WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:02.200 You don't have to be perfect to run with God. 00:00:02.279 --> 00:00:06.059 You have to have a heart. Not a good heart. You 00:00:06.059 --> 00:00:08.779 just have to have a willing heart. Yeah. A heart 00:00:08.779 --> 00:00:12.800 that's willing to let God work on it. Amen. That's 00:00:12.800 --> 00:00:25.300 it. Yep. Not perfect. Just willing. God promises 00:00:25.300 --> 00:00:29.120 in Joel 2 .28 to pour out His Spirit. on all 00:00:29.120 --> 00:00:32.399 humanity. Welcome to Global Outpouring, where 00:00:32.399 --> 00:00:35.299 we contend for that promised outpouring, we equip 00:00:35.299 --> 00:00:38.880 for that outpouring, so that we may engage in 00:00:38.880 --> 00:00:42.380 that very outpouring. I'm Philip Buss. And I'm 00:00:42.380 --> 00:00:44.560 Sharon Buss. Welcome to the podcast today. We're 00:00:44.560 --> 00:00:47.259 so glad that you're with us. We have with us 00:00:47.259 --> 00:00:50.939 again our dear friend Olivia Bowie, and she's 00:00:50.939 --> 00:00:53.679 going to continue telling us more of her testimony. 00:00:53.700 --> 00:00:56.539 We started out with her about how she overcame 00:00:56.539 --> 00:00:59.600 rejection, and we're going to talk today about 00:00:59.600 --> 00:01:07.010 what happens in the glory. Thank you so much 00:01:07.010 --> 00:01:09.010 for joining us today. You're going to really 00:01:09.010 --> 00:01:12.250 enjoy this podcast. But before we get started, 00:01:12.290 --> 00:01:14.290 we want to make sure that if you haven't already 00:01:14.290 --> 00:01:17.510 done so, that you've gone to our website, globaloutpouring 00:01:17.510 --> 00:01:20.290 .net, and that you've signed up for our email 00:01:20.290 --> 00:01:23.049 list so that you can stay in touch with us, we 00:01:23.049 --> 00:01:25.489 can stay in touch with you. And you can give 00:01:25.489 --> 00:01:27.709 us some feedback on our feedback form there, 00:01:27.810 --> 00:01:31.409 or you can email us at feedback at globaloutpouring 00:01:31.409 --> 00:01:34.650 .org. And you're going to see on our website 00:01:34.650 --> 00:01:37.010 that we have the This wonderful event that's 00:01:37.010 --> 00:01:41.689 coming up, our convention, 2025, May 21st through 00:01:41.689 --> 00:01:44.450 24th at the St. Louis Airport Marriott Hotel. 00:01:44.769 --> 00:01:48.909 It's going to be a glorious time of an outpouring 00:01:48.909 --> 00:01:51.689 that the Holy Spirit is going to do with us. 00:01:51.810 --> 00:01:55.569 He always shows up. It's just so amazing. And 00:01:55.569 --> 00:01:58.349 you're going to enjoy this time. You'll find 00:01:58.349 --> 00:02:01.349 people that are hungry for God like you are. 00:02:02.060 --> 00:02:06.040 And you're going to meet people and get new experiences. 00:02:06.200 --> 00:02:09.259 And it's a family camp. Bring the whole family. 00:02:09.360 --> 00:02:11.639 Every age group is going to have something special. 00:02:12.360 --> 00:02:14.719 And we have our speakers all lined up. Siggy 00:02:14.719 --> 00:02:18.479 Oblander will be opening for us. She's a mighty 00:02:18.479 --> 00:02:21.360 woman of God with a depth of revelation in the 00:02:21.360 --> 00:02:24.280 Word and a prophetic gift. Tony Kemp will be 00:02:24.280 --> 00:02:29.039 speaking. He's got such a depth in God and follows 00:02:29.039 --> 00:02:31.639 the leading of the Holy Spirit, bringing all 00:02:31.639 --> 00:02:35.500 kinds of wonders out of the Word and out of the 00:02:35.500 --> 00:02:39.479 gifts of God that operate in his life. Dean Braxton 00:02:39.479 --> 00:02:43.120 will be speaking and also having question and 00:02:43.120 --> 00:02:46.319 answer times so you can find out more about what 00:02:46.319 --> 00:02:48.419 happened to him when he was outside of his body 00:02:48.419 --> 00:02:51.780 for an hour and 45 minutes. Jean Little will 00:02:51.780 --> 00:02:54.060 be ministering in our special Israel evening. 00:02:54.580 --> 00:02:57.759 And Jeff Simons is going to be bringing a message 00:02:57.759 --> 00:03:00.960 that is on his heart that the Lord has given 00:03:00.960 --> 00:03:04.300 to him. He's been used of God in so many ways 00:03:04.300 --> 00:03:08.039 in the prophetic gift and in teaching and in 00:03:08.039 --> 00:03:12.539 bringing miracles, signs and wonders, ministering 00:03:12.539 --> 00:03:14.780 in the streets, all those kinds of things. And 00:03:14.780 --> 00:03:18.180 I will be bringing the message for the session 00:03:18.180 --> 00:03:20.759 when we're going to be bringing. new members 00:03:20.759 --> 00:03:25.520 into this ministry. So plan to be there. So Olivia, 00:03:25.699 --> 00:03:28.340 we're so glad that we have you with us again 00:03:28.340 --> 00:03:31.199 today. This is just a real blessing that you've 00:03:31.199 --> 00:03:33.560 come to spend a few days with us at Angletall. 00:03:34.199 --> 00:03:36.580 I'm blessed and thankful to be here. Thank you 00:03:36.580 --> 00:03:39.819 for having me. Okay. So the last time that you 00:03:39.819 --> 00:03:42.659 were here, we had a wonderful discussion about 00:03:42.659 --> 00:03:45.900 how the Lord really delivered you in a great 00:03:45.900 --> 00:03:48.039 way from rejection. You had been through some 00:03:48.039 --> 00:03:50.639 awful, awful things in your life, and we'll put 00:03:50.639 --> 00:03:52.759 a link to that so we don't have to retell the 00:03:52.759 --> 00:03:56.500 story today. But we did talk about how the Lord 00:03:56.500 --> 00:03:59.599 really transformed your life at the Brownsville 00:03:59.599 --> 00:04:03.099 Assembly in Pensacola. a number of years ago. 00:04:03.199 --> 00:04:06.120 I guess it's quite a few years ago now, and how 00:04:06.120 --> 00:04:08.719 you went to the school there, and then you went 00:04:08.719 --> 00:04:12.219 on to be trained elsewhere. And I just want you 00:04:12.219 --> 00:04:14.599 to talk a little bit about what the glory of 00:04:14.599 --> 00:04:17.100 God has done in your life. That was a real outpouring 00:04:17.100 --> 00:04:21.420 of the Holy Spirit in that church, and so many 00:04:21.420 --> 00:04:23.959 thousands of lives were changed, and you were 00:04:23.959 --> 00:04:27.740 one of them. Tell us what God did. You know, 00:04:27.759 --> 00:04:32.279 at the time, I really wanted God. And I wanted 00:04:32.279 --> 00:04:35.720 him to make himself real to me. And so I was 00:04:35.720 --> 00:04:38.740 so hungry. During that time, I'm still hungry. 00:04:38.839 --> 00:04:41.439 I think it just blew me up. No matter what, I'm 00:04:41.439 --> 00:04:44.720 hungry for years now. Never lose it. Never lose 00:04:44.720 --> 00:04:49.519 it. So I was married to a man that was, you know, 00:04:49.519 --> 00:04:52.980 into drugs and dealt drugs. And I'd still smoked 00:04:52.980 --> 00:04:55.540 weed at the time. I didn't see anything wrong 00:04:55.540 --> 00:04:58.000 with it. I didn't see anything wrong with being 00:04:58.000 --> 00:05:00.699 who I was. And I was a Christian. I loved the 00:05:00.699 --> 00:05:03.589 Lord even then. Until the Holy Ghost dealt with 00:05:03.589 --> 00:05:06.850 you otherwise. Yes. You know, God has a way. 00:05:07.069 --> 00:05:09.790 Yes, he does. He knows what he's doing. And I 00:05:09.790 --> 00:05:12.589 always question God, how come I'm not experiencing 00:05:12.589 --> 00:05:16.550 the change that I see other people experiencing? 00:05:16.670 --> 00:05:20.509 Because no matter how hard I tried to be free 00:05:20.509 --> 00:05:24.230 or to be right in life, I always like a dog to 00:05:24.230 --> 00:05:27.310 his vomit, right? You go right back to your old 00:05:27.310 --> 00:05:30.930 ways, your old paths. You forget, you know, how 00:05:30.930 --> 00:05:33.089 good God is. And you just kind of go back and 00:05:33.089 --> 00:05:36.800 forth like a ping pong ball. And so I learned 00:05:36.800 --> 00:05:40.839 in time, you know, that we all have this compass, 00:05:40.959 --> 00:05:44.240 this thing where you have to find balance. So 00:05:44.240 --> 00:05:50.500 I went to Brownsville Revival and I was just 00:05:50.500 --> 00:05:53.819 wanting God. And I was sitting in the audience 00:05:53.819 --> 00:05:57.060 and Steve Hill started talking about the Father's 00:05:57.060 --> 00:06:00.079 love. And we all know that's where my rejection 00:06:00.079 --> 00:06:02.560 came from. That's where the, you know, that's 00:06:02.560 --> 00:06:07.800 where I needed. the most. So when I heard the 00:06:07.800 --> 00:06:10.839 father's love, I was just like, wow, who is this 00:06:10.839 --> 00:06:13.639 father? Like I knew God, but I didn't know God. 00:06:13.660 --> 00:06:16.860 I knew I didn't know God if he was a father. 00:06:17.420 --> 00:06:21.680 So I ran up at the altar and I just threw my 00:06:21.680 --> 00:06:24.079 face up there and was like, I surrender. I want 00:06:24.079 --> 00:06:28.480 to know this good father. And Steve Hill. put 00:06:28.480 --> 00:06:30.879 his hands on me and I just went out in the glory. 00:06:31.439 --> 00:06:33.779 And of course it wasn't no, I didn't give him 00:06:33.779 --> 00:06:38.100 no courtesy fall for sure. I fell. And my little 00:06:38.100 --> 00:06:41.379 baby was two years old at the time, Sarah. And 00:06:41.379 --> 00:06:45.600 she sat on top of me while God just, it was like 00:06:45.600 --> 00:06:48.420 fire from the top of my head to the bottom of 00:06:48.420 --> 00:06:51.399 my feet. And it just resonated up and down, up 00:06:51.399 --> 00:06:56.240 and down. And I felt that love, that genuine 00:06:57.310 --> 00:07:02.550 I love you. I accept you. You can change. I've 00:07:02.550 --> 00:07:05.970 got you, baby. You're mine. You know, it was 00:07:05.970 --> 00:07:09.389 just another transforming. You know, it was that 00:07:09.389 --> 00:07:12.250 beginning of my transformation. It was the very 00:07:12.250 --> 00:07:15.230 beginning. Right. And I remember just laying 00:07:15.230 --> 00:07:18.839 there and crying and realizing that. No matter 00:07:18.839 --> 00:07:22.540 what I've done in life, God accepted me. Yes. 00:07:22.540 --> 00:07:25.980 And he received me. Yes. And from that day on, 00:07:26.100 --> 00:07:28.579 I think Charity was the young lady's name that 00:07:28.579 --> 00:07:31.699 sung that song. Come running. Yeah, yeah, yeah. 00:07:31.699 --> 00:07:35.839 Come running. Yeah. Come running to the mercy 00:07:35.839 --> 00:07:40.939 seat. Yes. And when I heard that, it was like 00:07:40.939 --> 00:07:45.069 I realized I have empowerment now. There was 00:07:45.069 --> 00:07:48.649 a change in me that I realized now I know the 00:07:48.649 --> 00:07:51.569 Father. Yes. I know that I know that I know. 00:07:51.790 --> 00:07:54.870 Yes. That I belong to the Father. Yes. And so 00:07:54.870 --> 00:07:58.310 from that day forward, I learned how to fall 00:07:58.310 --> 00:08:02.029 and get back up. Yes. I learned how to fall. 00:08:02.540 --> 00:08:05.160 And get back up. And I was just this little baby 00:08:05.160 --> 00:08:08.980 toddler trying to run in the spirit. And I was 00:08:08.980 --> 00:08:11.259 falling and getting back up and falling and getting 00:08:11.259 --> 00:08:14.339 back up. And I became so hungry that I wanted 00:08:14.339 --> 00:08:19.019 everybody to know this loving father that I've 00:08:19.019 --> 00:08:22.699 just met. So after that, I went and got my son. 00:08:22.839 --> 00:08:26.600 He was two months old during that time. And I 00:08:26.600 --> 00:08:30.079 went back to my house and I walked in. And of 00:08:30.079 --> 00:08:32.480 course, I'm smoking a joint. not thinking nothing 00:08:32.480 --> 00:08:36.259 about it. I'm like, hey, smoking my joint, you 00:08:36.259 --> 00:08:39.159 know, talking to everybody. And I tell them, 00:08:39.159 --> 00:08:43.840 I want you to meet a man. And his name is Jesus. 00:08:43.960 --> 00:08:48.480 He is the best thing ever. And man, by then everybody 00:08:48.480 --> 00:08:51.559 was ruined. They were so upset with me. And I 00:08:51.559 --> 00:08:55.899 didn't save not one person that night. And man, 00:08:55.980 --> 00:08:58.960 it was a disappointment because I had so experienced. 00:08:59.080 --> 00:09:02.440 Did they lose their high? They did. I ruined 00:09:02.440 --> 00:09:06.639 it. I ruined it. And here I was excited, you 00:09:06.639 --> 00:09:08.940 know, and smoking right along. I wasn't doing 00:09:08.940 --> 00:09:11.120 anything different than them. I was just excited 00:09:11.120 --> 00:09:14.039 about who I met. Just a change of heart. You 00:09:14.039 --> 00:09:16.899 know, the Toronto move, which happened, was just 00:09:16.899 --> 00:09:19.879 previous to that. You know, that was known as 00:09:19.879 --> 00:09:23.320 the Father's heart. Yeah. John Arnott, the Father's 00:09:23.320 --> 00:09:26.179 heart. That's what God was pouring out at that 00:09:26.179 --> 00:09:29.100 time. And we still need that. And we have so 00:09:29.100 --> 00:09:32.620 many fatherless nowadays. Yes. And nobody really 00:09:32.620 --> 00:09:36.309 knows what a good... father is. Nobody knows 00:09:36.309 --> 00:09:39.149 what it is to be corrected by a good father, 00:09:39.289 --> 00:09:42.409 to be accepted by a good father, to be corrected 00:09:42.409 --> 00:09:45.750 and accepted by a father. A father doesn't have 00:09:45.750 --> 00:09:49.269 to hate you to correct you. A father can love 00:09:49.269 --> 00:09:50.990 you and correct you too. That's the way it should 00:09:50.990 --> 00:09:54.950 be. Exactly. And I don't think people know a 00:09:54.950 --> 00:09:58.009 true father. And it was almost like God says, 00:09:58.070 --> 00:10:01.399 when your mother and father forsake you, I will 00:10:01.399 --> 00:10:04.500 raise you up. I'll take you in, Olivia. You belong 00:10:04.500 --> 00:10:07.659 to me. And man, when I got that revelation, it 00:10:07.659 --> 00:10:10.059 was just like, oh, now I have a good daddy. He 00:10:10.059 --> 00:10:13.039 can teach me things. He can bring me into a place. 00:10:13.220 --> 00:10:15.179 And I had a good father. I'm not telling you 00:10:15.179 --> 00:10:18.220 that my daddy was a bad daddy. My real dad worked 00:10:18.220 --> 00:10:22.100 hard and he was a car salesman. And I never want 00:10:22.100 --> 00:10:24.559 to dishonor him or disrespect him in any way. 00:10:24.700 --> 00:10:28.639 I just think he didn't know. Sometimes we just 00:10:28.639 --> 00:10:31.690 don't know because We're caught up in our own 00:10:31.690 --> 00:10:34.009 world. We don't know. Yeah. And what did Jesus 00:10:34.009 --> 00:10:36.570 say from the cross? Father, forgive them. They 00:10:36.570 --> 00:10:38.950 don't even know what they're doing. They don't 00:10:38.950 --> 00:10:42.110 even know. And so it's not anything against my 00:10:42.110 --> 00:10:44.429 father. I want to make sure that I don't dishonor 00:10:44.429 --> 00:10:47.690 my own father because he did the best he knew 00:10:47.690 --> 00:10:50.269 how to do. And even God has dealt with me in 00:10:50.269 --> 00:10:53.250 those areas where you have to remember people 00:10:53.250 --> 00:10:58.149 are raised themselves. And that's all they know. 00:10:58.389 --> 00:11:01.039 Right. And if it's your father or your mother, 00:11:01.139 --> 00:11:04.639 God didn't say they had to be right for you to 00:11:04.639 --> 00:11:07.639 honor them. That's true. And it's the only covenant 00:11:07.639 --> 00:11:12.059 in the Bible with promise. It's true. So it's 00:11:12.059 --> 00:11:14.519 so important that we really honor our parents, 00:11:14.639 --> 00:11:17.019 regardless of how good or how bad they raised 00:11:17.019 --> 00:11:20.220 us. So I just, I really want to clarify that. 00:11:20.320 --> 00:11:23.860 I don't want to drag my family through the mud 00:11:23.860 --> 00:11:27.059 or make them feel like. They didn't do anything 00:11:27.059 --> 00:11:29.799 right. That's not how I'm putting this at all. 00:11:29.919 --> 00:11:32.679 I just want to make that clear. I'm glad. That's 00:11:32.679 --> 00:11:35.860 good. So how did the Lord deal with you to put 00:11:35.860 --> 00:11:41.259 away the pot? How did he do that? Yeah, how long 00:11:41.259 --> 00:11:43.960 did it take? Yeah, you know, the next day I got 00:11:43.960 --> 00:11:46.539 in a fight with my husband the next day, and 00:11:46.539 --> 00:11:49.740 he was like, where is she? I want my old wife 00:11:49.740 --> 00:11:52.759 back. Bring back Olivia. I'm like, well, you 00:11:52.759 --> 00:11:56.039 didn't even love that, Olivia. You know, what 00:11:56.039 --> 00:11:58.320 are you trying to say? And I looked at him and 00:11:58.320 --> 00:12:04.000 I said, I can't change. This is permanent. Wow. 00:12:04.279 --> 00:12:07.679 I don't even know what happened. But Olivia's 00:12:07.679 --> 00:12:12.120 not the same Olivia. Something grew. Wow. And 00:12:12.120 --> 00:12:15.179 I knew it. And I couldn't go back. Yeah. And 00:12:15.179 --> 00:12:17.679 something escalated. We ended up getting a big 00:12:17.679 --> 00:12:20.980 fight and all that good stuff. It ended up, you 00:12:20.980 --> 00:12:23.879 know, I couldn't take it anymore. I tried to 00:12:23.879 --> 00:12:26.320 stay married. I actually stayed married for two 00:12:26.320 --> 00:12:29.740 more years after that incident. We separated. 00:12:32.090 --> 00:12:34.169 I went back and forth with it for a long time. 00:12:34.250 --> 00:12:37.289 I'd go and get counsel from pastors and ask them 00:12:37.289 --> 00:12:39.909 what they thought and ask them to pray. And I 00:12:39.909 --> 00:12:42.850 stood in the gap for him. I really stood for 00:12:42.850 --> 00:12:45.690 him to be saved, that we could get along because 00:12:45.690 --> 00:12:48.009 what good is light and darkness together, right? 00:12:48.149 --> 00:12:50.730 You can't abide with someone that's going to 00:12:50.730 --> 00:12:54.149 beat you up and attack you and have so much darkness 00:12:54.149 --> 00:12:56.710 in them and not willing to run after God with 00:12:56.710 --> 00:13:00.750 you. So I still had to protect myself, you know, 00:13:00.750 --> 00:13:03.340 and that was hard. hard that was my first separation 00:13:03.340 --> 00:13:07.019 that i understood that god was separating it 00:13:07.019 --> 00:13:11.120 and even though it was divorce i could not change 00:13:11.120 --> 00:13:15.799 yeah the scenario the situation i mean he broke 00:13:15.799 --> 00:13:19.000 my nose and black my i mean i had i had physical 00:13:19.000 --> 00:13:21.820 things happening to where i had to protect my 00:13:21.820 --> 00:13:25.100 children i had to protect you know things happened 00:13:25.100 --> 00:13:28.259 so i mean in those scenarios you have to separate 00:13:28.259 --> 00:13:31.559 from it yeah i can't stand it when Religious 00:13:31.559 --> 00:13:33.980 people tell you to stay with someone that's trying 00:13:33.980 --> 00:13:37.419 to kill you. Right, right. That doesn't make 00:13:37.419 --> 00:13:41.019 sense. No, it doesn't. Yeah, they weren't in 00:13:41.019 --> 00:13:44.840 your shoes. No. So then how did the Holy Spirit 00:13:44.840 --> 00:13:47.899 deal with you about the pot? I want to know this 00:13:47.899 --> 00:13:50.419 story. So what happened was the Lord told me, 00:13:50.440 --> 00:13:52.059 he said, I want you to throw it down the toilet, 00:13:52.200 --> 00:13:54.919 pour it out in the toilet. And I said, God, what 00:13:54.919 --> 00:13:58.259 are you saying? And I've seen people smoke and 00:13:58.259 --> 00:14:01.980 be saved. Oh, sure. Some people smoke, you know, 00:14:01.980 --> 00:14:04.620 and whatever. And I thought, well, you know, 00:14:04.620 --> 00:14:07.519 my spiritual mother smoked when I met her. I 00:14:07.519 --> 00:14:10.159 had a spiritual mother who smoked. The glory 00:14:10.159 --> 00:14:12.080 of God hit her before and this and the other. 00:14:12.100 --> 00:14:14.919 She went back to smoking. But I know we can get 00:14:14.919 --> 00:14:17.580 religious and think that those things don't happen, 00:14:17.639 --> 00:14:21.460 but they do. I loved her and she taught me a 00:14:21.460 --> 00:14:24.200 lot in the Lord. But when God told me to lay 00:14:24.200 --> 00:14:27.399 down the pot, it was like that was my security. 00:14:27.659 --> 00:14:30.759 That was the hard part because I found a lot 00:14:30.759 --> 00:14:33.360 of security in smoking weed because it took me 00:14:33.360 --> 00:14:37.679 out of the world. It took me out. I didn't have 00:14:37.679 --> 00:14:40.879 to think. It was affecting you and making it 00:14:40.879 --> 00:14:43.320 not hurt so much. You were really self -medicating. 00:14:43.740 --> 00:14:46.559 Oh, absolutely. Absolutely. Drinking and all. 00:14:46.600 --> 00:14:48.720 I did it all. So, I mean, it wasn't just smoking 00:14:48.720 --> 00:14:51.879 weed. But at the time I had chilled out on other. 00:14:52.139 --> 00:14:54.679 My life was hard. You know that from the last 00:14:54.679 --> 00:14:57.679 episode. But, you know, that was my chill out 00:14:57.679 --> 00:15:01.379 area was pot's not that bad. It's grown. Right. 00:15:02.120 --> 00:15:06.360 You know, those are your thoughts. And so. But 00:15:06.360 --> 00:15:08.500 the Holy Spirit didn't didn't do that right away. 00:15:08.779 --> 00:15:11.950 No, it took four months. It was about four months 00:15:11.950 --> 00:15:14.649 after the fact. The Lord said, are you going 00:15:14.649 --> 00:15:18.269 to lay that down? And I said, okay, I'm going 00:15:18.269 --> 00:15:22.169 to lay it down. So I poured the pot out, you 00:15:22.169 --> 00:15:27.450 know, and I've never went back. I've never had 00:15:27.450 --> 00:15:33.649 a desire for it again. But I'm glad that I continued 00:15:33.649 --> 00:15:38.360 to run after God. Because I think people... Don't 00:15:38.360 --> 00:15:40.759 understand how important it is to continue to 00:15:40.759 --> 00:15:44.960 run into the arms of Jesus. Right. Because, yeah, 00:15:45.000 --> 00:15:47.059 that was the first step pouring down the toilet. 00:15:47.299 --> 00:15:51.740 But the next step is never going back. Yes. You 00:15:51.740 --> 00:15:54.360 got to leave the past in the past. Burn the bridges. 00:15:54.879 --> 00:15:57.320 And move forward. Yeah. And that is the hardest 00:15:57.320 --> 00:16:00.419 thing in the world when you're experiencing transformation. 00:16:01.100 --> 00:16:03.320 Right. Because you don't understand why these 00:16:03.320 --> 00:16:06.159 people are rejecting you now. You don't. Yeah. 00:16:06.240 --> 00:16:09.259 Like it happened like a suddenly. Now my husband 00:16:09.259 --> 00:16:12.519 at the time. Did not want me around. He couldn't 00:16:12.519 --> 00:16:15.340 stand me. And I was having a lot of conflict 00:16:15.340 --> 00:16:17.620 there. Couldn't stay with my mom. I mean, I had 00:16:17.620 --> 00:16:20.919 to separate from my family and could not even 00:16:20.919 --> 00:16:23.299 live in my dad's houses because I felt attacked 00:16:23.299 --> 00:16:26.500 a lot. And so at some point I had to completely 00:16:26.500 --> 00:16:30.399 separate in Pensacola where I'm from, where my 00:16:30.399 --> 00:16:34.259 family was. And I could still only. handle so 00:16:34.259 --> 00:16:36.980 much with them because they did not understand 00:16:36.980 --> 00:16:40.220 me and I didn't understand me to some degree 00:16:40.220 --> 00:16:43.460 I mean how do you understand this suddenly you 00:16:43.460 --> 00:16:47.200 know and God is a God of suddenlies yes so I'm 00:16:47.200 --> 00:16:49.700 just not even the same Olivia I'm having I'm 00:16:49.700 --> 00:16:52.720 learning new things you know gone through rejection 00:16:52.720 --> 00:16:55.919 and God started me I started street preaching 00:16:55.919 --> 00:16:59.360 yeah how far along in your in your walk did you 00:16:59.360 --> 00:17:03.710 start street preaching Probably two years. Okay. 00:17:03.750 --> 00:17:05.809 Probably two years after when I was going to 00:17:05.809 --> 00:17:08.470 Brownsville. Yeah. Somebody paid for me to go 00:17:08.470 --> 00:17:10.589 to Brownsville. People were starting to pay for 00:17:10.589 --> 00:17:12.849 me to go to school, to ministry school. Glory 00:17:12.849 --> 00:17:15.869 to God. Glory to God. I got my degree in missions 00:17:15.869 --> 00:17:19.670 through Globe Missions in Pensacola, Florida. 00:17:19.970 --> 00:17:22.509 And I got my degree. I did not get my degree. 00:17:23.279 --> 00:17:26.140 at Brownsville. I was the last class there, but 00:17:26.140 --> 00:17:29.880 somebody paid for that too. So everything I was 00:17:29.880 --> 00:17:32.519 doing, God started paying for things for me to 00:17:32.519 --> 00:17:35.559 go because it was just, I guess people just saw 00:17:35.559 --> 00:17:38.160 it on me, saw something different in me. God 00:17:38.160 --> 00:17:41.420 spoke to them, no doubt. Absolutely. And Kathy 00:17:41.420 --> 00:17:44.500 Winfrey, she was one that really, she watched 00:17:44.500 --> 00:17:47.779 my children for me. She helped me in so many 00:17:47.779 --> 00:17:51.920 ways. And I do thank God for her wanting to yield 00:17:51.920 --> 00:17:55.700 and see God's transforming power more in my life. 00:17:55.720 --> 00:17:58.140 Just the change that needed to happen. And so 00:17:58.140 --> 00:18:02.240 I'm thankful. God kept sending counselors. He 00:18:02.240 --> 00:18:04.640 would just send them. And they would do it for 00:18:04.640 --> 00:18:07.240 free. Like, let me call them in the middle of 00:18:07.240 --> 00:18:10.619 the night. You know, and it has always been. 00:18:11.160 --> 00:18:14.279 Wow. That way in my life. Glory to God. So you've 00:18:14.279 --> 00:18:17.619 gone from glory to glory to glory. And every 00:18:17.619 --> 00:18:21.779 time the glory comes, it burns up some of the 00:18:21.779 --> 00:18:24.460 stuff that doesn't belong there. That's just 00:18:24.460 --> 00:18:29.779 how it works. The glory fire. And he's so kind. 00:18:31.609 --> 00:18:35.589 And he's so thorough, but he doesn't do it all 00:18:35.589 --> 00:18:40.190 at once. Oh, he'd die if he did. Oh, yeah. That's 00:18:40.190 --> 00:18:41.970 what he told to the children of Israel when they 00:18:41.970 --> 00:18:44.150 were taking the promised land. He said, you're 00:18:44.150 --> 00:18:46.970 not going to take it all at once, but take it 00:18:46.970 --> 00:18:48.569 little by little. Because if you took it all 00:18:48.569 --> 00:18:51.690 at once, you don't have enough people to populate 00:18:51.690 --> 00:18:54.609 the place. The wild beasts would take over. So 00:18:54.609 --> 00:18:58.119 you just, here's your first block. Take this, 00:18:58.339 --> 00:19:01.140 and then every generation is supposed to keep 00:19:01.140 --> 00:19:03.859 going. And see, that's the place where they fell 00:19:03.859 --> 00:19:06.559 down. They learned from the people that had been 00:19:06.559 --> 00:19:10.579 left alive and started into idolatry, and they 00:19:10.579 --> 00:19:13.359 didn't follow through with what God said. But 00:19:13.359 --> 00:19:16.059 all I'm saying is that in one person's life, 00:19:16.259 --> 00:19:20.259 you just keep taking ground and you keep letting 00:19:20.259 --> 00:19:23.640 the Holy Spirit take ground in you. And that's 00:19:23.640 --> 00:19:26.099 humility because it is embarrassing sometimes. 00:19:26.220 --> 00:19:28.180 It can be. You know, especially in the beginning 00:19:28.180 --> 00:19:30.740 when, you know, I'd be running really hard for 00:19:30.740 --> 00:19:35.029 God and then I'd fall. I'd fall. I'd do something 00:19:35.029 --> 00:19:38.269 wrong or I'd run away or I'd get scared, like 00:19:38.269 --> 00:19:40.430 started getting scared of what God was going 00:19:40.430 --> 00:19:43.549 to do next. And so I'd run. I'd run like that. 00:19:43.569 --> 00:19:45.950 I was rebellious. I was like, no, you're not. 00:19:46.069 --> 00:19:48.650 And I'm like, I was gone. You run like Jonah. 00:19:49.769 --> 00:19:54.490 Get a ticket somewhere else. Yes, I would run. 00:19:54.630 --> 00:19:57.549 I ran away from my spiritual mother. I ran away 00:19:57.549 --> 00:20:00.269 from her. I was so guilty feeling for that. I 00:20:00.269 --> 00:20:03.789 ran away for two years. I lived back in the world 00:20:03.789 --> 00:20:06.670 for a little bit. You know, it's scary. But you 00:20:06.670 --> 00:20:09.390 came back. But I came back. You don't want to 00:20:09.390 --> 00:20:15.150 be whale food. No. Like Noah. No, not Noah. Like 00:20:15.150 --> 00:20:18.930 Jonah. Right. Yeah. Amen. Yeah, you'll learn 00:20:18.930 --> 00:20:21.670 your lesson. Yeah, you go in your detour sometimes, 00:20:21.789 --> 00:20:25.150 but you have to always know in the back of your 00:20:25.150 --> 00:20:28.730 mind, God is calling you to something higher. 00:20:28.930 --> 00:20:32.390 Yes. God is taking you somewhere. And it's a 00:20:32.390 --> 00:20:35.190 destiny written on your heart, especially when 00:20:35.190 --> 00:20:37.369 that new creature comes up, because it's not 00:20:37.369 --> 00:20:40.430 the same person. Now this new creature knows. 00:20:40.769 --> 00:20:43.990 Well, it's your spirit. Yes. Your spirit is the 00:20:43.990 --> 00:20:47.890 real you. Yes. And the one that is contrary is 00:20:47.890 --> 00:20:51.970 the one that has to be reigned in and made one 00:20:51.970 --> 00:20:54.849 with the Holy Spirit, just like your spirit is 00:20:54.849 --> 00:20:56.750 one with the Holy Spirit. It's a training. It's 00:20:56.750 --> 00:21:01.450 a transformation process. Amen. And there was 00:21:01.450 --> 00:21:04.210 a lot of junk there. Yeah. Well, God, but God 00:21:04.210 --> 00:21:08.650 is thorough. And, you know, and he takes us as 00:21:08.650 --> 00:21:12.480 we are. But he doesn't leave us that way. Amen. 00:21:12.539 --> 00:21:16.460 And I'm glad he didn't. Yeah. You know, he's 00:21:16.460 --> 00:21:18.759 still in the process with all of us. I'm so glad 00:21:18.759 --> 00:21:21.559 he kept taking me back. You know, I'm so glad 00:21:21.559 --> 00:21:25.599 that I had the trust in him. Right. Because I 00:21:25.599 --> 00:21:28.539 don't think people have trust. Yeah. They really 00:21:28.539 --> 00:21:31.259 think that they're that dirty when they make 00:21:31.259 --> 00:21:34.119 mistakes, that there's something that wrong with 00:21:34.119 --> 00:21:37.160 them, that they can't just crawl back in Daddy 00:21:37.160 --> 00:21:40.700 God's lap. But that's just not true. Well, that's 00:21:40.700 --> 00:21:43.559 the accuser. It is. The accuser starts out as 00:21:43.559 --> 00:21:46.920 the tempter, and he tempts you, and you fall 00:21:46.920 --> 00:21:50.640 into the slime, and then he berates you for being 00:21:50.640 --> 00:21:54.259 all slimy. Yes. It makes you feel awful that 00:21:54.259 --> 00:21:57.019 you're all slimy and muddy. Slime pit. Yeah. 00:21:57.440 --> 00:22:00.200 But all you have to do is repent. Truly repent. 00:22:00.460 --> 00:22:03.500 Yes. From your heart. Right. And you just return 00:22:03.500 --> 00:22:07.000 to God. Yes. Amen. You just keep on going back. 00:22:07.259 --> 00:22:10.220 So you've kept on going back all these years. 00:22:10.680 --> 00:22:13.259 And tell us more about being a street preacher. 00:22:13.880 --> 00:22:16.480 What have you seen? What kind of experiences 00:22:16.480 --> 00:22:20.099 have you seen? What transformed lives? We were 00:22:20.099 --> 00:22:24.690 wild. We were so wild. I loved it, though, because 00:22:24.690 --> 00:22:26.890 it really is innately in me. I'm a little bit 00:22:26.890 --> 00:22:31.789 of a wild stallion. So I like the fire that's 00:22:31.789 --> 00:22:35.630 involved in it because you see people as you're 00:22:35.630 --> 00:22:38.430 standing on the sidewalk and they're walking 00:22:38.430 --> 00:22:41.630 by you. And every word that's coming out of your 00:22:41.630 --> 00:22:44.470 mouth is either hitting or missing. And you can 00:22:44.470 --> 00:22:47.049 tell when people are being turned. Something's 00:22:47.049 --> 00:22:49.329 happening to them. You can tell that they turn 00:22:49.329 --> 00:22:53.289 suddenly or they're responding. They're not wanting 00:22:53.289 --> 00:22:57.190 to, but they're responding. And there's something 00:22:57.190 --> 00:23:00.069 about street preaching. And I know people, oh, 00:23:00.089 --> 00:23:02.220 it's a bad taste in some people's mouth. But 00:23:02.220 --> 00:23:04.680 I think that it was created to be a bad taste 00:23:04.680 --> 00:23:08.019 in some people's mouth. I truly do, because I've 00:23:08.019 --> 00:23:10.299 heard people get so mad at street preaching. 00:23:10.819 --> 00:23:13.940 But inevitably, street preaching is like a hammer. 00:23:14.119 --> 00:23:16.700 It just comes in. And guess what? You're not 00:23:16.700 --> 00:23:18.500 going to come to us. We're going to come to you, 00:23:18.539 --> 00:23:20.619 whether you like it or not. We're not going to 00:23:20.619 --> 00:23:22.579 a church. You know, we've got to meet them where 00:23:22.579 --> 00:23:24.579 they're at. Yeah. And it's kind of like spanking 00:23:24.579 --> 00:23:28.299 a rebellious child. You know, my grandmama has 00:23:28.299 --> 00:23:31.240 been praying for years for me. One man said to 00:23:31.240 --> 00:23:35.990 me, for years. Can you imagine the rebellion 00:23:35.990 --> 00:23:39.890 that someone has to be in? And they're 50 years 00:23:39.890 --> 00:23:43.410 old and their grandmother had been praying for 00:23:43.410 --> 00:23:48.009 them for years. Decades by that time. Yeah. And 00:23:48.009 --> 00:23:50.509 he comes up to me and he says, thank you. I'm 00:23:50.509 --> 00:23:53.130 going to church tomorrow. Wow. And I'm preaching 00:23:53.130 --> 00:23:56.609 at a bar. Wow. And at this time I'm having to 00:23:56.609 --> 00:23:59.740 deal with this. so -called preacher next to me 00:23:59.740 --> 00:24:02.480 holding up a sign that says I'm with stupid. 00:24:02.819 --> 00:24:07.960 So I'm having to really press through and make 00:24:07.960 --> 00:24:11.279 up my mind that this is where God had me stand. 00:24:11.519 --> 00:24:14.440 And this is where I'm going to preach. I learned 00:24:14.440 --> 00:24:16.799 a lot from street preaching. I learned people 00:24:16.799 --> 00:24:20.019 from street preaching. And so when that man, 00:24:20.059 --> 00:24:22.940 he was on a Harley Davidson motorcycle, he rebuked 00:24:22.940 --> 00:24:26.740 the guy behind you, told him not to be. attacking 00:24:26.740 --> 00:24:29.319 a woman of god because he said that the preaching 00:24:29.319 --> 00:24:32.980 is what turned him tonight and he told me he 00:24:32.980 --> 00:24:36.200 says i'm going back i'm going back to church 00:24:36.200 --> 00:24:38.819 i'm going to church you know charisma magazine 00:24:38.819 --> 00:24:42.240 some years back had an article on a lot of the 00:24:42.240 --> 00:24:45.420 old rockers that got saved you know I remember 00:24:45.420 --> 00:24:48.700 Mark Farner. That was Grand Funk Railroad. I 00:24:48.700 --> 00:24:51.619 loved to see him in concert and all that. In 00:24:51.619 --> 00:24:53.759 your early days. In my early days, yeah, thank 00:24:53.759 --> 00:24:58.259 you. He got saved. He had a steel band on his 00:24:58.259 --> 00:25:02.619 arm and all that. He was really cool. But he 00:25:02.619 --> 00:25:06.119 got saved, and he would play gigs. He went back 00:25:06.119 --> 00:25:09.359 into performing, and they'd do some of the music 00:25:09.359 --> 00:25:11.359 they wrote. Then he'd do songs the Lord gave 00:25:11.359 --> 00:25:14.559 him. And then he'd go to bars and places, you 00:25:14.559 --> 00:25:17.740 know, and he'd get criticized, you know, by some 00:25:17.740 --> 00:25:19.940 Christian. But he said, who was going to reach 00:25:19.940 --> 00:25:23.539 these people? Because that's where he was. Yeah, 00:25:23.539 --> 00:25:26.599 right. And that's a gift that's not for everybody. 00:25:26.839 --> 00:25:28.799 Right. You know, it's not for everybody. That 00:25:28.799 --> 00:25:31.720 was for you. That was that was perfect because. 00:25:31.900 --> 00:25:34.720 Well, we even went into bars. Yeah. Yeah. We 00:25:34.720 --> 00:25:36.700 went into bars and we got on the microphone. 00:25:37.119 --> 00:25:39.660 And one time we got surrounded. I thought we're 00:25:39.660 --> 00:25:41.460 going to get killed. What are we doing here? 00:25:41.460 --> 00:25:43.259 You know, like, what are we doing here? We're 00:25:43.259 --> 00:25:45.400 talking about Jesus on the microphone. They're 00:25:45.400 --> 00:25:47.559 just want to have a good time and sing. Yeah. 00:25:47.619 --> 00:25:50.299 But people were touched. Holy Ghost karaoke. 00:25:51.200 --> 00:25:57.000 It was Holy Ghost. It was. And, you know, the 00:25:57.000 --> 00:26:00.660 woman that actually taught me street preaching 00:26:00.660 --> 00:26:03.240 is still a street preacher to this day. Wonderful. 00:26:03.299 --> 00:26:06.480 She preaches all over the world. Wow. And her 00:26:06.480 --> 00:26:09.960 name is Angela Cummings. She's called the women's 00:26:09.960 --> 00:26:12.480 fire preacher or something. And she goes to Israel. 00:26:12.680 --> 00:26:15.539 She street preaches in Israel. Wow. She street 00:26:15.539 --> 00:26:19.220 preached. Greece, she straight preached all over 00:26:19.220 --> 00:26:21.599 this world. She lives in the nation. She don't 00:26:21.599 --> 00:26:24.980 even come back here. And so she felt like she 00:26:24.980 --> 00:26:29.059 was a real caveat of Steve Hill. I mean, that 00:26:29.059 --> 00:26:32.400 man was a huge influence. And when she when she 00:26:32.400 --> 00:26:36.359 talks to me or had talked to me. She looked like 00:26:36.359 --> 00:26:39.440 Steve Hill in the eyes. Like she took that anointing 00:26:39.440 --> 00:26:42.740 so seriously. Wow. And she's still out to this 00:26:42.740 --> 00:26:45.859 day preaching the word of God. Glory to God. 00:26:46.059 --> 00:26:49.640 So speaking of the nations, the Lord began taking 00:26:49.640 --> 00:26:52.880 you to the nations after a lengthy season of 00:26:52.880 --> 00:26:55.900 transforming and transforming and glory transforming 00:26:55.900 --> 00:26:58.779 and more glory and more glory. Then he started 00:26:58.779 --> 00:27:00.859 taking you to the nations. Tell us a little about 00:27:00.859 --> 00:27:05.220 that. So I went to mission school, got my missions 00:27:05.220 --> 00:27:08.019 degree. When in my 20s, I was raising my children, 00:27:08.140 --> 00:27:12.640 of course. And I was going to go to Africa at 00:27:12.640 --> 00:27:16.299 that time before I married my husband. So my 00:27:16.299 --> 00:27:19.299 heart was to go to Kenya, Africa and sit under 00:27:19.299 --> 00:27:24.019 and be mentored by a woman in Africa. So my plans 00:27:24.019 --> 00:27:27.880 got turned around. That often happens. It often 00:27:27.880 --> 00:27:30.400 does, doesn't it? Because our plans aren't always 00:27:30.400 --> 00:27:33.819 God's plans. Amen. Amen. And God knew I needed 00:27:33.819 --> 00:27:36.420 a husband and I needed my husband. I feel like 00:27:36.420 --> 00:27:40.279 God really put a true, I mean, he's my soulmate. 00:27:40.440 --> 00:27:42.599 He's everything that I needed. He's a wonderful 00:27:42.599 --> 00:27:45.779 man. He really is. And he's a gentle man and 00:27:45.779 --> 00:27:49.099 he's a good man and he's a loving man. You needed 00:27:49.099 --> 00:27:51.240 that. Yes. After all that you had been through. 00:27:51.710 --> 00:27:53.990 Yeah. And he has a father's heart. Beautiful. 00:27:54.009 --> 00:27:56.869 Like he has a true father's heart. And I don't 00:27:56.869 --> 00:27:59.509 see him as my father, but I just, I see it in 00:27:59.509 --> 00:28:01.569 him and the way he treats my own children and 00:28:01.569 --> 00:28:06.349 how he has given them a true sense. of a man, 00:28:06.450 --> 00:28:08.849 of what a godly man should be about. Thank you, 00:28:08.849 --> 00:28:12.349 Jesus. So God gave me that. And I really sat 00:28:12.349 --> 00:28:14.869 down for about seven years after we got married. 00:28:15.109 --> 00:28:18.609 I mean, I sat down. I let God cultivate our relationship. 00:28:18.930 --> 00:28:22.069 I was a little bit nervous about letting him 00:28:22.069 --> 00:28:25.970 know who I really was. Yeah, because I knew that 00:28:25.970 --> 00:28:29.650 on the inside, even my pastors told him. Be aware. 00:28:29.849 --> 00:28:32.730 Yeah. Because you've got a call of God in your 00:28:32.730 --> 00:28:35.430 life. Yes. And they made it very clear to him 00:28:35.430 --> 00:28:38.769 that I'm not a picket fence, White House woman, 00:28:38.930 --> 00:28:43.630 that I really was not going to settle for mediocrity. 00:28:43.930 --> 00:28:47.690 And so they told him that straight up. That was 00:28:47.690 --> 00:28:50.990 good. Good pastors. And so he had to make his 00:28:50.990 --> 00:28:53.269 decision that day that he could deal with me. 00:28:53.349 --> 00:28:57.109 But it took me about seven years to really be 00:28:57.109 --> 00:29:01.140 comfortable. And saying, okay, you want to see 00:29:01.140 --> 00:29:04.700 me? Here I am. And he told me when he married 00:29:04.700 --> 00:29:08.039 me, the Lord told him I was a wild stallion and 00:29:08.039 --> 00:29:11.960 that I wasn't scared a lot of anything. I'm not 00:29:11.960 --> 00:29:16.859 scared. I'm not a fearful person at all. When 00:29:16.859 --> 00:29:19.400 I met my husband, we just took time and I know 00:29:19.400 --> 00:29:22.740 it was God in that season. And I kind of revamped 00:29:22.740 --> 00:29:25.380 myself and became a different person. Even then, 00:29:25.440 --> 00:29:28.839 you know, I started doing hair. I mean, I never 00:29:28.839 --> 00:29:32.099 thought I'd ever do hair. I don't do hair, but 00:29:32.099 --> 00:29:35.299 I did hair. And God used it for ministry for 00:29:35.299 --> 00:29:38.000 me. And I've been able, you know, I've used everything 00:29:38.000 --> 00:29:41.539 in my life for ministry. Beautiful. That's all 00:29:41.539 --> 00:29:44.599 it is about. I give a hundred percent. Of my 00:29:44.599 --> 00:29:47.740 life to God. Amen. You know, and that's the way 00:29:47.740 --> 00:29:50.119 even when I wasn't really telling Victor who 00:29:50.119 --> 00:29:53.640 I gave everything to God. Beautiful. But now 00:29:53.640 --> 00:29:57.900 these years later, it was like suddenly, suddenly 00:29:57.900 --> 00:30:02.619 there's a suddenlies again. I am going to Africa. 00:30:02.759 --> 00:30:05.799 I am going to the Philippines. Actually, Edith 00:30:05.799 --> 00:30:10.160 Stanley is the pastor that is over the church 00:30:10.160 --> 00:30:12.819 that I go to the Philippines in and bless her 00:30:12.819 --> 00:30:16.019 little heart. I knew her at Liberty Church. Me 00:30:16.019 --> 00:30:18.059 and her both went to the same missionary school. 00:30:18.279 --> 00:30:20.859 I still know a lot of missionaries from Globe 00:30:20.859 --> 00:30:24.859 Missions. I stay in touch with them. And she 00:30:24.859 --> 00:30:27.500 texted me one day. She said, are you ready to 00:30:27.500 --> 00:30:30.380 come? And it's like 15 years later. I mean, it's 00:30:30.380 --> 00:30:34.019 been a long time. It's not overnight, you know. 00:30:34.819 --> 00:30:37.079 And I was like, you didn't forget me. She's like, 00:30:37.180 --> 00:30:42.859 no. It's time, you know. So I went to the Philippines 00:30:42.859 --> 00:30:46.420 and I had the best time. Now, I didn't have the 00:30:46.420 --> 00:30:48.829 freedom I had. The second time I went to the 00:30:48.829 --> 00:30:51.349 Philippines, the first time was kind of like 00:30:51.349 --> 00:30:53.470 getting my feet wet. It was my first missions 00:30:53.470 --> 00:30:56.069 trip. I was really getting into it. It was exciting. 00:30:56.750 --> 00:31:00.470 And, you know, God supplied everything that I 00:31:00.470 --> 00:31:03.230 needed. And even when he didn't supply, it's 00:31:03.230 --> 00:31:05.750 so crazy. And I'm not promoting this, so I'm 00:31:05.750 --> 00:31:08.089 not trying to say, but like we've used credit 00:31:08.089 --> 00:31:15.180 cards and God has paid them back. Like if I'm 00:31:15.180 --> 00:31:17.680 obedient to what I know God is telling me to 00:31:17.680 --> 00:31:21.160 do, he's never let me down. And he's always come 00:31:21.160 --> 00:31:25.220 back with provision and protection. Just don't 00:31:25.220 --> 00:31:27.740 be presumptuous. Yeah, I'm not being presumptuous. 00:31:27.740 --> 00:31:29.700 Yeah, that's why I don't want to advocate that 00:31:29.700 --> 00:31:32.339 in any way. But we have done that, which most 00:31:32.339 --> 00:31:34.619 of it was paid, but we use some of it for the 00:31:34.619 --> 00:31:37.740 credit cards, right? Yeah. So I just found that. 00:31:38.299 --> 00:31:41.079 If you do what God tells you to do, he is always 00:31:41.079 --> 00:31:44.859 faithful to come back and say, here you go. I'll 00:31:44.859 --> 00:31:47.740 take care of you. And the word of God says you 00:31:47.740 --> 00:31:53.200 get blessings with persecution, too. So people 00:31:53.200 --> 00:31:56.000 miss that part. They want to knock out the persecution 00:31:56.000 --> 00:31:59.220 and just say the blessings. But they do kind 00:31:59.220 --> 00:32:03.440 of run hand in hand. And so I realized that this 00:32:03.440 --> 00:32:05.839 world will persecute you, even your finances, 00:32:06.079 --> 00:32:08.680 even the things of the world will persecute you 00:32:08.680 --> 00:32:10.900 as you're doing the things for God and try to 00:32:10.900 --> 00:32:14.200 hinder you and keep you from going forward. And 00:32:14.200 --> 00:32:17.099 you just have to keep your eyes on the mark and 00:32:17.099 --> 00:32:20.279 not let those things of this world hinder you. 00:32:20.440 --> 00:32:23.240 And that's what I'm learning by going to the 00:32:23.240 --> 00:32:26.000 nations is if there's not enough, by golly, God 00:32:26.000 --> 00:32:28.940 is going to take care of it. And I'm determined. 00:32:29.660 --> 00:32:32.380 And Victor said, I've seen crazy. He's like, 00:32:32.539 --> 00:32:35.920 I work at a crazy anointing. I do. Hallelujah. 00:32:35.960 --> 00:32:39.759 Where I just trust. I am a child. Let's put it 00:32:39.759 --> 00:32:42.619 that way. I am a child. Well, that's what pleases 00:32:42.619 --> 00:32:45.079 our Father. Yeah. When we behave like children, 00:32:45.319 --> 00:32:48.539 you know. It's not childish, but childlike. Yes. 00:32:48.539 --> 00:32:50.519 There's a difference. Childlike. The trust. Yes. 00:32:50.579 --> 00:32:53.700 I trust God with all of my heart because he's 00:32:53.700 --> 00:32:57.440 shown himself faithful. So many times in my life. 00:32:57.599 --> 00:33:00.380 Yeah. All the time in my life. Beautiful. I've 00:33:00.380 --> 00:33:03.200 never gone without because of God. Hallelujah. 00:33:03.500 --> 00:33:05.960 You know, He's a good God. He is. He's such a 00:33:05.960 --> 00:33:08.400 good God. He is. So you've been to the Philippines 00:33:08.400 --> 00:33:10.839 how many times? I've been four times now. Okay. 00:33:10.859 --> 00:33:14.519 And you've been to Uganda? Five times. Five times. 00:33:14.539 --> 00:33:17.299 And other places? I'm going to Costa Rica. And 00:33:17.299 --> 00:33:22.940 I've been invited to Nepal, India. Hasn't gone 00:33:22.940 --> 00:33:25.960 through yet. And I haven't felt. peace yet in 00:33:25.960 --> 00:33:28.799 the move of that. But I do want to go because 00:33:28.799 --> 00:33:31.920 I helped raise money for orphanage there. And 00:33:31.920 --> 00:33:34.700 I had all the pictures of the children from 20 00:33:34.700 --> 00:33:39.319 years ago. Wow. Now they're adults. Yeah. I know. 00:33:39.440 --> 00:33:43.180 Go meet the grown children. Yes. God will do 00:33:43.180 --> 00:33:45.200 it in His time. Yeah, I agree. He's faithful. 00:33:45.299 --> 00:33:48.200 He's absolutely faithful. So you also have a 00:33:48.200 --> 00:33:52.140 podcast. Tell us about that. So I called it Unashamed. 00:33:53.079 --> 00:33:56.519 I think the reason I named it Unashamed was I 00:33:56.519 --> 00:34:00.299 think that so many times we have a voice and 00:34:00.299 --> 00:34:04.680 we don't use it in concern about what people 00:34:04.680 --> 00:34:09.789 think. So I used the name Unashamed. To kind 00:34:09.789 --> 00:34:13.610 of express that I don't need to be ashamed about 00:34:13.610 --> 00:34:16.809 anything. Yeah. That this is a free nation. We 00:34:16.809 --> 00:34:20.789 all have the ability to say and be who we were 00:34:20.789 --> 00:34:25.369 created to be. So I think that, you know, I put 00:34:25.369 --> 00:34:29.130 this podcast out so that people, they can hear 00:34:29.130 --> 00:34:32.889 what I have to say and I can just be free. Yeah. 00:34:32.909 --> 00:34:35.610 Give what the Lord gives you. Give it, you know, 00:34:35.610 --> 00:34:39.579 and I hope it to be an encouragement. I hope 00:34:39.579 --> 00:34:43.699 it to help people grow closer to God and teach 00:34:43.699 --> 00:34:47.559 them not to run from God and teach them not to 00:34:47.559 --> 00:34:50.940 be ashamed. Right. Because that's what hinders 00:34:50.940 --> 00:34:53.559 us a lot of times. We're ashamed of what happened 00:34:53.559 --> 00:34:56.840 to us. We're ashamed of our backgrounds. That's 00:34:56.840 --> 00:35:00.800 that accuser. Exactly. And the accuser is more 00:35:00.800 --> 00:35:05.320 prevalent in some families than others. And I 00:35:05.320 --> 00:35:07.860 think that some people are underdogs. They feel 00:35:07.860 --> 00:35:09.760 like they're underdogs. They feel like they could 00:35:09.760 --> 00:35:14.019 never come up to a place where God can use them. 00:35:14.579 --> 00:35:20.699 So they stay in that place. It's hard. It's hard 00:35:20.699 --> 00:35:24.380 to say, okay, God, I can surrender what I'm dealing 00:35:24.380 --> 00:35:27.760 with. I can let you do this work in me. I can, 00:35:27.760 --> 00:35:32.019 you know, it's hard. And they have just as much 00:35:32.019 --> 00:35:35.900 of a capability to do this as me or you. It's 00:35:35.900 --> 00:35:38.739 just. You have to put it in your mind that you're 00:35:38.739 --> 00:35:41.980 not ashamed. You can come forth. You can let 00:35:41.980 --> 00:35:45.699 God do the work, you know, and that's what I 00:35:45.699 --> 00:35:48.039 want people to feel. I want them to put all the 00:35:48.039 --> 00:35:50.719 shame aside. Yes. There's not one person on this 00:35:50.719 --> 00:35:53.619 earth that is perfect. Right. Nobody's perfect. 00:35:53.699 --> 00:35:56.619 Right. God only has broken people to work with. 00:35:57.019 --> 00:36:00.719 Exactly. Exactly. I mean, I'm not going to tell 00:36:00.719 --> 00:36:02.960 you that I've got it all together and I'm not 00:36:02.960 --> 00:36:04.980 letting God still work on me and this, that, 00:36:04.980 --> 00:36:07.280 and the other. Only Jesus has it all together. 00:36:07.539 --> 00:36:10.480 Amen. Amen. And he spilt it all out so that we 00:36:10.480 --> 00:36:14.599 can be put back together. Exactly. Exactly. So 00:36:14.599 --> 00:36:17.019 I just, I want people to know you don't have 00:36:17.019 --> 00:36:19.420 to be perfect to run with God. You have to have 00:36:19.420 --> 00:36:23.280 a heart, not a good heart. You just have to have 00:36:23.280 --> 00:36:26.179 a willing heart. Yeah. A heart that's willing 00:36:26.179 --> 00:36:30.179 to let God work on it. Amen. That's it. Yep. 00:36:30.340 --> 00:36:34.760 Not perfect. Just willing. Beautiful. Yeah. Beautiful. 00:36:35.380 --> 00:36:39.219 So how often do you put out episodes? I've attempted 00:36:39.219 --> 00:36:42.099 to do it every week. So every seven days I'm 00:36:42.099 --> 00:36:45.409 putting out something. My last one was on. abortion. 00:36:45.590 --> 00:36:48.489 It was really hard on my heart. And I thought, 00:36:48.550 --> 00:36:51.869 you know, this nation is really split because 00:36:51.869 --> 00:36:56.349 of abortion. And, you know, I'm black and white. 00:36:56.570 --> 00:36:59.889 I do believe that abortion is a no -no. I feel 00:36:59.889 --> 00:37:04.190 like even if it was being abused or being raped 00:37:04.190 --> 00:37:07.050 or even incest, you know, if you think it's a 00:37:07.050 --> 00:37:10.449 shame to you, I have purposed in my heart to 00:37:10.449 --> 00:37:15.170 believe that abortion is always coming from a 00:37:15.170 --> 00:37:22.510 place of self. And mothers are not selfish. Yeah, 00:37:22.550 --> 00:37:24.750 they're not supposed to be. I mean, the real 00:37:24.750 --> 00:37:30.010 mother instinct inside of you is not selfish. 00:37:30.309 --> 00:37:33.929 I remember when we had our daughter, up until 00:37:33.929 --> 00:37:38.550 that point, I was cranky every morning. I was 00:37:38.550 --> 00:37:43.320 just cranky. I woke up cranky. She's not a morning 00:37:43.320 --> 00:37:45.219 person. I'm not a morning person. And just, you 00:37:45.219 --> 00:37:48.159 know, give me space until I really wake up. Okay, 00:37:48.239 --> 00:37:51.820 that's how I was. And I really would be cranky, 00:37:51.820 --> 00:37:55.579 wasn't I? Yes. I was. You were cranky. Maybe 00:37:55.579 --> 00:37:58.300 not. Consistently cranky. And having low blood 00:37:58.300 --> 00:38:00.380 sugar, low blood pressure, I couldn't give her 00:38:00.380 --> 00:38:02.340 a cup of coffee first thing in the morning. That 00:38:02.340 --> 00:38:05.199 didn't work. But when our daughter was born, 00:38:05.320 --> 00:38:08.820 something happened inside of me. And I thought, 00:38:08.840 --> 00:38:13.929 this child. does not understand why I would be 00:38:13.929 --> 00:38:17.849 cranky. I have to stop. Wow. And I lost that 00:38:17.849 --> 00:38:20.889 selfish place where this is just me. This is 00:38:20.889 --> 00:38:24.010 who I am. This is how I am. And you better just 00:38:24.010 --> 00:38:26.929 get used to it. I quit doing drugs every time 00:38:26.929 --> 00:38:28.989 I had my kids. I was like, I can't do drugs. 00:38:29.010 --> 00:38:33.610 I'm pregnant, you know. Yeah. So you make concessions. 00:38:33.610 --> 00:38:37.170 You make sacrifices for your children. It's a 00:38:37.170 --> 00:38:40.090 part of the instinct. But I think our society 00:38:40.090 --> 00:38:43.820 has become so broken. And the children that have 00:38:43.820 --> 00:38:47.940 grown up and they're adult in their bodies, but 00:38:47.940 --> 00:38:50.820 their emotions are so broken that they're stuck 00:38:50.820 --> 00:38:54.280 at whatever age they were traumatized at. I agree. 00:38:54.420 --> 00:38:58.300 And it keeps them selfish. And they've only been 00:38:58.300 --> 00:39:01.400 taught that this is okay, that it's been given 00:39:01.400 --> 00:39:05.420 to us on a silver platter. You can end this pregnancy. 00:39:06.360 --> 00:39:09.059 It's a pregnancy. It's not a baby. It's a pregnancy. 00:39:09.440 --> 00:39:12.699 And if you can think of it as a pregnancy, Then 00:39:12.699 --> 00:39:16.239 you can end it. Right? No. Or it's just tissue. 00:39:16.800 --> 00:39:19.199 Yeah. Yeah. But they've been lied to. They've 00:39:19.199 --> 00:39:21.679 been lied to. Well, I didn't expect to get on 00:39:21.679 --> 00:39:23.900 that subject. I didn't either. But, you know, 00:39:23.920 --> 00:39:27.519 it was very heavy. Yeah. And I did a quick podcast. 00:39:27.619 --> 00:39:30.000 I didn't even study it or nothing before I put 00:39:30.000 --> 00:39:32.619 it out there. So if I said anything, y 'all, 00:39:32.679 --> 00:39:36.380 I'm sorry. But, you know, I do feel that people 00:39:36.380 --> 00:39:39.980 should know to be at least responsible not to 00:39:39.980 --> 00:39:42.670 get pregnant. Yeah. You know, because it is another 00:39:42.670 --> 00:39:46.570 life. Absolutely. Absolutely. So we'll just encourage 00:39:46.570 --> 00:39:49.570 people to go to look for the Unashamed podcast 00:39:49.570 --> 00:39:53.409 by Olivia Bowie. Would you pray for our listeners? 00:39:53.769 --> 00:39:57.869 Yes. Lord, thank you, God. Thank you, Lord, that 00:39:57.869 --> 00:40:01.309 you love us so much that you will not leave us 00:40:01.309 --> 00:40:05.429 the same way we came to you, Father God. And 00:40:05.429 --> 00:40:08.469 Lord, I thank you, God, that you are a transformative 00:40:08.469 --> 00:40:11.710 God, that you will not leave us if we're hungry. 00:40:11.809 --> 00:40:15.429 God, if we are seeking your face, there is no 00:40:15.429 --> 00:40:19.929 way not to change. So, Lord, I pray, God, that 00:40:19.929 --> 00:40:23.889 every person that is listening, God, to us today, 00:40:23.989 --> 00:40:27.789 that, Lord, you will just lay it on their hearts 00:40:27.789 --> 00:40:32.329 to not be ashamed, but to run with a heart of 00:40:32.329 --> 00:40:36.909 repentance to God. Lord, run with a heart of 00:40:36.909 --> 00:40:40.710 repentance that his face is always looking at 00:40:40.710 --> 00:40:44.510 us. His face is never turned away. And it's only 00:40:44.510 --> 00:40:48.670 us that turns our hearts away. So, God, I pray 00:40:48.670 --> 00:40:52.010 that you would encourage people to just continue 00:40:52.010 --> 00:40:55.829 to get up and run to you and trust you, God, 00:40:55.909 --> 00:40:59.110 because you are a good, good father. And Lord, 00:40:59.230 --> 00:41:02.150 I pray, God, even for those that have had abortions, 00:41:02.150 --> 00:41:05.809 there's no condemnation in Christ Jesus. There's 00:41:05.809 --> 00:41:09.070 no condemnation if that's happened to you. The 00:41:09.070 --> 00:41:11.730 only condemnation that you would walk in would 00:41:11.730 --> 00:41:15.409 be if you continued to walk with an unrepentant 00:41:15.409 --> 00:41:18.940 heart. No. that that was a life, Father God. 00:41:19.599 --> 00:41:22.179 So, Lord, I pray that you would just bless every 00:41:22.179 --> 00:41:25.360 listener today. And I pray, God, that your glory 00:41:25.360 --> 00:41:27.980 would just fall on them, that they would just 00:41:27.980 --> 00:41:32.219 know that you love them and that it is your will 00:41:32.219 --> 00:41:36.320 and your way to bless them over and above and 00:41:36.320 --> 00:41:39.579 beyond what they can imagine or ask. But, God, 00:41:39.719 --> 00:41:43.260 you do have rules that you call your people to 00:41:43.260 --> 00:41:46.619 come by. So, Lord, I pray, God, that you will 00:41:46.619 --> 00:41:49.260 move by your Holy Spirit on the audience. God, 00:41:49.519 --> 00:41:53.179 in Jesus name, Lord, bless them all. Yes. And 00:41:53.179 --> 00:41:55.480 we thank you, God, that you are a good father 00:41:55.480 --> 00:41:58.320 and that you'll reveal yourself to them if they'll 00:41:58.320 --> 00:42:03.519 do these things. Yes. Jesus name. Amen. 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