You don't have to be perfect to run with God.
You have to have a heart. Not a good heart. You
just have to have a willing heart. Yeah. A heart
that's willing to let God work on it. Amen. That's
it. Yep. Not perfect. Just willing. God promises
in Joel 2 .28 to pour out His Spirit. on all
humanity. Welcome to Global Outpouring, where
we contend for that promised outpouring, we equip
for that outpouring, so that we may engage in
that very outpouring. I'm Philip Buss. And I'm
Sharon Buss. Welcome to the podcast today. We're
so glad that you're with us. We have with us
again our dear friend Olivia Bowie, and she's
going to continue telling us more of her testimony.
We started out with her about how she overcame
rejection, and we're going to talk today about
what happens in the glory. Thank you so much
for joining us today. You're going to really
enjoy this podcast. But before we get started,
we want to make sure that if you haven't already
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.org. And you're going to see on our website
that we have the This wonderful event that's
coming up, our convention, 2025, May 21st through
24th at the St. Louis Airport Marriott Hotel.
It's going to be a glorious time of an outpouring
that the Holy Spirit is going to do with us.
He always shows up. It's just so amazing. And
you're going to enjoy this time. You'll find
people that are hungry for God like you are.
And you're going to meet people and get new experiences.
And it's a family camp. Bring the whole family.
Every age group is going to have something special.
And we have our speakers all lined up. Siggy
Oblander will be opening for us. She's a mighty
woman of God with a depth of revelation in the
Word and a prophetic gift. Tony Kemp will be
speaking. He's got such a depth in God and follows
the leading of the Holy Spirit, bringing all
kinds of wonders out of the Word and out of the
gifts of God that operate in his life. Dean Braxton
will be speaking and also having question and
answer times so you can find out more about what
happened to him when he was outside of his body
for an hour and 45 minutes. Jean Little will
be ministering in our special Israel evening.
And Jeff Simons is going to be bringing a message
that is on his heart that the Lord has given
to him. He's been used of God in so many ways
in the prophetic gift and in teaching and in
bringing miracles, signs and wonders, ministering
in the streets, all those kinds of things. And
I will be bringing the message for the session
when we're going to be bringing. new members
into this ministry. So plan to be there. So Olivia,
we're so glad that we have you with us again
today. This is just a real blessing that you've
come to spend a few days with us at Angletall.
I'm blessed and thankful to be here. Thank you
for having me. Okay. So the last time that you
were here, we had a wonderful discussion about
how the Lord really delivered you in a great
way from rejection. You had been through some
awful, awful things in your life, and we'll put
a link to that so we don't have to retell the
story today. But we did talk about how the Lord
really transformed your life at the Brownsville
Assembly in Pensacola. a number of years ago.
I guess it's quite a few years ago now, and how
you went to the school there, and then you went
on to be trained elsewhere. And I just want you
to talk a little bit about what the glory of
God has done in your life. That was a real outpouring
of the Holy Spirit in that church, and so many
thousands of lives were changed, and you were
one of them. Tell us what God did. You know,
at the time, I really wanted God. And I wanted
him to make himself real to me. And so I was
so hungry. During that time, I'm still hungry.
I think it just blew me up. No matter what, I'm
hungry for years now. Never lose it. Never lose
it. So I was married to a man that was, you know,
into drugs and dealt drugs. And I'd still smoked
weed at the time. I didn't see anything wrong
with it. I didn't see anything wrong with being
who I was. And I was a Christian. I loved the
Lord even then. Until the Holy Ghost dealt with
you otherwise. Yes. You know, God has a way.
Yes, he does. He knows what he's doing. And I
always question God, how come I'm not experiencing
the change that I see other people experiencing?
Because no matter how hard I tried to be free
or to be right in life, I always like a dog to
his vomit, right? You go right back to your old
ways, your old paths. You forget, you know, how
good God is. And you just kind of go back and
forth like a ping pong ball. And so I learned
in time, you know, that we all have this compass,
this thing where you have to find balance. So
I went to Brownsville Revival and I was just
wanting God. And I was sitting in the audience
and Steve Hill started talking about the Father's
love. And we all know that's where my rejection
came from. That's where the, you know, that's
where I needed. the most. So when I heard the
father's love, I was just like, wow, who is this
father? Like I knew God, but I didn't know God.
I knew I didn't know God if he was a father.
So I ran up at the altar and I just threw my
face up there and was like, I surrender. I want
to know this good father. And Steve Hill. put
his hands on me and I just went out in the glory.
And of course it wasn't no, I didn't give him
no courtesy fall for sure. I fell. And my little
baby was two years old at the time, Sarah. And
she sat on top of me while God just, it was like
fire from the top of my head to the bottom of
my feet. And it just resonated up and down, up
and down. And I felt that love, that genuine
I love you. I accept you. You can change. I've
got you, baby. You're mine. You know, it was
just another transforming. You know, it was that
beginning of my transformation. It was the very
beginning. Right. And I remember just laying
there and crying and realizing that. No matter
what I've done in life, God accepted me. Yes.
And he received me. Yes. And from that day on,
I think Charity was the young lady's name that
sung that song. Come running. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Come running. Yeah. Come running to the mercy
seat. Yes. And when I heard that, it was like
I realized I have empowerment now. There was
a change in me that I realized now I know the
Father. Yes. I know that I know that I know.
Yes. That I belong to the Father. Yes. And so
from that day forward, I learned how to fall
and get back up. Yes. I learned how to fall.
And get back up. And I was just this little baby
toddler trying to run in the spirit. And I was
falling and getting back up and falling and getting
back up. And I became so hungry that I wanted
everybody to know this loving father that I've
just met. So after that, I went and got my son.
He was two months old during that time. And I
went back to my house and I walked in. And of
course, I'm smoking a joint. not thinking nothing
about it. I'm like, hey, smoking my joint, you
know, talking to everybody. And I tell them,
I want you to meet a man. And his name is Jesus.
He is the best thing ever. And man, by then everybody
was ruined. They were so upset with me. And I
didn't save not one person that night. And man,
it was a disappointment because I had so experienced.
Did they lose their high? They did. I ruined
it. I ruined it. And here I was excited, you
know, and smoking right along. I wasn't doing
anything different than them. I was just excited
about who I met. Just a change of heart. You
know, the Toronto move, which happened, was just
previous to that. You know, that was known as
the Father's heart. Yeah. John Arnott, the Father's
heart. That's what God was pouring out at that
time. And we still need that. And we have so
many fatherless nowadays. Yes. And nobody really
knows what a good... father is. Nobody knows
what it is to be corrected by a good father,
to be accepted by a good father, to be corrected
and accepted by a father. A father doesn't have
to hate you to correct you. A father can love
you and correct you too. That's the way it should
be. Exactly. And I don't think people know a
true father. And it was almost like God says,
when your mother and father forsake you, I will
raise you up. I'll take you in, Olivia. You belong
to me. And man, when I got that revelation, it
was just like, oh, now I have a good daddy. He
can teach me things. He can bring me into a place.
And I had a good father. I'm not telling you
that my daddy was a bad daddy. My real dad worked
hard and he was a car salesman. And I never want
to dishonor him or disrespect him in any way.
I just think he didn't know. Sometimes we just
don't know because We're caught up in our own
world. We don't know. Yeah. And what did Jesus
say from the cross? Father, forgive them. They
don't even know what they're doing. They don't
even know. And so it's not anything against my
father. I want to make sure that I don't dishonor
my own father because he did the best he knew
how to do. And even God has dealt with me in
those areas where you have to remember people
are raised themselves. And that's all they know.
Right. And if it's your father or your mother,
God didn't say they had to be right for you to
honor them. That's true. And it's the only covenant
in the Bible with promise. It's true. So it's
so important that we really honor our parents,
regardless of how good or how bad they raised
us. So I just, I really want to clarify that.
I don't want to drag my family through the mud
or make them feel like. They didn't do anything
right. That's not how I'm putting this at all.
I just want to make that clear. I'm glad. That's
good. So how did the Lord deal with you to put
away the pot? How did he do that? Yeah, how long
did it take? Yeah, you know, the next day I got
in a fight with my husband the next day, and
he was like, where is she? I want my old wife
back. Bring back Olivia. I'm like, well, you
didn't even love that, Olivia. You know, what
are you trying to say? And I looked at him and
I said, I can't change. This is permanent. Wow.
I don't even know what happened. But Olivia's
not the same Olivia. Something grew. Wow. And
I knew it. And I couldn't go back. Yeah. And
something escalated. We ended up getting a big
fight and all that good stuff. It ended up, you
know, I couldn't take it anymore. I tried to
stay married. I actually stayed married for two
more years after that incident. We separated.
I went back and forth with it for a long time.
I'd go and get counsel from pastors and ask them
what they thought and ask them to pray. And I
stood in the gap for him. I really stood for
him to be saved, that we could get along because
what good is light and darkness together, right?
You can't abide with someone that's going to
beat you up and attack you and have so much darkness
in them and not willing to run after God with
you. So I still had to protect myself, you know,
and that was hard. hard that was my first separation
that i understood that god was separating it
and even though it was divorce i could not change
yeah the scenario the situation i mean he broke
my nose and black my i mean i had i had physical
things happening to where i had to protect my
children i had to protect you know things happened
so i mean in those scenarios you have to separate
from it yeah i can't stand it when Religious
people tell you to stay with someone that's trying
to kill you. Right, right. That doesn't make
sense. No, it doesn't. Yeah, they weren't in
your shoes. No. So then how did the Holy Spirit
deal with you about the pot? I want to know this
story. So what happened was the Lord told me,
he said, I want you to throw it down the toilet,
pour it out in the toilet. And I said, God, what
are you saying? And I've seen people smoke and
be saved. Oh, sure. Some people smoke, you know,
and whatever. And I thought, well, you know,
my spiritual mother smoked when I met her. I
had a spiritual mother who smoked. The glory
of God hit her before and this and the other.
She went back to smoking. But I know we can get
religious and think that those things don't happen,
but they do. I loved her and she taught me a
lot in the Lord. But when God told me to lay
down the pot, it was like that was my security.
That was the hard part because I found a lot
of security in smoking weed because it took me
out of the world. It took me out. I didn't have
to think. It was affecting you and making it
not hurt so much. You were really self -medicating.
Oh, absolutely. Absolutely. Drinking and all.
I did it all. So, I mean, it wasn't just smoking
weed. But at the time I had chilled out on other.
My life was hard. You know that from the last
episode. But, you know, that was my chill out
area was pot's not that bad. It's grown. Right.
You know, those are your thoughts. And so. But
the Holy Spirit didn't didn't do that right away.
No, it took four months. It was about four months
after the fact. The Lord said, are you going
to lay that down? And I said, okay, I'm going
to lay it down. So I poured the pot out, you
know, and I've never went back. I've never had
a desire for it again. But I'm glad that I continued
to run after God. Because I think people... Don't
understand how important it is to continue to
run into the arms of Jesus. Right. Because, yeah,
that was the first step pouring down the toilet.
But the next step is never going back. Yes. You
got to leave the past in the past. Burn the bridges.
And move forward. Yeah. And that is the hardest
thing in the world when you're experiencing transformation.
Right. Because you don't understand why these
people are rejecting you now. You don't. Yeah.
Like it happened like a suddenly. Now my husband
at the time. Did not want me around. He couldn't
stand me. And I was having a lot of conflict
there. Couldn't stay with my mom. I mean, I had
to separate from my family and could not even
live in my dad's houses because I felt attacked
a lot. And so at some point I had to completely
separate in Pensacola where I'm from, where my
family was. And I could still only. handle so
much with them because they did not understand
me and I didn't understand me to some degree
I mean how do you understand this suddenly you
know and God is a God of suddenlies yes so I'm
just not even the same Olivia I'm having I'm
learning new things you know gone through rejection
and God started me I started street preaching
yeah how far along in your in your walk did you
start street preaching Probably two years. Okay.
Probably two years after when I was going to
Brownsville. Yeah. Somebody paid for me to go
to Brownsville. People were starting to pay for
me to go to school, to ministry school. Glory
to God. Glory to God. I got my degree in missions
through Globe Missions in Pensacola, Florida.
And I got my degree. I did not get my degree.
at Brownsville. I was the last class there, but
somebody paid for that too. So everything I was
doing, God started paying for things for me to
go because it was just, I guess people just saw
it on me, saw something different in me. God
spoke to them, no doubt. Absolutely. And Kathy
Winfrey, she was one that really, she watched
my children for me. She helped me in so many
ways. And I do thank God for her wanting to yield
and see God's transforming power more in my life.
Just the change that needed to happen. And so
I'm thankful. God kept sending counselors. He
would just send them. And they would do it for
free. Like, let me call them in the middle of
the night. You know, and it has always been.
Wow. That way in my life. Glory to God. So you've
gone from glory to glory to glory. And every
time the glory comes, it burns up some of the
stuff that doesn't belong there. That's just
how it works. The glory fire. And he's so kind.
And he's so thorough, but he doesn't do it all
at once. Oh, he'd die if he did. Oh, yeah. That's
what he told to the children of Israel when they
were taking the promised land. He said, you're
not going to take it all at once, but take it
little by little. Because if you took it all
at once, you don't have enough people to populate
the place. The wild beasts would take over. So
you just, here's your first block. Take this,
and then every generation is supposed to keep
going. And see, that's the place where they fell
down. They learned from the people that had been
left alive and started into idolatry, and they
didn't follow through with what God said. But
all I'm saying is that in one person's life,
you just keep taking ground and you keep letting
the Holy Spirit take ground in you. And that's
humility because it is embarrassing sometimes.
It can be. You know, especially in the beginning
when, you know, I'd be running really hard for
God and then I'd fall. I'd fall. I'd do something
wrong or I'd run away or I'd get scared, like
started getting scared of what God was going
to do next. And so I'd run. I'd run like that.
I was rebellious. I was like, no, you're not.
And I'm like, I was gone. You run like Jonah.
Get a ticket somewhere else. Yes, I would run.
I ran away from my spiritual mother. I ran away
from her. I was so guilty feeling for that. I
ran away for two years. I lived back in the world
for a little bit. You know, it's scary. But you
came back. But I came back. You don't want to
be whale food. No. Like Noah. No, not Noah. Like
Jonah. Right. Yeah. Amen. Yeah, you'll learn
your lesson. Yeah, you go in your detour sometimes,
but you have to always know in the back of your
mind, God is calling you to something higher.
Yes. God is taking you somewhere. And it's a
destiny written on your heart, especially when
that new creature comes up, because it's not
the same person. Now this new creature knows.
Well, it's your spirit. Yes. Your spirit is the
real you. Yes. And the one that is contrary is
the one that has to be reigned in and made one
with the Holy Spirit, just like your spirit is
one with the Holy Spirit. It's a training. It's
a transformation process. Amen. And there was
a lot of junk there. Yeah. Well, God, but God
is thorough. And, you know, and he takes us as
we are. But he doesn't leave us that way. Amen.
And I'm glad he didn't. Yeah. You know, he's
still in the process with all of us. I'm so glad
he kept taking me back. You know, I'm so glad
that I had the trust in him. Right. Because I
don't think people have trust. Yeah. They really
think that they're that dirty when they make
mistakes, that there's something that wrong with
them, that they can't just crawl back in Daddy
God's lap. But that's just not true. Well, that's
the accuser. It is. The accuser starts out as
the tempter, and he tempts you, and you fall
into the slime, and then he berates you for being
all slimy. Yes. It makes you feel awful that
you're all slimy and muddy. Slime pit. Yeah.
But all you have to do is repent. Truly repent.
Yes. From your heart. Right. And you just return
to God. Yes. Amen. You just keep on going back.
So you've kept on going back all these years.
And tell us more about being a street preacher.
What have you seen? What kind of experiences
have you seen? What transformed lives? We were
wild. We were so wild. I loved it, though, because
it really is innately in me. I'm a little bit
of a wild stallion. So I like the fire that's
involved in it because you see people as you're
standing on the sidewalk and they're walking
by you. And every word that's coming out of your
mouth is either hitting or missing. And you can
tell when people are being turned. Something's
happening to them. You can tell that they turn
suddenly or they're responding. They're not wanting
to, but they're responding. And there's something
about street preaching. And I know people, oh,
it's a bad taste in some people's mouth. But
I think that it was created to be a bad taste
in some people's mouth. I truly do, because I've
heard people get so mad at street preaching.
But inevitably, street preaching is like a hammer.
It just comes in. And guess what? You're not
going to come to us. We're going to come to you,
whether you like it or not. We're not going to
a church. You know, we've got to meet them where
they're at. Yeah. And it's kind of like spanking
a rebellious child. You know, my grandmama has
been praying for years for me. One man said to
me, for years. Can you imagine the rebellion
that someone has to be in? And they're 50 years
old and their grandmother had been praying for
them for years. Decades by that time. Yeah. And
he comes up to me and he says, thank you. I'm
going to church tomorrow. Wow. And I'm preaching
at a bar. Wow. And at this time I'm having to
deal with this. so -called preacher next to me
holding up a sign that says I'm with stupid.
So I'm having to really press through and make
up my mind that this is where God had me stand.
And this is where I'm going to preach. I learned
a lot from street preaching. I learned people
from street preaching. And so when that man,
he was on a Harley Davidson motorcycle, he rebuked
the guy behind you, told him not to be. attacking
a woman of god because he said that the preaching
is what turned him tonight and he told me he
says i'm going back i'm going back to church
i'm going to church you know charisma magazine
some years back had an article on a lot of the
old rockers that got saved you know I remember
Mark Farner. That was Grand Funk Railroad. I
loved to see him in concert and all that. In
your early days. In my early days, yeah, thank
you. He got saved. He had a steel band on his
arm and all that. He was really cool. But he
got saved, and he would play gigs. He went back
into performing, and they'd do some of the music
they wrote. Then he'd do songs the Lord gave
him. And then he'd go to bars and places, you
know, and he'd get criticized, you know, by some
Christian. But he said, who was going to reach
these people? Because that's where he was. Yeah,
right. And that's a gift that's not for everybody.
Right. You know, it's not for everybody. That
was for you. That was that was perfect because.
Well, we even went into bars. Yeah. Yeah. We
went into bars and we got on the microphone.
And one time we got surrounded. I thought we're
going to get killed. What are we doing here?
You know, like, what are we doing here? We're
talking about Jesus on the microphone. They're
just want to have a good time and sing. Yeah.
But people were touched. Holy Ghost karaoke.
It was Holy Ghost. It was. And, you know, the
woman that actually taught me street preaching
is still a street preacher to this day. Wonderful.
She preaches all over the world. Wow. And her
name is Angela Cummings. She's called the women's
fire preacher or something. And she goes to Israel.
She street preaches in Israel. Wow. She street
preached. Greece, she straight preached all over
this world. She lives in the nation. She don't
even come back here. And so she felt like she
was a real caveat of Steve Hill. I mean, that
man was a huge influence. And when she when she
talks to me or had talked to me. She looked like
Steve Hill in the eyes. Like she took that anointing
so seriously. Wow. And she's still out to this
day preaching the word of God. Glory to God.
So speaking of the nations, the Lord began taking
you to the nations after a lengthy season of
transforming and transforming and glory transforming
and more glory and more glory. Then he started
taking you to the nations. Tell us a little about
that. So I went to mission school, got my missions
degree. When in my 20s, I was raising my children,
of course. And I was going to go to Africa at
that time before I married my husband. So my
heart was to go to Kenya, Africa and sit under
and be mentored by a woman in Africa. So my plans
got turned around. That often happens. It often
does, doesn't it? Because our plans aren't always
God's plans. Amen. Amen. And God knew I needed
a husband and I needed my husband. I feel like
God really put a true, I mean, he's my soulmate.
He's everything that I needed. He's a wonderful
man. He really is. And he's a gentle man and
he's a good man and he's a loving man. You needed
that. Yes. After all that you had been through.
Yeah. And he has a father's heart. Beautiful.
Like he has a true father's heart. And I don't
see him as my father, but I just, I see it in
him and the way he treats my own children and
how he has given them a true sense. of a man,
of what a godly man should be about. Thank you,
Jesus. So God gave me that. And I really sat
down for about seven years after we got married.
I mean, I sat down. I let God cultivate our relationship.
I was a little bit nervous about letting him
know who I really was. Yeah, because I knew that
on the inside, even my pastors told him. Be aware.
Yeah. Because you've got a call of God in your
life. Yes. And they made it very clear to him
that I'm not a picket fence, White House woman,
that I really was not going to settle for mediocrity.
And so they told him that straight up. That was
good. Good pastors. And so he had to make his
decision that day that he could deal with me.
But it took me about seven years to really be
comfortable. And saying, okay, you want to see
me? Here I am. And he told me when he married
me, the Lord told him I was a wild stallion and
that I wasn't scared a lot of anything. I'm not
scared. I'm not a fearful person at all. When
I met my husband, we just took time and I know
it was God in that season. And I kind of revamped
myself and became a different person. Even then,
you know, I started doing hair. I mean, I never
thought I'd ever do hair. I don't do hair, but
I did hair. And God used it for ministry for
me. And I've been able, you know, I've used everything
in my life for ministry. Beautiful. That's all
it is about. I give a hundred percent. Of my
life to God. Amen. You know, and that's the way
even when I wasn't really telling Victor who
I gave everything to God. Beautiful. But now
these years later, it was like suddenly, suddenly
there's a suddenlies again. I am going to Africa.
I am going to the Philippines. Actually, Edith
Stanley is the pastor that is over the church
that I go to the Philippines in and bless her
little heart. I knew her at Liberty Church. Me
and her both went to the same missionary school.
I still know a lot of missionaries from Globe
Missions. I stay in touch with them. And she
texted me one day. She said, are you ready to
come? And it's like 15 years later. I mean, it's
been a long time. It's not overnight, you know.
And I was like, you didn't forget me. She's like,
no. It's time, you know. So I went to the Philippines
and I had the best time. Now, I didn't have the
freedom I had. The second time I went to the
Philippines, the first time was kind of like
getting my feet wet. It was my first missions
trip. I was really getting into it. It was exciting.
And, you know, God supplied everything that I
needed. And even when he didn't supply, it's
so crazy. And I'm not promoting this, so I'm
not trying to say, but like we've used credit
cards and God has paid them back. Like if I'm
obedient to what I know God is telling me to
do, he's never let me down. And he's always come
back with provision and protection. Just don't
be presumptuous. Yeah, I'm not being presumptuous.
Yeah, that's why I don't want to advocate that
in any way. But we have done that, which most
of it was paid, but we use some of it for the
credit cards, right? Yeah. So I just found that.
If you do what God tells you to do, he is always
faithful to come back and say, here you go. I'll
take care of you. And the word of God says you
get blessings with persecution, too. So people
miss that part. They want to knock out the persecution
and just say the blessings. But they do kind
of run hand in hand. And so I realized that this
world will persecute you, even your finances,
even the things of the world will persecute you
as you're doing the things for God and try to
hinder you and keep you from going forward. And
you just have to keep your eyes on the mark and
not let those things of this world hinder you.
And that's what I'm learning by going to the
nations is if there's not enough, by golly, God
is going to take care of it. And I'm determined.
And Victor said, I've seen crazy. He's like,
I work at a crazy anointing. I do. Hallelujah.
Where I just trust. I am a child. Let's put it
that way. I am a child. Well, that's what pleases
our Father. Yeah. When we behave like children,
you know. It's not childish, but childlike. Yes.
There's a difference. Childlike. The trust. Yes.
I trust God with all of my heart because he's
shown himself faithful. So many times in my life.
Yeah. All the time in my life. Beautiful. I've
never gone without because of God. Hallelujah.
You know, He's a good God. He is. He's such a
good God. He is. So you've been to the Philippines
how many times? I've been four times now. Okay.
And you've been to Uganda? Five times. Five times.
And other places? I'm going to Costa Rica. And
I've been invited to Nepal, India. Hasn't gone
through yet. And I haven't felt. peace yet in
the move of that. But I do want to go because
I helped raise money for orphanage there. And
I had all the pictures of the children from 20
years ago. Wow. Now they're adults. Yeah. I know.
Go meet the grown children. Yes. God will do
it in His time. Yeah, I agree. He's faithful.
He's absolutely faithful. So you also have a
podcast. Tell us about that. So I called it Unashamed.
I think the reason I named it Unashamed was I
think that so many times we have a voice and
we don't use it in concern about what people
think. So I used the name Unashamed. To kind
of express that I don't need to be ashamed about
anything. Yeah. That this is a free nation. We
all have the ability to say and be who we were
created to be. So I think that, you know, I put
this podcast out so that people, they can hear
what I have to say and I can just be free. Yeah.
Give what the Lord gives you. Give it, you know,
and I hope it to be an encouragement. I hope
it to help people grow closer to God and teach
them not to run from God and teach them not to
be ashamed. Right. Because that's what hinders
us a lot of times. We're ashamed of what happened
to us. We're ashamed of our backgrounds. That's
that accuser. Exactly. And the accuser is more
prevalent in some families than others. And I
think that some people are underdogs. They feel
like they're underdogs. They feel like they could
never come up to a place where God can use them.
So they stay in that place. It's hard. It's hard
to say, okay, God, I can surrender what I'm dealing
with. I can let you do this work in me. I can,
you know, it's hard. And they have just as much
of a capability to do this as me or you. It's
just. You have to put it in your mind that you're
not ashamed. You can come forth. You can let
God do the work, you know, and that's what I
want people to feel. I want them to put all the
shame aside. Yes. There's not one person on this
earth that is perfect. Right. Nobody's perfect.
Right. God only has broken people to work with.
Exactly. Exactly. I mean, I'm not going to tell
you that I've got it all together and I'm not
letting God still work on me and this, that,
and the other. Only Jesus has it all together.
Amen. Amen. And he spilt it all out so that we
can be put back together. Exactly. Exactly. So
I just, I want people to know you don't have
to be perfect to run with God. You have to have
a heart, not a good heart. You just have to have
a willing heart. Yeah. A heart that's willing
to let God work on it. Amen. That's it. Yep.
Not perfect. Just willing. Beautiful. Yeah. Beautiful.
So how often do you put out episodes? I've attempted
to do it every week. So every seven days I'm
putting out something. My last one was on. abortion.
It was really hard on my heart. And I thought,
you know, this nation is really split because
of abortion. And, you know, I'm black and white.
I do believe that abortion is a no -no. I feel
like even if it was being abused or being raped
or even incest, you know, if you think it's a
shame to you, I have purposed in my heart to
believe that abortion is always coming from a
place of self. And mothers are not selfish. Yeah,
they're not supposed to be. I mean, the real
mother instinct inside of you is not selfish.
I remember when we had our daughter, up until
that point, I was cranky every morning. I was
just cranky. I woke up cranky. She's not a morning
person. I'm not a morning person. And just, you
know, give me space until I really wake up. Okay,
that's how I was. And I really would be cranky,
wasn't I? Yes. I was. You were cranky. Maybe
not. Consistently cranky. And having low blood
sugar, low blood pressure, I couldn't give her
a cup of coffee first thing in the morning. That
didn't work. But when our daughter was born,
something happened inside of me. And I thought,
this child. does not understand why I would be
cranky. I have to stop. Wow. And I lost that
selfish place where this is just me. This is
who I am. This is how I am. And you better just
get used to it. I quit doing drugs every time
I had my kids. I was like, I can't do drugs.
I'm pregnant, you know. Yeah. So you make concessions.
You make sacrifices for your children. It's a
part of the instinct. But I think our society
has become so broken. And the children that have
grown up and they're adult in their bodies, but
their emotions are so broken that they're stuck
at whatever age they were traumatized at. I agree.
And it keeps them selfish. And they've only been
taught that this is okay, that it's been given
to us on a silver platter. You can end this pregnancy.
It's a pregnancy. It's not a baby. It's a pregnancy.
And if you can think of it as a pregnancy, Then
you can end it. Right? No. Or it's just tissue.
Yeah. Yeah. But they've been lied to. They've
been lied to. Well, I didn't expect to get on
that subject. I didn't either. But, you know,
it was very heavy. Yeah. And I did a quick podcast.
I didn't even study it or nothing before I put
it out there. So if I said anything, y 'all,
I'm sorry. But, you know, I do feel that people
should know to be at least responsible not to
get pregnant. Yeah. You know, because it is another
life. Absolutely. Absolutely. So we'll just encourage
people to go to look for the Unashamed podcast
by Olivia Bowie. Would you pray for our listeners?
Yes. Lord, thank you, God. Thank you, Lord, that
you love us so much that you will not leave us
the same way we came to you, Father God. And
Lord, I thank you, God, that you are a transformative
God, that you will not leave us if we're hungry.
God, if we are seeking your face, there is no
way not to change. So, Lord, I pray, God, that
every person that is listening, God, to us today,
that, Lord, you will just lay it on their hearts
to not be ashamed, but to run with a heart of
repentance to God. Lord, run with a heart of
repentance that his face is always looking at
us. His face is never turned away. And it's only
us that turns our hearts away. So, God, I pray
that you would encourage people to just continue
to get up and run to you and trust you, God,
because you are a good, good father. And Lord,
I pray, God, even for those that have had abortions,
there's no condemnation in Christ Jesus. There's
no condemnation if that's happened to you. The
only condemnation that you would walk in would
be if you continued to walk with an unrepentant
heart. No. that that was a life, Father God.
So, Lord, I pray that you would just bless every
listener today. And I pray, God, that your glory
would just fall on them, that they would just
know that you love them and that it is your will
and your way to bless them over and above and
beyond what they can imagine or ask. But, God,
you do have rules that you call your people to
come by. So, Lord, I pray, God, that you will
move by your Holy Spirit on the audience. God,
in Jesus name, Lord, bless them all. Yes. And
we thank you, God, that you are a good father
and that you'll reveal yourself to them if they'll
do these things. Yes. Jesus name. Amen. Amen.
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