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Hey everyone, this is Josh from Encounter Church Henley and thanks so much for tuning

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into our podcast.

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Our prayer is that through this podcast you can have an encounter with Jesus that'll

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change your life.

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And now get ready for an inspiring message from our preaching team.

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At the year 2020 Ash and I found ourselves in Mawson Lakes in the north of Adelaide trying

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to launch a church plant, a house church plant in houses during COVID when you couldn't go

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to other people's houses.

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We had a dream, a vision, a calling and in the years before we had built a small team,

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I'd quit my job, we'd moved far away from friends and family by Adelaide standards,

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which is about half an hour, to follow this call.

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But we didn't get far.

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And I've told this story before in the life of our church plant, of this walk that I had

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during that season.

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It was one of the times in my life where I've heard God's voice clear.

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I was pouring my heart out to God on this walk, asking him why this church plant was

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kind of failing.

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I knew there were things that were in my control.

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I also knew there were a lot of things that were outside of my control like a global pandemic.

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And I was just pouring my heart out to God.

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You know, there's 14,000 people who live in Mawson Lakes.

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How many of them know Jesus?

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Why wasn't God using us to reach those people?

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And as I was walking, God just rebuked me.

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He said to me, Tim, I don't need you.

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And in my mind, I could see all these people having encounters with the Holy Spirit in the

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presence of God in their everyday life, driving the car, going to bed, all these places that

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were not a church or not a house church even, just in their everyday life.

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But God said to me, but I want to work with you.

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I want to work with you.

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And I've told this story before in this plant, a different plant.

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This is a different plant.

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But here's the part that I didn't share.

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The Lord crushed me in that moment in a helpful way because what God did was name and crush

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my pride in my heart of hearts.

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My motivation to plant that church wasn't just to be.

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It was to be obedient to the Lord's call, but it wasn't just to be obedient to the Lord's

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call.

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My motivation was to fix the broken model of church that I had come to see and be perceived

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as great.

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My motivation was to solve the church so that people would think that I was impressive.

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Don't get me wrong.

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I cared about the mission.

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I cared about God.

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I wanted and desired the Kingdom of God.

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But planting that church was about me.

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It was about me.

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For me anyway.

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It was about me.

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More than it was about those 14,000 people who didn't know Jesus.

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And I'm glad it failed because my head wouldn't have fit through the door to get into this

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room.

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And I wouldn't be in this room either anyway, more than likely, here with you if it hadn't

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failed.

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And in that moment, God named to me what I had not yet named to Him that in my heart

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of hearts, I thought that God needed me.

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I thought I was indispensable to God.

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I was praying, but I was praying kind of dishonored, distorted prayers.

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I was praying, God, all for your glory, but in my heart of hearts, it was all for mine.

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I was projecting to God a version of myself that I wanted to be like, that I wanted to

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be like, or at least I thought I needed to be like.

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And all that did was create this facade between me and God, this kind of distorted barrier

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because I was dealing with reality as I thought it should be, or I thought I should be.

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And God was dealing with reality as it actually was.

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And God's rebuke crushed the facade that I had put between God and myself.

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I wasn't getting real with God about my own motivations.

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And so God got real with me.

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And reality as it actually is crushed my pride.

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I actually couldn't fix the church and I still can't.

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This is an imperfect church.

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It's a beautiful church, but an imperfect church.

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God didn't actually need me.

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I was not and will not ever be great and that is okay.

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Reality reminded me that I was just him and just him was and is flawed.

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And just him is also and was also deeply loved by God.

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I didn't need to be this super pastor, Tim.

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I just needed to be Tim as a pastor.

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I just needed to step into God's invitation to participate in what he's doing.

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The step in is I actually was and actually am not what I think I should be.

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And now that God had got real with me, we were both on the same page.

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And because we were on the same page, God could actually teach me and I could grow.

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Welcome to Encounter Church and also the inner workings of my heart.

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It's a great day for it.

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We're in the last week of our core values series.

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And today we're looking at our last core value.

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We have looked at Jesus.

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We have looked at people.

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We've looked at generous.

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See, they're on the wall, so we can't forget them and this week we're looking at real.

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As a church, we want to develop an authentic, healthy generation of Godly pioneers.

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That's why real is one of our core values.

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But before we can do that and actually so that we can do that and become those kind

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of people, authentic, healthy, Godly pioneers.

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We've got to get real with God.

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We've got to get real with God, which is not what Ananias and Saphirah did.

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In our teaching text today, we're in the book of Acts and Pentecost has calmed the spirit,

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the fire of the Holy Spirit has been given to the church and the church has been born

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and the church is working out what it means to be the church.

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And because they have become one family in Christ Jesus and they feel this mandate to

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care for the poor, they begin to hold all things in common.

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And those who are wealthy would sell off property and give money to the church to look after

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the less well off.

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The passage just before the one that I read, it's about Barnabas.

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And Barnabas will become a big player in the early church.

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Barnabas does this.

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He sells a field and he gives money to the apostles to support the poor.

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And then we hear about Ananias and Saphirah.

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And like Barnabas, they sell a field, so they're wealthy and they bring the money to the apostles,

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but there's a problem.

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They've brought the money claiming to give the full proceeds of the sale to the church,

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but in reality, they've pocketed part of it for themselves.

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Why would someone claim to have given all like Barnabas does when in reality they haven't?

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Why not just give a part and name it for what it is?

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The part, that part, that little part, that big part, whatever part it is, is still going

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to be game changing for the poor and the widows and those who are less fortunate in their

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community.

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The only real logical reason to mislead the apostles is that they wanted the honor of

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having given all without the sacrifice of having given all.

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Really the donation they made was more about them than it was about the people who are

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really in need.

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It was more about how they were perceived and honored within their community.

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They wanted the honor the Barnabas got without the sacrifice that Barnabas made.

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Now people will mislead people all the time and the church is certainly not immune to

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this, but Peter, the leader of the church, he is not misled.

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And whether he has a prophetic insight from the Lord or not, it's just really good at

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picking when people are lying.

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Peter sees through and he says, and a nice, why have you let Satan feel your heart?

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You lied to the Holy Spirit and he kept some of the money for yourself.

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The property was yours to sell or not sell as you wished.

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And after selling it, the money was also yours to give away.

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How could you do a thing like this?

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You were lying not to us, but to God.

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He says, not only did you not need to lie, you haven't lied to us.

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You actually lied to God.

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And lying to God is like when my daughter tells me to her face that she did not in fact

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hit her brother.

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Even though she knows, I literally just watched her do it.

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It's like, seriously, why bother with this?

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We both know that I know that you smacked him.

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My dear child, would you like to change or reconsider this approach that you're taking?

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Sometimes she does, sometimes she doesn't.

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In Jeremiah 1710, the Lord declares, but I, the Lord, search all hearts and examine secret

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motives.

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I give all people their due rewards according to what their actions deserve.

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We can't hide even our hearts from God.

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Our deepest secret motivations, the secret place, the thoughts and the feelings from which

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our life flows out from.

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God examines them.

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God just doesn't know them.

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He sees them.

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God knows when gifts of gold to the poor is more about us than it is about them.

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God knows when church plants or ministries are more about us than they are about them.

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God knows even when we're fasting for weight loss and not for him.

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God knows when we pray for things that are really about benefiting us and not the kingdom

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of God.

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God knows our hearts.

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God knows our hearts.

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And lying to him is straight up unnecessary and actually impossible.

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We cannot actually mislead God, but Ananias tries and he dies.

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Why does Ananias die?

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I'm going to be real with you because it's one of our core values.

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I don't know.

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I just don't know.

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Some scholars think he dropped dead of a heart attack after being publicly called out.

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I know sometimes it feels preferable to me to just drop dead rather than be publicly

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called out.

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Well, that seems like a better outcome sometimes than being publicly called out, but that doesn't

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make sense of what happens to Saphira afterwards.

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She doesn't know that Ananias has cucked it and comes in later with a very leading question

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from Peter and it's a leading question with an invitation to repent, to fess up, to acknowledge

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that they've made a mistake, that they have tried to deceive the church and God.

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Peter says, was this the price that your husband received for your land?

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But she doesn't take the opportunity to repent.

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She claims it's the full amount.

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And Peter says, how could the two of you even think of conspiring to test the Spirit of

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the Lord like this?

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The young men who buried you are just outside the door and they will carry you out too.

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And so Saphira drops dead.

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Why do they die for lying?

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I don't know.

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The most convincing theory is this, that this situation serves to illustrate the power and

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presence and holiness of God that was swirling around the early church, just like it was swirling

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around the tabernacle in the Old Testament when people would just drop dead from touching

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the wrong thing.

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Let's all just be glad that nobody has dropped dead for saying that they tire 10%, but in

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reality they're actually tithing 9.5%.

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I'm not good at maths, alright?

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And right now, publicly, in this service, I would like to know why my wife who's almost

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finished a pure maths degree still makes me do the budget.

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Different maths.

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Different.

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Ananias and Saphira, they deliberately try to mislead God for their own societal honour.

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Lying is projecting a false or distorted image of reality.

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When Olive says, I didn't hit Judah, even though she obviously did, she's projecting

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a version of reality where she didn't hit Judah and therefore will not receive the correction

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or boundaries that hitting Judah produces.

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When Ananias and Saphira say, this is the full amount, even though it's not, they're

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projecting a false reality where they did give the full amount and reap the honour in

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the community for the sacrifice that someone like Barnabas who actually gave the full amount

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received.

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Because if they didn't lie and came and said, I sold a field, here's part of the money,

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they would receive thanks, but not the kind of honour that someone who gave a full amount

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received.

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No matter how wealthy you are, if you sell a property and give part of that to a church

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or a charity of some kind, that would be a really nice thing to do.

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You might get a nice email, maybe a couple of phone calls asking you to give more regularly

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and not in one-off sums.

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It would be a charitable donation.

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Go you.

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Great.

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But if you sold a property in this economy and you gave the full amount, you would be

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insane.

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And everyone would be asking you why you did that.

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And you would receive far greater honour than if you gave in part because your sacrifice

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was total, was the total amount, was the whole amount.

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And Ananias and Saphira, they want that honour and so they project a false version of reality,

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a reality where they gave the full amount.

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And for them, the consequences are total.

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People lie and mislead others all the time, even in church.

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You only have to add scandal to the word church on Google and you just get pages and pages

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of atrocious dealings in attempting to project false or distorted versions of reality.

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But reality always wins.

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The truth always comes out in the end.

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Jesus says in Luke 12, the time is coming when everything that is covered up will be

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revealed and all that is secret will be made known to all.

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What Jesus said in the dark will be heard in the light and what you have whispered behind

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closed doors will be shouted from the house tops for all to hear.

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See false or distorted realities, versions of reality, they may hold for a while but

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eventually they will come crashing down.

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Reality is undefeated.

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The God who sees all and knows all sees and knows and God will put everything right in

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the end.

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But here's the thing.

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Lying to God, projecting false realities to him, generally speaking, and we're going

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to put Saphira and Ananias aside over here, there are not drastic consequences for doing

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this, for misleading God.

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Except for this one.

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And I think it's actually kind of drastic.

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You just won't grow spiritually.

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You just won't grow.

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Lying to God, you just won't grow.

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If you try and mislead God and try to pretend to God that this is fine and that you're doing

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this thing for the right reasons, but, and that this thing is actually about, not about

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you, but about these people, really needy people over there.

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If you project a false or distorted reality to God, you can't and won't grow spiritually.

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As God sees the truth, he sees reality as it actually is.

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Tim is planning this church because he thinks that he's solved it and I need him.

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And because he hopes it'll make him, really make him somebody.

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That's my projection of a false version of reality to God.

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Oh, that's, that's the reality.

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But my false version of reality is, you know, I'm doing everything I can here, God.

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You called me here.

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I'm just being humbly obedient.

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Why is everything falling apart?

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Why are you coming through for me and God?

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You see, God and I are just not on the same page.

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We're working from different realities.

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How can, how can God help me see that I need to grow?

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How can God help me to learn genuine humility and genuine selflessness when I think that

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I'm being humble and selfless?

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We're not borrowing from the same blockbuster.

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We're on different planets, different pages, different starting places.

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How can I grow?

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A doctor can't treat a patient who won't accept a diagnosis.

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They must be dealing with the same reality.

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And sometimes it's difficult to accept reality.

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It's difficult to accept a diagnosis and what it means.

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It's difficult to accept that you actually are, in my case, neither humble nor selfless.

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Yet.

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The acceptance that this is where you are for now, that this right here is reality.

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That acceptance is the first step of growth in anything.

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Think about the 12 step program for AA that treats alcohol addiction.

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The first step is this.

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We admitted that we were powerless over alcohol and that our lives had become unmanageable.

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First step of soberness is to accept that you are powerless to be sober.

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The false or distorted versions of reality that say, you know, this isn't a big deal

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and I can stop when I want to.

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They're washed away by the acceptance of reality as it actually is.

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I have a problem that I cannot solve by myself.

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David Benner wrote an amazing book called The Gift of Being Yourself and in that he

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says this reality must be embraced before it can be changed.

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You simply must get real with God if we want to grow spiritually.

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We must come to God as we actually are.

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Not how we think God will accept us.

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We must lay down our false or distorted versions of reality at the foot of the cross and embrace

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our reality.

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And I have found no better description of our reality than this from Tim Keller.

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We are more sinful and flawed in ourselves than we ever dared believe.

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You know, at the very same time we are more loved and accepted in Jesus Christ than we

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ever dared hope.

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This is the gospel that our heart of hearts, in our heart of hearts, we're not that great.

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Take advantage of others to soothe our own gain.

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We make things about ourselves.

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We pretend to be people that we are not.

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We are more sinful and flawed than we dared believe, admit or are willing sometimes to

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face.

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But we are more loved and accepted in Jesus than we could ever hope or imagine.

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Getting real with God is scary because getting real with God can leave us feeling exposed

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and vulnerable.

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Just to get real with God we must come before Him as we actually are.

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We must unwind those things, those experiences, those stories we tell ourselves, those things

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that have been spoken over us by others.

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That we've wound around ourselves like bandages to protect ourselves from the world and also

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from God.

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To make us feel safe and tangible and perceptible.

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Getting real with God is scary because I tell myself I'm humble and other people tell

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me I'm humble and I really want to be humble.

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I can tell you stories of times when I've acted with humility.

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But those are things that I have wound around myself to make myself feel better about what's

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behind the curtain of my heart, what's inside my heart of hearts.

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Because underneath those things behind the curtain of my heart is just a cesspool of

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pride.

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And it is frightening to let anyone ever see that let alone preach about it.

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Because if anyone sees that let alone God, if God sees behind the curtain and realizes

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that I'm actually not humble like I know I should be, is it all over for me?

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Will God reject me?

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Will my greatest fear be realized?

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Will I be found unwanted and unlovable?

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But my friends, God does see even right now, even when we're trying so hard to hide from

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Him, He does see behind the curtains of our hearts.

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He does see through those false versions of reality we project.

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And He loves us and He accepts us still.

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And it's better than that.

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Through faith in Jesus we are in Christ.

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We are united to Him, united to the one who went to the cross, united to the one who sacrificed

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wasn't in part but was total.

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Jesus gave up his life for you and for me.

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And through faith we have died with Christ and we will be raised with Him.

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We're going to celebrate baptism next week and that is a demonstration of that reality.

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And because we've been hidden in Christ, because we are one with Him who is the Son of God,

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we have actually been adopted into God's family.

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So God just doesn't love us, it's better.

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God calls us His beloved Son or beloved daughter and we get to call Him Father.

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We are not condemned for what's in our hearts.

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We are saved and loved and held and treasured.

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When we are in Jesus we are in the safest place in the universe.

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When we are in Jesus we can get real with God without fear.

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We can embrace reality.

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We can unwind those things that we use to protect ourselves.

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We can pull back the curtain of our hearts and just pour out the ugliness inside to God

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in prayer.

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We can let Him into those rooms in our life that we keep locked and under key.

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We can be honest about our motivations.

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We don't have to project to God a version of ourselves that we think He wants or wish

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we were because He sees us and He knows us and He loves us still.

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At Encounter we want to help you grow like a sunflower that grows towards the sun.

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We want to help you grow towards Jesus.

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We want to help you grow into the image of Jesus which if you are a follower of Jesus

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that is your calling in life is to become like Jesus and to do the things that He did.

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But you can't grow unless you get real with God.

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I can't become truly humble in my heart until I let God into the cesspool of pride in my

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heart of hearts because He is the only one who can actually help me deal with that.

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Jesus is the only one who can make me humble because Jesus is the only one who was truly

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humble.

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Get real with God and grow.

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Trust me it's far more comfortable to get real with God than to let God get to the point

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where He's like I have to get real with you.

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It's that, it's much harder.

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God had to get real with me and we got on the same page.

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You are filled with pride Tim.

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Yes, yes I am.

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And since that moment God has done His work and the cesspool is more like a cesspuddle.

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It's shrinking.

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And I can honestly say that where before I would have looked at this church and in counterhandling

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and how well we are going as a new church before in my heart of hearts I would have

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never been in my heart, never allowed.

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Look what I did.

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But now I look at this church.

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It's beautiful, imperfect, family of God between the city and the beach.

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And in my heart of hearts I'm just filled with gratitude.

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Filled with gratitude.

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In my heart of hearts I say look what God is doing.

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Look what God did.

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In my heart is filled with gratitude.

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Because I know that God doesn't need me.

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But what a privilege it is to get to play a part in what He is doing.

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If we would do this, if we would become a community that gets real with God, this is

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what I think we will find.

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When we are real with God, we find that we are and always have been loved in reality

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by God.

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And this allows us to be real with ourselves.

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We can admit things about ourselves that we might find deeply shameful like trying to

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plant a church purely out of pride.

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I can admit that about myself because I know that I am loved.

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And because we know that we are deeply beloved by God, we are able to love ourselves in reality.

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Those and sins and all.

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And because we are, we can love ourselves in reality, we can be real with others.

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We can live out this value of real.

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We can be real with our brothers and sisters in Christ.

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And we can actually love them in reality.

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Because if we are accepted and loved, and we can love and accept ourselves, we are not

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trying to protect ourselves from how others perceive us.

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We're not trying to project certain false realities.

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We're not trying to keep distance.

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We're not trying to build facades between each other.

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We're not trying to protect ourselves from each other.

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We are ourselves, flaws and all, deeply, deeply beloved by God and growing towards Jesus.

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And friends, we actually need each other on this journey of life towards and with Jesus.

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We actually need each other, not in reality.

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We don't need each other's false projected versions of ourselves.

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We need each other in reality.

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Galatians 6 says this, dear brothers and sisters, if another believer is overcome by some sin,

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you who are godly should go gently and humbly to help that person back on the right path.

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And be careful not to fall into the same temptation yourself.

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Share each other's burdens and in this way obey the law of Christ.

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If you think you're too important to help someone, you're only falling yourself.

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You're just not that important.

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If you never share with anyone else the sin in your own heart, how can anyone help you

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with it?

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If you never share your burden, how can anyone help you carry it?

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And if you never share your burden, how does anyone feel like they can share their burden?

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There's power in speaking it out to another believer.

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James 5 says this, confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you

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might be healed.

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The earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and produces wonderful results.

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What a promise.

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Friends, if we won't get real with God, we can't get real with ourselves and we certainly

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won't get real with each other.

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And so we'll be like 40 solitary little kayaks on a lake in a storm just left to fend for

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ourselves when we could come together in those little pods to weather the storm together.

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And we actually have little kayak pods at Encounter.

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We call them cords.

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Those are just a group of three people who catch up regularly and the gist is this, one

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person alone is not ideal.

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Two is better.

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But have you heard of three?

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Three is pretty good.

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You're not going to get want to get real with everyone here and you certainly shouldn't

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get real on Instagram or Facebook.

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You need to find people you can trust where it's safe, unsanitized, honest, where it's

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okay to not be okay, where you can push and prod and stir each other up in the face, not

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get comfortable and to keep growing towards Jesus.

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Thanks so much for tuning into this week's message.

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If you felt challenged or need prayer, would love to hear from you on Instagram at EncounterHenry.

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Or if you're interested in how you can support this ministry, please go to our website EncounterAdelaide.com.au.

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Thanks again for listening.

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God bless you.

