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Hello, hello, hello, how are you? I hope you're doing fine. Welcome to the Mindset Twist podcast.

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My name is Marixanne Martina and I am your international mindset mentor for personal

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development and business growth. And this year I launched this podcast, the Mindset

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Twist podcast, because my nickname is the Mindset Expert. I know how to twist your mindset within

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seconds. Today we have a very special podcast because this podcast is about emotional freedom.

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And when we are talking about emotional freedom, we are talking about one particular tool and that

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is forgiveness. Five years ago I wrote an inspirational card and inspirational card says

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forgive yourself because forgiveness is one of the powerful tools after love.

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We tend to forgive another but we forget to forgive ourselves. Forgive yourself for everything you

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have done and for everything and for anything you said you will do and you didn't. For your faults

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and especially not for loving yourself enough. And those inspirational cards were written

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because they were inspirations that helped me during my depression when I was down.

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And I decided to use it to share it with the world so I can inspire and help another.

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To talk about forgiveness I have to go back when I was a child.

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And everyone that knows me very well knows that I had a very different relationship with my dad.

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The relationship I had with my dad wasn't a father-daughter relationship, it was more a

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friend relationship. So my father was my friend so I can tell my father, I could tell my father

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everything and the way I was thinking it so without any filter.

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A couple of years ago this relationship stranded. So I had for a couple of years

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this I think was two years we didn't have contact with each other.

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And to go back to the core of this podcast it was during Christmas time. It was around

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I think five years ago, five or six years ago, around Christmas time that I felt that my heart

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was heavy. It was heavy because I wanted to forgive him, I wanted to have peace, I wanted my inner peace

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back. So I opened my Facebook and I wrote him a message and after that I

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had a prayer, I had conversations with God and after that I had a meditation and it felt okay.

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Little did I know back then that every level of growth demands another level of forgiveness

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and that was during my growth period. It was growing emotionally but also spirituality.

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And then you reach another level and then you have to forgive on another level

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and this happened during Covid. During Covid I was back home because I was still traveling,

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I was back home and I was working on my businesses and guess what my father was a businessman

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and when he was home he was sitting at the same, I was sitting at the table

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specially for him and he had special place where he was working on his projects.

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Unconsciously four years ago I sat at the same table at the same place working on my business

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and it hit me. I was like what? I'm sitting here on the same place at the same place as my dad,

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my dad is still alive but he's living in the Netherlands right now having another family

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he decided to move on, my parents are divorced by the way so I sat at the same table at the same

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place doing the same thing and then the reality hit me because I thought I forgive him but a lot

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of things came up at that moment. The next day I was looking in a photo album with my knees

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and I came across a photo with my dad and my dad was watching me at some point that was

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very nice but it was the same the same same way he was looking at me the night before I sat at

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the table, a very strange feeling I had at that moment but I also knew at that moment that I didn't

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forgive him completely. Then another level started.

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Back in the Netherlands I decided to write him a letter but this time I didn't write him a letter

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to Santa to him I wrote a blog and in this blog I was talking to him asking him what if

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what if if everything was like before and at the end of the blog

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I sat to him I know I was selfish because I wanted you to be the father I saw my friends with

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I want you to be the father like I had before the relationship we had before but I accept it

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I accept that you moved on that you moved on and that the lessons that I had to learn from you

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were given and it's okay little did I know

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that I cracked another level of forgiveness at the time

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I sent him this blog

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nervous because I didn't know if I could handle his reaction at the time

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but he reacted very peacefully and very emotionally other than that he didn't

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say anything and for me it was okay and for me that was the feeling that was the moment

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that I acknowledged that I passed some level and I had emotional freedom at that point

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now I'm taking you to last Christmas

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I had a disagreement with a family member back in June July last year and it hurt me a lot

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and I was asking myself why did it hurt me that much

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last year Christmas two days before Christmas on the 23rd of December I was in

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Barcelona and I had a strong feeling that I need to forgive this person but most of all

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I needed to forgive myself so I have so I can experience peace

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and I started to have conversations with God again to ask him to give me the courage to do this

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and I started the same process of forgiveness

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I forgive myself first and after that I wrote a message to this the other person asking

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for forgiveness

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and after that I felt some peace

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a little did I know

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that the peace I felt at that moment

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was another level cracking open for healing this year

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it was a huge work

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it was deep and it was painful

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and sometimes I did things that I didn't even know that I needed to do them

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the only thing I did was listening to the voice of God

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it was a beautiful moment but again little did I know that one week before the retreat

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one week before the eat brain love experience in Madrid

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some strange activities

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send me to the place where my dad lives

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I had to do a visit I had to visit a student

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because I'm also a Spanish and an event teacher and one of my tasks is I have to

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go and look for my students when they are doing their practical

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and this was very strange because normally I always look for the address and I was looking

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I always look up two days before how I can get there and this time I didn't

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it was the morning that I woke up I woke up and I was like oh I need to see where I need to have to

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and I saw that place the place that I know that my father lives where my father lives

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and I was like oops God I know it was you because you know if I look this up beforehand

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I will cancel

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little did I know again

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then just one stop away the student called me and cancel our appointment

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and there I was in the city where my father lives

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but my heart was at peace

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and I had conversations with myself and the conversations were about

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if you see him right now how will you react

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if you see him right now

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what kind of conversation you will have

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if you see him right now

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would you make the same jokes you did like back then

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and the last one was if you see him right now would you ask him to bring you back

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at work

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the conversations were so peaceful so nice and at that moment I know that I reach

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a very new level of forgiveness it was fine it was nice it was peaceful but most of all

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I got some emotional freedom hey join me on the 12th of December I will launch our first

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course about forgiveness but of course is known as 8 day of emotional freedom

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I will walk with you I will give you the tools so you can break through some emotional chains

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so you can get this level of freedom healing and love from my heart to yours thank you for listening