Hello, hello, hello, how are you? I hope you're doing fine. Welcome to the Mindset Twist podcast.
My name is Marixanne Martina and I am your international mindset mentor for personal
development and business growth. And this year I launched this podcast, the Mindset
Twist podcast, because my nickname is the Mindset Expert. I know how to twist your mindset within
seconds. Today we have a very special podcast because this podcast is about emotional freedom.
And when we are talking about emotional freedom, we are talking about one particular tool and that
is forgiveness. Five years ago I wrote an inspirational card and inspirational card says
forgive yourself because forgiveness is one of the powerful tools after love.
We tend to forgive another but we forget to forgive ourselves. Forgive yourself for everything you
have done and for everything and for anything you said you will do and you didn't. For your faults
and especially not for loving yourself enough. And those inspirational cards were written
because they were inspirations that helped me during my depression when I was down.
And I decided to use it to share it with the world so I can inspire and help another.
To talk about forgiveness I have to go back when I was a child.
And everyone that knows me very well knows that I had a very different relationship with my dad.
The relationship I had with my dad wasn't a father-daughter relationship, it was more a
friend relationship. So my father was my friend so I can tell my father, I could tell my father
everything and the way I was thinking it so without any filter.
A couple of years ago this relationship stranded. So I had for a couple of years
this I think was two years we didn't have contact with each other.
And to go back to the core of this podcast it was during Christmas time. It was around
I think five years ago, five or six years ago, around Christmas time that I felt that my heart
was heavy. It was heavy because I wanted to forgive him, I wanted to have peace, I wanted my inner peace
back. So I opened my Facebook and I wrote him a message and after that I
had a prayer, I had conversations with God and after that I had a meditation and it felt okay.
Little did I know back then that every level of growth demands another level of forgiveness
and that was during my growth period. It was growing emotionally but also spirituality.
And then you reach another level and then you have to forgive on another level
and this happened during Covid. During Covid I was back home because I was still traveling,
I was back home and I was working on my businesses and guess what my father was a businessman
and when he was home he was sitting at the same, I was sitting at the table
specially for him and he had special place where he was working on his projects.
Unconsciously four years ago I sat at the same table at the same place working on my business
and it hit me. I was like what? I'm sitting here on the same place at the same place as my dad,
my dad is still alive but he's living in the Netherlands right now having another family
he decided to move on, my parents are divorced by the way so I sat at the same table at the same
place doing the same thing and then the reality hit me because I thought I forgive him but a lot
of things came up at that moment. The next day I was looking in a photo album with my knees
and I came across a photo with my dad and my dad was watching me at some point that was
very nice but it was the same the same same way he was looking at me the night before I sat at
the table, a very strange feeling I had at that moment but I also knew at that moment that I didn't
forgive him completely. Then another level started.
Back in the Netherlands I decided to write him a letter but this time I didn't write him a letter
to Santa to him I wrote a blog and in this blog I was talking to him asking him what if
what if if everything was like before and at the end of the blog
I sat to him I know I was selfish because I wanted you to be the father I saw my friends with
I want you to be the father like I had before the relationship we had before but I accept it
I accept that you moved on that you moved on and that the lessons that I had to learn from you
were given and it's okay little did I know
that I cracked another level of forgiveness at the time
I sent him this blog
nervous because I didn't know if I could handle his reaction at the time
but he reacted very peacefully and very emotionally other than that he didn't
say anything and for me it was okay and for me that was the feeling that was the moment
that I acknowledged that I passed some level and I had emotional freedom at that point
now I'm taking you to last Christmas
I had a disagreement with a family member back in June July last year and it hurt me a lot
and I was asking myself why did it hurt me that much
last year Christmas two days before Christmas on the 23rd of December I was in
Barcelona and I had a strong feeling that I need to forgive this person but most of all
I needed to forgive myself so I have so I can experience peace
and I started to have conversations with God again to ask him to give me the courage to do this
and I started the same process of forgiveness
I forgive myself first and after that I wrote a message to this the other person asking
for forgiveness
and after that I felt some peace
a little did I know
that the peace I felt at that moment
was another level cracking open for healing this year
it was a huge work
it was deep and it was painful
and sometimes I did things that I didn't even know that I needed to do them
the only thing I did was listening to the voice of God
it was a beautiful moment but again little did I know that one week before the retreat
one week before the eat brain love experience in Madrid
some strange activities
send me to the place where my dad lives
I had to do a visit I had to visit a student
because I'm also a Spanish and an event teacher and one of my tasks is I have to
go and look for my students when they are doing their practical
and this was very strange because normally I always look for the address and I was looking
I always look up two days before how I can get there and this time I didn't
it was the morning that I woke up I woke up and I was like oh I need to see where I need to have to
and I saw that place the place that I know that my father lives where my father lives
and I was like oops God I know it was you because you know if I look this up beforehand
I will cancel
little did I know again
then just one stop away the student called me and cancel our appointment
and there I was in the city where my father lives
but my heart was at peace
and I had conversations with myself and the conversations were about
if you see him right now how will you react
if you see him right now
what kind of conversation you will have
if you see him right now
would you make the same jokes you did like back then
and the last one was if you see him right now would you ask him to bring you back
at work
the conversations were so peaceful so nice and at that moment I know that I reach
a very new level of forgiveness it was fine it was nice it was peaceful but most of all
I got some emotional freedom hey join me on the 12th of December I will launch our first
course about forgiveness but of course is known as 8 day of emotional freedom
I will walk with you I will give you the tools so you can break through some emotional chains
so you can get this level of freedom healing and love from my heart to yours thank you for listening