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Well, if you can, we're just we're hanging out. We're all good. Life is good. No, right?

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Yes, the weather. So right. Well, right. The weather first, right? The

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hurricane, Haleen coming right up to Florida, keeping it topical because, you know, this is a

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podcast that'll come out like a week later. But by this time, yeah, by this time, they might even

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get another hurricane. Who knows? But I know Florida got hit and then Georgia got hit and then it just

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like went up through Augusta and South Carolina and Tennessee. They just weren't ready for it.

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They got pummelled. And I've been in a righteous amount of a dilulu about the entire storm. I slept.

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Yeah. Yeah. I slept right through it all mine too. Like, conures didn't really get hit all that bad.

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You see, what was happening is that the powers that be decided that conures wasn't going to get

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hit by a hurricane. We were going to get hit by an exploded chemical factory

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that caused me and roughly 10,000 people to get evacuated out of their homes. And we are currently

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waiting to see what the fallout is. They say it's chlorine, it may be chlorine and some kind of

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vaporized acid. We don't know. We're finding that out. Currently, I am not in front of my normal.

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Florida. Here in Florida, everybody was losing their mind. Oh my God. Oh my God,

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poured the windows. Oh my God. Well, I'm glad everybody weathered the weather. You guys don't

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have to worry about a chemical explosion. So I'm glad for that. And now we are here after

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much planning and discussing to talk about and to the priestess, Yannick. Hello. Yes. Yes.

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It's your girl. It's your girl, honey. Yes. I'm glad to be on tonight. Glad to be going. Yeah.

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Yeah. I'm glad to have you here. I want to start with the church story. Okay. So that was the very

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first video I saw and they were giving you a whole lot of drama. Let's start with that. Okay. So

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this is like 2021 going into 2022. Been transitioning for about seven years at this point.

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Well, I'm on transition and finally set the stage work to have my surgeries done and had

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transitioned socially in the church that I was attending at the time. And I talk about this on

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the podcast, conversations with the priestess, diver church girl. We were going steady afterwards,

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brought a big proclamation of support, which turned out to be a show for the Facebook live

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and the YouTube live crowd, you know, so everything was going good until there was a situation with

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one of the, well, let me start with the bishop. So during this time of me transitioning socially,

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that one particular bishop and I had a certain type of relationship had a little salacious

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entanglement, which really he was using his influence of power. And I wasn't the only person

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that he was dealing with at that time. So, and it's wild because it's like something out of the

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TV show Green Leaf or Dynasty, something like that. Oh yeah, for sure. And I can't think of the

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other one on HBO, but it was like, I ran into one of his other pieces while we in church and

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they're looking me up and down. I'm like, honey, I'm not even worried about you. Like, you need to

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talk to him. I don't know why you looking at me, but then I already knew the game that players play.

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So that situation happened with him where there was a phone call that took place out of me as

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trans to the archbishop of the organization. And in that it was exposed that, you know, by me, of

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course, that we had had this relationship. And then on top of that, after this, there was another

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bishop that ranked a little bit higher. If you're in the Pinal Costa church, you'll have what we

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call a district bishop, regional bishop, then you'll have your state bishop, however they do it.

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It depends on the Reformation. But then you have your archbishop, which is the head honto of a

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whole organization, which is basically like just churches that are in the same club together,

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basically. So this was the head bishop of the pastor that brought the other bishop in. He was

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like trying. They all wanted you. They all wanted you. Well, come to find out. They're birds of a

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feather that flock together. They're all scammers and con artists and people looking for validation.

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And the similarities between all three of these, they are very abusive, but they all

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act like the one bishop that was supposed to be the one to help us through all the fallout of this,

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which he ended up taking advantage of me as well and in the vulnerable place that I was in.

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Because in the time of all this, I became homeless and was homeless up until like the end of 2022

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going into 2023. So I find I've at this point, I had left the church completely, finally left

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religion. But in April of 2022, after I've settled into transitional housing, my former pastor,

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who knew all of this, he asked for my resignation papers from the church. However, after everything

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was exposed, I really didn't get a chance to state my part in the whole thing. He did most of the

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speaking for me, but just allowed me to say the little important bits. And in hindsight,

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in his response, it was giving very much instead of the pastor being upset because his members had

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been violated, he was more so upset that it was the sexual relationship that he couldn't have with

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those particular bishops. And so recently, I got tangled. It's the tangled web. And these are the

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things that happen all the time. You saw this in the Hillsong church documentary as well. It's like

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with any cool documentary. So I actually sent him a letter, long email, a couple of years later,

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explained to him, you know, it's a lot that was unsaid, but I'm just letting you know. I'm telling

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my story. You were a horrible person. This is where you can find it because I'm letting it be

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know how you treated me. Right. There you go. Right. It's it's it's an ability. It's been a

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quite couple of instances in me telling my story. I've had some of his so-called friends

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messaging me on Facebook and stuff asking me who my posts were about. You know how you make a

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very bland post about your experience. And I'm like, sure, I'm not going to do. Y'all are actually

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exposing your friend and you don't realize it. They're trying. They're triangulating anybody who's

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actually like reading between the lines. They could easily probably find out who they're talking

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about. My God. Right. It's something that happens in the church world. I've seen this in my time of

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pastoring in my heyday and I've seen this throughout church all my life. Like whenever a person leaves

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a church because of how they're being treated is going to be a smear campaign. It's going to be a lot

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of childishness. It really is. But I'm telling my story now. It's childish. Exactly. And like I was

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telling a friend of mine, I'm not telling the story to be vindictive. I'm sharing my story to

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help other people and know what to look out for. Whenever you're joining any type of group of people,

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any spiritual circle or anything that's supposed to be of self-help because people take advantage

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of people like that. And we see it every day with the ebook things that people do with the money

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manifestation gurus, stuff like that. And it's annoying what's sincere and what's not.

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Can I, I, priestess, I just want to share with you. My name is Edith Ivey Rosenblatt. My father

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was into a Baptist cult. I grew up in a Baptist cult. We were groomed for men from the time we

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were very small. I was abused by the deacons there in the church so I can relate. They constantly

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would mistreat me in school to screw with my brain to make me doubt my reality so that they

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could continue abusing me. And this happened my entire life. And then I had to continue with my

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father who constantly speaks of Jesus and Andrew Tate. And he won't let up on every time he would

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get on the phone with me and things. And then finally I went to take care of him. And that's

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when I let go. I'm like, I deserve better than this. I just, I deserve so much better than being in a

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shitty cabin in the middle of nowhere, Texas, taking care of my father who has stage four cancer

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because his thoughts are so vile and so selfish. Yeah. And I am, that is a very traumatic experience

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experiencing that. And my heart goes out to you. You have my heart. And thank you. What people don't

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understand when you've experienced that type of abuse in a spiritual or religious setting in the

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church, that saw was your view on the world. That saw was your view on God. That saw was your view on

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people. And we're seeing it more so come out now thanks to social media. It's unfortunate,

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but we're seeing more and more instances of people coming out now talking about their abuse from

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spiritual circles from spiritual things. Even some of the things we've seen on the apps on the very

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social media apps where it's like, that's a cult, you know, those people are being abused. Yeah.

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But there's, there's this guy who will tell you, he'll look at your face and tell you how

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beautiful you are. He'll rate you from one to 10 on your beauty. And he doesn't think he's doing

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anything wrong. But that, that takes a trauma kid. You can't grow. Well, how are you going to grow?

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You're going to be constantly fixated on your looks for years. And then when you start aging,

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that's going to be even more trauma because you can't, you know, you're like, wait a minute,

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I'm aging. Right. What do I do now? And it's the audacity of these people to go around and proclaim

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these grand things, these grand ideas, do all of these words. And everybody knows that they're

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trash. They still get lauded for it. And even when you bring up the horrible things, they're

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still celebrated. We're even seeing this with the music mogul. I'm, they're not called his name,

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but it's like, are y'all really defending this type of behavior? Are y'all not thinking about

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those who have been victimized by this type of system? So after all that, where are you now?

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Like, spiritualized, like, how do you see yourself in the spiritual world? In the spiritual world.

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And it's funny. I thought about this today. I am not so much religious. I am more so a spiritual

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person, just me one with the universe, me with my ancestors, me with my spirit guide or however,

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you know, but it's not the whole Jesus, Jesus, Jesus rolling over in the dirt. I'm not doing all

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of that. I just simple read my little books, you know, do my little thing. I guess I would call

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myself an eclectic person. I just started tar tarot a couple of years ago. You are living your best

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life. Oh, yeah. I think I just recently saw a tarot pop up on some of your social stuff where

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you're doing that. How's that doing? By the way, are you are there? Are you feeling like you're

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gelling with that pretty well? It's going well. I actually took an extended break from doing tarot

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readings for others just so I could get some things settled. Because sometimes people, I went

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through a period where I was stated giving readings and it just started to become draining when you're

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dealing with so many different people, so many questions and just requests. But I'm slowly getting

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back into it. I actually am planning on doing some things later on tonight because I'm streaming

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and doing some readings because I'm like, oh, I have to make sure I'm not rusty at it. Well,

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I just want to say that I'm really surprised the boomerang of events that lands you and I

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together in front of a camera because Edith didn't know this when she dropped into your live or the

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video that you saw. But I mean, me and you go way back, we're slinging chicken and bojangles down in

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Robux, South Carolina. I'll be honest with you, I've known you so much now as Yannick or as she

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sees you, Priestess. I've seen you in this form longer than I knew you as, you know, at that point

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in my mail presentation. Yeah. Yeah. And so I barely remember that person at all because I

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like almost immediately after I left, you were like, you know, I'm going to become more about

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what I am. And I saw more of that on social media. And I was just kind of like a watcher just

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watching, you know, you grow. I had no idea about the homelessness in between. You know, you were

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you were wearing that surprisingly well. I don't think anybody from the outside, unless they knew,

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you knew, you knew what was going on. I only kept it to my close circle, like in certain

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relatives, because at that point, it was a lot of family members I was no contact with anyway,

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just the various circumstances. But as I've grown since then, and I've just seen how time has flown

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has flown seeing you on the podcast and seeing you on social media. You was well, it's like, oh,

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wow. And just meeting, I was like, I'm ready for fun. Yeah. Okay. Don't you find priestess? Don't

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you find that now that you're in your, your exact avatar self, your, your, your design, that's what

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I'm trying to get out of my mouth that your body is of your design. It's not someone else's

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interpretation. You're not doing it to appeal to someone else. You're doing it to appeal to

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yourself to live your fine life, the one, the divine life, the one that you're supposed to live,

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the one without fear, the one with love, the one that it's a flow state and everything comes to

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you. Would you, do you believe that? Do you believe that? First off, before you answer that, I just

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want to say, Edith, I love it when you get this passionate about seeing people's like, like growth

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in the way that they're shining and the glow that you point out. I love watching you get that

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passionate. That's great. Anyway, go ahead for your sister. Well, for me, one thing I learned

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that this body is mine. And that's why I was so gung-ho and adamant about my transition, but also

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within the transition is sort of a reclaiming my body from others and from society as well. So I'm

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trotting the path that I want and just going along with what life has to offer, but I'm making my own

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ways and making my own paths as well. So it's not only with the body, but it's also the spirit as

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well, the spirit of the whole entire beating. It's all of your design. Yes. And it's all of the design.

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So, you don't keep talking. I'll bear that. But everyone that has their own design is how you

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make it. You are the designer, the design me. How are you going to dress this up and how are you

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going to present it? What are you going to articulate with this design? Like, what is the

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message you want to send to everyone? I want to send one of love and positivity. And I believe

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you're doing that. I mean, I definitely went in your social media and I checked out your videos

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and see you're in Washington, right? Yes. Washington State or Washington, DC?

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In the district. In Washington, DC? I was saying you were calling the district.

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So for our listeners, would you just let them know is there a political unrest in your city?

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It feels like it. In some of your videos, I see people just walking up to you randomly creating

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resistance and things. So that's been most religious propaganda when I've been out and about.

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We haven't had any unrest yet. I don't think we had unrest since like that one day in January,

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a couple of years ago. January. Yes. Yeah, that was some unrest. Most of the times,

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I'm getting hassled by religious folk and by creepy being creepy sysmen at that. It's interesting,

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but I'm noticing that a lot of the religious propaganda is tied politically. So it's more

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so of political harassment, innocence. I know it's one video where a young lady decided she

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wanted to pester my partner and I, this is on Juneteenth, a matter of fact, extinct to Juneteenth.

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And she was like, Jesus loves you. I'm like, girl, I am partaking of my anabas right now, girl. I

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know Jesus loves me. Can you believe? I was enjoying it. You want to, you know, it's meant in this

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positive way, but then there's this experience that you've had that goes along with it. So it's

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like, okay, it's really hard. Hard for me to vibe with the, with Jesus right now. Okay, honey.

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You know, since I'm having to smoke cannabis to bring myself down from all the garbage that

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religion is like, but she, you know, we sent her on away and then she kept being persistent.

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And I'm like, look, I'm thinking of myself, I'm a former church girl. So I can either go real old

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school, penal costal girl, if you don't get out my face, because you ain't got no Holy Ghost on you.

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God, you need to go praying fast some more. And then the more secular side of me was like,

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am I going to have to get out this car and defend myself because I'm like, girl, if you don't back

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up, it's going to be hands because at this time you're threatening my space. But I'm like, also,

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I thought about it. I am a woman of color and police are police. So you know what,

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man, we're just going to keep moving and go the other way. Man, if you happen to get hit by the

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vehicle that's moving, you just happen to get hit and we just going to keep moving, you know,

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because you wouldn't move. But thankfully she moved out of the way. But I'm like, I'm looking at the

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men that were like, y'all ain't gonna get, y'all ain't gonna come get your wife. Y'all ain't gonna

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come get your wife. Like come get your wife. What do you think it is? What's the attraction? I mean,

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is it is it guilt? Is it what is it? A lot of the times it's they know that people are obviously

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queer, especially during the summer season. But when they see people who they automatically can

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figure out or what we call clock is that's an automatic thing for us. It happens on social

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media. I've been doing videos and here comes a scripture. I'm like, why is that the one scripture

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and I'm talking about dating and relationships? Like what is the tithing offering script? What

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is a grief scripture has to do with me talking about dating and relationships? Like the script

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is not even relevant. So I'm like, that's the gaslighting. That's the gaslighting, man. It's like

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but they present. I won't even go ahead. I'm just saying that scripture for me, I was forced to

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memorize the entire New Testament. Oh, God, I had to sit in a corner and study the Bible

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and memorize the entire New Testament. Now people are like, well, let's hear some Bible verses. I

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said, well, I'm not going to regurgitate that. I don't want anything to do with it. Someone forced

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me, someone stuck me in a cubicle with a book and said, memorize this and gave me a list

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of all all the every week over 100 Bible verses to memorize. I actually had a pastor that

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I had a pastor that tried that with us at one church and it felt horribly because no one did

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it. Yeah. Well, there's there's no passion. It doesn't hit anywhere in the heart. It doesn't

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ring true with you. You might as well be like you might as well sit times table in front of

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somebody. It feels like it's going to be the same kind of it's going to feel the same part of the

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brain. And then later it's going to be so dry. It's not going to mean anything to you. If I had

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grown up more around my grandparents, I probably would have been more in the church because he was

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he was a fire and brimstone Baptist preacher and that he kind of kind of calmed down in his beliefs

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when he came to what happens in the afterlife after his wife passed. And so it was interesting to

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watch him change and become more accepting about family and less about, Hey, we're all going to

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hell if we don't do this particular type of thing. But I grew up in mostly a non-religious

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house except for a few bits and pieces. But that meant that most of my things as I was growing up

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centered around counterculture, weed, hippie hippie stuff, peer pressure from the parents,

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which is always weird. But still like growing up with those kinds of things in an extreme

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environment always kind of changes more than what they think you're actually going to turn out to be

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just because you're being boiled in this thing where it's like extreme religion or counterculture

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or anything like that. I think we wind up coming out the other side, something completely different,

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a different shape than what they thought was going to happen by trying to put you in there.

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And I believe that I believe that I mean, I was forced. I didn't have a childhood. I've got so

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many stuffed animals. I want you to know I went and I bought, look, I bought a Care Bear today.

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That's a Care Bear. Yeah. Honey, I love you. Look, I am so determined to be in a place of love.

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I am so Care Bear shit. I mean, I am so goddess when I touched base with you, it was from a place

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of love. And I think you felt like felt that it's more genuine, you know, and I've practiced that

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because I being in the church, I didn't feel like I didn't feel like myself. I didn't get to study

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science. I didn't get to study NASA. I didn't get to study any of the things that just give me a

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charge, make my nipples harden, make me frickin crazy. I mean, there's a guy in Iceland.

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Yes, it does really amazing things. I get a charge. So I mean, there's a guy in, in, sorry,

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the North Pole right now, and he does TikToks. And I'm when I say it's not that I'm in love with him.

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I'm in love with the fact that he gets to be at the North Pole. He gets to do a job where he's

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regulating the station there. He does photography, he takes pictures, he maps the stars. He also,

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they monitor activity in Russia. My God, right? Like, they have activities where their shifts can

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be 12 hours, right? 12 hours, they're on 12 hours. And then they're off 12 hours. So after their shift,

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they'll go and they have a community room and they play foosball and pool and there's beer there

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and everything to keep their spirits high because that you can lose yourself in a place like that.

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They're allowed to do their TikToks. They're allowed to call their family whenever they feel

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like it. You know what I mean? Yes. And that's one thing I hated about being in the church world

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and being a social media personality, everything I said and did was under so much scrutiny.

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And you know, we also have church snitches and snitches. I love it. I love it. I totally.

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Which is still get stitches. So you know, you have some, I don't know what it is with people that

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want to just kiss up to the pastor and you know, Brown knows it. But I actually made a comment

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during the height of the pandemic. I said, I might as well start only fans, y'all. I need a stripper

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name. And this one particular ill then the church went running to the pastor. I'm getting phone

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calls. I said, honey, that was a joke. I said, and if church folks that up in arms about a joke,

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they need to look at themselves. Y'all doing too much. And I went off and cussed everybody out on

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the call. And I'm like, don't do that. Don't do that. Like, don't do that to me. Don't,

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don't do no snitch stuff. And I'm grown because I'm a hurt your feelings. But then also I actually

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had a web series called bath time confessions where all you saw was the neck up of me during

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bath time. And I had people, I had family members and church people calling my uncle doing this is

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like in the early thousands doing printouts of what I'm like, I could have anything else to do.

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You know what it is? Priestess, goddess, divine human jealousy, underhanded, and people don't

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see that they're being seen. You're you're showing your ass. I see you. Oh, you are.

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You there. Keep doing what you're doing. Keep honey. I love you do what you do. Spill the tea.

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Do your confessions. Oh, yeah. People that really love you want you to succeed. Want you to go to

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the next level. We love you here at bisexual coffee. Want you to come here. Want we would love for

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you to do your bath time confessions, but keep the plug away from the. Yes, we should all of us

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be in the tub. Right. So for me, it's like part of my bonus content that I do where I talk about

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different subjects. A lot of times I'll post the audio on the main stage, but the video as I do with

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a lot of the priestess after dark talks are behind the paywall because I'm talking about

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graphic stuff. No. And so I actually have a couple of episodes I have to work on, you know, after

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my little break or for the week, but it's like it's fun. But bath time confessions is just those

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times when I don't really feel like setting up. I can just put my little mic, put the camera right

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there. Boom. That's my nature is content or whatever content I have to do for that week. I love it.

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There's something to be said for simple content that actually comes from a place within instead

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of you trying to be performative. I love moments like that. Right now I'm kind of living like that

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because like all everything that's happening around me is just making things bubble out of me. So all

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of these things like me running from the chemical cloud or hanging out with friends or just the

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things that are happening in my life. I'm not trying to be performative going out there as the

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sitting with you persona, which there's not a really serious like level for that. It's just me

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being me. And I love that. I love that kind of content. I guess. And it's nothing like organic

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content. And I think that's what's getting more popular other than this performative content.

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This my gosh, all of this reality TV content and everyone wants to be the next it starts like.

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Yeah. There's a level. We're at a whole different level here at bisexual coffee. It's authenticity.

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150,000%. I mean, we don't say anything unless we genuinely mean it and there's no hate. And you

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can feel that. And right now I have such a specific definition for who I am and it keeps me safe.

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Because this is who I bought to be. I am a pansexual individual. That means that I get a charge

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from everyone I meet. You're safe with somebody who's bisexual and pansexual because I believe

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ordering probably on pan as I get older, the more I just realize that I treat humans for who they

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are right now. Right. The label is by I bought I bought everything by colored for pride. I might

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as well stick with that for a while. Right. I love it. I love it. I love opportunity lover. So

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yeah. Right. Yeah, me too. Look, there is no and that I think that's the biggest problem that I

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have in relationships is it's hard to believe for some that someone like me could love them.

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I don't know why, but I mean, those are demons that those individuals have to work with in and

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of themselves. I can't do the work for them. Yeah. So I don't care. I'm like basically single. I mean,

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I have people that I love, but they're still working themselves out about me. I'm like a

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chameleon to them, I guess, but I'm not a chameleon. I just transition into what I want from moment to

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moment. I mean, good to be true yourself about that. Some people shape themselves because they

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have a fear of not fitting in. I think you shape yourself because you like the joy of fitting in.

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It's not that you are worried you're going to miss out. You just want you want to you want to share.

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You want to love. That's right. I want and I want to experience everybody. Yes. Now, I want to say

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that as much as all of these episodes that we've had so far have been like, you know, positivity,

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we're all here for each other. We have to get a villain eventually. And we're working on that.

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We have a villain. We have a villain. We have a villain. Can I tell priestess? No,

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can I tell priestess? Go ahead. She might have a good time with them. I don't know.

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His name is Marcus Allen. He is the unknown misogynist. Okay. He practices misogyny. He dates

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Filipino women. Girl, I want you to and he's ready and he's our villain, but he's a big love muffin.

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I want you to know right now he is he will appeal to you and you will probably love him.

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And that's okay. And that is okay. But he's ready to have he wants he wants to be ribbed.

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He wants to, you know, I don't think he wants to be torn into. I have to type into another line

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of work that I do. Okay. Yeah. Yeah. I'm I'm for me, I haven't done a whole lot of like

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conflict on screen, but I feel like I have the capacity for it at the more that I've done therapy

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and it comes to peace with who I am, what I believe, and can actually say it without going,

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I guess and all this, you know, I feel firm in my convictions. When this guy shows up,

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I already have like three or four pages of just content that we can go off of it doesn't even

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have to do all of it. And I'll be honest with you, if you go to talk about it, well, if we all have

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look them up, it's really easy to find. But if we have good enough time where we both we all go

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into this realizing that we're not walking away all like understanding and on the same page,

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but we're here for the conversation, I would love to have him on with with you. I think that would

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be amazing. He's ready. Yeah, he's ready. I mean, he he's a friend. So I'm not going to say a whole

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lot. There's not a whole lot I can say I have compassion for the dude because I understand

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that Filipino women, the mothers especially, they breed their babies for white men, honey.

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They just have babies. We're just going to bag us a millionaire. That is a part of it. There's also

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a part of it. It's pretty interesting. There might be some auto involved. I'm not going to go too

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far. Yeah, exactly. Like, I'm looking forward to it because go back to that with people like that

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every day, you know, it's a field day. Shit. It's funny. It is funny. His main energy comes from money.

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So politics to so that's going to be a different flavor for the for the show. It's

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so I can see what I'm hoping he's going to be one for a little bit.

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It's not to be Marcus Allen. No, he's he's definitely look, we don't see eye to eye. I just

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sit there and I listen, I listen, I listen to him because I want him to listen to me. And

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one of the episodes, Michael was talking about his bisexuality and opening up to his wife and

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how it didn't go over well. And Marcus and I were talking on the phone, he's like, so

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it didn't work out with that wife. And I said, no, no, it didn't work out. And he said, well,

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he got married again. And I said, yep, yep, he got married again. And he said, this wife stayed.

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And I said, yeah, this wife stayed. And he said, well, was he honest with her? And I said, yes,

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he was honest with her. And he's like, wow. So I honestly think that it's just not something that

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he is comfortable doing. And it's easier than be honest, it's just easier to get a wife who knows

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her place. And then you don't have to deal with any of that shit. He's got some views.

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He's got some views that I want to tap into and really just ask him some good, solid questions.

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As I hope that he will return the favor. So confused about a bisexual man that married a woman.

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Right. Like, how is that confusing? Like, bisexual life. It's look, it's neat to watch him go through

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the process, like ask questions. Maybe he's trying. We shall see. I'll gauge him. I'm gonna try not

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embarrass him too bad, you know, or humiliate him. The fact that he's coming on a bisexual podcast.

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Look, he came on naked onion. And that's an all women's podcast. And let me tell you.

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Patriarchy. And he definitely is part of that. So that's great.

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Oh, we got. Right. So is there a specific line of questions that line of questions will be asking?

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So yeah, anything that you're curious about? Go ahead, Michael. Sorry. Yeah. So I what I did,

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I went to his Facebook page and I looked at like the last two videos and then he repost a lot of

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stuff because he has some stories that he's very, very passionate about that he wants other people

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to know mostly about his near successes and fails that they keep repeating. So you have to kind of

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get past those, get to his videos about advice to women. Those are that'll give you enough to get

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your own questions. And like I said, I got four pages just after researching them.

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The one that's my favorite is look, and I live by this, okay, being a gay person. The cool thing

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about I think him is the fact that he doesn't give a shit if I'm queer or not. He doesn't care. It's

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not like he loses sleep over it. You know what I'm saying? He'll talk to a trans woman. He'll,

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you know, he's not gonna, I don't think he's going to be salacious. He's going to ask you

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questions, real questions that really affect him. And that he's really been asking himself.

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But the misogynist is very, very sexy. Okay. Right. There. There. I don't want to get us.

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I don't want to get us banned from anywhere. I'm also a professional. I'm also a dumb outside of

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what I do. So I'm a frigate that want a podcast. He might call you up. I don't know.

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Marcus. Oh, and he's gonna have to pay the LA for that. He's gonna have to pay my fee.

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I have a hefty fee for that per hour. Yeah, me too. Yeah, especially going all the way across

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the country. Domwork ain't cheap. It's not. It's fun. I bet there's a fee for the part of the memory.

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I feel like, I feel like, I feel like, I feel like a lot of those guys, a lot of red pillars,

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they actually have a humiliation kink, but they're too scared to show that submissive side of them.

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That's why they're, I'm sorry. Don't take all of that. You're being annoying.

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Todd, but here's a milk bottle. Go sit down. Oh my God. That was good. That was so good.

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That was so good. No, you know, it's like this. There are no secrets on this podcast.

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There is not a one. We have young people. We have older individuals listening in.

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Everybody's learning. It's super fun. We have another podcast mate. Name is Sydney, non-binary,

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not they, them are non-binary. That'll get you. Right? That'll get me.

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We talked about sexuality, relationships, addiction. The last guy we talked about,

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we just talked about his upbringing, why he considers himself a comedian, why he's chosen,

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the impressions that he has, what just kind of got into his mindset and whatnot. It's really a

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very human podcast, one that doesn't really have much of a script every time. The one thing that

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we have tried to do every time, and I don't know if you guys are realizing what I'm doing. I'm trying

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to segue it the best I can. It's a Reddit story at the end of every podcast. Love Reddit.

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That will work. I love Reddit. And Reddit's having a heyday right now. A lot of people are reading

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Am I the Asshole Online? Am I overreacting? Related to the advice. One of my favorite

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podcasts is Smosh reads Reddit and it's great. I love Smosh. I love them.

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Yeah. It's great. It's a channel that's growing with us and I love it. I love it to death.

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So what I did today is I got myself a podcast. I got a podcast, guys. Congratulations to me.

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I pulled up a Reddit and this one is from Am I the Asshole, but it was the name of it that

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caught my eye because I think I've heard a story like this, but this one is, it's got like five

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different updates to it. So this one is a gift that keeps on giving. So, you guys mind if I get

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into that, right, Glenn? No, absolutely. I'm not sure I have my most plugged in song. So this one

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is called Am I the Asshole for Defending My Daughter's Name Changes? Throwaway Account for

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the Stake of Privacy. I'm also on mobile, so big part. And so who knows how many typos are going

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to be in this thing, but we're about to find out. My wife is 42 and I, 46 male, have a beautiful

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daughter, 15, whom we love to death. Because it's relevant, I'll mention up until two years ago,

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she was our son. We had a lot of, I'll be charitable and say, unlearning to do when all

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this happened and it wasn't the smoothest ride for our daughter, I'm ashamed to say, but we're

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in better place now and we're trying. Her therapist told us earlier that our daughter might want to

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try on a few names before she found one that fit and her daughter, then our daughter proved that

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wrong we thought by jumping on one. Let's say it's Bethany and sticking to it. After six months

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of going by Bethany, it looked like it was a done deal. I want to say here that neither of us handled

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hurt things perfectly at the start. My wife took longer to come around than I did. Bethany's birth

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name in particular had a personal significance to my wife. So the whole name thing had been difficult

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period. August of 2019, Bethany is about to start high school and she decides she wants a completely

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fresh start. Name included. She told us she wants to try Ellie. A few months later, Liz. Credit were

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credits to she was very present patient when her mom and I said that it was hard. We slipped up a lot

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and she would just gently remind us, but my wife didn't handle it well. She got defensive, sarcastic,

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roller eyes, that sort of thing. It led to a couple of arguments before her and I, okay, that sentence

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just ends before her and I went with it. Liz stuck. But then a couple of weeks ago, my wife overheard

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a friend of our daughter online calling her another name, let's say Maggie. She confronted her about

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it. Turns out she's been trying on Maggie for a while just with friends and she had been a

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reluctant to tell us. I wasn't there, but my wife just kind of walked away with a find whatever

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type of thing. The last weeks, we've been making a new name, a habit, but my wife's been stewing.

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We're all on a zoom call with my sister. They, they, he might have been sister in law, somebody edited

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and her boys. I told them about the change. My younger nephew called my daughter Liz, my sister

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corrected. My wife jokingly said, Oh, let her call her whatever she wants. She'll have a new one

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next season anyway. Long story short, zoom call awkwardly ended early. Todd went straight to the

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room and had it out with my wife. A daughter can't keep her side is that her daughter can't keep

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changing names like this. It's hard enough for the mom without all the extra changes and she's,

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and the daughter's just trying to get attention. My side, we were warned years ago, this might

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happen. It's our daughter's decision to make and being sarcastic and making fun of her is just going

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to make things work for Maggie. So now I'm lying awake wondering if I'm an asshole. I think I'm

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right, but my wife has really been trying this aside, this one event aside, and we both had

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shitty moments on that. Sorry for the long read, but am I the asshole before I get into the edits?

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Both of you go by names that you did not start on this earth with.

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Correct. How many iterations if you guys want to talk about that, were there any ones that you were

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reluctant to let go of? Like what was your name journey? Priestess, you go first goddess. Okay,

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so at first, I've been an entertainer in clubs since 2010. So I was going to go with my first

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entertainer name, Denise Parris. Then some things happened with that troupe I was with and I became

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Brigitte, Michelle Denise, and I had a couple of other stage names, you know how in the drag

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community when you change drag families, your drag name changes. But I got to a point to where

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although I was with certain families, I'm not changing my name anymore. Then I was Lyric,

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Infinity. Oh my gosh, what was the other one? Yeah, it was just Lyric. And then I finally

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said it on Yannick. Yeah. And it just came together from there. I haven't heard that actually

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pronounced out loud yet. So appreciate that. Thank you. Okay, well, so for me, thank you,

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goddess, I appreciate you. I was going through so I have autism, I have ADHD, I am bipolar,

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I have a brain injury from all the verbal abuse of being stuck in a room and screamed at. So my

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brain split and I'm lucky I don't have any psychiatric disorders. I meditate every single day

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two, three hours a day. I work out. I only work four days a week. I live with a dear friend who

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has allowed me to heal. When I first came on to my name, Edith, I know about reincarnation. I know

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that I am more divine than my parents wanted me to believe. I know that I have more purpose. I've

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always known this since I was very small. I know that Edith Ivey Rosenblatt is an artist in New York

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City. She's now she's probably 95 years old. Well, I am taking that name and reincarnating that goddess.

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I am I'm taking that energy. And I am redefining myself and Edith is a name that has been hated

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because it's not a pretty girl's name or it's a Jewish girl's name or you know, what value does

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a woman have if her name is Edith? Well, I've met a lot of Ediths in Texas, actually all over the

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country. And they seem to be just the most delightful, rich embodiment of women that I could possibly

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find in my life. So I have changed the definition of Edith and I embody the spirit of Edith. And

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that's how I want to live my life is showing young people you don't have to live in sewage for your

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brain. You know what I'm saying? Just because went and you live the life that wasn't really your own

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doesn't mean that you can't define yourself now. Okay, Priestess, I see that in you. When I watch

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your content, I am tickled. I laughed to myself and I just had to meet you and I want to grow with you.

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So, that's Edith right there. Great. I love that. So have either one of you like when you did change

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your name like, we have Yannick, we have Ediths, the names that you have decided to hold on to for

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now. Have you got any flashback by the people that you know, like they just refused to call you by

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the name that you chosen? I actually had a couple of family members that after I, I've been gone by

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Yannick since 2015, of course. Right. And family members know this. And I have some that I was like,

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oh, you can go, I would prefer, I didn't even prefer, please call me Yannick. If you can't

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announce Yannick, I'll help you pronounce it or you can call me Yannick or Miss Foster.

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For that matter. You know, if you don't want to say my first name, you'll call me Miss Foster.

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Oh, I love that. So, and I have to do that with family, but, but I'm unfortunately, well,

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fortunately, I should say I'm no contact with the problematic one. So I don't have to deal with that.

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Now with my, with my pops, which is my uncle that raised me that that is my father, it was a little

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bit of a challenge, but he corrects himself immediately, even with the pronouns. He was like,

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Yannick, but only he and a couple of other people can call me a certain iteration of my name. I'm

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not going to repeat it, but only certain people can call me that particular iteration of the day,

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because that's sometimes how my former bosses would pronounce it when we first met. And I'm like,

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every time y'all say that, it reminds me of how my word. I love that. That's perfect. Right. You

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know, so with this story right here, this guy writes the story and goes, he didn't realize the

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the flashback, the, this flashback that was going to get him and it was mostly positive.

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People were saying, you know, hey, he was doing the right thing. And the edits are that this whole

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time, this whole post, the way he's been reading it through this throwaway account,

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then very reassuring and eye-opening. I'll be talking to my wife tomorrow morning and see if

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my daughter, if she and my daughter are okay with it, she's going to try to post an update to keep

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people in line. And then more people was like, yes, please post an update. We need to know how

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your family's doing. Yes, please. And then the post itself, relatively long, I'll try to go through

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it quickly here. My wife sat down this morning and talked, told her that we were looking for

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insight and offered to show the post, but she didn't feel like she needed to read it.

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Turns out she'd been thinking about it too. Surprise. It turns out that my hunch about the

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whole thing was kind of right. I didn't share with this yesterday because I didn't want to

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go without my wife's permission. But the year that we had had Maggie, my wife's father, we'll

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call him George, passed away. He had been sick for some time when we were praying he'd let them

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meet his grandchild, but that didn't happen. When Maggie was born, we decided to name her George,

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obviously not her real birth name after him. Now, it's important thing to understand here is

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the context is my daughter looked so much like her grandfather. The way that my wife tells it,

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it's like having him back in her life again, and she took a lot of comfort with that. And then

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and then felt like it was being ripped from her. So that answered a lot. Once she opened up, we

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talked for a while about it afterwards. We're nowhere near all the answers. But it looks like

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we're seeing our daughter transition. It brought a whole lot of grief to the surface that she had

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never dealt with. Now we're talking therapy, she's reluctant, but coming around. And that's a start.

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Anyway, that's where they are now. People are worried that the wife burned the bridge with Maggie.

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And right now, the mother is getting her butt kicked by Maggie at Mario Kart as they speak.

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I love it. And we both know that we're not quite done adjusting to our daughter's new identity.

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But I wanted to assure everyone that the conversation isn't stopping here. We had a good day.

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After a bad day, there will be more of them, I'm sure. Obviously, after that post, he was

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definitely voted not the asshole. We're all narcissistic. We're all empathic. We're all

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capable of just such emotion and such love. And love is going to vary according to trauma

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in each person. And in our cast of people, we have been through so much. We've been through

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so much. So we understand that that people are going to have to get in their feelings. Okay.

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There are there are some that just don't want to. I don't want to. I don't want to feel. And

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that's what mom's doing. She's like, I don't want to process the shit. Exactly. Yeah. She's

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she's also projecting her trauma onto her child instead of dealing with that trauma herself. I

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understand that you lost your father. That is a traumatic loss. However, this is your child's

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life. So what you're doing, you're placing your child in this box as only you see them as only

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you see her. And granted, this is a journey, but this is her journey. And I was wondering why in

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the beginning, why there was no family therapy session, especially for the mom, because it seems

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like she's the one having the hardest time with it. Right. And that was the thing. Like it was

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needed. It was definitely needed. Speaking of therapy, I want to toot my own horn here. Okay.

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I jokingly put this out there in my social media is I don't really think this way, but I said that

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I won therapy in the respect that we got to the point where the reason that I went to therapy,

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which was handling grief, because I was just not handling the loss of my parents well, and also a

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few other behavioral things that I was concerned about. And we worked our way through that. But

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we finally had a conversation. We were we were only about 30 minutes into our hour long conversation

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when she's like, what is the idea of closing out this version of therapy? How does that feel to

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you? And I'm like, be honest with you, I've been thinking about that the last couple of times,

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I just really didn't know how to approach that. So we had a conversation, we had a little meditation

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moment at the end where I brought up my parents in a safe space in my brain, I dealt with the

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grief. It was actually a very sweet moment in my brain. Because she she was suggesting questions

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that I would ask them. But the projections that I was making of my parents didn't answer the way

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that I thought that they would. I thought it would be all saccharine sweet, it would come for me.

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It was actually very much much of their own impressions on me. In fact, in that space,

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I called my dad an asshole, and he laughed and mom agreed. And it wasn't until like a few moments

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later that I realized like, that was like, I pulled that from my past. And I didn't even realize it.

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So I came out of it, I had had some tears in my eyes. I'm like, oh, that was really sweet.

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So I definitely agree that therapy, especially grief therapy is would be huge in this.

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Awesome. And that would that would pave the way for so many other more smooth conversations

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that they could have in the in the future. Well, and that's kind of what we're all dealing with,

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right? It's like, so when we transition in the beginning, for me transitioning into who I am

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now, there was a lot of grief. I was very sad because there were so many dysfunctional things

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that brought me comfort. And now I have turned it around where I don't, uh, I don't want to hear

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anybody arguing politics isn't a thing for me. So don't argue with me about that. Don't come

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and tell me all your problems. I don't want to know. I'm not addicted to suffering. Sorry,

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go find someone else. If you want to live in that brainwave state, not me. Get somebody else to

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do it. I have lived exactly, baby. I have lived in the sewer of thoughts. I have lived in a place

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where, and we talked about this on the addiction episode, the last one, it was really good. Priestess,

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if you get a chance, listen to that, make sure to listen to that. I was eyeballing that episode

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too. Okay, good. Yeah. And we'll have to do one too. So, but I'm not addicted to shit anymore.

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I don't need anymore. I don't, I don't, I believe in manifesting all the good things and I will be

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taken care of. And if I don't stay here, I'll stay somewhere. I don't care. Go with the flow type

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person and I envy you with that. I, I'm a bad Buddhist in the way that I kind of like things

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a certain way, not so much the objects in my life, but the way that things are happening,

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like relationship where I'm living and everything like that, the big, the big parts on the bottom

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of the survival period. I really like those being kind of the same thing. And when those get shook

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up, I get, I get more anxious than some, but it's something that I'm working with in my life.

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I don't think there's such thing as a bad Buddhist. I just think it's like a lower level Buddhist.

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Yeah, there you go. A bargain then, Buddhist, if you will. A bargain, bud. Yeah.

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I can't. I can't. Goddess, I, I appreciate you and your divinity, sweetheart,

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and allowing us this time, this special time together so we could spend it and laugh.

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Yeah. Enjoyed it myself. Yes. Yes. I look forward to future episodes. Just, just contact me.

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Excellent. All right, baby. I love you. Love you too. It's good being with you all.

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Peace out. We're Teer Mom. All right. See ya, lady.