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-e -e -x -e -e. And today's topic is, I want
to be so many things in life, and I decided I
will be. Right and this really was kind of a
brain dump of a topic I've been thinking about
just because I feel like I'm that person more
like I want to be a surgeon But I also want to
be a teacher. I also just want to live in a van
and explore There's so many things I want to
do and I can I can't fully grasp All of them
like I want to in this one life Like I could
learn a little bit and dip my toes into each
one, of course But I couldn't dedicate myself
to this work, right? And I really wish I could.
I really wish I could. But, you know, we can't.
And do you, like me, ever think that you want
to be so many different things and go into so
many different careers and so much more but feel
like we're constrained? Truly, I want to be a
writer, a podcaster, a mother, a wife, travel
the world, a doctor, musician, artist, herbalist,
therapist, bookshop owner, cafe owner, a cat
rescuer. Oh, I think about that one a lot. And
so much different shit. Like, if I could, I would
just stay in college to learn about different
things. I would want to learn and grow into so
many different people, things, places. so much.
And yes, maybe I can't fully engulf myself in
certain things, right? But I can learn and I
can teach myself and I can have knowledge of
it and be able to teach others, which I think
is the beauty and magic in all of it because
like, oh, that's just, it's just so sweet. I
find so much beauty in, you know, wanting so
many different things and wanting to truly explore.
But I truly feel like there's no version of me
that truly feels complete anywhere Like I just
I always feel scattered which I mean, you know
I had to bring it back here but Jordan read my
astrology chart like in depth one day and I remember
her telling me that she was like I'm just supposed
to like reinvent myself like I'm never fully
just supposed to know myself She's like you're
never gonna know yourself fully because you're
just gonna keep going and going and going and
I was like that kind of sucks in a way But you
know, whatever and I don't think I meant to be
one thing But I don't think I ever was. Like,
even as a kid, I was always in so many different
school groups, so many different sports and had
so many different people I talked to, um, changes
of aesthetics that I liked and ideas that I liked
as well. I simply cannot settle on something.
You know like kind of anything and I think my
podcast allows me to grow as well in that way
because I can really just Do whatever the fuck
I want, you know talk and learn like I said and
be who I want to be To learn and teach so many
different things and I think a podcast is very
flexible on that because like you have so many
different Audiences that can listen to you and
learn something I often ask you guys if you understand
what I'm saying, and I hope that makes sense.
When truly, I shouldn't even have to ask that.
I think every time I speak, I'm like, well, does
that make sense? Do you guys understand that?
Like, I shouldn't care. It makes sense to me.
I'm exploring and basically doing a brain dump.
And, you know, there could be some people listening
to this and being like, she's hard to listen
to. I don't like her. I don't like what she's
talking about. Yada, yada, yada. That's also
the beauty in it. You don't have to. Just click
off. Right? But somebody's gonna listen to me
and I think that is what's so, like, beautiful
about it. But I'm a learner. Like, I need to
brain dump and to think and to overthink and
so much more. Like, I just keep going. I want
you to think about what you yearn to be. What
would you do if, like, think if you had all the
money in the world, right? And you're being held
back. Or, like, if it's something else that you
really need to get where you want to be. Some
things may take longer, but truly nothing is
impossible. So many people know me. Wait, what
the fuck? Y 'all, I'm sorry. I'm reading my notes.
That made no damn sense. Girl, what the fuck?
Anyway, you don't need to know who you are. It's
okay to change yourself. Like, thinking about
myself, I've been so many different people and
I truly think... that has added so much flavor
and character to me but like allow yourself to
be weird like do weird shit nobody i feel like
i've been coming to the realization recently
like everybody really is just in their own life
nobody is that worried about me like i'm really
just conceited like nobody's that worried about
me i really gotta get my shit together so i'm
like yeah i can be even weirder nobody is like
i can just do every single thing i want to do
literally And you don't need to know who you
are. Like I said, it's okay to change yourself
and to morph into different things. It's literally
art, okay? Allow yourself to change and to grow
and to follow and to lead sometimes. Allow yourself
to be somebody, you know, curate a life, a mood,
a lifestyle. make it all you like make yourself
such a strong personality in like such a mood
board yourself you fall in love with you and
you know just constantly learning i want to be
so knowledgeable and full of stories that i become
that like creepy elder that is extremely too
wise and i just kind of like want to endlessly
teach genuinely like you know that old elder
that's sitting in a rocking chair just kind of
yapping away like Need that to be me. I need
to have so many stories to tell like that's why
I want to travel like write books There's so
much I want to spread my knowledge and wisdom
that I've learned in my life I want to be a scholar
a surgeon a coffee shop owner Like I said, like
I want to hug life and its experiences and just
keep going and I feel like you should too Like
I feel like we should allow ourselves to be more
free and more open when it comes to things that
we encounter, you know, whether it be jobs or
meeting new people, whether it be on Tinder or
out. In a restaurant as a friend, like there's
so many different things. I think we should just
Allow ourselves to be whatever we want to and
explore the most that we can you know And I guess
in some ways it's like I think that if I learn
enough If I dive into enough books enough arts
hobbies and even different languages because
I really think about languages a lot i'll become
an expert of like A thousand little things, right?
And that's what I desperately want to be. I want
to be an expert. I want to be a know -it -all.
I want to know everything. It's gonna be like
a flex to me. I want to read others work forever
from everywhere and learn and tell others about
it. You know, maybe it's because I'm sad to share
this. Who knows? But that's what I want to do.
And thinking about it... Like, I truly have encapsulated
that in a small way. All of the hobbies I've
started and abandoned, all of the ideas I had
and wrote down somewhere in a lost journal, the
thoughts I've had but never said, I am living
in this exploration by reading and consuming
new information daily, you know, constantly.
Like, I truly, if I think about it myself, I
am allowing myself to explore and do everything
I want to fucking do. Like, genuinely, I am,
you know, being everything and more. I'm also
allowing myself to fully create. I'm not just
consuming, I'm creating a lot. And you know,
sometimes, I can be honest, it's hard to not
just consume and be on my phone all day. But
when I really stop and allow myself to create
once in a while, I'm like, damn. Okay, girl,
period. And then I've seen this quote on, what
was it, Instagram, that really, it was really
cute and I felt like it tied into this. It was
like, my grandmother always used to say, be like
water. I didn't get it then, but now I understand.
Don't cling to anything too tightly. That includes
yourself. Let versions of you pass. Let things
move and flow. Don't get stuck on one idea, one
identity, or one season. And I think that ties
to this so well because change. Change is one
of the most beautiful things we can encounter.
I also think about it when I think of like...
the little things like um plastic surgery nowadays
and how it's on the rise with botox and stuff
and it's just like for me i want to age so deeply
i i want the the smile lines and everything like
that i like change i want to see like i want
you to see that i've lived i lived a good fucking
life bitch like bitch i'm gonna be kicking it
to like 100 no that's a little too old like i
80 80 how the world slung good ends god who knows
But I want to have a big fulfilled life, not
in the sense of having to constantly exhaust
myself, you know, to make a life or, you know,
having to spend every day until, like, tired
until I'm 40 making the life I want, which I
feel like is all I see. Like, oh my gosh, you
should do this for 20 years and hate yourself
and be horrible. And then you'll finally get
everything you want when you're 40. Like, no
shade to that, but like, bitch, why do I want
to wait until I'm 40? I want to go now. I want
the life now. What are we talking about? I think
about traveling and creating picture journals
to look at one day, right? I want the little
flip books to show my kids, learning about new
cultures and experiences and wondering if the
books I've written will ever be published because
we know I love writing some mafias, okay? I think
about the stories that leave my head and take
up space in the world. And I want to keep doing
all of that forever. And I don't want it to stop,
but I want to do it in so many forms. And I can't,
you know, we don't have that access. And eventually,
like, I want drawers full of postcards from around
the world, my fridge full of magnets from all
around, other trinkets that I can pick up and
keep with me or like somebody got me this, this
happened, yada, yada, yada. There's just, I want
to live life so fully. And I feel like I'm not
able to do so in a way or like that I'm limited
in a way just because you know There is only
so much we can do like I have such a strong deep
hunger for endless knowledge It's very restless.
I'd say I guess I guess I'm doing a lot. I'd
say um But lastly, I think I guess this was a
short episode, but I mean I liked it who knows
But I think the last thing I'm going to say is
a message to you. Be everything you want and
more. Be greedy, bitch. Be loud. Explore. Create.
You truly have no reins. You have to see yourself
as that. There are no limits. You just need to
go. If you need to fail, you need to succeed
and learn, and that's okay. And it's a good thing
that you failed, bitch. Some people didn't even
try. You don't need to have everything figured
out, okay? Be curious, dive head first, be stupid,
low key, and be chaotic. It's the best thing
being able to learn and take it with you in life
and teach people your lessons. Don't get bored.
Literally, don't get bored. Boredom is... The
devil Loki Loki I don't know but Yeah, that was
today's episode and I hope you guys enjoyed it.
I did I might go be a doctor You know might sign
up for med school in a minute. Who fucking knows
bitch No, normal schools will be my ass. Okay
But yeah, I love you guys so much. And like I
said if you look in the show notes down below.
You'll see all the links for everything and yeah,
I love you guys so much and I hope that you have
a wonderful, wonderful, wonderful rest of your
February. February?