Yo.
I'd like to welcome everybody back to Brandon Repersold of the Cognitive Collage Parkhouse.
I'm your host, Quentin Golden, but you can call me QG for short.
And today's episode is brought to you by nobody.
Ain't nobody sponsoring this shit.
At least not yet.
And I'ma be honest, whoever approached me for sponsorship, I'm gonna take that shit.
Pampers, fucking gasoline, karate classes, I don't give a fuck.
But I do.
I do give a fuck.
Like, I wouldn't, like, take a sponsorship if it, like, promoted, like, Nazi memorabilia
or some shit.
I'm not gonna do that.
But Cereal, fucking, you know, Preparation H for Henry, I don't give a fuck.
Cut the check.
But I don't do this for money, which is the funny thing.
I do this because, you know, if I can get personal for a second, I'm an introvert by
nature.
You know, I'm social in a sentence that I have to be, like, in a workplace or, you know,
in the event of shit like that, but for the most part, like, I just say to myself, so
if I'm in a room with you, I might not utter a fucking word for Alice.
But if you speak to me or if you ask me a question, then, yeah, obviously I would engage
with you, but in order for me to have, like, an in-depth conversation with you, we have
to have some established level of rapport.
And if we don't have that, like, I'm not the person who volunteers my personal business.
Like, I see people do it a lot on social media.
Like, they'll just spew extremely personal shit, and they'll just engage with total
strangers.
And then at some point, the strange I have are falling out, and the strangers start
taking shots at them, and they'll be upset, but it's like, nigga, you provided a ammunition.
I'm a strong believer in, I'm a strong believer in, you know, everything's not for everybody.
So if I don't know you that well, I'm not going into the depth about, like, family history
or, like, personal traumas and shit.
And another thing that I hate, the more I think about it, is when I see people make
posts and the post might be to somebody who's passed away or a child that's not born yet,
but they'll write the post as if they're speaking to this person directly.
One that did, nigga, can't read it, and one the baby ain't born yet to read it.
They're doing it for attention.
And I fucking hate it.
But to each and every one, what the fuck am I going to say, don't do it?
I personally love it.
They just seem attention seeker to me.
I'm not that guy.
Which I probably should be more of, because I do music.
And one of the biggest posts that do music in this day and age is engagement.
Because most of these fans, like, they don't purchase the music, they purchase the personality.
They want to feel that you're relatable.
They want to feel like at some point y'all cross paths and you'll embrace them the way
they embrace your art.
But I'm not that guy for me, you know what I'm saying?
It sounds selfish, but I write for me.
I make shit for me.
And I put it out into the world.
And if you happen to like it, that's amazing.
And if you don't, I don't have any hard feelings about it, because once I put it out into,
you know, the public for consumption, I can't get mad at how people receive it.
So if you love my shit, if you hate my shit, I would embrace you like equally, but you
know, really make a difference to me.
Oh, back to the sponsorship.
They kind of, they kind of lead to one of the topics I want to talk about today.
Is there a price tag on your principles?
Can integrity be purchasing?
You know, like, I was talking to my best friend Ty, you like my brother, like, he'll be on
this episode or he'll be on in that episode at some point.
But I had this conversation with him and then I had it with a few family members and a
couple other homeboys.
And you know, it's always those weird hypotheticals like, would you punch your baby for a billion
dollars?
Negative, of course outward.
When you tell the fucking daycare, it's a billion dollars.
And in all fairness, because the devil was in the details for me, never said how hard
I had to punch the baby.
But it's my fist going to touch his face for a billion dollars, 1000%.
So I was talking to my sister about it and she was like, absolutely not.
And you know, I was like, nigga, please.
And she was dead ass there.
She was like, man, I can't let anybody, you know, swindle me, not so much swindle, but
position me to do some shit that goes against my character or my integrity.
Like, I never want to hurt anybody, especially not if it's a dollar sign attached to it.
So I was like, I could respect that.
Because I could tell that she was being genuine.
If I'm speaking for myself, I'm going to punch that baby in the face.
Yeah, would you set an old person on fire for a trillion dollars with no consequences?
What the fuck is my life?
And they owe.
They gave you 90, 95, what the fuck?
You about to go to the NBA or some shit?
Yeah, nigga, shit, they will probably volunteer because they know this is going to be beneficial
to, you know, my lineage or, you know, create generational wealth.
But I mean, I can't expect that.
But I always, I always think about those type of things where I watch like a TV show and
you'll have like full grown adults doing like some super immature slash embarrassing shit.
And I'm like, I could never.
But then they be like, oh, man, the prize man is a million dollars, but that ain't enough.
This day and age with inflation and shit, a million ain't a million.
Speaking of inflation.
So on my days off or when I have free time, I like to get on YouTube and I look up Saturday
morning cartoons with commercials.
That's the important part.
And I watch it as if I'm, you know, watching it from back in the day.
So in between the in between the cartoons, you'll have like advertisements for like,
you know, KB toy stores or like a bunch of, you know, former giants in the marketplace
that no longer exist.
And I'm looking at the prices of shit.
So McDonald's commercial come on.
I'm watching like, Bobby's World or Godfrey on Friends and watching something.
But Bobby's World come on right after that.
I mean, I'm sorry, the McDonald's commercial comes on after the when it goes to the commercial
break.
And there was some advertisement about Halloween and some shit, but the happy meals on there
were like $3, I believe.
And then I got to thinking like, back when my brother and I were younger, you know, we
were asking our mom, like, Hey, can we get a happy meal?
She go, man, we got happy meals in the house.
And then I stopped and I thought about that shit over there.
I was like, God damn, we getting them for $6.
But at the same time, that's as low as the cost of living was what was so was the wage
that people would be paid to, you know, so I'm the type of person where like, if I see
something like I'll go down the rabbit hole and like deep dive it.
So like now I'm Googling, you know, what was the price of things in 1995 or 94 or some
shit like that.
Yeah.
A gallon of milk was like a dollar and 10 cents.
A fucking box of like fruity pebbles, like $2.
So realistically, that $6 could have brought us cereal and milk that we could have ate
for at least, at least four or five days.
Like that's breakfast covered for almost a whole week for $6.
So I can understand her going, like, I ain't about to waste no fucking $6 on some shit
that's probably gonna make y'all sick.
Any fucking way.
So I get it.
But as I continue to dive deep dive down this rabbit hole of like nostalgia, I start thinking
about Netflix funny enough.
So back back in the day, you know, it's Friday, you get out of school.
So my house and hey, man, we go order pizza tonight.
So that's already that's already boss moves type of shit.
So we excited about that.
So she's like, yo, we'll go to either blockbuster or Hollywood video or whatever mom and pop
video story we had in the area.
So the way she would do it, she would rent five movies because I think like you could
rent like five movies for like $10 or some shit.
I'm not sure.
But she will allow my brother to pick a movie of his choice.
I could pick a movie of my choice.
And then she would pick that with three.
So as you guys continue to listen to the show, like you'll learn that I'm super into like
the paranormal ghost and all that shit.
Like it just intrigues me.
I think it's the fact that it's so much unknown about it, which keeps exciting because I feel
like you can constantly learn or, you know, that thought pattern can constantly evolve
as opposed to something that you look at is like open and shut.
But we will go to like the movie to the movie rental store.
And it was just the excitement about it.
Like on your way there, you think, yo, should I get a comedy?
Should I get a horror movie?
Which one?
Like, I got.
Or should I get like an action movie?
Like shot acts that I could rent a fucking Super Nintendo game or, you know, and I missed
that feeling.
And I can't speak for y'all, but speaking for myself, like, don't get me wrong.
Like I enjoy all these streaming sites, the Netflix, the Hoolies, the, you know, Discovery
Plus, the Peacock, whatever, whatever service you use, Apple TV, whatever.
You get on there.
It's pretty much unlimited, like movies and TV shows and shit.
And you'll scroll through that shit and go, I can't find out in the watch.
But you know, thinking about back in the day, you should go into like blockbuster and you
just like peruse the owl.
Oh, shit.
You picking up the shit, you looking at the cover of it.
Damn, I wonder if the movie is going to be good.
The cover looks cool.
You look on the back to see if you recognize any actors and shit.
So as a kid, my go to with three movies.
There was three ninjas.
And I rented three ninjas so much that I feel like one of the last times we went to the
video store and I picked it up.
My mother said, not this shit again.
So after a curveball, I picked up three ninjas, part two.
I think it's called three ninjas kickback.
I threw a little curveball in the game.
But like, it wasn't even about the movies.
It was about the experience, like the, the atmosphere.
You see another kid from school like, oh, shit, y'all, burning the movie this weekend
too.
Oh, cool, man.
Tell me how it was.
I might get it next.
Like, you know, and now we got this high level convenience of being able to watch anything
on your phone, on your laptop, uh, fucking, you know, on your TV, whatever you watch it
on and not, we don't appreciate it.
It's like, it almost becomes like, you know, I don't even know how I'm trying to phrase
it, like the word that I'm looking for, but it's more like, like the factuation phase
of that shit is like kind of over.
It's just, it's just the part of just the matrix at this point.
It's just like, all right, let me turn it in.
Fucks, you scroll through like four categories.
I had a shit.
Let me turn it over.
But back in the days, going to the store was just this fucking like high level of excitement.
And in the midst of doing my research, I learned that when Netflix was first starting out,
they approached Blockbuster in hopes that Blockbuster would purchase the company and
they passed on it because they didn't have the full site that people watch shit from
home.
Like they just thought like, oh no, people always going to come here.
They dropped the fucking bag.
Like, you know, technically right now, shouldn't even be in Netflix.
It should be like Blockbuster digital or some shit like that.
But they, you know, now they're a thing of the past and it's kids that's going to be
born, old kids that's already born, it has no idea what the fuck I'm even talking about
right now.
And that's crazy to me.
But I felt like I grew up in the best time.
Like I was born and more or less raised in my childhood, like pre-internet.
So I remember you didn't know what the fuck was going to be on TV unless you looked in
the newspaper or you looked at like the TV guy or some shit like that.
You just didn't know.
And now, you know, I know it's coming out for the next fucking two years type of shit.
And I can be honest, I don't really appreciate it.
Like, yeah.
But the more I think about it, you know, going out, that's gas, going in there and written
this shit, taking it back home, watching it, you have to rewind it, make sure you get it
back so you don't get late fees.
Hopefully it doesn't get damaged.
If you've got like a faulty DVD player or VCR or whatever type of, you know, format
you use.
So I can see the convenience of, you know, all the streaming shit, but at the same time,
like it kind of, it doesn't have that same level of magic, I guess.
But you can only miss some shit that you were aware of.
So younger people here in this probably just like, oh, I could kill us about this shit
because they don't understand that feeling.
They don't have that experience.
So.
Oh, another reason why I'm in a pretty good mood is my Ravens got that first one in the
season, you know, and I'm not going to football this shit out because I feel like in the first
episode, like I talked about football too much, talking about fucking offensive linemen
and run schemes like I think it's got phones and shit.
Like y'all can look a pile like you can Google shit or Twitter, X or whatever the fuck it
is.
You don't need like color commentary from me.
Honestly, I don't know what anybody needs from me.
But if there's anything I can do for you, if there's any conversation you want to have,
I'm available.
So far with the stream and shit, and I'm like super new to it, not streaming.
I'm sorry.
I mean, podcast.
Like, I think I enjoy it because like the unknown of it.
Like my first episode, I want to say I got like, I think I got like a hundred listens,
but like 30 downloads and shit, which I was surprised because I didn't really even really
promote it outside of like, you know, my Instagram and texting a few people personally to check
it out.
And I'm grateful for every person who listened to download, even if you listen to it for 10
minutes, man, like, I appreciate it.
Like this is like a new thing that I'm trying to like venture out into.
And again, I think my excitement for it comes from the unknown of it.
You know what I mean?
Like, because none of this shit is scripted.
Like this is all, you know, freestyle for lack of a better term, but it's almost like
a mini therapy session.
So I know I'm going to have like moments on here where like I'm going to say, I guess
would be considered controversial not to me because that's not what my intentions is,
but I'm going to speak my mind freely.
So I'll talk about conspiracy theories and belief systems and other types of shit.
So if you are offended by anything that I said, just keep in mind that it wasn't my intention.
And if you want to have a deeper level of why I feel the way I feel, you can always reach
out to me via DM or whatever the case may be.
But I don't know, man, just sitting back and like, you know, just surveying the landscape.
I just see a bunch of bullshit.
And I know a bunch of people will podcast and their goal is to become like rich or like
the next Joe button or something like that, which would be amazing because the Joe button
podcast is probably my favorite.
That's not even probably it's my favorite podcast.
And I don't know, like I like the production value of it.
I like the conversations that they have, you know, and what I want to reach that level.
Yeah, that would be great.
But that shit is like, you know, having a hit record or hitting the fucking lot is work
that you got to put in.
It's the time and the shit if you can capture the people and, you know, and if I'm being
truthful, I don't know if I have that ability, but I'm going to work towards it to see if
I do.
But this ain't my end all beyond.
Like even when it comes to like the music, like at one point, at least from like a local
standpoint, like I started to get like really, really popular, but I understood that, like,
you know, we're rapping on coming no fucking pension.
It doesn't come with benefits.
So I wouldn't take my ass like back to school and, you know, earn the certification where
I can have something to fall back on.
And you'll have like these, you know, motivational Instagram guys like, there's no plan B.
And they get, yes, it is.
Because maybe your plan A ain't meant to be.
And maybe plan B is exactly what you needed.
And I can speak honestly with my plan B.
I didn't board house.
I didn't fucking, I have a nice vehicle.
I have a 401k.
You know, I'm not rich by any means, not even close, but I am comfortable with I'm being
honest.
You know what I'm saying?
And I did that with my plan B.
And even when I'm planning, like, I didn't opened up for like Red Man, Method Man, Ghost
Face.
I didn't open up for Freeway.
I didn't open up for Joe Buttons.
I didn't open up for, uh, once, you know, Bootsy and I don't remember what state it was.
But it was like one of them by chance things.
I'm in a good mood, man.
Again, I'm going to reiterate the fact that like, yo, this shit is all freestyle and this
borderline like scatterbrained.
So when I jump from topic to topic or whatever, or I start drawing correlations between things
the way they might not be a correlation, I'm just expressing how my mind would.
This shit is like a fucking audio manifesto.
You know what I mean?
It's like the unabomber with pro tools.
If that makes sense.
Shout to the unabomber.
I mean, not shout to the unabomber.
You know what I mean?
That guy was a genius, actually.
I'm not condoning his actions, but I'm in watching a documentary about him.
And I want to say he went to like, it might have been Harvard, maybe not Harvard, but
it was like a high level college school.
Like it was like Ivy Ivy League and highly intelligent.
But just one day he was federal society, went out into the woods and built the shed.
With a typewriter typed out a bunch of his theories and ideas and then start putting
like fucking bombs and mailboxes and shit.
I hope that's not the path that I'm on.
And that's a joke in case the federal government or whoever the fuck is responsible for stopping
niggas with bombs listening.
That is not my intention.
Not even close.
I'm talking shit.
Lately, I've been watching more TV than I usually do.
And I was watching the first episode of The Penguin with like Colin Farrell.
And The Penguin is like a Batman villain based on like DC comic books and shit.
And I have to say, Ash O was fucking amazing.
He did an incredible job.
I love the cinematography of it.
I love that the show is dialogue heavy.
I mean, there's a few action scenes, but I enjoy dialogue.
You know what I mean?
Like growing up as a kid, like my brother and my cousins and them, like they were big
into like sitcoms like Martin and shit.
And I enjoyed Martin too.
And like, don't get me wrong, but I was a kid who watched like fucking Seinfeld.
I watched like Frasier and shit like that.
You know what I mean?
Like I'm more of a Simpsons guy than I am a family guy.
You know what I mean?
I like wittiness.
I like, you know, I like driving.
But I like human with like intellect.
I like to hear some shit and go, oh shit, I thought about it like that.
And I love dog humor and shit.
So like I'm a big fan of like guys like Anthony Jesu-Nick or like Greg Gerardo recipes.
Like, I don't know.
I've been having a week, but I'm in, I'm in a good mood and a good space, even though
I've been having things, you know, not necessarily around me, but like in my, in my range or
within my reach.
Like I had a friend who was like, killed.
Like, I want to say he was killed this past Friday or Saturday.
Maybe it was like Saturday, like one in the morning.
And I got the news like Saturday morning around like maybe like 9am, 10am.
And when I heard it, I was just like, damn.
But not much more than that.
And I had to stop and like analyze that.
Like, am I that used to that level of shit that I normalize it?
Or, you know, is it more so it happens so consistently that you become numb to it, I
guess, or you become desensitized to it?
I think the thing with me when it comes to that type of shit is, you know, I won't say
his name out of respect, but he led a particular type of lifestyle and these type of things
happen within that lifestyle.
So as much as I would want to grieve him, you know, he's not a victim.
He's a volunteer.
And I mean that with the absolute utmost respect, but he chose to be a part of the game.
And it just didn't work in his favor.
Now opposed to like somebody who gets up every day, go to work, try to be as much as the
upstanding citizen as they can be and just having to get caught in a crossfire.
Yeah, I would probably grieve you.
I would feel bad for you because you didn't ask for that.
You didn't sign up to participate in that.
But, you know, the fast money comes, harsh consequences.
And, you know, it still doesn't, you know, change the fact that he passed away or anything
like that.
You know what I mean?
So I'm not blaming him for the situation, but I'm not crying over it either.
If I'm being honest though.
You know, right now the news is being dominated with Donald Trump and Buda Wine Race and shit.
Or, you know, Shannon Sharp making grunt noise, which was hilarious.
And then you got this whole diddy situation.
And, you know, I've been seeing the memes and all that type of shit.
And some of them are funny, but I don't really find much human in this diddy situation.
You know, he could have been a pillar of our community.
Like he's reached a billion dollars.
That's generational, generational, generational wealth.
And, you know, because of his, I guess, urges and indiscretions or whatever, like you tore
down your lineage because he's going to go to jail.
You know, I'm not, and I don't condone nothing he did, but I watch people make jokes about
it.
And if what they say and he did is true, like there's a, there's a lot of, you know,
there's a laundry list of like victims.
And I would have to think that they will feel some way seeing these jokes and shit.
Like I would think that they traumatized by it.
So, you know, I didn't want to be one of the people to add on to that.
Even though I will say they said this nigga brought like a hundred bottles.
No, I'm sorry.
He brought a thousand bottles of like baby oil and like fucking lyr, which is fucking
gross.
And then I saw this one meme where they showed the silver surfer from the Fantastic Four
movie.
And he was like, this is Diddy coming out the bathroom.
For those who don't know, the silver surfer is what his name is.
He rides a surfboard and he's completely silver.
He looks chrome, so he's like super reflective.
So I guess to me, it was like lending to the fact that Puff was so greasy that he looked
fucking silver, which is hilarious.
But outside of that, it's a sad situation.
He could have been one of our greats.
But that applies to like a bunch of old stars who just reach a certain level and just think
that they're above the law, that they're above like, you know, decent human interaction.
They just become shitty people.
You know, it's been the downfall of a bunch of men.
The biggest downfall of people in general is ego and pride.
You know what I mean?
Proud to make you jump out the window to do some shit that's not in your heart.
And I guess your ego would do the same.
So I don't know, man.
I want to stay clear of that type of shit.
So if I was ever to reach a certain level of success, bro, I would probably be a recluse.
I would buy me a big house somewhere in the woods, but not in the woods because I'm terrified
of the fucking woods.
So I want to at least be able to drive like 15 minutes to like civilization, but I wouldn't
want to be anywhere.
If I'm out on my porch, you just happen to drive by and see me.
So I would like Amazon Prime everything.
And I would just fucking live in my little house, go out here and there, but stay to
myself and just make sure that the ones I love is taken care of.
I ain't throwing no fucking Miami putt.
Yo, $1,000 worth of loot.
I mean, $1,000 of loot was worth about like $9,000.
That shit is more than what I own my school owns.
This nigga is buying that shit.
Yo, he could have paid my school owns twice with his fucking baby oil budget.
This the nigga would get a fucking billion.
You earn what you earn and for what it sounds like and what it looked like.
This nigga earned itself a prison term.
So enjoy Puff.
Have a blast.
Hopefully they ain't got no loop in that.
That's gross.
I don't want to talk about that shit.
I think about it.
Ain't about to be on here no long time.
I'm here for a good time.
About a long time.
So with that being said, thank y'all for listening to episode two of the Cognitive
Collage podcast.
Once again, I'm your host, Quentin Golden, QG for short.
I don't have all the social media shit, but I do have an IG.
So reach out to me at QG Music on Instagram.
That's QG.
M-U-S-I-C at Instagram.
Or don't.
I don't.
Either way, nothing mattered.
But whoever's saying this, man, I hope you're in a good day, a good night.
But every time you're in this, stay positive, stay productive.
Try your best even when you don't feel like it.
And everything will work out the way it's supposed to.
Peace.