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The Silent Directive is a horror podcast. There

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are many themes some users may find disturbing.

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Please check the description before listening.

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Thank you. The Silent Directive Episode 1 The

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Speaker 160.23 GHz Before I begin this new journey,

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I must ask you to go back and listen to my first

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eight tapes. They tell the story of my being,

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my beginning. The story in this broadcast explains

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those events, but if you'd like to experience

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them firsthand, you still can. Alright, if you're

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still listening, you either already listened

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to the tapes or you don't care. Either way, fine

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by me. What could be a more fitting first story

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than my own? I was never alive. Not how you are,

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at least. The day I was born, I was born dead.

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A familiar tragedy. Sometimes avoidable, sometimes

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not. My death was avoidable. But it seems my

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mother didn't care for me enough to put the cigarette

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down. Sure enough, I died. Now, I don't know

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how souls work. I don't pretend to know the wisdom

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of the universe. All I know is I was so ready

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to be born, my soul didn't retreat to try again

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or stay in whatever before there is. I was so

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attached to my body, I possessed it. I possessed

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my own soul. As you can imagine, I grew up different.

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I still aged normally. My body was still a body.

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But my entire life, my soul was tied to that

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body very, very loosely. I didn't know what I

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was doing. Emergent souls rarely do. I didn't

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even know anything was different until I learned

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how other people slept. See, I never did. My

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body fell asleep, of course, but unlike you,

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I didn't wake up the next morning with no memory

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of the long hours of the night. Instead, as my

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body fell asleep, I woke up. I felt myself float

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upward and out of my body. There it was, sleeping

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in bed, yet I was in the air, free to roam. I

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thought it was the same for everyone. I'd wager

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it's just as difficult for you to imagine me

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roaming around my house as it is for me to imagine

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hours of sleep passing you by in a mere instant.

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I would float around my house, memorizing every

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divot in the drywall, counting every hair of

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the carpets, tracing every line in the wooden

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floor. Every morning when the sun would rise

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and my alarm would sound, I was pulled back into

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my body and I woke up feeling rested as usual.

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I had never grasped the concept of boredom before.

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I was never bored during the night. I only began

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to feel bored when, during the day, I found myself

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with hours to spare, yet I was stuck to my body.

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I tried to fulfill my nightly routine, count

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a new carpet, study a new wall. But my body couldn't

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keep up. I got exhausted too fast, and my brain

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could hardly focus. I found myself more and more

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eager to sleep. One day, as the sun came up,

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I felt that familiar pull back to my body, and

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for whatever reason, I decided to fight it. I

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didn't actually care, I was just curious. Could

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I? It turns out I could. I resisted the pull

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until it subsided. My body stayed asleep through

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my alarm and well into the day. I remember a

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feeling of excitement. That was a new emotion

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for me. Through my life, it had all been dull,

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going through the motions, doing what I was told

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and expected. But now I was free. I could wander,

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explore, and no one would give me off looks or

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change their actions behind my back. I was finally

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free. I could roam wherever I wanted, see whatever

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I wanted. My mother found me in my bed a few

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hours later. She tried to wake me, but there

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was nothing to wake. I was behind her, watching

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it all unfold. I didn't understand the sadness

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she felt. Wasn't she aware I was free? Why was

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she so disturbed and upset by my still body when

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I was finally untethered? As the EMTs rushed

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to my bed and tried to help me, I watched with

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curiosity. What a fascinating event to see, as

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an observer, not a participant. I didn't change

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the outcome by watching. As I was watching, ready

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to leave and wander the world, I felt a pull.

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This one was different. It wasn't toward my body,

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like usual. This was a pull away. Not in any

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direction, yet I felt it pulling me away from

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here, from this place. I was suddenly struck

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with a realization. This pole was final. It was

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indefinite, and it was irrefutable. I didn't

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want to go. I wanted to stay and explore this

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vast world. I wasn't ready for the peace the

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pole promised. So I reached my body and felt

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myself slip back inside. I woke up suddenly,

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shocking the EMTs and my mother. Everyone was

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confused, but I was not. I had a plan. I knew

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what I wanted. It was after that I began looking

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into the paranormal. If this was true for me,

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it must be true for others, right? Based on my

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own experiences, I was easily able to differentiate

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what was truth from what was lies. And that is

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where my story started. I went on a trip around

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the world. I knew I had to become something different.

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If I merely died or slept, my soul would eventually

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succumb to that pull, as all souls do. I devised

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a plan. If I became some sort of paradox, some

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enigma as I called it, I would be able to roam

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forever. You were there for those events. You

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listened as I enacted my plan. Unlike a haunt

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or even an anomaly, I'm not a singular being

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anymore. I was able to fracture and twist my

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soul into something else. A frequency. Frequencies

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are everywhere. They will never cease to exist.

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They will never be locked out of somewhere. More

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than air, more than gravity. They are untouched

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by the world. No sealed doors nor black holes

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can stop them. That is what I am now. My body

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is laying somewhere dead on a beach in Thailand,

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but I am everywhere. I wish I could explain it

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to you. The feeling is unlike anything we were

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ever meant to experience. Imagine submerging

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yourself in a large pool, and as you do, you

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can see what every drop of water sees. You can

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hear what every drop hears. It's amazing. I am

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the static in your headphones, the patterns under

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your eyes, the noise in your photos. I am the

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observer of the universe. It took me nearly a

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year to collect myself again, learn how to organize

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my being enough to broadcast a message. I hope

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you enjoy them. I do not regret leaving the world

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behind. I never felt human. My... Only regret

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is having to leave Philibert. He was a good friend.

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I hope he finds his final peace well. I'm glad

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he was there through my journey. That is something

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I learned as of late. As much as I wanted to

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be an invisible observer, there is an emptiness

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behind it. What is there to observing if you

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cannot share it? Which brings me back to you.

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I am so glad you choose to listen to my stories.

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I have so many. I've seen so much. And I cannot

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wait to share these unseen, untold stories with

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you all. As long as there is someone to hear,

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I will continue to share.