1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:01,000 Yo. 2 00:00:01,000 --> 00:00:13,920 I'd like to welcome everybody back to Brandon Repersold of the Cognitive Collage Parkhouse. 3 00:00:13,920 --> 00:00:18,940 I'm your host, Quentin Golden, but you can call me QG for short. 4 00:00:18,940 --> 00:00:23,200 And today's episode is brought to you by nobody. 5 00:00:23,200 --> 00:00:26,580 Ain't nobody sponsoring this shit. 6 00:00:26,580 --> 00:00:27,740 At least not yet. 7 00:00:27,740 --> 00:00:34,880 And I'ma be honest, whoever approached me for sponsorship, I'm gonna take that shit. 8 00:00:34,880 --> 00:00:41,760 Pampers, fucking gasoline, karate classes, I don't give a fuck. 9 00:00:41,760 --> 00:00:42,760 But I do. 10 00:00:42,760 --> 00:00:43,760 I do give a fuck. 11 00:00:43,760 --> 00:00:49,840 Like, I wouldn't, like, take a sponsorship if it, like, promoted, like, Nazi memorabilia 12 00:00:49,840 --> 00:00:50,840 or some shit. 13 00:00:50,840 --> 00:00:52,320 I'm not gonna do that. 14 00:00:52,320 --> 00:01:00,640 But Cereal, fucking, you know, Preparation H for Henry, I don't give a fuck. 15 00:01:00,640 --> 00:01:02,520 Cut the check. 16 00:01:02,520 --> 00:01:05,600 But I don't do this for money, which is the funny thing. 17 00:01:05,600 --> 00:01:12,440 I do this because, you know, if I can get personal for a second, I'm an introvert by 18 00:01:12,440 --> 00:01:13,940 nature. 19 00:01:13,940 --> 00:01:19,280 You know, I'm social in a sentence that I have to be, like, in a workplace or, you know, 20 00:01:19,280 --> 00:01:25,080 in the event of shit like that, but for the most part, like, I just say to myself, so 21 00:01:25,080 --> 00:01:30,760 if I'm in a room with you, I might not utter a fucking word for Alice. 22 00:01:30,760 --> 00:01:34,640 But if you speak to me or if you ask me a question, then, yeah, obviously I would engage 23 00:01:34,640 --> 00:01:38,760 with you, but in order for me to have, like, an in-depth conversation with you, we have 24 00:01:38,760 --> 00:01:42,280 to have some established level of rapport. 25 00:01:42,280 --> 00:01:47,320 And if we don't have that, like, I'm not the person who volunteers my personal business. 26 00:01:47,320 --> 00:01:50,920 Like, I see people do it a lot on social media. 27 00:01:50,920 --> 00:01:56,840 Like, they'll just spew extremely personal shit, and they'll just engage with total 28 00:01:56,840 --> 00:01:57,840 strangers. 29 00:01:57,840 --> 00:02:02,560 And then at some point, the strange I have are falling out, and the strangers start 30 00:02:02,560 --> 00:02:08,840 taking shots at them, and they'll be upset, but it's like, nigga, you provided a ammunition. 31 00:02:08,840 --> 00:02:17,200 I'm a strong believer in, I'm a strong believer in, you know, everything's not for everybody. 32 00:02:17,200 --> 00:02:21,960 So if I don't know you that well, I'm not going into the depth about, like, family history 33 00:02:21,960 --> 00:02:25,280 or, like, personal traumas and shit. 34 00:02:25,280 --> 00:02:30,120 And another thing that I hate, the more I think about it, is when I see people make 35 00:02:30,120 --> 00:02:36,480 posts and the post might be to somebody who's passed away or a child that's not born yet, 36 00:02:36,480 --> 00:02:41,560 but they'll write the post as if they're speaking to this person directly. 37 00:02:41,560 --> 00:02:45,360 One that did, nigga, can't read it, and one the baby ain't born yet to read it. 38 00:02:45,360 --> 00:02:48,320 They're doing it for attention. 39 00:02:48,320 --> 00:02:50,880 And I fucking hate it. 40 00:02:50,880 --> 00:02:54,080 But to each and every one, what the fuck am I going to say, don't do it? 41 00:02:54,080 --> 00:02:55,480 I personally love it. 42 00:02:55,480 --> 00:02:59,640 They just seem attention seeker to me. 43 00:02:59,640 --> 00:03:01,760 I'm not that guy. 44 00:03:01,760 --> 00:03:05,920 Which I probably should be more of, because I do music. 45 00:03:05,920 --> 00:03:11,240 And one of the biggest posts that do music in this day and age is engagement. 46 00:03:11,240 --> 00:03:17,040 Because most of these fans, like, they don't purchase the music, they purchase the personality. 47 00:03:17,040 --> 00:03:19,800 They want to feel that you're relatable. 48 00:03:19,800 --> 00:03:25,160 They want to feel like at some point y'all cross paths and you'll embrace them the way 49 00:03:25,160 --> 00:03:27,040 they embrace your art. 50 00:03:27,040 --> 00:03:31,280 But I'm not that guy for me, you know what I'm saying? 51 00:03:31,280 --> 00:03:34,040 It sounds selfish, but I write for me. 52 00:03:34,040 --> 00:03:36,520 I make shit for me. 53 00:03:36,520 --> 00:03:38,280 And I put it out into the world. 54 00:03:38,280 --> 00:03:41,160 And if you happen to like it, that's amazing. 55 00:03:41,160 --> 00:03:46,440 And if you don't, I don't have any hard feelings about it, because once I put it out into, 56 00:03:46,440 --> 00:03:52,920 you know, the public for consumption, I can't get mad at how people receive it. 57 00:03:52,920 --> 00:03:59,800 So if you love my shit, if you hate my shit, I would embrace you like equally, but you 58 00:03:59,800 --> 00:04:03,560 know, really make a difference to me. 59 00:04:03,560 --> 00:04:06,280 Oh, back to the sponsorship. 60 00:04:06,280 --> 00:04:12,640 They kind of, they kind of lead to one of the topics I want to talk about today. 61 00:04:12,640 --> 00:04:15,840 Is there a price tag on your principles? 62 00:04:15,840 --> 00:04:18,120 Can integrity be purchasing? 63 00:04:18,120 --> 00:04:24,200 You know, like, I was talking to my best friend Ty, you like my brother, like, he'll be on 64 00:04:24,200 --> 00:04:29,280 this episode or he'll be on in that episode at some point. 65 00:04:29,280 --> 00:04:33,280 But I had this conversation with him and then I had it with a few family members and a 66 00:04:33,280 --> 00:04:34,280 couple other homeboys. 67 00:04:34,280 --> 00:04:40,080 And you know, it's always those weird hypotheticals like, would you punch your baby for a billion 68 00:04:40,080 --> 00:04:41,080 dollars? 69 00:04:41,080 --> 00:04:43,080 Negative, of course outward. 70 00:04:43,080 --> 00:04:47,280 When you tell the fucking daycare, it's a billion dollars. 71 00:04:47,280 --> 00:04:52,120 And in all fairness, because the devil was in the details for me, never said how hard 72 00:04:52,120 --> 00:04:53,560 I had to punch the baby. 73 00:04:53,560 --> 00:04:59,800 But it's my fist going to touch his face for a billion dollars, 1000%. 74 00:04:59,800 --> 00:05:05,280 So I was talking to my sister about it and she was like, absolutely not. 75 00:05:05,280 --> 00:05:07,520 And you know, I was like, nigga, please. 76 00:05:07,520 --> 00:05:08,880 And she was dead ass there. 77 00:05:08,880 --> 00:05:16,160 She was like, man, I can't let anybody, you know, swindle me, not so much swindle, but 78 00:05:16,160 --> 00:05:20,240 position me to do some shit that goes against my character or my integrity. 79 00:05:20,240 --> 00:05:25,320 Like, I never want to hurt anybody, especially not if it's a dollar sign attached to it. 80 00:05:25,320 --> 00:05:27,120 So I was like, I could respect that. 81 00:05:27,120 --> 00:05:29,920 Because I could tell that she was being genuine. 82 00:05:29,920 --> 00:05:33,800 If I'm speaking for myself, I'm going to punch that baby in the face. 83 00:05:33,800 --> 00:05:40,280 Yeah, would you set an old person on fire for a trillion dollars with no consequences? 84 00:05:40,280 --> 00:05:41,680 What the fuck is my life? 85 00:05:41,680 --> 00:05:42,680 And they owe. 86 00:05:42,680 --> 00:05:46,880 They gave you 90, 95, what the fuck? 87 00:05:46,880 --> 00:05:48,520 You about to go to the NBA or some shit? 88 00:05:48,520 --> 00:05:53,920 Yeah, nigga, shit, they will probably volunteer because they know this is going to be beneficial 89 00:05:53,920 --> 00:05:58,240 to, you know, my lineage or, you know, create generational wealth. 90 00:05:58,240 --> 00:06:02,720 But I mean, I can't expect that. 91 00:06:02,720 --> 00:06:08,320 But I always, I always think about those type of things where I watch like a TV show and 92 00:06:08,320 --> 00:06:15,200 you'll have like full grown adults doing like some super immature slash embarrassing shit. 93 00:06:15,200 --> 00:06:16,200 And I'm like, I could never. 94 00:06:16,200 --> 00:06:22,440 But then they be like, oh, man, the prize man is a million dollars, but that ain't enough. 95 00:06:22,440 --> 00:06:27,880 This day and age with inflation and shit, a million ain't a million. 96 00:06:27,880 --> 00:06:29,840 Speaking of inflation. 97 00:06:29,840 --> 00:06:36,080 So on my days off or when I have free time, I like to get on YouTube and I look up Saturday 98 00:06:36,080 --> 00:06:38,840 morning cartoons with commercials. 99 00:06:38,840 --> 00:06:40,760 That's the important part. 100 00:06:40,760 --> 00:06:45,440 And I watch it as if I'm, you know, watching it from back in the day. 101 00:06:45,440 --> 00:06:50,480 So in between the in between the cartoons, you'll have like advertisements for like, 102 00:06:50,480 --> 00:06:57,920 you know, KB toy stores or like a bunch of, you know, former giants in the marketplace 103 00:06:57,920 --> 00:06:59,920 that no longer exist. 104 00:06:59,920 --> 00:07:01,960 And I'm looking at the prices of shit. 105 00:07:01,960 --> 00:07:03,360 So McDonald's commercial come on. 106 00:07:03,360 --> 00:07:07,840 I'm watching like, Bobby's World or Godfrey on Friends and watching something. 107 00:07:07,840 --> 00:07:11,280 But Bobby's World come on right after that. 108 00:07:11,280 --> 00:07:15,280 I mean, I'm sorry, the McDonald's commercial comes on after the when it goes to the commercial 109 00:07:15,280 --> 00:07:16,280 break. 110 00:07:16,280 --> 00:07:23,200 And there was some advertisement about Halloween and some shit, but the happy meals on there 111 00:07:23,200 --> 00:07:26,480 were like $3, I believe. 112 00:07:26,480 --> 00:07:31,520 And then I got to thinking like, back when my brother and I were younger, you know, we 113 00:07:31,520 --> 00:07:33,120 were asking our mom, like, Hey, can we get a happy meal? 114 00:07:33,120 --> 00:07:36,400 She go, man, we got happy meals in the house. 115 00:07:36,400 --> 00:07:38,120 And then I stopped and I thought about that shit over there. 116 00:07:38,120 --> 00:07:41,600 I was like, God damn, we getting them for $6. 117 00:07:41,600 --> 00:07:47,040 But at the same time, that's as low as the cost of living was what was so was the wage 118 00:07:47,040 --> 00:07:52,600 that people would be paid to, you know, so I'm the type of person where like, if I see 119 00:07:52,600 --> 00:07:55,960 something like I'll go down the rabbit hole and like deep dive it. 120 00:07:55,960 --> 00:08:03,360 So like now I'm Googling, you know, what was the price of things in 1995 or 94 or some 121 00:08:03,360 --> 00:08:04,360 shit like that. 122 00:08:04,360 --> 00:08:05,360 Yeah. 123 00:08:05,360 --> 00:08:07,680 A gallon of milk was like a dollar and 10 cents. 124 00:08:07,680 --> 00:08:12,480 A fucking box of like fruity pebbles, like $2. 125 00:08:12,480 --> 00:08:16,800 So realistically, that $6 could have brought us cereal and milk that we could have ate 126 00:08:16,800 --> 00:08:20,160 for at least, at least four or five days. 127 00:08:20,160 --> 00:08:24,160 Like that's breakfast covered for almost a whole week for $6. 128 00:08:24,160 --> 00:08:30,240 So I can understand her going, like, I ain't about to waste no fucking $6 on some shit 129 00:08:30,240 --> 00:08:31,680 that's probably gonna make y'all sick. 130 00:08:31,680 --> 00:08:32,680 Any fucking way. 131 00:08:32,680 --> 00:08:34,960 So I get it. 132 00:08:34,960 --> 00:08:42,840 But as I continue to dive deep dive down this rabbit hole of like nostalgia, I start thinking 133 00:08:42,840 --> 00:08:46,200 about Netflix funny enough. 134 00:08:46,200 --> 00:08:50,880 So back back in the day, you know, it's Friday, you get out of school. 135 00:08:50,880 --> 00:08:53,760 So my house and hey, man, we go order pizza tonight. 136 00:08:53,760 --> 00:08:57,600 So that's already that's already boss moves type of shit. 137 00:08:57,600 --> 00:08:58,600 So we excited about that. 138 00:08:58,600 --> 00:09:04,800 So she's like, yo, we'll go to either blockbuster or Hollywood video or whatever mom and pop 139 00:09:04,800 --> 00:09:07,960 video story we had in the area. 140 00:09:07,960 --> 00:09:11,440 So the way she would do it, she would rent five movies because I think like you could 141 00:09:11,440 --> 00:09:14,960 rent like five movies for like $10 or some shit. 142 00:09:14,960 --> 00:09:15,960 I'm not sure. 143 00:09:15,960 --> 00:09:19,080 But she will allow my brother to pick a movie of his choice. 144 00:09:19,080 --> 00:09:20,880 I could pick a movie of my choice. 145 00:09:20,880 --> 00:09:22,840 And then she would pick that with three. 146 00:09:22,840 --> 00:09:30,200 So as you guys continue to listen to the show, like you'll learn that I'm super into like 147 00:09:30,200 --> 00:09:33,880 the paranormal ghost and all that shit. 148 00:09:33,880 --> 00:09:35,640 Like it just intrigues me. 149 00:09:35,640 --> 00:09:40,840 I think it's the fact that it's so much unknown about it, which keeps exciting because I feel 150 00:09:40,840 --> 00:09:45,240 like you can constantly learn or, you know, that thought pattern can constantly evolve 151 00:09:45,240 --> 00:09:49,480 as opposed to something that you look at is like open and shut. 152 00:09:49,480 --> 00:09:55,040 But we will go to like the movie to the movie rental store. 153 00:09:55,040 --> 00:09:56,960 And it was just the excitement about it. 154 00:09:56,960 --> 00:09:59,760 Like on your way there, you think, yo, should I get a comedy? 155 00:09:59,760 --> 00:10:01,280 Should I get a horror movie? 156 00:10:01,280 --> 00:10:02,280 Which one? 157 00:10:02,280 --> 00:10:03,280 Like, I got. 158 00:10:03,280 --> 00:10:05,000 Or should I get like an action movie? 159 00:10:05,000 --> 00:10:12,880 Like shot acts that I could rent a fucking Super Nintendo game or, you know, and I missed 160 00:10:12,880 --> 00:10:15,760 that feeling. 161 00:10:15,760 --> 00:10:19,000 And I can't speak for y'all, but speaking for myself, like, don't get me wrong. 162 00:10:19,000 --> 00:10:24,840 Like I enjoy all these streaming sites, the Netflix, the Hoolies, the, you know, Discovery 163 00:10:24,840 --> 00:10:30,560 Plus, the Peacock, whatever, whatever service you use, Apple TV, whatever. 164 00:10:30,560 --> 00:10:31,560 You get on there. 165 00:10:31,560 --> 00:10:36,000 It's pretty much unlimited, like movies and TV shows and shit. 166 00:10:36,000 --> 00:10:39,440 And you'll scroll through that shit and go, I can't find out in the watch. 167 00:10:39,440 --> 00:10:44,000 But you know, thinking about back in the day, you should go into like blockbuster and you 168 00:10:44,000 --> 00:10:45,840 just like peruse the owl. 169 00:10:45,840 --> 00:10:46,840 Oh, shit. 170 00:10:46,840 --> 00:10:49,920 You picking up the shit, you looking at the cover of it. 171 00:10:49,920 --> 00:10:52,120 Damn, I wonder if the movie is going to be good. 172 00:10:52,120 --> 00:10:53,120 The cover looks cool. 173 00:10:53,120 --> 00:10:56,760 You look on the back to see if you recognize any actors and shit. 174 00:10:56,760 --> 00:11:00,720 So as a kid, my go to with three movies. 175 00:11:00,720 --> 00:11:02,760 There was three ninjas. 176 00:11:02,760 --> 00:11:07,080 And I rented three ninjas so much that I feel like one of the last times we went to the 177 00:11:07,080 --> 00:11:08,960 video store and I picked it up. 178 00:11:08,960 --> 00:11:12,560 My mother said, not this shit again. 179 00:11:12,560 --> 00:11:15,760 So after a curveball, I picked up three ninjas, part two. 180 00:11:15,760 --> 00:11:17,680 I think it's called three ninjas kickback. 181 00:11:17,680 --> 00:11:21,040 I threw a little curveball in the game. 182 00:11:21,040 --> 00:11:25,680 But like, it wasn't even about the movies. 183 00:11:25,680 --> 00:11:30,160 It was about the experience, like the, the atmosphere. 184 00:11:30,160 --> 00:11:33,280 You see another kid from school like, oh, shit, y'all, burning the movie this weekend 185 00:11:33,280 --> 00:11:34,280 too. 186 00:11:34,280 --> 00:11:35,280 Oh, cool, man. 187 00:11:35,280 --> 00:11:36,280 Tell me how it was. 188 00:11:36,280 --> 00:11:37,280 I might get it next. 189 00:11:37,280 --> 00:11:42,880 Like, you know, and now we got this high level convenience of being able to watch anything 190 00:11:42,880 --> 00:11:49,720 on your phone, on your laptop, uh, fucking, you know, on your TV, whatever you watch it 191 00:11:49,720 --> 00:11:53,760 on and not, we don't appreciate it. 192 00:11:53,760 --> 00:12:01,560 It's like, it almost becomes like, you know, I don't even know how I'm trying to phrase 193 00:12:01,560 --> 00:12:10,600 it, like the word that I'm looking for, but it's more like, like the factuation phase 194 00:12:10,600 --> 00:12:12,560 of that shit is like kind of over. 195 00:12:12,560 --> 00:12:16,040 It's just, it's just the part of just the matrix at this point. 196 00:12:16,040 --> 00:12:18,200 It's just like, all right, let me turn it in. 197 00:12:18,200 --> 00:12:20,320 Fucks, you scroll through like four categories. 198 00:12:20,320 --> 00:12:21,320 I had a shit. 199 00:12:21,320 --> 00:12:22,320 Let me turn it over. 200 00:12:22,320 --> 00:12:29,120 But back in the days, going to the store was just this fucking like high level of excitement. 201 00:12:29,120 --> 00:12:34,840 And in the midst of doing my research, I learned that when Netflix was first starting out, 202 00:12:34,840 --> 00:12:38,640 they approached Blockbuster in hopes that Blockbuster would purchase the company and 203 00:12:38,640 --> 00:12:43,680 they passed on it because they didn't have the full site that people watch shit from 204 00:12:43,680 --> 00:12:44,680 home. 205 00:12:44,680 --> 00:12:48,080 Like they just thought like, oh no, people always going to come here. 206 00:12:48,080 --> 00:12:49,400 They dropped the fucking bag. 207 00:12:49,400 --> 00:12:52,960 Like, you know, technically right now, shouldn't even be in Netflix. 208 00:12:52,960 --> 00:12:56,240 It should be like Blockbuster digital or some shit like that. 209 00:12:56,240 --> 00:13:00,800 But they, you know, now they're a thing of the past and it's kids that's going to be 210 00:13:00,800 --> 00:13:06,400 born, old kids that's already born, it has no idea what the fuck I'm even talking about 211 00:13:06,400 --> 00:13:07,400 right now. 212 00:13:07,400 --> 00:13:08,680 And that's crazy to me. 213 00:13:08,680 --> 00:13:12,240 But I felt like I grew up in the best time. 214 00:13:12,240 --> 00:13:19,080 Like I was born and more or less raised in my childhood, like pre-internet. 215 00:13:19,080 --> 00:13:23,840 So I remember you didn't know what the fuck was going to be on TV unless you looked in 216 00:13:23,840 --> 00:13:28,200 the newspaper or you looked at like the TV guy or some shit like that. 217 00:13:28,200 --> 00:13:29,200 You just didn't know. 218 00:13:29,200 --> 00:13:35,480 And now, you know, I know it's coming out for the next fucking two years type of shit. 219 00:13:35,480 --> 00:13:38,480 And I can be honest, I don't really appreciate it. 220 00:13:38,480 --> 00:13:40,120 Like, yeah. 221 00:13:40,120 --> 00:13:47,160 But the more I think about it, you know, going out, that's gas, going in there and written 222 00:13:47,160 --> 00:13:51,080 this shit, taking it back home, watching it, you have to rewind it, make sure you get it 223 00:13:51,080 --> 00:13:52,800 back so you don't get late fees. 224 00:13:52,800 --> 00:13:55,120 Hopefully it doesn't get damaged. 225 00:13:55,120 --> 00:14:00,200 If you've got like a faulty DVD player or VCR or whatever type of, you know, format 226 00:14:00,200 --> 00:14:02,000 you use. 227 00:14:02,000 --> 00:14:07,600 So I can see the convenience of, you know, all the streaming shit, but at the same time, 228 00:14:07,600 --> 00:14:14,600 like it kind of, it doesn't have that same level of magic, I guess. 229 00:14:14,600 --> 00:14:17,360 But you can only miss some shit that you were aware of. 230 00:14:17,360 --> 00:14:21,320 So younger people here in this probably just like, oh, I could kill us about this shit 231 00:14:21,320 --> 00:14:24,160 because they don't understand that feeling. 232 00:14:24,160 --> 00:14:25,680 They don't have that experience. 233 00:14:25,680 --> 00:14:26,680 So. 234 00:14:26,680 --> 00:14:32,680 Oh, another reason why I'm in a pretty good mood is my Ravens got that first one in the 235 00:14:32,680 --> 00:14:37,400 season, you know, and I'm not going to football this shit out because I feel like in the first 236 00:14:37,400 --> 00:14:42,040 episode, like I talked about football too much, talking about fucking offensive linemen 237 00:14:42,040 --> 00:14:45,760 and run schemes like I think it's got phones and shit. 238 00:14:45,760 --> 00:14:50,320 Like y'all can look a pile like you can Google shit or Twitter, X or whatever the fuck it 239 00:14:50,320 --> 00:14:51,320 is. 240 00:14:51,320 --> 00:14:55,280 You don't need like color commentary from me. 241 00:14:55,280 --> 00:14:59,240 Honestly, I don't know what anybody needs from me. 242 00:14:59,240 --> 00:15:03,720 But if there's anything I can do for you, if there's any conversation you want to have, 243 00:15:03,720 --> 00:15:06,800 I'm available. 244 00:15:06,800 --> 00:15:12,440 So far with the stream and shit, and I'm like super new to it, not streaming. 245 00:15:12,440 --> 00:15:13,440 I'm sorry. 246 00:15:13,440 --> 00:15:14,440 I mean, podcast. 247 00:15:14,440 --> 00:15:20,240 Like, I think I enjoy it because like the unknown of it. 248 00:15:20,240 --> 00:15:27,080 Like my first episode, I want to say I got like, I think I got like a hundred listens, 249 00:15:27,080 --> 00:15:32,440 but like 30 downloads and shit, which I was surprised because I didn't really even really 250 00:15:32,440 --> 00:15:40,000 promote it outside of like, you know, my Instagram and texting a few people personally to check 251 00:15:40,000 --> 00:15:42,000 it out. 252 00:15:42,000 --> 00:15:46,560 And I'm grateful for every person who listened to download, even if you listen to it for 10 253 00:15:46,560 --> 00:15:48,040 minutes, man, like, I appreciate it. 254 00:15:48,040 --> 00:15:51,480 Like this is like a new thing that I'm trying to like venture out into. 255 00:15:51,480 --> 00:15:56,040 And again, I think my excitement for it comes from the unknown of it. 256 00:15:56,040 --> 00:15:57,480 You know what I mean? 257 00:15:57,480 --> 00:15:59,400 Like, because none of this shit is scripted. 258 00:15:59,400 --> 00:16:05,600 Like this is all, you know, freestyle for lack of a better term, but it's almost like 259 00:16:05,600 --> 00:16:07,600 a mini therapy session. 260 00:16:07,600 --> 00:16:13,840 So I know I'm going to have like moments on here where like I'm going to say, I guess 261 00:16:13,840 --> 00:16:18,040 would be considered controversial not to me because that's not what my intentions is, 262 00:16:18,040 --> 00:16:20,680 but I'm going to speak my mind freely. 263 00:16:20,680 --> 00:16:25,920 So I'll talk about conspiracy theories and belief systems and other types of shit. 264 00:16:25,920 --> 00:16:30,320 So if you are offended by anything that I said, just keep in mind that it wasn't my intention. 265 00:16:30,320 --> 00:16:34,760 And if you want to have a deeper level of why I feel the way I feel, you can always reach 266 00:16:34,760 --> 00:16:39,120 out to me via DM or whatever the case may be. 267 00:16:39,120 --> 00:16:49,200 But I don't know, man, just sitting back and like, you know, just surveying the landscape. 268 00:16:49,200 --> 00:16:51,880 I just see a bunch of bullshit. 269 00:16:51,880 --> 00:16:56,520 And I know a bunch of people will podcast and their goal is to become like rich or like 270 00:16:56,520 --> 00:17:00,360 the next Joe button or something like that, which would be amazing because the Joe button 271 00:17:00,360 --> 00:17:02,480 podcast is probably my favorite. 272 00:17:02,480 --> 00:17:05,680 That's not even probably it's my favorite podcast. 273 00:17:05,680 --> 00:17:09,880 And I don't know, like I like the production value of it. 274 00:17:09,880 --> 00:17:15,160 I like the conversations that they have, you know, and what I want to reach that level. 275 00:17:15,160 --> 00:17:16,960 Yeah, that would be great. 276 00:17:16,960 --> 00:17:24,000 But that shit is like, you know, having a hit record or hitting the fucking lot is work 277 00:17:24,000 --> 00:17:25,600 that you got to put in. 278 00:17:25,600 --> 00:17:31,280 It's the time and the shit if you can capture the people and, you know, and if I'm being 279 00:17:31,280 --> 00:17:35,400 truthful, I don't know if I have that ability, but I'm going to work towards it to see if 280 00:17:35,400 --> 00:17:36,400 I do. 281 00:17:36,400 --> 00:17:40,040 But this ain't my end all beyond. 282 00:17:40,040 --> 00:17:44,120 Like even when it comes to like the music, like at one point, at least from like a local 283 00:17:44,120 --> 00:17:48,800 standpoint, like I started to get like really, really popular, but I understood that, like, 284 00:17:48,800 --> 00:17:50,640 you know, we're rapping on coming no fucking pension. 285 00:17:50,640 --> 00:17:52,080 It doesn't come with benefits. 286 00:17:52,080 --> 00:17:58,120 So I wouldn't take my ass like back to school and, you know, earn the certification where 287 00:17:58,120 --> 00:18:01,000 I can have something to fall back on. 288 00:18:01,000 --> 00:18:07,200 And you'll have like these, you know, motivational Instagram guys like, there's no plan B. 289 00:18:07,200 --> 00:18:09,760 And they get, yes, it is. 290 00:18:09,760 --> 00:18:11,680 Because maybe your plan A ain't meant to be. 291 00:18:11,680 --> 00:18:14,160 And maybe plan B is exactly what you needed. 292 00:18:14,160 --> 00:18:17,360 And I can speak honestly with my plan B. 293 00:18:17,360 --> 00:18:18,360 I didn't board house. 294 00:18:18,360 --> 00:18:22,200 I didn't fucking, I have a nice vehicle. 295 00:18:22,200 --> 00:18:24,200 I have a 401k. 296 00:18:24,200 --> 00:18:29,680 You know, I'm not rich by any means, not even close, but I am comfortable with I'm being 297 00:18:29,680 --> 00:18:30,680 honest. 298 00:18:30,680 --> 00:18:33,760 You know what I'm saying? 299 00:18:33,760 --> 00:18:35,760 And I did that with my plan B. 300 00:18:35,760 --> 00:18:43,560 And even when I'm planning, like, I didn't opened up for like Red Man, Method Man, Ghost 301 00:18:43,560 --> 00:18:44,560 Face. 302 00:18:44,560 --> 00:18:45,560 I didn't open up for Freeway. 303 00:18:45,560 --> 00:18:49,000 I didn't open up for Joe Buttons. 304 00:18:49,000 --> 00:18:58,600 I didn't open up for, uh, once, you know, Bootsy and I don't remember what state it was. 305 00:18:58,600 --> 00:19:01,760 But it was like one of them by chance things. 306 00:19:01,760 --> 00:19:07,760 I'm in a good mood, man. 307 00:19:07,760 --> 00:19:12,520 Again, I'm going to reiterate the fact that like, yo, this shit is all freestyle and this 308 00:19:12,520 --> 00:19:14,200 borderline like scatterbrained. 309 00:19:14,200 --> 00:19:20,400 So when I jump from topic to topic or whatever, or I start drawing correlations between things 310 00:19:20,400 --> 00:19:25,280 the way they might not be a correlation, I'm just expressing how my mind would. 311 00:19:25,280 --> 00:19:29,360 This shit is like a fucking audio manifesto. 312 00:19:29,360 --> 00:19:30,360 You know what I mean? 313 00:19:30,360 --> 00:19:32,880 It's like the unabomber with pro tools. 314 00:19:32,880 --> 00:19:35,240 If that makes sense. 315 00:19:35,240 --> 00:19:36,880 Shout to the unabomber. 316 00:19:36,880 --> 00:19:39,040 I mean, not shout to the unabomber. 317 00:19:39,040 --> 00:19:40,040 You know what I mean? 318 00:19:40,040 --> 00:19:43,680 That guy was a genius, actually. 319 00:19:43,680 --> 00:19:49,160 I'm not condoning his actions, but I'm in watching a documentary about him. 320 00:19:49,160 --> 00:19:55,280 And I want to say he went to like, it might have been Harvard, maybe not Harvard, but 321 00:19:55,280 --> 00:19:57,680 it was like a high level college school. 322 00:19:57,680 --> 00:20:03,080 Like it was like Ivy Ivy League and highly intelligent. 323 00:20:03,080 --> 00:20:08,760 But just one day he was federal society, went out into the woods and built the shed. 324 00:20:08,760 --> 00:20:12,640 With a typewriter typed out a bunch of his theories and ideas and then start putting 325 00:20:12,640 --> 00:20:16,280 like fucking bombs and mailboxes and shit. 326 00:20:16,280 --> 00:20:19,240 I hope that's not the path that I'm on. 327 00:20:19,240 --> 00:20:23,960 And that's a joke in case the federal government or whoever the fuck is responsible for stopping 328 00:20:23,960 --> 00:20:25,560 niggas with bombs listening. 329 00:20:25,560 --> 00:20:26,560 That is not my intention. 330 00:20:26,560 --> 00:20:27,560 Not even close. 331 00:20:27,560 --> 00:20:28,560 I'm talking shit. 332 00:20:28,560 --> 00:20:35,000 Lately, I've been watching more TV than I usually do. 333 00:20:35,000 --> 00:20:42,400 And I was watching the first episode of The Penguin with like Colin Farrell. 334 00:20:42,400 --> 00:20:47,880 And The Penguin is like a Batman villain based on like DC comic books and shit. 335 00:20:47,880 --> 00:20:51,600 And I have to say, Ash O was fucking amazing. 336 00:20:51,600 --> 00:20:54,640 He did an incredible job. 337 00:20:54,640 --> 00:20:58,200 I love the cinematography of it. 338 00:20:58,200 --> 00:21:00,560 I love that the show is dialogue heavy. 339 00:21:00,560 --> 00:21:04,880 I mean, there's a few action scenes, but I enjoy dialogue. 340 00:21:04,880 --> 00:21:05,880 You know what I mean? 341 00:21:05,880 --> 00:21:11,360 Like growing up as a kid, like my brother and my cousins and them, like they were big 342 00:21:11,360 --> 00:21:14,440 into like sitcoms like Martin and shit. 343 00:21:14,440 --> 00:21:15,440 And I enjoyed Martin too. 344 00:21:15,440 --> 00:21:19,960 And like, don't get me wrong, but I was a kid who watched like fucking Seinfeld. 345 00:21:19,960 --> 00:21:22,360 I watched like Frasier and shit like that. 346 00:21:22,360 --> 00:21:23,520 You know what I mean? 347 00:21:23,520 --> 00:21:27,160 Like I'm more of a Simpsons guy than I am a family guy. 348 00:21:27,160 --> 00:21:28,640 You know what I mean? 349 00:21:28,640 --> 00:21:29,640 I like wittiness. 350 00:21:29,640 --> 00:21:33,000 I like, you know, I like driving. 351 00:21:33,000 --> 00:21:36,760 But I like human with like intellect. 352 00:21:36,760 --> 00:21:40,840 I like to hear some shit and go, oh shit, I thought about it like that. 353 00:21:40,840 --> 00:21:42,280 And I love dog humor and shit. 354 00:21:42,280 --> 00:21:48,480 So like I'm a big fan of like guys like Anthony Jesu-Nick or like Greg Gerardo recipes. 355 00:21:48,480 --> 00:21:50,840 Like, I don't know. 356 00:21:50,840 --> 00:21:58,000 I've been having a week, but I'm in, I'm in a good mood and a good space, even though 357 00:21:58,000 --> 00:22:06,000 I've been having things, you know, not necessarily around me, but like in my, in my range or 358 00:22:06,000 --> 00:22:08,000 within my reach. 359 00:22:08,000 --> 00:22:10,960 Like I had a friend who was like, killed. 360 00:22:10,960 --> 00:22:15,960 Like, I want to say he was killed this past Friday or Saturday. 361 00:22:15,960 --> 00:22:17,720 Maybe it was like Saturday, like one in the morning. 362 00:22:17,720 --> 00:22:24,760 And I got the news like Saturday morning around like maybe like 9am, 10am. 363 00:22:24,760 --> 00:22:29,280 And when I heard it, I was just like, damn. 364 00:22:29,280 --> 00:22:31,280 But not much more than that. 365 00:22:31,280 --> 00:22:33,360 And I had to stop and like analyze that. 366 00:22:33,360 --> 00:22:38,280 Like, am I that used to that level of shit that I normalize it? 367 00:22:38,280 --> 00:22:44,400 Or, you know, is it more so it happens so consistently that you become numb to it, I 368 00:22:44,400 --> 00:22:48,240 guess, or you become desensitized to it? 369 00:22:48,240 --> 00:22:52,640 I think the thing with me when it comes to that type of shit is, you know, I won't say 370 00:22:52,640 --> 00:22:58,160 his name out of respect, but he led a particular type of lifestyle and these type of things 371 00:22:58,160 --> 00:22:59,880 happen within that lifestyle. 372 00:22:59,880 --> 00:23:05,360 So as much as I would want to grieve him, you know, he's not a victim. 373 00:23:05,360 --> 00:23:06,360 He's a volunteer. 374 00:23:06,360 --> 00:23:13,240 And I mean that with the absolute utmost respect, but he chose to be a part of the game. 375 00:23:13,240 --> 00:23:16,040 And it just didn't work in his favor. 376 00:23:16,040 --> 00:23:21,920 Now opposed to like somebody who gets up every day, go to work, try to be as much as the 377 00:23:21,920 --> 00:23:25,440 upstanding citizen as they can be and just having to get caught in a crossfire. 378 00:23:25,440 --> 00:23:27,600 Yeah, I would probably grieve you. 379 00:23:27,600 --> 00:23:30,560 I would feel bad for you because you didn't ask for that. 380 00:23:30,560 --> 00:23:32,640 You didn't sign up to participate in that. 381 00:23:32,640 --> 00:23:36,360 But, you know, the fast money comes, harsh consequences. 382 00:23:36,360 --> 00:23:43,360 And, you know, it still doesn't, you know, change the fact that he passed away or anything 383 00:23:43,360 --> 00:23:44,360 like that. 384 00:23:44,360 --> 00:23:45,360 You know what I mean? 385 00:23:45,360 --> 00:23:49,360 So I'm not blaming him for the situation, but I'm not crying over it either. 386 00:23:49,360 --> 00:23:54,360 If I'm being honest though. 387 00:23:54,360 --> 00:24:06,160 You know, right now the news is being dominated with Donald Trump and Buda Wine Race and shit. 388 00:24:06,160 --> 00:24:11,840 Or, you know, Shannon Sharp making grunt noise, which was hilarious. 389 00:24:11,840 --> 00:24:13,840 And then you got this whole diddy situation. 390 00:24:13,840 --> 00:24:19,360 And, you know, I've been seeing the memes and all that type of shit. 391 00:24:19,360 --> 00:24:25,000 And some of them are funny, but I don't really find much human in this diddy situation. 392 00:24:25,000 --> 00:24:29,760 You know, he could have been a pillar of our community. 393 00:24:29,760 --> 00:24:32,640 Like he's reached a billion dollars. 394 00:24:32,640 --> 00:24:36,960 That's generational, generational, generational wealth. 395 00:24:36,960 --> 00:24:46,240 And, you know, because of his, I guess, urges and indiscretions or whatever, like you tore 396 00:24:46,240 --> 00:24:51,760 down your lineage because he's going to go to jail. 397 00:24:51,760 --> 00:24:56,920 You know, I'm not, and I don't condone nothing he did, but I watch people make jokes about 398 00:24:56,920 --> 00:24:57,920 it. 399 00:24:57,920 --> 00:25:02,320 And if what they say and he did is true, like there's a, there's a lot of, you know, 400 00:25:02,320 --> 00:25:06,040 there's a laundry list of like victims. 401 00:25:06,040 --> 00:25:09,800 And I would have to think that they will feel some way seeing these jokes and shit. 402 00:25:09,800 --> 00:25:11,720 Like I would think that they traumatized by it. 403 00:25:11,720 --> 00:25:19,000 So, you know, I didn't want to be one of the people to add on to that. 404 00:25:19,000 --> 00:25:24,360 Even though I will say they said this nigga brought like a hundred bottles. 405 00:25:24,360 --> 00:25:25,360 No, I'm sorry. 406 00:25:25,360 --> 00:25:31,560 He brought a thousand bottles of like baby oil and like fucking lyr, which is fucking 407 00:25:31,560 --> 00:25:33,000 gross. 408 00:25:33,000 --> 00:25:38,400 And then I saw this one meme where they showed the silver surfer from the Fantastic Four 409 00:25:38,400 --> 00:25:39,400 movie. 410 00:25:39,400 --> 00:25:40,760 And he was like, this is Diddy coming out the bathroom. 411 00:25:40,760 --> 00:25:44,320 For those who don't know, the silver surfer is what his name is. 412 00:25:44,320 --> 00:25:48,120 He rides a surfboard and he's completely silver. 413 00:25:48,120 --> 00:25:50,480 He looks chrome, so he's like super reflective. 414 00:25:50,480 --> 00:25:55,880 So I guess to me, it was like lending to the fact that Puff was so greasy that he looked 415 00:25:55,880 --> 00:25:59,880 fucking silver, which is hilarious. 416 00:25:59,880 --> 00:26:06,360 But outside of that, it's a sad situation. 417 00:26:06,360 --> 00:26:09,440 He could have been one of our greats. 418 00:26:09,440 --> 00:26:13,880 But that applies to like a bunch of old stars who just reach a certain level and just think 419 00:26:13,880 --> 00:26:20,960 that they're above the law, that they're above like, you know, decent human interaction. 420 00:26:20,960 --> 00:26:22,560 They just become shitty people. 421 00:26:22,560 --> 00:26:26,120 You know, it's been the downfall of a bunch of men. 422 00:26:26,120 --> 00:26:30,000 The biggest downfall of people in general is ego and pride. 423 00:26:30,000 --> 00:26:31,480 You know what I mean? 424 00:26:31,480 --> 00:26:35,080 Proud to make you jump out the window to do some shit that's not in your heart. 425 00:26:35,080 --> 00:26:37,800 And I guess your ego would do the same. 426 00:26:37,800 --> 00:26:40,200 So I don't know, man. 427 00:26:40,200 --> 00:26:41,760 I want to stay clear of that type of shit. 428 00:26:41,760 --> 00:26:51,440 So if I was ever to reach a certain level of success, bro, I would probably be a recluse. 429 00:26:51,440 --> 00:26:57,000 I would buy me a big house somewhere in the woods, but not in the woods because I'm terrified 430 00:26:57,000 --> 00:26:58,640 of the fucking woods. 431 00:26:58,640 --> 00:27:03,120 So I want to at least be able to drive like 15 minutes to like civilization, but I wouldn't 432 00:27:03,120 --> 00:27:04,120 want to be anywhere. 433 00:27:04,120 --> 00:27:08,280 If I'm out on my porch, you just happen to drive by and see me. 434 00:27:08,280 --> 00:27:11,320 So I would like Amazon Prime everything. 435 00:27:11,320 --> 00:27:15,680 And I would just fucking live in my little house, go out here and there, but stay to 436 00:27:15,680 --> 00:27:21,480 myself and just make sure that the ones I love is taken care of. 437 00:27:21,480 --> 00:27:23,560 I ain't throwing no fucking Miami putt. 438 00:27:23,560 --> 00:27:26,680 Yo, $1,000 worth of loot. 439 00:27:26,680 --> 00:27:30,480 I mean, $1,000 of loot was worth about like $9,000. 440 00:27:30,480 --> 00:27:32,840 That shit is more than what I own my school owns. 441 00:27:32,840 --> 00:27:34,840 This nigga is buying that shit. 442 00:27:34,840 --> 00:27:41,040 Yo, he could have paid my school owns twice with his fucking baby oil budget. 443 00:27:41,040 --> 00:27:44,080 This the nigga would get a fucking billion. 444 00:27:44,080 --> 00:27:48,960 You earn what you earn and for what it sounds like and what it looked like. 445 00:27:48,960 --> 00:27:50,800 This nigga earned itself a prison term. 446 00:27:50,800 --> 00:27:55,280 So enjoy Puff. 447 00:27:55,280 --> 00:27:56,280 Have a blast. 448 00:27:56,280 --> 00:27:58,280 Hopefully they ain't got no loop in that. 449 00:27:58,280 --> 00:27:59,280 That's gross. 450 00:27:59,280 --> 00:28:00,280 That's gross. 451 00:28:00,280 --> 00:28:03,280 I don't want to talk about that shit. 452 00:28:03,280 --> 00:28:05,280 I think about it. 453 00:28:05,280 --> 00:28:09,280 Ain't about to be on here no long time. 454 00:28:09,280 --> 00:28:11,280 I'm here for a good time. 455 00:28:11,280 --> 00:28:12,280 About a long time. 456 00:28:12,280 --> 00:28:18,120 So with that being said, thank y'all for listening to episode two of the Cognitive 457 00:28:18,120 --> 00:28:19,120 Collage podcast. 458 00:28:19,120 --> 00:28:23,640 Once again, I'm your host, Quentin Golden, QG for short. 459 00:28:23,640 --> 00:28:26,400 I don't have all the social media shit, but I do have an IG. 460 00:28:26,400 --> 00:28:30,720 So reach out to me at QG Music on Instagram. 461 00:28:30,720 --> 00:28:31,720 That's QG. 462 00:28:31,720 --> 00:28:34,720 M-U-S-I-C at Instagram. 463 00:28:34,720 --> 00:28:35,720 Or don't. 464 00:28:35,720 --> 00:28:36,720 I don't. 465 00:28:36,720 --> 00:28:38,720 Either way, nothing mattered. 466 00:28:38,720 --> 00:28:46,720 But whoever's saying this, man, I hope you're in a good day, a good night. 467 00:28:46,720 --> 00:28:51,880 But every time you're in this, stay positive, stay productive. 468 00:28:51,880 --> 00:28:54,040 Try your best even when you don't feel like it. 469 00:28:54,040 --> 00:28:57,520 And everything will work out the way it's supposed to. 470 00:28:57,520 --> 00:29:14,200 Peace.