WEBVTT 00:00:00.240 --> 00:00:04.259 Hey guys, welcome to or welcome back to the almost 00:00:04.259 --> 00:00:09.119 living podcast Has it been about three months 00:00:09.119 --> 00:00:11.259 three four months since I've done the podcast. 00:00:12.259 --> 00:00:18.679 Yes Life happened. Okay, things got crazy things 00:00:18.679 --> 00:00:23.140 got busy. I honestly I don't even know why I 00:00:23.140 --> 00:00:28.100 initially pop like I just I Woke up one day and 00:00:28.100 --> 00:00:32.729 I was like, oh But so much has happened in my 00:00:32.729 --> 00:00:35.070 life and we have so much to talk about so let's 00:00:35.070 --> 00:00:38.090 just get into it. I missed you guys I missed 00:00:38.090 --> 00:00:44.090 you guys Welcome to the pod welcome back So firstly 00:00:44.090 --> 00:00:47.810 the most exciting one of the most exciting things 00:00:47.810 --> 00:00:54.829 is that I finally have a computer I Since moving 00:00:54.829 --> 00:01:00.020 to New York since you know October 2024 honestly 00:01:00.020 --> 00:01:04.599 since before that I I lost my computer quote 00:01:04.599 --> 00:01:07.040 unquote lost my computer. I don't think I lost 00:01:07.040 --> 00:01:11.280 it. I was living with my mom and It just vanished 00:01:11.280 --> 00:01:15.200 one day and I don't think I lost it but it vanished 00:01:15.200 --> 00:01:18.260 and that's that's what I will say but haven't 00:01:18.260 --> 00:01:27.060 had a computer in almost two years and it's It's 00:01:27.060 --> 00:01:31.680 been fine obviously, like I have my phone, but 00:01:31.680 --> 00:01:36.219 god do I miss. I'm recording this on my computer 00:01:36.219 --> 00:01:39.340 and I just like set it up like literally five 00:01:39.340 --> 00:01:45.480 minutes ago, but holy shit. Holy shit. Like a 00:01:45.480 --> 00:01:49.060 second screen, an even bigger screen. Like I 00:01:49.060 --> 00:01:55.299 am in bliss right now. This is amazing. I'm really 00:01:55.299 --> 00:01:59.560 excited for and I'm really hopeful that with 00:01:59.560 --> 00:02:02.480 this new development, the quality will get a 00:02:02.480 --> 00:02:04.599 little bit better because one of the things about 00:02:04.599 --> 00:02:08.280 my podcast is that I was doing all of it on my 00:02:08.280 --> 00:02:12.240 phone. So I was trying really hard to find a 00:02:12.240 --> 00:02:15.919 way to edit the audio so that there was no background 00:02:15.919 --> 00:02:19.740 noise or whatever. And it's just pretty impossible 00:02:19.740 --> 00:02:23.009 to do. such a thing on a phone it's really hard 00:02:23.009 --> 00:02:25.449 to do like any sort of editing video editing 00:02:25.449 --> 00:02:28.210 audio editing on a phone and so I was just like 00:02:28.210 --> 00:02:32.710 fuck it and yeah the podcast it's it's been just 00:02:32.710 --> 00:02:36.270 very low budget so that is exciting new computer 00:02:36.270 --> 00:02:41.169 let's go um and yeah I mean I don't really know 00:02:41.169 --> 00:02:44.469 I don't even remember because I was I was listening 00:02:44.469 --> 00:02:48.530 to my most previous episode Okay, so of course 00:02:48.530 --> 00:02:50.949 of course when I start to record everyone on 00:02:50.949 --> 00:02:54.110 the street wants to just utilize their horn like 00:02:54.110 --> 00:02:57.449 we understand Sorry, I hopefully can edit that 00:02:57.449 --> 00:03:02.229 out. Maybe maybe not Yeah, be patient with me 00:03:02.229 --> 00:03:04.909 all but I was listening to my most recent episode 00:03:04.909 --> 00:03:09.009 like a few days ago and I mean, here's the thing. 00:03:09.090 --> 00:03:14.009 I don't remember why I recorded the last episode 00:03:14.009 --> 00:03:17.599 and then fell off of the face of the earth but 00:03:17.599 --> 00:03:20.360 what i do know is that since then i have thought 00:03:20.360 --> 00:03:22.520 about my podcast it just popped into my mind 00:03:22.520 --> 00:03:26.919 but then you know the thing happens where when 00:03:26.919 --> 00:03:29.039 you're starting something creative or you're 00:03:29.039 --> 00:03:31.740 trying to do something fun and you think about 00:03:31.740 --> 00:03:34.159 it too much and you get embarrassed like that 00:03:34.159 --> 00:03:36.539 started happening where i was like why am i doing 00:03:36.539 --> 00:03:40.710 this like No one cares and this is embarrassing 00:03:40.710 --> 00:03:42.810 But then I was listening to my most previous 00:03:42.810 --> 00:03:44.770 episode and I was literally chuckling and I was 00:03:44.770 --> 00:03:47.949 like girl You're funny like pack it up. I just 00:03:47.949 --> 00:03:50.289 have to stop I just need to think about myself 00:03:50.289 --> 00:03:53.229 a little bit less and like Realize that no one 00:03:53.229 --> 00:04:02.729 cares as much as I do Um So, yeah Yeah, the podcast 00:04:02.729 --> 00:04:07.930 is back I want to you know be consistent again 00:04:08.000 --> 00:04:11.639 do it once a week like i was doing and just like 00:04:11.639 --> 00:04:13.360 get back on my grind because y 'all know i got 00:04:13.360 --> 00:04:15.979 shit to say y 'all know i got shit to say but 00:04:15.979 --> 00:04:19.540 i will say it would have been really hard to 00:04:19.540 --> 00:04:21.720 be doing this podcast in the past few months 00:04:21.720 --> 00:04:27.060 because i have a second job and i started the 00:04:27.060 --> 00:04:31.220 second job in mid december and that has kind 00:04:31.220 --> 00:04:36.910 of been the biggest change in my life and has 00:04:36.910 --> 00:04:42.189 really done a number on me and I feel like I've 00:04:42.189 --> 00:04:46.269 learned a lot as we're kind of like I'm coming 00:04:46.269 --> 00:04:48.970 out of it because here's the thing I feel like 00:04:48.970 --> 00:04:50.790 I maybe talked about this on the podcast but 00:04:50.790 --> 00:04:54.810 everyone in my life I was always like I was you 00:04:54.810 --> 00:04:57.350 know I had my job my one restaurant job that 00:04:57.350 --> 00:05:01.730 I was doing and it was paying the bills but I 00:05:01.730 --> 00:05:05.279 never had savings After I paid my bills, I would 00:05:05.279 --> 00:05:08.160 be left with, you know, a couple hundred dollars. 00:05:08.699 --> 00:05:11.720 And it was just stressing me out. I was like, 00:05:11.720 --> 00:05:16.480 I want to have savings. And I also really, I 00:05:16.480 --> 00:05:18.759 was like, I wanna travel next year. Next year 00:05:18.759 --> 00:05:21.120 being this year, 2026. I was like, I want to 00:05:21.120 --> 00:05:23.000 travel. Like I want to go on trips. It's been 00:05:23.000 --> 00:05:25.860 a minute and I want to be out of the United States. 00:05:26.379 --> 00:05:33.399 Like wherever it is, I don't care. So I got a 00:05:33.399 --> 00:05:36.540 second job and it's a barista job. I've never 00:05:36.540 --> 00:05:38.879 Been a barista. I've never worked at a coffee 00:05:38.879 --> 00:05:42.259 shop So that's been something I guess new and 00:05:42.259 --> 00:05:45.000 just I guess Interesting and just like learning 00:05:45.000 --> 00:05:46.939 about coffee because it there really is like 00:05:46.939 --> 00:05:49.220 so much that goes into it and it's kind of crazy 00:05:49.220 --> 00:05:54.639 but My work schedule is insane and has been insane 00:05:54.639 --> 00:06:00.240 for three months. I have been doing Monday through 00:06:00.240 --> 00:06:03.860 Thursday I open at this coffee shop and I work 00:06:03.860 --> 00:06:09.319 from 6 a .m. To about noon and This place is 00:06:09.319 --> 00:06:11.839 not right next to my house. It's in the city 00:06:11.839 --> 00:06:14.660 and it's about you know, 40 ish minutes on the 00:06:14.660 --> 00:06:18.420 train Which means I have to start my commute 00:06:18.420 --> 00:06:24.000 at 5 which means I have to wake up around 430 00:06:24.000 --> 00:06:28.360 Recently, it's been closer to like 440 445 even 00:06:30.649 --> 00:06:35.569 So that has been an adjustment Because I'm sure 00:06:35.569 --> 00:06:37.689 I've probably mentioned this but I'm not a morning 00:06:37.689 --> 00:06:40.949 person never have been I am a night owl I like 00:06:40.949 --> 00:06:43.490 staying up late. I like having my alone time 00:06:43.490 --> 00:06:50.009 at night So it's just been an extreme Life change 00:06:50.009 --> 00:06:56.069 Because 6 a .m. Is an early time to wake up, 00:06:56.110 --> 00:07:00.569 you know, but I am up at 6 a .m. and I'm working 00:07:00.569 --> 00:07:04.850 at 6 a .m. and yeah I don't know I mean getting 00:07:04.850 --> 00:07:09.149 up four days a week at 4 30 and then you know 00:07:09.149 --> 00:07:12.529 I've been doing that and then I have my restaurant 00:07:12.529 --> 00:07:14.970 job where I'm working weekends and then I'm also 00:07:14.970 --> 00:07:17.470 doing a closing shift like maybe once out of 00:07:17.470 --> 00:07:20.269 the week I have I've been working like six days 00:07:20.269 --> 00:07:27.589 a week like you know since mid -December and 00:07:28.900 --> 00:07:31.980 Yeah, it's been exhausting. It's really been 00:07:31.980 --> 00:07:34.959 fucking exhausting and I knew that it was gonna 00:07:34.959 --> 00:07:38.660 be hard like I knew You know, I've had two jobs 00:07:38.660 --> 00:07:41.879 before like I knew it was going to be a grind 00:07:41.879 --> 00:07:44.720 and that was the goal I was like, you know, it's 00:07:44.720 --> 00:07:48.139 winter like it's going to be miserably cold which 00:07:48.139 --> 00:07:51.160 it very much has been so I was like I don't give 00:07:51.160 --> 00:07:54.100 a fuck like what else am I gonna be doing and 00:07:54.100 --> 00:07:57.449 so I don't know it's just been like it's been 00:07:57.449 --> 00:08:00.389 a grind that I feel like I've never really done 00:08:00.389 --> 00:08:04.730 to this full extent and Yeah, it's really hard 00:08:04.730 --> 00:08:08.550 to I've just been neglecting like every other 00:08:08.550 --> 00:08:10.970 aspect of my life because when you're working 00:08:10.970 --> 00:08:12.990 so much and you're working so early It's like 00:08:12.990 --> 00:08:16.889 oh, yeah, I'm off at noon but then you're tired 00:08:16.889 --> 00:08:19.910 and so then it's like yeah, just getting into 00:08:19.910 --> 00:08:21.949 a rhythm of that was like super hard of just 00:08:21.949 --> 00:08:25.829 like Trying to fight not to take a nap and trying 00:08:25.829 --> 00:08:28.990 to do stuff and then it's like oh I had all these 00:08:28.990 --> 00:08:30.290 like aspirations where I was like, I'm gonna 00:08:30.290 --> 00:08:34.750 get off my job and then I'm gonna Go read and 00:08:34.750 --> 00:08:36.269 then I'm gonna learn Spanish and then I'm gonna 00:08:36.269 --> 00:08:38.950 do this which recently I have been I've been 00:08:38.950 --> 00:08:40.610 going to the library and I've been reading and 00:08:40.610 --> 00:08:42.190 I've been doing my Spanish and I've been like 00:08:43.080 --> 00:08:45.500 Sewing and like trying to do other things but 00:08:45.500 --> 00:08:47.879 it took me like my first two months I would say 00:08:47.879 --> 00:08:49.559 of doing the job like I was not doing that I 00:08:49.559 --> 00:08:53.620 was going home and I was napping and Just sleeping 00:08:53.620 --> 00:08:56.960 and like being exhausted. So yeah, that has been 00:08:56.960 --> 00:09:04.519 my life. It's been um It's been rough for sure 00:09:04.519 --> 00:09:13.470 Can like trucks stop making noise. Sorry Yeah, 00:09:13.470 --> 00:09:21.850 it hasn't been great I Am definitely Done doing 00:09:21.850 --> 00:09:24.830 this especially because it's warming up like 00:09:24.830 --> 00:09:27.750 very soon and like I would like to have a life 00:09:27.750 --> 00:09:32.549 and have free time and You know not wake up at 00:09:32.549 --> 00:09:35.590 four o 'clock in the morning for most of the 00:09:35.590 --> 00:09:41.710 week, so Yeah, but but My goal, like I said, 00:09:41.769 --> 00:09:43.470 I was like, I want to build savings, which has 00:09:43.470 --> 00:09:46.610 that happened? Not necessarily, but I said I 00:09:46.610 --> 00:09:48.830 wanted to travel and I do have a trip coming 00:09:48.830 --> 00:09:50.629 at the end of the month. I'm going to Columbia 00:09:50.629 --> 00:09:55.570 with my best friend and I am so stoked. I've 00:09:55.570 --> 00:09:57.850 never been to South America, so this is going 00:09:57.850 --> 00:10:02.110 to be really exciting. And yeah, I'm just so 00:10:02.110 --> 00:10:05.629 ready to not work for a week, but also like. 00:10:05.870 --> 00:10:12.210 go out and like eat fruit and meet people and 00:10:12.210 --> 00:10:16.090 just have like a really good fun and fresh time 00:10:16.090 --> 00:10:25.370 um so that's great and i also i've had credit 00:10:25.370 --> 00:10:28.950 card debt for a little bit and not a crazy amount 00:10:28.950 --> 00:10:32.210 but enough to be stressful and be like weighing 00:10:32.210 --> 00:10:36.110 on my mind and I have cleared most of that so 00:10:36.110 --> 00:10:40.269 like my goals have been met for the most part 00:10:40.269 --> 00:10:42.370 and I feel like I've been kind of reflecting 00:10:42.370 --> 00:10:47.250 on like is it worth it like has this been worth 00:10:47.250 --> 00:10:52.559 it and I mean guess so like just just for the 00:10:52.559 --> 00:10:54.120 sake of like the fact that I have a vacation 00:10:54.120 --> 00:10:56.799 coming up and That I've been able to clear my 00:10:56.799 --> 00:10:58.620 credit card debt which I like would not have 00:10:58.620 --> 00:11:01.500 been able to do with just one job you know cuz 00:11:01.500 --> 00:11:04.679 I just like I I'm not good with money and it's 00:11:04.679 --> 00:11:07.600 something I need to work on truly cuz like I 00:11:07.600 --> 00:11:11.700 Don't have a budget. I don't really Budget myself. 00:11:11.700 --> 00:11:14.200 I kind of just like spend money when I want to 00:11:14.200 --> 00:11:17.019 and I'm not going crazy But you know, I like 00:11:17.019 --> 00:11:19.259 I have no problem transferring money from the 00:11:19.259 --> 00:11:21.139 savings to the checkings and then I'm I check 00:11:21.139 --> 00:11:26.179 my savings and I'm like, oh So yeah, I mean is 00:11:26.179 --> 00:11:29.019 it worth it like I guess but like I will never 00:11:29.019 --> 00:11:35.629 do that again I That was a new low and Yeah, 00:11:35.690 --> 00:11:37.850 the physical exhaustion is just crazy like especially 00:11:37.850 --> 00:11:41.690 when I'm working my my job at night and I get 00:11:41.690 --> 00:11:44.610 home at like 10 30 I'm in bed by 11 and I'm waking 00:11:44.610 --> 00:11:46.610 up the next day at 4 and then I have a full work 00:11:46.610 --> 00:11:50.389 day like You can only run on like five hours 00:11:50.389 --> 00:11:52.549 of sleep for so long and it's like the thing 00:11:52.549 --> 00:11:54.649 is it's like yes You can do it It's possible 00:11:54.649 --> 00:11:56.710 and I've talked to people before who were like 00:11:56.710 --> 00:11:59.429 I only need five hours and I'm like, okay Sure, 00:11:59.610 --> 00:12:01.950 whatever and it's like yeah, I have been running 00:12:01.950 --> 00:12:05.570 on you know, five six hours of sleep you can 00:12:05.570 --> 00:12:08.250 do it but it's definitely not good for you and 00:12:08.250 --> 00:12:11.090 I don't want to do this long term because I am 00:12:11.090 --> 00:12:16.779 exhausted and just genuinely unhappy like And 00:12:16.779 --> 00:12:19.080 I just haven't been social because it's like, 00:12:19.299 --> 00:12:21.940 I want to be social. And then I'm like, wait, 00:12:21.940 --> 00:12:24.259 I'm actually tired and I'm a shell of myself. 00:12:24.659 --> 00:12:29.460 So it's a lot. And that's kind of also, I think, 00:12:29.519 --> 00:12:32.379 a big reason why the podcast has been like in 00:12:32.379 --> 00:12:34.620 the back of the mind. Because I've just been 00:12:34.620 --> 00:12:37.360 fucking busy, but I'm tired of talking about 00:12:37.360 --> 00:12:41.919 it. So let's move on. But yeah, that's exciting. 00:12:42.500 --> 00:12:43.759 I guess that's like been the newest stuff in 00:12:43.759 --> 00:12:49.509 my life. I... Let's talk pop culture a little 00:12:49.509 --> 00:12:54.190 bit because I saw Wuthering Heights last night 00:12:54.190 --> 00:13:00.029 with my friend shout out Ethan and I had no interest 00:13:00.029 --> 00:13:03.070 in seeing the movie. I've seen the press about 00:13:03.070 --> 00:13:05.669 it You know cuz like Margot Robbie has been talking 00:13:05.669 --> 00:13:07.730 a lot about it and she's been saying some like 00:13:07.730 --> 00:13:11.519 crazy shit and being like Yeah, I just I can't 00:13:11.519 --> 00:13:13.860 do her accent either. She's Australian I'm not 00:13:13.860 --> 00:13:15.960 really good in Australian accent, but she's been 00:13:15.960 --> 00:13:21.399 just talking about how like She's I guess the 00:13:21.399 --> 00:13:23.899 role has made her feel like some sort of like 00:13:23.899 --> 00:13:25.600 she said something where she was like I find 00:13:25.600 --> 00:13:28.000 myself looking for him and like He did this and 00:13:28.000 --> 00:13:30.519 it was the most romantic thing. Whatever Margot 00:13:30.519 --> 00:13:34.220 Robbie is married. So let's let's clear the air 00:13:34.220 --> 00:13:38.340 on that but Yeah, I saw this press. I knew that 00:13:38.340 --> 00:13:41.559 Jacob already was in it I knew that it was some 00:13:41.559 --> 00:13:44.000 sort of romance and so I think that was probably 00:13:44.000 --> 00:13:46.000 the biggest reason why I was not interested I 00:13:46.000 --> 00:13:48.519 don't like romance. I don't like romantic books. 00:13:48.519 --> 00:13:51.559 I don't like romantic movies. I don't like love 00:13:51.559 --> 00:13:53.960 stories I don't like rom -coms. I don't like 00:13:53.960 --> 00:13:58.740 seeing other people happy and in love it doesn't 00:13:58.740 --> 00:14:01.179 Does not spark joy for me. I don't want to see 00:14:01.179 --> 00:14:05.539 that. I want it to happen to me, but Yeah, so 00:14:05.539 --> 00:14:07.700 I was like, I don't care about this movie, but 00:14:07.700 --> 00:14:09.399 my friend Ethan was like we should go see it 00:14:09.399 --> 00:14:11.759 and I was like, you know, let's let's try it 00:14:11.759 --> 00:14:20.080 out and I I Am attracted to Jacob Elordi Because 00:14:20.080 --> 00:14:26.500 I love a tall man and That is a tall man. The 00:14:26.500 --> 00:14:28.919 only thing I really know him from is euphoria 00:14:28.919 --> 00:14:32.879 where he's playing like a terrible guy but he's 00:14:32.879 --> 00:14:36.500 attractive in that and I also watched Saltburn 00:14:36.500 --> 00:14:39.519 which is I literally don't remember anything 00:14:39.519 --> 00:14:42.659 from that movie besides the bathtub scene where 00:14:42.659 --> 00:14:46.039 the character is like licking the bat like licking 00:14:46.039 --> 00:14:49.259 the fucking bathtub after Jacob Lordy's character 00:14:49.259 --> 00:14:51.980 takes a bath or whatever the fuck happens so 00:14:51.980 --> 00:14:55.700 yeah that and I went into the movie blind and 00:14:55.700 --> 00:14:58.340 know what it was about never seen a trailer and 00:14:58.340 --> 00:15:01.929 I will say I'm not gonna spoil anything. I mean, 00:15:01.929 --> 00:15:05.830 there's really nothing to spoil but That shit 00:15:05.830 --> 00:15:10.429 that was a steamy movie. I feel like I don't 00:15:10.429 --> 00:15:15.610 usually watch Sexy like movies like that. I feel 00:15:15.610 --> 00:15:19.090 like sex scenes in movies already even if it's 00:15:19.090 --> 00:15:22.009 like a one -off like kind of make me feel awkward 00:15:22.009 --> 00:15:26.769 and uncomfortable like I don't know and Yeah, 00:15:26.769 --> 00:15:29.210 I mean I feel like that's pretty normal. It's 00:15:29.210 --> 00:15:31.870 just like Okay, especially when you're in a theater. 00:15:31.870 --> 00:15:34.529 It's like all right like we're just all watching 00:15:34.529 --> 00:15:40.350 this together um But it was fucking it was steamy 00:15:40.350 --> 00:15:43.289 and for the first half of the movie they were 00:15:43.289 --> 00:15:46.929 both poor and Jacob Elordi was not doing it for 00:15:46.929 --> 00:15:49.610 me like he he had this like long beard and he 00:15:49.610 --> 00:15:54.429 was super like dirty and just you know looked 00:15:54.750 --> 00:15:59.889 a little bit grimy and seedy. But then for the 00:15:59.889 --> 00:16:03.809 second half of the movie, they both got rich. 00:16:04.509 --> 00:16:10.289 They both inherited some money. I guess? I don't 00:16:10.289 --> 00:16:13.269 know. Is that a spoil? I don't know. I don't 00:16:13.269 --> 00:16:17.009 know. Sorry. If that's a spoil, I don't know. 00:16:17.029 --> 00:16:19.210 I don't really care. It's honestly, like, the 00:16:19.210 --> 00:16:23.289 plot does not matter. But in the second half 00:16:23.289 --> 00:16:25.649 the movie they they got money so they they cleaned 00:16:25.649 --> 00:16:30.850 up and Let me tell you Jacob Elordi he he was 00:16:30.850 --> 00:16:34.090 like missing a tooth and he like didn't have 00:16:34.090 --> 00:16:36.809 one of his teeth as a kid and he Grew up and 00:16:36.809 --> 00:16:39.210 then also still didn't have the tooth when he 00:16:39.210 --> 00:16:43.669 got rich he put a gold tooth so he had one gold 00:16:43.669 --> 00:16:47.570 tooth on the side and he had this like gold hoop 00:16:47.570 --> 00:16:57.299 earring and he was just looking so good and he's 00:16:57.299 --> 00:17:01.379 just so big like that's I have nothing to say 00:17:01.379 --> 00:17:04.440 about the movie besides the fact that Jacob Elordi 00:17:04.440 --> 00:17:14.339 is so big and large and ginormous and tall and 00:17:14.339 --> 00:17:21.069 massive and gargantuan And I really liked that 00:17:21.069 --> 00:17:24.970 It was great. It was great. Jacob will already 00:17:24.970 --> 00:17:31.930 come over here Yeah, I don't know it was a very 00:17:31.930 --> 00:17:35.710 it was it was it was steamy it was I was in that 00:17:35.710 --> 00:17:41.670 theater like Getting a little little warm But 00:17:41.670 --> 00:17:43.509 it was cool, I mean, yeah, I definitely would 00:17:43.509 --> 00:17:45.950 not go into the movie for any sort of plot or 00:17:45.950 --> 00:17:48.789 storyline it was a beautiful movie like You know 00:17:48.789 --> 00:17:51.789 beautiful landscapes. Margot Robbie is gorgeous. 00:17:52.369 --> 00:17:57.069 Um, but yeah, it was kind of just like It was 00:17:57.069 --> 00:18:01.529 just a horny movie, um So yeah, that's the most 00:18:01.529 --> 00:18:04.549 recent movie I feel like I haven't seen a movie 00:18:04.549 --> 00:18:06.609 in a minute the last movie I saw before that 00:18:06.609 --> 00:18:08.589 was The Shining and I had never seen it before 00:18:08.589 --> 00:18:11.769 which is kind of crazy because I'm I'm a horror 00:18:11.769 --> 00:18:15.779 movie buff and I haven't seen Most of the classics 00:18:15.779 --> 00:18:18.400 because I just haven't seen so many things. I'm 00:18:18.400 --> 00:18:19.960 like bad at watching movies. I feel like I've 00:18:19.960 --> 00:18:23.039 talked about this But yeah, that's Wuthering 00:18:23.039 --> 00:18:25.319 Heights. If you're into Jacob Elordi, you will 00:18:25.319 --> 00:18:32.500 definitely enjoy We're in a filler crisis you 00:18:32.500 --> 00:18:35.839 guys we're in a filler we're just in a plastic 00:18:35.839 --> 00:18:40.019 surgery crisis and I think everyone's aware and 00:18:40.319 --> 00:18:43.519 Have a lot of thoughts about this and I my thoughts 00:18:43.519 --> 00:18:45.680 have changed because I feel like I used to be 00:18:45.680 --> 00:18:48.640 like You know women can do whatever they want 00:18:48.640 --> 00:18:50.339 and obviously women are not the only people who 00:18:50.339 --> 00:18:54.420 get plastic surgery, but I think most Women make 00:18:54.420 --> 00:18:57.880 up the majority of people who are getting cosmetic 00:18:57.880 --> 00:19:02.240 procedures and I mean I think the plastic surgery 00:19:02.240 --> 00:19:06.480 industry it's a billion dollar industry that 00:19:06.480 --> 00:19:12.359 profits off of making women feel insecure and 00:19:12.359 --> 00:19:15.799 I think it's bad for a lot of reasons I think 00:19:15.799 --> 00:19:17.640 it's bad because it stems from white supremacy 00:19:17.640 --> 00:19:20.559 I think it's bad because it's just another thing 00:19:20.559 --> 00:19:24.440 that women like feel pressure to do to just be 00:19:24.440 --> 00:19:26.819 perfect and look a certain way and I think also 00:19:26.819 --> 00:19:30.559 trends change and one day it's it's in to be 00:19:30.559 --> 00:19:32.180 skinny and then one day it's in to be thick and 00:19:32.180 --> 00:19:35.480 then one day it's in like it's just a fucking 00:19:35.480 --> 00:19:39.390 train wreck But I have seen my friends were talking 00:19:39.390 --> 00:19:42.609 to me about Jim Carrey and I was like, oh lord 00:19:42.609 --> 00:19:45.710 Jim Carrey if y 'all have not seen him recently 00:19:45.710 --> 00:19:49.869 he has gotten like an insane amount of filler 00:19:49.869 --> 00:19:56.650 and he looks like I don't like he looks just 00:19:56.650 --> 00:19:59.029 filled like that's really the best way to describe 00:19:59.029 --> 00:20:05.140 it and I don't know it just like really Just 00:20:05.140 --> 00:20:07.859 am confused by it. Like it just doesn't make 00:20:07.859 --> 00:20:11.119 sense to me, especially the filler craze Because 00:20:11.119 --> 00:20:15.259 it's just like it does not look good and I don't 00:20:15.259 --> 00:20:19.099 understand why you would want to just Fill your 00:20:19.099 --> 00:20:21.819 face like people who get a lot of filler they 00:20:21.819 --> 00:20:25.079 look Their faces look big and they look puffy 00:20:25.079 --> 00:20:27.559 and they look round and it looks like a pillow 00:20:27.559 --> 00:20:31.099 And it's not attractive and it's really freaky. 00:20:31.099 --> 00:20:33.559 And I think there's just a level of body dysmorphia 00:20:33.559 --> 00:20:36.279 that you have to be experiencing Once you start 00:20:36.279 --> 00:20:38.500 getting plastic surgeries, you know, you I don't 00:20:38.500 --> 00:20:40.400 know if y 'all ever watch like botch i've never 00:20:40.400 --> 00:20:42.740 seen like the whole thing, but I would always 00:20:42.740 --> 00:20:45.519 watch clips on youtube, but like Yeah, you would 00:20:45.519 --> 00:20:47.000 see these people who look insane and they're 00:20:47.000 --> 00:20:50.210 like, yeah, I want I want more, you know it I 00:20:50.210 --> 00:20:52.089 feel like you're just constantly trying to fill 00:20:52.089 --> 00:20:55.250 this void and it just makes me so sad and then 00:20:55.250 --> 00:20:58.269 I also saw I don't follow the Kardashians or 00:20:58.269 --> 00:21:02.609 the Jenners because I'm an adult and I have responsibilities 00:21:02.609 --> 00:21:05.009 and like things in my life that I care about 00:21:05.009 --> 00:21:08.509 um and yeah like when I was a teenager like I 00:21:08.509 --> 00:21:12.970 definitely was not like not obsessed with them 00:21:12.970 --> 00:21:17.420 or anything Near that but I would like follow 00:21:17.420 --> 00:21:19.420 them and I knew what was happening in their lives 00:21:19.420 --> 00:21:23.000 because they're just like Just this weird family 00:21:23.000 --> 00:21:25.240 that like everyone seems to be like clocked into 00:21:25.240 --> 00:21:28.839 But I don't follow them anymore. I was on scrolling 00:21:28.839 --> 00:21:31.619 on Instagram and I just saw someone post like 00:21:31.619 --> 00:21:36.799 a picture of Kim K and It's it's pretty recent 00:21:36.799 --> 00:21:39.680 on her Instagram. She's like laying down and 00:21:39.680 --> 00:21:44.230 it's like two pictures of her face and the the 00:21:44.230 --> 00:21:45.690 Kardashians and the genders are particularly 00:21:45.690 --> 00:21:49.690 interesting to me because They I mean they're 00:21:49.690 --> 00:21:52.650 rich as fuck obviously and so they have access 00:21:52.650 --> 00:21:54.890 to I'm sure just the best plastic surgeons and 00:21:54.890 --> 00:21:58.230 the best technology But I really truly need to 00:21:58.230 --> 00:22:03.430 know What this is like they do the tiniest little 00:22:03.430 --> 00:22:05.589 tweaks and they do it on purpose. I think so 00:22:05.589 --> 00:22:09.670 that you don't clock it, but they do tiny little 00:22:09.670 --> 00:22:13.319 changes to their face like every like three and 00:22:13.319 --> 00:22:15.660 a half weeks to where you look at them and you're 00:22:15.660 --> 00:22:19.220 like hmm like something looks a little different 00:22:19.220 --> 00:22:21.900 but I also if you asked me what it was I couldn't 00:22:21.900 --> 00:22:24.519 tell you and it's like you still look pretty 00:22:24.519 --> 00:22:26.619 but it's like something is different something 00:22:26.619 --> 00:22:29.380 is off and like that's what was going on with 00:22:29.380 --> 00:22:33.759 Kim K where like she just she just looked different 00:22:33.759 --> 00:22:38.130 like her Her eyes or her eye area was more like 00:22:38.130 --> 00:22:41.049 pulled back or something and like something with 00:22:41.049 --> 00:22:44.750 her nose was different like I don't know but 00:22:44.750 --> 00:22:47.390 it's just truly disturbing to me because it's 00:22:47.390 --> 00:22:49.910 like when are you going to be satisfied and especially 00:22:49.910 --> 00:22:52.769 with Kim Kardashian like she's always been pretty 00:22:52.769 --> 00:22:54.630 like you look at pictures of her as a teenager 00:22:54.630 --> 00:22:58.349 like she's been gorgeous and She's pretty now, 00:22:58.349 --> 00:23:00.869 but it's just like girl. How much shit do you 00:23:00.869 --> 00:23:04.859 have to do before you just stop like Don't know 00:23:04.859 --> 00:23:07.799 it just freaks me out and we're just in a time 00:23:07.799 --> 00:23:09.660 right now Oh my god, and don't even get me started 00:23:09.660 --> 00:23:12.740 on the fucking GLP ones and everyone just getting 00:23:12.740 --> 00:23:16.460 sickly thin but like it's just a scary time to 00:23:16.460 --> 00:23:22.220 be living in and It is truly It's an act of radicalism, 00:23:22.559 --> 00:23:25.039 but it's also like just literally doing nothing 00:23:25.039 --> 00:23:29.559 but like I love when Someone is just they just 00:23:29.559 --> 00:23:31.599 look the way that they look and that's alright 00:23:31.599 --> 00:23:39.119 like It's okay, it's oh Okay, and don't get me 00:23:39.119 --> 00:23:41.339 wrong if you would have asked me ten years ago 00:23:41.339 --> 00:23:43.660 as you know a 13 year old or whatever like if 00:23:43.660 --> 00:23:46.319 you would ask me as a teenager Hey Caitlin, like 00:23:46.319 --> 00:23:49.400 You know, you don't have to pay like what do 00:23:49.400 --> 00:23:52.140 you want? What what procedure search do you want? 00:23:52.160 --> 00:23:54.640 I probably could have named at least five things 00:23:54.640 --> 00:23:57.660 like I definitely was like I want to get my forehead 00:23:57.660 --> 00:24:03.450 reduced I Also like was 13 years old and looking 00:24:03.450 --> 00:24:05.390 at the Kardashians and the Jenners and being 00:24:05.390 --> 00:24:07.809 like Why does my body not look like that and 00:24:07.809 --> 00:24:09.789 it's like well your body doesn't look like that 00:24:09.789 --> 00:24:13.069 because you're going through puberty and Also, 00:24:13.069 --> 00:24:16.450 their bodies don't look like that but I probably 00:24:16.450 --> 00:24:18.750 would have told you a BBL like I could have given 00:24:18.750 --> 00:24:22.230 you a bunch of different things and now that 00:24:22.230 --> 00:24:26.630 I'm an adult and I I'm growing into my face and 00:24:26.630 --> 00:24:31.400 I'm growing into my like adult body I think I 00:24:31.400 --> 00:24:33.579 look great and I don't think I would ever get 00:24:33.579 --> 00:24:38.559 anything done. I have had little teeny tiny tiny 00:24:38.559 --> 00:24:41.720 little thoughts where I'm like maybe when I'm 00:24:41.720 --> 00:24:45.019 like 40, you know, because the girlies are always 00:24:45.019 --> 00:24:51.210 talking about preventative Botox and that That 00:24:51.210 --> 00:24:53.769 is the only one that somewhat makes sense to 00:24:53.769 --> 00:24:56.769 me because I've seen some like people on tik 00:24:56.769 --> 00:24:58.490 -tok And you know people could be lying, but 00:24:58.490 --> 00:25:00.549 I've seen some people who are like a little bit 00:25:00.549 --> 00:25:03.890 older Maybe 40s, maybe 50s who look really good 00:25:03.890 --> 00:25:06.029 and people are like, what do you do? And they're 00:25:06.029 --> 00:25:08.710 they're like, you know retinol first. It's like 00:25:08.710 --> 00:25:10.569 skincare. They're like I wear sunscreen I do 00:25:10.569 --> 00:25:13.210 retinol or no one or whatever and then I've also 00:25:13.210 --> 00:25:14.930 gotten you know, a little bit of preventative 00:25:14.930 --> 00:25:21.569 Botox and I'm like hmm like okay like I can I 00:25:21.569 --> 00:25:25.210 can see that you know, but I don't know because 00:25:25.210 --> 00:25:26.990 that's the only thing is like I honestly love 00:25:26.990 --> 00:25:29.269 the way that I look I just want to preserve it 00:25:29.269 --> 00:25:30.930 like I just want to look like this for the rest 00:25:30.930 --> 00:25:34.329 of my life, you know, so if that's a Botox can 00:25:34.329 --> 00:25:37.009 do then like that makes more sense to me, but 00:25:37.009 --> 00:25:39.710 it's also like do it when you're I mean, I don't 00:25:39.710 --> 00:25:41.130 know they say it's preventative, but it's like 00:25:41.130 --> 00:25:44.549 you literally see girls like 20 that are like 00:25:44.549 --> 00:25:47.450 I'm getting preventative Botox. It's like bitch 00:25:47.450 --> 00:25:53.970 grow like You're You're just like I don't know 00:25:53.970 --> 00:25:57.970 it's just it's too much and I'm just really sick 00:25:57.970 --> 00:26:01.170 of seeing celebrities pop out with new faces 00:26:01.170 --> 00:26:05.390 like every week, it's very creepy and It just 00:26:05.390 --> 00:26:07.130 it also just doesn't look good It's like it's 00:26:07.130 --> 00:26:10.509 one thing if you look good and I think the best 00:26:10.509 --> 00:26:13.470 plastic surgery is when you don't you can't tell 00:26:13.470 --> 00:26:15.990 that someone got it done, you know, like If you 00:26:15.990 --> 00:26:17.170 see someone and you're just like they're pretty 00:26:17.170 --> 00:26:18.849 or they have they have a nice body or whatever 00:26:18.940 --> 00:26:21.220 That's plastic surgery done well, but like I 00:26:21.220 --> 00:26:22.940 feel like if you can look at someone and you're 00:26:22.940 --> 00:26:26.819 like you got a lot of shit done That's disturbing 00:26:26.819 --> 00:26:30.480 to me and I don't know Maybe that's problematic 00:26:30.480 --> 00:26:33.519 to say maybe it's not that's just kind of my 00:26:33.519 --> 00:26:37.660 stance. I'm also a feminist and I think It's 00:26:37.660 --> 00:26:41.619 not Beneficial for women in the grand scheme 00:26:41.619 --> 00:26:45.240 of things and you can say all day that oh i'm 00:26:45.240 --> 00:26:47.140 doing this for me and i just want this and it's 00:26:47.140 --> 00:26:48.819 like okay well why do you want this especially 00:26:48.819 --> 00:26:51.759 when it comes to like nose jobs like why do you 00:26:51.759 --> 00:26:53.759 want a nose job why do you want to get rid of 00:26:53.759 --> 00:26:56.779 your ethnic nose like who told you that who why 00:26:56.779 --> 00:26:59.220 do you not like your nose you know like it doesn't 00:26:59.220 --> 00:27:00.960 you didn't just fall out of a fucking coconut 00:27:00.960 --> 00:27:04.900 tree these things do not exist in a vacuum everything 00:27:04.900 --> 00:27:06.859 stems from white supremacy everything stems from 00:27:06.859 --> 00:27:11.660 patriarchy and yeah clock it y 'all need to wake 00:27:11.660 --> 00:27:21.380 up um moving on Tyra Banks is evil and I We have 00:27:21.380 --> 00:27:24.420 just got to talk about it because I Don't know 00:27:24.420 --> 00:27:32.900 if y 'all saw but Tyra Banks J. Manuel Mrs. J 00:27:32.900 --> 00:27:37.460 Nigel the people who were on America's Next Style 00:27:37.460 --> 00:27:41.750 Model They released a documentary Did I watch 00:27:41.750 --> 00:27:44.829 it? No, I did not. Am I going to talk about it? 00:27:44.829 --> 00:27:50.849 Yes, I absolutely am. Because I haven't seen 00:27:50.849 --> 00:27:52.890 any of the newer seasons of America's Next Top 00:27:52.890 --> 00:27:55.490 Model, but the older seasons in high school or 00:27:55.490 --> 00:27:57.069 college, I don't even know when I was tapping 00:27:57.069 --> 00:28:02.349 in, but like I was watching it. And I think I 00:28:02.349 --> 00:28:05.450 was definitely either like a late teen or like 00:28:05.450 --> 00:28:07.789 an adult when I started getting into America's 00:28:07.789 --> 00:28:10.700 Next Top Model. So seeing it from like an adult 00:28:10.700 --> 00:28:14.779 lens I think was kind of nice and also the lens 00:28:14.779 --> 00:28:18.319 of like watching it you know probably in like 00:28:18.319 --> 00:28:21.819 2020 -2021 like way after these seasons have 00:28:21.819 --> 00:28:25.319 aired and yeah I mean if you never saw the show 00:28:25.319 --> 00:28:29.940 it was basically Tyra Banks you know supermodel 00:28:29.940 --> 00:28:33.259 trying to find America's next style model and 00:28:33.259 --> 00:28:35.819 gathering girls from all over putting them in 00:28:35.819 --> 00:28:39.960 a house and basically making them embody the 00:28:39.960 --> 00:28:41.700 lives of models, you know, getting up early, 00:28:41.880 --> 00:28:45.279 going to go -sees, doing photo shoots, doing 00:28:45.279 --> 00:28:47.099 all these different things, different challenges. 00:28:47.940 --> 00:28:51.779 And the show has gotten a lot of pushback and 00:28:51.779 --> 00:28:56.700 a lot of, especially recently, a lot of like... 00:28:56.700 --> 00:28:59.500 Is fleck the word? Is that a word? I don't, I 00:28:59.500 --> 00:29:01.980 hear people, I don't know. People criticize the 00:29:01.980 --> 00:29:07.319 show because... Tyra Banks is evil and She is 00:29:07.319 --> 00:29:10.859 an emotional terrorist and I stand by this like 00:29:10.859 --> 00:29:14.880 I fully fully fully stand by this The show was 00:29:14.880 --> 00:29:17.319 terrible in so many ways and obviously if you 00:29:17.319 --> 00:29:19.660 know anything about the fashion industry today 00:29:19.660 --> 00:29:23.299 But especially like in the 90s and the 2000s 00:29:23.299 --> 00:29:26.869 being a model has been for the majority like 00:29:26.869 --> 00:29:29.210 since its conception being a model has been about 00:29:29.210 --> 00:29:32.650 being extremely thin you see these girls who 00:29:32.650 --> 00:29:38.029 are five nine five ten and up who are tiny you 00:29:38.029 --> 00:29:42.750 know like just very very skinny and tyra would 00:29:42.750 --> 00:29:49.609 always she would always like address that and 00:29:49.609 --> 00:29:51.650 be like like she would always address things 00:29:51.650 --> 00:29:55.549 about the fashion industry be like, you know, 00:29:55.549 --> 00:29:57.230 this is how it is and this is what it is and 00:29:57.230 --> 00:30:00.470 this is what it is, but it's like she didn't 00:30:00.470 --> 00:30:03.549 she wasn't really trying to challenge that in 00:30:03.549 --> 00:30:07.470 any way, especially as A supermodel who like 00:30:07.470 --> 00:30:10.470 now has the power to like you're facilitating 00:30:10.470 --> 00:30:16.730 your own World with this show and it's like I 00:30:16.730 --> 00:30:18.849 understand the concept of trying to prepare these 00:30:18.849 --> 00:30:20.809 girls for the industry that they want to step 00:30:20.809 --> 00:30:22.650 into and letting them know like hey, this is 00:30:22.650 --> 00:30:27.519 how it is, but Feel like she just kind of She 00:30:27.519 --> 00:30:30.339 just perpetuated the same things that were perpetuated 00:30:30.339 --> 00:30:33.940 against her and The show is terrible one for 00:30:33.940 --> 00:30:38.819 for just like the whole thinness thing like Tyra 00:30:38.819 --> 00:30:43.359 would have girls on there who were you know? 00:30:43.799 --> 00:30:49.400 women who had like normal average body types 00:30:49.400 --> 00:30:53.650 and She would be like yeah so you would definitely 00:30:53.650 --> 00:30:55.809 be like a plus size model you know like she would 00:30:55.809 --> 00:30:57.710 tell these girls like you are a plus size model 00:30:57.710 --> 00:31:00.069 and there's nothing wrong with being a plus size 00:31:00.069 --> 00:31:02.509 model the problem is that these girls were not 00:31:02.509 --> 00:31:05.869 plus size in any way they were normal weights 00:31:05.869 --> 00:31:10.450 at their large heights but in the fashion industry 00:31:10.450 --> 00:31:13.109 that is seen as like you're big you're plus size 00:31:13.109 --> 00:31:16.849 you're fat whatever and so that was something 00:31:16.849 --> 00:31:21.680 that she would do she also Was known for doing 00:31:21.680 --> 00:31:24.460 photo shoots where she would make the girls switch 00:31:24.460 --> 00:31:26.819 races. It's like oh you're white Okay, you're 00:31:26.819 --> 00:31:28.720 gonna be playing you're gonna be a black person. 00:31:28.720 --> 00:31:30.940 You're gonna be Asian like she would do stuff 00:31:30.940 --> 00:31:34.539 like that and You know the earlier seasons were 00:31:34.539 --> 00:31:38.500 I think like 2003 something like that like very 00:31:38.500 --> 00:31:46.390 early, you know 20 plus years ago and Okay, let 00:31:46.390 --> 00:31:48.369 me not let me let me just get through these points. 00:31:48.369 --> 00:31:50.230 So yeah, she would do that She would like to 00:31:50.230 --> 00:31:55.410 do like a race switch or whatever She also I 00:31:55.410 --> 00:31:57.890 think another way that she would just fucking 00:31:57.890 --> 00:32:01.910 psychologically torture these women is that On 00:32:01.910 --> 00:32:04.069 America's Next Top Model they would do a makeover 00:32:04.069 --> 00:32:06.289 She would pick the girls that she wanted for 00:32:06.289 --> 00:32:09.369 the season and then shortly after that she would 00:32:09.519 --> 00:32:12.859 give them an extreme change, a makeover, a haircut, 00:32:12.980 --> 00:32:16.500 whatever, to make them look more model -like, 00:32:16.559 --> 00:32:18.720 you know, to make them go from, like, basic to, 00:32:18.720 --> 00:32:22.000 like, high fashion model. A lot of times, that 00:32:22.000 --> 00:32:27.460 meant cutting their hair. And she would give 00:32:27.460 --> 00:32:30.799 girls, like, really short haircuts, like, shave 00:32:30.799 --> 00:32:33.559 heads, or maybe, I don't know, she definitely 00:32:33.559 --> 00:32:35.619 probably shaved a couple heads, but, you know, 00:32:35.619 --> 00:32:38.130 she would take a girl... And it was like she 00:32:38.130 --> 00:32:40.069 was doing on purpose like she I think there was 00:32:40.069 --> 00:32:41.970 one season where there was a girl who had really 00:32:41.970 --> 00:32:45.069 long hair and she was really attached to it and 00:32:45.069 --> 00:32:48.769 Tyra was like she make she gave her like a pixie 00:32:48.769 --> 00:32:56.359 cut and It's like Okay, like sure that's fine. 00:32:56.680 --> 00:32:59.200 But then sometimes she would do these extreme 00:32:59.200 --> 00:33:01.920 makeovers and then she would send the girls home 00:33:01.920 --> 00:33:04.839 Packing like the next week. So it's like oh you 00:33:04.839 --> 00:33:07.039 like your long hair. Oh, you're attached to your 00:33:07.039 --> 00:33:09.099 long hair Okay, well, we're gonna cut it all 00:33:09.099 --> 00:33:11.259 off and we're sending you home back to Nebraska. 00:33:11.500 --> 00:33:16.720 Bye. Bye like that was the show and The makeovers 00:33:16.720 --> 00:33:18.720 would get more extreme than that. Like there 00:33:18.720 --> 00:33:23.250 was one season where And it's so fucked up. There 00:33:23.250 --> 00:33:25.089 was one season, I don't remember, it was maybe 00:33:25.089 --> 00:33:26.930 season three or two, it was an early season, 00:33:27.309 --> 00:33:29.009 and there was this girl, I believe her name is 00:33:29.009 --> 00:33:33.049 Danielle, and she had a gap in her tooth, in 00:33:33.049 --> 00:33:36.890 her front teeth, and Tyra wanted to remove the 00:33:36.890 --> 00:33:41.690 gap. She wanted to remove the gap, and this girl 00:33:41.690 --> 00:33:45.130 was like, no, I don't want to, like this is me, 00:33:45.170 --> 00:33:49.039 this is who I am, like I... You know, she probably 00:33:49.039 --> 00:33:50.779 at some point was insecure about it, but at that 00:33:50.779 --> 00:33:52.500 point she was like, I love this about me. Like 00:33:52.500 --> 00:33:53.900 I don't want to change it. And Tyra was like, 00:33:53.920 --> 00:33:55.259 you know, basically like, I mean, okay, do you 00:33:55.259 --> 00:33:56.420 want to be on the show? Do you not want to be 00:33:56.420 --> 00:34:00.299 on the show? She filled in this girl's gap. And 00:34:00.299 --> 00:34:03.619 then here's the gag. Later down the line, like 00:34:03.619 --> 00:34:09.139 in later seasons, she gave a girl a gap. She 00:34:09.139 --> 00:34:11.559 gave a girl a gap. So it's like you're taking 00:34:11.559 --> 00:34:13.599 away this girl's gap. And then the next season 00:34:13.599 --> 00:34:15.679 you're giving like, it's just like, she's just 00:34:15.739 --> 00:34:18.239 She's just bored. She's just doing shit to do 00:34:18.239 --> 00:34:22.380 shit and I don't think that is cool And there 00:34:22.380 --> 00:34:24.639 was also I think maybe in that same season or 00:34:24.639 --> 00:34:28.260 another season like around three where This other 00:34:28.260 --> 00:34:32.039 girl went underwent some like very intense dental 00:34:32.039 --> 00:34:35.059 work and I think is still struggling with it 00:34:35.059 --> 00:34:42.820 like to this day So Yes, there's that and then 00:34:42.820 --> 00:34:48.719 I think also just the greater theme. Tyra is 00:34:48.719 --> 00:34:52.780 just like... Yes, I understand that this is how 00:34:52.780 --> 00:34:55.900 the fashion industry allegedly is, but if y 'all 00:34:55.900 --> 00:34:58.280 know who Janis Dickinson is, she was, I guess, 00:34:58.360 --> 00:35:01.159 one of the first or the first supermodel ever, 00:35:01.599 --> 00:35:04.739 and she was on the show, and also, by the way, 00:35:05.260 --> 00:35:09.599 botched, got so much plastic surgery, just a 00:35:09.599 --> 00:35:12.650 mess. but she was one of the judges on the show 00:35:12.650 --> 00:35:15.250 and she would drag these girls for filth and 00:35:15.250 --> 00:35:17.469 just like talk about their appearance and just 00:35:17.469 --> 00:35:20.489 say the most like horrible things to them and 00:35:20.489 --> 00:35:23.949 it was just a really terrible show there was 00:35:23.949 --> 00:35:27.429 also an incident where they were on a trip to 00:35:27.429 --> 00:35:32.630 Italy or somewhere doing some shit and and this 00:35:32.630 --> 00:35:34.309 is talked about in the documentary but one of 00:35:34.309 --> 00:35:36.650 the models she said she got really drunk she 00:35:36.650 --> 00:35:39.250 had like two bottles of wine and you know these 00:35:39.250 --> 00:35:41.920 girls These girls way less than me. So that is 00:35:41.920 --> 00:35:45.280 insane. Like they're she was blacked out and 00:35:45.280 --> 00:35:49.000 She basically said that She there was this guy 00:35:49.000 --> 00:35:51.099 maybe a male model they went in the bathroom 00:35:51.099 --> 00:35:55.300 They were engaging in some some things, but she 00:35:55.300 --> 00:35:58.059 doesn't remember it So, you know, she basically 00:35:58.059 --> 00:36:00.840 got assaulted on television and they brought 00:36:00.840 --> 00:36:03.699 that up to tyra on this documentary and tyra 00:36:03.699 --> 00:36:08.619 was like Yeah, I remember that but You know, 00:36:08.619 --> 00:36:11.380 that's more like I'm not that's more like production 00:36:11.380 --> 00:36:14.300 and that's not really like my you know side of 00:36:14.300 --> 00:36:17.320 things Meanwhile, it literally is her and it 00:36:17.320 --> 00:36:19.679 says in the fucking bottom right corner Tyra 00:36:19.679 --> 00:36:22.980 Banks executive producer like mama You are a 00:36:22.980 --> 00:36:24.579 part of production. Also, even if you're not 00:36:24.579 --> 00:36:27.019 a part of production, this is your show So you 00:36:27.019 --> 00:36:29.420 do have a responsibility to be overseeing these 00:36:29.420 --> 00:36:31.679 things It doesn't you don't need to be knowing 00:36:31.679 --> 00:36:35.119 about the the ins and outs of production, but 00:36:35.119 --> 00:36:41.010 you should like maybe like step in and you know 00:36:41.010 --> 00:36:45.710 not allow this like inebriated girl to do something 00:36:45.710 --> 00:36:49.550 with this man and then also it was really fucked 00:36:49.550 --> 00:36:51.510 up like on the show after this happened so this 00:36:51.510 --> 00:36:55.190 girl had a boyfriend at home and Tyra I guess 00:36:55.190 --> 00:36:59.110 the next day went on this monologue about cheating 00:36:59.110 --> 00:37:02.429 and then this girl that had had this experience 00:37:02.429 --> 00:37:05.349 with this man like was not reacting well and 00:37:05.349 --> 00:37:08.190 tyra was basically like what like did you cheat 00:37:08.190 --> 00:37:12.130 and she made this girl call home and tell her 00:37:12.130 --> 00:37:19.070 boyfriend that she cheated on him so just terrible 00:37:19.070 --> 00:37:22.010 and from the clips that i've seen tyra's whole 00:37:22.010 --> 00:37:24.650 energy is kind of like it was a different time 00:37:24.650 --> 00:37:27.070 then and it was just different and it was diff 00:37:27.070 --> 00:37:29.530 and it was this and it was that it doesn't really 00:37:29.530 --> 00:37:32.789 matter yes it was a different time but you still 00:37:32.789 --> 00:37:36.449 have to take accountability for it now and I 00:37:36.449 --> 00:37:38.150 feel like she was just taking no accountability 00:37:38.150 --> 00:37:41.690 she's just evil she gives me narcissistic vibes 00:37:41.690 --> 00:37:46.250 um and she also she likes to seem like the victim 00:37:46.250 --> 00:37:48.309 and like the underdog and she's constantly talking 00:37:48.309 --> 00:37:50.909 about like I was the awkward girl and I didn't 00:37:50.909 --> 00:37:53.789 have any friends and Naomi Campbell she bullied 00:37:53.789 --> 00:37:55.869 me and she did this and it's like you're a grown 00:37:55.869 --> 00:37:58.449 ass woman you're like 50 years old like get the 00:37:58.449 --> 00:38:02.000 fuck over it um and stop being insane also she 00:38:02.000 --> 00:38:04.519 has like her hot ice cream like i don't know 00:38:04.519 --> 00:38:07.960 she she has to be going through something i don't 00:38:07.960 --> 00:38:12.820 trust her um she's a green -eyed demon and yeah 00:38:12.820 --> 00:38:14.719 i probably won't be watching the documentary 00:38:14.719 --> 00:38:18.719 like because i just don't really i mean i'm interested 00:38:18.719 --> 00:38:21.380 why i also just don't want to watch like three 00:38:21.380 --> 00:38:25.460 hours of her just like passing the baton and 00:38:25.460 --> 00:38:27.860 like no one taking accountability for anything 00:38:28.510 --> 00:38:30.530 But yeah, I don't know. I wanted to talk about 00:38:30.530 --> 00:38:35.469 that because she's just a mess. She's a mess 00:38:35.469 --> 00:38:40.250 to me and I don't like her. And I feel like I 00:38:40.250 --> 00:38:42.570 also like that was my little pop culture segment. 00:38:42.789 --> 00:38:47.789 Okay, pop culture segment over. I deleted TikTok 00:38:47.789 --> 00:38:56.670 off of my phone like maybe a month ago. Don't 00:38:56.670 --> 00:38:59.570 I honestly don't remember it's it's been a minute 00:38:59.570 --> 00:39:03.090 though Because I got fed up y 'all and this is 00:39:03.090 --> 00:39:05.289 this is going because like I said in the beginning 00:39:05.289 --> 00:39:09.750 of this episode I was listening to my most recent 00:39:09.750 --> 00:39:14.449 episode back the other day and it was about my 00:39:14.449 --> 00:39:17.010 dopamine addiction and how I dopamine max and 00:39:17.010 --> 00:39:20.010 how I do these things and I scroll on tik -tok 00:39:20.010 --> 00:39:23.400 and I feel like shit and whatever and Can say 00:39:23.400 --> 00:39:25.820 with confidence like I think being off of tik 00:39:25.820 --> 00:39:31.539 -tok has really helped my brain like truly And 00:39:31.539 --> 00:39:34.980 it's like am I a bit out of the loop like yes, 00:39:35.159 --> 00:39:36.739 like I don't really know what people are talking 00:39:36.739 --> 00:39:40.880 about right now I don't there's nothing. I'm 00:39:40.880 --> 00:39:43.760 on where I feel like I'm really getting like 00:39:43.760 --> 00:39:49.079 You know just like what what what the happenings 00:39:49.079 --> 00:39:53.070 are but I feel like I can say I've I have never 00:39:53.070 --> 00:39:57.489 felt more free and I do think I want to fully 00:39:57.489 --> 00:40:00.550 just delete my account but I have so many saved 00:40:00.550 --> 00:40:02.570 videos so I do kind of just want to like skim 00:40:02.570 --> 00:40:05.230 through and see if there's anything that I must 00:40:05.230 --> 00:40:08.210 save or like you know whatever because that's 00:40:08.210 --> 00:40:10.550 the thing about TikTok it it can be very informative 00:40:10.550 --> 00:40:14.070 for just like random shit cooking hair makeup 00:40:14.070 --> 00:40:16.429 beauty tutorials like anything you know if you 00:40:16.429 --> 00:40:20.510 want I do some, I do use TikTok as a search engine 00:40:20.510 --> 00:40:25.070 or I used to like, cause it is just, there's 00:40:25.070 --> 00:40:29.429 a lot of information on there, but I'm like over 00:40:29.429 --> 00:40:33.070 the doom scrolling and I literally, I downloaded 00:40:33.070 --> 00:40:37.170 it last night just because I wanted to see what 00:40:37.170 --> 00:40:39.789 people were saying about Wuthering Heights. So 00:40:39.789 --> 00:40:42.989 I downloaded it and I was like, let's just see 00:40:42.989 --> 00:40:47.300 what the fuck's going on. And. Scrolling was 00:40:47.300 --> 00:40:49.360 obviously weird because I haven't been on it 00:40:49.360 --> 00:40:51.739 in so long. So like my for you page was like 00:40:51.739 --> 00:40:54.539 blank Like it wasn't anything that I would be 00:40:54.539 --> 00:40:56.860 interested in and then as I scrolled a little 00:40:56.860 --> 00:40:59.420 bit more I guess it started, you know the algorithm 00:40:59.420 --> 00:41:02.420 with whatever so freaky, but I was on it for 00:41:02.420 --> 00:41:06.239 maybe 20 minutes maybe and I was just like yeah, 00:41:06.239 --> 00:41:11.440 I'm not missing anything really and It's just 00:41:11.440 --> 00:41:15.360 so bad for the psyche to be scrolling and just 00:41:15.360 --> 00:41:18.980 be allowing your algorithm to decide what you're 00:41:18.980 --> 00:41:22.179 gonna see and especially if you're like at any 00:41:22.179 --> 00:41:24.159 point but like before you go to bed right when 00:41:24.159 --> 00:41:28.059 you wake up like seeing like terrible things 00:41:28.059 --> 00:41:31.099 happening in the world and then hearing like 00:41:31.099 --> 00:41:34.539 discourse about some stupid shit and seeing so 00:41:34.539 --> 00:41:38.019 many people's like opinions like it really is 00:41:38.019 --> 00:41:41.619 not necessary and I have felt so good like since 00:41:41.619 --> 00:41:45.260 I've been off of it just like Literally having 00:41:45.260 --> 00:41:48.699 just having my own thoughts and not like Seeing 00:41:48.699 --> 00:41:51.219 so like hearing so many other people's like takes 00:41:51.219 --> 00:41:52.980 on everything like all the fucking time. It's 00:41:52.980 --> 00:41:57.699 annoying So that's been good I also have been 00:41:57.699 --> 00:42:01.400 on Twitter in a minute. I feel like I'm more 00:42:01.400 --> 00:42:03.800 Open to having Twitter cuz Twitter I feel like 00:42:03.800 --> 00:42:05.880 it's very funny, but then it's also the same 00:42:05.880 --> 00:42:09.099 thing like you can just see stupid discourse 00:42:09.099 --> 00:42:13.769 bullshit and whatever but Yeah Relationships 00:42:13.769 --> 00:42:24.289 are being You know relationships are being I 00:42:24.289 --> 00:42:27.190 Don't sorry me when my brain is shutting down. 00:42:27.230 --> 00:42:31.469 I'm tired you guys I'm Have been up since 430 00:42:31.469 --> 00:42:38.110 but um Yeah, it's been good. I'm I'm happy Well, 00:42:38.230 --> 00:42:40.309 I'm happy now. I'm happy in this present moment. 00:42:40.809 --> 00:42:48.530 Um I've been just trying to tap in to other hobbies 00:42:48.530 --> 00:42:51.469 and one of my New Year's resolutions actually 00:42:51.469 --> 00:42:56.809 was and is to read two books a month and I have 00:42:56.809 --> 00:42:59.210 I was successful for the month of January and 00:42:59.210 --> 00:43:02.030 then for February I finished one book the second 00:43:02.030 --> 00:43:04.349 book that I started I have not finished yet but 00:43:04.349 --> 00:43:08.070 I definitely could finish in like very soon so 00:43:08.070 --> 00:43:10.639 whatever I'm just i'm just gonna pretend like 00:43:10.639 --> 00:43:15.340 i did um because that's okay it's fine but that's 00:43:15.340 --> 00:43:20.079 been good um reading and trying to like fall 00:43:20.079 --> 00:43:24.579 in love with reading again and yeah just having 00:43:24.579 --> 00:43:27.019 like a form of entertainment where there's no 00:43:27.019 --> 00:43:33.460 ads and i can read a page read a sentence and 00:43:33.460 --> 00:43:36.079 i can just like think about it and simmer on 00:43:36.079 --> 00:43:38.409 it and it's just like I feel like slowing my 00:43:38.409 --> 00:43:44.849 brain down and allowing some space. So yeah, 00:43:44.869 --> 00:43:46.909 I've been doing that, I've been reading, I've 00:43:46.909 --> 00:43:49.769 been doing my Spanish, which I talked about, 00:43:49.969 --> 00:43:53.690 because my resolution last year was I want to 00:43:53.690 --> 00:43:56.210 be fluent in Spanish. That did not happen, okay? 00:43:56.230 --> 00:44:00.269 And that's okay. But this year, I really want 00:44:00.269 --> 00:44:02.909 to be, and especially I'm going to Columbia in... 00:44:02.969 --> 00:44:06.989 less than a month. So I want to be able to talk 00:44:06.989 --> 00:44:10.590 to people in some capacity, which I think I can. 00:44:12.010 --> 00:44:14.869 But that's been exciting because I do really 00:44:14.869 --> 00:44:17.750 want to know multiple languages. I think that's 00:44:17.750 --> 00:44:21.570 so cool. And I'm at a point in my life where 00:44:21.570 --> 00:44:26.110 I genuinely, thoroughly need connection and want 00:44:26.110 --> 00:44:27.869 connection and want to connect with people. And 00:44:27.869 --> 00:44:31.619 I think like learning languages is such an Such 00:44:31.619 --> 00:44:33.960 a cool way to do that and like yeah, just be 00:44:33.960 --> 00:44:36.480 able to speak to people of different cultures. 00:44:36.519 --> 00:44:39.920 Like I think that's awesome. So I've been doing 00:44:39.920 --> 00:44:42.699 that it's hard. I I haven't been consistent like 00:44:42.699 --> 00:44:45.440 every day, but most days I've been really trying 00:44:45.440 --> 00:44:50.119 to practice So that's been good and I'm just 00:44:50.119 --> 00:44:56.500 excited to tap back into the pod I missed Talking 00:44:56.500 --> 00:45:05.000 to myself for an hour uninterrupted and Yeah 00:45:05.000 --> 00:45:09.199 2026 is the year of creativity in the year of 00:45:09.199 --> 00:45:12.739 stepping into what brings me joy because I would 00:45:12.739 --> 00:45:15.400 get so excited to record and to just like do 00:45:15.400 --> 00:45:19.039 this and I really need to hold on to that because 00:45:19.039 --> 00:45:21.199 it's very rare that I'm excited about things 00:45:21.199 --> 00:45:25.769 but I think this is a good point to wrap up. 00:45:26.210 --> 00:45:31.630 My eyes are genuinely closing and I am exhausted, 00:45:32.289 --> 00:45:35.989 but I hope you guys enjoyed this episode. I hope 00:45:35.989 --> 00:45:40.150 it was funny or entertaining in any way. And 00:45:40.150 --> 00:45:46.230 we'll hopefully meet again in a week. TTYLXOX.