1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:06,720 unconditional surrender means I don't have anything to say about this except yes. 2 00:00:06,720 --> 00:00:11,780 And you know, people can take that wrong and think that that's wrong, but it's the way 3 00:00:11,780 --> 00:00:13,580 that God worked it. 4 00:00:13,580 --> 00:00:19,000 It's the way that He planned for us to be able to work with Him. 5 00:00:19,000 --> 00:00:22,740 And it only works to work with Him when we do it His way. 6 00:00:22,740 --> 00:00:34,200 When we try to do it our way, it doesn't work. 7 00:00:34,200 --> 00:00:40,000 God promises in Joel 2.28 to pour out His Spirit on all humanity. 8 00:00:40,000 --> 00:00:41,580 Welcome to Global Outpouring. 9 00:00:41,580 --> 00:00:44,320 We contend for that promised outpouring. 10 00:00:44,320 --> 00:00:50,280 We equip for that outpouring so that we may engage in that very outpouring. 11 00:00:50,280 --> 00:00:51,740 I'm Philip Bus. 12 00:00:51,740 --> 00:00:52,800 And I'm Sharon Bus. 13 00:00:52,800 --> 00:00:54,320 Welcome to the podcast today. 14 00:00:54,320 --> 00:00:57,980 We're so grateful to the Lord that you have joined us. 15 00:00:57,980 --> 00:01:03,260 We have a subject today that we feel is very important, and I believe it's going to be 16 00:01:03,260 --> 00:01:05,640 life changing for you. 17 00:01:05,640 --> 00:01:09,680 You know, life is a series of surrenders. 18 00:01:09,680 --> 00:01:19,960 And we have on our heart to share about unconditional surrender to God. 19 00:01:19,960 --> 00:01:21,720 Thank you so much for joining us today. 20 00:01:21,720 --> 00:01:24,960 We're so grateful to the Lord that you are with us. 21 00:01:24,960 --> 00:01:29,440 We just feel like we're getting knit in our hearts to your heart, even though we may or 22 00:01:29,440 --> 00:01:31,080 may not hear back from you. 23 00:01:31,080 --> 00:01:33,000 And we would love to hear back from you. 24 00:01:33,000 --> 00:01:39,200 But we really feel like God is doing something, 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your experience with God. 34 00:02:23,560 --> 00:02:27,480 So Philip, let's talk about unconditional surrender to God. 35 00:02:27,480 --> 00:02:30,840 Oh, that's that's a hollelujah. 36 00:02:30,840 --> 00:02:39,600 Well, yes, it is because it really is all about letting go of your self way. 37 00:02:39,600 --> 00:02:41,960 You know, we don't like to do that. 38 00:02:41,960 --> 00:02:42,960 Well, it's true. 39 00:02:42,960 --> 00:02:44,160 We don't. 40 00:02:44,160 --> 00:02:49,960 Our flesh is always at war with our spirit and our spirit is the real us. 41 00:02:49,960 --> 00:02:51,240 Your spirit is the real you. 42 00:02:51,240 --> 00:02:52,720 My spirit is the real me. 43 00:02:52,720 --> 00:02:59,040 We see that in in Romans, Chapter seven, that there's this war going on in the flesh. 44 00:02:59,040 --> 00:03:06,280 But the Holy Spirit helps us because when we invite Jesus to come into our lives, our 45 00:03:06,280 --> 00:03:08,800 spirit becomes one spirit with His spirit. 46 00:03:08,800 --> 00:03:09,800 Yeah. 47 00:03:09,800 --> 00:03:10,800 And it's a determination. 48 00:03:10,800 --> 00:03:16,800 It's like if you're trying to tone your muscles up, if you're an athlete, you know, you're 49 00:03:16,800 --> 00:03:18,960 you're not going to miss a day, are you? 50 00:03:18,960 --> 00:03:24,000 Because you can maybe feel the difference if you didn't do all your stretches or things 51 00:03:24,000 --> 00:03:25,000 like that. 52 00:03:25,000 --> 00:03:26,000 You know, yeah. 53 00:03:26,000 --> 00:03:33,240 And for those of us who have not kept up with our our exercises and you pay for it down 54 00:03:33,240 --> 00:03:38,840 the road, yeah, you get soft and you get you get where things aren't working the way they 55 00:03:38,840 --> 00:03:39,840 should. 56 00:03:39,840 --> 00:03:44,800 So if you keep sharp doing your exercises, you keep your body in shape and spiritually, 57 00:03:44,800 --> 00:03:46,120 it's the same way. 58 00:03:46,120 --> 00:03:47,760 But it's a choosing. 59 00:03:47,760 --> 00:03:51,440 I'm going to do this every day or I'm going to choose this. 60 00:03:51,440 --> 00:03:52,960 They're even a diet. 61 00:03:52,960 --> 00:03:55,760 I'm going to I'm choosing to do this. 62 00:03:55,760 --> 00:03:59,560 I'm putting my mind set on doing this. 63 00:03:59,560 --> 00:04:05,440 And no matter what temptations I have, I'm I'm not going to eat that cookie or, you know, 64 00:04:05,440 --> 00:04:11,200 or something just happens to go by your nose when you're somewhere and that this determination 65 00:04:11,200 --> 00:04:16,080 not to do that and unconditional surrender to God is determination. 66 00:04:16,080 --> 00:04:17,640 Yes, it. 67 00:04:17,640 --> 00:04:19,720 But it's also determination. 68 00:04:19,720 --> 00:04:24,880 And even even what you're talking about in the physical, you know, we have such a thing 69 00:04:24,880 --> 00:04:30,080 as willpower and we also have such a thing called willpower. 70 00:04:30,080 --> 00:04:31,200 Like I won't do that. 71 00:04:31,200 --> 00:04:33,080 I'm not going to do that. 72 00:04:33,080 --> 00:04:39,400 Or, you know, you just you cave sometimes you cave in to temptation of, you know, for 73 00:04:39,400 --> 00:04:41,760 that cookie or whatever it is. 74 00:04:41,760 --> 00:04:48,520 And the wonderful thing about relationship with God is he gives you the grace to obey. 75 00:04:48,520 --> 00:04:49,960 Yeah. 76 00:04:49,960 --> 00:04:52,640 And he gives you the grace really to surrender. 77 00:04:52,640 --> 00:04:57,520 He gives you the grace to lay down your will over and over and over. 78 00:04:57,520 --> 00:05:01,240 And you may not just see results right quick away. 79 00:05:01,240 --> 00:05:02,240 True. 80 00:05:02,240 --> 00:05:05,320 Like I'll do this and I'll have the answer tomorrow. 81 00:05:05,320 --> 00:05:10,680 No, it doesn't usually work that way unless God just really graces you for something like 82 00:05:10,680 --> 00:05:11,680 that. 83 00:05:11,680 --> 00:05:17,200 But it's it's like they say if you do something for 21 days, it's a habit. 84 00:05:17,200 --> 00:05:21,760 And so it's just pressing into, you know, pressing into the word. 85 00:05:21,760 --> 00:05:25,920 And sometimes you can't just always set a pattern because patterns don't always work. 86 00:05:25,920 --> 00:05:28,000 But you have to make time somehow. 87 00:05:28,000 --> 00:05:29,000 Right. 88 00:05:29,000 --> 00:05:33,480 And you know, the apostle Paul, you know, wasn't able to snuggle away in a nice first 89 00:05:33,480 --> 00:05:39,760 class in an airplane or you're on one of the earlier trains that had real locking compartments 90 00:05:39,760 --> 00:05:44,080 and had a sleeper in it where you could lock away because it's a two day train ride. 91 00:05:44,080 --> 00:05:47,160 You know, he didn't use maybe have that option. 92 00:05:47,160 --> 00:05:49,120 He didn't have any options. 93 00:05:49,120 --> 00:05:52,160 I don't think he even had an option to hide away in a cave much. 94 00:05:52,160 --> 00:05:54,720 Yeah, I didn't have an alarm clock to wake him up. 95 00:05:54,720 --> 00:05:59,160 You know, so so it's it's a matter, you know, not beating yourself over the head. 96 00:05:59,160 --> 00:06:03,360 If you if you miss your window, you just make up for it in another way. 97 00:06:03,360 --> 00:06:05,760 Just well, it's all about surrendering. 98 00:06:05,760 --> 00:06:06,760 Yeah. 99 00:06:06,760 --> 00:06:07,760 Moment by moment. 100 00:06:07,760 --> 00:06:08,760 Yeah. 101 00:06:08,760 --> 00:06:11,240 It's that OK, I give in. 102 00:06:11,240 --> 00:06:13,840 I can't do this on my own. 103 00:06:13,840 --> 00:06:16,660 I need your help, Lord. 104 00:06:16,660 --> 00:06:23,200 It's that grace that God gives you to be able to do something that you don't want to do 105 00:06:23,200 --> 00:06:24,960 in your natural way. 106 00:06:24,960 --> 00:06:25,960 Yeah. 107 00:06:25,960 --> 00:06:26,960 So. 108 00:06:26,960 --> 00:06:29,720 So our life is a series of surrenders. 109 00:06:29,720 --> 00:06:30,720 Absolutely. 110 00:06:30,720 --> 00:06:33,600 So we want to talk a little on Sister Gwen's story. 111 00:06:33,600 --> 00:06:34,600 Yes. 112 00:06:34,600 --> 00:06:35,600 Yes. 113 00:06:35,600 --> 00:06:40,200 Our founder, Sister Gwen Shaw, we call her Sister Gwen because that's just kind of how 114 00:06:40,200 --> 00:06:41,600 the Pentecostal way is. 115 00:06:41,600 --> 00:06:45,020 She wasn't a sister like in Roman Catholicism. 116 00:06:45,020 --> 00:06:48,160 She was just everybody's sister. 117 00:06:48,160 --> 00:06:52,680 And later in life, people started calling her mama and overseas to India. 118 00:06:52,680 --> 00:06:55,080 Many of these nations, it's an honor, respect. 119 00:06:55,080 --> 00:06:56,080 Right. 120 00:06:56,080 --> 00:06:57,080 Right. 121 00:06:57,080 --> 00:06:58,640 And in India, they would call you Auntie. 122 00:06:58,640 --> 00:06:59,640 Auntie. 123 00:06:59,640 --> 00:07:00,640 Yes. 124 00:07:00,640 --> 00:07:06,200 Anyway, our founder had a series of surrenders in her life. 125 00:07:06,200 --> 00:07:11,560 And we won't take time to tell her whole story because she wrote it in a book called Unconditional 126 00:07:11,560 --> 00:07:13,080 Surrender. 127 00:07:13,080 --> 00:07:19,800 And we have a video of her as well that that was made in the 1990s. 128 00:07:19,800 --> 00:07:24,640 And we've put it out on our YouTube channel, also called Unconditional Surrender. 129 00:07:24,640 --> 00:07:27,440 It's in three parts of about 45 minutes each. 130 00:07:27,440 --> 00:07:33,800 Very, very, very inspiring because that was her thing with God. 131 00:07:33,800 --> 00:07:36,260 She just had unconditional surrender. 132 00:07:36,260 --> 00:07:37,880 She kept surrendering. 133 00:07:37,880 --> 00:07:43,820 And unconditional surrender in a life is you keep on surrendering to God. 134 00:07:43,820 --> 00:07:48,560 No matter what comes up, no matter how your flesh says, no, I don't want to do this, you 135 00:07:48,560 --> 00:07:52,120 just keep saying yes, because I've said yes to God. 136 00:07:52,120 --> 00:07:56,900 And if God is saying this to me, I'm going to do what he said to do. 137 00:07:56,900 --> 00:07:59,680 And Sister Gwen's story is just a piece of it. 138 00:07:59,680 --> 00:08:04,120 I think we've told some of this before where she was in Bible school. 139 00:08:04,120 --> 00:08:09,840 She had already made that first surrender to say yes to Jesus, to come into her life. 140 00:08:09,840 --> 00:08:10,840 She'd been a rebel. 141 00:08:10,840 --> 00:08:12,400 She ran away from home. 142 00:08:12,400 --> 00:08:18,640 I mean, she didn't like to be teased because of having learned all these scriptures as 143 00:08:18,640 --> 00:08:19,640 a child. 144 00:08:19,640 --> 00:08:24,040 Her mother would stand her up and have her memorize scriptures so that she could say 145 00:08:24,040 --> 00:08:25,040 them in church. 146 00:08:25,040 --> 00:08:27,680 And so all of that stuff was being put into her. 147 00:08:27,680 --> 00:08:33,840 But when she got into her teens, she really rebelled and ran away from home. 148 00:08:33,840 --> 00:08:38,040 And finally, she gave her life to Jesus. 149 00:08:38,040 --> 00:08:39,560 And it was transformative. 150 00:08:39,560 --> 00:08:40,560 She surrendered. 151 00:08:40,560 --> 00:08:46,160 It was amazing because the place she was hiding was next door to the police station. 152 00:08:46,160 --> 00:08:47,160 Yeah, that's true. 153 00:08:47,160 --> 00:08:48,160 Yeah. 154 00:08:48,160 --> 00:08:49,160 Well, don't find me here. 155 00:08:49,160 --> 00:08:50,880 Yeah, they didn't. 156 00:08:50,880 --> 00:08:54,200 Her daddy found her, though, because he was led by the Holy Spirit. 157 00:08:54,200 --> 00:08:57,880 And she went home and she submitted and then she gave her life to Jesus. 158 00:08:57,880 --> 00:08:59,960 And then she went to Bible school. 159 00:08:59,960 --> 00:09:05,820 And during Bible school, there was a tremendous move of God that was sparked by a man who 160 00:09:05,820 --> 00:09:07,480 had come from Azusa Street. 161 00:09:07,480 --> 00:09:12,400 He had been at Azusa Street and his life had been transformed as he surrendered to God. 162 00:09:12,400 --> 00:09:17,040 And she was in a prayer meeting in the middle of the night and someone was under the power 163 00:09:17,040 --> 00:09:23,520 of the Holy Spirit crying out, China, China, I'm calling you to China. 164 00:09:23,520 --> 00:09:25,720 Won't you go for me to China? 165 00:09:25,720 --> 00:09:28,520 Souls are perishing in China, China, China. 166 00:09:28,520 --> 00:09:31,480 Oh, won't you go to China for me? 167 00:09:31,480 --> 00:09:36,760 So she's in this meeting hearing this and she doesn't want to acknowledge that. 168 00:09:36,760 --> 00:09:38,120 That's not me. 169 00:09:38,120 --> 00:09:43,740 And then a teacher that was there said, Gweny, have you prayed about this call? 170 00:09:43,740 --> 00:09:45,680 She said no. 171 00:09:45,680 --> 00:09:51,120 So she got down on her knees and she began to feel like, oh, this is me. 172 00:09:51,120 --> 00:09:52,120 This is calling me. 173 00:09:52,120 --> 00:09:56,660 She got back up on her chair because she was afraid she didn't she didn't want to do this. 174 00:09:56,660 --> 00:09:57,660 She was afraid of the Chinese. 175 00:09:57,660 --> 00:09:58,660 She was only what? 176 00:09:58,660 --> 00:09:59,660 Twenty years old. 177 00:09:59,660 --> 00:10:03,920 Yeah, probably, probably about that age. 178 00:10:03,920 --> 00:10:08,620 And so the teacher asked her again because the call went on China, China, I'm calling 179 00:10:08,620 --> 00:10:09,620 you to China. 180 00:10:09,620 --> 00:10:11,960 Won't you go for me to China? 181 00:10:11,960 --> 00:10:13,480 Souls are perishing in China. 182 00:10:13,480 --> 00:10:16,800 And the teacher said, did you pray through, Gweny? 183 00:10:16,800 --> 00:10:18,720 And she said no. 184 00:10:18,720 --> 00:10:22,840 She got down on her knees again and she began to feel this thing going in her spirit about 185 00:10:22,840 --> 00:10:23,840 this is you. 186 00:10:23,840 --> 00:10:25,280 This is my calling for you. 187 00:10:25,280 --> 00:10:29,600 And she got so afraid and she got back up in her chair and she said, God, if this is 188 00:10:29,600 --> 00:10:33,580 if this is me, you're going to have to put me on my knees. 189 00:10:33,580 --> 00:10:38,860 And the next thing she knew, the power of God came down and just threw her on the floor 190 00:10:38,860 --> 00:10:39,860 and pender. 191 00:10:39,860 --> 00:10:40,860 Yeah. 192 00:10:40,860 --> 00:10:44,240 And she screamed, oh, go, go. 193 00:10:44,240 --> 00:10:49,240 And then then she had visions of China speaking in Chinese language. 194 00:10:49,240 --> 00:10:52,720 And all of a sudden she loved the Chinese people. 195 00:10:52,720 --> 00:10:59,360 And instead of the clock going tick, tock, tick, tock, tick, tock, it went China, China, 196 00:10:59,360 --> 00:11:00,640 China. 197 00:11:00,640 --> 00:11:07,080 And God took her there, another series of surrenders and just one surrender after another 198 00:11:07,080 --> 00:11:09,080 surrender after another surrender. 199 00:11:09,080 --> 00:11:14,200 And yeah, and it's like, you know, going to a country like that, it was not like America. 200 00:11:14,200 --> 00:11:17,720 Now, you see China today as a world power. 201 00:11:17,720 --> 00:11:21,920 Back then, it was a third world nation and very primitive. 202 00:11:21,920 --> 00:11:24,880 Oh, yes, it was very primitive. 203 00:11:24,880 --> 00:11:28,580 So if you want to know more about the rest of Sister Gwen's story, you can get her book 204 00:11:28,580 --> 00:11:33,640 or you can go to our YouTube channel and watch the videos. 205 00:11:33,640 --> 00:11:37,080 It's just it's really, really encouraging. 206 00:11:37,080 --> 00:11:43,640 It will encourage you to follow the Lord in the thing that he's called you to do, because 207 00:11:43,640 --> 00:11:48,060 each one of us has to have our own unconditional surrender. 208 00:11:48,060 --> 00:11:55,860 So Psalm 37, seven, and the God's word translation says, surrender yourself to the Lord and wait 209 00:11:55,860 --> 00:11:57,760 patiently for him. 210 00:11:57,760 --> 00:12:03,080 Do not be preoccupied with an evil doer who succeeds in his way when he carries out his 211 00:12:03,080 --> 00:12:04,080 schemes. 212 00:12:04,080 --> 00:12:05,080 Yeah. 213 00:12:05,080 --> 00:12:08,000 In the King James, it says, rest in the Lord and wait patiently for him. 214 00:12:08,000 --> 00:12:14,380 But I like this idea of surrendering because that's really what resting in him is. 215 00:12:14,380 --> 00:12:15,380 It's a letting go. 216 00:12:15,380 --> 00:12:18,960 It's a, okay, I'm taking my hands off of this. 217 00:12:18,960 --> 00:12:20,640 I'm not going to try and make this happen. 218 00:12:20,640 --> 00:12:22,720 God, if you want it to happen, you make it happen. 219 00:12:22,720 --> 00:12:26,920 Because if you surrender to him, then you are at rest. 220 00:12:26,920 --> 00:12:27,920 Exactly. 221 00:12:27,920 --> 00:12:31,960 And, and you stop fretting about the evil doers. 222 00:12:31,960 --> 00:12:36,920 When you're surrendered to God, you stop fretting about them because you know that God is going 223 00:12:36,920 --> 00:12:38,600 to deal with them. 224 00:12:38,600 --> 00:12:42,960 And part of the reason why he waits so long before he deals with them is he's giving them 225 00:12:42,960 --> 00:12:47,800 an opportunity to repent and do their own surrender to God. 226 00:12:47,800 --> 00:12:49,720 And many times they do. 227 00:12:49,720 --> 00:12:51,220 Many times they don't. 228 00:12:51,220 --> 00:12:58,720 But we can't be overwhelmed with anger and anxiety over what evil doers are doing. 229 00:12:58,720 --> 00:12:59,720 Yeah. 230 00:12:59,720 --> 00:13:01,800 There's a good scripture about anxiety. 231 00:13:01,800 --> 00:13:04,360 That's in Psalm 46 and verse 10. 232 00:13:04,360 --> 00:13:07,200 This is in the passion translation. 233 00:13:07,200 --> 00:13:12,040 Surrender your anxiety, be still and realize that I am God. 234 00:13:12,040 --> 00:13:17,740 I am God above all the nations and I am exalted throughout the whole earth. 235 00:13:17,740 --> 00:13:19,160 Surrender your anxiety. 236 00:13:19,160 --> 00:13:20,280 Yes. 237 00:13:20,280 --> 00:13:25,120 Because it's fear that causes us to be tormented. 238 00:13:25,120 --> 00:13:29,960 And we read in first John that perfect love casts out fear. 239 00:13:29,960 --> 00:13:31,760 Perfect love casts out fear. 240 00:13:31,760 --> 00:13:38,260 You know, surrendering to his perfect love, it's kind of like it pulls the plug and fear 241 00:13:38,260 --> 00:13:40,080 goes down the drain. 242 00:13:40,080 --> 00:13:42,720 When you surrender to the love of God. 243 00:13:42,720 --> 00:13:43,720 Beautiful. 244 00:13:43,720 --> 00:13:48,280 He pulls up inside of us and he, and he envelops us in himself. 245 00:13:48,280 --> 00:13:50,640 And you know, why would you have fear? 246 00:13:50,640 --> 00:13:51,640 Yeah. 247 00:13:51,640 --> 00:13:58,960 So Jesus said to his disciples in Matthew 16 24, if any of you wants to be my follower, 248 00:13:58,960 --> 00:14:01,380 you must give up your own way. 249 00:14:01,380 --> 00:14:04,640 Take up your cross and follow me. 250 00:14:04,640 --> 00:14:11,840 So when we are dedicating ourselves to the Lord, he said to his disciples, take up your 251 00:14:11,840 --> 00:14:13,920 cross and follow me. 252 00:14:13,920 --> 00:14:20,760 Now we don't really get it, what that means or what it would have meant to the disciples 253 00:14:20,760 --> 00:14:30,120 that he said it to because the cross was a very big reality in their culture. 254 00:14:30,120 --> 00:14:37,120 They were, they were overtaken by the Romans and that, that was Rome's way of execution. 255 00:14:37,120 --> 00:14:44,720 So anybody that misbehaved was crucified in front of everybody, they'd hang them up right 256 00:14:44,720 --> 00:14:50,760 along the road so that everybody would see what, what happens to you. 257 00:14:50,760 --> 00:14:56,120 If you come against what we want you to do, you are going to die. 258 00:14:56,120 --> 00:14:59,920 And this is the horrible death you're going to die. 259 00:14:59,920 --> 00:15:05,060 Terrible suffering, terrible, terrible, just awful. 260 00:15:05,060 --> 00:15:09,560 So when Jesus said that to his disciples, they must have had a hard time wrapping their 261 00:15:09,560 --> 00:15:15,480 heads around it because they didn't realize at that time that he was going to be crucified. 262 00:15:15,480 --> 00:15:21,560 It made more sense later to them like, oh, oh, we have to take up our cross too. 263 00:15:21,560 --> 00:15:23,360 If anyone wants to be my disciple. 264 00:15:23,360 --> 00:15:31,640 So there's something deeper about discipleship that we don't necessarily get in our church 265 00:15:31,640 --> 00:15:36,240 culture about really laying our lives down. 266 00:15:36,240 --> 00:15:42,360 I remember when I turned 18 and I've told this story before, but it bears retelling. 267 00:15:42,360 --> 00:15:47,840 I think that just days after my 18th birthday, my sister told me that she wanted to take 268 00:15:47,840 --> 00:15:50,400 me out to lunch for my birthday. 269 00:15:50,400 --> 00:15:56,440 And she took me to a ladies luncheon where Gwen Shaw was the speaker. 270 00:15:56,440 --> 00:16:05,480 And while I'm listening to sister Gwen, I heard the Holy Spirit say to me, I want you, 271 00:16:05,480 --> 00:16:12,560 I want you 100% and I want you right now. 272 00:16:12,560 --> 00:16:14,640 It wasn't an ouch to me. 273 00:16:14,640 --> 00:16:18,640 It was something that made perfect sense in my spirit. 274 00:16:18,640 --> 00:16:21,040 And I didn't think about it very long. 275 00:16:21,040 --> 00:16:23,960 I just said, yes, because I knew it was God. 276 00:16:23,960 --> 00:16:27,420 I knew that this was God speaking to me. 277 00:16:27,420 --> 00:16:29,680 And so I just said, yes. 278 00:16:29,680 --> 00:16:35,720 And then, you know, as a little time went by, I kind of thought, well, I've already 279 00:16:35,720 --> 00:16:37,540 got a scholarship. 280 00:16:37,540 --> 00:16:43,480 I think I'll just go to college for one year and then I'll serve God. 281 00:16:43,480 --> 00:16:49,120 And then a few weeks later, I went to the first world convention of the end time handmaidens. 282 00:16:49,120 --> 00:16:50,640 So those events were that close. 283 00:16:50,640 --> 00:16:51,640 They were that close. 284 00:16:51,640 --> 00:16:52,640 Yeah. 285 00:16:52,640 --> 00:16:58,000 And my birthday is in April and Memorial Day weekend was the convention. 286 00:16:58,000 --> 00:16:59,640 So it was the end of May. 287 00:16:59,640 --> 00:17:00,960 And so it was very close. 288 00:17:00,960 --> 00:17:06,400 But you know, in that little time, I had said yes to God and then I waffled and didn't even 289 00:17:06,400 --> 00:17:08,140 realize I was waffling. 290 00:17:08,140 --> 00:17:14,920 It didn't dawn on me that when he said, I want you right now, meant right now. 291 00:17:14,920 --> 00:17:19,440 Somehow I thought I can, I can dawdle around for a year. 292 00:17:19,440 --> 00:17:20,440 Procrastination. 293 00:17:20,440 --> 00:17:23,280 I guess that's what it is, procrastination. 294 00:17:23,280 --> 00:17:28,400 So during that convention, I heard in my, no, I didn't even hear it in my spirit. 295 00:17:28,400 --> 00:17:30,720 I had a knowing in my knower. 296 00:17:30,720 --> 00:17:32,280 Nobody prophesied anything. 297 00:17:32,280 --> 00:17:39,400 It wasn't in words, but I had a knowing in my knower that if I went on to college, if 298 00:17:39,400 --> 00:17:46,040 I went on to that music school, I was not ever going to serve God. 299 00:17:46,040 --> 00:17:48,500 And so I surrendered again. 300 00:17:48,500 --> 00:17:57,000 And through the years, from time to time, I have had that thought come back to me about, 301 00:17:57,000 --> 00:17:59,880 I want you 100% and I want you right now. 302 00:17:59,880 --> 00:18:04,680 It's kind of like through the years, 100% has become more than it was at the beginning. 303 00:18:04,680 --> 00:18:07,360 And I don't know how to explain that. 304 00:18:07,360 --> 00:18:09,320 We've been in ministry for all these years. 305 00:18:09,320 --> 00:18:10,800 Can I do what I want to do now? 306 00:18:10,800 --> 00:18:13,200 Yeah, it, it, it, it isn't, it isn't that. 307 00:18:13,200 --> 00:18:14,200 It doesn't work that way. 308 00:18:14,200 --> 00:18:15,200 It does not work that way. 309 00:18:15,200 --> 00:18:21,680 Unconditional surrender means I don't have anything to say about this except yes. 310 00:18:21,680 --> 00:18:26,720 And you know, people can take that wrong and think that that's wrong, but it's the way 311 00:18:26,720 --> 00:18:28,520 that God worked it. 312 00:18:28,520 --> 00:18:33,960 It's the way that he planned for us to be able to work with him. 313 00:18:33,960 --> 00:18:37,680 And it only works to work with him when we do it his way. 314 00:18:37,680 --> 00:18:40,680 When we try to do it our way, it doesn't work. 315 00:18:40,680 --> 00:18:42,760 Yeah, that's, we found that out. 316 00:18:42,760 --> 00:18:43,760 Yeah, we found it out. 317 00:18:43,760 --> 00:18:46,160 We find that out many times too often. 318 00:18:46,160 --> 00:18:47,160 Yeah, it's true. 319 00:18:47,160 --> 00:18:48,280 So what, what happened to you? 320 00:18:48,280 --> 00:18:50,280 Where was your moment of surrender, Philip? 321 00:18:50,280 --> 00:18:55,800 Well, my moment of surrender, that's when, when everything is taken away that you call 322 00:18:55,800 --> 00:18:57,200 dear to yourself. 323 00:18:57,200 --> 00:19:00,040 Car got repossessed and was a start of it. 324 00:19:00,040 --> 00:19:05,920 Then in sports, I loved the bowl and my bowl, God, God took my bowling average away. 325 00:19:05,920 --> 00:19:10,160 I mean, he sovereignly just took it away where I couldn't win any money. 326 00:19:10,160 --> 00:19:11,920 And, and I just dropped. 327 00:19:11,920 --> 00:19:19,880 You know, when you drop hunt from a 180, I think it was 183 average to 167, that's disastrous. 328 00:19:19,880 --> 00:19:22,160 That's like for a bowler. 329 00:19:22,160 --> 00:19:24,480 That's like being on the bottom of the roster. 330 00:19:24,480 --> 00:19:26,640 You know, you know, you're not going to be on the team next year. 331 00:19:26,640 --> 00:19:30,120 You know, you know, it's serious. 332 00:19:30,120 --> 00:19:33,920 And then you have your, I lost, lost my job. 333 00:19:33,920 --> 00:19:39,080 Then my unemployment got cut off three months earlier than I realized. 334 00:19:39,080 --> 00:19:45,240 And I had to make a drastic move, but God orchestrated that whole thing for his glory. 335 00:19:45,240 --> 00:19:51,040 And within two weeks after that happened, I was on the course of where I was, what I 336 00:19:51,040 --> 00:19:52,600 needed to do. 337 00:19:52,600 --> 00:19:55,080 And what happened on Christmas Eve? 338 00:19:55,080 --> 00:19:56,760 That's when I met you. 339 00:19:56,760 --> 00:20:01,920 Yes, but, but, but the thought process that you went through when you're, when you're, 340 00:20:01,920 --> 00:20:05,000 when you asked your mom, where are you going at 10 30 at night? 341 00:20:05,000 --> 00:20:06,200 Where are you going? 342 00:20:06,200 --> 00:20:10,880 And she said, we're going down to Angle Tall to give gifts to the staff girls. 343 00:20:10,880 --> 00:20:12,680 And she said, do you want to go along? 344 00:20:12,680 --> 00:20:13,680 Yeah. 345 00:20:13,680 --> 00:20:19,000 So just quick nutshell, sister, Gwen, our founder, I knew her when I was about 12 years 346 00:20:19,000 --> 00:20:23,560 old in the mid sixties in Chicago and my mom was her best friend. 347 00:20:23,560 --> 00:20:24,920 So she would come over a lot. 348 00:20:24,920 --> 00:20:30,560 My mom would go there, but you know, my teenage years, I start to backslide. 349 00:20:30,560 --> 00:20:32,440 And so I started avoiding sister Gwen. 350 00:20:32,440 --> 00:20:33,840 I mean, I just stay away. 351 00:20:33,840 --> 00:20:38,400 I mean, I get dragged to our meetings because I lived under the roof of the house, but I 352 00:20:38,400 --> 00:20:40,800 always try to sit in a safe place. 353 00:20:40,800 --> 00:20:41,800 In the back row. 354 00:20:41,800 --> 00:20:42,800 Yeah. 355 00:20:42,800 --> 00:20:46,560 If you can find a post and sit behind it, that's a nice thing too, you know, and all 356 00:20:46,560 --> 00:20:47,560 that. 357 00:20:47,560 --> 00:20:49,200 And so I avoided her for years. 358 00:20:49,200 --> 00:20:51,800 And so now I'm 26 years old. 359 00:20:51,800 --> 00:20:56,400 And I thought, as Sharon said, you know, well, it's 10 30 at night. 360 00:20:56,400 --> 00:20:57,400 It's Christmas Eve. 361 00:20:57,400 --> 00:21:00,040 There won't be a real holy roller prayer meeting going on. 362 00:21:00,040 --> 00:21:01,040 I'm a big boy now. 363 00:21:01,040 --> 00:21:02,640 You know, I need to face the music. 364 00:21:02,640 --> 00:21:03,640 I'm an adult. 365 00:21:03,640 --> 00:21:05,320 You know, I think that was a surrender. 366 00:21:05,320 --> 00:21:06,720 That was a surrender. 367 00:21:06,720 --> 00:21:11,800 And so I went down the hill and Sharon's the one that opened the door. 368 00:21:11,800 --> 00:21:13,280 And that's a whole nother story. 369 00:21:13,280 --> 00:21:16,920 And we can put a link to that story in the show notes. 370 00:21:16,920 --> 00:21:18,520 And I've never was the same since. 371 00:21:18,520 --> 00:21:19,520 Yeah. 372 00:21:19,520 --> 00:21:21,280 And then you stayed for another extra week. 373 00:21:21,280 --> 00:21:22,640 I stayed an extra week. 374 00:21:22,640 --> 00:21:25,520 Ended up helping in the print shop. 375 00:21:25,520 --> 00:21:29,320 And Sharon was working in the print shop of the ministry. 376 00:21:29,320 --> 00:21:30,980 She had taken it over. 377 00:21:30,980 --> 00:21:34,620 So I was helping that a little bit in the last second week. 378 00:21:34,620 --> 00:21:36,600 And I felt this is where I'm supposed to be. 379 00:21:36,600 --> 00:21:38,560 I had a real piece. 380 00:21:38,560 --> 00:21:43,320 You know, when you're uncomfortable, if things aren't going right, you feel depressed. 381 00:21:43,320 --> 00:21:48,440 You know, that's a normal thing, it seems like anxiety, you know, this, this, that and 382 00:21:48,440 --> 00:21:50,920 all that stuff just left. 383 00:21:50,920 --> 00:21:54,120 And just like I know, this is where I'm supposed to be. 384 00:21:54,120 --> 00:21:59,840 Went back home, started a 21 day fast, wrap my whole life up in the city. 385 00:21:59,840 --> 00:22:02,560 And that actually went an extra seven days. 386 00:22:02,560 --> 00:22:03,560 And that's in the story. 387 00:22:03,560 --> 00:22:12,720 It has to 28 days and got catapulted as a green, what do you call a newbie in the ministry? 388 00:22:12,720 --> 00:22:14,880 Yeah, it's true. 389 00:22:14,880 --> 00:22:17,360 And it was just surrender after surrender. 390 00:22:17,360 --> 00:22:18,360 Yeah. 391 00:22:18,360 --> 00:22:19,360 How many times have you surrendered? 392 00:22:19,360 --> 00:22:21,000 And it's still surrender. 393 00:22:21,000 --> 00:22:24,160 We still have like daily surrenders. 394 00:22:24,160 --> 00:22:26,680 What Paul said, I die daily. 395 00:22:26,680 --> 00:22:27,680 Or I surrender daily. 396 00:22:27,680 --> 00:22:29,680 Yeah, I think that's a good way to say it too. 397 00:22:29,680 --> 00:22:32,200 That's a good way to say it. 398 00:22:32,200 --> 00:22:37,200 Proverbs three, five and six says, trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not 399 00:22:37,200 --> 00:22:42,680 on your own understanding and all your ways acknowledge him and he shall direct your paths. 400 00:22:42,680 --> 00:22:47,920 If you want God to direct your paths, it's that acknowledging of him and surrendering 401 00:22:47,920 --> 00:22:55,680 to him, letting go of the way you think and saying, okay, Lord, I'll do it your way. 402 00:22:55,680 --> 00:22:56,680 Yeah. 403 00:22:56,680 --> 00:23:00,360 And Psalms nine, 10, this is in the new King James version. 404 00:23:00,360 --> 00:23:06,560 And those who know your name will put their trust in you for you Lord have not forsaken 405 00:23:06,560 --> 00:23:10,800 those who seek you or that be for you, Yehovah. 406 00:23:10,800 --> 00:23:14,480 I have not forsaken those who seek you. 407 00:23:14,480 --> 00:23:15,480 Yes. 408 00:23:15,480 --> 00:23:19,240 So trusting is a part of surrender. 409 00:23:19,240 --> 00:23:20,720 That's where the grace is. 410 00:23:20,720 --> 00:23:27,600 The grace to trust comes into you and gives you the grace to surrender where you just 411 00:23:27,600 --> 00:23:30,280 say, okay, I'm done. 412 00:23:30,280 --> 00:23:31,280 I give it to you. 413 00:23:31,280 --> 00:23:32,280 You lay it down. 414 00:23:32,280 --> 00:23:33,720 You lay down your life. 415 00:23:33,720 --> 00:23:38,400 It's part of the humbling yourself in the side of the Lord where you're surrendering. 416 00:23:38,400 --> 00:23:40,200 You're saying, okay, your way. 417 00:23:40,200 --> 00:23:42,960 And his way is always better than our ways. 418 00:23:42,960 --> 00:23:43,960 I mean, always. 419 00:23:43,960 --> 00:23:46,600 Amazing how that works. 420 00:23:46,600 --> 00:23:50,920 That's because his ways are so much higher than our ways and he can see from a whole 421 00:23:50,920 --> 00:23:53,360 different perspective than we can. 422 00:23:53,360 --> 00:24:00,640 We're down here groveling among the caterpillars and he's up there above the heavens, above 423 00:24:00,640 --> 00:24:02,400 the cosmos. 424 00:24:02,400 --> 00:24:07,320 And he knows all about the best way for this to go. 425 00:24:07,320 --> 00:24:09,620 And he makes arrangements for that. 426 00:24:09,620 --> 00:24:18,400 So Jesus in Luke 9, 22 to 26, Philip, would you read that from the Passion Translation? 427 00:24:18,400 --> 00:24:24,600 The Son of Man is destined to experience great suffering and face complete rejection by the 428 00:24:24,600 --> 00:24:27,720 Jewish leaders and religious hierarchy. 429 00:24:27,720 --> 00:24:32,280 He will be killed and raised back to life on the third day. 430 00:24:32,280 --> 00:24:38,320 Jesus said to all his followers, if you truly desire to be my disciple, you must disown 431 00:24:38,320 --> 00:24:45,160 your life completely, embrace my cross as your own and surrender to my ways. 432 00:24:45,160 --> 00:24:50,880 For if you choose self-sacrifice, giving up your lives for my glory, you will discover 433 00:24:50,880 --> 00:24:52,520 true life. 434 00:24:52,520 --> 00:24:57,840 But if you choose to keep your lives for yourselves, you will lose what you try to keep. 435 00:24:57,840 --> 00:25:02,320 Even if you gained all the wealth and power of this world and all the things it could 436 00:25:02,320 --> 00:25:07,320 offer you, yet lost your soul in the process, what good is that? 437 00:25:07,320 --> 00:25:10,960 So why then are you ashamed of being my disciple? 438 00:25:10,960 --> 00:25:14,080 Are you ashamed of the revelation and truth I give to you? 439 00:25:14,080 --> 00:25:20,360 I, the Son of Man, will one day return in my radiant brightness with the Holy Angels 440 00:25:20,360 --> 00:25:24,360 and in the splendor and majesty of my Father. 441 00:25:24,360 --> 00:25:28,840 On that day I will be ashamed of everyone who has been ashamed of me. 442 00:25:28,840 --> 00:25:29,840 Yeah. 443 00:25:29,840 --> 00:25:32,780 So that's what happens if we don't surrender. 444 00:25:32,780 --> 00:25:41,240 If for some reason because of our pride or because of our fear, we choose not to obey. 445 00:25:41,240 --> 00:25:43,720 It has to do with shaming him, really. 446 00:25:43,720 --> 00:25:46,560 We're shaming him when we do that. 447 00:25:46,560 --> 00:25:52,960 So the Lord is trying to help us to understand what it means to take up our cross, what it 448 00:25:52,960 --> 00:25:54,920 means to lay down our lives. 449 00:25:54,920 --> 00:25:57,560 A really good example is Peter. 450 00:25:57,560 --> 00:25:58,800 You know, yes. 451 00:25:58,800 --> 00:26:06,600 In John 13, where Jesus and his disciples are in the upper room for the Passover. 452 00:26:06,600 --> 00:26:12,600 And the way that it works is if there's not a servant, then the person who has the least 453 00:26:12,600 --> 00:26:17,240 seat at the table is supposed to wash the people's feet. 454 00:26:17,240 --> 00:26:20,560 Don't you think Peter felt kind of rejected being put there? 455 00:26:20,560 --> 00:26:21,560 Yes. 456 00:26:21,560 --> 00:26:22,560 It's obvious. 457 00:26:22,560 --> 00:26:28,200 If you understand the way that that was done in those days, it was done at what's called 458 00:26:28,200 --> 00:26:29,200 a triclinium. 459 00:26:29,200 --> 00:26:37,480 In other words, it's three tables or it's tables in a U shape that they recline at. 460 00:26:37,480 --> 00:26:38,760 So it's a triclinium. 461 00:26:38,760 --> 00:26:42,560 They're reclining in this three table situation. 462 00:26:42,560 --> 00:26:50,000 And the only way for the conversation that went on would be Jesus would be on the side 463 00:26:50,000 --> 00:26:56,800 where he would kind of be facing the wall and his back to others. 464 00:26:56,800 --> 00:26:59,240 And John would be next to him. 465 00:26:59,240 --> 00:27:02,600 And when they would feed one, they would feed one another as a part of this. 466 00:27:02,600 --> 00:27:08,600 And they would dip into the bowl and lean back on the chest of the person next to them 467 00:27:08,600 --> 00:27:12,400 and give them something to eat, which is what Jesus did for Judas. 468 00:27:12,400 --> 00:27:16,280 So we know that it was John and then Jesus and then Judas. 469 00:27:16,280 --> 00:27:22,240 And when Jesus said, one of you is going to betray me, the only way for John and Peter 470 00:27:22,240 --> 00:27:28,240 to have had that little connection where Peter's saying, ask him who it is. 471 00:27:28,240 --> 00:27:30,120 He maybe made a signal to it. 472 00:27:30,120 --> 00:27:31,120 Yeah. 473 00:27:31,120 --> 00:27:32,120 Maybe just mouthed it. 474 00:27:32,120 --> 00:27:33,120 Or just mouthed it. 475 00:27:33,120 --> 00:27:37,080 And the only way for them to see each other would be if Peter was in that least place 476 00:27:37,080 --> 00:27:44,000 on the other end of the triclinium, on the third side. 477 00:27:44,000 --> 00:27:49,040 So Peter was supposed to wash the feet of the disciples. 478 00:27:49,040 --> 00:27:56,000 And when Jesus got up and girded himself with a towel and went around and washed everybody's 479 00:27:56,000 --> 00:27:58,880 feet, Peter was the last one he got to. 480 00:27:58,880 --> 00:28:04,060 And Peter says, Lord, you're not going to wash my feet because he knew he was supposed 481 00:28:04,060 --> 00:28:06,880 to have washed everybody's feet and he didn't. 482 00:28:06,880 --> 00:28:12,760 So Jesus said to him, you do not understand now what I'm doing, but you will understand 483 00:28:12,760 --> 00:28:14,280 later on. 484 00:28:14,280 --> 00:28:16,840 And Peter said, you'll never wash my feet. 485 00:28:16,840 --> 00:28:20,360 He said, unless I wash you, you have no part in me. 486 00:28:20,360 --> 00:28:23,240 You have no share in my companionship with me. 487 00:28:23,240 --> 00:28:26,220 This is from the Amplified Classic. 488 00:28:26,220 --> 00:28:32,520 So then later on in that chapter, in chapter 13, Peter says to Jesus, Lord, where are you 489 00:28:32,520 --> 00:28:34,040 going? 490 00:28:34,040 --> 00:28:38,560 Jesus answered, you are not able to follow me now where I'm going, but you shall follow 491 00:28:38,560 --> 00:28:40,460 me afterwards. 492 00:28:40,460 --> 00:28:44,720 Peter said to him, Lord, why cannot I follow you now? 493 00:28:44,720 --> 00:28:47,200 I will lay down my life for you. 494 00:28:47,200 --> 00:28:50,120 Jesus answered, will you really lay down your life for me? 495 00:28:50,120 --> 00:28:55,040 I assure you most solemnly, I tell you before a rooster crows, you will deny me, completely 496 00:28:55,040 --> 00:28:57,760 disown me three times. 497 00:28:57,760 --> 00:29:02,400 So this is losing face in front of over and over for me. 498 00:29:02,400 --> 00:29:05,260 I mean, he's already in the servant seat. 499 00:29:05,260 --> 00:29:08,120 And after all, he's one of the chosen, right? 500 00:29:08,120 --> 00:29:11,040 Peter, James, Peter, James and John. 501 00:29:11,040 --> 00:29:12,640 He was first on the list. 502 00:29:12,640 --> 00:29:16,680 He saw the transfiguration of Jesus. 503 00:29:16,680 --> 00:29:17,680 He's one of the top boys. 504 00:29:17,680 --> 00:29:18,680 Yes, he is. 505 00:29:18,680 --> 00:29:20,920 And all of a sudden he's in the servant seat. 506 00:29:20,920 --> 00:29:22,400 Yes, he's in the servant seat. 507 00:29:22,400 --> 00:29:23,400 He doesn't do his job. 508 00:29:23,400 --> 00:29:24,400 And he's not comfortable. 509 00:29:24,400 --> 00:29:27,480 Well, why should I do this job when I'm one of the? 510 00:29:27,480 --> 00:29:30,160 Yeah, I'm going to be the big guy after this. 511 00:29:30,160 --> 00:29:34,400 It's like cleaning the toilets just after you've been put in as assistant pastor. 512 00:29:34,400 --> 00:29:35,400 Exactly. 513 00:29:35,400 --> 00:29:36,400 Exactly. 514 00:29:36,400 --> 00:29:40,560 So, you know, Peter had this want to, to give his life for Jesus. 515 00:29:40,560 --> 00:29:43,280 He was bold in his words. 516 00:29:43,280 --> 00:29:45,960 He was bold in his spirit. 517 00:29:45,960 --> 00:29:48,400 But his flesh had a problem. 518 00:29:48,400 --> 00:29:51,360 His flesh said, no. 519 00:29:51,360 --> 00:29:56,880 And then he had this blunder where he, he lopped off the ear of the high priest servant 520 00:29:56,880 --> 00:29:59,400 and Jesus healed him and said, no, put it away. 521 00:29:59,400 --> 00:30:01,160 This isn't the time for that. 522 00:30:01,160 --> 00:30:04,960 So you know, it's just like slam after slam after slam. 523 00:30:04,960 --> 00:30:09,080 And so his, his whole soul has been wounded in this time. 524 00:30:09,080 --> 00:30:11,800 And then he gets to where he's being challenged. 525 00:30:11,800 --> 00:30:12,800 Oh, you're one of them. 526 00:30:12,800 --> 00:30:14,320 He says, no, I'm not. 527 00:30:14,320 --> 00:30:16,680 I don't know that man. 528 00:30:16,680 --> 00:30:23,880 Three times he denies him and Jesus looks at him as if to say, I told you so. 529 00:30:23,880 --> 00:30:26,680 You know, so he went through all of these things. 530 00:30:26,680 --> 00:30:32,060 This is, this is where you don't have the grace to surrender. 531 00:30:32,060 --> 00:30:38,120 But then when Jesus came back, when he was resurrected from the dead, he meets the disciples 532 00:30:38,120 --> 00:30:47,920 in Galilee and in chapter 21 of John, Jesus meets them with fresh fish cooking for breakfast. 533 00:30:47,920 --> 00:30:51,720 And he says to Peter, do you love me? 534 00:30:51,720 --> 00:30:54,680 And in that word, he used, he uses the word agape. 535 00:30:54,680 --> 00:30:56,660 Do you agape me? 536 00:30:56,660 --> 00:31:00,960 And Peter says, you know that I feelio you, you know that I'm buddy buddy with you. 537 00:31:00,960 --> 00:31:02,720 You're my friend. 538 00:31:02,720 --> 00:31:05,720 And Jesus says, feed my lambs. 539 00:31:05,720 --> 00:31:07,120 You can handle that much. 540 00:31:07,120 --> 00:31:08,440 Feed my lambs. 541 00:31:08,440 --> 00:31:09,440 And then he says it again. 542 00:31:09,440 --> 00:31:11,000 Do you agape me? 543 00:31:11,000 --> 00:31:15,160 And he says, Lord, you know, I'm your friend. 544 00:31:15,160 --> 00:31:18,240 And then he says, feed my sheep. 545 00:31:18,240 --> 00:31:21,520 And then he says, now, Peter, do you really feelio me? 546 00:31:21,520 --> 00:31:23,000 Are you really my buddy? 547 00:31:23,000 --> 00:31:29,880 Peter's grieved now because now Jesus has brought the bar down. 548 00:31:29,880 --> 00:31:33,720 You know, the bar, the high bar is the agape love. 549 00:31:33,720 --> 00:31:35,240 And it was the third time too. 550 00:31:35,240 --> 00:31:37,120 Yeah, and it was the third time. 551 00:31:37,120 --> 00:31:39,920 And so he's saying, so are you really my buddy? 552 00:31:39,920 --> 00:31:42,280 Are you really my friend? 553 00:31:42,280 --> 00:31:45,240 Now Peter's grieved and he says, you know that I love you. 554 00:31:45,240 --> 00:31:47,400 You know that I feelio you. 555 00:31:47,400 --> 00:31:51,960 And he says in verse 18, this is from the Amplified Classic. 556 00:31:51,960 --> 00:31:58,720 I assure you most solemnly, I tell you when you were young, you girded yourself, put on 557 00:31:58,720 --> 00:32:04,000 your own belt or girdle and you walked wherever you pleased to go. 558 00:32:04,000 --> 00:32:08,160 But when you grow old, you will stretch out your hands and someone else will put a girdle 559 00:32:08,160 --> 00:32:11,640 around you and carry you where you do not wish to go. 560 00:32:11,640 --> 00:32:15,760 He said this to indicate by what kind of death Peter would glorify God. 561 00:32:15,760 --> 00:32:19,240 And after this, he said to him, follow me. 562 00:32:19,240 --> 00:32:21,520 Well that's what he said to him in the first place. 563 00:32:21,520 --> 00:32:26,580 And it's like, okay, Peter, you had a really bad day. 564 00:32:26,580 --> 00:32:28,220 It's time to get over it. 565 00:32:28,220 --> 00:32:29,560 Come and follow me. 566 00:32:29,560 --> 00:32:30,560 Just follow me. 567 00:32:30,560 --> 00:32:35,840 That's what happens whenever we blunder, whenever we have a problem. 568 00:32:35,840 --> 00:32:38,820 And we did a whole podcast about the blunder. 569 00:32:38,820 --> 00:32:41,640 We can maybe put a link to that in the show notes. 570 00:32:41,640 --> 00:32:45,840 The thing that made the difference for Peter was when he was filled with the Holy Spirit 571 00:32:45,840 --> 00:32:47,080 on the day of Pentecost. 572 00:32:47,080 --> 00:32:48,760 And then the preacher came out. 573 00:32:48,760 --> 00:32:49,760 Yeah, yeah. 574 00:32:49,760 --> 00:32:51,240 Talk about a transformation. 575 00:32:51,240 --> 00:32:53,480 It was a transformation. 576 00:32:53,480 --> 00:32:59,720 The soulish Peter had surrendered and gone back to follow him again. 577 00:32:59,720 --> 00:33:04,880 The idea is that every time you blunder, you get up quickly and you go back and you follow. 578 00:33:04,880 --> 00:33:10,480 When you're trying to maintain a sense of the presence of the Lord and you realize, 579 00:33:10,480 --> 00:33:12,080 oops, I'm not thinking about him. 580 00:33:12,080 --> 00:33:13,200 I better come back. 581 00:33:13,200 --> 00:33:14,200 You just come back. 582 00:33:14,200 --> 00:33:16,040 You just come back fast. 583 00:33:16,040 --> 00:33:17,260 Come back quickly. 584 00:33:17,260 --> 00:33:21,200 And it's not like the Lord holds that against you when you've missed it. 585 00:33:21,200 --> 00:33:26,880 When you repent, he forgives you and you just go back to following. 586 00:33:26,880 --> 00:33:31,680 So Peter, in the book of Acts, he was filled with the Holy Spirit and he became bold. 587 00:33:31,680 --> 00:33:34,000 There was a boldness that came on him. 588 00:33:34,000 --> 00:33:35,880 And that gives you the grace. 589 00:33:35,880 --> 00:33:38,920 The grace and the boldness comes from the Holy Spirit. 590 00:33:38,920 --> 00:33:43,580 The Holy Spirit in you will give you that grace and boldness. 591 00:33:43,580 --> 00:33:45,600 And Peter was arrested three times. 592 00:33:45,600 --> 00:33:46,600 Yeah. 593 00:33:46,600 --> 00:33:47,600 Three times. 594 00:33:47,600 --> 00:33:49,600 And he got to rescue by an angel. 595 00:33:49,600 --> 00:33:51,240 Yeah, the third time. 596 00:33:51,240 --> 00:33:54,240 I think all the times he got rescued. 597 00:33:54,240 --> 00:33:58,560 I mean, God just sovereignly rescued him every single time. 598 00:33:58,560 --> 00:34:04,560 So yeah, so if God has spoken a plan over your life, you know, that as long as you're 599 00:34:04,560 --> 00:34:08,080 walking and surrendering to him, he'll make sure you get there. 600 00:34:08,080 --> 00:34:09,080 Absolutely. 601 00:34:09,080 --> 00:34:13,160 And Peter had to lay his life down by way of crucifixion. 602 00:34:13,160 --> 00:34:20,720 There's a legend or a story that was told in the early church that Peter went to Rome 603 00:34:20,720 --> 00:34:26,880 and when he got there, I don't know how long he was there if it's even true, because it's 604 00:34:26,880 --> 00:34:30,620 not recorded in the Bible, but it's according to tradition. 605 00:34:30,620 --> 00:34:35,120 He was there and persecution was on its way to him. 606 00:34:35,120 --> 00:34:41,280 They were after him and he was fleeing from Rome on the Appian Way. 607 00:34:41,280 --> 00:34:48,040 And the story goes that as he's walking away from Rome, he sees Jesus, he meets Jesus on 608 00:34:48,040 --> 00:34:49,040 the road. 609 00:34:49,040 --> 00:34:51,240 He says, Jesus, where are you going? 610 00:34:51,240 --> 00:34:55,120 Col vadis is what they say in Latin. 611 00:34:55,120 --> 00:34:56,440 Where are you going? 612 00:34:56,440 --> 00:35:00,520 And Jesus says, I'm on my way to Rome to be crucified again. 613 00:35:00,520 --> 00:35:04,280 And Peter realized that, okay, this is my time. 614 00:35:04,280 --> 00:35:06,280 I'm going back. 615 00:35:06,280 --> 00:35:08,800 I'm going to surrender my life. 616 00:35:08,800 --> 00:35:12,340 I'm not going to deny him again. 617 00:35:12,340 --> 00:35:15,360 I'm going to go and be crucified with him. 618 00:35:15,360 --> 00:35:19,400 And so he went back and he was apprehended. 619 00:35:19,400 --> 00:35:24,640 And when it came time for his execution, he said, I am not worthy to be crucified the 620 00:35:24,640 --> 00:35:30,520 same way that my Lord was, crucify me upside down. 621 00:35:30,520 --> 00:35:32,280 And that's how he laid down his life. 622 00:35:32,280 --> 00:35:39,120 That point is that it's the surrender that comes when you yield to the power of the Holy 623 00:35:39,120 --> 00:35:41,360 Spirit in your life. 624 00:35:41,360 --> 00:35:48,120 And you just give your life because if Jesus is worth living for, he's worth dying for. 625 00:35:48,120 --> 00:35:54,440 And it just means giving him all of your life, letting him deal with how your life is going 626 00:35:54,440 --> 00:35:59,520 to end here on this planet and continue in heaven. 627 00:35:59,520 --> 00:36:03,520 Hebrews chapter two, verses 14 and 15. 628 00:36:03,520 --> 00:36:07,760 Philip, would you read that in the passion translation? 629 00:36:07,760 --> 00:36:13,200 Since all his children have flesh and blood, so Jesus became human to fully identify with 630 00:36:13,200 --> 00:36:14,520 us. 631 00:36:14,520 --> 00:36:19,640 He did this so that he could experience death and annihilate the effects of the intimidating 632 00:36:19,640 --> 00:36:24,380 accuser who holds against us the power of death. 633 00:36:24,380 --> 00:36:30,200 By embracing death, Jesus sets free those who live their entire lives in bondage to 634 00:36:30,200 --> 00:36:32,760 the tormenting dread of death. 635 00:36:32,760 --> 00:36:34,040 Yeah. 636 00:36:34,040 --> 00:36:39,120 The same scripture in the Amplified Classic says, since therefore these his children share 637 00:36:39,120 --> 00:36:44,680 in flesh and blood, in the physical nature of human beings, he himself in a similar manner 638 00:36:44,680 --> 00:36:50,040 partook of the same nature that by going through death, he might bring to naught and make of 639 00:36:50,040 --> 00:36:54,980 no effect him who had the power of death, that is the devil. 640 00:36:54,980 --> 00:37:00,800 And also that he might deliver and completely set free all those who through the haunting 641 00:37:00,800 --> 00:37:05,800 fear of death were held in bondage throughout the whole course of their lives. 642 00:37:05,800 --> 00:37:11,640 The point here is that the fear of death keeps you in bondage. 643 00:37:11,640 --> 00:37:14,760 So fear has to be surrendered. 644 00:37:14,760 --> 00:37:16,380 You have to surrender your fear. 645 00:37:16,380 --> 00:37:18,340 You have to surrender your anxiety. 646 00:37:18,340 --> 00:37:24,320 You have to give it to him as you even get grace from him to give it to him. 647 00:37:24,320 --> 00:37:29,560 He gives you the grace to go through whatever it is you have to go through. 648 00:37:29,560 --> 00:37:34,440 Whether it's a simple choice in life where you end up doing something you don't want 649 00:37:34,440 --> 00:37:35,440 to do. 650 00:37:35,440 --> 00:37:36,560 He gives you the grace for that. 651 00:37:36,560 --> 00:37:42,200 Or whether it comes to that ultimate sacrifice of your life where, okay, this is how I'm 652 00:37:42,200 --> 00:37:43,680 going to go to heaven. 653 00:37:43,680 --> 00:37:48,200 I love what Dean Braxton says about death for the Christian. 654 00:37:48,200 --> 00:37:52,040 It is you leave your body and your body dies. 655 00:37:52,040 --> 00:37:57,360 And we've heard story after story of people who have had visions of those who have laid 656 00:37:57,360 --> 00:38:02,800 down their lives for the Lord or just laid down their lives in an accident even. 657 00:38:02,800 --> 00:38:11,000 And the one who has the vision sees the person leave their body before the accident happens. 658 00:38:11,000 --> 00:38:15,960 We heard of somebody having that kind of a vision when they were praying about a friend 659 00:38:15,960 --> 00:38:18,280 who lost their life on 9-11. 660 00:38:18,280 --> 00:38:24,560 And she saw that lady who always came early to work to pray and she was standing in front 661 00:38:24,560 --> 00:38:28,920 of the window praying as the airplane was coming. 662 00:38:28,920 --> 00:38:35,600 And she saw that an angel came and took her out of her body before the airplane got there. 663 00:38:35,600 --> 00:38:41,360 And this is part of the grace that comes with laying down your life. 664 00:38:41,360 --> 00:38:43,360 I love what Jim Elliott said. 665 00:38:43,360 --> 00:38:49,400 Jim Elliott was one of the five missionaries in Ecuador in the 1950s that were martyred 666 00:38:49,400 --> 00:38:54,440 because they were trying to reach the Stone Age tribe that had never been reached with 667 00:38:54,440 --> 00:38:57,400 the gospel and they were pretty fierce tribe. 668 00:38:57,400 --> 00:39:03,480 And on that particular day something had happened to cause them to be really, really angry. 669 00:39:03,480 --> 00:39:06,400 And these missionaries had landed there. 670 00:39:06,400 --> 00:39:12,400 They had reached out many times sending gifts and it seemed like they were ready for a connection 671 00:39:12,400 --> 00:39:14,280 with these people. 672 00:39:14,280 --> 00:39:19,200 But an incident had happened to make this man really, really angry. 673 00:39:19,200 --> 00:39:24,360 And he got there and speared Nate Saint. 674 00:39:24,360 --> 00:39:26,080 He was the first one to go down. 675 00:39:26,080 --> 00:39:33,480 And then later when some of the wives and children of these men had gone to that tribe 676 00:39:33,480 --> 00:39:37,320 and brought them the gospel and many were getting saved and turning their lives over 677 00:39:37,320 --> 00:39:42,400 to Jesus, this man who had killed Nate Saint, and I don't know if he killed all of them, 678 00:39:42,400 --> 00:39:47,360 but he killed the first one and that just lit the other guys up to kill everybody. 679 00:39:47,360 --> 00:39:56,280 So he came under conviction of the Holy Spirit and he stepped up to become like a dad to 680 00:39:56,280 --> 00:40:00,040 Nate Saint's son, Stephen. 681 00:40:00,040 --> 00:40:03,400 And he wrote a book about it called The End of the Spear and they made a movie from the 682 00:40:03,400 --> 00:40:04,400 book. 683 00:40:04,400 --> 00:40:09,160 So you can see the movie or you can read the book, tremendous, tremendous story. 684 00:40:09,160 --> 00:40:18,120 But it was a life surrender that these five gave that they paid the ultimate price from 685 00:40:18,120 --> 00:40:20,120 our point of view. 686 00:40:20,120 --> 00:40:25,320 But what it did was it brought the entire tribe to Jesus. 687 00:40:25,320 --> 00:40:32,700 So laying down your life, as long as you have given your fear of death to the Lord, He's 688 00:40:32,700 --> 00:40:39,200 going to give you the grace to be able to lay down your life and to give you what it 689 00:40:39,200 --> 00:40:42,320 takes to have that full surrender. 690 00:40:42,320 --> 00:40:47,140 So it's that daily surrender, daily surrender, daily surrender. 691 00:40:47,140 --> 00:40:56,200 So Father, we ask you to give the listeners that grace to say yes to you, to say, yes, 692 00:40:56,200 --> 00:40:57,980 I will give myself 100%. 693 00:40:57,980 --> 00:41:00,680 I will give myself unconditionally. 694 00:41:00,680 --> 00:41:06,360 I will not keep my conditions like I will do this if you do that, but to lay down our 695 00:41:06,360 --> 00:41:12,320 lives unconditionally so that you can do everything that you want to do through us. 696 00:41:12,320 --> 00:41:19,600 It's that kind of unconditional surrender, Lord, that will cause us to be fillable, that 697 00:41:19,600 --> 00:41:24,500 you can fill us with your purposes, that you can fill us with your light and your life 698 00:41:24,500 --> 00:41:30,720 and your love to give freely even to those who would persecute us. 699 00:41:30,720 --> 00:41:39,400 Lord, we ask you for that overwhelming, overflowing grace to go into each listener, Lord, and 700 00:41:39,400 --> 00:41:44,560 bring each and every one into a deeper relationship with you. 701 00:41:44,560 --> 00:41:50,280 That is that agape love that is more than just being a buddy, but that kind of love 702 00:41:50,280 --> 00:41:55,920 that totally surrenders to you in the name of Jesus Christ. 703 00:41:55,920 --> 00:41:56,920 Amen. 704 00:41:56,920 --> 00:41:57,920 Amen. 705 00:41:57,920 --> 00:42:07,940 If you enjoyed today's podcast, please subscribe, rate, and review this podcast on Apple Podcasts 706 00:42:07,940 --> 00:42:10,520 or wherever you listen to podcasts. 707 00:42:10,520 --> 00:42:15,040 Your review helps the podcasting platform suggest this podcast to other listeners who 708 00:42:15,040 --> 00:42:18,620 are also looking for a great move of the Holy Spirit. 709 00:42:18,620 --> 00:42:23,920 Check out our website at globaloutpouring.org to find out more information, read our blogs, 710 00:42:23,920 --> 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