WEBVTT 00:00:01.460 --> 00:00:10.220 Guys is this thing on? What is up besties it 00:00:10.220 --> 00:00:13.259 is your host Zoe and I'm back with another freaking 00:00:13.259 --> 00:00:19.820 episode online did I over share podcasts I Welcome 00:00:19.820 --> 00:00:31.309 I can't sing Nothing much is going on with me 00:00:31.309 --> 00:00:35.509 actually nothing much at all Retrograde has been 00:00:35.509 --> 00:00:39.090 retrograding dare I say dare I say this is one 00:00:39.090 --> 00:00:41.789 of the only ones I've ever felt this happy and 00:00:41.789 --> 00:00:44.189 More so not even like, you know how most of them 00:00:44.189 --> 00:00:45.869 are like, oh my gosh, my life is falling apart. 00:00:46.689 --> 00:00:49.649 No I think other people's lives are falling apart 00:00:49.649 --> 00:00:53.850 and it's like I'm learning about it or learning 00:00:53.850 --> 00:00:56.969 shit. I need to know and I'm just like, oh Great 00:00:56.969 --> 00:01:03.200 fun. Okay Whatever. 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And it just made 00:02:13.520 --> 00:02:16.039 me think about them, first of all, and then second 00:02:16.039 --> 00:02:18.800 of all, how I used to be when I feel like I was 00:02:18.800 --> 00:02:22.280 in other people's business. Okay. And let me 00:02:22.280 --> 00:02:24.900 clear this up. When I am, there's a difference 00:02:24.900 --> 00:02:30.419 between being nosy, okay? Rightfully so. I am 00:02:30.419 --> 00:02:33.060 100 % nosy still. And then truly being in someone's 00:02:33.060 --> 00:02:34.900 business. Like, you know, caring enough about 00:02:34.900 --> 00:02:37.199 someone else to be in their business, to make 00:02:37.199 --> 00:02:40.840 up stories, to talk about them, bullshit around, 00:02:41.020 --> 00:02:43.039 just do shit like that's not prevalent, right? 00:02:44.020 --> 00:02:45.800 And you know, I'm gonna be ranting in the first 00:02:45.800 --> 00:02:50.979 part of this, okay? Um... Sorry, I almost turned 00:02:50.979 --> 00:02:54.300 my computer off, okay? But so interesting, it's 00:02:54.300 --> 00:02:57.939 so funny, these past couple of weeks have, there's 00:02:57.939 --> 00:02:59.740 just been so many people in my business, especially 00:02:59.740 --> 00:03:03.080 at work, right? Mind you, my work life and work 00:03:03.080 --> 00:03:07.080 life, hello, my work life and home life are not, 00:03:07.080 --> 00:03:10.639 they do not coexist, okay? These are grown ass 00:03:10.639 --> 00:03:13.199 people, you know, there might be two, three of 00:03:13.199 --> 00:03:15.659 them, really only one I ever really speak to 00:03:15.659 --> 00:03:17.919 outside of work, that's it. So it's just kinda 00:03:17.919 --> 00:03:21.180 like, question mark? So it's like for me, I don't 00:03:21.180 --> 00:03:24.479 notice anything happening. I don't because it's 00:03:24.479 --> 00:03:27.099 work, right? But also relating to social media, 00:03:27.219 --> 00:03:28.680 so many other things. There has just been so 00:03:28.680 --> 00:03:32.259 many people in my business, family, so many fucking 00:03:32.259 --> 00:03:35.889 things. But when I take a step back and I look 00:03:35.889 --> 00:03:38.990 at it, I get concerned. Because it always turns 00:03:38.990 --> 00:03:41.229 into obsession. And maybe I'm not like, you don't 00:03:41.229 --> 00:03:43.090 always have to think, okay, obsession, oh my 00:03:43.090 --> 00:03:45.129 gosh, I'm in love with somebody, let me stalk, 00:03:45.210 --> 00:03:47.750 let me do this, no. But to the point where you're 00:03:47.750 --> 00:03:49.810 watching every single one of my social media 00:03:49.810 --> 00:03:53.050 pages, where you are coming up with stories on 00:03:53.050 --> 00:03:55.030 what you're doing, what I'm doing on my social 00:03:55.030 --> 00:03:58.250 media pages, to the point where I have to block 00:03:58.250 --> 00:04:00.610 you, right? Block you from multiple different 00:04:00.610 --> 00:04:06.400 accounts. Do you call a psych? Psych work? Don't 00:04:06.400 --> 00:04:11.719 call the cops? Send to read? Hello? What's happening? 00:04:12.000 --> 00:04:16.079 Cause at that point I'm confused. Why do you 00:04:16.079 --> 00:04:18.060 know this? And maybe it's just cause I detach 00:04:18.060 --> 00:04:20.920 myself from people so much. Right? Maybe it is 00:04:20.920 --> 00:04:23.339 because of this. Like I don't notice when let's 00:04:23.339 --> 00:04:25.120 say people unfollow me or some random shit happens. 00:04:25.199 --> 00:04:28.500 Why would I notice that? Why would I care? You 00:04:28.500 --> 00:04:31.579 know, like why would I care? So it's to the point 00:04:31.579 --> 00:04:33.459 where it's like I didn't really I didn't really 00:04:33.459 --> 00:04:34.680 think other people were thinking about me that 00:04:34.680 --> 00:04:37.420 much because I'm just like, okay Are we not all 00:04:37.420 --> 00:04:39.699 normal? Like I know I'm a creative young lit 00:04:39.699 --> 00:04:43.079 bad bitch beautiful woman who is thriving flirty 00:04:43.079 --> 00:04:48.279 and a boss Okay, like I know who I am. I Didn't 00:04:48.279 --> 00:04:50.300 I mean I never expected y 'all to know who I 00:04:50.300 --> 00:04:53.939 was. Did I really care? No like I'm here getting 00:04:53.939 --> 00:04:57.319 paid $16 an hour. I really don't care what we're 00:04:57.319 --> 00:05:01.800 talking about. Okay, but anyway And it made me 00:05:01.800 --> 00:05:03.680 think about the time where I would catch myself 00:05:03.680 --> 00:05:07.060 in people's business and not necessarily in like 00:05:07.060 --> 00:05:09.720 Maybe like I'm gonna admit we've all had a boyfriend 00:05:09.720 --> 00:05:12.759 and like I don't know maybe maybe y 'all haven't 00:05:12.759 --> 00:05:14.660 I know I haven't a couple other women have but 00:05:14.660 --> 00:05:16.519 like and then we go down to the rabbit hole of 00:05:16.519 --> 00:05:20.040 phys ex and Every fucking thing that connects 00:05:20.040 --> 00:05:22.149 that shit like that And it gets so plain where 00:05:22.149 --> 00:05:23.730 you are looking. You're looking, you're looking, 00:05:23.850 --> 00:05:25.550 you're looking. Or ex -best friend or something. 00:05:25.810 --> 00:05:27.470 Just looking and looking and looking. And I can 00:05:27.470 --> 00:05:29.089 think about how I used to be like that in the 00:05:29.089 --> 00:05:30.990 past. And it makes me think of what y 'all go 00:05:30.990 --> 00:05:34.610 through now at a grown age. At a grown age. And 00:05:34.610 --> 00:05:36.509 when I'm talking grown, baby, I'm talking grown. 00:05:36.709 --> 00:05:39.310 Like you could be my mother. Be my grandmother, 00:05:39.410 --> 00:05:42.649 which okay, cool. Maybe the maturity hasn't kicked 00:05:42.649 --> 00:05:45.949 up. Cool, that's fine. I never understood why 00:05:45.949 --> 00:05:49.709 it has to reflect on me. Okay, like why? Why 00:05:49.709 --> 00:05:54.009 must you hate? Winner so it's like you feel that 00:05:54.009 --> 00:05:55.769 I'm great. So I think you just got to try to 00:05:55.769 --> 00:05:58.829 squish it. Okay, and That's what I wanted to 00:05:58.829 --> 00:06:00.490 talk about and that's really where I'm getting 00:06:00.490 --> 00:06:03.230 into But what I wanted to say is mind your business 00:06:03.230 --> 00:06:05.410 when it comes to me First of all, I tell the 00:06:05.410 --> 00:06:07.589 world so much already. I'm an extremely open 00:06:07.589 --> 00:06:10.449 person right and we know this I'm a yapper fucking 00:06:10.449 --> 00:06:13.250 McGee Hence the point of did I over share cuz 00:06:13.250 --> 00:06:16.029 nine times out of ten I'm over sharing But we 00:06:16.029 --> 00:06:17.810 have to know I only share what I want y 'all 00:06:17.810 --> 00:06:21.939 to know right which is a lot Granted, I'm not 00:06:21.939 --> 00:06:25.199 this embarrassed shy person It's not but when 00:06:25.199 --> 00:06:27.519 it gets to the point that people feel like they 00:06:27.519 --> 00:06:30.120 don't know me so much where they have to create 00:06:30.120 --> 00:06:31.819 false narratives That's when it gets concerning 00:06:31.819 --> 00:06:34.480 right and I'm not talking about there's a difference 00:06:34.480 --> 00:06:36.319 between of thinking We know people thinking we 00:06:36.319 --> 00:06:38.699 know their character fine y 'all can hear me 00:06:38.699 --> 00:06:40.420 and think oh my gosh. I'm this person I'm that 00:06:40.420 --> 00:06:42.779 person I act like this my life's like this yada 00:06:42.779 --> 00:06:45.240 yada yada. That's fine. That's normal that comes 00:06:45.240 --> 00:06:48.699 with shit, right? but who's going around and 00:06:48.699 --> 00:06:52.060 saying I'm bench. I bet she does this when she 00:06:52.060 --> 00:06:57.100 does And I'm gonna go tell somebody else What? 00:06:58.420 --> 00:06:59.939 Because now I'm concerned and I feel like you 00:06:59.939 --> 00:07:02.540 need to get admitted to the cyborg Which is okay. 00:07:02.680 --> 00:07:05.319 I think we all need a trip. I think we all need 00:07:05.319 --> 00:07:08.600 a trip Okay, but mind you like I said, I'm already 00:07:08.600 --> 00:07:10.939 a very open person. So it's like what the fuck 00:07:10.939 --> 00:07:12.980 else are you questioning? People know what I 00:07:12.980 --> 00:07:15.240 want them to know. So it always baffles me when 00:07:15.240 --> 00:07:17.439 I start hearing stuff, people just made up because 00:07:17.439 --> 00:07:19.699 they're minding my business. Mind you, majority 00:07:19.699 --> 00:07:22.220 of the time I'm so damn oblivious, I don't realize 00:07:22.220 --> 00:07:24.579 until it's a month or two down the damn line, 00:07:24.860 --> 00:07:26.920 and it gets back to me that, oh hey, and I'm 00:07:26.920 --> 00:07:29.079 like, damn. What, they pulled that out of their 00:07:29.079 --> 00:07:34.040 ass? What? What? Like I literally had somebody 00:07:34.040 --> 00:07:38.439 say, and I literally have a four -eyed bug alien 00:07:38.439 --> 00:07:42.110 staring at me in the crack of my damn door. Trying 00:07:42.110 --> 00:07:46.389 to get what do you want? Say hi to my podcast. 00:07:46.389 --> 00:07:51.529 Come here. No, you gotta come here Guys, I have 00:07:51.529 --> 00:07:55.189 a hello from your favorite person favorite person 00:07:55.189 --> 00:08:04.629 No, I'm the favorite. Hello Was good Stay the 00:08:04.629 --> 00:08:08.709 fuck out of her business Clark it take Clark 00:08:08.709 --> 00:08:12.139 it He's doing the finger thing. Okay. Okay. Bye. 00:08:12.420 --> 00:08:15.600 Don't interrupt me again Great little segment 00:08:15.600 --> 00:08:20.180 from my fiance guys Great little segment. Okay. 00:08:20.519 --> 00:08:24.040 Um, but yeah I didn't was I seeing y 'all but 00:08:24.040 --> 00:08:27.339 yeah, no little head I had I heard that you know 00:08:27.339 --> 00:08:29.980 what when I use the restroom, you know my bowel 00:08:29.980 --> 00:08:33.720 movements What's going on in my couch and my 00:08:33.720 --> 00:08:36.639 butt? Okay Mind you, you know what TMI, if you 00:08:36.639 --> 00:08:37.759 don't want to hear this, but I don't really give 00:08:37.759 --> 00:08:39.960 a fuck. There's no TMI in this podcast. I have 00:08:39.960 --> 00:08:42.159 IBS. I got a lot of shit going on. I'm never 00:08:42.159 --> 00:08:44.299 eating one of those too. And I always gotta pee. 00:08:44.340 --> 00:08:46.279 I've always had to pee my whole life. And that's 00:08:46.279 --> 00:08:48.820 mainly because I think I'm like a four bed girl. 00:08:48.879 --> 00:08:51.259 Like I have to take a sip after every damn bite, 00:08:51.440 --> 00:08:54.080 right? But I'm always in the bathroom. Why did 00:08:54.080 --> 00:08:56.980 I hear? You know, when she goes to the bathroom, 00:08:57.919 --> 00:09:00.720 she sits in there making TikToks for her podcast. 00:09:02.009 --> 00:09:04.909 She sits in there doing this and this and this 00:09:04.909 --> 00:09:08.330 and this and this and this and this Bitch, do 00:09:08.330 --> 00:09:10.850 you feel like motherfucking doctor who I don't 00:09:10.850 --> 00:09:12.529 even know if that's prevalent, but that sounded 00:09:12.529 --> 00:09:15.169 right I wanted to say detective, but I don't 00:09:15.169 --> 00:09:18.830 even know a damn detective It's like cuz who 00:09:18.830 --> 00:09:22.129 are you? You know what not you know what let 00:09:22.129 --> 00:09:24.889 me not say what I was gonna say But it's it's 00:09:24.889 --> 00:09:27.190 shit like that that makes no damn sense cuz it's 00:09:27.190 --> 00:09:30.250 just like you're so worried about someone else 00:09:31.639 --> 00:09:35.779 I'm concerned. I'm concerned. Because, babe, 00:09:35.779 --> 00:09:38.539 this is concerning. And then it's to the point, 00:09:38.559 --> 00:09:40.779 like, this isn't even, like, okay, normal BMS. 00:09:40.879 --> 00:09:43.799 Normal people BMS -ing. I'm in the bathroom. 00:09:44.500 --> 00:09:47.840 So, you know, I had a pu - I'm a grown woman. 00:09:48.539 --> 00:09:51.139 That is extremely inappropriate. Because I hate 00:09:51.139 --> 00:09:53.539 how - I hate how I remain so professional in 00:09:53.539 --> 00:09:56.220 situations. Because, in my head, I'm just like, 00:09:56.220 --> 00:10:00.309 oh, this stupid - This stupid fucking cut in 00:10:00.309 --> 00:10:07.889 my head. I'm just like Let me just call my best 00:10:07.889 --> 00:10:10.210 friend guys Let me just call the crazy best friend 00:10:10.210 --> 00:10:12.690 cuz I'll get hurt But I must remain professional 00:10:12.690 --> 00:10:14.990 because I know what I want in life. I must mind 00:10:14.990 --> 00:10:17.450 my own business I must keep my own business together 00:10:17.450 --> 00:10:21.110 because I know that I'm Better going to be better 00:10:21.110 --> 00:10:23.789 in life. I have better to reach for I have more 00:10:23.789 --> 00:10:26.549 going on I still have goals I'm young and I'm 00:10:26.549 --> 00:10:28.870 still reaching for shit even if I was oh, I still 00:10:28.870 --> 00:10:30.809 got shit I want to do so I'm not about to sit 00:10:30.809 --> 00:10:32.669 here and play in your face like I really want 00:10:32.669 --> 00:10:37.490 to I Will if I get home remember that? Because 00:10:37.490 --> 00:10:40.629 oh me she hurt a handful like that, but even 00:10:40.629 --> 00:10:43.889 like on social media and like people Let's say 00:10:43.889 --> 00:10:46.429 I grew up with it's like why are people always 00:10:46.429 --> 00:10:50.419 assuming? different things and I'm just like 00:10:50.419 --> 00:10:53.940 Jail jail to everybody. Okay, and I know this 00:10:53.940 --> 00:10:57.059 episode might just sound redundant and crazy 00:10:57.059 --> 00:11:01.120 But so does life it life life is very redundant 00:11:01.120 --> 00:11:03.980 and life is very crazy very unexpected And I 00:11:03.980 --> 00:11:08.059 feel like in this rush of red You know mercury 00:11:08.059 --> 00:11:11.139 is in the microwave. Okay, it is in Gatorade 00:11:11.139 --> 00:11:18.100 is whatever the fuck you want to call it It's 00:11:18.100 --> 00:11:22.179 like So much is happening. So much is happening. 00:11:22.179 --> 00:11:26.139 I've been seeing so much hate towards me that 00:11:26.139 --> 00:11:29.879 I'm genuinely just kind of like Is it cuz I know 00:11:29.879 --> 00:11:32.419 they know I'm popping off they know I'm a winner 00:11:32.419 --> 00:11:37.899 They know I'm this loving Happy woman, so they 00:11:37.899 --> 00:11:41.779 must they must try to break me down Cuz it won't 00:11:41.779 --> 00:11:47.799 happen. Hope It won't happen, okay I'm letting 00:11:47.799 --> 00:11:49.919 that be known now. I'm letting that be known 00:11:49.919 --> 00:11:51.620 now. We know that won't happen. You know that 00:11:51.620 --> 00:11:53.639 won't happen, which is why you're so upset about 00:11:53.639 --> 00:11:58.399 it. But where I'm at is what I've learned, like 00:11:58.399 --> 00:12:01.419 I said, who doesn't care nor stress about others 00:12:01.419 --> 00:12:04.799 anymore or any part of it is that it really does 00:12:04.799 --> 00:12:07.139 take the weight off your shoulders, guys. I don't 00:12:07.139 --> 00:12:09.580 think we realize that when we mind other people's 00:12:09.580 --> 00:12:12.019 business that much, it becomes ours to a point. 00:12:12.059 --> 00:12:14.620 Like we have all their energy. We have everything 00:12:14.620 --> 00:12:17.200 that's going on with them, right? We're sitting 00:12:17.200 --> 00:12:19.159 here trying to find out the answers for such 00:12:19.159 --> 00:12:21.299 -and -such, right? You know what? Why did this 00:12:21.299 --> 00:12:23.679 happen? I wonder what happened with this. What's 00:12:23.679 --> 00:12:25.019 the update on that? Yadda yadda yadda. And it's 00:12:25.019 --> 00:12:26.559 like you're focused on somebody else's life more 00:12:26.559 --> 00:12:28.059 than you're focused on yours, and that's an issue. 00:12:28.659 --> 00:12:30.919 That is an issue. Is your life boring or do you 00:12:30.919 --> 00:12:35.019 not just care about it? There's no common ground 00:12:35.019 --> 00:12:38.200 here. There's no common ground. And granted, 00:12:38.419 --> 00:12:43.639 this isn't... I love, like me. I mind other people's 00:12:43.639 --> 00:12:45.100 business, I'ma be honest with you, but from a 00:12:45.100 --> 00:12:48.080 distance. You know, I'm not so engulfed in other 00:12:48.080 --> 00:12:52.559 people where I'm like, oh my gosh, oh my gosh. 00:12:53.320 --> 00:12:56.879 Now if I hear a little side, like I'm gonna side 00:12:56.879 --> 00:13:01.080 hustle, but I'll keep it to myself. We're too 00:13:01.080 --> 00:13:03.299 old, and in my head, I think I view everything 00:13:03.299 --> 00:13:06.299 like we're too old. We're too old. Please, I'm 00:13:06.299 --> 00:13:08.679 trying to pay rent. I'm trying to pay rent, so 00:13:08.679 --> 00:13:11.789 like. Either you pay my rent, figure out how 00:13:11.789 --> 00:13:15.529 to make me pay my rent, like, because this is 00:13:15.529 --> 00:13:18.429 just getting ridiculous. It's getting redonkulous, 00:13:18.629 --> 00:13:22.350 okay? But I don't think we really, like, I realized 00:13:22.350 --> 00:13:24.509 how much stress it took off me, and from, like, 00:13:24.629 --> 00:13:26.610 my case, let's say, this is my family, for example. 00:13:26.710 --> 00:13:28.629 I was minding their business so much, so worried 00:13:28.629 --> 00:13:31.289 about... Outcomes and what would happen in this 00:13:31.289 --> 00:13:32.970 certain circumstance? What would happen with 00:13:32.970 --> 00:13:34.769 this person if they didn't accept drugs? What 00:13:34.769 --> 00:13:36.110 would happen to this person in the hospital? 00:13:36.409 --> 00:13:37.870 Yada? Yada? Yada? What happened with them jail 00:13:37.870 --> 00:13:42.250 like so many different things and God it drained 00:13:42.250 --> 00:13:45.129 the life out of me It took every single thing 00:13:45.129 --> 00:13:49.110 I had in me every single day waking up so worried 00:13:49.110 --> 00:13:52.169 about someone else I couldn't focus on my podcast. 00:13:52.190 --> 00:13:54.350 I couldn't focus on school. I couldn't focus 00:13:54.350 --> 00:13:56.409 on feeding myself, right? I couldn't focus on 00:13:56.649 --> 00:13:58.590 20 other things that I wanted to do around my 00:13:58.590 --> 00:14:00.769 damn house or just simple things that I wanted 00:14:00.769 --> 00:14:03.370 to do for my enjoyment, right? Because I was 00:14:03.370 --> 00:14:06.169 so focused on other things, I would take it and 00:14:06.169 --> 00:14:07.970 like, let's give work for example. If I'm so 00:14:07.970 --> 00:14:09.710 focused on something at work, I take it home 00:14:09.710 --> 00:14:12.950 with me. Why would I wanna do that? Why am I 00:14:12.950 --> 00:14:15.850 minding the business of so much going on around 00:14:15.850 --> 00:14:18.950 me that I take it home? Why is this phone call 00:14:18.950 --> 00:14:21.529 that I'm having with someone so much on me that 00:14:21.529 --> 00:14:24.019 I'm taking it when I get off the phone? You know 00:14:24.019 --> 00:14:25.639 what? And I've learned that detachment, which 00:14:25.639 --> 00:14:28.519 I can say is so beneficial for me, but I think 00:14:28.519 --> 00:14:30.340 it'll be beneficial for you guys if we ever do 00:14:30.340 --> 00:14:32.100 catch ourselves falling back. Because there'll 00:14:32.100 --> 00:14:33.980 be times when I catch myself still falling back 00:14:33.980 --> 00:14:35.840 in these things, you know? Falling back in these 00:14:35.840 --> 00:14:38.299 loops where I'm like, questioning things. But, 00:14:38.480 --> 00:14:40.399 being so honest, I don't even get this way by 00:14:40.399 --> 00:14:44.080 my best friend. At all. Like, and I'm so invested 00:14:44.080 --> 00:14:45.679 in their life. I know every single detail about 00:14:45.679 --> 00:14:48.299 that bitch's life. Like, we wake up off the text. 00:14:48.500 --> 00:14:51.539 Like, we are texting every single second about 00:14:51.539 --> 00:14:54.159 each other's life. But I'm still not engulfed 00:14:54.159 --> 00:14:56.879 in it. I know it's happening. But once again, 00:14:56.980 --> 00:14:59.480 that's her life. That's what she has going on. 00:15:00.240 --> 00:15:02.940 And I love her and I support her, but I'm not 00:15:02.940 --> 00:15:04.659 about to carry that weight on my shoulders unless 00:15:04.659 --> 00:15:06.320 it's something where it's like, okay, you know, 00:15:06.419 --> 00:15:08.480 hey, I can lend a hand. How can I help? You know, 00:15:08.500 --> 00:15:10.639 something like that. But certain things, she's 00:15:10.639 --> 00:15:13.100 not over here breaking herself down because of 00:15:13.100 --> 00:15:15.399 what I'm going through. You know what? Because 00:15:15.399 --> 00:15:18.019 it's life. Right? And I have my own to live. 00:15:18.080 --> 00:15:20.399 If I'm not focusing on my own life, I will get 00:15:20.399 --> 00:15:23.759 nowhere. I was so, what's a good analogy? I was 00:15:23.759 --> 00:15:27.059 so worried and staring at other people's journeys 00:15:27.059 --> 00:15:29.840 and other people's lives and you know, let's 00:15:29.840 --> 00:15:33.279 say they're on a race, right? I'm watching them 00:15:33.279 --> 00:15:35.899 do the race. I start tripping over my own damn 00:15:35.899 --> 00:15:38.419 feet. Cause I'm so busy watching the fucking 00:15:38.419 --> 00:15:41.039 person in front of me run the damn race, I cannot 00:15:41.039 --> 00:15:44.159 run it. And that's what so many people like y 00:15:44.159 --> 00:15:46.519 'all are doing that so much. I don't think you 00:15:46.519 --> 00:15:48.779 realize how harmful it is for you You cannot 00:15:48.779 --> 00:15:51.220 be your best self if you're worried about me 00:15:51.220 --> 00:15:54.600 You could you can't be you can't be because if 00:15:54.600 --> 00:15:55.980 you were worried about being your best self you'd 00:15:55.980 --> 00:15:59.700 be worried about you Occasionally you might be 00:15:59.700 --> 00:16:01.720 dabbling a little you're hustling, but you're 00:16:01.720 --> 00:16:04.899 worried about you, okay? So no, you're not the 00:16:04.899 --> 00:16:06.740 all -star fucking worker. You're not the all 00:16:06.740 --> 00:16:08.139 -star family member. You're not the all -star 00:16:08.139 --> 00:16:09.700 fucking teammate You're not the all -star friend 00:16:09.700 --> 00:16:12.559 because you have this much energy over here and 00:16:12.559 --> 00:16:14.340 you're doing this still being messy at your grown 00:16:14.340 --> 00:16:17.279 -ass age No, you're not it's sad. It's sad as 00:16:17.279 --> 00:16:20.039 hell. I'm gonna let you know that it's sad as 00:16:20.039 --> 00:16:23.519 hell Because why can't you prioritize yourself 00:16:23.519 --> 00:16:27.399 enough? Why don't you see enough? What is it? 00:16:28.279 --> 00:16:31.259 Passion in yourself to want to give yourself 00:16:31.259 --> 00:16:33.179 all that attention. For me, I became an attention 00:16:33.179 --> 00:16:35.919 whore for myself. I think about something new 00:16:35.919 --> 00:16:37.799 I can do every day. I think about a new brand 00:16:37.799 --> 00:16:39.500 I can reach out to every day. I think about something 00:16:39.500 --> 00:16:41.580 new I can do for my podcast, creative -wise. 00:16:41.639 --> 00:16:43.179 I think about something new I can do with herbs. 00:16:43.840 --> 00:16:45.980 I'm thinking about something new I can do for 00:16:45.980 --> 00:16:50.259 myself, to build myself, to build myself as a 00:16:50.259 --> 00:16:54.179 future mother, a fiance, future wife, like a 00:16:54.179 --> 00:16:57.039 pet mom, a car, like so many different things 00:16:57.039 --> 00:17:00.740 that I can do to level up. I don't have enough 00:17:00.740 --> 00:17:02.980 time to sit here and worry about everybody else. 00:17:03.159 --> 00:17:05.299 And that's not even on top of the real stressors 00:17:05.299 --> 00:17:07.460 of life, you know? That's not on top of school. 00:17:07.519 --> 00:17:09.740 That's not on top of finances. That's not on 00:17:09.740 --> 00:17:11.319 top of groceries. That's not on top of anything 00:17:11.319 --> 00:17:14.299 else. That's not on top of doctor visits. That's 00:17:14.299 --> 00:17:18.279 not on top of that. No. So in my head, I genuinely 00:17:18.279 --> 00:17:23.380 cannot fathom when people have so much time and 00:17:23.380 --> 00:17:29.900 energy to give to me. Right? Because I'm at a 00:17:29.900 --> 00:17:31.700 loss. You're at a loss. What's happening? Do 00:17:31.700 --> 00:17:33.420 you hate yourself? And I hate to say it like 00:17:33.420 --> 00:17:37.420 that, but it's do you or Are you just you're 00:17:37.420 --> 00:17:39.380 still in a mindset where you think this is an 00:17:39.380 --> 00:17:41.440 outlet for you where you're gonna grow because 00:17:41.440 --> 00:17:44.579 it's not it's doing you no good It's doing you 00:17:44.579 --> 00:17:48.440 no good at all at all, please And if you know 00:17:48.440 --> 00:17:49.859 if you have to block someone if you have to do 00:17:49.859 --> 00:17:53.539 something, let me tell you My block list this 00:17:53.539 --> 00:18:00.630 retrograde hefty And you know what I just talk 00:18:00.630 --> 00:18:09.910 so much my mouth my throat My throat was dry 00:18:09.910 --> 00:18:13.829 Without preach no, I probably was just yapping 00:18:13.829 --> 00:18:17.670 anyway My block list has been heavy between family 00:18:17.670 --> 00:18:22.450 members workers Managers friends people I don't 00:18:22.450 --> 00:18:27.079 fuck with so anything if I'm at the point I am 00:18:27.079 --> 00:18:30.400 at the point, if I see something I don't like, 00:18:30.980 --> 00:18:35.220 block. If I hear something I don't like, block. 00:18:36.160 --> 00:18:37.920 If I feel like I can't relate to this, then it's 00:18:37.920 --> 00:18:42.500 doing me no good. Block. Cause I'm choosing me. 00:18:43.039 --> 00:18:45.880 Lord, I'm choosing me. I'm choosing not to, if 00:18:45.880 --> 00:18:48.000 I know my energy's going into the wrong spot, 00:18:48.220 --> 00:18:51.420 or I know that some, this, a person that I don't 00:18:51.420 --> 00:18:54.940 relate to, or I think I have any connection whatsoever, 00:18:56.089 --> 00:19:01.230 is in my energy, block. Block. Unless it regards 00:19:01.230 --> 00:19:03.309 to my podcast, because that's probably fine. 00:19:03.509 --> 00:19:06.789 But my personal life, it's just like, what's 00:19:06.789 --> 00:19:09.390 happening? What's happening? And you know, I 00:19:09.390 --> 00:19:10.950 had some cool examples come up with this, but 00:19:10.950 --> 00:19:12.529 I'm already at the end of the episode, so I'm 00:19:12.529 --> 00:19:15.009 gonna give them, but I'm a little late for that. 00:19:15.369 --> 00:19:18.349 But we can think about a lot of things in life, 00:19:18.730 --> 00:19:21.670 where it simply just takes minding your own damn 00:19:21.670 --> 00:19:27.480 business. For one, homophobia. You know, how 00:19:27.480 --> 00:19:32.119 does that start? You're minding somebody else's 00:19:32.119 --> 00:19:35.460 business on who they love and who they decide 00:19:35.460 --> 00:19:38.180 to have sex with. Yeah, okay, you sound obsessed. 00:19:38.420 --> 00:19:42.099 Sorry! How does racism start? You're worried 00:19:42.099 --> 00:19:44.359 about someone else, their skin color, and what 00:19:44.359 --> 00:19:49.859 they do revolving around that skin color. You're 00:19:49.859 --> 00:19:54.000 obsessed. Next. So many different things we can 00:19:54.000 --> 00:19:57.460 tie into life, like the whole immigrants and 00:19:57.460 --> 00:20:00.619 all that bullshit. Why are y 'all this obsessed 00:20:00.619 --> 00:20:04.799 with other people's lives? Unless this person's 00:20:04.799 --> 00:20:09.059 actively trying to kill you, then what the fuck 00:20:09.059 --> 00:20:13.059 is going on? Because I've always thought we have 00:20:13.059 --> 00:20:16.940 bigger fish to fry, okay? Than people wanting 00:20:16.940 --> 00:20:19.200 a better life, than people wanting to simply 00:20:19.200 --> 00:20:21.940 be happy. than people wanting to simply fucking 00:20:21.940 --> 00:20:26.559 exist, dare I say? Yeah, here we are. Here we 00:20:26.559 --> 00:20:29.539 are. Not knowing how to take our head out of 00:20:29.539 --> 00:20:34.259 our own damn ass and focus on ourself, okay? 00:20:34.420 --> 00:20:38.200 And you know what? That's today's episode. I 00:20:38.200 --> 00:20:40.000 hope it got us somewhere. And you know what? 00:20:40.039 --> 00:20:41.359 Maybe I wasn't supposed to talk about some of 00:20:41.359 --> 00:20:43.680 the stuff I did. It's my fucking podcast, okay? 00:20:44.279 --> 00:20:49.369 This is my brand. And a little update guys, I'm 00:20:49.369 --> 00:20:51.930 a little late. I didn't I'm getting a LLC for 00:20:51.930 --> 00:20:55.309 my podcast this month. So stay tuned. We're a 00:20:55.309 --> 00:20:58.269 business. We're going pro. Okay. Okay. Did I 00:20:58.269 --> 00:21:03.109 overshare LLC who Oh Oh million dollar corporate 00:21:03.109 --> 00:21:06.809 business. Dare I say Yapper McGee corporate. 00:21:07.329 --> 00:21:10.130 Okay, period. Anyways, I hope you guys love this 00:21:10.130 --> 00:21:11.869 episode. I hope you took something from me, even 00:21:11.869 --> 00:21:13.630 if it was something that you took forward do 00:21:13.930 --> 00:21:17.309 Sorry, or you just felt personally. I hope you 00:21:17.309 --> 00:21:20.009 took something out of this alright, and just 00:21:20.009 --> 00:21:22.430 know I love you so much I support you guys throughout 00:21:22.430 --> 00:21:25.109 whatever whatever journey in life. You are currently 00:21:25.109 --> 00:21:28.630 on right now. I support you I love you, and I 00:21:28.630 --> 00:21:30.730 hope you guys stay and support me and I hope 00:21:30.730 --> 00:21:32.930 we get through this together, and we all win 00:21:32.930 --> 00:21:36.630 in life and Prioritize ourself self -love self 00:21:36.630 --> 00:21:40.150 -healing and all of that so yeah I love you guys 00:21:40.150 --> 00:21:43.309 so much, and I hope you have a blessed Week ahead 00:21:43.309 --> 00:21:44.549 of you! Bye!