1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:12,080 Welcome to the God's Goodness podcast where our mission is to encourage and highlight God's 2 00:00:12,080 --> 00:00:17,440 Goodness in modern-day miracles. We are your hosts, Josh and Jellie Hengins. Today we have 3 00:00:17,440 --> 00:00:23,080 with us a special guest, Christine Collins Riley. But before opening prayer, I want to 4 00:00:23,080 --> 00:00:28,840 thank you for taking time out of your day to tune in. I feel the Holy Spirit has something 5 00:00:28,840 --> 00:00:35,120 to say to everybody in every episode. So stay tuned to see what he has to say to you. Christine 6 00:00:35,120 --> 00:00:42,520 and I met in a community called Kingdom Seekers and it is amazing if you want to get to know 7 00:00:42,520 --> 00:00:49,440 the Kingdom better and get revelation and it's just an amazing community. So I'll have you 8 00:00:49,440 --> 00:00:55,200 open us up with an opening prayer, Christine. Alrighty. Oh, thank you Lord Jesus for today. 9 00:00:55,200 --> 00:01:01,120 What a blessing it is to be here in this moment and in this space. Lord, I pray that you would 10 00:01:01,120 --> 00:01:06,160 bless this time. I pray that you'd bless the words that come out of our mouth and may the words 11 00:01:06,160 --> 00:01:12,520 that you put in our hearts to speak, we be bold enough to say. Lord, I thank you for this medium. 12 00:01:12,520 --> 00:01:18,680 I thank you for this group that are here listening and I pray that the blessing that you have for 13 00:01:18,680 --> 00:01:27,680 them will be amazing and it will be an answer to their prayers. In Jesus' name, amen. Amen. So now 14 00:01:27,680 --> 00:01:36,120 we get into the heart of the story, Christine. Where would you like to start? Let the listeners 15 00:01:36,120 --> 00:01:41,160 know that we were doing a little conversation. We had a little conversation before the podcast 16 00:01:41,160 --> 00:01:45,400 that she thought we were recording. So we're just going to let the Holy Spirit guide everything. 17 00:01:45,400 --> 00:01:55,720 Yeah, wow. Well, like we were talking about, it was amazing how God has been Jaira for us in 18 00:01:55,720 --> 00:02:07,720 this last season and learning to just let go. And it's amazing how when you finally let go, 19 00:02:07,720 --> 00:02:13,640 God says, oh, you're going to let me drive now. Cool. Now we know where I'm going. I was concerned 20 00:02:13,640 --> 00:02:19,880 that we were going to wind up in a ditch. And I think it's so funny how, you know, that there, 21 00:02:20,440 --> 00:02:25,960 I'm not going to give, I'm not going to say that, but there's that time in our life where we're just 22 00:02:25,960 --> 00:02:31,560 hanging onto the steering wheel so tight and we're trying to drive and we're driving at night without 23 00:02:31,560 --> 00:02:37,960 the lights on and we're just driving off like we are clued in and we know stuff. 24 00:02:37,960 --> 00:02:45,800 And while the King and the God of the cosmos is our Father, he's sitting in the passenger seat 25 00:02:45,800 --> 00:02:52,520 saying, whenever you're ready, I'll drive and I'll turn on the lights and I'll get us where we need 26 00:02:52,520 --> 00:02:58,280 to be. I was sharing with Christine, let me let the listeners know we were sharing with Christine 27 00:02:58,280 --> 00:03:05,880 that we know God as Jaira very intimately as he got us through 27 months and one week of no discernible 28 00:03:05,880 --> 00:03:11,160 income and we didn't lose the house or the utilities and he just just kept showing up in the most 29 00:03:11,160 --> 00:03:18,440 creative ways. I should have written them all down, but I was so busy being unemployed. 30 00:03:21,000 --> 00:03:26,680 And you know, it's so funny in this season, I have started writing down the prayers that I pray 31 00:03:27,240 --> 00:03:34,680 and the mood that I'm in or the emotions I'm feeling at the time. And we're only, what is this, 32 00:03:34,680 --> 00:03:44,760 11 days into January. And here we are seeing answers that came at me in a way that we're like, 33 00:03:45,400 --> 00:03:50,120 but that's not the prayer I prayed, God says no, because I don't really just answer that basic 34 00:03:50,120 --> 00:03:56,520 prayer. I give you above and beyond. Yeah, because I know the heart and I know the need beyond that. 35 00:03:56,520 --> 00:04:01,720 I know the under I have the understanding beyond that. And I know where it's going to come. 36 00:04:01,720 --> 00:04:05,880 He knows the actual need in your prayer, not the need you think you need. 37 00:04:07,480 --> 00:04:13,320 Absolutely, absolutely. Because I have been that person who's prayed for other people 38 00:04:13,320 --> 00:04:18,440 and watched the miraculous happen. And then I turn around and I'm like, but God, what about, 39 00:04:18,440 --> 00:04:21,160 and he says, well, if I can do it for them, I can do it for you. 40 00:04:22,120 --> 00:04:25,640 Indeed. I don't run out of hard time with that. I'm thinking healings for him. 41 00:04:26,680 --> 00:04:31,400 And God says stuff to me like this. He says, I don't run out of resources after I answer that 42 00:04:31,400 --> 00:04:40,760 prayer. He says, the shelves are always stocked in my house. The bank account doesn't go to zero 43 00:04:40,760 --> 00:04:47,320 when I pay somebody else's bills. And if you trust me as Jaira and you call me that, then you have 44 00:04:47,320 --> 00:04:54,200 to be aware that my resources are endless. But sometimes we look at other people and we say, 45 00:04:54,200 --> 00:05:00,360 well, okay, well, God did this or God did that for them. Maybe I shouldn't be praying that prayer. 46 00:05:00,360 --> 00:05:06,360 We're a whole different case. We're a whole different situation. We're a child of his in 47 00:05:06,360 --> 00:05:12,760 a whole different place. Yes, child exactly. You know, that's what it means to be a child of God. 48 00:05:12,760 --> 00:05:17,800 He says to be like these little ones, to be wholly dependent upon him. When I was a little kid, 49 00:05:17,800 --> 00:05:22,520 did I know where my food was coming from? No, dad put it on the table. Did I know where 50 00:05:22,520 --> 00:05:27,160 where any of my comforters come from? No, dad brought it home. Whatever I needed was taken care 51 00:05:27,160 --> 00:05:33,480 of. I never worried for a thing as a child. And that is what God calls us to do to be like children 52 00:05:33,480 --> 00:05:40,840 for him. Don't worry for a thing. Just assume your papa's got it. Yeah, like Matthew says, 53 00:05:40,840 --> 00:05:46,440 if he can take care of the birds, I wouldn't take care of you. He helps you. You're made in his image. 54 00:05:46,440 --> 00:05:52,440 He's in you. Well, if you accepted him into your heart, that's the important part. And he still 55 00:05:52,440 --> 00:06:02,360 works blessings for those who don't. He does. He's still a good father. And you know, I often wonder 56 00:06:02,920 --> 00:06:10,760 when I was younger, I was that kid who was always the why. Why does this happen? Why does that happen? 57 00:06:11,400 --> 00:06:19,400 And not necessarily in a negative way, but I have noticed that when we stop asking why, we stop 58 00:06:19,400 --> 00:06:25,800 asking the really good questions. Because we stop. It's like when you stop, it's like, oh, okay, well, 59 00:06:25,800 --> 00:06:33,160 I'm not, it's not important. You're right. We start accepting it. Yes. And I just, I'm not that person. 60 00:06:33,160 --> 00:06:40,760 So I always have been that why kid. And it was funny because a couple of years ago, my daughter 61 00:06:40,760 --> 00:06:47,560 blessed me with a sweatshirt and it just says why on it. And so she says to me, she says, 62 00:06:47,560 --> 00:06:52,200 she says, you know, I thought that why ended with like four year olds or five year olds? 63 00:06:53,320 --> 00:06:59,640 She says, but with you, it's always a why. Why? Why? Why aren't you doing it this way? Why did you do 64 00:06:59,640 --> 00:07:05,320 it this way? And sometimes I will ask God that same question. Well, why didn't you do it this way? 65 00:07:06,280 --> 00:07:13,000 And I am so blessed to have a God that answers me. And he will show me just a little glimpse as to why. 66 00:07:13,000 --> 00:07:19,240 Like I think a couple of years ago, I asked for a house and I know that's a big ask. 67 00:07:19,880 --> 00:07:25,160 And I asked for a house and I wrote down exactly what I wanted, but I left a few things out. 68 00:07:26,280 --> 00:07:30,280 And a couple of years into living in the house, I said, well, why didn't you do this? God says, 69 00:07:30,280 --> 00:07:39,480 why didn't you ask? And I went, oh, so that's how it goes. He says, yeah, next time ask bigger, 70 00:07:39,480 --> 00:07:43,480 bigger for me. And I'll show you that I am a bigger God than you thought possible. 71 00:07:44,120 --> 00:07:50,360 Yeah. He showed us a studio. We got blessed with a studio in August of 24. So that was on my 72 00:07:50,360 --> 00:07:54,440 list of things in a new rental was an in-house studio. It's funny. He didn't show us that he 73 00:07:54,440 --> 00:08:04,040 showed you. Well, don't you love how that happens? Oh, I know I as the husband in this family, I am 74 00:08:04,040 --> 00:08:09,640 infinitely aware that I am the other half of the sole person here. And I often have to be the brunt 75 00:08:09,640 --> 00:08:15,320 of the things that my mind is doing without me. That that's clearly what this is all the time. 76 00:08:15,320 --> 00:08:22,040 And I just love her. So here we are. And he's here for it. All of it. 77 00:08:24,040 --> 00:08:28,600 So I think that's what happens to us too. Sometimes we have that strong person in our 78 00:08:28,600 --> 00:08:32,360 relationship. There's one that's pretty strong. And then there's the other one that's just standing 79 00:08:32,360 --> 00:08:38,440 and going, did you actually just ask God for that? Because my husband will do that too. 80 00:08:38,440 --> 00:08:43,320 He will like, I will actually write something down and I will lay it before the Lord. As the word 81 00:08:43,320 --> 00:08:50,120 says, you know, lay your plans before the Lord. And so I do that. And my husband will see it like 82 00:08:50,120 --> 00:08:55,080 and I'll do it pretty often. So I'll put it on the dining room table. And I have this salt shaker. 83 00:08:55,080 --> 00:08:59,720 And I'll put it on top of it. And I'll say, okay, God, here's the plan. I'm going to bed. Good night. 84 00:08:59,720 --> 00:09:05,640 And it never fails that every morning I wake up after I put that plan on the table. 85 00:09:06,440 --> 00:09:12,280 God says, well, why don't you add this to it? Why don't you do this thing in this way? 86 00:09:13,160 --> 00:09:20,840 And I'm like, yes, Lord, because my plan was just so so in my head and so in the box. 87 00:09:20,840 --> 00:09:26,040 And here comes God going, why don't you open the box? It's gonna make it a supernatural thing. 88 00:09:26,040 --> 00:09:31,960 Yes. And my father used to say this. He used to say, you know, you can do super. 89 00:09:33,240 --> 00:09:39,480 You know, God, I can't, I can do the natural part. So you do the super part, I'll do the 90 00:09:39,480 --> 00:09:47,960 natural part and it'll be dynamic. And that's what I used to hear when I was a kid. 91 00:09:49,080 --> 00:09:55,800 So my growing up was you do your part and watch what God does. But then when you grow up and you 92 00:09:55,800 --> 00:10:00,360 become the adult and you have to be the one who's making the provision or you think you do 93 00:10:01,400 --> 00:10:05,800 and it doesn't quite come through, you're like, but God, I'm an adult. I'm supposed to be providing. 94 00:10:05,800 --> 00:10:10,920 I'm supposed to do this. God says, my role didn't change. What made you think yours did? You're 95 00:10:10,920 --> 00:10:17,880 still my child. It's still my job to provide. It reminds me of Charles Stanley. He always said, 96 00:10:17,880 --> 00:10:25,160 obey God and leave the consequences to him. And then you just see him show up. So cool. 97 00:10:26,120 --> 00:10:32,280 Absolutely. Absolutely. And then he shows off because he delivers above and beyond what you 98 00:10:32,280 --> 00:10:40,040 were hoping for. And I was hoping for guests for February and like referrals rather as guests. 99 00:10:40,040 --> 00:10:47,400 And I was hoping for one to be like someone who was into like tarot cards or like a witchy kind 100 00:10:47,400 --> 00:10:55,160 of background. And like that kind of past. And he provided me with a guest who has like energy 101 00:10:55,160 --> 00:11:00,040 vampirism. I never heard of that, but I guess it's even darker than a regular witch and I'm like, 102 00:11:00,040 --> 00:11:07,640 oh, so she's like the witchiest ex-witch of all witches. So it was just really cool that he 103 00:11:07,640 --> 00:11:13,880 is just providing. And then this girl's an author of this Bible study for neurodivergent people. 104 00:11:13,880 --> 00:11:18,520 Like if you get easily distracted, it's a Bible study for those people. And I got it for my husband 105 00:11:18,520 --> 00:11:26,200 to see if he can enjoy that because he has that, that issue of easily distracted. But God just 106 00:11:26,200 --> 00:11:30,680 keeps showing up and then I'll share about it in a social media video. So follow along everybody. 107 00:11:31,880 --> 00:11:38,040 See, that's where God, see, we ask and sometimes we, we, what does it say? It says, it says, 108 00:11:38,040 --> 00:11:43,560 if you ask, I'll answer. Ask and you shall receive. It was always my favorite Bible verse. 109 00:11:43,560 --> 00:11:49,560 Ask me for anything in the name of Jesus and it will be yours. Absolutely. And usually it's because 110 00:11:49,560 --> 00:11:55,800 he has like planted the seeds of his will and then you want his will. And then when you pray for that, 111 00:11:55,800 --> 00:12:02,520 of course, he's going to answer. So absolutely. And that's what happens. See, sometimes I think that 112 00:12:02,520 --> 00:12:11,160 we as quote unquote adults think that it's, we have run out of the childlike blessings. 113 00:12:11,160 --> 00:12:17,800 And we're thinking, okay, well, we're adults or the world says we're adults. So if we're adults here, 114 00:12:17,800 --> 00:12:22,440 then God must think we are too. So then we're supposed to do all these things for ourselves. 115 00:12:23,560 --> 00:12:29,800 And nowhere in the Bible, Jesus never said, he never said, well, as an adult, you're on your 116 00:12:29,800 --> 00:12:37,080 own. He says, no, he says, you need to come as little children, childlike faith, that all things 117 00:12:37,080 --> 00:12:42,760 are possible, that anything can be done, that I am not just the God of this moment at your, 118 00:12:42,760 --> 00:12:49,960 when you're five, but I am the God of the moment when you're 55 or 105. And sometimes we forget 119 00:12:49,960 --> 00:12:56,280 that he's able to show up in situations because we have limited him. He hasn't limited himself. 120 00:12:57,560 --> 00:13:01,960 And so we say, oh, yeah, okay, God, you know, I'm not going to ask for this. That seems a little 121 00:13:01,960 --> 00:13:07,400 trivial. It seems a little, you know, that's not important. And God says, I'm the God of the little 122 00:13:07,400 --> 00:13:14,040 things and the big things. I made ants and Mount Everest, you know, I didn't just do one or the 123 00:13:14,040 --> 00:13:21,800 other. I showed up for all of it. And then the whole universe as well that fits in the palm of 124 00:13:21,800 --> 00:13:27,960 his hand and he still holds our hearts and you know, it just blows my mind. Like we think so 125 00:13:27,960 --> 00:13:35,640 relationally to our size and we forget just a grand scope of his whole creation. Yes, yes. 126 00:13:35,640 --> 00:13:42,680 And then when you read that he sits in heaven and is worshiped, you know, all day long by these 127 00:13:42,680 --> 00:13:49,800 angels that just worship all day long, right? And he's still in our, in our space. I have this thing 128 00:13:49,800 --> 00:13:55,240 that I say all the time and I say, he's as close as your next breath, breathe him in. Oh, yes. You 129 00:13:55,240 --> 00:14:00,440 know, because the minute that you just take that deep breath, it's like, Oh, yes, Yahweh. 130 00:14:01,480 --> 00:14:06,760 You know, we exhale and it then it says, you know, in our exhale, it's supposed to be a Yahweh. 131 00:14:07,720 --> 00:14:12,840 Isn't that fabulous? And I just am like, well, even in my breath, I speak your name. 132 00:14:14,360 --> 00:14:21,240 So why is it that I can't get you in my brain? It's because we have little faith and not little 133 00:14:21,240 --> 00:14:28,040 is small, but little is in duration. And so the miracle that he he walked for us the one day 134 00:14:29,080 --> 00:14:33,960 fades in our memories by the next crisis. And we're panicking again and wondering if he can do it 135 00:14:33,960 --> 00:14:38,680 knowing that he can. It's a weird dichotomy that we put ourselves through that because of the lies 136 00:14:38,680 --> 00:14:46,040 of the enemy that constantly berating us at the same time. Yeah. Yeah. See, that's another thing, 137 00:14:46,040 --> 00:14:55,880 too. When we when we listen to the wrong voice, we believe the wrong quote unquote true. And when 138 00:14:55,880 --> 00:15:01,800 we listen to the right voice and we hear the truth, it's a whole different dynamic. We see 139 00:15:01,800 --> 00:15:06,600 things differently and see most of the time, I'll give you a prime example. You wake up Monday 140 00:15:06,600 --> 00:15:11,720 morning and most people are like, Oh, wow, it's Monday. Me on the other hand, I've learned, Oh, 141 00:15:11,720 --> 00:15:18,440 wow, it's Monday. Let's see what we can get into today, God. Because once you see that it's a whole 142 00:15:18,440 --> 00:15:27,080 that we look at things different when we have a whole grasp on God loves you or a tiny grasp on 143 00:15:28,040 --> 00:15:34,520 he's got it and you don't even need to do it. And for me, I'm the type of person that lately, 144 00:15:34,520 --> 00:15:40,040 and I have found this to be so amazing. When I say, Okay, God, you take the wheel, you do the thing, 145 00:15:40,040 --> 00:15:45,000 you fly the plane, you get us there. I realized that not only do I sleep better, 146 00:15:46,440 --> 00:15:53,160 but I don't snap it everybody. And I'm just like, it's on Jesus. I didn't I can't do anything about 147 00:15:53,160 --> 00:15:59,560 it. It's on Jesus. It's in your hands, Jesus, because if I try to carry it, I'm not going to get very far. 148 00:16:01,800 --> 00:16:08,440 I can take a couple of steps. I can be the strong one for about four, five. Okay, that's it. Those 149 00:16:08,440 --> 00:16:14,760 are the steps I'm taking. You do the rest. I love how big God is. I love how he shows up. I love when 150 00:16:14,760 --> 00:16:21,240 he says, Let me be the let me be the one in charge and you just take a break. And surrender has been 151 00:16:21,240 --> 00:16:27,800 like my word of this little season we're in submit surrender. Yeah. Yeah. And it's like how 152 00:16:28,600 --> 00:16:35,320 will show me how to do that. You know, yes, there's a song. I'm quite a bit old now, but 153 00:16:35,320 --> 00:16:44,040 but and the line in the song says, let it go. And sometimes I think that we feel like if we let it go, 154 00:16:44,600 --> 00:16:52,680 we're releasing our ability to have control of something or think that we can make something happen. 155 00:16:53,400 --> 00:16:59,560 Yes. But what we do is if we let it go and God controls the narrative, there are times where 156 00:16:59,560 --> 00:17:05,560 he will let you get the credit. And so I'm like, I think what happens is that we look around and 157 00:17:05,560 --> 00:17:11,560 we're like, but if I, if I let all this go, then how am I going to get recognized? You know, I'm 158 00:17:11,560 --> 00:17:18,840 not going to get seen as the one who paid the bill or did the thing. And God, I need some credit here. 159 00:17:18,840 --> 00:17:21,800 And God goes, look, I'll give you all the credit. Just know that I did it. 160 00:17:21,800 --> 00:17:28,280 And he does always get the glory because all the angels in heaven already knew that he did it. 161 00:17:30,360 --> 00:17:37,720 I think that's fantastic. But I, I've seen him do some great things in this past season, pay bills 162 00:17:37,720 --> 00:17:46,520 and and heal bodies and restore families and pick up pieces of situations that you thought would 163 00:17:46,520 --> 00:17:53,160 never be able to put you back together. So in the, in the fact that, you know, we call him God, 164 00:17:55,160 --> 00:18:00,520 I'm so glad that we also get to call him friend because he's the one that will be right there. 165 00:18:00,520 --> 00:18:04,680 And he'll say, you know what, I understand that you were mad at me yesterday, but I'm going to show 166 00:18:04,680 --> 00:18:10,440 up again today and I'm going to walk with you and not let anything get you. The best part is 167 00:18:10,440 --> 00:18:15,400 because he knows why we were mad. And he comes out as with this understanding heart because he 168 00:18:15,400 --> 00:18:21,240 doesn't blame us. He understands everything that led us to that point our entire life and everything 169 00:18:21,240 --> 00:18:24,360 that led the other person to that point in their entire life that created a conflict, 170 00:18:25,080 --> 00:18:29,480 anyone or lives, and he's not mad at us because of that. He understands that we're broken people. 171 00:18:30,360 --> 00:18:34,200 All that he wants is our heart. That's all that he asked for. That's the only thing he's ever 172 00:18:34,200 --> 00:18:41,640 pursued is our heart. Yes, yes, yes, I love that. I love that. And I'm so grateful that he doesn't 173 00:18:41,640 --> 00:18:48,280 ask me for more than I can give because, you know, there are times we don't even have, we don't have 174 00:18:48,280 --> 00:18:56,200 the energy to even give a yes. You know, we just have to just sit there. And I'm so blessed. Yes, 175 00:18:56,760 --> 00:19:03,640 so blessed that in the times that I have been sitting there and saying, God, you know, it's on 176 00:19:03,640 --> 00:19:11,640 you. You know, and he's ready to say, okay, I got this. And my big God with his big plan, that is, 177 00:19:12,920 --> 00:19:16,600 you know, and I get to be this tiny piece of it. And that's the most amazing thing. 178 00:19:18,040 --> 00:19:24,600 And I'm so blessed about that. So, you know, and, and if we all would look at it as this, 179 00:19:24,600 --> 00:19:29,320 and I'm not a fan of puzzles. So any of you that love puzzles, please don't be mad at me. I'm just 180 00:19:29,320 --> 00:19:36,680 not the puzzle person. We love puzzles. That's what you're done. Interview's over. We used to do 181 00:19:36,680 --> 00:19:41,080 puzzles so much. We used to get a puzzle piece in the interlock. Well, puzzle piece had to. 182 00:19:42,200 --> 00:19:52,440 And so, yeah. Well, when I was little, I, we had a table in our house that always had a puzzle on it. 183 00:19:53,080 --> 00:19:57,960 Always had a puzzle on it. And it used to drive me absolutely crazy because every time somebody 184 00:19:57,960 --> 00:20:03,160 would walk by it, they would try to put a piece of that puzzle together. And one time there was a 185 00:20:03,160 --> 00:20:10,920 puzzle that was put on the table and it was a single ice cream cone with the chocolate and the 186 00:20:10,920 --> 00:20:14,840 vanilla in the middle and then the strawberry on top. You know, this is trauma. I sure remember 187 00:20:14,840 --> 00:20:22,520 this is way too well. Yeah. And so, and the whole background is white. Okay. And I remembered thinking, 188 00:20:22,520 --> 00:20:28,040 you know, as a child, I'm thinking, this is never going to get done. And then I thought, 189 00:20:28,760 --> 00:20:37,000 if one of those pieces of that white was gone, it would ruin the whole puzzle. And it really 190 00:20:37,000 --> 00:20:40,840 was one of those things where I was like, if I take one of these pieces, they'll stop putting 191 00:20:40,840 --> 00:20:49,080 this stupid puzzle together. And that's it'll disappear. But what God showed me many years later 192 00:20:49,080 --> 00:20:56,920 about that story is, is that every single piece not only is important, but if we don't plug in to 193 00:20:56,920 --> 00:21:02,520 be part of the bigger picture, other people are missing out because we didn't put our piece 194 00:21:02,520 --> 00:21:09,240 of the puzzle together. And so God always gives you that piece. And he gives you that. And just, 195 00:21:09,240 --> 00:21:15,800 and look at, look at what you do as just that tiny puzzle piece. Even if it is, even if you are 196 00:21:15,800 --> 00:21:22,280 scared to step into what the assignment is God has for you, it's that big. But look at the major 197 00:21:22,280 --> 00:21:29,720 difference it makes. And I find that so amazing. So, and yes, you talk about trauma, puzzles are 198 00:21:29,720 --> 00:21:34,120 just one of those things people, people are people always say, oh, we're going to go do a puzzle. And 199 00:21:34,120 --> 00:21:43,000 my first reaction is, oh, please don't invite me. But then I realized, you know, they're all, all 200 00:21:43,000 --> 00:21:48,680 these pieces are so valuable. And they are so important. And God says, I just asked you to be 201 00:21:48,680 --> 00:21:53,320 a small piece, not asking you to carry the whole thing. I'm just asking you to be a tiny piece. 202 00:21:53,320 --> 00:21:59,480 Just asking to put a piece in the puzzle. What you refuse to do all your childhood, he's asking 203 00:21:59,480 --> 00:22:06,120 just to do that. Yeah. And see, that's how God showed me who he was through those puzzles. 204 00:22:06,680 --> 00:22:11,720 But I'm blessed. I'm really thankful that in my life, and especially in this last season, and 205 00:22:11,720 --> 00:22:18,360 we're still going through it. But I'm so glad that he is showing me every day that I only have to 206 00:22:18,360 --> 00:22:24,200 make a little effort. And sometimes that little effort is, Lord, you take the wheel today, you do 207 00:22:24,200 --> 00:22:30,520 it all. Because I don't have anything in the natural that I can supply to make it any better. 208 00:22:30,520 --> 00:22:36,120 But your supernatural, your super is going to bless into that natural, whatever the weight of 209 00:22:36,120 --> 00:22:42,600 it is, the tiny piece of that puzzle, or, you know, doing something greater, going to a speaking event, 210 00:22:42,600 --> 00:22:49,000 doing something, whatever it is, whatever I put in, God's going to magnify and bless and turn it into something amazing. 211 00:22:49,640 --> 00:22:53,000 Amen. And I'm just blessed to be part of it. 212 00:22:54,200 --> 00:22:55,400 Blessed to be on the journey. 213 00:22:56,840 --> 00:22:59,800 You don't know what you're going to get, but you know, it's going to be good. 214 00:23:00,440 --> 00:23:05,480 Absolutely. Absolutely. And then when you look back, you're like, oh my gosh, 215 00:23:05,480 --> 00:23:09,400 look at what he did. He said, how it works together. 216 00:23:10,120 --> 00:23:15,320 Well, what is that? What is it when it says, you know, I'll do exceedingly above all you could ask, 217 00:23:15,320 --> 00:23:22,760 think, or imagine. And going back to writing those plans down, I write it down. And God says, 218 00:23:22,760 --> 00:23:27,560 Well, what about this? What about that? And I'm like, wow, I didn't think about that. He says, 219 00:23:27,560 --> 00:23:36,840 yeah, I know I read it last night. I noticed. Here are my notes on your plan. And he doesn't 220 00:23:36,840 --> 00:23:41,080 walk in and tell you that your plan is wrong. He says, let's elevate it to the next level. 221 00:23:41,080 --> 00:23:49,160 Yeah. And that's where I'm like excited that God is God in my life. And he's also my father, 222 00:23:49,160 --> 00:23:55,160 and he's also my friend. And knowing that he's never going to leave me alone, and he's not going to 223 00:23:55,160 --> 00:24:00,520 let me, you know, fall down and get hurt. And he's not going to let any weapon keep forming against 224 00:24:00,520 --> 00:24:05,880 me. Or, you know, and he's not going to let the bad, you know, when my kids were little, they used 225 00:24:05,880 --> 00:24:12,360 to say, I don't want the boogie to get me. And he's not going to let that happen. And I'm so excited 226 00:24:12,360 --> 00:24:18,520 that that is the God that I have in my life. And the father that says, I love you no matter what. 227 00:24:20,040 --> 00:24:23,640 And even when I have a bad day, and I say, you know what, I can do this, I got it. 228 00:24:23,640 --> 00:24:28,840 Did you just stay over there? I got it. God's like, okay, I'll sit right over here in the 229 00:24:29,400 --> 00:24:35,080 lazy boy. And when you are done doing all that, you just let me know and I'll take care of it. 230 00:24:37,000 --> 00:24:43,160 He's a perfect gentle parent. Yes. Right. So he's not going to let us go off and do something 231 00:24:44,600 --> 00:24:49,880 wholly against him without giving us a lot of warning signs and saying, hey, I'm not sure you 232 00:24:49,880 --> 00:24:55,880 want to do that. But as far as the way that we go about our daily life, if we decide, hey, no, no, 233 00:24:55,880 --> 00:25:00,760 I'm a big boy, I'm a big girl, I can do this, pick myself up and walk and tattle and fall and pick 234 00:25:00,760 --> 00:25:06,440 myself up, he'll let us do that all day long. And he is so faithful is that when we're finally 235 00:25:06,440 --> 00:25:12,200 frustrated with our lack of ability, that when we sit there and cry for help, that he is right there 236 00:25:12,200 --> 00:25:17,560 for us, I would be so frustrated. I'm so glad that he is not me, because he continues to do this 237 00:25:17,560 --> 00:25:21,960 pattern with us, just like the whole of Israel in the Old Testament, where they would do some 238 00:25:21,960 --> 00:25:25,960 things for the Lord, then they would sin and then they would have 40 years of just suffering and then 239 00:25:25,960 --> 00:25:29,800 they would raise their hands up, Lord, please help us and he would help them. And then they would 240 00:25:29,800 --> 00:25:34,040 screw it up and then we just get this pattern. It's just like us and our daily lives and kids. 241 00:25:34,840 --> 00:25:39,960 We just want to do it so bad on our own that we forget that he is doing it for us. 242 00:25:41,000 --> 00:25:45,080 Yes, amen. We can't mess his plans up, but we can mess ours up pretty good. 243 00:25:45,080 --> 00:25:53,640 Yes, and you know what? It says in the word that he laughs. And I am sure that he has found my life 244 00:25:53,640 --> 00:26:01,160 comical in ways that I was thinking it was, I was angry or frustrated or hurt and God's laughing. 245 00:26:01,160 --> 00:26:07,160 He's like, honey, stop doing that. Stop stepping into stuff. Stop carrying stuff that's not yours. 246 00:26:08,600 --> 00:26:12,920 You know, and sometimes we think we were doing the right thing or we're doing the thing that 247 00:26:12,920 --> 00:26:17,400 you're doing something that is so fantastic. It's going to be great for God. And God goes, 248 00:26:18,360 --> 00:26:23,240 did I say to do that? I didn't ask you for that. That's not your thing. 249 00:26:24,280 --> 00:26:29,080 Because we start noticing that we're doing this great thing for God and there's pitfalls and 250 00:26:29,080 --> 00:26:34,600 there's stumbling blocks and we can't get it. It's not easy. And I'm at the point in my life 251 00:26:34,600 --> 00:26:40,040 where the first time it gets tough, I sit down and I go, wait a minute, am I picking this up? 252 00:26:40,040 --> 00:26:45,400 Or did God put this on my plate? Did God hand this to me? Or am I just picking it up because I want 253 00:26:45,400 --> 00:26:50,280 to do something that's wonderful for God? How many years of doing it wrong did it take before you 254 00:26:50,280 --> 00:27:00,520 got that wisdom? Oh boy, if I tell you that, I don't want to look foolish. I don't think you would. 255 00:27:00,520 --> 00:27:05,640 I honestly believe that every single person is identical to that. And that's why the elder has 256 00:27:05,640 --> 00:27:13,800 the wisdom. By the time I'm 80, I'd better make very few mistakes. When I'm 20, I could see how 257 00:27:13,800 --> 00:27:19,560 headstrong I am in wanting to do it. No, Lord, I got this. But by 80, I should be humbled as a 258 00:27:19,560 --> 00:27:27,880 humble pie right there. Lord, your will be done. Absolutely. Absolutely. Well, when I first, see, 259 00:27:27,880 --> 00:27:36,280 I was blessed. I grew up in a household where it was military and ministry. People are like, wow, 260 00:27:36,280 --> 00:27:39,880 that seems like total opposites. And I used to think, well, they go hand in hand to me. 261 00:27:40,840 --> 00:27:47,320 And so I would see the military side of things where there was order and there was a place for 262 00:27:47,320 --> 00:27:53,800 everything and everything in its place. And then I would see ministry where God would heal people 263 00:27:53,800 --> 00:28:01,960 out of wheelchairs and people would be saved and all of these beautiful giftings that God gives. 264 00:28:03,000 --> 00:28:08,600 And so it seems like you have two different constructs there. And there are. You have 265 00:28:08,600 --> 00:28:15,000 worldly order and then you have God order. And for me, when I would sit there and watch this, 266 00:28:15,000 --> 00:28:21,800 you would think that I would never get it wrong, that I would have great faith, that I would 267 00:28:21,800 --> 00:28:31,080 let God always be in charge. And I didn't. And I got to the point in my life where I looked back 268 00:28:31,080 --> 00:28:39,080 and I was like, when did I lose the letting God do it all? Where in my life, where on the path did 269 00:28:39,080 --> 00:28:47,160 I think that it was a better option for me to try to do it? It was. The enemy does things to your 270 00:28:47,160 --> 00:28:52,200 knee of the urgence. You know, your windshield wiper breaks. And so you have to take care of it 271 00:28:52,200 --> 00:28:56,520 right now. And now you're not going to the Lord because you have an urgent need that you have 272 00:28:56,520 --> 00:29:01,560 to take care of. He just does it with small things that build up over time. Because he's a jerk. 273 00:29:01,560 --> 00:29:05,800 And I can't wait till Jesus casts him into the lake of fire. That'll be wonderful. 274 00:29:08,120 --> 00:29:11,640 And we get buried down by our test of honey as he's bogged into it. 275 00:29:11,640 --> 00:29:17,320 And you know, you're right. You're right. It is the small things. And he says things like, 276 00:29:17,320 --> 00:29:22,520 you know what, you better go take care of that. You better go do that. And you're right. It's not 277 00:29:23,240 --> 00:29:29,720 what now, you know, how do I go? Where's the where's the where's the you in this God? Where is 278 00:29:29,720 --> 00:29:35,320 this? You know, where are you in this situation? And what do you want me to do? You've heard the 279 00:29:35,320 --> 00:29:41,000 expression, there's no rest for the wicked. Well, the enemy is very wicked and he is not resting. 280 00:29:41,000 --> 00:29:49,320 He is constantly harassing us. Yes. Yes. And I'm starting to realize that when you are doing all 281 00:29:49,320 --> 00:29:56,360 of the things your way, he doesn't bother you so much. The minute that you sit down and say, 282 00:29:56,360 --> 00:30:02,120 okay, Jesus, it's on you. And you start seeing, oh, wow, that's, you know, it's like, it's like, 283 00:30:02,120 --> 00:30:05,320 wait, you're trusting in God, but what about this? What about this? Hey, wait a minute. 284 00:30:06,760 --> 00:30:10,760 And you say, no, I'm not going to, I'm not going to deal with you today. I'm going to deal. I'm 285 00:30:10,760 --> 00:30:17,240 going to let Jesus deal with all of my stuff. And that your mindset changes too, because you start 286 00:30:17,240 --> 00:30:24,200 seeing that if God could, I don't know, let's use something, let's use something out of the box. 287 00:30:24,200 --> 00:30:30,920 If God could heal the person that's been in a wheelchair for 25 years, never been able to walk, 288 00:30:30,920 --> 00:30:39,400 been paralyzed. If God can do this, Jesus can heal, then why do I have such a problem asking 289 00:30:39,400 --> 00:30:47,080 him to take care of my headache today? You feel selfish. Right. And the devil goes, oh, it's 290 00:30:47,080 --> 00:30:50,920 just a headache. Don't worry about it. You don't need to take that to God. It's just a headache. 291 00:30:50,920 --> 00:30:58,680 You'll get over it. Take an aspirin. I'd rather the root of the headache be healed and not have to 292 00:30:58,680 --> 00:31:05,320 take another aspirin again. Then have to keep coming back for an aspirin and an aspirin, you see. 293 00:31:05,320 --> 00:31:12,840 And I think that what happens is with us, we turn around and we think, well, it's just a headache, 294 00:31:12,840 --> 00:31:18,920 because that's what we've been told. But Jesus said, I've come to, by His stripes, 295 00:31:18,920 --> 00:31:22,520 all of our issues are healed, all of our diseases, all of our illnesses are healed. 296 00:31:23,800 --> 00:31:27,720 That little bitty headache or the person in the wheelchair that's been paralyzed since birth. 297 00:31:29,640 --> 00:31:34,200 And sometimes we forget to give all that to God. But I say all this to say this, 298 00:31:34,200 --> 00:31:40,760 because when we give it all to Him, when we don't take it back, you live a miraculous life. 299 00:31:41,720 --> 00:31:46,200 And people around you want to know why your life is so beautiful. Why are you, 300 00:31:46,200 --> 00:31:52,360 why are you happy? This is happening all around you. Well, it's not happening to me, 301 00:31:52,360 --> 00:31:58,840 because God's protecting me. And yes, it can happen all the way around me. But by the protection 302 00:31:58,840 --> 00:32:05,080 of God, it's not going to happen to me. And I'm so thankful for that every day. I want to just 303 00:32:05,080 --> 00:32:11,720 tell you guys a really quick story about healing, if I might. Sure. I, about 12, 304 00:32:13,080 --> 00:32:19,320 I'll just my son, I have to figure out how old my son is. About 12 years ago, I was suffering 305 00:32:19,320 --> 00:32:27,480 from horrible migraines. And I suffered with them from the time I was born until 12 years ago. 306 00:32:27,480 --> 00:32:35,960 And like I said, I'd been in church my whole life. I had been in ministries where their complete focus 307 00:32:35,960 --> 00:32:45,320 was just healing. Raised in the Jesus movement, right? Cool. And one of my pastors was actually 308 00:32:46,040 --> 00:32:55,000 in that time period. And so I was like, okay, thank you. Yes, yes, definitely. Thank you, Jesus. 309 00:32:55,000 --> 00:33:01,240 And so I was at church one day and the pastor standing at the pulpit and he said, 310 00:33:02,040 --> 00:33:06,680 he says, I have God's blessing me with this understanding that somebody here in church 311 00:33:06,680 --> 00:33:13,480 today has a violent migrant, violent was the word he used. And I'm sitting there in the second, 312 00:33:13,480 --> 00:33:19,400 in the second row, third seat. And then I'm like, oh, yeah, you know, oh, that poor person, 313 00:33:19,400 --> 00:33:23,880 that poor person, I'm sitting there suffering with a migraine. Let's be real clear. Oh, 314 00:33:23,880 --> 00:33:31,160 that poor person, I know how that feels. Okay. Second week goes by. Pastor gets up and he says, 315 00:33:31,160 --> 00:33:36,200 we're going to pray that people with migraines get healed today. I'm like, oh, yes, that's a great 316 00:33:36,200 --> 00:33:40,520 prayer. Let's pray for people that have migraines that they'll be healed. I'm suffering again with 317 00:33:40,520 --> 00:33:47,800 a migraine. Third week goes by. I'm sitting in church. This time I've got sunglasses on in a dark 318 00:33:47,800 --> 00:33:52,200 room because it's so bad, but I never want to miss a service, right? You never want to miss church, 319 00:33:52,200 --> 00:33:58,120 right? And so I'm sitting there and I'm praising God and the pastor gets up and he says, he says, 320 00:33:58,120 --> 00:34:05,160 we're going to pray that God heal people at the root for the root of their migraine that they will 321 00:34:05,160 --> 00:34:09,720 never have another migraine again. And off to my right was the women's group. They were sitting 322 00:34:09,720 --> 00:34:13,720 all together. They all sit together and the head of the women's group, she leans over and she says, 323 00:34:13,720 --> 00:34:19,160 he's talking to you. That's about time someone told you for three weeks for three weeks. You know, 324 00:34:19,160 --> 00:34:23,080 I'm sitting here praying for other people. Oh Lord, yes, I pray that this person be healed in the 325 00:34:23,080 --> 00:34:29,080 mighty name of Jesus. Hello, hello. Do I need to say this to you? Well, finally, I needed a verbal 326 00:34:29,080 --> 00:34:33,960 confirmation, right? So this woman looks at me and she says, he's talking to you and the whole 327 00:34:33,960 --> 00:34:41,400 congregation heard her say it. So I stood up and I walked to the back and I had this lady 328 00:34:42,440 --> 00:34:48,280 pray for me. She says, what am I praying for? What are we asking Jesus for today? And I said, 329 00:34:48,280 --> 00:34:52,520 I'm the person who he's been talking about for three weeks about the migraines. And she looks at me 330 00:34:52,520 --> 00:34:58,840 and she says, oh, wow, I'm glad you finally showed up. I was like, wow, okay, Jesus, that's some nice 331 00:34:58,840 --> 00:35:06,600 confirmation. And we're praying. And all of a sudden I feel what feels like sludge or oil. 332 00:35:07,480 --> 00:35:14,040 And it's like literally falling coming out of my head down my body out my fingers. And I look down 333 00:35:14,040 --> 00:35:19,560 and I can actually see. Usually when I had a migraine, I couldn't see. It was very hard for me to see. 334 00:35:20,120 --> 00:35:26,840 And I look down and it looks like a pile or a pool of black liquid on the floor. And I look at 335 00:35:26,840 --> 00:35:32,440 this woman and I said, do you see that? And she says, what am I looking at? And I said, the pile of 336 00:35:32,440 --> 00:35:36,760 black fludge on the floor. And she says, no. And all of a sudden I just stepped to the left. 337 00:35:37,480 --> 00:35:42,440 And I literally take my feet out of that fludge, right? And it's sitting there. I can still see it. 338 00:35:42,440 --> 00:35:46,920 Okay. And this is how God does things for me. He wants me to be able to see what he's doing. 339 00:35:47,480 --> 00:35:55,400 And so she prays for me. And instantly I get healed. The headache is gone. And I'm a person, 340 00:35:55,400 --> 00:36:01,800 now mind you, I was a person who was taking about 30 pills a day, aspirin, ibuprofen, whatever, 341 00:36:01,800 --> 00:36:05,080 motrin, whatever it was. 40 pills a day. That is not good for your liver or kidneys. 342 00:36:05,640 --> 00:36:09,960 Yes. And it could have done some severe damage. Guess what? Thank you, Jesus. It didn't. 343 00:36:09,960 --> 00:36:14,840 But I would take medication just to be, you know, just to function. It wouldn't get rid of the headache. 344 00:36:14,840 --> 00:36:18,200 I was the person going to the emergency room and having shots in the back of my neck. 345 00:36:19,240 --> 00:36:23,160 And it wouldn't stop. I couldn't figure it out. Okay. So I got healed completely that day. That 346 00:36:23,160 --> 00:36:29,160 was my birthday, actually. Wow. 12 years ago. What a good present. Yes, God does. Here's your 347 00:36:29,160 --> 00:36:34,840 present. I love you. Well, the next morning I'm sitting on the bed and I'm sitting on the edge 348 00:36:34,840 --> 00:36:39,320 of the bed and my husband is getting ready for work. And it was kind of a routine thing. I would 349 00:36:39,320 --> 00:36:43,960 sit on the edge of the bed and I'd put my head in my hands because I would probably have had a migraine. 350 00:36:43,960 --> 00:36:47,880 But I'm praying for him, dear heavenly Father. Thank you. I pray you bless my husband today 351 00:36:47,880 --> 00:36:53,880 at his job. May he be favored, whatever it was, whatever I would say. My husband sits down beside 352 00:36:53,880 --> 00:37:00,440 me, puts his arm around me and he says, oh, he said, you have one of those horrible headaches. 353 00:37:01,240 --> 00:37:08,360 And I took my head out of my hands and I said, no, I don't. And he looked at me and he said, 354 00:37:08,360 --> 00:37:13,320 really? And I said, yeah, I got healed yesterday, remember? And he says, oh, I thought that was 355 00:37:13,320 --> 00:37:20,360 just for the moment. And I said, no, no, no, I'm running with this. I am healed. I am never going 356 00:37:20,360 --> 00:37:26,600 to have another headache as long as I live. And I didn't say migraine. I said headache. So I, nothing. 357 00:37:27,240 --> 00:37:33,160 And let me tell you the praise report. In 12 years, I have not taken an aspirin for a headache. 358 00:37:33,160 --> 00:37:40,040 I have had my liver tested over and over and over again. There is no sign of damage. 359 00:37:40,520 --> 00:37:45,640 Oh, yes. I don't have, I don't have stomach ulcers from taking all the aspirin that I took. 360 00:37:47,160 --> 00:37:52,040 Because God said, you know what, if I'm going to heal that, that I should heal the other stuff, 361 00:37:52,040 --> 00:37:58,200 too, so that there are no problems so that you can brag on me that I healed you completely at the 362 00:37:58,200 --> 00:38:03,880 root. That's my, and see, and that's my, that's where God shows up for me. So when I tell you 363 00:38:03,880 --> 00:38:09,000 that he is my gyra and my Rafa and my Matsuda, when I tell you God is everything to me, 364 00:38:09,800 --> 00:38:14,520 I'm not leaving anything out. I'm not leaving anything in my hand and saying, I'll take care of 365 00:38:14,520 --> 00:38:19,880 this. I'm saying God is my all, my everything. And I wouldn't trust myself to pay my bills, 366 00:38:19,880 --> 00:38:24,840 but I would definitely trust my God. I don't trust myself to heal this body, but I trust my God. 367 00:38:24,840 --> 00:38:31,640 Mm-hmm. Amen. That is my big God, Mom. Hallelujah. I love it. That's amazing. 368 00:38:32,280 --> 00:38:38,200 That's so cool. When I, I was healed of 17 years of chronic neck and shoulder pain by the power of 369 00:38:38,200 --> 00:38:43,640 prayer and the laying in hands, and I was in tears that last day. I was like, I can't take it. You 370 00:38:43,640 --> 00:38:50,280 have to pray for me. And I was on muscle relaxers, painkillers, all this stuff. And when he took it 371 00:38:50,280 --> 00:38:55,000 away, it was, it was nuts because like I got this, Josh was like, how do you feel? And I was like, 372 00:38:55,000 --> 00:38:59,240 Oh, I got a headache. And he's like, we're going to pray again. And then we prayed again, and the 373 00:38:59,240 --> 00:39:03,080 headache moved. And he's like, all right, we're going to pray again. And then it moved again. And 374 00:39:03,080 --> 00:39:07,160 I'm like, this is nuts. I never had a headache move from different parts of my head from her neck 375 00:39:07,160 --> 00:39:11,320 to the very top of her head, slowly moving up to the very top of her head and the front. And then 376 00:39:11,320 --> 00:39:17,480 it was, and then it was gone. And the pain was gone and have been healed ever since that was 2015. 377 00:39:17,480 --> 00:39:23,560 Like the spirit of infirmity was in her deep, you know, like the spirit of infirmity was in you 378 00:39:23,560 --> 00:39:31,320 deep. And Jesus just liquefied it down the floor beneath you. Right. And, and, you know, just because 379 00:39:31,320 --> 00:39:35,720 we can't, we can't share the same house with the Holy Spirit with anything else demonic doesn't mean 380 00:39:35,720 --> 00:39:42,040 that they can't affect our flesh adversely all the time at will. Right. Because of our sin, we 381 00:39:42,040 --> 00:39:46,120 give them legal right to do all sorts of harm to us that we need to keep running the pop up for. 382 00:39:46,120 --> 00:39:52,680 Yep. And, you know, even though we don't engage in practices that increase these problems, 383 00:39:52,680 --> 00:39:56,920 that doesn't mean that they aren't there from what before we introduced ourselves to Jesus. 384 00:39:56,920 --> 00:40:00,760 Right. Doesn't mean before we allowed the Holy Spirit coming, we didn't have all this junk inhabit 385 00:40:00,760 --> 00:40:08,680 us. Right. Right. And, you know, you know, what's so funny about about us is that we turn around and 386 00:40:08,680 --> 00:40:15,320 we, I always tell people, I'm like, stop praying the small prayers. You know, you have big issues. 387 00:40:15,320 --> 00:40:22,120 Stop praying the small prayers. And I mean, I don't, I don't despise small beginnings, but at this 388 00:40:22,120 --> 00:40:28,280 stage in the game, be bold. Amen. And when people come at me and they say, they think, you know, 389 00:40:28,280 --> 00:40:32,840 you got healed. I want it to, I'm like, get over here. Let's pray a big prayer. Mm hmm. You know, 390 00:40:32,840 --> 00:40:39,320 receive it. And I'm one of these people that it's like, I will, I will stop in the middle of a grocery 391 00:40:39,320 --> 00:40:44,680 store, a big box store. I've even stopped, I've even had my husband stop the car and I've gotten 392 00:40:44,680 --> 00:40:48,440 out of the car and gone and prayed for the homeless guy on the corner. I believe it. And then when 393 00:40:48,440 --> 00:40:52,040 we could, and then when we couldn't find the homeless guy for two weeks or three weeks, 394 00:40:52,040 --> 00:40:56,680 I'm like, where did he go? And I see him someplace else. And I'm like, well, what happened? He turns 395 00:40:56,680 --> 00:41:01,240 around and he says, after you prayed for me, this lady came up and she said, I have a room that you 396 00:41:01,240 --> 00:41:07,720 could have until you can get on your feet. And he said, he says, I never thought to pray for a roof 397 00:41:07,720 --> 00:41:13,880 over my head. I was praying daily that I had just a little bit of food to eat. And I'm like, no, 398 00:41:13,880 --> 00:41:18,280 you got to start praying big prayers. That big prayer for me was that I couldn't function. I 399 00:41:18,280 --> 00:41:24,760 couldn't do what God was asking me to do. I couldn't fulfill the assignment because I couldn't see. 400 00:41:24,760 --> 00:41:29,480 I couldn't function during the day. This headache was so bad. I had daily headaches for probably 401 00:41:30,200 --> 00:41:36,440 30 years. Wow. And it was so bad that I couldn't move. I couldn't see. I had five sets of curtains 402 00:41:36,440 --> 00:41:44,520 on my windows. My children lived in complete darkness. They probably have the widest skin. 403 00:41:44,520 --> 00:41:52,280 I do. I do. And you know what is so fabulous about it? I walk out now in the sun and there are days 404 00:41:52,280 --> 00:41:57,080 I don't even put sunglasses on. I was walking around my house five sets of curtains and sunglasses 405 00:41:57,080 --> 00:42:02,600 every day for 30 years. And I'm going to tell you what, when God broke that off of me, I was like, 406 00:42:02,600 --> 00:42:10,120 wow. Let me see what the world looks like without this. It's like a cliche movie vampire that just 407 00:42:10,120 --> 00:42:18,280 wants to see the sunrise one last time. And you know what? No, it'll kill them. Yeah. And you know, 408 00:42:18,280 --> 00:42:25,480 and I'm so blessed that God took that from me. That's no longer a moniker that I wear. Now I 409 00:42:25,480 --> 00:42:29,560 turned around and I walk around and I go, yeah, you know what? Somebody let's pray for healing. 410 00:42:29,560 --> 00:42:32,840 And they're like, well, what qualifies you? Well, I got healed of migrants. 411 00:42:33,400 --> 00:42:37,080 What an awesome gift. Like there's so many ways you could look at it when I just made that little 412 00:42:37,080 --> 00:42:41,880 funny inference, but like he literally gave you a sunrise and a sunset again. He gave you something 413 00:42:41,880 --> 00:42:48,200 to look at again. He gave you a park in the middle of the day. Like he gave you so much freedom. 414 00:42:49,000 --> 00:42:53,720 Like it's not just a release of pain, but there's so much life he gave you with that. 415 00:42:53,720 --> 00:42:59,560 Yes. And the thing too about Jesus is, is that he doesn't just kind of fix one thing. 416 00:43:00,360 --> 00:43:06,760 It's not a kind of fix. It's a complete fix. See, for me, I walk in a complete healing every day. 417 00:43:08,120 --> 00:43:12,840 I get up in the morning and I'm like, thank you, Jesus, that I am healed, whole and complete. 418 00:43:12,840 --> 00:43:19,320 And what the word says about me over me and through me will be today. And I stand in that. 419 00:43:19,320 --> 00:43:24,920 I stand in that because if I turned around one day and I was like, I don't feel good, then I give 420 00:43:24,920 --> 00:43:30,360 the enemy that little door to open and come back in. I don't want you messing with me. I got stuff to 421 00:43:30,360 --> 00:43:36,920 do. Amen. I have heard that from my wife on countless times. I'm busy today. I don't have time for you. 422 00:43:37,720 --> 00:43:42,520 Yeah. He got the norovirus and I didn't hear about that. And then I looked it up and 423 00:43:43,560 --> 00:43:48,840 and he got it. And he would think the rest of the family would get it, but I put that 424 00:43:48,840 --> 00:43:54,440 prayer request out to my friends in Facebook and he woke up and I said, I had the people praying 425 00:43:54,440 --> 00:43:59,880 the blood of Jesus over you. And people were praying that the rest of the family wouldn't get sick 426 00:43:59,880 --> 00:44:05,560 and praise Lord, we don't have time for that. And here I was when I was hugging the toilet. I was 427 00:44:05,560 --> 00:44:10,840 literally praising God because even though it was violent and painful, at no point was it the 428 00:44:10,840 --> 00:44:15,880 volume so much that I couldn't breathe. And that's, I think, the worst part. And so therefore, I was 429 00:44:15,880 --> 00:44:21,320 in pain, but I can take pain. And so I was just so grateful. I remember, I remember being on a cold 430 00:44:21,320 --> 00:44:25,560 bathroom floor because I cramped my back muscle and all of this and boy, that really hurt. I don't 431 00:44:25,560 --> 00:44:29,400 know if you've ever had like a cramped toe. Imagine the long muscle in your back doing that. 432 00:44:29,960 --> 00:44:35,240 Like I was, I was twitching like I got tased. And I remember, I remember lying on the floor and I 433 00:44:35,240 --> 00:44:41,400 just remember thanking God and praising him that it wasn't as bad. And I don't know, like, 434 00:44:41,400 --> 00:44:45,640 I'm looking back down like I can't believe that I was thanking him that it wasn't bad because it was, 435 00:44:45,640 --> 00:44:50,520 it was horrible. Nathan said it sounded like you were dying in there. Man, it was horrid. 436 00:44:51,560 --> 00:44:55,480 And I don't, I mean, it was a good, it was a, it was the right spiritual attitude I had. And 437 00:44:55,480 --> 00:44:59,320 looking back, I, my flesh is like, I don't know why you were praising him because you were, you 438 00:44:59,320 --> 00:45:06,120 like, I'm still sore. Yeah. And my spirit's like, I still praise him. I'm still praising this morning. 439 00:45:06,120 --> 00:45:10,760 Like, let's do this. I'm so excited about that. Another praise report is he didn't cough at all 440 00:45:10,760 --> 00:45:17,240 this, this, this podcast. Oh yeah. Oh yeah. I still got some coffee going on. Yeah. Not this time. 441 00:45:17,240 --> 00:45:23,560 Let's see. There's a, there's a God moment stepping up, stepping in. And when we step up and step in, 442 00:45:23,560 --> 00:45:30,200 God shows off. And he says, he says, all I asked you to do, just take the one step of the staircase. 443 00:45:30,200 --> 00:45:36,760 You don't have to take the whole staircase today. Just take the step. And I'm that person who, 444 00:45:36,760 --> 00:45:43,480 I'm like, one step, I could, I could do like, I could do 17 today. And God says, yeah, you probably 445 00:45:43,480 --> 00:45:49,240 could, but you're going to miss the blessings. If you do it 17 in a day, I need you to do it one a day 446 00:45:49,240 --> 00:45:56,360 and receive the blessing and do the next step and receive the blessings. So that's my, that's my 447 00:45:56,360 --> 00:46:02,360 nickels worth of free advice. Take the step and take it a step at a time. Receive the blessings. 448 00:46:02,360 --> 00:46:09,720 Hmm. Well, this has been so good, Christine. I love our conversation. And it's just so good. 449 00:46:10,600 --> 00:46:17,160 Well, thank you for letting me come on and chat with you. I love that. Anytime. Absolutely. I love 450 00:46:17,160 --> 00:46:23,000 it. I love praising God. I love, I love people who have stories about how good God is. Anytime, 451 00:46:23,000 --> 00:46:31,080 you have clearly have a plethora of stories that embody the goodness of God. And so, you know, 452 00:46:31,080 --> 00:46:36,360 I could see why my wife enjoys talking with you. Well, I am so blessed to be part of your, 453 00:46:37,000 --> 00:46:43,400 your outreach and, and be part of just, I'm that person who would, will stand on the street corner 454 00:46:43,400 --> 00:46:49,800 and just praise God and be excited. And I just, I love it. I love it. I love it. I love it. And 455 00:46:50,440 --> 00:46:56,360 I can't wait. And, you know, I would love to have another opportunity if, if the opportunity ever 456 00:46:56,360 --> 00:47:02,680 arose, I would love to come and chat with you all again. Hmm. Awesome. Very cool. 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