Because I know I've got my tikvah, my hope, the
promise that he said, you know, I will be healed.
I will have new legs, you know. And so that's
the concept of saying and surrendering. And it's
easier to surrender when you have your tikvah,
when you have the promises. And ultimately, he
is our hope. God promises in Joel 2 .28 to pour
out His Spirit on all humanity. Welcome to Global
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outpouring, we equip for that outpouring, so
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the podcast today. We have part two with Patricia
Bartell today, and she's going to tell us more
about the amazing successes that she's had and
how hope, hanging on to hope, is going to pay
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Spirit in a very powerful way, and it's only
going to increase. We need to be ready. Well,
Patricia Bartell, thank you so much for joining
us a second time. We're excited to do another
episode with you because there's so much more
to your life than what we could cover in the
last episode. And we just we want to know more
about like what happened that got you into a
music academy. Like you wanted to do these accordion
world championships in order to be able to help
your students. What was your dream, and how did
you get that dream, and how did God make that
happen? Very, very good question. So it's interesting
because the Music Academy, it's Bartow Music
Academy now, over 200 students, didn't actually
initiate from me. So I taught students as a way
to help me through college. And so it was really
interesting because coming out of a one of 18
in my family, there was no extra money for college.
But it was amazing as I began to see the pattern
that every time I needed money, quarters to go
do laundry, the phone would ring and say, hey,
would you play for this wedding? Or would you
play for this birthday party? And then the months
I didn't need money, the phone never rang. Wow.
So it was just a vehicle that God used. He was
my provider. And it was just so cool to see that.
So then I graduated from college and I began
teaching. And I thought I was going to be in
the schools, the public schools, you know. And
it turned out I was only in it for a couple of
years. because I was traveling so much from different
countries, number one on traveling as the USA
judge for the World Championships, but I also
was starting on different ministry trips. So
now I enter because of all the healing that God
begins. in my life it's like now i'm like opening
up more and more i have a you know i'm starting
to figure out like cool i have a voice and i
can start sharing the things god's doing in my
life so i'm traveling to the philippines traveled
with bruce going to fiji that was my first mission
trip oh wow and i went to mexico and then and
it was prophesied get this um i was in a conference
and this lady with red hair forget her name And
she said, don't not expect a prophetic word from
me, you know, and she made this very clear at
the beginning. And so she's just this fireball.
And she comes off the stage and keeps preaching,
and she's standing right next to me. I was sitting
on the edge of the aisle there. And all of a
sudden, she turned around, slammed her hand on
my head, totally startled me. I was expecting
it. And she said, cried out, nations, you're
going to travel to Mexico. You're going to travel
to this and that and all these things. And I
just was so shocked. And she said within three
minutes, Wow. And so sure enough, within three
months, I was in Mexico. And then I was in Fiji.
And then I was in the Philippines and Uganda.
So I began all these travels to these countries.
And in between there, I would have my students.
And so if I was going to be gone a week, I'd
say, hey, you get an extra week to practice.
And then a couple of my students wanted to be
teachers. So, okay. They're like, can you teach
us how to teach? I'm like, because when I'm gone,
they can teach for me, you know? Perfect. Well,
then in 2012, we hosted the World Championships
for accordion in Spokane. Wow. And so they all
will come in. It's the first time U .S. had ever
hosted it. And so now we've got 40 countries
represented. And so we had the airport runs,
the judges coming in, the candidates, because
there was one representative from each country.
So we had the Chinese candidate. We also have
the Chinese judge. Even Chinese, the accordion
in China? It's huge in Chinese. Is it? Wow. About
15 years ago, China had over 10 ,000 accordion
orchestras. What? Yes. Oh, my goodness. Yeah,
it was huge. I was over there judging several
years ago. And for three days, I judged 11 -year
-olds for three days. Oh, my. 10 to 11 -year
-olds. And they were good. Wow. And I'm thinking,
I never knew there were so many 10 to 11 -year
-olds playing the accordion over here. Wow. So,
yeah, so I was traveling and then ended up just
strictly just my little studio, you know. Then
after this champion, after the world champion
Spokane, one of the judges came up to me. He's
like, hey, I'd like to move to Spokane and teach
with you. And I'm like, oh, you know, so kind.
And that's OK. No, no, it's just I just have
a few students, you know. And he said, no, no,
I'm serious. The month later, he emails me and
says, hey, I'm serious about coming to the U
.S. You know, you wouldn't have to do anything.
I mean, I'll have my lawyer do all the paperwork.
I just want to come teach for you, you know,
with you. And I'm thinking, and I didn't know
how to say no. You know, I had still that part
of me, you know, I'm like, well, and it's like,
you know, and it's just kind of pushed it off.
Within a third time, he says. Let's Skype together.
Back then it was Skype, not Zoom. Imagining how
old I am now, I was like, oh yeah, Skype. That
was back in the olden days. Anyway, so I get
on the call. Of course, now we're face -to -face.
And he said, tell you what, there's no money
you need to put out. You just need to sign the
paperwork. And I said, are you really serious
about this? And he said, yes, I want to come
teach. So I'm thinking, okay. I'm thinking, you
know, two master teachers? you know, we could
really build this, you know, I built it for mine.
So I'm trying back and forth. I'm like, okay,
as long as I, you know, don't have to fund, you
know, any money, then I'll sign the paperwork.
So I signed the paperwork. So he comes and flies
to the US and I told him, be sure you have at
least three months of finances because it'll
probably take that long to build students up,
right? So he comes, flies in and brings his wife.
Comes to the studio two days later, and he says,
okay, where's all my students? Uh -oh. I say,
well, we've got to build them, but I wasn't planning
for you to come for another week. I could let
you get settled in. He said, oh, no, they're
already bringing the furniture. We stopped at
this place, picked this up. The highest, I mean,
expensive furniture, and he chose the most expensive
part of Spokane. So I'm thinking, hang on, wait
a minute, how much do you think you're going
to make out of all this? So I was a little bit
taken back. I'm thinking, okay, did you bring
like three months of finances with you? He said,
well, kind of, but let's just get started because
I need to start making money because I got to
pay off this furniture. Oh, my goodness. So I'm
thinking, oh, my goodness. So I thought, well,
okay, we'll just hand it over my students to
him. So at least he's teaching and I can be out
drumming up business. Now, here's the problem.
Uh -oh. I was a musician. I'm a music teacher.
I hung up flyers. I, you know, mailed postcards
out thinking this would be easy, you know, easy
enough to bring students. Not a single student.
And then every now and then I'd get a phone call.
And I'm thinking, this is it. I'd answer it.
And my little studio was called Able to Play
because, you know, we're able to help people
play. And they'd be like, hey, is this Able to
Play? And I said, yeah. And so he said, well,
I'm from the school and football. We're just
looking for a sponsor. I'm thinking, yeah, I
saw your listing there. And he said, by the way,
what are you, I mean, is it for soccer? What
is it, able to play what? And I thought, wow,
marketing mistake 101. People didn't even know
what I was. So we changed it, able to play music.
Well, and in studio. So then it was this crazy
thing. So what happened was there was so much
money going out and not enough coming in. Because
I was paying, because I put him on salary because
there was not enough students, you know, to figure
we could build this up really quickly. Well,
me and mathematics didn't quite work out. Oh,
no. And I knew there was more. Now, mathematics
was not my forte, but I did know when one group
of numbers is bigger than another group of numbers.
Clearly, the money that was going out was different
than the money that was coming in. In fact, I
was like, we're not even clearing. We're not
even clearing. So I'm thinking, you know, the
little savings I had was diminishing. And thinking,
I was walking down the hallway and thinking,
God, I've got to close this, you know, because
I don't know what else to do. And so this teacher,
this international teacher, well, he had to go
back because his wife won the green card, the
lottery, the green card lottery in our country.
So they fly back. And so meanwhile, I get to
teach my students. And I'm finding some holes
in their pedagogy education. I'm thinking, oh,
interesting. Not big holes, but enough that the
passion was dwindling. And the whole thing for
me is about music, the love for music, the love
to play. It was never a forced thing. So he comes
back. you know, big presence kind of guy, nice
guy. Anyway, so we're talking and he said, okay,
tell me about the students. And I said, hey,
this is what, you know, I'm looking at. And I
said, hey, do you mind if we, you know, coach
you a little bit? You know, there's some things
I'm looking for, you know, obviously the passion.
He's listening. He heard it all. And he said,
well, Patricia, I just wanted to say thank you
for everything, but I'm going to move my wife
and I are headed to Florida. And she's pregnant.
She was pregnant when they came. Oh. But never
said anything. I'm like, oh, so now I'm in the
hole. Now he's leaving. And so I've got to pick
up all these pieces. And so I'm thinking, and
still now the debt was so much. And I'm trying
to put things together. Didn't even have $100
in my name. Oh, my. So I'm looking, scrolling
through Facebook. That's one of the times I was
so grateful I saw an ad. And it said, world -class
marketing. And I thought, that's what it is.
I need marketing because I don't know anything,
obviously, about how to market because I can't
even attract a student for this guy. And so I
fill it out and I'm reading like it was as if
it was written just for me. It's like, how did
they know this about me? Wow. And so I flip it
over, fill out the form, and then it gets to
the payment. Uh -oh. $10 ,000. Oh, no. Not that.
Oh. Oh, well. It's like, is that an error there?
So I'm thinking, OK, so I closed it up and went
to sleep that night. And I thought, so God, how
do I do this? I don't know which way to turn,
you know. And by the way, this was your idea
because I wanted to quit teaching. But every
time I would, he'd bring it back. So and so now
I'm throwing it back to God. I'm like, hey, remember,
this was your idea. It wasn't ever my dream.
because I loved performing and now the ministry
is going. And so I'm teaching on the side in
a sense. It is my income, but it's still on the
side. And so I remembered I got this manila envelope
in the mail two weeks prior and I had thought
it was my sheet music. And for a thing I was
going to play. And so I'm like, ah. So you didn't
open it for a while. I didn't open it. We know
how that is. Yeah. So now let me back up just
a little bit. Because the key to this story is
that there was a lady. Her name is Elizabeth
Welty. And I met her. She was 92 years old at
the time when I first met her. And we would go
to lunch every three months. And she'd get an
update on what I was doing. She was not a believer.
She was a doctor. And she would tell me, my science
mind just cannot grasp what you're learning.
You know, I was learning about the mountain of
God. I had told her everything, especially since
she wasn't a believer. But she's like, if anybody
else told me these supernatural things that you're
telling me, I wouldn't believe them. But because
it's you, I'm intrigued. But my science part
of my mind is like. And so anyway, so she sponsored
a couple of my students. We just had this beautiful
friendship. And she's now 100 years old. And
we're still going to lunches. But this time she's
blind, mostly deaf. And now I'm in the middle
of this crisis. Like, don't know which way my
little studio's going. And I didn't have the
heart to tell her. So we talked about other things.
And then all of a sudden, before she left, she
put her hand on my arm. And she said, Patricia,
everything's going to be all right. And I thought,
if you only knew. If you only knew what I was
going through. At the same time, I was growing
in the things of the Lord, my understanding.
And yet, over on this side, everything looks
like it's falling to pieces. Anyway, I got to
see her like just four days before she passed
away. And anyway, just that special connection
there. And so now, here I am. I got this rehearsal
to go to. And this manila envelope. Flip it over.
I was like, grab my music. Obviously, I didn't
practice for the rehearsal. Grab my music. This
envelope. Rip it open. And it's not my music.
Oh. It's from a lawyer's office. And I'm thinking,
you know how the mind defaults to the negative?
Sure. It's like, oh my goodness, did I forget
to pay a bill? Is somebody suing me? I've never
seen legal writing like that. And I was reading
so fast, I had to read it a few times and slow
down. Like, what is this? And then all of a sudden,
I flipped the pages a couple, and there was a
little handwritten note. And it said, it's not
much, but it will help. Signed, Dr. Elizabeth
Welty. She had left me in her will. Wow. And
it was just enough to attend a Tony Robbins business
mastery that I had seen on Facebook. Oh, wow.
And I knew as soon as I saw that what it was
to be used for. Wow. I called that organization
up. I said, I want to register. And they're like.
Are you sure? Usually people go to this other
conference of his before this. I said, no, it's
this one. I have to do this one. So I get there
and what I learned, because they said if, you
know, every day you'll learn about a million
dollars worth of information that you can implement.
And if you don't feel like you've got a million
dollars worth of stuff that you can use, you
can be completely refunded after day one. So
I'm like, okay. So I headed there and I just
had implemented just a few things when I got
home. And it turned my business from being in
the hole to a six -figure business. Wow. Because
I went from being a music teacher to a business
owner. Okay. Because as Tony Robbins, he lays
it out, business, you've got to know all the
pieces and the rules. Once you know that, then
it's all strategy. And I loved strategy because
of how my mind worked and stuff. And then as
I began to grow in the world of business, then
I understood the marketing. I also understood
about manipulation and realized how much we are
manipulated. Exactly. And just like, okay, it's
like, wow, you can take one thing to manipulate
people. And I thought, wow, this is how people
are deceived. Right. And so, which also gave
me actually more forethought in what I'm hearing
because then I wasn't, because I never, I was
always afraid of being deceived. You know, like
what if, you know, I don't know, whatever. And
realizing, well, actually the Holy Spirit is
the one that gives us that witness. Right. You
know, just like, okay. And I did take a lot of
body language. how to sign NDAs because once
they teach you certain body languages that people
just don't know they don't or they cannot control
then you can understand if they're being honest
with you on all these things just because as
a business woman I was like okay I need to make
sure I'm you know understand these things But
as the Holy Spirit began to step in more and
more, I realized you're the one that actually
brings that discernment. You know that inside
you get that red flag of that. So I began then
needing more and more discernment because now
as I'm walking into the business world, into
entrepreneurship, there's a lot of marketers
that want to sell you in their stuff. And I thought,
okay, now that I'm understanding as a whole nother
world. But I loved it. It was as if it was another
home. You know, I had my music home, but now
here's the business. And I knew that God didn't
teach me all those tools for me, that I've been
able to help many other businesses grow and flourish.
And so then that birthed the online school. So
I've got an online school for accordion, kind
of more of a passive income. And now it's not
Able to Play Music, but it's Bartel Music Academy.
So now people know exactly what I do, what I
teach. So getting to serve those families, the
online community. And then as I'm coming into
the Hebrew teachings, I'm teaching biblical Hebrew.
And then I have my personal brand, which is I
help business owners grow through speaking. And
speaking not only for, let's say, the podcast
like this, but also on camera. So I studied a
lot with video. So that's the part that connects
me more to business owners. So bringing all that
full circle to all the things that God's brought
me into, not for me per se, but is to see, number
one, that he will bless the works of your hand.
And then through Sister Gwen, the 12 tribes of
Israel, I found out I was from the tribe of Joseph.
who held all the finances. Well, there you go.
And it made sense when I learned that, how the
money and understanding finances worked. I'm
thinking, now I know where I get this part of
me. And in the business world. So it's been just
such an amazing journey to see how God brought
that, that is so parallel also to my music world.
So they kind of blend within each other. Wow.
That is absolutely amazing. So how did God connect
you to Bruce Allen? Oh, yes. So I tried to go
to Bible school three times. After I had my encounter
with God when I was 21, when I went to the Healing
Crusade. Then I finally, this was the third Bible
school I got to finally get into, at least for
a few months. It was Heart for the Nation, so
Chip and Jerry Foster. And they had told me,
they said, hey, there's going to be a special
speaker tonight. I'm going to speak on the Holy
Spirit. But just know that if he speaks a word
over you, he's a prophet. So just know that his
words are dead accurate. I'm thinking, okay,
this will be interesting. And so I'm still new
to the things of the law. I mean, I understand
prophetic words and all these things. So Bruce
comes in. And you have to understand, I only
knew of ministry to be very reverent. very serious.
Ties, you know, suits and ties, all that kind
of stuff, right? Here comes, walks in Bruce with
his jeans and cowboy boots. And I'm thinking,
okay, that's not quite what I imagined. But his
words carried so much weight when he spoke. And
I thought, this is so cool. And then he had me
stand up. And I don't actually remember the word,
but I just remember the weightiness of it. And
then Jerry, the head of the school, later that
evening turned to me and he said, I just want
you to tell you what Bruce told me about you.
And I said, yeah. He said, well, it was more
for me than it was for you. But he said, watch
over her. She's got a calling on her life, but
she needs to be surrounded. Just keep an eye
on her. And he's like. Yes, sir, because he was,
you know, being in the military. And so that
was the beginning of how I met Bruce. And then
we were at a ministry conference and he was speaking.
And by now I kind of started to get to know different
ministries as I was, you know, at church, church,
looking for God. And so here he is again. And
I thought it was funny because I'm thinking,
how do these ministries connect to each other?
Like they go to dinner. What did they talk about?
You know, because it's like, how does this all
happen? So I went up to Bruce. I said, Bruce,
would it be all right if I go to dinner with
you guys? I mean, I don't want to ask anything.
I just kind of want to be like a fly on the wall.
And he laughed. He's like, sure, come on, you
know. And so that was the door opening. And then
later I met him and his friend John. And so he
said, hey, come to coffee with us. I was like,
sure. You know, so getting to go to coffee. And
so here's Bruce on my right side and here's John
on the left. And they're just carrying on. back
and forth joking and thinking, boy, talk about
shattering my perspective of what religion is,
you know, or ministry is. Kind of like Bill Johnson,
you know, before he, is that Bill Johnson? Reading,
gets up to speak and tells a joke. Every time.
Every time. Bruce is very down to earth for people
who don't know him. He's very down to earth and
he's very funny. Yeah, he's got a great sense
of humor. So that's all I'm hearing is all these
things. However, they would, you know, slip in
different things of the amazing things of God.
You know, so I'm like combining it and I'm so
drawn in. I'm excited and thinking, wait a minute,
I wonder if they would know the answer to the
question I have. Because I've had all these questions,
but nobody can answer me, right? So, and I would
ask different pastors and like, you know, I think
I said earlier that they would tell me you've
experienced more of God than we have as pastors.
So come share in our church. Thinking, no, that's
not what I was looking for. I just wanted to
know more about the anointing, about the power
of God and his presence. So I'm sitting there
with Bruce and John. And I was like, okay. I
said, Bruce, and I'm sure he gets this a hundred
times over and over, can I ask you a question?
And he's like, sure. And I said, so I'm leaning
in. I'm thinking, cool, they're going to answer
my question. And I said, What's the secret to
the anointing? And he looks at John. He said,
do you think she's ready? And John's like, well,
I don't know. And now I'm leaning in. Right,
right. Like, am I ready? And so, you know, we've
got a cup of coffee in front of all of us. And
they lean in. It's like, okay. Yeah, I think
she's ready. So we lean in. I'm thinking, here
it is. Here it is. And he said, it's in the mocha.
And he points to his mug. Sounds like Mama Jenkins.
I was like, seriously? It's in the mocha. It's
in the mocha, you know. And I thought, oh my
goodness. And then I'm like, I cannot wait to
see you preach. Because it's like this and my
idea of what ministry. And so that night he spoke
and the holiness of God hit. I mean, you could
have heard a pen drop. It had nothing to do with
mocha. No, not at all. But there was this friendship
that developed, and he just took me under his
wing as a big brother. And he would tell me,
he said, the difference between you and I is
I've been outdoing. He said, now it's your turn
to go out and do. And so he would, I would take
notes. I would go to wherever he was preaching
and I would just take notes. And so, so many
of the things he said back then, he's still saying
them today because truth can be repeated. It
never gets old. And I hear it differently now
that I'm, you know, maturing in the things of
the Lord. And so he's been that big brother to
me. And even more so in these last, has it been
what, three years now? Because... Bruce, in the
ministry part, he would push me out of the nest.
Like, okay, here's the microphone. You've got
a word. I said, I do? Right. But he began to
teach me how to pray for people and those things
out in the ministry world. So that's why I've
just said he's been my big brother, taking me
through that and just allowing me to see the
behind the scenes and never to be afraid to ask
a question because that's how you learn. And
I got to meet him then, actually before he met
Rashma. Oh, really? And that was really sweet.
Oh, that's fun. Because when we were there on
the mission trip, he pulled me aside. He said,
I know I didn't tell you about her, but this
is who she is. And I'm thinking, this is so cool,
you know, just to see that and be at their wedding
and just watch their journey together. Yeah,
that was the part of how I first met Bruce. Okay.
Okay. So in the meantime. Bruce has gotten you
traveling with him and Reshma to do some of these
schools around the world. And he invited you
to go with him to Australia. Then what happened?
Yes, then what happened? So about seven or eight
years ago, I had a dream that in this dream was
a kangaroo. And the ground had... like that reddish
dirt in it. And behind the kangaroo in this open
meadow was this fence, this wooden fence that
had two rungs on it. And then beyond that was
like this mountain, these trees kind of thing,
you know. And in the dream, I just remember how
cool it was to be so close to a kangaroo, you
know. And that was it. That was pretty much,
it was another kangaroo that was eating or just
kind of kneeling down. And so I never knew what
that dream meant. And, you know, just kind of
like, hmm, okay. And that was it to that. So
Bruce had invited me to be on the school, on
the school. So now here's where we were in San,
what was that? San Jose in May. And then we went
to Des Moines, Iowa in June. And now here it
is July. And he said, Patricia, we're headed
to Australia. Do you want to go? I said, sure,
I can go. And all of a sudden I remember that
dream because I had never connected kangaroos
with Australia. Okay. So thinking. there's got
to be a connection you know so let me back up
so why there was things become alive that week
was two years prior to that, I had met this group
of entrepreneurs in business from all over the
world. And we're advisors to each other. So you
have to have at least a six -figure business
and above to even be in this group. And we would
partner up with each other to ask five questions
about the business, what are you doing, what
are the ups and downs, and be advisories. I got
connected with a South African guy. And the connection
went beyond business, but not into anything.
So for two years, he would call me his sweetheart.
And I'm thinking, okay, this must be it. You
know, because I'd not been in a romantic relationship.
I was in one when I was, I think, 23, maybe,
with a guy for three months. It was more of a,
let's do this. Okay, let's not, because his mother
stepped in, like, no, no, this is not going to
work. So here I am. And so getting to know this
guy and thinking, okay, this is really cool,
South Africa. But then it got to be a journey
that was not a good journey. Let's put it that
way. And so finally. Two years later, Bruce and
Rashma walked through this with me because for
me to realize a guy had been leading me on and
I'm thinking, you know, this is going to be something.
But even though he said, we're not friends, but
we're more than friends, but we're not in a relationship
and refused to go there. And of course, Bruce
never would tell me what to do. And, you know,
even the words of wisdom, he would always tell
me, he said, you know God's voice. He would always
encourage me. He said, you know, I will stand
with you. No matter what, I will stand with you.
Beautiful. And that was him as a big brother
to me. That's great wisdom. And so now, there
was November. Not last year, but the year before.
November. And Bruce and Reshma are doing a school
in Spokane. And I have my filming equipment because
I have my own filming studios. I brought my gear
down to go to film the school. And so Michael
Van Ryman is with them. And so I get to hang
out with Michael a bit. And Bruce says, hey,
come up to the house with us and Michael. And
so I go up there. And Bruce says, Michael, tell
her what the Lord told you. And Michael's like,
Bruce, you know I don't speak about these things.
I can see him saying that. And he said, Michael,
she needs it. She needs it. And because Michael
didn't know what I was going through. It's just
a heartache after another because I couldn't
break off from this guy because there was too
many things tied because with our businesses
helping each other out. And I just didn't know
how to let it go because this guy went from having
four businesses, South African guy, four business,
studying to be a pilot to get his pilot license,
to down to his one business, barely surviving.
And so I was the rescuer. And so now I'm tangled
and I'm trying to untangle because it's like
this would be the worst time to just cut it off,
you know, when you need somebody and not realizing
that it wasn't my place, you know, but I just,
I didn't know how to untangle. About your responsibility.
Right, I felt so responsible. I'm thinking, does
he have a friend? You know, I don't know, you
know. Anyway, so I'm here and Bruce is telling
Michael, tell her. And so Michael's like, okay.
He said, so. I've been watching you and you're
helping and all this. And he said, I began to
pray to the Lord. I said, Lord, can you just
bring her a husband? Bring her someone. And he
said, the Lord interrupted him. And he said,
I have somebody for her who's absolutely perfect.
And he will be quick to take her off the market.
And I'm thinking, this guy, South African guy,
that's been two years, that must not be him.
So that was November. So now February, this guy
decides that we're done. There's too much pressure.
Because I'm like, come on, guy, we're either
going to do this or we're not. And he's like,
too much pressure. Let's just agree to be friends.
And I'm like, we can't be friends. It's too much.
So then I find out a week later, he fully committed
to another person. And my heart was broken. I'm
sure. Because I felt betrayed. Shattered. Yeah,
totally. So now that was February. So I am month
after month. And I remember the boards of Bruce.
He told me, he said, remember, you choose how
long you walk through that season. Oh, say that
again. That's such words of wisdom. You choose.
Choose how long you walk through that season.
You choose how long that season is. That grief.
Yes. Right? That's a grief. That's a serious
grief. Very much so. And so I'm now knowing,
having walked through different griefs, thinking,
okay, Lord, I know as painful as this is right
now, I'm choosing to look at what is the gift
in this? What am I learning? This is good. Because
I can leverage pain that will catapult me to
the next level. There you go. And that's what
I did before again and again. Because many times
the rug has been pulled out. And I'd learn faster
and faster. But this was a big one. Because this
was the most tender part of my heart. And so
as the Lord began to uncover why it was so painful,
number one was that I hadn't really learned to
love Patricia. And so I was looking to a man
to fulfill that deepest need of wanting to be
loved. And so it took someone in that area. For
me to finally say, because I'd gone through so
much inner healing, you know, I'm out speaking
now, all these things. But I didn't know there
was still a little thread under there that the
Lord needed to pull out. Right. And he wants
you completely whole. Completely. So he used
the situation because I was asking him like,
okay, I know. It's like, I know the process now.
What's the gift in this? What do I need to learn?
What do I need to deal with? What do I need to
bring to you, Lord? So this season has cut short.
And so every day, you know, when you're grieving,
it's like those waves of that pain that come
and you can feel it coming. And because I really
didn't have anybody around me that understood
what I was walking through other than Bruce and
Rashma. So I would just go to the bathroom and
close the door and I would literally hang on
to the sink because I understood emotions last
90 seconds. Yeah. You said that in class and
I hung on to that. I thought. I've got to learn
that and make it work for me. Yeah. Because scientifically
they said the emotion, the cycle of an emotion
is 90 seconds. And so I'm thinking, okay, I can
hang on for 90 seconds while there's pain. And
also to let the pain, it's like you breathe it
in and breathe it through because otherwise it
gets lodged in, you know? And so I would sit
there and, but the biggest lesson I learned was
to surrender. Not my will, but his will be done.
Yes. Because I had helped try to manufacture
this relationship. Oh. Because when I was 21
years old, I had three prophetic words that said,
you will be married. In fact, one of them, the
guy said, do you believe it? And I said, yeah.
He says, no, do you believe it? And then I was
slain in the spirit. And then he's down there.
Do you believe it? I'm like, I believe it. I'll
be married. And that was when I was 21. You know,
22, 23, nothing happens. 33, 34, nothing happens.
44, now I'm 45, and this guy enters my life.
So I'm thinking, maybe this is it. But what was
happening, I was trying to create an Ishmael.
And so here it was, and I'm walking through this.
I'm hanging on to the sink. I said, Lord, not
my will, your will be done. And as I'm breathing
through the pain of it, I said, Father, I never
want to go through that again. That was two years
of so much pain. And would you be my matchmaker?
And so week after week, and it got easier and
easier. And then I was in prayer in July. Now
this is just before I head to Australia. So here
I am in the middle of July and I'm in prayer
with the Lord. And all of a sudden I hear his
voice and he says, Patricia, your winter is over.
And everything of that lifted completely. and
all the healing was like it was instant I was
like I could love life again I didn't even care
if I was ever married Or had somebody, you know,
like that in my life. It's like I could love
life again. It was like all the color came back
and, you know, the trees, everything, you know.
It had been black and white for a while. Oh,
my goodness, yes. And so now I'm just this happy
-go -lucky myself again. And Bruce, I was at
the house a couple weeks before we're leaving.
He says, you never know, you might meet somebody
in Australia. And I'm thinking, Bruce, you know,
my big brother. But I could tell you how healed
I was that he could tease me about it. Yeah.
You know, and so I'm like, nah. You know, and
then the next week, now one week before we leave,
he says it again. Never know. You might meet
somebody. And I said, come on, Bruce. We're in
Australia, you know, kangaroo land. And so we
get to the airport. You know, we're just freshmen.
We have all this fun. Tease about chocolate and
girl stuff, you know. So the first night in Australia,
I have a dream. And in this dream, it's like
this TV screen. And one of my friends in the
speaking world steps in. And he says, Patricia.
You're about to get married. His name is Issachar,
a man who knows the times and seasons. And this
is the call on his life, the prophetic. And he
began to explain that. I wake up from the dream.
I'm thinking, oh, my goodness. Wow. So I go down,
have a coffee with Bruce, you know, getting more
of the anointing and the mocha. So I'm telling
Bruce, I said, I have this dream. And so he's
like, oh, you know, be sure to write it down.
And then he gives me these words of wisdom. And
he said, I know you've probably already done
this, but be sure you've dealt with the sandcastles.
And I'm thinking, yeah, yeah, okay, done, you
know. And so I go back to my room that night
and I'm going to go before the Lord because anytime
something is brought up. I'm quick to go and
deal with it before the Lord because I don't
want any hindrances. That is a good secret. So
I'm coming up. It's like, Lord, I want to talk
to you about these sandcastles. I want to make
sure those are dealt with. And then I'm like,
what are sandcastles? What do you mean? I don't
know what he actually meant by that because I
thought I did. And then I did. So the next morning,
coffee. I'm like. Bruce, what are sandcastles?
And he laughed. He's so kind with me. And he
says, in very plain language, sandcastles are
those things you make up in your mind like fantasies.
He said, we all do it. You know, the fantasies
that, you know, he's got to be this big, this
tall, this, you know, tall, dark, handsome kind
of thing. And I thought, well, I don't think
I had any sandcastles. But then as I began to
think about it, it's like I didn't previously
to this. the South African guy. But now I'm like,
you're right. When I look at a guy, he's like,
oh, that's what I'm attracted to because that's
what I was attracted to in the South African
guy. You know, the dark hair, very muscular alpha
guy. And so I said, oh, okay. So I go back to
my room that night and I repent of the sandcastles
in my mind. And so it's like, Lord, I don't care
what he looks like. please make him handsome.
I don't care what he looks like. And so I laid
it on the altar because I said, Lord, you told
me I would be married someday. So, and now I
have this dream that I'm going to be married.
And so I just like, I just lay it all down. I
don't know what all that looks like, but okay.
So then Monday comes the first day of the translation
by faith school. And this young man, young Shane.
walks in and Bruce has seen him at other conferences,
but Shane comes in and he was early and he's
like, oh, there's Bruce. So he goes to shake
his hand and just say, hey, you know, thank you
for coming. We've been fasting and praying, you
know, for the school in this time. And Bruce,
as soon as he shakes Shane's hands, the Lord
tells him, this is him. Oh, wow. Wow. And Bruce
is like, oh, like it's him. You know that, well,
this is going to be an interesting week. And
so because now he's going to be keeping an eye
on me and he's going to be keeping an eye on
Shane. Right. Like, okay, this is going to be
like, how's this going to work? And long story
short, I leave on a Saturday. So Shane had asked
me like, hey, when are you leaving? We had like
two or three times I got to talk just for a couple
of minutes in the breaks. And like I do with
all the students, you know, I check in with the
students, how they're doing and the activations
and different things. And so he'd said, so when
are you leaving? I'm like, Saturday, I'm heading
to Sydney to visit a couple of friends. But they're
still working out transportation because, you
know, Bruce and Reshma are leaving a couple of
days later. And I'm thinking, why am I telling
him this part? And he says, oh, you know what?
The airport is on my way home. I'll just drop
you off, you know, if you need, you know. And
I said, oh, thank you. I'll let our host know.
And so in his mind, he's like. What did I just
do? I just offered Bruce's little sister a ride,
you know, and he runs to the house. Hey, make
sure she feels comfortable. I didn't even realize
what I was offering, but I just want you to know
it's there, you know, just if you need it, you
know, so totally fine if you don't. So at dinner
table, we're eating and I tell them and Anna,
our host, and Reshma are sitting there and they're
like, no, no, no, you don't need to go with this
guy just for logistics reasons. And I said, no,
it's fine, you know, and they're like, no, no,
no. And of course, Rashma comes, you know, from
the Indian Fijian background that in her culture,
you're never a young woman, single woman is never
alone with a single guy, you know, or without
a brother or father there. And I'm thinking,
number one, I didn't know he was single, you
know, thinking so. But I was thinking, okay.
You didn't even know he was single. I didn't
know, you know, but I was. They didn't know actually.
So it was funny because they're going back and
forth and saying, Patricia, don't do this. You
don't need to feel like it. And finally, here's
Bruce at the table also eating, but his head
is down and he's just listening to all of us.
And I said, Bruce, Shane has offered me a ride
to the airport. And Bruce just looks up and he
says, he's a nice guy. And then proceeds back.
head down, continue eating. I think we were eating
soup or something. And I looked at that. I'm
like, he's not concerned at all. So I'm like,
okay. So they're talking. And he knew something.
And he knew something. And so they're carrying
on. And then all of a sudden they said, well,
we don't, you know, no single guy, you know,
you don't go with them like that. I'm like, is
he single? And then Bruce looked up and he said,
yes, he's single. And then I was like, well,
then maybe I shouldn't, you know, cause I'm not
going to put myself in a situation. Now what's
funny. is that we have no idea how Bruce knew
he was single. Yeah. Because he really didn't
know Shane. Oh. So, yeah, that was an interesting
moment, I'm thinking. Anyway, so we're like,
okay, so Shane and I, he takes me to the airport,
and Bruce escorts me to the car. Shane has this
white car and opens the door and says, your chariot
awaits. Oh, wow. And Shane, also operating in
the prophetic, felt the weight of those words.
And he's like, wait, what? And he's like, no,
no. And so he kind of shook it off. So we get
in the car and I had asked Shane earlier in the
school, like, cause we were talking about our
stories and he said, yeah, my story is too long
to explain in two, three minutes. I'm like, okay.
So we're getting in the car. I turned to him
and cause you know, in Australia, they drive
on the opposite side of the vehicle, opposite
side of the road. And they said, we have an hour
to the airport. Tell me your story. And so he's
like, okay. So he starts to tell me his story
and then he started tearing up a little bit and
he just touched my hand, like, you know, just
the top of my hand and just to say, Hey, you
might see some tears, but just know it's okay.
Yeah. But what actually happened in that moment
that just startled him was that when he just
touched the top of my hand, he literally felt
his hand inside of my hand. Oh, wow. And at that
very moment when he did that, I looked down and
I saw the top part of his hand and something
leapt inside of me. Because just a year ago,
I was with the Lord in a vision. And we were
at the top of this mountain overlooking all the
things of my life and the things that had been
accomplished. And my husband was standing next
to me with his arm around me. And the only thing
I saw was the top of his hand. Oh. And when I
saw Shane's hand, you know, the skin tone color
and some have more blue, some more red. But it
was white when I saw that. And when I saw the
top of his hand, it was all white. And I thought,
oh. because you flash back to that vision and
thinking, no, no, just like Mary, I'll just keep
things in my heart because I'm not going there.
After that two years, I'm like, no, I'm loving
life right now, so I'm okay. And so then we get
to the, we stop at a gas station before we get
to the airport. And so now we're sitting across
from each other and we're just chatting. And
he asked me a question. I began to answer him
this question, something about my life. And all
of a sudden I looked up and he had frozen in
front of me. And I thought, are you okay? I looked
at him and he just like broke loose for a minute
and he pushed his chair back, turned beet red.
And he's like, no, he said, there's just, there's
just so much love that comes from your eyes.
Oh, my. He had gotten lost in my eyes. And he
was so startled because he's kept himself so
pure and just, you know, not going anywhere other
than his only goal was to get Bruce's little
sister to the airport. Right. And so now we spent
some time at the airport. Now the wheelchair
attendant comes and gets me. And they see me
like, we got to get you down to the airport now.
It's time to board. They grab my stuff. And they
were just rushing me off. And I said, hey, hang
on. Can I just at least give my friend a hug?
Because, you know, he spent time and got me to
the airport, gave him a hug. And they wheeled
me down the airport ramp there. And in that moment
for Shane, he's like, he said, the strangest
thing happened was that it felt like my heart
went with you. And he said, I didn't know, like,
what is going on? And two days later, we were
on a phone conversation. And I'm telling him
about this airport ride that he said, I'm just
so blessed that Bruce would even say yes to letting
me take you to the airport. And I said, you have
no idea what the whole conversation around that.
And so I was telling him because when I came
down the next morning, because the girls, ladies
were wanting to know, are you going to go with
this guy? And I said, in that moment, I felt
like Rebecca. I said, will you go with this guy?
And now Shane is listening. because the prophetic
word that God had given him was that God would
bring him his Rebecca. His Rebecca. And so I
sent him a picture to prove that it got on the
airplane. He sent it to his best mate, and he
said, please pray. And his best mate, Kingsley,
rings him back the next day, and he said, Shane,
I fell to my knees and cried for half an hour
in just thanking God because this is your Rebecca.
Wow. And Shane had knew, because then the Lord
caught him in a vision and said, will you choose
her? Wow. And just because, you know, and Shane
had already chosen me in his heart. Yeah. And
then when the Lord said, will you choose her?
And so he was so happy that week. And so the
following Saturday, one week later, he took me
off the market. Because remember Michael Van
Gleiman's words, you'll be quick. One week later,
two weeks later from that. He was in the U .S.
where the next day after he arrived, we were
ring shopping. And then four days later, we were
engaged. Wow. So it all happened so fast. That's
an arranged marriage. That's an arranged marriage.
Arranged marriage by God. Yes. And, you know,
it's interesting you say that because, you know,
I always thought, you know, when I meet the guy,
all the sparks and all these things would happen,
right? Right. And I remember thinking about how
quickly this was happening. And Shane telling
me, you know, I will pursue you. You don't have
to. And even if you decide that I'm not the one
you want or whatever, it's okay. But just know
I'm the one that will pursue you. And I'm thinking,
okay. Because I hadn't said yes or anything to
all this. All this is really happening. This
was in the first week. And then I remember thinking,
I'm walking down the hallway of my house and
saying, Lord, I don't have all these sparks.
I know you're doing something in this man. And
it looks like, from what I can see, everything's
coming together. And it's like an arranged marriage.
And all of a sudden, I heard him so clearly saying,
that's what you asked me for. Is that if I would
be your matchmaker. I'm like, that's what it
is. Oh, I have to tell you one more part. When
Bruce and Rashma came home. I got home on a Tuesday,
and Shane and I were already starting the conversations.
They came home. I picked them up from the airport
on Thursday. And, of course, that's a long trip
back, and Bruce is tired and rushed. But I said,
Bruce, I've got to tell you one thing. I've got
to tell you one thing. This is okay. He said,
what? So he's getting ready to get in his big
truck to head home. And I said, you remember
when you said I might meet somebody in Australia?
And he says, yeah. And I said, I think I met
him. And he's like, who? Oh, yeah. And I said,
Shane. Shane who? And Resh was like, honey. That
sounds like you. We'll tell you our story later.
Yeah. Resh was like, honey, the guy that took
her to the airport. Oh, he's like, oh, I already
knew that. I'm like, you knew that? He said,
that's old news. And then he looks at me with
that. That twinkle in his eye. Just don't move
there before I do. I'm thinking, what? Because
I didn't know he knew. I didn't know any of this.
But just to have that confirmation. And then
the Lord has just given us one confirmation after
another, after another, after another. Tell them
about the picture. Oh, yes. So then two weeks
after, you know, Shane and I had conversations,
he's taken me off the market. What does that
mean, he's taken you off the market? Explain
that. So I was at a conference right after the
Australia trip. I mean, literally got home, repacked
my bags, went to Tri -Cities. And I'm there.
And, of course, we're standing in line waiting
for the doors to open. And I'm just an attendee.
And so people ask, like, so are you married?
Do you have children? I'm like, no. And then
one of the times they said, are you seeing anybody?
And I said. No, not really. Now, this was the
first week Shane and I are in conversations.
And he's telling me, I'm going to pursue you,
da, da, da. But nothing was official, right?
So I'm telling him this, you know, in our evening
conversation. I said, yeah, I asked if I'm seeing
anybody. And I told him I wasn't seeing anybody.
And he said, what do you mean you're not seeing
anybody? What do I need to do? I'm trying to
get to the U .S. as fast as I can so I can make
it official. I said, well. You can make it official
without being in person. He's like, okay, what
do I need to do? And I said, well, they usually
call it taking you off the market. And he said,
okay, whatever that is, I'll do that. Because
when you take somebody off the market, it's like
when you take a house, it's no longer for sale.
It's off the market. So nobody else can claim
it. It's off the market. So he's like, okay,
I'll claim you. He's like, you're off the market.
Wow, in so many words. In so many words, yeah.
Which is exactly what Michael Van Vlijmen had
said. Exactly what Michael had said. It was off
the market within one week. Wow. Okay, we needed
an explanation. Okay, now tell about the picture.
Okay, so the picture. So then this was a couple
weeks in when I'm off the market now, and he
said, hey, take a look at this. I want to send
you a picture. And he sends me the picture, and
there it's of him. the wooden fence with the
two rungs, the reddish dirt, and the mountain
behind him. He was the kangaroo. Isn't that remarkable?
And the second kangaroo that was sitting there
eating was his best mate because who had been
on his knees. For 12 years, praying and crying
out to God, when, Lord, when will you send us
Rebecca? Because Shane has gone through heartache
after heartache with the testings, all the things,
from losing so much of everything. And he'd come
to that point where he had nothing. He was in
27 -hour pain because of work -related injuries.
And he said, Lord, but he remained faithful in
saying, Lord, I'm just grateful I'm saved. And
just that gratitude. And what he didn't know
was that his pastor, when he was leaving for
the Australian School of the Supernatural, knew
that he's like, she said, when you left for that
school, I knew you were about to meet your wife.
Wow. And so that was his promise. After confirmation.
Because he said, I couldn't see my future. And
then God turned it around in a day. Wow. Amen.
Glory to God. It's just such the promises of
God that if we just remain faithful, as I taught
in the school, that promise he gives is our tikvah,
that rope. And I hung on to it when I was 21.
And the word tikvah also means hope. Hope, yes.
So hope is a rope. Yes, hope is a rope. And I
hung on to that because from the prophetic word,
I'd be married. But there were so many things
because I was like, any guy, Nobody would come
near me, you know, because I had assumed it was
because of the crutches. You know, why would
they? And how tall are you? And how, you know,
I'm what, four foot nine. So very petite. And
so it was just like, you know, they're like,
yeah, we like you, but we just couldn't do the
crutches. You know, we want to be able to do
this with our wife. All these things. And so
it created all these stories. But I had to let
that go. Right. But one of the things I said
to the Lord, I said, Lord, let me meet my husband
before you give me new legs. Yes. Because then
I know he really loves me for me, you know, not
what I can do because people were attracted to
what I could do, attracted to the ministry, to
the stage life, all these things. And it's like,
Lord, just let him love me for me. And that was
Shane's first words. He said, he said, I'm not
going to even read your book or read anything
online because I want to get to know who you
are and love you for you. Beautiful. And that
was the first time somebody really said that
to me. Wow. Yeah. So just a beautiful story that
God just remaining faithful. So you've written
a book and it's called? From Crutches to Crushing
It. From Crutches to Crushing It, and it's available
on Amazon? Yes, it's on Amazon. Okay. And it's
my story of my beginnings, because people have
to know where I started from to really understand
all the promises that he's fulfilled in the music
world, in the business world, and now ministry
in the speaking world. Yes, and in the married
world. Now, that'll be volume two. Okay, but
you also have a promise for your healing. Yes.
Give us that, because I want you to pray for
people to press in for their promises. Yes, yes,
because when Bruce had seen me, I was at a conference
with him in TomTom, Washington, and he was praying,
and all of a sudden, he looked up, and instead
of seeing me at the 4 '9", he saw me at the 5
'8", 5 '10", and I was like an Amazon woman.
He's like, oh. this is who she is. And so, and
through the years, I would have students tell
me like, you know, Ms. Bartel, can we share a
dream we had? It would be like, sure. I was like,
I dreamed you had new legs. Wow. You know, and
then I was just even a year ago, a lady was praying
and she said, she turned around shocked and she
saw me. She said, oh my goodness, you were just
in my vision. I've never seen you before, but
in my vision, you were up and dancing. Wow. And
I said, the time is coming closer and closer
because it's not, if I will be healed, it's a
win. Exactly. Because again, it's a surrender
to him because I know I've got my tikvah, my
hope, the promise that he said, you know, I will
be healed. I will have new legs, you know. And
so that's, it's the constant saying and surrendering.
And it's easier to surrender when you have your
tikvah, when you have the promises. And ultimately.
He is our hope. Absolutely. Absolutely. So now,
will you pray for people to have their hope restored,
their hope strengthened, that they can hang on
to their promises and really believe what God
said he's going to do? Because he's done so many
already for you. Yes. They're already being fulfilled
things that from the time you were 21. You were
getting the promise. You're going to be married.
You're going to be married. And as soon as the
visa comes through, you have 90 days, right?
And it'll be fast. It'll be very fast. Glory
to God. So pray for our listeners, would you?
Yes. Father, we just come before you. Thank you
for your faithfulness. Thank you for your goodness.
And as you know, every single listener that's
listening, Father, you know, where they thought
all hope was lost in knowing we know you as our
hope. And Father, the promises that you've given
that seem to be so far away, Lord, even for me
when I thought it was the impossible, like I
didn't even have a guy on the horizon. Lord,
how is this going to happen? But yet you are
the God of the impossible. Yes. And Father, I
just thank you that in surrendering, Father,
we just choose to surrender those hopes to you.
Lord, that I was believing for some person. And,
Father, I laid it down, and I said, not my will,
but your will be done. And, Father, that's what
you're looking for from us, because that is what
activates the promises to be fulfilled. And,
Lord, with your listeners, Lord, we just decree
and declare, not our will, but your will be done,
Father. Let your name be magnified. And, Father,
just pray for your people, Lord, that as that
trust builds, that they just take the step. And
say, Lord, it's yours. I trust you and I surrender
it to you. And Father, just thank you for your
faithfulness that you answer those prayers. You
answer those cries of the heart. Lord, that you
care for every detail of our lives and that you
will walk in and give them their promises. Father,
because you are our God of hope. Thank you, Father.
We bless you and we love you. In Jesus' name.
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