WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:01.960 And it was one of the few times I've seen Jesus 00:00:01.960 --> 00:00:04.820 himself. And he was at the front door of the 00:00:04.820 --> 00:00:08.179 house. Wow. And I looked and he looked at me 00:00:08.179 --> 00:00:11.740 and he said, there is more. And he turned around 00:00:11.740 --> 00:00:16.420 and walked as if, come follow me. Oh, wow. And 00:00:16.420 --> 00:00:18.320 after that, I was like, I told my friend, there 00:00:18.320 --> 00:00:30.030 is more. He said it himself, there is more. God 00:00:30.030 --> 00:00:33.450 promises in Joel 2 .28 to pour out His Spirit 00:00:33.450 --> 00:00:37.469 on all humanity. Welcome to Global Outpouring, 00:00:37.590 --> 00:00:40.049 where we contend for that promised outpouring, 00:00:40.130 --> 00:00:43.350 we equip for that outpouring, so that we may 00:00:43.350 --> 00:00:47.229 engage in that very outpouring. I'm Philip Buss. 00:00:47.630 --> 00:00:50.049 And I'm Sharon Buss. Welcome to the podcast today. 00:00:50.170 --> 00:00:54.390 We have with us a very, very special lady. She 00:00:54.390 --> 00:00:58.270 was with us for the School of the Supernatural 00:00:58.270 --> 00:01:01.070 Translation by Faith that we had recently with 00:01:01.070 --> 00:01:04.489 Bruce and Reshma Allen. And her name is Patricia 00:01:04.489 --> 00:01:09.290 Bartell. And she has an amazing story of how 00:01:09.290 --> 00:01:15.689 she came from being an orphan to being a success. 00:01:16.560 --> 00:01:21.099 An amazing success in so many ways. You'll just 00:01:21.099 --> 00:01:28.200 love her story. Thank you so much for joining 00:01:28.200 --> 00:01:30.879 us today. We are delighted to have you with us. 00:01:30.900 --> 00:01:33.420 And we know that this is going to be an exciting, 00:01:33.500 --> 00:01:37.420 exciting podcast for you. 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So we're here today with Patricia Bartel, 00:02:20.710 --> 00:02:24.389 who joined us for the School of the Supernatural 00:02:24.389 --> 00:02:27.990 Translation by Faith. And Patricia, thank you 00:02:27.990 --> 00:02:30.389 so much for joining us today. This is really 00:02:30.389 --> 00:02:33.830 going to be fun. It's a pleasure. I'm looking 00:02:33.830 --> 00:02:36.349 forward to it, especially now that we've come 00:02:36.349 --> 00:02:39.189 to the end of the school. It's been what an amazing 00:02:39.189 --> 00:02:41.189 week, what an amazing treasure you have here. 00:02:41.330 --> 00:02:45.250 Yes, it's been tremendous. We did a podcast with 00:02:45.250 --> 00:02:48.550 Bruce and Reshma some weeks ago, encouraging 00:02:48.550 --> 00:02:50.349 people to come. I don't know whether anybody 00:02:50.349 --> 00:02:53.250 of our listeners came, but, you know, we just 00:02:53.250 --> 00:02:56.870 want to encourage them to stay in contact with 00:02:56.870 --> 00:02:59.689 the ministry of Bruce and Reshma Allen. And that 00:02:59.689 --> 00:03:04.569 is StillwatersInternationalMissions .com. Yeah. 00:03:04.590 --> 00:03:09.939 And you have also, you have a website. Yes. So 00:03:09.939 --> 00:03:12.340 during the school, I help with the Hebrew part 00:03:12.340 --> 00:03:17.819 of it and also the activations. And that's just 00:03:17.819 --> 00:03:21.560 a beautiful role because they get to hear the 00:03:21.560 --> 00:03:24.099 word, they get grounded, they get training, and 00:03:24.099 --> 00:03:25.990 then they go through the veil. and they get to 00:03:25.990 --> 00:03:28.449 have their own encounter with the Lord. And so 00:03:28.449 --> 00:03:32.430 in that, so people can afterwards go to my website, 00:03:32.610 --> 00:03:35.669 patriciabartell .com forward slash Hebrew, because 00:03:35.669 --> 00:03:38.229 I have other things I do, but then that gives 00:03:38.229 --> 00:03:40.469 them the Hebrew cards and some of the tools I 00:03:40.469 --> 00:03:44.810 use. Yes. And so just to give a little bit of 00:03:44.810 --> 00:03:48.150 a recap about the school, and we'll put a link 00:03:48.150 --> 00:03:50.530 in the show notes for when Bruce was describing 00:03:50.530 --> 00:03:54.990 this for us, but he teaches from... The question 00:03:54.990 --> 00:03:57.969 that the Holy Spirit gave him over 20 years ago 00:03:57.969 --> 00:04:02.789 about can a man be translated by faith and how 00:04:02.789 --> 00:04:05.889 he studied and studied. And it's all through 00:04:05.889 --> 00:04:10.129 the word, the glory of God and being moved into 00:04:10.129 --> 00:04:13.169 the things of God. You know, in Daniel, it says 00:04:13.169 --> 00:04:16.069 that. They that know their God will be strong. 00:04:16.350 --> 00:04:19.910 And the King James says, and do exploits. I don't 00:04:19.910 --> 00:04:22.009 think that's the best translation. I think take 00:04:22.009 --> 00:04:25.129 action was how I have heard it in another translation. 00:04:25.370 --> 00:04:29.350 But the idea is that in these days that we're 00:04:29.350 --> 00:04:33.230 living in, the closing days of time before Jesus 00:04:33.230 --> 00:04:36.449 comes back, before the rapture, before the millennium, 00:04:36.449 --> 00:04:39.009 and all of those things, that there's this season 00:04:39.009 --> 00:04:43.610 of time where God's people at least a remnant 00:04:43.610 --> 00:04:46.189 of God's people, are going to get so lit up with 00:04:46.189 --> 00:04:51.069 his glory and so filled with his character and 00:04:51.069 --> 00:04:56.649 his goodness and doing the things that he leads 00:04:56.649 --> 00:05:00.509 us to do like Jesus did when he walked the earth. 00:05:00.730 --> 00:05:03.569 He said, the works that I do shall you do also 00:05:03.569 --> 00:05:06.910 and greater works. I mean, that began already 00:05:06.910 --> 00:05:10.250 in the book of Acts, right? But we're not seeing 00:05:10.250 --> 00:05:13.209 a whole lot of that. It's starting now. Yeah. 00:05:13.350 --> 00:05:16.689 But, you know, over the last hundred or two years, 00:05:16.930 --> 00:05:19.470 you know, you don't see just a whole lot of those 00:05:19.470 --> 00:05:22.350 greater works. There are some. God has always 00:05:22.350 --> 00:05:24.649 had a remnant. He's always had some that are 00:05:24.649 --> 00:05:28.370 out there ahead of the rest of the body of believers 00:05:28.370 --> 00:05:31.149 that are kind of lagging behind. And some of 00:05:31.149 --> 00:05:33.110 them not even believing that these things are 00:05:33.110 --> 00:05:37.910 possible in our day. So Bruce goes through scripture 00:05:37.910 --> 00:05:40.639 after scripture after scripture. And his wife, 00:05:40.699 --> 00:05:45.800 Reshma, teaches on discernment. And let's get 00:05:45.800 --> 00:05:47.920 this right. You've got to do things by the word. 00:05:48.040 --> 00:05:50.600 You've got to test every spirit. Because there's 00:05:50.600 --> 00:05:53.680 counterfeits, but there's only counterfeits of 00:05:53.680 --> 00:05:56.589 the real. You know, you don't have a counterfeit 00:05:56.589 --> 00:05:59.290 $3 bill. Nobody's going to counterfeit a $3 bill. 00:05:59.350 --> 00:06:01.670 It just doesn't happen because there isn't a 00:06:01.670 --> 00:06:06.329 real $3 bill. So anyway, so your part in this 00:06:06.329 --> 00:06:10.129 has been going deeper into the Hebrew and bringing 00:06:10.129 --> 00:06:14.149 out things for us to get a deeper understanding 00:06:14.149 --> 00:06:16.430 of what the scriptures are saying. And then you 00:06:16.430 --> 00:06:22.009 helped us operate in our holy sanctified imagination. 00:06:23.670 --> 00:06:27.850 Which, as Bruce teaches so well, Jesus made it 00:06:27.850 --> 00:06:29.610 clear, especially in the Sermon on the Mount, 00:06:29.769 --> 00:06:35.670 about what you think in your mind is considered 00:06:35.670 --> 00:06:38.730 reality. Jesus said, you've heard that you're 00:06:38.730 --> 00:06:40.930 not to commit adultery, but if you're looking 00:06:40.930 --> 00:06:43.810 at a woman in the wrong way, you're committing 00:06:43.810 --> 00:06:46.490 adultery already with her in your heart. So what's 00:06:46.490 --> 00:06:48.569 going on in your imagination, God considers to 00:06:48.569 --> 00:06:51.709 be real. So I want you to just say that I... 00:06:51.959 --> 00:06:55.079 Deeply appreciated how you led us in the activations 00:06:55.079 --> 00:06:59.800 and helping us to use our sanctified imagination 00:06:59.800 --> 00:07:04.399 to draw closer to Jesus. And just give us a little 00:07:04.399 --> 00:07:07.139 piece of that, would you? Yeah, sure. So because, 00:07:07.259 --> 00:07:09.759 you know, one of the things when I first started 00:07:09.759 --> 00:07:13.220 engaging and when Bruce said, it is your birthright 00:07:13.220 --> 00:07:18.120 to see. Because unless, you know. From the beginning 00:07:18.120 --> 00:07:20.720 of how he teaches it, I realized like, wow, this 00:07:20.720 --> 00:07:22.980 is my birthright. Unless you are born again, 00:07:23.100 --> 00:07:26.139 you cannot see the kingdom of God. That's what 00:07:26.139 --> 00:07:28.779 he said to Nicodemus in John 3. Exactly. And 00:07:28.779 --> 00:07:32.920 so when I first got that concept, I'm like, well, 00:07:33.019 --> 00:07:34.779 of course, then that means I can see. But what 00:07:34.779 --> 00:07:37.300 am I seeing? I didn't have a grid for it. Right. 00:07:37.319 --> 00:07:39.939 What does that look like? Right. Yet the whole 00:07:39.939 --> 00:07:43.990 word gives us pictures of it. Right. And a picture 00:07:43.990 --> 00:07:46.750 is worth a thousand words. Right. And so as I 00:07:46.750 --> 00:07:49.470 began to take first, the Lord was, it was funny 00:07:49.470 --> 00:07:52.389 when I started was I started seeing in my dreams. 00:07:52.610 --> 00:07:55.490 And what I mean by that, I would be at a service 00:07:55.490 --> 00:07:58.889 in my, in a dream. I'm in this service and then 00:07:58.889 --> 00:08:01.209 I'm seeing in that dream, you know, I'm like, 00:08:01.269 --> 00:08:03.629 oh, so this is what it looks like, you know? 00:08:03.629 --> 00:08:05.269 Well, that was kind of the Lord to give it to 00:08:05.269 --> 00:08:07.430 you that way. Right. So then I could have a grid 00:08:07.430 --> 00:08:09.370 for different things that I would see. And then 00:08:09.370 --> 00:08:12.519 it got to be in my private time. Because I would 00:08:12.519 --> 00:08:16.079 worship before the Lord. And he, you know, just 00:08:16.079 --> 00:08:18.420 all of a sudden, I always thought sometimes it 00:08:18.420 --> 00:08:21.019 was just my imagination. Right. Until I realized, 00:08:21.220 --> 00:08:23.139 wait a minute, I'm not actually making this up. 00:08:23.620 --> 00:08:26.740 Because I can't make up that kind of a story. 00:08:26.860 --> 00:08:29.259 Right. You know, I needed something like a storyline 00:08:29.259 --> 00:08:31.000 to follow to make up the story. But this was 00:08:31.000 --> 00:08:33.820 just happening. And one of the special times 00:08:33.820 --> 00:08:36.529 was. And we might go into that a little bit more. 00:08:36.809 --> 00:08:39.789 But when I was 21 and just seeking after God, 00:08:39.850 --> 00:08:42.210 he just touched my life so much and healing my 00:08:42.210 --> 00:08:47.110 broken heart. And I was in the living room of 00:08:47.110 --> 00:08:49.129 the place I was staying and a friend of mine 00:08:49.129 --> 00:08:52.269 were just worshiping the Lord. And I kept asking 00:08:52.269 --> 00:08:54.870 people, there's more of God. There's got to be 00:08:54.870 --> 00:08:57.610 more. Yes. You know, I had just finally tasted 00:08:57.610 --> 00:08:59.750 and I grew up in the Assemblies of God church. 00:08:59.950 --> 00:09:04.210 And so it was like this ritual. It was very structured. 00:09:05.110 --> 00:09:08.149 So I didn't experience so much of God there as 00:09:08.149 --> 00:09:09.889 far as our relationship. It was just a bunch 00:09:09.889 --> 00:09:13.590 of rules. So here now, I had experienced like, 00:09:13.669 --> 00:09:17.370 this God is real. And now I'm in worship. But 00:09:17.370 --> 00:09:19.429 I started asking people. I started asking pastors, 00:09:19.789 --> 00:09:22.570 what about this? What about that? The things 00:09:22.570 --> 00:09:25.309 around the presence of God. Nobody could answer 00:09:25.309 --> 00:09:27.090 me. And it's like there's got to be more. Because 00:09:27.090 --> 00:09:29.289 they've not experienced it themselves. Exactly, 00:09:29.529 --> 00:09:32.549 yeah. Which is really scary. Yeah. Because, you 00:09:32.549 --> 00:09:34.909 know, what the congregation hears is just the 00:09:34.909 --> 00:09:37.850 experience of the pastor. So if he's never had 00:09:37.850 --> 00:09:41.210 any deep revelation or any dreams or anything 00:09:41.210 --> 00:09:44.690 like that, he has nothing to share on it. Exactly. 00:09:44.710 --> 00:09:47.830 And part of it is that people don't have a grid 00:09:47.830 --> 00:09:51.309 that there is more. Whatever we've got, whatever 00:09:51.309 --> 00:09:54.149 level we're at, there is always going to be more. 00:09:54.370 --> 00:09:57.110 You know, God himself goes from glory to glory. 00:09:57.389 --> 00:10:00.330 So we should have an expectation of going from 00:10:00.330 --> 00:10:02.509 glory to glory. You know, just being grateful 00:10:02.509 --> 00:10:04.350 for what we have, but then there's that hunger. 00:10:04.509 --> 00:10:08.490 That hunger is what began. And so in the living 00:10:08.490 --> 00:10:11.490 room that day, after asking so many people, not 00:10:11.490 --> 00:10:15.129 getting any answers, and even my friend was like, 00:10:15.269 --> 00:10:17.190 Patricia, just be grateful for what you have. 00:10:17.529 --> 00:10:20.210 But I said, but there's got to be more. Anyway, 00:10:20.330 --> 00:10:23.570 so here this afternoon, I'm in the worship, and 00:10:23.570 --> 00:10:26.809 God's glory just comes as He was always faithful 00:10:26.809 --> 00:10:29.879 just to kind of... Put us in this little cocoon 00:10:29.879 --> 00:10:34.179 of his presence. And I turned to my left, and 00:10:34.179 --> 00:10:36.480 it was one of the few times I've seen Jesus himself. 00:10:36.960 --> 00:10:39.799 And he was at the front door of the house. Wow. 00:10:39.960 --> 00:10:42.820 And I looked, and he looked at me, and he said, 00:10:42.960 --> 00:10:46.740 there is more. And he turned around and walked 00:10:46.740 --> 00:10:51.080 as if, come follow me. Oh, wow. And after that, 00:10:51.120 --> 00:10:53.080 I was like, I told my friend, there is more. 00:10:53.220 --> 00:10:56.940 He said it himself. There is more. And that began 00:10:56.940 --> 00:10:59.960 that, you know, being able to see. And then like 00:10:59.960 --> 00:11:02.799 Moses, you know, in the burning bush, it says 00:11:02.799 --> 00:11:05.559 he actually turned to look. So then I just made 00:11:05.559 --> 00:11:07.500 it a practice. You know, I'll be in church service. 00:11:07.600 --> 00:11:10.919 And I was like, okay, I'm going to look. I intentionally 00:11:10.919 --> 00:11:13.500 look. And that's when I began. My eyes were more 00:11:13.500 --> 00:11:16.019 and more open to see the angelic. You know, people 00:11:16.019 --> 00:11:18.179 have asked me, do you see the demonic? And I 00:11:18.179 --> 00:11:20.980 don't intentionally look into that realm, if 00:11:20.980 --> 00:11:23.279 you per se. But I just want to see God's kingdom. 00:11:23.720 --> 00:11:27.460 Because that's how you discern the counterfeits. 00:11:28.039 --> 00:11:31.000 You know, when they're doing the money, they 00:11:31.000 --> 00:11:33.700 never show them the counterfeit until they've 00:11:33.700 --> 00:11:35.860 handled so much of the real money. Yeah, and 00:11:35.860 --> 00:11:37.960 a bank teller. Right, exactly. And then they 00:11:37.960 --> 00:11:41.840 throw a counterfeit in. So this was my training 00:11:41.840 --> 00:11:45.139 ground as I began. But a lot of it then, too, 00:11:45.299 --> 00:11:49.059 was like somebody had shared, like, if it's like 00:11:49.059 --> 00:11:51.419 going through a curtain. So I'm like, OK, so 00:11:51.419 --> 00:11:54.279 I would go home because I needed a natural, an 00:11:54.279 --> 00:11:57.539 anchor to go from the natural so I could have 00:11:57.539 --> 00:12:00.980 a grid for the supernatural. And so a curtain 00:12:00.980 --> 00:12:02.840 it wouldn't be. You know, I'd take the curtain, 00:12:02.899 --> 00:12:05.120 open it, walk through. And it was just a step 00:12:05.120 --> 00:12:07.480 of faith. Some people call it a prophetic act. 00:12:07.700 --> 00:12:10.019 I just like this is just me stepping through. 00:12:10.299 --> 00:12:12.799 And that happened, though, the more I did that 00:12:12.799 --> 00:12:15.320 pretty soon, I stepped through and I was on the 00:12:15.320 --> 00:12:18.409 other side. And just, you know, those moments 00:12:18.409 --> 00:12:20.909 were so precious with the Lord that this is, 00:12:20.970 --> 00:12:23.830 he wants us to be with him. Absolutely. He wants 00:12:23.830 --> 00:12:26.929 us to build that, to get to know him at a deeper 00:12:26.929 --> 00:12:30.389 level. Right. Always deeper. Always deeper. There's 00:12:30.389 --> 00:12:32.190 always something deeper. There's always something 00:12:32.190 --> 00:12:35.169 higher. There's always something more. Yes. Remember 00:12:35.169 --> 00:12:38.190 Sister Gwen, our founder preached a message once. 00:12:38.470 --> 00:12:42.470 There's room at the top, you know. Yeah. Yes. 00:12:43.070 --> 00:12:46.970 There's room at the top. Exactly. Exactly. So 00:12:46.970 --> 00:12:50.330 you mentioned at a point in your life when you 00:12:50.330 --> 00:12:52.929 had a broken heart, but you went through some 00:12:52.929 --> 00:12:56.450 amazing things in your whole life. Why don't 00:12:56.450 --> 00:13:00.570 you go back and give us your background? So I 00:13:00.570 --> 00:13:05.289 was born in Bolivia, in La Paz, and I spent the 00:13:05.289 --> 00:13:07.429 first five years of my life in an orphanage. 00:13:08.090 --> 00:13:11.129 And before I was adopted into a family in Montana 00:13:11.129 --> 00:13:15.009 where I grew up, one of 18 children. I don't 00:13:15.009 --> 00:13:19.389 recommend that because of the lifestyle that 00:13:19.389 --> 00:13:22.610 was in it. And then it would be like 13 years 00:13:22.610 --> 00:13:25.330 of abuse because the adoption was not for the 00:13:25.330 --> 00:13:27.429 correct reason as far as on the adopted mother 00:13:27.429 --> 00:13:32.169 side. And so, however, through that, I've gotten 00:13:32.169 --> 00:13:35.350 to a point, and I'll just preface this for your 00:13:35.350 --> 00:13:38.429 listeners, is that you know, on this side of 00:13:38.429 --> 00:13:41.269 all the healing of it. And you look back on your 00:13:41.269 --> 00:13:43.629 whole journey, any of us, what we've gone through, 00:13:43.669 --> 00:13:48.789 we all have a story. And the forgiveness and 00:13:48.789 --> 00:13:52.490 understanding God's hand in it all had so deeply 00:13:52.490 --> 00:13:55.929 touched me that I realized because of my past, 00:13:56.169 --> 00:13:59.450 I am who I am today. Right. And I wouldn't trade 00:13:59.450 --> 00:14:03.169 for anything where I'm at today. Right. And so 00:14:03.169 --> 00:14:05.590 when people look at my past, like, no, I would 00:14:05.590 --> 00:14:08.779 have. gone through it again to have what I have 00:14:08.779 --> 00:14:11.360 today. Absolutely. Yes, it was hard. Yes, it 00:14:11.360 --> 00:14:15.500 was brutal. And so just starting on the level 00:14:15.500 --> 00:14:18.080 of, let's say, when I speak about my broken heart, 00:14:18.320 --> 00:14:21.659 I was raised up to believe that my biological 00:14:21.659 --> 00:14:25.259 mother didn't want me, my biological father didn't, 00:14:25.259 --> 00:14:27.720 my aunt didn't, and that's why I ended up in 00:14:27.720 --> 00:14:30.220 the orphanage. And then when I was introduced, 00:14:30.340 --> 00:14:33.080 now this part was true, introduced to the Bartow 00:14:33.080 --> 00:14:37.139 family, that my adopted mother, When my dad handed 00:14:37.139 --> 00:14:39.440 me over to her, and this is the first memory 00:14:39.440 --> 00:14:42.080 I have. I'm almost five years old. We land to 00:14:42.080 --> 00:14:44.559 the airport in Spokane, Washington, and he's 00:14:44.559 --> 00:14:47.779 introducing me to my new family. And as he gets 00:14:47.779 --> 00:14:51.100 to Barbara, he hands me to her. Of course, he 00:14:51.100 --> 00:14:53.940 didn't know that I had been abused by the nuns 00:14:53.940 --> 00:14:56.500 and the women at the orphanage. So here now I 00:14:56.500 --> 00:14:58.899 finally have my daddy, and he's going to hand 00:14:58.899 --> 00:15:02.389 me to this woman, and I start crying. And she 00:15:02.389 --> 00:15:05.309 told me later, she said, that day you rejected 00:15:05.309 --> 00:15:08.909 me, so I rejected you. Oh, no. And that was the 00:15:08.909 --> 00:15:11.970 beginning of the 13 years. Wow. But what was 00:15:11.970 --> 00:15:14.370 really beautiful about it was, I say, that's 00:15:14.370 --> 00:15:17.669 my first memory. However, as I began to sit before 00:15:17.669 --> 00:15:20.269 the Lord, because how that happened, it created 00:15:20.269 --> 00:15:24.169 that spirit of rejection, the abandonment. And 00:15:24.169 --> 00:15:26.269 the more you tell yourself a story, and that 00:15:26.269 --> 00:15:28.389 story was told to me many times, it creates a 00:15:28.389 --> 00:15:31.590 belief system, a pattern of belief. And that 00:15:31.590 --> 00:15:34.929 belief then begins to shape your future and every 00:15:34.929 --> 00:15:37.789 day how you look at things. And so I carried 00:15:37.789 --> 00:15:40.610 with me that rejection, that abandonment, that 00:15:40.610 --> 00:15:43.789 the loneliness, being the black sheep of the 00:15:43.789 --> 00:15:47.169 family, all these things. But one day I was sitting 00:15:47.169 --> 00:15:50.370 with the Lord and we were talking about stories. 00:15:50.629 --> 00:15:53.690 And, you know, the law of polarity says there's 00:15:53.690 --> 00:15:56.789 two sides to every story. And what that means 00:15:56.789 --> 00:15:58.450 is, you know, you've never seen a one -sided 00:15:58.450 --> 00:16:02.110 piece of bread. Or one -sided piece of a coin. 00:16:02.509 --> 00:16:04.450 You know, there's two sides. That's the law of 00:16:04.450 --> 00:16:07.610 polarity. So he said, if that's the story you've 00:16:07.610 --> 00:16:09.990 been told, there must be another story. And I'm 00:16:09.990 --> 00:16:13.009 thinking, no, that is the story. You know, that's 00:16:13.009 --> 00:16:15.389 how deep my belief is. Like, that's the story. 00:16:15.529 --> 00:16:18.450 You know, and sometimes we get so gripped with 00:16:18.450 --> 00:16:20.730 the story that we don't have room to know, is 00:16:20.730 --> 00:16:23.629 there another story? And somebody asked me that 00:16:23.629 --> 00:16:25.710 one time. And I remember being so offended. It's 00:16:25.710 --> 00:16:27.909 like, do you not believe me? That's my story. 00:16:28.720 --> 00:16:30.480 And they said, but what if you had another story? 00:16:30.799 --> 00:16:33.580 Wow. And so I sat with the Lord, and I wrestled 00:16:33.580 --> 00:16:35.500 with this. I said, Lord, is there another story? 00:16:36.059 --> 00:16:39.539 And he said, yes. And he said, but you have to 00:16:39.539 --> 00:16:43.340 look for it. And so I went back in these times 00:16:43.340 --> 00:16:46.639 with him, engaged him, and we sat together, and 00:16:46.639 --> 00:16:49.539 he took me back to the beginning when I was born, 00:16:49.980 --> 00:16:54.879 actually conceived, because my biological mother 00:16:54.879 --> 00:16:59.360 was 16. And her father, my grandfather, was one 00:16:59.360 --> 00:17:03.179 of those Catholic style, very religious, you 00:17:03.179 --> 00:17:05.819 know, man of the law. And the fact that his daughter 00:17:05.819 --> 00:17:10.119 was pregnant out of wedlock. And so now is that, 00:17:10.140 --> 00:17:11.599 you know, it's like that wouldn't have been a 00:17:11.599 --> 00:17:14.220 happy home for me, you know, and with all this, 00:17:14.240 --> 00:17:16.099 the shame and stuff she would have gone through. 00:17:16.200 --> 00:17:19.599 Sure. So I'm born. And then, of course, she couldn't 00:17:19.599 --> 00:17:22.660 keep me in that family. So she gave me to my 00:17:22.660 --> 00:17:26.470 biological dad when he's 17. So I'm looking and, 00:17:26.490 --> 00:17:29.329 you know, seeing this, this is like a movie being 00:17:29.329 --> 00:17:32.410 played in front of me. And so now he's 17. And 00:17:32.410 --> 00:17:34.930 of course, I'm too young. I don't know what to 00:17:34.930 --> 00:17:37.450 do with this little baby. And so hands him over 00:17:37.450 --> 00:17:40.869 to his sister, his older sister, who was my aunt. 00:17:41.430 --> 00:17:43.609 And so she took care of me until I was about 00:17:43.609 --> 00:17:48.230 10 months old. And then I got really sick. and 00:17:48.230 --> 00:17:51.289 diagnosed with polio and a severe case of tonsillitis. 00:17:51.730 --> 00:17:55.470 And so now they find out the only medicine that's 00:17:55.470 --> 00:17:59.049 available is at the orphanage. And so they take 00:17:59.049 --> 00:18:01.609 me to the, she takes me, the aunt takes me to 00:18:01.609 --> 00:18:04.329 the orphanage, and they said this baby's about 00:18:04.329 --> 00:18:07.210 to die. That's how far gone I already was with 00:18:07.210 --> 00:18:11.670 the sickness. And so as a last resort to save 00:18:11.670 --> 00:18:14.569 my life, she said, let's admit her to the orphanage 00:18:14.569 --> 00:18:17.450 then. if this is the only hope, because the medicine 00:18:17.450 --> 00:18:20.890 there was for the orphans, and so the children 00:18:20.890 --> 00:18:23.210 under their care. And they said, like, well, 00:18:23.250 --> 00:18:26.490 we need her parents' signature. And this was 00:18:26.490 --> 00:18:28.930 the story I was told, that my parents were in 00:18:28.930 --> 00:18:32.569 prison. But she made up the story because they 00:18:32.569 --> 00:18:36.250 could see I was on my deathbed. And so she said 00:18:36.250 --> 00:18:38.289 that her parents are in prison, so I'm representing. 00:18:38.630 --> 00:18:40.349 And they're like, okay, we'll take your signature. 00:18:40.730 --> 00:18:43.369 And that's why I was handed over to the orphanage. 00:18:43.630 --> 00:18:47.690 A very different story from what I was told when 00:18:47.690 --> 00:18:52.150 nobody wants you. And then what was really, really 00:18:52.150 --> 00:18:55.589 special was the Lord took me back and said, there's 00:18:55.589 --> 00:18:58.670 more to the story because to deal with the abandonment 00:18:58.670 --> 00:19:02.369 issue and that rejection. And so I went back 00:19:02.369 --> 00:19:04.930 and this was how, you know, sometimes God shows 00:19:04.930 --> 00:19:07.930 us things and then he asks us questions. And 00:19:07.930 --> 00:19:11.430 it's in the questions. So going back, he said, 00:19:11.490 --> 00:19:14.400 there's another story. because there's a redeeming 00:19:14.400 --> 00:19:17.920 story to what I was feeling of rejection. And 00:19:17.920 --> 00:19:19.859 I said, Lord, what's the redeeming story? Because 00:19:19.859 --> 00:19:22.660 I don't know. I don't have any memories beyond 00:19:22.660 --> 00:19:25.079 the airport when he's introduced me to the new 00:19:25.079 --> 00:19:28.019 family. And so I'm thinking back, and all of 00:19:28.019 --> 00:19:31.299 a sudden I remembered my adopted parents told 00:19:31.299 --> 00:19:34.509 me their side of the story of the adoption. And 00:19:34.509 --> 00:19:38.210 now the pieces are coming together because they've 00:19:38.210 --> 00:19:40.630 had this hours magazine. It's called O -U -R 00:19:40.630 --> 00:19:42.970 -S, an hours magazine. It was awaiting children. 00:19:43.230 --> 00:19:45.430 And every child they had, there was a picture, 00:19:45.569 --> 00:19:48.009 there's their name, and then there's a description 00:19:48.009 --> 00:19:52.109 of them. For every child, except for me, there 00:19:52.109 --> 00:19:55.309 was no picture, there was no description, just 00:19:55.309 --> 00:19:58.210 my name. And they said, that one, we'll take 00:19:58.210 --> 00:20:01.980 that one. And so it would be a year long process. 00:20:02.359 --> 00:20:05.160 And then my dad got out, my adopted dad would 00:20:05.160 --> 00:20:07.319 get on the airplane, fly over to Bolivia, that 00:20:07.319 --> 00:20:10.180 long trip. And he gets to the orphanage, you 00:20:10.180 --> 00:20:11.759 know, now he's excited. He's going to meet his 00:20:11.759 --> 00:20:13.680 daughter, you know, it would be almost five years 00:20:13.680 --> 00:20:15.980 old. And he gets there, meets the people of the 00:20:15.980 --> 00:20:18.819 orphanage. They take him down the hallway and 00:20:18.819 --> 00:20:22.059 to where I'm at. And instead of seeing this vibrant, 00:20:22.200 --> 00:20:25.920 almost five year old, he sees this child about 00:20:25.920 --> 00:20:29.059 the size of a two year old. on the floor, crawling 00:20:29.059 --> 00:20:32.839 on the dirt floors. And just astonished, she's 00:20:32.839 --> 00:20:35.380 like, and he looked back at the people, the staff, 00:20:35.480 --> 00:20:38.000 and said, ¿Qué problema? Is there a problem? 00:20:38.380 --> 00:20:41.579 Why can't she not walk? ¿Por qué? And they're 00:20:41.579 --> 00:20:43.519 like, no, no, no, no, problema. You know, she 00:20:43.519 --> 00:20:47.059 just doesn't want to walk today. Oh. He did not 00:20:47.059 --> 00:20:50.059 know that I couldn't walk. You couldn't walk. 00:20:50.319 --> 00:20:53.019 I couldn't walk. And so he walks over to me, 00:20:53.059 --> 00:20:55.819 kneels down, and he looks at my little feet. 00:20:56.400 --> 00:21:00.059 And he said to himself, this baby has never walked. 00:21:00.859 --> 00:21:03.460 And in that moment, he had every right to get 00:21:03.460 --> 00:21:06.519 up and go back because that was not what they 00:21:06.519 --> 00:21:09.259 had agreed to and all of these things. That's 00:21:09.259 --> 00:21:12.140 why there was no description. Right. Right. And 00:21:12.140 --> 00:21:15.180 so instead, in that moment, he picked me up and 00:21:15.180 --> 00:21:18.339 he says, I'm taking her home. And that's when 00:21:18.339 --> 00:21:21.440 the Lord showed me that he chose you and you 00:21:21.440 --> 00:21:25.539 were chosen. And so to know that he actually, 00:21:25.680 --> 00:21:28.660 despite not knowing my history, despite not, 00:21:28.759 --> 00:21:30.839 you know, considering all the medical treatment 00:21:30.839 --> 00:21:34.400 I would need, anything like that, he said, I'm 00:21:34.400 --> 00:21:37.200 going to give you a second chance. And that's 00:21:37.200 --> 00:21:40.019 what Jesus gives for all of us, that second chance. 00:21:40.160 --> 00:21:42.880 So now I know what it feels like to be adopted 00:21:42.880 --> 00:21:46.960 in, to be grafted in, to be chosen. Beautiful. 00:21:48.019 --> 00:21:50.480 Beautiful. So that's how my beginning started 00:21:50.480 --> 00:21:54.119 into understanding, number one, there's always 00:21:54.119 --> 00:21:57.019 two sides to our story if you look for it. And 00:21:57.019 --> 00:21:59.799 that began the healing process as I began then 00:21:59.799 --> 00:22:03.319 my journey in the Lord. Wow. That's so beautiful. 00:22:03.579 --> 00:22:07.240 Yeah. So continue with your journey in the Lord. 00:22:07.319 --> 00:22:10.160 You've made it to Montana. You're growing up. 00:22:10.799 --> 00:22:13.599 Then what happened? Then when I was about seven 00:22:13.599 --> 00:22:16.819 years old. Now, like I said, we grew up in an 00:22:16.819 --> 00:22:20.099 Assemblies of God faith. But it was the letter 00:22:20.099 --> 00:22:22.220 of the word because, you know, we got whippings 00:22:22.220 --> 00:22:26.380 every day for whatever reasons. And it was always 00:22:26.380 --> 00:22:29.819 the scripture, you know, spoil the child. Spare 00:22:29.819 --> 00:22:32.240 the rod, spoil the child. Exactly. And that was 00:22:32.240 --> 00:22:35.000 used all the time as a reason why we got beaten 00:22:35.000 --> 00:22:40.180 so many times. But God had his hand on me. Nonetheless, 00:22:40.339 --> 00:22:42.480 because there was something really, really special 00:22:42.480 --> 00:22:45.059 he did. Because just knowing the journey I'd 00:22:45.059 --> 00:22:48.779 be walking on, when I was eight years old, I 00:22:48.779 --> 00:22:51.740 found my little brother's accordion. And it was 00:22:51.740 --> 00:22:54.619 just this black, shiny instrument. And I'd watch 00:22:54.619 --> 00:22:56.380 him play it. It was just this little Horner black 00:22:56.380 --> 00:22:59.799 accordion. And I loved the sound. And so I'd 00:22:59.799 --> 00:23:02.000 ask my parents, can I learn to play the accordion? 00:23:02.000 --> 00:23:04.180 Because every child had to have some kind of 00:23:04.180 --> 00:23:06.940 music, whether it was voice or piano. But here 00:23:06.940 --> 00:23:09.140 he had the accordion. I was like, I like the 00:23:09.140 --> 00:23:10.640 accordion. And they're like, no, you're just 00:23:10.640 --> 00:23:12.779 trying to copy your brother. You go to the piano. 00:23:13.099 --> 00:23:15.799 Oh, my. So I'm like, okay, so I'll learn to play 00:23:15.799 --> 00:23:18.490 a piano. Did they have the block to get the pedals 00:23:18.490 --> 00:23:21.230 where your feet could reach? I sat on a phone 00:23:21.230 --> 00:23:23.569 book, you know, those big yellow pages with the 00:23:23.569 --> 00:23:26.210 phone book. That was me sitting on top of that 00:23:26.210 --> 00:23:29.109 to, you know, reach the keys. So my legs just 00:23:29.109 --> 00:23:31.990 dangled, you know, just because I was so small, 00:23:31.990 --> 00:23:34.630 I couldn't reach the pedals. So I would sit and 00:23:34.630 --> 00:23:37.289 practice the piano. And then, but every day it's 00:23:37.289 --> 00:23:39.289 like, you know, can I play the accordion? They 00:23:39.289 --> 00:23:41.750 kept saying no. Finally, eight months later, 00:23:41.990 --> 00:23:44.539 they finally like, okay. I could play the recording 00:23:44.539 --> 00:23:45.920 because they could see the progress I had made 00:23:45.920 --> 00:23:48.259 on the piano. And so I caught up to where my 00:23:48.259 --> 00:23:50.920 brother was, and I also had really nimble fingers, 00:23:51.000 --> 00:23:53.279 so I was fast. And I think my brother didn't 00:23:53.279 --> 00:23:55.700 like that so much because he's like, I just like 00:23:55.700 --> 00:23:59.920 the slow Western songs. And so later I would 00:23:59.920 --> 00:24:04.740 learn that that was my... way of escape from 00:24:04.740 --> 00:24:07.900 all the trauma I was going through. And so that, 00:24:07.900 --> 00:24:10.700 that just the Lord protected me because later 00:24:10.700 --> 00:24:12.660 I found out, you know, out of all, you know, 00:24:12.680 --> 00:24:15.279 12 of us that were adopted, uh, they had six 00:24:15.279 --> 00:24:17.980 biological children and then adopted 12. I was 00:24:17.980 --> 00:24:21.039 the only one that didn't end up in a mental institution 00:24:21.039 --> 00:24:25.140 or in prison. That's how bad those 13 years were. 00:24:25.380 --> 00:24:27.839 But, and I go back and say, why, you know, other 00:24:27.839 --> 00:24:31.059 than God's hand on me, but it was the music. 00:24:31.910 --> 00:24:35.170 Because I would spend hours in my room practicing. 00:24:35.470 --> 00:24:39.109 And I could be away and start honing this gift 00:24:39.109 --> 00:24:42.910 that God gave me. And so as I journeyed through, 00:24:43.170 --> 00:24:47.009 that became my voice. Because growing up, we 00:24:47.009 --> 00:24:49.009 weren't allowed to question authority. We weren't 00:24:49.009 --> 00:24:51.549 allowed to have our own opinions, thoughts. We 00:24:51.549 --> 00:24:53.430 were told what to believe. We were told what 00:24:53.430 --> 00:24:55.750 to say. We were told everything. It was like 00:24:55.750 --> 00:25:00.480 robots. But my music became my voice. Yeah. And 00:25:00.480 --> 00:25:04.000 so actually all the way up to college, they actually 00:25:04.000 --> 00:25:07.220 made a degree for me for the accordion. They 00:25:07.220 --> 00:25:09.619 just said, hey, we'll give you two years. You 00:25:09.619 --> 00:25:12.019 prove to us this is a classical instrument. Oh, 00:25:12.279 --> 00:25:15.900 look at that. Yeah. And so I was like, OK, you 00:25:15.900 --> 00:25:18.480 know, we can do this. And so, you know, I told 00:25:18.480 --> 00:25:20.799 him about a teacher in Spokane because I competed 00:25:20.799 --> 00:25:22.660 at a competition with his students. So I knew 00:25:22.660 --> 00:25:25.779 he was, you know, he was good. And he took me 00:25:25.779 --> 00:25:28.619 on through, and at that two years, I had to perform 00:25:28.619 --> 00:25:32.220 in front of the entire music faculty. And they 00:25:32.220 --> 00:25:34.500 had, you know, some of them like, oh, this is 00:25:34.500 --> 00:25:36.019 going to be interesting, you know, sitting up 00:25:36.019 --> 00:25:38.220 there with their arms folded, like this is an 00:25:38.220 --> 00:25:40.920 accordion, it's polkas, you know, what could 00:25:40.920 --> 00:25:44.819 you do? And so I had to play three pieces, and 00:25:44.819 --> 00:25:48.309 the last one was a Baroque piece. A toccatina 00:25:48.309 --> 00:25:50.230 and fugue. So the right hand is doing a melody, 00:25:50.349 --> 00:25:53.569 the left hand is doing a melody. And so you can't, 00:25:53.569 --> 00:25:56.349 you typically hear the accordion as that, you 00:25:56.349 --> 00:25:58.829 know, rhythmic and all of that. And this was 00:25:58.829 --> 00:26:01.589 now more like the organ music, you know, think 00:26:01.589 --> 00:26:04.670 of Bach. Good for you. So I played that. So did 00:26:04.670 --> 00:26:06.839 you come up with that on your own? Well, my teacher, 00:26:06.980 --> 00:26:08.680 you know, because it's classical, you've got 00:26:08.680 --> 00:26:11.240 to play all the classical, you know, Baroque 00:26:11.240 --> 00:26:16.240 music. And so the last one to win over was my 00:26:16.240 --> 00:26:19.440 choir teacher. And he's like, he said, after 00:26:19.440 --> 00:26:21.279 that tangatina and fugue, he said, I'm like, 00:26:21.400 --> 00:26:24.019 I give up. What can she not play on that accordion? 00:26:24.220 --> 00:26:27.160 And so they granted the degree and said, okay, 00:26:27.259 --> 00:26:30.119 give you another two years. So I graduated with 00:26:30.119 --> 00:26:33.039 an accordion performance degree and a music ed 00:26:33.039 --> 00:26:36.650 degree for choral and band. Tremendous. So that 00:26:36.650 --> 00:26:39.869 was the music part of me. About seven years later, 00:26:39.970 --> 00:26:43.569 I met another teacher who was able to put a language 00:26:43.569 --> 00:26:46.529 to all the music I learned as a growing up. Because 00:26:46.529 --> 00:26:48.930 I didn't know what I was doing, really. But she's 00:26:48.930 --> 00:26:51.559 like, huh. This is called this in technique, 00:26:51.779 --> 00:26:53.799 which is now I could start doing it intentionally. 00:26:54.539 --> 00:26:57.259 And then she just prepared me for the world championships. 00:26:57.799 --> 00:27:00.759 Because I wanted to take my own students to the 00:27:00.759 --> 00:27:03.880 highest level they could, but I never wanted 00:27:03.880 --> 00:27:06.440 to take somebody I've never been. You know, where 00:27:06.440 --> 00:27:08.099 some, you know, take them where I've never been. 00:27:08.220 --> 00:27:10.539 And so I went through that to understand the 00:27:10.539 --> 00:27:13.099 emotional pressures, you know, the physically 00:27:13.099 --> 00:27:16.740 and all of that, you know. And so God had used 00:27:16.740 --> 00:27:21.539 my music to not only keep me sane until those 00:27:21.539 --> 00:27:24.380 times where I could experience his healing power 00:27:24.380 --> 00:27:29.009 in him through my music. So let's back up now 00:27:29.009 --> 00:27:32.029 to I'm 21. I'm almost out of college. So had 00:27:32.029 --> 00:27:34.349 you done the championships yet? Not yet. Okay. 00:27:34.390 --> 00:27:36.789 All right. I don't want to cut it short, but 00:27:36.789 --> 00:27:40.809 I want to make sure we go there. So at 21, I'm 00:27:40.809 --> 00:27:43.910 just about to graduate from college. And I'm 00:27:43.910 --> 00:27:46.910 headed to Tacoma, Washington to spend the summer 00:27:46.910 --> 00:27:49.089 with a couple that would take care of me during 00:27:49.089 --> 00:27:54.009 the summer. And on the way, I just started getting 00:27:54.009 --> 00:27:57.839 just this flood of tears began. And it's like, 00:27:57.900 --> 00:28:00.299 I don't know what's going on. And at this time, 00:28:00.319 --> 00:28:03.220 my family had really cut me off, mostly Barbara, 00:28:03.539 --> 00:28:06.240 the adopted mother. And of course, the saying 00:28:06.240 --> 00:28:08.240 was, if mama ain't happy, ain't nobody happy. 00:28:08.480 --> 00:28:10.779 And so she trained us like if she wasn't happy 00:28:10.779 --> 00:28:12.420 with somebody, we just cut them off. That was 00:28:12.420 --> 00:28:16.339 just the norm. So I'm driving. And so I never 00:28:16.339 --> 00:28:19.279 got to stop by the farm to say hello. And all 00:28:19.279 --> 00:28:20.779 of a sudden, the only thing I could think of 00:28:20.779 --> 00:28:22.660 on that drive was a five -hour drive with my 00:28:22.660 --> 00:28:26.619 dad. And so it's like, wow, I wish I could, I 00:28:26.619 --> 00:28:28.900 just could see him. I don't know why everything, 00:28:29.099 --> 00:28:32.539 everything I saw reminded me of him. And I'm 00:28:32.539 --> 00:28:35.180 like sobbing in my car now, thinking what in 00:28:35.180 --> 00:28:37.559 the heck is going on, you know? I even stopped 00:28:37.559 --> 00:28:40.680 by a gas station and I'm fumbling with the whatever. 00:28:40.940 --> 00:28:42.900 And a guy came up and he said, let me help you. 00:28:42.940 --> 00:28:45.940 And he puts fuel in my gas tank. And I watch 00:28:45.940 --> 00:28:47.779 him like, that's exactly what my dad would have 00:28:47.779 --> 00:28:51.779 done. Not knowing it was about that time. He 00:28:51.779 --> 00:28:54.180 was killed in a work -related accident. Oh, no. 00:28:54.400 --> 00:28:57.819 And I never saw him again. So you were thinking 00:28:57.819 --> 00:29:00.240 of him because it was an eternal connection. 00:29:00.339 --> 00:29:03.720 Yes, yes, because of that choice that he made. 00:29:03.779 --> 00:29:06.039 Because people often ask me, like, why do you 00:29:06.039 --> 00:29:09.279 carry on the last name Bartow? Because of all 00:29:09.279 --> 00:29:11.740 the abuse that you went through, why carry that 00:29:11.740 --> 00:29:14.500 tradition? You could change his name. And I said, 00:29:14.740 --> 00:29:17.779 no, because of that one decision my dad made. 00:29:18.660 --> 00:29:22.940 For that decision, I will always honor him. So 00:29:22.940 --> 00:29:26.400 that began this, this fall of depression because 00:29:26.400 --> 00:29:29.940 now my dad is gone, you know, and whatever what 00:29:29.940 --> 00:29:32.660 he was or wasn't, he was still my dad. Sure. 00:29:32.759 --> 00:29:35.759 You know, so. It went down to, like, I didn't 00:29:35.759 --> 00:29:38.839 know what I wanted to do. You know, my adopted 00:29:38.839 --> 00:29:41.480 mother said I had, number one, religiously flipped, 00:29:41.660 --> 00:29:44.559 you know, and that I didn't choose the right 00:29:44.559 --> 00:29:46.640 degree. I should have never gone into music. 00:29:47.200 --> 00:29:49.400 And so all these things, I was kind of confused. 00:29:49.519 --> 00:29:52.720 Like, but music is, you know, I've got the degree 00:29:52.720 --> 00:29:57.200 now, right? So anyway, so I'm headed. I had one 00:29:57.200 --> 00:29:59.039 more semester to do. Even though I graduated, 00:29:59.200 --> 00:30:01.819 I had one semester of student teaching. And so 00:30:01.819 --> 00:30:04.900 I'm back at the campus. And I was always known 00:30:04.900 --> 00:30:07.599 as the smiling one. I was always happy because 00:30:07.599 --> 00:30:11.279 I was free on campus. I was the social butterfly. 00:30:11.539 --> 00:30:14.960 Back on the farm, I was this introvert. You just 00:30:14.960 --> 00:30:18.039 do what you're supposed to do. I didn't know 00:30:18.039 --> 00:30:22.619 how bad my upbringing was. until I'm in a class 00:30:22.619 --> 00:30:25.319 on college about, and it's called Abusing Neglect. 00:30:25.420 --> 00:30:28.140 Because when you are certified to the state of 00:30:28.140 --> 00:30:31.319 Washington, now you've got to know what it looks 00:30:31.319 --> 00:30:34.200 like and to report it to the state. Oh my. And 00:30:34.200 --> 00:30:37.900 so I'm watching them right on the whiteboard, 00:30:38.059 --> 00:30:41.059 all these things, all these signs to watch for, 00:30:41.099 --> 00:30:45.039 and thinking, dear Lord, that was my life. Wow. 00:30:45.240 --> 00:30:47.359 And I didn't know, because as a kid, you don't 00:30:47.359 --> 00:30:48.759 know what's going on. Yeah, you've got nothing 00:30:48.759 --> 00:30:51.640 to compare to. Exactly. And I'm thinking, wow, 00:30:51.759 --> 00:30:55.779 I had a messed up childhood. Wow. So I thought, 00:30:55.859 --> 00:30:58.720 okay, that's interesting. Anyway, so now I'm 00:30:58.720 --> 00:31:00.759 in this depression state, and I don't know what 00:31:00.759 --> 00:31:03.660 to do. And I'm pretty much lost, because now 00:31:03.660 --> 00:31:08.200 no family, no connections. And I was at a worship 00:31:08.200 --> 00:31:10.680 service on campus. It was a Presbyterian -based 00:31:10.680 --> 00:31:15.259 university. And I said, God, I need help. I don't 00:31:15.259 --> 00:31:18.380 know what to do. I need help. And that week I 00:31:18.380 --> 00:31:21.359 got this postcard in the mail about this healing 00:31:21.359 --> 00:31:24.500 crusade that's happening in Boise, Idaho. And 00:31:24.500 --> 00:31:27.480 everything in my heart just leapt. I'm like, 00:31:27.559 --> 00:31:30.420 I want to go. I want to go. And so I thought, 00:31:30.500 --> 00:31:33.099 well, let me just take the first step. But I 00:31:33.099 --> 00:31:35.450 didn't even have to take the first step. I got 00:31:35.450 --> 00:31:38.329 a notification from my boss saying, hey, by the 00:31:38.329 --> 00:31:39.809 way, we're going to be closed this Thursday, 00:31:39.869 --> 00:31:41.690 Friday, and Saturday, so you're free, you know, 00:31:41.690 --> 00:31:43.750 whatever you need to do, extra homework. I said, 00:31:43.829 --> 00:31:46.349 really? Because it was the same week as this 00:31:46.349 --> 00:31:50.250 healing crusade. And then I go to class and find 00:31:50.250 --> 00:31:53.069 out all my classes have been canceled, except 00:31:53.069 --> 00:31:57.170 for my choir concert. And I'm thinking, oh, my 00:31:57.170 --> 00:31:59.349 goodness. It's like God was clearing out the 00:31:59.349 --> 00:32:02.269 calendar. And then I was talking to a friend 00:32:02.269 --> 00:32:04.009 of mine. I was telling her, I was like, yeah, 00:32:04.029 --> 00:32:07.529 I'm going to go to Boise, Idaho. And she said, 00:32:07.730 --> 00:32:10.869 oh, I'm from Boise. And I said, you never told 00:32:10.869 --> 00:32:13.250 me that. And she said, yeah. In fact, I'm going 00:32:13.250 --> 00:32:16.170 to a friend's for the weekend. So she said, you 00:32:16.170 --> 00:32:18.609 can stay at my house. We've got extra bedroom. 00:32:18.849 --> 00:32:21.089 You can stay there. In fact, my dad took a week 00:32:21.089 --> 00:32:24.680 off. From from work so he can take you to and 00:32:24.680 --> 00:32:27.480 from the crusade. It was a healing crusade So 00:32:27.480 --> 00:32:31.000 I said great and now I'm starting to shake looks 00:32:31.000 --> 00:32:33.539 I'm like this is real like God's about to do 00:32:33.539 --> 00:32:36.279 something Real and I didn't know what to think 00:32:36.279 --> 00:32:41.680 about it. But so now the last block was my choir 00:32:41.680 --> 00:32:45.079 teacher Yeah, I was president of the woman's 00:32:45.079 --> 00:32:47.440 choir and it was going to be our first concert 00:32:47.440 --> 00:32:49.920 Oh boy, and it was doing the healing crusade 00:32:50.669 --> 00:32:54.369 And so I go up really quietly to his office, 00:32:54.710 --> 00:32:57.390 knock on the door. And, you know, because I was 00:32:57.390 --> 00:32:59.630 such a timid girl, I never spoke up for myself, 00:32:59.750 --> 00:33:01.869 didn't have a voice. The music was my accordion 00:33:01.869 --> 00:33:04.670 was my voice. So I got there and I say, Mr. Pretty, 00:33:04.849 --> 00:33:07.549 that's his name, Mr. Pretty. And he said, yeah, 00:33:07.589 --> 00:33:12.670 what do you want? I just came to tell you that 00:33:12.670 --> 00:33:16.309 I'm going to be missing the choir concert. And 00:33:16.309 --> 00:33:20.039 he's like, why? I said, because. I'm going to 00:33:20.039 --> 00:33:23.480 a healing crusade. He just looked at me and he's 00:33:23.480 --> 00:33:26.900 like, and what am I going to tell the women, 00:33:27.079 --> 00:33:30.559 the women's choir, all of them, that their president 00:33:30.559 --> 00:33:33.420 is not attending the first concert of the year? 00:33:34.500 --> 00:33:37.940 And all of a sudden, just something in me just 00:33:37.940 --> 00:33:40.119 rose up. Because remember, I don't have a voice. 00:33:40.200 --> 00:33:42.660 I can never speak up for myself. And just came 00:33:42.660 --> 00:33:45.400 up and I said, you tell them it wasn't your decision. 00:33:46.709 --> 00:33:48.569 And I'm like, class of my mouth, because I'm 00:33:48.569 --> 00:33:51.490 like, oh my gosh, I just talked back to my teacher, 00:33:51.569 --> 00:33:54.210 and now I'm being in big trouble. Because if 00:33:54.210 --> 00:33:56.589 you miss one concert, your grade is automatically 00:33:56.589 --> 00:33:59.589 dropped a letter. And at this point, I was a 00:33:59.589 --> 00:34:03.410 straight -A student. And he's like, good answer, 00:34:03.670 --> 00:34:07.170 good answer. He said, you know, I've always wanted 00:34:07.170 --> 00:34:11.349 to go to one of these healing crusades. He said, 00:34:11.409 --> 00:34:13.869 well, I'll tell you what, you go. You have my 00:34:13.869 --> 00:34:18.679 blessing to go. Was he a believer? Well, he knew 00:34:18.679 --> 00:34:21.360 about Jesus and all that. I don't know how deep 00:34:21.360 --> 00:34:26.460 his relationship was, you know. And so I'm getting 00:34:26.460 --> 00:34:28.940 ready to leave. And he says, by the way, I won't 00:34:28.940 --> 00:34:32.480 dock you a letter grade. Wow. Just tell me how 00:34:32.480 --> 00:34:34.420 it goes and I hope you get off those crutches. 00:34:35.039 --> 00:34:47.659 Wow. I had never seen the divine hand of God 00:34:47.659 --> 00:34:52.639 in a situation. And this was that. And I get 00:34:52.639 --> 00:34:55.239 there, and 15 ,000 people. I'd never been in 00:34:55.239 --> 00:34:57.639 a crowd that big. They're all worshiping God, 00:34:57.840 --> 00:35:00.659 and I'm thinking, this is amazing. So I raise 00:35:00.659 --> 00:35:02.980 my hands, and I'm worshiping with them, just 00:35:02.980 --> 00:35:04.679 watching what they do, like I'll do the same 00:35:04.679 --> 00:35:08.960 thing. And there was a moment where the evangelist, 00:35:09.059 --> 00:35:11.340 I was thinking that the atmosphere, the air is 00:35:11.340 --> 00:35:14.559 so thick. I'd never tangibly felt that before. 00:35:14.760 --> 00:35:17.579 And as soon as I thought that, the evangelist 00:35:17.579 --> 00:35:21.179 said, the presence of God is so thick right now. 00:35:21.500 --> 00:35:25.380 And I'm like, this is you, God? Like, you can 00:35:25.380 --> 00:35:30.480 be tangibly felt? And I was like, I didn't know 00:35:30.480 --> 00:35:33.500 that. Because I had grown up in the religious 00:35:33.500 --> 00:35:37.480 part, not a relationship part. And that was the 00:35:37.480 --> 00:35:40.039 beginning when God began to heal my heart because 00:35:40.039 --> 00:35:44.619 I got to experience him as the loving God that 00:35:44.619 --> 00:35:48.980 he is, not the picture that I was presented growing 00:35:48.980 --> 00:35:52.869 up. Because a lot of us as kids, our parents, 00:35:52.949 --> 00:35:55.269 how we see our parents can be also translated 00:35:55.269 --> 00:35:58.090 to how we see God. Exactly. And so I didn't know 00:35:58.090 --> 00:36:00.349 about love. Like the words, I love you was never 00:36:00.349 --> 00:36:02.750 mentioned in my household. You know, I had to 00:36:02.750 --> 00:36:04.929 ask for a hug. And at that, you know, it was 00:36:04.929 --> 00:36:08.909 a side hug, you know, so pretty deprived in some 00:36:08.909 --> 00:36:11.969 areas. But God, you know, as he began to show 00:36:11.969 --> 00:36:14.610 me his love and begin that healing process and 00:36:14.610 --> 00:36:18.130 that journey. Now I look at it and it's just 00:36:18.130 --> 00:36:21.250 like that. You know, he's so amazing. So when 00:36:21.250 --> 00:36:23.710 I come to the schools with Bruce and Reshma, 00:36:23.829 --> 00:36:27.389 it's just an honor to get to stand there and 00:36:27.389 --> 00:36:30.789 I'm a living testimony of his love. Absolutely. 00:36:30.789 --> 00:36:32.650 And I get to speak about his love and get to 00:36:32.650 --> 00:36:36.250 speak about him as faith. Wow. Yeah, so it could 00:36:36.250 --> 00:36:38.769 go on and on. But that was kind of that part 00:36:38.769 --> 00:36:41.750 of the story of how I got to where I'm at today. 00:36:42.429 --> 00:36:45.889 Wow. Wow. So then what happened with the accordion? 00:36:46.809 --> 00:36:51.750 Oh, the accordion. So I met this lady, actually 00:36:51.750 --> 00:36:54.550 heard her through another, one of my students. 00:36:54.989 --> 00:36:57.610 And she had asked me to play for her wedding. 00:36:58.150 --> 00:37:01.650 And she's not a believer. This is a special story. 00:37:02.050 --> 00:37:05.230 She's not a believer, but I had wanted to always 00:37:05.230 --> 00:37:08.489 work on my technique as a musician. And so... 00:37:08.800 --> 00:37:10.440 played for her wedding, and then she asked me 00:37:10.440 --> 00:37:13.260 to play for a French concert. And that was really 00:37:13.260 --> 00:37:15.960 fun. And then we never heard anything, no communication. 00:37:16.280 --> 00:37:18.760 And then a student calls up and says, hey, what 00:37:18.760 --> 00:37:21.059 do you know about the Taubman technique? And 00:37:21.059 --> 00:37:23.340 I'm thinking, Dorothy Taubman? How do you know 00:37:23.340 --> 00:37:25.800 about this technique? Because I had seen it, 00:37:25.840 --> 00:37:28.539 but it was like over $1 ,000 to purchase her 00:37:28.539 --> 00:37:32.059 training on piano technique. And so I was saving 00:37:32.059 --> 00:37:34.400 up money every month, just a little bit at a 00:37:34.400 --> 00:37:36.079 time, because that was a lot of money for me 00:37:36.079 --> 00:37:40.099 back then. He said, yeah, Kendall Feeney was 00:37:40.099 --> 00:37:43.179 talking about it. And I was like, Kendall? He's 00:37:43.179 --> 00:37:45.420 like, yeah. And this is the lady I was playing 00:37:45.420 --> 00:37:48.940 with for her wedding and her French concert. 00:37:49.280 --> 00:37:52.360 And so I called Kendall up. I didn't even say, 00:37:52.400 --> 00:37:54.940 how are you? I said, Kendall, you teach this 00:37:54.940 --> 00:37:57.860 technique? And she said, yeah, I teach it. And 00:37:57.860 --> 00:38:01.860 I'm like, I want to start lessons ASAP. Wow. 00:38:02.159 --> 00:38:06.789 And so I was, what, probably 31? In 2007. I don't 00:38:06.789 --> 00:38:11.210 even know how old I was, but 2007. And so I began 00:38:11.210 --> 00:38:14.389 training with her and she put a language to what 00:38:14.389 --> 00:38:17.510 I was doing in music because nobody could understand 00:38:17.510 --> 00:38:19.809 or tell me because they're like, no, no, no, 00:38:19.829 --> 00:38:21.670 you just play that. But they couldn't explain 00:38:21.670 --> 00:38:24.909 it to me. Even my university teacher, she would 00:38:24.909 --> 00:38:27.769 play some diddle on the piano and came alive. 00:38:28.130 --> 00:38:31.239 And I said, how did you do that? She said. I 00:38:31.239 --> 00:38:32.920 just did this. And like, I know, but what's that 00:38:32.920 --> 00:38:35.139 called? Because I could hear something behind 00:38:35.139 --> 00:38:38.400 it. And she said, I don't know how to explain 00:38:38.400 --> 00:38:40.119 that. You know, I just played it. I was like, 00:38:40.199 --> 00:38:44.059 okay. And I was continuing on in the music and 00:38:44.059 --> 00:38:46.699 people would say, like, you just do something 00:38:46.699 --> 00:38:49.039 with music. But it's obvious you don't know what 00:38:49.039 --> 00:38:51.199 you're doing. It just comes out of you. I'm like, 00:38:51.219 --> 00:38:52.840 I wish somebody could tell me what I'm doing. 00:38:53.300 --> 00:38:56.079 And that was when Kendall stepped in. And she 00:38:56.079 --> 00:38:59.179 said, this is a technique called this. Now let 00:38:59.179 --> 00:39:01.659 me help you use it intentionally and do it even 00:39:01.659 --> 00:39:04.019 more in what you were doing. And that just took 00:39:04.019 --> 00:39:07.860 me a whole nother level. And so I had known about 00:39:07.860 --> 00:39:10.559 the world championships and I said, I want to 00:39:10.559 --> 00:39:13.539 compete there. And so she said, okay. She said, 00:39:13.579 --> 00:39:15.260 I've never played the accordion. I said, but 00:39:15.260 --> 00:39:19.139 you're a musician. It's music to music, regardless 00:39:19.139 --> 00:39:21.880 of your instrument. And so she's like, game on, 00:39:21.980 --> 00:39:24.960 I'll do it. And so she helped me with the artistry. 00:39:25.280 --> 00:39:28.400 And then I flew to France and studied with Frederic 00:39:28.400 --> 00:39:30.679 Deschamps, who he's known for producing world 00:39:30.679 --> 00:39:33.760 champions. And so I studied with a month with 00:39:33.760 --> 00:39:36.519 him. We were practicing up to 16 hours a day. 00:39:36.980 --> 00:39:41.400 And then one week before we're leaving for Italy 00:39:41.400 --> 00:39:44.739 to compete, he's timing my program because you 00:39:44.739 --> 00:39:47.639 have to be within minutes. And contrasting styles 00:39:47.639 --> 00:39:50.659 of pieces, technical, lyrical, all these things. 00:39:50.780 --> 00:39:53.579 And he said, oops, we're short three minutes. 00:39:53.860 --> 00:39:56.739 Uh -oh. And I'm like, Fred, what are we going 00:39:56.739 --> 00:39:58.480 to do? He said, you've got to learn another piece. 00:39:59.400 --> 00:40:03.099 I said, in one week? He said, I mean, because 00:40:03.099 --> 00:40:05.280 at a championship level, those pieces are not 00:40:05.280 --> 00:40:08.699 simple. Right. He said, we've got one week. I 00:40:08.699 --> 00:40:11.000 said, okay, what am I playing? And he pulled 00:40:11.000 --> 00:40:13.199 out a piece of music, and he said this one. It's 00:40:13.199 --> 00:40:15.000 four pages long. I think we can learn it quick 00:40:15.000 --> 00:40:17.960 enough. I said, okay. So back to the practice 00:40:17.960 --> 00:40:22.000 room. Now I'm nervous. I should say. So seven 00:40:22.000 --> 00:40:25.440 -day countdown. Day four. I'm in the lessons, 00:40:25.500 --> 00:40:28.900 and the Russian competitor, we're going to be 00:40:28.900 --> 00:40:31.679 competing against each other. The Italian competitor, 00:40:32.000 --> 00:40:34.519 the German competitor, we're all in the same 00:40:34.519 --> 00:40:37.360 house, in the same place, studying with the same 00:40:37.360 --> 00:40:39.920 teacher. We know we're all competing against 00:40:39.920 --> 00:40:42.400 each other. So the Russian candidate comes and 00:40:42.400 --> 00:40:45.239 sits and listens to my lesson on this piece. 00:40:45.760 --> 00:40:48.780 And he's like, Fred. And he said, what? He's 00:40:48.780 --> 00:40:51.780 like, are you sure? That's how bad it must have 00:40:51.780 --> 00:40:56.480 sounded. Fred's like, you know what? Patricia 00:40:56.480 --> 00:40:59.239 likes a challenge. And I like a challenge. Yeah, 00:40:59.320 --> 00:41:02.219 so this is going to be all right. Wow. I'm thinking, 00:41:02.360 --> 00:41:06.119 okay, that's day four. Day five. Day six, I'm 00:41:06.119 --> 00:41:09.280 finally getting it memorized. Not full speed. 00:41:09.579 --> 00:41:12.840 Of course, now day seven, we're traveling. And 00:41:12.840 --> 00:41:16.340 so getting it together. And there's two rounds. 00:41:17.119 --> 00:41:19.179 So they eliminate a lot of people in the first 00:41:19.179 --> 00:41:22.699 round. And so I made it into the second round. 00:41:22.820 --> 00:41:25.380 Now it's against the Russian that was there, 00:41:25.500 --> 00:41:30.079 the Italian, the German, myself. So we're heading 00:41:30.079 --> 00:41:33.260 in one at a time. I walk in, and it's a panel 00:41:33.260 --> 00:41:36.610 of judges, seven men. standing there, black suits. 00:41:36.909 --> 00:41:40.570 And I thought, this is a friendly crowd. So I 00:41:40.570 --> 00:41:43.389 sit down. They carry, I have a 24 -pound concert 00:41:43.389 --> 00:41:45.989 accordion. I sit there. I'm like, I am not playing 00:41:45.989 --> 00:41:48.030 for them. I'm going to play for the crowd. That's 00:41:48.030 --> 00:41:50.289 how I grew up playing, you know, play for them. 00:41:50.710 --> 00:41:54.289 And so I sit there, and the final round, and 00:41:54.289 --> 00:41:57.829 of course, this new piece, made it through. Goodness, 00:41:57.929 --> 00:42:02.750 that was a moment. And came in third place. It 00:42:02.750 --> 00:42:07.530 was Russia. Italy, and U .S. But what it did 00:42:07.530 --> 00:42:12.030 was not only got my championship title, was that 00:42:12.030 --> 00:42:14.949 it opened the doors internationally for me for 00:42:14.949 --> 00:42:18.190 the music world at the highest level because 00:42:18.190 --> 00:42:20.309 all the different countries were standing there 00:42:20.309 --> 00:42:24.610 because once U .S. was announced that it was 00:42:24.610 --> 00:42:27.000 going to be present. A lot of the other countries 00:42:27.000 --> 00:42:29.980 came together to see because U .S. had not been 00:42:29.980 --> 00:42:34.619 represented in decades. I'm sure. And then it 00:42:34.619 --> 00:42:37.900 was a female. Right. Because accordion is such 00:42:37.900 --> 00:42:41.760 a physical instrument. It's more male predominant. 00:42:42.079 --> 00:42:44.639 But you have such upper body strength because 00:42:44.639 --> 00:42:48.260 of the crutches and all getting around. Yeah. 00:42:48.300 --> 00:42:50.579 Just getting in and out of things. I watched 00:42:50.579 --> 00:42:54.570 you the first time getting into the car. At the 00:42:54.570 --> 00:42:56.889 airport. At the airport. And it's like, okay, 00:42:57.130 --> 00:43:00.570 she's got this. She knows exactly what she's 00:43:00.570 --> 00:43:02.949 doing. She's been doing this a long time. Yes. 00:43:02.949 --> 00:43:06.809 Yeah, I got this drink. And so because it opened 00:43:06.809 --> 00:43:10.659 those doors. And I wasn't tied to the political 00:43:10.659 --> 00:43:13.000 arena in the U .S. because in everything there's 00:43:13.000 --> 00:43:16.000 the politics. And so they're like, did you not 00:43:16.000 --> 00:43:18.840 represent your country through the legal channels? 00:43:18.940 --> 00:43:21.099 I'm like, I didn't even know. I needed to go 00:43:21.099 --> 00:43:23.320 through one of the associations in the U .S. 00:43:23.400 --> 00:43:25.780 And I'm so glad I didn't because then they would 00:43:25.780 --> 00:43:30.559 own me. I did this because I wanted to. prepare 00:43:30.559 --> 00:43:33.239 the way for my students wow you know and so i 00:43:33.239 --> 00:43:35.260 didn't know that i didn't know you know to go 00:43:35.260 --> 00:43:38.920 to a teacher by myself and to do that and so 00:43:38.920 --> 00:43:41.460 and the fact that i played international music 00:43:41.460 --> 00:43:44.500 it wasn't just like the stuff from u .s they 00:43:44.500 --> 00:43:47.219 said we've never had a u .s candidate you know 00:43:47.219 --> 00:43:50.619 even back then play any of our music wow and 00:43:50.619 --> 00:43:52.579 but i'm like well thankfully i had an international 00:43:52.579 --> 00:43:56.219 teacher frederick who gave me some of that repertoire 00:43:56.219 --> 00:43:59.539 and i'm like i liked it let's do it And it opened 00:43:59.539 --> 00:44:03.380 up so many doors. And then I was invited to be 00:44:03.380 --> 00:44:06.320 one of the juries for the World Championships. 00:44:06.699 --> 00:44:09.199 Wow. So it's my claim to fame because they called 00:44:09.199 --> 00:44:11.739 us by our country. You know, Mr. Germany, Mr. 00:44:11.940 --> 00:44:16.260 Italy, Mr. Portugal, Miss USA. Wow. That's right. 00:44:16.539 --> 00:44:21.579 My fun moment there. So it was just a way that 00:44:21.579 --> 00:44:24.639 God opened the door to speak to those people 00:44:24.639 --> 00:44:27.860 and be more of a light to them because it's more 00:44:27.860 --> 00:44:31.019 of a worldly setting. One of our worship leaders, 00:44:31.159 --> 00:44:34.619 Clarence, he studied at ORU and they had a European 00:44:34.619 --> 00:44:39.059 teacher. And he was very strict. And he says, 00:44:39.079 --> 00:44:40.639 no, I want to teach you something different. 00:44:40.719 --> 00:44:43.760 I want to teach you. where you will always have 00:44:43.760 --> 00:44:46.739 one finger on a key at all times so you will 00:44:46.739 --> 00:44:49.800 know where you're at. And that has been such 00:44:49.800 --> 00:44:53.320 a blessing because he can just... Talk and worship 00:44:53.320 --> 00:44:55.619 while he's playing, you know, and I thought. 00:44:55.760 --> 00:44:57.900 And keep his eyes closed. And keep his eyes closed. 00:44:57.940 --> 00:45:01.000 Yeah. You know, and that was because of this 00:45:01.000 --> 00:45:03.579 European teacher that, you know, is not always 00:45:03.579 --> 00:45:08.159 very nice. Yes, I was. You know, I nearly quit 00:45:08.159 --> 00:45:10.840 my degree three times because the teacher I had 00:45:10.840 --> 00:45:13.440 for the accordion was Estonian. Estonian. And 00:45:13.440 --> 00:45:16.900 so it was like every week I left lessons in tears. 00:45:17.300 --> 00:45:20.280 And so about that two -year mark, I was like, 00:45:20.320 --> 00:45:23.960 I can't do this anymore. And I was playing for 00:45:23.960 --> 00:45:25.900 a function in Portland. And this little lady 00:45:25.900 --> 00:45:28.440 came up to me. And I'd known her for many years. 00:45:28.780 --> 00:45:30.599 And she put her arm around me and said, Patricia, 00:45:30.739 --> 00:45:34.800 how's accordion going? And I looked at her and 00:45:34.800 --> 00:45:37.539 I said, because it's like I couldn't lie. But 00:45:37.539 --> 00:45:39.980 I didn't know anything positive to say. I said, 00:45:39.980 --> 00:45:46.500 I don't like it anymore. And she knew the teacher. 00:45:46.539 --> 00:45:48.840 And she said, you know what? Remember all the 00:45:48.840 --> 00:45:51.869 fun you had with it. And she said, you can do 00:45:51.869 --> 00:45:54.429 anything for two more years. Two more years. 00:45:54.869 --> 00:45:58.929 And I thought, true, you know. Okay. And so because 00:45:58.929 --> 00:46:02.769 of her, just that moment, you know, continued 00:46:02.769 --> 00:46:06.670 on. Just the encouragement to continue on. Wow. 00:46:07.210 --> 00:46:11.489 Yeah. So it's been quite a journey that way. 00:46:11.670 --> 00:46:17.429 Isn't it amazing, though, to come from an orphanage 00:46:17.429 --> 00:46:22.639 with polio. On your deathbed as a baby, through 00:46:22.639 --> 00:46:27.179 a whole lifetime, a childhood of abuse, not knowing 00:46:27.179 --> 00:46:31.280 you're being abused, God taking you to where 00:46:31.280 --> 00:46:35.320 you find that there's more, that God really cares 00:46:35.320 --> 00:46:40.579 for you, and he plunges you into this championship. 00:46:41.380 --> 00:46:45.659 Now, come on. That's like a Cinderella story. 00:46:46.000 --> 00:46:48.400 You know, it really is. It's something that's 00:46:48.400 --> 00:46:51.280 beyond beyond. Like, is that really true? Could 00:46:51.280 --> 00:46:54.280 that really be true? Yes. Yes. This is a true 00:46:54.280 --> 00:46:57.739 story. And I'm thinking that there's a listener 00:46:57.739 --> 00:47:02.920 or two or more that have had tragic experiences 00:47:02.920 --> 00:47:07.460 in their lives that have caused them to feel 00:47:07.460 --> 00:47:11.360 rejected or have caused them to maybe they've 00:47:11.360 --> 00:47:14.980 gone through abuse. But I just want to ask you 00:47:14.980 --> 00:47:19.269 as a champion. And God has brought you through 00:47:19.269 --> 00:47:22.190 into a champion from the world's point of view 00:47:22.190 --> 00:47:26.250 and to bring you into this place in God where 00:47:26.250 --> 00:47:30.530 you're stepping through the veil into the unseen 00:47:30.530 --> 00:47:33.789 realm. We're talking about the supernatural. 00:47:33.849 --> 00:47:37.429 We're talking about believing God for these things 00:47:37.429 --> 00:47:39.789 that he wants to do in these last days to show 00:47:39.789 --> 00:47:42.949 himself glorious. And of course, it's not the 00:47:42.949 --> 00:47:46.610 counterfeit. It's the real thing. where he's 00:47:46.610 --> 00:47:50.730 using people to show his glory at his command, 00:47:51.030 --> 00:47:54.230 not at our own ideas. Oh, I want to really do 00:47:54.230 --> 00:47:56.489 that. No, it's God says, okay, it's time for 00:47:56.489 --> 00:47:59.750 you to do this. Would you pray for our listeners? 00:47:59.809 --> 00:48:02.550 Because I feel like you can be an encourager 00:48:02.550 --> 00:48:06.449 in the spirit to some people that need some encouragement, 00:48:06.469 --> 00:48:09.730 or maybe, listener, maybe you know somebody that 00:48:09.730 --> 00:48:12.329 needs encouragement, and you can share this with 00:48:12.329 --> 00:48:14.789 them. But there's a moment right here, right 00:48:14.789 --> 00:48:20.460 now, where you can step through into a place 00:48:20.460 --> 00:48:24.860 of overcoming. Would you pray? Yes. Father, we 00:48:24.860 --> 00:48:27.679 just come before you. And right now, Father, 00:48:27.739 --> 00:48:30.840 I just gather your listeners, those that are 00:48:30.840 --> 00:48:34.420 listening, and just crying out to you for their 00:48:34.420 --> 00:48:38.659 hope, that promise. And Lord, as you step through 00:48:38.659 --> 00:48:42.360 the veil that you tore, that we have free access 00:48:42.360 --> 00:48:46.650 to through Jesus. And Father, every heart that 00:48:46.650 --> 00:48:50.789 has been broken, every betrayal, every rejection, 00:48:51.230 --> 00:48:56.909 every loss. Father, you know every detail. Yes. 00:48:57.090 --> 00:48:59.829 And Lord, we just take it right now and bring 00:48:59.829 --> 00:49:03.289 it to the foot of the cross. And Father, we lay 00:49:03.289 --> 00:49:07.170 it down so it can die. And Father, by faith, 00:49:07.190 --> 00:49:10.849 I just take all of that, all those lost things 00:49:10.849 --> 00:49:14.289 that people thought they have lost. And Lord, 00:49:14.349 --> 00:49:17.650 laid into the grave. And Father, for the wounds 00:49:17.650 --> 00:49:21.389 that have been all the cuts and those broken 00:49:21.389 --> 00:49:24.610 places, Lord, we just apply the balm of Gilead 00:49:24.610 --> 00:49:29.730 over that. And Lord, and now just apply the power 00:49:29.730 --> 00:49:33.449 of your resurrection to each one of those wounds 00:49:33.449 --> 00:49:37.570 so that they can rise up in your strength. They 00:49:37.570 --> 00:49:39.949 can rise up into the destiny that you've called 00:49:39.949 --> 00:49:43.440 them. They can rise up to see your... your hand 00:49:43.440 --> 00:49:46.920 of salvation, your hand of glory, that as you 00:49:46.920 --> 00:49:50.280 look upon them, you draw them to you, that you 00:49:50.280 --> 00:49:53.139 reflect to them and they can reflect back to 00:49:53.139 --> 00:49:57.019 you. Father, that love is what conquers all. 00:49:57.219 --> 00:50:00.099 Father, love is what brings healing. And as you 00:50:00.099 --> 00:50:03.400 hold them in your heart, Father, and just bless 00:50:03.400 --> 00:50:06.579 the listeners, Lord, that they can take this 00:50:06.579 --> 00:50:10.039 step. All it is is just a step of faith. And 00:50:10.039 --> 00:50:13.219 Lord, I just pray, Father, That they may know 00:50:13.219 --> 00:50:15.599 you. Yes, Lord. That they may know you in the 00:50:15.599 --> 00:50:18.300 power of the resurrection. Yes, Lord. Lord, that 00:50:18.300 --> 00:50:22.219 they will have this depth understanding of your 00:50:22.219 --> 00:50:25.019 love for them. As you have loved me, Father, 00:50:25.079 --> 00:50:27.699 as you chose me from the beginning when everybody 00:50:27.699 --> 00:50:31.400 told me I was rejected. But, Father, that you 00:50:31.400 --> 00:50:34.900 brought truth. And truth will always stand because 00:50:34.900 --> 00:50:38.579 it's Jesus. Thank you, Father. Yes, Father. Amen. 00:50:38.880 --> 00:50:47.849 Amen. 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