 and I'm just like analyzing 396 00:14:16,000 --> 00:14:18,000 and the more that I looked at it like 397 00:14:18,000 --> 00:14:20,000 I figured out like 398 00:14:22,000 --> 00:14:24,000 it's a math equation 399 00:14:24,000 --> 00:14:26,000 you know what I mean like that three times 400 00:14:26,000 --> 00:14:28,000 three times three and with it being cubed 401 00:14:28,000 --> 00:14:30,000 if you know there's something squared 402 00:14:30,000 --> 00:14:32,000 cubed second power third power 403 00:14:32,000 --> 00:14:34,000 it's a math equation 404 00:14:34,000 --> 00:14:36,000 and like 405 00:14:36,000 --> 00:14:38,000 I bullshit you not 406 00:14:38,000 --> 00:14:40,000 my flight was probably only like 407 00:14:40,000 --> 00:14:42,000 three hours 408 00:14:42,000 --> 00:14:44,000 within 409 00:14:44,000 --> 00:14:46,000 maybe the first hour 410 00:14:46,000 --> 00:14:48,000 I figured it out 411 00:14:48,000 --> 00:14:50,000 so 412 00:14:50,000 --> 00:14:52,000 based on like 413 00:14:52,000 --> 00:14:54,000 patterns or whatever 414 00:14:54,000 --> 00:14:56,000 like there's certain 415 00:14:58,000 --> 00:15:00,000 algorithms 416 00:15:00,000 --> 00:15:02,000 and then once you figure out the algorithms 417 00:15:02,000 --> 00:15:04,000 and it's how you solve it 418 00:15:04,000 --> 00:15:06,000 people try to solve it side by side 419 00:15:06,000 --> 00:15:08,000 that's not how it works 420 00:15:08,000 --> 00:15:10,000 you gotta solve it in less 421 00:15:10,000 --> 00:15:12,000 top layer 422 00:15:12,000 --> 00:15:14,000 first layer 423 00:15:14,000 --> 00:15:16,000 middle layer 424 00:15:16,000 --> 00:15:18,000 flip it then that top layer 425 00:15:18,000 --> 00:15:20,000 which would be 426 00:15:20,000 --> 00:15:22,000 opposite to the initial 427 00:15:22,000 --> 00:15:24,000 top layer that you solve 428 00:15:24,000 --> 00:15:26,000 then the corners then the center 429 00:15:26,000 --> 00:15:28,000 and I figured that shit out in an hour 430 00:15:30,000 --> 00:15:32,000 so 431 00:15:32,000 --> 00:15:34,000 recently I got like the full box full of Rubik's Cube 432 00:15:34,000 --> 00:15:36,000 and 433 00:15:36,000 --> 00:15:38,000 I'm still in the process of like trying to figure it out 434 00:15:38,000 --> 00:15:40,000 but at the same time I haven't really had time to sit down 435 00:15:40,000 --> 00:15:42,000 with it to try to figure out 436 00:15:42,000 --> 00:15:44,000 the algorithms for that because all of them 437 00:15:44,000 --> 00:15:46,000 is just all algorithm 438 00:15:46,000 --> 00:15:48,000 but 439 00:15:50,000 --> 00:15:52,000 I like shit like that 440 00:15:52,000 --> 00:15:54,000 but most people like man that shit is like 441 00:15:56,000 --> 00:15:58,000 oh so I was over 442 00:15:58,000 --> 00:16:00,000 my sister house and 443 00:16:00,000 --> 00:16:02,000 she's like remodeling her basement or whatever 444 00:16:02,000 --> 00:16:04,000 so I was coming over there like to give a hand with that 445 00:16:04,000 --> 00:16:06,000 so we're going through like some old boxes and shit 446 00:16:10,000 --> 00:16:12,000 and found like an old 447 00:16:12,000 --> 00:16:14,000 blockbuster video membership card 448 00:16:14,000 --> 00:16:16,000 and it's still like 449 00:16:16,000 --> 00:16:18,000 laminated the corners on pill 450 00:16:18,000 --> 00:16:20,000 it looks like it just got printed like the other day 451 00:16:20,000 --> 00:16:22,000 and 452 00:16:22,000 --> 00:16:24,000 she was going to tell us that I was like can I have this 453 00:16:24,000 --> 00:16:26,000 and she was like yeah 454 00:16:26,000 --> 00:16:28,000 why do you want it I was like 455 00:16:28,000 --> 00:16:30,000 I don't even know but I know that I want it 456 00:16:32,000 --> 00:16:34,000 so she's like yeah take it as you want it 457 00:16:34,000 --> 00:16:36,000 and I was fucking 458 00:16:36,000 --> 00:16:38,000 ecstatic 459 00:16:38,000 --> 00:16:40,000 so something like that like that type of shit 460 00:16:40,000 --> 00:16:42,000 like it excites me 461 00:16:42,000 --> 00:16:44,000 and I can't even really tell you why 462 00:16:44,000 --> 00:16:46,000 maybe 463 00:16:46,000 --> 00:16:48,000 subconsciously like I'm trying to like 464 00:16:48,000 --> 00:16:50,000 live my childhood 465 00:16:50,000 --> 00:16:52,000 searching for a certain level like nostalgia 466 00:16:52,000 --> 00:16:54,000 but 467 00:16:54,000 --> 00:16:56,000 I don't know seeing a blockbuster card 468 00:16:56,000 --> 00:16:58,000 got me fucking excited 469 00:17:00,000 --> 00:17:02,000 I would have you know what I mean like 470 00:17:02,000 --> 00:17:04,000 if I found like a $10 bill I'm like oh that's cool 471 00:17:04,000 --> 00:17:06,000 holy shit a blockbuster card 472 00:17:06,000 --> 00:17:08,000 you know what I mean like I'm that guy 473 00:17:08,000 --> 00:17:10,000 but like I like to go to like 474 00:17:10,000 --> 00:17:12,000 flea markets and like thrift stores and shit 475 00:17:12,000 --> 00:17:14,000 and it'll be like some random ass shit 476 00:17:14,000 --> 00:17:16,000 like 477 00:17:16,000 --> 00:17:18,000 it might be like yo this is my 478 00:17:18,000 --> 00:17:20,000 bottle cap collection from the shifters 479 00:17:20,000 --> 00:17:22,000 I don't know shit about 480 00:17:22,000 --> 00:17:24,000 bottle caps and all that shit but I go 481 00:17:24,000 --> 00:17:26,000 it looks cool 482 00:17:26,000 --> 00:17:28,000 I'm gonna purchase that 483 00:17:28,000 --> 00:17:30,000 but I'm not a hoarder I'm not that guy 484 00:17:30,000 --> 00:17:32,000 I actually like 485 00:17:32,000 --> 00:17:34,000 it's always like 486 00:17:34,000 --> 00:17:36,000 you know design elements 487 00:17:36,000 --> 00:17:38,000 like I like a clean 488 00:17:38,000 --> 00:17:40,000 modern look like I like clean lines 489 00:17:40,000 --> 00:17:42,000 or like open spaces I don't like shit 490 00:17:42,000 --> 00:17:44,000 to be overcrowded 491 00:17:44,000 --> 00:17:46,000 except for like my studio like 492 00:17:46,000 --> 00:17:48,000 I put everything in here fucking 493 00:17:48,000 --> 00:17:50,000 uh 494 00:17:50,000 --> 00:17:52,000 movie quality chucky doll 495 00:17:52,000 --> 00:17:54,000 fucking screen mask 496 00:17:54,000 --> 00:17:56,000 sneakers comic books 497 00:17:56,000 --> 00:17:58,000 posters fucking random 498 00:17:58,000 --> 00:18:00,000 knickknacks fucking 499 00:18:00,000 --> 00:18:02,000 action figures that I keep in the plastic 500 00:18:04,000 --> 00:18:06,000 I remember one time 501 00:18:06,000 --> 00:18:08,000 kids over at 502 00:18:08,000 --> 00:18:10,000 my house once and 503 00:18:10,000 --> 00:18:12,000 I forgot what action figure was 504 00:18:12,000 --> 00:18:14,000 that they saw but they was like can I open this 505 00:18:14,000 --> 00:18:16,000 I was like no please don't 506 00:18:16,000 --> 00:18:18,000 like I don't even know if that shit has any values 507 00:18:18,000 --> 00:18:20,000 to it but 508 00:18:20,000 --> 00:18:22,000 it's in the plastic it looks pristine so 509 00:18:22,000 --> 00:18:24,000 I want to keep it that way 510 00:18:24,000 --> 00:18:26,000 it's so crazy like 511 00:18:26,000 --> 00:18:28,000 as kids 512 00:18:28,000 --> 00:18:30,000 everybody was in such a rush to grow up 513 00:18:30,000 --> 00:18:32,000 and now that we older everybody's like 514 00:18:32,000 --> 00:18:34,000 damn man I missed the old days 515 00:18:34,000 --> 00:18:36,000 why did we do that 516 00:18:36,000 --> 00:18:38,000 when you young you want to be old 517 00:18:38,000 --> 00:18:40,000 once you get old you want to be young 518 00:18:42,000 --> 00:18:44,000 I wonder why I wonder 519 00:18:44,000 --> 00:18:46,000 why we like that as like people 520 00:18:48,000 --> 00:18:50,000 and in summertime it's like man it's too fucking 521 00:18:50,000 --> 00:18:52,000 hot man I can't wait for it to get cold 522 00:18:52,000 --> 00:18:54,000 you know what I mean 523 00:18:54,000 --> 00:18:56,000 then the second that it's cold it's just like fuck it's cold 524 00:18:56,000 --> 00:18:58,000 man I can't wait for it to get hot 525 00:18:58,000 --> 00:19:00,000 like yo niggas never said it's hot 526 00:19:00,000 --> 00:19:02,000 but 527 00:19:02,000 --> 00:19:04,000 that reminds me 528 00:19:04,000 --> 00:19:06,000 of this like there's a song from 529 00:19:06,000 --> 00:19:08,000 I think the 1910s 530 00:19:08,000 --> 00:19:10,000 or the 1920s 531 00:19:10,000 --> 00:19:12,000 and I should do 532 00:19:12,000 --> 00:19:14,000 better with like research but like I said this 533 00:19:14,000 --> 00:19:16,000 should be off the top scatterbring shit 534 00:19:16,000 --> 00:19:18,000 I'll write when we think of some shit 535 00:19:18,000 --> 00:19:20,000 don't remember I mean don't 536 00:19:20,000 --> 00:19:22,000 prep for it because I had no intentions 537 00:19:22,000 --> 00:19:24,000 of having this conversation I'm just sitting here 538 00:19:24,000 --> 00:19:26,000 sitting in my studio 539 00:19:26,000 --> 00:19:28,000 just speak to my mind 540 00:19:28,000 --> 00:19:30,000 but it was a song from 541 00:19:30,000 --> 00:19:32,000 the 1910s 542 00:19:32,000 --> 00:19:34,000 or the 1920s and the song is called 543 00:19:34,000 --> 00:19:36,000 after you get what you want 544 00:19:36,000 --> 00:19:38,000 you don't want it 545 00:19:38,000 --> 00:19:40,000 yo that song is incredible 546 00:19:40,000 --> 00:19:42,000 and it's this woman talking to this dude 547 00:19:42,000 --> 00:19:44,000 is the way the song goes 548 00:19:44,000 --> 00:19:46,000 and she goes uh 549 00:19:46,000 --> 00:19:48,000 after you get what you want 550 00:19:48,000 --> 00:19:50,000 you don't want it if I gave you the moon 551 00:19:50,000 --> 00:19:52,000 you will grow tired of it soon 552 00:19:52,000 --> 00:19:54,000 and although I sit upon your knee 553 00:19:54,000 --> 00:19:56,000 you'll grow tired of me 554 00:19:56,000 --> 00:19:58,000 because after 555 00:19:58,000 --> 00:20:00,000 you get what you want 556 00:20:00,000 --> 00:20:02,000 you don't want what you wanted at all 557 00:20:02,000 --> 00:20:04,000 and like 558 00:20:04,000 --> 00:20:06,000 I mean that's simple lyrics but it's not 559 00:20:06,000 --> 00:20:08,000 especially for like 560 00:20:08,000 --> 00:20:10,000 I guess that time frame 561 00:20:10,000 --> 00:20:12,000 where like you know females 562 00:20:12,000 --> 00:20:14,000 opinions was held in like high regards 563 00:20:14,000 --> 00:20:16,000 they didn't even have the ability to vote 564 00:20:16,000 --> 00:20:18,000 but you know 565 00:20:18,000 --> 00:20:20,000 to write those type of lyrics 566 00:20:20,000 --> 00:20:22,000 like that shows a deep 567 00:20:22,000 --> 00:20:24,000 level of understanding like 568 00:20:24,000 --> 00:20:26,000 you know what I mean 569 00:20:26,000 --> 00:20:28,000 but I don't know 570 00:20:28,000 --> 00:20:30,000 I only brought that up because I previously brought up 571 00:20:30,000 --> 00:20:32,000 the when it's hot 572 00:20:32,000 --> 00:20:34,000 we wanted cold and vice versa and all that type of shit 573 00:20:36,000 --> 00:20:38,000 but even to speak to that 574 00:20:38,000 --> 00:20:40,000 like even though those are like 575 00:20:40,000 --> 00:20:42,000 ideals that like oppose each other 576 00:20:42,000 --> 00:20:44,000 I might have mentioned this shit before too 577 00:20:44,000 --> 00:20:46,000 but I think 578 00:20:46,000 --> 00:20:48,000 one of the best things about life is like 579 00:20:48,000 --> 00:20:50,000 duality 580 00:20:50,000 --> 00:20:52,000 and I can't even say best but I understand 581 00:20:52,000 --> 00:20:54,000 it's level of importance 582 00:20:54,000 --> 00:20:56,000 and the necessity for it 583 00:20:56,000 --> 00:20:58,000 you know what I mean 584 00:20:58,000 --> 00:21:00,000 like if it always 585 00:21:00,000 --> 00:21:02,000 was sunny you would beg 586 00:21:02,000 --> 00:21:04,000 for rain but if it always 587 00:21:04,000 --> 00:21:06,000 rain you like damn I can't wait for the sun 588 00:21:06,000 --> 00:21:08,000 to come out because they balance each other out 589 00:21:08,000 --> 00:21:10,000 you know what I mean 590 00:21:10,000 --> 00:21:12,000 you appreciate the sunny days because you know what a thunderstorm 591 00:21:12,000 --> 00:21:14,000 looked like 592 00:21:14,000 --> 00:21:16,000 you appreciate a thunderstorm because you know what a heat wave 593 00:21:16,000 --> 00:21:18,000 feel like 594 00:21:18,000 --> 00:21:20,000 they both play their roles 595 00:21:20,000 --> 00:21:22,000 it's that yang and yang type 596 00:21:22,000 --> 00:21:24,000 you need that balance 597 00:21:24,000 --> 00:21:26,000 universally 598 00:21:26,000 --> 00:21:28,000 you know what I mean 599 00:21:28,000 --> 00:21:30,000 it's just simple shit like that 600 00:21:30,000 --> 00:21:32,000 you know I now 601 00:21:32,000 --> 00:21:34,000 that I'm older 602 00:21:34,000 --> 00:21:36,000 I sit back and I think damn I never 603 00:21:36,000 --> 00:21:38,000 thought about it like that 604 00:21:38,000 --> 00:21:40,000 you know what I mean 605 00:21:40,000 --> 00:21:42,000 or like you ever heard of 606 00:21:42,000 --> 00:21:44,000 saying 607 00:21:44,000 --> 00:21:46,000 too much 608 00:21:46,000 --> 00:21:48,000 if anything is bad 609 00:21:48,000 --> 00:21:50,000 sure because it's balancing 610 00:21:50,000 --> 00:21:52,000 like let's say 611 00:21:52,000 --> 00:21:54,000 you might think going to the club is fun 612 00:21:54,000 --> 00:21:56,000 and I'm sure it is 613 00:21:56,000 --> 00:21:58,000 but if you had to go to the club 614 00:21:58,000 --> 00:22:00,000 every single day for a month straight 615 00:22:00,000 --> 00:22:02,000 you would fucking hate the club 616 00:22:04,000 --> 00:22:06,000 you know what I mean 617 00:22:06,000 --> 00:22:08,000 so even though it's a good thing too much of it 618 00:22:08,000 --> 00:22:10,000 it's bad like perfect example 619 00:22:10,000 --> 00:22:12,000 I was watching this 620 00:22:12,000 --> 00:22:14,000 this dietician 621 00:22:14,000 --> 00:22:16,000 and he was saying like yo 622 00:22:16,000 --> 00:22:18,000 the key to losing weight 623 00:22:18,000 --> 00:22:20,000 or maintaining weight isn't the foods that you eat 624 00:22:20,000 --> 00:22:22,000 regardless of the ingredients 625 00:22:22,000 --> 00:22:24,000 it's the amount 626 00:22:24,000 --> 00:22:26,000 of the food that you eat 627 00:22:26,000 --> 00:22:28,000 so 628 00:22:28,000 --> 00:22:30,000 I mean I can clarify that better 629 00:22:30,000 --> 00:22:32,000 so 630 00:22:32,000 --> 00:22:34,000 I could eat 631 00:22:34,000 --> 00:22:36,000 the same amount of orioles 632 00:22:36,000 --> 00:22:38,000 and calories as I could 633 00:22:38,000 --> 00:22:40,000 and vegetables 634 00:22:40,000 --> 00:22:42,000 and maintain or lose weight 635 00:22:42,000 --> 00:22:44,000 but the thing is the amount so like 636 00:22:44,000 --> 00:22:46,000 let's say 3 orioles is like 637 00:22:46,000 --> 00:22:48,000 I don't fucking know 638 00:22:48,000 --> 00:22:50,000 500 calories 639 00:22:50,000 --> 00:22:52,000 you eat those 3 orioles 640 00:22:52,000 --> 00:22:54,000 you're still going to be hungry and it's going to make you want to eat 641 00:22:54,000 --> 00:22:56,000 3 more orioles type of shit 642 00:22:56,000 --> 00:22:58,000 you're still going to be hungry 643 00:22:58,000 --> 00:23:00,000 as opposed to 500 calories worth of vegetables 644 00:23:00,000 --> 00:23:02,000 might be 645 00:23:02,000 --> 00:23:04,000 fucking plate and a half 646 00:23:04,000 --> 00:23:06,000 so you'll actually get full 647 00:23:06,000 --> 00:23:08,000 so he purposely gain weight 648 00:23:08,000 --> 00:23:10,000 like he gained like 649 00:23:10,000 --> 00:23:12,000 fucking like 50 pounds 650 00:23:12,000 --> 00:23:14,000 over the span of like 3 months 651 00:23:14,000 --> 00:23:16,000 and some shit like that 652 00:23:16,000 --> 00:23:18,000 and then he started a diet of 653 00:23:18,000 --> 00:23:20,000 fast food 654 00:23:20,000 --> 00:23:22,000 snacks and soda and shit 655 00:23:22,000 --> 00:23:24,000 and lost all 656 00:23:24,000 --> 00:23:26,000 he lost the entire 50 he gained 657 00:23:26,000 --> 00:23:28,000 and an additional like 10 658 00:23:28,000 --> 00:23:30,000 and like but 659 00:23:30,000 --> 00:23:32,000 so he would go to McDonald's 660 00:23:32,000 --> 00:23:34,000 he would cut like a triangle shaped 661 00:23:34,000 --> 00:23:36,000 size out of the fucking 662 00:23:36,000 --> 00:23:38,000 out of his burger 663 00:23:38,000 --> 00:23:40,000 or whatever 664 00:23:40,000 --> 00:23:42,000 like 5 665 00:23:42,000 --> 00:23:44,000 like 4 or 5 french fries but he could only have 666 00:23:44,000 --> 00:23:46,000 like 4 sips of the soda 667 00:23:48,000 --> 00:23:50,000 so he reached like his calorie 668 00:23:50,000 --> 00:23:52,000 intake I guess whatever the maximum 669 00:23:52,000 --> 00:23:54,000 was for that meal 670 00:23:54,000 --> 00:23:56,000 but he was fucking hungry all the time 671 00:23:58,000 --> 00:24:00,000 but so when he go 672 00:24:00,000 --> 00:24:02,000 too much of anything is bad so yeah 673 00:24:02,000 --> 00:24:04,000 you can have soda chips all that shit 674 00:24:04,000 --> 00:24:06,000 but too much of it is bad 675 00:24:06,000 --> 00:24:08,000 you know what I mean 676 00:24:08,000 --> 00:24:10,000 so on the flip side of that let's say 677 00:24:10,000 --> 00:24:12,000 oh I want to be super healthy I'm only going to drink water 678 00:24:12,000 --> 00:24:14,000 there's a limitation of that too 679 00:24:14,000 --> 00:24:16,000 I watched the shit where like 680 00:24:16,000 --> 00:24:18,000 the zoo was like yo the only 681 00:24:18,000 --> 00:24:20,000 liquid I'll consume is 682 00:24:20,000 --> 00:24:22,000 like water but he would start 683 00:24:22,000 --> 00:24:24,000 drinking too much water in contrast 684 00:24:24,000 --> 00:24:26,000 of his body weight and damn they killed 685 00:24:26,000 --> 00:24:28,000 himself he was like 686 00:24:28,000 --> 00:24:30,000 slutting his organs 687 00:24:30,000 --> 00:24:32,000 so as important as water is 688 00:24:32,000 --> 00:24:34,000 and as sensual as it is 689 00:24:34,000 --> 00:24:36,000 and it's healthy and it's clean and it's 690 00:24:36,000 --> 00:24:38,000 like too much of that shit 691 00:24:38,000 --> 00:24:40,000 to kill you 692 00:24:40,000 --> 00:24:42,000 that's funny too much 693 00:24:42,000 --> 00:24:44,000 of something to kill you not enough of something 694 00:24:44,000 --> 00:24:46,000 to kill you if you drink too much water 695 00:24:46,000 --> 00:24:48,000 you could die if you don't drink enough water 696 00:24:48,000 --> 00:24:50,000 you could die it's back 697 00:24:50,000 --> 00:24:52,000 to the duality it's back to the 698 00:24:52,000 --> 00:24:54,000 balancing act 699 00:24:54,000 --> 00:24:56,000 which make me think like 700 00:24:56,000 --> 00:24:58,000 that makes me think 701 00:24:58,000 --> 00:25:00,000 about the universe like you know 702 00:25:00,000 --> 00:25:02,000 like even with like the moon and the sun 703 00:25:02,000 --> 00:25:04,000 and earth on this axis 704 00:25:04,000 --> 00:25:06,000 like there's a gravitational 705 00:25:06,000 --> 00:25:08,000 pull between both that keeps us in balance 706 00:25:08,000 --> 00:25:10,000 which makes us rotate 707 00:25:10,000 --> 00:25:12,000 if the moon was to drift away 708 00:25:12,000 --> 00:25:14,000 or if we got off our axis 709 00:25:14,000 --> 00:25:16,000 and drifted away like 710 00:25:16,000 --> 00:25:18,000 we need both 711 00:25:18,000 --> 00:25:20,000 if not like we would 712 00:25:20,000 --> 00:25:22,000 fucking even drift towards the sun and burn up 713 00:25:22,000 --> 00:25:24,000 or we would drift away from the sun 714 00:25:24,000 --> 00:25:26,000 and we would freeze like 715 00:25:28,000 --> 00:25:30,000 our planet is in like 716 00:25:30,000 --> 00:25:32,000 perfect balance so it's like 717 00:25:32,000 --> 00:25:34,000 the axis that it sits on 718 00:25:38,000 --> 00:25:40,000 I don't think y'all get what I'm saying 719 00:25:40,000 --> 00:25:42,000 it's so weird 720 00:25:42,000 --> 00:25:44,000 shit like that as far as the 721 00:25:44,000 --> 00:25:46,000 balancing act like how the universe 722 00:25:46,000 --> 00:25:48,000 is like coded 723 00:25:48,000 --> 00:25:50,000 like 724 00:25:50,000 --> 00:25:52,000 it would seem like 725 00:25:52,000 --> 00:25:54,000 an intelligent design 726 00:25:54,000 --> 00:25:56,000 which would make you believe 727 00:25:56,000 --> 00:25:58,000 that like there's a higher power 728 00:25:58,000 --> 00:26:00,000 there's some kind of 729 00:26:00,000 --> 00:26:02,000 grand being who created everything 730 00:26:02,000 --> 00:26:04,000 and 731 00:26:04,000 --> 00:26:06,000 there may be truth to that 732 00:26:06,000 --> 00:26:08,000 and some people believe that some people build churches 733 00:26:08,000 --> 00:26:10,000 behind that movements and shit 734 00:26:10,000 --> 00:26:12,000 and then on the other side of the spectrum 735 00:26:12,000 --> 00:26:14,000 you got people that's just like 736 00:26:14,000 --> 00:26:16,000 all coincidental 737 00:26:16,000 --> 00:26:18,000 and I kind of find myself in the middle 738 00:26:20,000 --> 00:26:22,000 I don't align with anything specifically 739 00:26:22,000 --> 00:26:24,000 but at the same time 740 00:26:26,000 --> 00:26:28,000 I believe there's something greater than me 741 00:26:28,000 --> 00:26:30,000 I believe there's something that's greater than all of us 742 00:26:32,000 --> 00:26:34,000 I was a divine with 10 commandments 743 00:26:34,000 --> 00:26:36,000 and that's not for me to say 744 00:26:36,000 --> 00:26:38,000 and if I'm being honest 745 00:26:38,000 --> 00:26:40,000 I don't think it's for anybody to say 746 00:26:40,000 --> 00:26:42,000 but even with me saying that 747 00:26:42,000 --> 00:26:44,000 that's not my place to say 748 00:26:44,000 --> 00:26:46,000 so I stay in my own lane 749 00:26:46,000 --> 00:26:48,000 I don't delve too deep into like 750 00:26:48,000 --> 00:26:50,000 those type of conversations 751 00:26:50,000 --> 00:26:52,000 because people are too emotionally invested 752 00:26:52,000 --> 00:26:54,000 and that shit like wars and shit 753 00:26:54,000 --> 00:26:56,000 legit 754 00:26:56,000 --> 00:26:58,000 but you know 755 00:26:58,000 --> 00:27:00,000 friendships can end over just 756 00:27:00,000 --> 00:27:02,000 hey man 757 00:27:02,000 --> 00:27:04,000 I think it's something up there controlling all this shit 758 00:27:04,000 --> 00:27:06,000 somebody else going nah 759 00:27:06,000 --> 00:27:08,000 like that shit can divide 760 00:27:08,000 --> 00:27:10,000 families and shit 761 00:27:10,000 --> 00:27:12,000 so I tend to avoid those 762 00:27:12,000 --> 00:27:14,000 conversations unless like 763 00:27:14,000 --> 00:27:16,000 I have like a deep level of 764 00:27:16,000 --> 00:27:18,000 we have that 765 00:27:18,000 --> 00:27:20,000 that level of understanding where like 766 00:27:20,000 --> 00:27:22,000 we can have a conversation 767 00:27:22,000 --> 00:27:24,000 and you can understand that like what I'm saying 768 00:27:24,000 --> 00:27:26,000 even if it seem like it's combative 769 00:27:26,000 --> 00:27:28,000 that's true aggressive of a word 770 00:27:28,000 --> 00:27:30,000 fuck it 771 00:27:30,000 --> 00:27:32,000 I don't want to say 772 00:27:32,000 --> 00:27:34,000 combative 773 00:27:34,000 --> 00:27:36,000 if my stance is diametrically 774 00:27:36,000 --> 00:27:38,000 opposed to your stance 775 00:27:38,000 --> 00:27:40,000 it doesn't mean that we end this 776 00:27:40,000 --> 00:27:42,000 we just have different levels of understanding 777 00:27:42,000 --> 00:27:44,000 or different views 778 00:27:44,000 --> 00:27:46,000 which I think is a beautiful thing 779 00:27:46,000 --> 00:27:48,000 because if everybody was the same 780 00:27:48,000 --> 00:27:50,000 life would be fucking boring 781 00:27:50,000 --> 00:27:52,000 so embrace your individuality 782 00:27:52,000 --> 00:27:54,000 embrace isolation 783 00:27:54,000 --> 00:27:56,000 embrace growth 784 00:27:56,000 --> 00:27:58,000 don't be your own worst enemy 785 00:27:58,000 --> 00:28:00,000 be your own best friend 786 00:28:00,000 --> 00:28:02,000 so with that being said 787 00:28:02,000 --> 00:28:04,000 I was here for a good time not a long time 788 00:28:04,000 --> 00:28:06,000 if you want to follow me 789 00:28:06,000 --> 00:28:08,000 if you want to react to anything that I said today 790 00:28:08,000 --> 00:28:10,000 you can hit me up on instagram 791 00:28:10,000 --> 00:28:12,000 at QGMusic 792 00:28:12,000 --> 00:28:14,000 it's QGMU 793 00:28:14,000 --> 00:28:16,000 that's I see on instagram 794 00:28:18,000 --> 00:28:20,000 I hope everybody have a 795 00:28:20,000 --> 00:28:22,000 safe and productive week 796 00:28:22,000 --> 00:28:24,000 whatever girl you chasing I hope you get one step closer to it 797 00:28:24,000 --> 00:28:26,000 if not achieve it all together 798 00:28:28,000 --> 00:28:30,000 with that being said 799 00:28:30,000 --> 00:28:52,000 peace 800 00:29:00,000 --> 00:29:02,000 you 801 00:29:30,000 --> 00:29:32,000 you 802 00:30:00,000 --> 00:30:02,000 you 803 00:30:30,000 --> 00:30:32,000 you 804 00:31:00,000 --> 00:31:02,000 you 805 00:31:30,000 --> 00:31:32,000 you 806 00:32:00,000 --> 00:32:02,000 you