Guys is this thing on? What is up besties it
is your host Zoe and I am back with another freaking
episode on my did I over share pod council's
a Can you guys tell? We got a new mic Yes, yes,
yes, yes. We finally got a new mic. I'm a nice
one a quality one an expensive one Do I sound
expensive or do I still sound like I was a brassy
little hoe? Hmm Either way, it's okay either
way. I hope y 'all noticed anyway, but um, I
hope you guys are doing good Um, we just had
a snowstorm. I'm doing good life is life in and
oh Yes, I did want to touch on this. Life is
really life -ing. I did want to let you guys
know I will have some resources in the show notes
down below, especially with everything that's
going on with ICE and everything right now. I
hope all my love bugs out there are safe and
protected and are fighting for their rights.
Really, that's all I can say. Honestly, I'm just
speechless about most of it. I don't know what
to say. There is no right thing to say. So I
think the best thing I can do in my situation
is just share resources and help you guys out.
And just pray for your safety. And it sucks that
all this is going on. And yeah. And nothing else
as much has been going on. I really have just
been really locking in and planning. And I've
been planning for the podcast especially. I think
I want to get back on my weekly videos. Try to.
I know like that probably sounds crazy and repetitive,
but like I'm gonna try. Okay, I'm gonna try but
today's episode let's get into it is don't let
someone outdo you in your own life and The reason
I chose this topic was simply because of a tick
-tock I had seen I think around New Year's it
was around like two three weeks ago I think and
he was basically just talking about Let's say
someone had your 2025, right? They had every
single opportunity, you had every single situation,
scenario, whatever it may be, ambition, goal,
yadda, yadda, yadda. And they took every single
shot, opportunity, chance, every single thing,
and they did the best thing they could with it.
They worked their ass off every single time.
They never said no, they never walked away, yadda,
yadda, yadda. And they gave you the best outcome
of that year, but I didn't. So it's like someone
just outdid me in my life. Does that make sense,
y 'all? I don't know if I'm explaining it right.
Does that make sense? Like, if someone else was
granted the same opportunity, would they do better
than me? And that made me want to talk about
it because this year I am not allowing that to
happen because last year that did happen because
if I think about it, there's a lot of opportunities
I didn't take. There was a lot of laziness and
sadness that went around where... Like I wasn't
able to jump at every opportunity or do what
I really wanted to I never fully committed or
didn't have that discipline So I was like damn
I kind of relate to this. Let me not do that
this year You know, let me not let me actually
do every single thing I can to be the best version
of myself and I seen I was on sub stack reading
this thing and it was It quoted this poem called
Our Deepest Fear by Marianne Williamson. And
this quote really spoke to me on this simply
because I feel like it makes sense for what I'm
talking about. And it says, our deepest fear
is not that we are powerful beyond measure. It
is our light, not our darkness that frightens
us. So it's like... If we truly knew how much
power we had that every single little thing we
wanted in life we could get if we just did, you
know, 100 % of the work and committed. But like,
but I feel like oftentimes we're like, oh my
gosh, what if I fail? Like I know I think about
this a lot when I want to start a new hobby or
a little side hustle or something. I'm like,
like what if it flops? What if nobody likes it?
What if, or like when I'm doing a topic for the
podcast, what if nobody likes this one? What
if? This one just doesn't hit you know I think
about that Sorry, it sounded like my cat was
getting into something. I just feel like he's
bored as fuck right now And really stressing
me out okay, but that is what that quote meant
to me And I felt like it was just cute to add
in here and like you could think about it a little
bit but I think a comparison for me is when you
are used to being small and making yourself small
and, you know, not being seen, it is hard to
allow yourself to be big and to finally take
up space where you need to take it up, right?
It's very... Unusual and abnormal. So we're not
gonna feel comfortable at first, right? It's
gonna feel like something we don't want to do
We're very uncomfortable but being loud and too
much proud and overly ambitious are things we
all deserve to feel so Like why would you not
want to do that? But also it made me think Maybe
I think this might this may just be a way I kind
of was viewing myself at a point, but it was
like I kind of pitied myself. It's like I wanted
people to pity me like, oh, but like, look at
all these circumstances that were thrown at me.
Girl, nobody gives a fuck. Stand up like I really
just had to look at myself one day and be like,
girl, stand up like nobody's coming to save you.
Nobody feels bad for you. Everybody has shit
going on. Stand the fuck up and do. Make the
best that you can out of the situation and keep
pushing forward and make yourself so fucking
proud that you will never even Think about that
trauma or that excuse or that painful remark
ever again my girl boss the fuck up like dead
-ass like I was just looking at myself kind of
disgusted at a point like Why the fuck are you
crying right now, please Yuck. I don't want to
feel bad for myself. I want to be like, I'm fine
with a damn world. Like, what the fuck? So when
I seen that TikTok, I was just like, damn, I
gotta go crazy this year. Like, low key, what
is the most I can do? And then when I thought
about that, I thought about audacity, because
I've been seeing a lot and lots of topics about
audacity and just being audacious, for real.
Like, dead ass. And it made me think, how do
I want to change my approach when it comes to
my work? I think for me, I forget a lot of the
times when I'm recording. I'm like, hey, I need
to have this structured, detailed episode. And
it has to connect, and it has to be backed, and
a whole bunch of different things when it's just
like, I actually could just film every day if
I wanted to about random shit. I really could
just sit down and talk. Somebody's going to listen.
Nobody's gonna listen like just create be audacious
create every single piece of content Whether
you think people are going to listen to it or
like it, you know, whatever the case may be be
Audacious and like for me talking to brands like
now I used to email brands or like reach out
to people or you know move on media in such a
structured like prompty kind of way like hey
this is what I have this is what I bring and
these are my numbers send literally that's it
corny high unrelatable cold whatever now it's
like when I pitch myself and be like hey this
is me I really think we would do great and really
letting my personality shine allowing myself
to be fully me not being scared of a rejection
or you know judgment and I feel like that is
very Good and that's giving audacity like what
the fuck I need to be cocky. I need to Have my
head so far up my ass. I can't even find it anymore
This is my life like I only have so many chances
and like hate to say it But like really you can't
die tomorrow life is fucking crazy. It's insane
so much can happen so it's like say yes when
you can take the crazy opportunities and Just
do it do whatever the fuck you want, you know
I feel like that's the best way I can say it
and There's nothing that will help you more in
this life than audacity Like let it push you
to do things and you know quiet the anxiety You
know all the stress if you want to go back to
school if you want to leave the country if you
want to start a business Fight for your life
fight for your peace fight for your freedom.
Do what you need to do And that is how I'm living
this year. Like, I want to travel this year,
too. Oh, I've made it my mission. I will be skinny.
Like, hate, hate. I'm not pushing that agenda.
But like, just to let it be known, I will be
skinny for once in my fucking life. I will make
it this year. Like, I'm talking to the point
where I get a belly button pierced in, y 'all.
Like, kind of crazy. Like, I want to be on Instagram,
like, bitch, half naked all the time, like, just
because I can now. Right. So that's my journey.
And I'm really like, bitch, OK, get in the gym.
Lock in. Clock in do what I need to do But the
lazy bitch in me is just she's fighting to be
let out and she's not winning right now because
guess what? I'm gonna make the most of this year
and do what the fuck I can the best I can and
boss up and if I can Manage to get myself a millionaire
status. I'm talking Forbes 30 under 30 by next
year. We're green We're good y 'all and then
we're gonna know we really manifested this shit
We've all been locked in and I'm gonna give like
a couple bands to each of y 'all You know all
y 'all just damn me and say hey i've been here
from the beginning love you and i'll be like
okay what's your cash app girl literally that's
all this is okay pyramid scheme let's all lock
in okay let's all find the audacity to do what
we want to do get what we want because the life
i'm living right now is so confusing like in
a lens there's no way the life i'm living right
now is manageable But it is because I have audacity
I know This is gonna work out for me. So I'm
like, okay Well, I can just buy what I want.
I can do what I want money's gonna find me again
I'm not gonna figure it out Everything's gonna
be fine and I move like I'm gonna be taken care
of and guess what I am. I am taken care of right
Don't let someone outdo you in your own life
and I have to talk more because it's only been
ten minutes. So Don't know what the fuck else
to talk about y 'all. So what we're gonna do
for the rest. I'm gonna open Twitter I haven't
opened Twitter in a long time. Um, I Don't know
why but I haven't But that's what we're gonna
do and maybe something's gonna be funny Maybe
it's not Maybe it's all gonna be bullshit But
let's see waiting room music I'm sorry, baby.
Um None of these are good like these are all
kind of like girly None of them are funny. I
Guess I changed my whole Twitter vibe and that's
really sad. That's how I knew like I kind of
adulted because it's all like oh February smells
like seven figures or like vibes cute like it's
not funny anymore. Oh Hate this I'm getting off
of this and I've actually been fucking with reels
more than tik -tok The vibe is more curated on
reels What is she talking about And like I'm
really talking about going to the gym like getting
matching sets, but like matching sets are expensive,
but I'm trying to lock in but like And also I'm
like Bro, I don't know. I'm just trying to be
so fucking fine That like you can't even see
me like what the fuck I Don't know Y 'all there's
nothing else to talk about for room. You want
y 'all want to talk about some topics I have
written down that I like have been plotting plotting
on One is people can only meet you as deeply
as they've met themselves in this This was a
take because like when I hang around people that
I'm not they're not like my people like I didn't
bring them here They're not my friend and like
you just interact with a whole bunch of different
types of people. It's like damn A lot of these
people have not experienced anything in life.
They do not know how to have introspection or
Just anything and it's just kind of looking at
somebody like damn how Like you make me feel
Like, I don't know, I feel like this is coming
off weird, but it's more so in a way like, we
have two different levels of understandings,
and I cannot vibe with you simply off of that
fact. And this is also gonna sound fucked up,
but like, I cannot be friends with somebody who
has never went through some shit. Like, I think
it's good to be around people who have good lives
and have that experiences, like you need to be
around that. But like I can't be around somebody
who's out of touch because I've done that before.
And like she had like called poverty like cute
at one point. And I just remember being like,
whoa, where are we at? Where are we at? And that's
kind of what that topic is about. I really haven't
figured out how to get that out in words yet.
So that one is still brainstorming. OK. Um, one
is stop making excuses and act. That's just more
of so like, um, a manifesting thing. This is
a topic I'm talking about, um, sub stack. It's
honestly, I think bringing back AO3 and wet pad
can fix the literary crisis. That is something
I've been thinking about a lot and I wanted to
write about it because truly. I feel like that
is correct. And then this one, closed mouths
don't get fed, just like somebody's granny would
always tell you. Closed mouths do not get fed.
And I feel like that is so true. As an adult
in life, you know, like I said, moving with audacity.
Be loud, be proud, ask for what you want, and
you shall receive, I guess, you know? What other
ones? My gosh y 'all this is just a note Wait
Britain broke down y 'all I don't fucking know.
Anyways, um If we ever get so advanced as in
this as a society where we can remove body parts
I would need someone to figure out how I can
remove my own head to do my own hair I still
feel that like if I could just plot my head off
and then just do a departing Shit, we'd be cool,
bro I promise you I'll sew in every week. What
is happening? No, I don't like that topic. This
one, I fuck with this one. I mourn the lives
I could have lived. I wish I could be so much
in life and do so much, but I can't. And you
can say I can't, but no, I can't. I can't dedicate
myself to one craft, because I want to do all
of them. Maybe that's just a set of cherries
to me or maybe that's just like me vibing but
like who knows But you know what? I think that's
why I'm gonna end today's episode because you
know, that was a good kick it and I want to do
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