WEBVTT 00:00:01.900 --> 00:00:10.599 Guys is this thing on? It is your host Zoe and 00:00:10.599 --> 00:00:13.619 I am back with another freaking episode on the 00:00:13.619 --> 00:00:16.620 Did I Overshare podcast today? I hope you guys 00:00:16.620 --> 00:00:19.160 are having a good week It's pretty late in the 00:00:19.160 --> 00:00:21.620 week as I don't know if many of you seen the 00:00:21.620 --> 00:00:23.440 announcement on Instagram Maybe not because I 00:00:23.440 --> 00:00:25.980 know not all you guys follow me on there But 00:00:25.980 --> 00:00:27.859 I did announce that yes, there was supposed to 00:00:27.859 --> 00:00:31.339 be an episode on Sunday But I literally have 00:00:31.339 --> 00:00:34.460 been ill ill as hell I literally I did go to 00:00:34.460 --> 00:00:36.899 the doctors for it and did get some medicine 00:00:36.899 --> 00:00:41.399 But ill every damn day, okay, and I'm sorry about 00:00:41.399 --> 00:00:44.840 that, but I'm still here still posting for you 00:00:44.840 --> 00:00:48.960 guys I Have been trying to not be ill I have 00:00:48.960 --> 00:00:51.539 been trying But yeah, I just wanted to let you 00:00:51.539 --> 00:00:55.799 guys know about that Then what else I don't think 00:00:55.799 --> 00:00:58.179 I really have anything much more to go to the 00:00:58.179 --> 00:01:00.399 house has also been packed I'll meet you family 00:01:00.399 --> 00:01:01.939 came up when I tell you there's about 20 people 00:01:01.939 --> 00:01:05.239 in this damn apartment It was it was in here, 00:01:06.319 --> 00:01:09.180 okay? I'm a granny stand with us, so that's good 00:01:09.180 --> 00:01:12.780 And I put up on my Halloween stuff. I did today 00:01:12.780 --> 00:01:16.739 actually cuz I was ready and yeah Today's episode 00:01:16.739 --> 00:01:19.299 is something I did end up posting on TikTok previously 00:01:19.299 --> 00:01:22.180 on Sunday because I was supposed to upload and 00:01:22.180 --> 00:01:23.480 that was supposed to be it. But since I didn't 00:01:23.480 --> 00:01:26.459 upload, I ended up posting it anyway. It basically 00:01:26.459 --> 00:01:28.939 is the most important things I've learned while 00:01:28.939 --> 00:01:31.459 navigating my 20s with the help of this podcast, 00:01:31.480 --> 00:01:35.019 of course. Granted, I'm only 20. But there's 00:01:35.019 --> 00:01:37.299 so much I have learned within the past year or 00:01:37.299 --> 00:01:41.140 two that have been so monumental and transformative 00:01:41.140 --> 00:01:44.040 for me. And before I get into this, I just want 00:01:44.040 --> 00:01:46.310 to say Thank you guys for all your support, first 00:01:46.310 --> 00:01:49.109 of all. And if you end up liking this episode 00:01:49.109 --> 00:01:53.090 and this podcast overall, leave a comment, a 00:01:53.090 --> 00:01:56.430 review, tag me on Instagram, do whatever you 00:01:56.430 --> 00:01:58.810 want to do, let me know. I love talking to you 00:01:58.810 --> 00:02:00.590 guys, hearing what you guys think about episodes 00:02:00.590 --> 00:02:03.109 and so much more. But yeah, I'm just kind of 00:02:03.109 --> 00:02:05.209 going to talk about a couple different topics 00:02:05.209 --> 00:02:09.110 that I feel like I have learned and that have 00:02:09.110 --> 00:02:12.789 changed, more so changed for me heavily these 00:02:12.789 --> 00:02:15.219 past, like this past year. and the first thing 00:02:15.219 --> 00:02:18.280 I want to talk about is money because for me 00:02:18.280 --> 00:02:23.759 money is very hmm it always seemed like it was 00:02:23.759 --> 00:02:25.659 out of reach dare I say like it always seemed 00:02:25.659 --> 00:02:28.939 like okay it's impossible to have my whole life 00:02:28.939 --> 00:02:30.280 I feel like this I was just kind of raised on 00:02:30.280 --> 00:02:32.300 that and I'm at the point where it's like I know 00:02:32.300 --> 00:02:34.939 I can do whatever I want with my life truly I 00:02:34.939 --> 00:02:37.639 do and I'm very grateful for that but I really 00:02:37.639 --> 00:02:40.560 have stopped stressing oh and I also wanted to 00:02:40.560 --> 00:02:44.930 say I'm sorry before I got in I quit my job I'm 00:02:44.930 --> 00:02:47.189 making this my job no matter what. I don't care 00:02:47.189 --> 00:02:50.150 if nothing happens from it right now, but this 00:02:50.150 --> 00:02:52.650 is my job. This is what I'm putting my heart 00:02:52.650 --> 00:02:54.830 and my soul into. And that job was cheating me 00:02:54.830 --> 00:02:58.189 like shit as well, but also I did not feel like 00:02:58.189 --> 00:03:00.650 I was aligned to be there. I was supposed to 00:03:00.650 --> 00:03:05.490 be there. You know, it gave its time. Time ran 00:03:05.490 --> 00:03:08.349 up, okay? So maybe I might do an episode on that 00:03:08.349 --> 00:03:09.969 as well, but I just wanted to let you guys know. 00:03:10.349 --> 00:03:14.090 I'm all you. You guys okay, but yeah, no money. 00:03:14.169 --> 00:03:16.270 I've stopped stressing and holding back on my 00:03:16.270 --> 00:03:19.370 happiness Because I don't have a savings account 00:03:19.370 --> 00:03:22.569 Um I don't have the most money in the world especially 00:03:22.569 --> 00:03:25.389 I see it's I feel like it's so hard Nowadays 00:03:25.389 --> 00:03:28.949 watching other people at my age have like a mention 00:03:28.949 --> 00:03:32.210 and it's at the other and I'm just like But that's 00:03:32.210 --> 00:03:34.030 literally just social media because nobody else 00:03:34.030 --> 00:03:35.909 really is doing that most people are out here 00:03:35.909 --> 00:03:38.250 normal, right? But it's like then I just see 00:03:38.250 --> 00:03:41.229 some people and I'm just like damn Damn should 00:03:41.229 --> 00:03:43.030 I have it like they should I be doing like should 00:03:43.030 --> 00:03:45.909 I have to my life look like this? And I've stopped 00:03:45.909 --> 00:03:47.750 thinking that way like I really don't stress 00:03:47.750 --> 00:03:50.310 about it anymore honestly Because I don't have 00:03:50.310 --> 00:03:52.610 a savings account and that's simply because how 00:03:52.610 --> 00:03:53.849 am I supposed to have a savings account when 00:03:53.849 --> 00:03:57.430 there's no money to save? Like and I've never 00:03:57.430 --> 00:04:00.129 been one like I'm not denying my own happiness 00:04:00.129 --> 00:04:02.789 truly like if I want a five dollar shake I'm 00:04:02.789 --> 00:04:05.469 gonna get it simply because if I'm working my 00:04:05.469 --> 00:04:07.430 ass off in every other aspect I deserve a little 00:04:07.430 --> 00:04:09.909 treat sometimes too, and I will always say that 00:04:09.840 --> 00:04:12.340 Like I accept my government existence when I 00:04:12.340 --> 00:04:16.360 can like I get food stamps. I'm on Medicaid I 00:04:16.360 --> 00:04:18.459 and I appreciate every single bit of it and it 00:04:18.459 --> 00:04:22.459 worked like it works wonders like Sometimes when 00:04:22.459 --> 00:04:24.339 I can't put food in the fridge I'm able to put 00:04:24.339 --> 00:04:27.040 food in the fridge like in my Medicaid I'm being 00:04:27.040 --> 00:04:29.879 offered so much shit right now and it's so grateful 00:04:29.879 --> 00:04:32.079 I've never had insurance that works so damn good 00:04:32.079 --> 00:04:35.819 in my life like I'm just so there's things when 00:04:35.819 --> 00:04:39.339 it comes to money that I've stopped Maybe having 00:04:39.339 --> 00:04:42.500 like a bad view on it or a negative view and 00:04:42.500 --> 00:04:45.339 I've started being open and accepting and accepting 00:04:45.339 --> 00:04:48.459 my position in Life and accepting my growth where 00:04:48.459 --> 00:04:51.319 I can you know I'm just being able to manage 00:04:51.319 --> 00:04:53.100 it better should be enough. You know I don't 00:04:53.100 --> 00:04:54.839 need to have five thousand dollars in my savings 00:04:54.839 --> 00:04:58.300 account Realistically a lot of us know okay, 00:04:58.480 --> 00:05:02.519 but I started accepting where I was and you know 00:05:02.519 --> 00:05:04.759 counting my blessings rather than focusing on 00:05:04.759 --> 00:05:08.519 what I don't have like I said and We all know 00:05:08.519 --> 00:05:12.399 in this economy. I will treat myself. I'm responsible 00:05:12.399 --> 00:05:14.779 as hell like I'm the most responsible person 00:05:14.779 --> 00:05:18.560 I know right But I also acknowledge that I live 00:05:18.560 --> 00:05:22.879 a normal life. I live a balanced Everyday life 00:05:22.879 --> 00:05:26.540 where not everything's easy But also things could 00:05:26.540 --> 00:05:28.699 always be worse, so I'm going to count my blessings 00:05:28.699 --> 00:05:33.199 where I can You know and just be grateful for 00:05:33.199 --> 00:05:36.600 what I have and what? You know I can do with 00:05:36.600 --> 00:05:39.279 what I do have Because I feel like money used 00:05:39.279 --> 00:05:40.939 to take up so much my brain space like I didn't 00:05:40.939 --> 00:05:43.120 feel like I could be anywhere without it Just 00:05:43.120 --> 00:05:45.420 my car just about 20 other things when that that 00:05:45.420 --> 00:05:48.819 shouldn't be the case You know like at all actually 00:05:48.819 --> 00:05:51.939 so I'm vibing right now. I'm gonna be honest 00:05:51.939 --> 00:05:54.779 where I'm at I'm comfortable, and you know what 00:05:54.779 --> 00:05:56.560 who knows where it's gonna go in two months I 00:05:56.560 --> 00:06:00.220 got enough money right now To give me where I 00:06:00.220 --> 00:06:03.569 need to be rent bills and shit and i'm focusing 00:06:03.569 --> 00:06:06.850 on my podcast i'm choosing my goals i'm choosing 00:06:06.850 --> 00:06:09.110 what i want to do and i'm blessed first of all 00:06:09.110 --> 00:06:12.149 that i'm able to do that right but i feel like 00:06:12.149 --> 00:06:16.910 it's to the point where i i'm choosing to be 00:06:16.910 --> 00:06:20.329 happy while trying to also build myself as a 00:06:20.329 --> 00:06:23.730 character business -wise everything oh also we 00:06:23.730 --> 00:06:26.949 are now llc we are now a certified business okay 00:06:26.949 --> 00:06:29.470 look at us this happened earlier this week so 00:06:29.610 --> 00:06:34.529 Yes, kudos to us. But yeah, no. So yeah, overall, 00:06:34.529 --> 00:06:36.149 I think when it comes to money, I'm just not 00:06:36.149 --> 00:06:38.029 gonna stress about what's not in my control anymore. 00:06:38.410 --> 00:06:41.410 And I'm gonna be more accepting of what I do 00:06:41.410 --> 00:06:44.329 have, right? And then the next thing, and we 00:06:44.329 --> 00:06:46.709 know I love talking about this topic, boundaries. 00:06:47.529 --> 00:06:49.389 I would say this is one of the most important 00:06:49.389 --> 00:06:52.290 things I've learned in every single relationship 00:06:52.290 --> 00:06:56.620 I have, and including the one with myself. I 00:06:56.620 --> 00:06:59.459 feel like if you lack a definition on what your 00:06:59.459 --> 00:07:03.819 boundaries are or what you want, so many things 00:07:03.819 --> 00:07:06.899 can go wrong. Things can go left, things can 00:07:06.899 --> 00:07:10.600 go right. Like everything gets wonky because 00:07:10.600 --> 00:07:13.699 you can't expect other people to respect what 00:07:13.699 --> 00:07:15.360 you want to happen if you don't know what you 00:07:15.360 --> 00:07:17.600 want to happen. And I think I've been seeing 00:07:17.600 --> 00:07:19.740 this a lot more recently, especially in my relationship 00:07:19.740 --> 00:07:23.540 with Demetrius. I've been very communicative, 00:07:23.939 --> 00:07:25.819 and what I want, what I see for us in the future, 00:07:25.899 --> 00:07:29.259 and what I need from him fully, hey, in order 00:07:29.259 --> 00:07:32.220 for me to, you know, operate how I need to, in 00:07:32.220 --> 00:07:33.980 order for me to feel secure, in order for me 00:07:33.980 --> 00:07:36.560 to do this, yada yada yada, I need this from 00:07:36.560 --> 00:07:39.300 you. How can you show up for me like this? And 00:07:39.300 --> 00:07:41.379 sometimes it does get into deep arguments, uncomfortable 00:07:41.379 --> 00:07:44.259 ones, we don't want to have, but they're conversations 00:07:44.259 --> 00:07:46.620 we need to have. Because at the end of the day, 00:07:46.699 --> 00:07:48.759 these are my boundaries, this is what I need. 00:07:49.019 --> 00:07:51.220 to feel secure in this relationship, and he has 00:07:51.220 --> 00:07:53.160 some of those too. You know, you gotta learn 00:07:53.160 --> 00:07:55.819 how to work together, but that's also in friendships 00:07:55.819 --> 00:07:57.920 and also with myself. How do I tell myself what 00:07:57.920 --> 00:08:00.279 I'm comfortable with? How do I let myself stop 00:08:00.279 --> 00:08:02.779 saying yes to things I don't wanna do? How do 00:08:02.779 --> 00:08:05.420 I allow myself to be present all the time and 00:08:05.420 --> 00:08:08.240 tell myself, hey, maybe we shouldn't be doing 00:08:08.240 --> 00:08:10.620 this. Hey, I want better for myself, you know? 00:08:10.639 --> 00:08:12.779 And I feel like with yourself, it really ties 00:08:12.779 --> 00:08:15.920 in discipline and boundaries, but you know, kinda 00:08:15.920 --> 00:08:19.120 two in the same. But I... Boundaries is the most 00:08:19.120 --> 00:08:21.800 important thing literally with every single relationship 00:08:21.800 --> 00:08:23.759 you plan to have in your life with your boss 00:08:23.759 --> 00:08:27.000 your best friend your fucking dog Everybody okay, 00:08:27.500 --> 00:08:29.579 so I think that is one of that like a really 00:08:29.579 --> 00:08:33.179 big thing I learned be loud and be firm on what 00:08:33.179 --> 00:08:37.340 you want and how you want to be respected and 00:08:37.340 --> 00:08:41.080 at the end of the day Those who loved you and 00:08:41.080 --> 00:08:43.929 care for you they will they will do that You 00:08:43.929 --> 00:08:46.970 know, it won't be this huge fuss and debacle 00:08:46.970 --> 00:08:49.049 about, oh my gosh, you're doing it, you're doing 00:08:49.049 --> 00:08:50.129 it, you're doing it, you're doing it, you're 00:08:50.129 --> 00:08:53.049 not asking for too much. I'm not asking for too 00:08:53.049 --> 00:08:56.070 much, I'm asking the wrong person. And sometimes, 00:08:57.429 --> 00:08:59.029 I think that's one thing to remember though when 00:08:59.029 --> 00:09:01.929 you are talking boundaries, like I say, not everybody 00:09:01.929 --> 00:09:04.399 was raised the same, right? For all different 00:09:04.399 --> 00:09:07.639 people sometimes we have to meet each other where 00:09:07.639 --> 00:09:10.679 we can comfortably and you know meet people in 00:09:10.679 --> 00:09:12.980 the middle and Understand okay, how can we compromise? 00:09:13.120 --> 00:09:15.320 How can I give you what you need while you also 00:09:15.320 --> 00:09:17.940 give me what I need and I also? Like still feel 00:09:17.940 --> 00:09:20.879 comfortable within myself, right? Because not 00:09:20.879 --> 00:09:22.980 everybody is you know open and doing things and 00:09:22.980 --> 00:09:25.120 you know all the stuff like that, but it's like 00:09:25.419 --> 00:09:27.720 Some things are required for certain people we 00:09:27.720 --> 00:09:30.779 have certain standards and I think having standards 00:09:30.779 --> 00:09:33.259 especially even high ones are really important 00:09:33.259 --> 00:09:35.860 especially in today's society because it allows 00:09:35.860 --> 00:09:39.360 you I Feel so confident I'm gonna be honest and 00:09:39.360 --> 00:09:41.240 that's why I was so confident with being able 00:09:41.240 --> 00:09:44.039 to leave my job Why I'm so confident on where 00:09:44.039 --> 00:09:47.690 I'm at in my life now because I have these Conversations 00:09:47.690 --> 00:09:49.669 with myself I set these boundaries with the relationships 00:09:49.669 --> 00:09:51.830 around me I know what I want and I'm setting 00:09:51.830 --> 00:09:54.750 my mind to it and I'm chasing after it Hey, how 00:09:54.750 --> 00:09:57.110 can I get this done the best of me and how can 00:09:57.110 --> 00:10:00.450 I keep myself straight? Within myself my relationship 00:10:00.450 --> 00:10:03.149 my friendships in the midst of it all, you know, 00:10:03.149 --> 00:10:07.649 and I feel like I've gotten so good at my words 00:10:07.649 --> 00:10:12.009 and my understanding on stuff that I'm comfortable 00:10:12.009 --> 00:10:13.690 where I'm at. I'm comfortable in the shoes. I'm 00:10:13.690 --> 00:10:17.100 in right now and And I feel like that's a blessing. 00:10:17.240 --> 00:10:20.580 And I feel like that is one really important 00:10:20.580 --> 00:10:24.779 lesson. My next one, family. Sensitive topic 00:10:24.779 --> 00:10:28.360 for most, okay, right. But for me, family is 00:10:28.360 --> 00:10:31.500 not everything. The family you make is everything. 00:10:31.980 --> 00:10:35.019 And when I say this, we know I don't communicate 00:10:35.019 --> 00:10:38.879 with my family. Over this past year, and it continues 00:10:38.879 --> 00:10:44.799 on and on and on, I have watched everybody wither 00:10:44.799 --> 00:10:52.149 away. from drugs and I I physically couldn't 00:10:52.149 --> 00:10:54.049 do it which is first of all why I left in the 00:10:54.049 --> 00:10:56.309 first place and Family has been a hard topic 00:10:56.309 --> 00:11:00.230 for me my whole life because I've never had You 00:11:00.230 --> 00:11:02.029 know what one would want. I never had a safe 00:11:02.029 --> 00:11:05.049 place I never had where I could go and be heard 00:11:05.049 --> 00:11:07.590 or you know just feel safe in and do all this 00:11:07.590 --> 00:11:11.370 and that the other so I think getting away did 00:11:11.370 --> 00:11:13.350 so much magic for me, but it also allowed me 00:11:13.350 --> 00:11:15.629 to find my own community find my own people and 00:11:15.629 --> 00:11:20.210 make my own family and that I Feel like is more 00:11:20.210 --> 00:11:23.470 important because like I said not everybody comes 00:11:23.470 --> 00:11:26.549 from the same situation like me she he had like 00:11:26.549 --> 00:11:28.049 I just said he had 20 people up here and that 00:11:28.049 --> 00:11:30.429 was just the close relatives all the damn kids 00:11:30.429 --> 00:11:33.850 grannies everybody was fucking in here and That's 00:11:33.850 --> 00:11:35.629 another thing I'm so blessed to have but like 00:11:35.629 --> 00:11:37.169 me and him come from two different backgrounds 00:11:37.169 --> 00:11:39.889 So I still react to situations and his family 00:11:39.889 --> 00:11:41.610 completely different like when they were here. 00:11:41.610 --> 00:11:44.690 I was overstimulated, but it's something I Have 00:11:44.690 --> 00:11:46.330 been trying to get used to for the past seven 00:11:46.330 --> 00:11:50.490 years. Okay, cuz I didn't socialize So I'm just 00:11:50.490 --> 00:11:55.210 gonna like But it's something I'm so grateful 00:11:55.210 --> 00:11:57.210 because I have made my own I've made my own with 00:11:57.210 --> 00:12:00.669 him with his family my best friend her kid and 00:12:00.669 --> 00:12:04.690 myself in my own family and It's it's really 00:12:04.690 --> 00:12:07.049 an important thing I think I like to talk about 00:12:07.049 --> 00:12:09.309 because I I've had so many conversations with 00:12:09.309 --> 00:12:11.129 people especially older people where they'll 00:12:11.129 --> 00:12:12.830 judge me and they're like Oh where you're gonna 00:12:12.830 --> 00:12:15.450 miss it one day when this Heather that happens 00:12:15.450 --> 00:12:17.429 or you're just gonna feel bad yada yada yada 00:12:17.429 --> 00:12:21.409 actually no, I'm not I'm not because these people 00:12:21.409 --> 00:12:23.970 never felt bad for me. I chose me I chose my 00:12:23.970 --> 00:12:25.950 happiness and that's what it's gonna be you want 00:12:25.950 --> 00:12:28.049 to be around people who pour into you and love 00:12:28.049 --> 00:12:30.350 you unconditionally and support you no matter 00:12:30.350 --> 00:12:33.129 what Sometimes like I said what you're born into 00:12:33.129 --> 00:12:37.889 your you Leave and grow and sometimes a lot of 00:12:37.889 --> 00:12:40.309 times most people do make it back, right? sometimes 00:12:40.309 --> 00:12:43.110 we all just need to figure it the fuck out but 00:12:43.110 --> 00:12:46.250 sometimes we don't and and that's okay, I'm able 00:12:46.250 --> 00:12:49.009 to pour my love into different cups and do that 00:12:49.009 --> 00:12:51.769 and in my experience, I feel like it was the 00:12:51.769 --> 00:12:54.149 most powerful life -changing one for me because 00:12:54.149 --> 00:12:57.289 It is so much of my life and so much of my future 00:12:57.289 --> 00:13:00.000 in my past So I think that's why that was an 00:13:00.000 --> 00:13:02.799 important topic. And then next one is religion. 00:13:03.940 --> 00:13:06.500 So while we probably know if you're a constant 00:13:06.500 --> 00:13:09.840 listener, I allow myself to explore religions 00:13:09.840 --> 00:13:12.000 and, you know, learning constantly stay updated. 00:13:13.100 --> 00:13:16.259 I also recommend others do as well because ignorance 00:13:16.259 --> 00:13:19.759 is not cute. I'm sorry. It's not. You don't follow 00:13:19.759 --> 00:13:21.759 everything, but I feel like basic knowledge, 00:13:22.379 --> 00:13:24.620 basic things we should know. Right. Maybe out 00:13:24.620 --> 00:13:27.700 of disrespect, but also just to educate yourself 00:13:27.700 --> 00:13:31.179 because education is so much but there's never 00:13:31.179 --> 00:13:34.159 any harm in learning so but i've concluded that 00:13:34.159 --> 00:13:38.039 for me belief is extremely powerful for me i 00:13:38.039 --> 00:13:41.940 more so focused on god and my ancestors i am 00:13:41.940 --> 00:13:47.809 real heavy in both and i i believe Like they 00:13:47.809 --> 00:13:49.809 literally move mountains for me when I'm speaking 00:13:49.809 --> 00:13:52.009 to God and my ancestors in these lights I believe 00:13:52.009 --> 00:13:54.409 they move bounds for me and I see that I see 00:13:54.409 --> 00:13:56.429 blessings happen in tenfold I see lessons are 00:13:56.429 --> 00:13:58.950 teaching me and it's something I'm just so grateful 00:13:58.950 --> 00:14:01.769 to have I'm grateful to come from a culture where 00:14:01.769 --> 00:14:05.990 I can Like be passionate about them and you know 00:14:05.990 --> 00:14:08.450 commute like do all this stuff and work for them 00:14:08.450 --> 00:14:11.029 and you know Honor them and also still be close 00:14:11.029 --> 00:14:13.710 to God and you know honor him as well and do 00:14:13.710 --> 00:14:16.559 that because I don't connect myself to you know 00:14:16.559 --> 00:14:19.139 christianity or anything like that i don't believe 00:14:19.139 --> 00:14:23.240 in any of those because in my opinion my opinion 00:14:23.240 --> 00:14:25.679 i just believe so many things are like hateful 00:14:25.679 --> 00:14:27.559 or corrupt and a lot of stuff gets twisted so 00:14:27.559 --> 00:14:32.299 for me i choose my way i choose to honor a man 00:14:32.299 --> 00:14:34.639 i have had like connections with and i have feel 00:14:34.639 --> 00:14:36.720 like have changed my life and i and the people 00:14:36.720 --> 00:14:38.960 who i feel like change my life every single day 00:14:38.960 --> 00:14:41.259 and that's how i move that's what i feel close 00:14:41.259 --> 00:14:45.610 to and Do believe you're supposed to question 00:14:45.610 --> 00:14:49.950 it like I? I think I didn't grow up religious 00:14:49.950 --> 00:14:53.649 my mom was agnostic and I think my dad was an 00:14:53.649 --> 00:14:57.129 atheist like nobody It was never forced on me. 00:14:57.129 --> 00:15:00.289 I was always able to figure out what I want now 00:15:00.289 --> 00:15:02.990 my dad's side of the family I did hang around 00:15:02.990 --> 00:15:05.590 my sister and she was like extremely religious 00:15:05.590 --> 00:15:08.820 not anymore, but she was back then so Think that 00:15:08.820 --> 00:15:11.399 was when I first got introduced to you know the 00:15:11.399 --> 00:15:13.179 church and stuff, and I never really like church 00:15:13.179 --> 00:15:14.980 I still don't like church. I'm gonna be honest. 00:15:15.259 --> 00:15:18.440 I'm just bored My attendance fan is zero for 00:15:18.440 --> 00:15:21.019 a church, but I did go to Catholic high school 00:15:21.019 --> 00:15:23.740 So I've had a lot of experiences and you know 00:15:23.740 --> 00:15:26.179 put my toes in different things and been able 00:15:26.179 --> 00:15:27.860 to learn I've been able to question. Okay. Why 00:15:27.860 --> 00:15:29.799 does it like why does this move like this? Why 00:15:29.799 --> 00:15:33.080 does that move like that and I was I was really 00:15:33.080 --> 00:15:36.620 blessed my pastor in high school That was a great 00:15:36.620 --> 00:15:41.169 man I he he was just such a loving man I feel 00:15:41.169 --> 00:15:43.850 like he never made me feel judge even if I talked 00:15:43.850 --> 00:15:46.330 about something that was completely fucking opposite 00:15:46.330 --> 00:15:49.309 of what he believed in or what's happening and 00:15:49.309 --> 00:15:52.669 I'm just like hey this is what it is but he allowed 00:15:52.669 --> 00:15:54.370 me to question that because there would be things 00:15:54.370 --> 00:15:56.350 I'm questioning hey why does this work like this 00:15:56.350 --> 00:15:59.990 why is there so much hate in this area why like 00:15:59.990 --> 00:16:01.730 you know why are these things happening so I 00:16:01.730 --> 00:16:04.450 do think it is extremely important to question 00:16:04.450 --> 00:16:07.029 religion Most people once they question this 00:16:07.029 --> 00:16:09.750 religion they go back to it anyway, right? But 00:16:09.750 --> 00:16:12.250 I think it's part of the process and growing 00:16:12.250 --> 00:16:15.789 up Why it's so important is like it just the 00:16:15.789 --> 00:16:18.710 education it allows you to learn what you want 00:16:18.710 --> 00:16:22.009 What you value in yourself and say hey, maybe 00:16:22.009 --> 00:16:24.110 if I don't value all of this, how can I move? 00:16:24.509 --> 00:16:27.570 What can I do with no pressure from others? I 00:16:27.570 --> 00:16:29.309 feel like a lot of times there's pressure from 00:16:29.309 --> 00:16:31.840 others about things in judgment When I feel like 00:16:31.840 --> 00:16:34.039 there never should be because like I said, religion 00:16:34.039 --> 00:16:36.799 is beautiful in every like context, whether it's 00:16:36.799 --> 00:16:40.519 no religion at all or a really like stripped 00:16:40.519 --> 00:16:42.539 one, like so many of them are so beautiful and 00:16:42.539 --> 00:16:46.580 so different. I think it's just good to educate 00:16:46.580 --> 00:16:48.360 yourself on it, especially while growing, especially 00:16:48.360 --> 00:16:52.179 in times like today, we see so much hate amongst 00:16:52.179 --> 00:16:55.379 different religions and it's just like, hey, 00:16:55.460 --> 00:16:57.690 what's the main purpose here? What's the main 00:16:57.690 --> 00:16:59.889 purpose here can we can we find the plot because 00:16:59.889 --> 00:17:03.009 I fear we're losing the plot But yeah, I just 00:17:03.009 --> 00:17:06.789 think it's key to allow yourself to explore Next 00:17:06.789 --> 00:17:09.670 love. Um, we know this is a big one for me. I 00:17:09.670 --> 00:17:14.210 am head over heels. Okay But my first word was 00:17:14.210 --> 00:17:16.970 love is never a waste. It's extremely tea. It's 00:17:16.970 --> 00:17:20.630 not hard to suck. Okay, but and I think this 00:17:20.630 --> 00:17:23.380 is why I was like I've been saying this so much 00:17:23.380 --> 00:17:25.339 to Michi in our conversation, so we've been having 00:17:25.339 --> 00:17:27.940 such deep conversations lately, is that you must 00:17:27.940 --> 00:17:30.099 have a strong foundation with your partner. Because 00:17:30.099 --> 00:17:33.740 in my head, how can we build 20 different things 00:17:33.740 --> 00:17:36.339 off of that if we're not here? If we're not together? 00:17:36.720 --> 00:17:38.920 How are we supposed to build friendships outside 00:17:38.920 --> 00:17:42.509 of this relationship? Children? Marriage? Homes 00:17:42.509 --> 00:17:44.990 so many different things if we're not eye to 00:17:44.990 --> 00:17:47.650 eye if we don't know how to cater to each other 00:17:47.650 --> 00:17:49.890 correctly if we don't know how to hear each other 00:17:49.890 --> 00:17:52.250 without even speaking correctly if we don't know 00:17:52.250 --> 00:17:55.509 how to read each other and just do so many different 00:17:55.509 --> 00:17:59.349 things that that foundation is what matters and 00:17:59.349 --> 00:18:01.470 That's what me and him. I've really been getting 00:18:01.470 --> 00:18:04.559 to the nitty -gritty on recently It's hard as 00:18:04.559 --> 00:18:06.740 fuck there's been a lot of tears a lot of yells 00:18:06.740 --> 00:18:09.299 But also so much love and so much passion after 00:18:09.299 --> 00:18:11.160 it cuz it's like damn. I really do understand 00:18:11.160 --> 00:18:14.180 you Hey, we really are growing and it's and it's 00:18:14.180 --> 00:18:16.940 so fun watching each other turn into adults It's 00:18:16.940 --> 00:18:19.279 crazy because then I look back and I'm like damn 00:18:19.279 --> 00:18:22.400 I Don't know in my head. I really forgot like 00:18:22.400 --> 00:18:25.279 I forgot every year like everything before we 00:18:25.279 --> 00:18:29.009 moved here Like that was five years of our relationship 00:18:29.009 --> 00:18:30.910 and I dead -ass and I'm much like I was this 00:18:30.910 --> 00:18:33.130 man every day and I truly don't remember what 00:18:33.130 --> 00:18:35.750 the fuck was happening Like I know but like I 00:18:35.750 --> 00:18:40.349 don't know I was really desensitized. Okay but 00:18:40.349 --> 00:18:43.970 Like I said love is one of the hardest things 00:18:43.970 --> 00:18:45.529 to build and i'm talking i'm not talking platonic 00:18:45.529 --> 00:18:48.069 right now okay fucking romantic it is one of 00:18:48.069 --> 00:18:49.710 the hardest things to build especially in today's 00:18:49.710 --> 00:18:51.369 culture i feel like there's a lot of hookup culture 00:18:51.369 --> 00:18:55.309 which is not to shame like okay have fun do that 00:18:55.309 --> 00:18:59.430 but i think so many people they can't trust each 00:18:59.430 --> 00:19:01.869 other simply because of this like it's like everybody 00:19:01.869 --> 00:19:04.950 nobody is focused on where they want to be which 00:19:04.950 --> 00:19:06.470 is like okay you want to be single for your life 00:19:06.470 --> 00:19:09.210 do that right but i feel like a lot of times 00:19:09.210 --> 00:19:11.170 so many people like i'll see people's reposts 00:19:11.170 --> 00:19:12.869 and they're chasing love and they want this so 00:19:12.869 --> 00:19:15.980 bad But it's like, I can't trust that nigga. 00:19:16.720 --> 00:19:18.640 I can't trust that. I can't trust that. I'm not 00:19:18.640 --> 00:19:21.640 about to go out here. And you're just like, I'm 00:19:21.640 --> 00:19:23.319 gonna, I'd rather just stay away from it as a 00:19:23.319 --> 00:19:25.180 whole. I'd rather have my fun and stay away from 00:19:25.180 --> 00:19:27.980 it. But it's also, I've also seen so many relationships 00:19:27.980 --> 00:19:30.160 where these people don't have these hard conversations. 00:19:30.200 --> 00:19:32.359 So in my head, and I hate to say it like that, 00:19:32.380 --> 00:19:34.740 but in my head I'm like, do you love them? Cause 00:19:34.740 --> 00:19:36.779 there's so many relationships I see, especially 00:19:36.779 --> 00:19:38.380 ones like people were friends with and shit. 00:19:38.420 --> 00:19:40.940 And I'm just like, they don't love each other. 00:19:41.109 --> 00:19:43.049 And I hate to say that because I'm like, okay, 00:19:43.170 --> 00:19:44.869 you might do you like you might love each other 00:19:44.869 --> 00:19:47.470 service level but it's like it's more out of 00:19:47.470 --> 00:19:50.529 convenience in Relationships like relationships 00:19:50.529 --> 00:19:53.910 are so far from convenient. It's difficult. And 00:19:53.910 --> 00:19:55.450 like I said, I cannot speak on everybody's love. 00:19:55.670 --> 00:19:59.650 I can't But I would say me and me too are extremely 00:19:59.650 --> 00:20:01.730 healthy, especially for our age. We have never 00:20:01.730 --> 00:20:04.329 broken up in our seven years together He is in 00:20:04.329 --> 00:20:07.589 therapy. This is my therapy. I know any my therapist 00:20:07.589 --> 00:20:09.210 I'm going to is not taking my insurance right 00:20:09.210 --> 00:20:12.910 now. Okay, I'm trying but we're both we both 00:20:12.910 --> 00:20:16.150 very much our individuals But also a couple like 00:20:16.150 --> 00:20:19.190 he is Demetrius. I'm Zoe, but we're also Demetrius 00:20:19.190 --> 00:20:22.619 and Zoe You know, and we both know what we want 00:20:22.619 --> 00:20:25.160 and worse and not fully not fully I'll be honest. 00:20:25.160 --> 00:20:26.779 We're also figuring it out We're both still figuring 00:20:26.779 --> 00:20:28.500 out how to communicate. I'm figuring out how 00:20:28.500 --> 00:20:30.559 to control my emotions. He's trying to figure 00:20:30.559 --> 00:20:35.359 out how to Manage his wording Um, and that's 00:20:35.359 --> 00:20:37.599 our thing going on right now, but it's never 00:20:37.599 --> 00:20:41.839 easy love has never been easy Um in any definition 00:20:41.839 --> 00:20:44.000 any capacity. It's never fucking easy and never 00:20:44.000 --> 00:20:48.029 will be But I think that's the beauty in it And 00:20:48.029 --> 00:20:49.650 you need to have those uncomfortable conversations. 00:20:50.109 --> 00:20:52.670 But like this also can tie into platonic, uncomfortable 00:20:52.670 --> 00:20:55.470 conversations with your friends. Love is not 00:20:55.470 --> 00:20:58.309 easy. I love you enough to hurt your feelings 00:20:58.309 --> 00:21:00.569 and try to better you. I love you enough to let 00:21:00.569 --> 00:21:05.210 you know, hey, you need to change, right? But 00:21:05.210 --> 00:21:07.170 yeah, just try to search in the right places. 00:21:07.509 --> 00:21:09.869 And if these places aren't working out, search 00:21:09.869 --> 00:21:12.349 in yourself first, right? Because it really is 00:21:12.349 --> 00:21:14.130 true. You cannot love someone else without loving 00:21:14.130 --> 00:21:17.369 yourself. You can simultaneously do it. But it 00:21:17.369 --> 00:21:19.130 ain't gonna work out if you can't pour in your 00:21:19.130 --> 00:21:22.029 own cup too, right? Because you can only have 00:21:22.029 --> 00:21:25.789 a cup of water, right? I'm pouring all my water 00:21:25.789 --> 00:21:27.809 into this glass. Damn, my cup over here empty. 00:21:28.549 --> 00:21:30.529 What you want me to do? What you want me to do? 00:21:31.150 --> 00:21:32.789 It doesn't work like that. You can't let it work 00:21:32.789 --> 00:21:35.650 like that. And then lastly, just don't tolerate 00:21:35.650 --> 00:21:37.789 things you never would just because you love 00:21:37.789 --> 00:21:43.170 someone. And the term love makes you stupid is 00:21:43.170 --> 00:21:46.640 true. It's true. Love is blinding. Love will 00:21:46.640 --> 00:21:49.400 make you ignore a lot of damn red flags in somebody, 00:21:49.660 --> 00:21:51.839 okay? And I'm talking family, friends, anybody. 00:21:53.240 --> 00:21:55.660 So that's also really important. I want you to 00:21:55.660 --> 00:21:58.940 know if you have those moments of clarity and 00:21:58.940 --> 00:22:01.880 you're like, I don't like this. You know what? 00:22:02.259 --> 00:22:04.039 I think I always want to remind you at the end 00:22:04.039 --> 00:22:06.500 of the day, this is your life. You only live 00:22:06.500 --> 00:22:11.140 for you. You only have so much time. Choose peace. 00:22:11.619 --> 00:22:14.839 Choose happiness today. Okay, there's so many 00:22:14.839 --> 00:22:16.619 other people and I know it's gonna hurt like 00:22:16.619 --> 00:22:19.220 a bitch and I know It's going to be one of the 00:22:19.220 --> 00:22:21.660 hardest things you have to do in your life, but 00:22:21.660 --> 00:22:25.660 choose yourself Please that is one of the best 00:22:25.660 --> 00:22:27.720 things you can learn in life is to choose yourself 00:22:27.720 --> 00:22:30.819 and to live for yourself Because then what yeah, 00:22:30.960 --> 00:22:32.700 it's gonna hurt but I can move on I can heal 00:22:32.700 --> 00:22:35.119 myself I can be better I can find a new hobby 00:22:35.119 --> 00:22:37.539 to pour myself into I can I can find something 00:22:37.539 --> 00:22:39.680 I can cater to myself But also know where to 00:22:39.680 --> 00:22:43.399 look to find someone who caters me, right? So 00:22:43.399 --> 00:22:45.599 that's also extremely important. And boundaries 00:22:45.599 --> 00:22:52.759 also go into love. Next is education. The most 00:22:52.759 --> 00:22:55.200 important thing ever. The most important thing 00:22:55.200 --> 00:22:56.680 ever. And I'm not saying how you get education. 00:22:56.839 --> 00:22:58.460 I happen to be in college. I don't think you 00:22:58.460 --> 00:23:01.160 need to go to college for education. No. But 00:23:01.160 --> 00:23:03.940 I do think you should never stop learning. Always 00:23:03.940 --> 00:23:07.579 pick up a book. Always be learning something. 00:23:07.640 --> 00:23:11.299 If you have to look into like a new hobby. A 00:23:11.299 --> 00:23:13.440 new language. Languages are hard to speak, though. 00:23:13.440 --> 00:23:17.279 I can never concentrate on those. Or, like for 00:23:17.279 --> 00:23:20.880 me, I'm into herbs. A new herb. Like just, that's 00:23:20.880 --> 00:23:24.779 my cat. Be constantly learning and growing. And 00:23:24.779 --> 00:23:26.079 like I said, you don't have to take the same 00:23:26.079 --> 00:23:28.299 route as everybody else, but lack of education 00:23:28.299 --> 00:23:30.680 is truly detrimental. It turns into ignorance. 00:23:30.900 --> 00:23:34.099 We can see, right? We can see in the world, okay? 00:23:34.960 --> 00:23:37.960 Learn in any capacity you can and never stop 00:23:37.960 --> 00:23:41.339 learning in any way. It is so... Beneficial for 00:23:41.339 --> 00:23:44.599 you a big brain is a hot brain. Okay, it could 00:23:44.599 --> 00:23:47.619 be a small as a new color or a whole new subject 00:23:47.619 --> 00:23:51.940 just never stop learning and then lastly jobs 00:23:51.940 --> 00:23:55.180 and We just talked about it. I don't believe 00:23:55.180 --> 00:23:57.480 you should stay out of job as misery or fear. 00:23:57.920 --> 00:24:02.160 I don't and I did for a while, but I don't anymore 00:24:02.160 --> 00:24:06.660 I don't because Like I said, I know this is your 00:24:06.660 --> 00:24:09.920 life, you know So many people end up dying and 00:24:09.920 --> 00:24:11.400 job that couldn't give a shit about them that 00:24:11.400 --> 00:24:14.839 job replace you tomorrow In a heartbeat and in 00:24:14.839 --> 00:24:16.539 my experience following what makes you happy 00:24:16.539 --> 00:24:18.240 will ultimately lead you in the right direction, 00:24:18.299 --> 00:24:21.259 right? If you're truly following your goals and 00:24:21.259 --> 00:24:24.359 what feels right for you can't go wrong It might 00:24:24.359 --> 00:24:26.519 be hard, but you can't go wrong. This is why 00:24:26.519 --> 00:24:28.339 I'm following my podcast because this is something 00:24:28.339 --> 00:24:32.500 I I have my feet in. I have had it in them for 00:24:32.500 --> 00:24:35.099 the past two years. This podcast helps. It makes 00:24:35.099 --> 00:24:38.779 me feel good when I talk about it, when I think 00:24:38.779 --> 00:24:41.240 about it, when I do it. And it helps me learn 00:24:41.240 --> 00:24:43.680 as an individual and learn and teach other people, 00:24:43.740 --> 00:24:47.059 which I also love. And it's just something I'm 00:24:47.059 --> 00:24:49.180 so passionate about, but also want to bounce 00:24:49.180 --> 00:24:51.039 20 different things off of it, like other little 00:24:51.039 --> 00:24:54.000 small businesses or books. And so many different 00:24:54.000 --> 00:24:56.539 things I just feel like could help myself and 00:24:56.539 --> 00:24:59.960 others. So yeah, I don't think you should stay 00:24:59.960 --> 00:25:03.200 out of a job, out of misery. If you are suffering 00:25:03.200 --> 00:25:05.319 being in a toxic environment, life is way too 00:25:05.319 --> 00:25:08.119 short for you to continue it. No matter the pay, 00:25:08.299 --> 00:25:11.000 convenience, or anything, you need to choose 00:25:11.000 --> 00:25:14.660 you. Please. And you know, since that was my 00:25:14.660 --> 00:25:17.559 last thing, I think my overall message is, with 00:25:17.559 --> 00:25:21.640 all of these, no matter what, prioritizing yourself... 00:25:22.769 --> 00:25:25.829 Key without that. I do believe you will remain 00:25:25.829 --> 00:25:28.230 stagnant and where you are you can make so much 00:25:28.230 --> 00:25:30.789 progress, but you're really not Because your 00:25:30.789 --> 00:25:32.970 brain your brain is still where you were five 00:25:32.970 --> 00:25:36.009 years ago You have not developed you have not 00:25:36.009 --> 00:25:38.130 grown you have not chose you you're still living 00:25:38.130 --> 00:25:40.690 for other people and that is we Most of us fall 00:25:40.690 --> 00:25:42.910 victim to living for other people right and I 00:25:42.910 --> 00:25:45.130 still see it And it's sometimes I catch it with 00:25:45.130 --> 00:25:48.009 them myself, and we really have to stop living 00:25:48.009 --> 00:25:50.430 for other people. I'm not I'm not about to stay 00:25:50.430 --> 00:25:52.309 at this job because my mom wants me to. I'm not 00:25:52.309 --> 00:25:54.069 about to come down here because my dad wants 00:25:54.069 --> 00:25:57.630 me to. I'm not about to, what's another example? 00:25:57.829 --> 00:26:01.549 I'm not about to go into this education career 00:26:01.549 --> 00:26:04.109 because oh my gosh, it's in my family lineage, 00:26:04.190 --> 00:26:05.670 but I don't even want to do this. I want to be 00:26:05.670 --> 00:26:07.789 a tattoo artist. That's my passion for like 10 00:26:07.789 --> 00:26:11.269 years. You know, live for yourself. I don't care 00:26:11.269 --> 00:26:12.690 if you're making the smallest amount of money. 00:26:12.690 --> 00:26:15.430 If you are happy, that's where you need to be. 00:26:15.750 --> 00:26:19.809 And I think a lot of us confuse success money 00:26:19.809 --> 00:26:24.250 and you know all of this that that and being 00:26:24.250 --> 00:26:26.269 happy that really never equates because you look 00:26:26.269 --> 00:26:28.190 at so many people who have all of this and they 00:26:28.190 --> 00:26:30.349 still hate their fucking selves you know why 00:26:30.349 --> 00:26:31.789 because they didn't chase that goal that would 00:26:31.789 --> 00:26:33.650 have made them happy they chose what made them 00:26:33.650 --> 00:26:35.410 the most money which was the most convenient 00:26:35.410 --> 00:26:37.890 which was the easiest path the easiest path is 00:26:37.890 --> 00:26:41.049 never the right path okay it is not and I know 00:26:41.049 --> 00:26:42.829 I'm I sound like I'm preaching I sound stupid 00:26:43.119 --> 00:26:45.960 But it's not stupid. It's really not. And once 00:26:45.960 --> 00:26:48.240 you start prioritizing yourself and really understanding 00:26:48.240 --> 00:26:51.779 how detrimental it is for your future and yourself, 00:26:52.279 --> 00:26:54.079 and let's say your future kids, your future husband, 00:26:54.480 --> 00:26:57.700 that you are a woman who knows herself through 00:26:57.700 --> 00:26:59.839 and through, who can choose herself at the end 00:26:59.839 --> 00:27:02.819 of the day no matter what, that's when you know 00:27:02.819 --> 00:27:05.720 you made it. That's when you know, hey, and let's 00:27:05.720 --> 00:27:07.359 say you don't know what you want to do in life, 00:27:07.480 --> 00:27:11.079 right? You can still be so grounded in yourself 00:27:11.079 --> 00:27:14.099 to admit that and be like, okay. Well today I 00:27:14.099 --> 00:27:16.640 want to explore this today I'm gonna explore 00:27:16.640 --> 00:27:20.339 that and I'm going to do it no matter what because 00:27:20.339 --> 00:27:21.799 this is something that will make me feel good 00:27:21.799 --> 00:27:23.240 and this is something I would do and something 00:27:23.240 --> 00:27:28.259 I wrote for him I think overall the biggest lesson 00:27:28.259 --> 00:27:33.059 in life is choosing you and Prioritizing yourself 00:27:33.059 --> 00:27:36.819 and becoming whole Because I mean it's true. 00:27:36.819 --> 00:27:39.609 We do die alone A lot of the people we meet and 00:27:39.609 --> 00:27:41.410 fall in love with, I don't remember them bitches 00:27:41.410 --> 00:27:43.849 I was tripping about five years ago. I don't. 00:27:43.890 --> 00:27:46.109 I actually have been removing everybody off Instagram 00:27:46.109 --> 00:27:47.950 and Snapchat because I don't like how you treated 00:27:47.950 --> 00:27:52.069 me. I don't. I don't. So why do I need to look 00:27:52.069 --> 00:27:54.509 at your page every day? Why do I need to watch 00:27:54.509 --> 00:27:55.990 you post happy birthday to this motherfucker? 00:27:56.109 --> 00:27:59.869 No, I don't. Because I don't like the role you 00:27:59.869 --> 00:28:02.710 played in my life didn't benefit me. It hurt 00:28:02.710 --> 00:28:05.150 me actually. i don't want to see it. i've had 00:28:05.150 --> 00:28:07.190 so many times we put ourselves in these cycles 00:28:07.190 --> 00:28:09.750 where we have to keep watching someone who hurt 00:28:09.750 --> 00:28:11.930 us. why do we want to stalk that facebook page? 00:28:12.109 --> 00:28:13.970 why do we want to look at that tiktok? why do 00:28:13.970 --> 00:28:15.829 we want to look at our ex's this that or the 00:28:15.829 --> 00:28:18.670 other? i'm not searching for what hurts me. i'm 00:28:18.670 --> 00:28:20.250 searching for what makes me feel good. so how 00:28:20.250 --> 00:28:22.750 can i do that? how can i live and learn today? 00:28:23.269 --> 00:28:25.549 right? all right let me stop fucking yapping 00:28:25.549 --> 00:28:29.150 okay guys? um yeah but that was today's episode. 00:28:29.230 --> 00:28:30.809 i really hope you enjoyed it. i really did enjoy 00:28:30.809 --> 00:28:33.480 this one. being so honest with you i really did 00:28:33.480 --> 00:28:38.420 enjoy this one um but yeah we have a rating and 00:28:38.420 --> 00:28:42.619 a review if you feel so inclined i really appreciate 00:28:42.619 --> 00:28:45.519 it i haven't got one i think in like seven months 00:28:45.519 --> 00:28:48.000 i would really appreciate it um and i love when 00:28:48.000 --> 00:28:50.519 you guys post me They are listening to me on 00:28:50.519 --> 00:28:53.039 like Instagram tick -tock whatever and if you 00:28:53.039 --> 00:28:54.880 aren't already follow Did I over share podcast 00:28:54.880 --> 00:28:57.420 on Instagram and tick -tock my email if you ever 00:28:57.420 --> 00:28:59.119 need email me about anything is die over share 00:28:59.119 --> 00:29:02.859 podcast of course and Yeah, I love you beautiful 00:29:02.859 --> 00:29:05.380 people. This will also be on YouTube and I will 00:29:05.380 --> 00:29:09.200 start recording soon face videos Mm -hmm. I'm 00:29:09.200 --> 00:29:11.640 just trying to find a setting that really feels 00:29:11.640 --> 00:29:14.799 good looks cute, right? But I'm also like I said, 00:29:14.859 --> 00:29:16.259 I'm a normal person so I need to embrace it where 00:29:16.259 --> 00:29:18.880 I'm at So I might just be filming in bed But 00:29:18.880 --> 00:29:21.140 yeah, I love you guys so much and I hope you 00:29:21.140 --> 00:29:25.259 have a beautiful weekend. Love you, bye!