WEBVTT 00:00:01.639 --> 00:00:10.660 Guys is this thing on? What is up besties it 00:00:10.660 --> 00:00:13.660 is your host Zoe and I am back with another freaking 00:00:13.660 --> 00:00:17.420 episode on the did I over share podcast today 00:00:17.420 --> 00:00:22.679 How are the girls doing? How are the guys doing? 00:00:22.739 --> 00:00:26.359 How is everybody doing? Right like the world 00:00:26.359 --> 00:00:29.140 is hectic. I know there is a lot going on right 00:00:29.140 --> 00:00:31.300 now And I hope you guys are doing good through 00:00:31.300 --> 00:00:35.240 it all you know having fun Smiling the Sun's 00:00:35.240 --> 00:00:38.000 finally starting to come out, so that's good 00:00:38.000 --> 00:00:43.100 Yeah, I really have no news to get into today 00:00:43.100 --> 00:00:47.520 other than the episode so If you end up liking 00:00:47.520 --> 00:00:50.259 today's episode, leave a rating and a review. 00:00:50.420 --> 00:00:52.320 I love those. I love your guys' comments. I love 00:00:52.320 --> 00:00:55.979 talking to you guys. Follow... Did I overshare 00:00:55.979 --> 00:00:58.320 on Instagram and TikTok? All the links will be 00:00:58.320 --> 00:01:01.359 below. And my personal page, of course, z -o 00:01:01.359 --> 00:01:05.980 -e -e -x -e -e. And today's topic is, I want 00:01:05.980 --> 00:01:09.159 to be so many things in life, and I decided I 00:01:09.159 --> 00:01:12.819 will be. Right and this really was kind of a 00:01:12.819 --> 00:01:16.040 brain dump of a topic I've been thinking about 00:01:16.040 --> 00:01:18.879 just because I feel like I'm that person more 00:01:18.879 --> 00:01:22.040 like I want to be a surgeon But I also want to 00:01:22.040 --> 00:01:25.599 be a teacher. I also just want to live in a van 00:01:25.599 --> 00:01:27.859 and explore There's so many things I want to 00:01:27.859 --> 00:01:31.920 do and I can I can't fully grasp All of them 00:01:31.920 --> 00:01:35.519 like I want to in this one life Like I could 00:01:35.519 --> 00:01:38.500 learn a little bit and dip my toes into each 00:01:38.500 --> 00:01:41.659 one, of course But I couldn't dedicate myself 00:01:41.659 --> 00:01:44.180 to this work, right? And I really wish I could. 00:01:44.599 --> 00:01:48.359 I really wish I could. But, you know, we can't. 00:01:48.980 --> 00:01:51.840 And do you, like me, ever think that you want 00:01:51.840 --> 00:01:54.400 to be so many different things and go into so 00:01:54.400 --> 00:01:57.439 many different careers and so much more but feel 00:01:57.439 --> 00:02:00.659 like we're constrained? Truly, I want to be a 00:02:00.659 --> 00:02:04.239 writer, a podcaster, a mother, a wife, travel 00:02:04.239 --> 00:02:08.020 the world, a doctor, musician, artist, herbalist, 00:02:08.240 --> 00:02:11.280 therapist, bookshop owner, cafe owner, a cat 00:02:11.280 --> 00:02:14.039 rescuer. Oh, I think about that one a lot. And 00:02:14.039 --> 00:02:17.780 so much different shit. Like, if I could, I would 00:02:17.780 --> 00:02:19.620 just stay in college to learn about different 00:02:19.620 --> 00:02:24.120 things. I would want to learn and grow into so 00:02:24.120 --> 00:02:28.740 many different people, things, places. so much. 00:02:28.979 --> 00:02:31.120 And yes, maybe I can't fully engulf myself in 00:02:31.120 --> 00:02:33.800 certain things, right? But I can learn and I 00:02:33.800 --> 00:02:35.699 can teach myself and I can have knowledge of 00:02:35.699 --> 00:02:38.539 it and be able to teach others, which I think 00:02:38.539 --> 00:02:42.000 is the beauty and magic in all of it because 00:02:42.000 --> 00:02:46.300 like, oh, that's just, it's just so sweet. I 00:02:46.300 --> 00:02:50.139 find so much beauty in, you know, wanting so 00:02:50.139 --> 00:02:53.020 many different things and wanting to truly explore. 00:02:53.769 --> 00:02:56.129 But I truly feel like there's no version of me 00:02:56.129 --> 00:02:59.270 that truly feels complete anywhere Like I just 00:02:59.270 --> 00:03:02.090 I always feel scattered which I mean, you know 00:03:02.090 --> 00:03:03.930 I had to bring it back here but Jordan read my 00:03:03.930 --> 00:03:06.469 astrology chart like in depth one day and I remember 00:03:06.469 --> 00:03:07.930 her telling me that she was like I'm just supposed 00:03:07.930 --> 00:03:10.689 to like reinvent myself like I'm never fully 00:03:10.689 --> 00:03:12.189 just supposed to know myself She's like you're 00:03:12.189 --> 00:03:13.449 never gonna know yourself fully because you're 00:03:13.449 --> 00:03:15.449 just gonna keep going and going and going and 00:03:15.449 --> 00:03:18.370 I was like that kind of sucks in a way But you 00:03:18.370 --> 00:03:21.069 know, whatever and I don't think I meant to be 00:03:21.069 --> 00:03:24.319 one thing But I don't think I ever was. Like, 00:03:24.379 --> 00:03:26.199 even as a kid, I was always in so many different 00:03:26.199 --> 00:03:28.659 school groups, so many different sports and had 00:03:28.659 --> 00:03:32.219 so many different people I talked to, um, changes 00:03:32.219 --> 00:03:35.599 of aesthetics that I liked and ideas that I liked 00:03:35.599 --> 00:03:39.120 as well. I simply cannot settle on something. 00:03:39.900 --> 00:03:42.120 You know like kind of anything and I think my 00:03:42.120 --> 00:03:44.800 podcast allows me to grow as well in that way 00:03:44.800 --> 00:03:46.900 because I can really just Do whatever the fuck 00:03:46.900 --> 00:03:51.139 I want, you know talk and learn like I said and 00:03:51.139 --> 00:03:54.000 be who I want to be To learn and teach so many 00:03:54.000 --> 00:03:56.419 different things and I think a podcast is very 00:03:56.419 --> 00:03:58.759 flexible on that because like you have so many 00:03:58.759 --> 00:04:01.120 different Audiences that can listen to you and 00:04:01.120 --> 00:04:04.599 learn something I often ask you guys if you understand 00:04:04.599 --> 00:04:07.020 what I'm saying, and I hope that makes sense. 00:04:07.319 --> 00:04:09.120 When truly, I shouldn't even have to ask that. 00:04:09.240 --> 00:04:11.240 I think every time I speak, I'm like, well, does 00:04:11.240 --> 00:04:13.400 that make sense? Do you guys understand that? 00:04:13.599 --> 00:04:16.100 Like, I shouldn't care. It makes sense to me. 00:04:16.240 --> 00:04:18.579 I'm exploring and basically doing a brain dump. 00:04:18.939 --> 00:04:20.519 And, you know, there could be some people listening 00:04:20.519 --> 00:04:22.079 to this and being like, she's hard to listen 00:04:22.079 --> 00:04:23.600 to. I don't like her. I don't like what she's 00:04:23.600 --> 00:04:25.480 talking about. Yada, yada, yada. That's also 00:04:25.480 --> 00:04:28.620 the beauty in it. You don't have to. Just click 00:04:28.620 --> 00:04:31.589 off. Right? But somebody's gonna listen to me 00:04:31.589 --> 00:04:34.490 and I think that is what's so, like, beautiful 00:04:34.490 --> 00:04:37.069 about it. But I'm a learner. Like, I need to 00:04:37.069 --> 00:04:39.810 brain dump and to think and to overthink and 00:04:39.810 --> 00:04:43.730 so much more. Like, I just keep going. I want 00:04:43.730 --> 00:04:47.389 you to think about what you yearn to be. What 00:04:47.389 --> 00:04:50.490 would you do if, like, think if you had all the 00:04:50.490 --> 00:04:53.689 money in the world, right? And you're being held 00:04:53.689 --> 00:04:55.870 back. Or, like, if it's something else that you 00:04:55.870 --> 00:04:58.160 really need to get where you want to be. Some 00:04:58.160 --> 00:05:02.139 things may take longer, but truly nothing is 00:05:02.139 --> 00:05:04.879 impossible. So many people know me. Wait, what 00:05:04.879 --> 00:05:06.939 the fuck? Y 'all, I'm sorry. I'm reading my notes. 00:05:08.120 --> 00:05:14.540 That made no damn sense. Girl, what the fuck? 00:05:15.399 --> 00:05:19.839 Anyway, you don't need to know who you are. It's 00:05:19.839 --> 00:05:22.259 okay to change yourself. Like, thinking about 00:05:22.259 --> 00:05:24.420 myself, I've been so many different people and 00:05:24.420 --> 00:05:28.009 I truly think... that has added so much flavor 00:05:28.009 --> 00:05:31.509 and character to me but like allow yourself to 00:05:31.509 --> 00:05:35.449 be weird like do weird shit nobody i feel like 00:05:35.449 --> 00:05:37.189 i've been coming to the realization recently 00:05:37.189 --> 00:05:39.370 like everybody really is just in their own life 00:05:39.370 --> 00:05:42.589 nobody is that worried about me like i'm really 00:05:42.589 --> 00:05:45.269 just conceited like nobody's that worried about 00:05:45.269 --> 00:05:47.629 me i really gotta get my shit together so i'm 00:05:47.629 --> 00:05:50.889 like yeah i can be even weirder nobody is like 00:05:50.889 --> 00:05:54.709 i can just do every single thing i want to do 00:05:54.709 --> 00:05:58.379 literally And you don't need to know who you 00:05:58.379 --> 00:06:00.300 are. Like I said, it's okay to change yourself 00:06:00.300 --> 00:06:03.160 and to morph into different things. It's literally 00:06:03.160 --> 00:06:07.000 art, okay? Allow yourself to change and to grow 00:06:07.000 --> 00:06:10.699 and to follow and to lead sometimes. Allow yourself 00:06:10.699 --> 00:06:14.699 to be somebody, you know, curate a life, a mood, 00:06:15.180 --> 00:06:18.490 a lifestyle. make it all you like make yourself 00:06:18.490 --> 00:06:21.529 such a strong personality in like such a mood 00:06:21.529 --> 00:06:24.430 board yourself you fall in love with you and 00:06:24.430 --> 00:06:27.889 you know just constantly learning i want to be 00:06:27.889 --> 00:06:30.430 so knowledgeable and full of stories that i become 00:06:30.430 --> 00:06:33.290 that like creepy elder that is extremely too 00:06:33.290 --> 00:06:35.389 wise and i just kind of like want to endlessly 00:06:35.389 --> 00:06:38.610 teach genuinely like you know that old elder 00:06:38.610 --> 00:06:40.970 that's sitting in a rocking chair just kind of 00:06:40.970 --> 00:06:43.759 yapping away like Need that to be me. I need 00:06:43.759 --> 00:06:45.300 to have so many stories to tell like that's why 00:06:45.300 --> 00:06:47.779 I want to travel like write books There's so 00:06:47.779 --> 00:06:50.819 much I want to spread my knowledge and wisdom 00:06:50.819 --> 00:06:54.339 that I've learned in my life I want to be a scholar 00:06:54.339 --> 00:06:57.620 a surgeon a coffee shop owner Like I said, like 00:06:57.620 --> 00:07:00.399 I want to hug life and its experiences and just 00:07:00.399 --> 00:07:02.339 keep going and I feel like you should too Like 00:07:02.339 --> 00:07:05.079 I feel like we should allow ourselves to be more 00:07:05.079 --> 00:07:08.550 free and more open when it comes to things that 00:07:08.550 --> 00:07:12.269 we encounter, you know, whether it be jobs or 00:07:12.269 --> 00:07:16.189 meeting new people, whether it be on Tinder or 00:07:16.189 --> 00:07:19.060 out. In a restaurant as a friend, like there's 00:07:19.060 --> 00:07:21.740 so many different things. I think we should just 00:07:21.740 --> 00:07:24.759 Allow ourselves to be whatever we want to and 00:07:24.759 --> 00:07:29.199 explore the most that we can you know And I guess 00:07:29.199 --> 00:07:31.459 in some ways it's like I think that if I learn 00:07:31.459 --> 00:07:34.660 enough If I dive into enough books enough arts 00:07:34.660 --> 00:07:36.300 hobbies and even different languages because 00:07:36.300 --> 00:07:38.600 I really think about languages a lot i'll become 00:07:38.600 --> 00:07:41.660 an expert of like A thousand little things, right? 00:07:41.939 --> 00:07:43.800 And that's what I desperately want to be. I want 00:07:43.800 --> 00:07:45.420 to be an expert. I want to be a know -it -all. 00:07:45.540 --> 00:07:47.959 I want to know everything. It's gonna be like 00:07:47.959 --> 00:07:50.759 a flex to me. I want to read others work forever 00:07:50.759 --> 00:07:53.079 from everywhere and learn and tell others about 00:07:53.079 --> 00:07:55.079 it. You know, maybe it's because I'm sad to share 00:07:55.079 --> 00:07:58.480 this. Who knows? But that's what I want to do. 00:07:59.480 --> 00:08:03.350 And thinking about it... Like, I truly have encapsulated 00:08:03.350 --> 00:08:06.009 that in a small way. All of the hobbies I've 00:08:06.009 --> 00:08:09.430 started and abandoned, all of the ideas I had 00:08:09.430 --> 00:08:11.709 and wrote down somewhere in a lost journal, the 00:08:11.709 --> 00:08:14.610 thoughts I've had but never said, I am living 00:08:14.610 --> 00:08:16.730 in this exploration by reading and consuming 00:08:16.730 --> 00:08:19.069 new information daily, you know, constantly. 00:08:19.370 --> 00:08:21.689 Like, I truly, if I think about it myself, I 00:08:21.689 --> 00:08:24.610 am allowing myself to explore and do everything 00:08:24.610 --> 00:08:27.949 I want to fucking do. Like, genuinely, I am, 00:08:27.949 --> 00:08:31.430 you know, being everything and more. I'm also 00:08:31.430 --> 00:08:33.629 allowing myself to fully create. I'm not just 00:08:33.629 --> 00:08:35.710 consuming, I'm creating a lot. And you know, 00:08:35.730 --> 00:08:38.289 sometimes, I can be honest, it's hard to not 00:08:38.289 --> 00:08:41.009 just consume and be on my phone all day. But 00:08:41.009 --> 00:08:43.389 when I really stop and allow myself to create 00:08:43.389 --> 00:08:45.809 once in a while, I'm like, damn. Okay, girl, 00:08:46.169 --> 00:08:50.190 period. And then I've seen this quote on, what 00:08:50.190 --> 00:08:53.110 was it, Instagram, that really, it was really 00:08:53.110 --> 00:08:54.929 cute and I felt like it tied into this. It was 00:08:54.929 --> 00:08:57.370 like, my grandmother always used to say, be like 00:08:57.370 --> 00:09:00.110 water. I didn't get it then, but now I understand. 00:09:00.939 --> 00:09:04.159 Don't cling to anything too tightly. That includes 00:09:04.159 --> 00:09:06.820 yourself. Let versions of you pass. Let things 00:09:06.820 --> 00:09:09.899 move and flow. Don't get stuck on one idea, one 00:09:09.899 --> 00:09:12.720 identity, or one season. And I think that ties 00:09:12.720 --> 00:09:15.840 to this so well because change. Change is one 00:09:15.840 --> 00:09:17.500 of the most beautiful things we can encounter. 00:09:18.220 --> 00:09:21.600 I also think about it when I think of like... 00:09:21.129 --> 00:09:24.009 the little things like um plastic surgery nowadays 00:09:24.009 --> 00:09:25.990 and how it's on the rise with botox and stuff 00:09:25.990 --> 00:09:29.710 and it's just like for me i want to age so deeply 00:09:29.710 --> 00:09:32.950 i i want the the smile lines and everything like 00:09:32.950 --> 00:09:35.450 that i like change i want to see like i want 00:09:35.450 --> 00:09:38.250 you to see that i've lived i lived a good fucking 00:09:38.250 --> 00:09:41.309 life bitch like bitch i'm gonna be kicking it 00:09:41.309 --> 00:09:44.429 to like 100 no that's a little too old like i 00:09:44.429 --> 00:09:49.909 80 80 how the world slung good ends god who knows 00:09:50.690 --> 00:09:53.909 But I want to have a big fulfilled life, not 00:09:53.909 --> 00:09:55.789 in the sense of having to constantly exhaust 00:09:55.789 --> 00:09:58.409 myself, you know, to make a life or, you know, 00:09:58.549 --> 00:10:00.710 having to spend every day until, like, tired 00:10:00.710 --> 00:10:03.070 until I'm 40 making the life I want, which I 00:10:03.070 --> 00:10:05.629 feel like is all I see. Like, oh my gosh, you 00:10:05.629 --> 00:10:08.950 should do this for 20 years and hate yourself 00:10:08.950 --> 00:10:11.590 and be horrible. And then you'll finally get 00:10:11.590 --> 00:10:15.269 everything you want when you're 40. Like, no 00:10:15.269 --> 00:10:17.730 shade to that, but like, bitch, why do I want 00:10:17.730 --> 00:10:21.159 to wait until I'm 40? I want to go now. I want 00:10:21.159 --> 00:10:24.200 the life now. What are we talking about? I think 00:10:24.200 --> 00:10:26.220 about traveling and creating picture journals 00:10:26.220 --> 00:10:28.580 to look at one day, right? I want the little 00:10:28.580 --> 00:10:31.019 flip books to show my kids, learning about new 00:10:31.019 --> 00:10:33.779 cultures and experiences and wondering if the 00:10:33.779 --> 00:10:36.159 books I've written will ever be published because 00:10:36.159 --> 00:10:40.179 we know I love writing some mafias, okay? I think 00:10:40.179 --> 00:10:42.620 about the stories that leave my head and take 00:10:42.620 --> 00:10:45.539 up space in the world. And I want to keep doing 00:10:45.539 --> 00:10:47.940 all of that forever. And I don't want it to stop, 00:10:47.940 --> 00:10:51.419 but I want to do it in so many forms. And I can't, 00:10:51.419 --> 00:10:54.740 you know, we don't have that access. And eventually, 00:10:54.779 --> 00:10:57.059 like, I want drawers full of postcards from around 00:10:57.059 --> 00:10:59.559 the world, my fridge full of magnets from all 00:10:59.559 --> 00:11:01.779 around, other trinkets that I can pick up and 00:11:01.779 --> 00:11:03.799 keep with me or like somebody got me this, this 00:11:03.799 --> 00:11:06.840 happened, yada, yada, yada. There's just, I want 00:11:06.840 --> 00:11:11.049 to live life so fully. And I feel like I'm not 00:11:11.049 --> 00:11:13.509 able to do so in a way or like that I'm limited 00:11:13.509 --> 00:11:15.830 in a way just because you know There is only 00:11:15.830 --> 00:11:18.610 so much we can do like I have such a strong deep 00:11:18.610 --> 00:11:21.190 hunger for endless knowledge It's very restless. 00:11:21.309 --> 00:11:25.230 I'd say I guess I guess I'm doing a lot. I'd 00:11:25.230 --> 00:11:30.090 say um But lastly, I think I guess this was a 00:11:30.090 --> 00:11:33.710 short episode, but I mean I liked it who knows 00:11:34.299 --> 00:11:36.600 But I think the last thing I'm going to say is 00:11:36.600 --> 00:11:39.860 a message to you. Be everything you want and 00:11:39.860 --> 00:11:44.360 more. Be greedy, bitch. Be loud. Explore. Create. 00:11:44.879 --> 00:11:48.080 You truly have no reins. You have to see yourself 00:11:48.080 --> 00:11:50.539 as that. There are no limits. You just need to 00:11:50.539 --> 00:11:53.279 go. If you need to fail, you need to succeed 00:11:53.279 --> 00:11:55.860 and learn, and that's okay. And it's a good thing 00:11:55.860 --> 00:11:57.340 that you failed, bitch. Some people didn't even 00:11:57.340 --> 00:11:59.480 try. You don't need to have everything figured 00:11:59.480 --> 00:12:02.860 out, okay? Be curious, dive head first, be stupid, 00:12:03.019 --> 00:12:05.460 low key, and be chaotic. It's the best thing 00:12:05.460 --> 00:12:08.159 being able to learn and take it with you in life 00:12:08.159 --> 00:12:11.019 and teach people your lessons. Don't get bored. 00:12:11.419 --> 00:12:14.419 Literally, don't get bored. Boredom is... The 00:12:14.419 --> 00:12:21.059 devil Loki Loki I don't know but Yeah, that was 00:12:21.059 --> 00:12:23.679 today's episode and I hope you guys enjoyed it. 00:12:23.700 --> 00:12:28.139 I did I might go be a doctor You know might sign 00:12:28.139 --> 00:12:31.000 up for med school in a minute. Who fucking knows 00:12:31.000 --> 00:12:34.340 bitch No, normal schools will be my ass. Okay 00:12:34.340 --> 00:12:37.659 But yeah, I love you guys so much. And like I 00:12:37.659 --> 00:12:41.740 said if you look in the show notes down below. 00:12:41.740 --> 00:12:45.120 You'll see all the links for everything and yeah, 00:12:45.399 --> 00:12:49.620 I love you guys so much and I hope that you have 00:12:49.620 --> 00:12:55.360 a wonderful, wonderful, wonderful rest of your 00:12:55.360 --> 00:12:57.720 February. February?