1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:09,000 Hi guys, welcome back to True North. My name is Angel and today I am with a very good friend of mine, Amber. 2 00:00:09,000 --> 00:00:16,000 Hi. Hello. Welcome to the podcast. Thanks, I'm happy to be here. Thank you for agreeing to come on. 3 00:00:16,000 --> 00:00:24,000 So you already pretty much gave you the backstory on the podcast. How are you feeling today? 4 00:00:24,000 --> 00:00:32,000 I feel great. I feel great. I cannot complain. I mean it's kind of dreary outside, but I am mad about it. I am still good. 5 00:00:32,000 --> 00:00:38,000 Yeah, so you are a first mom. You just had your first mother's day. How are you feeling about that? 6 00:00:38,000 --> 00:00:48,000 I did. It was super duper sweet. I don't know. I've been dreaming of becoming a mother for a very, very long time. 7 00:00:48,000 --> 00:00:58,000 As long as I can remember. At least from the age of four. So now to finally be here, it's still surreal. It's like, oh, that's my baby. 8 00:00:58,000 --> 00:01:04,000 Yeah, he's so adorable. Looks just like you. Thank you. I see you so much in him. It's like, oh, it's going to be good. Yeah. 9 00:01:04,000 --> 00:01:09,000 Yeah, it's going to be good. Yeah, adorable kid. Thank you. 10 00:01:09,000 --> 00:01:18,000 Watching you grow in your belief in God and just staying strong. That's always one thing I've always admired about you. 11 00:01:18,000 --> 00:01:25,000 Was how strong you are in your faith. And no matter what, you will always stand on your belief. Just no matter what. 12 00:01:25,000 --> 00:01:30,000 I'll go ahead and say it, Angel. It's only because of him. Yeah, we're here. 13 00:01:30,000 --> 00:01:39,000 Yeah. And it's funny because when I found out that you were getting married, I'm like, oh my gosh, I was so excited. 14 00:01:39,000 --> 00:01:46,000 I was genuinely so happy about you. My mom was too. She was like, she's finally getting married because she was actually the one that told me we were getting married. 15 00:01:46,000 --> 00:01:53,000 That is so exciting. And then I found out you were pregnant. I'm like, yay. Love that. 16 00:01:53,000 --> 00:02:02,000 Yeah. So yeah, that was very excited for you to watch you grow into this new chapter in your life. 17 00:02:02,000 --> 00:02:08,000 Yeah, it definitely didn't come all of a sudden. Obviously, you've been walking with me through it. 18 00:02:08,000 --> 00:02:21,000 Yeah. But it's just been amazing to see the Lord's faithfulness. And I literally am able to live each day and reflect like, wow, I'm really living out what I prayed for. 19 00:02:21,000 --> 00:02:31,000 So it's now like, okay, well, what's next Lord? And just, I don't know, being led by him and everything, knowing that the pinnacle of my life is not marriage. 20 00:02:31,000 --> 00:02:38,000 The pinnacle of my life is not motherhood, but rather just being this disciple and vessel for Christ in his sake. 21 00:02:38,000 --> 00:02:47,000 Yeah, 100%. And like watching you grow, like, because you're part of the family now. 22 00:02:47,000 --> 00:02:53,000 Like my mom, like my entire, like my mom, she loves y'all family. Like y'all are family does. 23 00:02:53,000 --> 00:03:08,000 And like just watching you, like watching your journey from when I first met you to now like your mom, your wife, you know, like just watching you go through all of these amazing things. 24 00:03:08,000 --> 00:03:19,000 Yeah. It's just, it's mind blowing to me to be able to watch you be led by God and, you know, have all of these amazing things happen in your life. 25 00:03:19,000 --> 00:03:21,000 So it's just, it's really amazing to watch. 26 00:03:21,000 --> 00:03:33,000 Oh, I'm going to him. It feels nice to hear this from you because, you know, there's only so much I can see going through it, which is the majority of it. 27 00:03:33,000 --> 00:03:40,000 But hearing other people's perspective as they watch me progress is very nice to hear. 28 00:03:40,000 --> 00:03:51,000 Yeah. And like, I've seen you grow in like so many different ways, like just with your music. Are you even still singing? 29 00:03:51,000 --> 00:03:57,000 So funny story. During my third trimester, my voice is kind of like gave out. 30 00:03:57,000 --> 00:03:59,000 Oh, wow. 31 00:03:59,000 --> 00:04:06,000 The Lord convicted me recently, like this don't mean stop praising me, which I haven't, but I'll be going as hand as I used to go. 32 00:04:06,000 --> 00:04:19,000 And you might be able to hear it even in my speaking voice. Like there was a time where it was super duper raspy, but it's coming back slowly, but surely I was serving as the worship director with our church. 33 00:04:19,000 --> 00:04:20,000 Okay. 34 00:04:20,000 --> 00:04:25,000 That was nice. But yes, I still sing. I sing to my baby. I sing to the Lord. 35 00:04:25,000 --> 00:04:26,000 Yeah. 36 00:04:26,000 --> 00:04:27,000 At least you're still doing that. 37 00:04:27,000 --> 00:04:29,000 Yeah. 38 00:04:29,000 --> 00:04:34,000 Um, so your husband, he has his own church, right? Or? 39 00:04:34,000 --> 00:04:35,000 No. 40 00:04:35,000 --> 00:04:36,000 No. 41 00:04:36,000 --> 00:04:45,000 So you might have thought that because that's what like my parents are speaking over him and everybody sees it, except the Lord hasn't released that information to him yet. 42 00:04:45,000 --> 00:04:46,000 Yeah. 43 00:04:46,000 --> 00:04:48,000 But no, he's in medical school. 44 00:04:48,000 --> 00:04:49,000 Oh. 45 00:04:49,000 --> 00:04:50,000 So yeah, girl. 46 00:04:50,000 --> 00:04:51,000 Okay. 47 00:04:51,000 --> 00:04:52,000 That's what we're doing. 48 00:04:52,000 --> 00:04:53,000 Okay. 49 00:04:53,000 --> 00:04:54,000 Oh, good luck to him. 50 00:04:54,000 --> 00:04:55,000 Yeah. 51 00:04:55,000 --> 00:04:57,000 So that's gotta be hard. 52 00:04:57,000 --> 00:04:58,000 Yeah. 53 00:04:58,000 --> 00:05:02,000 Especially having a family and then me as a wife. 54 00:05:02,000 --> 00:05:05,000 That's his own feet in and of itself. 55 00:05:05,000 --> 00:05:06,000 Yeah. 56 00:05:06,000 --> 00:05:08,000 So we're really blessed to have one another. 57 00:05:08,000 --> 00:05:09,000 Yeah. 58 00:05:09,000 --> 00:05:15,000 I bet like just watching how it grow together, like just as one, like not just individually, like y'all are growing as one. 59 00:05:15,000 --> 00:05:16,000 Yeah. 60 00:05:16,000 --> 00:05:21,000 Like and just working on y'all's selves, like in y'all relationship with God and just with each other. 61 00:05:21,000 --> 00:05:22,000 It's beautiful. 62 00:05:22,000 --> 00:05:24,000 Like that's, I love that. 63 00:05:24,000 --> 00:05:32,000 And when I actually first started the podcast, like when I first had the idea of starting it, I'm like, I've got to get Amber on this. 64 00:05:32,000 --> 00:05:35,000 Like you were the first person that popped in my mind to come onto the podcast. 65 00:05:35,000 --> 00:05:43,000 Like I've got to get her on this so she can just share her story and her journey of, you know, just walking in her faith and just constantly staying strong in it. 66 00:05:43,000 --> 00:05:44,000 Yeah. 67 00:05:44,000 --> 00:05:47,000 And your parents, your parents too. 68 00:05:47,000 --> 00:05:50,000 That's why I was like really excited to get them on as well. 69 00:05:50,000 --> 00:05:55,000 Like these are like, y'all are like an amazing family, like an amazing family. 70 00:05:55,000 --> 00:05:57,000 And I love y'all. 71 00:05:57,000 --> 00:05:58,000 You love you. 72 00:05:58,000 --> 00:06:00,000 You love you. 73 00:06:00,000 --> 00:06:01,000 Yeah. 74 00:06:01,000 --> 00:06:04,000 And I was, I was talking to, no, I wasn't my mom. 75 00:06:04,000 --> 00:06:07,000 She was talking to Omar the other day and he asked about y'all. 76 00:06:07,000 --> 00:06:08,000 Oh. 77 00:06:08,000 --> 00:06:12,000 Because they're all him, Ali, and they're Julian and one of the other friends are in Florida. 78 00:06:12,000 --> 00:06:13,000 Okay. 79 00:06:13,000 --> 00:06:14,000 So they've been doing. 80 00:06:14,000 --> 00:06:15,000 I think Michigan. 81 00:06:15,000 --> 00:06:16,000 That's wrong. 82 00:06:16,000 --> 00:06:17,000 Yeah. 83 00:06:17,000 --> 00:06:18,000 They were in Michigan. 84 00:06:18,000 --> 00:06:19,000 Okay. 85 00:06:19,000 --> 00:06:24,000 And they were in Los Angeles with his dad before he passed and then they moved to Florida and then started the Airbnb stuff out there. 86 00:06:24,000 --> 00:06:25,000 Okay. 87 00:06:25,000 --> 00:06:26,000 Cool. 88 00:06:26,000 --> 00:06:27,000 Yes, I did hear about that. 89 00:06:27,000 --> 00:06:28,000 Yeah. 90 00:06:28,000 --> 00:06:33,000 So they're doing that down there now, which is, I think is going good from what I've been hearing. 91 00:06:33,000 --> 00:06:34,000 I don't know. 92 00:06:34,000 --> 00:06:39,000 So, so they've been, they've been doing good with that. 93 00:06:39,000 --> 00:06:42,000 So hopefully it continues to go good. 94 00:06:42,000 --> 00:06:48,000 I don't know, you know, but yeah, my mom is like so on them about like, y'all needs to go to school. 95 00:06:48,000 --> 00:06:50,000 Like, mom, they'll figure it out. 96 00:06:50,000 --> 00:06:53,000 Just, you got to let them do what they're going to do. 97 00:06:53,000 --> 00:06:54,000 Yeah, that's very true. 98 00:06:54,000 --> 00:06:56,000 That's very wise coming from you. 99 00:06:56,000 --> 00:06:58,000 Like, they'll, they'll figure it out. 100 00:06:58,000 --> 00:07:00,000 They'll figure it out. 101 00:07:00,000 --> 00:07:02,000 Alicia asked about y'all too, my sister Alicia. 102 00:07:02,000 --> 00:07:07,000 She just, well, not just had her second baby, but she got a little girl now. 103 00:07:07,000 --> 00:07:09,000 Looks just like her. 104 00:07:09,000 --> 00:07:10,000 Does she? 105 00:07:10,000 --> 00:07:11,000 Yeah. 106 00:07:11,000 --> 00:07:13,000 Like, oh, not everybody out here having babies now. 107 00:07:13,000 --> 00:07:16,000 And she asked me like, what are you having baby? 108 00:07:16,000 --> 00:07:17,000 Not any time soon. 109 00:07:17,000 --> 00:07:19,000 Not any time soon. 110 00:07:19,000 --> 00:07:22,000 Like, that is not in the cards for me right now. 111 00:07:22,000 --> 00:07:23,000 Yeah. 112 00:07:23,000 --> 00:07:25,000 Like at some point, maybe. 113 00:07:25,000 --> 00:07:26,000 Definitely not right now. 114 00:07:26,000 --> 00:07:27,000 That's fair. 115 00:07:27,000 --> 00:07:28,000 No rush. 116 00:07:28,000 --> 00:07:30,000 There's no rush whatsoever. 117 00:07:30,000 --> 00:07:31,000 Not at all. 118 00:07:31,000 --> 00:07:37,000 Tommy and the Lord, my husband and I would say while we recording, do time, proper time, perfect time. 119 00:07:37,000 --> 00:07:38,000 Yeah. 120 00:07:38,000 --> 00:07:39,000 Yeah. 121 00:07:39,000 --> 00:07:41,000 That's what it is. 122 00:07:41,000 --> 00:07:53,000 Yeah, she's like, okay, now, so now that you're in this space in your life, like in motherhood, 123 00:07:53,000 --> 00:08:02,000 and just being a wife and just being a devoted servant of God, how was that, you know, whole process from where you were to where you are now? 124 00:08:02,000 --> 00:08:06,000 Like, do you see a change in yourself, like spiritually, emotionally? 125 00:08:06,000 --> 00:08:08,000 Almost definitely. 126 00:08:08,000 --> 00:08:14,000 So back story is through, oh Lord, what time, what age was I when I got married? 127 00:08:14,000 --> 00:08:17,000 23, because it was our Jordan year. 128 00:08:17,000 --> 00:08:25,000 So I was 23 years old, but for 23 years of my life, I had been single, never dated, never did that whole thing. 129 00:08:25,000 --> 00:08:34,000 And my husband was my first boyfriend because I pledged to the Lord, Father, as I'm obedient to you, I want my first boyfriend to be my only one. 130 00:08:34,000 --> 00:08:42,000 And I was really believing the Lord for that as I remain faithful and just saw after his guidance. 131 00:08:42,000 --> 00:08:47,000 And so it's funny because Malachi has the same testimony, his first girlfriend. 132 00:08:47,000 --> 00:08:53,000 And so that's just how we lived out our lives during our singlehood. 133 00:08:53,000 --> 00:09:00,000 And so I could talk about singleness all day long because I've only been married for three years, but I've been single much longer. 134 00:09:00,000 --> 00:09:01,000 Yeah. 135 00:09:01,000 --> 00:09:07,000 And so I feel more equipped to talk about that season of my life as opposed to marriage. 136 00:09:07,000 --> 00:09:20,000 But in transitioning into married life, I could definitely say that I have seen many changes in myself and learned so many different things in that, like, oh my gosh, I'm selfish. 137 00:09:20,000 --> 00:09:21,000 What? 138 00:09:21,000 --> 00:09:24,000 Like, I've always been such a great friend to other people, like, what do you mean? 139 00:09:24,000 --> 00:09:26,000 I think about myself a lot. 140 00:09:26,000 --> 00:09:39,000 And so when you have somebody that's constantly serving as essentially a mirror to you, you will see yourself and be like, oh my, like, I did not know this was in me. 141 00:09:39,000 --> 00:09:47,000 You know, like, when you're single, you can walk away and you're not with somebody constantly all the time. 142 00:09:47,000 --> 00:09:58,000 And so I came to terms with that. I feel like that was like the major eye-opening thing of like realizing that, I don't know, like, I just thought I was more selfless. 143 00:09:58,000 --> 00:10:05,000 And I went into marriage thinking I was going to be this perfect wife, which obviously not perfect, but nearly, you know. 144 00:10:05,000 --> 00:10:06,000 Yeah. 145 00:10:06,000 --> 00:10:17,000 And so I always, the expectation I would have of myself, my flesh yields itself to perfectionism, which is not of God, because we know that only the Lord is perfect and complete and whole. 146 00:10:17,000 --> 00:10:24,000 And so for me to have that expectation on myself is doing myself a disservice and also just, I'm lying, right? 147 00:10:24,000 --> 00:10:31,000 It's nearly sinful if I don't recognize my own humanity and the likeness that the Lord has made me. 148 00:10:31,000 --> 00:10:35,000 And so I say all that to say, I'm not perfect. 149 00:10:35,000 --> 00:10:38,000 I'm not the perfect wife. 150 00:10:38,000 --> 00:10:49,000 And just really the steep learning curve of what it looks like to be in this intimate relationship with someone having never been in a relationship before. 151 00:10:49,000 --> 00:10:52,000 So it was like a really steep learning curve for us. 152 00:10:52,000 --> 00:10:55,000 And so I'm very grateful for this transition. 153 00:10:55,000 --> 00:10:59,000 I feel like now, like, we pretty much know each other. 154 00:10:59,000 --> 00:11:08,000 But it's wild because we were literally talking about this the other day that we will never, like, know each other as much as the Lord knows us. 155 00:11:08,000 --> 00:11:16,000 And so having this relationship that's centered on him, and that's why our singlehood was so pivotal when we're, it's just really us and the Lord. 156 00:11:16,000 --> 00:11:26,000 And so now walking into marriage, having us, the two twain flesh becoming one with Christ at the center is so crucial. 157 00:11:26,000 --> 00:11:29,000 And quite honestly, I don't know how other people do it without him. 158 00:11:29,000 --> 00:11:30,000 Yeah. 159 00:11:30,000 --> 00:11:32,000 I understand you're going to do it all. 160 00:11:32,000 --> 00:11:33,000 Yeah. 161 00:11:33,000 --> 00:11:34,000 Yeah. 162 00:11:34,000 --> 00:11:41,000 Like, you learn, well, from what I've seen, and like, you learn a lot about each other. 163 00:11:41,000 --> 00:11:42,000 Yeah. 164 00:11:42,000 --> 00:11:43,000 And about yourself. 165 00:11:43,000 --> 00:11:54,000 And like, you will continue to learn not only just about each other, but can you continue to learn within yourself. 166 00:11:54,000 --> 00:11:59,000 And just continue to like, stay grounded on your faith in God. 167 00:11:59,000 --> 00:12:03,000 It's like, no matter what, it's like, I look at my sisters and my brother, because they all have kids. 168 00:12:03,000 --> 00:12:05,000 They all have two kids. 169 00:12:05,000 --> 00:12:13,000 And like, just watching them from, you know, where I'm at now, it's like, all of y'all are unmarried. 170 00:12:13,000 --> 00:12:14,000 You'll have two kids. 171 00:12:14,000 --> 00:12:19,000 Like, I love y'all to death, but like, y'all, like, they were young when they had kids. 172 00:12:19,000 --> 00:12:22,000 Like, they were all like in their early 20s when they had their first kid. 173 00:12:22,000 --> 00:12:24,000 It's like, come on out. 174 00:12:24,000 --> 00:12:31,000 Like, I love y'all, but y'all should be like, we were always raised in the church, especially me and Alicia. 175 00:12:31,000 --> 00:12:36,000 Because, you know, we went through foster care together, always raised in the church, no matter what house we're in. 176 00:12:36,000 --> 00:12:37,000 We're always in the church. 177 00:12:37,000 --> 00:12:43,000 It's like, I'm not, I'm not like, on fuzz, I'm not going to fire with her. 178 00:12:43,000 --> 00:12:49,000 Like, I'm going to just, you know, I'm going to let you walk in your whatever this is right now. 179 00:12:49,000 --> 00:12:50,000 Yeah. 180 00:12:50,000 --> 00:12:56,000 Because you'll, at some point, figure out, you know, you got to go back to God at some point. 181 00:12:56,000 --> 00:12:57,000 Yeah, that's really good. 182 00:12:57,000 --> 00:13:05,000 And hearing you say that, and it's just very reminiscent of my own thoughts watching my friends and even some family members. 183 00:13:05,000 --> 00:13:08,000 I'm like, what in the world are you doing? 184 00:13:08,000 --> 00:13:13,000 Like, we learned what was right, you know, first comes love then comes marriage then come to baby and the baby carriage. 185 00:13:13,000 --> 00:13:23,000 And this is not to shame or to fault. I know people have significant life situations that just certain things be happening. 186 00:13:23,000 --> 00:13:24,000 Yeah. 187 00:13:24,000 --> 00:13:26,000 You got to roll with the punches and keep it moving. 188 00:13:26,000 --> 00:13:33,000 And the Lord can and will be glorified even in the midst of our shortcomings. 189 00:13:33,000 --> 00:13:44,000 So I totally get what you're saying. And I just knew for myself, I needed to be different. 190 00:13:44,000 --> 00:13:45,000 Right? 191 00:13:45,000 --> 00:13:52,000 I saw how every single relationship, even in high school, it either ended up in marriage or there are breakups. 192 00:13:52,000 --> 00:13:53,000 Yeah. 193 00:13:53,000 --> 00:13:57,000 Like, that's literally it. And more often than not, it was the breaking up. 194 00:13:57,000 --> 00:13:58,000 Yeah. 195 00:13:58,000 --> 00:14:13,000 So I knew that I didn't want to be, I don't know, just making those decisions so early in my life, but rather just keeping the Lord at the forefront. 196 00:14:13,000 --> 00:14:14,000 Yeah. 197 00:14:14,000 --> 00:14:24,000 And, you know, watching, well, Alicia is the perfect example for this. I don't mean to throw her under the bus, but like, because her and her boyfriend, they met in high school. 198 00:14:24,000 --> 00:14:30,000 They were really young when they first met. And then just straight out of high school, she had her for her son. 199 00:14:30,000 --> 00:14:40,000 Now she had her daughter last year in July. She'll be one in July. And I'm like, what are you doing? 200 00:14:40,000 --> 00:14:41,000 Yeah. 201 00:14:41,000 --> 00:14:46,000 What are you doing? Like all of my siblings, they had their first kid straight out of high school. 202 00:14:46,000 --> 00:14:47,000 Okay. 203 00:14:47,000 --> 00:14:48,000 Yeah. 204 00:14:48,000 --> 00:14:52,000 Okay. And then one of my friends, she just had her baby. I'm like, okay. 205 00:14:52,000 --> 00:14:53,000 Yeah. 206 00:14:53,000 --> 00:15:05,000 And I also double as a labor and delivery nurse. And so there was a time in which I would get so upset at seeing like, okay, backstory. 207 00:15:05,000 --> 00:15:14,000 I've always loved labor. I've always loved delivery. There was a show called the baby story on TLC and I would be watching it with my mother, like from the age of four or five. 208 00:15:14,000 --> 00:15:24,000 And in those shows, it was always a married couple, right? There was no teen mom show that I had that didn't exist at the time. 209 00:15:24,000 --> 00:15:29,000 And so that's what I thought I was going to see all the time being a labor and delivery nurse. 210 00:15:29,000 --> 00:15:36,000 And it was a rude awakening to see like these situations where maybe the father of the baby isn't in the picture. 211 00:15:36,000 --> 00:15:44,000 Maybe he is and he's doing X, Y, Z and oh, you're in high school sweetheart. Oh, you had to stop your college classes. 212 00:15:44,000 --> 00:15:56,000 And for me, it would be difficult to do my job because I'm like, oh Lord, I want these people to be married or this baby is coming into this world and it would grieve my heart. 213 00:15:56,000 --> 00:16:04,000 Maybe it's coming into this world and I know the joy and the blessing that it is to have a two parent household, but they parents don't look like they've been to stay together. 214 00:16:04,000 --> 00:16:05,000 Yeah. 215 00:16:05,000 --> 00:16:10,000 And the Lord would actually have me pray for these children and praying for their upbringing and praying for their parents. 216 00:16:10,000 --> 00:16:15,000 But I realized that there was some bitterness in my own heart. 217 00:16:15,000 --> 00:16:25,000 And it was only until Malakama husband had let me know because I told him like this is grieving me like this is even difficult to even say congratulations sometimes. 218 00:16:25,000 --> 00:16:38,000 And he reminded me of the fact that they chose life in a world that is so quick to be like, go ahead and abort that baby and essentially murder that child. 219 00:16:38,000 --> 00:16:47,000 And so we honor what the Lord has done because it's true what his word says that children are a blessing and they are a gift from God. 220 00:16:47,000 --> 00:16:58,000 And so despite the order in which people decide to live out their lives because for the record, y'all sex makes babies. That's what it does. That's what happens when you engage in that. 221 00:16:58,000 --> 00:17:04,000 And the safest sex that you can have if you don't want to have a baby is no sex. It ain't latex is none. Don't have none. 222 00:17:04,000 --> 00:17:07,000 Never the last I digress. 223 00:17:07,000 --> 00:17:25,000 But I now have this perspective of, okay, even if this is not God's perfect design of getting married and engaging in this activity that is honestly glorifying him and having these babies that are fruits of this marriage, 224 00:17:25,000 --> 00:17:41,000 even if somebody doesn't choose that route, I can still pray for this child. I can still pray for the parents of this child and trust and believe that God is going to be glorified through and through. 225 00:17:41,000 --> 00:17:55,000 And you even see Biblically stories of maybe one of the best situations, but these children are born and the name of the Lord will be praised. 226 00:17:55,000 --> 00:18:05,000 And so even in we have family members as well who maybe did not do the path that is less the road less traveled. 227 00:18:05,000 --> 00:18:13,000 But you see these situations and people are able to come to the Lord and have every choices. 228 00:18:13,000 --> 00:18:23,000 Yeah. Yeah. And like always so always so Alicia is like you should bring the kids to church because like she'll come every now and again when she's not working. 229 00:18:23,000 --> 00:18:30,000 Like you should bring the kids what you want time. It's like I'm gonna do it. I'm gonna do it. Never bring something like I'm gonna just pray for you. 230 00:18:30,000 --> 00:18:37,000 Yeah. I'm just that's all I can do because at the end of the day you're going to do what you want to do. So I'm just I'm just pray for you. 231 00:18:37,000 --> 00:18:48,000 So that's all I can do for you right now because clearly you and channel vision right now. So I'm just I'm just pray for you. 232 00:18:48,000 --> 00:18:54,000 So that's. And I think sometimes people put prayer as a last resort and I'll speak for myself. 233 00:18:54,000 --> 00:19:05,000 I know I have like all I can do now is pray. But that should be my first response in all things and my auntie I was speaking to who I consider a mentor. 234 00:19:05,000 --> 00:19:12,000 She had told me in everything allow your response to be worship. Yeah. And I thought that was so so good. 235 00:19:12,000 --> 00:19:23,000 But the fact that that is what we're called to that is my purpose in this life is to worship the Lord. Yeah. 236 00:19:23,000 --> 00:19:33,000 I think it's very easy to say like to just put prayer as like last ditch effort when really that needs to be the first thing that we do. 237 00:19:33,000 --> 00:19:39,000 And it's the best thing that we can do. The best thing is better than any conversation that we could have. 238 00:19:39,000 --> 00:19:45,000 Like you could be praying and interceding for folks girl. God will do it. 239 00:19:45,000 --> 00:19:56,000 Yeah. I'm like I'm not going to sit here and fuss at you and fight with you. I'm not going to do that because at the end of the day you're grown. 240 00:19:56,000 --> 00:20:03,000 You can do what you want to do. I'm not going to treat you like you're a little kid. No you're grown. You can do what you want. 241 00:20:03,000 --> 00:20:11,000 So I'm not going to argue with you. I'm not going to keep talking to you about the same thing over and over again when you're clearly not hearing what I'm saying. 242 00:20:11,000 --> 00:20:18,000 You just want to hear what you want to hear. So I'm just keep praying for you. That's all I'm going to do. 243 00:20:18,000 --> 00:20:24,000 If you want to sit down and have a conversation at some point that's fine. We can sit down and have a conversation but I'm not going to fight with you. 244 00:20:24,000 --> 00:20:33,000 That's what I'm not going to do. We're both way too grown to be sitting here arguing about some petty stuff. No. I'm not doing that. 245 00:20:33,000 --> 00:20:35,000 There you go. 246 00:20:35,000 --> 00:20:44,000 I'm going to believe in what I believe. All of my siblings know I'm very strong in a God. I have a very strong relationship with God. 247 00:20:44,000 --> 00:20:49,000 All of my siblings know that. They know not to argue with me but I'm not arguing with you. I'm going to pray for you. 248 00:20:49,000 --> 00:20:51,000 It's good. 249 00:20:51,000 --> 00:20:55,000 Don't even come to me with an attitude because I'm not going to talk to you when you have an attitude. 250 00:20:55,000 --> 00:21:07,000 Come to me cool, calm and collected so we can actually have an adult conversation. Like adults. I'm not going to sit here and bicker and fight over something that's completely irrelevant. 251 00:21:07,000 --> 00:21:15,000 If you're going through something God puts you through it for a reason. So what do you want me to do about it? I'm not God. Go to God and pray about it. 252 00:21:15,000 --> 00:21:21,000 I'll pray for you but at the end of the day you need to pray over yourself and your own family. 253 00:21:21,000 --> 00:21:27,000 I can only do so much with prayer. But it's really between you and God. 254 00:21:27,000 --> 00:21:40,000 You're reminding me of a text actually. In Galatians I believe it's either chapter 5 or 6 and it references the fact that we are to bear one another's burdens but it goes on to say, 255 00:21:40,000 --> 00:21:51,000 uh, but each person got to bury his own. Essentially that's the neighbor version but let me go to it real quick. 256 00:21:51,000 --> 00:21:57,000 Alright yeah, through the Spirit of Galatians 5 it must be 6, right? 257 00:21:57,000 --> 00:22:02,000 Oh Lord. 258 00:22:02,000 --> 00:22:13,000 Okay, brethren, if a man be overtaken in a fault ye which are spiritual restore such in one in the Spirit of Meekness, considering thyself lest you also be tempted. 259 00:22:13,000 --> 00:22:22,000 Bear one another's burdens and so fulfill all of Christ. For if a man think himself to be something when he is nothing he deceives himself. 260 00:22:22,000 --> 00:22:32,000 But let every man prove his own work and then shall he have rejoicing in himself alone and not in another. For every man shall bear his own burden. 261 00:22:32,000 --> 00:22:44,000 So it's like I had to reconcile the fact that when people are going through things or making decisions that really just impact their own life, I can do my best to help them and bear their burden. 262 00:22:44,000 --> 00:22:53,000 But I got to take that to the Lord that's not just meant to be on my back, but to take it to the other person, especially in circumstances where they're really unbothered by it. 263 00:22:53,000 --> 00:23:07,000 And they have all this stuff and you see it and you're like, let me help some so help them out. I got to, you know, take these burdens for them and they not even worried about them. 264 00:23:07,000 --> 00:23:18,000 And so I would end up exhausting myself, exhausting my own energy, exhausting my own resources for the sake of people who don't even realize they got burdens to begin with. 265 00:23:18,000 --> 00:23:34,000 And they're actually quite comfortable. So I do better to just pray for them and intercede on their behalf than I would to pick all this stuff up because at the end of the day, everyone is to bear their own load, carry their own load essentially. 266 00:23:34,000 --> 00:23:42,000 There's only so much I can do. Yeah. And so I got the end of the day. That's between you and God. 267 00:23:42,000 --> 00:23:50,000 Like, I'm going to do my best to pray for you. I'm going to do my best to do what I can do for you. But I can't do everything. 268 00:23:50,000 --> 00:24:03,000 I don't know what you expect me to do, but I'm not God. So go to Him, pray. I'm going to pray for you. I will always pray for you, but that's the conversation between you and God. 269 00:24:03,000 --> 00:24:10,000 That you've got to sit down and have for yourself. And like, because my brother, he's good for that. 270 00:24:10,000 --> 00:24:20,000 He's like, oh, can you pray for me? Oh, I've been praying for you this whole time. But you need to sit down with God yourself and pray and talk to Him and understand Him. 271 00:24:20,000 --> 00:24:25,000 You know, like, because that's something that, you know, I'm not going to be able to fix all of your problems by praying for you. 272 00:24:25,000 --> 00:24:37,000 Like, I'm going to do the best I can. But at the end of the day, like, that's between you and God. Because he had lost one of his eyes when we were kids. 273 00:24:37,000 --> 00:24:41,000 And he was supposed to be getting a new eye. It was like, oh, can you pray for me? 274 00:24:41,000 --> 00:24:55,000 So I've been praying for you for years, okay, since you lost your eye, even before the end. I'm going to always do that. You're my brother. And I love you. But you need to sit down with your Bible and pray. 275 00:24:55,000 --> 00:25:08,000 Yeah. Yeah. That's really good. Yeah. I just reflect on actually this devotional that I was reading today with my grandmother. 276 00:25:08,000 --> 00:25:21,000 And she called it the pineapple, pineapple principle. And essentially, she was saying how she loves fresh pineapple, but she would often settle for the canned fruit because she ain't know how to cut it. 277 00:25:21,000 --> 00:25:27,000 And that's very real because I'm gonna lie. I had to look up a YouTube video to learn how to cut pineapple, but it's totally different. 278 00:25:27,000 --> 00:25:36,000 Like the taste of a fresh pineapple versus can is unmatched. It's ridiculous how much better it tastes when it's fresh. 279 00:25:36,000 --> 00:25:43,000 And so one time she went over a girlfriend's house and she was like, oh, little girl, you want a snack? And she was like, yeah. 280 00:25:43,000 --> 00:25:50,000 And she watched her cut this pineapple. And she was like, oh my gosh, this is not even that hard. 281 00:25:50,000 --> 00:25:56,000 I use cut off top cut off the bottom and then you're pouring it and cutting the slices into little bite size pieces. 282 00:25:56,000 --> 00:26:06,000 And she reflected and she was like, well, I could have been doing this instead of settling, you know, wetting my palate with this canned pineapple. 283 00:26:06,000 --> 00:26:14,000 That's basically when I eat it is telling me there's better. Yeah. This is cool, but there's definitely better. 284 00:26:14,000 --> 00:26:25,000 And she said that and she related it to the word of God and how so often we'll read devotionals or just read these books about people who have already passed through his work. 285 00:26:25,000 --> 00:26:31,000 And we'll pass through his word as opposed to eating it for ourselves because it can become daunting. 286 00:26:31,000 --> 00:26:41,000 And you know, it's a large book. There's words that some people may not understand and it's difficult to digest, but the Holy Spirit will help us. 287 00:26:41,000 --> 00:26:53,000 And so I say that to say in relation to hearing people asking for prayer and not really being as inclined to do it themselves. 288 00:26:53,000 --> 00:27:01,000 I think you're giving a very wise advice of I have been praying for you, but you need to go to the Lord for yourself. 289 00:27:01,000 --> 00:27:04,000 Yeah, because I can't play savior for anybody. 290 00:27:04,000 --> 00:27:09,000 And we might be doing people a disservice. 291 00:27:09,000 --> 00:27:20,000 In fact, when we are essentially packaging something as this real pineapple when really, no, that's that's between you and the Lord. 292 00:27:20,000 --> 00:27:25,000 Yeah, you know, but people take comfort and it might be a thing that's checked off of their list. 293 00:27:25,000 --> 00:27:35,000 And I've been prone to it as well when I read devotionals and recently the Lord convicted me like you need to sit down with the sweetness of just my word, just my word, not man's word, just my word. 294 00:27:35,000 --> 00:27:36,000 Yeah. 295 00:27:36,000 --> 00:27:43,000 And so even in prayer, it's beautiful when people are able to pray with you. But at the end of the day. 296 00:27:43,000 --> 00:27:45,000 Yeah, look, that's a conversation you gotta have with God. 297 00:27:45,000 --> 00:27:48,000 So yeah, it's like it's only so much I can do. 298 00:27:48,000 --> 00:27:52,000 The word says that we are to work out our own salvation with fear and trembling. 299 00:27:52,000 --> 00:27:59,000 And I think if there's anything that is lacking in modern day Christianity, it's this fear of the Lord. 300 00:27:59,000 --> 00:28:00,000 Yeah. 301 00:28:00,000 --> 00:28:09,000 This reverential fear of the Lord that we are called to have and we treat God as such this casual commodity, if you will, when he's so much more than that. 302 00:28:09,000 --> 00:28:10,000 Yeah. 303 00:28:10,000 --> 00:28:16,000 He's literally everything, but especially Western Christians in America. 304 00:28:16,000 --> 00:28:18,000 Yeah. 305 00:28:18,000 --> 00:28:33,000 And it's just like watching the world evolve to just darkness and chaos and like just all of this unnecessary violence going on. 306 00:28:33,000 --> 00:28:36,000 It's like, why are we doing this? 307 00:28:36,000 --> 00:28:38,000 Because we're human. 308 00:28:38,000 --> 00:28:46,000 Like there is no need for us to be killing each other, shaming each other. It's like we are all God's people at the end of the day. 309 00:28:46,000 --> 00:28:53,000 He's gonna love us regardless. Like it doesn't matter what you look like, how you sound. Like it doesn't matter. He's gonna love you regardless. 310 00:28:53,000 --> 00:29:01,000 Yeah. Yeah. I guess what we're just seeing is the effects of having a Godless people. 311 00:29:01,000 --> 00:29:06,000 And this is what happens. This is humanity. 312 00:29:06,000 --> 00:29:08,000 Yeah. Yeah. 313 00:29:08,000 --> 00:29:17,000 So, there's a guy in Atlanta. I think he was either a Marine or in the Navy. 314 00:29:17,000 --> 00:29:24,000 But he got shot up by the police. Like that is so sad. Like it's such a sad world. 315 00:29:24,000 --> 00:29:36,000 And I was like, okay, come on now. You all are gonna have to realize that at some point we're not each other's enemy. Like there is no reason for us to be fighting with each other. 316 00:29:36,000 --> 00:29:43,000 There is no reason at all. So at the end of the day, we all have a common enemy that is the devil himself. 317 00:29:43,000 --> 00:29:56,000 Like we're God's people. There is no reason for you to say, oh, this person, this and this, they deserve to die. Okay. Yes, they do that. 318 00:29:56,000 --> 00:30:05,000 They need to repent to God for what they did. You know, because that's not something for me or you to judge someone for. 319 00:30:05,000 --> 00:30:13,000 Okay, I'm not gonna judge you. I'm not gonna spy you. I'm not gonna shame you. That's between you and God. 320 00:30:13,000 --> 00:30:27,000 Yeah. Lots of heavy stuff going on in the world. And I feel like a lot of it is just distractions from essentially what you're saying that the real true enemy is the devil. 321 00:30:27,000 --> 00:30:46,000 So whether it's disunity or just using our differences against us. It's sad to see, but when you know him, him being the Lord, and when you pray for your vision to look like, 322 00:30:46,000 --> 00:30:55,000 Lord, I want to see what you see. I want my heart to feel what your heart feels. It's an entirely different perspective that you'll have. 323 00:30:55,000 --> 00:31:05,000 Yeah. You will essentially see the world in a different lens. You know, like it's like putting on sunglasses. You see the world completely differently now. 324 00:31:05,000 --> 00:31:10,000 It's like, wow, this is what the world looks like. Okay. 325 00:31:10,000 --> 00:31:23,000 There's a scripture, I believe it's in one of the Corinthians that says, fix your eyes on those things which are unseen and not the seen things for the unseen things are eternal, whereas seen things are temporary. 326 00:31:23,000 --> 00:31:42,000 And so when we really have this mindset of, okay, I want to see the things that I really can't see or set my side, slow it on the things that which reflects your kingdom and bring to light anything that doesn't and having this spiritual vision. 327 00:31:42,000 --> 00:31:51,000 It's life change. It's game changing. It is game changing. And then you'll realize like, Oh, I ain't meant to wrestle against flesh and blood. This is a principality. 328 00:31:51,000 --> 00:31:56,000 It is a force of darkness to be reckoned with in the spiritual realm. 329 00:31:56,000 --> 00:32:02,000 Yeah. Yeah. And I don't know if you remember my sister, Leah. 330 00:32:02,000 --> 00:32:12,000 Yeah, so she's like, because she had leukemia, went into remission right before she was half-bossed to have a stem cell transplant. 331 00:32:12,000 --> 00:32:28,000 And like the effects now from that, like her back is completely shot up now from like, like, and I'm not, I'm pretty sure it's like not even from the leukemia now, because like her oncologist is like, Oh, you're having this problem, this problem because of leukemia. 332 00:32:28,000 --> 00:32:38,000 It's not because of leukemia. She's been in remission for three years now. This has been going on for three years. I'm pretty sure it's not from the leukemia. 333 00:32:38,000 --> 00:32:47,000 It was like, she was supposed to have surgery. Doctors didn't even put in the order for her to have a biopsy. I'm like, girl, I'm gonna pray for you. 334 00:32:47,000 --> 00:32:56,000 Because you, like she's in constant pain all the time. It's like, I'm gonna pray for you. But like, I've been praying for her. 335 00:32:56,000 --> 00:33:10,000 Like, you gotta, you gotta have a conversation with God. Because that's the only way you're gonna get any kind of relief. It's just to sit down and pray. Say, girl, I love you. But you gotta, you gotta pray with God yourself. 336 00:33:10,000 --> 00:33:12,000 That's a, you and him conversation. 337 00:33:12,000 --> 00:33:15,000 That's good. 338 00:33:15,000 --> 00:33:27,000 It's like, I love her to death, but it's like, girl, sit down and talk to God for like a good minute. Like sit down. Because you're going through it. Like, I'd like just watching her like being pain all the time. 339 00:33:27,000 --> 00:33:42,000 Like she literally can't even work because she's in so much pain all the time. Like, girl, I love you, but pray. Pray. That's the only, it's the only way you're gonna get any relief. And any answers, like real answers that you want. 340 00:33:42,000 --> 00:33:46,000 Yeah, that's so good. 341 00:33:46,000 --> 00:33:50,000 I agree. 342 00:33:50,000 --> 00:34:00,000 So, my mom too, like she, every time we turn around, she's like got a sinus infection. She always sick and pain. 343 00:34:00,000 --> 00:34:13,000 Like, y'all gotta sit down and have a conversation with God. Like, I love y'all, but I'm gonna continue to pray for y'all, but that's a you and God conversation. 344 00:34:13,000 --> 00:34:15,000 I forgot this. I didn't turn this one off. 345 00:34:15,000 --> 00:34:17,000 No worries. 346 00:34:17,000 --> 00:34:19,000 Okay. 347 00:34:19,000 --> 00:34:21,000 Okay. 348 00:34:21,000 --> 00:34:33,000 Yeah. It's like, yeah, I'm gonna continue to pray for y'all. I'm gonna pray for my whole family because like, that's the conversation that's all I'm gonna have. 349 00:34:33,000 --> 00:34:39,000 Like, no matter what you're going through, where are you out of your life, you gotta, you gotta pray. You gotta pray. 350 00:34:39,000 --> 00:34:45,000 Like, because now, because like, I've had to pray for myself. 351 00:34:45,000 --> 00:34:54,000 Because like, I first had the idea of what the podcast, like, when I was, before I even graduated, because I graduated in 22, I'm like, and I sat down. 352 00:34:54,000 --> 00:34:57,000 I'm like, okay. 353 00:34:57,000 --> 00:35:06,000 I sat there and I prayed about it. I'm like, okay, is this something you want to happen now? Or is it something you want to be sat on and come back later too? 354 00:35:06,000 --> 00:35:11,000 And so, I'm like, okay, we're gonna sit on this. 355 00:35:11,000 --> 00:35:18,000 And this is something that's not meant to be happening right now. I'm not in the right season to even be doing this in my life right now. 356 00:35:18,000 --> 00:35:22,000 So, we're gonna just put it in a light slow box and put it aside. 357 00:35:22,000 --> 00:35:30,000 And then, I think I had a, no, I actually had a dream about it coming back to it recently. 358 00:35:30,000 --> 00:35:33,000 I'm like, okay, that's, that's good. 359 00:35:33,000 --> 00:35:37,000 And because when I first had the idea, I didn't have a name for it, nothing. 360 00:35:37,000 --> 00:35:41,000 And then I had a dream about a compass. 361 00:35:41,000 --> 00:35:45,000 Like, that's what we're doing with the podcast. 362 00:35:45,000 --> 00:35:50,000 And then that's when we came up with the idea of True North and, you know, like, everything with the podcast. 363 00:35:50,000 --> 00:35:58,000 I'm like, okay, we're going with this now. We're in the right season. We're in the right headspace to start it. 364 00:35:58,000 --> 00:36:01,000 Everything comes in due time. 365 00:36:01,000 --> 00:36:08,000 Like, everything will happen when it's meant to happen. Don't force it to happen. 366 00:36:08,000 --> 00:36:14,000 I'm not gonna sit here and force something to happen when I'm not in the right season for it to happen. 367 00:36:14,000 --> 00:36:20,000 Like, you know, you gotta be in the right headspace in the right season for something to fall into place. 368 00:36:20,000 --> 00:36:26,000 And so, like, it's this, the podcast has finally fallen into place because I'm in the right season for it. 369 00:36:26,000 --> 00:36:32,000 So I was like, okay, I'm gonna listen to what you're telling me and I'm gonna walk with you. 370 00:36:32,000 --> 00:36:38,000 Yeah, that's good. What you just said is, remind me of Galatians chapter 6 verse 9 where it says, 371 00:36:38,000 --> 00:36:44,000 Don't get weary and well-doing for the proper time you'll reap a harvest if you faint not. 372 00:36:44,000 --> 00:36:50,000 And so that's essentially what you're doing. You're not giving up, not losing heart, not getting faint, 373 00:36:50,000 --> 00:36:57,000 but rather I encourage you to keep pressing toward the mark of the higher calling that's found in Christ Jesus. 374 00:36:57,000 --> 00:37:06,000 And it's beautiful that you can even recognize the importance of seasons even so early on. 375 00:37:06,000 --> 00:37:11,000 Yeah, because, like, I'm literally gonna be, I'm gonna be 21 in June. 376 00:37:11,000 --> 00:37:16,000 It was like, because I was actually having a conversation with one of my managers and she was like, 377 00:37:16,000 --> 00:37:21,000 How are you so strong in your belief at such a young age? 378 00:37:21,000 --> 00:37:28,000 Because I found God at an even younger age. That's, like, my grandmother literally brought me to church. 379 00:37:28,000 --> 00:37:33,000 Like, as a, like, two, three years old. And I've been in the church for my entire life. 380 00:37:33,000 --> 00:37:37,000 Like, that's the only reason I am so strong in my faith was because of my grandmother. 381 00:37:37,000 --> 00:37:44,000 And when she passed, you know, like, it hurt, but I knew she was in a better place and she was sitting with God. 382 00:37:44,000 --> 00:37:49,000 You know, because, like, that's the only reason, like, I'm so strong in my faith and my belief. 383 00:37:49,000 --> 00:37:55,000 And, you know, knowing, you know, it's like, okay, this isn't the season for this. 384 00:37:55,000 --> 00:37:59,000 So we're not gonna start this right now. I'm not gonna push it. I'm not gonna press it. 385 00:37:59,000 --> 00:38:04,000 I'm gonna leave it where it's at and then come back to it when I'm in the right season for it. 386 00:38:04,000 --> 00:38:12,000 So it's like, okay. And when my sister, my, well, I had a younger sister, Aliyah, she passed away. 387 00:38:12,000 --> 00:38:16,000 You know, it hurt, but she is with God now. 388 00:38:16,000 --> 00:38:20,000 Not gonna push it. Not gonna press it. She's in a better place. 389 00:38:20,000 --> 00:38:26,000 You know, I'm just gonna leave it alone, you know, because, like, when God calls you to be with Him, 390 00:38:26,000 --> 00:38:31,000 you're in a better place, you know, like, you're doing, like, you're not here. 391 00:38:31,000 --> 00:38:40,000 Like, you don't have to stress out, you know, you don't have to worry about, you know, rent, you know, like, 392 00:38:40,000 --> 00:38:44,000 you know, I need a job getting laid off. I was like, oh, how much are you gonna get paid? 393 00:38:44,000 --> 00:38:49,000 You don't have to worry about that. You know, you're living eternal life with God. 394 00:38:49,000 --> 00:38:55,000 It's like, you're not gonna, you don't have to worry about getting sick, death, you know. 395 00:38:55,000 --> 00:38:57,000 Nope. 396 00:38:57,000 --> 00:39:03,000 Okay. That's one thing that I've always believed in, like, my faith in God. 397 00:39:03,000 --> 00:39:09,000 Like, I've always known that when people go to be with the Lord, they're in a better place now. 398 00:39:09,000 --> 00:39:14,000 Like, and I don't have to, like, yes, I'll get excited about it. 399 00:39:14,000 --> 00:39:19,000 But I always come back to the realization, like, they're fine. 400 00:39:19,000 --> 00:39:21,000 Like, I will see them again. 401 00:39:21,000 --> 00:39:24,000 At some point. 402 00:39:24,000 --> 00:39:27,000 It's not gonna be right now, but at some point I'm gonna see them. 403 00:39:27,000 --> 00:39:29,000 Yeah. 404 00:39:34,000 --> 00:39:36,000 Yeah. 405 00:39:36,000 --> 00:39:39,000 This was great. 406 00:39:39,000 --> 00:39:42,000 I agree. I enjoyed it. 407 00:39:42,000 --> 00:39:47,000 I did too. Thank you so much. Do you have anything else you'd like to say? 408 00:39:47,000 --> 00:39:53,000 Um, just to any listener. Keep pursuing the things of the Lord. 409 00:39:53,000 --> 00:40:01,000 One of my favorite phrases that my friend Patrice had coined is to honor progression, right? 410 00:40:01,000 --> 00:40:06,000 And just like Glacier 69 that I quoted earlier, just don't get weary. 411 00:40:06,000 --> 00:40:12,000 Don't get weary. Even if it's half a step forward, you honor that progression of half a step. 412 00:40:12,000 --> 00:40:16,000 And the Lord will surely strengthen you and see you through. 413 00:40:16,000 --> 00:40:18,000 I love that. 414 00:40:18,000 --> 00:40:21,000 Thank you so much for being on the podcast today. 415 00:40:21,000 --> 00:40:23,000 I appreciate you so much. 416 00:40:23,000 --> 00:40:25,000 I appreciate you. I love you. 417 00:40:25,000 --> 00:40:28,000 And I loved learning from you. 418 00:40:28,000 --> 00:40:32,000 It's also one thing that I wanted to do with this podcast was learning. 419 00:40:32,000 --> 00:40:37,000 Like from all of my guys, like you know, with their story, with their walk of faith. 420 00:40:37,000 --> 00:40:39,000 Just learning. 421 00:40:39,000 --> 00:40:43,000 And I learned. I'm happy I did. Thank you so much. 422 00:40:43,000 --> 00:40:44,000 Of course. 423 00:40:44,000 --> 00:40:45,000 Love you. 424 00:40:45,000 --> 00:40:46,000 Love you too. 425 00:40:46,000 --> 00:40:59,000 That's that's it, you guys.