1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:07,160 Hi, welcome to Unfuck Yourself with Kat Alexander. 2 00:00:07,160 --> 00:00:08,520 It is July 2nd. 3 00:00:08,520 --> 00:00:09,520 Woohoo! 4 00:00:09,520 --> 00:00:12,240 I made it two days in a row. 5 00:00:12,240 --> 00:00:13,240 And you know what? 6 00:00:13,240 --> 00:00:17,760 It is a little tougher than I thought and I knew it would be tough. 7 00:00:17,760 --> 00:00:23,240 But I don't have a regular workflow yet. 8 00:00:23,240 --> 00:00:29,800 So and then I remembered after I got everything posted I didn't do an intro or an outro and 9 00:00:29,800 --> 00:00:33,920 bear with me while I get the hang of all these things. 10 00:00:33,920 --> 00:00:38,960 But like my mentors have said, just start getting it out and you'll learn by failure 11 00:00:38,960 --> 00:00:41,120 and you'll correct. 12 00:00:41,120 --> 00:00:49,680 So today's topic is of course authenticity and I'm going to give you a brief description 13 00:00:49,680 --> 00:00:55,520 and then I'm going to discuss why it's so scary for us. 14 00:00:55,520 --> 00:00:57,520 Okay. 15 00:00:57,520 --> 00:00:59,520 Hang on. 16 00:00:59,520 --> 00:01:08,960 Sorry, I have two cats crawling all over me so I need to move. 17 00:01:08,960 --> 00:01:10,320 Okay. 18 00:01:10,320 --> 00:01:20,560 So authenticity, one definition, says it involves being true to one's own personality, values 19 00:01:20,560 --> 00:01:24,640 and spirit regardless of external pressure. 20 00:01:24,640 --> 00:01:32,240 It means expressing honestly and transparently embracing one's true self and acting in alignment 21 00:01:32,240 --> 00:01:36,000 with one's core beliefs and values. 22 00:01:36,000 --> 00:01:39,640 Means what's coming from in you truly. 23 00:01:39,640 --> 00:01:49,160 Not what society tells you, not what YouTube, Instagram, Facebook tells you, not what the 24 00:01:49,160 --> 00:01:55,080 movies tell you, certainly not what the false fakes celebs and influencers tell you when 25 00:01:55,080 --> 00:01:58,040 you find out they're full of it. 26 00:01:58,040 --> 00:02:02,640 Not what your upbringing tells you unless it resonates with you. 27 00:02:02,640 --> 00:02:05,080 Now why is authenticity scary? 28 00:02:05,080 --> 00:02:06,080 Okay. 29 00:02:06,080 --> 00:02:12,200 There were several reasons that I came up with and when I talked to some of my friends 30 00:02:12,200 --> 00:02:13,760 they came up with several. 31 00:02:13,760 --> 00:02:18,400 So I think there is a total of 22. 32 00:02:18,400 --> 00:02:24,120 The first one came up is fear of rejection. 33 00:02:24,120 --> 00:02:29,360 Being true to oneself might lead to being rejected by others who don't accept or understand 34 00:02:29,360 --> 00:02:30,360 the real you. 35 00:02:30,360 --> 00:02:32,960 I mean, that seems to be the core one. 36 00:02:32,960 --> 00:02:38,160 Isn't that what we're afraid of if we speak up in class when we're younger, kids will 37 00:02:38,160 --> 00:02:46,400 laugh if we bring up a point at work, maybe somebody with more seniority or a higher education 38 00:02:46,400 --> 00:02:48,360 will shoot us down. 39 00:02:48,360 --> 00:02:52,120 Maybe we've just never spoken up for ourselves. 40 00:02:52,120 --> 00:02:56,560 It also involves vulnerability. 41 00:02:56,560 --> 00:03:04,120 That can be really uncomfortable because we are afraid to expose ourselves to potential 42 00:03:04,120 --> 00:03:07,280 hurt or criticism. 43 00:03:07,280 --> 00:03:15,320 Everyone has been stunned by people's negativity, whether it was a look, a laugh, a comment, 44 00:03:15,320 --> 00:03:20,760 a gossip, misinformation, misunderstanding. 45 00:03:20,760 --> 00:03:27,280 And once you've been stunned enough, unless you grow a really thick backbone and learn 46 00:03:27,280 --> 00:03:33,480 to let it roll off, it hurts and it makes a lot of us just shut up and not know who 47 00:03:33,480 --> 00:03:36,920 to open up to. 48 00:03:36,920 --> 00:03:41,120 Being authentic opens us up to judgment of other people. 49 00:03:41,120 --> 00:03:42,280 We see this all the time. 50 00:03:42,280 --> 00:03:44,400 We do it all the time. 51 00:03:44,400 --> 00:03:46,400 Everybody has opinions. 52 00:03:46,400 --> 00:03:54,480 And when we personalize other people's opinions, we sometimes fear their judgment or the negative 53 00:03:54,480 --> 00:04:01,840 thoughts and feelings and actions. 54 00:04:01,840 --> 00:04:04,760 Loss of relationships. 55 00:04:04,760 --> 00:04:11,920 We fear that we could lose our friends, our family members, our significant others, colleagues 56 00:04:11,920 --> 00:04:15,520 who don't align with our true self. 57 00:04:15,520 --> 00:04:21,840 Perhaps we're part of a religious community where there are certain tenants that we don't 58 00:04:21,840 --> 00:04:25,480 understand or this really can't accept. 59 00:04:25,480 --> 00:04:27,760 It doesn't make sense to us. 60 00:04:27,760 --> 00:04:33,400 But to speak those out, maybe people would stop being our friends. 61 00:04:33,400 --> 00:04:35,800 Social pressure. 62 00:04:35,800 --> 00:04:41,800 Society has norms and expectations that conflict with being authentic. 63 00:04:41,800 --> 00:04:47,880 That leads us to feel like we have to conform and fit in. 64 00:04:47,880 --> 00:04:53,000 Number six, fear of failure. 65 00:04:53,000 --> 00:04:58,240 I know a lot of people who fear failure. 66 00:04:58,240 --> 00:05:04,120 We're afraid we're going to disappoint ourselves because maybe we're not as good as we hope 67 00:05:04,120 --> 00:05:05,920 we are. 68 00:05:05,920 --> 00:05:11,200 We're afraid that others who are critical of us when we were younger might be proven 69 00:05:11,200 --> 00:05:12,200 right. 70 00:05:12,200 --> 00:05:14,320 Maybe we aren't gifted or skilled. 71 00:05:14,320 --> 00:05:18,560 Maybe we never will get it. 72 00:05:18,560 --> 00:05:21,920 Number seven, uncertainty. 73 00:05:21,920 --> 00:05:25,800 When you're authentic, it leads you on an unpredictable path. 74 00:05:25,800 --> 00:05:29,960 It can cause anxiety about unknown outcomes. 75 00:05:29,960 --> 00:05:35,960 When you blend in with everybody, you pretty much know what to expect in a lot of areas. 76 00:05:35,960 --> 00:05:41,720 But when you step out, you don't know if success is coming and, good God, what could 77 00:05:41,720 --> 00:05:46,920 that bring into your life and how will you handle it and will people still stick around 78 00:05:46,920 --> 00:05:51,560 you or what if there's failure? 79 00:05:51,560 --> 00:05:53,400 You just never know. 80 00:05:53,400 --> 00:05:54,400 Authenticity. 81 00:05:54,400 --> 00:05:59,920 It's scary because of personal growth. 82 00:05:59,920 --> 00:06:04,440 We have to confront uncomfortable truths about ourselves. 83 00:06:04,440 --> 00:06:10,400 Things that we've believed all along, maybe they weren't true. 84 00:06:10,400 --> 00:06:13,680 Maybe they are true. 85 00:06:13,680 --> 00:06:19,560 I know a lot of things that I grew up, I'm 55, a lot of things I grew up believing are 86 00:06:19,560 --> 00:06:24,280 now found to not necessarily be true. 87 00:06:24,280 --> 00:06:32,000 In the world and with better access and more communication to global knowledge, these things 88 00:06:32,000 --> 00:06:36,760 are changing rapidly and that can be uncomfortable. 89 00:06:36,760 --> 00:06:45,680 A change in identity, number nine, that can be scary. 90 00:06:45,680 --> 00:06:50,920 Many people have come out of the Christian faith and other faiths. 91 00:06:50,920 --> 00:06:55,360 It happens when we deconstruct our faith. 92 00:06:55,360 --> 00:07:02,720 Meaning, we look at the foundation beliefs and we look at what is reasonable to believe 93 00:07:02,720 --> 00:07:04,080 and what isn't. 94 00:07:04,080 --> 00:07:12,720 What is the truth about other documents that have been around longer? 95 00:07:12,720 --> 00:07:19,160 The truth about how long documents have been around? 96 00:07:19,160 --> 00:07:32,360 And do you come out of a faith or to switch from Republican to Democrat or whatever to 97 00:07:32,360 --> 00:07:42,400 become transgender to do any of these things and take on a new identity? 98 00:07:42,400 --> 00:07:45,760 It forces changes in how we see the world. 99 00:07:45,760 --> 00:07:50,480 It forces changes in who we relate to and how we relate. 100 00:07:50,480 --> 00:07:53,720 That can be scary and uncomfortable. 101 00:07:53,720 --> 00:08:00,320 Number 10, personal risks. 102 00:08:00,320 --> 00:08:11,480 Sometimes when we're authentic and just being ourselves, we might be seen as unprofessional. 103 00:08:11,480 --> 00:08:16,400 There are certain professions, let's say, where people can cuss. 104 00:08:16,400 --> 00:08:17,400 It's just true. 105 00:08:17,400 --> 00:08:26,400 And then there are other places you just do not cuss and it would be seen as unprofessional. 106 00:08:26,400 --> 00:08:28,800 You know what I mean? 107 00:08:28,800 --> 00:08:33,360 And maybe withholding curse words is not being inauthentic. 108 00:08:33,360 --> 00:08:40,800 Maybe it's succumbing to being appropriate. 109 00:08:40,800 --> 00:08:47,440 But on the other hand, people can also carry that too far and be like, well, that's who 110 00:08:47,440 --> 00:08:55,800 I am and that's how I talk and you could lose career advancement. 111 00:08:55,800 --> 00:08:56,800 Just saying. 112 00:08:56,800 --> 00:09:02,800 There are other reasons. 113 00:09:02,800 --> 00:09:07,560 Number 11 is fear of conflict. 114 00:09:07,560 --> 00:09:14,560 Being afraid that if we speak our truth or how we see the world, our views, our dreams, 115 00:09:14,560 --> 00:09:21,480 our goals, it may come into disagreement with others who have different beliefs. 116 00:09:21,480 --> 00:09:34,040 Again, it's a fine line with being polite versus being fake. 117 00:09:34,040 --> 00:09:41,160 Where I was serving in ministry for many years in and out, I have a lot of friends who are 118 00:09:41,160 --> 00:09:43,160 still believers. 119 00:09:43,160 --> 00:09:51,480 And when I'm around them, I am appropriate. 120 00:09:51,480 --> 00:09:56,160 I don't say things to try to sway them to my side of belief. 121 00:09:56,160 --> 00:10:00,480 I don't condemn what they think. 122 00:10:00,480 --> 00:10:05,840 I'm being polite and I'm not hurting other people. 123 00:10:05,840 --> 00:10:16,760 However, if I am scared to lose them and they ask me questions, say, like, don't you agree 124 00:10:16,760 --> 00:10:22,360 with the Trinity, Father, Son, Holy Ghost? 125 00:10:22,360 --> 00:10:31,760 If I am inauthentic and too scared of rejection, I'll say, oh yeah, totally. 126 00:10:31,760 --> 00:10:35,280 But the truth is I don't believe in it. 127 00:10:35,280 --> 00:10:42,360 So being authentic in a case where somebody asks you, don't you believe blah, blah, blah. 128 00:10:42,360 --> 00:10:48,000 Being authentic is speaking your truth, even if it's contradictory and could cause conflict. 129 00:10:48,000 --> 00:10:56,800 It's finding a way to be polite about it and not break the relationships. 130 00:10:56,800 --> 00:11:02,360 But we don't have to be so scared of conflict that we always agree with people. 131 00:11:02,360 --> 00:11:10,160 We're going to discuss that in a later episode because number one was fear of rejection. 132 00:11:10,160 --> 00:11:16,280 And the number one thing people do when they are afraid of rejection is they people please 133 00:11:16,280 --> 00:11:19,840 and people pleasers are completely scared of conflict. 134 00:11:19,840 --> 00:11:22,240 So we will address that later. 135 00:11:22,240 --> 00:11:28,480 But getting back to why it's scary. 136 00:11:28,480 --> 00:11:32,960 Number 12 was exposure of weaknesses. 137 00:11:32,960 --> 00:11:37,960 None of us are perfect. 138 00:11:37,960 --> 00:11:41,120 None of us have everything thought out thoroughly. 139 00:11:41,120 --> 00:11:46,440 Everybody smarter has read something else that might make us think in a holy way or poke 140 00:11:46,440 --> 00:11:52,240 a hole where we had belief in something before. 141 00:11:52,240 --> 00:11:55,400 There are weaknesses and imperfections. 142 00:11:55,400 --> 00:11:58,840 Okay, exposure of weakness. 143 00:11:58,840 --> 00:12:03,560 Okay, and this goes with fear of rejection too. 144 00:12:03,560 --> 00:12:13,760 How many people do not expose themselves in a bathing suit because they've got cellulite 145 00:12:13,760 --> 00:12:22,040 or their body isn't like the totally surgically uplifted Kardashians? 146 00:12:22,040 --> 00:12:23,040 You know what I mean? 147 00:12:23,040 --> 00:12:29,760 I remember I weighed 220 pounds several years ago. 148 00:12:29,760 --> 00:12:32,120 I was quite heavier. 149 00:12:32,120 --> 00:12:39,040 And my son was young and we were in California and I took him to the beach. 150 00:12:39,040 --> 00:12:45,200 But I had weighed 287 at one point so I was happy with my 220. 151 00:12:45,200 --> 00:12:49,840 So I wore a tankini and went to the beach and played in the ocean. 152 00:12:49,840 --> 00:12:59,040 But I can't tell you how many women were probably a size eight or smaller on that beach that 153 00:12:59,040 --> 00:13:05,960 had those wraps around their waist and thighs so they couldn't be seen. 154 00:13:05,960 --> 00:13:13,120 And they walked the beach like that and they even like laid out and covered themselves 155 00:13:13,120 --> 00:13:14,120 slightly. 156 00:13:14,120 --> 00:13:17,680 And they were beautiful, gorgeous, model worthy women. 157 00:13:17,680 --> 00:13:23,080 But because of societal pressures and standards in California, they did not go in the ocean 158 00:13:23,080 --> 00:13:24,520 and play with their kids. 159 00:13:24,520 --> 00:13:26,800 They wouldn't be seen dead like that. 160 00:13:26,800 --> 00:13:28,280 And it's very sad. 161 00:13:28,280 --> 00:13:33,560 But that fear of exposure that I'm not perfect. 162 00:13:33,560 --> 00:13:37,240 Number 13, breaking expectations. 163 00:13:37,240 --> 00:13:49,040 For fear that if we're authentic, maybe we're going to disappoint somebody or surprise somebody. 164 00:13:49,040 --> 00:13:50,040 We'll talk about that later. 165 00:13:50,040 --> 00:13:54,800 There's a whole bunch of ways we are afraid, especially when we're afraid of breaking our 166 00:13:54,800 --> 00:13:58,720 parents' expectations. 167 00:13:58,720 --> 00:14:03,200 And that leads into number 14, which was put a little different way, cultural or family 168 00:14:03,200 --> 00:14:11,240 expectations. 169 00:14:11,240 --> 00:14:16,320 How about another reason that it can be scary to be authentic? 170 00:14:16,320 --> 00:14:21,880 This is economic or social consequences. 171 00:14:21,880 --> 00:14:27,520 You could face job loss or social ostracism. 172 00:14:27,520 --> 00:14:35,560 Again, lose your social group because you don't share the same beliefs anymore. 173 00:14:35,560 --> 00:14:42,480 Or I'll look into that one more. 174 00:14:42,480 --> 00:14:44,240 What else would that be? 175 00:14:44,240 --> 00:14:47,520 Economic and social consequences? 176 00:14:47,520 --> 00:14:50,120 Well, okay. 177 00:14:50,120 --> 00:14:55,600 So some people, years ago, it used to be called stepping out of the rat race and going off 178 00:14:55,600 --> 00:14:56,600 grid. 179 00:14:56,600 --> 00:15:03,520 There's a lot of money to be made in corporate work. 180 00:15:03,520 --> 00:15:10,520 And if you go off grid and just farm your land and didn't have a ton of money put away, 181 00:15:10,520 --> 00:15:13,840 you may be incredibly happy. 182 00:15:13,840 --> 00:15:18,160 But you're going to suffer economically. 183 00:15:18,160 --> 00:15:19,920 And you have to be prepared for that. 184 00:15:19,920 --> 00:15:23,440 And so there are people who would love to live that way. 185 00:15:23,440 --> 00:15:28,920 But they're just scared they can't do it because they want a certain lifestyle or that's always 186 00:15:28,920 --> 00:15:32,560 been expected for them. 187 00:15:32,560 --> 00:15:35,040 Number 16, self-doubt. 188 00:15:35,040 --> 00:15:41,920 Doubts about one's own worthiness, fears of inadequacy can make it difficult to embrace 189 00:15:41,920 --> 00:15:42,920 authenticity. 190 00:15:42,920 --> 00:15:45,960 Am I doing the right thing? 191 00:15:45,960 --> 00:15:47,640 Am I enough on my own? 192 00:15:47,640 --> 00:15:51,000 Are my thoughts and ideas valid? 193 00:15:51,000 --> 00:15:54,720 Otherwise, maybe I'm just not going to speak up and be authentic. 194 00:15:54,720 --> 00:15:57,520 I'll just blend in. 195 00:15:57,520 --> 00:16:02,320 Number 17, loss of control. 196 00:16:02,320 --> 00:16:06,040 When we become authentic, we are taking the mask down. 197 00:16:06,040 --> 00:16:14,880 The mask or multiple masks that we wear every day for maybe we have a mask for our family 198 00:16:14,880 --> 00:16:21,480 and a mask for our 12th step group and a mask for our religious group and a mask for our 199 00:16:21,480 --> 00:16:23,720 friends and neighbors. 200 00:16:23,720 --> 00:16:31,720 When you take those masks away and just start being yourself, you no longer control what 201 00:16:31,720 --> 00:16:33,080 people think about you. 202 00:16:33,080 --> 00:16:35,880 They're going to have new thoughts about you. 203 00:16:35,880 --> 00:16:43,360 When we put a mask up, we are manipulating others into buying into what we want them 204 00:16:43,360 --> 00:16:48,000 to think about us, how we want them to view us. 205 00:16:48,000 --> 00:16:56,680 When you just let it go, it's scary wondering what will they think. 206 00:16:56,680 --> 00:17:00,120 Number 18, fear of change. 207 00:17:00,120 --> 00:17:06,360 Being authentic is going to bring changes into your life. 208 00:17:06,360 --> 00:17:12,160 It just really will and all kinds of changes. 209 00:17:12,160 --> 00:17:14,160 I don't know a lot of people who like change. 210 00:17:14,160 --> 00:17:20,040 There are some adventurous types, but not everybody embraces change. 211 00:17:20,040 --> 00:17:23,120 Number 19, emotional labor. 212 00:17:23,120 --> 00:17:32,880 It can be taxing on you if you're not going to be valued and supported once you begin to 213 00:17:32,880 --> 00:17:35,040 be authentic on your new journey. 214 00:17:35,040 --> 00:17:43,960 When you get backlash from others or go it alone and have to find a new support group. 215 00:17:43,960 --> 00:17:49,040 Also when you're doing the digging to find out what you really believe and what you really 216 00:17:49,040 --> 00:17:53,200 think, that takes digging. 217 00:17:53,200 --> 00:17:57,160 It takes honest questions and evaluations and looks. 218 00:17:57,160 --> 00:18:01,440 Some people would rather just continue to play the role they've always played because 219 00:18:01,440 --> 00:18:05,960 they know it well and they know what to expect. 220 00:18:05,960 --> 00:18:09,440 It's less emotionally daunting. 221 00:18:09,440 --> 00:18:14,440 There is also number 20, fear of isolation. 222 00:18:14,440 --> 00:18:20,760 Fear again that if others don't resonate with you, you're going to end up alone. 223 00:18:20,760 --> 00:18:21,760 Not true. 224 00:18:21,760 --> 00:18:25,640 There are 8 billion people on the face of this planet and there are always ways to connect, 225 00:18:25,640 --> 00:18:29,080 but it does take effort. 226 00:18:29,080 --> 00:18:32,680 Number 21, past trauma. 227 00:18:32,680 --> 00:18:39,880 Getting hurt in the past can make us fear it will happen again. 228 00:18:39,880 --> 00:18:45,040 If we were really honest with people and were rejected, how do we know new people won't 229 00:18:45,040 --> 00:18:48,440 reject us? 230 00:18:48,440 --> 00:18:53,480 Remember what I said yesterday about, I don't remember the exact things. 231 00:18:53,480 --> 00:18:57,480 I think I may have said apples and oceans. 232 00:18:57,480 --> 00:19:02,240 Not everything is meant to be a pair together, but there are 8 billion people. 233 00:19:02,240 --> 00:19:08,720 You will find your tribe and I promise you will feel so much better with your tribe that 234 00:19:08,720 --> 00:19:14,760 loves you because they really know who you are than you ever were pretending and playing 235 00:19:14,760 --> 00:19:20,160 a game and walking on eggshells and pins and needles for other people. 236 00:19:20,160 --> 00:19:32,320 The last one that they came up with is people with complex identity. 237 00:19:32,320 --> 00:19:33,840 That is a whole different thing. 238 00:19:33,840 --> 00:19:36,000 I don't know if I'll ever get into that. 239 00:19:36,000 --> 00:19:45,920 I think I would like to substitute that one for complex trauma, but we'll talk about that 240 00:19:45,920 --> 00:19:47,400 eventually when we get to that. 241 00:19:47,400 --> 00:19:50,480 I'll make a note and we'll go over that. 242 00:19:50,480 --> 00:19:57,080 Anyway, so real briefly to recap the reasons why authenticity can be scary. 243 00:19:57,080 --> 00:19:58,480 We fear rejection. 244 00:19:58,480 --> 00:20:00,440 We fear being vulnerable. 245 00:20:00,440 --> 00:20:01,960 We're scared of judgment. 246 00:20:01,960 --> 00:20:04,520 We don't want to lose relationships. 247 00:20:04,520 --> 00:20:06,600 There's social pressure to conform. 248 00:20:06,600 --> 00:20:08,160 We're scared of failure. 249 00:20:08,160 --> 00:20:10,080 I would add success. 250 00:20:10,080 --> 00:20:12,960 We do not like uncertainty. 251 00:20:12,960 --> 00:20:15,480 Personal growth is uncomfortable. 252 00:20:15,480 --> 00:20:19,160 It's hard to change an identity. 253 00:20:19,160 --> 00:20:21,560 Personal risk is not something people like to do. 254 00:20:21,560 --> 00:20:32,280 We all kind of seek comfort, fear of conflict, exposing our weaknesses, breaking expectations, 255 00:20:32,280 --> 00:20:40,920 whether it's society, culture, our own or family, economic or social consequences, self-doubt, 256 00:20:40,920 --> 00:20:50,880 loss of control, fear of change, dealing with emotions or emotional labor, fear of isolation 257 00:20:50,880 --> 00:20:58,160 and being alone, past trauma, and complex identity or complex trauma. 258 00:20:58,160 --> 00:20:59,240 So there you have it. 259 00:20:59,240 --> 00:21:02,120 We'll look into these more. 260 00:21:02,120 --> 00:21:03,960 Maybe you relate to some of them. 261 00:21:03,960 --> 00:21:04,960 Maybe not. 262 00:21:04,960 --> 00:21:13,720 Maybe some of those are things that when I said that, you went, yeah, I get that. 263 00:21:13,720 --> 00:21:20,360 So as we go through this, maybe make a note to yourself mentally or somewhere and maybe 264 00:21:20,360 --> 00:21:22,400 journal about it sometime. 265 00:21:22,400 --> 00:21:29,960 This blah, blah, blah is holding me back from being honest with people, just being me. 266 00:21:29,960 --> 00:21:33,080 I'm scared of blank. 267 00:21:33,080 --> 00:21:35,160 Let's look at it together. 268 00:21:35,160 --> 00:21:44,400 Anyway, I hope you had a very great day and maybe, maybe we can do this three days in a 269 00:21:44,400 --> 00:21:45,400 row. 270 00:21:45,400 --> 00:22:03,480 ーI won't lie now but, at least I made a comment pretty soon and I'd be the last to 271 00:22:03,480 --> 00:22:04,960 read them. 272 00:22:04,960 --> 00:22:11,060 I'll leave you guys with this, too.